#if you saw my last post this is what I was orignially gonna post

[winter-spark]

So pining, "who fell first, who fell harder", and CitoIta.

CitoIta is a special case of both sorta pining.

See, because Itaru's a total piner but, also, he's Itaru and would abort anytime he felt he was being too obvious and also sorta not aim for a relationship(explained a bit better later on). Meanwhile, Citron's like, 'he obviously likes me, why has he not confessed? Unless he doesn't like me... but he's probably just shy. Unless...'

So... like pining Itaru, then pining Citron.

But pining Citron just sorta developed from Itaru's mixed signals and non-confessing bcuz it's confusing. But also bcuz, in my head, Citron sorta sees it as he's the one who has to be confessed to and he can't fathom being the one to confess. (like legit confess, not the dropping “hints” that he's interested, or saying he is but not expecting a real response).

In my head, this is because he (unknowingly) has a fear of rejection, its a deep, deep down fear, but also totally besides the point, a discussion for later if you will.

For the fell first, fell harder aspect... well Jury's still out. I know in some cases, I think they can be the same but I think for CitoIta it really is flip-flopped. Like, if Itaru fell first, Citron fell harder but if Citron fell first, Itaru fell harder. I think I'm leaning towards the former though because this is about which is the most fun (to me) and while it is really fun to see Citron fall first, I think Itaru cultivating Citron's pining and that in turn somehow adding to the "falling harder" aspect, would be freaking hilarious. Because like like it goes back to my 'who is the most content just not acting on their feelings' and I think Itaru has that down pat. He sorta doesn't expect much in a sense, you know? But Citron, I think it's almost a battle with his pride. Like he's so used to being desired (and if I add an extra layer proving himself) that this has the potential to drive him mad, I think.

I mean I'm sure Itaru does, like, initially want to instigate a relationship to some extent (hence the pining first), but he quells it "early" on. While I think Citron is the opposite, like like, first he's like 'yea this is fine', but then as time goes on he's like pining so hard. Lol, they fall at the same time and just go on alternate journeys about their pining. Who fell harder just depends on how long they've liked each other and how long it's taken for there to be a confession, lol.