#if you have ocd pls add to this if i missed something

[lotties-ashwagandha]

as someone with OCD if i see another one of those “im so OCD i clean my room once a week! here’s my best friend organizing my colored pencils being so quirky OCD!” or generalizing OCD as neat freak cleanliness im going to flip my shit and here’s why (under the cut)

yes OCD can manifest in obsessive compulsive cleaning behavior but OCD DOES NOT MEAN NEAT FREAK. OCD manifests in so many different ways, and everyone’s experience is different especially if you have co-occurring conditions like depression or anxiety or if you’re autistic or have ADHD. people think OCD is just cleaning and being neat and clean but they don’t understand the thought processes behind OCD so let me explain it to you. OCD is a condition where someone experiences unwanted obsessive thoughts, and in an effort to ease these thoughts engages in a compulsion. obsessive thoughts are often based in fear and trauma, and the compulsions try to ease the fear, but it’s often short term and doesn’t work for more than a few seconds.

here’s an example. green equals obsessive thought, red equals compulsion.

im scared that something will happen to my pet when im not near her/in the same room as her, so i’ll check on her twice every hour and will pet her five times each time i check on her

(this is actually close to one of my own compulsions btw)

as you can see this is an irrational response to a fear that is irrational if your pet is perfectly healthy and safe. many times OCD fears and compulsions are extremely irrational. it can even be something like “if i don’t tap my door handle three times after leaving this room my family will die in a fire”. it’s not fun, it’s scary, and we’re (usually) aware of how irrational our fears are but the fear is still very real and the compulsions are irresistible. symptoms of OCD also include checking. for me one of my obsessions and compulsions in relation to checking is i’ll get the thought of “what if i accidentally said something offensive/cussed/said something bad abt my teacher in my college paper” and even though i know I didn’t do any of that i’ll have to check my paper 3 times or more just to make sure I didn’t. another example of this is checking to make sure you turned the stove off like 5 times before you leave the house.

OCD can also lead to rumination and thought tunnels. this is prominent in all forms of OCD but is extremely prominent in relationship or friendship OCD. an example of rumination in OCD would be:

“what if my response to that text message sounded stupid?”

“if i sounded stupid what if they think im stupid”

“if they think im stupid they’ll leave me”

“if they leave me I won’t have anyone to talk to”

and so it goes on and on and on . and not just for a second or two, it can last for hours.

BUT i’d like to circle back and say that im not invalidating people with OCD in relation to cleaning. it DOES exist and it IS valid, and cleaning and organization in general can be a big big comfort and regulator for people with OCD. im talking to the people who think it’s quirky or fun or on purpose to have cleaning related OCD. compulsions aren’t cute, they aren’t quirky, they’re scary, and OCD is a disorder. it’s not fun. I grew up with a mother with very extreme OCD in relation to cleaning/sanitization and it has taken a huge toll on both of us. I watch her get upset and panicked and burned out because of her organization and sanitation OCD. and i watch myself get into the same cycles because of my OCD, even if our obsessions and compulsions are completely different. it’s not something enjoyable.

if you’d like to read more about OCD , or the related condition that is OCPD, here are some sources to do that. PLEASE educate yourselves on disorders before posting about them, especially tiktoks that are meant to be comedic. to that one girl on tiktok: it’s not funny that you moved all your OCD friend’s shit around her room and left her deodorant and toothpaste open in the bathroom! get a life!

anyway. some sources:

Cleveland Clinic’s Explanation of OCD

Friendship and Relationship OCD Explained by Mashable

Co-Occurrence OCD and Autism

[star-girl69]

DUDEEEEEE. She calls me baby youuuuu ate that harrrrrrrd. Like I had to go back in for seconds and thirds and fourths fr fr. Cause are we even surprised or are we just grateful that you give us mortals a second of your time and talent????

Babe you are so incredibly talented. The way you write is sooooooo amazing its like you just know how to manipulate your words into something that will and has had me in tears in like 2 seconds. Don't even get me started on how you write your characters. Like I don't know how I can fully and most genuinely express the astonishment you leave me in all the time.

I believe that you are one of a kind and a treasure to be cherished. I know that doubting is inevitable but I hope that you know that I'm always gonna be in the obsessed with addie corner no matter what. Like I meant it when I said that there won't be a time when you have no fans. Ever. You will forever be my favourite gorgeous goddess❤️❤️❤️.

-❤️

(I'm sorry I've been so absent school has been actually eating me alive)

(I think about you everyday though and it makes life just that much better)

(I hope you don't think I'm exaggerating😭😭😭😭All of this that I've been feeling without releasing had to be sent in a long ask my bad)

(I missed your little bonuses though, I hope you're doing okay)

(I'm always here for anything you may need, even if its literally just to tell you how amazing you are)

(love you ❤️)

#jealousclarissesupremacy

I WAS WONDERING WHERE YOU WERE I WAS SO WORRIED I SMILED SO HARD WHEN I GOT THIS ASK 🤭🤭

I CANT THAT WHOLE SECOND PARAGRAPH LIKE I CANT LIKE WOWWWW YOU THINK THAT???? ABOUT MEEE??!!!!??!?!?!?!!

TREASURE IS INSANE BTW 🤭 anyways omg. i’m so grateful wtf like i’m sorry i cant come up w something more poetic like you i just love these asks so much i get so happy and idk how to express that other than ilysm and i’m just so happy and so so grateful

also gorgeous goddess… i giggled 🤭🤭🤭

(ITS OKAYYYYY IM GLAD YOUR BACK SCHOOL HAS BEEN COOKING ME TOO 💔💔)

(EVERYDAY??!?!?!?! i think about you everyday too tho….. thinking about that one day you were so active and i got like 5 asks from you… BEST DAY OF MY LIFEEE) (also pls don’t take this as me pressuring you TRUST i am grateful for whatever you give me 🙏🙏)

(STOP. I. LOVE. LONG. ASKS. DONT ANNOY ME BY DOUBTING MY LOVE FOR YOU!!!!!!!)

(idk i’m okay i’ve just been really feeling pressured to write stuff bc the fandom is dying down (guys pls come back) and i am now firmly addicted to the praise and number of notifs i get…. lol. the bonuses have always been weird bc sometimes they come so easily to me like the first one i did was so it goes and i didn’t even have to think about it and then someone said they liked it so i went back and did it to my other fics and started doing it and idk yeah basically what i’m saying is sometimes they’re so easy and other times i have to force myself to come up w something which sucks but people like them so i’m happy to do it!!!!)

(tbh i’ll probably go back and add a bonus to she calls me baby bc i have just a little teeny bit of ocd and it will bother me but also i’m trying to let the little things go but idk we’ll see how strong i am 😭😭)

(sorry i will stop ranting now) (shoutout to anyone who actually reads that incoherent ramble)

(i need to be told how amazing i am 24/7 so that will be hard 😔) (BUT I APPRECIATE YOU SAYING THAT)

(LOVE YOU TOOOOO 💋💋💋)

#iagreesobad

[espritmuse]

I missed you too 🥺 I’ll make sure to send you a little something everyday okay sweetheart? 💖

I’m an ambivert so like I prefer my alone time and I hate talking to new people but once you get me out of my shell good luck getting me to shut up lol

And yeah it was a bit scary at first. Obviously the lead surgeon asked the patient if I could glove in for a learning experience and the patient agreed and it was just a simple surgery. The man shattered his leg so they were putting steal pins in his leg to help the bones heal properly but it was really interesting to see how the pins went in and whatnot. Lowkey makes me want to change my manger to general surgery but idk I feel like it’s too late for that 😫

I’m glad your first days went well, I use to have insomnia but I went to a lot of sleep studies to help with that and it’s not as bad anymore, looks like we both gotta help each other sleep 🥺💖

My friends tease me saying I have OCD with how organized I am and how I can’t function unless I have it scheduled. I mean I do do stuff spontaneously, hell half the time all my trips and vacations are planned only like a week in advance. One time my best friend and I planned a Vegas trips in 3 hours and were on a plane in the next 6 hours showing up in Vegas the same day we planned it 😂😎

Omg We could visit each other’s Islands on animal crossing all the time <3 I’d send you pretty flowers and sea shells. Idk how tall you are but I’m 5”6 1/2 ((168 cm)) so like we could cuddle up and if you’re smaller than me I could be the big spoon and just hug you to me 🥺 if you’re taller than me I’m still gonna try and be the big spoon unless you wanna be then I’m 100% okay being the little spoon, I’ll just cling to you like a Koala.

We could go shopping for new plants and idk about you but I love window shopping at ikea and just walking around, I absolutely love building things I don’t know why but buying a new piece of furniture and then putting it together brings me immense joy. I live in a big city so like everything is within walking distance and my apartment is really high up too so I have a breathtaking view of the city but like just imagine getting ready in the morning and we go downstairs and get coffee or tea and then just walk in the city with our coats on and stocking hats cause it’s fall and starting to get chilly and we just window shop and there is this cute little bookstore near where I live so we could stop there and see if they have anything new 🥺🥺🥺 ughhh I’m gonna cry -💍 omg I wrote so much oopsie

i love when u write a lot 🥺 I usually never really know how to talk/ have a conversation with ppl so I love listening (or reading in our case 😳)…. U can go for hours and lines I don’t mind, never<3

AND A VEGAS TRIP IM SORRY MAAM- hope u didn’t get married there……….. Vegas is pretty far away from where I live so Jesus I could never plan something like this in a day lmao (also I don’t wanna go …… I prefer nature and all those cheesy stuff, I’m like a grandma or an ….old fat cat? Just gimme the same food everyday and cuddle and I’m happy)

No bc we should add each other on acnh… I don’t remember if I paid the online for this year but yeah!!! I’ll send u letter and little flower!! I think my native (?) fruit is cherry?? I’m not a big fan but ;( also my town is quite a mess elkdnwnxnsnd it’s like a big forest with a tone of trash on the floor bc my pockets are always full……..even in videos games I’m disorganised pls it’s a curse

And let’s not talk about my house…..

AND YES YES YES IKEA TRIPS OMG !!!!! I’D BUY THOSE BIG PLUSHIES !! I have the elephant in my bedroom…..I want the big bear and the shark too….. they’re too big and make me mad when they’re next to me in bed but they’re so….big and and and and abs and and and like….

And I’m 165!!! (I think it’s 5’3? Not sure!!) but I like being the big spoon 😋 I cannot fall asleep if I don’t hug something- so if it’s u it’s even better

We’d go outside during a rainy day, wearing stupid yellow raincoats, holding each other hands and chatting about ur weird ass job the whole way to ikea,,, we would buy some stuff for our journal, some small plants, (you’d buy me the shark plush……..), and we’d head to the bookstore to pick a book for the other!! I pick a book for u and u for me!!! We would read it in bed with hot chocolate and annotate it. Once we would be over, we would exchange them and start reading them, and with it, you’d see all the little notes and annotations I left <3

[dachi-chan25]

IT (1986)

What is it about? The Losers Club, a group of 7 kids that in different ways are outsiders among the other children in the little town of Derry must come back 27 years after defeating their worst fears embodied in a evil alien entity that has preyed on this small Maine town and its recidents since the dawn of time. Thoughts: - I have read this book a gazillion times and it’s my favorite Stephen King book of all time (though that may change once I finish this challenge, but only time will tell) everytime I read through its pages is like reuniting with an old dear friend, because most of the characters (read: the Losers Club) are just that for me, I read this book for the first time when I was 15 after growing up with the 90’s miniseries, and I loved it, that feeling hasn’t changed with the years and well I want to elaborate a bit on what I love about this book. - Derry’s history: One of the reasons this book is so damn big is that it delves on the history of this little town called Derry, of course this is to help the reader understand just for how long and how big is IT’s influence on the town, but I just found it so fascinating, I’ve always loved history, and this book just reaaaally fullfiled my needs in that aspect, the town’s history is full of gruesome events but it’s very intresting and through all the same. -Loser’s Club: I love this kids, we are introduced to them little by little through different POV’s and god, I just really like the diversity and complexity in them: a kid with a stutter, an asthmatic that is really a kid heavily manipulated by his overprotective mother, an overweight, a jewish with OCD, a girl victim of physical/emotional parental abuse, the class clown that most likely has ADHD, the only black boy in town… And what I love the most is that they are NOT defined by that, sure,that is how the world sees them but they are so much more than that and together they find their true identities: Stuttering Bill be comes the Leader, Asthmatic Eddie becomes the Compass, Fat Ben becomes the Constructor, Jewish Stan becomes the Logic, Poor Beverly becomes the Shooter, Trashmouth Richie becomes the Weapon (his voces physically hurt IT), Black Mike becomes the Historian. As well as the belonging and friendship they had never had before, their relationship is strong and beautiful, as a reader you will most often find some of yourself in them and even if you don’t you love them all the same for their flaws and virtues. -IT: I read somewhere that a story is only as great as its villian and in IT’s case that I think is only fitting, thus my love for is evil entity, because IT is really a big represantation of violence not necessarily(The Bradley Gang Shooting was afterall motivated by the Derry townsfolk rightgeousness) but mostly evil, IT transforms into awfull gruesome monsters yet his most terrifying act is the influence it helds on the people inhabiting Derry, on taking the violent nature of some people (Derry’s White Decency League, Eddie Corcoran stepfather’s, Alvin Marsh, Butch and Henry Bowers…) and exploit it for its own gain, IT is scary for it’s power, for the fact that one can really comprehend it’s magitude, and when we finally get to get inside it’s head we find something more akin to a beast, hungry and vengeful, he had turned lazy because he already had in Derry a comfortable feeding place and now wants to kill the Loser’s Club because for the first time in its long existance IT feels fear! and how wonderful is that? a group of scared isolated kids find strenght in each other to rid their Town and follow kids of this entity, even if they are afraid themselves, and they succeed in frightening a creature that literally feeds of fear. -The portrayal of the timelines and gruesome subjects: The 1950 are not usted only for aesthetics or praised as the “good old times” King shows a very gritty reality showcasing the racism (very prominent in Mike’s storyline), sexism, homophobia, domestic violence, anti-semitism,and it goes further yet showing that 27 years later these things haven’t changed and IT uses them for it’s benefit. The book doesn’t shy away from any of these things and often it is very hard to read through them but as well I think is important to read them to gain concience,they are not presented as good or romantiziced in any from or way, nor should they ever be (dude the anti-semitism in Patricia Uris’s POV is something that will open your eyes in many ways if you are not jewish, and the Black Spot story will horrify you but also help you understand it was not only the South of USA and the KKK that spread hate and horror for PoC people) this things are meant to horrify you thus I feel it would be a disservice not to read them (though I can understand if anyone simply can’t). -The bittersweet ending: Really heart breaking that after reuniting with the people they could really be themselves with the Loser’s Club are meant to not remember each other ( SPOILERS AHEAD DO NOT READ IF YOU DON’T WANNA SPOIL PART OF THE ENDING OF THE BOOK: as a side note and I do not mean this as hate to the ship or anything but a real doubt I have can anyone explain to me why is everyone saying/asuming Ben and Beverly did end up together?, I mean going by the 90’s miniseries sure, but in the book Mike only says she is going to Nebraska with Ben and then back to Chicago with Kay and that he thinks they are/will be having sex, but also later we find that even if they are in the same Town Mike and Bill have begun to forget each other and it’s heavily implied the same will happen with them all? and that is a very Stephen King thing to do I mean most of the book couples I’ve read from him have similar bittersweet endings so… Pls someone explain) I just always about cry about the End and you know the THING that happens with two of the losers. But also I am a ho for this kind of bittersweet stuff so of course I love it. -Richie and Beverly’s friendship: Listen I LIVE for them, of course I just about adore every Loser’s friendship (Bill/Eddie, Richie/Stan, Richie/Eddie, Richie/Bill, Mike/Ben, Stan/Bev duuuude everyone is amazing) but this two just about make me crazy about them, tbh I kinda lowkey ship them in a platonic kinda way, and I was endlessly frustrated by the lack of scenes between them in the 90’s miniseries after I read the book cuz booooy, the yo-yo scene is so goddamned amazing, Richie being the first POV in which Bev is mentioned and he reminds her through the lyric of a song, his Humphrey Bogart voice he does when speaking with her, how much he respects her, also Miss Sca'lett!!!, not to mention that sweet ass scene they have in the book “22/11/63” where Bev is teaching Richie how to swing for a school talent show, ahhhh Imma stop right there cuz I am fangirling waaaay to much and probably y'all think I am wierd for liking such an unpopular thing. -There is just one thing I always felt was completely unecessary to add and was gross to read (you already know what I am talking about and if not I’m not gonna spoil you/gross you out), I have read of course why SK did it but I still think he should have looked for another way to make the Losers enter adulthood : / Movie/TV Adaptations: There are 2: The ABC’s 1990 miniseries “IT” and the 2017 movie by Andy Muschietti “IT (chapter 1)” of course it has been already confirmed there is going to be another movie for the Second part but I will not to go too much into it now. 1990: The opinions on this one are very polarized, some love it with a passion, some hate it… I actually love it, and by that I do not mean is a perfect adaptation, but it was such an integral part of my childhood and family life that it would be impossible for me to hate it, and I feel most people are terribly unfair with it, because it is not a Bad adaptation like let’s say Kubrick’s Shining (yaa I’m going there) it had a lot of limitations in budget and technology and still managed to capture some of the best parts of the book (the Loser’s friendship mainly, it was beautiful) of course it wasn’t gorey or violent but in it’s time it was scary as hell, which beings me to Tim Curry’s performance as Pennywise that became so iconic people automatically recognize the clown’s design, for fuck’s sake Pennywise became one of the most iconic monsters of that time and terrorized an entire generation of kids and adults alike, of course it has it’s faults (the adult’s part wasn’t great, tho the scene with Bev in Mrs. Kersh house was great, and the ending was bound to be confusing af to people that didn’t read the book) but overall it was a good atempt and it already has a place in pop culture and the hearts of many horror fans. 2017: Oh boy I was really looking forward to this one since they anounced it was going to be a thing (ahhh remember the time Will Poulter and Cary Fukunaga were our only hope?) and just had the chance to see it today, because a lot of awful things happened in my country (I am mexican btw) and yeah, so I left the theater with a very pleasant sensation IT 2017 is a great movie and I LOVED it, the acting was GREAT everyone did amazing, Georgie’s death scene was simply amazing and so sad, the projector scene was wow, lots of winks to book readers like the turtle and Eddie Corcoran’s missing pamphlet, Bev’s bathroom scene, the rock fight!!!,Eddie changing Loser to Lover is iconic, some of Richie’s one-liners were amazing, Pennywise dance pfffftt, Ben was adorable with his crush and love of New Kids on the Block, the Losers,“they’re Gazebos they’re bullshit!” iconic, mainly I feel it captured the general feeling of the book however that does not mean I didn’t had some issues with it as well, first thing that bothered me a LOT is the treatment to Mike Hanlon, excuse the fuck out of me but no, they took his thing (history of Derry) and gave it to Ben (also Ben not constructing things like ??? Could have been a perfect chance to have him build lego stuff but k) where is my beautiful spring loving child?? I just couldn’t find any single trait on his character apart from the wierd sheep thing and his parents, which takes me to another issue why is every adult on Derry so shitty? Like yeah there was a lot of shady awful stuff in the book but there were also ok people namely Mrs. Starret (the librarian, that is so unnecesarily creppy? Wierd? In the movie), Richie’s parents (his dad is hillarious), Mike’s parents they are the best tbh, Mr Keene (ok this one is a sarcastic asshole but he did try to help Eddie instead of letting him keep on believing he was sick to keep selling stuff, and also was never a wierd pervert), Mr. Nell (dude I would have killed to hear Richie doing the Irish Cop voice), the Tracker Brothers (boy Eddie looking longingly at the baseball diamond would have been 10/10, my boy loved sports)… thing is the Losers did love Derry and some parts of their childhood in it and that’s were the nostalgia hits on part two, Stan well I loved they delved more onto his jewishness (a thing not much touched in the book because Stan’s family is not very strictly religious) but was very side lined as well ( in my opinion that part about Richie being scared shitless and Bill punches him would have fit Stan better, also almost all of the Losers got closure (Bev rebelled against her father, Ben kissed Beverly and she got to find out he was the one who wrote the haiku, Bill got to talk with Georgie kind of?, Mike stepped up against Henry, Eddie confronted his mother,Richie let go of his fear to kill the fucking clown…) yet Stan doesn’t I just think it would have been nice to have him iniciate the pact as he did on the book and also his bird book????, the slut shaming and over sexualization of Beverly (I won’t even go into how much it broke my heart to see/hear Richie saying all that stuff about her like no, he respected her a lot thx) just why change the white trash problem to a slut shaming thing???(also while his dad did not beat her in this movie he was so much more GROSS than in the 90’s) I am however not bothered by the ‘Kiss of Life’ trope nor do I think she was reduced to a damsel in distress if anything she was the bravest of them all, also some things not really bothered me but made me wonder what will happen in Chapter 2 namely wft is gonna happen with Henry is he alive?? Same for Bev’s dad what happened there? Is he alive? Is he dead? Though of course we will get answers in chapter 2 I was just like wow how is this gonna pan out. Basically an amazing movie I was not disappointed at all and I would love to watch it again but as an adaptation I think I would still love to see a longish miniseries covering more of Derry’s history and the kid’s personalities/misadventures (of course I do not want THAT scene to be in any adaptation ever) but generally covering more book stuff. but hey all this is just my humble opinion and I admit I adore the book, though I am not closed off to changes just those things kinda made me go hmmmmmm…. Quotes: Stan: “Every- thing’s a lot tougher when it’s for real. That’s when you choke. When it’s for real.” “He wanted to tell them that those dead boys who had lurched and shambled their way down the spiral staircase had done something worse than frighten him: they had offended him.” Bill: “If fiction and politics ever really do become interchangeable, I’m going to kill myself, because I won’t know what else to do. You see, politics always change. Stories never do” “Silver flew and Stuttering Bill Denbrough flew with him; their gantry-like shadow fled behind them. They raced down Up-Mile Hill together; the playing cards roared. Bill’s feet found the pedals again and he began to pump, wanting to go even faster, wanting to reach some hypothetical speed — not of sound but of memory — and crash through the pain barrier.” Richie:“Now he had to go back to being himself, and that was hard — it got harder to do that every year. It was easier to be brave when you were someone else.” “He knew a great deal of the Bible already, and he knew the Bible believed in all sorts of weird stuff. According to the Bible, God Himself was at least one-third Ghost, and that was just the beginning. You could tell the Bible believed in demons, because Jesus threw a bunch of them out of this guy. Real chuckalicious ones, too. When Jesus asked the guy who had them what his name was, the demons answered and told Him to go join the Foreign Legion. Or something like that” (#make chuckalicious happen 2k17) Ben: “Maybe that’s why God made us kids first and built us close to the ground, because He knows you got to fall down a lot and bleed a lot before you learn that one simple lesson. You pay for what you get, you own what you pay for … and sooner or later whatever you own comes back home to you.” “A child blind from birth doesn’t even know he’s blind until someone tells him. Even then he has only the most academic idea of what blindness is; only the formerly sighted have a real grip on the thing. Ben Hanscom had no sense of being lonely because he had never been anything but. If the condition had been new, or more localized, he might have understood, but loneliness both encompassed his life and overreached it. It simply was.” Eddie: “Sometimes home is where the heart is, Eddie thought randomly, I believe that. Old Bobby Frost said home’s the place where, when you go there they have to take you in. Unfortunately, it’s also the place where, once you’re in there, they don’t ever want to let you out.” “Maybe, he thought, there aren’t any such things as good friends or bad friends - maybe there are just friends, people who stand by you when you’re hurt and who help you feel not so lonely. Maybe they’re always worth being scared for, and hoping for, and living for. Maybe worth dying for too, if that’s what has to be. No good friends. No bad friends. Only people you want, need to be with; people who build their houses in your heart.” Mike: “Haunted, haunting, haunt.Often visited by ghosts or spirits, as in the pipes under the sink; to appear or recur often, as every twenty-five, twenty-six, or twenty-seven years; a feeding place for animals, as in the cases of George Denbrough, Adrian Mellon, Betty Ripsom, the Albrecht girl, the Johnson boy.A feeding place for animals. Yes, that’s the one that haunts me.” “But Mike enjoyed most of the places in Derry his father sent or took him to, and by the time Mike was ten Will had succeeded in conveying his own interest in the layers of Derry’s history to his son. Sometimes, as when he had been trailing his fingers over the slightly pebbled surface of the stand in which the Memorial Park birdbath was set, or when he had squatted down to look more closely at the trolley tracks which grooved Mont Street in the Old Cape, he would be struck by a profound sense of time … time as something real, as something that had unseen weight” Bev: “oh shapes of men, sometimes seen as day closed down, sometimes seen across Watertower Square in the noonlight of a clear windy autumn day, shapes of men, rules of men, desires of men: or Tom, so like her father when he took off his shirt and stood slightly slumped in front of the bathroom mirror to shave. Shapes of men.” ‘Is it because I’m a girl?’[…] she exploded.‘Well, fuck you!’ She whirled around to look at the others, and they flinched from her gaze,so hot it was nearly radioactive. 'Fuck all of you if you think the same thing!’ She turned back to Bill and began to talk fast, rapping him with words. 'This is something more than some diddlyshit kid’s game like tag or guns or hide-and-go-seek, and you know it, Bill. We’re supposed to do this. That’s part of it. And you’re not going to cut me out just because I’m a girl.“ Adding this one cuz I love how stupidly cute it is and cuz that Richie is such a charmer XD (wot-wot?) ”[…]'Oh dear, am I being asked out on a date?’ For a moment Richie was uncharacteristically flustered. He actually felt a blush rising in his cheeks. He had made the offer in a perfectly natural way, just as he had made it to Ben … except hadn’t he said something to Ben about owesies? Yes. But he hadn’t said anything about owesies to Beverly. Richie suddenly felt a bit weird. He had dropped his eyes, retreating from her amused glance, and realized now that her skirt had ridden up a bit when she shifted forward to drop the ice-cream cone in the litter barrel, and he could see her knees. He raised his eyes but that was no help; now he was looking at the beginning swells of her bosoms. Richie, as he usually did in such moments of confusion, took refuge in absurdity. 'Yes! A date!’ he screamed, throwing himself on his knees before her and holding his clasped hands up. 'Please come! Please come! I shall ruddy kill meself if you say no, ay-wot? Wot-wot?’ 'Oh, Richie, you’re such a fuzzbrain,’ she said, giggling again … but weren’t her cheeks also a trifle flushed? If so, it made her look prettier than ever. 'Get up before you get arrested.’“

Next Book: “The Eyes of the Dragon”

[yuriyuu]

About me tag game

Tagging game - About me

Tagged by @grievingcain

The rules: You must answer these 85 statements and tag 20 people

Tagging: @otabekismybff, @faeyuri, @unzan, my moms @godtier1 and @alliechick, whoever wants to do this really idk

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The last…

1. Drink: mango juice 2. Phone call: dad 3. Text message: my friend Tilda 4. Song you listened to: Syphilis - Fleshgod Apocalypse  5. Time you cried: uhhh I think when I was at my last con like a year ago. I was a bit drunk and my friend showed me dog videos and I started crying lmao. The last time I cried sober was years ago when my dog died back in like, 2014. I don’t cry very often tbh.  6. Dated someone twice: Nah lol. I’ve officially dated one person in my entire life. 7. Kissed someone and regretted it: lol yeah. 8. Been cheated on: you can’t be cheated on if you don’t date. (i’m keeping cain’s answer bc it’s perfect) 9. Lost someone special: my dog.  10. Been depressed: i’ve been depressed since I was in my mother’s womb lmfao. 11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: More than once D:

Favorite colors… 12. Teal 13. Black 14. Purple

In the last year, you have…

15. Made new friends: Yeah 16. Fallen out of love: If by fallen out of love, you mean realized the people I was emotionally dependent on for years were giant pieces of shit, then yeah. Kinda had to force myself to fall out of love with them for my own sanity, even tho I still look back on them very fondly despite the trauma they’ve caused....>.> 17. Laughed until you cried: Yeah. 18. Found out someone was talking about you: Lol yeah. I’ve had some pretty wild rumors made up about me.  19. Met someone who changed you: Yes, in both good and bad ways, mostly bad lol.  20. Found out who your friends are: Uhhhhh I guess??? 21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: LOL I READ THE QUESTION WRONG. no I haven’t. I have not kissed anyone. The last person I kissed on my facebook list was back when I was 11 way before facebook was a thing hahaha. We still good friends to this day. 

In general…

22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: Pretty much all of them. I don’t add people I haven’t spoken to IRL with a few exceptions. 23. Do you have any pets: No. :( I used to but he passed away a few years ago. 24. Do you want to change your name: hah I already did.  25. What did you do for your last birthday: Nothing 26. What time did you wake up: lol i dont’t sleep.  27. What were you doing at midnight last night: I have literally no recollection.  28. Name something you can’t wait for: to be surrounded by big beautiful dogs. 29. When was the last time you saw your mom: like 10 mins ago. 31. What are you listening to right now: Nymphetamine Fix - Cradle of Filth 32. Have you ever talked to a person named tom: dude my dad’s name is tom. also I was friends with Tom on myspace...yeah...tom on myspace was my buddy.  33. Something that is getting on your nerves: the universe, myself, the fact I don’t have a dog, my OCD, my PTSD...just everything really.  34. Most visited website: Tumblr and twitter. 35. Hair colour: right now it’s blond but it’s naturally dark brown. 36. Long or short hair: I consider it short, but it’s fairly long for someone who’s male-identified. 37. Do you have a crush on someone: lol 38. What do you like about yourself: lol, but bigger. 39. Piercings: I have 3. I have 2 on the left side of my lip and my septum pierced. 40. Blood type: idk.  41. Nickname: Kiichan, Keagasaur 42. Relationship status: single forever. :’) 43. Zodiac: Scorpio 44. Pronouns: he/him or they/them. 45. Favourite tv show: Probably Jojo’s bizarre adventure. I love YoI but there’s a lot of things that disappoint me about it so Jojo is probably my fave show. 46. Tattoos: Yeah I’ve got my dog’s pawprint tattooed on me.  47. Right or left handed: right. 48. Surgery: I’ve had a few. 49. Piercing: Didn’t u ask this already. 50. Sport: look i’m a lazy piece of shit i don’t do sports lol.  51. Vacation: I hate traveling and being away from home. vacation is stressful. 52. Pair of trainers: what

More general…

53. Eating: I just ate tacos? 54. Drinking: Nothing 55. I’m about to: Work on fanfic probably... 56. Waiting for: the antis to finally notice me. 57. Want: the ability to get shit done. 58. Get married: Yeah I do. :( like really bad lol.  59. Career: can I get a career in petting dogs

Which is better?

60. Hugs or kisses: Neither i’m extremely touch repulsed. pls don’t touch me. 61. Lips or eyes: Eyes 62. Shorter or taller: taller!! I’M A SUCKER FOR TALL BOYS. <3  63. Older or younger: Older def lol. Everyone i’ve ever liked or kissed has been way older than me. My first ever crush had the same age gap as Yuuri and Yuri LOL. I was around Yuri’s age too haha. man I miss him, I wonder how he’s doin’... 64. Nice arms or nice stomach: pls i’m a leg guy. 65. Hook up or relationship: Relationship 66. Troublemaker or hesitant: idc.

Have you ever…

67. Kissed a stranger: no lol i hate being touched by people I actually like, never mind some rando. 68. Drank hard liquor: Yep.  69. Lost glasses/contact lenses: This is the story of my life. 70. Turned someone down: Many times. 71. Sex on the first date: i’m sex repulsed. 72. Broken someone’s heart: Yeaaaaaah.  73. Had your heart broken: Yeah, but only bc I become emotionally dependent on people who treat me like shit bc i’m stupid lol. 75. Cried when someone died: I cried when my dog died? 76. Fallen for a friend: yeah. never again.

Do you believe in…

77. Yourself: LOL. 78. Miracles: not really. 79. Love at first sight: I barely believe in love even tho i wanna get married one day. 80. Santa claus: ofc. 81. Kiss on the first date: uhhh I don’t kiss people but I guess? 82. Angels: no.

Other…

83. Current best friend’s name: Siobhan and Tilda. 84. Eye colour: brown 85. Favourite movie: shit what’s a movie.

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Lots of effort but here goes:

(1) Do You Sleep With Your Closet Doors Open Or Closed? Legit closed, takes up too much space otherwise (2) Do You Have Freckles? Yes I do, too many (3) Can You Whistle? Nope, and that’s pretty sad (4) Last Song You Listened To.All Time Low - Drugs & Candy(5) What Is Your Favourite Colour?Teal (6) Relationship Status.Well I wanna build my own empire and I don’t wanna share so I’m currently single (7) What Is The Temperature Right Now?9 degrees Celsius rn (8) Did You Wake Up Cranky?Nah, I just woke up not knowing what day it was (9) How Many Followers?Ummm not many, like 20 something, idk(10) Zodiac Sign.Pisces (11) What Is Your Eye Colour?Hazel(12) Take A Vitamin Daily? Nope (13) Do You Sing In The Shower? Yessss, shower performer over here (14) What Books Are You Reading?Started reading ‘The One’ by John Marrs, kinda weird but it’s okay (15) Grab The Book Nearest To You, Turn To Page 64, Give Me Line 14. ‘WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON?’ she texted… (16) Favourite Anime?Pokemon? (17) Last Person You Cried In Front Of?Ummm, well I cried because of a spider? But person, my mum(18) Do You Collect Anything?Mugs, my collection is great (19) What Did You Have For Lunch?Tuna sandwich (20) Do You Dance In The Car?Who doesn’t??(21) Favourite Animal?Sloth (22) Do You Watch The Olympics?Sometimes, not often (23) What Time Do You Usually Go To Bed?Any time after midnight (24) Are You Wearing Makeup Right Now?Nah, don’t wear any (25) Do You Prefer To Swim In A Pool Or The Ocean?Defo the ocean(26) Favourite Tumblr Blog?I’m indecisive and this decision is too hard, moving on (27) Bottled Water Or Tap Water?Tap water, unless I’m abroad(28) What Makes You Happy?Sleeping (29) Post A Gif Of What You’re Currently Feeling Right Now.

(30) Do You Study Better With Or Without Music? With music but not too loud or catchy because I’ll end up singing along (31) Dogs Or Cats?Prefer dogs but cats are cute too (32) If You Were A Crayon What Colour Would You Be? Probs like a black/grey ish one. Crayola has one called outer space, maybe that one(33) PlayStation Or Xbox.PlayStation, add me: SulphuricBumhole (don’t ask me to explain the name but if you add me, say you’re from tumblr pls)(34) Would You Swim In The Lake Or Ocean? Ocean definitely (35) Do You Believe In Magic? Some of that shit on BGT is trippy af and idk if that’s magic or illusions so maybe? (36) What Colour Shirt Are You Wearing?I’m wearing a koala onesie (37) Can You Curl Your Tongue? I can(38) Do You Save Money Or Spend It? Bit of both, I buy too much random shit man (39) Is There Anything Pink Within 10 Feet Of You? Yeah, my socks (40) Do You Have Any Obsessions Right Now? Obsessed with sleeping tbh (41) Have You Ever Caught A Butterfly? Yessss, let it go after though (42) Are You Easily Influenced By Other People? Nah, I’m stubborn af (43) Do You Have Strange Dreams? Well my last dream I befriended a crocodile and called him Dave, so no not really o.O(44) Do You Like Going On Airplanes? Love, love, love aeroplanes. Travelling is the best!(45) Name One Movie That Made You Cry. Umm, it was a French film called The Student and Mr Henri(46) Peanuts Or Sunflower Seeds? Peanutsssss(47) If I Handed You A Concert Ticket Right Now, Who Would You Want The Performer To Be?Umm, Bryan Adams. He’s the bomb in concert (48) Are You A Picky Eater? With meat, yeah(49) Are You A Heavy Sleeper? Kind of, I don’t hear noises as such but I will wake to a phone call (50) Do You Fear Thunder / Lightning? Nah. I love it!(51) Do You Like To Read / Write?Love reading, awful at writing (52) Do You Like Your Music Loud? Yess, love to have a concert on my own(53) Would You Rather Carve Pumpkins Or Wrap Presents? Wrap presents. Even though my OCD kicks in, I like to make the paper line up (54) Put Your Music On Shuffle, What Is The First Song That Came Up?Train - Drops of Jupiter (55) What Season Are You In Right Now? (Weather)I think it’s late Spring but this weather is bipolar af (56) What Are You Craving Right Now? I really want some coffee tbh (57) Post A Screenshot Of Your Tumblr Feed.Effort though man, soz pal (58) What Is Your Gender?Female (59) Coffee Or Tea?All about coffee, tea on occasion though (60) Do You Have Any Homework Right Now? If So, What Is It About?None, finished 2nd year of uni (61) What Is Your Sexuality?I am gay (62) Do You Make Your Bed In The Morning?Yess, mainly because it’s uncomfortable to lay on when it isn’t made up (63) Favourite Pokemon?Would have to say Blaziken tbh (64) Favourite Social Media?Probs Facebook (65) What’s Your Opinion On Instagram Stories?Stupid, use Snapchat (66) Do You Get Homesick?Not really, ask me again in December cause I’ll be in France (67) Are You A Virgin? None of ya business pal(68) What Shampoo And Conditioner Are You Using Right Now?Head & Shoulders (knees and toes)(69) If You Were Far From Home And Needed To Sleep For The Night, Would You Choose To Rent A Crappy Motel Room For $60 Or Sleep In Your Car For Free?I would choose my car, that’s $60 to use for food or something (70) Are Both Of Your Blood Parents Still In Your Life? Nah, just Madre and (step)padre (71) Whats The Next Movie You Want To See In Theaters? PIRATES OF THE CARIBBEAN(72) Do You Miss Your Ex?Wish I didn't but what can ya do, ey?. (73) What Is Your Favourite Quote Right Now?“Aspire to inspire before you expire” - Eugene Bell Jr. (74)  What Eye Colour Do You Find Sexiest? Kinda love green tbh (75) Did You Like Swinging As A Child? Do You Still Get Excited When You See A Swing Set? I love swings, get so high to jump off  I’m a kid at heart (76) What Was The Last Thing You Ate? NUGGETS (77) What Games Do You Have On Your Phone?Candy crush is all that matters (78) Would You Give A Homeless Person CPR If They Were Dying? Why Or Why Not?Of course I would, they have every right to live (79) Been On The Computer For 5 Hours Straight? Too many times, I have no life (80) Stalked Someone On A Social Network? Meh, who hasn’t?(81) Do You Like Meeting New People? For the most part. I’m socially awkward until I get comfortable with them(82) Do You Wear Rings? If You Do, Take A Picture Of Them.I don’t, they irritate me (83) Do You Sleep With Your Bedroom Door Open Or Closed?Closed, I live in university accommodation so leaving my door open would be a tad weird (84) What Are Three Things You Did Today? Had a panic attack bc of a spider; dyed my mum’s hair; and driving lesson. (85) What Do You Wear To Bed? Currently, a onesie (86) List All Of Your Different Beauty Products You Have Right Now.Don’t own any :)(87) Are You A Day Or Night Person?Definitely a night owl (88) List All Of Your Video Games On Your Phone, Console Etc.Phone: Candy crushPsn: FIFA 17; Black Ops 3; GTA V; Little Big Planet 3; Rocket League.

(89) Tell Me About A Dream That You Had And When It Happened.Mentioned somewhere above (90) Favourite Soda Drink?Hmm, sprite probs(91) What Sounds Are Your Favourite?I love the sound of the rain, I could sit and listen for hours (92) Do You Wear Jeans Or Sweats More?Jeans, mostly (93) How Do You Look Right Now?Like a koala (94) Name Something That Relaxes You.Sleeping (95) What Tattoo Do You Want?Something geometric or maybe a Disney related one(96) Favourite YouTuber?Sarah Croce is a babe 

P.S. That took ages so I’ma take a nap for a year, much love