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[clover-the-awesomest]

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[type-40-nightingales]

live reaction to destiel being cannon by thete

AWWW CAS HOLDING HIM AND EBING LIKE CMON DEAN IS SO SOFT BUT UGH UGH UGH

NO NO NO I RECoNGISE THIS HSOT FROM GIFS I feel the tears coming even though nothings happening yet NOPE I CANT HANDLE THIS 'then we fight' UGH I CANT NO. NO. NO ITS NOT DEAN YOU CAN DO OTHER THINGS THAN KILL everybody gonna die cast, everybody, I cant stop it DEAN UGH DEAN "shes gonna get through that door, " "I know" "and shes gonna kill you, and then shes gonna kill me" literally had to pause bc holy shit I know this score honey holding my face in my hands "I'm sorry"' UGH NO NNNONNONONONONOONONONNOONONNONOn CAS DONT DONT CS PLEAS E "I made a deal, to save him" ":"you what?" UGH PLEASE ITS SO CONCERNED" deans face please. HES LITERALLY DOING THE SPEECH imagine watching this in 2020 though "the one thing I want, I know I cant have" literally everyone who watched this as it came out ik u were loosing ur shit then ut fr I HAD TO PAUSE AGAIN BC THIS IS TOO MCUH HES SUCH A WET KITTEN "is something I know I cant have" OKAY OKAY WHY WHY R U DOING THIS TO ME CAS "But i think I know" I keep having to pause bc he smiled he fucking smield with that one smile that I cant fucking live with. "I think I know now" misha ur facial expressions are killing me. "happiness isn't in the having. it's in the being. its in the just saying it" ok so why did misha have to say this line and look like that like y does he have to rip my heart out "what are you talking about man?" I think he knows ugh I think he knows n he really fucking doesn't want to. "I know" misha please stop I want to give you every bafta " "you think that hate and anger that what drives you" " I'm crying I'm actually crying I'm on the floor sobbing "the good and the bad you have done for love " oh deans face he knows he's trying to do the math bc nah he doesn't get it but he knows what cas si saying "your the most selfless, loving human being I will ever know" y . why misha, the tear? the face?? WhY??? THE SWALLOW MISHAS SMILE

THE SUPPRESSING THE SOB BEFORE HE "LIS"YOU CHANGED ME DEAN": "why does this sound like a goodbye" "because it is" why Is mishas voice like that why because he's not pretending anymore because every pretense is collapsing "I love you" I LITERALLY PAUSED THREW MY CHROMEBOOK ON MY BED GOT UP AND HELD MY SELF AGAINST THE DOOR WITH MY HEAD IN MY HANDS IVE SEEN THIS BEFORE I KNEW IT WAS COMING BUT STILLi cant I cant I cant I cant THE SWALLOW "don't do this case" its so gentle, its so soft, he I cant THE FCE WHEN HE SEES THE EMPTY DEANS SO FUCKING UGH WDYM "cas" THATS SO SOFT I CANT "goodbye dean" his voice is back to normal, he pushes dean across the room WITH THAT DMAN HAND PRINT AND HE LOOKS AT THE EMPTY AND FUCKIGNG SMILES

Im so done DEANS GASpS AND HOW HE JSUT. UGH. HES JUST SITTING THERE. that man didn't answer to his brother what do you mean it wasn't recipocated what do you mean. he's literally holding his head in his hands, NAH I'm sorry that is not how someone reacts when someone they're not In love with tells you they loves you then dies. he didn't answer to *sam*

[grapefruide]

Episode 1: Anglerfish

I wonder how many statements in the Archive are actually fake? I mean, through the show we see a few fake ones but I'd think for the most part the Eye could filter who feels drawn to give a statement. Get all the juicy ones, you know. I wish I had access to the Archive I would just read. Everything.

I totally get why Gertrude left the Archives a mess, you know. But I wonder if Jon justified their state, especially compared to the library, himself or if the Eye helped him along.

I wonder if Gertrude just made up random numbers and letters for the statements.

Did Gertrude intentionally curate this persona of a batty old woman, or did Jon seriously just not pay attention to what she was doing at all? Honestly, probably, mostly the latter.

He sounds so fucking full of himself.

He's so rude to Martin. I wonder how Martin felt about this, how much he took in stride as part of his own mask. Like dude. So much of this is uncalled for.

I've always wondered if Jon notices how much he gets into the character of the statement-giver when he reads these. Like, it's an immediate toneshift. It's lokely unconscious, especially at the beginning. Like later he reads and speaks in different languages without noticing.

I probably should pull up a map of Edinburgh and track the locations mentioned. Since I'm a useless bloody American who barely even know what "matriculating" means, mich less the Royal Mile or the Cowgate. But the thing is, I don't feel like that right now.

I wonder if the Anglerfish specifically hunts intoxicated people because with that description, I do hope it wouldn't fool any person in their right mind.

I didn't know drunkenness could cause hallucinations. But then again, I've never drunk myself so I wouldn't know.

I really do think Nathan would be safer if he quit smoking instead of starting to take taxis. It's not that common for a specific entity to come after a specific person again after they escaped cleanly, and if not taxis won't save him.

Does the Anglerfish just not feed very often? This seems to be a commonality among similar entities, probably to stop the normies from noticing.

Glad he pronounced Siobhan correctly because God am I finicky over that kind of thing.

Like the hand being very long and going too far back into the darkness? Or is the hand just floating?

I do wonder how physical this thing is. And how exactly it presumably kills it's victims. Can it just not be photographed well? Is the main body, presuming thete is one, just well-camoflauged? Hidden? Properly invisible? Is it just trying to lure th victims in, does it actually do anything with the cigarette? I mean, probably not given the Malboro Red on the ground. Does it have other methods of luring victims in if they don't have smokes on them? Can it tell if someone has smokes on them?

I think this is pretty clearly the Stranger, although it seems a bit boring compared to many of the other manifestations. Overall, a banger first episode.

[the-firebird69]

Listen to the pseudo empire is going to start taking ships out again and I think they're right it's going to be a lot of them and it's going to be a huge number of them it will start making it rain here and the place needs a soaking it's a lot of exposure and it will cut them down it's not going to help the house dry out and it could be a problem and the windows are open a little halfway which is not the big deal it's really the fact that it is going to be moist and not drying and that's going to prolong his stay and it's going to be torturous it already is. Sleeping is difficult getting stuff is difficult getting around is a pain in the ass and he's going to start using the bus have and you really has to do some things on a ton of things and the apartment is kind of going to just sit there so I have a gamble if you open the windows it might make it a lot worse and it's hard to tell so it's going to leave where they are and it's not really necessary to go there. There's a couple of things that need to be done he has to try and get his probiotics and he has to try and get his mail there's nothing you might miss it f****** massive in it but he needs to make sure that he checks what it is and we know there's some things in there coming that are important are ready page a bill already and then the other one is the cable bill and he needs to pay that so that one's coming up we have other things to report

---thetes a huge number of people who are trying to live off our son and it doesn't do anything and they're running around town blabbing it so we're going to start grabbing them I can't stand them anymore. I'm a huge infight and we need to get them in together information Trump is one of the biggest and we need information before his brain deteriorates to nothing it's been shot a bunch of times and it's ridiculous and he's a gross weird pig and we need about really soon

--it's some discoveries about these two and they don't really care about master plans and things like that they want to blow a cavern trying to recover after in a sloppy and mean and don't care and we're going to nail them because that's not the way to be

--I have a couple other things to mention too that this fool says he's riding on himself it's not quite what's happening and we are going to take care of business

--have more over this big trouble going on all of the world and here's at the center of it so criminal Tommy f is hiding here and he launched attacks on the East Coast too and they're going to get them and they're going to get him out. I'm going to get Trump out too. Sign up sheet and this guy told me you have said it's the sign-up sheet and he's saying that the daughter or something that's going to rescue him and I sent his no you're damn dangerous and they're difficult they don't do jobs that are parallels with everybody they're tough and dangerous get all nice and cleaned up yeah.

More shortly

Thor Freya

Olympus

So he qualified and the two in the way. We fire on them shortly

Hera

[fatelesschild]

Update. Find on AO3.

Chapter 21: Embrace hope, all ye who enter here

The Doctor finds himself at the mercy of Braxiatel and the Master.

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Extract:

All he could do was sit there and wonder. Wonder about Leah, Jack, and Millennia. Wonder about the TARDIS. Wonder how the hell Braxiatel had gotten out of New Shada and why the Master was here too. Wonder about Tuvala, wonder about Rose, and wonder if Hope had a hand in all this. 

'Pay attention closely. This will be important.'

Those had been her words. But right now, he didn't have anything to pay attention to except the amount of dust in here.

'Hope?' he asked to the ceiling. 

The door suddenly burst open to reveal Braxiatel standing there, looking worried.

'Thete, get up,' he ordered, running forward and grabbing him to pull him up. Instinctively, the Doctor fought him.

'Get off!' he yelled.

'Theta, there's no time for this,' Braxiatel said, trying to get him to move, but the Doctor didn't relent.

'I don't know what you're doing, but I need to …'

'Theta!' Braxiatel snapped. 'I'm trying to help. I will explain everything, but we need to leave.'

'Why!?'

'The Lanwa is coming; it has found you. We have a ship, and we need to leave this instant.'

'Leave me here!' the Doctor demanded.

Braxiatel looked incredibly frustrated. 'Fine. Would you like me to leave Leah behind, too?'

The Doctor's eyes shot wide open. 'What!?'

'Leah. She's in the other room, very, very ill. I just ordered Koschei to take her to the ship. Should I tell him not to bother? Leave you two here to face the Lanwa for a family reunion with Rose?'

The Doctor was nearly lost for words, completely stupefied. 'She's… let me see her!'

Braxiatel sighed at his response. 'I'm sorry, Thete, but there's no time for this,' he said sincerely, and then punched him in the left shoulder, straight in the vulnerable nerve cluster. The Doctor blacked out immediately, sagging in his arms.

Trying not to jar his brother's injuries, Braxiatel scooped him up and carried him out of the door into the hallway of the temporary base, then through the dilapidated entrance out into the bombed town. Their stolen ship was parked there, rusting gently in the sun. Braxiatel rushed up the ramp to meet the Master, who had settled Leah into one of the berths in the sleeping quarters.

'Get us out of here,' Braxiatel said, putting the Doctor on the other berth and making him comfortable. He then checked Leah, and once satisfied, he joined the Master in the cockpit.

'Punched him, didn't you?' the Master said, trying and failing to conceal a smirk.

'Sector Alpha Echo should be safe for a bit; I do not believe she has reached that far yet,' Braxiatel said, completely ignoring him. 

'That's a really long journey,' the Master moaned.

'And we will keep flying until we get there,' Braxiatel replied.

DW Fanfic: Oblivion (Update)

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Chapter 19: Last one out, get the lights

Risking everything, the Doctor and Jack embark on one last attempt to find the cure for Rose.

Rating: Mature Archive Warning: Graphic Depictions of Violence Relationships: Tenth Doctor/Rose Tyler Characters: Tenth Doctor, Jack Harkness, Original Doctor/Rose Tyler Children, Millennia (Doctor Who), The Ravenous (Doctor Who: Ravenous), The Menti Celesti (Doctor Who), Rose Tyler, Minor Characters, Eternal(s) (Doctor Who) Tags: Tenth Doctor Whump, Whump, Tenth Doctor Angst, Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Adventure, Gallifreyan Culture (Doctor Who), Gallifreyan Language (Doctor Who), Gallifreyan Biology (Doctor Who), Gallifreyan History (Doctor Who), Vampires, Clowns, Horror, Psychological Horror, Fluff, Major Illness, Blindness, Parents Tenth Doctor/Rose Tyler, Married The Doctor/Rose Tyler, Dark Rose Tyler, Time Vortex (Doctor Who), Love, Humor, Family, Friendship, Additional Warnings In Author's Note, Series, Novel, Surreal, Kid Fic, Background Relationships, Injury, Blood, Violence, Death

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Extract:

The Doctor suddenly lunged forward, grasping Jack's shoulder just as he was about to open the door. 'Wait!’ he yelped, his voice almost coming out in a squeak.

'Doc?' Jack asked, looking at him with concern. 'You've gone really white.'

'Something's wrong,' the Doctor croaked, his face twisting.

'What is it?' 

The Doctor's hands were shaking. 'Every single instinct I have … is telling me to run.'

'What d'you mean?' Jack asked.

'I can't explain it,' the Doctor croaked and then had to brace himself against the wall as his eyes glazed over slightly. 'Jack, I think I'm going to faint.'

'Sit down,' Jack said quickly, pushing the Time Lord down to sit on the ground.

'Please … Jack … we can't go in there,' the Doctor emitted in a whine. His dual hearts were hammering so violently he thought they might burst through his ribs as his whole body shook uncontrollably.

Jack looked incredibly confused and concerned. 'It's okay. Just breathe.'

The Doctor took a few measured deep breaths. It did very little to calm him down. 

'Look at me,' Jack demanded.

The Doctor did, focusing on Jack's gaze. 'Help,' he gasped out. 

'Doctor, you're having a panic attack.'

'You think I don't know that!?' the Doctor yelped. 

'Ground yourself. Tell me three things you can see.'

'You, the door, the steps,' the Doctor panted. 

'Three things you can hear.'

'Your voice, my voice … The … the screaming.'

'What screaming?'

'I can't tell it to stop; it won't stop,' the Doctor managed to get out, sobbing now. 

'Doctor, tell me. What screaming?'

'Mo'loyi'ei,' the Doctor gasped.

'Doctor, I can't understand you when you talk Gallifreyan …!'

The Doctor swallowed, trying to get a grip on himself as he forced his hearts rates to reduce and placed telepathic shields to try and block out the screaming. 'S-sorry,' he said, tears running down his face.

'It's okay. Look, if you wanna quit, we'll quit.'

'... I d-don't think I've ever felt this sc-scared, Jack.'

'Is it the same kind of feeling you used to get with me? When you used to feel I was wrong?'

The Doctor nodded. 'Yes … but ab-bout a thousand times w-worse.'

Jack hesitated, glancing at the door. Due to the severity of the Doctor's reaction, it suddenly looked incredibly ominous. 'I could go in by myself,' he offered, the confidence of his tone betraying his feelings.

'N-no,' the Doctor said, shaking his head and standing up with Jack's support. 'We've c-come this far. Open it.'

'You sure?'

The Doctor nodded, wiping at his nose with his sleeve. Apprehensive, Jack rested a hand on the handle and pulled. 

Nothing jumped out like they'd both been subconsciously expecting. It was just another room, looking like some sort of messy laboratory. Machines lined the walls, their cables tangled. Paperwork was strewn about the place, and to the left was a sealed chamber with an observation window blacked out.

'All right?' Jack checked with the Time Lord.

The Doctor nodded. 'What's that noise?' 

'I can't hear anything.'

'That whirring,' the Doctor muttered, following the noise he could hear. It led him to the sealed chamber. The Doctor unlocked the door and, with his exotronic arm, managed to haul its heavy frame open.

'Oh my god,' Jack croaked.

[wonderland-lovebirds]

Could I request a Kin Matchup from PJSK, Cookie Run and/or Genshin?

I'm a decently introverted person, I don't have a lot of confidence in myself or my hobbies. I like writing and art, and I play drums and Piano! My goal is to finish writing a novel, which I'm working on; and compose an accompanying song. A lot of my life has been dedicated to helping others since I've been in a parental role in my family for a long time due to my mother's health issues. I have a really bad habit of biting my nails when I'm nervous, and I avoid going to classes because I get bad anxiety around having to see people. I also don't. really leave my house much.

And not sure if this one will help, but my favorite Vocaloid Producer is Deco*27 !

Hello Anon!! I did three matchups for each source and for Cookie Run I did Kingdom only since I didn't know if you wanted Ovenbreak, Kingdom, or just Cookies from either. But you can find that Matchup below the cut! Hope you're satified with the results!! <33

Xingqiu

My first thought was Xingqiu. He's not the most extroverted person, nor introvert. I'd say more of an ambivert. He's into writing and writes his own books as well as reads a lot so there are similarities there. When he met with Albedo he seems to have a respect for arts as well. Xingqiu is a hard worker and often helps other people like his friend Chongyun.

Sucrose

My second thought was Sucrose. They are definitely more introverted and from what I can tell has anxious tendencies. They're one to stick to working with people they know. There seems to be lack on confidence with this one too. While they may not be into writing or music there is alchemy which could be considered a form of art even if it's more in the science field. They also tend to help Albedo a lot.

Barbara

Lastly I thought of Barbara! She's pretty introverted though probably closer to the ambiverted side. Since she does work for the church and has to preform. She does tend to get flustered and embarrassed easily though. Like you she has a taste for music! She's a singer and performs for the church and things like that so theres probably some similarities there! She'll do whatever she can to help others too even if it destories her mentally or physically. Definitely a people pleaser. She can get overwhelmed pretty easily too and leave a situation because of it.

Kanade Yoisaki

My first thought was Kanade Yoisaki. She's quite literally a shut in and writes a lot of her lyrics and composes music almost contantly. She has a saviour complex and is always trying to help ones she's close to. She's definitely more introverted and not a very outspoken person. She doesn't seem to have much confidence in herself either when trying to help Mafuyu thete was constant battles with herself.

Nene Kusanagi

Secondly I thought of Nene Kusanagi. She is rather shy, even going as far as using a puppet when she has to perform due to her anxious nature and stage fright. Of course being in a unit she has some form of likes for music as you do. She's also known to be a hardworker. While she may not take care of people all the time like you do I still think you doing that is hardworking which can slightly relate to Nene.

Ena Shinonome

Lastly I thought of Ena Shinonome. She's not the most introverted person nor is she the most extroverted person. Probably an ambivert. She is absolutely absorbed in the world of art. Though when she does make art she doesn't always like it and isn't always confident in her work. In oyher words she isn't the most confident in her hobbys. Since she's also in a unit she probably holds some sort of interest in music.

Clover Cookie

My first thought was Clover Cookie! They probably prefer to be alone since they travel through the forest and all so much. They like music too!! They love to sing and play their grass-woven lute. They're also a fan of poetry so you could probably tie that into your love for writing.

Eclair Cookie

Secondly I thought of Eclair Cookie, while he mau be more enthusiastic he does have an interest in writing. He also tends to greet and tale care of people fairly often and well, so that could somewhat tie into you helping your mother quite a lot. If you count a the relics he loves and collects as art then there's that as well.

Strawberry Cookie

Lasy I thought of Strawberry Cookie. She is shy and introverted to the point where she will pull her strings of her hoodie to hide her face. She is also rather ashamed of herself and isn't confident in herself either. Though when it comes to friends she'll try her best to help them out if she can!

[bidokja]

I was the original sender of that anon and don't worry! at no point in time did I feel you set out to insult my reading of orv. Moreso I'm thankful you've put that so beautifully and elaborated on several things in orv that Are gaybait and almost done exclusively to gain a larger readership and generate conversation around it (when it was initially being published). In reading lns I've often come to accept settling for 'less' so the things you spoke about were things that I felt miffed about but did not dwell on bc I've come to accept them as just /stuff that happens in lns bc medium conventions/ even tho I know it shouldn't. you've given me a lot to revaluate, thanks a ton 🙇🏾‍♀️

no problem!! and thank you!! this ask is actually so sweet?? where is my pleading emoji when i need it...android plz...

but, i totally get what you mean! though i'm. painfully Aware of the flaws in things i read (bc i try and step back and be critical for all media i consume) when it comes to media that i know i am Not the target audience for - as a trans bi disabled nd latine - there's a lot i'm desensitized to. a lot of bullshit im willing to push past if it means seeing what a new webnovel or light novel is about.

i'm critical and aware and it isn't that i let it slide, per se (it's not like these authors don't know right and wrong. i'm not abt to woobify or excuse them just cause they're from a different country than me. they're grown adults and i still expect them to know better while taking into account cultural differences).

but, since i know it's not something made with me taken into account whatsoever it's like...an odd feeling of "well, it's not like they Made this for inclusivity reasons and that plot twist WAS pretty interesting."

honestly i think it's natural and fine to get attached to series, and as long as you put effort into thinking about things like "are thete any bigotted tropes/stereotypes present. what could be the negative impacts of this. what were the author's reasons for writing this, not the characters' reasons for doing it." and are honest with yourself and others about the conclusions you reach like. it's fine yknow.

nothing is perfect. some things are HEAVILY imperfect. some things have bad shit strewn in, but none of it is intrinsic to the plot or themes of the media so it's possible to be critical while also enjoying the series itself with them removed. some have just one bad thing, but it's so heavily interwoven into the plot it's inseperable and inexcusable and theres the risk of ingraining or spreading that bad thing by indulging in the series. sometimes a series would be great if the author just stopped putting in their shit opinions and focused on the plot.

in any case. tl;dr: keep your eyes open and your gears spinning, but have fun too, that's important dhshdhd

[fictionkinfessions]

I... don't know gow to talk about this but I figured I could try. I've been ignoring it and denying it for months, even just to me because no one knows about it but me. So... here goes, I think.

In my canon, I did die beffore the tragedy or at the start of it I guess, but I didn't stay dead. Ms. Yukizome took my body and gave it to Tengen. If anyone else knew of this they probably said they wanted to give me a funeral.

But they didn't... Instead they- they...

There is a dnahanronpa lab au, were everyone is experiments of Junko... the sprite for me in it. Being a living computer essentially is... that's me.

What Tengen did to me. Or had the Future Foundation scientist do or... whatever. I don't know. I just know that they used alter ego to make an AI of me for the NeoWorld Program. I know that AI was actually hooked up to my body. I know they implanted a defibrillator into my chest necause even the slightest amount of adrenalin, anything that wpuld make my heart rate speed up would cause my heart to stop.

They had machines, robots to help bulster numbers against the Monokuma army Kazuichi made. Who do you think controlled those machines? Ultimate Gamer, I was so good at combat games that it bled into being a near genius at battle strategy. So why wouldn't they make me fight and try to kill my friends. I always... let them go though. I wouldn't kill Nekomaru or Akane. I avoided hitting Kazuichi. I hesitated and let the machines be destroyed by Izuru, because he was Hajime- him and Hajime shared a body and I couldn't... I wouldn't kill the people I care for. The people I love like family and romantically. I refused.

Not that it seemed to bother Tengen.

I hate thinking of it, of living and feeling my excecution because perhapd the Junko AI knew... she could hack Future Foundation files, if Tengen had anything about me thete then she knew. I don't think he did. I think I was entirely off record.

I hate that I existed in two places at once, one was a miserable lonely existence full of pain and constant foghting and the other I got to be with the people who matter most to me. I got to live peacefully and then Junko happened. Junko always happens...

But Tengen happened first and that I hate more. Junko killed me but Tengen brought me back as a weapon, as some- thing. It makes me so angry and sad to think about it. Why? Why couldn't he just let me die? I was already gone and I should have stayed dead! I hate Junko for killing me and making my friends suffer but I hate Tengen even more! Thats why I'm both human and AI Chiaki, because I wasn't allowed to die and I was literally half in tge real world and half in virtual!

And only in Danganronpa is something as wild as that capable of happening. I guess.

But- I am happy that afyer Tengen was gone and they were builsing the foundation back up... that Munikata took over. That Munikata... found me.

He listened to me! He listened to my story of what happened and in the end he had Alter Ego work on fully merging my AI and my consciousness. And once that was finished- he detached me from my wiring and finally let me die. I lived on in my programming as an AI. I wasn't physical anymore but I was happy. I could be with everyone. And after a long while- I think they built a new body for me. It was hard but everuthing was better. So much better.

If I ever see Munikata again, I'm going to thank him because I didn't get to do it last time. And if I don't see him again, I'm going to say it here. In case he remembers this, so he knows.

Arigato, Munikata-san. Thank you. Thank you so much.

-Chiaki Nanami 🎮

(#Fictive please if you will mpc)

[gierosajie]

Don't mind my 2 am sleep deprived thoughtd, but like, ever wonder how messed up Ninjago's education system is? Like, when you think about it, 40 years is kinda not that long ago and yet people think the Serpentine were jjst myths despite the whole big war that went on. Was thete a coverup??? Are there conspiracy theorists trying to uncover the forgotten parts of Ninjago History? Also yhete is an entire boarding school that churns out villains??? when kids could've idk, went to better life routes??? Why villainy??? I know the ownership and uhh stuff went to Wu and the rhing with reforming thr school, bu what the heck. Did anyone even notify Lou about Cole not being at the performing arts school? How did the ninja get their teaching liscence? Do...Do they even have one?

[jakemyboy]

Boy at his park. Well, just saw a case of very bad pet guardianship, dog ownership whatever you want to call it. We had just walked past the dog park and thete were two medium dogs inside that came to the fence to say hi to Jake as we walked by.

We passed by and then all of a sudden I heard a sound, and the two dogs had jumped the fence and were scampering around in the field. I immediately became very, very anxious, because if those dogs came up to Jake he would probably bite them and who knows what would happen. They were not a scary dog type at all,I don't know what they were but they would not have fared well with Jake.

Instead of coming to Jake, those dogs dashed across a small Street in the park and were off in a field that's about two city blocks long. The owner didn't even realize they were gone so I yelled and another person in the park alerted her that her dogs were gone! Before you know it they've left the park grounds and are dashing across a four-lane 50 mile an hour Street!

I put Jake in the car and went off walking trying to see the dogs, I couldn't even find them at first. then they came from the opposite direction and went running across traffic again down the way. The owner followed in her car but they wouldn't come to her. Luckily they ran back into the park grounds and ran back to the dog park and someone contained one of them, and the owner finally got the other one to come to her. I had apologized for not following the dogs in my car, explaining that my dog wouldn't allow them into my car. She said thank you, but her dogs won't even come to her.

As I drove off with the window down I heard her telling another person in the dog park that it was time to get 'those collars'. Yeah lady, you better do something I don't want to see those dogs bodies in the street. It was heartbreaking thinking of what might happen.

[ifeelsoemptysometimes]

I really hate that I vant do think when i wabt to. Not doing them makes me so anxious but thinking doing them also majes me anxious so im stuck in a place were i really want to but at the same time i really dont want to. I just hate it. I wish I had someone who could encourage me to do my work. Some one who will sit down with me and help me figure things out but then even that isn't good. I can't depend on others to help me but then, its not like I can depend on much either haha. Im a whole mess. I wish my dad listened to me. My opportunity isn't going anywhere. It probably would have been better too but no. Nononono I dont have a choice he said. I want to give up i want to stop everything and run away but I cant I cant I cant. Its so funny, I wonder what kind of person I'd be now if I got the "help" I needed as a child. I put help in quotation mark bc I dont know if there's something actually wrong with me but as I heard someone say, normal people don't question whether there's something wrong with them. Or do they? Idk I heard this on tiktok so how much truth can this actually hold? Idk. But, sometimes just feel like im trying to convince myself that's there's something wrong with me when there's not but why would I even do that?? Thetes no benefits for me to pretend and lie about it. Idk my mind is so twisted that I gaslight myself haha! Haha I wish I could spiral, spiral so deep that I can't come back up. For why?? So that oncan avoid responsibility?? Yea i guess. Is that bad?? Is it bad to think that?? Its honestly quite funny and sad and pathetic to see when I go into work and my supervisor tells me how one of our kids has low self esteem and that we are gonna come up with activities to help them bring it up and I just sit here thinking "wow you could have helped me as a child but my mom refused yalls help even though this would have cost you nothing" not even a dime. Unless she where to take me some private clinic them maybe it would have cost her but whatever that not the conversation here haha." Or maybe this is just me trying to find some to blame for my academic failures and fears? Its more than just that but I think that can be the start of it all?? I could have gotten help though out the years. But maybe I'm just good at pretending like everything is fine?? ...No i don't think so. Maybe I was just ignored. Despite the fact that I was told that I suffered a lot in school.. no im not good at pretending. "4th grade was when you shaped up." Shaped up?? You call that shaped up??? I cant even come to comprehend how I even got past those school years. How im a senior in college?? Its beyond me how I'm even at this point un my life. My guess it was bybthe grace of God and I definitely don't deserve that. I dont think deserve any of this. I dont know what I deserve. Or do i?? I honestly don't even know. I dont know. I wonder who id be right now if I got the "help" I needed as a child. Would anything have changed?? Would i still be sitting here, typing this out?? I hope it would have but as you can tell things didn't go down that path.

[jamie-nicole-97-blog]

My Life - Owen Hunt x Surgical Nurse Reader

For: 21st Birthday Challenge

Song: "Welcome to my life" by Simple Plan

Warnings: mention of surgery, mention of blood, patient death, depression, anxiety, self doubt, low self-esteem, panic attack, trouble breathing, smut and language.

Y/n was in a surgery when the patient started coding, Y/n assisted Dr Hunt in trying to get the patient back. "Time of death 13:23" Owen said, Y/n ran out of the operating room, she stopped right in front of the door. Y/n was able to hold back but she felt it coming, the tightening in her chest. She felt the tears prick in her eyes, it got hard for her to breathe, her panic attack hit fast. Owen opened the door hitting her causing her to fall on her knees, he heard her struggle for air.

"Y/n" he said, Owen assessed the situation and decided she was having a panic attack. Owen lifted her up carrying her into an ER bed, "no, Owen please no" Y/n pleaded. He knew what she meant so he took her to a room where the doctors slept setting her on a bed. "I'll be right back, I'm gonna get some oxygen" Owen said leaving the room. He returned with the oxygen and he closed and locked the door behind him.

Owen put the mask over Y/n's nose and mouth, "just relax Y/n, I wish you had told me you had these, it's okay I'm here and I'm not leaving you" Owen said. Y/n and Owen had been dating for a few months and they weren't serious yet. At least that's what she thought until she had her panic attack and the way he responded. Y/n's breathing had steadied and she calmed down leaning her back on Owen's chest. She was very emotional when Owen asked, "what triggered your panic attack", her dam broke and she started letting everything out.

"Do you ever feel like breaking down? Do you ever feel out of place? Like somehow you just don't belong and no one understands you.Do you ever want to run away? Do you lock yourself in your room? With the radio on turned up so loud that no one hears you screaming. Do you want to be somebody else? Are you sick of feeling so left out? Are you desperate to find something more before your life is over? Are you stuck inside a world you hate? Are you sick of everyone around? With the big fake smiles and stupid lies but deep inside you're bleeding" Y/n said. Owen could tell Y/n wasnt done, he had his hands on her arms rubbing soothingly.

"You don't know what it's like, no you don't know what its like when nothing feels alright. You don't know what its like to be like me. To be hurt, to feel lost, to be left out in the dark, to be kicked when you're down, to feel like you've been pushed around. To be on the edge of breaking down and no one there to save you. No you don't know what its like welcome to my life" Y/n said with tears running down her face.

"Y/n, I do know, honey I know what all that all of that feels like, I've been through PTSD I know what it feels like" Owen said. "There have been times where I've hated myself and I've done things I hate to talk about but I got help and it was difficult and painful and it almost broke me. But I had people thete yo support me, to help me threw it and I'll be here for you. No matter what you need, I want you to use me in every way you can think of" Owen said.

"That last part came out a lot dirtier than I'd meant" he said, "it's okay Owen, one of the causes of my pent up anxiety is being horny. Alex and I had a friends with benefits arrangement until he got back with Jo and you and I got together" Y/n said. "I don't want, are you sure you're okay to have sex I don't want to hurt you" Owen said. "I'm fine Owen, but if I have any issues, we are in a hospital and oxygen is right there" Y/n said.

Owen chuckled and nodded before pressing his lips to hers kissing her, Y/n pressed her lips to his. Owen pulled her scrub top off, then her sports bra, Y/n untied her drawstring pulling her scrub pants off kicking them off along with her panties and shoes. Owen pulled his top off throwing it to the floor with her clothes. He placed his lips back to hers kissing her while laying her down on the bed, her legs fell open.

Owen put his hand in his pants pulling his cock out, he slid two fingers in her tight pussy forming a scissor motion. "Owen" Y/n moaned, bucking her hips up, he slid his cock in her pussy. They both moaned at the feeling of his cock rubbing against her pussy walls. Y/n dug her fingers into his back, he thrust his hips fast and hard pounding into her, she put her finger on her clit. She rubbed her clit in time with his thrusts, her pussy clenched him, he pulled out. Y/n's climax exploded in her, she screamed his name, he pulled out shooting his seed on her stomach.

Owen used the blanket to clean her stomach and pussy, before he pulled her close to him. "I hoped that helped, I know I enjoyed it" Owen said, "oh it definitely helped and I loved it but, next time let's do it at your place, I almost bit off my tongue trying not to scream" Y/n said. "Yeah, Then maybe we should get dressed and you know, go" he said, "sure, but I need to get some food in me before we do that again" Y/n said. "Good so, dinner, breakfast, lunch, I have no idea what time it is" Owen said, "I don't know, all I know is it's tine for food" Y/n said.

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[calculator-menace]

I love bilingual/multilingual mixups irl. I'm a latine kid with latino grandparents so my entire household speaks Spanish (I'm still working on it, I can only speak basic conversations and broken Spanglish I'm tryING.)

My FAVORITE is:

My Abuela, in spanish: Now, while you're on vacation, make sure you stay close to your dad.

Me, mistranslating what she said: *punches my dad really hard*

Or, the multiple times I've talked to my friends in Spanish just because it came easier to me at the moment but my friends don't speak any Spanish.

I look super white (thanks, white mom) so NOBODY expects that when I get scared I yell either "¡Ay!" Or "¡Ay Díos mío!" But?? I do??

I was on a trip where I met a woman who *only* spoke Albanian and I did *not speak Albanian* and she really needed help becuase she couldn't navigate the German Airport, so I wipped out Google Translater to help. After helping her, I put translater away, but then she INSISTS, in a language I do not speak, that she buy me a pretzel. I didn't know how to tell her that I didn't want a pretzel, so I was just frantically sputtering "oh,,, no thank you,, yo no tengo hambre,, wait you won't understand that,,,¿no gracias? FUCK."

Oh I just remembered

My Abuelo: Hasta luego

Me: Thanks

My dad: Y..You know you responded to him wrong, right?

Me: I know what I fucking said.

(I know that thete are other stories that are even better but it's 6 am and I can Not think.)

im going to have a stroke

[asmallgirlinabox]

"It would've been a lot easier to go if I hadn't had kids. I honestly still don't know what I'm doing. He thinks I'm coming back some day and I'm building up a hole new life somewhere else" She looked at Sam, trying to keep a neutral face as she vented her troubles. "I never even really knew you could just...get up a go. Or well, I didn't think...People just don't really do that where I'm from. "

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Thete stretched out his hand. "Don't go!" He exclaimed, suddenly worried. "I don't want you to go. Dad did that" He added, pulling his blanket up again.

The Times They Are a-Changin'(closed rp) (Continued)

[madame-nostradamus]

A word of warning, I’m afraid my answers are quite long and somewhat conjecture, but I’ve done my best to provide examples from canon. And there are some spoilers, however minor.

1) From what I understand, “Theta” is a not a nickname per se, but a ranking earned at the academy. The Doctor was last in most his class, and thus earned this title. It's from the classic series. I forget what episode it was, but the Fourth Doctor ran into a timelord who addressed him as "Thete".

The name “Koschei” appears to have come - or at least appeared in - from a Fifth Doctor story called "Divided Loyalties". This is conjecture, but it might be part of a proper name, which the Tardiswiki says is likely thirty-two letters long.

2) To my knowledge, there is nowhere written down the physiological and mental abilities of Time Lords. Frankly, they can do whatever the narrative needs them to do.

"Respiratory Bypass” I think is somewhat of a misnomer. Their biology is similar to humans in many ways, if duplicate. But the respiratory system is probably the biggest difference physiologically. Their lungs have the capacity to store oxygen in greater amounts than your average human, and I believe that The Doctor said that could allow a Timelord to remain conscious three times longer than a humans. Additionally, [and the the trustworthiness of this next bit is based off a fairly well researched fansite from ten years ago dedicated to Timelord Physiology that's since been deleted] Gallifreyan lungs seem to have the ability to oxygenate blood directly separate from the pulmonary system. Which I guess where the “bypass” part would come in I suppose.

That scene with Nine and Rose was a great one. That's when I knew that I was hooked. But I'm not sure how exactly to process the information we're given, and I think that was the point. He is an alien. He is capable of sensing things we can't even begin to comprehend. But if I were to guess, it would have to do with time and gravity. Timelords can "taste" time, but it's not really a taste. That's just the way that we can understand it. It's like trying to describe colors to a blind person. It's possible, just very difficult.

That said they, or at least the Doctor has a very sensitive, but more importantly discerning sense of taste. The thing is, I think this was something he worked on. I think there was a long period of time where the Doctor was just tasting things and looking up what they were made of so that they'd know what it was the next time he tasted it.

3) Short answer: Yes.

Long answer: Timelords don't exactly have the same concept of death that we do. Regeneration isn't something to take lightly, of course. You only get twelve regenerations. But when you live for such a long time, life tends to become somewhat... shall we say colorless. You might choose to regenerate just for a change, just as one might consider moving to another country for the adventure of it.

Now while forced regeneration is also a punishment, that's not precisely what happened to the Doctor. I'm sure there is some public forum like out courts that would likely have preceded a legitimate "death" penalty. But is this case, the Doctor was exiled to Earth for violating their policy of non-interference [which they themselves exploited just prior to his banishment]. So the Doctor's crimes? Saving lives.

4) Ah, the confusing world of naming conventions. I don't know why some Timelords have only titles and some only names. But when it comes to the names, there is some sense to it. Titles, like the Doctor and the Master, are chosen. I don’t know why or when, or for what reason, but they did.

Now, let's take Romanadvoratrelundar for example [you were literally only one letter off, btw]. "Romana" seems to be her first proper name, a personal name if you will. "Dvora" is the house she belongs to, her surname. "Trelundar" is less clear. Perhaps correlating to the time of year she was born, a constellation or a moon or the like.

Rassilon, and other timelords from long ago, seem to come from a time where they didn’t have great houses that they belonged to. Their names were just their names alone. I’m not sure they even had surnames.

And just for laughs because they completely ridiculous, let's take a look at some of the other Timelord names I found on the wiki [house names are highlighted]: Ruthventracolixabaxil, Quencessetianobayolocaturgrathadadeyyilungbarrowmas, Leelandredloomsagwinaechegesima, and Goralschaixianthellipse

5) Copying from the Tardiswiki, "According to the Master, he was an amalgamation of the Doctor's darker sides from between his twelfth and final incarnations, who frequently menaced the Sixth Doctor so he could take the Doctor's remaining lives." [I don't understand much about him myself, I haven't seen any episodes about or involving him.]

6) Um... never. Oh they cut down the number of episodes, anywhere from four to two parts later on. But I don't think that's till after the Second Doctor. And we don't get the 45 minute/one episode format until the start of the New Who in 2005. Five, Six, and Seven seem to be more action packed, they might help keep your attention a little bit better.

7) Yes, he's the one with the coat, and yes, he did almost accidentally strangle Peri. Still not entirely clear on what happened, it was all a little hard to follow.

Wiki page isn't very helpful so I have some random questions for the Doctor Who fandom:

1) where do the names Theta and Kochei (I'm probably spelling that wrong) come from in terms of referring to the Doctor and the Master during their.... Childhood/days in the academy? Are these their ""real"" names, or was it some kind of designation given to them by the Academy?

2) do we have any concrete guides on Time Lord abilities? Like, I know they're touch telepathic and can read/erase memories, but can they feel someone's emotions just by touching them? Ive heard of the "Respitory Bypass" ability that lets then survive strangulation, but was that just a throwaway line for plot drama, or does it ever go in depth about HOW it works? Do they start breathing through like, , their skin when their lungs stop working properly? Is it as Nine said, they can feel the rotation of planets when they're standing on them? Can taste time on objects as well as idenify their chemical makeup? (hence the Doctor constantly licking things)

3) uh,,,, did the Time Lords straight up murder the Second Doctor??????????? Like. Wtf. I know that.... Three(?) Was banished to earth for awhile, and that's why he was working with UNIT, but like. What on EARTH did Two do that was so bad???!?!?

4) Romanadevoratrelundar. I can almost guarantee you that I spelled that wrong. How come Romana and Rassilon do not have "title" names, like the Doctor and the Master do? Do other Time Lords have "regular" names instead of titles, or is it a mix? What's the deciding factor? Is it something to do with the Academy (which I know nothing about other than the name) or is it just a personal choice based on aesthetic preferences?

5) who/what is the Valeyard? I've seen them referenced before,but no lore or concrete answers. Are they an alternative regeneration of the Doctor? Are they an EVIL alternate Doctor?

6) last but not least, when do the Classic Who episodes become a more.... Modern format, is ever? We tried watching from the beginning with an Amazon prime free trial of Britbox, but my GOD. ADHD does NOT pair well with six, 40-minute "parts" of an episode, especially with Susan shrieking every five minutes lol. We TRIED watching in chronological order for awhile but that got very tiring very quick so we started skipping forward to mid-season, then next season, then the next doctor, etc, but it seems like every freaking Doctor has nothing but 6-parter episode storylines and I do not have the patience for that. We DID watch the Fourth Doctor's first episode and I already loved him in his first five minutes, but the pacing was very slow and our trial had run out. Any particular Doctors you guys reccomend for more condensed / ADHD-friendly storylines?

7) ALMOST FORGOT! So. The Sixth Doctor... He's the one in the rainbow coat, right? Didn't he try to freaking MURDER his companion because of Regeneration Sickness or something???

~ I can assure you, any answers to these questions can and WILL be used to write angsty/epic fanfiction :)