#if you can stomach the embalming ofc

[yappacadaver]

omgggg the new update will have an embalming only mode!!!!! that means everyone who dislikes the horror elements can now play :D

[apoptoses]

One of the many (many!) reasons I love your take on D/A so much is because it takes me back to that bit in QoTD that goes something like “in the very midst of life they plunged”, which is imo the core of their relationship and the bond they share with each other. Whatever they get up to together? It’s only a thing because they get to experience it together and they experience it fully. Truly the definition of two mfs who’ve tried everything once. Partners in crime 4ever imma cry!!! And yes ofc Armand getting freaky at the doctor’s office DEFINITELY counts, so excited for this xoxo DA 🥹

Oh, DA, thank you 🥹

Exactly!!

And like, I have this thing about seeing all of a person.

There's an intrusive thought I have a lot about c-sections. How if you have a c-section the doctors will see more of your body than you'll ever see yourself, and if they let your partner come around the curtain to cut the cord then they will also have seen your insides. Imagine not knowing what your own stomach looks like but the person you're with has seen. That's like the most fucked up form of intimacy possible.

And that's something I come back to with Armand and Daniel and the concept of them experiencing things together that they'll never experience with anyone else, and experiencing them to an extreme no one else would take it to.

So in this fic I have this bit:

He couldn’t deny that the idea turned him on once Armand put it in his head. Being so sexually obsessed with someone that you had to know every part of them, that their outsides won’t do. That Armand had to know the shape and form of his organs as well as he knew his face or his hands. Had to know things Daniel didn’t even know about himself. The worst injury he’d ever gotten was a broken arm. He remembered the visceral feeling of seeing his own bones on the x-ray and he wondered if Armand would feel the same once he turned on the ultrasound machine.

And then it just spirals from there, with Armand doing everything he can see to see every part and function of him possible to see in this exam room.

And idk, the intimacy of it gets me. Modern humans are shaved and washed and sanitized like walking embalmed corpses and I think Armand would want to get beyond that and see the messy parts, the visceral things that could be considered gross. He's a little freak who wants all of Daniel.

I hope you like it when I post it!! Just promise to take my hand, trust me, and look past the tags this once (because nothing I write is ever as extreme as the tags make it sound lol) 🥰