#if we dont gaf about this one i prommy im shutting up for real this time

[meek-shall-inherit]

you ever think about how jedidiah also has the consumption/eating themes but in a distinctly different way . his themes are focused on choking down things . jedidiah overall has a lot of the same themes as sydney but in noteably different ways

jedidiah's food/consumption as love themes are about either entirely avoiding it or just choking it down to get it over with , and being sick as a result from either . "no, i dont. i can never eat pork again. i feel sick." he cant handle love because of how lucille raised him. he was raised without love or support and had to live like that for so long that he never learned how to handle it, and he went in the opposite direction than sydney went. instead of begging and pleading for any kind of affection he can get, jedidah leans into nothingness. his view of love is just keeping someone alive, even if you never say you care about them. to him, you could go far enough to completely cut yourself off emotionally from somebody just to keep them safe and thats all that would matter. that youre keeping them alive and safe. he was raised to believe that emotions dont matter. it doesnt matter if youre a fly in a tupperware container slowly dying, as long as you can prolong and delay that process, its okay, right? it doesnt matter if youre starving. "i swallowed the acid id coughed up, and relished how it burnt my throat. id never spit this up again. id let it dissolve me before i let another heart stop. // ill dissolve, okay? ill shatter like glass." he views opening up as just a burden for the other person. he doesnt see why communication could ever be a good thing. all its ever done is hurt people. and he cant handle losing anyone else, god forbid sydney, to his own mistakes. he views his only purpose and the only thing hes good for is keeping other people safe behind the scenes, being a silent preventer, having no needs and no wants. jedidiah's hands are as empty as sydney's.