#if u wanna follow me there u can DM me i’ll send u the link id say i’m more normal there

[ashmp3]

getting hard blocked on my other blog i use as a DIARY by random mutuals in law i have no idea exist is so funny to me like ur my fan idk what to tell you but also i block them from here. Checkmate like who do you think you are ……

[autistic-katara]

finally making an intro post after months of using this acc 💕

(will probably have to go back and edit this a bunch // i have no idea how to make one of these)

hi, my name’s Ryan, my pronouns r he/him and i’m a Scottish, autistic, Jewish, chronically ill, bisexual trans guy

my account is multifandom (with some non-fandom stuff aswell) but is mostly a Stranger Things/Byler acc

i’m a fanfic writer who exclusively posts on ao3 (my acc is Raines_Adopted_Son), feel free to send me fic requests/prompts any time (tho theres no guarantee i’ll actually write them // will make a post later detailing what i will/won’t write later and link it here)

while i am not 100% an anti (i’ll explain that if needed) if i find out ur a proshipper i will block u MY VIEWS ON THIS HAVE CHANGED BUT I CBA TO REMAKE THIS POST RN SO JUST IGNORE THIS SECTION

feel free to send asks/anons/dms anytime i find it fun to interact with u mfs

@/moots u guys can literally show up to my house if u want literally anything goes for use except deadnaming/misgendering me (or other stuff like that)

don’t rlly wanna have a DNI list here cause idk it feels kinda icky but there r some ppl i seriously do not wanna interact with so terfs/radfems in general please block me on site thanks :) (also soft dni for h*rry p*tter fans if u post abt it and don’t follow me i will probably block u but if u follow me i don’t wanna be a bitch abt it so i just won’t follow u back)

that’s all i can think of for now i probably missed smthn super important but yk // if u have any questions or anything feel free to ask c:

[caplanbuckybarnes]

CAPPYS DECADE CHALLENGE

It’s absolutely been forever since I made a writing challenge and I’ve been wanting more fics to read, so alas, here’s a new one for y’all.

updated on April 4 2024 to allow for ANY character you'd like!

Rules:

It’s not necessary to follow me, but it’s always appreciated

There are no deadlines, but please keep me updated on your fics.

Tag the fic #cappysdecadeschallenge

Also tag me in the authors notes (along with the hashtag so I know which Masterlist to place the fic when I post it)

Please tag the proper warnings before the fic

CAN BE ANY CHARACTER YOU HAVE INSPIRATION FOR!!

More than one person can write for the prompts

No RPFs

If this happens to get more reblogs/ participants than I expect I’ll add more songs to each decade.

If you’d like to write for more than one song, please make them separate fics

Can be however long you’d like the fic to be. (If it’s more than 450 words PLEASE use the keep reading feature.

If I do not respond to your fic being posted in 24hours of you posting the fic, please message me a link.

Send me an ask or a DM with your prompt and the character you’re writing for.

50s

I’ve Got You Under My Skin— frank sinatra

Dream A Little Dream of Me —Ella Fitzgerald $ Louis Armstrong

Put Your Head on my Shoulder- Paul Anka

Stupid Cupid- Connie Francis

Pennies From Heaven —- Louis prima

I’m Gonna Get Married —Lloyd Price

Your Cheatin’ Heart — Hank Williams

I Walk The Line — Johnny Cash

We Belong Together — Ritchie Valens

Tears On My Pillow — Little Anthony

60s

My Girl — The Temptations

When a Man Loves a Woman —- Percy sledge

Stand By Me — Ben E. King

Build Me Up Buttercup —- the Foundations

I want you back —- the Jackson 5

I want to hold your hand —- the Beatles

You can’t hurry love -- the supremes

I can’t help myself — four tops

Then he kissed me— the crystals

Can’t help falling in love— Elvis Presley

70s

Dancing Queen— ABBA

I can see clearly now— Johnny Nash

December 1963 — the four seasons

I want you back — the Jackson five

Ain’t no sunshine — bill withers

Jolene — Dolly Parton

You’re so vain — Carly Simon

September — Earth, wind, and fire

Edge of seventeen — Stevie Nicks

80s

Love Shack — b-52s

Jesse’s girl — Rick Springfield

Dancing in the dark — Bruce Springsteen

Africa — ToTo

Never Gonna Give You Up — Rick Astley

Only in my dreams — Debbie Gibson

Careless Whisper — George Michael

Call Me — Blondie

Bohemian Rhapsody— Queen

You to me are everything — the real thing

I got lucky — Elvis Presley

90s

Wonderwall — Oasis

No scrubs — TLC

Fantasy — Mariah Carey

Say my name — Destiny's Child

Waterfalls — TLC

Remember the time — Michael Jackson

Two Princes — Spin Doctors

Torn — Natalie Imbruglia

Iris — Goo Goo Dolls

Kiss From a Rose — Seal

00’s

My Boo — usher, Alicia keys

Not Over You — Gavin DeGraw

Grenade — Bruno Mars

Home — Phillip Phillips

You Found Me — The Fray

Bleeding love — Leona Lewis

Irreplaceable — Beyoncé

Since You’ve Been Gone— Kelly Clarkson

This Love — Maroon 5

If I Ain’t Got You — Alicia Keys

U Remind Me — Usher

I Don't Wanna Be — Gavin DeGraw

‘10s

Diamonds — Rihanna

Talk — Khalid

You Belong With Me — Taylor Swift

Lucky — Jason Mraz

Shape Of You — Ed Sheeran

Treat You Better — Shawn Mendes

Just Give Me a Reason — P!NK

What Do You Mean? — Justin Bieber

Shut Up and Dance — WALK THE MOON

Someone Like You — Adele

no tears left to cry — Ariana Grande

We Don’t Talk Anymore — Charlie Puth

Delicate — Taylor Swift

[smokedturtles]

Introduction post????

Hi!! I used to be on Instagram as an anime account back in the middle school (idk if y’all followed peppermint.sticks but if you did that’s me!!). I’m back on here mainly bc I want anime art but I am also open to meeting new people!!!

I have a very busy social life (full time college student, pretty outgoing etc.) so my messaging time could be delayed…here is some about me

I’m gonna keep my name out of posting for right now!! If u wanna be friends just dm me lol. I’m 19, bisexual, and majoring in Enviornmental science specifically renewable energy. Pronouns are she/her/hers. I am also in a relationship with my amazing long distance army boyfriend since February 2021!! I have a lot of interests, but public health and urban planning are some of them!! Personality I am a very empathetic kind person (will not be a doormat lol), smart, and ambitious. I joke around a lot and consider myself to be pretty caring. As for hobbies I love hanging out with my friends, partying, writing (I used to write short stories and even books but I always drop them bc I’m lazy), (maybe I’ll post snippets of what I write??), drawing (less frequent now), and tarot reading. I play piano not as frequently though. I’m also quite absorbed in my religion (which now has become modern day spirituality…quite frustrating pls stop white washing my religion) which is Hinduism and Buddhism and a big advocate on eliminating all the misconceptions and trying to bring back the power to it!! Stop calling your crystals, chakras, yoga practices and energy spirituality!! It’s Hinduism!!!

��️PLEASE DO NOT SPOIL ANIMES THAT HAVE NOT CAUGHT UP TO THE MANGA. PLEASE TAG IF THERE ARE SPOILERS. ESPECIALLY AOT. I DO NOT READ MANGA.‼️

An extensive list of my animes I have watched can be found on my anime list (the website)! My username is andimhome (I’m attaching a link). There you will see my interests. I update it frequently. But… top 3 have got to be (and this was a hard list) Sakik K, AOT, and steins gate!!

My favorite movie is Spirited Away!! I’m trying to watch all of the Studio Ghibli movies!!

I am also into vocaloids, or getting back into them I should say!! Favorite one is Rin <3 I know it’s basic to say my favorite songs are the daughter of evil series, but I don’t care because they are!!

Sometimes I might go into small rants or tangents on here to vent, probably won’t like often, once in a blue moon. But just an FYI!!

I have such a wide music taste and I will always send you my playlists if you need it!! Some artists I like (not limited to at all): Uzi, Travis Scott, Kanye, Drake, Suicide Boys, Lil Peep, TV girl, Mitski, RKS, Eden

That’s it!! I hope we can be friends!!

[tickle-bugs]

I had two people ask for some advice on starting up/running a blog, so I thought I’d make a little post for anyone else looking for advice! There’s no one right way to run a blog and I am by no means an expert. This is just a compilation of some of the things I’ve learned :) 

Feel free to add advice to this!

- The first thing is something I cannot stress enough. Write for yourself first. You will be absolutely miserable if you’re only writing for attention. I’m not saying it’s easy, but it’s so incredibly important. If you don’t like a prompt, fandom, or scenario? You don’t have to write for it! A personal example: I’m a theatre kid and total musical nerd. I could probably write some compelling Dear Evan Hansen or Hamilton headcanons if I wanted to, but I don’t. That’s fine! I’m allowed to say I won’t write for it and deny prompts/requests for those fandoms. 

- Set boundaries. This is a very mixed community with all sorts of creators and participants with hands in different baskets. Don’t want minors to interact? Put minors DNI in your bio. SFW only? Put it in the bio. No RP? Bio. This goes for private conversations/askbox/other interactions as well. If someone comes into your askbox/dms and says something that makes you uncomfy, shut it down. 

- My advice is more geared towards writing than art or video, but I suppose you could apply this advice as well. Make what makes you happy! If you’re only in one fandom, feel free to stay there and make content for it. Multi-fandom? Excellent! Completely non-fandom? Epic! Make the content that you want to see and the content that makes you happy to create, especially if you’re in a more niche fandom/area. 

- Organization. ...I’ll admit this one is more of a personal pet peeve than something urgent, but it is something that people positively respond to. If you have some sort of consistency/organization to your blog, it’ll make it easier and more enjoyable for people to navigate. Make a fandom list/indicate your fandoms somehow (mostly for prompt purposes. people can’t read your mind, so it’s important to tell them what you will write for and what you won’t, however you want to do that)! 

Make a masterpost/link your fic tag! Use a fic tag of some kind. Give your fics summaries and leave a little bit of the fic above the ‘read more’ to intrigue folks (look at #my fics and my masterpost for basic examples of how I do this, if you need!). Use read mores. Please use read mores (if you can, idk if they’re on mobile. regardless no one wants to encounter a three thousand word block of text on their dash). (No seriously though, organize your blog, even if it’s super simple. literally just a ‘mine’ or ‘my fics’ or ‘[pseud] writes’ and a fandom tag. It’ll make it easier for people to find your stuff and support you)

- Practice general internetiquette. Please remember that the people in this community are real people with feelings, boundaries, and lives outside of the blog that they run. Be genuine and people will respond to you! Don’t manipulate people into likes/reblogs/attention. No one wants to be on the other end of that. Being in this community isn’t a transaction or a mosh pit, it’s an experience.  

- Be ever-so-liberal with the block button. Someone’s user makes you uncomfortable? They give you bad vibes? They’re a minor/older than you and you don’t want them interacting with your content? You don’t wanna see their blog for some reason? Block em. This goes for anons too. That’s what the button is for. Don’t feel guilty for using it. Use it. 

- How you write is 100% a personal choice and not really something that I can give advice on, but embrace your style! take prompts if you want, or don’t. Write oneshots, series, drabbles, or novels. Write romantic, or don’t. Etc. Change things up if you feel like it. Do what you want. Your blog, your style, your rules. 

- Numbers matter. Don’t let them define you. This is a bit of a harder one to explain, but I will try. I often say that I don’t care about numbers, and I really don’t, but that’s not to say that I don’t see them and they have zero effect on me. I absolutely notice and am bummed if a fic doesn’t get notes, or at least the notes that I was expecting. That is entirely normal and okay to experience. What isn’t okay, though, is creating for the sake of getting notes/numbers/attention (re: write for yourself first, internetiquette). If you find yourself relying on tumblr for gratification and a reward, I implore you to take a break. I’m not your therapist or your parent, I’m not gonna tell you what to do, but when you make things only for the sake of notes, people notice. Celebrate your milestones. Know that it’s okay to be bummed about low notes/celebrate getting plenty. Just make sure that you don’t depend on the numbers for your happiness, or you will be miserable.

- You’re (probably) doing this for free. You are providing people content: a service. Produce as much or as little as you’re comfy with, but always remember that. No one is entitled to what you make. If someone asks you for headcanons, sends a prompt when prompts are closed, etc, and you don’t feel like fulfilling it? You have no obligation to do that. Getting commissioned is another story entirely, but as long as you’re making free content, you have zero obligation to do anything for anyone and certainly no time constraints. It can take me months to finish prompts, and that’s okay. I do them when I do them and I fill them how I want to. If my prompts are closed, I deny new ones until I’m ready to accept them. Make yourself happy first.

- How you interact with others is up to you! It’s generally considered good practice to like/reblog your mutuals fics/art, but this is not necessarily a hard and fast rule. I veeeeeery rarely reblog fics for fandoms that I’m not in, even from my mutuals. What you can do to show your support (and you should try and show support somehow. No one is in competition. Everyone’s in your boat, whether they have no followers or 1k) is send an ask/reply to the post/leave tags to let the author know you liked it. Like the fic and don’t reblog it, if you don’t want to. Just make sure you show your mutuals (and others in general!) roughly the same support they show you, however you decide to do that. Treat others how you want to be treated, as cheesy as it sounds :)

- Don’t repost content that isn’t yours without express permission from the original creator, and credit them appropriately. If you see a cute piece of tickle art and the artist doesn’t want it reposted? Don’t repost it. Don’t post fics/videos/gifs that aren’t yours (obviously if it’s like a scene from a movie/a clip on youtube that’s different, but don’t take credit for things you didn’t make, including ideas). Can’t tell you how frustrating it is to have work stolen from you. Don’t be that person. ‘Credit to original artist’ and ‘credit unknown’ is total bullshit btw. Link/tag the creator in the original post and make it clear you don’t own the content. Best practice is to ask the original creator if they’re okay with reposting, work inspired by or connected to theirs, etc. This goes doubly for saving/downloading someone’s fics. 

- It is not illegal for a minor to have normal, nonsexual, healthy friendships with people older than them. There’s a weird attitude that minors have nothing of value to offer adults besides a relationship/sex, which is...not true? Minors are thinking, living human beings with feelings, thoughts, and opinions. You can talk to them like normal people, because they are. Just obviously don’t talk about/introduce sex or endanger them. Minors don’t bring up sex/activities you’re underage for with an adult. IDK this isn’t a seminar just...don’t be weird. Adults can offer great life experience, support systems, and the basic joys and needs of human connection. Minors can too. Mind your business unless someone’s actually in danger. The next point is a caveat, though: 

- If you’re a minor, don’t interact with NSFW blogs/blogs with ‘Minors DNI’, NSFW blogs don’t interact with minors, etc etc. Not your parent or whatever but this is pretty common sense and it’s for everyone’s safety, but especially the NSFW person. internettiquette!

- If you use your TK blog as a side blog (meaning you have another blog as your main blog, not two separate accounts) and don’t want your main exposed, that is up to you. I recommend not liking posts. Also, follow people that you trust. These actions route through your main blog and your main will show up in the notes. You can reblog from a sideblog. If you want to send an ask “as your tk blog”, send an anon and sign it somehow, like ‘hey :) // @/tickle-bugs’. It should tag you in the post so you get a notification when it’s answered!

- Find your people! As an anxious person this one has been hard for me, so I know it’s hard for a lot of people. Fandom is literally a community of shared interest. Peachy and I have an iron bond almost two years later and we met talking over shared interests. You can absolutely find your people here. If someone makes you happy, strike up a conversation! Send an ask! You never know what doors it might open or whose day you might improve :)

- If you were an anon/lurker on someone’s blog and they inspired you to write/submit/start your own, sign your messages!! the common form that I see is either an emoji or [noun/context of the ask]!anon (prodigal!anon (i miss u every day), butterfly!anon, etc.) Let us know how to find and support you!! Those messages produce good brain juice. 

- The big finale: Have fun. If you’re not having fun here, maybe you could tweak something to make things enjoyable. Running a blog is like driving a car. Keep your hands on the wheel, respectfully indicate your intentions (flashing lights optional), and be safe. Poebody’s nerfect, y’know. If you make a mistake, course correct. I’m by no means perfect. Your favs aren’t either. Just do your best and have a good time :)

@rosytickles and the anon in my inbox, I hope this helps! Thank you for asking me, I’m very honored that you value my opinon/experience/advice. I apologize if I come off as preachy or aggressive, I envisioned grabbing my younger self by the lapels and shaking me vigorously while I wrote this. Probably a bad idea. 

Anywho, hope it helps. Anyone with questions, additions, or comments, my askbox is open! Just be constructive, is all I ask. 

[momoh-chiin]

X Reader Write Blog! (UPDATED FANDOMS & RULES)!

 Hello! This blog is growing (thank you guys!) and I have found more fandoms to write about! My rules changed a bit too. So, here I am, just making a NEW and UPDATED Fandoms and Rules post! You will find here my rules, fandoms I write about, and respectives Masterlist of each Fandom! u 7 u   So, first things first! This goes by MAIN CHARACTER I LOVE TO WRITE to I LOVE HIM/HER TOO BUT NOT MY MAIN

FANDOMS:

*Kimetsu no Yaiba (Requests OPEN)

MASTERLIST!

-Kamado Nezuko

-Kamado Tanjirou

-Agatsuma Zenitsu

-Hashibira Inosuke

-Tsuyuri Kanao

-Shinazugawa Genya

-Muichito Tokitou

-Tomioka Giyuu

-Mitsuri Kanroji

*Boku no Hero Academia (Requests OPEN)

MASTERLIST!

-Todoroki Shoto

-Midoriya Izuku

-Hitoshi Shinso

-Kaminari Denki

-Eijirou Kirishima

*Steven Universe: Future (Requests OPEN) MASTERLIST!

-Steven Universe

-Connie Maheswaran

*Obey Me!: Shall we Date? (Requests OPEN) No Masterlist Yet!

-Mammon

-Leviathan

-Beelzebub

-Belphegor

*The Owl House (Requests OPEN) No masterlist yet!

-Hunter

-Amity

-Luz

-Willow

-Gus

-Eda

-Lilith

RULES!

1. I DON’T write EXPLICIT NSFW. Make outs? Okay. Spice things up? Sure. Headcanons are a YES, as long as the characters are not teenagers. In case they are, they will remain soft and mostly just teenagers being teenagers!! 2. Tell me the pronouns you would like me to use. I usually use Gender Neutral pronouns in case you don’t specify about it. 3. I don’t mind specific requests! Don’t be scared to tell me what you would like to see! ♥ 4. I don’t like DM for requests UNLESS the request is actually really long to explain with the Questions buttom. Just send me a message and tell me if you wanna stay as an anon or you don’t mind me tagging you! I’ll send you the link with the story the second I upload it! ♥ 5. I’M A HUMAN BEING. Not my first time with this kind of blog and I KNOW how people can be. DO NOT RUSH ME. I go to college! ; 7 ; I’ll try to update as much as I can, that’s a promise!

6. I can REJECT a request if it’s not a character I write about, a hard/touchy subject, or you don’t follow my rules.

7. Fluff comes faster than Angst, I still write about both lol.

8. English is NOT my first languague, so mistakes will be done. Be nice when you correct me, I have feelings too!!

9. I write scenarios for 1 character at the time. Drabbles for 2 characters at most. Headcanons with 3 characters MAX.

10. Wanna ask for a polyamorous relationship Scenario/Drabble/Headcanons? As long as they aren’t BLOOD RELATED and ARE PART OF MY CHARACTERS LIST, I will absolutely do it!!! 11. Wanna request something but the Fandom Requests are closed? Please wait for me to open them again! You can save this page/the masterlist to check once in a while, or just straight up follow me, and read my stories about the fandom you would like to request! I’ll be sure to add at the end that the requests are open again. 12. If you send me a request while requests are closed, I will IGNORE your request. I usually close them when I have 10 or a little more requests, and open them again when I have 3 or so left!

Thank you for reading! Request away!~

[hardskz]

[please read]

i never expected to reach this point, yet here i am. due to this raging bitch called covid, i decided to 1) open a ko-fi page and 2) take commissions.

disclaimer: this does not mean that i’m deleting all the requests that are in my inbox. those requests have to take the backseat and will linger in my inbox until i write them, which will take (even more) time.

1. ABOUT KO-FI: in no way are you obligated to donate some money. whoever wants to donate now has the possibility to do so. if you don’t have a bit to spare or simply don’t want to or -- insert any other reason -- it’s all good! i am not mad at anyone who doesn’t, and i’m grateful for anyone who does consider this option. here is the link for anyone interested

2. ABOUT COMMISSIONS: me taking commissions does not mean that i’m ditching the free requests; commissioned requests will be prioritized and frankly, requesters who commission something have more say in the fic’s content. for those who are considering this option, please read the following:

i write for stray kids and ateez. however, i may consider taking commissions for seventeen, nct and bts as well. 

CONCERNING FEES: perhaps i’m selling myself short but i’m trying to make my commissions affordable and i’ll take every breadcrumb (however if u wanna pay more feel free to do so). i have three tiers depending on the length of the fic.

6€ for a blurb with a word count between 700 to 1k. will be completed within three (3) days.

most of my blurbs have this length.

i can’t specify the exact word count. you can state your wish for a certain word count (example: around 900 words pls) i’ll try to consider it but i cannot guarantee anything.

9€ for a blurb with a word count between 1k to 1.7k. will be completed within five (5) days 

most of my threesomes and works with more elaborate au concepts / kinks have this length [example].

20€ for a oneshot with a word count of 3k. 10€ extra for every 1k words more. will be completed within two (2) weeks for 3k. if the fic is longer, we’ll discuss how much more time i’ll have. 

i accept both pwp and porn with plot. 

for ateez requests, feel free to pick one (1) prompt from the prompt list that isn’t taken yet. this is not obligatory though.

payment will be over paypal. for the first two tiers, you need to pay me before i start to write. for the last tier -- the oneshot--, pay me half of the fee upfront before i start writing, then the other half once i’ve finished writing. if i fail to meet the deadline, i will send you your money back. 

before i accept your commission, we will discuss this through once more so you know what you’ll be getting and i know what to write. in case you request so much that i know it’ll go far over the word count, i’ll tell you so. i will send you the fic once it’s finished, and then i’ll publish it on the blog (for ateez it’s on luvteez, for skz and the other groups i mentioned above if i really decide to go with it it’s on hardskz) three days later. if you’re interested or have any other question, pls dm me!

again, i will not be deleting any previous free requests. i will continue to write them but i won’t be under a strict time frame when it comes to them.

[eitelle]

HI UH I JUST SAW THAT YOU FOLLOWED ME AND I KINDA FREAKED OUT ?????? HI ELLE i’ve seen u on lea’s blog and i just took a good look at your blog and i have to say i’m already in love 🥺 (i’m gonna write this all in smaller text or it’s gonna be hella long smh)

OK SO A FEW THINGS I WANNA SAY FIRST UHM- you play the violin, viola, guitar and zither????? i play the violin, cello, piano, harp and guitar (acoustic) so HELLO, fellow multi-instrumentalist! omg i’m literally so excited rn EEE found another music child here :)

AND YOUR SELF SHIP SEMI X ELLE??? I CANTTTTTT I TOTALLY SHIP ALREADY YALL R FREAKING ADORABLE 😭😭 eitelle is THE best couple, y’all are perfect for each other and no one can change my mind! semi is one of my fav boys too so i can’t blame you at all, he’s amazing <3 (my ultimate favs are still atsumu and iwa tho lol)

oh wait lemme introduce myself (kinda?) if that’s okay? i’m lyssa, also a minor, and i kinda ? write ? but like for hq only cuz it’s the only anime i’ve watched lmao you can check out my hq writing blog tho! (it’s in my description and pinned post hehe) im asian and currently on holiday until school starts in feb :) i used to do ballet too ? but then i figured it’s just not for me hahaha but music yes <3 i love reading too!! but i haven’t had the time to read many books cuz of school :/

i hope this doesn’t sound too stalkerish lmao, but i went thru your masterlist and works earlier and i love them so much! a good mix of fluff and angst and crack haha unfortunately i think some of your links aren’t working but it’s okay! you’re probably really busy so no pressure at all i promise! thank you for writing and sharing it with us <3

last thing, CONGRATS ON 400 YOURE FREAKING AMAZING <33 im very very proud of you 🥰 i saw the 400 event post and im really excited! but i was wondering if it’s still okay for me to send in an entry for the event? also im a bit confused about what exactly to send in for the event 😅 (but that could just be me being dumb yet again ajhsnfjcj don’t mind my small brain)

i think that’s all from me now! i’ll definitely drop by your inbox again (and try not to spam) if that’s okay? 😗 hehe lots of love, elle! take care and stay safe okay <333

HI LYSSA!! I SEE U EVERYWHERE TOO SO I WAS LOOKING AT MY RECOMMENDED BLOGS AND SO I JUST DECIDED TO FOLLOW U 😭😭 VERY HAPPY DECISION

also for the record id like to say i am also in love w urs AND YES IK AB THE LINKS IM JUST SO LAZY TO FIX THEM THERE R SO MANY 😭but if u wanna read more i believe i tagged all my writing works (i think) with my writing tag!!

YES READING AND MYSIC SO MUCH MUSICCC BUT HONESTKY I GET THE THING AB BALLET ITS A HASSLE BUT IVE STUCK WITH IT FOR SO LONG I RLY JUST CANT FIND ANY PART OF ME THAT WANTS TO QUIT ANYMORE?? but i did quit pointe hshsjdh AND JUST DM ME ANY QUESTIONS AB THE EVENT UR NOT LATE AT ALL!!

[fanfictionlive]

Been wanting to write a fic for a while but don’t exactly know where to start

So just like probably many of you, quarantine from coronavirus has been pretty fucking boring. Sometimes so boring that I’ve actually thought about writing fan fiction. Speficifcally, Steven Universe fan fiction as I’ve felt a little bit of a hole inside ever since it ended in late March of this year. I’m sure many of you know the feel, when that show you love ends.

But I don’t know where to start since I’m unsure of how to implement some of the things that I want in the story in ways that would make sense with the series and its characters. Specifically, for those that are fans of SU, the story would be about the character Spinel, my favorite character, developing a friendship with Steven following the events of the series finale. I can explain more of my intentions for the story via DM if anyone’s interested. The things I feel I need assistance with most are how to not make the characters super OOC (as I’m working with established characters here, not original ones) and someone to toss ideas to. I also might need assistance for making dialogue more natural, rather than clunky.

Right now I’m not planning to publish said fic as I don’t really wanna get burned out from pressure of updating the fic (this happened to me years ago when I was writing a greentext story on 4chan, which is my only experience with writing fan fiction). Right now I just wanna write something that I can enjoy reading. Maybe I’ll publish it if I feel it’s good if and when it’s complete. I would like to potentially start on Tuesday, as I have an iPad Pro arriving in the mail along the Magic Keyboard that arrived to my place yesterday. As for length of the fic, I don’t really have a goal length, per say. Just as long as I am enjoying the process and feeling that the quality is good.

Anyway if anyone who has more experience writing and who also enjoys the show wants to send me a DM, I’d appreciate it.

I’m also on Discord (PrisonedMuffin#2657).

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New World Pt.1 EP Release Party at Congruent Space in Chicago, IL, USA on June 9th, 2017

 Here comes one of my famous long ass, very in depth Tumblr posts and stories. This time, I am going into the depths of the experience, emotions, and thoughts of this past weekend- when I flew out for the New World Pt.1 EP Release Party at Congruent Space in Chicago, IL, USA on June 9th, 2017

It was also Spring Awakening Music Festival this weekend June 9th - 11th. Sadly, I couldn’t fucking go to SAMF because I am “young, illegal, and lame” (which that right there is a great album title according to Jahan). I am gonna be writing this shit day by day, everything that happened and took place! Here we go!

June 7th, 2017

This was the Wednesday in the week before the epic weekend was to come. This was my last day of school before finals. I was lucky enough to get out of work this day and the following day since 1) prom season was beating my ass (I work at a tuxedo shop), I’ve been working so much to the point where I’ve been having migraines everyday for the past week and a half. Getting out of work gave me time to prepare for Chi and to get any last minute things done…I had a lot of shit to do. I got home from school and I was giving myself a little break before I got up to work on the shit I needed to do. I was chilling on the couch on Twitter and Krewella is having a tweeting spree. Keep in mind- I thought I was being kinda lowkey talking about going to Chi this Friday to the point Krewella didn’t know. My friend, JoJo, texted me one day a couple days ago and basically said “Yo, if Yasmine and Jahan don’t know you are gonna be in Chi, we should like surprise them. Like you should hide behind us (the Travel Krew) and then we would be like ‘Guys, we have a little surprise for u!’ and then you would pop out from behind us!” I was fucking down for this shit, it would cute as fuck! After discussing this, it was kind of a plan to be a surprise. So yeah, I thought I was being lowkey and shit talking about everything on Twitter. I thought if I did tweet anything, Krewella follows me and Yasmine and Jahan follow me, but the odds of them actually seeing me tweets…yeah, I’ll be ok, they probably won’t see anything. So going back to Krewella doing a tweeting spree. I tweet them something that I would always normally tweet, just showing my love and shit. I tweet saying “u guys u guys u guys u guys…… ILY". Then a minute later, they reply saying “love u bb see u FRIDAY!”

Two things were going through my head- 1) Aw yay! They replied back! I feel the love, I love them so much like what the fuck, they are amazing! 2) Alright, how the hell do they fucking know that I am gonna be there on Friday?- I was questioning it so much and freaking the fuck out on Twitter, but hey, I wasn’t complaining. Alright, so after that whole tweeting spree, I got up and went to my room and finished up this 6-8-19 Krew Video Project I put together for Yasmine and Jahan for the next day which was the 7 year anniversary of 6-8-10! I was editing in last minute submissions from the Krew and adding my own intro and outro. Even though I was basically attacking people to send in submissions and extending the deadline from June 1st to the fucking day before I am supposed to send it over to them and asking for maybe a lot in the project prompt, I was able to put this shit together and make something absolutely beautiful and touching for Yasmine and bring my vision to life for this project. I am so fucking proud with everyone who took place in this fucking project. At around 9:21pm, I send the video over to Jeremy, one of the guy’s of Krewella’s Third Brain management team, through email. In the email, I say “here is the 6-8-10 project i made with participation from the krew please show this video to yaz and jahan tomorrow so they can see it for krew day https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PrZb6dTEjFw please let me know what they say or what their feedback is or honestly u can just tell them to tweet me or dm me or something! i can not wait to see them in chicago this friday for the ep release party! thank u so much jeremy for ur help!” Keep in mind that I told him to show it to them TOMORROW THE NEXT DAY, which is the actual 6-8-10 anniversary. After sending it, I am chilling and making dinner, at around 9:37pm, Jahan fucking tweets me saying “omg. just saw the project you put together. biggest smile on my face right now. about to head to rehearsal but ill respond more lataaaa!!” Like what the fuck…not even 20 minutes ago was when I sent the email with the video link and Jahan already watched it and shit. I was beyond conflicted with how she saw it that fast! I was freaking the fuck out and just so overjoyed that she loved it, like mission accomplish for making Jahan smile over this project like aye! I really meant for them to watch it the next day, but I am was complaining she saw it earlier though. Then a minute later, she tweets me again saying “pls tell the rest of the KREW that was involved that they literally made my day. <3 you guys!!!!”

My project I did with the krew fucking made her day, how else can this be any more perfect? I was just fucking satisfied at this point and just damn proud of myself and everyone who was involved, I surely felt the love. Later in the night, I was just checking my email and I get a reply email from Jeremy around 11:59pm saying “Will do! This is awesome :)” Like shit, this whole timing thing is just really fucking me up, but hey this confusion is totally okay I guess! Then, I go to bed.

June 8th, 2017

Happy Krew Day! Happy 6-8-17! Happy 7 Year Anniversary of 6-8-10! My plan for this day:

Go to school and take my chemistry final and refrain from listening to anything from the New World Pt.1 EP

Come home, film my reaction for the EP

Edit and upload the video

Pack for Chi

Go to bed

Fuck the chem final and I am gonna skip to writing from step 2 on my little list of shit to do. So yes, I come home and set up my filming equipment and get to filming. I decided I would listen to the 4 new new songs of New World (Calm Down, TH2C, Fortune ft. Diskord, and Parachute) and not the rest of the songs that have previously came out as singles (Team, Be There, and Love Outta Me) since I have already listened to them. It would just be a waste from to the react to the songs I have already heard and plus, this will keep the video as short as possible. As I am filming, I finished listening to TH2C (this song is such a summer jam, the vibes are just so fun and happy, I fucking loved it), my phone is just blowing up with notifications from Twitter. I grab my phone and look to see what’s up. Fucking Yasmine tweeted at me twice around 3:01pm saying “Em, i’m straight up trying to not cry on this flight to Chi watching this video. my fucking heartttttt. i’m so full of happiness right now” and “is there a tweet thread that everyone involved is on? idk how to even come close to saying thank you for this. i love you all so much”

I read these tweets in front of the camera and was able to record my whole reaction to these tweets for the video. Not only was this video gonna be a reaction to New World, but also a reaction to the tweets from Yasmine about her reaction to the project I put together. I was so happy that I basically almost made Yasmine cry tears of happiness and shit. I satisfied the happiness of Yasmine and Jahan, like mission accomplished. I was beyond overjoyed ok. Alright, moving on. I filmed my reaction to Calm Down next, which was really hard and ironic because I couldn’t calm down when I was trying to listen to Calm Down because Yasmine tweeted me and shit! Calm Down has to be my favorite song from the EP, at least out of the new new songs. The song goes hard and their vocals are fire ok.  Then, I listened to Fortune and that song goes a little harder and is definitely a good ass follow up to Beggars with Diskord also and then Parachute, which is just a chill ass song, such happy vibes and it is heart warming in a sense. This EP was just made so damn well and the fact that this was their first major release on this very own independent record label, Mixed Kids Records, is just amazing and I can’t put into work or emotions how fucking proud of them I am. After filming, I got straight to editing the video, also including in my reaction when Yasmine tweeted at me. Around when I was adding the outro to the video, I started my little vlog for the trip. I definitely knew I wanted to vlog this trip because I would be with krew, I was seeing Krewella for the first time in 3+ years, I am traveling by myself to fucking Chicago, the birthplace of Krewella, how else could the circumstances be any more perfect for vlogging? Plus, I have never really vlogged seriously because I’m a pussy when it comes to talking to a camera in public and I wanna keep the memories from this trip as best as possible! Finally, I finished editing and uploaded and shared my reaction video on Twitter with everyone.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_yeMgmwXPdY&t=332s

I was excited for everyone to watch it! I finally took the time to pack and put all things I needed together, especially since I needed to pack light and I was flying by myself for the first time on standby. I thought the weather in Chi would be breezy, cloudy, and humid from what I checked like a week ago, so I fucking pack ripped jeans, a couple shirts, pjs, and underwear. After packing and looking at my flights, I went to bed.

June 9th, 2017

Rise and fucking shine. I wake up to a FaceTime call around 1am from one of my best friends from the krew, Gina. She is drunk and lit as ever. She is telling me all kinds of random things, like “Emily, I love you!”, “I hope you have a great time in Chicago.” “Stay safe.” and more random shit along those lines. Then, I say “Yo, thank you, I love you too. I actually need to wake up now to get ready to leave, so thank you!” Then, her friend grabs her phone saying “Got to go bye!” and abruptly ends the call. I got up and hopped into the shower. I got out of the shower and got changed. While traveling, I was wearing this black lace-up shirt I was going to wear to the venue, leggings, my KREWLIFE crewneck, and my black converse. Then, I did my makeup. I made sure my makeup would literally be bulletproof, so it would last throughout the flights, the show, and other shit. I knew I was probably gonna be meeting Yaz and Jahan for the first time in 3+ years so, I had to look somewhat okay whether it would be before or after their set, and I knew hands down I would be sweating like crazy from their set. So, I beat my face and packed away my makeup and the rest of my toiletries. I put together the rest of my travel documents and shit. Soon enough, it was around 3:30am and my mom, dad, and I left to go to the airport. My flight was departing at around 5:55am. I arrived at the airport around 4am. I checked in, and my mom said bye to me once I got in line for TSA Pre-Check. After going through TSA, I headed to my gate and just sat there waiting, checking on my Delta App whether I could get a seat or not. Finally after waiting for a little, I got my seat, 12C, for this first flight from Philly to Detroit! I boarded my plane and was finally on my way to Chi! I was in a 3-person row and luckily I had the aisle seat and there was just another businessman in the window seat with no one in between us. I just slept and listened the New World on repeat the whole time.  Finally, we landed in Detroit. Once I walked off the jet bridge and into the airport, I headed over to my connecting flight’s gate, which luckily was in the same terminal and was several numbers away so I didn’t have to walk too too far. I got to the gate, gate A29 to be exact, and just checked the Delta app on my phone and the airport screens for any seat updates. The app and the screens were telling me two different things and I didn’t know which one was the most accurate one to follow. I was freaking out that I would either not get a seat at all or have the slightest and slimmest chance of getting a seat. I finally grew a pair of balls and went up to the podium and asked the lady what was happening. Luckily, she reassured me that I should be making the flight and that it would be even better if the people ahead of me on the standby list didn’t end up showing up to the gate and that I just had to sit and wait for my name to be called. After waiting very fucking anxiously, I was called up and given my slip with seat 13A on it. I boarded and settled into my seat for this little over an hour flight to Chi. I was in a 3-person row again, but this time, I had the window seat and two businessmen took up the middle and aisle seat, which wasn’t too bad. While taxing to our take off runway, I sent Jojo my arrival information to give her an idea of when and where to pick me up. I was also messaging Seancriag  on Snapchat and he was saying, along with Jojo, that I would most likely be meeting up with him at the airport so she could get us at the same time. Again, I slept and listened to New World the whole flight. I woke up and as I opened my eyes, the bright ass blue water of Lake Michigan was right in front of my face. The ripples in the lake was breathtaking. Soon enough, we started our descent and I began to see the amazing coast and city skyline of the beautiful city of Chi! 

Finally physically seeing Chi for the first time in over 10 years from the last time I was in the city visiting family and seeing the city for the first time after discovering Krewella was just astounding. I honestly couldn’t believe I was here, and I wasn’t in the city just to be a tourist and visit the city or just see family and/or friends- I was fucking here for one thing and one thing only….KREW! I was just hyped. I bet the businessmen next to me saw me smiling at the window like a fucking freak. I just kept taking in the view as we were landing and before I knew it, the landing gear of the plane touched down on the runway and we were taxing to the gate, gate E16 in terminal 2 to be exact. It was around 9am when we landed. I was texting a lot of people basically announcing to the world “Fucking PhillyKrew has arrived in Chicago, what the fuck is up?!” I was texting Alex in all caps because we were legit both arriving and taxing to out gates at the same times and we were both just freaking out and expressing such explosively happy thoughts that we were finally here! I was texting Jojo where I was and updating her. My plan was to call her up once I got into the airport and was making my way over to where she would get me. As we were arriving at the gate, I knew I was gonna be so fucked for this trip because I just felt the scorching hot heat from the sun through the window. I didn’t know it was gonna be that hot in Chi! Like shit, I fucking packed only jeans and I am arriving in all black wearing a thick ass crewneck! Finally, we made it to the gate and I was walking on the jet bridge just feeling the heat and the excitement running through me. As I am walking from the gate I was arriving at and into the rest of the airport, some random ass person just comes up to me, shoving an iPhone in my face and says “Are you Emily, aka PhillyKrew?” and shit- IT WAS FUCKING SEAN! I have met krew from Twitter in real life before and I haven’t felt that krew meeting and feeling and emotion in a long ass time and feeling that transfer from online friendship to real life friendship was EVERYTHING! When I acknowledged it was him, my fucking jaw legit dropped towards the ground. First thing I said was “Stop!” and he said “You are live from the Travel Krew” and I was like “Are you serious?!” Ok, let’s be real here- I was fucking honored to be featured in real life on the Travel Krew story, like fucking goals of knowing them for a year now aye! The feels were just in the air! We hugged and just started walking and talking. I was so fucking excited and nervous, my heart was beating so damn fast I could feel it in my throat, chest, and stomach ok. I was just talking to him and telling him how close I was to missing this flight because of the seats. Sean was telling me how he arrived at around 7am and he just walked all the way from terminal 1 to terminal 2 from where he arrived to get to my gate just to meet up with me and how he had time to kill. Ugh, just such good ass vibes! I honestly couldn’t be any happier. Finally, he called up Jojo and Paola as we were walking outside so they could get us. We were looking for their black Kia and soon enough, their black Kia rolls up from around the corner with Calm Down blasting with Paola (aka my Ate) literally halfway out of the front seat window recording us. My thoughts in my head- “Holy fuck, there is honestly no other more perfect or epic or insane way to meet krew and pick up krew for the first time, what the fuck yo, my heart is exploding!” Paola got out of the car and Jojo was driving and Paola and I hugged and it was fucking amazing to hug someone from the krew who wasn’t more than 4 inches taller than me; I finally didn’t feel so left out! Ugh, life was perfect! After Sean put his stuff in the trunk, we all climbed into the car and I said “Hey!” to Jojo! We drove off from the airport grounds and began making our way to the hotel the Travel Krew was staying at, the Amber Inn. I finally whipped out my vlogging camera for the first time since I vlogged at home and just updated that I finally met part of the Travel Krew for the first time and that we were making our way to the hotel to prepare for the EP release party. The drive wasn’t bad, we were just having deep conversations while stuck in traffic. We were talking about how I was real and they were real, it was cute as fuck. Finally after driving across town, we made it to the hotel. Once we parked and got out of the car, the first thing I did was hug Jojo. We grabbed our shit and headed up to the room, 304. I felt fucking honored to be walking into the hotel of the Travel Krew because cramming themselves with all of their stuff to see Krewella in hotel rooms was their thing! Once we got in the room, we started preparing for the release party. I met their friend, Brooke, who was already in the room getting ready. I grabbed my flannel and jeans and headed into this small ass closet and changed in there. They were kind of amused because I was able to shove myself in a closet like that because I am just so tiny. I got out of the closet, put in my hazel contacts, and touched up my makeup. Afterwards, I pulled out my camera and began to vlog a little more while waiting to leave. Paola and Sean were the major stars of this portion of the vlog I made. They were dancing, pretending to DJ with this towel Jahan gave them in Cabo and explained the whole story behind it and how they had to get it signed to give to the winner of their contest who won the towel. I made them each give little outfit of the days to show their chosen attire for the release party. I hated vlogging because I am just so fucking awkward and shit, so Paola took the camera for a little bit and did her famous little swipe transition. I just updated the vlog explaining the situation and plan for now. Paola had her krew jersey on the bed and I asked to try it on and she gave me the okay. She is small as fuck like me, so she had the XS in the jersey, which is the smallest size available and I’ve been debating for months now if I should get one with “PHILLYKREW” on the back, but the whole sizing situation was freaking me out and I was very unsure on what to do. I put it on and it was fucking swallowing me and I was swimming in it. Yes, I knew that jerseys should be big on people, but for me, it was a fucking dress and very overwhelming on my body. I was like “Hell no, I honestly can’t get one.” So, that was a little bumming, but it’s okay.  Finally after a little bit, our uber arrived at the hotel and we got in and started making our way to Congruent Space. The rest of the Travel Krew was already in the front of the line to save spots for the rest of us. Alex was also texting me saying her and everyone else (aka the OG Krew I like to call us) were in the front of the line as well. All of us the in the uber on our way were just gonna do a little cutsies in the line because we are important krew from Twitter and we have high priorities. In the uber, Sean sat in the front with  the driver, Jojo and I were in the first row in the back, and Paola and Brooke were in the very back row. For some reason, the driver didn’t have the air on in the rear and we were all just dying in the back. We repeatedly kept asking to turn the air on, but the drive said it was already on. The backseat console for the air was on rear lock, so we even asked if he could unlock the shit in the back so we could fix it and he was just ignoring us. So we just had to suffer the rest of the ride in the heat. I whipped out my camera and recorded this little rear lock air incident and we were all just making hot, dying, sweaty faces. I updated the vlog that we were on our way to the release party as well. I got a bunch of texts from Corinne and Bianca and they were both freaking out and asking “Holy shit, are you in Chicago?! What the fuck, we are too. WE CAN FINALLY MEET YOU!” and just other really ecstatic texts. I fucking didn’t know they were coming here! I then looked on Snapchat and I saw they legit flew in the previous night! I was excited to meet them and everyone else. Finally after a half hour drive, we arrived just a block away from the release party. We got dropped off and we walked to the venue. We saw the line and we were dropped off from behind the line. Because we had cutsies, we just walked past the rest of the line and no one really gave a shit, which was fantastic. As we were passing the line, I saw a couple of familiar faces in the line. As we made our way to the front of the line, Sean, Jojo, Paola, and Brooke met up with the rest of the Travel Krew and I headed towards my beloved OG Krew fam. There were so many people that I either haven’t met yet at all or haven’t seen in a while! They were standing in a circle talking and me being my little self, I squeezed myself in their circle and was like “Hey!”. Alex was the first person to respond to me and she was like “Oh my gosh, you are finally here!” and we hugged. I began to say “Hey!” to everyone and giving everyone a nice hug. Someone spins me around and it’s fucking Bianca. Bianca was one of the people I’ve known for over 3 years and this was my first time meeting her! She was like “Holy shit, you are Emily. Come here!” and she gave me a really tight hug. She was shocked at how tiny I was, which I found amusing. I just felt the love from everyone, especially from meeting people from the OG Krew for the first time and meeting people from the Chicago Krew and shit. Just such good vibes. Then, I go a little back in the line and the Travel Krew is there. I go up to them and Brie and Deanna came up to me and scream “Hey!” and I finally met them for the first time and I absolutely loved them from meeting them off Twitter and they were tall as fuck! Deanna told me she forgot her gift for me, but I was like “Girl, it is okay!”. I didn’t care for anything else at the moment. I had my big ass loving krew fam around me and I couldn’t ask for anything else to make this any more perfect. Corinne finally came back to the line after going somewhere from down the street and she was like “Girl hey!” and we hugged and met for the first time, she is lowkey my long lost sister. We were all just talking and having a good ass time just waiting. Paola and Jojo got me a blended coffee drink from across the street, because we didn’t really eat much, and this was the first thing I was putting in my stomach since I left home, and it was just scorching outside. We were taking a bunch of pictures and shit too. 

I whipped out my camera and made a little update, showed a little bit of everyone in my vlog. Alex spotted a couple of dogs going into the coffee shop across the street and she flipped out and her heart was probably melting because 1) the heat and 2) the dogs. I got her whole reaction to that on camera, which was all cute and funny. As we were waiting, people just kept going in and out of the front door of the venue, locking it as they went through the door. I kept peeping in the door and the place looked very white and clean and small, so it was gonna be very interesting to be in there. We kept seeing Nathan and Jeremy in the door setting up. Sam, the videographer and photographer for the release party, kept coming outside and taking videos of all of us in line, which was really cool. After sweating and waiting for a little, Nathan came outside and told us to line up on the other side of the door. All of us in the front of the line made sure we were in the front still and everyone behind us in the rest of the line just followed us. After waiting for a little more, Nathan finally opened the door and let all of us in. It was weird because we legit just walked into the place. It was announced beforehand that there is free entry if we download the WAV app. The whole release party set would be live streamed on the app for others to see and experience the set who weren’t physically there. I thought that we would just have to show that we downloaded the app in order to get in, but we just walked in without showing anything. I mean I wasn’t complaining, but it was weird. Anyways, we all just walked in and of course, us in the front of the line were the first ones to walk in. I turned on my camera and started recording us walking in. When you first walked in, it was this entry place, kind of like the “lobby” of the place and then you walked in further and there was this set of stairs on the left which led to this room with a projector playing a slideshow of pictures of Yasmine and Jahan from the New World cover art shoot and then you would turn in that room and there was the room that the table and equipment was set up and that was where the set would be. I walked up the stairs and Jahan and Yasmine were there greeting and hugging everyone. I see Jahan first and was like “Oh my god! HI!” and she was like “Hi!” and then we hugged and I have no idea what else she said because I was just numbs in my senses because of how happily overwhelmed I was. I’m pretty sure because I was vlogging, I told Jahan that this was for my YouTube channel and Jahan said “I saw your video! Thank you! It’s amazing!” Anyways, I move to the side and she keeps greeting everyone else. I was still recording and then I finally see Yasmine. I was like “Holy shit.” when I first saw her. She came up to me and was like “Oh my god! Emily!” and I was like “Yazzy!” and gave me a hug, then she hugged Alex right after me and recorded their hug and Yasmine said “It’s so hot!”. So yeah, that happened. It was beyond amazing to have finally seen them, hugged them, and talked to them for a little at least in person for the first time in almost 4 years. I couldn’t believe this was all happening to me and around me. I was just in a dream being there with everyone. After greeting everyone, we all  headed into the room where the set would be happening. We all saw their mom and it was my second time seeing her in person and she is just so damn cute. She was waving at us from behind the DJ equipment and table and then came from behind and started talking to a bunch of us. I was too shy to say anything to her to be honest, I would’ve been like “Seriously, thank you for bringing Yasmine and Jahan into the world and raising them to be the most amazing and beautiful and talented human beings in the world!”. Then, all of us just started pouring into this room. The OG Krew and the Travel Krew made sure we all got the very front of the crowd. I swear all of us were dominating the crowd there, like fucking high priority people man! We were all chilling and taking pictures and just preparing for the insanity that was coming for us.

I was recording a little bit for my vlog and updating it. Paola was live streaming to the rest of the krew who wasn’t there and I made a little appearance on there. I got a couple of good shots. I was filming myself, Bianca, and Corinne and Corinne was like “Am I gonna be in your vlog?” and I was like “Yeah, go!”. So, she said to the camera “Aye! What’s good? We’re here with the one and only PhillyKrew. The only PhillyKrew out here! Aye!” I loved when she said this! Here is how my standing position was: I was front middle; Alex, Emma, Milly, Matt, and Jordan were front row up against the table and equipment and I was standing behind them; on my left, there was the OG/Chicago Krew; on my right, there was the Travel Krew. I was surrounded by all of my friends and it was perfect; I was perfectly sandwiched between all of them. Bianca said “Emily, I am gonna lift you up and carry you!” I was like “Shit, are you serious!? Okay, I’ll let you know when!” It was reassuring to know that I could see eye to eye with Yasmine and Jahan during their set at times because I am fucking short. I handed my flannel and bag to Alex to put on the stage where she put her stuff, along with everyone else. Finally, Yasmine and Jahan hopped behind the booth and started talking into the mic and giving a little introduction to the set. They were giving a shout out to Congruent Space and their team for pulling off everything. They were talking about Nathan and how he was part of the reason 6-8-10 even happened and they were talking about their early beginnings. It was a great start to their set. Finally, we opened up with Fortune, which went hard as fuck and everyone loved it. I am not really gonna go into deep depths with their set. It was fucking fire and insanity. Being able to experience seeing them perform and throw down so hard after waiting over 3 years was lowkey life changing and breath taking. Bianca picked me up so many times. I only remember a couple certain songs that she lifted me up for- Beggars, part of Team, and Superstar. Every time she lifted me up, I was making eye contact with Yaz and Jahan. They probably saw me really singing every lyrics when one of their songs was on and I was in the air. I was going hard. Bianca and several other people were able to give either one of the girls their phones and they recorded some epic footage. Speaking of footage, for the first half of the set, I was recording shit from my vlogging camera, but then every time Bianca would lift me up, I would put my camera in my front right pocket of my jeans and it just kept falling out and Jojo kept picking it back up from the ground. I just decided to stop with the camera and I left it on the platform with the rest of my stuff. I kept recording shit on my phone though. Holy shit, every time Bianca lifted me up, Sam kept pointing his camera like right at me, so I thought “Holy shit, is this for the recap video? Oh shit, my sweaty ass face and my body in the air is gonna be on there!” Oh well, same thing happened when the live streams were happening. Every time I would open my phone to record something, I would glance at my notifications and people kept messaging me and tweeting at me that they see me raging my ass off in the live streams. I was lowkey embarrassed and proud at the same time. They dropped too many good songs. Of course, they dropped all of the songs from the EP. They dropped a couple of fire throwbacks, like Killin’ It, Alive (Pegboard Nerds Remix)- which lowkey killed me when they dropped it because that’s my favorite Alive remix-, some remix of Live for the Night which I can not really remember exactly at the top of my head, some remix of Me & U by Cassie which is a throwback my sister and I jam to, they fucking dropped Breathe and gave a whole entire introduction before they dropped it saying this is one of the first trolly songs they ever did and that they only drop it in Chicago and I swear my heart legit dropped through the ground, and they dropped this remix of I Want It That Way. Their set was just ultimate perfection. Holy shit, they brought this little baby husky in and had the pup up there with them, it was precious as fuck to see Yasmine holding a cute pup during their set, like that poor pup’s ears and cuteness overload. Jeremy and Jahan were tossing water bottles to the crowd, which was a blessing and I caught one from Jeremy. During Party Monster, Jahan was doing a little water bottle shower and dropped the bottle which was funny. I have never sweated so damn much in my life. I was holding in that energy and sweat I released during their set since 2014 and being able to unleash all of that was amazing. I was wearing jeans and my jeans…shit, everything I was wearing was just soaked, drenched, and saturated in so much sweat and was sticking to my body. My face and neck was dripping. I was so worried my makeup was gonna be gone by the end of the set. I just felt like this whole thing was the Get Wet Tour and Sweatbox Tour combined! The last song they played and ended the set with was Parachute. It was so nice to close out the set with it, it was so beautiful and the crowd was singing together and when Yasmine and Jahan hugged at the end…I swear everyone in the krew’s heart melted. Such a great moment to remember and to witness, like the two sisters we love and adore just showing their affection and love for each other was beyond precious. Finally, their set ended. They talked about the following day being at Spring Awakening and how they are gonna throw down during their set and how afterwards, they wanted the krew to come hang with them and Yasmine wanted to drink and Jahan wanted to smoke with everyone. They said they were gonna chill after the set for an hour or so and that everyone can get the New World shirts here only in the front. The crowd started dispersing and it was my goal to talk to Yasmine and Jahan, get pictures with each of them and a picture with both of them- this is literally what I’ve been waiting for for years now. I kept asking Alex to help me find them because I was being a pussy and shy. Finally after pointlessly roaming around, Alex guided me to Jahan! We just had a conversation and I have a good chunk of it recorded for my vlog. I was recording at such an awkward angle because I was trying be lowkey about it and not get all up in Jahan’s face. We were talking about a lot of different things. I told her their set was amazing after waiting years to see them. She was like “Oh my gosh. I remember when we first met you. You were so young and a little nugget. You were all quiet wearing your beanie. And now, you are all grown up and a lovely lady!” Fun fact: I didn’t wear a beanie when I first met them, but I was wearing a snapback backwards though. I told her I was recording for my vlog and she told me to get up close shots of her sweat. She was asked if I was going to Spring Awakening. I was like “Yo, I literally can’t go. I’m too young.” She was like “We could honestly try to do something, but like liability because you are young.” She asked how old I was and I was like “16.” and she was like “Oh shit you got like 2 more years, but we have a tour coming up and it’s going to be mostly all ages” and she was just giving me the details on it and everything, but she couldn’t say much. Jahan, Alex, and I were just talking about how sweaty we were, J said her vagina was sweating, like shit, TMI. She was telling me how well put together the krew project I made was and that she loved my krew wall and how it made her smile! I was so happy, I have no other way to describe it in the simplest way. Great fucking talk. I asked her for a picture and she said yeah. Again, I am short, so I didn’t wanna look like a short loser in the picture, so I took a “selfie” with Jahan (I fucking hate that word so I put quotes around it) and then, we didn’t really know that else to do. Alex suggested that Jahan should carry me so, Jahan got low was like “Get on my back” and I was like “Oh shit, what the fuck, is this really happening…”. So, I got on her back and Jahan started doing squats with me on her back, so I just held on for dear life because I was trying not to fall off her and look like a total loser fool (since at the moment, I already felt like a loser) and she just kept going, up and down, up and down. Then finally, she stopped and smiled for the picture Alex took. 

Jahan put me down and then we kind of just departed and she went off talking to other krew and I was just trying sink in what the hell just happened. Then, I wanted to talk to Yasmine. Alex tried helping me find her and hey, she was right behind us talking to a bunch of krew. I was like “Alex, how the fuck do I get her attention to talk to her?” and Alex being the funny person she is, she said “ Just fall down.” I said “What? What do you mean?” She said “Just literally trip and fall down right in front her and she will have no other choice, but to get down and help you and talk to you.” I was like “Hell no, I’ll look stupid.” She said “Emily, I’ll push you then.” I said “No, holy shit. I might as well just make myself fall.” Then I imitated falling and said “Ouch oh no!” and we both just laughed. Finally, we got Yasmine’s attention and I started talking to her. I was also vlogging at the weirdest angle with Yazzy. We were just talking about the set and how Bianca was carrying me and Yaz said “You needed to be on someone’s shoulders” because of how fucking short I am. At that moment, I thought to myself “Fuck this, I am being short-shamed by the krew today. I am sad.” Then, we were just talking about how everyone from the krew was here and that nothing like this has really happened when literally all of us were together. I didn’t really talk to Yasmine as much as I did with Jahan. I asked Yasmine for a picture and same fucking deal with the whole short-shaming situation. I took a “seflie” with Yaz and then we also didn’t really know what to do for our picture. Then, here comes Alex again suggesting Yasmine to carry me like how Jahan carried me on her back. Yasmine opens her arms and was like “Come on!” and I was just like “Oh shit, here we go again!” Yasmine was carrying me in her arms and we took our picture. 

Yasmine put me down on the ground ever so slightly. Such amazing, yet conflicting moments with Yasmine and Jahan carrying me, like what the fuck just happened?! I was content as can be. Yasmine asked “Are you going to SAMF?” and me being a loser, I said “No, I can’t, I’m young as fuck.” and she was like “Oh shit, yeah! I always think SAMF is still all ages.” I think I mentioned wanting to sneak in somehow, I forget, but she all of a sudden went over to Nathan behind the counter with the shirts and started talking to him. She came back and was like “Ok, here is what we can try to do. We could possibly pull the cousin card on you with Nathan and put you on the guest list, but our guest list is literally exploding, so we will get back to you.” I was in disbelief because I always thought they literally can’t do anything considering my age and that I talked to Jahan and Jeremy about it, with both of them basically saying no. I said “Oh shit, okay!” So that happened, I was trying to not get my hopes up, but I was chilling. Yasmine started making shirts behind the counter, which reminded me that I had to get a shirt for myself and Tiffany since she texted me ahead of time asking to get her one. I recorded a little clip of Yasmine printing the design on the shirt and she said a little message to the Krew for the vlog. Then, I asked for a shirt and they asked what size and I was like “Shit, the smallest size you guys have!” So, I ended up buying a small. Then, Alex asked Yasmine if they were saving a shirt for Tiffany. Yasmine said she didn’t know if they would have any left over. I was like “Yeah, she texted me asking to get her one!” and Yasmine asked me what size. I called up Tiffany and just double checked on the size and then I got Tiffany one. My little shirt mission was over. I asked Alex if she was getting one and she said “I legit brought $20 for this trip and the shirts are $20.” I was like “What? I’ll get you one!”, but she refused. I was like “Girl, alright whatever you say.” As I was standing around the shirts, I was talking with Jojo and Paola. I looked over the counter and saw Nathan and I was like “Paola! We need to get our family photo with Nathan!” She was like “Yes! Get him!” I shouted for his name and called him over to take a picture. Nathan, being averagely tall, was sandwiched between me and Paola. As we were standing taking our picture, I think Jojo was taking our picture and got the attention of Jahan to look and Jahan said “Aww!” So, we smiled and took our picture. 

Afterwards, I asked Alex again if I could get her a shirt and she kept refusing. I asked her what size she was and went behind her and looked at the tag of her shirt and made my way over to the counter. I got her a shirt and handed her the shirt. She kept saying I didn’t have to, but I wanted to. I felt good as fuck and generous, especially because she does a lot for the krew and this was the only chance to get the shirts. Yasmine and Jahan made their way over to us and took a huge group picture with some krew. I thought this would be perfect  to ask both of them to take a picture with me. I asked them and of course, they said yes. Alex was taking the picture again and surprise, surprise, we didn’t know what to do for the picture. Another suggestion was made for them to both carry me! They both put out their arms and they carried me like I was sitting on this Krewella throne or something. It was cute as fuck. Alex took a bunch of pictures and they came out either really derpy looking or cute. I was so content, yet conflicted because literally every picture I took with them, they were fucking carrying me, like what the fuck was that? But, hey it was creative and I weigh like 100lbs, so why fucking not?

They put me back on the ground and I thanked them for the pictures. They went off and, of course, went on talking to other krew. I was standing around Paola and I whipped out my camera and started updating what was happening. I did a little recap of the set and talking to Yaz and J. I asked Paola if we could take a picture, just because we are related and short!

Then, I got a picture with the Krew Wifeys!

I was beyond satisfied with the pictures I was able to get with everyone. We were all just chilling, talking, and hanging around. Jahan was telling us that they were going to be filming a music video for Fortune and that they were legit going to walking around Chicago, hitting up old spots, and just plain winging it. Jahan’s hair was messy in a bun from the set so she asked Milly to braid her hair in 2 french braids. She sat on the little staircase and we all kinda gathered around and just talked about a bunch of shit, like the EP, the music video, SAMF, and when they were in high school. I told J congrats on Mixed Kids Records. I also was able to ask her this question I’ve been wanting to ask. I asked “Will you guys ever do an acoustic song or cover soon? Because it has been a while!” She said “Oh yes! We would love to do one. It’s like one of the easiest things to do and we love doing it. Definitely sometime soon. We will think about it!” I was excited knowing the fact that they would be willing to do another one. They could probably do an acoustic version to Be There or Parachute or something, which would be amazing. I have always been obsessed when they made acoustic covers and songs in the past. The Alive acoustic version and the Watercolor cover they did with Evan Duffy….ugh those legit melt my heart and when I listen to the Watercolor cover, I straight up cry. So, if they were to do another one, or a couple, it would just complete everything. So, hopefully that shit will be on the way soon. Yeah, we were all just chilling & talking. Finally, the Travel Krew had to go because they had to prepare for & go to SAMF since they got ticket for all 3 days. I was rolling with them so I had to leave as well. I told Alex to hit me up later if she wanted to hang & chill since she wasn’t going to day 1 of Spring Awakening. I said by to Jahan and thank her for everything. I went over to Yasmine and she was coloring and drawing this thing for a fan and I was like “Alright, I am peacing with the Travel Krew. If anything happens with the cousin card, just slide into my DMs! Bye, love you, and thank you for everything!” and she said “Aw shit Em, ok I will definitely slides into your DMs!” Then she gave me another hug and as she said what she said, she did this sliding motion with her hands and body which was cute. I said bye to everyone else and gave hugs to everyone that I could. I walked out of Congruent Space with the Travel Krew and we walked away. We were heading to the CTA to go back to the hotel. I was having this amazing deep ass convo with Deanna, she is so sweet, I literally love her, while we were walking. We were walking on this bridge and below us was just lines of traffic and across the way was the beautiful Chicago skyline. 

We all stood there taking in the the view and took pictures, then we continued walking. We got to the station and because we were tourists and weren’t locals, we had issues figuring out how to work the machines to buy passes for the CTA. After figuring shit out for a little while, we took the CTA and had to transfer lines. In between transferring lines, we stopped at this center place that looked like a mall or business building, and when you looked up, it look super trippy. Sean had to go to the restroom and we were all starving. We grabbed food. I grabbed a number 9 from Taco Bell and Brie got something from Taco Bell too. Everyone else grabbed food from various places and we all sat down and just ate. We were discussing the release party. I was seeing everyone’s messages and tweets saying they could see me in the live stream, so I looked at Krewella’s FB live stream and was actually able to spot myself a little bit which was epic. I couldn’t finish my taco since I ate my crunchwrap supreme already, so I gave my taco to Deanna. Finally, we were done eating and took the green line back to the hotel. We got in the hotel and I just sat on the bed just still taking in everything that happened. The girls were getting ready for the festival and Sean and I just sat they sadly watching them because we were gonna be left behind. When they were done getting ready, I took a little group photo of them and I jokingly told Jojo to give me photo credits when she would post it. Sean hopped in the shower and the girls left. Sean came out of the shower and aired out in front of the AC which was hilarious; I even sent a picture to Paola. We were just chilling and talking. Sean told me the whole history and story of how the Travel Krew came to be. The whole story was fascinating and touching. I loved hearing every second of it! We just kept talking about a bunch of random stuff. I FaceTimed Sam Zupko for a little and just told her a little bit about what happened. We were bored as hell and we thought about finding Yasmine and Jahan filming the music video on the streets or getting dinner with other krew that wasn’t at day 1 of Spring Awakening, but nothing happened. Sean told me Thomas and Jenno would be arriving later in the night, so we were kind of just waiting for them and the girls to arrive. Yeah, not much happened in the evening after the release party. Let’s just say I took one hit of shit and felt 1,000x my weight and melted in the bed and passed out and woke up to Thomas being in the room and then passed out and then woke up to the girls arriving and Jojo and Deanna kept checking on me like this child and then they brought chicken and food in the room and smelled the food and I got the spins and puked a couple times and then changed and Deanna put me to bed…Yup, that’s how that day and night ended!

June 10th, 2017

I woke up the next morning with my sister texting me she was arriving soon in Chicago to meet up with me. Everyone woke up and one by one, we all just started taking showers and getting ready for the day. Everyone, but me, was preparing for Spring Awakening since today was the day Krewella would be performing. I took a shower and changed and did my makeup. Paola was making fun of me saying how I was doing my makeup in front of everyone and that it was iconic or something. When I was contouring my nose, she was like “Oh shit! Contour that nose girl! Filipinos don’t have noses!” I laughed so hard. My sister arrived at the hotel room. I was being a bum because I wanted to see krew, but there was no shot. I was asking Alex to keep in touch with Yasmine for me in case anything happened. Jojo, Brooke, Deanna, and Brie were getting ready for the festival still. Jenno, Paola, Thomas, my sister and I headed out and were on our way to Giordano’s for our first deep dish pizza, since that's was Yasmine and Jahan recommended. I got an extra key from Jojo to the hotel room, so that my sister and I could get our stuff later for when we would be checking into our own hotel near Midway Airport. Everyone else at the hotel room would just meet everyone else at the festival. We took the CTA to this Mexican part of the city for pizza. Paola called ahead of time so that they could get the pizza fast when we would arrive at the restaurant. Keep in mind that we weren’t told that we were basically ordering take out. So, while walking from the CTA to the restaurant, I updated my vlog again with that was happening. Paola and I were talking about filipino food and how Jahan and Yasmine would probably like Filipino food and I made a statement that they should go over to Paola’s place and that she would cook them this huge Filipino feast and that I would fly out there just to attend this feast. Finally, we made it to Giordano’s. We all went in and Paola went up to the counter saying we were the ones calling from the phone. We planned on eating in the restaurant, we legit called just to speed up the process of getting our pizza. The guy behind the counter working there, his name was Nick B I think, was saying "Because you called in your order, that is take out so, no dining in!" Even though we weren't from the area & this our fucking first time ordering at this place & we literally didn't know any better, he fucking told us we couldn't eat in the restaurant, despite the fact there were literally 7 empty tables! Paola even told him we would fucking tip them & we would clean up after ourselves. I swear I thought it was because we were all Asian. We got our pizza & walked outside & sat at this bench right on the side of the street & in front of the restaurant & sat there & ate our pizza.

We didn't have any plates so one of us had the balls to go in & ask for plates & we got paper plates. We didn't have a pizza cutter so we had to cut this thick ass pizza with a paper plate & scooped each slice onto our plates. I tried scooping my slice, but it broke, so then I had to grab it with my hands and I ended up grabbing two slices instead and I knew I was fucked because there was so shot I was gonna be able to finish it. We were talking and chilling and eating our pizza, roasting the guy in the restaurant for being an ass. It was all fun. We finished eating and Monica (she was also at the release party) finally met up with us to go to the festival with the Travel Krew. We all started walking to the park where the festival was happening at. As we were approaching the festival, we saw the fencing with big SAMF banners covering it. The closer we got, the closer we go to realizing who was sound checking. We heard a familiar song that we all knew by heart...it was Be  There, which meant...fucking Krewella was sound checking as we were walking toward the entrance of SAMF. We were all freaking out. Monica and I were kind of screaming and jumping all around. We kept walking and they started sound checking with Team. We finally made it to the entrance and everyone was waiting around and sitting on the grass or getting in line to get in. We were waiting for everyone else to arrive from the hotel. We sat on the grass and just listen to Krewella sound checking. They switched to Fortune and a bunch of their other songs to sound check. We were all so happy and hyped. We were recording the excitement and them sound checking on our phones and sharing it on social media. I was happy as fuck, I had to admit, but in the long run, I was too depressed and sad that I wasn’t gonna be able to go. Hearing them sound checking and getting a feel for the atmosphere for when they would be playing their actual set really killed me on the inside. I kept saying “It’s fucking worse to be right in the city while SAMF is happening and not being able to see Krewella than to be far away at home from Chi while SAMF is happening and not being able to see Krewella.” It’s like I was so fucking close...shit, I was right at the fucking entrance! But, there was nothing happening for me. I had a feeling Yasmine wouldn’t get back to me in any way, whether it was through Alex or herself in DMs. I was fucking sad. I kept talking to Monica about it and she was just trying to reassure me and make me feel better, but nothing was helping me to be honest. I was in a huge predicament. I could either be the most hopeful and optimistic person ever or be fucking down in the dumps and negative about everything. In there case, I was being positive in the way that I thought Yasmine would end up getting back to me about the cousin card working, then I was being negative in the way that I knew nothing was gonna happen and I wouldn’t be able to go at all, like how it was supposed to be from the beginning. I tried to keep my hopes low- so that I would be used to the fact and already expect nothing was gonna happen or if shit did work out, then my hopes would be risen and I would be so happy. Time went on with listening to them sound check and after a little while, they were done and the rest of the Travel Krew arrived. Brie and I were talking and I was just letting out my sad face feelings and she hugged me and the second she hugged me, I started crying and balling my eyes out. It fucking sucked ass, I just wanted to cry for the whole day. The security guards started yelling at us and told us to either go in line for the festival or to leave and go somewhere else. The rest of them were eating the pizza from earlier so we just went across the street. They ate the pizza and gave whatever they couldn’t finish to some random guy. Finally, they were making their way to the lines. Everyone was already across the street. I able to catch Jojo and I said “Ok, I think this will be the last time you’ll see me. We are just gonna figure out what to do and go back to the hotel room later to get out things and check into our own room. Thank you for everything.” I hugged her and she also reassured me and we said our goodbyes. That was the final second I saw the whole Travel Krew. But as I was walking away going to...some place, I still didn’t know what my sister and I were gonna do, Deanna was walking in my direction and she just got down getting ready. She was on her way to the lines. I was talking to her and said the same thing I said to Jojo and she said “It was amazing finally meeting you for the first time, we will bring you to your first festival, I promise!” Then we hugged and I tried so hard to not cry when we were hugging. We said our final goodbyes and she went on into the festival. I was literally pacing back and forth conflicted with what to do. My sister was giving me bullshit about the situation and it felt like everything she was saying to me was her just blaming me for how I felt, that I shouldn’t have let Yasmine get my hopes up and that I shouldn’t have expected anything. I wanted to leave so bad...leave the festival grounds, leave the city, but me being me, I was still hopeful. We decided to chill around the festival at a Starbucks in case I would get any news. We walking 6 blocks to Starbucks, I got my iced peach green tea, I sat there, and I sat there waiting for nothing. I threw in the towel and we left. While walking to the nearest station, I was getting so pissed at my sister, she was just irritating me and making me feel even worse than I already did. I was crying while walking. Shit, I was a mess. We just took the CTA back to the Travel Krew room. We grabbed our stuff and on our way out, I did that awkward goodbye in the hotel room, like literally saying goodbye to the room itself and the fun memories I had in it, despite the fact I legit stayed there for a day and night. We took the CTA to our hotel, the Sleep Inn near Midway Airport. This hotel I legit paid for myself and I just had a job since this past January and I felt old paying for it and booking it...real talk thought- I was proud of myself, yet I hated this whole “adulting” thing. We checked in and kind of chilled. I was really emo- I didn’t wanna do anything, I didn’t wanna go anywhere, I didn’t wanna see anything or anyone...I was just numb. I felt really shitty and bad for my sister because she literally flew out this day only to keep my company and occupied while everyone else I was in Chi with was at the festival. She wanted to take to see  Chicago and explore the city and go to the basic tourist spots, but I really didn’t have it in me.Krewella set was at 5:50pm and I was just waiting for time to pass. My sister took a nap and when she woke up, I was watching the Travel Krew live stream from Instagram or Periscope of Krewella playing their set at SAMF. I was still numb and all sadface at the fact that I was literally a couple miles away from the madness I was watching from my phone. Just to get my mind off all of this and for time to pass for the set to be over so I didn’t have to suffer anymore, we went out to dinner at TGI Friday’s in the lot of the hotels around our hotel. I got boneless buffalo wings because I wanted something small and I didn’t have much of an appetite. We went back to the hotel after eating. My sister got ready for bed and crashed. I was on FaceTime with Sam again and she was helping me cope through my numbness. All of a sudden, I got texts from Corinne saying “come to our hotel tn. we needa kick it w you before you leave” She wanted me to meet her and everyone at her hotel after SAMF. She gave me her hotel information, it was the Comfort Inn near O’Hare Airport. Just from basic knowledge, I knew that my hotel and her hotel were ways apart. I googled directions and uber direction and it was 40minutes away and around $40-$50 for an uber. There was no shot I was gonna be down to pay for that. I suggested that our friend, Kody, would scoop me and we would go to her hotel room together. I texted him and he got back to me saying “Fuck it, I’ll come by and get you.” He told me it was his friend who was driving and after waiting a little, Kody and his friends got me and we were on our way to their hotel. It was an interesting car ride. We got gas across the street from the hotel and of course I paid because I offered since I felt shitty about them getting me, but fuck it really. Like, when the hell will be the next time I’ll be in Chicago with krew. We got into the parking lot of the hotel and literally waited for an hour for them to arrive back from the festival. WE waited and talked and chilled in car. The guys were literally putting their legs out of the door because we were waiting for so long, so long to the point where Kody’s friend had to pee, so he peed in the parking lot right next to the car. We went up their room and we just hung out. 

Everyone was so fun. Bianca and I ate this amazing ass cake. There were multiple occasions where we had to quiet down or else we would be getting kicked out. The room was really smokey. They were passing around tequila and they made me take some and it tasted like literal ass and Corinne got a video of me taking it and dying. Lalo was calling me “Philly Cheesesteak”, which was honestly a great nickname. Corinne and I established she was my old Ate and when my sister was texting me to be back at our room at 3am, Corinne told me to text her “My other Ate told me otherwise” which was funny. They were saying “Oh my gosh! I remember when PhillyKrew made it on the scene. You are young and you have been around for a while!”, I felt very satisfied in a way. It was hella fun just hanging with them. We were taking pictures and videos and shit, but then it was time to leave. I knew I was gonna have to pay for take a fucking $40 uber at 3am alone, with probably some creepy ass guy. I asked Bianca to walk be down to the uber. I said bye to everyone and it was hella fun and nice to have hung out with them. Lalo said I was chill for a 16 year old. I hugged everyone and they said “It was so nice to finally meet you. Girl, hit us up when you are in town!” I love them! Bianca walked me down to the lobby and outside barefoot. We talked and shit and I fucking love Bianca. The uber pulled up in and Bianca peeped her head in the window and told the driver to make sure I get to my hotel okay. I hugged her and we said our goodbyes. The car was weird as fuck. I lied about literally everything trying to make myself seem older, I mainly talked about Krewella just to stall and cover shit up. I was texting Bianca the whole time. My sister was freaking the fuck out on the phone. I made it back to the room okay, I took off my makeup and just went straight to bed.

June 11th, 2017

I woke up to my sister telling me to get up and that it was 7am and we had to be in the lobby and have breakfast in time for the shuttle going to Midway Airport at around 7:40am. Our flight was at 9am from Midway to Detroit and then another flight from Detroit to Philly and we would arrive home around 2pm.

Nothing really happened much on the flights. We made both flights. I got some ending footage for my vlog. I was listening to New World on repeat and also wearing my New World shirt from the release party and my KREWLIFE crewneck. My dad got us from the airport. I got home and walked into my room, just looking around and seeing how I felt my room when I left for Chicago. I was just sitting on my bed reminiscing on the moments of happiness and excitement I experienced just a couple days ago leading up to legit one of the BEST days of my life. I was so fucking torn and depressed it was all over. I felt like I had nothing else to look forward to to be honest. Again, I was just in a whole numb situation. I was beyond grateful for and amazing and mesmerized by the trip I just had. It was a fucking dream. I’ve been waiting for this for years now and I just couldn’t believe it was over. It was like I just woke up from a dream...and you had that dream and it went by so fucking fast right in front of you and you can honestly barely remember the deep details of the dream and it felt like it happened so long ago. I was so numb. I began going through the footage I took for my vlog and it was just bad and good all at the same time. Bad because I had to force myself to look back on the amazing memories I just made and that I wanted to relive over and over again. Good because I was feeling all nostalgic and happy and grateful I was able to experience and record all of this. Then, I started editing my vlog. I edited throughout the whole night until I was brain-fried and wanted to crash. 

Now back to the present day. It has taken me literally day to fucking finish this whole story, typing it up and adding the right pictures affiliating to whatever I was writing about. I am so fucking grateful for meeting the people I met for the first time, for seeing and reuniting with the people I haven’t seen in a while, for flying safely and excitedly to literally heaven on Earth, for experiencing such an insane set by Krewella for the first time since 2014, for living in the moment and sinking into everything that was happening...just grateful for EVERYTHING. I am so amazed at this part of my life. I was able to escape my reality... my shittiest ass reality that makes me feel so damn, lost, empty, dark, lonely, etc. This reality, this real world, this real life I have...it’s the fucking worst. As much as I wanna enjoy it, I can’t and I haven’t been able to for the past 2, almost 3 years now. But, I had my KREWLIFE. This life, this fantasy, this dream is what I have to escape to, to fall back on when life is pushing me down. I am so grateful, for everything, for everyone. I can get into depths about this and get all mushy about it in another post. If you had made it this far reading this monster of a post, thank you and I will end this soon.

 It’s June 21st at 12:21am. I am listening to Parachute and I legit just felt the lyrics “We survive on the memories” and “If I could bottle up this feeling. Dancing on the ceiling. Won't sink when I need it. Don't think just believe it.” so hard...I felt the real emotion and meaning of these lyrics as I am typing this. So fucking relevant to wanting to go back to the release party and this whole trip. I can’t wait for the next time I see Krewella and krew and have a perfect trip or day or night like that again. It is all a vicious cycle when it comes to this part of the KREWLIFE- 

Wait for the next chance to see Krewella and be with the krew

Go see Krewella and krew and rage the day/night away and make some crazy, unforgettable memories

Come home from all of the perfect insanity and madness, and feel all depressed it is over and wanting to relive it all

Repeat

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Accusation of Rape, Big Man Commits Suicide

Accusation of rape without strong evidence have finally seen a young and ambitious young man and father of one into the grave. I hope it’s not all false allegatins.

Twitter NG has been all sad ever since the news of the alleged suicide by Micheal Asiwaju, who goes by the alias “Mike Cash”

As at when this post was written, it had 21k+ tweets and is the number one topic trending in the entire nation, not even the presidential debate which would be aired LIVE in the later hours of today. 

It was gathered that Asiwaju injested a poisonous substance conceived to be Sniper and his  lifeless body was found in his hotel room around 12am on January 13, 2019.

The CEO of Asiwaju Royal Furniture in Ojo, Lagos, Michael Asiwaju, had lodged into the hotel in the evening of the previous day.

Moments  before the self-slaughter, he had disclosed his plan through his Twitter handle, @Asiwaju_limited, to end his life.

“Goodbye, I’ll die soon. (I) am gone,”

he tweeted at exactly 7.35pm on Saturday, the 12th of January.”, Asiwaju had about 24,700 followers on Twitter at the time of his death. 

The post was the last of numerous messages the late Asiwaju tweeted last Saturday, between 5.52pm and 7.35pm, while reacting to the rape claims.

Just a week ago, a Twitter user, who goes by the handle @thatgoddess, had called out Asiwaju, stating that she had knowledge about how he forcefully had carnal knowledge of a woman inside his vehicle. Yet, she said strong evidences about the allegation were still shady.

This woman (real name unknown) later posted screenshot of a conversation she had with yet another woman who not only said she knows of the deceased deeds but that she was a victim of his perverted acts, one which took place around May, two years ago (2017).

In the screenshot, the woman claimed that the deceased father of one had deceived her into “chilling” in an hotel room and raped her.

Part of the woman’s side of the said is quoted verbatim:

“I don’t want anyone linking me to this. He raped me. His full name is Michael Asiwaju. He owns a furniture company.  He’s also known as Mike Cash. He is mostly in Festac. He tried to lure me with money and gifts. He was asking me out and I refused. I was just fine being friends with him because he was a controlling person.

He said I’m his girlfriend and I just laughed about it cos (because) I never agreed to be his girlfriend. He always wanted me to come see him but I always refused. Then, he accused me of sleeping around with men. I ignored him and then he apologised. So he called me and said I should come hang out with him and his friends at the beach.

“So I thought it was okay to go see him since it was an open place and his friends were gonna (going) be there.  So when it was time to leave the beach, he was supposed to drop me off at Lekki Phase I; then I’d get Uber to take me to my house. He also had to drop one of his friends at his hotel. So we were all in the car and then his friend dropped midway.

“Mike said we had to go to his friend’s hotel to wait for him. I didn’t even understand what was going on but I didn’t mind cos (because) we were not alone. His cousin was there too.”

The indicter established that when she and the deceased man got to the hotel, she hung around the lobby instead of lodging with Asiwaju. She  further disclosed that his cousin drove Asiwaju’s car out of the hotel’s grounds and  consented to return soon.

“Mike kept telling me to go chill in the room instead of waiting at the lobby. He kept assuring me that I’d be okay. So I went to the room; (the) biggest mistake of my life. I really trusted that nigga.

“I was alone for a while, then he came in and locked the door. I started to panic. He started touching me and all that. I told him I wasn’t in the mood. So he said I was his girlfriend and he would have sex with me whether I was in the mood or not. I started to fight him and he became aggressive.” She said

But while reacting to the allegations last Saturday on his Twitter handle, @Asiwaju_limited, the late furniture expert said the women imputing him of rape were, as a matter of fact, his girlfriends who he met via social media.

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He also uploaded photos of two of the supposed girlfriends, stating that they had “fun” together sometime in 2017 at a club, where he spent N500,000 just for the night.

Asiwaju  also pointed accusing fingers at his former business partner, one Miss/Mrs Blessing, saying she was the brain behind the blackmail.

He said:

“I (am) here, I’ll need to say my own side of the story. I know my former business partner sponsored this blackmail to destroy me cos (because) she’s contesting on the platform of All Progressives Congress.

He tweeted:

“You all claimed I raped you? We met on the social media, I took you to a club, I spent N500,000 popping Champaign cos (because) of you and we had sex when am (sic) high and you call it rape? In 2017, you didn’t report to the police. In 2018, you didn’t report to the police. In 2019, you decided to blackmail me.

“This two people (sic) and Blessing should be held responsible if anything happens to me. You came to visit me cos (because) you know I have money. We went to a club; I bought drinks worth half a million naira; we had sex inside my car you claimed I raped you just to tarnish my image.

“We discussed sex before you came; all this happened in 2017. None of you reported me to the police. In 2019 cos (because I) am supporting PDP and my bestie is contesting under APC, she sponsored this thread to destroy me.”

Asiwaju later tweeted further that the saga claimed the life of his ailing mother after she read the post online, adding that the blackmail had destroyed his family.

He tweeted:

“My mother died few minutes ago Cos she saw the post online, she just had an heart surgery… this blackmailed has destroyed FAMILY.”

He went on to say:

 “This story made me lose my mum. Even when I called, I pleaded with these people to take down the post; that my mother just had (a) heart surgery. Imagine if I wanna pay back but I won’t cos I won’t be available.

He called out his former business partner again;

“Why will you destroy me when I told you my mother just had heart surgery? Now she’s gone everyone is crying Cos of your stupidity. Are u happy now? Blessing osom are u happy now ?”

“My advice for Nigeria girls; when you meet a guy, you like him cos he is rich; you talk sex before meeting him; don’t call it rape when he sleeps with you.

“What will you gain from this blackmail? Imagine if I decided to come after you and your family? But I won’t. Now that you have blackmailed and destroyed me, wetin u gain (What did you gain)? My mother is gone cos of this; I can be gone too cos right now I’m not myself anymore. “If you all want me to expose you, I still have your fucking nudes on my phone. Did I force you to send me nudes? Do you really wanna (want to) get exposed?”

The vexed  Asiwaju afterwards  posted  nudes which he claimed was sent by one of his “girlfriends”. He also uploaded an 11-second video clip, showing a faceless naked woman massaging  him with intent to sexually arouse him.

The deceased continued

“You sent me this and we clubbed together; got high and you called me a rapist just to tarnish my image.

“Someone DM this to me on Twitter; why do you people want us to expose ourselves? Plenty big gals (girls) on this platform send me nudes that they want me. When I sleep with them and stop talking to them, they blackmail me.

“I don’t care anymore. My mother is dead. I’ll expose all of you. Why will you destroy me when I told you my mother just had (a) heart surgery? Now she’s gone; everyone is crying cos of your stupidity. Are you happy now?

“You claimed I raped you. Bring police report. You feel blackmail will destroy me. Today might be the last time I tweet or breathe. Before you blackmail someone, think about their mental health. Are you happy now for destroying Asiwaju? Are you really happy Blessing?”

Further showing signs of being suicidal, Asiwaju, a single father, said his son would not live a regrettable life as he had made enough money for him to live on when he (Asiwaju) was no longer alive.

The tweet read:

“Nigerians are wicked , once they see a young man doing well do everything to destroy him… i’m a single father my son will not live to regret his life Cos I have made money for him.. even if I die he will live happily .

“My mother is gone. What am I doing here? Let’s get dirty on social media; stop calling me again to stop posting. Asiwaju raped you; tell Nigerians what led us to sex. Don’t sugarcoat things to spoil my image. “I met her on Twitter. She sucked my ass; she called me the richest guy she had ever met in her life and she’s among the people blackmailing me on Twitter. Imagine if I post her real face online. Goodbye I’ll die soon. (I) am gone,” he ended the tweets at 7.35pm.

Although, some of his followers were eager to know the suicidal man’s address and how he was doing since the allegations.

However, others made fun  about his predicament. One of them, a lady asked for his original iPhone charger before he would carry out  his suicide plan, another guy begged for his ATM pin.

Well, the Police Public Relations Officer in Lagos, CSP Chike Oti, confirmed the suicide. He said two bottles of Sniper was recovered from the incident scene.

He said, 

“We are investigating a possible case of suicide. We were alerted that a young man died in his hotel room and the Commissioner of Police was informed. He directed that the body should be evacuated and that a team of detectives comprising men from the forensic unit and men from the homicide section should investigate the matter.

“The body was inspected and there was no visible mark of violence on the corpse. Two bottles of Sniper, which we reasonably believed he must have drunk, was recovered from the hotel room. One of the bottles had been emptied while the other one was still unopened. The man checked into the hotel with the name, Prince Moses. Preliminary investigation revealed that the man was the owner of a business known as Asiwaju Royal Furniture.”

By – AJAYI AYODEJI