#if u saw me post this yesterday no u didnt. it didnt show up in the tags rippp

[lucky-cherries]

I WAS BUSY BUT THIS WAS WHAT HAPPENED YESTERDAY WHICH WAS THE FIRST DAY BACK AFTER WINTER BREAK (LONG POST BTW)

So this morning when I went to go see him he was talking to another teacher but he said happy new year to me!! Also idk if it was something the teacher said or me but he had that look on his face like a deer caught in headlights when he saw me lol

I showed him the photos I took over the break for a project we are currently working on and he LOVED THEM. He said they were the most promising of all the ones he's seen. I told him I was worried if it was too much or too little or not what he was looking for and he said "in my humble opinion, it's exactly what I was looking for" I LOVE HIS PRAISE OMG ACADEMIC VALIDATION. ‼️

At the beginning of class he gave a couple students a shout out for being hard working including me!! For Christmas some student gave him a giant seal plushie and it has like 4 mini seals its so squishy and cute. He was holding a mini one and said "Somebody gave these to me for Christmas and for example, if *my name* wasnt getting her work done i can throw these at her" AND HE THREW ONE AT ME but it went wayyyy over my head so i couldnt catch it lmao. I picked it up and threw it back at him but it was a bad throw so he couldnt catch it either.

It was a really chill class we didnt do much. I was with a couple friends around his desk and we were just chatting. He asked us what we thought of his mustache (His friend pressured him into doing it lmaoooo) they said it looked good and he said "Yeah everyone at school says oh it looks good or it suits u and im like stop lying" MAN CANNOT TAKE A COMPLIMENT OMG I THINK HE LOOKS HOT WITH OR WITHOUT IT. Then he asked me and I pulled up a pic of the pringles logo and said it looks like him as a joke AND HE LAUGHED SO HARD LIKE HE WAS LEANING ALL THE WAY BACK IN HIS CHAIR AND WHEEZING EHAKVNKVNA. Everyone left early cuz we didnt have much to do but ofc i stayed with him until class ended. We both left his classroom together while talking about how our school is old af and needs a renovation 💀 I love whenever it's just us two :3

[sillybeansss]

HELLO ‘TIS MORNING AT LAST!!!! i sent that in ten minutes before i went to sleep sorry

though im kind of mad at tumblr for nor showing me this post because a lot of your posts show up ok my dash usually so

okay actually it isnt morning anymore im at a relatives house sorry💥💥💥

HAIII!!!My weekend has been alright not much has happened which is expected ://

(^^ real!!! nothing happened at all yesterday…and i guess on friday i went to see a christmas tree lighting but it was planned very badly)

And no the diagnosis will highkey never happen ever,,, my mom was gonna plan it but she saw how expensive it was and WE DON'T GOT THAT TYPE OF MONEY!!!! 😭😭😭 but it's okay,, I got Boba and a Patrick pen today so uhhh it balances out trust,,, 

(^^ i do, in fact, trust!!! ouhhh boba sounds so cool!!!! ive never tried it but i want to sososososo baddd!!!! also its what? expensive????? well if i ever had a chance of getting one in the first place i certainly dont now…seriously though, sorry to hear it didnt happen! :[ maybe it was for a reason or something…[trying not to get too religious rn])

ALSOOO I FINISHED A BOOK YESTERDAY!!!>u< I'm waiting for Monday for my friend to lend me the next book in the trilogy I'm so hyped I need to know what happens also I was trying to draw Belarus cause like Deary me I wanted to draw so bad today but I didn't till now cause I had no real motivation but I never finished it cause I started drawing a character from my book 

:333

(^^^^ READING IS SO COOL!!!! ive been reading a book too and its so fun i love it….ALSO BOOK SERIES ARE THE BEST!!!! i remember reading this series once…and the characters were nice the plot just kinda sucked a lot so.!! also im so glad to see you were enjoying it!!! also the urge to draw is do real ive been so artblocked these months but i drew something yesterday so im proud!! also BELARUS MENTIONED!! i love her shes so sassy but they did her so dirty with the whole russia thing…but i think she was made with a certain president/any other type of sovereign in mind…which, as head of state, they do symbolize/represent their country…)

~🫶🏽🎳

HELLOOOO HAIII!!! :3 And yeah I was so surprised so the first appointment would've been 3,000 or smth and the second appointment (I didn't even know there wouldve been 2 appointments what) was 14,000 cash or something idk if cash I just remember my mom mentioning it and I was SHOCKED 😭😭 (maybe it was 140,000 but I honestly can't remember she told me this a few days ago wait yesterday I think actually wait no it was Friday mb,,,)

AND REALLL READING IS SO FLARPING FUNNY AUGHHH My friend finished the last book of the trilogy like in a day which I was honestly shocked and I NEED to read the next book starts shaking tbh :/

And they did her character so dirty why did they do that to her,,,she was quite fun to draw tho🦭🦭

[fappellmoan]

bitch post time!!!!!! many revelations ok last night's vibes were HEINOUS but it provided so much for me and lydia to talk about and now i am gonna share with you yippee storytime

k so we plan to go to this valentines day showcase thing that the college radio is putting on last night. mind you at my place of work where i pretended that i had a family emergency and had to go home cause i didnt feel like going into work yesterday morning lol idiot... i was so paranoid my boss was there in disguise or some shit it was stupid. sorry um. yeah so ok i was largely like this could be a chance for friend groups to come together and maybe ill be able to talk to sams roommate and also like i do want to see more live music and it's free! so. anyway ok wait let me tell u abt the first part of the day

so me and lydia drive over some wine bottles to sam for him to use as props in a film. and sam and the roommate are sitting on their porch and we chat a little bit acc sam said as i walked up 'you always look so suspicious' and i was like 'ok u guys were literally just staring at me' cause they WERE and roommate was actually really nicely like 'oh no you're okay' and generally was just kind of inserting into our convo which well i had fun with naturally. um anyway and then who comes running up but teko! our buddy teko. and sams like have yall met and im like Of course and teko gives me a hug and i cant lie it was actually so sweet. i am also extremely touch starved but it was a nice hug. anyway. then i had to help roommate pick shoes alongside teko's fit and then i was like um Ok Bye. when i got back in the car lydia was like so i saw a neon sweatshirt... and i was like yeah <3 that's my man <3 sorry ok vibes get worse as the night comes

me and lydia end up getting to sam's late to 'pregame' this show and ig it was supposed be like. it was encouraged to dress formally. and i was wearing a dress that was too small and my chappell red tights and docs. kind of a serve but me and lydia were serving much more valentines day than formal. anyway. roommate does swing around to be like hi! and THEN i see my girl chloe i looooove her shes so fuckin funny and weird and we made this weird little short together in class last semester and i was kinda intimidated by her so i was so happy shocked when she was like I was so excited to see u :D WEEE shes so cool guys and has the funniest fuckin laugh and well honestly the high points of the night were us and lydia fucking around and dancing and being weird and offputting wallflowers cause again this thing SUCKED. ok

we did also smoke beforehand and i accidentally took this huge hit and then thought id be fine w a little more but brother was i feeling funny. did not eat enough and didnt take water it was atrocious. so. we get there and let me tell you if I WAS WORKING i'd have been able to fix the fact that it was soooooooooo fucking loud in there like bad bad bad audio distortion etc i wanted to kick this dude off the mixer but like what ever... it hurt so bad. and the lights were mostly on until chloe and sam duped this guy into dimming some of them but even still it was giving middle school dance. without the fun cheesy music. some of my instagram gay people are there. um but sorry there was simply no way i was going near that dance floor like the bands lowkey highkey sucked (i mean it was just a bunch of white college dudes and they did not slay. shocker. sam kept being like 'they're so good' and we were like um haha... straight face emoji)

we acc disappeared for a while to another floor for the br and just chilled for like half an hour (and security came to find us lmfaooo but ended up just leaving) and i was feeling odd and out of body and too aware of how i looked and it was just not great i was like we're the only bitches serving cunt here... um. anywho. so like later theres a slow dance and roommate is dancing with this other girl i only know from instagram till this point and i suppose if i was really feeling myself i could have tried to make a move but i was not. once again. vile vibes in this place. like i dont mean to be a pussy i typically would be much more charming and fun if i wanted to flirt and kinda felt the vibe from them but i was not really enjoying myself LMAO

then some more of the friend group shows up at the end and sam's like 'drama is actively going down' and im like Wuhhhh the fuck and i feel like a few of them r looking at me and i was just like get me OUT of here but for some fuck ass reason was still like nooooo we should go over and have pizza w sam and them. forgive me for thinking they had like frozen pizza or smth and i could get some free food out of this no we had to sit there and wait for dominos or whatever

AND THE MOST ANNOOOOOOOOOOOYING AWFUL TERRIBLE GROSS MEN YOUVE EVER MET SAT THERE AND JOINED THE BRIEF SMOKE CIRCLE AND THEN WERE JUST THERE AND LIKE YOU COULD JUST FEEL THEM TAKING UP SPACE AND US 'GIRLS' WERE MADE TO FEEL SO SMALL ON THE FUCKING COUCH I WAS SOOOOOOOO TIRED. had to get a sweater cause i felt so uncomfortable. girl i really was only there in case i could have a saving grace moment with roommate im so serious. well and for chloe but otherwise me and lydia shoulda been outta there

literally chloe was so excited to show our little video to people and sam cut us off from getting there to show us the fucking fidget spinner game he has on his tv. girl get out! oh my fucking god. finally lydias like Cool anyway so - like sams misogyny jumped out in previously unprecedented ways. it was bad. these boys were truly making me want to kill myself im sorry like it was so bad i have curated my experience so as to be away from that for so long it was really jarring. and what you need to understand about sam is that he's almost died twice and kind of has a funny little gender vibe going on and so for a while now yeah we've gotten along through silly odd things we relate through but holy shit....... that was so offputting i cant even wrap my brain around it

also sam very much walked me into like yaoi-fying him and his best friend and then was like haha noooo why r u calling us gay ur so weird bitch just fuck him already im tired and also dont care.. hes so attention seeking and not used to um not being the center of attention. sorry! oopsies anyway so

so then im like ew like i kinda need to reassess um. the people im around. and again cant stress enough how gross and judged and just kinda old i felt surrounded by these ppl even tho theyre all like within a year of age? and like roommate still seems maybe cool but since we didnt actually talk and they were off w the other roommate/other ppl i cant help but associate them w the odd vibes but like. honestly idk i might just try to uh slide into their dms rlly casually. bc. well idk how the friend group is fracturing and it wouldnt surprise me if they were annoyed with sam esp living with him but obv i dont really know. but again let me stress this friend group has been friends since their freshman year like what r yall doing yeah u do need to break up....

so i figure since they're hot (and kinda tiny i cant tell if they're shorter than me or just right around my height) (but also they kind of scared me by giving Instagram face while posing for a pic last night i cant do any more people giving off dorian gray rn. but i was also under the influence so um that didnt help) i could just yeah be brave see how it goes and worst case scenario it's not a vibe yk. and best case scenario i get to hang w them and teko. teko so gives francis. anyway

OH also sam and the friends insisted on listening to this ai generated… thing like idk guys i think i was in hell fr

also had several men yell out of their cars at me and staring at me as we walked to the bus stop :/ so men really do ruin everything btw

um. so. that was the night! thx for reading if u did. i am excited to be around other fun silly cool queer people god bless fuck these people

[mrs-monaghan]

"Why is it okay for you to assume things about Jikook going by what you've seen but yet it's a crime when we do the same about Vmin?"

Because we came to a conclusion that jikook is a couple with years and years of evidence, and they still show us this until this days. Now show me, in the past year, the evidences that vmin r fighting?? The last time we saw them together was the day they took jhope to enlist, and they talked to eo. Yeah, jimin said something about tae's hair getting big, which show us that they didnt saw eo in a while. But that necessarily means that they r fighting???

"Jimin putting boundaries with V has been happening for a while now. It didn't start in 2022. When V told Jimin i like you the most and Jimin replying i like you too...." yeah because you know FOR SURE that this was what jimin was doing lol. I didnt know u live inside jimins brain, im sorry.

Tae hanging out with wooga squad necessarily means that they like them more than BTS? We dont know that for sure, either. Thats what im saying.

"JK being a Jimin solo has been an ongoing gag for a while now." LMAOO, yeah, because thats what i was talking about. My point was: jk dont wanting to sing a song by BTS necessarily means he doesnt want to be a part o BTS anymore??? Thats all i was asking.

No, its not the first time i'm visiting your blog. I followed u until yesterday, when i unfollowed. I sent u a lot of anon asks before, and i actually liked u.

Im not pretending nothing is going on with tae. All i'm saying is: we cant know for sure. We know nothing. So im not gonna shade him without even knowing what is his motivations. But u do you. It seems u are just finding excuses to justify what u think about tae. Your projections. Anyway, u dont even have to answer me, i dont care. Bye

I have never once said JK doesn't wanna be a part of BTS anymore but okay. Good bye former anon. Thank u for taking the time to let me know that you don't care. Bye!

This was very wise of you.

Everyone please follow this person's lead. If you don't like a blogger please do not torture yourself with their posts. Unfollow if u need to. I would actually recommend blocking but that's up to you, of course. 😁

[valleyofthepaganz]

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[user220811]

hii i saw ur crush/best friend headcanons for lo’ak and i loved them sm. i was wondering if u could do hcs where lo’ak and reader both like each other and the reader gets jealous over tsireya? what would lo’ak do if he found out?

“I see you”

Lo’ak x fem!omatikaya!reader imagine (fluff)

Please read!!! I only posted my first avatar imagine yesterday, and am now at 100 followers!! I want to thank you all so much, I am more than grateful!! Hope you enjoy :)

Sorry this ones kinda crap

I see you- “I see the love and your feelings and your soul and you mean everything to me.”

You and Lo’ak have always had a special connection, and everyone is aware of it. You also clearly like eachother, but both of you doubt that the others feel the same. When you joined them on their travel to the water na’vis, you were quite nervous with what to expect.

“What if they find us?” You ask warily.

“Well then I will protect you.” Lo’ak states.

You smile at his braveness, even though you and him both know that deep down he is just as scared. But Lo’ak loves when he gets a chance to act brave and fearless like his dad.

When you all arrived at the reefs, you were still kind of cautious, and Lo’ak saw this, so pulled you between him and Neteyam. You kept your head down, avoiding the eyes of the Metkayina. You looked away as Jake spoke to Tonowari and Ronal, and glanced at the water around you.

Thats when you spotted a girl emerging from the water. She seemed about your age, and was beautiful. Way prettier than you, you thought. You noticed how Neteyam and Lo’aks heads turned in the same direction, and seemed to linger on the same girl. Neteyam you didnt really care about looking, but you felt insecure as Lo’aks eyebrows ever so slightly raised as his eyes followed the girl, and she looked at him, too. You know you shouldnt feel this way, but you cant help it. For all you know, Lo’ak doesnt have any interest in you, not like you with him.

When she was introduced as Tonowari and Ronal’s daughter, it made you feel even worse about yourself. You weren’t anyone special back in the jungle, just a normal omatikaya na’vi. With Lo’ak being Jake’s son, you felt worried that they would have stronger connections than you and him.

You were taken away from your thoughts by a tug on your arm, and snapped out of it to focus on Lo’ak infront of you.

“Y/n, come on, they are showing us our home. Are you okay?” He says, a hint of concern in his tone.

“Yeah yeah I’m fine, come on” you reply, going ahead with your hand still in his. Lo’ak wasnt fully convinced, but decided to drop it.

Once you had settled in to your home, you were all called to the water, to learn the ways of the Metkayina. You stayed beside Lo’ak, as you were lead to the rocks by the water, by Tsireya and her two brothers. You all sat in a circle, you securely sat between Neteyam and Lo’ak.

“You must learn to slow your breathing to be able to survive under the water.”

She knelt infront of Lo’ak, and placed her hand on his lower abdomen.

“Breathe from here” she instructs

You know it is just their way of teaching, but you felt a wave of jealousy come over you. You werent the type to cause a scene, so you stayed sat down, quietly.

Once you all were able to slow your heart rate enough, you were lead to the water. Lo’ak had a sense of urgency about him as he went ahead with Tsireya, clearly going way too fast for him to handle so soon, and this made you feel deflated. You had only been there a matter of hours and already felt like Lo’ak had found someone over you. You didnt like feeling this way at all, and needed to get away from it. Neteyam, who was swimming beside you, noticed this, but before he was able to check, you spoke up.

“I dont feel all that well, I’m gonna go back.” You say, which is clearly a lie.

Neteyam could tell this, and with a quick glance to Lo’ak and the others ahead, he knew why you felt that way. But he knew you were reserved, and wouldnt tell him the truth, so didn’t want to push it.

“Do you want me to come with you?” He asks softly.

“No no its okay, you go on. Just tell the others I’ll join them another day.” You insist, and turn to swim back to shore before Neteyam could muster another word.

You were now sat down on the edge of your home dangling your feet in the water, splashing the surface with small glum kicks. Neytiri and Jake were with the girls exploring their new home and meeting the clan, so you were on your own.

That was until you heard footsteps.

“Y/n” you hear Lo’ak say as he spots you.

He sits down beside you, placing his feet in the water like you were, and shuffles up close.

“How come you didnt come with us into the sea? It was amazing!” Lo’ak says

“I uh, I didnt feel right,” you said with your head down towards the water “Just wanted to be on my own”

“Are you okay? You have seemed quiet.” He says, gently placing his hand on yours, “Have I done something?”

You look him in the eyes, his filled with concern, yours with longing.

“No, no, its just, its nothing.” You say, returning your focus to the water.

“I know its not nothing y/n, your eyes tell me different.” Lo’ak replies sincerely.

“I guess Im just worried,” you begin.

“About what?” Lo’ak ponders, scooting even closer to you.

“That you’ll forget about me.”

“Wait- what? Why do you think that?” Lo’ak questions, worry filling him.

“Lo’ak, Ive seen the way you look at Tsireya, I mean, I get it, she’s beautiful, shes talented, shes smart, shes-”

“Y/n, stop.” Lo’ak says

You stop.

“Do you think I like Tsireya?” He asks, looking you deep into your eyes as you look up towards him.

“Well its kind of obvious” you painfully chuckle.

“Y/n, I dont like Tsireya.”

You look at him confused, and he shakes his head with a laugh, looking down at his lap for a second.

“Y/n, its always been you.” Lo’ak states. You are taken by surprise, and Lo’ak notices this. He grabs both your hands, and hold you close.

“Y/n, I see you.”

[trentskiiii]

Hii how are you babes? Can I request a mason one where the reader and mason are dating and both pay on the same chelsea team and the fans love their relationship, but during the summer break he goes to Miami and there’s videos of him flirting with girls at the clubs & in one video he’s saying he’s “the best tour guide around” so the fans bash him online, maybe it becomes known to the public that PSG have bid for the reader to join them and then she’s photographed by the paps with neymar & kylian with friends in France and everyone thinks she’s left Chelsea or something? And she posts on Instagram loads of pictures and videos with the caption “ best tour guide around” . I feel like the reader would be a petty bad bitch in this situation 😂😂

getting back - mason mount

heyy, thank you sm for the request. im doing great how about you guys?? i hope this is what you were thinking but i did switch some things up, and lmk if you have more suggestions!❤️

you and mason had started dating a few years after you joined the chelsea. with him in the same club, you two met a few times and got close. after a while, he had finally asked you out on a date. the fans loved your relationship and was always supportive. and finally, it was summer break, the time you have been waiting for the most. you had played fairly well season in chelsea’s womens club.

“you’re a 100% sure you’re fine with me going to miami with the boys right??” he asked again as he looked at you. he was pacing around the room, while you were still laying in bed. you knew he needed some time alone after the season ended. the season he felt he did horrible in, even though everyone and yourself had assured him he did well. “yes, mase. i know how much you want this.” you got up, pressed a kiss to his cheek and left to make breakfast.

—-

“bye, baby. i’ll miss you.” you laughed as he practically clinged onto you at the airport. all his friends teasing him as he hugged you tightly, but you could feel his fingers on your back flipping the guys off. you mumbled an “i’ll miss u too” as he unhooked himself and they started walking. he turned back to wave at you every few steps. you laughed at how clingy he was.

—

“so yesterday we went fishing and then some other activities. i miss you so much.” he pouted on the call. not only a few days in and he had already facetimed you. in fact, the whole journey there he had been texting you. telling you about every single thing he had seen or done. you nodded and laughed away as he showed you a tour of his hotel room and forced his friends to say hello to you. although the time zones were a little different, you made sure you were available for him at any time at all, knowing he would be crazy worried if you didnt pick up.

—

as the days went by, you noticed that mason hadnt called you in a while. you knew he was having so much fun with his boys and couldn’t afford to call you every second. you would never admit it, but you were just as clingy as he was. you didn’t mind, as at least, now you had more time to spend with your girlfriends too. suddenly, while scrolling through twitter, you found pictures and videos of him at a club. you didn’t think much until you watched it and saw him flirting and dancing with all girls. a few of them even had their hands on him. he was obviously wasted and you heard it in his voice as he slurred “best tour guides around!” to the camera. you checked the comments and tags to find everyone bashing him. afterall, everyone knew and adored your relationship with him. you couldn’t help but feel a little disappointed. you trusted him fully and knew that it wouldn’t go further than that. so you brushed it off and sent him a text.

“saw the vids and pictures, have fun hanging with your new girlfriends x” you meant it as a joke but deep down, you felt hurt.

as the day went by, you started getting ready to leave for france. PSG had started to bid for you since your contract was ending. you decided to head over to france to check the place out. you brought your luggage down as you heard your uber outside.

—

after two days of jetlag in france, you were ready to start having fun. you were keeping in contact with neymar and kylian since you were all mutuals since before. neymar had arranged to go for dinner and clubbing with all his friends and you. he texted you as you left your hotel to meet up with him. he and kylian had offered to show you around paris before dinner, in case you were going to join psg.

your day was filled with laughter and fun as you headed to the bar. you had walked around the city, met a few fans and loads of paparazzis. you met up with more of neymars friends at the bar you were at. you drank and danced your night away.

—

the next day, you woke up to what felt like millions of notifications on your phone. you decided to see what it was about as you opened up twitter. you had followed some of your fan accounts to show support and gratitude.

“IS Y/N LEAVING CHELSEA???” many tweets were of the same idea. everyone thought that your transfer was confirmed. and they were all upset since their favourite couple in chelsea would be in different clubs. you also noticed many pictures that the paparazzi took of you hanging out with members of PSG. you decided you would use those images to get back at mason.

you picked out the loads of pictures with you, neymar and kylian and posted them on instagram. the caption wrote, “the best tour guides around🇫🇷❤️” and within seconds, the comments and likes flowed in. all your fans were laughing at the shade you threw on mason. some thought you were serious and most knew you were joking.

“BABYYYYY, theyre not my girlfriends. you are. i miss you, you know?” he knew you were joking as you never got jealous, hence the normal texting. not justifying his actions whatsoever. you decided to be petty about it, just for revenge. “i know. i miss you too. thank god i got to meet up with ney and kylian cs i missed them more.” he quickly replied,” 🤬🤬🤬” and another one “i just booked a flight to paris.” you laughed at his text and asked if he was serious, which he was. he sent a screenshot of his flight details. “mason mount, you are absolutely crazy.” you sent in disbelief. “only for you😘” you shaked your head and scoffed.

i wasnt sure if you meant this request as a fluff or an angst so i went with my gut feeling and did a fluff. i hope you like it!

[bb-e3rie]

tysm for ur posts !!

ive been in a huge slump over the past year about manifestation, and as much as i got "lots" of results in a year, i struggled a lot with self concept, persisting, and ignoring my reality until i decided to go on tumblr for manifestation advice and saw u.

i binged all the accounts you would recommend for an hour or two, deleted my subliminal playlists, and started new. i took ur advice to heart, and applied it. everyday, id affirm that id be a master manifester and that i was a powerful human being (even making affirmation wallpapers for me to wake up to yk?)

just 2 days using ur advice etc, i was doing a challenge to not use a mirror at all (i found that the root of my obsessions was mirrors, so i decided to treat the root of it instead of trying to just 'force' remove it) and within 2 days im stunned 😭😭

like here r my results. i can even give some pics to u personally if u want since there are some appearance related ones:

- dropped toxic friends i didnt want to drop b4 (i was clinging to them, i didnt think i deserved more)

- amazing self concept seriously. like everyday life seems so easily natural for whatever reason, and i dont feel like manifesting is a weigh on my shoulders, its just there and ive gotten rid of so many unconscious thoughts and beliefs i didnt even know i had 😭

- manifested a youtuber sharing my post AND over 100likes and nearly 1k views just by affirming and visualizing ONCE while i was showering. this was yesterday. im still stunned bc i visualized someone sharing my post, it getting lots of views n likes AND IT HAPPENED JUST AFTER I GOT OUTSIDE THE SHOWER

- okay this i have pics for btw!! my jawline is 10x sharper, literally. ive been visualizing my df and just generally affirming stuff like "im so pretty i cannot" etc and took pics today of myself and i was unrecognizable almost. my jawline like 2 days ago was NOWHERE close to now. my nose bridge got sm higher as well so now it looks like a perfect s-line as i visualized.

- also despite looking in the mirror every once in a while, taking pics, looking at my view counts etc MY MINDSET DIDNT CHANGE AT ALLLL like if i tried doing this back then id be crying, sobbing, complaining, and generally negative being like "whatd i do wrong" 💀💀 BUT NONO I STILL HAVE THAT MINDSET THAT I HAVE MY MANIFESTATIONS ETC

also THIS WAS IN 2 DAYS. imagine like in a week, month, year.. ilysm and just ty for ur posts atp. ive never seen advice like this ANYWHERE, no matter where i go and bam. im so glad i went here

i’m VERY glad to have helped. this is literally amazing, you accomplished this much in just TWO days. this goes to show that nothing is impossible and that you can manifest in a short amount of time. this past year i’ve been in a slump too as well, but i’ve just recently (almost a week now) stopped being inconsistent, got tired of my own shiet, and just start applying consistently and i’ve seen shifts already, even since the first day! i’m like so glad that my posts helped you and i hope that your success story helps another! and keep up the good work, i can’t even imagine the progress that you’d have made by a month! and congratulations!

[bobataeminsuga]

love to hate u (chilitwt x chilumitwt)

i hate that title

anyways here’s the chilumi x chili shipper drabble i wrote and posted on twt at 5am the other day (inspired by this mitsuboo tweet)

i literally have not looked over it once since then and literally copy pasted the entire thing so enjoy <3

warning i guess: swearing, nsfw mention, i said violence in my tweet and didnt realize that i deleted most of the violence but there’s still a little bit, and death threats. very poorly written tbh.

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“You can’t fucking say that! Shipping them is illegal!” The Chli shipper exclaimed, every word they spoke was dead serious. But the Chlmi shipper couldn’t care less. They crossed their arms over their chest, eyes scanning the Chli shipper from head to toe before rolling them.

“Illegal? I’m sorry but is there a law against this, hm? Am I going to go to jail for shipping Childe and Lumine?” They chuckled as they saw the Chli shipper clenched their fists and furrow their eyebrows at the response. “What are you getting so worked up for? What are you going to do? Hit me?”

The Chli shipper stayed silent for a moment. God, how they wanted to punch that smirk off of the Chlmi shipper’s lips. "You’re dead to me, proshipper.”

The Chlmi shipper shook their head. “I don’t have the time to deal with children like you.  And you should just avoid me next time, no need to start a fight, dear.” But the Chli shipper just wouldn't give up.

“I’m not a fucking child!” They exclaimed before continuing.  “Hey, proshipper, what the fuck is this?” The Chli shipper held up an R18 image of Childe’s Foul Legacy form doing nasty, and I mean absolutely nasty, things to Lumine.

The Chlmi shipper only smirked back. “Pretty hot I’d say,” they spoke nonchalantly as they studied the drawing carefully. “Why, what’s the problem with it?”

“It’s fucking gross!”

“And I care because...?”

“Lumine’s a minor!”

The Chlmi shipper was practically on the floor, tears falling from their eyes. They laughed as hard as their lungs could let them. It was hilarious, really. Lumine? A minor? They had to be joking.

The Chli shipper, on the other hand, couldn’t seem to understand where all the humour in this was. They lifted their foot to kick the Chlmi shipper, interrupting their eruption of laughter. The Chli shipper bent down to their level and gripped the Chlmi shipper’s locks through their fingers. “Answer me, proshipper. What the fuck is this?”

But the Chlmi shipper’s expression never faltered. Their cocky grin plastered all over their face.

“You’re going to attack me? Show me what you drew of Foul Legacy Childe and Zhongli yesterday?” They blew out some air from their nose as a half-assed laugh. “Or are you too scared to show me because it’s the exact same thing?” 

The Chli shipper remained silent while their fingers tightened their grip around the Chlmi shipper’s hair. The worst part was that they weren’t even wrong! What the Chli shipper had made Foul Legacy Childe do to Zhongli was just as dirty as what the Chlmi shipper drew. But the Chli shipper couldn’t bring themself to admit that they were wrong; and they weren’t, really. Lumine was a minor! That was the issue at hand!

“Kill yourself,” the Chli shipper spat without a care.  Meaning everything the said; they wanted the Chlmi shipper gone. And if the Chlmi shipper wasn’t going to do it then the Chili shipper would do it themselves.

“I’d like to see you try first. You shouldn’t say that you know? You’re just a child, you know nothing about the world yet.”

Oh boy, it was on.

“Fuck yourself, you ignorant shit.” The Chli shipper moved their hands from the Chlmi shipper's hair to their arms, pinning them down onto the ground.

“Fuck me yourself, bitch," said the Chlmi shipper.

They were enjoying themself nonetheless; the Chli shipper’s pissed reaction was nothing but entertaining for the Chlmi shipper. The way they pouted and stomped, their angry expression while they pinned the Chlmi shipper down - if it weren’t for how much the Chli shipper pissed them off, the Chlmi shipper would’ve found them adorable.

"What are you smirking at?"

"Don't you want me dead, kill me already."

The Chli shipper rolled their eyes all the way to the back of their head if it were even possible. Did this person ever shut up? They were so annoying. The Chli shipper hated the smirk on their lips. Their plump, red lips and their evil little curve. Disgusting. And the way the Chlmi shipper’s eyes were so tempting, so flirtatious, despite what was going on? The Chli shipper couldn’t stand it!

They needed to get that expression off the Chlmi shipper’s face.

The Chlmi shipper’s eyes flew wide open. Before they knew it, the Chli shipper’s lips were pressed against theirs. Oddly. After what felt like minutes, the Chili shipper finally pulled away from the Chilumi shipper.

Pink flush painted the Chli shipper's cheeks although neither of them decided to pay any mind to it.

"Gross," the Chli shipper muttered.

The Chilumi shipper scoffed. “I didn’t tell you to kiss me, that was all you.” “Shut the fuck up.”

And before they both knew it their lips were clashing once again. Of course, both of them were in denial of the fact that they were enjoying the blissful sensation of each other.

“Aren’t you supposed to be killing me right now?”

“I told you already, for the love of God, shut up.”

“Make me.”

“God, I fucking will.”

“Goddamn,” said the ChiLiMe shipper, iced coffee in hand, taking small sips from it as they watched everything unravel in front of them. “These bitches gay, good for them, good for them.”

[END]

[daddy-daichis]

Yesterday the very beautiful and talented @fuwari-s tagged me in this game and since that post is already really long i figured id make a new one lol  (Also thank you for tagging me, it made me so happy)

The Game: Tag your 2D lovers + the other trend I saw yesterday and wanted to do which is Would you actually date them IRL. So ill put that under the cut because it is a lot.

HQ: Atsumu, Daichi, Issei, Bokuto, Hinata, and Kyoutani

BNHA: Bakugou, Denki, and Hawks

JJK: Sukuna and Mei Mei

Others: Kagami from KNB, Levi and Jean from AOT, and Mikoto Suoh from K

So if you want to know if i would date them irl that is below the cut lol

As for tagging... if you want to do it :) @eijirosriot @bokutosnumberonefan @hinosreis @tetsus-kitten @sugawarakoushihoe @mynameisjackattack and anyone else who wants to do one or both of these challenges.

Alright so would i date these men (+ mei mei) in real life. Short answer is yes lmao. Long answer, with some headcanons that may or may not  venture into 18+ category but only slightly. all aged up to be my age which is 26.

Atsumu - PLEASE, YES

we would be so chaotic together but he would also be really loving. As long as he can still prioritize me in a relationship, not over volleyball, just as much, then we will be golden. We would have such a good time and i feel like we would have a lot of fun bickering, which i really enjoy. Play fighting as a form of foreplay, if you will lmao. We’d probs be friends in HS and then get together after he starts playing for MSBY and he is secured in his position (and himself tbh). I just love this cocky bastard. he also gives me switch vibes and as a switch, i love that for me.

Daichi - YES

All i need is to be wrapped in his arms on the daily and i would be happy. Man would know how to take care of me and that is all. Love of my life, too good for this world. Wholesome husband. He would be able to manage my crazy side and chill me out when i get to anxious. I would want to be bratty just to get him to drop his good guy routine sometimes and I feel like he would like that.

Issei - YES

Funeral home employee can get it. Matsukawa Horse cock Issei can whisk me off my feet and straight into bed. we would have a lot of fun picking on oikawa together (out of love of course) but we would balance each other out a lot. His darker humor would go well against my lighter humor. Also I feel like our level of hotness is pretty comparable... like we aren't the prettiest in the friend group but still good (if that makes sense)

Bokuto - YES

Big ball of sunshine to light up my day, he would literally fuck the sad out of me every day I just know it. Like atsumu, as long as I am a priority to him itll work out. We also kind of have the same sad moods so I feel like we could either both just curl up on the couch together and watch a movie or bring the other out of a funk easily. I love this giant himbo so much.

Hinata - most likely yes

Pretty much the same reasons as bokuto but I feel like I would get drained of his energy faster, so he would def have to cuddle me more. For everyone else so far I can imagine being high school sweethearts, but with hinata i think he wouldnt settle down until later, or even start dating so it would probably be a lot of pining and watching him from the side lines for a while, which would be really hard tbh. but the way he would smile at me after a match would make it worth it so...

 Kyoutani - Hard YES

I love a boy with anger issues, what can i say... (cough couch my irl husband with anger issues couch couch) I would love to be his weak spot and the one person he would go to to help him not feel angry anymore. I think that my fun personality would help him to unbox himself a bit. I just want to give him cuddles and a place to feel accepted. id also i KNOW hes a monster in bed... 

Bakugou - FUCKING HARD YES, PLEASE

if he was real the things i would do to and for him... A lot like kyoutani i would want to give him a place where hes accepted, and a place where he is unconditionally loved. I would be able to handle his misguided anger and calm him down and give him space. I headcanon that hes very cuddly in private to just his S/O which is something that i love. I love his lil smirk and would do anything to get him to smirk at me. As long as he is able to set me as a priority it would work out, but that would be what he struggles with so it would be a thing we would have to talk about. But I also feel that once you say something about it he would check in with you because of course he has to be the best bf/husband. I feel like I could talk for hours about him so Ill just wrap it up by saying that I love me a passionate man who would probs be a lil possessive, and I would use that to my advantage. 

Denki - GOD YES

I really do think that denki and I are soulmates. we are both the perfect blend of funny, pervy, while still being soft. I feel like there would be a lot of mutual pining at first but he would end up the golden retriever gamer boy to my alt bisexual and thats just the perfect pairing. We would pull so much shit and then get away with it because thats just us being us. I see us being scolded by bakugou a lot for the stupid shit we would pull. Also late night drives in his shitty tuned car to taco bell while we sing alt rock songs from the 2010s. also the switch vibes are immaculate.

 Hawks - Probably

So it would honestly depend a lot on what version of hawks.. him in the hero commission is a no, because he wouldnt be able to be honest with me about a lot of stuff. Like his name, or when i can see him again, and that would give me too much anxiety. When hes free of them and is actually allowed to be himself I think it could work then. I know that he of course wants to still be the best hero, so he would have the same problems as bakugou with finding a balance, but if he wants to i think he could. He would also have a lot of trauma from his relationship with his parents and the commission so I dont know if he would be able to give his love away as freely as he wants so we could get therapy together. I love that for us. But i would happily wake up next to this beautiful birb man if he would have me.  

Sukuna - A hesitant yes

so.. the anger issues that ive mentioned before.. yes. I would like sukuna. I would be his lil bride and sit on his lap on his throne as long as he didnt kill my loved ones or my cats lmao. I would also be ok with being his and itadoris gf while hes living in itadoris head. being with him is just asking for an unhappy ending tho, whether its a life always on the run, or someones trying to kill me, or someones trying to kill him, or hes trying to kill someone. But yes i would like to be with him but that would mean sacrificing a lot. 

Mei Mei - god yessssss..

Please Mei Mei step on me and make me ur lil house wife. I see us living in a pent house apartment with the most breathtaking view of the Tokyo skyline. I would want for nothing and she could take me where ever she wanted and i would just follow her around with heart eyes.

 Kagami - YES

my basketball husband! i love him and would love to be loved by him. Id follow him wherever. He would take care of me and is just so dreamy.. also i guess the mild anger issues.. but hes really not that bad. He would just be such a good s/o. He would cook us nice dinners, wed have a few cats, and he would carry me around a lot because hes so strong. While were on the topic of strong... his stamina... everyone on this list probably has good if not great stamina... but kagami just hits different..... have you seen him in the zone? have you seen his thighs? his sex zone has got to be incredible. 

 Levi - Yes

I was going to say it depends, but really it doesn't... if were in the aot universe and hes my captain and I fall in love with him u can bet ur ass im gonna try and get with him because i could die at anytime. if its some au where he is here in our universe and somehow we meet... like of course im gonna be in love with him. our height difference isnt too bad, im only like an inch or 2 taller than him. I think we would both have a great time together. I would make him laugh, and he would help me clean, because lord knows I hate cleaning. BUT i hate cleaning because its something that I always have to do alone, and I feel like levi would have us be cleaning together like he makes the scouts do. and hes just so sexy... 

Jean - big yes

This beautiful handsome man... idk what to even say about him. Hes strong, funny, handsome, cocky, but very much full of love. would love to run away from the world with him. I feel like if he was in love with me before *tries not to give away spoilers* the marco incident (?) that after he would become very clingy and attached and im ok with that. There would have to be lots of cuddles and reassurances and i just want to see him happy and not at war, with both real life people and himself... id give him the best kisses and he would become addicted to them. 

Mikoto - No? But maybe...

I feel like we could be.. but if you watched the show then you know.. But i would love to be Homra’s princess TBH. No one would mess with me or they would have to face the wrath of my big fire boyfriend and his whole ass gang. But on the other hand I feel like Mikoto wouldnt allow himself to fall in love, so it would probably be a hush hush topic. everyone knows the boss and I are in an entanglement, but they cant talk about it. Then Anna starts asking questions to Mikoto and he has to come clean to her, which would be so cute. He tells her is a secret but she doesn't care lmao. in conclusion, I would want to, but I dont think he would let me.... Maybe friends with benefits tho....

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ok if you read all this im officially in love with you. Please take my heart. 

This took me like 2 hours to do because I love thinking about it so much. if you have any thoughts about any of this hop into my dms or comment on this because id love to hear them (especially if you think i belong with one more than the others lmao). 

[fappellmoan]

gonna complain again even tho i already spent time on it yesterday immediately after having to hang out with this person (oh my god i ranted for so long this is going under a keep reading)

so i hung out with my fun cool stoner friend and our one roommate from when we were in la last night and i mostly put up w her for the sake of my other friends but she’s sooooo annoying in that she’s someone that’s impossible to hang out with as a dyke im sory but there are the other issues too. like ok for instance her idea of being bisexual!! and having her gay AND straight media taste!!! (first of all huh) is like heartstopper and the summer i turned pretty. girl in neither of those situations are there women and especially lesbians at the forefront i mean yes ik heartstopper but like thats for two seconds. and im annoying and brought up my lesbian media to resounding silence shockingly whatever. and then. this part burned me and insulted me to my core. bc you know how kit connors kind of like a baby butch to me and im so serious sorry like he contains multitudes. and i kinda made a little comment abt that affectionately and she shows me this prettyboy from like whatever fucking show and tried to be like ‘abby just imagine him as a butch’ and i flat out was like im sorry he is Not giving. like that is just an annoying toxic skater niceguy blonde. whatever. like do not ever ever ever disrespect butches like that in front of me ever again. and then shes also just sooooo hyper consumerist and like. she brought up the low committment long distance etc joke from barbie and didnt even know it was from barbie and was like haha need me one of those i guess. i was like girl why would you want someone that disrespects u and ur time and uses u like purposefully. that was meant to poke at how toxic men get away with being to girls in modern dating. want better for yourself!!!!! and then i was sooo fucking stoned from a bong rip having the time of my life doing a little bit with the other friend and our buddy on facetime and she just kept going on about this person shes going on a date with except the other friend was like oh! they use they/them pronouns. and she was like right sorry i keep screwing that up!!!!! and then continued to use he/him. so im mostly non verbal cause shes like exhausting just going on and on and im high but i keep trying to be like. yeah they seem cool. hope it goes well with them. like. i felt like i was being microaggressed not necessarily in that instance just as a lesbian. shes bi but very much not past her internalized misogyny and homophobia. clearly. it’s exhausting!!!! im sorry i cant talk about men for that long and then i try to be excited about my attraction too and u get all funky............. like. ok. or making weird comments alluding to me just being wildly sexual abt women. like. yeah ok sure. for sure thats normal. like. this is also the girl whos a marketing major and uses ai all the time and pisses me off with her hella hyper consumerism grindset mentality bc it’s like she always wants us to comment on how productive she is and if i try to nicely be like You should give yourself a break sometimes too! she’ll be like Yeah haha guess im being a bit self destructive. girl it’s not sillyquirky like!!!! we all have our struggles but you gotta work on getting better abt it... and she also just gives ‘haha what drugs were they on thats so crazy’ about like everything i say or like or whatever and its like babe its really not even that crazy like. u are just so boring and you speak solely through references to memes. but you wont even just bring it up and joke about it in the present moment with your friends like. she spent a while finding a screenshot of a tumblr post that i was like haha yeah i saw that! it’s totally - u know whatever. and was not satisfied until she could prove she like saw it idk u get what i mean like. i understand i literally reblogged the post. its a silly little joke yes i relate. say something true and beautiful. idk. thanks if u read this ig i couldnt tell if my one friend was prompting me today to see if i was annoyed last night bc i thought she might also be too (bc it got so awkward silent with her going on and on abt the date and that fucking show and we were all like yeah. mhm. no for sure yeah. like how do u not get self aware idk) but we’ve all spoken abt this girl like shes some saint and ive just kinda been like haha sure... but i dont want her near my work and art and etc cause shes so shallow and has social media brain disease. she freaked out about twitter being weird now and how she prefers threads perhaps. like u have threads??? ok... it was so hard for me to be nice guys

[scarlethallow160]

as someone who was repeatedly on the receiving end of being used as an outlet by ex-friends talking about their love lives Constantly i refuse to subject anyone else to that

but i will also put a one-time cringefilled rambling post out

it has literally been so long since ive liked someone? the last person i “liked” was the only guy in my painting class i think like my freshman or sophomore year of college, and even then i just thought he was nice and like.....one of the hottest guys i’ve ever seen irl so i didnt technically like-like him bc we also barely interacted

but this is....different. i think he’s only been here like a month now? close to it? this was before my promotion so i didnt rly have to go out of my way to talk to anyone, so anytime someone starts chatting with me first at work i get pleasantly surprised, and hes pretty quiet so i was just like oh a nice new work acquaintance person to talk to at work?? when he’d occasionally talk to me (at my job sometimes even when ur working the same or similar shifts u may not ever see people lol). i’ve seen him talking with some other rly nice dudes at work i consider my work-friends so i thought maybe they mentioned me to him as one of the cool ppl at work and thats why he felt comfortable enough to start talking to me?

idk so whenever i’d see his name in the dash i’d be like oh cool x is here but again sometimes we’d rarely see each other cuz thats just how it is at work....but it is EXTREMELYYY rare that anyone shows any romantic interest in me--bc i was Absolutely the person assholes asked out as a joke in school--or any sort of interest really? so anytime someone (mostly guys if im being honest bc despite being queer, my brain can still be stuck in heteronormative ways....) goes out of their way to talk to me/be nice, i get like a little spasm in my brain?? and get a mixture of paranoia and anxiety thinking things like hm why are they talking to me? why are they being nice to me? are they just nice or do they like me/want something from me? shit like that. so whenever he’d talk to me i’d be like hmmmmmm why tho bc i overthink literally everything

and then one afternoon i was by myself finishing bagging my cart, and he was off already but when he walked past he was like “have a nice afternoon :)“ and i was like omg thanks u too?? bc even tho there are ppl i talk with at work, we dont usually say anything to each other when we pass in the store lol

i dont think me n the guy saw each other much after that or that thing happened where he’d be busy shopping and i’d be stuck in the box for us to interact much (and i also missed like three days a couple days ago from being really sick lmao) so yesterday when i saw we basically had almost the same shift cuz he was the 10pm and i was the closing specialist, i got happy bc initially i was like oh nice, one of the nice acquaintance ppl i talk to is here

but yesterday was a fucking shitshow and we were SO busy and honestly it was super disappointing cuz normally for closing shifts it gets chill and me and the other work ppl just relax and chat until closing so i was hoping that would happen but it didnt....and hes again pretty quiet so i cant tell if at times maybe hes too tired from the work to want to talk so i also dont want to bug him by trying to chat him up? but there was actually some moments that got chill where we were able to chat, and ive been wearing my dgd hat to work and it says their name on the back of it, and he saw it and asked if i listened to them and i was like !!!! bc ppl rarely have heard of them so i was kinda like oh shit wow hes actually heard of them and he mentioned that he i think listened to them in back high school?

(which.........if im being honest was kind of a relief to hear cuz that means hes not underage. but hopefully he’s like 20 or older bc i will feel shitty if i ended up liking a 19yearold without realizing it lmaooo and also at work its at the point where u literally cant tell how old some ppl are now)

but he mentioned he preferred another band i’d heard of in passing lol but then also i happened to look at him when his mask was kind of off, and i’d alrdy seen him without his mask before, but in that moment my brain spasm made me think ummm he kinda hot tho? and thats when i came to my extremely unfortunate realization.

and today his shift didnt start til much later, so technically if i had left my shift on time i wouldve seen him Maybe for an hour at most, but we were also rly fuckin busy today so i stayed a couple hours extra to help...and it fucking sucks now cuz anytime i saw him in the store, the monkey part of my brain would have that little spasm. and like...again i dont want to go out of my way to talk to him bc hes kinda hard to read on his mood but i also? Do want to talk to him when i can?? but at the same time i dont want to get my hopes up cuz ive literally never dated anyone before, and now that im a specialist and have like the tiniest bit of authority over the regular partners, id be worried if dating would even be allowed cuz we work in the same department, BUT AGAIN even thinking that is me getting my hopes up which i rly do not want to do.

this is so so so fucking stupid and cringey and embarrassing but even if nothing happens i kind of look forward now to seeing if we’ll have intersecting shifts? so in a weird cringey way i get kind of excited about future shifts and working now???

im trying to look on the bright side of things even if nothing happens lmaoaoao part of me also kind of wants to mention this to my friends who also work with me in case they....happen to hear of anything.....but at the same time i dont want them to see me talking to him/sending him out to shop knowing that i like him???

idk idk idk rambling about this shit helps even tho i also dont want anyone to see this and see how lame i’m being :))))))) this is literally such an unexpected turn of events. theres a guy in the produce department who made it clear he likes me but makes me uncomfortable (and also annoys me when he constantly tries to talk to me, tbh, hence my reservations abt wanting to talk to The Guy) with how....strong he comes on, and im like.........if someone were to like me could i pls change who it is hahahahhahahahah

things have been tough as of late so at least this is a Distraction?

it’s also a fucking sick joke bc our store puts out announcements congratulating the employees if they first started, if it’s their work anniversary, or their birthday, etc. and i saw one for The Guy last month bc he has the same birthday as my super shitty ex-friend/roommate lollllllllll

[selfcareparker]

okay fghsgdj yes you can say girl ! my pronouns are she/her :) okay but fr pause, i read this like 3 minutes after you posted it (or at least my notif said 3mins lmao) bUT IM IN BED AND I USUALLY HAVE MY COMPUTER OPEN WITH YOUR RESPONSE SO I MAKE SURE I ADDRESS EVERYTHING AND THEN SEND IN THE ASK ON MY PHONE HDGSJSH anyway, time to get my ass up 😔 but wait i find you so funny like honestly, reading that cracked me all the way up. and i feel the “lol” thing so hard!!!! idk why i do it all the time (i’m tryna stop) but i’ll say something with lol at the beginning and lol at the end... it might be a defense mechanism at this point lol (😔) AND (i need to stop with the uppercase too it’s not funny anymore) I DONT KNOW WHY I LAUGHED SO HARD JDHSK WHEN YOU SAID ALSO AGAIN HAHAHAH LIKE UR HAHHAH also my sleep schedule is not pretty either lmao but i’m homeschooled so i never have to get up for anything? hhdhsis idk but i’m glad you slept!! you need sleep!!

also (pls no i cannot) why did i not know what ykwim meant until i reread this?? like it makes so much sense- anyway! i think it’s so cool that you’re excited for university! idk why but i do lol like you’re getting ready for the future (masters degree and all that) & you’re (maybe) going to england anyway so that’s cool haha (hopefully when you go you can see your relatives 🤞🏾)

the fact that you get happy seeing my asks i- 💓💓

you make me wanna go to London & England so bad urghhhh like i’ve only been out of the country once (to Canada for a family reunion) but it sounds so prettyyyyy & i’m so sorry that cov*d is messing everything up and i hope you can see your relatives soon :(

now to address the whole english speaking/writing: I FIND THAT SO WEIRD DUHSKSJ i don’t know how an english speaking person could say that if you don’t write it 100% grammatically correct.... that it’s wrong? when literally, over here at least, WE’RE SO GRAMMATICALLY INCORRECT HAHHAAH in both the way we talk and write!! and lol you’re welcome,, AND THE PARAGRAPH DID MAKE SENSE HDHSJSH & your rant is fine because... that is actually a bit ??? bc no one writes with 100% grammar lol

OH MY GOSH (see this uppercase thing is addictive) YOU STUDIED LATIN FOR 6 YEARS??? that’s really cool 🥺 the way that you know/speak 3+ languages i- NOT EVEN 3+ LIKE 6+ (german, english, latin, french, serbian, italian, and everything that comes with latin lmao) even if it’s just a tiny bit like wowee. it is really fascinating!!! i had the opportunity to take latin and i... didnt. i took art instead BUT ONLY CUZ MY FRIENDS WERE IN THAT CLASS AND ART LOOKED FUN IM SORRY

PLEASE WHY DO YOU KNOW EVERYONE?? that sounds so fricking cool tell your mom (mum or mama it’s really fine lol) that she sounds awesome. i think Jamaica would be fun either way!! i mean it looks pretty from pictures? i was a baby so i honestly have no recollection hahaha

LMAOO NOT U SAYING THIS IS LONGER THAN SOME OF MY FICS- PLEASE GIRL IM TELLING YOU I VERBALLY LAUGHED HAHAHAHAHAH but yea you really don’t need to apologize i like reading everything you say 🥺 HDKSHS AND UR FINE WE WERE JUST TALKING ABOUT ME BEFORE uhhh hmm uhh lemme think i, well, i saw chaos walking yesterday (big tom holland fan over here) and it was alright.. my mom acted a fool at all the jump scares LMAO but it was funny... since i’m talking about movies (this is hella random i know) but i like shark movies HDKJSSJ my favorite is the meg (it’s so good ohmigosh) and the 47 meters down movies aren’t bad either... i have two younger brothers... iiiii AM IN LOVE WITH MUSIC PHEW anddd i’m homeschooled (i think i mentioned that lol) i think that’s a good amount ahahaha AND IM HUNGRY RN JDHSJ

now. please. let me address the edit. i just want you to know that.. when i talk about your fics and i finish them and everything i’m not looking for more? like obviously if you’re writing i’m gonna read it but you don’t need to feel pressured or anything (idk if you do) to put more fics out lol like they’re great and i’m just sending the praise bc i love the ones that are there :’) but i’m so happy you’re working through your writers block!!! yay so so happy for you!!! and PUHLEASE anything you write is fantastic, i feel the exact same way when i write but girl. you’re fine. it’s gonna be great. (idk if this made any sense but... okay)

(and my cousin calls her mom mama so it’s really okay hahah i even call my mom mama sometimes) (and where you got the number “16 sentences” beats me but i still cracked up) (is this me pretending i had tags? maybe) HAHAHAHA OK BYE ❤️❤️ why did this take me so long to send i have no clue, AND WHY AM I OVERTHINKING EVERYTHING I SAID SHAJSHSJ ANYWAY BYE btw i love us too... like iconic // lovely anon 💓

me reading this:

also the dedication you put into sending me stuff— like with the laptop and phone and ahsksk 🥺🥺🥺

i’ll update you when i’ve started uni btw, i’m getting more and more excited every single day haha but i still have 3 weeks until it starts and even then I’ll obviously have to get used to it and everything, but you’re making me even more excited about it sksjshsg

yeah i wanna go to england too dkshsh let’s be sad together over the fact the we can’t travel eksjsh😔😭 but hopefully the wait will make it even better in the end <33 also i talk to loads of relatives over the phone at least once a week so it’s not too bad for me! but i miss their house 😭lmao

and i knowww snshsh so many native english speakers just make so many mistakes— and obviously i get that some things are slang but some things are simply wrong ajsh, the thing is no one has ever told me that my english is bad (i know it’s not bad anyway, but i’m still insecure) or no one has ever pointed out any mistakes, but yeah it’s mostly just insecurity dkshsg but yes thanks for saying what you said (previously as well as in this ask)😌🥰

Okay now for latin— girlll i don’t blame u for choosing art over latin esp. when all of your friends are doing art as well!! I’d choose art over latin as well lol skshsg but in year 6 we had to choose between latin and french, and at the time i didn’t like french? which was dumb of me and now i wanna learn french ekdhs but i don’t regret choosing latin at all bc if i properly learn french one day then i’ll already know understand loads of stuff (or at least some stuff lol) just thanks to latin 😌😌 but still, art>>>latin skskshshgs

I wanna watch chaos walking too!!! But i don’t get when/where/how it’s out lmao, cinemas are still closed here so i’ll either have to wait or find it somewhere online... il*egally 🥰 i don’t have high expectations at all btw but i like daisy and tom and the dog🥺 so i think i’ll enjoy it

GIRL SHARK FILMS SHARK FOLMS SKSJSHSHS okay so there are a few classics i haven’t watched yet, and also a few new ones that i haven’t seen yet BUT I LOVE SHARK FILMS SO MUCH SKSHSGSGSKK the first like proper shark film i ever watched was the shallows (which i like but my brain is still too small to comprehend what happened at the end (i mean i get it but i just can’t imagine it— idek if you’ve seen the film but skshhs)) and after watching it three times it does get a bit boring (but now whenever i see pictures or videos of big waves i’m just waiting for a shark to show up like come ON SKSJSG

^^^that pic/scene really traumatised me sksjsh but i still like the film

I only watched jaws like a few months ago, and i get that it’s a classic and also that it’s old and they just didn’t have the best.. equipment or special effects or whatever but i mean... look at meg and then look at jaws.... no disrespect to jaws at ALL but the meg is so much cooler. (That one scene on the boat where the shark just JUMPS OUT OF THE WATER AND SKSJSHHSUSJHA i get such a shock every time it’s so good (and the dog aww aksjshssli 🥺🥺🥰 and the boy with the ice cream lmao he’s iconic)

47 metres down, wow, i liked that film too. (i’ve only watched the original/first one i think) i mean that is such a fucking nightmare scenario like ALSJDHSNEMSKDJSHSJSKWBALSODUEWBSLDKHDJSNSKSKSHSGEBWKAISGSHEKEKSKLDJDJDHDHSHAGGA (that’s the best way i can express my feelings about that scenario lmao)

oh and i’ve recently been watching more horror films but i don’t know if they’re for me... I like the thrill and whatever but i just end up being scared for my life when i have to go to the bathroom at night or when i’m trying to sleep bc suddenly my mind is flooded with all the scary shit from the films 💀💀💀

and music i mean... you know those people who just don’t listen to music? WHAT IS WRONG WITH THEM???? i honestly like all genres especially in the last year, i am IN LOVE with Nicki Minaj + Megan andddd Stormzy and i like Harry Styles but i prefer his first solo album (and obviously one direction has bangers i have a throwback 1D session at least once a month), I also love MGK especially his new stuff and otherwise i mostly listen to german artists lmao. So who do you like?💖 (WHY DO I FEEL LIKE YOURE GONNA SAY SOMETHING COMPLETELY DIFFERENT SKAHAGUS IF YOU LISTEN TO COMPLETELY DIFFERENT MUSIC DONT JUDGE ME AJSHDJS) (i know you’re not gonna judge me but)

++ @ the thing you said about writing, don’t worry, i don’t feel pressured at all!!! (not by you and not by anybody else.. except myself sometimes lol) and i’m just very happy that you liked my fics 🥰🥰🥰 and if i start telling people that i’m writing a fic then sometimes it puts a bit of (healthy) pressure on me. like yes sometimes it really is writer’s block, but sometimes i really am just lazy ddkshhd so now that i’ve told you i’m writing a fic i might get my ass up quicker than i would if i hadn’t told anyone 😌😌😌

[nyndelion]

Wednesday 18/march

i’m officially in quarantine and i figured out i should have a sort of diary where i put the things i do every day or else these 3 months i have ahead will feel like a full block of nothing and thats just depressing.

So i’m gonna make a daily post where i put a list of things i did that day. It’s gonna be under a read more so if u dont really care about it u can just skip it c:

Morning

I woke up to the sound of Nina (my cat) crying for food. I had to take her to the vet to take blood samples and she had to not eat for 8 hours before that.

My mom drove me to the vet with Nina. I could listen to a dog crying nearby but i didnt saw anyone else but the cashier and the professionals that took the samples. they also cut Nina’s nails and back hair. Nina was calm all along.

Then me and Nina waited in the car for my mom while she went to the bank and to buy some things downtown. I put some music.

Afternoon

we went back home and I showered. I helped my mom wash the dishes and put away groceries. Then my dad arrived home.

We ate cazuela and assorted salads. We were listening to 80′s synthpop music and joking with my brothers.

After lunch me and my brothers went upstairs and me and Nano (my little brother) played minecraft. Then my parents told us they would be grocery shopping yet again and that i should go out to buy cat litter bc stores that arent supermarkets will be closed tomorrow. So I did, and also bought cinnamon and yoghurt to make some muffins some day soon

Then i came back home, hung up clothes from the washing machine as my mom told me to before leaving. Went back on the computer but just to scroll tumblr and chat on discord

I messaged Josefa (my friend i have feeling for) and showed her the russian dream experiment illustrations i had told her about yesterday. She wants to make a piece of art about an idea we came up to revolving cosmic horror and vengeance on multibillionaires. I want to write the story and she wants to illustrate it. I am very happy about this

my parents came back home and asked for help to set up a mini office for my dad in the computer room next to my room.

then i decided to continue working on an eene drawing i started las sunday when visiting my abuela kela

searched for some elsa farrus and buzzfeed unsolved videos just to put them on watch later

Night

received Nina’s blood test results on my mail but i dont know what it all mean. I’ll have to go back to the vet tomorrow so they tell me whats up and i give back the cat box they let me borrow.

went downstairs to eat dinner (cazuela leftovers and lentejas soup) while watching ice age

then i prepared tea and went upstairs, decided to practice guitar. Played machine gun by slowdive, take me to church by hozier and learned försvinn du som lyser by finntroll.  I took a video of me playing it and decided to tell the new whatsapp music group from the trans peers group im in to practice songs daily and share videos or audios there so its a way we feel more supported to actually practice. I shared the video i took of me playing the song in the chat and also to Josefa. The all loved it, though only Josefa knows the song. I feel very happy to have decided this.

I played some levels from super mario world on Nano’s nintendo switch because he is stuck. I finished 7 levels but then got stuck as well.

now i’m listening to life is strange soundtrack and still deciding if i want to keep practicing guitar, working on my eene drawing, start writing the cosmic horror short story or watch the videos i set up earlier.  I might scroll tumblr for a while and decide then.

To do (tomorrow / some other day)

watch the new buzzfeed unsolved video

tidy my room

organize my college stuff

organize stuff i have to read (both college related and unrelated)

take a video of me playing a take me to church cover (TOMORROW)

work on my wips

start brainstorming for the cosmic horror short story

work on the song Neka (my friend) and I will play someday (its a song called ‘Kaos’ and i just got to figure out a guitar line over Neka’s vocals)

also practice some bass

[borhapstyles]

Headcanon: Falling In Love With Rami!Freddie At A Show

this was actually only supposed to be a small part i planned in response to a headcanon request but uhhh.. it turned into this whole thing lmao and i have no regrets. i will eventually be referencing to this when i do write out that other headcanon request for (the one based off i was born to love you, if you’re reading this anon) but till then, enjoy this :) 

**just as a PSA, i have a big exam on Friday and two other ones next Tuesday so unless I whip something out for Oscar night / post Oscar night (maybe a Rami smut, hm?), this is gonna be my last hc for the next couple of weeks my darlings (i know i’m sorry xx) 

Freddie had done hundreds of shows by the time he met you

And met tons of people along the way

but nothing compared to the moment he first saw you

and everything that happened afterwards

you and your best friend were avid fans of Queen

you two not only bought tickets to the show in your city but also to the one the next town over

and on the day of your first concert, you and your friend spent houuuurs queuing for it

but it was all worth it and you weren’t complaining

because you two got right in the front row

close enough for Freddie to kiss ya if he wanted to

and he did the moment he saw you

not actually but he really, really wanted to

Freddie was flamboyant on stage, yes

he fed off everyone’s energy

but this show was a little more special, he felt it in his bones the moment he stepped on

and this was only reaffirmed as he saw your wide eyes and cheeky grin as he stepped out

Freddie then could not keep his eyes off you

he tried to play it off like he was looking at everyone in your general direction

but his eyes kept wandering down at you and he couldn’t help but beam when he saw you dancing around

“Freddie’s so looking at you” your friend poked

your breath caught into your throat and you nudged her and said

“no, no, not just me”

but who were ya kidding he was definitely eye-fucking you at some point

and he laughed when he saw your cheeks go red as you realised he was staring at you

when Freddie came round to hold everyone’s hand,

he made sure to go directly for you and you latched on

he usually waved his hand around so everyone got an equal chance

but he definitely held onto yours for a little longer than most

and that’s when he squeezed your hand and winked down at you

u almost fainted tbh

then they sang ‘39, which they hadn’t done in a while but decided to do for tonight

coincidentally it was one of ur faves and you felt your heart just melt

Freddie then realised it was one of your faves and felt glad he went along with the acoustic suggestion for that night

and he stared directly at you and grabbed onto your hands once more when he sang

“all your letters in the sand cannot heal me like your hand”

at this point your friend was shouting in your ear through the music how she was already planning your relationship with Freddie

“you better hook me up with Deacy, you know how I feel about him!” she said when Queen went back for a costume change

u laughed and said of course

by the end of the show, however, the crowd was ushered out of the venue right away for safety purposes

but when Freddie found out you had left before he could do anything about it

he got pissed off and sad all at once

“what the fuck do you mean they’ve kicked them all out?! why the fuck have they gone and done that?!”

“...I’m not so sure, but they do this almost every night, what’s so different about this one, Freds?” Brian asked curiously

then Freddie spurred into how he found the most beautiful person in the crowd tonight

the love of his life really

and how he didnt get a chance to even find out their name

and now he was left to just hope and pray that fate would have you two see each other again

aaaaand it did

at the next show

the next night lmao

there you were, not so much in the front row but in the third or fourth

the same dazzling eyes and smile that stretched from ear to ear

Freddie couldn’t believe his stars and when didnt hesitate to tell security about you in between songs

you were confused at first when two big guards approached you and your friend during the show

“oh fuck, they’re calling us over, did we do anything wrong?!”

then they explained how by special request of Mr. Mercury himself, he wanted you backstage

so ya went

but before you did u were like

“....can we finish the show first, or at least get to the second to last song before we go”

and they were like ...

and u were like “we paid for these tickets we want our money’s worth music wise”

so they were like whatever lmao and got you guys after the show

Freddie was upset for a moment when he walked into his dressing room to find it empty as he was expecting you to be there

but a minute later you showed up and Freddie turned into a puppy

he was put in a daze, a dreamy daze by your voice when you introduced yourself

he felt compelled to hug you, to do something more physical than just shake your hand

luckily, you loved the man more than life itself and opened your arms out just enough for him to take your queue

“is your friend here as well?” Freddie asked

“I introduced her to Deacy, I think they’re getting on quite well”

then you two laughed when you saw the two of them speaking

well, more like flirting h a r d c o r e

Deacy had her against the wall practically lmao dont let his cutesy shy demeanour fool u

anywaaaaaaays

you and Freddie then shared a moment of just looking at each other

finally happy to be in each other’s presence, just the two of you

and then you two got to talking

like really talking

eventually a date was scheduled

and another, and another

till you found yourself lying on Queen’s tour bus a couple years later, wrapped in Freddie’s arms and reminiscing the first time you guys had met

“Freddie?”

“yes, my love?”

“I heard you threw a fit yesterday after I left the venue.”

Freddie groaned and was like “who told you that, darling?”

“your guards can be quite gossipy when you ask the right questions.”

“well I won’t deny it. I missed a whole other night I could’ve had with you.”

“that’s okay” you smiled, taking his hand in yours

“we’ve got a whole lifetime together to make up for it.”