#if u know what im talking abt u know i refuse to tag this lol

[whoviandoodler]

Insane how a very complex mlm piece of work will be labeled as 'made for straight women' bcs some fans happen to be (presumably) cishet women who refuse to engage with the story beyond haha bottom haha top

[drop--pop--candy]

hey! you! yes you! i LOVE pjsk ocs! please tell me about your unit!

hi hello thank you omg,,, first interaction ever and ur asking abt my lil guys,,,,, waow

SO!!!! the band's name is neon's ✧ glimmer and it's made up of four first years at miyajo (the girl's academy) :D most of their written lore is under their tag, and a couple shitposts are under the shortened tag "n✧g". i don't think the Original original lore post is under their tag (plus it was super confusing anyways) so i'll just summarize it here!!

basically, the story kicks off because Misaki Kaneko moves to the area and transfers to Miyajo. she bonds with one of her classmates, Maho Sasaki, over their love of music. the two of them decide to start a band, but they don't really have the skills to just be a duo so they basically plaster posters all over the school about wanting a drummer and a vocalist.

meanwhile, the actual leader of this group, Chika Fujiwara, has been doing covers online for more than a year now. her dream was always to be in a band, but it never worked out because people didn't like her/thought she was weird/etc, so now she's a solo act. her sister, Haruka Fujiwara, has been trying to get her back into the band scene, and when Haruka sees the flyers that Misaki and Maho have put up she thinks it's the best opportunity her and Chika are ever going to get. so she starts getting gradually closer with the pair of them, gently prying about what kind of drummer and vocalist they'd want, but never actually offering to audition.

through a sort of long and complicated series of events that im cutting from this summary for the sake of time, Chika is convinced to audition for the vocalist and she does so virtually, so Misaki and Maho don't know it's her (that girl in their class who's cold and doesn't have any friends). Maho and Misaki listen to the audition and decide they HAVE to have her, and Haruka auditions for drummer on the spot (she's with them because she's the one who put Chika's audition on their computer. but they don't know that lol.) and she also gets the part! now they have a full band yippee! just one problem; they have no clue who their singer is.

Chika arranges to meet them in front of Miyajo, and when they arrive, she reveals her identity to them and launches into a speech abt how she was really scared to do this but she trusts them and she can't wait to work with them-

-and Maho completely shuts her down. Maho places a lot of emphasis on community, and in her eyes, Chika doesn't have any. which must mean she's untrustworthy and did something to drive that community away. she rips Chika apart, and Chika runs away, not knowing what else to do.

Haruka (who Misaki and Maho did not know was affiliated with Chika in any way at all) is understandably really angry because she thought she could trust these people. she thought this was the best opportunity she'd ever find and it got so far just for Maho to crush it by being an asshole. she throws her drumsticks at Maho and quits the band on the spot.

Misaki doesn't quit the band, but she firmly refuses to take Maho's side and leaves her all alone in the school field with some harsh words.

i'll be honest i'm not super clear on how the band gets back together but they Do and that's the end of the main story HAGSHDGDHDH sorry this part is still in development. anyways i hope you liked this lil summary!! you can ask me to go more in depth about any specific part and i will :3 honestly just feel free to send any followup asks lol i love interactions with my ocs and also i think u are super cool for asking me about them even tho we have literally never talked before. im giving u a cupcake and a nice cup of tea. anyways thank u for the ask!!! remember to stay hydrated :D

[daily-audi]

✨❤️‍🔥Introduction post!❤️‍🔥✨

Hello! I won't say much other than basic things u need to know abt me since my dni n other stuff can be found here (my main)

❤️‍🔥My name is Dusty/Audi, idc which one u use for me, but if u use audi, be clear if ur talking to me or not lol

❤️‍🔥Im 18

❤️‍🔥Any pronouns r fine for me, but i prefer he/him and masc terms

❤️‍🔥I have adhd and npd, so please be patient with me!

🩵 Do You allow submissions?

Yes! My only requirement is that it isn't nsfw, and make sure it's auditor focused!

🩵 What are the rules for your inbox?

Same goes for my submissions, you can request anything really! Shipping of any character (i obv prefer some over others, but i won't refuse to draw any lf them) is fine. Rlly all that i ask is that u keep nsfw stuff out of it!

Also we can talk abt auditor in general! No need to just ask for drawings in my inbox, i love talking abt the guy :3

🩵What's your auditor like?

Mine is kinda different from canon... To me he is genderfluid (so appearance and pronouns will vary). For submissions/ general talk u don't need to keep it the same as mine. I love how everyone's auditor is so different! ^w^

❤️‍🔥Tags❤️‍🔥

dailyaudi - main tag, i will tag every post with this

speaking of the devil - talking abt auditor, no art involved

blessings from the higher powers - submissions

that didn't come out of my head - drawing requests

Whispers from the shadows - me just talking/misc

I will update as needed

❤️‍🔥That's it! Thanks for stopping by! ❤️‍🔥

[artist-assassin]

ok i need to know more about ellaria STAT. and your thoughts on rosy + the rosymance !!

RRRRR OK OK but ive only played the public demo so far i havent paid for the patreon/closed demo yet, so i have very little information about the Rosymance in general. info dump and stats below

Ellaria is the humorous / cheerful kinda Button, about 5'5", and she calls her brother Nick-Nack in the game but I imagine she will call him any random number of names off the top of her head (based off of when I played Fallout 4 and I would often call Nick any random nickname like Nicki Minaj, Nickle Pickle, Nickolodeon, Nickaroni and Cheese, etc lol). She has some insecurities because she compares herself to her brother a lot, but she tries to tough it out and beat up her bad thoughts bc she's an unstoppable optimist!!! Stubborn to a fault she refuses to back down once she sets her mind to something. Is a very nice person but gets very socially awkward in large groups, and sometimes lashes out when she gets frustrated by how fragile people treat her (the first thing that made her like Instructor Kim was that he didnt beat around the bush abt her zero but didnt treat her like a kid either!! shes like damn finally some respect around here)

Loves Nick so much (i got like a 160% relationship with him in the open demo lol) looks up to him like her personal hero + mentor. Loves her dad even though it's a little bit strained, has not seen or spoken to her mother in 4 or 5 years after The Incident(tm). but she misses her mom a lot she, she's half scared of her mom hurting her and half scared she will hurt her mom.

I chose the pre-prepared name Ella when I first started playing bc I didn't know what the game was about so I wasn't prepared to like.. make an OC for it until I decided I liked it enough lol. But I compromised by just naming her Ellaria and Ella is her nickname. Here are her stats by whatever chapter is the last one in the open demo (8 i think?)

I LOVE AMBROSE KIM... i played as bisexual in my first go as Ella so i had no idea the genders for some charas changed until I checked the Ambrose Kim tag on tumblr lol. but im way more into rosy as a man than as a woman... Mr Kim u can instruct me any day,..

Like I said tho I don't know a lot about the Rosy romance because I only played the open demo, and I know the author says his romance takes the longest to flower because of the whole teacher/student aspect so he's actively trying to NOT fall for button.. well too bad bitch I'm gonna be so respectable and hot he's gonna have no choice.

anyway im gonna get the patreon this week (friday probably) so i can update u on how i feel soon jhgjhlks i also love all of the characters ngl. i would romance all of them in separate playthroughs.

and u didnt ask but ill mention Kali also, my 2nd Wiseman. shes NUTS. i made her to be the exact opposite of my first humorous, cheerful, ready-to-take-on-the-world girl Ella - so Kali is grim and not nice at all and technically still ready to take on the world but more in a "the whole world is my enemy" kind of way instead of the "i wont let anything stop me" ella way. She's VERY resentful about her zero and is one bad look from a ment away from strangling someone

sorry for the long ramble jhagdwj youre the first person who is talking to me about this game that has become my newest obsession (and u were the one who got me into it so UR responsible for this mess) and im happy to share it w someone :3c

pls feel free to tag me in any mind blind stuff u post, whether fanart or oc art or just rambles n stuff i dont care ill love it all. thank u

[boom-boom-boyx2]

headcanons for HQ rare ships bc i have issues :)

prt 1; Suga x Tsukki || Yamaguchi x kageyama || Kanoka x yachi

SugaTsukki:

- They got together after suga rn yams were talking abt tsukki and suga said “yk he’s probably a good bc tho right yamaguchi?” and yams was like “bro he likes u we aren’t dating lol” and then they got together.

- Sugawara actually loves hard rock music and tsukki only listens to like lofi playlist and just random music in gen.

- Suga gave tsukishima a plush dino holding a tiny plushy volleyball and bs cherishes it.

- Yams likes hanging out with tsukki and suga bc they never make him feel like a third wheel, actually yams and suga make tsukki the third wheel-

- sugawara has a collection of chapstick and tsukki has the worst dry lips ever.

- they both have good grades and when they first started dating they never really hung out unless @ practice bc yk they busy boys. but then they realized that study dates where the best.

- they facetime to study once suga graduated.

- Sugawara made tsukki a shirt for their anniversary (1year and suga was in collage) it says “you can’t have this beanpole, im taken.” and a picture of suga, yes it can be taken as a dick joke or whatever but suga thought it was fking hilarious.

- suga has a dino plush with little glasses he keeps on his desk in the dorm.

- whenever they meet up they get coffee then go to the arcade bc suga loves video games and tsukki likes watching suga have fun then rage.

- tsukki describes suga as a female & never explains so whenever anyone actually meets suga they are always like “oh! uh- hi…”

- yamaguchi loves picking on tsukki via suga bc tsukishima will never say anything just get annoyed.

YamaYama:

- kageyama always looses any board game he plays with yamaguchi.

- yamaguchi is the one who told kageyama that he could pin his bangs back when he plays.

- they 100% have matching pajamas, and it was totally on accident.

- yamaguchi has oatmeal 4 breakfast & kageyama always rags on him bc he refuses to eat cereal like “a normal person.”

- they wear they same size but kageyama’s sister labels all of his sweatshirts on the tag, tsukki always checks and makes fun of both of them for it.

- hinata and yamaguchi are the only people kags sister approves of, she hates tsukishima, it’s hilarious.

- yamaguchi’s mom loves kags sister and thinks that kags is very odd like she disrcibes work for word as “he’s a very odd boy, i love his sister tho!”

- she approves of her son and kags relationship but bc she likes his sister better everyone makes jokes about yams and kags sister .

- they r both really good at making people listen to Ennoshita when Enno gets tired of everyone’s bs-

- kageyama will get stressed out after a class and just hug yams and yams has an unspoken rule that if anyone disturbs them during this time he will attack.

- yamaguchi will forever and always refuse to help his bf study bc he knows he’s a lost cause.

- yaichi and kageyama are the ones that just stare at yamaguchi when he does something dumb.

kanoyachi:

- Kanoka & yacht didn’t get together towards the end 3rd year of highschool!

- They met bc kiyoko & tanaka got together and had announced to their friends and family what had happened, kanoka was invited bc after she came out as lesbian her and tanaka got really close.

- they became good friends and then once kanoka was abt to graduate they decided to start dating!

- yachi loves to give her flowers

- kanoka and yachi both love the beach and both took surfing lessons together

- kanoka will suprise yachi at work for lunch and they both love hugs.

- also yachi i’d the only one who can cook, kanoka is not allowed in the kitchen, ever.

A bnha rare pair: 🔽

KamiMomo:

- momo reads to kami when they study n stuff

- kaminari loves momo hugs he calls them ‘his battery recharge’

- momo will throw books at people when they anger her and bc kaminari loves to annoy ppl he’s really good at dodging them

- kamimomo have the cutest dates, this is a lie.

- their dates are always a mess bc they both want it to go amazingly that they r both to tense to have fun

- momo can kick ass at any video game once she’s played it once, but kaminari will beat anyone in mariocart.

- kaminari loves to play games with momo bc he knows that they way she grew up she didn’t have a lot of breaks, no time to have fun and hang out.

- momo loves to do relaxation nights with kaminari bc he always falls alsleep on her lap

- Jirou loves their relationship bc she’s bestfriends with both of them and their both to awkward to be couple all the time so she never feels like a third wheel

- jirou will use her friendship to mess with them like, taking kaminari for a bit to do his makeup and then taking momo for a bit to make her look like an emo she says it’s to “spice” up their relationship

- momo only uses old memes, and denki is so proud of her that he won’t even say anything

- once kami told mineta that he liked momo for real mineta back off, momo was so confused but now that she’s with him more, bc of denki, she understands a bit more about him.

- momo’s a minimalist and denki is a maximalist.

- they sy are just so precious 😭

- go check out this one for momo Kamimomo stuff :)

[castroneves]

17 questions, 17 people

tagged by @yadismolina thank u i love talking abt myself 

nicknames: alissq, wees, piss boy rossi, piss boy, rossi. not taking questions 

zodiac: cancer

height: 5'1″ ish

hogwarts house: idk that shit 

last thing i googled: marx brothers LOL

followers: two thousand something i dont remember exactly

song stuck in my head: cher if i could turn back time. that gets stuck in my head at least once a week and i’m never mad about it 

lucky number: don’t have one

dream job: i don’t dream of labor. but owning a bakery on mackinac island would be pleasing

wearing: men’s 2xl tshirt that could qualify as a dress on me (i’m transitioning into a muumuu person) and my favorite sweatpants from pact!!!

favourite song: i’ve been really into greta van fleet lately, i really like heat above. also anything from maneskin’s newest album, teatro d’ira

favourite instrument: theremin

aesthetic: mid century modern mixed with antique maximalism and jewel tones

favourite animal noise: favorite what now

something random: im eating chips

how much sleep do you get: at least 9 hours, 

favourite author: oliver sacks!

tagging @chaos-roll @professormeme @indycar-series @franchufeuillassier @stickerreds @esteboo-ocon @scylla-rammshorn i literally dont know all my friends’ urls anymore this is just who’s on my dash atm and i refuse to count to 17. feel free to ignore

[solroja]

yoooooooo (por otro lado sobre lo de ainbo quiero decirle a todos que no es una productora brasilera PERO igual los shipibos se reparten con Brasil y hasta Bolivia creo STILL, estoy a punto de meterme a comentar que no es de Disney y que no son Brasileños sino peruanos los que lo escribieron)

ES: Siiii eso s lo k yo entendí del Post skbsjs (aún k no me de cuenta k se parecía a el estilo de Disney por k muchas películas 3D usan ese estilo estos días OPÉ)

EN: [for context we are talking about the upcoming movie Ainbo: Spirit of the Amazon, mostly bc they saw the tags when i reblogged it from them LKDSFJ, u may have also seen me talking abt it as i looked further into it for a bit here. The OG post promoting it was made by a blog focused on brasilian politics, which is why AD clarifies that the movie is not Brasilian made but rather produced in Peru]  

(axolotl-druk): yooo (on the other hand regarding Ainbo, i want to tell everyone that it’s not a brasilian production BUT regardless, the Shipibos are spread throughout Brasil up til Bolivia i believe..STILL, I am about to make a comment about how [Ainbo:SOTA]’s not from Disney and that it was not Brasilians but peruvians that wrote it.)

reply: yaaa thats about what i got frm the post skbsjs (though i didnt realize that the style looked like Disney’s [that it could b mistaken as a disney movie] since most 3d movies nowadays have that kind of look OOP)

(let me know if i translate things wrong i refuse to let google translate butcher your tone but i myself may also be butchering ur tone here i realize ACK alksdfjd i feel like “punto de meter me” would b more of an “im abt to butt in” but sometimes that comes in across as rude in translation even though i dont see it as such asdfj?? tfw you grew up speaking a language but not writing it much)

transcripts:

Axolotl-druk said: el nacionalismo pessss

I dont even think this requires a translation lol but yeah ps y k vamos hacrrrrr nada mas k reclamar :pensive:

Axolotl-druk said: yeah, so one of the studios is Tunche Productions and the guys that command it are brothers that were raised in Pucallpa SO that is Shipibo Konibo land, I do think is going to be very good. IDK how they will interlace the yacuruna but I do think they know their stuff

Agreed! I def have high hopes for authenticity in the actual worldbuilding akdl

Axolotl-druk said: by the other hand I am wary that is gonna end with "we magically solved all the problems, the rainforest have been saved" I mean is a kids movie but also, the problems are still very much there and just solving it all by the end is going to keep them unnoticed again

I reallyyyy hope they dont because honestly this could be an excellent way of spreading awareness and raising help. Hoping and crossing my fingers for them to leave it at an ambiguous/open ending?? like in a “your move, audience” kind of way? But realistically that’s yet to be seen :( 

[kaeyas-thighs]

tag game!!

Rules: answer the questions and tag people you’d like to get to know better. tagged by: @seijouthirdyears​ thank u for tagging me!! ヽ(o♡o)/ tagging: anyone :v

under the cut bc its a long one bois lol

What do you prefer to be called name-wise? ami?? i mean my real name is amy but my 12yr old weeb ass decided to use ami as my online alias and its stuck ever since

When is your birthday? feb 5

Where do you live? canada

Three things you are doing right now. watching gg compilations, thinking abt mtshn, trying to write notes

Four fandoms that have piqued your interest? that one volleyball manga/anime, i wanna say kpop but im honestly more interested in the artists than the fandom, pkm and gintama??

How has the pandemic been treating you? nothing has changed if anything im more of an introvert bc i literally never leave my house unless i have classes so i probably only left like 20 times??

A song you can’t stop listening to right now? the op for kny

How old are you? 23 ://

School, university, occupation, other? uni ://

Do you prefer heat or cold? cold bc i refuse to sweat my ass off

Name one fact others may not know about you. i dont talk much abt my ocs but i,,,have 29 of them and only 5 r human askfabnlf

Are you shy? im an introvert w social anxiety so take that as what u will

Pronouns? they/them

Biggest pet peeves? ignorant and arrogant ppl mostly

What is your favourite “dere” type? tsun??

Rate your life from 1-10, 1 being crappy and 10 being the best it could be. 5?? like its not the best nor is it the worst but it could def be better u feel me

What’s your main blog? this is my main lol

List your side blogs and what they’re used for. @hammieami is my art blog

@incorrectseijouquotes is where i make incorrect quotes abt seijou but also the place i go to ramble abt mtshn

Is there something people need to know about you before becoming friends? i am a fool who has a hard time initiating a convo so if u just message me abt anything except “lets be friends” bc i theres a high chance wont reply to that lol

[gluttons]

1 2 3 5 10 12 20 22 36 (give me the salt fam)

What would prevent you from following someone?

i pay quite a bit of attention the mun’s voice when reading rules / pages . some people just come off as extremely aggressive / controlling, and it puts me off from following sometimes !  things like : do not follow and block me immediately if you are abc-phobic and support defg-isms ; it’s irritating when i see too much ooc / photos / literally anything apart from your replies ; i will unfollow n block you if you don’t attempt to approach me within a week and DONT try to contact me asking why i unfollowed you …

i certainly don’t want to interact sexist / racist / lgbtqphobic people myself . in an ideal world,  i would also want to interact with all 100+ of my mutuals on the regular and have them approach me within a week of following me - like wouldn’t that be convenient ?? but in reality , people have their own obligations n priorities. people grow up in diff backgrounds n might not have the exact same viewpoints as u. like. idk,, it just comes off as intolerant and disrespectful.  i dont want to feel like i’m walking on eggshells whenever i log in or make a post.

Are aesthetics important to you? If they are, why?

honestly… no !!! as long as the chara is interesting n there is quality writing i don’t mind if a blog is default tumble theme w no aesthetics or post formats at all  ( w the exception cutting posts and uniform icons ! )  as long as the blog format is consistent n readable i will give any blog a fair shot i think !!  ‘:/c

What current rp trend do you hate?

i honestly rly dislike the dashboard blog thing. i know its hypocritical of me to say this bc i also succumbed to the trend but like. but it makes things so hard to access ,  esp if i want to like, edit or add tags to an old post i have to use mass editor and can’t just edit via permalink rip  ( maybe there’s a way of doing it and im just big dumb who knows )

Do you prefer interacting with male muses or female more? Why?

i dont rly have a preference w muse gender ??? :/c  i honestly follow whoever i find interesting n like,  write w whoever wants to write w me lol .  but i do think female muses approach meph more often - idk if its bc of the distribution of female to male muses on tumble or smth ?? but this happens w so many of my muses - idk if its how i write them or how i come across as a person or smth but like . yeah. orz.

Have you ever had a bad experience with commissions? As either someone who makes them or as someone who buys them?

actually nooo ???? i’ve never bought or made a commission from / for anyone in my life so .. sfkafa i am completely indifferent on this subject.

Have you been involved in drama? Do you regret it?

ive never been in drama ?? i dont think?  i feel like i generally am quite soft spoken n genial on tumblr dash bc im . weary about projecting my views ,,,,

but well, i used to know sb who was caught up in clique drama and they would constantly badmouth abt other users to me . i didn’t know how to outright tell them i wasn’t interested in hearing it,, but yeah we kinda stopped talking after that.

Have you ever felt pressured to write something you weren’t comfortable with?

slightly ???  i have had ppl push ship ideas onto me real strongly . i’m not against ships but they’d come to me w a preconception of who my muse is …  esp w canon muses … its not exactly a huge deal bc i get that ppl are excited to plot n ship characters,  but like .  yeah i have.  i’m not  …  great at refusing people hskfjdfa

What would make you block someone?

idk i’ve never actually blocked anyone  ( lol asides from p.orn bots ) . unfollowing  +  steadfastly ignoring them  usually does the trick for me.  shdfksdjfa

What’s one thing that other people seem to hate that doesn’t bother you?

well. this is a bit controversial …. but i feel like ppl are. too sensitive abt whitewashing ?? like i understand that there’s a problem if icons are deliberately edited to lighten skin tone or if a mun straight up erases the character’s racial identity , but some ppl just use pack psds n when the icons are like. two hexes off from their orig skin tone n people accuse them of bein racist and stuff. like . yeah ok,  maybe it was a poor judgement on the mun’s part ,  but labelling them a racist is just . not cool.

like damn. there are actual people out there suffering from the impact of racism ! victims who have been denied entry n detained at borders, subjected to police brutality, denied their rights to expression n respect in the workplace ,,,,,  like open your eyes,  putting a tinted psd over a picture or wtv is NOT racism oh my god. trying to claim that this falls into the same category ultimately trivialises the issue imo .

[theshapeofwater]

😭  21........ 21 quastions.... taggigdfng.....

tagged by • @pigeonkisses and technically the like two other friends who also got tagged 😭 love yall

nickname • very good question seren’s already like, short, so thats just! dats me!

zodiac • cancer sun / leo moon / sagittarius rising

height • 5′6″? ish?

last movie i saw • probably venom tbh

last thing i googled • dan mangan lyrics 😭

favorite musician • this isnt a fair question

song stuck in my head • this also isnt a fair question bc the second u ask i think too hard abt it

other blogs • i have. so many. @proxima-c-entauri is art @thatwhalesound is art refs/inspo @starbrew is dnd @dailykakapo is old and abandoned and kakapos, and then im on like three hc specific blogs and then a vent blog which are ALL secret

do i get asks • kris why do you send me random asks you still have not told me like what the fuck this means

following • 251 on this account

followers • 75 lol

amount of sleep • between 5 and 11 hours and very awful fluctuation

lucky number • i think abt it too hard idk

what im wearing • funnie baphomet shirt 😌 and my comfy pants

dream job • overthrowing capitalism. and art stuff ig idk really

dream trip • i hate traveling but i love my friends 😭

favorite food • 😪 ive been easing off the liver but its still the only consistent bitch i can think of

play any instruments • in theory i know recorder and ocarina, in practice toot toot

languages • jast english,,,, but i tried to learn finnish ages ago and i know really small amounts of french german and spanish with varying degrees of usefulness

favorite song • 😭 i hate picking favourites but im gonna have to say deus in absentia by ghost for the moment

random fact • my body temp’s all fucked up so i get cold hands that refuse to warm up randomly

describe yourself as an aesthetic • points in twenty different directions at once i hope that answered ur question

tagged • im not an extrovert dont get me like that :/ but uh

@shinrakills i know uve already been tagged but im gonna get u :/ again bc i stan u

@trinitynun i love u so much 😭 😭 😭

@italianmccree u dumb fuckifdgn cowboy talk about ranching!!!

@im-star-gazing this is me getting u for sending me that awful fucking video that u said was u with *** like DIE

,,,,,,,,,

@wolfensteintwo libra venus.

[teachers-are-nerds]

why does my brain keep saying very loudly and rapidly “i want to die i want to die i want to die i want to fucking die” even though i absolutely do not want to die right now i dont even have the motivation to scream but i wonder if a solid scream would be cathartic

theres just so many things i need to complain about my heart is pounding so hard im in pain and im shaking and everything feels bad and i cant change my meds bc i cant contact my psychiatrist from france or like... more importantly figure out the logistics

i dont wanna go back to the states though bc gburg is probably gonna be hella toxic for me again even though my schedule for next year is super good and im super looking forward to it

why did i send home all of my sheet music and why didnt i send home my jackets holy wow that’s gonna be a lot of weight i cant pay for with the luggage on my way home

what if im not mentally ill enough for meds i know i have to change them bc at this moment i am NOT feeling helped by them but what if another med will make me even worse and what if i am actually just shitty at managing symptoms and how come everyone else seems to be able to manage or hide or work through their shit and i have to go and make a big fucking deal out of it all and i literally even wrote my prof like “hi btw ive been suicidal thats why i havent been in class” and that’s just using mental health as a fucking excuse it’s not like an hour and a half of sitting through a class from which i glean approximately nothing would actually kill me, as it were lol

i have to get the key to christine but that means 20 min walk home and 20 min walk back and maybe the sunlight will be good for me but i also need to write the other two pages of my paper that im obviously not doing now since im complaining and making a bajillion zillion posts all over social media lol it is a cry for help how come i cant make myself do the things i need to do im literally in physical pain because i cant make myself do the paper that was due an entire week ago !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! how the actual fuck did i even graduate high school how did i fucking survive

well i mean i didnt drink in high school but i also got apx 3h of sleep a night so idk

im not drinking today though like i refuse to do that today bc money and also i need to just uhh not drink for a while because that’s what healthy people do. not day drink on weekdays.

i thought i was better abt that this year than last year but i guess not as much as i thought but at least im not sleeping in my friend’s bed every other night?? which is an improvement

god i fucking hate that i cut myself out of the queermmunity like that even though it’s better for me i just wish i did it in a more mature way im so fucking angry at myself im not even homesick at all i miss like 4 or 5 people from the states in total and i feel fucking awful that theres a bunch of people who will message me like “omg miss u” and i know i miss them too but like i feel like im lying when i respond “miss u 2″ and that isnt fair at all and i hate it i hate feeling like im lying to my friends i hate that i dont miss them i hate that this semester is supposedly the best semester of my life and i still have to convince myself not to step in front of a bus sometimes and i hate that The Brain Demons are clawing my stomach out from the inside but at least i havent purged in a while so there’s that and usually i can talk myself out of other self harm shit

and putting the content of my complaining post in the tags is to warn people if they read it but also it’s gonna make some people like OH NO UR IN DANGER LET ME READ THIS and i dont ?? i dont want that???????? but i also do???? good fucking lord i hate being such an attention whore

i hate that im a whore in general

like i dont regret any sexploits ive had whatever but i hate that i feel jealous of some people because i dont want to monopolize their lives and i dont want to prevent them from sharing love w other people i jsut want people to cuddle and kiss and be romantic with and it hurts but i also cant ocmplain abt it with my friends bc they also are like dammit i want a partner and me i have a few consistent sex partners but i want romantic partners but i need to change the people with whom i spend my time because they are not great for my mental health and i hate that bc i love them dearly but im destroying myself just in a different way from last year

the people i loved last year are driving me up a goddamn wall and i hate that i hate that i hate that so much bc i still care about them but im such an idiot i cant stand up for what feels right or against what feels wrong to me bc ill jsut get yelled at and i know that means i shouldnt be close to them im so hurting today

everything feels like too much and im shaking and still avoiding responsibilities and idk if writing this post is gonna get it out of my head enough bc on one hand i might tire myself out and not feel the need to write about it more to people and not have to bother them or like idk continue distracting conversations or maybe having people worry and try to talk to me will give me something to ignore so i can make myself write my paper idfk!!!!!!!!! but on the other hand uhh what if this is just going to make me fixate even more on my problems im screaming in sid e

oh ps im realizing that my family dynamic, while much much miuchn much much better than so fuckin many other people (feels conceited to say but im grateful for it and feel i cant or shouldnt talk abt it in case it triggers something in those with shitty home situations!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) im recognizing that smth about the dynamic feels unstable as well!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i want to cry!!!!!!!!!!!!!! what if i finish my paper, turn it in, sit for 20 minutes of class, go breathe, come back for the end

idfk othe rstudents need to talk to the prof too i cant monopolize him with the same content from my email to him and the same “i need help but idk what help i need” statement from last week or whatever

idk

idk idk idk will summer help me at all? will i live at home? will that be better or worse for me? can i remove all the materialism from my life? obv no but i feel i need to get rid of everything i own to cleanse myself of whatever and also i feel like cutting my own stomach and other organs out of myself but i obv cant and promise i wont try that lol

what work will i have or internships i dont have money i feel trapped will i hate myself forever will i be stuck in loops forever i will absolutely live long enough to find out and i will overcome things but like jesus chriiiiiiiiiiiiist im Not Good rn im sorry

yells

[txbiio]

tagged by @nolongerangel

A - Age: 15 T _ T i am but a baby

B - Birthplace: england lol

C - Current time: 9:07PM

D - Drink you last had: water

E - Easiest people to talk to: my cat?? the wall??? i dont like talking to ppl abt personal things lol

F - Favourite song: i have too many but just one day - bts and reflections - the neighbourhood stand out the most!

G - Grossest memory: one time my dad was eating a banana and i saw it in his mouth and it grossed me out so much i refuse to look at bananas again

H - Horror yes or horror no: yes!!! throw me your horror

K - Killed someone?: No, but then again that’s what most murderers say ,’:-))

L - Love at first sight or should I walk by again?: Walk by again just to make sure my dudes

M - Middle name: Mae (my parents r extra)

N -  # of siblings: I have a half sister but we never see each other so

O - One wish: to be able to turn the art & interests that i love into a stable and enjoyable career! aka i dont want to end up in mcdonalds

P - Person you last called: My dad probably??

Q - Question you are always asked: Can you speak thai??? Song??? Wow can you draw me???? Is that an animes???

R - Reason to smile: When something i’ve been working hard on/dreading turns out really well and all the extra effort i put into it pay off

S - Song you last sang: Reflections - The neighbourhood!

T - Time you woke up: 6:50AM

U - Underwear colour: Light pink

V - Vacation destination: Thailand!! Phuket and Bangkok are the best places.

W - Worst habit: I pace a lot, and by a lot i mean for hours sometimes, especially when i’m very stressed.

X - X-rays: There’s a dark spot at the back of one of my eyes ((i think its my right)) and no one knows what it is so i went for an MRI scan and nothing bad turned up. Besides, this was years ago and it hasn’t grown or shrunk i don’t think so i think im in the clear

Z - Zodiac sign: Caprisuncorn

Tagging anyone who wants to do it!! Just tag me so I can see :’-)))

[lipkits]

Yesss do the long story too

just fyi this is rlly long,,ok so! idk if any of u guys knew but my family and i went on a month long trip to europe, africa, and the middle east.

one of the places we went was morocco, and my family and i stayed a this little hotel that was super nice and owned by the guy and his wife and kids. so the night we got there my sister and i were eating dinner really late at night and we saw this guy walk by…. and he was so cute we both couldnt stop laughing.fast forward to the next morning, and my parents need to get tickets for a bus, and the guy we saw is the son of the person who owns the hotel. so he works there and walks them all the way to the bus station to help them. on the way there my mom finds out hes 18 and going to a university in the fall. and she tells him that my older sister knows some arabic and the ages of us. so then hes asking if my sister would marry a muslim man or convert, etc. and then they get back to the hotel and he tells my sister hes gonna quiz her on her vocabulary in arabic or moroccan arabic. my sister has me do it with her even tho i dont know any arabic lol, and so i just tag along and listen. then, its been like an hour ish and we learn a little more abt him, and he asks us if we have boyfriends. my sister says yes, and i say no (i didnt get the memo that i should prolly lie). and then hes like “tonight we should all play cards” so my sister says ok, and meanwhile he gets both our whatsapps. and so that night at like 10:30pm he comes back to the hotel and we start playing. and he starts grabbing my hands and playing cards for me and stuff. so then he says “by the way, the loser has to do whatever the winner says” so im like uhhhh how bout no. but ofc my sister and i hope we dont lose and keep playing. so then he keeps playing my cards and makes me lose. and my sister says shes tired and goes to bed, so she leaves me basically alone in the lobby w him. the minute my sister leaves he tells my he likes my eyes, so im like oh no, this is not gonna end well. so i just smile and say thanks, and we play another hand. he wins, and he asks me why i dont have a boyfriend. honestly i cant tell him that i just broke up w a girl so i say “idk”. then he asks if i wanna go up to the terrace, and i didnt really understand what he was saying, so he was like “just follow me” so we go up like 4 flights of super steep stairs and at one point hes like “here take my hand” even tho im fully capable of going by myself. but i take his hand anyways. and theres this table and lights on the rooftop, and im like “why didnt we go up here before” and he said because its cold??? and im like uh alright sure. and then i win the next hand and i ask whats the worst thing hes gotten in trouble for at school, and he says “fighting people” and i laughed and definitely dont know if he was being serious. so THEN he wins the next hand and tells me to close my eyes, stand up, and take his hand. and i kept refusing because i barely know this boy. and he says “dont you trust me?” and im like “uh nope” and hes like “just relax its fine” and so i close my eyes and put my hand out and he takes my hand in both of his and says “close your eyes and tell me what you’re thinking” and i dont know what to say because i dont feel sparks or whatever the fuck….. so i say “i want to win the next hand of cards” and hes like “oh are u sure thats what ur thinking?” and im like “yeah im super competitive :)” and then we sit back down and play another hand (which i win) and then i say i have to go. and he like begs me to stay but i cant because i had a curfew, so i was like no i rlly cant. and then i went to my room and he said goodnight.we were leaving the next day and so that morning, we saw him one last time, and i said goodbye and then my mom took a pic of him, my sister, and i together. and to test whatsapp i sent him the pic. and then he left to go swim.he texts me on whatsapp, and asks what my name is. like this boy was putting the moves on and he didnt even know my name (i know his but im not gonna say it). so i say “helena” and he responds with “nice to meet you” so then we do a little small talk and he says “can i tell you something” and i have such a bad feeling but i text back “yes” and he says “i like you ☺️☺️❤️” and i explain that im flattered but hes just my friend and we should be friends bc we live in 2 totally far away places. he responds with “yes but maybe wife with husband some day” and he kinda drops it and does more small talk, and then in the middle of the night he sends me another text. it says something along the lines of how he “will wake me up” whenever i come back and that hes “waiting for me.” and then he sends me 8 photos of him posing on his motor bike and then 1 selfie. and then he asks me to send him photos (not nudes lmao just pics of me) so i lie and say that i cant because my mom wont let me use my phone anymore for vacation. and then he later sends me a screenshot of his instagram and asks me to follow it and then give him my instagram. and so i lie and tell him i deleted my instagram. and tHen last week he texts me “bae how are you i missed you so much 😍😍”

i havent responded and might not because i dont even know what to do. he was a super nice boy to my family and my sister and i but he definitely doesnt get the hint. but also it might be a cultural thing that he is rlly up front abt anything. so theres a funny story abt how i was proposed to (i guess???) by a moroccan boy.

[castroneves]

RULES: Answer 20 questions (+5), and then tag 20 people you wanna know better!

i was tagged by @toopunktofuck and @big-horsejy thank u very much!! i love talking abt myself but im putting this under a cut bc it’s too long

i’m tagging @professormeme @pairebenoit @kenroczen @lieutenantwinters @sainzjrs @silverkasienka @icequeennora @franchufeuillassier & whoever else sees this and wants to talk abt themselves just say i tagged you

1. NAME: alissa

2. NICKNAME(S): ummm i dont rly have any consistent nicknames. i am “snart” on discord.

3. ZODIAC: cancer sun, scorpio moon (i think???)

4. HEIGHT: if i’m not 5′1″ yet i’m very close

5. LANGUAGES: english and probably enough spanish to get by in a spanish-speaking country where the locals are patient and forgiving

6. NATIONALITY: american

7. FAVORITE SEASON: autumn and the beginning of winter

8. FAVORITE FLOWER: roses

9. FAVORITE SCENT: lavender and lilac 

10. FAVORITE ANIMAL: i don’t really have one fugshdifug i guess Dog.

11. FAVORITE FICITIONAL CHARACTER: sofie from carnivale

12. COFFEE, TEA, OR HOT CHOCOLATE?: iced tea but only a specific type

13. AVERAGE SLEEP: if i have to work in the morning, 5-6 hours. if i have a day off or i can sleep in i straight up go into a coma for 10+ hours

14. FAVORITE COLOR: i don’t have one but i usually just say orange bc im a slut for mclaren

15. DOG OR CAT PERSON: dogs definitely. i’ve never been around cats enough to recognize their body language so im uncomfortable around them lol

16. NUMBER OF BLANKETS: sheet, comforter, top blanket. so 3?

17. DREAM TRIP: i DON’T know lmfao i wanna go to every single country in the world. i’m currently trying to plan a trip around iceland + scandinavia + baltic countries. i’ve been really fascinated with lithuania lately and i figured i might as well see at LEAST estonia, latvia, norway, and sweden while i’m in the area. i’ve also been really into southeast asia (cambodia/thailand/myanmar etc) lately but i think it’ll be a lil more expensive to get over there

18. BLOG ESTABLISHED: i think 2013 but ive been on tumblr since 2010-11ish

19. FOLLOWER COUNT: almost 1900

20. RANDOM FACT ABOUT ME: i can name and locate every country in the world

21. GENDER: cis gal

22. SEXUALITY: technically bisexual i guess but i just say i’m gay

23. HARRY POTTER MORAL COMPASS: i don’t know shit about harry potter and i refuse to learn

24. WHERE ARE YOU FROM: cleveland ohio

25. WHY DID YOU START THIS BLOG: i dont remember tbh i think someone i met on neopets was like “hey have you heard of tumblr it’s so fun” and i was like “idk it sounds stupid” but i made one anyway and guess what? it’s stupid 

26. MOST RECENTLY PLAYED ALBUM: yuzmv i think 

[stateofirrelevancy]

Get To Know Me Tag

Rules: Answer these 92 statements and tag 20 people.

Holla @ ma girl @kerrity13​ thx for the tag babe

LAST:

1. Drink: some H and a double shot of O 2. Phone call: To my mom to ask where the olive oil is only to realize olive oil has too many calories and wasn’t worth it dsfjkds so then I tossed it back in the cabinet but it didn’t land upright woops 3. Text message: “she jus wants a friend” sent to my friend Orange who is watching Moana w me right now in response to “why is this fire lady so angry” 4. Song you listen to: Like I said I’m watching Moana so the I Am Moana song but if that doesn’t count then Vanity’s Fair - A Lot Like Birds 5. Time you cried: I actually have no idea?? Sometime in June prolly

HAVE YOU:

6. Dated someone twice: twice????? bich i aint go on a date once 7. Kissed someone and regretted it: Is this the section to make me feel bad bc I never leave my room 8. Been cheated on: refer to #6 9. Lost someone special: Idk I feel like yes like all my grandparents passed away and my uncle on my mom’s side and my aunt on my dad’s side and also v recently my uncle on my dad’s side but like they lived in Pakistan so I rarely saw them ya feel?? 10. Been depressed: I mean I’ve def been super sad but idk if I’d say ~depressed~ 11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: refer to #7

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS:

12-14: Orange, yellow, black, in that order.

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

15. Made new friends: Yes, one of whomstve being @oceansweather my go to drama buddy 16. Fallen out of love: fallen out of what now? u mean when I get over bands I used to like? Then yes Big Time motherfuckin Rush yall broke my tiny heart in two 17. Laughed until you cried:  Def who hasn’t 18. Found out someone was talking about you: I don’t think so?? Like I don’t doubt people do but I ain’t jumpin 2 kno about it 20. Found out who your friends are: I guess?? I mean I’ve basically had the same friends for 5 years lol 21.  Kissed someone on your Facebook list: On the cheeks ya

GENERAL:

22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: Ok considering I have eight (8) FB friends bc I made my fb to join my college’s group I know all of them considering I only added ppl super close to me lmao 23. Do you have any pets: When my brother lived here I had his cat Glimmer who is a stripper but he moved out and now I’m constantly :( 24. Do you want to change your name: Nah I like my name 25. What did you do for your last Birthday: On the exact day I had a big dinner at home w my family and the weekend after my friends came over! 26. What time do you wake up: If my mom wakes me up then 10 otherwise 11-12:30 27. What were you doing at midnight last night: prolly on tumblr tbfh 28. Name something you can’t wait for: Bojack Horseman season 4!! and new 5sos music ofc.  29. When was the last time you saw your mom? around 2 hrs ago when I went down to make popcorn lol 30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: ??? be hot or not dumb either would b k00l 31. What are you listening to right now: I’m watching What The Health now cause Moana ended rksdjlkfsd 32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: No?? The only Toms I know are british YouTubers bye 33. Something that is getting on your nerves: ummm myself 34. Most visited website: prolly youtube 35. Mole/s: One on my left pinky, one at the bottom of my left ring finger, one next to my left knee, one above my right eyebrow, one in the pit of my left elbow. 36. Mark/s: I have a huge birth mark on my stomach lmao fun fact it used to look like the US when I was younger 37. Childhood dream: yall I had my life planned THE FUCK out. When I was in fifth grade I decided I would b a pop star like Hannah Montana until I was ~30, and then when my world fame inevitably dissipated, I’d become a doctor like the good little brown girl I thot I was. 38. Hair color: black like my soul 39. Long or short hair: medium length lol 40. Do you have a crush on someone: Calum mf Hood ain’t got eyes for no one else 41. What do you like about yourself: what do I what now 42. Piercings: do my ears getting pierced when I was a baby count asdklfj 43. Blood type: I think B positive?? idk 44. Nicknames? Aky 45. Relationship status: me myself and i are together and in a loving poly relationship 46. Zodiac: Taurus 47. Pronouns: She/Her 48. Favorite TV Show: PARKS AND REC!!! I was jus telling my friend the other day that idt I’ll ever find a show I’ll love more than it. Words can’t describe how much I love P&R yall. 50. Right or left hand: Right but don’t b fooled my left is mf skilled 51. Surgery: nope 52. Hair dyed in different color: I wish!! 53. Sport: who? I don’t know her 55. Vacation: what does this mean like have I been on vacation before?? Then ya lol 56. Pair of trainers: CONVERSE BITCH aint no one else exist in the world but her

MORE GENERAL:

57. Eating: idk what this question means what is my fave food????????? then,, idfk lasagna 58. Drinking: capri sun could fuck me in the asshole any day 62. Want: ?? death 63. Get married: ya I’m mf down when will a boi wife me tf up 64. Career: idk I really wanna work in AI 65. Hugs or kisses: hugs wtf i aint kiss none but hugs are pure i will fight someone over this 66. Lips or eyes: idk eyes?? 67. Shorter or taller: I guess taller cause im smol 68. Older or younger: older give me a daddy 70. Nice arms or nice stomach: arms gotta b strong to choke me 2 death 71. Sensitive or loud: sensitive I need some1 2 feel emotions for me thx 72. Hook up or relationship: relationship 73. Troublemaker or hesitant: are u saying i have the choice of finally having a cringey fuckboi badboy tm that most every wattpad fic was about 5 yrs ago?? no thanks

HAVE YOU EVER:

74. Kissed a Stranger: ,,,u kno the answer to that bye 75. Drank hard liquor: this is the section to make me feel bad abt myself reincarnated  76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: no n knock on wood I won’t 77. Turned someone down: ekjfnkdlsn one time a guy asked me to homecoming and I told him homecoming wasn’t my thing and then he saw me at homecoming ekdfjaderdfkalesdf 78. Sex on the first date: uhhh 222 early 4 me 79. Broken someone’s heart: who knows mayb i broke the homecoming guys heart the world may never know 80. Had your heart broken: anytime Calum refuses to acknowledge my existence 81. Been arrested: no but I’ll gladly b put in handcuffs :-) 82. Cried when someone died: ya when my grandma on my mom’s side died. Oh and also when Christina Grimmie died :( 83. Fallen for a friend: idt so

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

84: Yourself: ha 85. Miracles: sort of? Like I don’t believe in the magic behind it or whatnot but like winning the lottery would be a miracle bc like it’ so rare ya feel me 86. Love at first sight: nope not one bit 87. Santa Claus: fun anecdote so I’m Muslim and I never understood how Santa knows which houses are for people who celebrate christmas vs those who don’t and so I somehow conjured up the theory that he knows bc he checks each house and if they decorated and have a tree up, they celebrate it. So I was telling my mom this and she’s a vvv blatant person so we was straight up like he doesn’t exist and I was like he does!! and she was like ok then put up decorations and see if he comes and I was like :-( 88. Kiss on the first date: personally too early for me

OTHER:

90. Current best friend name: Idek who would be considered my #1?? Also what happened to question 89 lol 91. Eye color: brown 92. Favorite movie: Camp Rock 2: The Final Jam

I tag @oceansweather @aneverendingreplay @5sowoc @lukescurlies @fuckmemgc @harrqstyles @punk-dinosaur @ovalt @tennisbowels @disasterologiess @hiighriselights and anyone else who wants to

[secretlymadeoutofcups]

get to know me tag??

tagged by @chani-babe ily

RULES: you must answer these 92 statements and tag 20 people…

THE LAST: 1. Drink: water 2. Phone call: my mum 3. Text message: thank youu! (@ my mumma lol) 4. Song you listened to: Letting go - DAY6

5. Time you cried: this morning lol

6. Dated someone twice: never dated anyone (im like 14) 7. Kissed someone and regretted it: never kissed anyone 8. Been cheated on: never dated anyone 9. Lost someone special: like death?? bc i almost have,, but a few weeks ago one of my best friends moved to Bulgaria (i live in NZ), we still talk but its just really hard not having her here 10. Been depressed: ive never been diagnosed (bc my parents refuse to admit that their kids might have mental illnesses) but im pretty sure i was at some points over the past two years but ive never been seen by a doctor abt it so imma say no 11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: nah

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS: 12-14: pink, yellow, green

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU: 15. Made new friends: yeah! (and i love them all <3) 16. Fallen out of love: yeah (but iss bc he was racist and im not abt that life) 17. Laughed until you cried: no :(( 18. Found out someone was talking about you: uhm yeah everyone lol 19. Met someone who changed you: yeah 20. Found out who your friends are: not this year 21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: view no.7

GENERAL: 22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: all except one (thats u Luis ily) 23. Do you have any pets: i have a cat named Alisha and ive had here for 10 years and i love her very much! <3

24. Do you want to change your name: i quite like my name but i kinda want to but for personal reasons lol 25. What did you do for your last Birthday: nothing i asked my friends if they wanted to hang and they all left me on read :’) 26. What time did you wake up: 0530 thanks period cramps 27. What were you doing at midnight last night: sleeping 28. Name something you can’t wait for: to leave... 29. When was the last time you saw your mom: like 15 minutes ago 30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: i wish my dad wasnt here 31. What are you listening right now: Congratulations - DAY6 32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: yeah lol  33. Something that is getting on your nerves: my dad, my grandma (his mum) and my little sister 34. Most visited Website: tumblr and youtube 35. Elementary: i live in Nz but the equivalent of that would be primary school and yeah that shit ends after year 6 36. High School: 1 1/2 of 5 years down wish me luck lads 37. College: technically im already in college bc college is high school here in NZ 38. Haircolor: reaaaaaaallly grown out blonde with black roots (think Lisa’s boombayah hair but x100) 39. Long or short hair: like armpit length lol 40. Do you have a crush on someone: does Jaemin count? 41. What do you like about yourself: nice ass eyes 42. Piercings: i have my firsts and a cartilage piercing  43. Bloodtype: idk im 14  44. Nickname: momo 45. Relationship status: single 47. Pronouns: ion care theyre just noises 48. Favorite TV Show: skins 49. Tattoos: none rn but i want some 

50. Right or left: both 51. Surgery: ion have tonsils 52. Piercing: refer to no.42 53. Sport: i used to play netball, soccer, and i danced (pretty darn well) but then i stopped bc the girls were bullying me and ruining my confidence lol i still get anxiety abt it even tho its been months 55. Vacation: Japan or Austria 56. Pair of trainers: do u think i leave my house lol yall trippin 

MORE GENERAL: 57. Eating: nothing atm

58. Drinking: rn?? nothing

59. I’m about to: find some bumbin DAY6 fics to read (link a chickie up)

61. Waiting for: happiness 62. Want: for someone to genuinely love me eventually bc loving yourself can be a bit much sometimes and i need some reason to stay 63. Get married: like in my twenties lol (like anyones gonna wanna marry my ass) 64. Career: i really want to either dance or model but those are really stupid lol just let me indulge

WHICH IS BETTER 65. Hugs or kisses: both 66. Lips or eyes: both  67. Shorter or taller: depends 68. Older or younger: older, i dont think i could handle someone younger even if its just a month or something 70. Nice arms or nice stomach: i couldnt care less abt what their arms or stomach look like as long as they are healthy 71. Sensitive or loud: loud to hide my sensitive ass 72. Hook up or relationship: both 73. Troublemaker or hesitant: both

HAVE YOU EVER: 74. Kissed a stranger: again, refer to no.7 75. Drank hard liquor: ya lol mostly @ school but shhhhhhhh 76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: no 77. Turned someone down: all the time lol 78. Sex in the first date: depends how well i know them and/or how comfortable i am with them lol 79. Broken someones heart: probably 80. Had your heart broken: a lil bit but it was my fault for being so attatched 81. Been arrested: no 82. Cried when someone died: ya 83. Fallen for a friend: yeah

DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 84. Yourself: idk 85. Miracles: i guess? 86. Love at first sight: lust? yes. love? no (but im still gonna indulge in ppls AUs) 87. Santa Claus: im??not??5??? 88. Kiss in the first date: depends 89. Angels: yeah but not like the 1s in the bible 

OTHER: 90. Current best friends name: Khairene, Nicoletta, Luis, and Anouk 

91. Eyecolor: poo poo brown but theyre very pretty and i love them 92. Favorite movie: Juno

Imma tag @m1nhks @sidemendes and anyone else who wants to lol