#if this post flops i’m deleting my account

[60000beesinatrenchcoat]

I’ve never really been one to dunk on furries bc I think they are they backbone of society in a couple different ways BUT it was truly such a moment of cognitive dissonance the first time I went to a ren faire and saw the satyr and fawn girls. I’d seen so much art in passing that never appealed to me but suddenly in person those digitigrade girls had me ready to fucking ACT UP.

[wilwheaton]

Elon's new blue-check subscription service was a massive flop, and the sudden removal of nearly half a million blue-checks suddenly made it crystal clear to Twitter's user base that the blue-check club going forward was going to be populated almost entirely by right-wing weirdos. There would be no hanging out with Stephen King or LeBron James; your fellow blue-checks would instead be a few notorious racists and jokes from (checks notes) influential wag "catturd." In fact, by so clearly labeling the worst of Twitter’s worst people, it spurred a genius #BlockTheBlue backlash, in which people gleefully banned the blue-check trolls that now populated the top of every single prominent Twitter thread (like those of actual celebrities announcing their refusal to pay for what was now a worthless mark). The visible unpopularity of the program wasn't just embarrassing for Musk. It's an existential threat to the program’s viability. Musk sold the subscription service as a way to become one of the site's Important People without merit; if all the Important People didn’t just stay off the program, but mocked it, only the most diehard of Musk loyalists would be eager to sign up for that. As the collapse of the program became self-evident, third parties had already begun working on automated #BlockTheBlue plugins that would systematically block all checkmarks. So Musk immediately set out to salvage the reputation and very existence of the $8 club—by forcing Important People to be in it whether they liked it or not. And by "immediately," we mean "by afternoon."

Elon Musk's Twitter Blue is a verified disaster

I was one of Twitter’s early adopters. I was one of those accounts they suggested you follow when it started to get big. I went from a few thousand followers to a hundred thousand in a matter of days, and was at 3 million when I closed my account.

I left Twitter long before Musk took over, but I kept the account to protect it and the branding it comes with from bad people.

Last year, before Musk bought it, I posted a couple of tweets to let those three million accounts know that my memoir had been published. It seemed silly not to. I turned replies off, and just let it be an announcement.

Then Musk took over, and I watched Twitter turn into 4Chan. When it started to become 8Chan, I deleted my entire archive, unfollowed everyone except family, and then made my account private. I figure I still need to protect the username.

I don’t look at my account, but someone told me the check was gone. (Oh, I was one of the earliest verified users, too). I was thrilled. I didn’t want anyone to think I gave that bozo my money.

Then the same person told me the check was back, shortly after I think all decent people had concluded that blue check = red flag (or red hat). So I signed back into my account and updated my bio to make sure nobody ever thinks I gave that dumbass any of my money.

I know I’m not alone. That check mark is now toxic, and I’m not the only longtime verified user who doesn’t want anything to do with it. I wonder if someone more famous than me, with more at stake, makes noise about the implied endorsement  / affiliation the blue check now carries with it, and the brand damage that comes with it?

[artsyaech]

~welcome to the sunflower field~

[image ID: a field of hundreds of sunflowers. in the distance you can see what appears to be a hill. over the field is a sunset with clouds in the sky END ID]

my names are

aech

froggie

kaos

mayhem

ocean

kandi

and i'm just one out of hundreds of xenogender coining blogs. my old blog got deleted on accident (because i'm a dumdum) but i'm the original artsyaech, trust me. i have tons of pronoun sets but here are some you can call me by:

hán/háni/háns

xae/xaer/xaerself

art/arts/artself

xeph/xephs/xephself

frog/frogs/frogself

quoi/quois/quoiself

zix/zix/zixself

boop/boops/boopself

sol/sols/solself

star/stars/starself

🌻/🌻s/🌻self [emoji ID: sunflower emoji]

i'm a white icelander with scottish ancestry, so i'm as white as can be lol. i'm xenogender and genderfluid as well as objectum, aspec and abrosexual. i'm autistic, have adhd, depression and anxiety (diagnosed) as well as questioning if i have anything more.

i am otherkin. i’m an alien so please refrain from using humane terms to describe me

special interests atm: gorillaz, the sims, postal, mcr and mlp (if you request anything related to these things, i will 100% make it)

my bestie is @hip-albatross (go send him some love, void is amazing)

(help with image IDs would be very much appreciated)

tagging system

[PT: tagging system]

search for #aech’s terms if you just wanna see my gendies and other terms

#aech rambles is just for my little ramblings

#aech’s asks is for my asks

#aech reblogs is for reblogs (some of my older reblogs don’t have that tag, fyi)

#aech helps with neos or themed pronouns for pronoun/name help :)

#aech gives tips for alterhuman self-care tips

accessibility tags

#needs id is for posts that don’t have image ID (that i might add later)

#has id is for posts that have image ID (sometimes, i will add this myself)

what i will do:

xenogenders

aldernic terms

objectum terms

themed names and pronouns

what i will not do:

coining anything potentially problematic

coining anything on my blacklist

term searching

flag combos

flag requests: open!

name and pronoun requests: open!

DNI and blacklist under cut

dni: anti-mogai, anti-xenogenders, anti-neopronouns, anti-polyamory, anti-sex work, anti-abortion, mspec lesbian exclusionists, mspec gay exclusionists, anti-feminist, republicans, TERFS, SWERFS, radfems, transcum, transmeds, truscum, nazis, sexists, homophobes, misogynists, trump supporters, transphobes, queerphobes, racists, ableists, saneists, xenophobes, anti-BLM, pro-cop, superstraights, flop accounts, troll accounts, kink/NSFW (that includes H3nt41 and 3cch1), anti-agere, “MAP/p*dosexual”, “r*pesexual”, “racefluid”, “dreamsexual” (pertaining to the dsmp), “zoosexual”, “n*crosexuals” zoophiles, gold star lesbians, “transracials” RCTA, ECTA, people who support subs like r/DIDCringe or r/FakeDisorderCringe, xenoid/xenoidentities and their supporters, autism speaks supporters, light it up blue supporters, people who sexualize agere, proshippers, transid/transx, against researched self- diagnosis, demonize any mental disorder, against alterhumans, ‘consang’, think fiction doesn’t affect reality, pro-incest, pro-sh, jk rowling fans/apologists, pro-ano/thinspo

blacklist (general): gore, real violence, real death, MAPs, l*licon, sh*tacon, s/a, s/h, su*cide, eating disorders, s*xual topics/imagery, addiction, pregnacy and childbirth, hospitals and hospital imagery

blacklist (media/people): FNF, DSMP, harry potter and other j.k. rowling media, countryhumans, hetalia, black butler, killing stalking, hisoka from hxh, yarichin bitch club, boku no pico, helluva boss / hazbin hotel, kalvin garrah, shane dawson, trisha paytas, jschlatt, sia

reminder that in some cases the media on the blacklist is not inherently problematic, i’m just uncomfortable with it.

[nazrigar]

Avatar 2: Electric Boogaloo, or “Why You Shouldn’t Take the Internet’s Opinion Too Seriously at Times”

Twas the year 2022, in the Month of May, when the first teaser for The Blue People Movie(tm) was released... everyone on this blasted device called the internet, from Tumblr, Twitter to Reddit though it was going to fail.

Now look where it is.  $2.243 billion dollars later. For all the talk of “Cultural Impact”, plain and simple, you don’t get people to keep coming back to the theaters for a movie with a gap of 13 years from the first if people didn’t care about it.

...Legit the only place that had faith in the movie was effing r/boxoffice. A subreddit. Another, much bigger subreddit in r/movies was basically betting on this film to fail, and when it didn’t it kept deleting posts about its box office success until recently with the exact same news as above.

And that  $2.243 billion? Mostly from international audiences. Heck even my country of Indonesia made it to the top 20 markets for this film, with Europe (France and Germany specifically), India, China and Korea being the other, bigger markets.

As a guy in the animation industry, whenever I see a lot of my own community and even overseas colleagues either bashing or in disbelief of the film’s success I kinda die inside, because it really feels as if though I’m being a traitor to my own professional community for enjoying the movie wholly and unironically.

It took a while, but I finally accepted the ability to say “that’s fine, so what?”.

What can I say? I like realism, and I like realistic animation! I like how its implemented in the movie.

I like exploring speculative worlds from a biological perspective as well as worldbuilding.

I love science fiction critters, and Avatar always delivers.

It’s a movie made for me, as some dude from Indonesia who helps storyboards projects.

So if you’re a fan of the Blue People Movie(tm), don’t feel ashamed. If you’re inspired by this, but also take the criticisms of certain communities to account to improve on your work? Go for it!

Even Jimmy Camera I think learned his lesson (which is hard for me to fathom because... it’s James Cameron. His ego is pretty (in)famous), as he asked for consultation from the Maori community for their opinions on how to write the Metkayina.

Remember, next time the internet (especially twitter) thinks something is going to flop(tm), but you think it might be good and/or successful! Go for it! What’s most important is what you think, and make your own conclusions about it.

[saturrnss]

My shifting journey!

Hoping that somebody can find some comfort in this 🙏

Hello everybody, You may know me as versetravel on tiktok or just a random person you’ve never heard of until now as you’re reading this, but I say hi to you nonetheless! I want to re-tell my 3 year shifting journey up to this point (2024) to see if anybody is in the same situation as me. As my procrastination to shift slowly takes over, I hope that since it’s finally spring, writing this can get me off my ass and finally shift to the places I actually want to be.

Just note that I forget a lot of things so if the timeline doesn’t match up than it’s my fault, I’m just retelling it.

I was always the daydreamer type, I once at a chuck e cheese whispered to the person In the chucky costume that I was a secret agent and spy. I was…. Different, but one of the only things I reminisce fondly about my child was my wonder and the way I would create stories to make my life a tiny bit more interesting. So When I found out about shifting in 2020 during quarantine and I was intrigued and kind of mindblown, I could finally live the life, or lives I always dreamed of having.

I actually think I mini shifted to this reality/universe because when I was 3 but on new years eve, there was a news segment about the celebrities who didn’t make it to the new year and one who was featured was robert B. Englund, he died due to lung cancer. They also showed a scene from the first Nightmare on Elm street where Freddy was chasing tina. (Traumatized me)

So I was under the belief that he was dead for years because I literally remembered it. When i watched the kill night for Elm street movies I was confused why he didn’t say rest in peace to Robert like he usually did to horror actors who passed on.

It took me until 2022 TO FIND OUT HE WAS ALIVE AND WELL when I found his twitter account.

(back to the story…)

My first script was for a 10th member of twice dr and I’ll be the first one to admit - It was so outlandish and cringy that I deleted it a year later because of shame. The first time I tried to shift, I used the Raven Method and I chickened out half way through. The thought of leaving my reality and being somewhere without guidance scared me, so I just turned over and went to bed.

For my scripts I used the notes app, I had an unfinished 6th member of itzy dr before I moved onto notion and just forgot all about it. I kind of miss the simplicity of my scripts back then, and that I had so much faith in them. (my first marvel script was also NOT it bro lmfaoo)

Now with the whole 2020 shiftok thing, I was all that invested in shifting as a whole and I was still living my life as normal so I was fortunately spared from all the misinformation, though I still remember some tiktoks from that era.

2020 was also the start of my depression and mental issues so I kinda just forgot about shifting and moved on with my life (NEVER became an anti-shifter btw).

2021 was the worst year of my life mental wise, I was miserable every single day and I had an overwhelming urge to kill myself but i was to scared to tell anybody in my real life because they might tell my parents, but it was also the year I was “Re-introduced” to Reality Shifting. It was more appealing than ever at that point so I Decided to make my own tik tok account solely dedicated to shifting.

When I got my first 100 followers and counting due to tiktok I posted using a manifesting sound hoping my followers would shift. I was so shocked because I never got this amount of followers ever. I had this new will to live and motivation to shift. When I attempted to shift to my decades dr It was the closest I had ever gotten to getting to my dr by that point. It felt like I was floating and separating from my body, when it was over I was so happy that I was getting somewhere.

The next handful of attempts were flops but I didn’t let that get me down, I was riding that high from my earlier almost-shift for as long as I could. I almost made the attempt to try suicide but I chickened out (A pattern I know)

But then, something happened again that made me so happy.

I was just getting into Hinduism. One night I decided to pray to Lord Shiva and I felt- different afterwards. It wasn’t a negative or positive feeling, I just felt more calm than usual, and a bit dizzy. So I just decided to hop on my phone for a little and then go to sleep after.

I woke up in the middle of the night. Everything looked normal so I decided to check my phone for the time, when I did It was like someone Injected Adrenaline into my body. It was the middle of the night but the year was the same year as My model dr- 1967.

I was shaking that point, I tried to check if my fingers went through my palms but they didn’t- Everything felt so real. I looked around even though I could barely see anything, and tried to snap my fingers 3 times (safe action) but I was too panicked. I opened my phone and I didn’t have a password on it like I did my cr. I had no wifi but it was open to tiktok and It was paused on a video of Nayeon doing the dance for her solo (on the official twice account I think?)

I put my phone down and freaked out some more, just as I was going to accept this universe as my new forever home, I returned back to my cr. I was breathing really heavily and checked my phone again but It was the normal time.

It took a while but I went back to sleep and still to this day whenever I wake up I check the date.

I find myself downplaying that shift. Maybe because it’s not my dr/ I freaked out but at least I actually got symptoms from the subliminals I used.

2022-2023 is when I really slowed down and got stunted. The shifting attempts were all flops and I was angry. Why did everybody else’s attempts work but mine didn’t? Did I do something wrong? Was I not meant to shift? Weeks between my shifting attempts became months- every time I was attempting Fear took over me that I would get stuck there.

All I was holding onto was a couple almost successful shifting attempts and mini-shift, that was the only thing keeping me from giving up hope that shifting was ever real in the first place.

There was something in me that would never give it up, I didn’t want to give it up, I wanted to spend my most boring days there, being with people who actually loved me- I couldn’t just give up completely.

2024 was going to be no different until something changed that.

I was on the reality shifting subreddit and someone was offering readings. I was very skeptical at first but they didn’t demand money so I decided to try it. They said some really personal things. It was accurate that I was a bit freaked out, But the reading they gave me made sense to me. So I thanked them and before it was gone, took the opportunity to ask them to find out why I wasn’t shifting.

It took a minute (they were talking to multiple people at the same time) but they responded that I had so much negative energy weighing me down and that I needed to focus on being able to shift.

As of right now I don’t know what to feel, many contradicting feelings go through my mind. I don’t know what the negative energy exactly is for me to eliminate it.

But after everything I still have faith- My friends and loved ones are in all these different realities and I want to see them, hug them. I know after all this time it’ll be worth it.

I just know.

[sillyman-inc]

An important-ish? Post regarding my account

Alright so I’m thinking of making another account because- I notice (most of the time at least) whenever I branch out to something else that doesn’t have to do with octonauts my content flops majorly.

And currently my hyperfixation is my dnd campaign and I work REALLY HARD on my art pieces to portray my characters or my friends characters.

I also actively try to advertise my commissions, redbubble shop and Kofi but those also don’t get much.

Now- yes I still like octonauts. (However it’s not my hyperfixation anymore) But I don’t want to ONLY be known for that and ONLY liked for that.

Now this doesn’t mean I’m gonna be deleting this account or anything- I’d just like to branch out and such and not be tied down solely by octonauts. Since at this point its starting to kinda feel stressful and discouraging.

I wanna talk about my dnd characters and my video game I’m trying to work on and my other interests is all.

I could go into more detail but I feel like that’s more complex and I don’t feel like over sharing to strangers on the internet lol.

[sylv3onpropaganda]

i wanna post my art here but i’m afraid it’ll flop and get zero notes and i’ll be so embarrassed that i have to delete my entire account

[ext-raordinarymachine]

hi ! i really love your art, but i'm too scared to like and rb it because then i'll want to reblog all of them, so i've come here to ask two questions: one, can i spam reblog your art when i wake up in the morning? (it is soooooooooo awesome i love it very much you see), and two, do you have any tips for someone who's trying to start posting their art? i've been on this site for a long time, among different accounts, and i usually get banned after a year or so, (and for some reason when i get terminated it straight up deletes my posts???) so my art has never really been able to have a lot of reach, but i would really like to be able to like actually do art on here if that makes sense ? sorry for rambling btw! it's totally cool if you don't have any tips or anything

Hello!! I’m so sorry I’m only seeing this now 😭

1) You absolutely can spam reblog/like anything from any of my blogs! I don’t mind at all and I’m incredibly flattered you like my artworks <3

2) Honestly I’ve never had any strategy when it comes to posting art online whether it’s on tumblr or Instagram 🥲 and it shows! In general I can’t say any of my art accounts get a lot of traffic but general tips I see a lot of great artists give out are

- don’t be ashamed of posting your art!!! Literally. Shame will lead you nowhere & it’s a liar

- don’t be discouraged if your post flops. It happens to the best of us, it’s heartbreaking but don’t let it stop you!! Easier said than done ik but you literally have no other choice than to continue!

- to gain more traffic faster do fanart and/or art what will gain attention easily on tumblr dot com - smth relatable to the general audience of gay people (this rule I personally don’t follow lmao)

- it’s ok if you only want to do your own thing. You will most likely grow slower which you kinda have to accept but don’t force yourself to draw only for clout and not for yourself ):

- figure out why you get banned??? That’s Weird 😭

- befriend other artists. Your reach is greatly affected by who reblog your art! Tbh I own everything to my popular mutuals (kissing you guys on the lips with consent)

- fuck it we ball is the best mindset for posting art online

Hope it helps at least a little 😭

[egcdeath]

Hello! I have a question. Is there any trick to getting exposure when posting a fic? I’m about to start posting my first series I’ve been working on, but I’m not established in the community as a writer. Do I just say F it and post it and hope that it does well? I just don’t want to get discouraged if it gets no traffic because then I’ll lost momentum and not want to post anything else you know?

hii!! i’m not gonna lie, my numbers have gone down a lot recently so i may not be the BEST person to ask but i’ve also been writing here for a few years now so i’ve seen some fics flop so hard i want to delete the fic (and my account) and i’ve seen some numbers that make my eyes bulge out of my head like a cartoon character.

i would definitely say the character or pairing you’re writing for definitely impacts your numbers a lot. for example, i wrote two moon knight fics right as the show was ending, and those two got a lot of traction primarily because the show was SUPER popular. compared to when i started writing for the mcu and the character i had been writing for hadn’t been in a movie for a while, so fics would get around 100-200 notes. so being aware of how popular a character or pairing is just so you know where to keep your hopes. also, if you’re REALLY curious, you can look up the pairing and see how well other stories with that pairing have been doing.

i would suggest putting out a post giving a super brief summary of what the story is about and asking if anyone wants to be tagged in it, that way you know for sure you have a few people who want to read it. the people you tag may not always RB, but it’s pretty likely they’ll at least like the fic!

if you want more exposure, i would also suggest using a large variety of tags (relevant to the story ofc) because people sometimes don’t look up stuff like x reader, but might look up x y/n.

the last piece of advice i have is not to get caught up in the numbers. some of my favorite fics i’ve written have flopped super hard, but at the end of the day, it’s fine because i wrote it for me. there was some post going around that basically write for yourself and post for the one person who’s gonna love it and honestly that’s so true. do what makes yourself happy! the engagement should be an afterthought. also, don’t beat yourself up too hard on numbers if it’s your first fic!! it’s a lot harder for people to find it anyway.

but definitely send me your fic once you post it! i will definitely reblog and leave you some feedback <33 happy writing!

[kimtaegis]

Hi, I am Korean (non-army) but I wanted to say, I was so relieved to read your post noticing the toxicity of what some armys have been saying. As someone who migrated back and forth between America and Korea, I grew up with racial trauma and xenophobic statements. I’ve often hear statements belittle South Korea, making stereotypical remarks about the Korean culture “oh they’re so superficial” “oh they’re all brainwashed” and hearing things like it’s nothing compared to Japan and China, etc.

all day yesterday I was sick to my stomach being on Twitter and reading so many twts from armys that were belittling sk. I get that people were shocked, upset, and disappointed with the enlistment news. I get even complaining about the government and the politics behind all this. Voicing their frustrations about that is so understandable. BUT seeing remarks like “Korea has nothing else to offer” “will boycott Korea now/I have koreatown so who needs sk now” “Korea is nothing” “oh korea will now collapse” “Koreans will starve to death” all over twt was so disheartening. Some of them having thousands, even ten thousands of likes. I tried to speak up about the xenophobic statements, racist remarks, fetishizing my country only to kpop..without acknowledging the richness of culture and long history, strength and resiliency of our economic growth…and I kept on encountering different armys who took my defense of my country as an attack of BTS. rather than addressing the issue I was talking about, they proceeded to call the group I stan “flops” “no one gives a f*ck about your country” “you’re just saying this cuz you’re jealous your fav could never” which had nothing to do with the issue I was talking about.

Many were even gaslighting saying, no one’s saying any of that you delusional stupid bitch, liar, whiner, etc. and when I would reply with all the screenshot proof, they said “so? that’s the truth. korea WILL fall and be nothing w/o bts.” I’ve had someone tell me I should be ashamed of my country, someone who said it’s our fault people fetishize and stereotype our country, and people saying they’ll boycott to ruin sk / looking forward to the recession.

The final straw for me was when a big account w/ over 65k followers called me out as a liar for accusing armys of belittling sk. Within the first few minutes, the twt got hundreds of likes and I was publicly harassed by so many army accounts mocking, gaslighting, accusing, and attacking me. I felt the trauma of facing racism, speaking up, and then getting bullied or mocked for it, and had thoughts of sh. I ended up deactivating my account. Another big army account was kind and helpful (so I do acknowledge not all armys are like this) and the person who called me out eventually deleted the post.

I’m sorry this is quite long. But I wanted to share about what it’s like as a Korean to be on the receiving end of those remakes, even if they’re just joking comments or out of anger, that they severely impact many Koreans who read them. Samsung alone has a revenue of nearly 280 trillion a year; this is not even including other globally renowned companies like hyundai or kia. People saying Koreans will go broke/our country will collapse/has nothing else to offer are really undermining the country and it shows how people often reduce it to kpop/kpop lalaland. Once again, thank you for calling out behaviors like that and trying to hold people accountable. I’m not generalizing that all armys do this, as there are good people everywhere. But there was surely a lot of those voices that was spreading yesterday.

reading your message gave me goosebumps and not in the good way. I am so very sorry that this has been happening to you, it’s absolutely disgusting. this is straight up cyber bullying, I can’t believe people have been going this far, but at the same time I do absolutely believe that some completely deranged fans would. those people live in their own deeply delusional internet world, thinking they’re doing bts some kind of favour by spreading these statements. all it does is show how little intelligence they possess and how much hate and aggression is within them. for a fandom that prides itself with being so very diverse and open and kind, a whole lot act like little uneducated racist losers way too many times. They don’t see sk as an actual functioning country, hell how would they, they don’t care for it in the first place. As you said, it’s bts-land and that’s it. It’s okay to not be interested in the culture and industry, no one asked you to, but to be so bold as to say sk is nothing without bts?? Hilarious. As yoongi loves to say, please just go to school. Thank you for providing all these numbers and comparisons, it’s very insightful and puts things once again into perspective. ah I don’t really know what else to say right now. It’s just. shocking. And I’m so sorry. Nothing will ever justify this behaviour. Please please take care of yourself

[peppermintbuttlemon]

here’s what the vq posted on fauxmoi that everyone there are calling fanfic. it’s two separate replies here from the same account but they deleted because they flopped so hard. reads like the theory vqs are trying to start about doja and joe on tumblr and that grace will rekindle what she has with joe at the next fanexpo.

this checks out considering joe was also secretly dating and hooking up with his stranger things costar grace van dien until they called it off a few months ago and he went public with DC. grace has been discretely vocal about it on her tumblr and mentioned a break up two or three weeks ago and now the pap pics dropped with JQ and DC.

if you follow grace's tumblr you would know exactly what she has alluded to and talked about for the past two years. more specifically, the last few days/weeks when she spent all afternoon indirectly posting about joe when the doja pics dropped saying that people should feel bad for criticizing her past relationships when he went public with someone who's problematic. i'm way too old to be sitting around and shipping random ass people and think those who do are crazy but i have followed grace since the start of her streaming career before her stranger things season even dropped and anyone knew who JQ was. she 10000% was dating and constantly hooking up with joe until very recently and documented it across multiple of her blogs. including private ones. real things that happen are not delusions, babe.

But how do yall know she’s talking about Joe and not another dude?

Like at what point can she say cryptic shit about another guy? A lot of girls do this. Not me. I’ll say his full government name and birthdate on my post. What is he gonna do? Sue me? Good luck. Oh here you can have my collection of empty topo chico bottles I keep stashed under my bed lol get outta here! Guys I’m so lonely. I haven’t fucked up a guys life in so long. I don’t wanna get back on hinge tho

[bunny-rambles]

Hello dear<3

You don't know me yet but I wanted to tell you that i really like your writing! I know sometimes stories don't get 100's of notes (I know all about it) but i want you to know that notes don't say whether you are a good or a bad writer. You should enjoy writing and not do it to get 100's of notes... That being said, I don't think any of your stories 'flopped'. I will be reading your 'flopped' story soon but I just want you to know that, all the people who liked or reblogged It, read and enjoyed it. I hope you realize how amazing you are at writing even if posts don't get the amount of attention they truly deserve. Please, remind yourself that you're a terrific person and an insanely talented writer.

I hope you have a very good day. I was thinking of sending you a message but I was quite nervous since I tried to do that on my old account and didn't get a reply back.. oops ;-;

But I'd love to talk to you more, maybe become moots if youre willing to.

I love you <3 and I really hope my words reach you even the slightest bit..

Much love,

Suzy

I think I remember your ask,

Sorry I didn’t get to it. I struggle quite a lot with asks these days, I’m a terrible replier. I wasn’t aware of you deleting that account, I’m sorry. I think I didn’t want to answer because you had your discord in there? It was personal information that I didn’t feel comfortable sharing answering that ask in case others took advantage of that.

Thank you for your compliments though, that truly means a lot to me <3 writing on tumblr is very difficult sometimes, as really, you don’t get much out of it most of the time. You get likes, and blank reblogs - maybe if you’re lucky you’ll get a few comments and tagged rb’s. Truly talented writers get a bunch of asks and interaction, so it kind of hurts to see that and then not get anything back. Makes me feel like my writing is extremely inadequate or that maybe I’m not nice enough or open enough to get those comments.

I’m no writing machine, I’m just someone writing because I’m passionate about it, and then not getting anything back from it can be quite upsetting.

But I’ll try to remind myself that my writing has merits, even though I don’t particularly believe it. Thank you, dear 🩵

[sixteenavenue]

I want to walk down the aisle at my wedding to the drums in afterglow

[polarisbear]

y’know something about my brand of mental illness makes me Commit to the most tedious things known to man. most of the time i enjoy them

[apothe-roses]

Hi, this is a rant about Robert, so if you don’t wanna read about him, you should probably keep scrolling

Tw: discussing transphobia, sexual harrassment

Does anyone else find themselves constantly flip flopping in regards to their opinion on Robert? I’ll admit, he was definitely my favorite member when I rejoined the fandom in 2019. There’s plenty of evidence of it on my page. No point trying to deny it. Hell, I even had a pretty big crush on him.

On one hand, it doesn’t seem like he’s on particularly bad terms with the other Starkid members. Some of them (Mariah, Jon, Matt Dahan, etc) follow him on Instagram. Nick and Jon still live with him. Jon even had rob on a livestream not too long ago. That got me thinking maybe what he did wasn’t so bad. Maybe he and his victim were able to talk things out and are in good terms.

On the other hand, I stumbled across a TikTok account (their @ is pepandchease) who posted several TikToks that paint him in a really bad light. One such video included an Instagram story made by the victim (allegedly, his name was blocked out) that was very….accusatory. We don’t know that it was directed at Robert, but we also don���t know that it wasn’t.

There’s also his issues with the trans/non-binary community. He deleted his twitter, which could be interpreted as him trying to better his mental health or trying to bury his past controversies (maybe both, though if the latter is correct, he clearly doesn’t know about things like the way back machine). I don’t think he’s intentionally transphobic, but I do think he has some internalized shit he needs to deal with. I wanna make it clear that any transphobia—intentional or not—is inexcusable and he deserves to be held accountable for the hurt he’s caused. He has a history of speaking over people he’s supposed to be allied with and doubling down when called out. I remember reading through a thread of him arguing with a fan regarding something he said in a livestream. That interaction made me so uncomfortable. I can’t imagine what it must’ve been like for the person he was arguing with. It seems that he tries to be a good ally but has serious issues taking criticism on his allyship (which is a really bad trait for an “ally”).

Sometimes I wonder if my attraction to him is clouding my judgement. It’s not exactly easy for me to get over crushes, even on people I don’t know.

I don’t want to support a person who doesn’t deserve it. If the victim is still hurt by robert’s actions, I don’t want it to get swept under the rug. If he hasn’t learned from his pact mistakes, I don’t want to give him any more chances to only be let down again. I don’t want to have feelings for a toxic man.

There’s so many unknown variables, it’s turning my stomach in knots. I know I’m not entitled to any information on this matter. The privacy of everyone involved is more important than my desire for answers. Unfortunately, that doesn’t do much to ease my anxiety.

Sorry this was so long. I had a lot to get off my chest. Thanks for taking the time to read this. Remember to hydrate and take some time for self care. You deserve it.

Tl:dr - I feel like I don’t have a clear answer on whether or not Robert is able to be redeemed or not and it’s driving me crazy. Part of me wants to see him grow and become a better person, while another part thinks he’s a lost cause based on his past behavior.

[nooshywrites]

so uhh it’s been almost over a month since i posted anything on here and i just wanted to apologize for not posting and leaving randomly. i’m trying my best to keep up with asks / dms / tags / replies and i’m sorry for not responding if you’ve dm’d or tagged me or sent something to my inbox. i just haven’t had the energy or motivation to reply to a lot of stuff lately. there are only certain people i’m actually talking to right now, which makes me feel like a really shitty person because i feel like i’m ignoring people who are trying to check up on me and make sure i’m okay. but thank you so much for the love and support, i genuinely appreciate it. i really miss being on here and interacting with you guys. it’s like 3am here and i’m really sleep deprived but i feel like you deserve an explanation, so i’m going to try my best to say everything best as i can.

so most of you following me know i just made this blog not that long ago because my old one was being attacked by some toxic fans from the creepypasta community and my account was deactivated by tumblr so i came here to continue writing. i posted like three things before deleting everything on my blog because i needed a break for my mental health. after my break i said i’d start posting again, which hasn’t happened.

maybe like a few weeks ago i had a falling out with one of my ‘friends’, who was a creepypasta content creator and one of my first friends on here. they convinced me to write stuff about my rewrites of the Laughing Jack story, but they became very toxic and narcissistic towards me. they insulted me trying to cover it up as helping me, and then tricked me into almost letting them use my rewrites of characters in a story they basically forced me into being okay with it when i wasn’t. they’ve had a big impact on my mental health, along with turning another of my friends against me for the purpose of getting back at me and fucking with my feelings because i left and they can’t walk all over me anymore and they aren’t happy about it. i won’t mention their name in this post because i don’t want to start anything up with them, to be honest i don’t want anything to do with them, but that’s one reason i haven’t been on here much.

i’ve also realized my passion for writing got mixed up with my need for acceptance and attention. i panicked whenever posts flopped and i didn’t get any notifications. i guess i’m just scared of not being wanted, my anxiety and depression and past abuse sort of mixes in with everything and hurts me a lot.

this is cheesy sounding as fuck but like, i feel like i live off your love and support. of course i’m doing this for fun and because it’s what makes me happy, but then i have days when i’m just so attention starved and i don’t have a lot of people to help me with that and so i come here to get the love and attention i desperately crave, and when i have days where i do nothing and receive nothing, it triggers some unhealthy feelings and episodes that hurt my mental progress. i feel like it’s unfair to you guys and that i failed you by not being here and not responding to asks and dms. i’m really sorry to those who have reached out to me. i wanted to respond asap but the days keep going by and i haven’t felt like i can keep up with anything.

so here’s my plan. i’m going to take an actual break for myself. i don’t know how long, maybe a few weeks or a month, to take care of myself and sort out my issues so i can be here and not feel shitty and be able to interact and be with you all like you deserve. because you guys literally deserve the world, especially @glassartpeasants and @immortal-velociraptor for sticking with me through all this. i love you guys so much and i’ll be back soon.

— 💕 Nooshy