#if they'd been heavy

[yellowgnomeboots]

Health stuff under the cut - discussion of menstruation and pain and useless doctors and being suicidal. Long. I have a lot of distress regarding this topic. No obligation to read even if you're my friend (same as any post but just don't upset yourself you know?). I just need to get it out and maybe it will help somehow. I'm writing this after and it hasn't helped so far but like maybe lol.

I want to try stopping taking the contraceptive pill to see if it is responsible for any of my fatigue. I thought I was ready but I'm much too scared and every time I try and think about I cry.

Along with the general inconvenience of bleeding and other inconvenient symptoms plus ruining a couple of pairs of knickers every time, it was just really painful.

I'd have half a day at about 8 on the pain scale I guess. Plus maybe a bit of throwing up, and rocketing between sweating and freezing. Then that would go away and there'd be 2-4 days of feeling lesser pain and feeling miserable, the level of miserable more or less equivalent to a bad cold where you can make yourself to do stuff but preferentially would just curl up in bed all day, then another 2-4 reduced symptoms again about the equivalent of a mild cold e.g. where you'd preferentially do light activities like read a book and play computer games but you can make yourself go to work/school and feel miserable.

I used to be suicidal thinking about how I had to go through this every month for the rest of my life until menopause. I was so anxious all the time that I'd get my period at the same time as something important (it was not predictable). I had to lie to my doctor (tell them I had a boyfriend and wanted to have sex) to get on the contraceptive pill because I'd been refused 3 times to be prescribed it to see if it would help manage symptoms. The only help I got was the advice to use OTC pain killers (which didn't work at all), a hot water bottle (no effect, possibly worse), and "light yoga" (did try this but any movement of my abdominal area made it worse).

When I went on the pill I got told I had to have those "breaks" where you take the sugar pills and get a small period or it would be bad for me. That was much better but still somewhat unpleasant physically and very unpleasant emotionally. Period products have a particular smell - I don't know if it is the plastic they use or the glue or what - and every time I had to get out a pad I would smell it and have a spike of anxiety/panic. I couldn't even walk down that aisle in the supermarket or the smell would set it off. Eventually I found some earthy organic cotton pads in a recycled cardboard box in a health food shop that I could use without panicking.

Eventually I went on a continuous pill and didn't have to think about it again until recently.

I've got some codeine I didn't use for my wisdom teeth removal but its pretty strong. Its almost not worth taking it for half day of pain and I don't know what to do for the week of misery afterwards for which codeine would kind of knock me out so I wouldn't be able to do anything anyway (and I don't have enough for three weeks worth - doctor suggested 3 months trial to give things time to settle and see if it helps the fatigue).

Its possible the symptoms won't come back. Its possible that even if they do then I feel better in other ways and then the doctor can work out a way to have the best of both worlds. I just don't know if I can do it.

[gophergal]

boinga. boinga. boinga. boinga.

bonus heby weapon man:

[fluffs-n-stuffs]

"Cuhut it out- you guys!" "Nu-uh, not until you're all perked up first! You don't want those gym challengers meetin' with an ol' mopey leader, do ya?" "Whitney's right, dear friend. No need to hide that beautiful smile of yours, alright?~"

What it takes to cheer up Johto's beloved ghost boy 👻💕

[emmabirb8]

Is... is that what we're calling it? Kind of an odd way to look at it if you ask me

The article itself is actually p insightful but I just can't get over that wording, lmao

[gracefulserpent1207]

Me whenever I rewatch Hunted and see Faith and/or Jet Jack:

[eirianerisdar]

Today I found out that despite being mostly conflict avoidant I can indeed turn into a raging keyboard warrior when I discover the disabled/accessible toilets at one of the largest luxury malls in my city are neither accessible or designed for the disabled

Just fired off a professionally scathing email to their management quoting my city's government building regulations

[maphel-n-doodles]

Henlo! For the ask prompts may I suggest HashiIzu with Hashirama healing Izuna (it's your choice whether it's a silly or serious injury) or Hashirama sticking flowers in Izuna's clothes and hair. Thanks for considering it! 🌻💕

Ivy: Immortality, undying affection Marigold: Grief, Despair Fern: Sincerity, Sorrow

Mokuton is a sensitive creature.

[simpotat]

What the fuck

[94erz]

so hobi was the only member nominated for the FAN VOTED award on mama not to win the award (mind you, there were 10 winners). i simply have no words left for this fandom. armys were too busy fighting about which maknae line member should get a daesang to care for getting the award for the only nominated member who is out of the military and who we KEEP failing Every. Single. Time. he's literally never won a fan voted award. i haven't cared too much about such things in quite a while but mama awards have always seemed important so this actually got to me. can't say i'm disappointed because i stopped expecting much from armys long ago but hobi has just got out and there were 10 winners so i thought it might be different this time but of course not. the fandom is FULL of ml solos i fear. and of course now they're celebrating and saying how they did so well. sorry for ranting, i know you don't really care about these things now either but aghhhggggfggg

All I can think about is how he didn't go to that fuck ass event (except for TXT's performance they were amazing), didn't speak about it, didn't post a single thing about it, nor will he since why should he? This year he wasn't (and I hope isn't at any future point) forced to go and collect anyone's awards and there was no benefit to him as an artist since he didn't perform, and instead did something HE loves to do and I'm so happy for that.

No fake platitudes to a fandom that fails him over and over again.

I really have stopped giving all fucks what the fandom does, I watched ONLY for TXT this year and prioritized MOA spaces and watched as they put on a good show. It was so positive and supportive and it reminded me of why I used to like being in ARMY spaces and now I know I'll never return to them 'cause they aren't as supportive and positive. They've made it all perfectly clear j-hope is not someone they care to support and they have made the fandom extremely toxic and unbearable for j-hope biased fans so why should we stay? Why should I return? They don't want us there and so fuck it and fuck them honestly.

[fettery-fetterie]

GIRL HELP WDYM I REACHED 30 TAGS??????? OMG???? I WASN'T EVEN DONE YET

ANYWAYS 31st: and that compared to a relationship where the communication lines are basically none or very fucking weak then yeah it is an upgrade I think. Idfk I was never in a relationship I'm just picking from the ones I've seen in my life

[faunandfloraas]

the fact theres no skz video of them trying australian food............... unthinkable

[crescentmp3]

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[tourmelion]

Yeah

People can still deserve to be taken out of the equation

Without heat or emotion, some people are just generally dangerous and should be gotten rid of if no other avenues are available

Just, logically the damage they do is too much to be able to justify keeping them alive just to have them commit acts of intense cruelty

That being said, we can never be too sure we got the right mark, jail can be reversed upon finding that person was innocent

Death cannot be

Only when other options are unavailable is it justifiable to use deadly force against a dangerous individual

When Indian police officers took the gloves off and started using deadly force against terrorists when they were also shooting at the police when they attempted to arrest them, those officers sustained less casualties and was able to neutralize the threat

( cops are still corrupt but it is still bad when they die cause they aren't empowered to use more force against armed nut jobs )

Killing someone who was attempting to kill you or severely maim/r*pe you is self defense, that's justifiable cause you can't justify the cost of them not being fought against and there aren't really other options

Of course there's always a worry of people taking advantage of these circumstances ( they do it anyway, it's just normal murder, which is when we rely on the law to find out whether it was in defense or not )

But the base morality still stands, sometimes it's just not practical, it's not pretty by any means, and it shouldn't devolve to that choice in our society, but it can, and people shouldn't overthink and make themselves miserable when fighting off the generally dangerous to save their own lives and skin and the lives and skin of others

Border control needed to kill back when a group of soldiers broke into their side of the border and started killing

When no one will stop the child rapist or murderer you have to defend yourself and the people around you

Reason can dictate it's the best option

And true that people do unjustly kill just for their own sick pleasure, but they hardly are willing to stop just cause reasonable people won't

If you've been in a situation where such extreme action feels like the only way out and you're pushed to it to save yourself or those around you don't let it burn you up inside, the action is inherently dark and upsetting but you had reasons to

My family are survivors from a genocide, they shouldn't feel bad for taking down a terrorist, or someone coming around to kidnap their daughters or any person they felt like snatching

Intense times can call for intense measures, in situations like that don't let yourself be handicapped

Don't make yourself completely powerless if you know you can do something

When the law fails you or cannot intervene don't get caught up in the titles and visuals of the matter

Think about why you did it, fall back on that and let that calm the issue, it's important to question and reflect, and to recognize if you did the wrong thing, but do that with reason, don't just hate yourself cause you were pushed that far

If you were raised or got caught up in a gang and had to to live, if you wanted to kill the guy who killed your family or friends, if you did it to help a person escape from trafficking or you were trafficked and that was the only way out or to get justice, if someone tortured you for fun and you couldn't call for help

Fall back on the reason why, get peace from you attempting to pick apart your reasoning and having it stand through it, having you question your reason and being able to answer them, being able to genuinely justify it cause you do ask yourself and you can make a response, one that you can pick apart and bring to it's end, to it's logical conclusion

Being able to wade through all the mess with reason, questioning, picking apart, so you can get closer to the truth, to find the truth

Don't just get disheartened and upset with yourself just because of a surface level title slapped onto what was done

Your truths are more nuanced than that and deserve to be met with proper consideration

All of ours are

Btw

Some of my tags outline my experiences

They are kinda disturbing

Outlining my poor treatment a little

Read at your own risk

I'm fine-ish now though so don't worry

I'll be alright

re: that last post, ive said it before and ill say it again: no one deserves to die (deserving is fake and death is bad) but some people need to be stopped and choose to make death the only way to stop them

[medicinemane]

I don't know, those gifs of Andrew Garfield saying how to him the most terrifying thing is certainty... they resonate with me

The way people go around so damn sure that they're right about things, frankly I think there's very few things more dangerous than not even allowing for the possibility that you're wrong

Like you've just decided that you 100% know best, and from now on any evidence to the contrary is just something to be pushed aside because it's clearly wrong. The harm you'll do isn't real because obviously you wouldn't be doing it if there was harm. You're just right. That's the end of it

No, I agree with Andrew Garfield, I'd much rather stop and reassess over and over, as many times as I need to, to make sure that I'm still doing the right thing

I'll never be anything cause it just doesn't interest me, but if I was going to join a religion I know I'd become Jewish

Thought that since I was little with all the Jewish friends I had at school, and what's more it just seems to fit me best, all the elements of questioning. Hell... it even sounds like if I said "you know, I don't really believe in god", that there's a chance the rabbi might say "funny thing, me neither" (I've heard some don't), but if not that at least "eh, that's fine, why don't you come discuss why with us"

It's just funny the number of times I've related to something someone's saying, and then you find out their Jewish and this ties into that sense of questioning things, and that interview is an example

I agree with him, nothing scarier than being 100% sure you're correct... you can do a lot of bad things once you know for a fact you're right to be doing them

[bijoumikhawal]

Hurricane Helene Relief Funds

Brother Wolf Animal Rescue operates out of Asheville, which has been hit aggressively by storm and flood damage

The Asheville Survival Program is reaching out. They appear to actually be the ones who use the Cashapp $Streets1de, and they just got put with Appalachian Med for convenience.

Beloved Asheville is reaching out. www.PayPal.me/belovedasheville and venmo.com/beloved-asheville

Homeward Bound helps the homeless in the Asheville/Buncombe area

Theres a fund for smaller rural communities around Asheville. It's close to its goal, but I really wish they'd set it higher considering what people are gonna need. Someone make sure they surpass it!

Charlotte NC is reaching out. Charlotte Mutual Aid: Helene Disaster Relief. CashApp: MutualAid704. Venmo: MutualAid704. Open Collective: Helene.cltfnb.com

Olive Branch Ministry is reaching out from West NC

Josh Griffith is fundraising for his efforts to deliver food in WNC

Breathitt County in Kentucky is fundraising to help NC through the Rousseau Volunteer Fire Department, as well as asking for physical supply donations. Their paypal is jrousseauvfd, put "for NC flood". Jaxon Flower shop in Jackson KY will also take physical donations. They aren't looking for clothes, moreso cleaning supplies and other items.

North Durham Mutual Aid is reaching out.

Eastern Kentucky Mutual Aid is also reaching out for funds. There looks like there might be two orgs with similar names, but if so both are helping. There's PayPal.me/ekymutualaid, Venmo - @ekymutualaid, or Cashapp - $ekymutualaid. There's also a Facebook group where individuals are posting requests for aid.

There's a fund for relief in Erwin, Tennessee

Helbender Harm Reduction is collecting physical supplies in Knoxville alongside First Aid Collective Knoxille, whose Cashapp/Venmo is: $firstaidcollectknox. If you're nearby they're looking for clothes, blankets, shelf stable food, rain gear, flashlights, and batteries, which is what most other groups asking for supplies are looking at too.

The TriCities Mutual Aid group is mostly asking for volunteers and supplies in the Tennessee/Virginia area. However, they may shift to donations, and you can reach out to them to see if they would be welcome either way.

Food Not Bombs Tallahassee has a cashapp: $fnbtally2022. They and Mutual Aid Athens are also boosting any community calls for funds, labor, or supplies in various states on their Instagram pages

Taylor County FL is reaching out. Paypal: Mskatonic138@gmail.com and Venmo @Mskatonic138

The Footprint project's Florida team is asking for people to support their response by texting HELENE to 44-321

Since I don't know if the post I made late last night will get traction I'll reiterate that Mutual Aid Disaster Relief is a trusted org. You can send funds at the linked site, or via Paypal: MutualAidDisasterRelief@gmail.com Or Venmo: @MutualAidDisasterRelief

Appalachian Med is another trusted org I shared last night. They have Venmo: @AppMedSolid. Put Flood Support in the description

Animal Disaster Relief Coalition is helping people make sure their animals are fed.

A list of Mutual Aid groups can be found here

A friend of mine, Vyn, is asking for help since he'll be out of power for around a week in Southeast GA

Other physical supplies people will be looking for in flood impacted areas include:

bottled water, potentially water filters

personal hygiene items: wipes, camping showers, tampons/pads/other menstrual products, handsanitizer, mosquito spray, laundry detergent, washboards, toilet paper, diapers, and especially any products safe for sensitive skin

medications- ibuprofen, monistat and other meds for yeast infections, cold and cough meds, any diabetic meds that can be safely shared, etc

individually wrapped low or no prep food items, baby formula, and Gatorade

duffel bags, backpacks, heavy duty storage totes and trash bags, 5 gallon buckets, coolers

Fans, dehumidifiers, moisture sensors, generators, gas and gas cans, solar charging items and battery banks, first aid kits

chainsaws, crowbars, hammers, air filters, respirators, 2×4 planks, bleach, roofing nails, heavy duty gloves, and potentially waders.

and board games or other non electric activities for children

Double check if you can before you donate these items to make sure whatever local drive you're headed to wants them and can distribute the more specialized ones where they're needed

And please! Add any funds you know of, especially for South Carolina and North Georgia since I wasn't seeing many funds for those areas! I know South Carolina is in desperate need and there's definitely parts of North Georgia in need too. Atlanta saw some bad flooding so keep an eye for them too!

[kingskrazzyart]

Well, if you hate winter, you know how much of a pain it can be to constantly have to shovel your drive way. And if you don't get snow, you get seasons of heavy hurricanes and typhoons. Harsh weather conditions destroy homes, harm our communities, and take more money to repair damages than some people can afford. That's why you should help @ma7moudgaza2 and his family

Here's their verification || Verification 2

Mahmoud and his brother, Muhammad, are campaigning to buy supplies to survive this winter season. Their current goal is to buy covers and blankets to keep themselves warm because Surviving genocide is just as important as escaping it. Their family consists of 20 people-- that's an entire classroom of people! The money will be used for the supplies mentioned previously along with food, wood for a chair, clothes, and a shader to prevent their tent from sinking. For more details about how the money will be spent, click here. These people are your neighbors, graphic designers, phone repairers, and some maybe could've been your friends. If your neighbor's work blew up, wouldn't you want to help?

Pictured: Muhammad's work before and after the war.

"...I lost all of my work, leveled it to the ground, and completely destroyed my dream. As this war continued for more than 10 months, what I had saved was not enough for me. From money to buy my basic life, I am now without money and without a source of income, which the occupation has completely destroyed." -Message from Muhammad, read more here

Click here to see Mahmoud's work portfolio

The family has been a recent victim of *fraud* and had their campaign money STOLEN! Every cent you can donate matters! If 2500 people who reblogged this donated 10 USD then they'd reach their goal! If tumblr can come together for a fake movie, we can come together for this! We got this!!! Donate to their campaign and Paypal!