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:((((((((( i ran out of tags . tumblr hates to see me thrive!!!!!!!
ok niku just . read the tags first and then come back here ok šš i have a lot i still need to say this is so important to me . this fic changed my life .
(WARNING this got long ā¦.. really long ā¦.. mysteriously. i got carried away š PLS donāt feel the need to respond to any of this btw i mean that sincerely i know this is kind of a Lot i just need you to know much i adored this fic <3333)
BACK TO GOJO ok so his talk w readerā¦ā¦ it was just so satisfying to see them finally get to tell someone about their experience. it mustāve been such a great feeling for them !!!! to get some of it off their chest :((( ā¦ and to have Gojo Fucking Satoru our safe harbour of a man there to believe them and listen to them and reassure them. heās so mature when it comes down to it and you captured that so wellā¦ā¦ like as much as he acts childish and teasing this is exactly how i picture him interacting w someone he doesnāt know in a situation like this!! heās flirty and unserious but he tells you heāll protect you and means it. (iām so down bad it physically hurts)
sorry iām abt to go on a tangent i think BUT I JUST šš reallyā¦ REALLY love their dynamicā¦. how it evolves so much even though he doesnāt even know reader exists for most loops!! and to them heās just this beautiful Something that they canāt help but look atā¦ā¦ āinhumanly attractiveā is a great way to put it like heās justā¦.. this magnetic forceā¦ā¦ā¦.. and i feel like even before they speak to him for the first time they probably find some kind of hope in him.
AND thatās so important bc to me thatās like . the main Theme of the fic? hope. reader has to find some kind of hope to make it through shibuya and more often than not they find it in gojo!!! in just seeing a familiar handsome face, in learning how to navigate the timeline through his actions, in talking to him and finally having him on their side. their choice to trust him fully at the end just made me soooo insane. and obv the hope theme continues even after that because gojo believes in them!!! believes that theyāll be okay in the prison realmā¦.. more on that later actually bc i Still. have a lot to talk abt ššš iām just wildly flipping through my notes at this point iām sorry to throw this at u when weāve barely interacted but in my defense this fic reached into my actual skull and started rewiring my brain so!!!! yeah.
i got completely sidetracked there but . yes!! the conversation between them when gojo gets sent back in time is. so good!!!!! so wonderfully written!!!!! i havenāt mentioned it that much yet i think but i love your writing i devoured every lineā¦ā¦ i struggle w the flow of my own writing SO much but this just flows so incredibly well??? it was sm fun to read????? and the rhythm of the paragraphs (that sounds. Insane but i hope u know what i mean šš) is so distinct!!! and ofc there are SO many banger lines in this in generalā¦. the gore descriptions and the lines abt reader and their fixation on hope. on gojo!! āHe's a terrifying sort of beauty and you can't help but be captivated by him.ā <- this is just one example but!! idk iām just so enamored by ur writing style.
and the dialogue!!!!!!!! i cried!!!!!! itās so consistently gojoā¦. him going all āoh?ā āinterestingā¦ā but not explaining anything ā¦ the āding ding ding!ā after making reader guess what he should just be telling them (itās the teacher in him <33) AND AND AND these too!!!! :3
āJust think of it like having a lot of MP.ā
āYou know, your technique kind of reminds me of save scumming.āĀ
THEY JUST FEEL SO CANON thatās our gojoā¦ā¦ thatās exactly what he would sayā¦ā¦ heās so unserious and so funny and so charming šš sigh.
ANDDDDD reader telling him good luck!!!! gojo beaming and squeezing their shoulder!!!!! the lil wave!!!!! š„ŗš„ŗ that made me smile so wide niku heās so infuriatingly cute . it felt so genuine!!!! pls know that this gojo will probably live in my brain forever like genuinely . iāve been brainrotting over him all week and this was the final nail in the coffin. iāll never be free.
ok but also !!!! extremely important !!!!!!! before i get to the ending i just need to tell u . how much i loved kenjaku in this ā¦ā¦ā¦.. kenjaku nation (me & six others) will never forget these crumbs of content like he just feels so real!!!!! and heās so interesting!!!!! made me realize how truly down bad i am for him bc these lines made me so fucking happy šš brain started releasing serotonin like CRAZY iām so ashamed.
āYou can come out, you know.ā
āHow interesting.ā
"I'll be nice, though. I'll make it painless."
ā¦ā¦.. heās just ā¦.. yeah. yeahhhhh. šš iāll never be normal abt him. i think itās SUCH an interesting detail that he always makes readerās death painless in every single loopā¦. he never lies about it. that feels so in character to me too!!! heās kinda fascinated at first and when that interest disappears he kills them. but he doesnāt make it unecessarily cruel because thereās just. no need. kenjaku is a sicko but heās oddly polite at times and iām justā¦ā¦. yeah. gonna need you to take over for gege akutami actually šš get in the writerās chair!!! the fandom needs u!!!!!
wait while weāre on this topic pls just know the entire confrontation between reader and kenjaku was one of my favorite moments in the entire fic <333 not JUST because iām a kenny stan okā¦ā¦ā¦ readerās resignation and āI appreciate it.ā made my brain spin because itās just . kinda chilling? kinda sick? that they arenāt even really afraid of death anymoreā¦ or more like theyāre just so frighteningly used to it.
AND AND ANDDDD niku your writing in this scene šµāš«šµāš«šµāš« gutted me like a fish.
Time doesn't flow in the box. He didn't lie. You die again.
i exploded btw . ackkk i wish i could explain it better i just!!! :< adore your writing. these lines made me go completely batshit theyāre just so good. and the ātime doesnāt flow in the boxā line ā¦ how that ties in with the ending and readerās choice. whewww.
segway time <3333 this is the final rant i promise!!! i just need to talk about the ending bc it was so perfect and like many other things in this fic it made me insane ā¦. have i said that already ā¦. probably at least a couple times ššš itās true ok!! itās just sooo interesting to me and obviously so wellwritten and fitting and just. thematically ties everything together so well? i was FLOORED
hhhhh i donāt know where to begin so iāll just start w the final convo between reader and gojo :> he asks for their name !!!!!!! i cried !!!!!!!!!! calling someone by their name or knowing their name as a form of like . Closeness or Affection is one of my greatest weaknesses and i also think itās soooo telling that GOJO wants to know Your Name. he wants to know you. to hear that from someone who seems so inhumanly beautiful and violentā¦.. for him to kind of extend a final olive branch and attempt to connect w you :((((( it just says so much without spelling it out and i. started chewing at my desk. itās so good!!!!!!! such a genius way to tie everything together!!!! and readerās final words to himā¦
āThank you, Satoru Gojo.ā You burn the glittering glow of his brilliant bright blue eyes into your mind.Ā And then, everything is engulfed in an unending black.Ā
first of all!!! so so sooooo pretty. wowow. second of all THE THANK YOU ā¹ļøā¹ļøā¹ļøā¹ļøā¹ļø thatās also such a perfect conclusionā¦ā¦.. reader finally put their trust in someone and had that faith returned. and they thank him!!!! i like to think it means something to gojo tooā¦. likeeee how often do people really thank him for what he does? how often is his hard work to protect people acknowledged and appreciated? sorry to bring gojo back into the discussion all the time sadly i AM in love w himā¦.. šš and this fic made it worse so technically itās your fault. kind of.
okay so my brain is kinda spinning away again so iāll get to the final final thing!!!! for real this time!!!!! readerās decision to be imprisoned in gojoās steadā¦ thatās so . genius? iām so in awe??????? it makes so much sense from a character perspective based on what theyāve been through ā after being at the mercy of time for so long, wouldnāt it be nice to be free of it? completely? itās almost kind of chilling and just the idea of it scares me LMAO but it makes sm sense that reader would be drawn to it.
AND like i mentioned before!!! how it leads to a deeper connection between them and gojo, and how at the very end of the fic heās the one who has faith in them. faith that theyāll be alright, of sound mind.
ā¦ā¦ and that brings me to the final final final thing because. itās just like the opening poem!! reader is the cat in the box. nobody can say for sure if theyāre alright, not to mention alive, until the box is opened. and we donāt get to know!!! you leave us on a cliffhanger and thatās so good bc it really is like the cat in the boxā¦. we can only wonder but it also gives us the freedom to decide for ourselves if we think they come out okay or not and iām justā¦ā¦ā¦ā¦.. in love. with this fic. and the ending and the reader and gojo and you.
hopefully youāve noticed atp but i really did go completely insane reading this šš i said it at the beginning but just to reiterate!!: for SURE one of my all time favorite gojo fics . AND loopfics in generalā¦. thank you sm for your hard work :ā3 aaaa i canāt tell u how much i admire the time you spent working on this??? your storytelling and writing and characterization skills????? i genuinely feel sooo giddy and excited and happy rn bc. i just adored this fic!!!! iām so lucky i got to read it!!!!! :33 pls pat your gojo on the head from me and let him know i love himā¦. itāll boost his ego but thatās a risk iām willing to take šš i hope you have theeeee loveliest day or night a human being can have bc you made mine <3333333
beyond the unending night (reader + satoru gojo)
notes: it's finally here. the long awaited halloween fic. yes, i know it's march, but i did start working on it in september. haha. there's so much i could say, but i will leave it at that this fic is, in every sense, a fic that i would not normally write. and yet here we are.
contains: f!reader (no physical description or gendered language is used), no explicit romantic pairing (though you don't have to look hard to find the reader x gojo implications), major character death (played with), semi-graphic depictions of death, blood and violence, minor suicide ideation, canon retelling (lines of dialogue are pulled from the jjk english dub because i'm a dirty dub watcher). opening poem is from higurashi no naku koro ni (minagoroshi-hen). fic title is from giga's beyond the way.
please note that this is a time loop fic and, by nature contains repeating scenes (particularly from canon). please do not read this fic if you do not like that sort of thing.
wc: 21,883 read on ao3 (account required)
Please tell me what happened in this night. It's like the cat inside the box.
Please tell me what happened in this night. You don't know if the cat in the box is dead or alive. Please tell me what happened in this night. The cat in the box was dead.
The first time, it is instantā you donāt even know whatās happening.
The second, it is by flame, but you barely realize it, barely feel itā a second of mind numbing heat before nothing.
The third time, it is something slicing across your throat; you see the blood spilling everywhere, then the pain followsā a moment of pure agony before nothing.
The fourth time you realize whatās going on; whatās really going on.
You realize youāve been dying.
You think your head is going to explode.
At first, you think itās because the subway platform is crowded, insanely soā there are hundreds of people shoved into this space alongside you, packed like sardines in a can. Youāve never been one for crowds, but itās the reality of things when you live in Tokyo. For the most part, youāve learned to accept it, but even this crowd is a little much and you wish you hadnāt listened to your friends when they said you should go party in Shibuya for Halloween; you donāt even like partying.
Thereās a sharp pain in your temple followed by a thought so loud that it feels like someone is screaming it at you through a megaphone positioned right next to your ear.
Itās the night of October 31, 2018ā Halloween in Shibuya.
For the eighth time.
Before you can even question the thought, images flash in your mindās eye, blurry at first before they come into focus. The platform gates open. Chaos ensues. People dropping onto the subway tracksā spontaneously bursting into flameā their heads, necks sliced off, stomachs cut openā
Bile rapidly builds up in your throat, and you clamp your jaw shut, trying to force it down. Not here. Not now. You try to focus on something else, anything else happening outside of your brain. Thereās a pair next to you musing about the people standing on the subway tracks, wondering what the two (the four?) of them are talking about. You blink back tears as you look. You can only see two: a freakishly tall man with white hair dressed in all black, and another man, dressed in strange, yet more traditional looking garb. Are those costumes too? You donāt have a lot of time to think about it as another image forces its way into your brain.
Your corpseā lifeless on the ground.
Your corpseā burning to ash.
Your corpseā bleeding out.
You canāt hold it in any more. Every fiber in your being screams at you to get away from the subway tracks, but instead you rush toward them, shoving people left and right as your hands desperately reach the stability of the gate. You grip it like a lifeline as you retch over the side of it, the contents of your stomach spilling all over the subway tracks.
Thereās a quiet murmur of disgust behind you but you canāt be bothered to respond. You need to get out of here. You need to leave. You need to do it beforeā
The gates open and the crowd starts to move like a tidal wave, pushing and shoving their way through the gate. Youāre swept away, vomit long forgotten as you and a few dozen others tumble onto the railway.
Alarm bells go off in your brain, loud and deafening. A voice in the back of your head screams for you to get off the track! Get off the track now beforeā
The platform erupts into a cacophony of screams, drenched in horror, saturated in fear. You are surrounded by people, by corpsesā beheaded, sliced open, bursting into flames.
Your terror roots you to the ground as the carnage ensues around you. Itās only when another person, another corpse, dressed in a magical girl costume collides with your body that you can finally move. But itās too late, you realize, despaired and helpless, as your bodies fall to the ground.
Itās too late.
You die an eighth time.
You think your chest is going to explode.
At first, you think itās because itās so hard to breathe, frustratingly soā there are hundreds of people squeezed into this space alongside you, packed like cattle for slaughter. You've never been one for crowds, but itās the reality of things when youāre in Shibuya. For the most part, youāve come to accept it, but this crowd is way too much and you wish you had just stayed home and ordered a pizza; though honestly, the thought of pizza kind of makes you sick.
Thereās a dull throbbing in your forehead, followed by a thought so loud that it feels like someoneās hollering at you from a loudspeaker thatās been installed in your brain.
Itās the night of October 31, 2018ā Halloween in Shibuya.
You think it's the ninth time now.
Behind you, you hear a woman screaming, her voice crazed and terrified. You turn your head automatically to look at her and when you see her you realize you recognize her yellow and white magical girl costume. You can say with certainty that youāve never seen her before and yetā
Before you can ruminate more on it, imagesā memories assault your mindās eye with a clarity that is absolutely sickening. That woman colliding into you, your bodies slamming into the subway tracks before you bothā Your stomach churns violently,
and you feel like youāre going to puke, but you force it downā can't afford to right now. Instead, you make your way over to the woman.
Her head is in her hands as she mutters over and over again about how everyone is going to die. People around her figure that being stuck in here with the crowd has probably gotten to her. You, however, know better.
ā...hey,ā you say softly.
Her muttering comes to an abrupt halt and slowly she raises her head to look at you. Thereās a flash of recognition in her eyes and she grabs you violently by the shoulders. āYou! You know, donāt you? That weāre going to die?ā
If it werenāt for the fact that you have indeed experienced death here eight times already, then you would have thought sheās lost her mind. Slowly, you nod and she seems relieved by it, her grip on you loosening.
You canāt help but feel a little relieved tooā glad to know that youāre not the only one experiencing this nightmare. Thereās a voice in the back of your mind thatās confused though. Why is she only remembering now? But then again, it took you a few times before you realized yourself.
Around you people start to gasp, and you glance back toward the railway to see an abnormally tall man with white hair and dressed in all black jump down from the atrium onto the railway. He lands rather gracefully for someone who jumped at least one floor and starts to converse with the other three people (you think they're peopleā two of them are in some pretty wild costumes) on the track.
Wait. Isnāt it supposed to be just two people: the tall man and the one in the traditional clothes? Where did the other two come from?
āWe have to get out of here,ā the woman says. āBefore they kill us.ā
Her grip shifts from your shoulders to your arms and she starts to shove at everyone around you, trying to force her way through. She seems to know, just as well as you do, that any second now the gates will open and the crowd will start spilling onto the railway, littering the tracks with bodies and ash. Neither of you can let yourselves get swept up with the rest. If you do and you end up on those tracks, youāre as good as dead.
People move aside at a snail's pace, many of them too focused on trying to see what is going on on the subway tracks. This isn't good. You need to move faster or elseā
The collective sound of the gates opening echoes in your head, a metallic hiss that makes your stomach fold into itself. Before either of you can stop yourselves, you both whip your heads back to look, to confirm, but itās a mistake.
The briefest lapse in attention is enough to pull you both into the current of people, and try as you might to fight against it, the crowd splits you and the woman apart as it swallows you both whole. Youāre both spat onto the tracks at the edge of the platform and your head collides with the metal rails of the track. It feels like your skull is about to crack in two, and it takes every fiber in your being to scramble to your feet. You're close enough to the platform that if you can just climb up it, then you'll beā
āHelp! Help!ā
Itās the womanās voice. You turn to see that she ended up a couple meters away from you. Sheās staring at you, eyes brimming with fear filled tears as she extends her hand in your direction. You take a step toward her, reaching out.
And then, her entire body is engulfed in flames, the skirt of her magical girl costume a ring of fiery death around her.
Her blood curdling scream is the only thing you can hear, her burning flesh, the only thing you can see. You donāt know what to do.
You canāt save her.
There's something touching your back. You can barely feel the pressure, but it's hot, scorching hot, mind numbingly hot, painfully hothothot.
You know this sensation. You have felt it before. The scent of burning cloth, burning hair, burning flesh clogs your nostrils. It's too late, you realize, helpless, despaired as the flames eat at your bodyā your soon to be corpse.
It's too late.
You die a ninth time.
Itās October 31, 2018ā Halloween in Shibuya.
This is the tenth time.
Your head hurts, but you ignore it. Thereās something more important that you need to attend to. You immediately make your way to the woman you met during your last round, the one you watched burn to death. Her costume is still pristine, unmarred by fire and death.
For now.
Sheās not screaming this time and while thereās a little voice in the back of your mind thatās concerned by this, you try to ignore it.
āUm, excuse me?ā you say when she doesnāt acknowledge you as you approach.
The woman turns to look at you. Youāre taken aback by the distinct lack of recognition and it feels almost as if the woman you encountered previously and the one before you now are two separate people. In a way, they technically are.
āDo Iā¦ know you?ā she finally asks when you donāt say anything.
Your mouth is dry. How do you even answer that? You donāt know her. You just watched her die twice. You know her. She begged you for help. You couldnāt save her.
If you explain all of this you know sheās just going to think youāve lost your mind. Maybe you already haveā youāve died nine times after all.
You give her a weak smile. āIā¦ just wanted to tell you that you think your costume looks great.ā
She blinks, taken aback by your words. Thereās no doubt that she wasnāt expecting you to say that. Itās the truth though, her costume is nice; sheās dressed up as a character from a magical girl anime that was popular a couple years ago.
āThank you! I made it myself!ā The woman breaks out into a genuine smile and your heart hurts. In a few moments sheāll die and the costume she worked so hard to make will be nothing but ash on the subway tracks.
āSorry,ā you blurt out before you can stop yourself.
āFor?ā
For watching her die. For not being able to save her.ā...I just kind of came up to you all of a suddenā¦ā
She laughs. āItās okay.ā
Itās not.
You consider telling her that she should try to move. That if she stays here she will die. You donāt want her to die. Again. You can still hear her screaming in your ears as she burned to death. You want to tell her.
You donāt.
āStay safe, okay?ā you say. It almost sounds like youāre begging.
She gives you another smile, kind and gentle and you think youāre far too undeserving of it for not telling her what fate will soon befall her. āYou too.ā
āIāll try,ā you say and move away from the woman just as the gates open and the crowd surges toward the railway. You do not fight it as you are swept up into the crowd and despite what you said, you do not try, this time, to stay safe.
You die for the tenth time.
Itās October 31, 2018ā Halloween in Shibuya.
This is the fourteenth time.
Thereās a slight ache in your head, but itās subtle enough that you can ignore it. The pain you feel lessens with each round and you think itās a sign that your body no longer feels the need to remind you of the precarious situation that youāre in.
Or maybe you are just becoming numb to everything: your death, the death of the people around you, the death of the woman in the magical girl costumeā
You try not to think about it too much as you reach into your bag to check the time on your phone: 8:37PM. Thereās not a lot of time: you need to move.
At the very end of your last attempt to escape this nightmare you realized something. You need to know exactly what is going on around you so you can plan accordingly: where to not stand, where to not go. Up until now, youāve relied almost solely on the knowledge gained from your previous failures to try and survive, but obviously itās not enough to keep you alive. Youāre not sure why you didnāt realize this earlier. The panic, maybe? The fear?
Maybe you really are becoming numb to all this.
Unlike previous iterations, this time you elect to move closer to the gate, positioning yourself somewhere against it where youāre unlikely to be pushed off the platform in a couple minutes when they open. You take great care to place yourself where you can see the ones responsible for the slaughter very clearly. At the beginning, you could only see one, the one who looks the most human, but with each repetition, the other two have become more and more clear. You wonder why. You donāt have time to think about it.
Murmurs nearby alert you to the arrival of the fourth major player involved in the nightās events. You look up and see the white haired man dressed in all black descending upon the platform like an angel from the heavens. This is your first time really looking at him and you realize thereās something almost inhumanly attractive about him. You canāt quite put your finger on it, but it occurs to you that you shouldnāt even try; you donāt have the time to be drooling over some handsome stranger.
Youāve naturally never taken the time to try and listen to whatever the conversation the man and his opponents have before all hell breaks loose on the platform, but you try and lean closer to listen. Itās hard to hear over the dozens of conversations going on behind you, but you try anyway. There might be a clue to whatās actually going onā or better yet, a clue on how to get out of it.
Itās obvious that youāre missing context from what bits of the conversation you do manage to hear, but honestly it all sounds like stuff out of a shounen battle manga. There is one part of the exchange that you manage to hear with a startling sort of clarity. It feels almost as if your heart stops beating as your blood turns ice cold in your veins.
āIf I run away, youāre just gonna kill everyone here, right?ā the man in black asks.
Thereās a pause, and if your heart was still beating itād be long enough for just four heartbeats.
āIf you run away?ā The monster with cane repeats, the sadistic grin spreading wide across its features, displaying its charcoal black teeth. The gravelly sound of its voice sets fire to the blood in your veins, your stilled heart thumping wildly, in fear, in anticipation. Soon. Itās happening soon. You brace yourself. āWeāre going to do that even if you donāt!ā
You die a fourteenth time.
Itās October 31, 2018ā Halloween in Shibuya.
This is the seventeenth time now.
Things are going surprisingly well, even as the people around you tumble onto the tracks. You manage to hold on, desperation keeping you from falling into the abyss. This is good, you tell yourself, despite the fact that itās not the first time youāve achieved this. Every little victory is worth celebrating, but you have to remain vigilant. This is yet another information gathering loop, and while you know that maybe this time youāll be lucky and live, thereās still a chance, a big one, at that, that you will die again.
You have to make the most of each and every death.
Itās such a morbid thought, but the ends justify the means, or so you tell yourself. If you have to die a few times to make it out of this unending nightmare, then so be it.
The spot youāre in is a good vantage point; itās easier to see everything happening below you. Itās so good that itās actually sickening. You watch as the monster with the cane and one with what looks like branches for eyes slaughter the people on the track, mowing them down, setting them aflame. In another life, in another many lives, that was you down there, and for what feels like the first time in forever, you feel like youāre going to be sick. You feel like, at some point, you likened the scene before you to some kind of shounen battle manga, but you think that was wrong.
This is borderline horror.
Everything plays out before you like a scene out of an action horror flick. If you didnāt know better, youād think you were just an extra on set, but you know the reality is that youāre just an extra to whatever phantasmal battle is taking place in front of you. The monsters and the strangely dressed man all try to attack the man in black, but he manages to block every hit effortlessly, as if he is protected by some sort of invisible barrier. When it seems the two monsters are about to hit him, he merely jumps out of the way and the two monsters seem to collide, the force of their combined strength sending a gust of air throughout the crowd. The man in black neatly lands on a nearby platform half wall and says something about curse users, whatever those are, to the monsters, before he starts to mock them, pulling down his strange blindfold in the process.
And this, youāve found, is where you start to get in trouble.
You clearly remember thinking, at some point, previously, that there was something attractive about this man. You still donāt know what it is. You havenāt had the time to try and figure it out, but there is one thing that you do know: you canāt keep your eyes off of him.
He drops back down onto the tracks, antagonizing his opponents in an arrogant tone as he approaches. When he comes to a stop between the two monsters, the second round of their fight begins. They try to hit him, but he dodges still, gracefully, fluidly, like the three of them are embroiled in some sort of passionate, yet violent dance.
You cannot turn your eyes away as he cruelly rips off one of the arms of the one-eyed monster.
You cannot turn your eyes away as he brutally kicks the branch-eyed monster in the abdomen, sending them flying to the other side of the platform.
You cannot turn your eyes away as he effortlessly hurls the one-eyed, now one-armed monster in the same direction, sending them smashing into the wall.
Only when the man in black seems to fly to the other side is the spell over you seemingly broken. Still, your eyes give chase, and your body too, rushing from one side of the platform to the other. You canāt lose sight of this fight, you tell yourself, settling in a spot you recall being safe during your last round. Doing so could mean another death, another loop, another October 31.
You watch as the man in black acrobatically dodges what looks to be vines or roots that the monster with branches for eyes seems to have summoned from the depths of the Tokyo metro. He lands on the monsterās shoulders, balancing on them as he uses its branch-eyes for leverage. The look in the manās eyes is so crazed that you can see it from where youāre standing. He says something to it and thenā
With a feral and sadistic smile, he rips their eyes straight out of their skull.
Your heart is pounding wildly in your chest as you watch the fight unfold. It is horrifyingly, disgustingly violent, yet still you watch as people on the track are killed by the human-like person, blood raining down as their freshly beheaded skulls go flying into the air. He and the one-eyed monster launch their counter attacks against the man in black and the blowback is so intense the power goes out causing everyone to scream.
Thereās a faint glow where the man in black is standing that starts to grow brighter and brighter. You can make out his form turning to face the wall, and it seems almost like heās slammed the monster that had branches for eyes against it with some sort of telekinetic power. Despite the panic from the people around you, you manage to hear him, chuckling like a mad man as he draws closer and closer to the monster.
The one-eyed monster yells out a name, a name you think must belong to the man, but he doesnāt hear it. He doesnāt hear the one-eyed monster as he extends his hands out toward the eyeless monster, exerting some kind of force that you canāt really see. He doesnāt hear the one-eyed monster as the eyeless monsterās entire body is vaporized in a flash of blue light. He doesnāt hear the one-eyed monster, as the lights flicker back on revealing a smoking crater stained with purple blood where the eyeless monster once stood.
But you do.
Satoru Gojo.
You make sure to remember that.
Itās October 31, 2018ā Halloween in Shibuya.
And this is the eighteenth time.
You watch as the man called Satoru Gojo stalks through the crowd of people on the subway tracks, chasing after the one-eyed fire monster. It throws people at him, in a clear attempt to slow him down.
It does not work.
Satoru Gojo climbs back onto the platform in a way that you can only describe as inhuman, and the people nearby shriek and move away from him, out of terror, out of fear. You, on the other hand, draw closer, refusing to lose sight of him.
He is relentless in his pursuit of the one-eyed monster. It continues to throw person after person at him, but he does not stop and the people float there, suspended in midair before they are gently lowered to the ground by some unseen force and scramble away.
No one dares get close to Satoru Gojo, everyone on the platform seems to know that doing so means certain death, yourself included. But you still feel the need to keep an eye on him. The monster and the strangely dressed man are focusing more on him than the crowdā anyone in between is just collateral damage.
But not you.
Especially since youāve made it this farā youāve never made it this far before.
A voice echoes throughout the platform; you realize itās the automated announcement.
An eight car train is pulling in. Please wait behind the yellow line.
You can hear everyoneās relief coming from all sides. The train is coming! The train is coming! A ripple of hope makes its way throughout the crowd. With the train comes the chance to get off the platform and the senseless violence thatās been happening here. Some of the people around you are talking excitedly and others are running toward the gates, toeing the yellow line theyāve been instructed to wait behind. And you, you should be excited, you should be hopeful.
All you feel is dread.
It eats at your stomach, at your chest, at your mind. Clawing and gnawing at you in a way that leaves you paralyzed on the platform. Thereās something wrong here. You canāt be sure because youāve never made it this far, never survived long enough for the train to come, but something is just not right.
No.
You must be paranoid. The train coming is a good thing. It has to be a good thing. You are just paranoid. Itās normal. Itās natural. Dying seventeen times would do that to anyoneā rob them of hope, condemn them to an existence full of fear.
It is not lost on you that the thought of dying more than once, much less, dying seventeen times is not normal or natural in the very slightest.
But you need hope, you crave it, wildly, desperately. The hope of freedom, of escape is the only thing getting you through this unending nightmare. Every time you die, every time you wake, it is with the hope that maybe, just maybe this iteration will be different, maybe this one will be the one where you make it out, make it back to your friends who must be waiting for you, make it back home where you can be safe and sound. You need the hope to keep going. Because without hope, what will you have left?
The train screeches as it pulls into the station and the people around you laugh in both disbelief and relief. They start to push and shove toward it, fighting to be able to board because thereās no way everyone here will be able to get on an eight car train and being left behind at this point is practically synonymous with death. Unable to decide if you believe in the train as a symbol of hope or a new layer of fear, you are pushed along with the crowd toward it.
The doors of the train cars slide open and the current passengers all rush off as they disembark. You as well as everyone else on the platform can see with a horrifying clarity that the train is filled to the brim with monsters. Monsters that reach out and grab anyone their hands can reach. The woman to your left. The person to your right.
You.
Hope is gone.
What do you have left?
You die for the eighteenth time.
Itās October 31, 2018ā Halloween in Shibuya.
This is probably the twenty-sixth time now.
If there is anything this entire ordeal has taught you, it is that you are resilient. Whether it is some innate trait that you never had any reason to uncover before or just a byproduct of being trapped in an unending cycle of being dead and not dead, you don't know. What you do know, though, is that even if you no longer have hope, you at least have your resilience.
Whether you want it or not.
You check the time. Itās 8:35PM. Something flickers in your chest, like a faint light in a sea of darkness, but you ignore it. You donāt have time right now.
With a nimbleness born from your previous failures, you weave your way through the crowd. Youāve done this enough times to know where the gaps areā who will yield and who wonāt. Your destination is the escalator that leads off the platform and up to a higher part of the station. Youād noticed previously that the escalator along with every other entrance onto the platform will eventually be blocked by vines or roots of some sort (the work of the branch-eyed monster probably). Itās not a perfect plan because you donāt know what happens on the other side, but whatever it is has to be better than whatever is happening on the side that youāve been on.
Youād tried to get to the stairs during your last two rounds, but youād just missed it. You hadnāt been fast enough and had gotten caged and slaughtered along with the rest. But this time, this time you have more time. Itās just one minute, but itās enough. You know it is.
The flickering in your heart grows stronger. Hope. You try not to pay attention to itā you donāt want to be disappointed yet again. But you want to so badly. A voice in the back of your mind tells you to focus on the good, tells you that if there was truly no way out of this endless nightmare, then why would you get more and more time with each round to escape your fate?
With that thought in mind, you break out into a run, recklessly rushing through the crowd, shoving anyone who will not yield to the side. Out of the corner of your eye you can see the stark white of Satoru Gojoās hair as he descends upon the platform.
You need to get up those stairs.
Now.
If you remember correctly, the roots and vines donāt close off the area the moment he touches down, but a little after they start talking, so you think there is probably some time, but you canāt leave it to chance.
The stairs are packed, and for some reason no one is moving. The escalator right next to it is just as full and the power doesnāt seem to be working. You donāt have time for this. You clamber onto the escalatorās rubber handrail, ignoring the weird feeling that passes through your body as you do so. You donāt have the time to worry about whatever that is. The people around you start exclaiming around you, but you donāt care, you donāt listen. You wobble as you try to balance yourself and when you think youāre steady you try to run.
But you trip.
And you die for the twenty-sixth time.
Itās October 31, 2018ā Halloween in Shibuya.
This marks the thirtieth time.
And you have, finally, finally made it up the escalator, up the stairs with barely a second to spare. You pause, glancing back as the roots or vines or whatever the hell they are seal off the entrance to the platform. You notice that the area where the plants come down is actually fairly clear, despite the crowd. It seems weird, but you donāt dwell on it.
A strange feeling envelops your entire body and your legs turn into jelly. As you sink to the floor, you realize what youāre feeling is relief as all the tension, maybe thirty iterations of Halloween 2018 worth, seeps from your being. You don't remember the last time you felt anything other than fear and dread; itās weird, but not unwelcome.
That voice in the back of your mind tells you that you can't relax just yet: October 31st isnāt over. Even though you have repeated this night again and again, burning the events that play out on the platform into your memory, you do not know a single thing that happens over here. It would be smart to scope everything out.
Legs still shaky, you rise to your feet and start walking. You think itās probably for the best to try and head up to the surface and you make your way up to the next floor.
Itās packed with people here too, but relatively peaceful, especially when you compare it to the pandemonium taking place beneath your feet. Still, you can make out the undeniable hum of displeasure resonating throughout the crowd. People complaining about how uncomfortable their costumes are, people complaining about how much they want to go home, people complaining about how much their nights have been ruined because they couldnāt meet up with their friends andā
A thought hits you like an eight car train.
You were supposed to meet up with your friends.
Thatās why you were on the platform in the first placeā you were waiting for them to arrive, but then the trains stopped working, and people just started pouring into the station out of seemingly nowhere (you think you heard some people say theyād come from the crossing?). Soon after that is when everything went to shit.
You check your phone, though, for once itās not to look at the time (8:56PM). Instead, you open LINE to check your friendsā group chat. Thereās no signal here, for whatever reason, so if there are any new messages, you havenāt received them. The last one was from Kei, mentioning he was enroute, but as far as you know, youāre the only one who made it to Shibuya before the trains stopped.
Did one of them maybe make it here though? Surely, you would have run into them ifā
The image of a woman in a magical girl costume fills your vision, burning to death before your very eyes as her screams echo in your ears. It is the first time in what feels like forever that youāve thought about her and your stomach churns violently. You couldnāt help her, you canāt even help yourself, so how could you even expect to do the same for your friends if they were here? The mere thought of having to watch them die over and over is almost enough to send you over the edge. You donāt know if you could do it.
Would you even have a choice?
No. You can't think like that. You have choices. You've had choices. If you didnāt then, you would still be down below, among the fire and brimstone. Dying, if not dead already. However, instead, you are up here, where, for the moment, it is quiet and peaceful.
That thought, in of itself, is enough to give you a shred of solace, a glimmer of hope.
You take a deep breath and fiddle with your phone a little more, changing your lock screen to a picture you and your friends took at a photo booth not too long ago. The four of you are huddled together, faces squished as if you're all struggling to fit in the frame, despite there being plenty of room. You're mid-laugh because it's the first time you've been in a photo booth in years, Mio and Shin are grinning mischievously and finally, Kei is smiling, but only just slightly, the embarrassment clear on his face. It's probably only been a few months since you all took this picture, but the fact that it feels like it's been years makes your heart ache.
You press your forehead to the screen, like a prayer, like a promise.
You will make it out of this nightmare.
No matter what.
A shrill scream yanks you from your thoughts and you are instantly on your feet, alert as your eyes flit around frantically to identify the source. It doesn't take long for you to find it and when you do, you think you might have stumbled upon a new layer of horror to this nightmare.
Itās not the corpse, dangling by a noose, that terrifies youā by now youāve seen dozens upon dozens of dead bodies that the sight of just one more doesnāt faze you in the slightest. The thing thatās the most mortifying, thatās the most disturbing is that right next to where the body is tied are two girls, two teenage girls still dressed in their school uniforms.
You can accept monsters and weirdly dressed men being responsible for the carnage tonight, but children too? Both girls look like theyāre barely in high school and try as you might to rationalize things, to chalk it up to coincidence, you cannot ignore the ominous energy radiating from them.
The very notion that these two children could have killed someone here is a hard pill to swallow, but so is the fact that youāve died.
And youāve had to swallow that pill thirty times now, so whatās once more?
āListen up!ā one of the girls yells over the crowd, but she is mostly ignored; you donāt think everyone here has noticed her and the corpse dangling from the rafters. She scowls and turns to the other girl and says something quietly to her. The other girl nods and almost instantly sheās stringing up another person, another example. You want to look away so badly, and yet you cannot bring yourself to and you watch the poor soul choke to death.
āI said listen, you dumb monkeys!ā the girl shouts, and this time sheās caught most of the crowdās attention. āIf you donāt want to end up like these two, youāll listen to what we have to say!ā
There is clear dissent among the crowd, people dismissive as they utter their disbelief. Some seem to think itās a prank, but you know better. It takes two more examples before the crowd goes silent before the two high schoolers.
āAbout damn time!ā The girl roars and then points toward the atrium, which is currently covered by roots and branches. āAll of you move over there!ā
You have a bad feeling about this.
Still, you comply; the girls have made it abundantly clear that failure to do so will result in death, though, at this point, you're almost certain this iteration is a bust and death is all but imminent. You try to keep positiveā thinking you can at least gather information or, who knows, maybe there's a chance that this one is the one.
Yet when you step onto the mound of vines and branches that cover the atrium it feels as if you've crossed the threshold into hell. Your footing is stableā¦ but for how long?
An eight car train is pulling in. Please wait behind the yellow line.
It's faint, but you can hear the announcement from below. The liquid in your stomach curdles at the sound as you recall the train and, in particular, what is on board. Soon enough, those monsters will be swarming the platform, massacring everyone in reach, guzzling down their blood, feasting on their fleshā
It dawns on you that the people on the platform are the monsters' first course.
And you, and those around you here in the shrubbery, are the second.
As you realize this, the branches and vines disintegrate beneath your very feet and suddenly you are mid airā falling, falling into the abyss below.
You die for the thirtieth time.
Itās October 31, 2018ā Halloween in Shibuya.
You've done this nearly sixty times now.
After countless failures, you've decided that you're just not going to go upstairs any more. No matter where you try to go, you still end up herded onto the death trap above the platform where you ultimately fall to your death. You've tried positioning yourself in the same spot, tried bracing yourself for the dropā but nothing seems to work: upon landing, assuming you manage to land without hurting yourself or dying in midair (which has happened a couple times) you get grabbed and killed by one of the monsters from the train. It's probably not impossible, you just don't have the physical prowess or reflexes for it.
If anything, you can try again later, but you sincerely hope you don't have to.
It's 8:32PM, and you have plenty of time to get to your chosen spot for this loopā it's close to the stairs, in the very center of the platform. Here, there's little risk of getting pushed off onto the tracks when the gates open. You'll probably have to move when the train comes, or even before (assuming you survive) to avoid the monsters, but you'll get to that when it's time.
You can't really see the fight once it breaks out after Satoru Gojo arrives, but you still try to keep track of it as best as you can. You see when he hurls both monsters across the platform and you're not sure if it's muscle memory or what but you have to fight the urge to move to the side and watch. It's been a while, yes, but you've seen the fight countless times beforeā it doesn't change. Satoru Gojo will give chase. He will rip the branches from the branch eyed monster's skull. He will use some kind of power to eviscerate them.
You don't need to watch, but there's something in you that wants to.
It doesn't make sense, you've seen it all before; if you're unlucky you'll see it all again.
The lights go out and people start screaming; Satoru Gojo is ending the life of that one monster. Soon enough he'll be back on the platform, in pursuit of the other. You think at that point it would be good to move, reposition yourself as far from the incoming train as possible.
When he rises from the tracks like a demon straight from hell, you realize it's the first time this loop that you've actually gotten a good look at him. You remind yourself, again, that this isn't the first time you've seen this man, this scene. You can't help but watch, but stare at Satoru Gojo as he stalks through the crowd in pursuit of his prey. His expression is an eerie sort of calm that's at odds with the acts of violence you've seen him commitā his eyes an unnaturally bright blue.
He's a terrifying sort of beauty and you can't help but be captivated by him.
An eight car train is pulling in. Please wait behind the yellow line.
The sound of the announcement sends your heartbeat into a frenzy, snapping you out of your little trance. The train is coming and you need to get moving. As you dart to the edge of the platform, the thought occurs to you that even if you avoid the initial wave of monsters, it's likely you will inevitably be caught by them and killed. It wouldn't be impossible for Satoru Gojo to turn his attention to them instead of the two he's currently facing, but he's just one manā can he truly defeat all those monsters?
You can see the train pulling in and you brace yourself, praying that it'll work out somehow.
The doors hiss open and the screaming starts again as the monsters come bursting out of the train, biting and mauling anyone they can get their hands on. Those who were lucky enough to not be at the front start to scramble away and the monsters give chase. Your body is taut, ready to try and dodge any that come your way.
Out of the corner of your eye you notice something moving through the air. A person? With blue hair? You take the risk to lookā they're attacking Satoru Gojo. He tries to punch them but they fly away from him to dodgeā disappearing into the crowd.
You hear a loud cracking sound over the cacophony of the crowd and your stomach twists; you know what that sound is. The roots above the atrium disintegrate and bodies from above start to rain down onto the platform.
And then, you're not sure what happensā it's so quick that you only manage to see what looks like an explosion of blood surrounding Satoru Gojo. Corpses litter the ground around him and even from here you can tell he is shaken by the carnage.
The monsters have finally reached where you're standing, and you duck under one as it lunges at you. Although it's big and scary, you realize it's moving kind of slow. Right after it another one comes at you and you take a side step to avoid it; this monster is kind of slow too.
Maybe you can do this.
As soon as you think that a strange feeling courses through you. Every hair on your body feels like it's standing on edge and the voice in your head is telling you to look at Satoru Gojo. You don't understand why because you think he's the least of your worries right now, but you do it anyway.
He's in some sort of stance, one hand raised to his face, fingers bent in some kind of gesture. There's some sort of aura, oppressive and frightening emanating from his form.
Satoru Gojo is doing something.
You just can't tell what.
Itās October 31, 2018ā Halloween in Shibuya.
And you are utterly confused.
Barring your first few loops when you weren't fully aware of what was happening, you have very distinct memories of how each of your previous iterations of this night have goneā of each and every one of your deaths. But for your last round, the last thing you remember was feeling the immense power radiating from Satoru Gojo's body, but that's it.
You do not remember dying.
In fact, you don't think you did.
And yet, here you are again, back at the start: it's 8:32PM and the monsters and strangely dressed man are standing on the subway tracks waiting for the arrival of Satoru Gojo.
You don't understand what's going on; you didn't die but you're still stuck in this damn loop. Up until now, your death has served as the trigger to restart the loop. It's not impossible that maybe you suffered a quick and painless death but you're almost certain that isn't the case.
Something else must have happened.
Something having to do with Satoru Gojo.
You have to find out what. If you don't, you won't know how to avoid it, and if you can't do that, then you really might spend an eternity stuck in this nightmare. And so you take great care to repeat the steps of your last round. You need to make sure to survive to the same point you made it to last time.
Miraculously, you do.
The moment you feel that sensation again, a prickling sort of feeling that envelops your entire body, your eyes are on Satoru Gojoā trying to figure out what the hell he's doing. His eyes are crazed with a desperate kind of focus. You see his mouth moveā he's saying something. A spell? A prayer? A curse?
You don't know.
You do know.
Your brain feels like it's going to explode.
Again.
Itās October 31, 2018ā Halloween in Shibuya.
Again.
You do not know how many times it's been the night of Halloween in Shibuya: you stopped counting around the hundredth loop. It feels like it's been a while since then. Or maybe it hasn't? You don't know any more.
What you do know is that this night ends up going one of two ways before you are forced to repeat it. Either you die, in some way, shape or form or something happens just after nine that forces you to reset. You still don't know what it is exactly; you only know that Satoru Gojo is responsible for it.
You do prefer it to dyingā it's far less painful.
But if anything, you wish you could just die permanently and never have to repeat this night ever again.
Unfortunately, you know better.
The only good thing youāve noticed about all of this is that you really do seem to keep waking up earlier and earlier. The last time you checked, it was at around 8:30. It might take hundreds of thousands of loops, but eventually youāll certainly wake up early enough to avoid this damn entire mess.
But by the time that happensā¦ will your sanity still be intact? Will you really be able to go back to a normal day to day life after living the equivalent of hundreds of years, repeating the same night over and over again? You donāt even know how youāve managed to stay sane all this time and as much as you want to believe you could do itā¦
There has to be a breaking point.
For both your mind and this time loop.
If youāre lucky, youāll reach the latter first.
Thereās a dull ache in your head that feels foreign yet familiar. Your mind is foggy, all your thoughts hazy as you try to recall what the word for this feeling is.
Groggy.
It feels as if youāve woken up from a nap and you blink the sleepiness away from your eyes. When was the last time you took a nap? Itās been a whileā¦ You think you maybe tried once or twice, but you were too nervous, too on edge. Awake or asleep, it didnāt matter because, either way, you were doomed to repeat this nightmare.
As you think this, you realize that something is different.
Youāre used to how the start of each loop feels like waking up suddenly and abruptly and it becomes clear to you that you havenāt looped. This is completely uncharted territory.
You need to find out whatās going on.
The first thing you notice is that itās quiet. Almost eerily so, especially when the last thing you remember was screaming and chaos. You glance around you and find that it looks like all the monsters from the train are dead, the ground littered in their bloodstains and corpses. There were so many of them, you donāt know how someone could have wiped them out so quicklyā¦ Could it possibly have been Satoru Gojoās doing?
More concerning than the complete eradication of the monsters is the fact that nearly everyone else on the platform is standing stock still, their mouths ajar with blank expressions on their faces. Itās almost as if their souls have completely vacated their bodiesā¦
Were you like that too before you woke up?
You hear voices, and your body immediately goes tense as you turn your head in their direction. A little ways ahead of you, you see a man dressed as a monk conversing with the blue haired person from earlier and before them isā
Your heart nearly stops: itās Satoru Gojo, restrained and on his knees.
Honestly, you canāt make heads or tails of the conversation theyāre having; itās more shounen battle manga nonsense. Satoru Gojo doesnāt seem to be enjoying their conversation either, and he interrupts them, clearly annoyed.
āAre we gonna do this or what?ā he asks. āThe view sucks and Iām just kinda bored.ā
āI wanted to enjoy this sight for a little bit longer, but you are right,ā the monk says. āI wouldnāt want anything to happenā gate, close.ā
When he says that, Satoru Gojoās restraints move, the weirdly shaped cubes at the ends of them closing in around him, trapping him in a giant red cube. It starts to shrink until itās small enough to fit in the monkās hand.
You gulp and hope they donāt notice that youāre awake. The fact that they havenāt slaughtered the rest of the people standing around you is a good sign, but you donāt want to find out what happens if they know youāre cognizant.
Itās not hard to play the part of a living statue, especially when you compare it to everything else youāve had to suffer through on this night. You watch as the monkās allies, the ones who had attacked everyone on the platform, wake up, but before they can do or say anything, the box holding Satoru Gojo slips through the monkās fingers and makes a dent in the concrete. The look on the monkās face makes it clear that itās a problem he wasnāt expecting.
You donāt know a damn thing about Satoru Gojo, but you feel like this kind of thing is the norm for him.
The blue haired person suddenly looks in your direction and you nearly stop breathing. Have they noticed you? It takes everything in you to keep perfectly still, in hopes that maybe they didn't, that maybe theyāre looking at something else. They raise their arm and it extends, their hand acting like some kind of projectile. You almost shut your eyes and brace yourself for impact, but their hand flies upwards and hits something on the ceiling, destroying it.
Inwardly, you breathe a sigh of reliefā youāre still safe.
For now.
You listen to their following conversation and while you still donāt fully understand everything, itās clear theyāre talking about what to do next since theyāve taken care of Satoru Gojo. Something having to do with someone named Yuji Itadori? The group seems split on what to do about him but itās clear heās their next target.
Eventually, everyone but the monk (you heard the blue haired person, who is apparently named Mahito, call him Geto?) runs off, probably to find this Yuji Itadori person. Once theyāre gone, Geto speaks and, at first, you think heās talking to you, but it becomes clear heās addressing someone else. āThose cursed spirits are actually smarter than the two of you.ā
āGive him back!ā a voice hidden among the crowd hisses. Your blood runs cold at the sound. You recognize it; itās one of the high school girls from the upper floor.
āWe cooperated with you fully and kept dropping monkeys for you,ā says another voice; it must be the other girl that was with her, the one who hung all those people.
āNow give us back Master Getoās body like you promised!ā
āDonāt toy with Master Geto any further than you have!ā
You blink in confusion. Isnāt the monk named Geto? The way the girls are talking it sounds like theyāre talking about someone elseā¦ Is it possible that the body is āGetoā but the person theyāre talking to is someone else possessing it? It sounds kind of crazy, but then again, so is every single thing youāve experienced tonight.
Your suspicions concerning this āGetoā are confirmed only seconds later as he says, āNow begone, or is it your desire to be killed by this body?ā
One of the girls vows her revenge and you hear shuffling somewhere else in the crowd as they scurry away. Now you think itās just you and whoever it is thatās puppeting Getoās body. You see him plop down in front of the box (the prison realm, you think heād called it) thatās holding Satoru Gojo.
āYou can come out, you know,ā he says after a while.
You freeze. The rest of the platform is completely silent. This time you think he might actually be talking to you.
āI know youāre there,ā āGetoā adds, his voice casual. āIf youāre insistent on hiding, you should know that Iām not afraid of using whatever means necessary to smoke you out.ā
Given everything his allies have done, thereās no doubt in your mind that heās serious. You were hoping to hide out among the crowd until he decided to leave, but it looks like you wonāt be able to now.
Looks like this loop is a bust after all.
Your heart starts to race as you weave your way through the crowd. In every single one of your loops, you were always treated like a bit character, never noticed or singled out by any of the major players of the night. Although this is your first time encountering this āGetoā itās clear to you that heās involved with everything thatās happened here and honestly, you get the feeling he might actually be the mastermind behind the massacre.
That makes you even more nervous.
You come to a stop in the place where Satoru Gojo was once kneeling before he was put in that box. Now that youāre out in the open, āGetoā looks you over with some sort of nonchalant curiosity.
āYouāreā¦ā he starts, sounding thoughtful, "not a sorcerer, are you?ā
Sorcerer. You heard that term thrown around by him and his group a few times. Itās what theyāve been referring to their enemies as. It probably wouldnāt be smart to lie and say you are one; you get the feeling heād see through your lie anyway. āIām not.ā
He hums. āHow interesting.ā
ā...what do you mean?ā you ask before you can help yourself.
āItās just you have an abnormally large amount of cursed energy for a non-sorcerer,ā he explains. āThough, I suppose that all just sounds like gibberish to you."
You nod and look down at the box lodged in the floor. It has eyes, big creepy looking eyes. "...are you going to do the same thing to me as you did to that man?"
He laughs, "...fortunately for you, the prison realm only holds one person at a time and I need him sealed away more than you."
"...does that mean you're going to leave him in there forever?"
"If I'm feeling nice, I might unseal him in a hundred years or so."
One hundred years? At this point, you've probably lived roughly that amount of time through your loops alone, but for Satoru Gojoā¦ "Won't he die first?"
"Only if he decides to," 'Geto' says, looking completely and wholly unbothered. "Time doesn't doesn't flow in the box, so when I unseal him, he'll be the same as he was just now. Physically anyway. Who knows how deteriorated his mind will be after all that."
Time doesn't flow in the box.
The words echo in your mind over and over. Time doesn't flow in the box. In other words, that means time has stopped in the box, and if that's the case thenā
"Anyway, rather than worry about him, shouldn't you be more worried about yourself?"
You look at 'Geto' and he's smiling at you, it's friendly, but ominous. There's no doubt what is going to happen next, though you had already resigned yourself to this iteration being a bust; it was only a matter of time.
Time doesn't flow in the box.
"I was thinking I might keep you around, even if you arenāt a sorcerer, your wealth of cursed energy would serve my plans well," he muses. "Butā¦ it would be too much trouble trying to teach you how to use it in time."
As he talks, you realize this is probably the first time your death is intentionalā every other death you've suffered has just been a byproduct of the ongoing slaughter. You were just another casualty, a victim, never a target.
You're scared.
Even though you know that once he kills you, once you die, you'll just loop back to around 8:30 again. You'll be on the platform again. And you'll play out some sequence of events before you eventually die again. And again and again.
Time doesn't flow in the box.
"I'll be nice, though," 'Geto' says, raising a hand and another monster appears out of nowhere. You donāt even bother trying to figure out from where. It doesnāt matter, especially since this monster will surely be the one to end your life. "I'll make it painless."
"...I appreciate it," you say and close your eyes hoping that he's not lying about it.
Time doesn't flow in the box.
He didn't lie.
You die again.
Itās October 31, 2018ā Halloween in Shibuya.
And you're trapped.
You don't know how and you don't know why, but you are stuck in a time loopā forced to suffer through the horrific events of the night before you die and begin it all again. It's been a long time since you stopped counting how many loops you've gone through, but if you had to guess, it's probably somewhere in the hundreds now.
You are so very tired.
But it doesn't stop. It won't stop no matter what you seem to do. You are stuck. You are trapped. You are doomed.
āTime doesn't flow in the box.ā
Ever since that first loop where you heard whoever is possessing Geto's body say that, the words have been stuck in your head, playing on loop.
You finally realize why.
āTime doesn't flow in the box.ā
It's 8:25PM when you wake up; that should be plenty of time.
You need to find Satoru Gojo.
After hundreds of loops you've come to a singular conclusion: you need to prevent him being sealed in the prison realm. You've witnessed it enough to know that you won't be able to do it alone; you'll need his cooperation.
You rush upstairs as fast as you can, ignoring the shiver that runs down your spine as you step onto the stairwell. According to your previous loops, Satoru Gojo arrives on the subway tracks at 8:40PM. With how crowded the upper floor is, you donāt know if youāll have the time to intercept him and talk to him, but if you can at least figure out where to find him, then you can try and talk to him during a subsequent loop.
When you reach the fourth basement floor, however, you donāt know where you should even start. Heās pretty tall so you think you could spot him in the crowd, butā¦ there are still so many people. It occurs to you that maybe it would be better to try and look from a higher vantage point so you head to the stairs that lead up to the third basement floor. You check your phone again. Itās 8:35PM; you need to hurry.
Luckily for you, you find him very easily on the third basement floor.
The only problem is that heās in a hard to reach spotā squatting above a sign hanging over the crowd.
You check your phone again. Itās 8:38PM and heās starting to move, presumably to meet with those waiting for him on the subway tracks. Itās good that you found him, but thereās no doubt about it.
Youāre going to need more time.
The moment you wake up, you immediately bolt toward the stairs. It's taken many, many more loops, but you've finally brought the time you wake down to around 8:15. You're still not sure if it's enough time, but there's only one way to find out.
You barrel your way up to the next floor and zig zag through the crowd to get to the next flight of stairs. By the time you get to your destination, you're completely out of breath, your chest heaving as your lungs clamor for air. Youāve done this so many times, yet your body acts like itās always the first. It sucks, but thereās nothing you can do about it. You slow to a brisk pace to catch your breath and check the time. Itās 8:27ā a new record. Hopefully itāll be enough.
The goal is to catch Satoru Gojo before he moves to his lookout point above the crowd. While not impossible, it would be difficult for you to follow him there. You eye the safety barricade that blocks off the area where heāll be moving in just a few minutes warily.
Yes, getting over there would be extremely difficult.
You donāt want to think about it right now; youāll deal with it when the time comes.
Especially since Satoru Gojo has now entered your field of vision.
Your heart starts to race at the sight of him and it feels like itās beating a million times a second. There isnāt a lot of time. You need to talk to him, but your legs only wobble, your feet planted firmly to the ground. This is not good. You need to move. You need to move.
Finally, after what feels like both an instant and an eternity, your feet finally budge, propelling you in Satoru Gojoās direction. The beating of your heart only grows louder as you make your way toward him, mingling with the single thought thatās echoing throughout your mind right now: will he even hear you out?
You need to make him.
āExcuse me!ā The words nearly come out in a stutter as you realize that you are actually talking to Satoru Gojo. You have watched this man at a distance for so long that it almost felt like he wasnāt real, like he was just another fixture in this nightmare that youāve been living for far too long. And yet, here he is, right in front of you, in the flesh.
And his attention is on you.
All sound stops: the crowd around you, the thoughts in your head, the beat of your heart. Even though you cannot see them through that blindfold of his, you know that Satoru Gojoās eyes are on you and the thought of that, the knowledge of it is actually a little overwhelming. Your mouth is dry and suddenly you donāt know what to say, but you need to say something. You need to say something before he thinks maybe you bumped into him by accident and just walks away without a word.
āI need to talk to you!ā The words just burst out from your mouth and something about it is just absolutely embarrassing. Youāre not sure if it's desperation or the fact that you havenāt really talked to anyone other than the existence occupying Suguru Getoās body in nearly forever.
Satoru Gojoās lips slowly start to form a smile, āOh, yeah?ā
The sound of his voice makes your mind go blank. Thereās something different about it right now; more playful, amused even. Maybe itās because heās talking to you, a harmless human being and not a monster trying to kill him. Itās almost kind of jarring, but you know, with certainty, what Satoru Gojoās voice sounds like. And the fact that heās actually talking to you right now has you kind of excited. You nod, doing your best to not show how thrilled you are that heās not ignoring you.
He hums thoughtfully, āSorryā¦ but unfortunately I kind of have some business to attend to right now.ā
āIāā You start to say that you know that heās headed down to the platform below to fight withā¦Choso and Jogo, you think their names areā you donāt know the name of the monster with the branches for eyes. āItāsā itās really important!ā
Gojo tilts his head a little, clearly thinking. You should probably say something else, something to try and convince him to stay a little longer and hear you out, but your mind is both full and blank. Where do you start? From the beginning? Or do you start with what is most important? Maybe you should say what you think will get his attention. Youāre not sure, and you realize you really should have thought about this earlier because youāre running out of time right now.
ā...mind handing me your phone?ā
You stare at Gojo, completely and wholly confused, but he just holds out his hand expectantly. When you donāt move, he wiggles his fingers a little, a silent gesture telling you to hurry it up. Without thinking, you reach into your bag and unlock your phone before handing it to him.
āKind of sucks that cell service isnāt working right now,ā he remarks as he types something into your phone before handing it back. āBut! Here's my number.ā
You look down at your phone and, sure enough, Satoru Gojo has added himself as one of your contacts. Heās even added a little star to the end of his name. Thatāsā¦ a little unexpected. Why his number though?
āAre youā¦ hitting on me?ā you mutter in your confusion.
He laughs, āWell, you said you had something really important to talk to me about, right? So just give me a call when you get home or some time tomorrow and we can talk then!ā
Youāre not going to make it home, or even to tomorrow, and neither will Satoru Gojo. As you start to tell him this, he steps past you. Desperate, you try to grab him, but somehow, for some reason, you canāt. You remember he did this with Jogo and the other monster, made himself untouchable.
This is not good.
He gives you a little wave, cheery as he says, āIāll talk to you later!ā
You watch, helpless as he hops over the barricade beyond your reach.
Gripping your phone tightly, you take a deep breath. It's fine, it's not like you didnāt expect things to go well anyway.
You'll just have to try again.
Every time youāve tried to solicit help from Satoru Gojo, it has gone the same way. He just wonāt give you the time of day, and in some ways you canāt blame him; heās clearly here to deal with the monsters down on the platform. Youāre fairly certain that he probably thinks that whatever is going on with you is a much lesser issue in comparison.
Plus, it probably doesnāt help that in the times that youāve approached him, you havenāt been able to articulate yourself particularly well. Once you start talking to him, you just get hit with something akin to stage fright and the connection between your mind and your mouth just stops working. Itās gotten better with each attempt, butā¦
Itās just so frustrating.
It is interesting that Gojo has given you his number every time, star symbol and all. Youāre not sure what kind of person you were expecting him to be, but after witnessing him literally and viciously rip monsters apart, youād figured heād be a little more somber. However, in the fragmented conversations youāve had with him heās come off as far more friendly and playful than you would have thought. Is he the type of person to get more serious when the situation calls for it? You canāt help but wonder, but ultimately, it doesnāt really matter.
What really matters is that youāre able to convince him to help you.
You have to convince him.
āExcuse me!ā you say, stepping in Satoru Gojoās path. You donāt stutter this time, and your voice is more sure. This is good.
āYes?ā
His head turns in your direction and you gulp. Gojoās gaze, despite that blindfold of his, still feels just as overwhelming as it did the very first time you approached him. You have no doubt that heās sizing you up, but thereās just something about it that makes you feel like youāre being picked apart.
You take a deep breath and step closer to him, hoping your voice sounds firm enough as you say, āI need your help. Iām trapped.ā
He chuckles a little, āI know, but yours truly is on his way to go beat up the bad guys keeping you all trapped here, so soon enough youāll be all free to go on your merry little way.ā
Right. You were so caught up in your own plight that you nearly forgot that technically youāre not the only one ātrapped.ā Satoru Gojo obviously knows that everyone else is confined to this station, but you doubt he knows that youāre confined to this night alone.
āThatās not what I mean!ā you sputter.
āThen what do you mean?ā Gojo asks. Should you tell him that you mean that youāre trapped in a time loop? Youāre honestly not sureā in the movies and manga youāve read about time travel, revealing that sort of thing risks creating a time paradox which seems to be a bad thing. If you have to tell him, you will, butā āOh, I get it.ā
You stare, bewildered. Did you maybe just spew all of that aloud?
Gojo gives you a mischievous smile. āYouāre hitting on me, arenāt you?ā
āNo!ā The word comes flying out of your mouth. You canāt deny heās attractiveā youāve thought it all this time, but that is not whatās happening here.
āNo need to be embarrassed,ā he continues, ignoring you. āI totally get it, so if you want, Iād be happy to give you my number!ā
Again? Youāve received Satoru Gojoās contact details in every loop youāve talked to him, star symbol and allā you even have his number memorized. Thereās something kind of odd about how he keeps giving you his number. Part of you wonders if heās got some sort of ulterior motive, but you havenāt thought too deeply about it. There are way more important things going on.
āI donāt need your phone number,ā you say. āI need to talk.ā
Your response seems to give Gojo pause. Did you somehow manage to get through to him? No way. Your suspicions are all but confirmed when he gives you that familiar apologetic smile.
āLike, I said, Iām sort of in the middle of something, butā¦ā Gojo reaches into his pockets and rummages around until one hand fishes out a folded up piece of paper. The other hand keeps digging around in his pocket and when Gojo seems to give up on whatever heās looking for, he turns his attention back to you. āGot a pen?ā
What?
Gojo tilts his head. āWell?ā
āI do, butā¦ā You trail off, unsure why heās asking.
He holds out his hand waiting for you to just hand him the pen. You still donāt get it, but you reach into your bagās front pocket and pull out the pen and hand it to him. Gojo looks almost like an excited child when he takes it from you, quickly scribbling something onto his paper before shoving it and your pen back into your hand.
You look at the paper; it looks like a receipt. For a disturbing amount of mochi that Gojo bought earlier today. The amount of money he spent is almost sickening; way too much to be paying for mochi. More importantly, you notice something juxtaposed over the receiptās print.
Itās Satoru Gojoās name and number.
He even drew a little star next to his name.
āIf you change your mind later, just give me a call!ā he tells you cheerily. āI promise Iāll make it worth your while!ā
You gawk at him. He cannot be serious. You literally just told him that you didnāt need it and yet he still gave it to you. He must want you to contact him later, but you canāt even begin to understand why. It canāt have been something you said or did, right? Unless, heās actuallyā
āLater!ā Gojoās voice cuts through your thoughts and you notice him walking off with a wave.
You canāt let him get away.
Again.
You crush the receipt in your hand and rush after him. Despite the crowd, Gojo seems to move through the people with ease and it almost seems like they are yielding to him naturally. Itās good for you. Makes him easier to chase.
āWait!ā you yell, but Gojo doesnāt even look back. Bastard. Your muscles strain as you try to run faster. You know you wonāt be able to grab him if you get to him, but there has to still be something you can do to stop him. Circle around him? Cut him off before heā
Satoru Gojo reaches the barricade.
āWait!ā you yell again. āSatoru Gojo, wait!ā
He does not even acknowledge you.
Youāre almost there though. Almost. If you reach out your hand, then maybe, maybe you can grab him. Something in your head tells you that itās useless; youāve never been able to touch him. But, you donāt care, you donāt care because you have to try. You stretch out your hand, desperate and hoping, but just as you do, Gojo effortlessly jumps over the barricade, moving to survey the crowd.
Due to your momentum, you almost collide into the barricade, but you manage to stop yourself. You stare at Satoru Gojo through the glass. He watches the crowd for at most three minutes. Is this just another bust? Is there really nothing you can do? There must be a way you can get his attention. Is it possible to climb over the barricade? No, itās too high. Thereās nothing you can grasp onto or use as footing either.
This fucking sucks.
Another minute or two and Gojo will be on the move again, and there will be no way you can follow, no way you can get his attention. You press your hands against the glass, pushing against it. Naturally, it doesnāt budge. Why would it? If only you could get it out of the way. If only you could break it. This stupid barricade is the only thing between you and Satoru Gojo and thereās no way you can climb it, but if only you could break it.
If only you could fucking break it.
Suddenly, the glass feels warm. Satoru Gojoās image starts to look a little distorted as the warmth beneath your fingers grows. Something is happening. The glass starts to vibrate and shake. Violently. The tremors grow stronger and stronger. You should stop. You should back away.
You donāt.
The barricade starts to crack and fracture and soon the sound of shattering glass resounds throughout the entire room. Everyone starts screaming. No one knows whatās going onā not even you. But you donāt care. Itās gone. The barricade is gone.
You take a step forward, toward Satoru Gojo. Heās on a beam thatās about a two meter drop from where youāre standing. Thatās fine. Thatās okay. You can make it. You have to. Without a second thought, you jumpā
And you land on the beam. You look up and Satoru Gojoās attention is back on you. Heās finally, finally turned toward you, face twisted into an expression you canāt decipher or even comprehend, butā
Somethingās wrong; your world is turning on its axis, butā
Satoru Gojo is looking at you, andā
Up is very quickly becoming down, andā
Satoru Gojo is coming closer, butā
Youāre slippingā
But heās right there, andā
Youāre falling, butā
Heās trying to catch you, butā
Itās too late. Itās too late.
The last thing you think you feelā
āis Satoru Gojoās arms around you.
Itās October 31, 2018ā Halloween in Shibuya.
And you are causing a commotion.
āShit! Fuck!ā you curse loudly. The people near you start to shift away but you barely notice; you donāt really care.
You were so close, so fucking close and yetā¦ yet here you are again. Itās quarter past eight and you are back on the goddamn platform. You donāt know what happened; you remember falling and thinking you were going to die, but you are absolutely certain that, once again, this time, you didnāt die.
Is Satoru Gojo at fault again? Did he do something? Like he did all those other times you looped without dying? When you think about it more, you donāt think so. You donāt know what happened; all you know is that you tried to get to him, but you slipped.
And he caught you, you definitely remember that.
You still donāt understand why you looped, but thereās not much you can do about it now; itās not like you can go back anymore. It just sucks, because you think he might have actually listened if youād talked to him.
Or he would have come after you forā¦ whatever happened with the barricade. It could have been taken as an attack on the crowdā¦ But if he thought you were doing that, then why would he catch you?
You donāt know.
All you know is that you have to try again.
The only problem is that you donāt know how you managed to shatter the barricade. You think about it as you make your way up to where youāll find Satoru Gojo. There is the possibility that it wasnāt you and something else happened to it instead, but that feels way too coincidental. It had to be you. Thatās the only thing that makes sense. You just canāt figure out how you did it outside of wanting, wishing, praying for the barricade to break. Itās not like you have supernatural powers like Satoru Gojo and his enemies.
Despite your mind being completely and wholly occupied by trying to figure out how in the world you managed to break through that barricade, you still manage to make it to the second basement floor of Shibuya Hikarie by 8:25PMā a brand new record. Satoru Gojo doesnāt show up until around 8:34PM, so that gives you almost ten minutes to try and figure out what you need to do to try and replicate shattering the glass barricade again.
Exceptā
Except Satoru Gojo is already here.
The thought that maybe youāre mistaken flashes in your mind before itās quickly dismissed; thereās no way youād mistake anyone else for him. There is absolutely no denying it: that is Satoru Gojo. Bewildered, you double check the time on your phone. Maybe you misread it and youāre actually late but sure enough you read it rightā Satoru Gojo is here early.
What the hell is going on?
Of the thousands of times you have experienced this night, this hell, this sort of thing has never happened before. Everything happens at a specific time, as if adhering to an unseen schedule. Itās likely that what happened in your last iteration did delay Satoru Gojoās arrival onto the platform, but other than that there has never been a deviation to the time table.
And yet, here Satoru Gojo is, nine minutes early now.
You realize that thatās not the only thing thatās strange: heās not moving. In previous rounds, when you encounter Gojo here, heās walking to the lookout spot beyond the barricade. But, right now, heās just standing there, hands stuffed in the pockets of his jacket. It almost looks like he's waiting for something.
Or someone.
This unexpected turn of events has you rooted to the spot. Youāre not sure what you should do. No. This shouldnāt change anything. You need to talk to him. As concerning as a change like this is, the extra time it gives you should be a good thing. Despite knowing that, your feet are still firmly planted to the ground.
The crowd shifts and you see Satoru Gojo start to move. Toward the barricade? No. Heās not heading in his usual direction, rather heāsā
You stop breathing.
Heās headed toward you.
All sound stops: the crowd around you, the thoughts in your head, the beat of your heart. Even though you cannot see them through that blindfold of his, you know that Satoru Gojoās eyes are on you and the thought of that, the knowledge of it is absolutely mind numbing.
He comes to a stop before you, lips curled up to form an amused sort of smile as he says, āSoooo, you needed to talk to me?ā
You try to answer but no words come out of your mouth. Are you dreaming? You have to be, right? There's no way that this is actually happening. Could it be that, after thousands of loops, youāve finally lost it? Your mind shattering along with the glass of the barricade at the end of the last one?
Gojo tilts his head, indicating that he's still waiting for an answer. When you open your mouth, at first, nothing comes out, the words stuck in your throat. You force them out, your voice cracking, ā...how did you know?ā
He smiles, looking almost mischievous as he reaches up and lightly taps the side of his head. āI remembered, of course!ā
All you can do is stare at Satoru Gojo. He remembered? How is that possible? From his perspective, this is the first time youāve met and while it shouldnāt be possible for him to remember thereās something in your mind thatās keeping you from completely dismissing the possibility.
Gojo laughs, āI take it from the look on your face that youāre not used to this sort of thing happening. Is this the first time?ā
āNo.ā The fact that the word is out of your mouth before you can even really think about it surprises you and you really have to think. Your face scrunches together as you try to remember. Is this really not the first time? Then, the memories assault you, overlapping as they replay simultaneously in your headā a woman in a yellow and white magical girl costumeā begging you for help as she burns to deathā smiling as she tells you she made her costume herself. ā...it happened just once a long time ago.ā
āāA long time ago,ā huh. Sounds like you've been at this for a while now.ā
ā...unfortunately.ā
Gojo hums. āSo when you said you didnāt need my phone numberā¦ā
āYouād already given it to me a few times,ā you say, figuring thatās where this conversation is going.
āReally now?ā
Does he not believe you? Or is he just being an ass? Youāre not sure, but since you had taken the liberty of memorizing Satoru Gojoās phone number you recite it back to him to prove your point.
Just when you think you may have stunned Gojo into silence he starts to laugh, obviously finding something funny about the fact that you know his cell phone number. āSeems like you've got quite the fascinating technique there.ā
Technique? What is he talking about? Your confusion must be plain on your face because he adds, elaborating, āThe time travel.ā
You continue to stare at him. You don't think you'd consider what you've been going through time travel, because traveling implies moving from point A to point B, but you've been stuck walking in circles at point A for a long time. What really gets you isā¦ āWhat do you mean by ātechnique?āā
āYou mean you donātā oh. I get it; no wonder youāre trapped.ā
That does not answer your question in the slightest. āCan you please explain what you're talking about? What do you mean by ātechnique?āā
āRight, rightā¦ So basically, a technique is like a special sort of power,ā he finally explains. āLike I said, your technique seems to be a kind of time travel. Whenever you activate it, your mind is sent back in time.ā
What he's saying makes sense, butā¦ āHow come you were sent back too?ā
He laughs again. āIsn't it obvious? Think back to beforeā do you remember that I caught you as you were falling?ā
You nod slowly. The memory of his arms around you is almost embarrassingly vivid. ā...is it because we were touching?ā
āDing, ding, ding! That's correct! Anyone you happen to be touching when you activate your technique gets affected by it too!ā
Something about his tone annoys you, but you try to ignore it. He could have just told you rather than make you guess. āHow do you know that for sure?ā
āWell,ā he continues. āYouāve done your little time loop a bunch of times, right? If your technique affected everyone, or even a few people in a select range you would have noticed for sure. And if it affected only just you then we wouldnāt be having this conversation right now, now would we?ā
When you think about it, you do think that the woman in the magical girl costume might have bumped into you before the loop where she remembered.
āThatās honestly just conjecture, but I've got pretty good eyes, so Iām hardly ever wrong.ā
Gojo gives you a grin and while you do think that his reasoning is sound enough his confidence is a little grating. More than that, though, youāre glad that this conversation is actually going really well.
āEither way,ā he says thoughtfully. āIt doesnāt look like you can control your technique. Usually a personās technique manifests when theyāre a kid, but you seem to be a special caseā¦ in fact, I bet your technique activated for the very first time tonightā probably under some pretty extreme circumstances, too.ā
ā...dying counts as an āextreme circumstance,ā right?ā
āOh, absolutely. Or legitimately thinking that youāre gonna die, but it seems like your body has been unconsciously activating your technique as a sort of defense mechanism. Which is why youāre trapped.ā
āSo, if I could control it Iād be able to make it out of this time loop.ā
āYeah, but in this case it probably wouldnāt end very well for you,ā he points out with a chuckle. āItās not like you actually want to die, right? I mean, if you did, then your technique wouldnāt even activate in the first place.ā
You donāt; what you want is for this night to finally end. To be free from the endless cycle of dying over and over again and again. You donāt think death is quite the answer; even if you were to learn how to control this supposed technique of yours, thereās no guarantee that you would just unconsciously activate it when the grim reaper comes knocking on your door. No, the answer isā¦
āAnyway!ā Gojoās cheery voice cuts through your thoughts. āI highly doubt that youāre the type that makes a habit of jumping off ledges for the funsies, so the fact that youāve been dying tells me that some pretty gruesome stuff is about to go down, so, tell me what happens tonight.ā
The sudden drop of his voice sends a shiver running down your spine. If it werenāt for the fact that youāve seen how serious Gojo can get, the sudden shift in demeanor would probably freak you out a bit, but it doesnāt. This is the Satoru Gojo youāre familiar with.
You do have one concern though. āThatā¦ wonāt create a time paradox or anything, will it?ā
āNah,ā Gojo shrugs. āYou wouldnāt cause one with the way your technique works, besides, if youāve only been going back at most an hour or two in time itās hard to believe youād be making a really big impactā¦ unless you really believe in the butterfly effect.ā
Youāre still not quite sure.
āTrust me, itāll be fine.ā
His voice sounds strange. Gentle. Kind. It's the most soothing thing you've heard in a long time and it makes you want to believe him.
ā...okay.ā
Anxiety is still gripping at you, but you try to dispel it, taking a deep breath before beginning your explanation. For the sake of brevity, itās probably best that youāre as concise as possible. There isnāt much need to really get into the nitty gritty of things unless he asks specifically.
Naturally, you begin with his arrival onto the platform and how soon after a fight breaks out and how the crowd is unfortunate enough to be involved. Gojoās expression is passive for the most part, but he does crack the faintest hint of a smile when you mention how he manages to eviscerate one of the monsters.
It disappears once you tell him about the arrival of the train. Between the dozens upon dozens of people being dropped onto the platform by those two high school girls and the hoard of monsters disembarking from the train, everything devolves into pandemonium.
āWait,ā Gojo holds a hand up and you pause. This is his first interruption since you started recounting the nightās events for him. āEveryone is able to see the monsters?ā
You stare at him. What a weird question. ā...yeah?ā
His mouth twists and it looks like heās thinking about something. You canāt even begin to imagine what. Finally, he comments, āMakes sense.ā
It does not, but you donāt ask him to elaborate. Surely if it was important he would have just done so.
āAnyway, in the middle of all that, youā¦ you do something.ā Your brows bunch together as you remember the stance Gojo took, the crazed and desperate look in his eyes, the feeling of your head about to explode. āI donāt know how to describe it. At first, it would just force me toā¦ activate my technique, I guess. But now, it just knocks me out for a few minutes.ā
Gojo frowns and he rubs at his chin, obviously thinking about what youāve said. Eventually, he raises a hand and bends his fingers into a familiar gesture. Itās the one that preludes whatever he does on the platform. āDo I do this?ā
āYeah.ā
He hums. āInteresting.ā
You wait to see if heāll explain. He doesnāt. Great. Even if he doesnāt think you need to know, it certainly would be nice to. Itās annoying otherwise, but you ignore the feeling and continue. āI canāt tell you what happens when Iām knocked out, but when I come to everyone is basically a zombie and all the monsters from the train are gone. I think you kill them.ā
āI probably do,ā he says casually. āBut what about Volcano Head?ā
ā...you don'tā¦get a chance to kill him,ā you say slowly. Gojo tilts his head, waiting for you to elaborate, but you hesitate. You have to tell him, you know you do, butā¦
You have seen the interaction so many times and though you don't know the exact nature of the relationship between them, you can tell that seeing Suguru Geto (or rather seeing his body) shook Satoru Gojo to his very core.
There's no doubt in your mind that he will not take this news well.
āCome on now,ā Gojo's tone is light-hearted, unaware. āDon't keep me in suspense here.ā
It's as if you're withholding the punchline to a joke. In a way, you suppose you are, but you don't think he's going to find it funny.
You take a deep breath. You need to tell him. The worst thing that could happen is that he doesn't believe you, but if that's the caseā¦ you'll probably just end up repeating this all again until you find a loop where he does.
Having made it this far, you'd like to avoid all that.
āBefore you can get Volcano Head you get restrained by something called the prison realm,ā you say slowly, āby someone calling themselvesā¦ Suguru Geto.ā
The second the name leaves your mouth, there is a clear and obvious shift in the air. Gone is Gojoās laid-back and frivolous demeanor, replaced with something more somber and almost frightening. The tension grows more and more palpable to the point that you think it might almost choke you.
You almost wish that it would.
āYou canāt be serious,ā Gojo finally says, once your words have fully sunk in.
āIāā You start to speak, but come to an abrupt stop when you see him shove his hand into his pocket to yank out his phone of all things.
The both of you know full well that thereās no reception here, but you donāt think that heās planning on making any calls. Gojo scrolls and scrolls on his phone before he stops and shoves the screen in your face. It shows a picture of three peopleā a teenage girl with a cigarette in her mouth, a younger, happier version of Gojo sporting a pair of round sunglasses andā
āWhen you say āGetoā is this who youāre referring to?ā Gojo demands, using his other hand to point at the third person in the frameā a handsome young man with long dark hair pulled up into a bun.
āYes, butāā
āThatās impossible. It canāt be him,ā Gojo interrupts, his voice firm, cold even. āHeās dead.ā
Thereās a note of finality in his words that is definitely meant to leave no room for argument. It doesnāt stop you, though. Instead, you glare at Gojoās stupid blindfold and say, ā...being dead doesnāt mean a damn thing! Iāve died hundreds of times and yet Iām still fucking here, butāā
āYour situation is different,ā he interjects, the temperature of his tone hiking up, his words like heated hissing. āI killed him almost a year ago. There's no wayāā
āYou didn't get rid of the body properly!ā You cut him off, raising your voice in hopes that he'll take even just a second to stop and listen. It seems to work and you add something you remember āGetoā saying. āYou should have had Shoko Ieiri get rid of it, but you didnāt and now someā¦ some kind of gross brain thing is possessing the corpse!ā
The air between you both is silent as the grave. Though you can't see it, you can feel the weight of his gaze pressing down on you. Heās definitely having second thoughts about everything youāve said so far. Thereās a chance he might even think youāre his enemy now. You stare him down though, refusing to look away. Youāve made it this far, you canātā you wonāt back down.
ā...youāre not lying, are you.ā Gojoās words are more of a statement than a question. Thereās no doubt in your mind that he knows the answer, and yet heās still asking. You wonder if maybe heās clinging onto some vain hope that maybe, just maybe this all a sick, cruel joke thatās gone way too far.
āIām not.ā
Gojo holds your gaze for a second longer before he lets out a curse. āFuck!ā
ā...Iām sorry,ā you say quietly, mostly because it feels like the most correct thing to say at this moment. You donāt know the whole story, but it seems like they were close. If so, then it must have hurt Gojo a lot to have killed him, and must hurt even more to know that someone is desecrating the body. You hate that you, a complete and utter stranger, happened to be the person to tell him, butā¦
It had to be done, for the sake of getting past this unending night, it had to be done.
Gojo runs a hand through his hair and lets out a ragged sigh. āOkay. What happens after that?ā
You give him a rundown of what follows; he gets sealed, the monsters wake up and all but āGetoā leave in search of their next target. When you mention the high school girls demanding the brain give Getoās body back, Gojo snorts loudly.
āFat chance of that,ā he says derisively.
You nod in agreement. It was clear to you that the brain parasite has no intent on giving it up any time soon. āAfter they leave, heā¦ talks to me.ā
āProbably couldn't ignore all that cursed energy you have,ā Gojo remarks offhandedly.
You stare at him, expression twisted in a way that shows that you have absolutely no clue what that means. It should be fine for you to ask this one question; it actually concerns you after all. āWhat does that even mean?ā
āExactly what it sounds like, thoughā¦ probably doesn't make much sense to you, does it?ā
You give him a pointed glare and all Gojo does is laugh.
āJust think of it like having a lot of MP.ā
ā...Like in a video game?ā
āExactly!ā Then, Gojo tilts his head, clearly thinking. You don't bother asking; you don't feel like he'll explain.
āHe does ask me if I'm a sorcerer, whatever that is. Is that why?ā
āProbably. Ordinary people don't have even a fraction of the energy you're packing.ā
āOrdinary peopleā he says as if youāre not an ordinary person who got caught up in all this supernatural sorcery bullshit. Or at least you were, but if the time loops are really a product of your own doingā¦
āDoes he kill you when you answer?ā Gojo asks to get the conversation back on track.
āNot right away. What happens next kind of varies,ā you answer. āHe usually lets me have a question or two before he kills me; I've asked him a couple different things.ā
āReally taking advantage, arenāt you?ā Gojo says and you're not sure what to make of his tone. Is he mocking you or is he easing back into that laid-back persona of his?
āIf Iām doomed to repeat the same situation over and over, I might as well make the most of it,ā you respond flatly.
āYou know, your technique kind of reminds me of save scumming.ā
Heās definitely gone back to acting almost completely unseriousā all signs of his earlier agitation are nearly gone.
āSo what did you learn?ā
āWell, the prison realm only holds one occupant. Once theyāre sealed, time stops for them and the only way out is if the bearer unseals them or if they choose to kill themselves.ā
āI seeā¦ And what about our body jacker?ā
āHe didnāt go into detail but he said something aboutā¦ striving toward the evolution of mankind?ā You frown a little at the memory. He didnāt explain further because he said that you wouldnāt understand.
āHuh. Interesting. Wonder how he was gonna go about doing that.ā
āI don't know, but I can't imagine you'd like it since he goes out of his way to seal you into that box,ā you say. āSaid youād get in the way because youāre too strong.ā
Gojo shrugs his shoulders and grins a little. Cocky. āWell, I am the strongest sorcerer around, you know.ā
You would think him overconfident if you hadn't seen the magnitude of his strength first hand.
āAnyway, that's as far as I ever go. When he's decided heās done talking to me, he kills me and I loop back.ā
āSo, in short, what you want help with is getting past that point, right?ā
āMore or less.ā
āAnd all I have to do is avoid getting caught by the prison realm?ā
You nod.
āWhatās it look like?ā he asks. āA big cage with a bunch of metal bars?ā
Now that you think about it, you havenāt woken up early enough to see it before it traps him, but you canāt imagine it looks that much different. āNo.. Itās a small box with eyesā¦ It gets big enough to fit you in it, though.ā
āHuh.ā He stretches his arms out above his head as if heās trying to emphasize how large he actually is and shoots you a grin. āShould be easy enough then. I bet our body snatcher used the shock of seeing Suguru to trap me but since I'll see it coming, avoiding it'll be a piece of cake.ā
Gojo makes it sound so easy, and maybe it really is as simple as that, but you can't help but be worried still.
āDon't tell me you don't think I can do it,ā he says, tilting his head.
āIt's not that,ā you admit. āI'm just concerned I might die before we can get to that point.ā
Truthfully, since you know that will just result in another loop you're less concerned with dying itself and more worried about losing the progress you've made in convincing Gojo to help you. Even though it's been clearly proven you can loop him as well, there's no guarantee you'll be able to make the physical contact needed to do it upon death.
āYou've made it pretty far on your own, though, right?ā
āYeah, butā¦ Iāve messed up plenty of times.ā More than you can even count. āThere's also the possibility that taking the time to talk to you might have thrown things out of whack.ā
Speaking of time, you check your phone. It's 8:39PM. You curse.
Gojo leans over to check your phone. āLet me guess, I'm supposed to be somewhere right now.ā
āYeah, this is when youāre descending down onto the platform.ā
āYou know where I am down to the exact minute?ā He asks and you tilt your head back and forth a little. Itās not exact per se, but itās close enough. Gojo chuckles a little. āMan, I didnāt realize that you were actually that into me.ā
That earns Gojo a glare from you, but he just laughs it off. āI doubt being a few minutes late is going to make a big difference.ā
You certainly hope so.
āDon't worry,ā Gojo says and you notice he's using that tone from earlier. āYou won't die.ā
Itās hard to argue with him when he uses such a reassuring sounding voice and yet, you still open your mouth to tryā to voice your doubts, but what he says next silences you before you even can.
āI'll protect you.ā
You think your heart stops beating in your chest and your words dissolve in your throat.
He grins at you. āDid you fall in love with me just now?ā
That catches you a little off guard. You're willing to admit he's hot, but surely he must be joking. āHow could you even think of something like that at a time like this?ā
Gojo laughs again. āWell, since someone is so worried about their time table being all messed up, I better head down there; canāt keep Volcano Head and friends waiting, right?ā
You blink. Is that it? āWait, shouldnāt we make a plan or something?ā
āIsnāt the plan for me to not get caught in the prison realm?ā
Yes, butā¦ āBut what about me? Is there anything I can do?ā
Gojo stares at you, or at least you think he does. ā...I donāt know, is there?ā
Youāve seen the encounter between Satoru Gojo and those monsters so many times and you try to picture a version of it where you intervene andā¦ all you can see is yourself getting in his way. Youāre no fighter, noā¦ sorcerer, or whatever he is, youāre just some ordinary person that was unfortunate enough to get all caught up in this mess. The most you can probably do is kick the prison realm out of the way when the time comes, but otherwiseā¦ ā...no, I guess not.ā
His expression turns sympathetic. āYouāve done plenty by telling me everything that happens. So just wait up here, and let me handle the monsters.ā
You almost nod. Almost. But then you remember what transpires up here above the platform. You know it sounds safer up here where youāre less likely to get involved in the carnage, butā¦ āWait, no, if I stay up here then Iāll fall to my death when those girlsāā
Gojo laughs, interrupting you. āDonāt worry about that. Itāll be fine.ā
āHow?ā
āJust trust me.ā
āIā¦ā Itās hard to. After everything youāve gone through itās hard to trust in anything, to believe in anything. Even though youāve made it this far this time, the worry that something will go wrong and that youāll have to do it all again still lurks in the back of your mind.
Despite all that, you want to believe.
You want to believe that you can make it past this unending night, that one day youāll wake up and itāll no longer be October 31, 2018. And the first step towards that is trusting in Satoru Gojo.
ā...okay,ā you say quietly. āOkay.ā
Gojo chuckles then asks, āAnything else before I head off?ā
You start to ask if thereās anything you should say, in case things donāt work out, but you stop yourself. Youāre choosing to trust him, to believe in himā you can figure out that stuff later if things end up going south after all. So, instead you give him a smile and it feels a little weird because you donāt remember the last time you did. āGood luck!ā
For a split second, Gojo looks almost surprised, but then he laughs again, beaming widely at you. He starts to move past you and reaches out to give you what you think is meant to be a reassuring squeeze of the shoulder and then heās off. You turn to watch him go, the crowd, once again, parting almost naturally for him.
When he reaches the barricade, he pauses, raising his hand as if heās giving you one last wave. Then he jumps over it onto his little perch and then less than a minute later heās gone, descending to the platform below.
Now, all you can do is wait.
You check your phone again and itās 8:44PM. If you remember correctly, the high school girls start threatening everyone right before 9PM. With Gojoās arrival being shifted back almost five minutes, does that mean that theyāll be shifted back too? It would make sense, but youāre not too sure.
Out of habit, you keep checking your phone and at nearly 9PM, you hear the shrill voice of one of the girls over the crowd, commanding everyone to do what she says, her partner stringing up bodies until everyone listens. Everything plays out just as you remember it, which is mildly comforting, though you know that the events that happen up here are more or less independent from what happens below.
Surely, just as Gojo said, a few minutes arenāt going to change anything, butā
No.
You agreed to trust him. To trust that everything would be fine.
When the girls start to demand that as many people as possible climb onto the roots and vines covering the atrium your heart starts to hammer in your chest. In just a few minutes, all the foliage will disintegrate beneath you, and you and everyone else here will fall into the abyss below.
You are afraid.
There isnāt a single loop where youāve really survived this fall. If you donāt die in midair, you die right after landing. Itās a death trap, and thatās why youāve stopped coming up here. Thereās a part of you, the part that knows whatās about to happen, that wants to try and run back onto stable footing. But you canāt, because you know if you do then the girls will kill you for sure; you have to stay.
Itāll be fine, you tell yourself, itāll be okay.
You just have to trust Gojo.
An eight car train is pulling in. Please wait behind the yellow line.
You hear the announcement faintly below you. Itās almost time. You brace yourself and try to stay calm. Gojo said he would protect you, that you wouldnāt die. You donāt know how he intends to keep that promise, but all you can do is believe in his words.
Itāll be fine. Itāll be okay.
The vines and roots start to crack and the ground beneath you starts to give out. You squeeze your eyes shut as that sickening weightless feeling overtakes you. It occurs to you that this is actually quite literally a trust fallā will Satoru Gojo really be able to catch you?
As you fall, you realize almost instantly that something is different.
Youāve experienced this fall dozens of times and so, even though it has been a while since youāve gone this route, you are very familiar with what it feels like. Something is different. Youāre falling faster. The trajectory is changing. Itās like some force, other than gravity, is pulling at you.
Is this Gojoās doing?
Just as your body collides with the ground you hear the sounds of mutilating flesh meld with the screams surrounding you. Blood and severed limbs litter the ground, but you try to ignore it. You need to focus on your own survival right now. Quickly, you scramble to your feet scan the area around you; youāre on the platform right now and right in front of you isā
Right in front of you is Satoru Gojo.
His back is turned to you, his focus currently elsewhere. Looking at him you realize you recognize this scene, though itās much closer and at a different angle. Heās about to do that thing, that thing that knocks you out.
Something in you tells you to move closer to him, after all, he used his mysterious powers to deliberately bring you closer to him, right? You rush toward him and as you do something he said earlier pops up in your mind.
Anyone you happen to be touching when you activate your technique gets affected by it too!
Whatever heās about to doā¦ Is that his ātechnique?ā And if it is, would it work the same way as yours? If so, thereās only one way to find out: you need to touch him. You dodge monsters and other people as you run toward Satoru Gojo andā
A monster still manages to grab you, its large hands wrapping around your wrist. You try and yank it free, but it's much stronger than you are.
āShit!ā you hiss as the monster starts to pull you toward it and away from Gojo. What do you do? Your other hand is still free, should you try to punch it in the face? Orā
Before you can do anything, something blasts the monsterās head clean off. Shocked, you stare as the monsterās body slumps onto the ground, its grip loosening on you instantly. You whip your head around to find that while Gojo still has his back to you, his arm is bent back in your direction, his palm open as if he fired some invisible blast from it.
Then you feel it again, something pulling at you, but this time it's more forceful. Your body is yanked toward Gojo and the second you feel his hand press against you, you see him make that gesture with his other hand.
āDomain Expansion,ā he whispers in a strained voice. āInfinite Void!ā
Something happens and your vision flashes for a fraction of a second. And thenā
The room is enveloped in an eerie stillness; all the violence and bloodshed coming to an abrupt stop. Monsters and humans alike stand like the living dead, unconscious with their eyes wide open as if they are staring into an infinite abyss. You recognize this scene, youāre familiar with it because itās similar to the one you wake up to after being hit by Gojoās ādomain expansion.ā The only difference is the presence of the monsters, who are all but gone when you regain consciousness.
The pressure from Gojoās hand is gone and he says to you, his voice still low. āIf youāre squeamish when it comes to blood and gore, it might be best for you to close your eyes.ā
And then heās gone.
You do not take his advice. You do not close your eyes. How many loops were you unable to witness whatās about to unfold? A few hundred? A few thousand? And if all goes to plan, then you will never get another chance again: thereās no way you could possibly look away.
And what you see unfold before you is that Satoru Gojo was right.
He is the one to kill all the monsters.
Itās not as if you really had any doubt, after all, it seemed like the most logical conclusion to come to and yetā¦
Thereās a difference between knowing and seeing.
All the violence resumes and the platform is engulfed in the sounds of carnage and slaughter once more. The lack of terrified screams makes everything more disconcertingā without them, all you can hear is the squelching echo of mangled flesh and blood splattering all over the place. You canāt really see him, but you can tell where Satoru Gojo is in the crowd as he leaves dozens upon dozens of decapitated heads soaring in his wake. Once or twice, he leaps out of the crowd and even from where you stand you can see the crazed glow of his inhumanly blue eyes as he massacres monster after monster.
Even though you donāt think you have anything to be scared of, you are still terrified: Satoru Gojo is no longer a man, but violence incarnate. You want to move closer to where Gojo gets trapped, but youāre afraid to. What if you get in his way? What if he kills you by accident?
Dying again when youāve made it this far is definitely not ideal, but isnāt being killed by Gojo the best case scenario? Because then the two of you would probably loop together again andā
No.
Gojo said you wouldnāt die.
He said heād protect you.
Itās hard to believe when heās in the middle of a massacre, slaughtering monsters left and right, but you remind yourself yet again that you have to believe in him.
You take a deep breath and start moving, taking care to keep an eye on where Gojo is. You donāt know how long this is supposed to take, but you do know where he ends up when heās just about done. The closer he gets to that spot, the sooner the prison realm will be unleashed upon him.
Thereās a small group of zombified people nearby and you settle yourself among them. Itās not super close, but you think it's close enough that you'd be able to run over and kick the box away from Gojo if you have to. You do a quick survey to see if you can spot the body snatcher, but he's nowhere to be found. Hopefully, he hasn't noticed you moving around, or, if he has, he's more concerned with Gojo than he is with you. Given that you always seem to be the last thing he acknowledges, you'd like to think that he doesn't consider you a threat.
Which you're not, not really anyway.
The sounds of slaughter start to die down and you look to see Gojo approaching the spot where he gets caught. He looks beat, his eyes unfocused and his breathing heavy. You do another quick scan around him and notice a small box a few meters away from him, wrapped in what looks like paper charms or seals or whatever they're called. That has to be the prison realmā though it looks different than what you saw before. Gojo seems to notice it right after you do, his gaze honing in on it, examining it with some measure of bewilderment. Then, some invisible force slices through all the paper seals covering the box and it expands, the corners of the box floating up in midair to reveal what looks like a large sheet of dark red flesh with a large bloodshot eye stapled to the middle.
Disgusting.
If Gojo didnāt realize before, he seems to now, because he takes a step back, away from the grotesque thing. Good, goodā
āHey! Satoru!ā Your blood runs cold at the sound of the body snatcherās voice. He emerges from the crowd, smiling widely as he gives Gojo a wave. āLong time no see!ā
Satoru Gojoās entire body goes rigid. Shit. You told him, you warned him about what was going to happen, who he was going to see, but was that not enough? Itās possible that no amount of warning would have been enough to mentally prepare Satoru Gojo for the sight of the man he said he killed a year ago. After all, you know that thereās a stark difference between knowing and seeing. Even then, if Gojo doesnāt gather his wits and move now then heās going to get caught and you canāt let that happen.
Your body moves before you can even think about it.
You scramble out from your hiding spot in the crowd and throw yourself in between Satoru Gojo and the prison realm. Thereās no way you can kick it away from him now, not when itās in this form, but maybe, if you get between them you can at least keep it from capturing him.
The eye quivers erratically, as it flits from Gojo to you. Every hair on your body stands on end as it watches you, the pupil dilating and contracting uncontrollably. You canāt look away from it, your own gaze fixed to your image reflected in the black abyss of the pupil. Something in the back of your mind tells you to stop, to get away, itās dangerous, but you keep your feet firmly planted to the ground.
A second, or maybe even a minute passes and the prison realm shifts, its fleshy form morphing to restrain you.
The body jacker looks at you, his frown tinged with disgust. āDonāt you think youāre being rather rude by butting into what could have been a touching reunion?ā
You scowl. Is he still trying to play the role of Suguru Geto?
He sighs and looks past you at Gojo. āSatoru, I thought bringing lesser sorcerers to fight alongside you was more trouble than it was worth?ā
You hear Gojo snort from behind you, āIt isā¦ but this person here isnāt a sorcererā¦ Just like you arenāt Suguru Geto.ā
The faker almost pouts and presses his hand to his chest as if Gojo's words have wounded him. āSatoru, Iām hurt, how could you say such a thing to your best friend?ā
āCut the bullshit,ā Gojo snarls. āYou canāt fucking fool me. You might be in Suguruās body but I know with all my heart and soul that youāre not him.ā
The corpse snatcher stares at Gojo, expression blank before he sighs once more. Then, his gaze shifts back to you, his eyes narrowed as he looks at you with sheer disdain. It feels as if youāve been drenched in ice cold water. There's no smile this time but you already know what's going to happen.
Heās going to kill you.
āI intended to deal with you later since you seemed harmless enough,ā he says, raising a hand to summon a monsterā the same one he always uses to end your life. āBut youāre in the way. So, I think itās for the best if I just get rid of you right now.ā
Instinctively, you try to take a step back but the prison realmās restraints keep you in place. Not that it would have mattered much, even in the loops where youāve tried to escape the fakerās monster, it still kills you, too fast and too agile for an ordinary human like you to avoid. All you can do is squeeze your eyes shut and wait for the monster to kill you. At least, itās always painless.
Something touches your back.
Your eyes shoot open.
Before you is the monster, wiggling and writhing only mere centimeters from your face. It gurgles and snarls at you, desperate to fulfill its masterās wishes and kill you but it doesnāt move any closer. You stare at it with wide eyes, unsure of what to do.
Someone behind you clicks their tongueā Gojo. You try to turn your head to look at him, but your movements are too limited, the most you can do is turn your head to the side. The sounds the monster is making start to change, sounding more frenzied, almost as if itās in pain, and you flit your eyes in its direction just in time to see its entire body explode. The monster's guts and bright purple blood fly off in every direction, getting on the floor, the ceiling, the zombified bodies of the people unfortunate enough to be nearby, but not on you.
This is Satoru Gojoās doing.
He steps in front of you, half turned towards you as he moves in between you and the body snatcher. His hands are shoved in his pockets as he loudly says, āDid you really forget about me?ā
Youāre not sure if heās talking to you or the body snatcher.
Past him, the imposter scowls, raising his hand once more, probably to summon even more monsters, but Gojoās quicker, and it almost looks like his eyes are glowing even brighter, the blue looking almost white as he whips his head in the fakerās direction. The sound of mangling flesh and breaking bones echoes throughout the room as Gojo, using that mysterious power of his, seems to break the fakerās arm.
The body snatcher hisses loudly and despite the fact that his face is twisted in very obvious pain, he tries to shoot Gojo a mocking smile. āDo you really think you can kill your best friend again?ā
āI already told you,ā Gojo turns to fully face the monster inhabiting Getoās corpse. He tilts his head a little to the side and some force starts to squeeze at the fakerās neck. āYouāre not Suguru.ā
You hear a loud crack as Gojo telekinetically snaps his neck.
The head rolls onto the ground and you almost look away, but then you notice his eyes still moving, looking around. Is he still alive? Then you remember: the thing possessing Suguru Getoās body was some kind of parasite. āGojo! Wait! The brain!ā
He reacts almost instantly, head turning and in an instant the skull is crushed and all that remains is red splotch on the ground.
You almost relax. Almost.
But the body is still standing.
Horrified, you watch as it quivers violently before falling to the ground. Then what looks like dozens of black spirits start to erupt from the corpse and the entire room is engulfed with a shrill howling.
What the hell is going on?
āThose must be all the cursed spirits he consumed,ā Gojo explains uselessly, voice barely audible over the screaming. āGuess he was empty before.ā
You donāt bother asking what he means. There are bigger problems right now. āWhat do we do?ā
āNo choice to exorcise them,ā he answers plainly.
For him to exorcise them, he means. You both know that thereās not much that you can do. You still canāt move and honestly, you donāt even know if itās possible to get out of the prison realmās restraints. Not without dying. And if you die nowā¦
Everything will have been for naught.
Youāll reset time and have to do this all over againā assuming you can even get to this point again.
There has to be something, you just have to think outside the box.
Or ratherā
āGojo!ā
He glances back at you.
āYou need to seal me in the prison realm!ā you exclaim. He turns to face you fully, looking bewildered and you start to explain as fast as you can. āThose things are going to attack any minute right? I canāt move or try to hide and I canāt expect you to protect me the entire time and if I die then Iāll end up looping time again, butā but, if you seal me in the prison realm then that wonāt happen.ā
Gojo frowns, looking conflicted. āYou donāt think I can do it?ā
āWouldn't it be easier if you didnāt have to?ā
He tilts head and you think heās conceding your point.
āPlease,ā you beg, staring at him desperately. āWe donāt have much time. The otherā¦ cursed spirits will wake up soon too!ā
You donāt have to explain that you mean Volcano Head and friends.
It takes only a second for Gojo to consider the very few options you have. ā...how do you seal it? Do you know?ā
āI think so,ā you answer. āThereās no guarantee itāll work but I think that if you say āprison realm, gate closeā it should seal me inside.ā
If anything, itās worth a shot.
Gojo nods. āDo you know how to break the seal?ā
āIā¦ donāt,ā you confess. You never asked, and you donāt think the body snatcher would have told you even if you did. He only told you that it holds one and thatā¦
That time doesnāt flow in the box.
ā...you donāt have to break the seal.ā
Gojo frowns, āWait a secāā
āEven if I make it past tonightā¦ What if this all happens again? What if I inadvertently trap myself in another time loop?ā you ask. āIā¦ I donāt want to have to go through all of this again. Itās better for me in a place where time doesnāt pass.ā
You donāt know for sure if itāll be better, but right here, right now, it seems like the best option.
It feels like an eternity passes before Gojo says anything.
ā...fine,ā he agrees and you donāt quite know how to feel about it. The howling around you all grows louder. You wonder why the cursed spirits havenāt attacked yet. Maybe Gojoās power is holding them at bayā¦ for now anyway. You both know that he canāt ignore them forever.
ā...before I do, though, mind if I ask you just one thing?ā
You blink. āNot sure what I can do for you in this stateā¦ā
He laughs. āI just want to know your name.ā
What an odd request. Though, now that you think about it, you donāt think that during this loop or any other loop really, youāve ever told him your name. It only seems fair to tell him, since youāve known his for longer than heās known of your existence.
You tell him your name.
He nods, looking as if heās committing to memory. Probably easier to remember than his phone number. āAny last words?ā
You try to think of something. Nothing comes to mind and you just shake your head.
Gojo takes a deep breath, āAlrighty thenā¦ Prison realm, gate close.ā
Just as it did the many times youāve seen Satoru Gojo sealed away, the boxes and restraints around you vibrate a little before they start to close around you, growing large enough to fit your body as they approach.
You wonāt see it, but once youāre inside the box will shrink and become small enough to fit in the palm of someoneās hand.
Will it be quiet inside?
In your final seconds, some words, some last words come to mind, and you say them, hoping that he hears them in time. āThank you, Satoru Gojo.ā
You burn the glittering glow of his brilliant bright blue eyes into your mind.
And then, everything is engulfed in an unending black.
Itās November 30, 2018ā morning on the campus of Tokyo Prefectural Jujutsu High School.
Satoru Gojo strides through the school grounds, casually tossing a small silver box with eerie blue eyes known as the prison realm up and down in his grasp. Walking at his side is Shoko Ieiri, a pretty woman whoās been unfortunate enough to have been Satoruās friend since high school.
āAre you sure this is a good idea?ā Shoko asks, twirling a few strands of her long brown hair.
āWhat do you mean?ā Satoru responds nonchalantly. āAll my ideas are good ideas.ā
Shoko hums in clear dissent, but doesnāt say anything more. Even she knows better than to try and waste her time trying to argue with Satoru. āIām just worried about their mental state. Didnāt you say that time doesnāt flow in the box?ā
āIād be worried if it was some normal person,ā Satoru says. āBut after what theyāve gone through I think theyāll be fine.ā
ā...well, if you say so.ā
The two arrive at their destination: the largest training area on the Jujutsu High grounds. Satoru places the prison realm at the center and takes a few steps back with Shoko standing behind him, in case anything happens.
He doesnāt think it will, but itās always good to take at least a few precautions.
āGojo, are you sure we should be doing this?ā Shoko asks again. āDidnāt they want to remain in the box?ā
āOf course I am,ā Satoru says with his usual air of confidence before looking back at the prison realm nestled in the grass. He grins and thenā
āPrison realm, gate open.ā
if you made it this far. thank you. it's my sincerest hope that you enjoyed the ride. 3
#OHHHHHHHH MY GOD.#okokokok this is gonna be. Really Incoherent sorry in advance šš niku this made meā¦ā¦ insane. fully. someone needs to restrain me#one of my favorite gojo fics Ever??? like genuinely????? this was SUCH a pleasure to read i have sm i wanna say :((( hhhhhh#FIRST OF ALLL the higurashi poemā¦. what a banger <33 i LOVE how it ties in with the ending too but more on that later :33#but itās also so perfect bc reading this fic rlly did feel like playing a vn in the BEST way possibleā¦. just. seeing all the tiny variation#experiencing the loops along w readerā¦ā¦ it was just SUCH an enjoyable experience i canāt even describe it!!!!!!!!! iām so floored!!!!!!!!!!#like i ADORE timeloops itās my favorite trope Ever and this fic was just . a godsend?? perfection??? the best loopfic ive read?????#IāM STILL GOING FULLY INSANE OVER IT BTW it satiated every single craving i have for timeloop content. my brain is leaking endorphins rn šµā#i LOVE the opening lines and the constant reusage of āItās the night of October 31 2018ā Halloween in Shibuyaāā¦ā¦ just so satisfying somehow#and readerās mental state was also so thoughtfully depictedā¦ it was so easy to insert myself into them but theyāre also. rlly charming?#them latching onto gojo as the one anomaly of the timeloopā¦. fixating on him and his beauty (real as fuck btw)ā¦. and searching for hope!!!#finding hope in gojo!!!! learning to trust him!!!!! :((( it feels kinda like a very twisted one-sided slowburn ā¦ and i ate it up.#i also rlly like that itās not explicitly romantic!!! thereās enough subtext to enjoy a romance aspect but itās not the Focus yk??#and i like that!!! the focus is on reader and the timeloop and both of those aspects are woven into gojo rlly naturally :>#ok so iām using that as a segway. bc OFC i need to rant abt gojo fucking satoru and how much i love him and ur take on him šš#every once in a while iāll find a fic where iām like. this author knows Gojo Satoru personally. they speak to him on the phone every night.#and this fic is ABSOLUTELY one of those likeā¦.. this gojo is Canon to me. iām so serious abt it like thatās HIM !!!#and it just reminded me of why i love him sm bc this rlly does feel exactly like the gojo from the manga and thatās SO impressive 2 me ā¦.#iām in awe of u niku. i donāt even know where to begin w gojo bc i loved SO many lines and lil details u put inā¦ā¦ā¦. šµāš«šµāš«#heās just. soooooo charming :/// he truly is. heās beautiful and handsome and he gives you his number every loop . w a star symbol!!!!#asks you for your phone or a pen and gets all excited writing his nameā¦ the mochi receiptā¦. š„ŗ heās so endearing we need to put him Down.#HEāS SO GOODDDDD I CANāT SAY IT ENOUGHā¦. his convos with reader were a huge highlight for me and i loved loved LOVED#the moment he finally understands their situation. when they speak and he hears them out and heās almost gentle. sooo reassuring.#starting to think youāre genuinely gege akutami btw like . gojo is so complex but you just. captured him perfectly???#heās cocky and playful and teasing and a killing machine and heās Kind. heās playful even when youāre a stranger#and when he finally hears you out he speaks softly and says heāll protect you :((( reader is better than me i wouldāve cried LMAO#THE DIALOGUE IS SO GOOD N FEELS SO REAL ādid you fall in love with me just now?ā NOOO ā¦.. ā¹ļøā¹ļøā¹ļøā¹ļø ā¦. (maybe ā¦ā¦..)#ack. heās the most charming man in the universe my heart was fluttering like crazy this isnātā¦ normal human behaviorā¦ā¦ā¦#WAIT i almost forgot ā¦. i too adore the jjk dub and every time gojo spoke i heard kaiji tang in my head <33 10/10 would recommend!!!#writing ā©
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TEXTING HINDU GODS PT.2
cos i couldnt get enough š
RAMA š«¶:
- replies with a wholesome and sweet paragraph LITERALLY EVERY TIME
- asks you about your day
- tells you what him and his fam did that day
- helps you make friends ('Don't worry - you're so sweet and kind! You have got this! š¤')
- emotional breakdown support 101
- does random facetimes to show you nice things he finds in the forest
- does group vid calls to show everyone
-- > does 'campfire sessions' on group vid call where you all play antakshari or tell stories together
- gives the best life advice, on parallel with Krishna's (surprise surprise amirite)
y/n : hi Ram ji :)
Rama : Hi my priye y/n, so good to hear from you! You know, today we saw this beautiful flower in the forest that I'm pretty sure is a Golden Arch Dendrobium - Lakshmana says we have come to the areas of Bharat where it is a native plant! Its colour was so mesmerising and bright - it looked so lovely in Sitey's hair! I wish you were here to see it š„° [Sends pic of flower]
y/n : *sends 10min voice note of emotional breakdown*
rama : *sends multiple vns back right away with lots of affirmations and emotional support. if your love language is physical touch he also posts you a hand-knit jumper or a crochet teddy for you to snuggle*
HANUMAN š«¶:
- another one for speed dial
- happy to help in every circumstance
-- > but may not help with picking outfits as he'll find smth nice to say for every option šš
- BEST motivation and motivational speeches
- will pretend to study with you on vid call so you can have a study buddy š„ŗ
- if you can't sleep at night, will be on phone call telling a wholesome story to send u to sleep (most likely smth about his or shri ram's adventures)
- will highly appreciate you sharing your fave Shri Ram bhajans with him
- begins and ends every convo with 'JSR š' (Jai Shri Ram)
- in summary: your fave uncle and grandad in one
- in bg of all of Shri Ram's vid calls and says hi haha (he loves to sing in the antakshari and is also such a big hype man š)
RADHA š«¶:
- you know that trope about going to dads with all your 'dad needs' like fixing the sink,, well that is radhe with LITERALLY EVERYTHING
- solves all your problems
- is also on speed dial
- is the caring older sister (without the brown eldest sibling trauma š)
- reposts all the dumb pics of herself that kanha tags her in and adds individual captions with the patience of only kanhas eternal consort š„°
kanha : *posts of a pic of himself looking swag and radhe scratching her nose mid blink* RADHE ā¤ļø
radhe : *resharing* I've never looked so good, new pfp material š
kanha : *comments* wow i get to be in ur pfp š„¹š„¹š„¹š„¹ #blessed
radha : like u are not literally in all of them š
y/n : *posts a vid of radha single-handedly doing dhakka to y/n's broken down car, kanha doing š face in bg*
#guess whos back lol#gopiblr#krishna#krishnablr#hindu memes#hindu mythology#ramayana meme#shri ram#hanuman#radharani#ramayana squad are wholesome beans š„ŗ#lakshmana takes some time to get comfortable with u tho
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Hi Morgan! I stayed up later than was advisable last night reading BtM. Cy is so šššš UGH and Zach is so šššš UUGGGHHHH what have you done to me yet again š TSSW brainrot was bad enough now I have this too! But lmao I have a couple of questions for you! So first, as it stands in the story right now, is Zach aware of Cy and their relationship with MC, be that platonic or romantic? Also, does Cy know the MC thinks they're fake? And finally, so sorry for three at once I promise I'm actually holding back, will there eventually be character art in the VN as well or just the backgrounds? Love your stories so much and can't wait to get more š©
I love spreading the brain rot š As for your questions!
1) The MC has certainly NOT told Zach about Cy yet at this point.
2) Cy is painfully aware of the MC's thoughts about them, but it's not...time yet to dissuade them of these notions.
3) I really hope there will be character art in the VN! I am commissioning two character illustrations for the demo (one for Zach, one for Cy), but after that, I plan to launch a Kickstarter with full character art as a stretch goal! I really REALLY hope it will go well š„¹š
Thanks for the great ask! It makes me happy to see people enjoy my stories š„°
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