#if only they werent afraid of gay people

[apocalypse-alpaca]

Deadpool and Wolverine were knee deep in the passenger seat and no one can tell me any different

[balladofthelamb]

its funny though bc my gateway into feeling like i could identify as butch was seeing other bi butches on here rocking it and feeling so affirmed and then feeling like i could be like them. and i still fervently identify as butch but not bisexual anymore really (still a dykefag occasionally though... ah, semantics) but i wouldnt b here if it werent for like. people pushing the boundaries of what it means to be butchfemme TODAY. and like theres still so many people who are go on and spread the idea that being butchfemme is behind an exclusive wall only goldstar lesbians can access. which is weird. like what does it mean to be queer if we're not fucking around with every boundary, every preconceived notion of what it means to be gay and trans? yk? i dont fuck with people who settle on conformity. i love gay people. i love butches and femmes who understand being butch and femme transcends presentation, transcends definition. its a state of being, strings of action.... atp im just rambling but it's truly like those who get it get it!!!! i love not being afraid of confusing people. i think part of it is a lot of gays these days want to be widely understood and respected as they perceive themselves but its not everyones truth to be palatable and its not in our best interest to be agreeable

[wyrvel]

asking you this because I trust you to be funny and correct but how do you think canonverse terumob would play out

i think teru genuinely isnt conscious of being desperately in love & once mob expresses interest in love hes like I'm A Wingman Sent From God and starts investing truly uncalled for amount of energy into mob's personal traits which he hungrily digs for and essentially goes on dates with mob to help acclimate him and when mob bombs his date with a girl anyway he says "its ok. i dont feel as bothered about love anymore" <- CLUELESS. reigen who grew up excruciatingly lonely and trained labourously in the art of social convention so he could have water cooler talk with miserable coworkers & dimple who just spies on people a lot both immediately pick up on teru's crush and are like damn...well maybe it didn't work because he might like men you should try seeing if he likes men <- they don't believe teru will score but want to let this poor idiot at least allow himself to shoot his shot. serizawa also wants to know if he likes men and it turns into an extremely serious group thought experiment. tome asks them whats appealing about girls over boys so she can participate. everyone's forgotten why they're doing this they're having a heated debate where no one's allowed to talk about sex because tome and teru are 15 so reigen and serizawa dont have to bring up they are virgins who have never been in a relationship

when teru finally gets it he thinks "well if kageyama-kun can confess then i'd be a terrible rival if I didn't too" and immediately confesses. mob rejects him gently. they're still having the Gay Debate Circle because teru is the only one who actually had a concrete moment of self discovery and so mob is like well. i never thought about that stuff. i just really like hanazawa-kun as a friend it doesnt feel the same like with tsubomi ri-- and tome is like you werent even friends with her. why would you be obsessed with someone you're friends with. and mob is like hm. thats true.

mob enters a Thoughtfulness Black Hole. on tsubomi's sage advice he decides to trial date teru (rousing him from his Defeat Coma) to gauge his feelings. she says if he isnt feeling it they can just break up and because they're such good friends it will be fine. trial never ends. terumob wins. reigen downloads gay porn to his home computer but is too afraid to open it.

[nicegaai]

Su-san anon here I love you and your opinions sm. SuIce is so tasty I agree, personally I think Ice should have the most embarrassing daddy kink known to man and Swe should be eaten up by remorse bc of how much he enjoys little Aisu-kun calling him that when they fuck. When they're done Ice feels mortified and wants to hide from the world while Swe feels nauseous and thinks he should hand himself to the police. But they end up fucking again regardless lmao. This is my ideal dynamic for them, I'm afraid.

im holding your hand and we're skipping thru a beautiful meadow...

this boy needs a father figure so bad!!!!! dare i say ice has preexisting issues about den in this scenario ...

aikun and susan are the two most repressed gay men in the subarctic and i need them to bond about it So Bad i dont care HOW but i want it to GET WEIRD i need sweden to be the only one who rly listens to him and is a supportive mentor who sees himself in ice, and ice can look up to him like the father he never had (sorry den u werent very present..) and a role model and they both develop a thing for each other that they try and mutually keep repressed ...

and at first sure they have their cute little affair sans daddy kink and its already on the edge of appropriate. they can justify a few encounters and just not want anyone else to know — norway and denmark would freak out, swedens kids dont need to know hes getting laid, iceland is not universally recognized as an adult and thats problematic, its just casual and theyre private people... whatever reason. swedens into younger men and icelands into older men and there was a lot of lowkey sexual tension and now theyre fucking and its great.

im obsessed with the extreme guilt angle youre giving them though, ughhhh thats absolute kino. i have no idea how the daddy kink would START but i just KNOWW that their communication skills are rough and post coitus they wouldnt talk out their guilt/shame/embarrassment very well. they each retreat to stew in their mental illnesses... neither can confide about this in anyone else either, theyll hold their problems inside until they die. OR until theyre horny enough to go back for more, which im sure is what their love life relies on anyway... and then the cycle continues........... hot. option 1, ice coming back to apologize really flustered and asking if that was wayy over the line.. OR option 2, sve coming back like umm heyy...(sexual intent) like hes decided that if ice was into it then its ok, and ice being like d-d-dont look at me ..... and then they fuck.

anyway i went looking for every time they interact for Evidence

hes docile because he's daddy svi's little boy and he cant be mean to him.. he'll be getting a reward for good behavior laterrrr

look at that physical contact theyre basically canonically in love. also the size difference ....... think about it...

i dont know how to end this post. suice forever

[legend-the-dumb-jock]

Prison break pt 1

Axel was lonely. Always wishing that he had someone to come to. Someone that he could share his life with. He’s spent the better part of his adult life so far hiding himself in the closet because he was afraid of what his family and friends would think of him. But sometimes he wished he wasn’t so afraid of what they would think so he could truely be himself. Axel was just sitting down to watch some tv when his phone chimes for a txt message. “Hey number neighbor! My name is Ricardo!” Axel had heard about this game that was popular these days. So he responded back introducing himself. What started off as something that Axel thought would stop turnedninto a constant thing. He and Ricardo spoke to each other all the time. He had tried to call Ricardo but always got voicemail. Ricardo told him that he was better at typing in English because he had a heavy accent. And found it hard to understand English when it was spoken to him. Axel didn’t mind this though.

The relationship between the two men continued to grow. The two shared a lot about each of their lives. Ricardo was out and proud gay man. But people didn’t know until he told them because he was macho. He enjoyed working out and spending his time outside. Axel told him about how he was tired of working at his job in utility work. He wanted a change but didn’t know how. “You know it would be really cool to get some tattoos but work wouldn’t allow that”. Axel said one night. Ricardo responded laughing “well they wouldn’t like me then. I have several”. That peeked Axels interest bevause until this point he had never seen a picture of Ricardo. And then. As if he read his mind. Ricardo sent a picture of himself and Axel’s heart skipped a beat. The man was muscles from head to toe. Tattoos and hair adorned his tanned Latin skin. Axel didn’t know what to say other than “I think I’m in love”. Ricardo laughed again saying “hey looks aren’t everything. Do you know how hard it is find shoes ? They don’t just have 17eee shoes in every store.” Axel’s heart flutters for a second time as he realized just how much larger Ricardo was than himself. His feet alone placed his own size 13 feet in a shadow. “You know in my home country when two people want a change in life. They can literally changes lives as long as both parties are agreed to it. I’ve always wanted to know what it was like to be a white man. It could be fun! What do you think ?” Axel just laughed out loud for that one. Such a stupid thing to say. Things like that werent real. Plus who would honestly agree to such a thing. “ I know it’s stilly. But you never know jaja”.

Axel left the message on reas and few minutes later responded that he just didn’t know. If something like that was real he just didn’t know if he would be willing to do it. No matter how attractive the man was. Ricardo sent another picture on my this time of of his cock. Fully erect. “12 ½ inches here. Thought this would peek your interest ;)”. Before Axel knew what he was doing he told Ricardo that he would without a doubt agree to swap with him. Just to know what it was like. And who wouldn’t agree. Especially with someone packing that much beef. “ good so it’s agreed. We will swap 😈”. That was the last message Axel got that night. He showered up and went to bed.

The next morning Axel woke up to a loud banging noise. Almost as if something was banging against some bars. His beard hurt. The lights came on and his vision went blurry. What the hell was going on. It was then he realized that his bed felt different. Hard and cold. He sat up only to hit his heads on the top bunk bed above him. “What the fuck!” He said. But as he did his hands went to his throat. That wasn’t his voice. That was much deeper. Abs heavily accented. He looked down only to be shocked when he seen that his body was no longer his own. There was flip phone right beside him that vibrates. He picked it up. Noticed that the room was much smaller than he was used to. What the hell was going on. “Good morning axel. Thank you for agreeing to this. I didn’t think I would ever get you to agree. So have fun in that body. It’s yours now.” Axel asked what was going on. Where was he. “God you’re dumber than I thought. You’re in prison stupid. I wanted out. No matter what it costed me. So now your. Going to be Ricardo. You’re going to be the one stuck in prison for drug crimes. You know it’s been so long since I e had something to smoke”. A picture came through shortly after that. It was Axel. Only he looked as if he has taken masculine to the max. Boots. Jeans. Tight clothing. All smoking a cigar.

“I don’t smoke!” He yelled through text.

“Well bud you do now. And you’d going to be a heavy smoker by the time I’m done. Also. I’m blocking your number now. I have even told the jail about your phone. Contraban isn’t allowed. So you’re sure to get more time abs punishment from that”. That was when he heard a bar door swing open behind him. A cop entered and jerked the phone out of his hands and snapped it in half. “Ricardo. This is not good my dear man. You’re going to be in big trouble for this”. Axel pleaded for him to understand that he wasnt Ricardo. But the cop just laughed. “Is this your new story! Get a better one! You’re stuck in here with me now you low life.” The cop punched him in the face sending him back to his bed. More cops showed up “this one is having attitude problems this morning. We are going to have to get him sedated to control that anger”. Axel was afraid. He didn’t know what to do. Bring Ricardo was supposed to be a dream. But now it would seem that hea stuck in a nightmare.

To be continued…..

February 7th, 2021 2:48pm prison break tattoo feet hairy race change

[astharoshebarvon]

never understood why some people hate yuki in given. i mean seriously, have some sympathy and decency for the boy, his death was so tragic thats its really pathetic you hate him. mafuyu and uenoyama adore each other, why do you have to think he is some third wheel when he is dead? mafuyu loved yuki, nothing will ever change that. the name of the freaking manga is in reference to him, are you for real, to actually hate yuki?

it's pathetic how these weirdos don't hate that horrid, homophobic bitch classmate of uenoyama who was disgusting as hell, don't dislike his equally gross sister. i love how he doesn't give either of them time of the day. is it same crap of not hating fem characters even if they are right trash, like how actual pedo women in fiction books and manga get pass but male characters who arent even vile are condemned.

sesshoumaru was an exception to this rule. glad that shit flopped. he didnt deserve what was done to him.

otherwise, its' just same case of absolving bad fem characters of their rubbish. i don't even get why given artbook and illustrations have these two dumb females and not yuki in group pictures. like seriously, what did he even do wrong? the answer is nothing. he did nothing bad. he was a good guy, no matter what delusions people may have.

this kind of mentality explains so well how tom riddle sr was treated, he had no obligation to stay with his rapist wife. merope can go to hell for what she did to him.

then i saw another weird post on twitter, why is omegaverse manga getting anime. my god, please cry harder about it. i am so glad that sweet BL manga is getting an anime adaptation. omegaverse was always always for MM SLASH, it's the origin for it, there is no such thing as straight omegaverse, 99 % erase the core, gay element and make it het. shut up.

i am glad so many people are excited for it, the weirdos can stay mad. the hets get tons (hell, almost all of them are het) of anime, crappy shoujo/josei anime with annoying fem leads who are so off putting it's unreal. let's not pretend those anime would be remotely liked if it werent for hot guys in it and a good looking ML. i can name a lot of them but i am afraid i'll actually end up feeling annoyed for hours.

some even have blatant homophobia, seriously, get out. i am so glad gay erotica, BL is way way more popular these days. it actually feels nice.

akatsuki no yona, skip beat, cardcaptor sakura ( not clear card ) tsubasa reservoir chronicles, sacrificial princess are gems among shoujo/josei. josei novels and mangas are usually so horrible its amazing cringe and lame stuff like that even gets printed. especially Josei TL. they are a joke. i bought one novel only for the illustrations. the story was atrocious.

no wonder weirdos liked and defended that slut from ten count. may that bitch burn in hell for what she did to shirotani.

i don't even know why we should even care for that gross ex in therapy game. she wasnt getting enough attention from shizuma so she cheated on him. please, just shut the hell up! she was a cheating scumbag and nothing will ever justify her bull. like, how do you even justify this kind of garbage, literally no sensible person would feel sorry for her. if you arent getting attention doesnt mean you jump to another fellow. get help if you are that foolish and strange. you can bet if same crap was in het story literally no one would be trying to make excuses for her, because some weirdos were. ew. she was vile and horrible.

there was even a creepy post about couples from gay anime, some fool watermarked the bottom guys with caption, why are you not girl.

lol, please go get help. ask yourself why are you such a horrible person? they'll always be two guys and in love. they are gay. cry harder and stay mad that gay ships and gay erotic/bl is popular.

[runephoenix6769]

I also graduated in 99, at 16 years old and like Wayne was bullied mercilessly for being gay (even though I was so far in the closet I had no idea I was gay n wouldn't realise it for another 3 or 4 years.)

Did you read that previous sentence?

Subconsciously, I knew it wasn't safe to be queer so my brain tried to protect itself. I was terrified!

I was called faggot, lemon, pedo, dyke, queer. I was jumped. I was accused of ''staring'' and ''peeking'' at the other girls in the changing rooms, to such a point the gym teacher told me change separately in the toilet, not for my own safety because i made the other girls uncomfortable. I wasn't staring at anyone fyi unless you call the wall a person.

They said they were afraid my lemony ass would sexually assault them if they were left alone with me cause I was a dyke.

I was sexually assaulted by boys, having my bra snapped, tits grabbed, bra undone n it was okay cause I was a dyke. When I reported the numerous times it happened I was told ''boys will be boys'' and ''they fancy you, arent you glad?"

Nobody protected me or stepped in.

And just like Wayne, it became too much and I lost my shit beating the crap out of a girl who had been harassing me for years. I broke that bitch's nose and tossed her round the corridor like a rag doll in front of a crowd of students, who were not cheering for me but the other girl. It took two teachers to pry me off her.

I was punished for it by being put in isolation. She got off scott free.

After that students only jeered at me from a distance n made damn sure they werent in arms reach. It suited me fine. Psycho and crazy got added to the list of names, at that point I didn't care. The only other kid in my year getting bullied any where near what I was, was Graham for being gay.

Next time I saw I kid in the year below me getting stuffed in a locker for being ''queer'' I beat those kids asses and got put in isolation again. (and then my parents beat my ass.)

There were other kids rumoured to be gay in my year but Samantha got off easy cause she was the football star. James and Simon were mocked for being a couple - they were besties and in each others pockets -- but James came from money.

Another girl in school, we'll call her Pam. Pam was ultra feminine, and used to hang with the popular girls. She was small, used to paint n file her nails in class, hair done in what ever fad was running through high school teenage girls at the time -- double pink scrunchies with two dumbass hair loopies like Katara from the water tribe , i think -- roll up her skirt, make up, used to get into trouble for wearing heels etc. When Pam's friends were mocking me, Pam joined in but not as enthusiastically as the others.

The most popular girl, Morgan would tell her group to stop n her bestie from infanthood, Sally would never join in.

You know what I heard recently? Pam is now Paul. Pam performed ultra femininity to hide the fact he was trans because it wasn't safe.

Samantha is married now, as is James. Simon wasn't even gay. Graham is now Greta. The most popular girl, Morgan's bestie, Sally came out. I got talking to her recently, and she told me she knew she was gay in high school thats why she and Morgan never joined in and they used Morgan's popularity to protect her, She knew about another girl Sarah being gay. Sarah said she bullied me cause it meant people wouldn't look at herself too closely.

There were loads of kids in my year who were some form of queer n they were all trying to survive in a place where it wasn't safe to be gay.

So that's why before 99 you rarely heard of trans kids, it wasn't fucking safe AND it wasn't like there was literature or dropin centres or spaces where other trans/queer kids could find information/language to describe their experience safely, and each other.

The internet wasn't what it is today, and it wasn't as if the local library of small rural towns were over flowing with books you could read that talked about the queer experience in a positive light.

In movies and tv shows we were still the villains, the comic relief or being brutally murdered. The AIDS crisis was still fresh in people's memories. Queer was deviant, degenerate, wrong, evil. Queer could get you killed. Living a queer lifestyle meant you would end up dead or miserable and lonely if you were lucky.

So with all that in mind, Heather needs to ask herself again why she never heard of trans/queer kids before 1999, or maybe look up her old classmates. She might be surprised by how many of them are some form of queer now.

I graduated high school in 99.

There was a student at our school named Wayne.

Wayne was gay. It was obvious. He was unable to stay in the closet even if he wanted to. To make matters worse, he was also Black. From a bullying standpoint, that was not a great combo. Both Black and white students made fun of him relentlessly. He was ostracized from the only community that may have given him protection. Only us theater kids stuck up for him, but not to significant effect.

Wayne was bullied so much that at one point he finally snapped and attacked his bullies with a lunch tray. I was actually seated in perfect line of sight and just sat there chewing my soggy fries in stunned silence. It didn't even seem real as I was witnessing it. The image of him wailing on his main bully as the food on his tray flew off is permanently logged into my long term memory.

The bully he attacked had blood all over his face and went straight to the nurse. Other than superficial cuts, he was not injured.

Before the attack, Wayne went to teachers for help. He went to guidance counselors for help. He went to the principals for help.

He did all of the things you were supposed to do. No one helped him. They wagged a finger at the bullies and warned them to stop.

Wayne's lunch tray melee was the only thing that worked. His bullies stayed far away from him. But a week later Wayne was expelled and the bullies were given no punishment.

So... no.

No one in my school talked about being trans.

Because the only way to survive being openly queer was to bash people with a lunch tray.

[ajdrawshq]

Riku for the character thing! (And Junpei? Maybe? I think that'd be interesting °•°)

!!!!!!!!!!! putting this under a cut bc i Cannot shut up abt these two in particular bless u

Riku

favorite thing about them: gayass (affectionate) the way that hes so devoted to his best friends that it can easily turn self destructive (or otherwise generally destructive) with one wrong turn is just So. Yes. also im stealing his gender

least favorite thing about them: i wouldnt say i Dislike this bc thematically it fucks but its funny that kh1 is basically just a chain of the worlds' worst decisions bc this poor dumbass doesnt know how to deal w his feelings for his besties. he went from playful teasing on the island to getting straight up possessed how the fuck do u do things this badly

brOTP: Riku n Terra, or any of the wayfinders tbh, and the novel trio (Riku Axel Naminé) OH AND REPLIKU OFC. let Riku be the big brother figure he always wanted to be and give him more friends im begging

favorite line: "at least the waves sound the same..." always hurts me,, he spent all that time trying to escape the islands, then avoided going back there to face everyone. and now when they have no way to get back, no way of knowing if theyll ever even leave this place, hes exhausted and in pain and just.. happy to have that one last reminder of home. ok i need tp go cry now ,

OTP: Sorikai!!! and any 2 of those 3 together, Soriku is obvious but Rikai is SO sweet i love them dearly. Rikuroku is also up there because its funny

nOTP: him with any adults??? and im not a fan of Namiku tbh

random headcanon: hes nearsighted n needs glasses but is too stubborn to get his eyes checked. it only got worse when he wore that blindfold for a whole year and his friends lovingly make fun of him for it (especially Repliku, who didnt inherit his shitty eyesight lmao). also hes demi

unpopular opinion: i do think theres something big/special going on with him but im not convinced its as.. deep? as a lot of people are theorizing but it IS kh so what do i know and i really dont think disney or squenix have the balls to make him canonly/explicitely gay

songs i associate with them: unsaid by flor, Leo by Eve, A Sadness Runs Through Him by The Hoosiers, and like. anything by Jaymes Young bc thats peak sad yearning music right there (ESPECIALLY MOONDUST. stripped version also. god.)

favorite picture of them: oh this one is easy. soft lil dude..

Junpei

favorite thing about them: he is literally just some guy. like the most just some guy character ever. he did NOT ask for any of this he just happened to be dragged into it for reasons he almost couldnt comprehend but were also completely unavoidable. he is ridiculously observant of his environment and other people. he absorbs information like a sponge, which is impressive considering hes a college student fighting for his life and id legit just shut down. he is rational, but tends to act based on emotion when it concerns someone else and at his core is a helpful n caring guy. his ability to joke in a life or death situation is also something between impressive, endearing and worrying. his ability to Very Easily manipulate people is even more worrying. if he werent generally a nice dude id be afraid of him. hes a walking bi disaster and i love that for him. i want to be his friend

least favorite thing about them: horny. also didnt he become an alcoholic or something in the next game is he ok

favorite line: lowkey tempted to list every quote from his wiki bc holy fuck this dude is funny but this one killed me

(although the "people liquid" bit that i do Not remember encountering is up there. and his bi awakening by the elevator)

brOTP: his interactions w like.. idk basically everyone in 999 is so so good but if i had to choose id go w him n Aoi, Snake, n Clover

OTP: i.. dont know what to put here other than Junepei?? i dont rly even ship him with people i just think he needs therapy right the fuck now. or that Carlos guy he flirts with in one of the other games (i think??)

nOTP: idek just the obvious stuff i guess??

random headcanon: that dude is Not neurotypical. i dont have any evidence or anything i just think hes neat and i relate too much to his whole "idk what im doing in life im just kinda here" thing. and the fact that he carries damn near every puzzle he encounters and the 999 puzzles make my brain go brrrrr. shooting him with my adhd beam

unpopular opinion: uhhh.. what counts as a popular opinion???? what is the general consensus on this guy. will say that im afraid to touch the other ze games bc of whatevers going on w him but thats the only thing i got here

song i associate with them: ive been thinking very hard abt this one for thr past few days and i actually cant find anything that clicks here which is. surprising. if u squint i guess some of the songs i put for Riku could fit tbh..

favorite picture of them: i wanted to put that one shot of him during the true end looking at the sudoku puzzle but then i found this concept art of him n .. it appeals to me

[justshepardthings]

I think BioWare should have took this is an opportunity to improve the original trilogy even more, not just things like graphics and UI. Don't get me wrong, I think those are great improvements and I love that the original trilogy is coming back better than ever, but there's so much more they could have done. Adding more powers, weapons and armor, restore queer romances and overhaul romance scenes. Some things in those scenes didn't make sense, like why Liara is the only character that's actually naked in her ME3's romance scene? BioWare may have been afraid to shown too much skin and queer content back then, but Inquisition and Andromeda broke that taboo and those aspects should be improved. I guess I wanted more of a soft remake rather than a pure remaster, but I'm happy that we'll be able to replay those amazing games in 4K wich some gameplay improvements (even if not nearly as many as I think these games deserve).

I feel you. This is what I want in an ideal world and I think everyone wanting something like this makes sense.

However I also see it from Bioware’s POV as well. Number one, a remaster was always what was on the table vs a remake. And a vast majority of things that are altered in the remaster are gameplay things that werent in the OT due to technical limitations at the time (like improved Mako controls and more varied hair options, removing loading screens in ME1). I was actually pretty surprised with the Miranda butt camera removal for that reason since that’s dipping more into narrative changes.

It’s tricky footing to get into the mechanics of changing a narrative and adding in content. That can get you in hot water with fans who are expecting a remake of the OT they’re familiar with. Thinking about it on a high-level as well (like the executive people at EA), fan reactions to changes made after the fact to a property have been negative (Star Wars and Harry Potter come to mind.) They look at vitriol on Twitter and don’t want to get near it. This viewpoint is of course ignoring all context but that’s what executives do. The decision might not even be coming from EA, it could be Bioware themselves who just don’t want to wade into the messy waters of changing more substantive elements of the game.

So basically what I’m saying here is I get it, but I GET IT. I love this series so much I would love to see some of those elements that were clearly toned down in the game after the backlash from that stupid Fox News expose restored now that we’re in 2021. Also since it’s such a different landscape that we’re now looking back at these games. I mean fuck, gay marriage was extended to the entire country of Canada in 2005 and ME1 came out in 2007. Gay marriage in the US wasn’t even legalized until a few years after the OT was finished. I don’t know why I went off into history there it’s just wild to think about.

[theultimatefanficwriter]

About Me

I just realized I never told you guys anything about myself. I wanna do that now, cause I want you guys to feel more like friends than just some strangers to me. So let's go!

My name is Kamryn! It isnt my birth name because-

I am nonbinary! I wont tell you guys what my birth gender was in case anyone isnt accepting of that and wants to misgender me. And speaking of that, if you arent accepting of trans, gay, bi, lesbian, pan etc. people, unfollow or block me right now. I dont accept that shit.

I am pansexual myself, and I have a beautiful girlfriend who I love very much.

I am 22 years old! My birthday is Feburary 16th. Which, yes, means my birthday was a few days ago. I thought of posting something about it but 1. my social anxiety prevented me from doing so in fear it made you guys think I was pressuring you guys into celebrating it and 2. my apartment lost water due to the winter storm that hit and I needed to deal with that.

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Speaking of anxiety, I have many mental health issues, including but not limited to social anxiety, bi-polar, and adhd. So if any of you are struggling with these issues, you can message me and I will try to help, though keep in mind I'm a writer, not a therapist. Also, dont be afraid to message me if you just want to talk. I love making new friends!

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Danganronpa isnt my only special interest. It's not even my latest! It is my strongest at the moment though. My latest special interest is My Hero Academia. My favorite characters are Tokoyami and Iida ^_^ I havent seen the whole show yet, only up to the camp arc, so please no spoilers!

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I curse, like, ALL the time. Like, sailors would be ashamed, make your mother faint, wash my mouth out with soap all the time. I've tried to curb it on here, but people who know me irl will know I have no restraint when it comes to bad language.

I'm working on an original story. It's no where near completion, but if you guys wanna learn about it, let me know!

And last but not least, I have a TON of Danganronpa ocs(and also MHA ocs. Like seriously, it's a problem), but my most prominent one is my Ultimate Tattoo artist, Chino Nakano. If you guys are interested in me going more into detail on him and/or my other ocs, you can let me know about that too!

And that's it! That's everything I could think about to tell you guys about myself! I hope this helped you all feel closer to me! I love you all, and thank you for being apart of my blog! 🥰

[spookspokay]

The only thing keeping us from having more sexy men is overreliance of old ideas of marketability. I KNOW we would be swimming in good gay men rep if people with money werent afraid of anything outside the 80s status quo.

you can say how cringe disney adults are all you want but i think there's something sweet about how many of the people working on the films are horny gay men. it's nice

[tinysatansierra-blog]

Markiplier manor is toxic here’s why

So Markiplier manor (Markipliers official discord server) has gotten a surplus of new people in it, this happened a few weeks ago the manor itself though has been up for awhile. originally a members only server it was eventually opened up for everyone and yes there are alot of genuinely good people and the mods are alright but unfortunately its becoming a toxic environment. 

SO EDIT i have discussed with the mods that being said ... im keeping this up as a reminder of we can do better we can help people who are struggling through something instead of shutting them down we can listen to people who are being oppressed and bravely point out new media that only worsens that oppression and stigmatization and not just the mods who i was kind of harsh towards but who are human everyone as a community can do better and this is a large community think of the work we can do just doing the basics like boycotting problematic content and helping those who cry out for it who need it (and noticing and shutting down manipulative/toxic behaviors) ... i dont know if im going to go back to the manor yet tho im going to let this sit give it a week yall can agree or disagree but know that if you try to be an ass your going to get shut down and your feelings are going to get hurt 

lets start with the basics “triggering topics” triggering topics can be anything in particular but it generally means a topic that relates to another persons trauma. Now while it is important to acknowledge a persons trigger words and try to keep the conversation respectable ive also noticed people use it to shut down people who come on freaking out because their dealing with a stressful situation/something traumatic just happened. This has happened to me personally and to a friend with me it was about being pro choice and having to in short make that actual choice. i was discussing this in the bathroom because i (like anyone else who comes in with baggage) did not know about any pro choice discords at that moment and was afraid of being stigmatized or going onto a discord that says its a safe space only for it to be filled with trolls. Mark manor is labeled as a safe space and many people come on there looking for support with me no one told me that the topic was triggering to them (which apparently it was because a friend of theirs had to make the choice not her herself think what you will) they just went to a mod early on when i just found the server as a member a friend (who i wont name) had gotten.... assaulted majority of her werent online and as someone who has been there and yes when she told me it did trigger my own trauma she needed moral support... the mod shut her down and deleted her comments and didnt give her a pointer to any other discord where she could discuss the topic openly and get moral support and be pointed to resources (it actually took me ten minutes to find and confirm a lgbtq therapy chat earlier this year for another individual discussing mental health) this was before i had gotten on for that day but i noticed those messages and i contacted her when she told me what was up yea it triggered my memories and its not fun but I FUCKING HELPED HER i made sure she went to the police to atleast file a statement (while the police dont always help it is good to have it on file) i even made her a plush and shipped it out to her and i would do it again and again because its not good to basically tell another person to shut up because it triggers others not without atleast trying to help them find another fucking place and making sure their actually ok and in a physical safe place  next is them claiming the manor is a “safe space” a safe space is by definition  “ a place or environment in which a person or category of people can feel confident that they will not be exposed to discrimination, criticism, harassment, or any other emotional or physical harm.” you would also think that the manor would be a safe space in the fact that marginalized and oppressed groups of people would be able to point out problematic content and have an open and free discussion about it and how it makes them uncomfortable. especially people of lgbtq community which alot of people in that chat are. yesterday (and this was what caused me to officially turn away from the server) in the patio (which is the members only chat) a Transgender individual pointed out the problematic content that is huniepop and how it fetishizes trans people as well as other minorities now this game i hear tries to make itself out as a “parody” .... its not its a sexual dating sim what would make it a parody is if sex noises were replaced with donkey sounds and the lewd pictures were replaced with poorly drawn doodles of tits or what have you its a game for incels marks hilarious when he plays it because he doesnt take the game seriously my issue isnt with him its with the developer. and if you did not know (which apparently people dont) the character poli is described as “a girl with a dick” the individual pointed this out because they felt like it dehumanizes them and paints them as nothing more than a fetish... and also apparently you can “choose” is poli is trans which kind of gives off the message that people can ignore trans peoples identity if it makes them uncomfortable... or if they dont sexualize them. and the muslim community is more or less in the same boat i come from the bible belt in usa im not muslim i am not trans but i do have a reason for standing with both and i will get to that in a bit so i was raised in a christian household in a christian setting like muslim women were basically told we cannot have sex and any sexual thought is sinful and we will be punished blah blah blah your even more closeted if your gay or bi because then you can face ... violence that being said to make the woman from the middle east hyper sexual like they did is kind of shitty even for a incel pleasing sex game. the individual who thought it would be ok to discuss this in the server because its labeled as a safe space and is generally “lgbtq” friendly thus believing he would have people agree and discuss ... was unceremoniously shut down by their peers and a mod was notified this person was not hostile maybe a bit frustrated because he wanted to talk about it and thought he would have this genuinely helpful conversation and people would listen and spread the word because to have problematic content be popular can isolate the oppressed group even more so WHEN NO ONE WANTS TO LISTEN TO THEM. if a group of marginalized people notice something problematic with content and you claim to be an ally of said group then you need to acknowledge and support what they say. they told him to go to twitter where he could potentially be bullied and written off ... because again its an INCEL PLEASING SEX GAME.(which means incels if you ever dealt with them will go and say anything to justify the game even using slurs and bullying) and to put the icing on the cake to change the topic they brought up robin ... i actually dont know who robin is as i dont really focus much on youtube creators personal stuff (it feels off for me to not personally know an individual but know their personal stuff without having actually talking to them its weird i know its a thing i have in my head) but apparently they recently came out as female and good for them im super proud of him and the patio members were discussing how they were proud of him as well for beginning to wear makeup and making themselves more feminine which would be great if they werent trying so hard to shut down the trans male who was trying to spread awareness on problematic stuff .... something he pointed out ... and something they gaslighted and said he was being hostile. really its almost as if they only care about trans issues when its someone famous discussing them  so what can we possibly do about huniepop being transphobic and the answer is very easy BOYCOTT IT like... yall were up in arms and boycotted jk rowling with snap and a turn do we only cancel the old and ugly? do we only cancel those who we dont think is funny? mark is not at fault he probably doesnt realize it and any comments made on the issue are talked down upon or drowned amongst other comments im not saying to cancel him im saying to cancel the game HARD. ignore the posts bitch at the dev demand refunds for your game. like consumers have infinitely more power than corps want to admit.  so you basically have a community that claims to be a safe space but only if you want to talk about sunshine and rainbows and its highly hypocritical of them to claim safety.  another thing is emotionally abusive/manipulative people hide in the server and the mods dont ever seem to acknowledge it. i cannot tell you how many times ive gotten into arguments with people who seems nice then turn into assholes then claim to be the victim when i or others go off on them. if you recognize my name you know i dont stand down when it comes to having a snarky or rude comment thrown at me if your going to be an ass were fighting i dont care how nice you seemed beforehand and you dont get to call a mod just because i actually stood up for myself or others sorry not sorry dont be a bitch nuff said.  now why would i care so much about problematic content? why would i care and stand by the transgender and muslim people (aside from being ya know... an actual ally and not someone who claims it for sympathy and brownie points?) its because i am autistic i am also able to function well on my own but there is a movie created by the famous singer sia it is called music it is a movie frowned upon by the autisitic community because infantizes and dehumanizes non verbal autistic people i am fortunate and unfortunate in not having to deal with much stigma unfortunate because i wasnt diagnosed until i was 17 alot of answers about my behavior could have been answered if i had been diagnosed earlier but considering society loves the quiet timid female and i functioned “well” for neurotypicals i was ignored. so yea you bet your ass im standing with them and raising awareness about huniepop and their was this one person when i mentioned this point i cant remember there name nor to do i give a shit about them because when i mentioned how autistic people ... how i was in the same boat with music by sia (again i advise that no one target the actress who was under contract target sia and please boycott her so she knows she cant get brownie points or money for a movie that stigmatizes who she claims she wants to “help” (*cough* profit off of *cough cough*) and only serves as a feel good movie for neurotypicals and ignorant people)  they said “i heard people who hated the movie i heard people who found it alright people are ALLOWED to like problematic content” ... and like ... does anyone else see the problem here? its not hard at all to boycott celebrities for making content  and im going to repeat this point  IF A GROUP OF MARGINALIZED, STIGMITIZED AND OPPRESSED PEOPLE CALL OUT SOMETHING FOR BEING PROBLEMATIC AND YOU CLAIM TO BE AN ALLY YOU FUCKING LISTEN TO THEM AND DONT SHUT THEM DOWN I DONT GIVE A SHIT YOU DONT HAVE A FUCKING EXCUSE. if you cant bring yourself to boycott a piece of media and replace it with the infinitely more suitable forms that supports the group you claim to be for your not an ally your a fucking hypocrite  and that is why i left markiplier manor i am still a youtube special ... thingy member and i will continue to be a member to support mark i want people to overall listen to those who speak up against a creator and a piece of media and listen to us all no matter how “good” something seems. .. also there is a video called listen it was created by nonverbal autistic people  and communicationFIRST a group that sia apparently communicated with for her movie... and then ignored  https://youtu.be/H7dca7U7GI8

[c0untb00z]

I would just like to clear, I don't hate the BBC Dracula 2020 Show. In fact, I actually like the idea of Dracula being set in modern times like in the show, but I would like it a lot better if it wasn't written like a fucking reader insert fanfiction.

Don't get me wrong, I love me some reader inserts every once in a while but they're meant to be on Wattpad. Sometimes, you can find really fucking good fanfictions that could genuinly be movies, but this really just feels like someone wrote an erotic fanfiction for Dracula. It almost reminds me of a worse version of 50 Shades of Grey with less kinky sex.

First and foremost Agatha Van Hesling. I actually kinda liked her personality, how driven she was and determined to never give up, but she was literally created for a love interest. In Dracula by Bram Stocker, Sister Agatha is a nun that nurses Jonathan back to health, claiming he was 'sick in the head' as he ranted of what he had seen and warning others of Dracula. She doesn't even have a last name.

However there is a Dr. Van Hesling in the book, hes dutch(???) Professor that mentors and taught(????) Jack Seward who was in love with Lucy, who was fed off of and eventually killed and eventually undead by the means of the one and only Dracula. Dr Van Hesling plays a large role in the plot of the book. He has an open mind and was able to draw connections between things that some others couldn't, as he had access to more sources and could speak to most off the charecters involved. He's the first person to present the idea of a vampire, and Lucy turning into one. Thanks to Jonathan he was able to identify the vampire feeding on Lucy as Dracula and finds out how to kill the vampires.

So basically Agatha was literally fabricataed for the sole perpose of being there, to fall in love with Dracula or something.

I know we all are horny for Dracula. I'm horny for Dracula. Vampires are fucking hot but the sexiest part of vampires is that they ya know. Kill you and are mercily and heartless. The show does show that in a lot of parts and even decapiates a nun and yeets it into a gaggle of nuns which i fucking died at. But it also, humanizes him way to much, hes literally a monster. The scene in the boat with lord whats his name really portrayed that. It was really,,,, weird cause me being a kinky fucker I don't find the particular phrases of "you're going to need to be quiet now," and " youre doing so well" that creepy and if anything a little hot but looking at the circumstance and the look on that kids face, it was like r e a l y fucked up. Which is why i liked that scene. It showed just how fucked up Dracula is.

To be fair i did like Cleas Bangs acting and casting as Dracula. He had a certain charm that was ever so s l i g h t l y off. I heard people say he just 'made up an accent' but fuck you guys its a fucking danish accent you incolent twats anyways. He could be really funny at times and i actually apprecited it.

However the casting AND acting of the modern parts is absolute shit. Ep.3 is where i kinda gave up on the show and finsihed it for the sake of torturing myself. FIRST OF FUCKING ALL LUCY i cannot fathom how P I S S E D i am about Lucy. Why did they have to make her a phone obsessed basic asshole with no regards to anyones emotions besides her own and the extent of her personality is 'getting likes on socail media is all i care about because it makes me feel validated so im gonna wallo in self pity because i was obiously written by white man in his 50s that would have made me white if he wasnt forved to throw in diversity points" like shut the fuck up steven king.

Also lucy and mina never meet??? Theyre in different fucking time lines??? Theyre friendship and love for eachother was fucking golden how dare you rob that form me and give me a garbage bag full of shit with a shiny little bow on top in its place jesus f u ck.

The cemetary scene was o k ay i gues?? I liked the little nod to the book with the bloofer lady and the concept of random sprits being undead because of unfinished buisness. But this really just felt like it was slapped in the show for the sake of going on a date with Dracula in cemetary. I actually kinda apperacted it but it just felt awkward.

Also who the f u ck is Lucy's friend? The gay one??? Like,,,, is that supposed to Arthur???? His chatecter was so fu king weird and offset he just didnt feel like he should be in there. Hes literally just there for a-50-year-old-man's-interpretation-of-young-women-now-a-days verson of Lucy to have a gay best ffriend.

Ok i not even sure if i want to talk about Quincy. It just hurts. It physically hurts me to think about how d i r t y they did my baby. His charecter is the defination of american chivalry, just as great as regular chivarly but with a little extra cowboy vibe. Quincy is jist the biggest,,,, sweet haert,, like he asked lucy to marry him in his cool american cowboy voice cause he knew lucy loved it and it always made her laugh. And even when she turned him down becayse her heart belonged to arthur, he stayed. All he wanted was for lucy to be happy and all he requested was that they stay frirnds. Hes also invovled with taking fkwn dracula although hes not a main charecter percice ly as he doesnt have any entires in the book he still has an amaizing precence and sometimes while reading the book ill be readying one of dr sewards passanges and think "huh i wonder what quncys doin. I hope hes dooin good. Cowboy vibes n stuffs" amd boy dles he do that. Everh dracula film adaptataion robs us. R O B S U S of quincy morris best scene. In the middle of dr van helsing ranting about vampires( thats basically what half of the book is. I could write a 4p minute mono louge of his rambling jesus how does sweard take note of all this) quincy litterally just walks out. And nobodg really pays any notice beside glancing ag his leave and shrugging at one anouther and going back tl listneing tl van helsing explaining his vampire fan theories quincy moris , the quincy morris from texathe untited states of the amerkca the land and the free and also cowboys.stands outside of the bouilding and pints his gun up at. Dracula whos in the shape of a fucking bat eves ddopping outside the window and just fucking,,shoots it. Now he doesnt hit it cause thatt wouldnt be as fun as brutally stabbing the fucker witja wooden stake. But S T I L L. And the fucking bullet hits the window that everybodys in anprobably causes arthur to shit himself the ppoor boy. Can you belive that theh didnt fucking flim thatfor any dracul? Now i i under stands why not put in this adaptation because quincy is only mentionsed like three god damned times. And when theh DK mention him jesusnshit they literally jsut made him some popular jock from amwrica just to conter jacks white twinky ass and then they had him propose to lucy in the middle of a fucking night club and she says yes???? Lile ok jut throw Arthur out a window then cause cause fu c k him i guess. And then after lucy dies he jjsy fucking moves ?? The only thing thta makes this version of qincy quinccy is the fu king name and fact hes from america

Ok now jack fucking seward. He reminds me of when ylu forget you had a pb&j in your back pack so in the bos after school you pull it out cause yoyr hungry and yoyr mom put WAY to much jelly on it so now its like. All obsorbed into the bread and joggy and squished. Just sad and really white. They even had some kid call him whate bread and they werent fucking wrong. His obly personality traits were ' omg i love lucy but shes a hoe ;,,,((' and being connected to Zoe.

Now last and definately least the god forbaden ending. Just thinking about it gives me a fucking head ache. So , jesus, zoe, who is agathas great niece or someshit, a d looks exactly like her (its literally the same fucking actress) is a detective lile scitist reasearching dracula. So dracula is illedatly attracted to her becasue he thinks shes like agathas reincarnation or soenshit. So he tries tk drink her blood at one point and spits it all out and pukes and sjit cause her blood is poisonous bevaise she has fucking c an c e r. So later we find out that draculas weaknesses ( the sun crucifix) arnt actually real hes just afraid of dying so he has like irration fears or some shit so for some fucking reason. They deside. Its a good iea to end the show with this:

Dracula fucking drinks all of zoes blood killing her and himself because her blood poisonus. And ghe fucking emd scene is them like,,, in the sun???? Or soemt hi ng??? And theyre naked and like presumably fucked and dracula says some shit like " its doesnt have to hurt" and i almost tore my wrist open wiith my teeth because of how shitty this ending is.

Not lnly is it disrespectful to zoe but agatha, agathas whole thing was K I L I N G. dracula she wanted him fucking D E A D she woULDNT FUCK HKM

And like just after finding out that he can be in the sunlight with out fucking dying and that crosses just make him umcomfortable or some shit he just desides to kill himself??? DUDE YOU JUST FOUND OUT YOURE PROACTICALLY MORE INVINCABLE THAN YOU WERE BEFORE AND YOU JSUT FUCKING OFF YOUR SELF ??? HE COULD HAVE FUCKING RULED ENGLAD AND SPEAD VAMPIRISM OLL LVER THE FUCKING COUNTFY AND WORLD KF HE TRIED HARD ENOUGH AND HE KILLS HIMSELF BECAUSE THEY WANTED A STUPID SAPPY ENDING

anyway if anyone actually goes through the effort of reafing my god damn eS S A Y about Dracula that i finkshed typing (im not gonna bother editing tbh) at 4 fucking am. Then thank you and please get a life

[edsbev]

im so happy that they all remember at the end like watching that made me so happy and relieved for them. They get to remember the love they have for each other. Also hanbrough slapped in this movie ngl like they had some soft moments. Reddie is #1 always and benverly is #2 for sure but hanbrough was pretty good

ok i have something to say abt hanbrough bc i absolutely adored them in this movie. and i loved how they werent afraid to show these grown men being affectionate and caring towards their other male friends (ben and eddie also had some cute moments). this movie was free of toxic masculinity and i loved that. but! the fact that it felt like the platonic male friendships were allowed to be more affectionate/vulnerable with each other than the two male characters that were supposed to actually have feelings each other was....hm. 

bill and mike literally get an ‘i love you’ scene. (tho they no homo it with ‘i love you man’ but still). but its like the only reason hanbrough were allowed to be so close was bc they could no homo it. since bill has a wife and kisses bev and everything, so audiences would just assume he’s straight. (mike is gay in this movie to me tho. he just is). meanwhile they cant no homo reddie, so any gay content they’d give them would be full homo, and hollywood/audiences just cant handle that i guess :/

like i get it. richie and eddie are in the closet and have a lot of repressed feelings. but straight people wrote them that way. and it feels like they wrote it that way so they could have gay characters without actually making them...do anything gay. it was just annoying. and richie and eddie should’ve had that ‘i love you’. 

[tetrisdotcom]

💫 (if you’re comfortable doing so), 🍒, 🔭, 🍉

💫 - talk about / describe your gender / sexuality

in terms of labels? i just go by really vague terms. mostly just "queer", especially "genderqueer" idk i just think it sounds rad. i basically have a gender that isn't either of the binary genders but is also sorta a mix of them? genderqueer and nonbinary are the easiest ways to describe the feeling for me. i vibe with genderpunk as well that's sexy. ykno if you wanna know the real vibes it's really just that i wanna look like the person described in 'somebody told me' by the killers; "a boyfriend who looks like a girlfriend that i had in february of last year" yeh that's me.

but yeh sexuality? no clue. not a slightest idea. i just like people, but even then i'm not sure if it's romantic or sexual so ehhh that's why i just go with queer. idrk what i am but i sure as fuck ain't straight or cis that's for sure. i feel like becus i see gender as just like, nonexistant unless you want it to be, then it rlly doesn't matter to me in terms of attraction either? cus i just see a person rlly idc. i do have a tendency to go for effeminate people but that's my own problem ajsnaksn

🍒 - if you are out, who was the first person you came out to?

see i've come out as loads of things in my lifetime but the first time i've come out in terms of sexuality i came out as bi asexual to a group of friends who are no longer my friends for good reasons lmao. that was fine they didn't care i was like 11 maybe? idk around that time is when i had gender feelings so i Tried to come out as genderfluid to my best friend (who is now an out trans man, but we're not friends anymore sadly) but after a while that just got brushed off. the first time i properly came out as trans was uhh two years ago? february of 2018 i was at my friends sleepover and i came out to her and my best friend and to this day theyre the only ppl irl who know abt the trans thing. so yeh. a lot of different answers lol!

🔭 - what are you most proud of doing in the last year?

i came out to my mom! for like 6 years i've known that i am gay and i finally told her about it and she was completely fine (albeit kinda thought it might be a phase becus i'm young but it could've gone worse) and idk i feel less. tense around her now cus i can just. say dumb gay shit without being afraid that she'll find out becus she knows now lol

🍉 - what's the best thing about being lgbtq+?

we're just better lol. nah but rlly if i werent queer i'd be like, so boring ajsjajsjka i'd have no sense of fashion, no sense of self. it's just like, such a big part of who you are and something you can be proud of and it's a lovely community if you find the right people. being openly queer (not in the gender category but ykno lol) has definitely made me more outspoken and confident and ykno i just like it. it's cool to be queer and have fun with it ykno

[livealives]

hello hello it’s kavi the menace again :D i’ve rambled about wolfgang and now i will ramble about phoenix. once again dont be afraid to hmu on d*scord ( greedling#3129 ) or shoot me a tumblr im.

APPLICATION

∽∕ [PARK SEONGHWA, CISMALE, HE/HIM ] hey! you must be that [ TWENTY-ONE ] year old player people were talking about! they kept saying your name is [PHOENIX MAY], but that you go by [ NYX ], and that you’re a [ PERENNIAL] and from [NEW YORK]. oh! and also that you’ve been working as a [PRIVATE INVESTIGATOR] while you’re in here. I really hope it’s true, ‘cus i’ve also heard that you’re [DETERMINED] & [SINCERE], but i’m not going to lie that some say you’re [ PESSIMISTIC ] & [ APPREHENSIVE ]. wait a second…now that I think about it, you kind of remind me of [ WILTED FLOWERS, INK STAINED HANDS, BLOOD SHOT EYES ], which is pretty cool! see you around then! ∕∽

TRIGGER WARNINGS: CAR CRASH, DEATH

STATISTICS

► basics;

full name (f, l): phoenix may age: 21 birthday: december 5 deathday: september 18 this year gender: cismale sexual orientation: gay occupation: private investigator main realm: skyline ► background;

place of birth: new brunswick, new jersey residence @ time of death: new york education: criminal justice major in progress ► physical;

faceclaim: park seonghwa eye color: brown  hair color & style: when he died, he had soft brown hair [link]  height: 5′10 tattoos, birthmarks, scars, etc: has a little heart shaped birthmark on his right wrist. in game: nyx has two distinct appearances. the first is blond hair [link] & pointed elf-like ears. the second is black hair [link] & vampire-like fangs. the reason? he just wanted to have a lil fun bc he didnt really allow himself to have fun when he was alive. also, he was very obsessed with fantasy as a child... thus the ears & fangs...

► personality;

positive traits: (mentally) strong, realistic, thoughtful, perceptive negative traits: blunt, hard-headed, anxious, uptight alignment: neutral good more: think a lot first, act later. makes lists to stay organized and on top of things. caring, borderline parental at times. takes care of others before himself; finds himself to be rather unimportant in the grand scheme of things. will take a bullet for someone he doesnt know the name of. analytical and very intelligent. he can make split second decisions but it isn’t something he’s comfortable with. if possible, he likes to sleep on big decisions so he can make the best choice (but lbr, he wont actually be able to sleep). drives himself anxious to no end bc of how much he overthinks. determined as all hell. hates making choices (think chidi from the good place). needs to let loose but never got the chance to.

► misc;

hobbies: taking care of plants, singing (but never infront of anyone that isnt his family) favorite book: lord of the rings & the hobbit.  favorite music genre: alternative & rock pets: no pets, only plants

BIOGRAPHY

nyx was the oldest of three children. his younger siblings erew fraternal twins and were born when nyx was 10. their parents were extremely busy and had little to no time to spend with their kids. they werent bad parents, they were just busy and forgetful. nyx harbored nothing against them, in fact, he absolutely loved them. both of his parents worked as incredibly smart researchers and were somehow involved in the creation of utopia.

so nyx was essentially left to raise his siblings himself. he learned to be independent at a very young age so he could be a good role model for his siblings and take care of them properly. 

he’s a mediocre cook, an incredible cuddler, a good shoulder to cry on, a good bedtime story teller & lullaby singer, etc etc i cant words right now

even when raising two kids, he managed to keep his grades high enough & do enough extra curriculars to graduate valedictorian and attend columbia as a criminal justice major. he got a license for private investigation and started a side job soon after.

last febuary, his entire world fell apart. he got a call from robert woof johnson hospital about his family. all of a sudden, his entire family was dead. the details were redacted, and he was told that it was ruled an accident. no matter how hard he pressed and who he asked, no one said a thing.

his grades faltered but he kept them up for the rest of the semester. he stopped working and isolated himself from his friends. he stopped taking care of himself and even the plants he loved so dearly started to die. he stayed up for weeks and months trying to piece together any sort of detail regarding what happened.

he died at the start of the semester that just started. scatterbrained and low on sleep, he was involved in a hit and run. the ambulance was able to gather data necessary to upload him to utopia before somewhat stabilizing him. in the hospital his condition worsened and he ended up passing that night. a friend that had once been close to him consented on his behalf for him to be uploaded into utopia. 

in utopia, hes deadset on finding two things: his family and answers. 

he still somewhat-works as a private investigator, meaning that if someone comes to him with a grievance, he’ll do anything in his power to help them.  

this is short and barely coherent because i really dont have many details for him yet. basically, phoenix is just a very nice person trying to do nice things but nice things dont happen to him. connections page coming soon. i will leave u with this incredibly cute gif.