#if kenneth wasnt so FUCKED

[jazz-kity]

jesus christ keta. preumptive jesus christ neved you torture a guys daughter for THISSS?????? goodness gracious

[bugtypeskilledandthenrevivedme]

im a person that is real (no lies here)

i dont really have a name. if you really need to buggy is fine. i know internet safety. it/its. if you use they/them for me then i will actually just kill you.

where i live: none of your buisness and barely even mine.

where i came from: your left nut.

my pokemon: okay finally a good question (i was starting to get a little impatient)

i have a Firoke (named Baby Man) (commonly just refrred to as Lord Babilicous Esquire Esquire The Third of His name: House of Man) (also just Baby) that i love with all of my heart even though he is dumb as bricks. I will link an image of him cuz Firoke dont really live in other regions.

i also have an Purugly named Kenneth. she has the demeanor of a sixty year old man who lost both his legs in bicycle incident. shes also mostly blind so unfamiliar people = scary = threat. her dad was also a nidorino so shes got a horn. is evil.

and a falinks. its just around. their name is command.

caught a heracross. her name is sixteen-crunching-leaves-stuck-elytra. tried to get her to agree on anything shorter but it wasnt happening

got a larvesta. no name yet but thats because baby man is taking his sweet fuckin time

my biology? fucked. ive got mandibles, bug wings, compound eyes. the whole shebang

now also adding glitter and shit to your mass produced pokeballs. so they dont look lifeless and mass produced. pay what you want, send me an ask about and ill work on it.

buggy: firoke hybrid (magically induced). level 32. moves: overheat, incinerate, x-scissor and sunny day.

Baby man: firoke. level 42. type: fire/bug moves: incinerate, bug bite, sunny day and nightshade.

Kenneth: purugly/nidorino hybrid (12 percent nidorino. 88 percent purugly. 100 percent shithead). type: normal/poison. level 40. moves: dig, poison jab, retaliate and fake out.

Command: falinks. type: fighting. level 29. moves: reversal, protect, headbutt and bulk up.

Sixteen-Crunching-Leaves-Stuck-Elytra: heracross. type: fighting/bug. level 58. moves? she does what she want

// hi there. finally made that other blog huh. and at an ungodly hour.

// magic anons are off until i say so. because thats the way the world works. TERFs, intolerant people and the like can honestly just walk into an imdustrial freezer and go to sleep. forever. sentient pokemon are welcome, this fucker has seen weirder shit.

// pelipper mail is on. please send this fucker pipebombs god knows they need them. also no replies. i keep forgetting to turn that off

// also i will be counting some fakemon as real, the entire pokemon uranium dex is canon because buggy is from tandor.

[old-hunter-henryk]

7, 8, and 12 for the ask game? 👁️

“what character did you begin to hate not because of canon but because how how the fandom acts about them?”

mohg. hes a compelling character but how a lot of the fandom treats him makes me want to hit people with sticks. its possible to talk about him without resorting to shitty jokes or woobifying him but thats so rare to see. literally part of why i want to give varré a big role in a fic im planning is so i can rehabituate myself to him.

“common fandom opinion that everyone is wrong about”

that malenia v radahn had a winner. malenia became closer to becoming goddess of rot! radahn got rotted so bad theres a festival arranged by his own men to try and mercy kill him! both of their armies got largely fucked over! caelid itself and many of its citizens got fucked over! it wasnt even a pyrrhic victory for either of them, they! both! lost! all that was gained from the battle of aeonia was widespread death and decay for all parties involved

“the unpopular character that you actually like and why more people should like them”

kenneth haight! he gives really interesting insights to how the lands between work on the smaller scale, and i think he and nepheli in stormveil, establishing her as its ruler and generally trying to fix the mess left behind by godrick could be very interesting to explore post-canon

special shout-out to my boy henryk too but objectively theres less canon material to work off of then with kenneth

[remholder]

Titans artists who cant draw women

yall, kinda dumb but still slightly right: Kenneth Rocafort

me, an intellectual but not by much: Ian Churchill

[funky-sea-cryptid]

chapter 1

3 and 1/2 pages of exposition.

these three pages of exposition are centered on a raindrop. i dont know how said raindrop is going all over the fucking place?

can raindrops change color if they go through smog clouds? just googled it and actually smog cloud stifles rain, so i dont know why it's raining so damn much

first page introduces the previous (now dead) chief commissioner kenneth. why is he introduced? no one knows. because he isnt a major character. he's just kind of? mentioned? why?

nesbo introduces two of the minor characters in the first chapter: kite, a reporter, and tortell, the sitting mayor. lots of critique of tortell, but that's for later

mentions a "soviet vessel leaking so much rust into the water that it looks like its bleeding". is that... possible?

glamis reference

duff entrance! duff's my sweet boy and i'll have lots of furious rambles about how jo nesbo did him SO dirty later on.

duff is described as having "the hands of a concert pianist", "miserly lips", "intense blue eyes", a "nose like an aggressive beak" and a massive scar that "splits his face in half" put a pin in his scar, it's important. (and i have thoughts on that reveal).

the norse riders show up. they're so fucking - listen. for such minor characters, nesbo describes them a lot. my man does not shut up ever.

"the anonymous tip-off duff had recieved" how on earth did this happen fr.

seyton is like "we should call in SWAT" and duff's like "NO NO WE'RE NOT CALLING SWAT STFU" like bestie- bestie you are outnumbered!

9 police people to 12 norse riders.

duff challenges his men to leave for the ms glamis on friday - ALL OF THIS HAPPENS IN A WEEK??

we're still on chapter one.

oh my god.

"he knew his appearance and confidence attracted a certain type of woman" oh my god SHUT UPPPPP

duff about to send the youngest officer to pin the gang people. hOw CoUlD tHiS pOsSiBlY gO wRoNg (said with sarcasm)

macbeth had called to help out and duff said NO??????

seyton: can you smell it? duff: smell what? seyton: their fear. WHAT THE HELL.

duff: macbeth and SWAT are asleep in bed.

hard cut to macbeth and SWAT, not in bed.

im going to gouge my eyes out this is still chapter one.

banquo sounds... so british????

first mention of fife, this nameless shithole of a town's sister town.

banquo: this is why we should have guns :) macbeth: what.

introduce olafson, some sharpshooter guy

oh and angus hiiii angus :D

does the s in a ZIS-5 actually stand for stalin or is this book set in the 1950's?

this will be a common theme: did this happen or is this book set in the 50's?

this chapter is... so long

introduces bonus! this could've been a different chapter

anyways bonus is like "i shouldnt drink so much :) but im gonna anyways."

hecate hiiii

oh shit wait i forgot hecate was a man in this. im so sorry hecate that this gross ass old man did this to you :,,(

hecate has the villain monologue and is ominous and shitty blah blah blah jo nesbo is so fucking. he writes so long and its so frustrating to me, a bitch who has already written a macbeth adaptation. i was sooo worried in posting my rewrite to ao3 that i wasnt descriptive enough and now i know there's such thing as "too descriptive"

cut back to the harbor. duff and the gang have fucked up

they got sivart. is he supposed to be young siward? who knows. not me.

jo nesbo and his villain monologues. take a shot every time there's a monologue.

duff's like "ohhhh im such an idiot" like yeah....

macbeth insulting his men asmr.

i dont CARE about angus and olafson's backstory, okay??? like?????

ALL OF THE HECATE SCENES COULD BE A DIFFERENT CHAPTER.

macbeth fucking... pulls??? a lamp??? off a storefront?????????????

macbeth saves the day!! and chapter one ends.

[uglypastels]

Okay so, I'm rereading Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets and we can all probably agree that Gilderoy Lockhart is a fucking ICON in his own special way - but it got me to thinking.

(Before I continue, no hate on Kenneth Branagh because I stan his protrayal of Lockhart in the movie but ya know, this is just for funsies.)

So, in the books, it keeps being mentioned how fucking gorgeous and handsome this man is and thats kind of the thing with the movies innit, he wasnt THAT handsome??? Like, a very good looking man but it just wasnt enough I feel like. (Also i feel like the movies made everyone so much older but thats an entire different issue) There was in general something about Goldilocks that just didnt hit the mark for me in the movie, or maybe because it wasnt even that well translated into words in the book but i got it.

Because see, after long consideration while reading the book, its a simple conclusion: Gilderoy Lockhart is a himbo. I could go on a much longer rant explaining but i feel like we get the point and I know people dont want to read long posts

So. My late proposal for casting of Gilderoy Lockhart

Chris Hemsworth.

And before anyone tries to say otherwise. Please just think about it. Just... think

[might-be-judas]

shut up

ok fuck you I made a giant wall of text and its TOO big for one post so i have to break it up but also everyone just scroll quickly this is gonna be really long

Judas Priest was formed in 1969 in England. They took the name from another band, also Judas Priest, that existed briefly, didnt really do anything and broke up. That original Judas Priest took it from the song title "The Ballad of Frankie Lee and Judas Priest" by Bob Dylan. This new Judas Priest band included Kenneth 'KK' Downing, who could barely actually play when he auditioned and left school (and home, I think?) at 15(!?!?) to practice guitar. He also had his schoolmate Ian Hill to play bass. Together they joined vocalist Al Atkins and whoever the drummer was, although throughout the 70s they change drummers constantly. They dont do anything very interesting yet, and Al says seeya before long. Well, now they need a new singer. Ian just so happens to be dating Sue Halford, who recommends her brother Rob. Impressed by his crazy vocal range, they put him in the band. In an interview Rob says it was a bit embarrassing, as he was singing Doris Day is the shower when Ian came over. Regardless, they are a whole band again- but wait, the record company suggests adding a 5th member to make them stand out. They say maybe a pianist or even some horns, which would have been interesting, but they decide on a second lead guitar (which, spoiler, was a good idea). This is probably the first use of dual lead guitarists in metal, but also metal was barely even a genre yet, if at all. The new guy is Glenn Tipton, and he and KK form an incredible twin-axe team who can play off eachother expertly. Finally ready for their first album, they put out Rocka Rolla in 1975. It wasnt very metal- it would take a while for them to develop their sound. It also wasnt very successful. The band was kinda broke, so it was time to get back to the studio and make something better. Also, right now, they dress like hippies, because it's the 70s and they dont know what else to do. With a new drummer (Alan Moore) they released the Sad Wings of Destiny album in 1976. This one was not overly successful either I think, but it was better. Three songs stand out on this album: Dreamer Deceiver, which displays Rob Halford's wide vocal range very well, with some low sung lines and some high-pitched screaming- The Ripper, which is a cool fucking song that I did not think was from 1976 and they still perform it because it rocks- and Victim of Changes, which is also a pretty good display of Rob's voice and its cool and still performed because its a good song. Theyre still kinda broke though. Their current record company, Gull, sucks and is broke and the Priest says seeya and moves to work with the Columbia record company instead. Things are a little better now and they're not starving and maybe they dont have to do random jobs anymore.

[eltonjohndenver]

The King (netflix) review

Amloth Rating: 10/13

First off, if nothing else, the production design in itself is phenomenal. Gorgeously shot, battle scenes are fan-fucking-tastic.

Timothee Chalamet: I was skeptical! But i have to say he was fucking fantastic in acting and portraying this character. Especially this version of Henry; yes, he doesnt appear as the “macho” king henry we’re used to, but this gives him this underdog strength that i think is a really amazing addition to his character. His strength isn’t from his kingship or his physical mass, but his spirit. LOVE THIS!

The Story: SO as you know Henry V is the only valid Shakespeare play in my eyes. AND i love the Kenneth Branagh version. HOWEVER this is my new favorite. This may be biased because i hate Shakespeare but not having this telling be word-for-word the play is amazing. By omitting that language it draws you much further into the actual movie. And it allows him to SHOW EMOTION! He cries 3 times in this movie. THREE! Not only does this make henry seem real and un-glorify the story, but it reinforces that being a king is only a title, one that tends to overpower all other aspects of the character.

So yes, this is different and there are some questionable plot changes. But overall the good changes override the bad ones.

Robert Pattenson: I mean it wasnt who i would have chosen but he was actually funny so pass!

Catherine: What the fuck. This is my main hold up. The worst casting. This is mean but Lily-Rose Depp is ,,,, not beautiful. And when your competition is Emma Thompson,,, i feel like they could have done better. Like i can name 10 actresses off the top of my head that have both the beauty and skill to play her. 

Bonus commentary: omg the beheading scene so good.

[nialltlynch]

oct -> nov reading/writing check in

read:

greywaren - maggie stiefvater (5/5. absolutely insane book. shit ending to the series 🥰)

witches on the road tonight - sheri holman (3/5. really refreshing. felt like there was a lot more that could have happened but maybe i just wanted a different book. very much enjoyed the pieces of this book - characters, setting, pseudo magical shtuff - but altogether it felt lacking.)

the centaur's wife - amanda leduc (3/5. first half was so good! i loved how the fairy tales were interseped and i was so interested in the survival stuff. incredible atmosphere. but then the second part ?? it went a little too far afield for me and it just kept going. the ending kinda came together again a little but it just wasnt the same. huge disappointment unfortunately.)

rivers in the desert - margaret leslie davis (2/5. so funny that even back in 1915 or whatever they were like "whoa even if we completely tapped this water table dry we still wouldn't have enough water for everyone in this godforsaken city 🤔🤔 ah fuck it let's do it anyway !!!!" like. god. get a life. for sure a very interesting look into a neat chapter in california history but it kinda made me hate mr mulholland (i disliked him on principal already tho so meh). rating is for how much i enjoyed it and not necessarily on the reliability/truthfulness. im not well versed enough to talk about that.)

the wind in the willows - kenneth grahame (5/5. mr toad would do numbers on tumblr. love him.)

wrote:

jordeclan fic

kavinsky fic

unpublished miscellaneous stuff ((:

[survivor-ingary]

Episode 9 - "I GOT A SUPER IDOL AKJSDNKSJANDKJ" - Kenneth

At the last tribal, Toph was voted out. During the past round, Keith found an exile ticket in the idol hunt and is in exile this round. The individual immunity this round is a 'chop the rope' style of Touchy Subjects. It will be followed by an instant tribal council.

ANNA OU- the execution of the vote was an absolute mess this is embarrassing y'all... i'm really starting to not trust ellie more and more considering the way this vote went! the way we were originally gonna vote toph but all this mess led to us flipping votes to brayden, which was a fail cuz he played the idol to himself and not toph LOL and not babs giving the idol to ellie cuz she would've gone home tonight!!!!! thank god the end results were still in our favor, getting rid of toph, but raffy is pissed once again lmao. this twist is very interesting, because i knew ahead of time that keith was gonna poof this round but i played dumb and whateva! it's kind of concerning cuz it might actually be a 4-4 split this time which SCARES ME so the extra vote consideration might be even higher. I really wanna win this Touchy Subjects challenge so the votes don't pile onto me (even though I fully believe it'll be either Dennis or Ellie lol)

my bestie toph just went home and im so sad :( he was literally my closest ally in the game and i am literally sooooo sad that he’s gone. but i did use my idol on myself which ended up being good bc if i didnt i would have gone to jury. just like everything is going wrong for me at this point and im on the bottom pretty much with raffy and anastasia. we needed to flip 2 people to have majority, BUT KEITH LEFT TO EXILE ISLAND AND HE WAS THE MAIN OPTION WE WANTED TO FLIP, so now that leaves kenneth and babs and we have to flip both of them or we are out of here. so we have our work cut out for us, but i really think we can flip babs because like they would just get like 6th place without us, and i just gave i think a pretty good pitch to kenneth so i really hope he considers it and doesn't just run and tell his majority alliance like he did with anastasia. anyways the challenge is touchy subjects and im nervous and i kind of am wishing i voted kenneth for biggest goat but i think i put riley and i regret ut. i hope someone says kenneth as biggest goat or something so it opens his eyes and he realizes he is literally number 4 to a solid 3 and should flip and be number 4 in our not at all solid 3. anyways i really hope i live this round

Captain Exile's log, Entry #58. I have been on exile island for an hour. it seems like forever... my mind is slowing turning into mush. I fondly remember the days I would plot Raffy's demise. Those days now seem like a lifetime ago.

I wonder why the 3 time keeping hosts have forsaken to this island, making me a fool by calling it a vacation. I also will never forgive them for not having an exile island hidden immunity idol. I should have asked Jay to send her cat to keep me company. . opportunity missed.

my favorite hobby is writing checks i can't cash

raffy realllllllly seems to trust me

babs realllllllllyyyy trusts me

ellie reallllllllly trusts me

kenneth realllllyyyyyy trusts me

keith reallllllllllllllllllyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy trusts me and i trust him right back

a+b do not trust me so im gonna have fun with this.

i love that idols just naturally attract themselves to ellie.

i love that keith and i are doing an amazing job as undercover kings and it makes me laugh that raffy completely believes that keith is perfectly in his back pocket. king of delusion.

i stirred up a lot of paranoia but its believable that ellie is the one thats mainly on dat.

excited for touchy subjects would love to win

I'm too nice for orgs. I reload video games when I accidentally select the mean dialogue options because I don't want to hurt any character's feewings. Which... is NOT the same as genuinely thinking everyone is a pleasant person.

Well, as the only person playing this live challenge sort of "remotely" ahead of time I feel like I'm in a really weird position. I guess I'll wake up tomorrow to... something? A clusterfuck most likely.

Brayden round 9 is already over but im pretending im writing this while its round nine

hey everybody its round 9. i played my idol to save myself which was so cool but im sad that i had to do it bc now im really vulrunable and have no protection in this world. my only alliance left is anastasia and raffy and i dont even know if i can actually trust raffy bc he just voted toph off, but like i have no other options. also i jut realized i thimk i actually did send a confessional this round but its ok. the challenge is touchy subjects and i know i have pretty much no chance of winning but i hope i get asked whos a goat so i can say kenneth and maybe he’ll flip. the plan is to go for riley this round since they arent a huge player and hopefulyl anyoen who flips would be fine voting them. i really really really hope tonight isnt a hands up tribal bc that would be really bad ;)

GUESS. FUCKING (freaking for the kids). WHAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I GOT A SUPER IDOL AKJSDNKSJANDKJSANDJKNASKJDNAKSJ I HONESTLY ALMOST LOST HOPE ON GETTING SOMETHING FROM THE SHOPS AT THIS POINT... The only other time I got something from the shop was my first ever purchase which led to an extra vote! THIS IS ABSOLUTELY MASSIVE because I feel like I have more options moving forward now, and I can make risky, but game-changing moves!! I will absolutely be saving the super idol as much as I can, hello?!?!?! I wanna make it to FTC so bad and ensure my spot in Final 5, so I just have to hold on until then!!!

soooo who's callin' me the fourth wheel to Ellie, Dennis, and Riley? oh? it's Brayden? okay king, step up then <3

holy fuck I hope I can explain this mess to Brayden kljfjkdlsahjkb WHY AM I LIKE THIS

Who is that girl I see?

Staring straight back at me

When will my reflection show

Who I am inside

I was completely over Toph's vote out. Like, it just is another demonstration of my "allies" not trusting me. They thought that I told Toph all about the plan to vote him instead of Brayden. They think I ratted to Anastasia and Brayden about the whole deal. It was incredibly frustrating to wake up from a nap with my allies not trusting them. And then they wanted me to vote for Brayden which would have landed Ellie in the jury house. Like, the plan was perfect, but Dennis, Babs, and Ellie just talked themselves into a paranoid mess. After the vote, I managed to talk myself into the good graces of Brayden and Anastasia after voting out Toph. What I said was "If y'all still want to work together, I'm down, but I didn't necessarily trust Toph. Additionally, I was approached like last minute to vote him because of Ellie's idol (they told me about it just before the vote). And I didn't want Brayden to go (didn't know about your idol)." They seemed to buy it?

I went on call with Dennis afterwards and basically asked for Riley to get voted out this round because they are Ellie's immoveable ally. They will never want to work with me. That's dangerous. It could give Ellie a lot of power in this game. Dennis seemed to agree. I also realize that Dennis has a crystal clear view of my game. He knows the type of game I am playing. That scares me. I need to play this game with the knowledge he can turn on me at any time.

My current position is in the middle. I am working with the heads of both sides in this game. I am working with Ellie, Dennis, and Babs on one side. And Anastasia and Brayden on the other. Kenneth is on the Ellie side, but I think my avenues with him are currently closed. What's the most frustrating is that Anastasia and Brayden are so misted by Babs that they can't see that they are LYING. Straight to their faces! Talking about wanting to be allies. Like, I need them not to spill to Babs about anything cause then I would be exposed.

Pray for me y'all.

Kenneth uh this tribal was... literally not in our favor at all... riley was gone the whole time and we didn't throw raffy under our bus when we should have... rip well riley wasnt in my end game plan anyways but its still pretty unfortunate to not have them around for the next couple of votes... i wouldve pitched for raffy harder but it didn't even matter because riley already submitted the vote for brayden :/// just a lil' unfair but it's SURVIVOR i guess!

Keith I woke up to a surprise. I was expecting to be another day on this island but it wasnt to be... This was a round came with a surprise tribal after the challenge. So yayyyy me.... bye bye Exile.

[allisimp]

01.27.2021

to kenneth:

i miss you so fucking much. i cant stop thinking about you and i wish i could see your face again and tell you everything and that im sorry for throwing away what wasnt broken and i hate myself and i love you and i really do need you in my life. i thought i could find something better but i couldnt. you were the best that i could possibly ask for and i dont think i can ever find someone better but i was too stupid to see that. i want your forgiveness and i want us to be together but im so scared of what could happen. i dont know if i should let go, or how to let go. its been over 2 years and its pretty clear that i cant get over you. i thought i could be happy and date other people but it cant erase you from my mind. i dont know what to do.

to teddy:

im not sure how much longer this can last. i dont think i can do it anymore. i feel like a two faced liar. i enjoy your company but i feel like im using you to fill up a void in me and distract me from my own pain. im afraid that if i leave, ill be more alone than ever, and i dont think i can handle feeling that in full force again. im sorry. ive had one foot in and one foot out the door the entirety of this relationship. at times i felt like i could give you all of myself, but only temporarily. somehow, for a fleeting moment, you allowed me to forget my past. it was nice. you brought me joy, companionship, and a place for me to put my love. but now it feels wrong just to call you “babe” because thats what i called him. i feel so much shame and guilt that youve given me so much love but it wasnt enough for me. my heart belongs to someone else. even if he doesnt want it anymore. you can have a piece of it, but i cant be whole like that.

[lionzkingsview-blog]

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[hayle64]

“nothing but cold and silence between two people when love was not yet forged and the loss was a fact. a man was about to become a machine. lorenz feels pain from his missing legs. soft and magic rolled in one.. something sad like you would put it i think *laughter“. it was easily fuck anything my niggas said after, nigga you got my attention, dont you too hoe me and run/finish what was the rest of that last sentence! had to ask, lemme hear it again in the same way you said it the first time. i was giving this my most attention, the texting was just the stranger me writing what was said in some notes i’ll look at a few times over whenever i get home. so bothered by lines i thought were missing. i should've known it wasnt from you, there was too many potholes in the story. i hate when my mind becomes excited, the words out my mouth either come out wrong or not at all, you know how that goes. it was maybe best i didnt ask where’d you get that from, “nothing but cold and silence between two people when love was not yet forged and the loss was a fact”/im jealous im not the nigga to come to up with that. sounded like some shit i’d say deep inside while a woman’s staring straight down at me with frustration in her eyes, and thighs that’ll give no care about whether he was becoming unconscious. that nigga keep your head up as they tangled around your neck, take a magnificent breath with the disrespect.. ventura residencies, a “who's at the door”? that was hours ago. just a couple of unidentifiable brothers, “open the door, ya neighbors looking at us like we a bunch of thieving niggas” (we smirking at each other). heated pools, the warm murky water was worth the drive. “everybody we’re getting too loud”, i couldnt help but look into the sky saying, i hope the neighbors start that bitching.. “you know my boy ivy bad”, started thinking the word filthy.. six am again laying somewhere against the floor. my arms covering my sights inna way and my dicks throbbing for no reason. texts from kenneth saying he's deleting his instagram for a while text the number (damn, i should do the same fora while). *facetime call incoming. i was about to take off this wet hoodie, let my complication make love to some sheets. its already seven, guess i talk a little till i crash 

(i should check out some books fr)

[espooky]

Ngl a LOT of the last 2 series of inside no 9 and steve and reeces work has left a bad taste in my mouth recently. Haven't watched the new series but....if you're still making the exact same gay jokes you were in the 90's without the one gay writer to hide behind....... it just makes me feel a bit uneasy tbh. And on top of that they keep ripping jokes from other things- like that joke about shyness was literally in martin mcdonaghs hangmen? Idk I think the fact that they get a little bit too much credit from critics for essentially ripping off horror films from the 70s (and refusing jokes- and actively stealing jokes) paired with the attitude they seem to have about the greatness of the ir own work actually is making me REALLY not like them lmao

[confidence-alive]

[plants a stake in the ground] here there be trans man daniel jacobi headcanons

the event that kickstarted his fear of ducks (i dont think he was lying abt it) was caught on home video. ducks mobbing a tiny fallen child who has no more bread. it makes him extremely uncomfortable to think about it both bc of the ducks and because he cant reconcile the grainy image of a little girl with pigtails and a yellow raincoat and big trusting eyes with who he is

absolutely did not care for “girly girl” clothing. reactions varied from neutral to “i will burn myself and take this jean skirt with me”

puberty was a big deal to him and he realized that? he realized, oh, wow, maybe im not actually a girl. the “im not a girl” was actually overshadowed by his “oh fuck if im a guy and i like guys does this make me gay???? ??????” revelation so that wasnt as big of a deal to him. gender was kinda a nebulous problem at that point

he wanted a name that sounded nothing like his deadname, and daniel felt right, daniel felt strong and respectable and it made him feel tall and powerful and confident. kenneth was, apparently, what his parents wouldve named him if he’d been dmab and it makes him cringe now but back then he was so damn proud of that name too

coming out was disastrous. you can bet your ass his dad used toxic-ass masculinity against him. everyone knows Real Guys are interested in the military. go rotc if you want to prove yourself. oh, you couldnt get in? you didnt really want to get in for the sake of it? youre not a real man then. you never will be.

cut his family off after university

a fan of casual hookups, kind of likes the feeling the fear of getting lashed out at if “found out” as fucked up as it is, not a fan of how in uni he had to decide whether to correct guys who deadnamed him and called him “she” and stuff

his old workplace was super supportive and he saved up enough to go on hrt but then he lost the job so bye testosterone. barely knew ye

those two years fucking sucked.

silently thrilled as fuck that kepler didnt question him in that bar. his voice still fluctuates a lot when hes drunk he was pulling a lot of effort to keep it low

goddard covers his hrt

he carefully curates his fucking stubble what a dweeb

was laid up in bed recovering from top surgery during language mapping. got back to work and lo and behold, maxwell (he had the stark fear kepler was trying to replace him and blew up and they all had a shouting match to clear things up)

when maxwell figures out her nb stuff hes the first person she tells and hes like hell yeah trans wonder twins. shes always better than him at making gender jokes (especially in time as a comeback to things) and it pisses him off

shots are hard to take in space so he uses patches and will never stop complaining about it. maxwell is tired of hearing about it

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Glenn Close: You lose power if you get angry

From vengeful mistress to Agatha Christie matriarch: the actor talks about Harvey Weinstein, mental illness and growing up in a cult

Glenn Close and I sit at the corner of a large boardroom table in an intimidatingly minimalist office on the 14th floor of a Los Angeles talent agency. Its the kind of environment in which Patty Hewes, the ruthless lawyer Close played in Damages for five seasons, would feel at home and Im almost waiting for her to stand up, slam both hands on the table and shout, Ill rip your face off or any of the other terrifying put-downs that defined her double Emmy award-winning performance.

But Close is in high spirits and radiates such warmth I barely notice the chill from the tower blocks air-con. After we fiddle with the settings on our swivel chairs, which are so high they make anyone under six foot kick their legs like a child on a swing, the 70-year-old, six-time Oscar nominee and star of stage, television and film starts telling me about her dreams. I have had a lot recently, full of this wonderful love for a younger man. The dreams just keep coming and I wake up thinking, that was wonderful! It wasnt necessarily us doing the sexual act, just the feeling of love.

With her white hair cut to a sharp crop, and wearing a relaxed navy blazer, chinos and black scarf on account of the arctic corporate temperature, she looks stylish and fit. I have never felt better in my life, and I am, like, 70, she says. Im really a late bloomer.

She says she feels a disconnect between how she sees herself and how people may view me when I walk down the street, like: Theres an old lady. You know, there is now this cult of the model. Everyone on the red carpet is made into a model. That is very hard to not play into I have a bit of podge I am trying to get rid of, but its hard. I just think, Oh fuck, Ive been doing this my whole life! But the irony is, you just get better and better with age. You dont feel less alive or less sexy.

In Agatha Christies Crooked House. Photograph: Nick Wall

We are here to talk about Crooked House, the Agatha Christie adaptation debuting on Channel 5, before its theatrical release, in which Close plays Lady Edith, a matriarch of a very dysfunctional family. Close says, Christies grandson came to the set and he validated the fact that it was her favourite book, and the one that had never been adapted. He said when she handed it to the publisher, she was told she had to change the ending, because it was too upsetting and controversial. She refused. Its still pretty controversial.

This production, co-written by Julian Fellowes, might not be as spendy as Kenneth Branaghs $55m Murder On The Orient Express, but the ensemble cast is equally starry: joining Close are Gillian Anderson, Max Irons, Terence Stamp and Christina Hendricks. Close presides over her co-stars with gravitas and grace, in an understated performance that finds the humour in an otherwise bleak setup. But youd expect nothing less from the actor whose 40 years in the business started with star turns in Broadway productions (she won a Best Actress Tony in 1983 for Tom Stoppards The Real Thing). Her first film role, at the age of 35, was with Robin Williams in The World According To Garp, for which she received an Oscar nomination as she did for her supporting roles in The Big Chill and The Natural. Her performances in Fatal Attraction, Dangerous Liaisons and Albert Nobbs, about the life of a transgender butler in late 19th century Ireland, which she also co-wrote, racked up further Oscar nominations but still no win. This is seen by many as a travesty: Close brings a precision to her film work, honed through her years on stage. She has that rare taut quality Jack Nicholson also has it where you believe that beneath the steely control she is capable of snapping at any moment.

It was this that led Andrew Lloyd Webber to cast her in 1993 as the tragic silent movie star Norma Desmond in Sunset Boulevard on Broadway. Close reprised the role 23 years later, getting her old costumes out of storage (she has kept all her costumes and recently donated the collection to a university in Indiana) for its revival in Londons West End.

As Alex Forrest in Fatal Attraction: Clearly she had mental health issues. Photograph: Rex/Shutterstock

But it was her Oscar-nominated turn as Alex Forrest in Fatal Attraction in 1987 that proved career-defining. Thirty years on, Close still counts Forrest as the character of whom she feels most fond; she has admitted to fighting tooth and nail against the films eventual denouement, which turned the character into a bunny-boiling psychopath and Close into the casting directors go-to woman on the verge for years afterwards. Now we have the vocabulary to talk about these things, clearly she had mental health issues, she says.

Close sits regally still as she speaks, emphasising her points by leaning forward and locking eyes. Shes comfortable with silences and often takes a theatrical beat or two before answering questions. Shes all poise and control, but does she ever lose her temper?

I express my feelings quietly. I am not afraid of confrontation, but I am not particularly good at it. If I get attacked, I am not good at attacking back. There is fight, flight and freeze and I tend to freeze. That is not a strength of mine. I love the fact that my daughter Annie [Starke, an actor] is more of a fighter than I am. She doesnt let people get away with shit. While she agrees that women have a harder time being angry, publicly, than men, she says, I have played a lot of characters, and actually anger makes you lose power. Patty Hewes [in Damages] she hardly ever lost her temper, but when she did, it was very specific. I have always felt you lose power if you get that angry.

The collective outpouring of anger among women in Hollywood right now is something of which Close is acutely aware. She says that sexism in the industry has shifted more slowly than it should have done throughout her career: It took Harvey Weinstein and someone calling him out [for real change to happen]. I know Harvey, and he has never done that to me, but people would say he was a pig. I never knew that it was that bad and I dont personally know anybody who has endured that. I would like to think that I would have done something about it.

We discuss whether its possible to separate the work from the personalities involved in it. News has just broken that House Of Cards will be back for another series without Kevin Spacey, after it was originally canned because of harassment claims brought against its leading man. Close wraps her scarf around her chest and fixes me with her electric eyes. Artists, to make a huge generality, walk on a very thin line. Sometimes, like my beloved friend Robin Williams, who was one step away from madness, whatever makes them a great artist also makes them very complicated human beings. Again, that doesnt mean they can prey on and abuse people.

With Harvey Weinstein in 2013. Photograph: Mike Coppola/Getty Images

At the root of the problem of sexism in Hollywood right now is, Close says, biology. I think the way men have treated women, from the beginning of time, is because they have different brains to women. So I am not surprised by it at all. I say to a guy, Tell me the truth, if you see a woman walk into a room, what is the first thought that goes through your head? His answer, always, is, Would I fuck her? It doesnt mean they act on it. If you can evolve into a society where men know that they should not always act on it then there has been a positive revolution. But you cant just say that theyre not going to have the thought that is ridiculous. It also has to be the women, who are not powerful, to be OK to say no and leave the room. I think its unrealistic to say were going to change but we have to evolve.

I ask Close who she thinks is a great man today. She is silent, thinking, for what feels like a full 60 seconds in which I am so tempted to throw out some options: Barack Obama, the Pope, the friendly security guard on reception who let us in

Nelson Mandela, is her final answer, but Im not sure shes convinced. I guess for me, she says, greatness is taking your humanity and still doing the good thing. Its sad to say that there are very few men, who are leaders, who have some sort of moral code that they dont deviate from because of popular opinion.

She thinks we are undergoing a crisis of masculinity: In the public mind, yes. I was outraged when I heard that there was a war against men I was like, are you joking? What do you think has been happening against women for centuries?

Close knows all too well about the misuse of power, because her own upbringing was, as she puts it, complicated. When she was seven, her parents joined a cult. Moral Re-Armament or MRA was a modern, nondenominational movement founded by an American evangelical fundamentalist which extolled the four absolutes: honesty, purity, unselfishness and love. Her father, a physician working in the Congo, sent Close with her brother and two sisters from the family home in Greenwich, Connecticut, to live at the MRA HQ in Caux, Switzerland (Closes mother, Bettine, was a socialite).

She is vague on the details but clear on the impact this experience had on her as a teenager: I was repressed, clueless and guilt-ridden. The timeline is patchy, but Close travelled with MRA in the 60s as a member of their musical groups, and spent time back in Connecticut at an elite boarding school. I had a wonderful time at Rosemary Hall, a girls school, she says. I was in a renegade singing group called the Fingernails: A Group With Polish. But she remained, as she calls it clueless. A lot of my friends knew boys youd have these horrendous dances with boys schools and they would get the guys they wanted and I would just stay with the person I was with.

As Patty Hewes in Damages. Photograph: Rex/Shutterstock

She was briefly married before going to university. It is a complicated story for me. I was married before college, and kind of in an arranged marriage when you look back on it, and my marriage broke up when I went to college, as it should have. I was 22. But my liberal arts school had a wonderful theatre that was my training, my acting school.

Was that where she finally learned about sex, popular culture, the ways of the world? Not really, she says. I still am learning.

Close has two sisters, Tina the eldest, and Jessie her younger sister; and two brothers, Alexander, and Tambu Misoki, who was adopted by Closes parents while living in Africa. At the age of 50, Jessie spent time in a psychiatric hospital and was diagnosed with bipolar disorder, a weight that had been hanging over the family, undiscussed, for years. Talking about mental illness just wasnt done, Close says. You dont have a vocabulary for it and youre also very aware of appearances. You dont want to appear a crazy family.

In 2010 Close founded Bring Change to Mind, a charity that aims to end the stigma around mental illness by talking openly about it and its effect on families. It was my nephew who was first diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder. This is basically schizophrenia with an ingredient of bipolar. And when that happened, it was like, What? My sister Jessie, his mother, didnt know what was wrong. He went to the hospital for two years and that saved his life. Then Jessie was, finally, correctly diagnosed herself.

With sister Jessie in 2009. Photograph: Getty Images

Close felt a duty to her family to give them a high-profile person who is not afraid to talk about it publicly. It affects the whole family. We always knew my grandmother and mother had depression my sister does, I do to a certain extent. But I didnt know my great-uncle had schizophrenia. I knew my half-uncle died by suicide. There was a lot of alcoholism addiction, self-medication. Nobody ever talked about it. I knew my grandmother was depressed, but at first I thought she lived in a hotel, not a hospital, because she always said how good the food was.

Close says she and her siblings are of one mind politically, but admits she does have members of her family who voted for Trump. I tried to understand that. Theyre not crazy people who have been brainwashed by Fox News, but I try to understand the anger, because I think that has been building up ever since Watergate. It was watching that scandal unfold that made her realise Americans have always been naive, we just take for granted what we have, and we always thought of our leaders as good people. With Watergate, people became cynical about government.

Today, she says, Washington is a bunch of self-serving She searches for an expletive and after a second settles on men. She says, Its hard to believe that people are so out for themselves. It goes against what you would like to believe about your country. I feel eloquence is incredibly important for a leader, and we had that with Barack Obama, who made his initial impact because he gave that incredibly eloquent speech, but he lost his eloquence in his presidency. We always need someone to say, I hear you, someone who can put their words into unity and hope and we dont have that. I think the last person may have been Robert Kennedy.

And now you have Trump tweeting nonsense.

Its devastating. Social networks are now like our nervous system, and if you keep pumping that kind of crap into the nervous system, it is going to have an effect on a population.

With Kevin Kline in The Big Chill. Photograph: Rex/Shutterstock

Close doesnt talk politics with her friends because she doesnt really have many friends. I have always forced myself into situations I am not comfortable in. I am an introvert, and I was painfully shy as a child. I think I still have a big dollop of that in my persona. I read a book called Quiet: The Power Of Introverts In A World That Cant Stop Talking and it was a real comfort to me I realised I was that person I had always been. And it was at that point I told myself to stop pushing myself into situations that I dont enjoy. I dread cocktail parties.

She tells me shes pretty reclusive and can count her closest friends on two fingers. I ask if shes still good friends with Meryl Streep.

I have never been close friends with Meryl. We have huge respect for each other, but I have only done one thing with her, The House Of The Spirits.

I apologise for assuming they were pals, being of a similar age and stature in Hollywood, and admit this negates my next question: Who would win in an arm wrestle, you or Meryl?

Close laughs. Oh, I would, because I am very strong.

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The tightest bond Close has is with her only daughter Annie, 29. Annies father is the film producer John Starke whom Close dated for four years from 1987, but never married. Annie was never a door-slamming, difficult teenager. Close tells me: When my Annie was three, she looked at me, and said, I want you. I knew what she meant. I, at the time, was a single working parent, sometimes even when I was home, working or producing something, I was there and not there.

With daughter Annie Starke in 2010. Photograph: Rex/Shutterstock

She doesnt think its any easier for working mothers today and acknowledges, I had it easy because I could afford to have help think of the women who cant afford it and have to put their child in some shaky childcare centre. No, I think it is incredibly hard for women. Any person, in any profession, feels that tug [of guilt]. We discuss the intimacy of the single-parent, only-child bond. Once, I went to vacuum Annies car seat as we were moving house, and a lot of life had happened there, so I was crying. She said, Mummy, are you OK? I said, Yeah, Im OK. And she said, Here I am.

She was married to businessman James Marlas from 1984 to 1987 and then, following other relationships, including that with Starke, she married again, in 2006, to venture capitalist David Evans Shaw, divorcing him nine years later.

Would she marry again?

I dont know.

Does she think marriage is important?

I think it is a positive evolutionary component that we are better with a partner. I think to have a partner that you can go through life with, creating a history with, that you can find a comfort with, have children with there is nothing better. This is an opinion I have come to very late in life, at an ironic moment, where I dont have any of that. I dont know if I will again. But I do think its a basic human need to be connected.

Despite this, shes happy on her own right now. This is a good time in life. I do think, what would it be like to have a partner again? But it would have to be very different from what I had before. Then I have that great dream and wake up happy.

Crooked House is on Channel 5 at 9pm on 17 December.

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