#if i'd happened to die from any of the things i went through they'd be jacking off over mine

[godgavemenoname]

to me, fuckhead male splatterpunk authors who base their stories off real rape/torture/murder cases (always ~coincidentally~ of either actual little girls or conventionally attractive young women btw!) and women who do their makeup to those same stories are the same genre of person:

the kind that i think i, and every other rape and torture and attempted murder survivor, should legally be allowed to maul with my hands and teeth like a dog.

i hope each and every one of them go to hell when they die and experience every bit of other people's trauma they ever exploited, down to the last detail. i hope they experience mine, too, just for making me see this shit after spending all day crying about these exact traumas.

[misstycloud]

When a shopping trip goes wrong…

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"Ugh..." you cried and looked down in horror. People around stopped to watch the ongoing commotion, which you were at its centre.

Your friend gasped and screamed, "what the hell, let go!" and grabbed your arm to try to pull you away from them.

The person currently clinging to your right leg wailed in refusal and tightened their grasp on you.

Kicking your leg frantically, the stranger did still not release you. "Stop!" you groaned and used your hands to attempt forcing them off you. It didn't work and only served to make them even more distraught.

"N-no! I'm sorry, i'm sorry, i'm sorry!" Tears streaming down their face, they buried it in your stomach and continued muttering hectic apologies.

You wanted to physically recoil at the closer proximity but couldn't because of the iron hold they held you in.

Through your shirt you felt the salty liquid seeping through and dampening your skin. It was absolutely disgusting, you thought. "Please don't hate me. I couldn't bear it if you do-I'd die!"

Through your shirt you felt the salty liquid seeping through and dampening your skin. It was absolutely disgusting, you thought. "Please don't hate me. I couldn't bear it if you do-I'd die!"

You were only going out to shop with your friends. This wasn't supposed to happen, not at all. The four of you had walked into a clothing store and one of your companions had then noticed a suspicious figure not far away.

Always standing in a corner, behind racks of clothing or hiding from sight behind pillars. Perhaps not completely visible, but the feeling of being watched never stopped.

Where ever you went the shadow seemed to follow and as you left the store, your friend had quickly turned around to confront them.

What you hadn't expected was for the perpetrator to be quite so young. And nor had you expected it to be someone you would recognise all to well.

Their black long hair hadn't gotten any shorter, they wore the same worn out and unwashed hoodie. Gross stains littering the entire fabric. Their skin still held the pale and sickly hue you'd seen the first time you met. Or, the first time you met them.

That was how you ended up with a mad one desperately clawing at your feet and calling your name like you were the last thing they'd ever see in this world.

Finally the scene had gathered enough onlookers for one of them to be a helping hand. A man approached you and ripped the stranger off you, their thin body wasn't able to stand against his strength and were easily removed. That didn't stop them from making a huge fuss over it though, "No, please! I need them!"

"Y/n, do you know this person?" Your friend asked you unsurely, not imagining you'd be familiar with this sort of person. But the way they spoke about you claimed otherwise.

"Ehm, not really-it's complicated." You sighed and pinched the bridge of your nose.

"What, do you know them or not, yes or no?" Your other companion asked demandingly.

"They're my stalker..."

"They're what?" They exclaimed, shocked by your words.

"Yeah, I noticed them coming by my workplace pretty often. Sometimes outside and sometimes inside the building." You explained with a regretful tone and turned your gaze towards your stalker arguing with the man.

"I thought it was weird of course, since they don't work there. Then, a few weeks later I realised they were following me as I walked home. I've tried telling them to stop bothering me, but they just won't stop."

"Can't you go to the police? Surely they'll do something."

Pursing your lips you answered, "I've already done that, they said they won't do anything since they-" you pointed at the dark haired individual,"- haven't actually done anything."

"What, that's sick, how can they say that?" They scoffed at the police's response to your problem.

"I know...."

Pushing the creep to the floor, the fellow discreetly wiped his hands on the side of his pants.

"That's enough of you, you trouble maker. What's gotten into you that you act like this, in front of kids as well." The man scolded with a tone filled with disdain, while you relished in your freedom and rubbed the sore spot on your leg. You winced, it would definitely bruise.

Your stalker said nothing to defend themself and kept sobbing in a heaving mess on the mall's dirty floor, grime made its way on their jeans and worsened their state further. People who'd initially stayed to observe the scene because it was interesting, now gazed at them with disgust.

"I'm sorry..." they muttered in their weak voice and sniffled some more. Others moved away from the scene and continued on with their day, not interested in what's going on anymore.

The man who helped you nodded at you, signalling his leave because he figured it was safe. You thanked him and looked at your stalker coldly, before turning on your heel and leaving together with your friends.

The pitiful person you left behind stared longingly at your back, heartbreak in their eyes. They hadn't meant for you to discover them, they were only supposed to get a couple photos to print out on their wall. But everything went astray when your friends noticed them and snitched.

Guess they wasn't that good at hiding and being observant. However, they wouldn't give up on you. Nothing could ever make them do that-no, you were a forever.

You were just so perfect. They couldn't get rid of the euphoric emotions that welled up whenever they laid eyes on you.

They were in too deep and had no way of getting back out of the dark abyss you'd thrown them in. Their mind, body and soul belonged solely to you now. They'd do anything and everything for you.

There is no going back.

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[sapphic-agent]

This is MHA though.

AKA, the series of constant fakeouts. So I'm going to go on record and say that these recent manga events are done for shock value and will be reversed. If Tomura actually stays dead and Izuku ends the series quirkless and armless, I'll happily look like a clown.

I just find it impossible to believe that the same series that let Gran Torino survive a fist through his torso would kill the main villain and also permanently maim the protagonist. No. The general lack of lasting consequences in MHA doesn't vibe with this. Because Izuku failing to save Tomura makes him the biggest loser in Shonen history. This would be like if Sasuke got killed by Madara and stayed dead, and Naruto ended the series in a wheel chair after barely surviving having Kurama ripped from him. In a shonen, when you pledge to do something, it has to come to fruition. Especially if it's an end of series goal. So that's why I genuinely believe this'll be undone.

Because the alternative is a worse ending than any other shonen in recent history. Shoto can succeed at saving Dabi. Uraraka can succeed at saving Toga (I don't believe MHA would kill Toga, again, because of a lasting lack of consequences in this series) but Deku fails. Completely and utterly. Imagine if they just kill AFO while he's using Shigaraki's body. What makes this even worse is the fridge logic of a world where they simply wanted to kill the villains. If Izuku hadn't gotten yanked away from the fight by Toga. If everyone went for the kill from the start. We have a "better" outcome in that fewer people got hurt or injured. Is that the message? That we should just kill our enemies, and that the product of a flawed society and failed social safety nets should be taken out back and shot like a rabid dog?

That's also an ending where they'd learn absolutely nothing and would ensure this probably happens again 20 years from now, except worse given the number of singularity quirks that will be running around. On a side note, you wanna know a practical reason for why they shouldn't ever kill Tomura? Because if he can be convinced to stop, he could go around and harvest dangerous quirks from people in the future, and thus save everyone. The quirk singularity isn't that big of a deal when we have someone who already has a singularity body and also can give and take quirks. He becomes a repository of all the powers that would destroy humanity in the future. Tomura is a very neat and tidy solution to a problem the heroes haven't put any effort into understanding or solving. It's an issue that we have definitive proof is a thing, and Deku can't punch it out. For utilitarian reasons, Tomura must live. What's a few of the hundred lives he's taken vs the entire world? They legit don't have any other answer.

Maybe. But even if it is for shock value and they undo everything, that's worse than it happening in the first place for me. Because then it was for nothing. I'd rather Horikoshi make a decision and stick to it, not just in this case but in general. Even if Izuku being armless and Tomura being dead is the last thing I want, him reversing it and putting them through that for nothing feels even worse.

(Also, this is Izuku and Tomura we're talking about. Horikoshi hates them I can definitely see him giving them a bad ending)

And no one in MHA- especially the so called geniuses- is smart enough to actually use him as a solution. Haven't they already decided it's better for him to die? Even if Izuku does manage to save him, he'll get locked away immediately.

It's a lose-lose situation

[strangefellows]

Hi hello can you please expand upon your 'Carmen gaslighting Ayin' point? I'm rather interested in what you have to say

You Have Unlocked An Essay

im more than happy to talk about this point because BOY HOWDY

the first time i went thru lobcorp blind, the sequence in day 48 where we see a flashback to carmen and ayin speaking, where carmen more or less says "if anything happens to me please finish what i started" REALLY made me feel deeply weird and uncomfortable. and at the time i couldn't pin why bc it was my first run-through of the story, but as i went back through it for research and fic-writing the more i read the scene and everything that happened it hit me

that entire scene, everything carmen says-- it happens more or less right before the enoch situation and carmen spiraling/killing herself.

now i'm not going to say she faked everything, she definitely did not, carmen did genuinely feel like trash after enoch died etc etc, we're talking about a very morally grey woman devoted to her passion and dreams not evil BUT

BUT

she absolutely knew enoch was going to die, and knew she was going to spiral because of it, and knew also that she was the only one compatible with what they were planning with the well-- and therefore knew exactly what would end up happening if she killed herself

so in my view, she knew what would happen -- because you can know doing something is going to hurt/destroy you and still do it anyway; something something martyr something -- and went "well, if the worst is going to happen to me, if this is going to break me-- then i can make use of that, too, for the sake of my dream"....

and then turned around and gaslit/manipulated ayin, who she KNEW had no interest in it at the time, to finish what she started

that entire speech to him in that scene just. unsettles me with how aware it seemed. the way she described "if anything were to happen as a result of the experiments i just KNOW i'd blame myself, and i KNOW i'd do something terrible, and if that ever happens please finish what i started :)" like that's SO SPECIFIC

and with the way she seemed to always praise him as her amazing junior etc etc it just...

i feel like besides the trauma of finding her - and honestly there's a question of whether or not she made sure he'd intentionally be the one to find her - there was no way at that point he could have said no or just not done what she asked because she'd just manipulated him so well by then that he felt he had no choice in the matter

there's a lot i can say to compare carmen and ayin here to catherine and linton, the way cathy manipulated linton and the way he did those horrible things for her sake feeling like he Had to

and the way carmen as she is now, her downward spiral having only amplified her worst traits, the way she manipulates people into distorting...it just kind of leans into that she always had that in her - we see it in a few of the flashback convos in lobcorp, specifically daniel (SPECIFICALLY DANIEL, PALM OF HER HAND COMMENT) and a little bit in kali and michelle's.

i don't think carmen is evil-- morally gray and devoted to her dream and ideals and the type of person who believes wholeheartedly that she's in the right and if everyone just understood they'd agree with her, and with a manipulative streak, but not evil. but i do think she absolutely gaslit/manipulated ayin - who she probably knew was susceptible to it in the first place - into doing what he did once she died

(and wasn't it easy? after all, everyone loved her. nobody really liked ayin. so it was pretty easy to make him the scapegoat of her plans. it even worked on parts of the fandom.)

not to say ayin is blameless either, of course, he did do all of this more or less willingly and the "hows" of how he carried out her plan are definitely all on him, as is how he treated angela etc. but he wouldn't have done any of it if she hadn't manipulated him into his path forward from her death in the first place.

it's getting a lot off track from the point but there's def a conversation here to be had about the root of humanity being fucking up and making mistakes; carmen made No Mistakes in everyone's eyes, she was Perfect and Knew Exactly What She Was Doing and therefore isn't she the most inhuman despite of or maybe in spite of her plans? and hell all of that in light of her plans for and view of humanity? (there's also another conversation i'm not entirely qualified to have about whether or not the enoch thing was a mistake but feel free to hop on in the askbox for that one)

[thetardisisnotourdivision]

Anti-Bullying Week

I just found out that apparently it's anti-bullying week and I wanted to say something now, because I know full well that my secondary school will have made a big song and dance about how wonderful their safeguarding system is and how few bullying cases there are in their school. 

It's a lie. Bullying is an issue that so few people take as seriously as it should be taken. People die because of this, and I know for certain that I am only alive due to a tiny, tiny coincidence. Bullying is normalised and widespread and not enough is done to stop it.

I lived in fear for five years. I was hated, unanimously, to the point at which I believed - wrongly - that I wouldn't be able to make friends at college. My name was turned into an insult. I was followed home. They would scream at me for their entertainment, both in school and out of it. I was targeted while I was in the Remembrance Parade. They hurt me at prom. I lost friends - two of my oldest friends laughed as I cried. I lost my name. I lost any semblance of safety I ever had. Even now I am living a lie to hide from them, so that they cannot hurt me again. Most of the school joined in. Everyone knew my name, everyone knew that it was ok to be horrible to me and that it didn't make them a worse person, because I didn't count. They would go out of their way to distress me, and then prolong it, "because it's funny" (direct quote), and then gossip about it afterwards. People younger than me, in different year groups, people who didn't even know me would join in. They would invade my privacy wherever possible - a music video I made as coursework was found and spread about, simply because it was mine. They'd hurt my friends, almost like “collateral damage”. They targeted my brother, and I'm scared they'll hurt my sister, too. They'd remind me that they could do whatever they wanted to me. That I had no privacy, where they were concerned. They made fun of my illness. My grades. Anything and everything I did or had or said, no matter how ridiculous. Nobody treated me with any sort of respect, because why should they? It was only me. They would explicitly use terms associated with bullying lightly - once I heard someone say that they wouldn't directly say anything to me, they'd rather "just be a bystander", and that wasn't an isolated incident. By the time I was thirteen I'd realised that if I killed myself, they'd stand and point and laugh at the way I'd died. 

Bullying is horrible. When I tried to report what was happening to me, I was ignored, even when I could describe it. By the time I gave up, I just didn't have the words to describe what they were doing anymore, because they were sneaky, they were subtle. I was so terrified that at twelve years old, I taught myself to fight, to defend myself, I taught myself not to react to anything, because at least if I didn't react, it ended quicker. It didn't stop, but it ended quicker - and that was all I could do. Even now, I can remain poker-faced through just about anything - any amount of pain, people screaming in my ear, throwing things at me, shoving me - anything. I learned how to avoid people and stick to the shadows, because that way I was safe. I became cold and violent and vengeful, so that I wouldn't break. I WAS TWELVE. I was twelve years old, and, that summer, I looked at myself in the mirror and realised, “I can't do this anymore. I have to become someone else if I'm going to survive this.”

For a long time, I hated her - I still can't see her as someone who was once me. And now I'm starting to understand that she was so young, and she did the only thing she could, and that she is the reason I am alive today. But I hated her for making me into a monster. I went insane. I hear screaming in my head. I want to burn the people who hurt me - make them fear me, make them feel the pain they put inside me, so that they never hurt me again. But most of all, I'm terrified. I'm terrified of it happening again. My own birth name is a trigger. I can't say it, nor the name of the one who started it all, without having a panic attack. I have flashbacks. I have nightmares. I hide my face in college so that nobody recognises me. And at some point this week, in an assembly, my old headteacher will have stood up and talked about how amazing the anti-bullying system at that school is. 

I survived because of one, tiny coincidence. Others weren't, and won't be, so lucky. Because not everyone can switch schools. The other kid in my year who was treated like that did, but I couldn't, and there will be others like me. Please, if there is a “weird kid” in your year, please, please don't make fun of them. The one kid who everyone makes fun of, and hates? Please give them a chance. Their “weird” behaviour is most likely a defence mechanism - I was hostile and cold towards anyone who I didn't explicitly know and trust, because I was afraid. And to everyone who claims to care about victims of bullying, but does shit like this, or condones it, or ignores it - to everyone at my old school, to the teachers who brushed me off, to the people who tortured me because they found it funny - you do not deserve to call yourself human. You are cruel. And if I ever see anyone being treated the way I was, I will not hesitate to hurt you. 

Please, please look out for things like this. This is how kids get killed - either by suicide, or killed by bullies. All that bullshit about “what doesn't kill you makes you stronger”, “abuse makes you kind”, “ignore the haters!” - it's a LIE. What doesn't kill you makes you vulnerable and frightened. Abuse makes you harsh and vengeful and furious, and there's no way to ignore people who find delight in your pain. 

Not enough people understand this, so please share it - for me, for the kid I was when it all started, for my little sister, who's essentially walking into a lion's den blindfolded soon, for every other kid like me who was ignored and brushed off, for all the kids who died because of bullies - please raise aware of what bullying really is, and how it destroys people. 

[west-tokyo-incidents]

It's quiet here.

How many times will he come back to stare at the Black Lake? Rathma isn't here any more. His body lay where it has for however long it's been since Inarius came back and spread the prophecy as gospel.

No amount of speed or lack of distraction would have let him meet Rathma personally.

The wanderer huffed under his breath and leaned on his hand. He's perched above, just inside Kasama, looking down at the barely-submerged platform where Vhenard died twice over.

"The first necromancer... Wow, I bet this is a big deal for you, huh?"

"Hm? ...I suppose so."

Neyrelle's question to him, when they'd first come across evidence of where they were.

"Well, isn't it? Aren't necromancers priests of Rathma?"

He remembers his thoughts from back then. Should he pretend to be in awe? Excited? Something other than skin-crawling anxiety about meeting the nephalem his people worshipped?

"I guess I'm just... Nervous."

The wanderer considers going back down there. Hell, he even walks through the City of the Ancients to the entrance of the Cradle... Only to stop and stare at the mural on the floor in front of it.

He must've not seen it before. Rathma's face, scrolls falling from his hands, a skeletal mage at his side.

Nope.

The wanderer turns back around and goes back to his spot overlooking the lake. Back to the little food he'd packed himself. Even if he went, he couldn't cross the lake. And even if he could, Rathma would still be dead and his spirit gone from this place.

And even if he wasn't...

Best not think about that. He stuck a piece of bread in his mouth.

"Well, Neyrelle told me I'd probably find you here."

Only to nearly choke on it in shock.

"Donan...!"

The wanderer, coughing, turned to look at the man.

The man is grinning at him, "Hey, now, don't die on me, you're the only necromancer we've got!" The man walks over as the wanderer manages to get a drink and clear his throat, "Mind if I join you?"

"No, of course not. Why were you looking for me?"

With a heave, Donan sits beside him, "You'd been gone for a while got concerned. I guess you couldn't resist coming back here while we're in the area, hm? Neyrelle told me all about how you two met."

A soft grunt of acknowledgement.

"...I can't imagine it." Donan sighs, his voice becoming soft, "I guess, in a way, it's like if Inarius had just. Suddenly died one day. No glory, no songs... I can't imagine how the church would react."

"Hah, yeah, except it's as if that arse died locked away in the Alabaster Monastery and the world forgot about him. Hidden away with a key you can never get again. And why would you even want it?" A dry laugh, "Just to see a dead body?" The wanderer stares down at his food. He can feel the heat of anger beginning to boil in his stomach.

Donan goes quiet, "I'm sorry... For what it's worth, he isn't forgotten--"

"His prophecy isn't forgotten, you mean." He spits, "There are no crusaders for him. No knights to guard his tomb. His temple is sunken beneath the rancid sea and his tomb is rotting. I've heard so many people talk about him ...But no one but me and Lilith seem to grieve."

"...I thought you said you weren't religious. Yet you sound as devout as Prava. Don't go falling into Lilith's arms just because she--"

"It's nothing like Prava. And I'm not falling into that bitch's arms." He snarls suddenly. Wolven teeth snap behind his own. He can feel Hatred in his words, and Donan does, too. "She grieves him... But what she does... It's too much like... Like where I came from. Except Rathma never actually demanded the things my people did to me." His hair bristles on the back of his neck. Donan clenches his hands into fists in his lap.

"...Wanderer... What happened to you?" Donan reaches and gently places his hand on the necromancer's shoulder. He flinches, but doesn't pull away. He glares at Donan, but the man meets his eyes evenly back.

Donan seems to be considering his next move. Almost like a young boy eagerly expecting to find a small hind on his hunt and running into a great hart who has no intention of being shot.

But this hart trusts that will not be shot, and he will not run, either. The wanderer rolled his shoulder, shrugging off the hand.

"We were terrible people. Isolated from the world on an island south of Hawezar. I thought I loved what We were. We took trips to the mainland to get corpses for Our craft. They weren't dead when We got there." His hands ball into fists in his lap.

"...you were an instrument in the Death Song..." Donan's voice is barely a whisper.

The wanderer tilted his head, "Is that what your name is for who We were?"

Donan scowls softly, "Well, it's what we heard from travellers who came from the south. What do you mean, were?"

"How long ago was the last time you heard a story about Us? I imagine We'll become nothing but a fairy tale to children before too long."

Donan frowns, "So... They're gone?"

"Yes. We're gone. For the most part."

Silence. The wanderer just stares at Donan, waiting for the next word.

"...What did you do?" A look of concern and caution crosses the man's face.

"I think you've already guessed the answer. Why do you think I travelled so far north? Why do you think Mephisto haunts me?"

"Answer the question, wanderer."

"I killed them." Tension hangs like a heavy stone in the air, "Say what you want about it. Yell, storm out, threaten me." The wanderer looks back at the lake.

A slow sigh, "No, I don't think I will." Donan's hand reaches to take one of his hands, and the necromancer realizes he's bleeding from his own nails, "I know you, wanderer. Whatever they did to you to push you to such a point. You still consider yourself one of them, even after killing them."

His shoulders fall. He pulls his eyes away from Donan carefully wiping the wound off with a cloth. And he decides to speak again, "I'd been a bad omen since birth. White hair. Pale eyes. And they treated me like it, only barely a part of the Whole, no matter how hard I worked, how many I killed. They only gave me a name when I was bathed in the blood of someone I loved." There is more to it. But he can barely conjure the words to speak it, "My mentor cursed me and stripped me of my name with her dying breaths. Probably the best thing she ever did for me."

Quiet, again. He glances to Donan and sees the man deep in thought as he wraps his palm. It stretches out for a while. The wanderer simmering slowly in his own head as the water below gently splashes onto the shore and stones.

"So why do you feel so strongly about Rathma? Why are you still a necromancer?"

"My craft is Mine, not Ours." He snaps, yanking his hand back and his lips peeling back from a snarl, "Made for One, not the Whole. I am a necromancer because that is who I am. My people may have shown me the path, but that's the only part they play."

A hum. He suspects Donan is confused, by what he doesn't know. It's clear to him, but Donan doesn't press on whatever it is.

"And what about Rathma?" He motions to the lake. The Necropolis beyond, "Your people told you everything was his command, didn't they?"

"Yes. And for a while, I hated him as much as I hated the Whole." The wanderer leaned against rubble nearby, looking down at his hand and finishing the wrapping himself. "And then I sought to learn more of my craft, beginning to struggle on my own. I read his teachings in the wider world, and I began to question what I had been taught."

The binding tight, he let his hands fall back down.

"First to learn he was a flesh and blood being? And not a serpent at all, but that he looks as human as you or I. And then to read his teachings and find that the Balance I had been taught was twisted." He shakes his head. He reaches into his pouch and pulls out a beaten up book; his journal. It's scarred and stained with who knows what all.

"I don't see him as a god, I don't worship him. He was a person. A teacher."

His fingers flip open the pages and his eyes flick between each one. And then he stops. The page he'd written after returning from the city of dead. There, delicately sketched, is Rathma's face.

"Almost every word I was told about him as a child was wrong. Coming here, suddenly being thrust with the realization that I could possibly even meet him. Only to find him dead. Killed by Inarius with his own weapon." A shaky breath.

"In a way, I guess I am devoted to him. But as one is devoted to a loved one, not an angel nor a demon."

Donan has been quiet for a while now. The wanderer snaps his journal shut.

"I hope you're satisfied now."

Donan still doesn't answer. After a second, the wanderer looks over his shoulder, almost wondering if the man had snuck out at some point. But no, he's still there.

"You've been through a lot, haven't you, wanderer?" Donan hums softly, "I can see why you aren't eager to let Neyrelle try and think of a new name for you."

"I am happy being a simple wanderer."

"Perhaps I'll have a word with her in private, ask her to stop."

"You don't have to--"

"No, I think it's only right." He stands up, then pauses. He wants to say something... But it escapes him, "We have to make for Hawezar soon, though. I don't want to rush your meal, but we're ready to leave when you are."

The wanderer stares at the Black Lake, but nods and begins to pack up, "I was nearly done anyway. Go on ahead, I'll meet you there."

[purplesurveys]

1940

When was the last time you were bitten by an animal? What kind of animal was it? Max bites me often, though never aggressively. He does scratch me both accidentally and on purpose all the time, and it's those instances that have led to lots of gashes and bleeding and Band-Aids, lmao. My arm is never not decorated with scratches anymore.

When was the last time you had sex/did something sexual? How was it? This afternoon. It felt nice.

When was the last time you did something illegal? What did you do? A few weeks ago when I was watching BTS content pirated on Dailymotion, lol.

What was the last colour you dyed your hair? Purple.

Tell me about the first five photos you have on your phone or camera. My answer would have to be a guess because my phone's in my room upstairs and I don't feel like going up to get it – in any case my best guess is that Kimi has to be in that mix of five somehow. I have no clue about the others.

Who was the last person you know to have something big happen to them (i.e., get engaged/married, have a baby, etc.)? Angela passed the boards, got engaged, and reserved a condo unit this year alone. I'm soooooooo stoked for her ♡

Is there anybody over the age of 40 that you think is hot? Nobody comes to mind.

Have you ever been punched in the face? Nope.

Do you have to watch yourself in the mirror while you brush your teeth? Hahaha sometimes I will, other times I won't bother.

Do you think your last ex deserves to die? No. I don't like her, but I wouldn't wish death on her.

How’s the love life going? There's none, and it's great that way.

Do you think the last person you Facebook messaged is a virgin? Nopes.

Have you ever been cheated on, or had a guy move on extremely fast after a long, seemingly sincere relationship? I've experienced the latter.

Have you ever had someone drag his or her nails down your back? Continued from earlier in the evening. Yes.

If you’ve been hurt in a past relationship, are you more jaded this time around? Jaded to the point of never dating again, yes.

[TW: ABUSE] Have you ever been in a physically abusive relationship? No.

Have you ever felt more like you needed someone, and less like you loved that person? Mm, not at all. I know that I loved that person.

Is there any habit, attachment, or addiction that you feel you have beaten or risen above? ARMY life. It's understandable – fans go through their baby ARMY phase for a few months wherein consuming BTS is all they'd do. I was the same. I could make every conversation return back to them if my life had to depend on it; I spent an irresponsible amount of money on merch and I had no savings for like two years (although this was really more of a personal problem tbh, lol); I'd play their videos 24/7; I went to every pop-up store, memorized every single promotion schedule by heart, save 10,000 pictures of them on my phone, etc.

The boys enlisting in the military honestly really helped me in taking it down several notches. I'm still hardcore ARMY, but I'm a lot more chill this time! No longer obsessive. I don't feel the need to catch Run Jin at Tuesdays 8 PM sharp, but I'll watch it all the same. I'd no longer memorize a member's promo schedule for their releases, but whenever they would drop a concept photo or the tracklist I'd just eventually catch up. Little things like that. They've evolved to feeling like low-maintenance besties that I can catch up with every once in a while, and it's a nice feeling to have.

Have you ever lived with a friend? Nah.

Have you ever only liked someone because you found out they liked you? No. We liked each other.

Do you think people act weirder or that stranger things happen when there's a full moon? No and I don't believe in things like that.

Do you think you would make a good parent someday? No. My patience with kids is way too short.

In which were you happiest: elementary, middle, or high school? High school, 100%.

Have you ever written something on a street sign? I have not.

Life is nothing without passion. What are your passions? Writing, animals, history and culture.

How's the weather lately? Well it's typhoon season again, so we have patches of sun-rain-sun-rain all day long. Suffice it to say it's also been consistently humid.

You can bring back one dead pet to life. Which one? Tobi, our pet bunny, so I can continue my attempts for he and I to be closer and so I can learn the formula of him not biting whenever I'd reach out to hold him. He didn't live very long so I wasn't able to achieve these when he was alive.

I know the obvious answer here would have been Kimi – but I know 100% that bringing him back would just hurt me a million times more than it would relieve me. He already had a great run. I'd much rather keep hanging out with his urn in the living room.

Is there a pillowcase on your pillow? Describe it: It's just a plain beige one.

School: what classes are you taking at the moment? I haven't been in school in four years.

What scent is your deodorant? It has powdery and floral notes.

Are you happy with what you see when you look in the mirror? For the most part, yes.

Does it get super hot in the summer where you live? Yup, so very uncomfortably hot. People here get heat stroke or faint all the time because of the heat. As for me, during the summer months, I need to have the aircon on all afternoon because I genuinely cannot think well if it's too hot; and if I cannot think well, I cannot do my work well.

Would you ever date someone of the same sex? I did.

If you HAD to be raised by another family member than you were, who? My favorite aunt. She did a fantastic job raising her kids, who have now grown to be my confident, outspoken, and intelligent cousins. They're best friends with each other and her kids are very open with her, which is a rarity in Filipino parent-child relationships to be completely honest. She's always had a very liberal point-of-view on things to begin with, which to me is a major factor in how her kids turned out.

Are you close with you best friends' parents? Do you know them very well? I am extremely close with Angela's parents and they pretty much treat me like their second child. They feed me, video call me to give me advice on pretty much anything, greet me for every milestone, etc.

Basically, the relationship I have with them + even with my aforementioned aunt is the relationship I've always sought from and should have been having with my own parents.

Do you like reptiles as pets, or do they gross you out? They don't gross me out, it's just that they wouldn't be my pet of choice as I wouldn't know the first thing in giving them the proper care and conditions that they'd need to survive.

What is the youngest age you would consider dating somebody? Tbh just 25, so a year younger lol. Anything younger, to me it already starts to feel like I'm dating a kid.

Favorite type of seafood? Mussels!!! And oysters. Sashimi, too. I also enjoy crab but mostly on the crab fat side; their meat is just meh.

Are you more traditional or progressive? Progressive.

Are you into the occult? No.

How long was your longest relationship? We were involved for six years total. There was one on-off phase at some point, but even during that time you can say we were still involved with each other.

Did you ever honestly believe you were going to marry your highschool bf/gf? Honestly, yeah.

Are you a virgin? Do you believe virginity is "sacred?" No and no.

Would you say that you have a lot of friends? Not really, but it's also because I prefer my circle to be small.

Are both your parents alive? They are, yes.

Were you raised by your biological parents? They did, alongside my grandma and aunt (mom's sister-in-law).

Has your family ever been broken? It's frustratingly dysfunctional. We have walls built up around one another; it's so easy to tell. My parents have also never been the open type so naturally, as their kids, we mutually learned not to be open with them.

Do you think your parents respect your space? My dad does; my mom doesn't.

Are you close with you siblings, if you have any? I'm close with my sister.

Have you ever in anger told your parent(s) that you hated them? I wrote this sentiment about my mom in the journal I kept when I was younger. She wasn't the best. She had set such high standards for her kids and she never realized that we were just...kids. We needed to be perfect, spotless, neat, smart, polite, make zero mistakes at all times. We weren't allowed to cry, to have one notebook out of place in our school bags, to leave even a single grain of rice in our plate. But she also never explained Why We Had To Be All These Things That She Wanted Us To Be.

All we knew was that if we didn't follow her orders, we were going to be the subject of her yelling, and it didn't matter if it was 5 AM when we were barely awake, or 11 PM when she'd get home from work. All we knew was that if we made a mistake, even if we didn't know at that time that it would be a mistake, she'd give us the silent treatment for days and it'd leave us quivering and crying in fear and thinking "Is she ever going to talk to me again?" Things that no kid should be forming thoughts about.

So yes, I wrote in my journal that I hated her because that's what I genuinely felt for her.

What’s your favourite Thai dish? Pad thai!

Have you ever been on a date with someone you met online? How was it? No.

What sort of games do you like to play? I'm not much of a gamer lol and truthfully I do best with puzzle games or rhythm games. Simple ones that don't require much thinking or strategy-building.

What was the last candy you ate? I had a gummy burger and hotdog.

Do you know anyone who is deaf? I used to. My great-grandma's caregiver was deaf and mute.

Do you eat or drink as soon as you wake up, or do you wait a while? I wait a while. There's a couple of things I prefer to do first, like showering and taking the dogs out to pee.

What's your favourite kind of Oreo? Just the original one.

Do you play any games on your phone? If so, tell me about one. I've been playing Rhythm Hive since 2021. I like that it has constant quests so you can keep playing toward different achievements, as opposed to just having songs for the sake of having songs. I also credit the game for letting me discover new songs and building my interest toward the other Hybe artists.

Do you have more male or female coworkers? Female, for sure.

What's the longest stretch of time you've spent completely alone? During my breakup era when I'd only ever show up for dinner. That was from mid-September to December.

Do you have the same color eyes as your mother? Yes.

Have you ever been put to sleep for surgery? Nope.

When was the last time you went bowling? A month ago. I went bowling with my teammates. It's also how I learned that I'm not as awful at bowling as I thought, haha.

Do you personally know anyone who is transgender? Yes.

Do you have piercings anywhere except your ears? How many and where? No, you got it exactly right with ears. That's all I have and I don't intend on getting any more.

What’s your opinion on leggings as pants? Whatever, you do you. I personally detest leggings in any situation; they're SO itchy and I find it impossible to see what's so comfy about them. But if you love leggings, that's great! I wish I could too lmao.

Who was the last person you were in love with for more than a year? My ex.

Do you have a secret life? I guesssssss to an extent? This blog is a major factor in that.

Have you ever seen the last person you kissed without a shirt? Yeah.

Do your parents know EVERYTHING about you? Hell no.

Favorite thing to eat with peanut butter? Doughnuts.

If you had to get a piercing right now, what would it be? If pain/discomfort isn't going to be an issue, I'd go for either a nose ring or a lip ring.

The last time you held a baby: 2007.

Does your mom eat meat? Yes, everyone in the family does.

What would be your reaction if one of your parents said they were having another kid? I'd know at once they're pulling my leg as my mom has had a hysterectomy.

How do you feel about snails? They're cute, but I'm sorry they are also delicious lol.

Are you physically affectionate with your friends? I definitely can be, but I gauge their comfort level with affection/it depends on who they are, too. I'd never be affectionate with Andi beyond hugs because they have a girlfriend. I know Jo's iffy about physical touch so I always hold back. But I'd hold Angela's hand and lean on her shoulder whenever I want.

Do you kill spiders when you see them? No, I let them be especially if they aren't bothering me.

Would you ever adopt a child? No.

Do you like your name's meaning? Sure, it's simple and sweet.

Do you and your mom look like sisters? We get this a lot, yes.

Are you the same height as your mom? No, she's a bit taller by a couple of inches.

What subjects do you like to read about? History, pro wrestling essays, auto/biographies, and opinions.

Are there any (obviously fictional) villains you can't help but love? Gus Fring.

Can you name a villain who you could kind of side with? Walter White, though I also 'blame' that on the terrific writing the Breaking Bad crew did for him. He was never to be sided with, and yet they made me root for him – up until a certain point, that is, but the point still stands.

What color eyes does your significant other (or crush) have? (If applicable.) I don't have any.

Does anything around your home need repairing? The lightbulb in my brother's room, but otherwise that's it.

[hollyhomburg]

Something about yoongi being jealous feels so annoying. Like first you leave your pack in the dust, not to hear from again, then move in with a soulmate and not tell anyone, invite them back but treat them so so so differently like your not even in love eirh them anymore and now that the girl you left all your mates for is healing and with them like you said you wanted youre jealous and upset???? I don’t think I could genuinely be with yoongi if I were anyone in the og bily pack. I know he went through a lot of trauma but he’s hurting so many people.

i think a fact you're missing is that functionally- yoongi /can't/ be closer to the pack anymore, at least not compared to how close he is to the m/c because of their mating mark. Even within pack structures- there are hierarchies for a reason. the mating mark changes things in a physical way like- they're soul married.

it's also not the only existing herarchy in the pack. jin and namjoon are close in a way that the others aren't (jin practically left yoongi for namjoon in the beginning- or nearly did least you forget. litterally jin did not know namjoon one iota when he brought him back to their den). not to mention Vmin and the very well documented way that tae is litterally the centre of jimin's entire world- there are many days when jimin completely side steps the whole pack to head straight to tae, jimin gets jealous of the m/c all the fucking time to the point of being possessive of tae at times. kinda similar to the way yoongi gets jealous of the others in my opinion.

i think that this facet of polyamory is what makes the bily pack so much more lifelike than any ideal 'there is no hierarchy' pack structure. the truth about polyamory is that there will always be people you are closer to in different ways- emotionally, physically, sexually. yoongi's not 'jealous' jealous- he's not insecure jealous. his inner monologue isn't "i only want you to be mine" he's more like "oh, you don't need me anymore, or at least as much as you used too"

let's go back to the beginning for a second;

you've just been through something traumatic with someone who is /barely/ holding onto themselves and if they die, there's a good chance that you'll die too because of your mating mark. this person is struggling, and while you give them all of you that you can- there isn't room for you to do much more. they require near constant observance otherwise you fear they might harm themselves. you love this person very much but you fear that the second you take your eyes off of them- they'll disappear.

Would you launch back into a relationship you left, unsure of if the people even love you anymore because of what you did to them? Or would you at least wait and make sure that the person you know needs you and still loves you is kinda okay before you try to introduce her to people who have the potential to be /very/ angry at her. Especially knowing her history with people who have gotten angry at her and how far it might set her back.

it's not a lack of care that yoongi didn't go back to the pack for- in fact- i'd argue that he waited so long because he cares about all of them so much. he knew the best chance they'd have of all being a pack was if the m/c was healed before they met (which didn't end up happening tbh- and we saw how much that almost tore them apart in chapter 10) so he sacrificed his own need for closure and his own needs to have /someone/ support him in caring for the m/c- to make their potential future loads better.

[voodoo-writer]

Thoughts about Mayday.

I'd very much like to think Mayday didn't kill his Jedi, and maybe he didn't. But I don't think he was sent to that frozen planet because of this. I think by the time we get to this point in the story, the Empire was essentially done with the clones. We see them imposing forced retirement on some clones at the beginning of the episode. We also see that Crosshair is still not in command of anyone anymore and is also being sent to this frozen planet to do grunt work. The Empire had no use for the clones by this time, except in the Dark Trooper program, which is still being brought to fruition by Hemlock. I think sending Mayday and his clone squad out there was a way to use them for work nobody wanted, in the hopes they'd die off (as they did). When they were done, whoever was left would probably have been forced into retirement as well.

Also, if Mayday hadn't killed his Jedi, his squad would have killed him - that was a part of the chip programming. And if, for some reason, his squad didn't kill him, the Empire would have. They didn't want clones who were independent thinkers, or who would disobey orders. The whole point of the chip was to make them more willing to follow orders without question. Anyone who displayed a resistance to that was eliminated.

I will say I think there were far more defective clones than just TBB. I think clones like Howzer and Gregor, and even Rex to an extent, were defective to a certain degree so that their chips didn't function properly. Rex was able to fight off the programming for a few moments, long enough to give Ahsoka a clue. Gregor had been through the ringer - it's possible the explosion he went through damaged the chip or he wasn't quite right to begin with. And we don't know what happened with Howzer in regard to any Jedi, but he was noticeably uncomfortable from the very beginning with how things were going on Ryloth. I would also like to point out that he is shown as being taller than the average clone on several occasions - I'm pretty sure he was defective. And I think there were probably more. I'm guessing, if they were actually defective, it was in a way the Kaminoans wouldn't think would have any effect on the clones as soldiers. Otherwise, they would have been destroyed.

Anyway, thank you for attending my TED talk. ><

Seriously, though, thank you for posting your theory. I love seeing how others think outside the box with regard to these beloved boys!

You know, I should probably be really embarrassed cause this been in my inbox for like more than a month but I had 0 energy to answer that. Sorry, mate 😊! And thank you for sharing your thoughts with me, I am really flattered!

I believe Bad Batch for both 2 seasons has been trying to say that chips and order 66 does not work the way we previously thought. I mean, they did follow the order to kill jedi, without any questions asked. But we see later that clones start questioning the nature of the orders they receive. And we can’t say that it is because they are a higher rank – Chuchi visits 79’s and there are only regs and they question stuff. They have questions, beliefs. If Slip was following chip’s program, he should not have said anything to Chuchi about Rampart, should not have helped her anyway. Any clone should have just stayed silent, but they did not.

Howzer talked his squad out of shooting Bad Batch and him in like a minute. And his squad were/are also regs. Maybe the chip has the strongest effect only on kill-the-jedi orders, but we can’t know for sure.

We can’t say that all of the GAR is defective, can we? I feel like the chip did it purpose of eliminating the jedi and then its effect started to wear off – the further we are from order 66 in timeline the more we see clones come back to their previous selves or at least try to.

I think Mayday could have talked out his squad out of shooting their Jedi though he definitely had less chances of success cause the order was only issued, not after a period of time like in Howzer’s case.

I hope S3 bring us more answers about chips (and clones of course).

[darksidescorner]

Help why am I imagining Alleycat from Persona 5 playing as Miguel thinks about Gabi. It's SO deliciously sad

(I didn't know I'd be writing a blurb today. Not proofread, I'm sorry. Lemme tag it real quick: Angst, no comfort, no happy ending, Gabrielle)

I think about that song often anyways. It's so somber and sad in all the right ways. It gives me such powerful ideas for art. Ones that I swear I can see the composition of, and I can't see anything in my head. I don't think in pictures, yet this is a song I can see up there.

I'm imagining Miguel sat in his home, the lights are dim as it pours rain into the night. I'm imagining him holding up a holographic picture frame, and just sinking into the couch. I'm imagining how cold the colors are, and how even Gabi is a cold orange.

I'm imagining Miguel's face as he remembers everything. It's not guilt anymore, it's paralyzing grief. I'm imagining the sad smile he wears as he thinks of her before hugging the frame and letting the tears flow. I'm imagining how he hates himself for crying, because it doesn't help. It won't bring her back. It doesn't make him feel better. Its not an efficient use of his time. And yet, he can't help but cry. It's all he can do.

He can't bring her back. Maybe if he were just a little faster, he could have gotten Gabi through the portal. If he were a little quicker, maybe he could have gotten that daypass on her. If he were just a little smarter, he could have foreseen this coming. If he were a little stronger, he could have stopped the void from closing in on her.

If he were a little more, maybe this wouldn't have happened.

They say glitching is painful. Incredibly painful. It throws you off balance, knocks the air out of your chest, and breaks your cells down. Spiders and anomalies alike say it's the most painful thing they've ever experienced. That they'd rather die than do it again. It leaves you with a lasting headache and nausea. It leaves you woozy.

Miguel has never had the displeasure of experiencing that. But you know who did? Gabrielle.

His guilt makes him nauseous. His little girl, experiencing the most painful thing in the multiverse, and dying from it. It should have been him. He's dead no matter what. His spirit died with Gabrielle. It's floating through the void, the crushing weight of all that has happened to him. Of all that he caused. It twists him and rips him apart like he's a piece of paper.

And yet he carries on. Not because of any determination or willingness to, but because he's in limbo. Time will move forward no matter what, but he is stuck. He's frozen in time, on the day his baby died. So when he wakes up the next morning, and Gabrielle is nowhere to be seen, he's struck with the reality that it isn't a bad dream. His grief is him.

And so, life moves on, but he does not.

—————

Man this went from me trying to describe the visual I see in regards to Miguel from that song, to a blurb of guilt and sadness. GoddAYUM was it fun to write.

To anyone reading: play Persona 5 Royal if you have access to it. It is such a good story. That shit changed my life. Literally message me to talk about it. Spam my inbox about it. Ask me about how to get the 3rd Semester. I'll answer literally any question about it so that you don't Google it and get spoiled. I would rather get spammed questions about a character than have someone get spoiled something important.

@pinkpinkspidey

[cloudninetonine]

*awkwardly walks in, waves, downs coffee like a shot, leaves without elaborating after dropping a note*

Hey, nothing too big this time as I've had a rough week and I'm currently dogsitting a dog that ain't mine so my brain power is more or less incoherent and shot, just passing on by to wish you a Merry Christmas (or whatever you celebrate) and to thank you for all your work in the fandom!

First of all, I've only know of Mess Au existing for like an hour and a half but I already adore the life out of it, Rip Player and their sanity due to the Evil Chain running around but I am thriving on their content with the Ganons. And, there's a discord? *Confused guitar sounds from a Musician*

Also I'd die for Pastuzo, just saying, if dangerous wild animal then why friend and hug shaped? I've only know him for a day and a half but if anything happened to him I'd murder everyone in the Yigah Clan and then myself, Player is lucky if it was me there with Nat I'd immediately pat, bless that guy (also Rip Nature and his food, I hope he knows that my version of Fia/Seraph is cackling at his misery, just straight up rolling on the floor), and the entire section with Eve? Perfection, outstanding, showstopping, honestly given I'm a reader myself I'd probably chill with him, and I hope Player gets to introduce books from their world to him because something tells me he'd love a wider selection, I am thriving so much with this thank you for the food of Ganon-Player Found Family. *Bows* Also, I kind of want the Ganons to meet Og Chain now, it would be funny.

Also, Player's Aid Au where everything is the same but the reason why Legend dislikes Players is that the only time he remembers with his Guide is in Koholint so that's why he's so Claude Frollo when it comes to them, the trauma is making him suspicious. Or alternatively, where Player is actually a Witch but like A Wadanohara Sea Witch rather than the standard type, like instead of a broom they have a staff with an anchor at the end they use to fight and fly (as well as several other anchors and fish hooks on their design), an Ocarina for healing spells, some control over water and basically does what the Links do but with a twist: protects the ocean and people's dreams, no one in the Chain would ever have a nightmare while they're around, bonus points if we give them a seagull familiar that can turn human, or that it's just straight up Marin, or if because Mipha is a Zora and Zora are sea creatures if they make her a familiar she can also join the Chain or heck even Nayru idk haven't thought that far ahead.

Legend: They're a Witch!

Sea Witch Player, feeding seagulls with Aryll: ... Yes? I did go to witch school in the witch world, and? Do you want to see my certificate and PhD in witchcraft or something?

One thing for sure is that if Sea Witch ever saw the Wind Fish fhey just straight up roll up their sleeves, go "Hold my staff and anchor earrings Rulie/Wild/Wind/Nat/Grandpa Tides" and just try to fistfight it, no magic involved, that or they'd be yelling expletives at it with at least one Chain or Passel/Singular (a group of hogs/boars) member holding them back from fighting it, bonus points if they do the same for Dark Link if they went through the same trauma Wada did or have moon trauma like Time too.

... Now I'm thinking about how the Chain or Ganons would react to Indie games, hm... Eh, maybe in another ask, Tides and Time would mentally adopt Niko from One Shot, or any child protagonists so fast I can literally see it, Time would literally feel smacked by Hello Charlotte and Undertale, and Legend would have a love-hate thing for both Omori, Yume Nikki and Dreamfarer and Hyrule would get so much trauma from Mad Father, gotta think of any other ones for another ask.

Anyway, happy holidays and hope you're having a better existence than I am currently!

-A Very Awkward and Tired Summertime Musician.

HAPPY HOLIDAYS SUMMER!

Also I'm so glad you're enjoying the Mess au right now it's literally all i can think about! Yes, Pastuzo is the pride and joy on the whole au now.

Also we gotta love witches, especially Sea Witch Player and all I'm saying is sharks are pretty great so Player having two familiars and once is a shark (more importantly whale shark because I love them)

Tbh, Tide I feel is an Animal Crossing lover (I know it's not an indie game but still), he enjoys the calmer life.

Also, don't worry! They will be meeting the Chain real soon :)

[ninthfeather]

Ho Ho Ho Hello! 🎅🏻

It’s „funny“ that seemingly it was a tumblr wide bug that questions got eaten! I saw other blogs complaining about it as well!

Anyway it’s an interesting thought!

Do you have headcanons if any characters might be badly wounded or even die in the end battle? For the drama?

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Ugh, I thought it was just a me problem; I tried to save a partial answer as a draft and instead of saving it tumblr froze and the ask disappeared into the aether :/

So, I think there will definitely be injuries, but Gosho has not been very interested in having anyone seriously injured in a way that they don't eventually heal completely from. The sole exception is Kansuke (my beloved) who was injured pre-canon and was presumably created as a character with an injury-related disability. Gosho likes to play fast and loose with medical stuff specifically so that his characters can survive injuries with fewer effects than they'd have IRL, and I don't think he's gonna stop doing that for the finale.

As for deaths, I think there's a chance, but Gosho is, once again, much more comfortable killing people off For Real in the backstory than in the present of the story. He has done it, but a lot of the notable incidents were earlier in the series; I think as DC went on he became (understandably!) more nervous about making permanent alterations to the cast.

I think there's a very good chance that at least one of the spies will either get killed or be thought dead for an extended period of time. I think Camel is probably at the highest risk of this; I think Rei would be a narratively resonant and painful choice too but that he's too popular for Gosho to do that with. Hidemi could also be in danger, but it's been a while since she's been a foreground character and killing her off would not be as impactful now as it would have been like a decade ago.

I think probably most or all of the Japanese police will survive; Takagi's gonna have a near death experience for sure and Sato's gonna lose her mind about it for a bit but they'll both pull through. If Gosho lets the Nagano police be involved, they'll also have some close calls probably. Megure might get shot again, but again, I don't think he'll be killed or seriously injured.

Heiji is also gonna be injured, probably in a way that looks very serious, but again, I think he'll recover without issue. If KID is allowed to show up for the DC finale, he will probably seem to be dead at some point but will turn up later completely uninjured. Ran, Kogoro, and Sonoko will all be in serious peril but none of them will actually get hurt except maybe Kogoro.

As far as antagonists are concerned, I don't feel like the series can end with Gin alive. I would bet on Akai being the one to kill him, but I could be wrong. Probably several other major Black Org characters will also die (specifically of falling off something/being buried under debris/something else indirect), and I would be willing to bet that Vermouth will go out in a way that makes the police believe her dead but leaves Shinichi suspecting that she survived.

I'd *love* if Shinichi got injured in some significant way, because I think it would be symbolic of the impact of this whole thing on his life and because it would increase the Shinichi & Kansuke parallels that I live for, but I do not think it'll actually happen. Every single "Shinichi is injured in a disabling way post Black Org showdown" fanwork lives in my heart, though.

On a related note, I really feel it would be more narratively satisfying if Shinichi ended up with some sort of heart issues post-APTX-4869-cure. I know the part where the temporary cures caused heart issues/were super dangerous was just Gosho's way of making it so he could have Shinichi be fullsize occasionally while still keeping him as Conan most of the time, but at this point, with all of Ai's fussing, it'll feel a little narratively cheap to me if he goes back to being a teenager with absolutely no health complications whatsoever.

I hope you're having a wonderful day and thank you so much for the ask!

[hannahlovesluca]

Hi can i get a nijisanji matchup if u dont mind (:

Male nijisanji en member :DD

Pronouns:He/him(literally any of those)

Sexuality:Gay for the homies....jk im bisexual.But men.My favorite genre of men is men who seems cool-headed but turns hot-headed whenever he plays amongus cause they're so fun to annoy(i may not have a type,but i have a pattern.and that's men.That's it.I'm so sorry for putting you through this but this sounded funnier in my head)

Zodiac:...what is a zodiac.I was born on April 12th if that helps?

Appearance:176 cm,almost a literal twig(i make up strength with agility i swear),dark brown eyes,short fluffy(?) brown hair??like those kinda wavy hair thing tho sometimes i tuck my bangs behind my ear like a disney princess if the temperature's hot,i don't neccesarily wear edgy clothes,sometimes i just find what's comfortable or i dress like a manhwa male lead.One day you see me in a black turtleneck and white shirt and the next day you see me in a blown up two piece suit while playing the most random stuff ever.I guess i have like a small waist??my friends told me i have those thin waists than even a corset wouldn't affect me(send help) oh and i had an era where i had waist length hair and ended up cutting it out of impulse,i only have like 3 fingers on my left hand cause im missing a pinky and ring finger(i honestly dont have any trouble against it i just think its annoying that i cant remember what even happened to begin with)

Mbti:ENTP/INTP(sometime si get entp sometimes i get intp)

Personality:Pain in the ass.Metaphorically.I will not hesitate to say something so abominably horrendous for the sake of arguing cause it's my favorite passtime.I'm the embodiment of that one character who never dies in a series and die at the end of the series from a tapeworm cause it felt lonely--On super duper rare occasions i get serious when it comes to problems but that's just a whole nother person atp,i'd be serious and maybe waaaaay too logical and blunt....but i still have a sense of humor tho

Likes:When people just randomly ramble to me,random 3 am shower thoughts,crabs(they taste good i swear),the concept of death(not in the depressing way i meant as in 'what if i die from a washing machine while showering' type of thoughts),physical touch and affection,i'd literally propose to someone if they'd let me doodle(rick astley) on their skin for funsies

Dislikes:Curfews,this thing we call math,toxic parents like if i see one im deadass gonna roast the hell out of them and mentally adopt the child(this happened like 3 times and im a children magnet atp)

Love language:

Giving:Words of affirmation(affectionate insults),physical touch

Receiving:Words of affirmation(affectionate insults),quality time

Extra:I get hurt kind of often so they'd probably see bandage rolls in the trashcan everyday,i actually love math but the act of actually counting the numbers makes me sick/lh,my room is a literal shipwreck unless someone scolds me to actually clean up my room LMAO usually i have to keep up a reputation so sometimes it's a shock to people that think that im introverted

i pair you with…

Uki Violeta!

hear me out…

• you are literally uki reincarnated

• i swear i didnt do this just because both of you are gay

• it works out great though

• you and fulgur probably jokingly fight for uki’s love

• omg imagine you went on Luca’s dating show and thats how you both realized that you loved each other

• might be writing a fic ab that…

• Uki knows your room is a wreck and he will FORCE you to clean that shit. he’ll also help u if u beg enough

• Uki also knows how often you get hurt and he’s always there to help, whether that be wrapping you up, or just giving you soft kisses <3

• HE LOVES UR HAIR!!!!!

• its just so fluffy and cute and adorable and

• sorry this is really short, i am extremely sick but i’m trying to pop out all these reqs!!!

RUNNERS UP: Fulgur Ovid, Claude Clawmark

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Saying this fully as a lover of s2 and ride or die fan

It would have been a cool option to open s3 with the lucius/pete matelotage. Maybe it would have lessened the whiplash after Izzy's death. Provide a reason for Stede and Ed to reunite with the crew in s3 (not that there's any shortage of possibilities there). Something to bring full circle at the end of s3 if they do an Ed/Stede matelotage. I do totally get why they put it in s2 especially not knowing if there will be a s3. This is probably just my brain not letting go of thinking we'd see a Lucius/Pete wedding bash lol.

I'm being 100% serious here, I don't think there's anything they could have done to make the reactions any less feral than they were. Even if they'd had the whole 10 episodes they needed, even if Lucius and Pete's wedding had happened on a completely separate episode from Izzy's death and funeral instead of like two minutes later, even if they'd gotten married five episodes earlier, the Izzy stans would still be raging about it as much as they are. They don't care about actual reasons, they're just grasping at any straw they can find to bitch about their blorbo's death because they were watching a whole other show where he was for racist reasons a main character and his death is an unforgivable crime against humanity and queer people everywhere (you have my empathy if you're a sane fan and you're sad about your blorbo's death without harassing anyone about it, I've shed a tear or two for Izzy myself.)

I think it was tonally perfect to close the season on a wedding, showing everyone moving on from the loss of their friend and all the hardships they all (including and especially Lucius) went through during it. It's the promise that no matter how bleak things get, how much you suffer or how much you lose, there's always something good to hold onto, something brighter in your future (the way Ed looks at Stede during the ceremony tells us clearly he's decided to marry Stede at some point, which is such a lovely thing to include there given where he was like two episodes ago. He knows he's loved and capable of love now and he's allowing himself to dream of a future with Stede and I, for one, am still dying about it.)

Everyone deserved a sweet, quiet sendoff after being put through the wringer this season, and I think the wedding followed by Ed and Stede deciding to retire and stay behind watching the crew sail off into the sunset together while they reaffirm their commitment to each other was absolutely perfect.

You cannot write a tv show around the fandom's expectations and potential reactions. Ofmd is incredibly kind in the way they take into account how much the queer community has suffered and try to be mindful of that in their writing (David has said this influenced their decision to end the season on a hopeful note in case we don't get s3, even though Ed and Stede still have a ways to go to get to a place where they can finally settle down together in a truly stable way.) But they are still writing a tv show, creating a story they want to tell in the way they want to tell it, and it's not fair to ask them to take into consideration that there's a whole subsection of the fandom that has been refusing to see the show for what it really is for a year and a half and harassing everyone else about it, or predict how they were going to react to the very necessary and well executed narrative beat of Izzy's death, or, god forbid, change the story to prevent their temper tantrum.

I'd have loved to see more of Lucius and Pete's wedding, finally get to see Ed and Stede dance, maybe, discuss retirement. I firmly blame HBO for slashing their fucking budget for s2 tho, I'm sure they would have loved to write us a lovely wedding party if they'd been given the chance. We did get Calypso's birthday, so I can't really complain. And I have absolute faith we're gonna get to see Ed and Stede's wedding in s3, and hopefully then they'll finally be allowed to dance.

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Thanks for tagging me @judgeverse ❤️️

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

16

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

108,855, almost all of that coming from this year as I spent the last few months of last year getting back into writing by telling myself 'I'm just going to write. I won't post, so I don't need to worry how good they are'.

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Stargate Universe because those guys are in my brain and I'd die for them, but my next fic I'm posting is going to be Stargate Atlantis. I also have 2 WIPs from Durham County as my brain went 'hey the SGU fandom is pretty small... You know what would be really funny?'

Back in the day on ffnet (*checks* 15 years ago jesus christ!) I wrote for Doctor Who, Torchwood, Star Trek: TNG, Blakes 7, Invasion, X-Men: The Movie, Demons, House, NCIS, Prison Break, and Being Human. 87 stories with 169,449 words. I'll have a quick look through them and see if there's anything worth reposting, but I doubt it. 14 years olds aren't usually very good, ya know? Though I do look at Reviews: 220 and think yikes, I did not have social anxiety when I was that age did I?

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

down here they call us animals has 32, but the rest of them are single digits because SGU is such a small fandom.

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

Always, love talking to people about my fics and it's not going to encourage people to keep commenting if they get no response from the author. Sometimes it takes a while because my spoons can get funky.

6. What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

so i bite my tongue and hope for blood, where Telford gets sexually assaulted by a drugged Rush, then goes on a killing rampage with none of the recovery (if there even is any beyond pretending it never happened) shown and nothing is really resolved.

there was a devil in my soul i think we activated, set during 2x07 The Greater Good, extends the scene aboard the derelict spaceship between Young and Rush. Young has a ton of trauma about Carmen, David, Riley, and P2S-569, and ends the fic in a pretty suicidal place.

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

This was a bit tougher to answer as I usually have some angst hanging around, but i'm a stolen car in a parking garage, where at the end Rush and Telford are bantering back and forth, sharing-time is happening, and they also have their first kiss in this fic, after having been fucking for a while.

8. Do you get hate on fics?

Nah, it's much better than it was back in the day. At least in the fandoms I frequent.

9. Do you write smut? If so what kind?

Oh, do I! 😄 Every gay kind that takes my fancy, from vanilla to super kinky. There are of course a few kinks I avoid reading/writing about as I'm sure everyone does, but if anyone has a specific kink they'd like to see me write hit me up and we'll talk!

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?

I'm afraid not. I'm just not that into them. 🤷‍♂️ (The fact that if I filter out crossovers on the SGU AO3 page I lose ~400 fics is a crime!)

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

I don't think so.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

No.

13. Have you ever cowritten a fic before?

Back in the day me and a friend wrote many hundreds of thousands of words RPing the 10th Doctor and the Master. RPing isn't allowed on ffnet so I received a warning and they deleted the fic. Thankfully I still have every single one of those fics due to being anal about backing stuff up on memory sticks, so if you'd like them @chosennightmares let me know. ❤️️

14. What's your all-time favourite ship?

Telford/Rush, if I have to pick just one, though I could chuck Young in there and go through every combination possible and still be very happy.

15. What's a WIP you want to finish, but doubt you ever will?

Nothing currently posted as due to having a lot of unfinished fics on ffnet I'm adverse to posting things without at least having an ending in mind. But there's an SGU fic titled Your Own Worst Enemy which was started in August last year and delves into rape recovery for Rush, Young, Telford, and Destiny herself. I need to be in the right headspace to write it and despite having 8 chapters of it completed I don't know how it's going to end up.

16. What are your writing strengths?

Developing different versions of Rush, Young, and Telford and have all of them still be in character despite being so different.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

Getting the end of the fic written, knowing how to sign things off. The promised SGA fic sat 95% completed for fucking ages where all I could do whenever I scrolled to it was stare.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

Knowing the state Google Translate is in, I probably wouldn't risk it, no. It does annoy me when I'm reading and I'm told to scroll to the author's notes at the bottom of the fic to see what's been said and then having to scroll all the way back up, potentially losing my place. Much prefer people using the HTML hover text option.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

Doctor Who. My mum was involved in putting together Who Cons when I was a kid, so I grew up watching the classic series.

20. Favourite fic you've ever written?

a memory, a distant echo I really enjoyed writing it, fleshing out David's character, and really digging into his psyche. It's a tough read, but I'm very proud of how it turned out.

tagging @thestorieswesay @no-more-pawn @chosennightmares @galadhir @sga-owns-my-soul

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Anthony's Stupid Daily Blog (827): Sat 22nd Jun 2024

I saw that there's a cinematography course at the university and apparently you don't need any qualifications to take it. I’d be interested in taking a cinematography course as I can barely work the camera on my fucking phone. I’ve sent literally hundreds of dickpicks over the years but the quality has been so shoddy no-one has complained about me because it’s so blurry they can’t tell what it is. At the morning meeting we were told that we would be doing a mandatory extra shift during Prime Week and thankfully it’s not the day that I’ve booked to go see AC/DC because if it was there would be no entry for today as I’d be in jail for mass murder. I don’t mind it this time because it’s one day but when they get us to do an extra day a week in the six weeks leading up to Christmas is when it fucking pisses me off. I might tattle on them to the government and say that they’re making us more fatigued and so more at risk of an accident. If there's one thing I've learned in my almost 35 years on this giant rock full of idiots and smaller rocks it's that the best way to get what you want is by telling on people. The big news story today is that a teenager named Jay Slater has gone missing in Tenerife hours after leaving a music festival with two people he met. He called a friend a few hours later telling her he was lost in the mountains before his phone died. Police are theorising that he was attempting to walk the eleven hour journey from the music festival back to his hotel room because he missed his bus. Christ first that doctor dies after deciding to go for a long walk during a heatwave without water or a phone and now this? Maybe there’s some sort of new virus going around like the one in the movie The Happening that causes human beings to go out in the heat without protection and slowly die of thirst and heatstroke (thankfully I live in Sunderland so I'd be practically immune to such a virus). This story has made me think back to when I used to drink and at the end of nights out in town, not wanting to spend money on taxi I'd walk the hour long journey back to my house while completely pissed. I used to do this all the time so there were dozens if not hundreds of opportunities for something similar to what has happened to this Slater kid to have happened to me. I remember one time I drunkenly went and sat outside the HMRC building where I used to work doing data entry before we got moved to another building to do call centre work and genuinely considered chucking a brick through the window because I was so angry that they'd moved me from a job that I liked to one I despised. Hopefully the kid will turn up okay but let's be realistic it ain't gonna happen is it?