#if i wasnt paralyzed by the fear of people calling me stupid for having fun i wouldve started already

[sprtruechara]

i have so much lore cooking in my brain for aftercredits its killing me. but i gotta finish these fuckibg character bibles first or the hoes will make fun of me for not having every line of dialogue memorized in a game i played originally 9 years ago. and also the character references i need to make those too

im gonna redesign frisk again i think also

[tumblunni]

Man i just remembered the paralyzing fear i had of this one kids film called Grandpa! I have no idea what its about except it was animated by the same guys who did The Snowman and it was advertised all the time on mid 90s vhs tapes. I had to fast forward the ad cos it spooked me just that much! And it didnt even make sense when i tried to explain it to everyone else?? Like.. All the advert showed was a grandpa being super cute with his grandkid, but somehow kid-me thought this was TOO cute. SUSPICIOUS! Something about the way the girl said 'grandpa' at the end made me think maybe the last act plot twist is that grandpa dies and it becomes one of those 'teach grief to children' films. I never did find out if my suspicions about this movie were true, but my grandma died a few years later and it was every bit as horrible as i feared :(

SO YEAH

BUNNI FINALLY GOOGLES THIS!

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Okay so it turns out i never found it again cos it was actually spelled Granpa for some reason. I guess kid me didnt even know that was the wrong spelling?

And HEY GUESS WHO FUCKIN CALLED IT

mannn whyyyyy

Apparantly its not really handled as in depth as i thought though, its just an ambiguous 'one day grandpa wasnt there anymore and i carried on his legacy by telling his stories to my own kids'. Ehh, i kinda think thats WORSE because it just leaves it all scary and doesn't even help explain to kids how to deal with grief. And its kinda patronizing cos it assumes they're too dumb to handle it, when seriously 7 year old me had your entire damn plotline predicted from just the teaser trailer!

Aaaaarggh i cant believe i let this control me for so long! Why are fears developed in childhood so much harder to shake! I still get nervous around those street sweeper machines even though i know my kid self was stupid to think they could suck people into the vaccuum if you stand too close.

Oh and MANNNN my imagined version was WAY WORSE so seriously this is what you get when you leave things unexplained that 'kids cant handle'! Kids will still frickin see it, and have no form of comfort for their wild imagination! I imagined the film would be all like 'every day she calls out to grandpa and he picks her up and hugs her, one day she knocks on his door and he doesnt answer, but she sees him sleeping in his chair and he's so cold..' I seriously thought it would just end with a Rule Of Threes calling out of 'G-grandpa..?' as this five year old stood over his corpse. And was probably left alone with it for hours before her parents came back. KIDS CAN IMAGINE HELLA DARK STUFF OK

Anyway at least on a positive note i can know i was good at predicting and analyzing plots even back when i was little, and anyone who's all 'ugh its a kids show stop thinking about it so much' clearly doesn't understand how kids enjoy things. I mean seriously we make fun of kids for getting too passionate about fandoms and fanfics yet at the same time tell adults they can't do it cos kids don't...?? There was never a moment in my life when i wasn't intrigued about writing and worldbuilding and character analysis and fix-it fics and AAAALLL that stuff! I just used to understand less about writing techniques and have more stuff go over my head. Which is why i love keeping the same fandom as an adult and revisiting nostalgic shows! I can get a whole new enjoyment out of it, and better understand the work that went into making it, yknow? Also lol good characters don't stop being good just because this show is aimed at an audience younger than me. Sometimes it still holds up as an adult, sometimes it doesn't, but i can still see why i liked it as a kid and appreciate how much kids nowadays could get from it too. But lol most of the time it does hold up and its only low budget stuff like MLP G1, he-man and hanna barbera that doesn't. And honestly that's 99% about me having more of a reference on what's good animation and voicework, lol. So many horrid sounding voiceworks! But i can still see a lot of golden plotlines amoung the cheapness and i wish these shows could have got a better quality remake that was.. Well, more of a remake than a reboot with new characters. I really didnt like how the new mlp became more about slice of life stuff instead of adventures and fighting, even if the characters were more fleshed out. And then lol the bronies ruined it all..

ANYWAY LOL IM GOING OFFTOPIC NOW

in summary plz do not put surprise gramp death at the end of your cute movie unless you're really gonna put in the effort to handle it well. Its the difference between a film that wouldve helped me get thru my grandma's death and one that just acted as weird nightmare foreshadowing of it