#if i go back will prob be for kylux and maybe some trans!reylo shit

[candiid-caniine]

Ofc! I'd say you should go back to it, but it is very difficult sometimes and I'll be like half the way into something and be like "is this worth then 10 kudos on ao3?" And the answer is usually probably not but nobody else is writing what I wanna read so may as well. Believe it or not finding trans inclusionary fanfics where a cis male character is a submissive bottom is very hard even on Tumblr dot com and ao3. 😩

oh lord, tell me about it. fanfic rant below

so part of why I stopped doing fanfic was I got super tired of writing cishet, neurotypical, and (to a lesser degree) white erotica lol. I'm not cis, het, NT, or white. so seeing myself in my work, esp as I leaned fully into being trans, was harder.

/context: I was writing reylo lmaooo. I got rly into kylux and have like 12 smoking hot wips in my drafts but kylux gets v little interaction and...am attention whore lol. kylux was bigger before hux got killed off I think :/

my fic "bootlicker" was a way to kind of break from that and queer reylo as much as is possible, but I lost interest because just...the fandom doesn't really *want* queer, neurodivergent reylo. and I have no interest in writing anything but star wars fanfic. mainly bc Adam drivr is one of the only cis men I am attracted to (and sometimes I trans kylo ren in my wips bc vibes)

anyway,, nobody asked lol but damn it can be so fuckinn hard. I have a lot of wonderful beautiful followers who will read most anything I write, but not rly interact, and plenty of equally wonderful followers who know what they like and it's so *not* what I want to be writing now. also valid.

I'm so sorry I don't even actually like rey that much I'm imagining myself fucking AD every single time I write her lmao