#if i ever post anything again it will be oc related or my version of Matt

[cyb3rn1t3]

I've been thinking about this for a while, but I'm not vibing with the deckers anymore. Within the past couple of years, I have interacted with people that have been disgusting individuals. I'm not going to get into what they did, but they not only have the took an oc and ruined it for me to the point I want zero interest with this character of mine. I look at my own character, and I'm disgusted by it because he's now associated with them. It's gotten so bad that every person I've met outside of a select few have be so atrocious I'm terrified to meet anyone new that's in this fandom and if I'm do I'm on guard and skeptical.

I understand that there's stuff like this in every fandom, but when you get pulled into something where the drama is so fucking toxic and problematic it's a lot. I know problematic gets thrown out a lot, and quite honestly, calling the situation I was in problematic is for lack of a better word because it was worse than that. Their behavior just killed the joy for me when it came to this fandom.

This sucks because Matt Miller and the deckers were such a big thing in my life and shaped who I am. Hell, Matt is one of my kins, and in a way, he still is.

While I am leaving this fandom, I will always still have my roots in it. Going forward, I'll still be known as CYB3RN1T3, and I'll still go by Matthew/Matt/Matty but certain things will be changing like what my profile is as a "brand" for lack of a better word since it's just not me anymore. And let's be real here I haven't posted decker content, let alone saints row content in a hot minute.

My icon, server, and selfsona are and soon going to be was heavily decker aesthetic but now will be evolving into something that represents more of me rather than one specific fandom. I will say the satanic imagery and neon colours will be staying. I look forward to the future, my duckies~!

-Matty R. N.

[snekdood]

bitches prolly out here psychoanalyzing my old art on behalf of my abuser to cushion their belief that im a Horrible Person but then dont see the irony when I point out the shitty things my abuser has drawn and how I see it as clear evidence of their mindset and beliefs (of what's okay to do and how to treat people) descending and pairing that along with everything else they've done and it paints a clear picture of how this person got to the point of thinking it was okay to abuse me the way they did and then the people looking for reasons to hate me through my art will act like "they're just drawings !!!" about their art. which one is it. does someones art say something about them or not? or does it only say something about them if you hate them?

[hestzhyen]

Chapter 52 Hype Posting

Hi void. I am going to vibrate out of my seat. Oh I'm going feral, absolutely feral. Another WSJ cover and lead colour page next week already! Promotion on TV during prime-time in Japan! The insanely good volume 4 PV! Hokazono-sensei judging for a manga award! Kagurabachi's getting the push to be the Next Big Thing at last- you love to see it.

Kind of.

I want Hokazono-sensei to get all the recognition he deserves, but I also don't want the fandom to explode and become yet another annoying dudebro space. The success of the series is more important though, so I'm happy to see Kagurabachi get so much support. Everyone needs to know about this manga! ANYWAY.

LOOK AT THIS TROLL.

It's Chihiro's turn to have a creepy parasocial admirer now.

Hiruhiko's not doing this just for kicks, however- he deliberately (and successfully) triggered Chihiro to orchestrate his dramatic fall. Given what happened at the end of this chapter, I would not be surprised if Chihiro's literal descent is foreshadowing a metaphorical one of some kind down the line.

And this just breaks my heart:

Triggers Chihiro's rage then fucks off only to do this? I will not be mourning Hiruhiko's death.

Chihiro's not built for being a murder bot and it pains him so much to be seen as equivalent to someone like Hiruhiko. But he was taught to see things through and uses his hatred for the Hishaku to keep going. Revenge is probably the only thing he wakes up every day for- he wasn't kidding about that "fresh hatred" line in chapter 1. And neither was Shiba when he said living like this would break him. This kid needs a hug and a safe place to cry out the pain so badly, man...

More than that, though... more than anything...

HIRUHIKO'S THE FUCKIN' ANTI-HAKURI.

"We're equals", he says. "I killed my family", he mentions. "Let's be friends," he asks as he forces his way into Chihiro's life. "I'm the only one who can understand you." The hell you aren't you rat bastard. Hakuri's the one whose soul resonates with Chihiro's. He's the one Chihiro acknowledged as an equal and a friend. BEGONE, FOUL DEMON.

God damn it. Hokazono, I love you for making my most hated villain archetype into a character I want to see more of. I've never understood why playful psychopaths are so beloved but I get it with this guy. Smooth move making him the evil version of my favourite character in all of fiction, Mr. Author. Now I need Hiruhiko and Hakuri to face off over their ideals about who Chihiro really is. It would be the perfect reprise to the Sojo arc! PLEEEEEEASE. There's so much HakuHiro potential in this setup... Hakuri being the one to pull Chihiro forward again would be amazing. But not for his own goals this time- just to help Chihiro as a true friend and partner. Not gonna get too attached to this since it's just one potential development out of many... I won't let myself... (too late).

(Psst... 昼チ or 昼チヒ will probably be the JP ship tag/name for Hiruhiko/Chihiro. Ain't no way Chihiro is the top in this pair for most Japanese fujin lol.)

The Show

The main character of the play's name is Sasuke and Hokazono-sensei is a huge Naruto fan. So much so that he's taken his own spin on Naruto and Sasuke three times now (Enten, Roku no Meiyaku, Kagurabachi). Chihiro is, in fact, his OC donut steel character inspired by the most annoying emo ninja boy ever. I see you, Hokazono-sensei.

The Battle of Soshima might be a made-up title to reference the real historical event The Battle of Tsushima, which fellow Golden Kamuy fans will recognize. At any rate, there aren't any famous Japanese stage plays with the same name, so there's no direct narrative parallels to draw insight from (sad trombone noises). Fortunately for us Hiruhiko is a yapper like I hoped and tells us the plan pretty plainly anyway:

I relate so hard right now, random audience guy.

Hiruhiko says the plan to kill Chihiro's not a bluff. But he's not acting like he's intends to make good on that statement. So that means...

Perception vs Intent

Chihiro looking his best: stressed and menacing

This is gonna be huge I think. Remember what Azami said back in the Sojo arc in ch. 9:

Azami, please come back soon. I need you carnally.

Then consider likes like this...

Local violent gang member still pretty tough after becoming human shishkebab through a moving train.

Chihiro could be set up to tarnish his father's legacy.

The public doesn't know the true strength or capabilities of the weapons that won the war- they just know that Rokuhira Kunishige made them and they were the key to winning. So Chihiro dropping in on a stage play to splatter the audience with a headless corpse's blood is not a great first impression. He looks downright villainous in this scene. Awesome, but villainous.

The Hishaku are going to metaphorically "kill" Chihiro somehow. For some reason, tormenting this poor guy is absolutely vital to John's plans... it's probably more along the lines of Chihiro being a useful pawn to move around to create conflict they can exploit, but still. They're going to try to break his spirit this arc for sure. Leave Chihiro alone! He's been through enough!

I've got a hell of a lot to say about this but I need some key details from the next few chapters before going off on lunatic tangents. Fuckin' hell though, this is great. This is exactly the type of development I was hoping we'd see after Samura's chapter. Chihiro's committed to the cause of killing the Hishaku, who so far have been wholly unsympathetic villains. But killing is a wrongful act. And this chapter sets up that Chihiro might not be the sympathetic avenging swordsman we love him as in the eyes of the public- he appears to be more of a menace like some of the members of the Kamunabi accused him of. He might be challenged on his murderous modus operandi via a Hishaku-backed smear campaign. Seriously, using Chihiro's brutality against them to ruin his father's legacy would be so evil and cruel. I love it.

We'll be able to count on Shiba and Hakuri to make sure Chihiro doesn't go off the deep end at least. I wouldn't be surprised if Hiyuki played a pivotal role in helping Chihiro out this arc too, but I don't want to commit when we've hardly seen anything of her so far (my spaghetti sovereign... please come back to the main story full-time soon).

Whether or not I'm right (I'm not, I never am), Chihiro's murder sprees fueled by Fresh Hatred are going to get looked at in a critical way. High time and I am definitely here for it. Tell me what you've got to say about violent revenge motivated by grief, Hokazono-sensei. You have more space to examine the topic now compared to Farewell! Cherry Boy.

Shorter than usual but that's not a bad thing. I can always come back and edit this (came back to do so twice now already) or make another addendum post, but...

... Just choose kindness, people. For yourself and others. See you later.

[writingquestionsanswered]

Not sure if this was asked before but... how do you get your *passion* back for writing - or any old hobbies at all? Maybe bc of ADHD, but I used to hyperfixate on writing, reading and other things. They were my world. Now, when I actually have time to write... my interest is meh. Mild. Barely exists. But I'm still interested. Just not passionate. My heart doesn't flutter at new OC ideas anymore - or ships. Or family dynamics. I'm bored... what gives?

ADHD: Interested in Writing, But Not Passionate

I really struggled with this. Mainly, because I have a hard time wrapping my head around, "My interest barely exists but I'm still interested." I can't make sense of that.

I've written three different versions of an answer, none of which I liked in the end, because I think the long and the short of it is this: you can be interested in writing generally, but stuck on a WIP or unable to get started generally. And there are all sorts of reasons why you can be stuck on a WIP or unable to get started generally (including executive dysfunction... thanks, ADHD!) However, at the end of the day, if writing was a hyperfixation for you, that may be all it ever was. Even if some part of you is still "interested."

Which brings me to a story from answer attempt #2, which I think is still worth sharing. Years ago, I hyperfixated for weeks on a particular historical topic. I couldn't get enough. I read about it, watched documentaries about it, subscribed to magazines about it, fell down topic-related rabbit holes for hours at a time. My brain needed to understand every single thing there was to know about the topic, which was troublesome because everything about this topic isn't known... even by those who study it.

One day, my attention shifted to something else, but I never really lost the "interest" in this topic. My ears still perk when I hear something about it. I still skim articles about it when they come up on social media. I would probably pause in my channel surfing if I happened on a documentary about it. But my interest isn't the same. It's not enough for me to dive in to the extent that I did when it was a hyperfixation. And this was tested by the fact that not long ago, I visited a museum with a whole wing dedicated to this topic. And I knew it was a big deal that I was there, and that hyperfixated me would have blown a gasket out of sheer joy, but I just wasn't able to engage with the exhibits the way I wanted to or felt I should. I was looking at the artifacts and absorbing the words on the exhibition labels, but I wasn't feeling anything about it. It all fell flat. Which was kind of depressing, to be honest.

So, I'm telling that story because I think there's a very real possibility that may be what's happening for you with writing. It may just be a hyperfixation that still interests you in some way, but which can never really inspire that same level of interest you once had--unless you become hyperfixated on it again, but there's no way to force that. And there's no way to know for sure if that's what's going on except to try some of the things suggested in the links below to see if you can troubleshoot a cause or kick start your motivation. If not, it may just be something you did once and may come back to again eventually. ♥

Guide: Filling Your Creative Well Guide: How to Rekindle Your Motivation to Write Getting Excited About Your Story Again Getting Unstuck: Motivation Beyond Mood Boards & Playlists 5 Reasons You Lost Interest in Your WIP, Plus Fixes! Feeling Unmotivated with WIP

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[fishedeyelenz]

ANNOUNCEMENT FOR THE BLACK CHRISTMAS FANDOM

Hello everyone who's been following my writing and art and OC's!! Your support has warmed my heart, and got me through some thought times. Thank you very much for sticking by me, commenting, sending me kudos and asks regarding Dilf Billy and my oc-verse I made around him!

However... I have come to realize I have made Billy, at least the older 45-50 year old version of him my own. Very much my own. I think there's a discrepancy between my characterization of him, and how he is portrayed in the movie/novel/commentary. Another thing is that I love him too much. I want to make him my own, not an interpretation of a pre-existing character...

So that's exactly what I am going to do! I'm taking him and making him an OC. Currently I am in the process if changing up his backstory to make him distinct from Billy Lenz, though the Dilf version we see in Rats in the shadows and partially in So give me coffee and tv will stay similar.

My goal is to create a group of ocs consisting of the character formerly known as Billy, Camille, Bean and other side characters who will exist in a story about an ex serial killer father. I'm still early in the rework, but I feel like I don't have change too much.

What this means I will effectively be distancing myself at least partially from the Black Christmas fandom, at least in terms of my content creation though these past few months I have been in a rut given college preoccupying most of my time. I still love Black Christmas, it will remain one of my favorite movies forever. I cherish the friends I made and the experiences I had, but I want to move on to more original creations, uninhibited by primary existing source materials.

I will still interact with fan works in terms of reblogging art and writing , and I will most likely draw more of Billy Lenz and the other characters from the movie in the future. Anything regarding Camille, Bean, "dilf Billy" though, will be something divorced from Black Christmas, entirely its own thing, though obviously inspired by it.

Will I return to writing for Black Christmas? At this point I am uncertain. I have a WIP of a priest!au thing for Dilf Billy, which if I ever get around to finishing I would post under the pretense that it's a Black Christmas fanwork. However, I am not sure if I will finish it, given that I don't really have the time, and at the moment motivation to really work on it. Another story idea exists too, one which would better fit into the Black Christmas ethos with is very dark tone and heavy subject matter (while still remaining a smut work) which I would gladly have exist as a fanwork.... But once again I am lacking the time and want to do it. It would be a very big project, all things considered.

So what now? I will keep all my Billy Lenz/Dilf Billy content up on my blog, my AO3 will stay intact (though I will forward this announcement onto there), and I won't change my tags on Dilf Billy related posts. Moving forward, though, everything created for my oc inspired by Billy Lenz/Dilf Billy Lenz will be tagged as that. I need to come up with a new name for him first...

I will also make a post regarding how the plot of Rits/Sgmcatv would have went if I'd finished them, to give you guys some sort of conclusion. Though the new oc story with Bean, Camille and the new Billy oc in it will very closely follow Rits original storyline. Most of the events of Rits are canon still in regards to Camille's and Bean's backstory, with of course some caveats (no Brahms, Camille and "Billy" meet differently etc.). But the large majority of the plot points and story beats are the same.

I will be happy to answer any further questions, as my inbox is open. I'm sorry to disappoint anyone, but I've felt the need to move on, to elevate this story. I hope I can be forgiven. Now I bid farewell to this part of my life and creative era, and look forward to the new.

[murderofsomeone]

art related boundaries/concerns

(making this post since I've been getting a lot of questions lately)

hi I'm an adult. please take this within that context.

using my art for pfps/profiles is fine, credit is optional, but preferred. this doesn't apply to ocs: please ask first and always credit

drawing my ocs/designs is always fine and encouraged

don't reupload my art without asking. i'm ok if you're just like. sending it to someone, idgaf, just as long as it's private

don't sell my art

don't remove watermarks. I understand they sometimes get cropped out for formatting reasons but that's about the only thing I'll excuse

don't draw nsfw content of my characters/designs/stories. don't send it to me either if you find any

don't put my underage characters/designs in weird situations, especially genderbending and aging them up (if I make an adult design of them that still doesn't give you the right to be weird)

making fanfiction, crossovers, and aus of my stuff is pretty rad. if you want to make one go ahead, just remember to be respectful

I don't have any strong opinions about people kinning my characters/designs, so it's all good. just remember to be respectful

please ask if you can headcanon certain aspects of a character. a lot of things are set in stone, but others are more open-ended and I do like to hear thoughts about those types of things.

I'm ok with people asking for alternative versions of drawings (ie: removing the text or background). the only exception is if it's too much work to bother

I really don't mind questions about my characters/designs/stories. it isn't annoying and I do appreciate opportunities to talk about them

practice common internet etiquette by not sending weird sexual comments directed to my characters/designs. saying stuff like "I want him" is fine and funny, I just don't want to hear about your dick

I draw entirely for fun and do things when they seem funny/relevant, do not assume I ever owe you anything

please do not blatantly rip off my ideas and characters. being inspired is ok, I just really don't like it when people take my ideas out of context and act like they own them/are free use. I put a lot of work and thought into these things and it's incredibly discouraging to see this happen over and over again.

if you find me being a "hypocrite" about some of these because there are exceptions and feel the need to be an ass, i may be inclined to throw rocks at you

If you need clarifications or have questions feel free to ask, but this is generally what's set in stone.

[whumpy-wyrms]

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

here’s some wholesome Dew art because he deserves to be happy :3 (also his sweater is supposed to look like colorful firework explosions)

now here i go getting all sentimental under the read more…

first off, thanks @mottinthemainpot and @toyybox for requesting New Years art because i wouldn’t have drawn this otherwise!! it was fun and i love how colorful it turned out :D

also here’s the version without the background

anyway, i have to say that making this blog was one of the biggest highlights of my year. i did so many things that i thought i’d never do! like show my writing to people, post oc stuff… make actual friends. seriously, just creating something that makes other people happy is what i’ve always wanted to do, and i did it! writing and drawing are my favorite hobbies and i’m so so happy that i’m making other people happy by doing what i love more than anything.

i know TLLR may not matter all that much to other people, but it had a huge impact on my life. it caused me to start sharing my stories instead of keeping them in my head, it caused me to come out of my shell and actually talk to people online, and make so many amazing friends that i never would have met otherwise. it made it easier for me to be myself and interact with people, instead of hiding or being too shy like i’ve been doing my whole life. i used to be soo scared of talking to people online, because i thought nobody would like me or i’d be too awkward. but all of your amazing support made me able to do that, made me able to express myself and find a friend group that i can relate to and who likes me for me. that’s something i’ve always wanted, so thank you all!!

ever since i was 12, it was my dream to make something- a series and characters- that inspired others and made people happy (aka the same impact that Gravity Falls had on me). i know TLLR isn’t much, and it’s not super popular or anything, but i’m so unbelievably happy that i created something that makes people excited to read and think about and make art for. i’m so happy i created something that inspires people and makes people happy (even just a little bit). that is honestly all i’ve ever wanted and it makes me excited for all the amazing things i’ll do in the future.

to all of you invested in my silly little story, THANK YOU!!!! without any of your support or kind messages or reactions or art, i literally wouldn’t have made it this far. i remember the first ask i ever got (you know who you are :)) and i just wanna talk about how that affected me. because holy shit, back then, that was the nicest thing anyone had ever said about something i made. i can’t even describe how happy i was when i first read it, like it literally made my entire month. it made me realize that i’m capable of making something that makes people happy. and to everyone who has ever left nice messages about my series, thank you so much again!! because wow, it’s just so surreal that people like my creations. thank you

this is super rambly and completely unplanned, but yeah i just wanted to say thanks for the amazing past few months. i’m so happy i joined this community, everyone here is so nice and it’s led me to make amazing things. even if you don’t read TLLR (i recommend it ehehehe /nf), thanks for following me and supporting me with my art. drawing all those tllr drawings definitely made me improve a lot (this year was also a huge year for my art in general. i’m so proud of myself for how much i’ve improved with my art).

ALSO WRITING!!! my writing has definitely improved thanks to tllr. before this, i just wrote for fun about my other ocs and never showed ANYONE. it wasn’t in chronological order and i didn’t care much for mistakes or perfect grammar or anything. don’t get me wrong, i love the other stuff i wrote for myself, but tllr is by far the best in my opinion. it challenged me to write something not only for myself, but something other people would read. it put me out of my comfort zone at first, when i posted the first chapter. my writing has improved so much because of that and i’m so fucking excited for what i’ll be able to accomplish in the future.

oh yeah! thanks to the whump community for inspiring me to post my stuff in the first place! tllr specifically is something very important and personal to me, but something that i’m able to share with other people so easily. tllr isn’t just mine anymore, it’s everyone’s who’s ever read it (don’t take that too literally)

anyway, i know i’m forgetting something but yeah i just wanted to say thanks!! you are all so amazing! i’m not gonna tag all of the friends i made but you all know who you are, thank you!!! 2023 was amazing for me and i’m so excited for what 2024 will bring (besides me literally graduating high school this year)! big things are coming up with tllr too, new characters, twists and turns, crazy stuff. i’m so fucking excited

OH YEAH! i usually don’t make new year’s resolutions but this year i definitely want to draw more of my friends/mutuals’ characters. all of you are so creative and drawing art for other people is something i realized i love to do!!

i don’t know how to end this, it got longer than i planned loll. thank you all for the amazing year!! thanks for all the support!! :DDD

[aisy15-chan]

"I don't think about you at all."

This is a more detailed explanation of the little post I made the day before yesterday lol (this long guys)

"I don't think about it after all" is probably the most fitting sentence to describe Rin's emotions towards Volo after the Hisui arc & if Rin was more honest with Volo they would probably say a harsher version of this sentence actually… This sentence refers and is based on how Rin doesn't like or even very hates getting involved in anything related to Hisui and Arceus anymore. because who wants to remember being the one who was randomly sent back in time? Dealing with crazy things? Dealing with a crazy blonde guy who wants to destroy all life and replace it with something fake and boring how wastw already makes Rin want to puke and get sick and think maybe he'd be better off being a mad scientist than getting involved in this crap and Volo again.

On the other hand Rin's sentence hurt Volo more precisely and effectively than anything he's ever received before. Rin is the person he can connect with the most and also makes Volo's blood boil more every time he thinks about thier compared to the heroes of Arceus. Volo initially forgave Rin's intelligence & strategic ability in pokemon battles to train his pokemon to defeat the hero Arceus by doing stupid competitions they do every time they meet. training together and expressing opinions together… They are close Volo doesn't know any other word that fits to describe their relationship other than that… When Volo felt he could manipulate this situation Volo was defeated with an iron fist by someone he could call "close" without mercy right after he almost reached the top then Rin quickly knocked him down and with his ego just like that…

"Is was all always just about them?"

Yes this is base on and reference to that one c!Tntduo scene- I always wonder why every post related to c!tntduo always matches Martabakshipping and I remember… they are indeed based on C!Tntduo… Well, this used to be just based on a joke by making a joke comic of my silly oc x canon that became too serious until making the C AU where they really became C!Tntduo gosh… I can never run away from them *tepar* damn.

An Rip my phone old memory and all of my wip cuz software error 😔🙏🙏🙏 I'M AT MY LIMIT I ALMOST SNAP OKEY BUT I'M FINE *TEPAR*

[synthshenanigans]

woah hey a year has been passed wowie :0

First two weren't posted here cos they were too long ago & not CJish related but love the way he took up 70% of the year lol

[ Full images + templates below :} ]

[TW for Bright Colors, maybe blood & very very vague themes of depression/suicide for like 2 drawings I believe]

Long text about the arts if anyones actually curious!!

January: An old OC I completely forgot about until making this. He's based on old radio like things :}

February: Played Person 5 Royal last year & drew Joker cos idk he's neat. Fun fact, the same day I fully finished the game was the day Storm & a Spring came out. Also while grinding in the game, I had his Bidding & VoaC covers on repeat. Which was a bit annoying to do since they weren't on Spotify yet & YT on mobile didn't have looping then.

March: The Hawaii Part ii album cover :} I did post that eventually but that's the time I actually made it. Had listened to TME a couple of months before then which got me into the album, so months later I drew it cos why not? [Also the month Vol.1 fully released on everything. What's funny is my gallery for that day was a handful of memes I saved at 4am before I fell asleep. And then the next image saved is when I woke up which was a screenshot of the whiteboard in TfaR lol]

April: First main Jash art !!! And its not even with any of the songs from Vol. 1 lol. I had his Moss cover on repeat again & now that all of Vol. 1 was out, I drew Heart in some moss. Or really in the image from the video.

May: Lil animation I made of Heart with the song Don't Hit the Lights! Link to my post & the song can be found here :}. Still really like the song & even the drawings. Might remake em eventually idk

June: Sky/socialc1imb's Clue AU! I like murder mysteries & this one was real interesting so I drew it a lot lol. Might remake that one or one of the others I made at somepoint? It'll be a bit later if I do but ye

July: A redraw of a HMS piece I originally made back in May, based on the Three Wise Monkeys thing. I like the idea of it so I keep wanting to remake it.

August: I honestly can't remember if I posted that art or not. Actually yea I don't think I ever did PFFT. It's one of the few drawings I did of myself this year & its from CJs Not Perfect cover [as you can tell by the lyrics on it]. Also one of the very very few vent-ish arts I made. I like the background more than anything but its still neat ig?

September: Art for one of the best songs ever. I love Fine, I'm Fine its so good & I listened to it for like 70% of the 20+ hours it took me to make the drawing. Still proud of it so there's the sketch I drew on paper, the one on my tablet & then the final versions.

October: There was a lot from this month due to Jashtober. I still like this one lot & it wasn't insanely rushed so I picked this one to show lol.

November: I have no idea why I made a fun lil soul. I was having an identity crisis over my art style & ig decided to draw the guy who is a walking identity crisis/j

December: Same as September. One of my favorite songs ever was covered & released, so I made a drawing like everyone else lol.

[cpulysses]

I dont think I ever poster my Whipped Cream Cookie obsession here bcs at the time I would "consistently" post I was also obsessed with We Happy Few but oh my DAYS!! HES GETTING A SKIN. HES GETTING STUFF HES GETTING SO MUCH FUCKKNG STUFF IM SO EXCITED!!! So I'm infodumping all here

OK first of all were starting from the beginning. when i was born anyways when I was like 13/14 or something around that age and on a bigggg road trip with only me and my dad, I was feeling super bored. Me and my friends just finished a roleplay we had so we were speaking in a groupchat and my boyfriend mentioned trying a Cookie Run roleplay! We all joined but I was the only one who stayed, everyone left immediately because their favorites were taken.

BUT NOT MINE!!! I really liked Whipped Cream Cookie, when I picked up the game again after a really long time I just looked at him and decided yeah that one and oh my god why did that like change the trajectory of my life. He wasnt taken and I knew jack shit about his lore, but I picked him up and later on Cyborg Cookie too

I wasn't... heh... known for my whipped cream..! 🤓! But I still really liked him, people liked how I wrote his dialogue, but I was cooking so well with Cyborg Cookie that theg were the main focus really, eventually I decided to connect the twos lore for fun! I knew like all of Cyborgs lore except for stuff with the future skins really, so I just interwove Whipped Cream as someone related to their past in a way where Cyborg makes that stupid pink egg Whipped Cream has, and Whipped Cream just kinda found it and was like this is FIRE! and Cyborg was like noooe :( Thats basically it shortly put but I had a lot of fun roleplaying the two and found my best friend ever while in that server and now were big and grown and :3!!!

But yeah, I basically ONLY have good memories with the character. I continued to grow to like HIM, when the server was sadly deleted I ocified him and Cyborg alongside other cookies, with my friend also taking them in as ocs as well. And I grew more attached to my ocified Cyborg cookie due to how different they were to the base, but my ocified Whipped Cream Cookie could never fucking take the wheel. I love him sure but canon Whipped Cream just always had a special spot for me, my friends literally told me they've never seen someone so infatuated with a character while barely posting about it online or anything (now here i am) or just in general so captured by a character, he was like my fucking mascot to my friends, they'd see ANYTHING with him in it and send it to me, to the point where I wouldn't be shocked if I've seen almost every fanmade and canon Whipped Cream cookie thing like in the world

And for part of that massive fixation I knew jack shit abt what lore he actually had 😭 I knew small things and then again all he really had was small things, but I didn't know all of it. Then randomly on his wiki page I was doomscrolling and found a link to an article all about him! Not an article just a long google doc, but thats where I learnt a bunch and could look into the Dessert Paradise and all the characters to know how each connect and know more about him and I was very joyous,,, I was content for SO LONG. Just knowing he was a fellow brownskin who loves ballet and pink, with my little headcanons. Now I knew real shit I felt like the man.

And now me, one of my friends, and my boyfriend are all ocifying some of the Dessert Paradise cookies that we see as family ^^ So like Sugar Swan, Wind Archer, Fig Cookie etc etc. I wish I knew who made that Whipped Cream Cookie document but if your out there just know you changed the trajectory of my autism for life. I won't say more I'm already rambling so much, but I love Whipped Cream with all my heart and this update has me so so excited because I've had dreams of being on my fuckjng death bed with one wish and wishing for an update about him. Its bad.

BUT!! I will draw him and my ocified version more to post here and on Twitter even if nobody gaf bcs i gaf. I love him so dearly I've grown with hum through time the span of like 4-5 years just because I randomly pointed to him and went that one!! And moved on. I could legit die happy now. Like my life is over this is my peak. My peak.

[faccal]

🌲 What is the kindest thing your OC has ever done for someone? What is the kindest thing someone has ever done for them? On the flip side, what is the worst thing your OC has done to another person?

🌾 What would your OC be like if they were evil. Or if they’re already evil what would they be like as the good guy?

🌼 Describe one of your OC’s worst nightmares.

:3

Yay!!!! More stuff I can drop about Scotty!!!!

These are from this ask list.

Full warning, long ass post ahead. Also CW for mentions of violence.

🌲 Kindest thing your OC has done for someone: feel like for this one I'm really gonna have to think long and hard because the thought has never occured to me before.

I'd say the nicest thing Scotty has ever done for someone wasn't actually related to his team for once, and instead directed towards others in need.

Whenever he was off duty, since he couldn't return home, he'd volunteer at different shelters or rehabilitation places to help those in rough situations and mindsets. He wanted to help those in similar positions to what he was once in, and also he sometimes saw his parents in the people needing rehabilitation or who needed help recovering from addictions. He knew he could never undo what he did to his father, but he thought that maybe if he could help others in the ways he could not help his parents, then maybe he could move on and be forgiven.

Nicest thing done for him: I'd say the nicest thing someone has ever done for him (in his eyes) is simply be there. Soap(or Price depending on the version) pulls him out of a bad situation with a different team. The captain was a POS and Scotty was damn close to a discharge that would not have been good. Soap managed to get the necessary people convinced to hand him over. People were confused why Soap wanted him, and then were angry when they saw how well Scotty performed and everything he could do. He just needed proper leadership. Scotty's always been a little lost, never quite fitting in until the 141. Soap saving him from himself and others was the kindest thing that ever happened to him. Later when they rescued Price, Scotty immediately fell in line behind him. He respects and admires Price and Soap. They're important to him.

Worst thing he's done to someone else: I'd say the worst thing Scotty has ever done to another person (aside from killing people for a living) is beat the shit out of his father. He ran away to the military after doing so, but he beat his father so close to death that when the man recovered he did not seek any action against his son because he was so petrified. After years and years of torment from both his parents, Scotty finally had enough, and during one of his parents drunken nights where he was almost attacked, he finally loses it. He grabs his father's bottle, smashes it on his head and proceeds to bash at the man's face, arms, anything and everything he can reach. He then pummels at his father's face while his mother screams and sobs from the corner. It's only when his father's near non-existent breathing manages to reach him over the pounding in his ears that he stops. He nearly just killed his father. He can't ever recognize his father's face and there's glass and blood everywhere. He leaves after that, grabbing nothing by his cross, his Bible a friend had gifted him, and a photo of his old dog. He never returned and he never sought his family out again. He's grateful they never sought action against him, but he knows it's because they were scared. He was scared too, and every so often has a nightmare where he relives what he did.

He hates himself for it.

🌾 What would your OC be like if they were evil?

Usually this is a thought that I apply to my characters but I hadn't thought of anything for Scotty. To be completely honest, if he were ever to be "evil", I truly believe he'd resemble Shepherd to some degree. That kind of action derived from such a horrible moment in Shepherd's past is something that Scotty can understand. Your men, your people were killed. 30k of them with a nuke and the world just watched. That kinda shit changes you. If something similar happened to Scotty, I can see him feeling similarly. Now would be so exactly what shepherd did? I don't think so, but I wouldn't put it past him to kill anyone who got in his way or was responsible.

So I guess what I'm saying in regards to "what would they be like if they were evil?", is that he'd be angry. Full of rage and pain. He'd want to hurt those he deems responsible for whatever situation happens. There are a lot of different definitions for evil, but Scotty is definitely one of those "destroy the world to save who he loves" type of guys. He may not act like it, but there's a lot of darkness behind those eyes.

🌼 Describe one of yours OCs worst nightmares.

Well "worst nightmare" can be taken two ways, and as I accidentally got its meaning literally the first time, im gonna give two answers.

1. One of his worst nightmares is definitely losing the 141, specifically Soap as he's the one who saves Scotty and is like a big brother to him. (Though in some versions it's Price who saves him) But they're all his family. He loves Price, Soap, Gaz, Roach and Ghost. They're his people, his family. They're all he has and due to his past he does have recurring nightmares of them dying. He also has a massive fear of drowning, and before joining the 141 he would have dreams of drowning almost every night. Then he met his team and it slowly shifted to losing his team. He's forced to watch them die and then wakes up before he himself dies. These dreams slowly fade as he gets used to his team, and since he knows how capable they all are he doesn't have them as much. That's not saying he doesn't still have them though, multiple nights per week he still manages to have varying nightmares about losing them, and it just leaves him worn down.

2. The "Worst nightmare" in the non literal sense I guess, would still be very similar. Losing his team, or anyone he loves. He's always found it hard to connect, and that no one has ever really understood him. They find him weird, odd, reclusive. They question his scars, his often jittery nature and overall hyper vigilance. The 141 takes him in and he manages to relax a bit. He still maintains hyper vigilance, especially in precarious situations, but when it's just his team his much calmer. So his worst nightmare, both literal dream wise and reality wise, are losing the 141. His team, his family. He doesn't talk about it, feels it makes him weak, but they're his family. He's never had a proper family, they're the first one he's ever gotten to experience.

Thanks so much for these dude! I spent some time going over them, and idk if I'm 100% satisfied, but I really had to think on some of these because the questions had never occurred to me before. It was fun exploring more of my OCs background and lore. Scotty grows and grows. Thanks again!

[lyman-garfiel]

Tell me your oc lore pls 🥺

WAUGHHHHHHHH i have never properly written anything down, my poor partner put a channel in their server where i rant, to uh explain lyman he's some sort of weird lizard-horse hybrid thing?? [its a species that exists in his universe ] , he has a FUCKED up life that when i get to posting lymantria's despair [webcomic i'm concidering making if art block doesn't GET me again.] will be detailed there as lyman's life and experinces mirror mine and my personal traumas, you however asked for oc lore and not...evreything wrong with me so!! at some point in his youth he meets jewel who is a parasite, and uhh [given lyman's world is just beastars but i let bugs exist] her species faces a lot of discrimination ehaeh!! eventually the two move in together and lyman.....lets jewel kill him it is a fucked up scene i'd have to write at some point due to lyman's growing suicidal ideation and jewel's nature as a parasite. lyman does NOT die however and is shoved into his peacekeeper job and this is the 2nd version of lyman the uh,, fnc oc who's in some weird homoerotic relationship with scarab lyman, vent-sona who gets killed by jewel is his own version..guy?? since lyman has dissasociative ammnesia and does not recall his mortal life outside of weird wasp related nighmares,

these are ,,,,, lyman and mortal lyman [who's nickname is ruby and if i ..ever refer to him as ruby i mean pre-peacekeeper pre-death lyman] so ,,,,,, this is the part of lyman's story ive covered the most, its almost like 2am for me so i might skip over things , the #lymanlore tag is where i regularly post his content and story so check there!! but yeah he gets put in the therapist job, hates it..meets scarab, uhh realizes he has a weird thing for bug people now [this has to do with jewel] and starts to clear scarab's tracks for him, eventually slowburning into a romantic relationship and fufilling the reason i even made lyman in th first place,,, to kiss that beetle. his story then follows the events of fnc execpt he's just..there in the background likley dissasociating , and him and scrabs have a falling out which is best detailed in this fucking discord infodump

evreyone say thank you pixi for giving me a place to host my ill thoughts. so while scarab is stuck in gay baby jail lyman has to fill in for his auditor role..expeshally since he's not doing well after the falling out with his partner.. so he runs off to the world he recalls being from and runs into jewel again, they rekindle their friendship despite lyman hardly remembering shit about her [aside from the reacurring and increasingly vivid nightmares he'd been having] , and since jewel's living situation sucks because ,,,,,paracite speciesism lyman just..plucks her up and lets her live in his tavern [he's lonley and stupid..] whenever the fuck scrabs finally returns from gay baby jail he just has to deal with jewel's new presence and lyman is trying to make sure both the bugs he has a strong emotional attachment to play niceys and i throw them in a sims save because i think they're funny.......heres a shitty ship chart i drew up one night

i,,,,,,suck at explaining things heres a bunch of stupid discord screenshots of useless info i scrawled in the sacred server

this is,,,,,the most ive ever posted about these stupid fucking gay people so enjoy?!? edit becase i forgot a crucial infodump

[gaiteirocarente]

Fav elder: Purdy obv

Fav background character: Mousefang (she appears on firestars quest) dont know why, she just seems cool to me. Maybe some day i might post my drawings of her.

Fav comic page: ig the one in The Rise of Scourge, page 69, where kills one shadowclan cat and he bleeds from his throat. Was not expecting that at all!

First contact to wc: Into the wild at the school library, was 12-14 yo ig not sure tho

Scene that made irrationally angry: ig it was on the begging of a dangerous path. Where Fire just gives up on telling shadowclan and the rest of the clan in the gathering, what tiger has done till then. It was so anticlimactic too.

Times ive cried: none./j

*unrolls scroll* ahem.

First it was when Fire brought cloudkit to thunderclan and the clan cats are shit about it. I was sensive at the moment i read that alright!

second, the ending of rising storm. They did not have the right--

Third time it was the begging of crookedstars promise, my dude. What the- bros got neglected by one of his parents after smth happened to him? Same. Hit like a truck at the moment. Best book ive read.

And prob on bluestars prophecy when ykw. Car scene, and mosskit. Ive tho i was expecting smth bad was gonna happen, it was still pretty good.

ships i dont vibe with for no reason: (at the new prophecy) no hate on specifically, i just didnt see any chemistry on leafcrow. Like. Why. (I am an avid mothpool shipper so yk, ive good taste/hj) it just felt like "im gotta throw leaf with another clan cat cuz plot reasons" (at least, until where ive read)

first map i watched: I'm Not Ready

First pmv: Two Birds - Smudge and rust or Time of Your Life [Fireheart & Whitestorm]

First amv: In The End by NekoVocalNote

first warrior OC: when i was 16-17 yo idw

how many paragraphs could you write about your favorite warrior cat before you ran out of things to say: 8-12

have you ever lost friends over warriors related topics: nope

what's the most 2010s wcforum era esque fandom opinion you still hold onto and will fight people over: Bluestar having long fur and Mothwing being a ginger colorpoint

are you still up to date / reading the new books? if not, when did you stop: still reading! Im starting the fourth arc now, there is no translated version besides the first arc in my country, so i got to learn english to be able to read the rest of the series.

were you ever on warriors amino? (if you were, i'm terribly sorry): no, but i was on a furry one. So not that far off

about how much do your family know about warrior cats, if anything: they dont like cats, so they just "um dont read one about dogs?" but generally they don't care.

give me a song you're surprised you haven't seen turned into a warriors pmv yet - and what character(s) you imagine it to: Snuff by Slipknot, with Bluestar and myb if im the one doing it, id slip some blueyellow in it as well. It would pass mid dangerous path and with flash backs to bluestars prophecy and rising storm. Actually, i might pick up the wips ive done about it..

fav warriors related youtuber: Northflowo

what's the weirdest crossover au involving warrior cats that you've made? (if you haven't made any, then what's the weirdest one you've seen?): dont know if it counts, its more the other series with cats instead of people. But the closest is, TWD(game) and KE. Nothing more than one or a few drawing about it tho.

if you could make any cat leader of any clan right now, who would you pick: id let as it is. The lack of trust and communication between them is what keeps a story going right,,

would you hypothetically go to starclan or the dark forest: starclan

what's the biggest series plothole that's bugged you: rose-tail on the first book just, not mentioned on the alliances and appear one time on the middle of the book to be never mentioned or seen again.

how many people have you blocked over innocuous, not at all important warriors related takes: none

what dynamic between two cats has got you up at night pacing for hours: blueyellow rn and mothpool back then

what's a cat you genuinely forgot existed until recently: rosetail on the first arc

fuck it. warriors ask game except the questions are all weird and niche as hell

👴 : fav elder?

❓️ : fav total background character (im not talking minor characters like say. whitewing or moonlight, i mean cats with like...3 lines tops)

📖 : fav comic page from any of the mangas and why

👶 : how old were you when you first touched a warriors book? howd it happen

💢 : what scene made you the most irrationally angry upon first reading

💧 : how many times have you cried over this wretched book series? any favorite memories

💋 : is there any ships out there you absolutely hate for genuinely no good reason at all. like its not problematic in the slightest, if anything it's one of the better ones, you just cannot bring yourself to enjoy it

🐾 : have you ever named a cat after a warriors character OR given a cat a warriors styled name? if so, tell us the story

1️⃣ : was warriors your first animal based fantasy series? if not, what series was?

👑 : when roleplaying (if you ever have roleplayed warrior cats), did you used to power play? be honest.

🗺 : first map you ever watched?

🖼 : first amv/pmv you ever watched?

🖌 : when did you make your first warriors oc? (if you say you've never had OCs, i dont believe you)

📝 : if commanded to, without warning, approximately how many paragraphs could you write about your favorite warrior cat before you ran out of things to say

💔 : have you ever lost friends over warriors related topics?

🌈 : what's the most 2010s wcforum era esque fandom opinion you still hold onto and will fight people over (things like scourges collar color, dovewings eye color, etc)

🆕️ : are you still up to date / reading the new books? if not, when did you stop?

📱 : were you ever on warriors amino? (if you were, i'm terribly sorry)

🏠 : about how much do your family know about warrior cats, if anything?

🎶 : give me a song you're surprised you haven't seen turned into a warriors pmv yet - and what character(s) you imagine it to

🎥 : fav warriors related youtuber?

❎️ : what's the weirdest crossover au involving warrior cats that you've made? (if you haven't made any, then what's the weirdest one you've seen?)

🗳 : if you could make any cat leader of any clan right now, who would you pick?

🌟 : would you hypothetically go to starclan or the dark forest?

🤔 : what's the biggest series plothole that's bugged you?

😱 : how many people have you blocked over innocuous, not at all important warriors related takes?

☯️ : what dynamic between two cats has got you up at night pacing for hours? (romantic, platonic, familial, etc)

🌫 : what's a cat you genuinely forgot existed until recently?

[nineliabilityrisk]

⭐ do William also :3

[ send a " ⭐ " and i will list muses i would be interested in throwing at yours ]

[ asked by @trapton ]

WILL WILL WILL WILL

would you believe me if i said that i had absolutely zero interest in william as a character until i joined this community. but then i got introduced to you and nicole and ur guys' portrayals of him uh. successfully converted me. literally half my muses are obsessed with him. its your guys' fault. william afton my unhinged little babygirl i want to wring him out like a towel.

since this blog is solely for will, im just gonna list out my muses and then the possible verses / situations they could interact with will in

all the animatronics are pretty much a given, of course. what "version" of will it is just depends on the time period ofc, id love to write with any of them!! some highlights would probably be og freddy + bonnie with him, or the puppet or the funtimes . maybe even lefty or molten freddy for mr peanut if he feels particularly talkative

mikey ofc ofc - teen / younger mike is always fun to write even if its. a little difficult to do sometimes. like emotionally. (same with evan tbh i love writing him with will but he is IMPOSSIBLE to write if i dont have the muse.) and then of course fnaf 3 or pizza sim era with post ennard mike and springtrap or scraptrap,, plus i gave mikey a sb verse now! so! make him deal with his dads bullshit AGAIN! he will never be allowed to rest! never ever!

cassie maybe?? - i know TECHNICALLY nothing she did in ruin was related to him in canon but CMON. if you feel like yknow. subjecting her to MXES / glitchtrap or burntrap or ur like. literally anything. i feel like him having to deal with this bitchy little child would be incredibly fucking funny.

henry. henRYYYYY henry henry henry. - i need more of him and henry immediately right now like stat. fredbears family diner era or earlier or having them somehow meet in pizza sim era without one of them ending up dead. i do not care i just. i need them in any possible capacity. they r everything to me they r the reason i have had the phrase "doomed old men yaoi" stuck in my head for the past week and a half. it will not go away. i am in hell.

ciarán - are you kidding me. you KNOW how insane i am over them. also the benefit of ciar being an oc is that he isnt constrained by timeline. we could put him ANYWHERE. you wanna write springtrap? he could be there with him. glitchtrap? sure why not. literally anything. we dont have to stick with just this era weve sorta picked for them i can drop him ANYWHERE. i love their dynamic so so so much i am never not thinking about them

josh - i know mike was the only nightguard at fazbears frights and therefore the only one around while springtrap was Active, but also. josh is the type of guy to get assigned fucking Springtrap Maintenance Duties. subject him to the horrors thats literally what hes there for. he gets dropped in whatever awful job i decide to give him solely to have the absolute worst time of his life. get a little silly with it.

birdie - glitchtrap glitchtrap this ones for glitchtrap <3 a whole ass help wanted / sb centered muse. he has like 4 verses already planned out and i can always set up more i cannot WAIT to show you her blog i am always thinking abt her

[user07252022]

jan82023

My first entry.

I've been procrastinating if I should really start doing this or leave my thoughts to myself and let my own mind and heart do the work. Unfortunately, the thoughts are overwhelming and seems like my brain can't contain them any longer.

Thoughts about a person that I recently left to save my peace, my soul, my heart, and myself from myself. Trying to forget; healing; forgiving; trying to survive; wanting to live; wanting to end.

Lahat ng isusulat ko dito are all from my mind. As much as possible, still want this to be organized as how OC I am. and I dont want that to ruin this. because I need this.

3 days, going 4, when I left him. I guess seeing his posts and how he's acting makes me sad, angry, happy maybe. I really dont know. I guess normal lang to. sobrang pagpipigil and pagcontrol ko sa sarili ko not to relapse anymore. Hindi ko na kakayanin at alam kong ako lang din ang talo parin sa huli. Coming back just after 4 days will just prove na hanggang dito nalang ako. sad, kasi nakikita ko na parang bumalik nanaman yung dati nyang routine. live sa tiktok kung kelan nya gusto. kung kelan nya gusto magpost. girls he selectively replies sa comsec. girls he notices quickly sa comsec. what a deja vu. angry, nagagalit ako sa kanya at lalo sa sarili ko, question my worth again for the things that I did for him. nagagalit ako kasi hindi ko matanggap na may ganung tao pala talaga. i dont know. maybe its all just me. we never really talk if you're wondering. kasi naniwala ako on my won na di importante yung past nya sa kung anong pwedeng magkaron kami. guess thats how I fooled myself kaya I am where I am now. and I cant do anything about it but panindigan yung desisyon ko kahit na alam kong yung desisyon ko is para sa sarili ko. nagagalit at naiinis ako to myself dahil big part of me gusto talagang bumalik at maayos. having what if thought and/or sana thought na, what if kinausap ko sya? what if pinilit ko at kinulit ko sya para malinaw ang mga bagay bagay. sana kinausap ko sya edi sana nalaman ko muna talaga kung anong nasa isip nya. kung anong nararamdaman nya. kung ano ako sa kanya. kung anong consequences ng magiging desisyon ko na pag-iwan sa kanya for myself. after everything, i still believe that he's a good guy. we all have our own red flags. we all have our traumas and responses. we all had our dark days either nung bata pa tayo or nung teen ager days. not sure what he went through. sum of it nakwento lang ng sister nya to me. i can still remember nasa car kami non going back to their house galing ng concert. im speechless kasi i dont really know how or what to respond. i just gave my concerned look na as if im actually saying the words, i believe your story. ah ganun pala? really? and so on.

have you ever met that person na deep down you know that he's real and good kahit na almost everyone he knew left him or always has negative things to say about him. for what he's went through I was there. never said anything but only asked him if he's okay. that if he needs someone to talk to, ill always be right here. one chat away. we're both introverts so I would know. never kong pinilit malaman yung side ng story nya. more than the details of those issues, more than what those people has to say pa or planning to do pa, more than thinking about his fans if maapektuhan ba sila at iiwan sya, more than any of that, mas naisip ko sya. kamusta sya, anong iniisip nya, yung ok nya ba would mean na kaya nya at talagang ok sya? his wellbeing and how I can help him in any way to move forward.

sobrang dami ko nang natype. reading them back quickly, puro random thoughts, some of them may connection that maybe you can relate agad. and some might have questions. i just hope na writing them down will really help me. and im praying and hoping na after some time, hopefully soon enough, positive and better version of me na yung shineshare ko.

sobrang miss ko na sya. gusto ko sana ng makakausap talaga, kahit yung makikinig lang sakin. kaso i cut them off muna. deactivated. part of me, talking to them, una, baka nakakaistorbo lang ako. baka ang toxic ko na as friend sa pagiging paulit ulit ranting about the same person. 2nd, there are some things kasi na hindi ko pwede ishare at never ko pa nashare to anyone that can be the reason na they will call me bluff or stupid for feeling like this. gusto ko lang naman ng kausap.

God, bakit ganto? we had our good days naman. i had mine. and ayokong lahat ng to mauwi sa hate. but also, i dont want to end up fantasizing over my comeback or anything about him na gusto nya kong bumalik in his life. sobrang takot ako and i also think na napakaaga pa for me to decide, for me to feel like i already lost. alam kong mahaba haba pa to. so God help me please.

[seasidepierre]

heyyy, so I'm going to start posting my Charles Leclerc fanfic and I've been going through the writing process too. Since the Sunkissed Face series is one of my most favourite ones on this app, I just wanted to ask some tips (if you're comfortable with answering them) on how you stay consistent with maintaining the characters' personalities and how distinct they are and also, how to stay motivated since readers on Tumblr don't interact much. Sending lots of love to you <33

First of all: thank you so much for the kind words, they mean the world to me. I know I say it all the time, but you have no idea how much your kind comments boost my mental health. I'm a people pleaser, so Tumblr (when I'm not attacked by meanies) is my safe space and you guys made it so. So thank you so much, again.

Again, I feel like a complete fraud for giving advices because I don't think I'm good enough to be held to such a standard, but here you go.

I did have a couple of tips the other day, I went on a deep dive to get them back for you Nonie, so here they are again: some tips on how to get started on Tumblr

When it comes to my characters' personalities, I hate to say it but I legit pinball it. I don't outline, I don't have Pinterest folders, I don't create characters' cheatsheet. I just eyeball it and go for it. What I can say, though, is that if you're getting started on your writing journey, what I found the easiest for me (and it's for me, not for everybody, just speaking from my own experience) was to base the characters on something I already know. The drivers were easy, because with interviews and social media, we kinda have a general idea on how to write about them because we feel like we know them well enough (or at least, what they want us to believe/know). When it comes to your OCs, the best solution is to base them on yourself. You'd be amazed by how many details of my OCs are drawn from me haha, like the Sunkissed Babe is struggling with her social life in a city that is supposed to be busy. She feels quite lonely, even though she has friends that she sees quite regularly. This is something that I've taken from me. Our much beloved Queen from Pierre's fic is a lot like me too: her memory box is something that I have, I even have several because I'm a collector and I keep trinkets from everything and everywhere. Tink from She's Not My Girlfriend gets her nickname from the fact that she's constantly tinkering, solving smartphones and laptops issues and she's a tiny creature living for oversized clothing. That's me. So in a sense, I kinda scatter myself in my OCs, because it's easier for me to write about things I know and feel comfortable in. You won't find me writing about characters I don't relate to because I genuinely can't boost my imagination enough for these. And I learned that it's okay, that you don't have to write anything else but what you want, how you want it. I am tough on myself, the fics I post I generally don't enjoy to a 100%. There's always something that's bothering me about it and I can't pinpoint what. But I learned to let go of my perfectionism because I'm a one-woman show and I do my best with edits but when you've read the same thing 10 times already and can't figure out what to change, then maybe it's because there's nothing to change.

When you asked how to maintain them distinct, honestly, most of the time I feel like you could take all of my OCs and they'd blend into the same mold, so I'm genuinely surprised to hear that you see them very distinctly. When it comes to the drivers, it's a bit of a same. But I think the setting helps a lot and the relationships you build between the characters will help your readers draw a line between the versions of the drivers or the OCs. The Sunkissed Babe and Queen are distinct in the sense that they don't have the same dynamics between them and their significant other. Sunkissed is learning who Charles is and what makes him happy and how he operates. Queen already knows everything about Pierre and that's what makes her comfortable, even though she's always played the bestie card and now she gets to hold his hand. Other than that, they both are surrounded by friends but they both feel a bit lonely. They both have a nostalgia to them and they both are sweeter than the world deserves them to be. But because one is with Charles and the other is with Pierre, you seperate them well enough, I guess?

Anyway.

I wrote a novel on here and rambled so much.. I hope I answered your question, though!! Don't hesitate to come back to me about all of this, if I can help I will!