#if he has to go by smell. well it's a good thing pran smells so good isn't it

[grapejuicegay]

Who Ink sees

Who is Pat Naphat Jindapat?

Who his friends see

Who Pran sees

Who Phupha sees

[quodekash]

im back.

hell yeah flute man

pls my dads are so sweet, i cant deal

IVE CONTINUED FOR THREE MINUTES AND IM ALREADY ABOUT TO CRY AGAIN, WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME

THE WAY THE BLANKET IS RUFFLED AT HIS NECK MAKES HIM LOOK LIKE A GRANNY OR SMTH I CANT STOP LAUGHING

IM CRYING

IM LAUGHING SO HARD IM CRYING

DID THEY REALLY JUST

OMG

IS HE STUMBLING BECAUSE THE GROUND THEY SLEPT ON IS HARD OR IS HE STUMBLING BECAUSE THEY GOT HARD

i guess what im trying to say is DID THEY REALLY JUST FU

YOU GUMNUTS YOU LOST THE KID

OF COURSE YOU FREAKING LOST THE KID

THE ONE TIME I GET EMOTIONALLY ATTACHED TO A CHILD, IT GETS LOST

THIS HAPPENED WITH JIGSAW AS WELL

what is it with our skyy 2 and introducing me to small children that i get emotionally attached to anD THEN RIPPING THEM AWAY FROM ME

he'll be fine tho, im sure of it. he knows what hes doing. and even if he doesnt, he's got two dads and two uncles to look after him, theyll find him and rescue him in the most overly dramatic way possible

my bet tho: he's just gone back to the village and he's completely safe and yod's trying to radio them to let them know hes safe but their radio isnt working, so he's gonna go into the forest to look for them while the four dudes wander around the forest to find the kid, and then theyll all run into each other and be like "welp we panicked for nothing" and then go back to the village and then theyll kiss their boyfriends and longtae will appear with his 184cm tall boyfriend and theyll all party and celebrate

(that last part is a mere wish, i know my boy doesnt show up at all and im sad about it)

OHHHH I FORGOT ABOUT THAT

its totally fine then, theyll find him and he'll be safe and sound

oh look at that, they did a custody switch

i think the real thing we should be saying here is: it's already evening and your legs are STILL hurting?

YOU GUMNUTS, DONT GO LOOKING AS WELL

THEYRE GONNA FIND THE KID AND COME BACK AND FIND YOU GUYS MISSING

AND THE CYCLE WILL NEVER END

HOLY FREAKING HELL YOU IDIOTS

bro is just chilling

i love this kid so much

he's saying this terrifying thing about how a wild animal nearly killed him so he climbed a tree and got stuck in it all night, and he's just so chill about it

i just love him so much

well how the hell are you gonna communicate that with your boyfriends

REMINDER: PRAN AND TIAN HAVE NOW SPENT THREE DAYS IN THIS FOREST

WHAT THE HELL ARE THE VILLAGERS THINKING??

THEY DONT HAVE THEIR HEAD CHIEF FOREST GUY BECAUSE HES BEEN IN THIS FOREST FOR TWO DAYS

also: surely patpran are getting close to their one week quota, right? they had one week to get the thing signed, ive forgotten how long they were already there for, but theyve been in a forest for three days so like idk man

YOU GUMNUTS

SURELY YOU KNOW YOUR BOYFRIENDS WELL ENOUGH TO KNOW THEYRE IDIOTS WHO WILL TRY TO COME FIND YOU WHEN YOU DONT COME BACK

they all probably smell. theyve been wearing those clothes for days in a forest

and pat probably still thinks he can find pran based on his scent, bless his silly idiotic heart

TIAN HASNT HAD HIS FREAKING HEART MEDICATION IN FREAKING DAYS

THE MAN'S GONNA DIE

P'AUUUUU

LMAOOOOOO CALLED OUTTTT

omg bonding

"why do i feel like you're just insecure and not sure if you're good enough to tell anyone that story?" awh

"you know nothing" "why wouldnt i know? i know how it feels to be insecure, unsure if im good enough" wait hang on

NO

HONEYBUN

NO WAY

HONEY YOU'VE BOTH MADE SO MANY SACRIFICES FOR EACH OTHER TO GET TO WHERE YOU ARE TODAY

i wanna hug him so bad

FREAKING FINALLY

MAN NEEDS HIS MEDICATION

ID RATHER MY DAD DIDNT DIE TODAY

GJWEKBRSVD

THATS IT

IM DONE

I CANT DO THIS ANYMORE

IM NOT EVEN SLIGHTLY OKAY RIGHT NOW

ITS THE WATCH

i know he has it just because pran dropped it in the forest and pat picked it up, but its still the same watch that pat picked up for pran when they were children, all those freaking years ago

i just think its a lovely parallel

i love them so much

hsdshgjsdhjgsd

SEE?? you help each other out, you both sacrifice for one another, YOU ARE IN LOVE AND YOU MIGHT NOT BE PERFECT BUT YOU'RE THE DAMN BEST AND GVERYJDHFGB

BITCHES BE CRYING RN

ITS ME

IM BITCHES

SOBBING MY EYES OUT

COMFORTING DAD PATS (pats like the action of patting, not multiple of the character whose shoulder is being patted. words are hard)

I LOVE THEM SO MUCH

HSDFHSDFHSDHG

THEY MEAN PROBABLY TOO MUCH TO ME

ALSO PRAN DEFINITELY SMELLS WORSE THAN PAT FOR ONCE, HE HASNT SHOWERED IN DAYS

ANYWAY, HUGS

I LOVE HUGS SO MUCH

SAME

HE IS ME

I LOVE YOD SO MUCH

shoot i ran out of images

just fyi: it took over two hours for me to get from halfway through 2/4 to halfway through 4/4. and i still have a whole episode left go to. this may take like a week to finish

[airenyah]

on analyzing acting: ohm pawat as an example

attention: read my additions to this post first for some more context as it might help you understand a little better what i'm on about here...

ok so this post was born out of me wanting to give an example of what i mean by "actors perceiving something" bc you can see that really well in bad buddy ep 3 [3/4] in the music shop scene where they're hiding and pat smells pran. however, i realized i actually have a lot more to say on this moment and that i can also use it to try and showcase what i mean with "(having) thoughts"/"creating images" as well as what "directions" are supposed to be (i'm struggling the most with explaining directions in english lmao). i ended up having so much to say that it absolutely is worthy of its own post, so here it is

so this here is the moment in question that i'm going to analyze and i'm going to look at ohm specifically:

[sorry for the image quality of this gif, i had to compromise it in order to get the file size down]

before i say anything, here's a little disclaimer: obviously i have absolutely no idea what was going on in ohm's head in that moment when he was shooting that take. so whenever i make a mention of a specific sentence that the actor or the character could be thinking it will be my very own interpretation of what i personally am seeing or getting out of it. there are many thoughts and emotions one can read out of an actor's performance (often multiple at once!) and there are many ways of putting all of this into words. i will try to keep everything as technical as possible but sometimes i do need to say what i think is going on in the actor's/character's head in order to explain my point

ok so let's go and break down some of the acting things that ohm is doing here

[gif 1]

this is a wonderful example of an actor actually and actively perceiving something. at this point pat hasn't actively smelled pran yet, he hasn't reacted to that smell yet. in fact, up until this point pat is more focused on not being caught by chai. what ohm is doing here is showing us the process of going from "don't get caught" to "pran smells good af". and it starts right here. in order to do so, in order for this change of topic to work smoothly pat has to become aware of pran's smell first. and ohm is acting it out for us: he really is perceiving and noticing that smell as the actor and we can see the controls in his brain going "oh my nose is sensing something"

another thing i want to point out here is his "spielrichtung" (god i GOTTA figure out a word for this in english) aka this is where i talk about his "directions" even though it's difficult for me in english bc it sounds rather clunky. (for those who didn't read my original reblog where i talk about acting concepts: the literal translation of this german term is "direction of playing" or "direction of acting". this direction can refer to many things, such as where the focus is directed, or an action, a thought, etc...)

here in this moment ohm's directions are both downwards and very inwards. as in: his focus goes downwards to where the smell is entering his nose while his thoughts are very much directed inwards. this is a private moment for pat and ohm shows us this by acting towards the inside (ohm/pat is completely inside his own head in this moment) ("by acting towards the inside" – sorry, this sounds so clunky in english, i mean to say "indem er nach innen spielt")

alright, moving on. so in real life, once a person has perceived something and the brain has processed and determined it... what happens next? the person is going to react to it and have one or the other thought. in real life we go through a process of perceiving - processing - (re)acting and the same thing should happen in acting:

[gif 2]

first ohm showed us that pat has perceived something, now ohm shows us that whatever pat has perceived causes some thoughts/feelings inside of pat

(quick side-note on his directions: he's still very much inwards in his direction, the private moment in his head is continuing. and despite his eyes going to the side, the focus of his actions is still directed downwards because again, that's where the smell is)

(edit: i had my mom read this post and on the topic of directions in gif 2 she pointed out that you can actually split it up in three directions even: everything is happening on the inside, then you have the sensory direction that is going downwards because that's where the smell is, while he's sending his thoughts sideways)

i can't read minds, nor can i time travel so i have absolutely no idea what thought was crossing ohm's mind in that exact moment, but it has to be something along the lines of "i gotta smell that again". ohm/pat has perceived the smell, he considers it for a moment and whatever he's thinking here leads to the next moment where pat smells pran on purpose (note: i do love how his head is subconsciously moving slightly down towards the source of the smell again even before he's actively taken the decision to sniff pran):

[gif 3]

(edit: another thing that my mom said is that in gif 2 it's like his thoughts aren't quite focused yet, they're not quite formed, while in gif 3 his thoughts are very much focused. it's like his thoughts went from a subconscious level in gif 2 to a conscious level in gif 3. anatomically speaking you could even say that in gif 1 and 2 he percieves the smell emotionally and in gif 3 it goes over into a cognitive perception of the smell. because he percieves the smell subconsciously in the beginning and the very first thing that happens when you perceive a smell is that it goes to the emotional center of the brain. then the smell goes on to the cerebral cortex and only then you get the cognitive perception of the smell. ohm's performance here really is FLAWLESS. in the words of my mother, a trained nurse: "he plays that EXTREMELY WELL because you can analyze it anatomically even, and use his performance to showcase how the sense of smell works")

and now we have arrived at the point where pat is sniffing pran. what i really like about this is how subtle ohm portrays this. he doesn't stick his nose into nanon's back and we don't even see him breathe in. and yet we still know that pat is smelling pran here, all bc of ohm's body language where he moves his head down to the source of the smell and the thoughts that ohm is having in his head in that moment. you can just see that ohm is really and actively smelling something here. and by that i mean not only just the motion of him moving his head down, but rather that again he is actively perceiving a smell as his head is filled with thoughts (his thought process goes from something like "what was that smell" to "ok i'm smelling, i'm checking this out")

and now we're back to the point where we were earlier. once again our character is perceiving and processing something, our actor is acting it out for us and so what has to happen next? exactly, a reaction to the new information the character's brain has just processed:

[gif 4]

and again we can see that ohm's head was filled with actual thoughts in that moment (probably something along the lines of "wow he smells really good" or "oh what a nice smell". and it looks kind of unexpected to me, as if there's also some surprise coming with it along the lines of "oh i wasn't expecting to like his smell so much" or "i didn't think he would smell this nice")

i keep going on and on about thoughts, and it's because that was hammered into me by my fave monologue teacher. he kept going on about "getting your thoughts straight" and "having thoughts" ("die gedanken haben") and whenever we students had no idea what to do with our bodies he'd tell us that if we know exactly what we're thinking in that moment we shouldn't worry about our body because our body will follow our thoughts automatically. we can see that beautifully in gif 2 where an underlying thought (and i don't necessarily mean thought as in an actual thought or sentence inside the mind, but thought kind of in the sense of an emotion or feeling, if that makes sense), anyway in gif 2 there's an underlying thought along the lines of "this smell is good i want to get close to it i want to keep smelling it" and ohm's/pat's head is already moving slightly downwards towards the smell before ohm/pat has taken a conscious decision to take a purposeful sniff. the power of thought y'all. thought is a powerful tool when it comes to acting. and it's really obvious when an actor is in no-thoughts-head-empty mode. unfortunately i don't have an example of a thought-less actor on hand, or i would show you. ok, that's a lie, actually. i do have some examples, but they either don't work as a tumblr post (once again i wish i could do this one acting analysis project i did with my uni friend with online people as well) orrrr i don't want to share them publicly bc i don't wanna hurt anyone's feelings and i want to avoid angry anons in my ask box or getting into arguments with random internet users (i quite like my quiet, peaceful tumblr life where i'm a nobody, thanks)

okay, now back to bad buddy and ohm:

in the other post where i talk about acting i mention that while my monologue teacher would talk a lot about thoughts, my mother instead likes to talk about "creating images". my mom likes to think of it as a flipbook where you have individual pictures that make a moving image when going from one picture to the next at speed. personally i think you can also think of it as individual panels of a comic book that together tell a narrative arch. if we look at the first part from this perspective, as if if were a comic, we can see that ohm provides the audience with these clear images:

image 1: perceiving a smell, becoming aware of it, noticing it

image 2: reacting to that first whiff, something along the lines of "is this pran's smell? i gotta smell pran. for science. to see if that nice smell is him"

image 3: smelling on purpose, there is an aim to the action, it is motivated by thought and by what happened previously

image 4: another reaction to the perceived smell, this time it's a realization and/or a conclusion (the realization could be something like "oh i like the way pran smells" and the conclusion would be "yes what i sensed earlier was in fact pran's smell")

in full:

[gif 5]

it has only been three (3!!) seconds (yes i went and checked the duration of that clip on premiere pro) and ohm has already told us an entire story arc. god, i LOVE it when actors do actor things

alright, let's continue with part 2:

so now we get to the part where pran (nanon) comes in with an impatient "what now?" and pat (ohm) reacts

[gif 6]

since ohm is a good actor he once again presents us with that split second where we can see that he was actively listening to nanon's line, we get to see the moment where pat's brain is processing pran's comment and comes up with a reply. once again ohm is acting this all out for us. this is also what helps make it look like everything is spontaneous: as if the character didn't know pran was gonna say something and what he was gonna say, even though the actor, having memorized the script and likely having discussed it with his co-star and/or the director, definitely knew about it

now let's look at his directions again before we move on to the next gif: he's still in inwards-mode, but pran's line distracts him and snaps him away from the downward focus and now it's going to the side instead, towards nanon/pran

remember what happens after the processing? that's right, a (re)action. pat reacts to pran's comment with the action of saying "you smell good"

[gif 7]

what i find particularly interesting here are ohm's directions. before i sat down to gif these 10 seconds of scene i distinctively remembered ohm's spielrichtung (fuck it, i'm going with the german word bc "directions of playing" or "direction of acting" just doesn't sound right – quick german grammar lesson: spielrichtung = singular, just one single direction; spielrichtungen = plural, two or more directions) being very much towards the inside. and i had assumed that pran's comment would snap him out of it, that nanon's line would trigger a jump in his spielrichtung. but looking at it now? this... is not quite what i'm seeing. what i'm seeing instead is actually fascinating to me

you see, his actions and his line definitely have an outward focus, to the side where nanon is. however, it looks like that outward focus hasn't quite reached his eyes (it's in the way his eyes travel towards nanon, but they're not really focusing on anything in particular, he looks very distracted instead, as if his mind is somewhere else)

to reiterate: his words are traveling outwards while his eyes look like they're still in inwards-mode. outwards and inwards – two opposing sides. this creates conflict and it's exactly what makes me as a viewer sit up in curiosity and go "huh? what's this? what's going on here?" it fills me with a lot of questions about the character: why can't he snap out of it? did pran's smell really affect him this much? so much that his mind is still on it even when pran starts talking to him? why is it affecting him so much? what's going on inside him? aww does he have feelings? (yes. yes he does 🤭) it's these little subtle things that make me start caring about a character, that make me want to keep watching in order to find answers to my questions. (also! this would be an example of what i meant in the reblog from the other post when i talked about actor's showing conflicts that aren't in the plot/the script)

to be honest, i'd love to double check ohm's spielrichtungen during this line with my mom, but unfortunately it's gonna be another two weeks until i go home for semester break. because this is one of those moments where i realize that i still need to practice my acting analysis skills a lot, because to be quite honest i'm having a moment of is it just me or...? where i'm not entirely sure if i'm seeing this "right" (not that there's much of a right or wrong here...)

alright, moving on... once he finishes talking?

[gif 8]

right before ohm says his next line he falls back into inwards-mode again and once again we see that there are actual thoughts going through his head. what those thoughts are exactly i can't say, but to me it comes across as if pat is reflecting his statement of "you smell good", it looks like pat is lost in thought about pran smelling good (to be honest? at the end of the day it doesn't actually matter what ohm's exact thought process was, the important thing is that he had one at all, because now i as a viewer get to have fun with interpreting it)

and now we're finally coming to the end of the sequence i've decided to analyze. after a short moment of reflection pat adds "you smell so damn good" and goes to sniff pran one last time

[gif 9]

and what's ohm's acting choice here? this time he goes for an exaggerated sniff, he points his entire nose at pran and breathes in loudly (which we can't hear in a gif, of course, but we can definitely very clearly hear that sniff in the episode itself). and delights me very much because this sniff right here? in comparison to the ones in the beginning? is very much for show

the first two times pat/ohm smelled pran was very "quiet", rather small and subtle, and very much for himself. it was a private moment. this sniff now? it's loud, it's exaggerated, it's big with ohm bending his entire face down in order to almost shove his nose right into nanon's back. and of course he sniffs extra loudly, to make sure pran can hear it (and yes, i'm specifically referring to the character now, bc ofc nanon should hear the sniff, but more importantly pran should hear it bc pat is about to be a little shit to annoy him)

the reason why this big sniff delights me so much (especially with regard to how the scene continues after the excerpt that i have chosen for this analysis) goes away from the technical aspect of it and is much more about my own interpretation, but i'll tell you anyway: again, in the beginning it was a private moment, pat was smelling pran just for himself. but this causes him to fail to react to what pran just said about chai being gone now and that pat can get up. having that little story arc where pat notices pran's smell and goes to check it out causes pat to linger and that makes pran suspicious. pran more or less catches pat in his own private moment, and so pat turns sniffing pran into a full on show. "you smell good" he says, "do my laundry", he says. pat was nearly caught having feelings for pran (bc we all know this is why he's so affected by the smell) (fun fact: in german we have this idiom that goes "jemanden nicht riechen können" which translates to "not being able to smell someone". it means that you don't like someone and that's why you can't or rather don't want to smell this person. this idiom actually showcases how important the sense of smell is interpersonal relationships) pat was nearly caught and now he deflects. he gets annoying on purpose (by shoving his nose into pran's back and loudly insisting that he likes the smell) to keep pran from asking more questions, he jokingly demands that pran does his laundry bc obviously pat likes the smell of the detergent, it's definitely not the smell of pran that he likes, okay? yes, exactly, pat likes the detergent, not pran, and him sniffing pran definitely had a heterosexual reason and there were definitely no romantic feelings involved. that's the story pat is putting out into the world, that's the show he's pulling off here. ohm goes from quiet and inwards to loud and outwards (spielrichtungen!) and it just delights me because there is so much i can get out of it when it comes to my interpretation

alright, so i've now reached the end of my chosen excerpt and now that we've gone through the entire thing i just want to talk about one last thing: changes.

in the reblog of the other post i mention that when i analyze acting i look out for whether anything changes. (i didn't explicitly say it in that reblog, but it gets boring when an actor keeps doing the same thing over and over again). in the reblog specifically i take emotions as an example, but also make a note that changes can apply to things other than emotions as well. in this scene of bad buddy ohm provides us with a beautiful example of what changes look like when it comes to a specific action

in this 10 second excerpt that i have chosen, pat smells pran 3x in total:

do you see how each time the action of pat smelling pran is different? each time when pat smells pran it's motivated by a different thought, each time there's a different reason behind it:

the first time is all about pat noticing the smell in the first place, becoming aware of it at all. at this point it's rather accidental: pat never made a decision of "i'm going to smell pran now". no, it just happens. he percieves the smell on an emotional level. sniff one is all about the thought of "oh, i'm sensing a smell".

the second time is where the active decision to smell pran comes in. now he starts perceiving the smell on a cognitive level: this time pat is smelling pran on purpose, it's no longer accidental. pat has a reason to smell pran, he has a goal and it's to investigate that smell that he has just sensed. and as i've already said, he is in his own head and it's a private moment. his thoughts are kinda unfocused and he almost gets a little lost in these thoughts, in the smell. and it's a quiet, subtle action, he only slightly moves his head down to be a little closer to the source and get a better whiff, but that's it, no big loud breathing in, no exaggerated head bending. that sniff right here is for pat. that sniff is between pat and that smell, no one and nothing else. what ohm is doing here is creating a relation between pat and pran's smell

the third time the sniff also comes from an active decision. and again, it has a purpose behind it. this is also what happens in sniff no. 2, so in theory the same thing is happening twice, right? except no, bc the way ohm sniffs nanon for the 3rd time is completely different. while sniff no 2. was quiet and small, now sniff no. 3 is loud and big. it's exaggerated and it's for show. this sniff is no longer only between pat and pran's smell, no, now pran himself is involved too (whether pran likes it or not)

i've said it before and i'll say it again: i LOVE it when actors do actor things

alright, i really am done now. to be honest, i wish i had the time to go to my hometown and go through this whole analysis with my mom first before i post it. despite 3 full years of drama school and 2.5 years of intensely analyzing asian drama with my mom i still don't feel confident in the knowledge i've gained so far and i feel like i need someone with more experience to check my thoughts before i can go publish them for the whole internet to see. but i guess it's time for me to become a big girl that doesn't need to rely on her mommy's opinions. i guess it's because i feel like there is still so much more that i need to learn and there is so much more that i don't notice yet and so i'm afraid that what if what i'm saying is wrong? what if i'm talking bullshit here? but i guess it's time i trust the skills that i have gained so far. besides, when it comes to this there often isn't necessarily a right or wrong but rather a what do you see and how does that make you feel? so i'll go and post this anyway without having anyone look over it, because this is what i see right now at this point in time as i'm writing this. and if at some point in the future i realize i disagree i can always write an update (or another post)

all in all i had fun with this not so little analysis. and i hope you too had fun reading it <3

(edit: as you could already see from the previous edits, well, i actually did have my mom read this whole post at some point after all. she was very impressed and said my analysis is extremely well written. she had almost nothing to add. it's truly about time i start trusting my own skills fklslkkdlsf)

[bifangirl09er]

Title: I Can't Meet Your Parents?

Fandom: Bad Buddy

Relationships: Korn/Wai, Pat/Pran, Pat & Wai, Pran & Korn, Pat & Pran & Korn & Wai

Warnings: Wai DOES NOT have good parents, Past child abuse

Major Tags: Misunderstanding, Bad Parents, Pat & Wai are besties, Pran & Korn are besties, Pat & Pran & Wai Bond over Bad childhoods, Angst with a happy ending

Summary: The first thing that Korn hears when he gets to Pat and Pran's house for dinner is his boyfriend saying that Korn can't meet Wai's parents. Now, he is not rushing anything, but he thought that since Wai meeting his family went so well that he would meet Wai's sometime. However, there might be a little more to the story than he overheard, and luckily, Pat and Pran are there to help.

“No, I don’t want him to meet my parents” Wait, what? What is my boyfriend talking about? I never even thought that that was a possible decision. I thought that it was inevitable that I would meet them eventually, I mean Wai has met my parents and family. Wai has taught my sister how to draw, and she is so good now. My brother calls Wai, “Hia Wai,” he thinks of him as an older brother and goes to him for dating and other advice. My Mae treats him as a son, especially since Wai helps her cook all the time. Oh and, my Por has been wanting to renovate the house for a while, and Wai has helped him get some design ideas, also, Por used to be a musician so loves that Wai is so good. He is part of my family, and I thought I would just be part of his.  I was about to walk into Pat and Pran’s house when I heard my boyfriend say, "What am I going to do now?" I don’t want to eavesdrop on their conversation because that makes it seem like I don’t trust him. I know it might not seem like right now, but I do. It just doesn’t feel like he trusts me or our relationship if he never wants me to meet his family. I walk in further, hoping to hear more or at least pretend I didn’t hear anything.  “Oh! Hey Korn, good you are here. Pa and Ink won’t be here for about an hour or so, so you and Wai can just relax.” Pat tells me as he walks to the kitchen, which by the noises and smells coming out of it is where Pran is. 

Continue on AO3: LINK

[i-got-the-feels]

Truly, no scene in Bad Buddy is wasted and just shot for the sake of it - Part 4.

We know for Pran music and Pat are more or less the same thing - love and how Pat looks at Pran when he in zone and is one with music and how Pat was the one to give music back to Pran, so it isn't narratively surprising how the Music Store is their place.

Or more accurately, Pat's place of realisations. Realisations that make him introspect his feelings and figure out ways to act on them.

He went to the music store two times.

And both times he HAS to go there.

First time, he pulled Pran with him because he didn't want to spend time away from him after they got the sponsorship, he wanted to celebrate with Pran for the win they had as a team. To let Pran know that he isn't in danger by spending time with Pat, he isn't jinx and that he can have a good time with him and what better place than a music store because he knows Pran loves music and so of course, he has to take Pran there.

And this is the time when he realises while on surface Pran is the same Pran he knew in childhood - neat, tidy, organised, calm and proper, now he is also scared, sad and filled with a sense of hopeless when he sees Pran talk about his guitar and how they must have even lost the chance to play in the music competition. Something he has never seen Pran do before- give up against him in a competition (besides discovering that he may have a scent kink and that pran smells amazing)

And that prompts him to take his first step and give Pran back his guitar (obviously he doesn't tell the truth about how he kept it because he doesn't want the happiness Pran feels on having his guitar back tainted with sense of owing him)

The second time he has to go because was called there by the shopkeeper saying his drum sticks have arrived.

This time when he goes there - he realises he has romantic feelings for Pran and that is why nothing felt right when with Ink.

And the reason he has to go there is not forced into narrative like - he date with Ink didn't turn out well so he is leaving and using this as an excuse, no. It fits into narrative because its continued from the first time he visted there.

Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3

[gb-patch]

How good are the xo guys/Lucas at baking?

Everett: He’s not great, aha. Everett doesn’t have the focus to follow recipes well and certainly can’t put together something without one. And since cooking for yourself isn’t something you do most of the time in SSB, Everett doesn’t even really know his way around a kitchen.

Nate: He’s just fine at it. Nate has learned about the basics and can follow a recipe without much trouble, so long as it’s not especially fancy.

Shiloh: He’s quite a good baker. He did that a lot growing up.

Bae: He does it veeery rarely, but is alright at it. Bae only bakes or cooks anything from scratch if he’s making it for someone else, which is not often. That’s because after being surrounded the sight/smell for so long while making it and witnessing firsthand all the big and small ways it didn’t go exactly right, Bae has no appetite for the dish once it’s finished.

Jeremy: He’s a good baker. He’s got some talent for all of the traditional housekeeping skills thanks to his parents’ insistence.

Pran: He didn’t bake much before going to SSB and working at the bakery. But he picked up the skill quickly and can bake just about anything, as long as he has a recipe. He doesn’t consider that a talent, though. He feels like anyone can follow a recipe, so it’s not very impression.

Lucas: He tends to make a mess and screw up at least one step, but things generally work out pretty okay when he bakes.

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For the Greater Good

Fandom: Supernatural

Character Ship: Sam Winchester x Reader

Word Count: 1649

Summary: A town is slowly dying off and the only way to save it would be for an innocent to take their life. After finding out that you fit the criteria you go behind the Winchester boys’ back and decide to end the curse.

Warnings: Graphic Self Harm (not due to mental health), angst galore.

Author’s note: Mama(me) got all emotional while writing this so.. get tissues and stuff...

You were always in the background; you did the research, searched for cases when the boys couldn’t, and never EVER went on hunts. When Sam and Dean found you, a first-time hunter, ambushed by a nest of vampires, they saved you, and you demanded to keep on hunting. In order for them to feel safe with you hunting, they asked you to join them.

You quickly grew a bond between the brothers, hence why they took you in so easily. With Sam, though, that friendship bond grew into something more, something stronger. Nothing ever happened between the two of you. Just lingering touches, sitting closer, worrying more and sharing a bed in motel rooms. The night never started out sharing a bed, curled up together, but with both your and Sam’s frequent nightmares it always ended up with someone crawling into the other’s bed. Dean would never say anything, he’d give a look then continue on with his day, in fact, day’s when you and Sam didn’t wake in the same bed Dean seemed more concerned.

That’s exactly what happened this morning, you woke curled into Sam’s side, but his time it was before the boy’s, no doubt stressed from your current case.

It started off small, yet still significant, every person in a household became sick, eventually falling into a coma. Then it carried over to the next house, and the next, until it was a full block. That’s when you found it. Now, a week later, it was nearly the whole town sick and dying off.

The frustrating part is, you had it all figured out: it was a witch that was hung during the Salem Witch Trials, she cursed the town that every 100 years a plague would overcome the land and kill the inhabitants, causing a lucky few to start all over. The good thing is the witch left the cure, for other witches to figure out if they were to inhabit the cursed land. All it took, due to Sam’s translations, was blood spilled from someone who has not spilled the blood of others. Without forcing a stranger into this you were the only viable subject.

You were so new to “hunting” that you never had to hurt anyone before the Winchesters found you and after that, they were too protective to allow you anywhere near the field.

You argued well into the night about whether or not the boys would let you do this, but your mind was made up. Slowly you grabbed the pillow that propped up your head, careful not to disturb Sam’s pillow. You gently scooted your way off the bed, pushing your pillow into Sam’s side, faking a human presence.

Swiftly you grabbed a blade off of the nightstand and took off for the witches unmarked grave. Searching wasn’t hard, it was easy to guess that the plot of land with dead grass and flowers over it belonged to the pissed off witch.

Quickly you dug down, begging to hit the wooden coffin. Digging up a 6ft by 3ft coffin that is approximately six feet deep under the earth was one challenging feat for one person, let alone a person of your stature. Still, you got it done in a little over an hour and soon you pried open the coffin.

A foul smell wafted into the newly morning air. Looking down into the box you noticed how the witch was barely decayed, she looked as though she’s been there for a week, at the most. Careful, yet stern you read the spell:

“Si mwen te kapab ranvèse revèy la (If I could reverse the clock) Retounen nan konmansman an (Back to the start) Ki kote loraj pral frape (Where thunders will knock) Mwen mande pou padon  sou peyi sa a (I ask for forgiveness upon this land) Mwen pwouve tèt mwen merite (I prove myself worthy) Se konsa, kite yo konnen! (So, let them know!) Pran lavi m 'kòm yon siy nan solidarite (Take my life as a sign of solidarity)

Then you rose the blade to your arm, slicing just below the bend of your elbow. Allowing the blood to spill onto the woman’s stomach you leaned yourself against the dirt wall and cried. You cried for Dean, he’d blame himself you allowing you to work with them. You cried for Castiel, he’d never forgive himself for not finding you before you passed. You cried for yourself, you wanted to do this to save a whole town, and generations to come, but you still don’t want to die. But mostly, out of all the reasons you could cry, you cried for Sam. You cried because you never got to say it back; last night, while you were arguing, he said the reason he didn’t want you doing it was because he loved you. You cried because you were too mad to say it back, even though you did. So very much.

Fading away was much different than you thought it would be: it was slower. You could feel the blood rushing towards the wound, you could feel it inching down your skin, that grew paler by the second. The pain seemed to numb into a dull nothingness, it was hard to tell which was worse: the throbbing pain or the horrible nothingness. The horrible nothingness was definitely a frontrunner.

With the senses now dulled your eyesight followed. The vivid colors that shifted in the early morning sun shook, quickly turning into ugly shades of gray and black. You looked down at the watch on your opposite wrist. 8:30 a.m. The boys would’ve woken up half an hour ago, the moment they notice you’re gone they’ll know exactly where you are.

You knew you had to speed things up so you picked up the blade again, setting it back onto the laceration. You pushed it farther into the wound, firmly and swiftly cutting in deeper. You couldn’t help but look away. You refused to accept what was happening and willed yourself to fall into a sleep with the sound of an old engine approaching. Of course, you knew it was Sam, Dean, and possibly Cas but the hope for the greater good stood in the way for your need for life.

A near silent thud startled you and Sam appeared in your area of sight. “(Y/N)?” His eyes were red, tears pouring onto his cheeks. He kneeled beside you, trying not to step on the carcass in the coffin. He wrapped his fingers around your bloodied arm. “We’ll find another way.” He said, trying to drag you out of the hole.

“Stop.” You whimpered. “Let me do this. I’m not like you guys: I’m not strong, I’m not important to the world. You’ve literally saved it, multiple times! You, Dean, and Castiel are the superheroes; I’m just an afterthought. Let me do something important. Let me be the superhero, just once. Let me sacrifice myself for the Winchesters.”

“(Y/N), please,” Dean begged, above Sam, on ground level.

“I wonder what my heaven’ll be like.” You said, faintly. By now Sam had begun wrapping a torn piece of cloth around your arm, but you knew it was too late. “I hate goodbyes.” Tears streamed down your face.

Dean’s hoarse voice screamed for Cas and so you prayed. ‘Cas, stay away..and protect my boys.”

So, with the last of your energy, you lifted your hand, placing it on Sam’s face, willing him to look at you and not the cut. “It’ll be ok.”  Darkness closed in. You felt yourself shift, no doubt Sam picking you up in his arm. Then even that faded into oblivion.

You had no clue where you’d be sent; heaven, hell..some horrible undiscovered place in between, so when the darkness began to fade into a simple light you were nearly giddy to find out. As your eyes opened you saw Sam lying next to you. Heaven? “Sam?” You murmured.

His eyes flew open, deep brown orbs locking onto yours. “Is this heaven?” You said with an uncertain smile.

Sam snorted a bit, a loving smile accompanying the adorable expression. “Seems like it, but no. I’m sorry.”

With that statement, you shot out of bed, into a sitting position. “But the town! Hundreds of lives, Sam!”

“They’re ok, everyone is ok.”

“How?” You cried.

Slowly Sam sat up with you, he seemed troubled, like he didn’t want to talk, but he knew he had to. “You were dead-”

“What did you do?!” You yelled.

“Nothing,” Sam confessed, “I swear. Your heart stopped; you were, for all intents and purposes you were dead. Dean called Cas while I did CPR. After five minutes I finally felt a pulse and Cas was able to heal you.”

“And the town..they’re ok?”

“Dean’s checking the hospital right now, but from how busy the nurse's station was, I’m guessing everyone’s fine.”

With that you laughed and, after a while, Sam did too. You watched as he did: the way he smiled, the small crinkles at the edges of his eyes, and the way his hair bounced with each chuckle was something you never want to have to miss again. “I love you.” You blurted out.

“What?” He questioned, suddenly serious.

“I love you, Sam,” you admitted, tears in your eyes, “and I never want to worry that you don’t know that, ever again.”

Sam’s eyes lit up, a goofy, boyish grin creeping onto his features. He pulled you in, his lips perfectly meshing with yours. A beautifully loving kiss followed as you wrapped your arms around his neck. The kiss was quick but enchanting either way. “I love you, too, but if you ever pull something like this again I’ll lock you up in the bunker.”

“Fight me, Winchester.” 

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Are any boys squeamish?

Do you mean are they bothered specifically by the sight of bloodand that sort of thing or in the broader sense where they can easily become nauseatedover a variety of stuff? I’ll try to answer for both!

Everett: Fake blood in shows or whatever doesn’t bother him,high octane rides and bad smells and all that doesn’t bother him, but he’s abig baby when it comes to blood in real life. He’ll panic and not know what todo. If it’s someone else’s blood he won’t to go near them. The only exceptionis if he’s mad enough to have gotten into an actual fight. When that happenshe’s too pissed off to care about himself or the other person bleeding.

Nate: He isn’t bothered by most things, but seeing blood andgore can be very upsetting to him. Nate tries to ignore that sick feeling and power forwardanyways

Shiloh: He isn’t squeamish in any way. That or he’s verygood at hiding it.

Bae: Blood and the like is something he can handle, bumpyand/or fast rides in normal vehicles or theme park attractions often make himqueasy and dizzy.

Jeremy: He’s squeamish all around. Blood and every other typeof bodily fluid is disgusting to him and he can’t handle getting near it. Healso has a delicate stomach when it comes to other usual things that can makepeople feel sick. His weak constitution is partially because he doesn’t takevery good care of himself. Under normal circumstances he’s in pretty bad shapeso adding any other type of potential problem is never gonna go over well.

Pran: He is generally sturdy. It doesn’t make him sick, but seeing blood/gore does make him unhappy and he’ll will look away if it comes up in a movieor real life or whatever. Unless he’s called out on it, in that case he’sstubbornly refuse to look away.

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