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kidfoundonstreets · 1 year ago

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#freak to freak communication you know ?#thank u . u r the best ever <3 #i really enjoy ur rants and talkings always always.. i hope we r buried skeleton together all for meotauls #anyway matty and ahshe silluy in the way that thjey absooltuely fucking hate eahcother nad ahse has dienfitley b #locked many things out as his life froze after his family died therefore he hasnt had time to process the anger towards matty #maybe he has had anger nad bitterness towards other things but i dont feel like matty is high on his priority right now esp #since he doesnt know wher eh eis but hes still a deep rooted issue - and its not thast he hasnt accepted his familys #death exactly (thouhg i guess that is it but in other wording) its that he hasnt accepted it ending like this #he has to think about his family dead to think about summoning them back yet still i do think he does have #many delusions where they are alive and the thought of going back to them is the only thing keeping him going really #sometimes i think about how even wehn hes crossed the line and killed so #mebody hes still going on it feels like a dead corpse being raked across the floor to lose another piece of who he is once again #kid's heart #BUT THAT ISNT WHAT I WNATED TO TALK ABOUT AURGHH!!#i think that in the past maybe possuibnly you have to be another level of ill to get this far #but ashe geeneeuinly thought of matty as a good friend who was close to him etc etc but on mattys side its harder #because theres no clear intetion ill make up my own i say he did value ashe in a way but #in the end what did indeed win out was his hatred and infeoririuty towards ashe - i dont think he even wouldve goen that far #if he didnt know ashe o rmaybe he wouldve done it sooner - he would spend time with ashe normally with the thought #of how hes using him bnack in his head then go home nad the feelings would pile up pile up pile up esp since his parents #would lay the pressure on thick meanwhile whenever he went to ashes house it wa s ashining exmaple #of what he didnt hvae #and because matty is selfish. it drives him insane #i find it kinda funny how ashe got his trust broken by him leaving such a scar yet now hes #lying to people as matty was as well #i can say more but im scared.

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