#if anyone reads this then enjoy me putting my screaming into words 💀

[iamyourdailydoseofbi]

I can only share my interest in Aegon to you, so I’ll just drop this here. (Dw, contrary to what I say next, this is not a request. Just desperation.)

Broski, I NEED reader wife who’s scared of heights and dragons but Aegon gets her to ride with him just cuz he feels like it. (My hand is probably 1/3 smaller than one of their teeth. I believe Anyone sane should be scared sh’tless while seeing a dragon. 💀)

I ONLY READ ONE FIC WHERE THEY FLY ON A DRAGON! WHY ARE THERE SO MANY AEMOND FICS OF THISS??? HELP ME FIND MORE CUZ I NEED TO HAVE A RIDE ON A DRAGONNNNN. Imagine the refreshing air and scenery. (I personally imagine the beautiful pink/orange clouds from Httyd when Hiccup and Astrid fly together for the first time)😭⚰️

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Also, about the death threats, you handled it well. Really, when everyone finds out you like a hated character, it’s like they are trying to get you to sign your own death sentence. Anyway, keep doing you. You write exceptionally 🤭🫶 ily

PROMISE NOT TO DROP ME? ONLY A FOOL WOULD DROP YOU. ( HOTD x Reader )

pairing: Prince Aegon ii Targaryen x Lady-in-waiting! Reader prompt: Aegon kidnaps you to ride on dragonback, it does not go well. word count: 1, 000+ words

You had been very very firm when it came to dragon's. You were no Targaryen nor held a drop of Valyrian blood in your veins. Sure, you like to gawk at them in art. The dozen paintings, stained glass windows, and books that filled the Red Keep were enough. You would never dare to go near one in real life. Dragon’s were not natural. To ride one, to tame one, it was not natural. A lot of the things that the Targaryen’s did were not natural. 

So when you started as Helaena's Lady-in-waiting, you did everything you could to politely refuse to be near them. Need to go to the Dragonpits? The carriage was nice and comfy, no need to leave it. When Helaena offered to fly with her? Suddenly you grew ill with a cough. Helaena accepted, understanding your fears. She offered kind words and an open invitation should you ever change your mind on the matter.

Aegon was, as always, different. The word 'no'  just could not connect in that tiny little brain of his. He took it as a challenge. He would jest about kidnapping you and taking you flying. You laughed and told him you'd push him out of a window if he dared to do it. 

Of course, he had tried once with a look a little too serious on his face. After waddling away, clutching his groin from your hard kick, he learned that it would not be easy to get you on dragonback. You’d fight back. You would be a challenge, he liked that a lot.

Kicking and screaming at the top of your lungs, you did everything you could think of to get free of Aegon's hold. Clawing at his arms wrapped around your waist, he dragged you along to the Dragonpits, the dragon keeper's onlooking in confusion and mild horror. You could give less of a shit if they thought you mad. There was no way in the Seven Hells that you were going on a flight with Aegon. You'd rather kiss the King's rotten lips than to go flying.

"No! Put me down, you drunken oaf!" You shout, thrashing against him.

"No."

"I am going to kick you so hard you'd never be able to get it up again, Aegon! Put me down!" You bellow, yanking at his hair.

"Not a chance, we are going flying." Aegon brushes off your threats, "You will enjoy it. Tis' delightful."

Letting out a loud scream into his ear, he did not falter, running off of pure spite and stubbornness. It would have been admirable, if it was not for the fact he was dragging you along to go flying. Yanking hard on his hair, he yelps loudly, though his grip does not falter. Gods damn it, why did he have to be strong? Sensing that fighting would not help you, you tried another way.

"Please, please, Aegon." You beg, "I'll give up my desserts for a whole moon. Just let me go."

"Tempting." He chuckles, a smirk on his face.

"Please, Aegon. I do not wish to fly." You beg, on the verge of tears.

"I fly all the time. Once I even did it drunk, tis' nothing dangerous." He scoffs, rolling his eyes. 

Shaking your head frantically as his grip tightens, he drags you into the dark cave, the stench of dragon thick in the air. The few torchlights in the cave illuminated enough to see his dragon, Sunfyre, burrowing into his rocky nest. Feeling tears of fear bubbling up, you go deadly silent, losing your voice. This was your worst dream come true. Face to face with a dragon. Holding back the whimper in your throat, Aegon presses a kiss onto your temple, refusing to let you go.

“He won’t harm you. He’s used to your scent.” Aegon whispers into your ear, “I brought him one of your dresses to smell.”

“Let me go.” You whimper out, voice full of pure terror. 

“Come on, you’re already here. Let’s just go for a quick flight.” Aegon argues, shaking his head dismissively. 

“Aegon..”

Slowly letting go of your waist, you go to bolt for the cave exit, only to be swept back up into Aegon’s arms. He carried you like a toddler who had a habit of running away. Letting out a loud cry as he refused to put you back down, he wags his finger mockingly, a half amused look on his face. Hearing Sunfyre stir in his nest, you try more desperately to get away, the rumbling of the dragon echoing loudly in the cave. 

“No, no, no.” He scolds, “Bad Y/n. No running away.”

“Put me down! I want to go back to the Red Keep!” 

“No, if I have to attend Court, then you cannot escape this.” He suggests, “Consider this your duty.”

“Fuck duty. Put me down, Aegon!” You sob, bottom lip wobbling. 

“Ooh, so now we do not care about duty, hm?” He mocks, shaking his head with a smirk.

Pressing a gentle kiss onto your temple, he carried you closer and closer to Sunfyre, until the two of you were right in the dragon’s face. Feeling your grip tighten on him, he slowly smiles at the feeling, like see you so unlike yourself. This had to be the first time he had seen you act so improper and anxious. It was refreshing, amazing, and amusing all at the same time. 

Smiling bright as Sunfyre stirs away, the golden dragon huffs at the two of you, his two large green eyes staring back. Puffing his chest out in pride, he hoped the sight of his dragon would impress you and make you swoon. His dragon always got compliments. Looking down at your face, there was not an ounce of admiration or awe or anything positive, only terror. 

“He’s pretty is he not?” He gloats proudly, “You know, they say he is the prettiest dragon to have ever been hatched.”

“If I survive this, I am going to kill you.” You whisper out, face pale.

“Stop speaking as if you are going to die. Sunfyre would not dare to attack, not whilst I am here.” He scoffs, rolling his eyes.

“I’ve seen your dragon, can we leave now. I want to go back to the Red Keep, Aegon.” You whimper, tears bubbling up in your eyes.

"No. Don't you dare." He argues, "Don't you dare do the whole crying trick on me. I am not foolish like Helaena and can be swayed."

Watching as you sniffle and whimper, his grip tightens on you, not wanting to give up just yet. Seeing the big puppy dog eyes you give him, he grits his teeth, tensing up. He falter's for a moment. He was always sucker for those big puppy dog eyes of yours. You knew how to make him crumble.

"No, no, no, don't give me that look." He tries to resist.

"Please, Aegon."

"No. Stop that." He shakes his head, "Stop that right now. I demand you stop that."

"I..I want to go home, Aegon. Please, take me home." You beg, sniffling.

Letting out an exasperated groan at you begging and pleading to go home, he begrudgingly agrees to it, knowing that it would be no fun if you cried the entire time. Scowling like a child who had its toy taken away, he loosens his grip on you, putting you back down onto your feet. One day he’d get you on dragonback. Sadly, just not today.

"Aegon, please, I want to go home." You whimper, tears streaming down your flushed cheeks.

“Fine, fine, stop crying.” He grumbles, “But next time, we are going to actually get on the dragon.”

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[whatthefishh]

my last ask reminded me ab the thot i forgot ab lol:

facial hair

**I JUST READ YOUR REPLY AND YOU DON'T LIKE MUSTACHES???? 😭**

uhhh -- well, i write a lot of steven/miguel fics so i don't explore the facial hair aspect of oscar (even though he has the most iconic staches and beards out there) so let's discuss + lemme get you on the 'stache train with me:

Exhibit A: Llewyn Davis

this hot fucking mess has zero right to look this good. dude was literally on the verge of passing out and/or crying the whole movie. also his beard is way too well kept for him to be homeless.

tell me you wouldn't enjoy the beard burn he'd leave between your thighs or holding onto those cute curls eeee --

Exhibit B: Nathan Bateman

THIS BALD BITCH (ok -- peek at the vein in his arm...) literally doesn't need to be bald but he probably thinks he's too big-brained™️ for hair or something idk.

he could literally kiss me until my whole mouth area and chin turn red and i wouldn't care 😭. he'd probably be a dick and rub himself all over me just to irritate my skin (i'm sensitive) then tease me ab it after.

let's face it, dude would look magnificent eating ice cream (or dripping with heat as he lifts his face from my -----) uhhh ok next

Exhibit C: Blue Jones

yeah, he looks like a slut. i mean the porn stache really just staples the word "pimp" onto his forehead. he's definitely more into himself than anyone else and he looks like a class A pervert, but i'd still hit it tho 💀

NEXT!

Exhibit D: Duke Leto and Jonathan Levy

i put them together bc of their full beards and hair. both give off 'have a family but still ready to fuck' vibes, but jonathan is softer and domestic 🥺

look at those beards and how well they frame his lips, it's like he's FORCING you to look 🫠 AND THE GREEYING HAIRRR EEEEE I NEED

LAST ONE -> EXHIBIT EEEEE: THE FUCKING BEARD HE HAD DURING THE TF PRESS TOUR

"this is powerful"

"clean shaven 5 days ago" -- ok but why would he say that??? does he wants me to collapse??? does he want to be bitten???

i genuinely lost track of the reasoning behind this ask (i'm sleep deprived and deliriously screaming ab this man) idk if i like facial hair or if it's just irresistible on him...either way i wanna feel it everywhere 😵‍💫

Omg em!! I absolutely adore beards especially Oscar’s!!! It’s the moustache only look that I’m always eek about and yet I still pine after Blue Jones 😂😳

I need to watch Inside Llewyn Davis still, I know I’ve got some catching up to do but his beard does look ridiculously well kept for a homeless guy you’re right.

Nathan Batsman’s beard is something I’m a very open whore about yes to the carpet burnnnnnnn

Jonathan levy is the perfect example of just like… ‘Messy academic hot man that I want to make even more of a mess of’. That’s a type, right? Adore. Esp the greys!!!! I love the fucking greys!!! Father of my children!!!

The god damn TF interviews ☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️

He said that because he wants you to know that he knows exactly what he says and does to us.

Yes to facial hair especially on Oscar. Just the stache on other men get the fuck away from me 😂

[lightmycandle]

Things I Learned From NYTW RENT AKA

Stringing Together My Incoherent Thoughts

Voice Mail #1

- The speakkk in this sounds like they hate life. Honestly same.

- Roger worked at a bar and was fired

- Mark was cut off financially

Splatter

- IM SORRY WHAT

- 20 seconds of awful Roger music and then the opening number starts playing?

- This sounds much slower

- WHAT THE ACTUAL-

- ????

- TW SUICIDAL THOUGHTS: MARK WANTS TO KILL HIMSELF BY JUMPING OUT THE WINDOW

- THATS WHY THIS SONG IS CALLED SPLATTER

- THIS IS SO MORBID

- Oh ok that’s not Adam

- What is going on with this music? It gets weirdly faster but immediately slows down im so confused

- Mark is definitely taking his and Maureen’s breakup harder here

- Every time they say “last month’s rent” instead of “last year’s rent” it throws me off

- The transition to “you ok honey” is just not it

- I can’t get over how different Collins and Joanne sound

- Ngl I miss my bass baritone Collins :(

- There is absolutely no chemistry in Cangel’s interaction whatsoever

- I’m still so shocked over how morbid this is-

- So basically Marker are both very much not ok

- The reason Mark’s parents cut him off was because he wasn’t a business major?

- I’m so glad they changed the ending to “cause everything is rent”

- Well, that was an experience

You’re A Fool

- “For someone cool you’re a fool” and then Mark’s little dejected “I know” 💀

- Do Marker even like each other? Or are they both just depressed besties-

- “Some of our parents don’t pay our bills” isn’t Mark cut off??

- “Mr. Negative cause he’s HIV positive” is such a low blow, I can’t believe that was once a Mark line considering he’s always supporting Roger, as well as telling him to go out and talking sense into him

- The lyrics are a bit bland and somewhat mean but overall I’m vibing to the music

- Ok so Mark still does try to get Roger to go out

- “I don’t fit in anymore, all right?!” hurts. I don’t know if he’s saying that because he feels as though he needs to spend all his time writing or if he’s saying that because he’s just depressed and he doesn’t have the energy to do the things he once loved

- Mark is obviously very upset at the thought of Roger dying, but doesn’t want to show it too much. He just wants to make as many memories as he can with him, and wants him to at least have fun and be surrounded by people who love him before he goes. So now I’m starting to see more of final-version-Rent Mark poke through.

- “If you only knew - I spend so much time obsessing, it’s depressing.” Woah I actually relate a lot to that Mark w h a t

- I kinda love how we get to see Mark’s personality and know a bit more about him. In the final version, we don’t really know a lot about Mark because he’s basically narrating (which is fine) until Roger calls him out before he leaves for Santa Fe

- WOAH HOW THE TABLES HAVE TURNED

- THEYRE CALLING EACH OTHER OUT NOW JUST LIKE THEY DO IN GOODBYE LOVE

Today 4 U

- THEY REALLY CHANGED THE ORDER A LOT HUH

- “Whose music is the purest on the Bowery I believe” ANGEL AS A BOWERY BEAUTY NEWSIES AU

- This song sounds the closest to the final version

- “toDay for you”

- The only difference so far that I’ve noticed is that Angel says “work so well” instead of “go so well”

- THE LINE DELIVERY FOR “That dog is now in doggy hell” I AM SCREAMING

Do A Little Business

- What exactly is going on in this song

- ✨ Benny is unhinged 😍 ✨

- LOL MARK IS SO ENTHUSIASTIC TO SEE HIM /s

- I forgot Angel was even here 💀

- “What kind of hag - I mean dog, do you have?” I AM LOSING IT

- “Evita’s an Akita” “Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha.” JAIL

- I’m actually scared of Benny this man is vicious what is going on

- What is with the random Today 4 U music but at the end??

- I guess Mimi doesn’t exist 😍

Female to Female A

- If they would’ve kept this, then in Take Me or Leave Me Maureen would’ve been projecting because she’s being a little controlling rn

- Maureen’s manipulativeness is already showing

- “It’s times like these I really appreciate Mark” YOU DID NOT JUST SAY THAT-

Come to the Meeting

- I like the “Benny was a dilettante, Benny met a debutante” lyric a lot

- Roger has a car that originally belonged to April

- Angel asks about April instead of Mimi, because she simply does not exist 😍

- Mark honey you’re being a bit too harsh

- TW SELF HARM: I think I’m having trouble with the context clues here but I think Roger was a cutter :/

- Well this is just upsetting, I just feel really bad for these fictional characters ugh

He Says

- WOAH THIS IS THE SAME MELODY TO GOODBYE LOVE

- “He says he doesn’t think that love is possible anymore” “It’s not!” HEAVY FORESHADOWING. Mimi has to exist now, it only makes sense

- “One day I’ll/he’ll fix that car she left me/him and fly” Does this mean Roger’s success or his death??

- Gosh I feel a lot more sympathy for Mark in this version. Before, in the final version, I felt sorry for him because I could only imagine how scary it was for him to be the “one of us to survive” but at the same time he literally came from Scarsdale. Like sir you come from a rich neighborhood, have parents that seem to care about you and you’re out here claiming to be a struggling artist? At least you can just move back upstate when it gets too rough, the others can’t. However at the same time I wondered if maybe his family were toxic and controlling; but in this one I know a bit more about the backstory

- “I don’t believe a word he says.” I SERIOUSLY LOVE MARK. THATS ALL.

- I swear I recognize the melody at the very end of this song but I can’t pinpoint it

- OH MY GOSH

- OH NO IM GONNA CRY

- ROGER IS SINGING THE BEGINNING OF “WILL I” AND TRYING TO FIGURE OUT HIS ONE GREAT SONG AT THE SAME TIME AND SHHSHSBSUSBGAU

- My heart HURTS

- I kinda wish this would’ve been kept in, it’s so real and raw (the whole musical is but still)

The Right Brain

- ONE SONG GLORY YES

- Wait what never mind it’s called the right brain and has completely different lyrics

- “I lost my map” DOES ANYBODY HAVE A MAP ANYBODY MAYBE HAPPEN TO KNOW HOW-

- I really really like this but I can see why the lyrics were changed

- Roger screaming “right brain” instead of “glory” is absolutely sending me

- Someone called this the Zombie Version of Rent and I am crying

- That final “riiiiiight braaaaiiiinnnnn” PLEASE

- I AM SO CONFUSED

- WAIT A MINUTE

- Oh. Ok. So there’s… that.

- I’m cringing ahhh

- Oh gosh that was so off key I can’t

- This song is such a bop I’ve replayed it again but “time diiiiiiiiiiies, right braaaaaaaaainnnnn, can’t find the riiight braiiinn” 💀💀💀💀💀

- OH MY GOSH LIGHT MY CANDLE IS STARTING EVERYONE BE QUIET

- “The door!” This song really broke my already broken humor

Light My Candle

- Why does this sound like Contact?

- Oh ok there’s the LMC I know and love

- I kinda liked that buildup

- “I’m not going?” MARK??

- MIMI EXISTS!!!!!!

- Wait is this Daphne? It sounds a lot like her but doesn’t at the same time

- “What?” OK ITS DEFINITELY DAPHNE

- The knock sounds so loud in this one considering how soft they’re singing

- IM USED TO HEARING ROGERS DISBELIEVING GIGGLE WHEN HE SAYS “WHAT” BUT THIS “WHAT” MADE ME LAUGH SO HARD THIS MAN IS PROBABLY IN A TRANCE

- Someone said Roger sounds high and I couldn’t agree more lol. Also Mimi sounds somewhat ghostly to me? Does that make sense? As if she’s just some sort of phantom drifting along. I feel like Renée Elise Goldsberry’s Mimi acted ghostly during LMC too and Daphne’s was more desperate but fiery? I’ve always loved both portrayals of it, but it’s interesting to see the changes. I think because this version is significantly slower and feels almost deathly is the reason why she sounds like this

- “Here it-oh, no.” ROGER REALIZING HIS DUMB MISTAKE LOL

- “A candy bar wrapper” THAT WAS AWFUL(LY GOOD) VOICE ACTING. MIMI DEFINITELY DOESNT BELIEVE YOU NOW SO 10/10

- The “Mimi” part is a little longer

- LMC is the best song in Rent, no I am not taking any criticism - it just is

On the Street/Voice Mail #2

- The way this guy says “Christmas bells are ringing” 💀

- Joanne’s parents call her “Muffin” instead of “Kitten”

Female to Female B

- “It’s times like these I really appreciate Mark” “I heard you before” “How can someone so bright be so utterly in the dark?” I’m forming the Joanne Deserves Better club, does anyone want to join? /j

- “Isn’t it enough that I put up everyday with a temperamental, selfish, abusive-” YES JOANNE CALL HER OUT

- “And sexy.” *Rolls eyes*

- This song is actually really good

- Gosh their relationship is so toxic in this

- “I love you Maureen!” *a few seconds later* “I hate you Maureen!”

Another Day

- ANOTHER DAY LETS GO

- “No.” IM SCREAMING IM SO USED TO ADAM’S DRAMATIC, DESPERATE “NO!”

- I love the “Come back another day, another dayyyy, annnottther another daaayyy!” and the change in music

- “Your pain I see, your heart’s been burned. You’re just like me before I learned” THIS IS BOTH SO HEARTBREAKING AND SENSITIVE.

- “No other way” OK DAPHNE

- Im so glad “Honey get real, here’s the deal - it’s time for you to book I mean look you’re cute but I don’t buy that spiel” was cut. It drags the song on unnecessarily

- “Your anger’s real but just beware it’s a waste to feel that fate’s unfair, there’s no such thing as tragedy I can’t resent what’s meant to be” W H Y W A S T H I S C U T

On the Street #2

- THIS WHISTLING I JUST SNORTED

- I mean, I can’t whistle either so I shouldn’t be talking

- “Ahnest living man! 😒 *cartoon car skiddering noises* Feliz Navidad! 🙄”

- Why does “evening officers” sound so ominous-

- I can’t tell if the person playing the blanket/homeless person is running out of breath or if the audio was somehow cut

- Ok I think it’s the audio, Angel sounded really quiet for a second

Santa Fe

- Collins’ voice never ceases to surprise me

- “I preach!” “Hallelujah!” I did not expect that-

- “I beat the drum of apocalypse like orchestras on sinking ships” Is this a reference to both the aids epidemic and Titanic?

- It sounds like Collins says “you’re a sensitive a see” instead of “you’re a sensitive aesthete”

- “We’ll open up a restaurant” and “gains gains gains” interesting change??

I’ll Cover You

- The beginning is very very different

- “We’ll never be that desperate” “You’ll never have to be”

- OK ANGEL COME THROUGH WITH THE VOCALS YES AND THIS MUSIC OK

- “Open your door” Um no not with you sounding like that

- I AM LOSING IT SOMEONE SAID THIS CANGEL SOUNDS LIKE AN EPISODE OF CRIMINAL MINDS

- I miss the “yea yea yea yea yea” :(

Will I?

- Dang not them going from a (semi creepy) love song to a heart shattering support group session

You’ll Get Over It

- I SWEAR THAT FIRST NOTE SOUNDS SO MUCH LIKE THE FIRST NOTE IN “FALSETTOLAND/ABOUT TIME”

- “It’s times like these” IS THIS FALSETTOS?! THEY LITERALLY SAY “It’s about time don’t you think” IN THERE

- I mean… Falsettos did come out in ‘92

- Maureen how many times are you going to think about your ex boyfriend? You’re in a new relationship now, either respect her enough to break up with her or go get some therapy

- OH MARK IS ACTUALLY HERE NEVERMIND

- Why is she calling him “honey” and “baby” when she’s literally dating someone-

- Oh gosh please don’t tell me the reason Mark lost weight is because he’s genuinely starving (like in the opening number they say that they’re “hungry (and frozen)”)

- Mark is not having any of it. Good for him.

- WAIT MAUREEN IS THE ONE TO SAY THAT HER SAMPLES WONT DELAY SO THAT MEANS THERES NO TANGO MAUREEN NOO

- Now I’ll never know if Mark is from Scarsdale in this version 😔

- OH GOSH NOW I SEE WHY THEY CUT THIS

- This makes Mark slightly unlikeable, immature even

- “How’s it going?” “Not good. I’m depressed” OMG ME TOO BESTIE

- Mark reminds me of this nice guy™️ I used to know

- “Anyway, I treated you like dirt - you’ll get over it!” MA’AM?! HOW CAN YOU BE SO CASUAL ABOUT THIS?

- Oh that’s because her abusive tendencies are normal for her

- Ok I take it back, Mark isn’t a nice guy ™️ he’s just salty and has every right to be. I still don’t like what he said earlier though uGh

- WHEW OK NEVER MIND I MEANT WHAT I SAID EARLIER

- I can’t express how much I hate this, Mark is becoming so unlikeable and Maureen is just being her usual self

- The music is good but the lyrics just make Mark seem awful ugh and that’s fine if that’s what they’re going for but I’m still gonna hate him :)

- TW SEXUAL ASSAULT: MARK PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE DON’T TELL ME YOU ACTUALLY GROPED MAUREEN

- Oh gosh that’s so gross of him I truly hate Mark so much

Christmas Bells

- Mark saying “Maureen?” after Roger points out Mimi makes much more sense in this context

- Mark’s “woah!” isn’t nearly as funny as it is in the cast recording: 0/10 /hj

- The transition from the whole follow the man thing to the apology to the man being angry to Roger snapping at him has always been one of my favorite moments and this one did not disappoint

- I can’t decide whether I like the extra lines that the man has or whether I liked that it was cut

- I think I do like it actually

- Joanne is ✨ fed up ✨

- That “to” in “and it’s beginning to” was way too long

- Why does Maureen’s “last night I had this dream” sound so… weird? Almost robotic? Idk

- I was expecting “Joanne which way to the stage” but Joanne seems done with Maureen so it makes sense it’s not here

Over the Moon

- What even is going on in this version?

- TW: GORE/VIOLENCE: “She gauged her eyes out!” OK JUMP SCARE WARNING THIS ISN’T SWEENEY TODD

- NYTW Rent is back to being morbid 🤩

- Maureen is sounding more and more unhinged (which is ironic because I called Benny unhinged earlier and he’s the exact person she’s protesting against)

- Do I hear the music to Jaws?

- The person (Karen Oberlin?) who played Maureen for the first staged reading said that Maureen was supposed to be similar to Laurie Anderson? Which is apparently a stark contrast from the final version of Maureen?

- “The mOOon” MAUREEN WHAT ARE YOU ON

- This music is making my anxiety spike up for no apparent reason

- Never mind it’s the impending doom (that isn’t coming)

- Oh wait nvm I forgot this is a sad musical-

- How are you just going to say “Thank you” and leave after doing whatever the heck that was???

La Vie Boheme Part 1

- The waiter sounds more defeated in this than panicked. Cool.

- Mark’s “what?!” is also more toned down. I miss dramatic, loud Mark

- I was wondering why Anthony’s voice sounded so different all of a sudden and it’s because they had Roger say the “that’s a lie…I had a tea the other day” lines

- Please don’t start singing “do a little business” again

- RIP Blockbuster

- I’ve always loved how Benny’s voice sounds (at least when Taye Diggs, Rodney Hicks, and Jared Bedgood sing it) when he sings “a bright a charming girl like you…a fallacy in your head) but this just missed the mark imo :/

- Benny sounds like he’s trying to hard to be a villain but it’s just not working, he just sounds cuckoo

- “Hey sister, she’s my sister” So is Benny’s father in law not there or..?

- Ok I have never heard this next part (after “carmina burana”) before? And I can barely make out what they’re saying so I’m glad they cut it

- “Starring his former lovers current female lover as himself” w a i t w h a t a m i n o t g e t t i n g

- THEY CHANGED BENNY’S “Your new boyfriend doesn’t know about us” to MARK SAYING “Meet you in the bathroom” UM-

- “Another brother?” “Ex lover” Ok

- I FEEL SO BAD FOR ROGER AFTER HE STRUGGLES TO PLAY HIS SONG - MARK SAYS “Not now Roger” PLEASE 😭

- “I’ve been trying…I’ve got baggage” Roger sounds pretty decent here

La Vie Boheme Part 2

- This starts off so sarcastic too I love it

- “Send back your ghost or else we’ll have to get real jobs” Oop 👀

- Roger says the “Food of love…heavy competition” lines along with Angel

- Maureen sings the “Revolution…making pleas!” lines by herself

- “The opposite of war isn’t peace it’s creation” IM SO GLAD THEY KEPT THE MUSIC GOING AND CHANGED THE WAY THAT LINE WAS DELIVERED IN THE FINAL VERSION

- That ending was… underwhelming

I Should Tell You

- Bruh when is this song gonna start?

- JUST TELL EACH OTHER ALREADY

- “I can’t sleep at night, I’m scared to close my eyes” This is so sad. I know this is a fictional character but geez this girl is a literal teenager and dealing with so much

- “I’m so filled with fright, I rarely share, I criticize” this poor man is so depressed and it’s making me sad

- I really am loving this version, they’re both airing out their flaws before proceeding with a relationship and it’s emotional

- Never mind, what is going on with these lyrics

- I love that the “here goes” at the end made it to the final version

WHEW THAT WAS A LOT.

TIME FOR ACT TWO BESTIES!

Seasons of Love

- Ah yes, Seasons of Love

- This sounds so good-

- Is this slower than the final version?

- They sing “although it’s not the end” instead of “though the story never ends”

- WOAH IS THAT OUT TONIGHT?!

Out Tonight

- IT IS OUT TONIGHT

- It’s crazy how this is in act 2

- “I’ve got an itch - to be a b*tch” LOL

- “I need to laugh like a child” I’m genuinely so confused as to where this lyric came from

- It’s “Valentine’s Day” instead of “Christmas Day” here

- I WAS SO CONFUSED BEFORE REALIZING MAUREEN WAS THE ONE TALKING

- “Forget me not” Why is this man so dramatic 💀 this is giving me last day of school “HAGS!” vibes and I don’t know why-

- “Mark stop crying” I almost feel sorry for him

- “No this is not a phase I’m going through” !!!

- I’m starting to like this Maureen-

- “He loves me - he loves me more” I SWEAR IF ANGEL WAS IN THE BACKGROUND PICKING OFF PETALS DURING THIS I AM GOING TO DIE

Seasons of Love B

- This song placement makes no sense?

- Maybe the final version is faster than this one to show how little time they have left?

Voice Mail #3

- When the phone rang, and I half expected someone to go “Dr. Mendel please”

- “April is the cruelest month” I think February is but ok

- “Anyone but Mark, please leave a message” Who wants to join me on the (Demo) Mark Cohen is canceled train 😍

- Seriously is this man just harassing her with calls everyday? That’s creepy. She’s moved on, and so should he.

Without You

- Maureen is singing “Without You”?!

- I’m sorry but I don’t think it makes much sense for Maureen (and Joanne) to be singing this song. Maureen seemed like she didn’t even care about Joanne so saying things like “But I die without you” doesn’t add up. Unless she means “my toxicity dies without you and I need you in order to fuel my manipulation.”

- It’s very telling that Joanne sings the “Without you… the lungs breathe” part

Voice Mail #4

- “We went to steal an air conditioner” “We’ll be right back!” IM SCREAMING

- “Professor Collins” EW I AM NOT USED TO HEARING HIM CALLED THAT

- “He said he was gonna steal an air conditioner, maybe this isn’t the right number” LOL THIS IS THE SAME MAN WHO LATER REWIRES AN ATM

Contact

- Oh gosh no it’s ✨ contact ✨

- I don’t know how to feel about the first 15 seconds

- Never mind, it’s plain weird

- Angel’s “take me” sounds almost painful :( poor baby is SUFFERING

- “It’s over” Once again, Collins sounds like he’s going to commit a crime

I’ll Cover You Reprise

- TIME FOR S A D

- “Live in my house” I hate that I cringed

- I feel so bad but this Collins is just NOT. IT. The lines that are heavy with emotion (whether it’s grief or joy) always come across as creepy

- He sounds less creepy as the song goes on, so I’ll give him that

Goodbye Love

- I swear if Halloween isn’t in this, I’m going to riot

- “You said that you were leaving town last week” “You said that Benny was the most disgusting yuppie scum of the earth” THESE LYRICS SHEESH

- Maureen says “You said you’d give me some space” instead of “Who said I was talking to you” and this oddly sounds more mature of her than the final version?

- Mark’s “Calm down” and “Everyone please” in the background gives me “Oh no! Anyway” vibes. This man is saying this in the least alarming, non-forceful way ever. HE’S LIVING FOR THE DRAMA

- For a high energy/emotion song, it’s so slow

- “I gave a mile” “When you weren’t trashed” THAT WAS KINDA LOW

- LOL BENNY AND MARK SAYING “Come on guys chill” IN THE ABSOLUTE MOST UNFAZED WAY EVER IS SENDING ME THEY BOTH COULDN’T CARE LESS AND ARE HAPPY TO SEE THIS HAPPEN

- “Don’t give up Joanne?” Excuse me?? You cheated on her and was abusive

- “I live for you” Maureen this is so incredibly manipulative I can’t

- I missed Adam Pascal’s “ALLLLLLLLLLL YOUR WORDS ARE NICE MIMI”

- I’m so so happy they changed “one way street” to “three way street” because it makes more sense (Benny, Roger, heroin) and hits harder

- Wondering why they changed “tonight” into “today”

- Not the “I can’t believe this family must die - Angel helped us believe in love, I can’t believe you disagree” lines missing

- “Some of the best *voice crack* How could she?” MY HEART

- ROGER SOUNDS SO BROKEN OH MY GOSH

- “Use your right brain” LOLOL I SNORTED DO NOT BRING THAT UP IN A SONG LIKE THIS

- Everyone who has been personally victimized by Zombie Roger is entitled to financial compensation

- “I don’t know what I am” THAT LINE HURTS

- OH MY GOSH

- MARK SAYS “Who does” AND ROGER GETS ANNOYED AND SINGS “Oh God Mark, don’t you?!” AND THEN MARK IS THE ONE WHO SAYS THE “Mark has got his work…Mark hides in his work�� LINES AND ROGER SAYS “From what?” AND THEN MARK SAYS “From facing my failure… facing the fact that I live a lie” THIS IS SO PERFECT I AM IN LOVE WITH THIS VERSION. I LOVE FINAL VERSION TOO BECAUSE THEY BOTH KINDA CALL EACH OTHER OUT BUT THIS IS JUST *screams*

- “You don't live a lie, tell you why. You never finished your film cause the standards you set for yourself are too high - but the fact remains that you're the one of us with the talent and the drive. The fact remains, Mark, you're the one to survive.” I AM LOSING IT

- THIS IS PERFECTION PLEASE

- I LOVE YOU JONATHAN LARSON

- “I’m afraid the burden’s gonna make me crack.” “If it does, just let me know, I’ll come back” STOP I AM ON THE VERGE OF TEARS-

- “Why’s it easier to return to a friend, than to burn with a lover till the end?” THIS LINE. THIS LINE RIGHT HERE. WHY WHY WHY WAS IT CUT.

- This is (Demo) Mark’s redemption arc oof

- “Mimi still loves Roger, Mimi’s just with Benny because Mimi’s getting weak” I AM BEGGING YOU ALL TO LISTEN TO THIS

- “I’ve gotta go” “Anything you need in Santa Fe?” “I’ll be fine - make your film” “Ok, love you. Call.” *whispers* “Love you too. I hate the fall.” IT IS TAKING EVERYTHING IN ME NOT TO START SOBBING

- I NEED TO SEE ADAM PASCAL AND ANTHONY RAPP SING THIS VERSION PLEASE IF IT’S OUT THERE GIVE ME A LINK

- Roger’s soft “You heard?” 🥺

- I’m just sitting here all sad and then Roger starts softly singing “Right brain, how do I find the right brain? I lost my map” SIR PLEASE STOP THIS IS TAKING ME OUT OF THE MOMENT

- Right brain will never not be funny

- Daphne’s voice sounds so pretty

- “Hello disease” and “They call me Mimi” being on the same note will never not crush my heart. She feels as if her disease has become her and it’s heart breaking.

- I love Mimi and Roger so much. Not necessarily together because the way they’re relationship started was just not it and they have so much work to do but I’m just rooting for them to come out on the other end ok 🥺

Real Estate

- I’m getting villain vibes from this

- Is this another “Do A Little Business”?

- Oh wait never mind it’s Angel’s burial

- I like the music in this

- “I give up” IS HALLOWEEN GOING TO START

- Ugh maybe I’m reading too much into things but the way Benny has talked to Alison this whole time irks me

- OK MUSIC COME THROUGH

- ITS GIVING ✨ QUIRKY VILLAIN ✨

- “I’m all alone” LOL I HATE THAT I LAUGHED I DID NOT EXPECT FOR HIM TO SAY THAT

- Ok I can definitely see why this was cut

- “My friends have flown or are dropping like flies.”

- LOL IM SORRY MARK I CAN’T FEEL BAD FOR YOU FOR BEING IN LOVE WITH MAUREEN AFTER LITERALLY HARASSING HER ABOUT HER SEX LIFE AND TRYING TO GET HER TO COME HAVE SEX WITH YOU-

- “My family’s nuts” I figured, the apple doesn’t fall far from the tree /hj

- “I haven’t had sex in a millennium” This man is so dramatic like he could’ve said “*insert number* months” (which at least would’ve rhymed) but no he had to be dramatic

- Mark and Maureen, the drama king and queen 😍

- LOL IM SCREAMING BENNY IS TRYING TO OPEN UP A REAL ESTATE BUSINESS WITH MARK?!

- “Cohen and Coffin” I’m surprised he put Mark’s name first

- ALISON SPEAKS

- She honestly serves no purpose, I can see why she never appears on stage in the final version

- Imagine pouring out your heart and all your friend says is “hAvE yoU cOnSidEreD rEaL eStATe?”

- Ew please don’t mention that man’s name in a musical like this

- “Couldn’t we build low income housing” MARK STOP TRYING TO MAKE ME LIKE YOU

- Benny’s voice reminds me so much of those villainy voices on animated kids shows back in the day. Specifically the Magician from Frosty the Snowman (I barely remember what that man sounds like so please do not ask me to elaborate 💀).

- THIS CHANGE IN MUSIC WHAT IS HAPPENING

- IS ALISON FROM THE COUNTRY? IS THAT WHY THE CALLED HER A DEBUTANTE EARLIER SINCE THOSE THINGS ARE USUALLY IN THE SOUTH?

- “Any idiot can turn on a camera and shoot hobos” Alison, I hate you 😍

- “Last year filthy bum-“ “Person!” “Ok, filthy person.” I’M HONESTLY SO SHOCKED SHE SAID THAT BUT THEN AGAIN BENNY USES THE SAME LANGUAGE SO I SHOULDNT BE SURPRISED

- MARK I’M STARTING TO LIKE YOU MORE AND MORE FOR DOING THE BARE MINIMUM

- “I’m doomed forever to be poor” I KEEP FORGETTING THAT MARK ISN’T FROM SCARSDALE IN THIS AND THAT HE’S CUT OFF

- OH MY GOSH WAIT NO I THINK HE IS FROM SCARSDALE IN THIS VERSION BECAUSE BENNY SAYS “Meet you back in Scarsdale”

- MARK YOU ARE FRUSTRATING ME

- “Last year crummy boho goon, next year corporate tycoon” I.HATE.YOU.ALISON.

- MARK ROLLING HIS R 💀

Open Road

- “No you can’t save the world, better save your heart” PAIN

- I think I hear some Another Day undertones

- Roger is really concerning me

- I knows he’s talking about Mimi, but I can’t help but feel like he’s talking about April too

- This song is weirding me out, as I’m worried that he is going to have a breakdown

Voice Mail #5

- I don’t speak Spanish but I feel like the person playing Mimi’s mother definitely doesn’t either 💀

- Hm Roger’s moving to Brooklyn? That’s interesting, I wonder why he just didn’t go back to Manhattan (but the memories are too painful and he needs a fresh start)

- Is this… the Twilight Zone?

Finale A

- THE MUSIC TO SPLATTER IS PLAYING AGAIN I CAN ALREADY TELL THIS IS GOING TO BE GOOD

- TW SUICIDAL THOUGHTS: SO WE STARTED THE MUSICAL WITH SUICIDAL THOUGHTS AND NOW WE’RE ENDING IT WITH SUICIDAL THOUGHTS. Great.

- They literally sound dead when singing “How we gonna pay”

- “Salutations” sounds out of character

- Creepy Collins is back at it again

- Benny demanding things from Alison (to the tune of Do A Little Business?) and then immediately singing “We are the world, we are the children” and then going back to singing to the tune of Do A Little Business tops every other unhinged thing he’s done /hj

- “No more fiction, this is an eviction” BABWHSHWHSNISKW

- OH MY GOSH I HATE BENNY I HATE BENNY I HATE BENNY SO MUCH

- YES ROGER TELL ALISON THE TRUTH

- “Markkkk!” OH NO MY HEART DROPPED NO

- It sounds like Roger is saying “Gooooo!” instead of the usual “Nooooo!”

- Oh no the Halloween music :(

- ROGERS “Over here, Oh God” WAS SO SOFT

- THIS POOR BOY

- “Collins will get you a doctor, honey” IM ABOUT TO CRY FR

- COLLINS COUNTING HIS MONEY AND ONLY HAVING $16 - THIS LUMP IN MY THROAT IS GETTING BIGGER

- “Wait, I’ll sell the camera” MY JAW DROPPED

- MY EYES ARE WATERY

- I’m so confused by Collins’ lyrics in this

- “I finished the film” “That’s great” MAUREEN IS NOT HAVING IT AND HONESTLY SHE SHOULDN’T BECAUSE ??? A 20 YEAR OLD WOMAN IS DYING - NO ONE CARES ABOUT YOUR FILM I UNDERSTAND YOU MIGHT BE TRYING TO GET YOUR MIND OFF THINGS BUT THIS IS NOT IT

- “It’s called, Today 4 U: Proof Positive” Mark sweetie stop trying she doesn’t care

- Mark and Maureen praying/pleading for Mimi to live-

- Mimi’s panicked “Don’t go!”

- They both say “I love you” at the same time 🥺

- Them singing “I Should Tell You” again is really sweet

- Ok so apparently Collins was singing to his coat (I guess because he was going to give it to Mimi?) so his lyrics make sense now

- Rogers’ voice getting louder when he sings “Who goes there” makes me think he’s screaming this at death, like he wants it to leave the people he loves alone

- I really love how this version doesn’t include Your Eyes, it’s just a short instrumental bit of it. It’s more impactful imo

Finale B

- “Moonstruck! The theme from moonstruck! Mooooooooooon!” W h a t

- Maureen says “She’s drenched” and Mark sings “Her fever’s breaking” I’m kinda confused as to why they changed it in the final version to Collins and Maureen

- “No day but today” *chefs kiss*

OK I’M DONE LISTENING AND THAT WAS A ROLLERCOASTER. Anyways, “The Right Brain” unfortunately lives rent free in my head now 😔 send help

[nkhrchuwuya]

firstly, i’m beyond happy you’re doing such a nice event for everyone!! thank you! congratulations and i bet you’ll have more people adoring your works bc they’re worth sobbing for, they make me feel, i gobbled up each one of ‘em (the first one i read was the one where chuuya rented the entire gym💀) lmao but monitor ur health too, there’s no rush and have a lovely day💛

✨my pronouns are they/she, and i’m in love with reading!! especially collections of letters + classic lit, which in turn made me write letters to people i care for, with the cute envelopes, flowers, and tiny spritz of perfume. sometimes i attach my own poetry or quote something i think conveys what they mean to me/remind me of them. i’m typically quiet so i express it in written words instead, or surpises that are handmade/homecooked, and if i really don't know how else more to say ily i just resort to cuddles + outburst of kisses (and back hugs *screams*). or a random act of service they currently need (when i see fics where reader takes care of chuuya after a tough day like patching him up and just making him comfy i scream cry and throw up hsuwshsh)i also love listening to ppl i love, like plans cancelled and earth irrelevant dont u ever shut up keep talking hduwhsywh

Ty for this again, sending love n good things💐

oh my gosh anon thank you so much 🥺 "worth sobbing for" is such a huge compliment and i'm so happy if i can draw such big emotions out of you! thank you for looking out for me, i promise i'll take care of myself (i say as i write this at 2am)

anyway, here are your chuu stuff!! :

he loves your little thing with literature! he also has a sweet spot for literature (and really, art in general) so whenever you get to have a little moment where you geek out he’s always so soft about it, you can see it in his eyes.

of course, he enables your hobby with all he can! ebooks? got the best reader out there right now, honey. hardbound books? guess what’s being carted into the penthouse. love writing letters? cool, what kind of stationery do you need, babe? 

he falls even deeper in love with every letter you write him. so write him a lot, won’t you? he appreciates every little touch you make to make the letter even just a little bit more brighter for whoever will read it, and if he’s gone away for a mission or a trip he always has one with him to read and sometimes just hold when he misses you.

if you make him something yourself he’s always low-key bragging about it to anyone close enough to him. like if you cooked him a little bento to bring to a chill day at work, he’d be sitting outside some sort of balcony just nose-up like “you see this? they made this for me. do you get any lunchboxes? no? that’s cause i’m special. that’s cause they’re special.” (the only person he’d ever directly brag about it to is probably kouyou, maybe the black lizards, but to everyone else... turn green with envy looking over.)

lots of quiet dates for the two of you! of course, if you’re up to going to somewhere like a rave or an amusement park he’d gladly bring you, but oftentimes it’s in quieter places where you guys spend your dates. out at the park, by the portside, aquariums, a local cafe... you name it. he just enjoys relishing in your presence without the excess of everything else. you’re such a quiet, calming presence to him that he loves to bask in it.

the moment he discovers you are one for physical touch that’s the end of it for you! chuuya’s not a man of much words. ...well that’s a lie, he talks a lot, but he has a hard time putting his feelings into words often. knowing he can rely on touch to convey what he wants to, and that you will still receive the message clearly, is a weight off his shoulders. 

your genuine concern whenever he comes home even the littest bit injured actually leaves chuuya... very flustered. he hasn’t had anybody fret over him like that before, not since he came to the mafia. kouyou took care of him but there was always an air of distance between them. and port mafia clinics are cold and clinical. but to come home to you gasping and “chuuya?! oh no, what’s happened to you this time...” he’s so thankful and grateful but also embarrassed at getting in trouble.

chuuya has a fixation on your hands. there’s something about it that’s just magical, he knows, and he will absolutely adore the hell out of them. these are the hands you use to tenderly flip through the pages of your beloved books; these are the hands that make his delicious lunches and all those handmade little things; these are the hands that patch him up; these are the hands that put him back together. he’s always kissing your hands to show how much he adores what they do.

overall, i think you’re going to be a great, more domestic kind of partner to chuuya, one he actually needs to balance himself out! he loves that he can be the loud to your quiet, and he can urge you out of your shell the same way you pat him down to calmness. a really good match if you ask me!

[adonis-koo]

I'm normally too shy to send asks, even anonymously, and this is the first time I've ever spent so much time on one but girl... I. Am. SCREAMING!!! AHHH HOW CAN HE BE LIKE THIS??? 😠😠 MC has EVERY right to be livid!!! The anguish I felt when I was reading how Taehyung was reacting to MC 😢 GAH, OF ONLY HE KNEW HOW MC REACTED WHEN SHE FIRST HEARD OF THE NEWS 😭😭

I remember seeing an excerpt you shared with us a while back showing JK on his knees asking MC for forgiveness and I really thought we were finally going to see that when things were getting heated. I'm not sure if you've completely scrapped the idea because I do remember you saying that you had to rewrite the whole chapter but honestly the direction you took with the chapter was definitely the better option otherwise it just would have been too easy 😆😆 Maybe we get to see grovelling JK in a future update??? And it would probably feel SO much sweeter when he finally gets on his knees for her ahskdkfkjsh I'm so excited to see it!!

Missy, you did such a spectacular job on this chapter like you always do, I even had the guts to finally send an ask showing my love and support for you 💕😊 The fact that you went and rewrote the whole chapter as opposed to posting it when you felt it wasn't good enough (it will always be good enough for us) just shows how much heart and soul you put into your works.

While I'm still here (so sorry for the long ass ask 😂), the next time you stumble upon a rude anon pestering you for updates, you just take your sweet time and take even longer to post the next one 😉. Pamper yourself with the things you enjoy and, I know it's easier said than done, try not to let those haters get to you. They probably have nothing better to do with in their than to just sit there and harass writers for updates. Anyone who tries to make you feel obligated to post new chapters on demand are FAKE, your true fans will know and accept that art such as yours will always take a lot of time to finish 😤. Us real ones will always be here waiting PATIENTLY and APPRECIATIVELY for the updates that you so generously take time out of your day to grace us with. Best of luck to you working on your book and, just remember, you owe us readers nothing when it is you who provides us with so much 💕.

From, a shy but passionately appreciative, anon 😊.

Awwwh I can’t thank you enough for taking the time to write me such a sweet message I can’t thank you enough for all the kind words!

As for your question that exerpt while it unfortunately got sacked from the chapter, it is definitely not gone permanently! Just pushed further back because I couldn’t have Jungkook groveling so soon! I really wanted the push-pull dynamic between them both to still be lingering. So having him cave so fast just didn’t feel right to do! Doesn’t mean he won’t be soon though 🤭 so you’re definitely right, it will be much sweeter when we get to it! 

I’m also happy to see someone sticking up for my girl MC haha I feel like she doesn’t catch much of a break with the readers 🤣 because while Jungkook is definitely valid on some things I feel also feel like MC is also valid on other things. Like what she did was unjustifiably stupid, she had the right to know what was going on, and an even bigger right to be mad as hell about it when she did find out! Even more so at her husband (who had good reason but this ain’t about him rn 💀)

Once again I can’t thank you enough for your kind words and encouragement along with understanding! After an unfortunate incident at work last week I’m definitely beginning to have a whole new level of gratitude towards people who are kind and chose to be kind to me. Take care anon and please don’t ever hesitate to send more asks if you feel inclined too I would love to hear from you again!! 🥹🫶🖤