#if any of you have human decency y'all better give not give any of these people an hour's peace for the rest of their natural lives

[hussyknee]

I have never felt this kind of bloodlust in my life.

[vintageseawitch]

i hear about this:

& all i can think of are a few things: for one thing, the Uncommitted Movement, various Muslim community leaders throughout the US, other Palestinian Americans, etc have been PLEADING with people to not vote third party because while it would hurt Harris, it would in turn help trump, & CERTAIN THIRD PARTY VOTERS ARE IGNORING EVERYONE ANYWAYS.

second, while it's great they said something, i wish it wasn't less than a week before Election Day, but maybe it would help some people who haven't voted yet reconsider... maybe.

third, HAHAHAHAHAHA at the way they give the impression they believe jill stein has any integrity, decency, empathy, or anything we would like to have in a potential leader (if she was serious, which she is not). i admire that they are giving the impression they believe the American Green Party has any inclination to pursue its noble goals when their mascot (stein) has index funds with XL Pipeline, has received funds from Lockheed Martin, has stated some anti-vaxx stances, etc while pretending they're pro-environment, pro-human rights (even though she only JUST started "caring" about Gaza this election cycle as though what's happening over there has only been going on since October 7th & not for literal decades), & so on. stein's running mate is also massively anti-lgbtq & anti-abortion but hey he's Palestinian so he understands your genocide hard line!!!!! anyways i have a feeling the European Green Parties are very aware the American Green Party has become a sick joke but i admire their alleged belief in it being on the same page as them.

finally, there's this particular story:

& what it makes me think of is all these LARPing revolutionaries will never, NEVER EVER EVER, have the same courage or backbone the way Liz Cheney has displayed in the wake of real-life fascism. i don't hear jill stein or other members of the Green Party calling out this heinous bullshit. stein is too busy pretending to get that fucking "5%" while trying to make noise in key swing states only instead of blue states where reaching that 5% is more in reach, further proof of her bullshit.

it infuriates me that third party voters & non-voters, ESPECIALLY ones who are encouraging & SHAMING people to do the same, are doing all this bullshit while pretending 2016 didn't happen & so many of these folks are not just white but also INCREDIBLY anti-black even though many of these folks were on the BLM train a few years ago but now black people especially women are also talking about how they're voting for Harris & y'all are CALLING THEM PRO-GENOCIDE FOR IT. y'all are just as complicit as the rest of us because of our tax dollars & i'm not seeing any of you go to jail because you're refusing to pay for them over this. only CERTAIN kinds of genocides count to you & while those who actually have skin in the game, like actual Palestinians, are begging you not to vote third party & to vote for Harris, y'all shit on them & think you know better because you've been on a high fucking horse for a year. you claim to care about climate change but you're working harder to make sure Harris loses which means trump will win. WHAT IS YOUR FUCKING PLAN FOR THIS.

Liz Cheney & other Republicans like her & Muslim Americans who have family & loved ones affected by what our government is helping netanyahu do & are STILL going to vote for Harris & are encouraging others to do the same because they're pragmatic & know what's at stake are braver than any of you accelerationists. you all sound like maga because of your unending love for red flag McGee jill stein. y'all don't think Russia is a problem & that amongst a myriad of things makes you sound fascist as fuck. you make me sick. there's so much at stake. please listen to those who have been doing the actual work longer than you've pretended to give a damn.

i can't get over hearing about the video of a voter writing in the flashy "arms embargo now" instead of voting for PRAMILA JAYAPAL who is up for re-election. do you even know who she is?? do you know how our government works??? your emotions are making you STUPID & encouraging you to "vote" in a way that is just cutting off your fucking nose to spite your fucking face. y'all are UNSERIOUS.

try to be as brave as Liz Cheney & as pragmatic & aware as the rest of the fucking world who knows that third party voting only hurts the Democrats. being an Ernst Thälmann in this election is fucking EMBARRASSING.

[ca-suffit]

Can't believe I got called a "rich western" for having basic decency for people and not being transphobic lmaooo Anon you're dumb as shit oh my God! I'm not even american, you asshole, I'm a latina from South America.

And do you think you are the only one with big problems enough that you can't spare any time to treat people with respect? There's a huge tragedy happening in my country right now where people lost their houses to a flood, there's people without food or water, who lost their loved ones and their entire lives they worked hard to built and we been asking for help for days and y'all gringos don't give a shit, our posts about it barely reach 1.000 notes and it's mostly reblogged among ourselves, but I'm the priviledged rich western? Y'all don't give a shit about stuff out of your own little bubble, no matter where the fuck you live.

And still I can treat people with basic decency and respect. I'm still not racist and transphobic to people because that's a basic thing to do! That's how everyone should be! Sorry if that's too hard for your little brain, to be a good human with basic morals.

Y'all call americans self-centered but y'all are just the same, so stop bullshitting and trying to be "oh i'm so much better than these stupid dumb americans because they are ow so priviledged" when y'all know that only applies to white people. Go fuck yourself.

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[carronpatrick]

Y'all I just. I'm gonna post the chaos here cause why the fuck not, they can kiss my ass if they don't like it. 😘 But unlike FB and IG, I can blissfully put a read more! 😂

So basically, I've had one shit thing on top of the other and I'm literally dealing with my poor mom needing brain surgery and I just. I finally broke down to the lowest I can go before I'm in the ground and stayed there for weeks and something added on top today and uh, yeah, absolutely the fuck not.

----- This was the public post, lmao. Enjoy I guess? Idk. I have friends here who I don't have on other socials and y'all all deserve to know what's been happening... For my entire fucking life tbh. 💀 -----

❗Access to my presence is a privilege. I accept the apologies you'll never give for my own peace, even the ones that are falsely given and full of excuses and lies and blame shifting to make yourselves feel better, but your access is still denied. ✌🏼

Perhaps if me expressing my feelings feels like an attack, you should reflect on why you feel guilty and why you refuse to accept and take responsibility for your actions. Y'all always told me to grow up - maybe you should do the same.

If you have a problem with me, don't call my mother to make her cry. (Not just the one person who called today because I reacted to a crappy behavior which excuses given aren't technologically possible, this goes for all of y'all who have done that since I was a child.) You've placed family members my age and in my same relation to you on your peer level, you can do the same for me. Come to me. I'll see messages in my requests box and will gladly give my phone number.

But also don't expect the same little girl who would keep the truth hidden to keep the peace. My peace isn't worth any less than yours. The little girl who was yelled at at age 5, taken off the will, and told I was not wanted, but my half sister was so she should stay. The broken teenager who cried and cried and begged God, please, I'd do anything, take years off my life, please just to change me into someone who y'all would deem worthy of love and attention and basic human decency.

I won't air y'alls dirty laundry, and unlike you, I won't make up lies or talk behind backs in refusal of my errors and imperfections - I am a human, I am flawed. I have made plenty of mistakes and God willing, I will live to make many more! But I also accept responsibility for them and learn from them. I simply won't accept being treated like an unwanted bug anymore. And that's truly how all of you have made me feel, every day of my 30 years so far.

You took enough, you destroyed enough, you have hurt me enough. I deserve better. And the saddest thing is you don't even see that. People who I should NEVER have had to EARN LOVE FROM. People I gave ALL my love to, unconditionally, endlessly. People who I will still love until I die, and still cry and mourn the possible relationship I should have had with. I will cry when you die, but sadly only because of the missed opportunity to be a real family and the apologies I learned to forgive but never received.

I will continue to pray for all of you every night, in hopes one day you take a look in the mirror and realize how far off the path you've gotten. I truly hope you are able to fix the poisonous parts of yourselves before you have to face God. I hope in Heaven, you'll be better, and maybe we can finally have the relationship you so easily gave everyone else but refused me.

I am finished with people who refuse to even care enough to ask my side of the story. For 30 years, I've accepted that I was the ONE person who you all deemed unworthy and unwanted and not good enough and I was doing something wrong, maybe I really didn't deserve to be alive. People who would rather coddle the person who physically abused me and taught me how to sink a blade into my skin and told me to kill myself and never has nor ever will apologize or even acknowledge it happened. Maybe you all are just stupid and honestly believe it, I'm not sure. But as adults, you damn well should know better and behave better.

You almost took my life from me at 16, you have destroyed as much as you possibly could for the past 30 years - I refuse to allow you to take and destroy the rest.

I hope your lives will be as joyful and Godly and fulfilling and wonderful as mine will be, but at this point there is literally not a thing you could say to be allowed back in my life. And sadly the actions that would allow it will never be done because you guys don't have the balls to stand up and ask questions and make waves.

✌🏼

----- and then I sat here listening to Look What You Made Me Do by TSwift and wrote this 😂😂😂😂 -----

I'm finally just... not sitting here, forced (just to clarify, not by Mom, but by her shitty family and most of Dad's as well) to stay silent and let the horrible attacks build up internally until I go off grid for 3 weeks in a dissociation zombie state because I have to go numb to survive and I cry myself to sleep and cry when I wake up and question if they're right and I'm useless and have no talent or intelligence and shouldn't be alive.

Nah, fuck that, I absolutely do. I deserve to thrive, not just survive in fear of the next bad thing they will drop. I'm not useless. I have plenty of intelligence and I think at least a little bit of talent. Not as much as my friends and Mom think I have, but. 🤭 LOOK, I have plenty of my own demons tearing me down, I don't deserve to have them become new ones on top of the old traumas they caused.

Oh my God, I never realized how suffocating it was to be an adult with my own social media and be unable to say even 50% of what I think or how I feel for fear of 'family' causing drama and fights and fear of not being the better person. I'll be the better person tomorrow, I deserve to vent to the few people who DO give a fuck about me. (Or just vent to myself, which is also fine tbh.) I knew it was stifling and damaging but like. I guess I just pretended it wasn't as bad as it truly was.

Like, I have Tumblr - which has been the one safe place for me for the past, oh, 15 years at least - but shit, dude, I deserve to have peace all over. No more secret 'close friends' posts, I can just.... Post.... And anyone who doesn't like it can just.... Not like it or delete me or whatever... 🤷🏻‍♀️ I can sing again with the normal fears that people won't like it, not that my song choice will create a power point discussion on what I did wrong by posting it at their family vacations to the lake or whatever.

Won't cause an entire war (which, FYI, they do NOT want to wage a war with me because all my skeletons are at my table in plain view and I accept and learned from them and know I'm not less for being honest, but theirs are buried so deep it'd basically ruin their lives. Never underestimate the quiet ones you abused for years, honey. We learn to become wallflowers and we remember every dirty secret.)

But, yeah. I can just... Be myself... Don't have to defend myself or Mom (or Dad, yeah, the dead man who can't defend himself now? Yeah.) against anyone because I said 'fuck' (the HORROR! A FULLY GROWN ADULT! 30 YEAR OLD WOMAN! USING A NAUGHTY WORD! THE SHAME!), cause none of them will ever see my posts again. I can post my songs/lyrics because I don't have to worry about the bullshit guilt trip over being hurt when someone hurt me. I can post just, songs I hear and like and want to share! Funny memes! Cute animal videos! Or nothing at all! Even my silence won't be dissected!!?! 😱

I can feel my feelings and like, y'all can disagree but you won't tell me I'm wrong for feeling that? And tbh if you do, you'll be deleted cause you can disagree with my feelings or thoughts or whatever, but you have no place telling me how I involuntarily feel or think is wrong. ((Not like, I don't have all the information and have a bad take on something important like politics or something. I absolutely welcome y'all educating me, just not for my personal stuff. I'm sure the whole 2 people still reading understand what I'm saying, lmfao.))

How wild, bruh. 💀

Freedom from 'family' feels weird, lmfao. Very very good but I'm just still expecting someone to screenshot my posts and send them to the family group chat I've never been in and talk shit about me and call Mom to yell and make her upset just to injure me. I'm like a rabbit just scared to death of every twig snap still, but I'll hopefully get over it.

Nothing like righteous anger to create spite to knock you out of a depression breakdown, right? 😂

[speedystarshine]

hi hi! I read ur escape the night fanfic about lele and Matt and it was SO GOOD!!!/gen

If you can, can you do Yandere Manny and Yandere Matpat hcs? Separate hcs if that’s alright with you. Preferably with a male reader but g/n is fine!!

take your time with the request, if you don’t want to do it it’s fine! :)

Of course, anon! I'm glad you enjoyed the last one! Bro I swear everybody in escape the night is so gender/pos- Manny might be a little ooc, sorry! I did him first since I was a bit worried about that :)

Yandere Manny Mua and Yandere Matpat x M!Reader (Separate) Headcanons!

Yandere Manny Mua (The Record Producer)

*inhales*

Right, I feel like Manny would have a better grip hiding his feelings for you.

The most you'd notice is how he stares at you when you think he's not looking, or a slight blush here and there, but definitely better than Mat.

He gives you that kind of.. polite parent kind of smile a lot? Outwardly looks like he has everything in check while inwardly being like "jsjsinsjajanajhelookdatmeholySHITNSKWJNDNMA"

He's actually quite tame for a yandere!

But don't let that fool you, any yandere can become dangerous when pushed enough.

I feel like he'd be more manipulative, giving things a slight push into where they need to be rather than going in physically.

Constantly babies you, I'm sorry I don't make the rules.

He believes that you're someone who needs to be protected, and that he's the only one who can protect you!

After all, you are trapped in time in a spooky mansion with nasty little secrets around each corner, you need to have someone watching your back!

Conversations with him are nice, he acts like how he normally would, apart from the slight difference of badmouthing someone a whole lot more.

He has this kind of persuasive way of talking, to the point of where even if you were best friends with said person you'd either be slightly suspicious or wary of them.

He would definitely be a self aware yandere, but instead of freaking out or feeling bad he's calm and goes "okay, what next?"

This may seem like a good way of thinking, and it is!

But...everyone has their breaking point.

If he was on a challenge with someone else, calm facade is immediately gone and man is ready to play dirty.

After all, haven't you technically won if the other is dead?

No, but don't tell him that.

He's super supportive of you, no matter what it is!

If it was a personal thing? He's behind you 100%!

It is was a challenge? Very worried for your life, but still behind you 100%!

Ajajjdns this is a kinda domestic hc that cant exist because of setting but ima plop it in here anyways, you two do each others makeup sometimes. Thats it that's the heacano-

Would just kinda.... Stop working if you were to die. You're the main reason his brain is going at like 68fps everyday so if you were suddenly to just? Die? It would break him.

Tries to move on, but hates it. He's just kinda numb now. :(

If you were to be brought back, he would be ECSTATIC. Actually has to do a double take and starts crying on the spot-

He would do a silly little hand wave dance before giving you all the hugs and kisses ever, whether or not you two are together.

Now when y'all are hanging out he's slightly more quiet when you two are together, your death made him realize it's the small things that count so sometimes he just wants to hold you :)

5/10, (danger levels) only really cares more about your safety then taking care of others.

Yandere Matpat (The Detective)

Mat our beloved

I'm gonna be honest, it's not hard to get him to fall for you. It's actually kinda sad-

Just, basic human decency. Or give him a complement or something, dig your own grave ig 🙄.

Instantly has him going awooga

Mans is a total simp he just sees you and mentally goes "😳 P-Pretty........boy.....😵🥰"

Enough of that tho

When he's not being a total mess, he'll help you quite a lot with puzzles and more often then not will trust you with information he wouldn't tell anyone else.

He doesn't want to risk making either you or him seeming suspicious too much, so the most he'll go for when he sees something he doesn't like is a light glare or a little 'talk' :)

Poor guy guilt trips you without even realising sometimes. I mean, just look at those puppy eyes, how could you say no?

It's not all just lovey-dovey and sunshine though, however much he'll try to make it seem that way. He is still a yandere, after all.

He has trouble getting a handle on his emotions, so he can be a teensy bit unpredictable.

One second he'll be pulling you away from the group so you can look for clues with you alone, being super clingy and smily and shit

Then the next he'll be giving someone the death glare of the century because they made a joking little comment about you two.

Just, eerily silent with a crazy look in his eye. Yikes.

You know he would rig the votes for sure.

People don't even notice, either! It only starts to get suspicious after the second time someone who no one wished ill will against got voted in...

Speaking of rigging, you know he'd do it for you too. Simp.

Like, if you somehow do get voted into a challenge, he'd make it hell on earth for the other contestant.

Sneaking off to try and trip them up, giving them helpful little 'tips' that end up screwing them over...

It's all for you, of course! <3

Little mini hc, he snap pictures of you sometimes. I-It's for evidence checks, he swears!

Bitch pulls them out randomly and fucking swoons and sighs while tracing your face-

He's like an awkward teenager smh. I think it would probably be obvious to literally EVERYBODY EVEN THE FUCKING CLOWNS- somehow apart from you- that he loves you.

Just picturing a sweaty and blushing Mat holding your hand while you just go "eh, he's probably just cold-" like for fucks sake reader/j-

Has a odd fascination with the 'creepier' aspects of the mansion.

Probably planning who to off next 🙄

And he would! Matt and Lele wouldn't , much since their actually levelheaded enough to reason against that, but mans in unstable. Actually believes he can play it off as some spooky thing from the mansion swooping down to kill them.

*person is lying dead on the ground with their head missing and body mutilated beyond comprehension*

Mat, covered in blood: it was probably just a bug <3

The sad thing is (or good, if you enjoy having a yandere on your tail) is that he has an advantage here.

He is the detective, after all, and the person who would find it easiest to screw up all evidence is the one who would have it figured out in the first place.

If you were to die, Mat would be in HEAVY denial. Constantly looking for someway to bring you back, something to tell him that your still there.

It gets to the point where he refuses to leave, even if it's just before sunlight or he can. Why would he leave without you?

If you got brought back, he would be sobbing EVERYWHERE.

You best bet you're never getting a second of privacy ever again. Crazy levels have now upped 100%, won't let anyone else come near you in fear that they'll take you away.

Sometimes you kinda just need to hug him and convince him that you're actually still here :(((

He'll get over it eventually, but it's always there just in the back of his mind.

I'd say 7/10. Giant simp most of the time, but he can be VERY dangerous when provoked.

Djiahwhsb. Hope you liked them anon! It's like 1 in the morning so brain juices are flowing FAST rn-

I wasn't 100% sure if these were in character since I only recently finished season 4, hope you like them anyways!! <3

Also I'm not too sure how to add a readmore on mobile so sorry to those that had to scroll past this post-

Edit: added read more!

[the-dragon-hearted]

I feel like we, as human beings should address the one overarching issue of not just the Dream smp fandom, but any place where people come together and discuss things they love. The issue: Debate. Discourse. Deliberation. Okay, that was three issues, but you get the picture. We, as a society (yes I'm throwing the 'S' word out there) need to get better at Debate. I get it, the four-year-olds on political stages have set a horrible example but I am here to give y'all a Tedd Talk on arguments, mostly pertaining to content creators but this can be used in any disagreement you ever hold. How to Properly Hold an Argument without being a Child in 4 Steps: Step 1: Never walk into a Debate expecting to change the other's mind This is a big one and it's one of the hardest to grasp. What? What do you mean? What's the purpose of argument if I don't convince the other they're wrong? The purpose of a debate is to offer your opinion and defend it against the world while you pick another's claim apart. Don't expect to change someone's mind. For your own benefit. If you see an opinion that is absolutely horrendus out there on social media, YouTube, Twitchchat, et cetera... and you click on it to refute it. You need to understand you're not refuting it to change that person's mind, but to display to the rest of your collegues why that opinion is, well... Bullshit. You live in a society where people are Ignorant, Misinformed, Sensationalists, or Trolls. Frankly, against certain people (namely trolls) you can't win. No matter what you say or how 'awesomely' constructed your argument is. You can not and will not win. All you can do is build up an opinion and post it and then suffer what 'deez nuts' jokes you get. Here, an example:

Troll: *insert terrible opinion here* Person A: No. That's wrong for reasons a, b, and c. You shouldn't believe that or spread it. Troll: lol, take a joke will you. You're so sensitive.

Naturally, this would upset you. I would be upset and it's okay if you are too. But you should not under any situation continue to feed the troll. Never expect to change someone's mind and never expect to win, especially against people like this. There is no winning in an argument, there's only hurt feelings and over-used claims. The best you can hope for is for your argument to sound and appear as the best option/opinion. Alright? Don't attack people and don't reply with pure emotion. Just breathe easier knowing you made a good argument, posted it, and the other is making a fool of themselves. Honestly, who's the fool? The informed person or the twelve year olds laughing about Bofa? Bofa what? Bofa deez - Aaand we're shutting it down there. So now you know what to walk in expecting in an argument. What do you do next? Step 2: Construct a solid Claim DON'T RUN! I SWEAT I'LL BE MORE CONCISE THAN THE ENGLISH TEACHERS OF HIGH SCHOOL! A claim is the core of your argument; the thing you're arguing about. It can be broad, it can be specific, but the most important part is that you stay on topic. Don't lose yourself to ranting. Always re-read what you type and delete any paragraphs that change the topic. For instance, if you're talking about the Dream speed-runs, you probably shouldn't go on a rant about the manhunts as they're two seperate catagegories and you'll look a bit confused. Step 3: Be mature, be concise, and do some research First things first: Don't deflect in an argument simply because you don't know something. Take your time, do research, form an opinion and come back to it. This will give you time to blow of steam AND stay informed. On the same note, absolutely do NOT use red herrings. Red herrings? Oh, that's when you deflect attention from the main topic with a shallow issue that's related. For instance, let's use discourse discusing a content creator's bias against... let's do something stupid like stuffed animals:

Person A: We need to talk about cc!So-and-So and they're Bias against stuffed animals. Person B: Sure, but there are so many children out there who are lacking connection and are never able to get stuffed animals due to strict parents. It feels wrong to only focus on one subject when there's a whole problem out there.

^^ This is a red herring. It's not always this obvious but for the love of all things good, don't do this. Second things second - this is SUPER important. Stop using Ad Hominem attacks in any and all debates. Ad Hominem attacks are the type that personally attacking your opponent instead of focusing on their position. I'm sure you can tell that politicians love that one - but it's actually an immature approach that cheapens your argument. To see it in practice:

Person A: I don't think it's a big deal that cc!So-and-So did blank and I don't see why everyone's making a big deal out of it. Person B: That's because you're a cc!So-and-So Stan. Person A: Well you're just a hater.

Right away you should be able to tell that there was no tangible argument against or for the content creator. Just a bunch of kids slinging mud on their opponents. Calling someone a 'hater' or a 'stan' shouldn't invalidate their opinion or bolster your own argument. Just because someone 'likes' or 'dislikes' something doesn't mean they can't talk about it, it just means they're likely to possess Implicit Bias or a subconcious bias towards something. Implicit Bias isn't a bad thing and it isn't something that invalidates an argument, it's something that should allow you to at least understand the reasoning for someone to hold a position. If you attack someone's personal standing instead of their opinion it only cheapens your argument because people now assume YOU have no idea what you're talking about and all you can do is hiss at your foe like a feral raccoon on drugs. No one wants to agree with a feral racoon on drugs, kind of how no one wants to agree with a politician. So, how can you better form an argument without mudslinging? It's a bit more complicated, but worth it. You research, you think before you type, you stay respectful, and... you listen to Step #4. Step 4: Sometimes. You have to accept that you were initially wrong. This one hurts. It hurts you and your confidence and all you can do is handle it best you can. I've taken debate and been in dozens or "professional arguments" (I hate that phrase) and I have been 'wrong' plenty of times. There's grace in that and it's an important lesson to learn. It is impossible to be right 100% of the time and it's impossible to be infallible. You have to accept that of yourself and those around you. If your opponent accepts they were wrong, do not continue to harp on them. That's cruel. Alternatively, if you realize you were wrong with your claim, you can admit you were mistaken and amend it. It takes a big person to do that and if your opponent has any decency, they'll recognize that. If they don't, congratulations, you've been arguing with a literal child. And now, you know everything about Debate. (That's a lie, but you know the basics and you can do a lot with the basics.) A good friend of mine once said that every opinion out there came from the mouth of both an asshole and an angel and we all have to be one of those things at some point in our lives. Debate, discourse, argument, all of that is hard and it can be straining or even toxic. Take a step back when necissary. Take a deep breath. Know that if you're feeling personally attacked, you're opponent is using immature methods to tear down your arguments. If you're argument is torn down and you don't know what to think, that's okay too. Take a breath, take a break, and allow yourself to mull it over. Forming your own opinion takes time and a clear mental space. You need both. So next time you see a troll, a jerk, an asshole, a hater, or a stan - don't let emotions get the better of you. Remember you are an intelligent person who is capable of forming your own opinions and NO ONE can take that away from you. Think, research, and then type.

TLDR: Don't expect to win every argument, don't expect to be always right, don't divert your opponents attention, don't personally attack your opponent, always be respectful, always do research, never do anything with pure emotion. Remember you're forming your own opinions and that takes time and space so give yourself that when you need it.

That's it! Best of luck Debating~

[young-dumb-and-vaccinated]

The Cult Girl (Hannibal x Female!Reader) pt. 7

Sorry this took so long y'all. This chapter was difficult to write. Hannibal invites Theresa for dinner and y/n finally confronts her.

Trigger warning: mentions of suicide, child sex abuse; graphic descriptions of violence; confronting an abuser; body-shaming

The stitches in your cut hadn't even dissolved before Theresa intruded on your life again. Before you stormed out, Hannibal did in fact invite her to dinner. Polite society would rule the invitation null and void after that confrontation, but Theresa felt herself exempt from the laws of politeness. Like Evangelicals or craisins, Theresa loved to insert herself where she was clearly not wanted.

Of course, you were peeved at Hannibal for upholding the invitation when she called. But you could tell he had something planned. He was intrigued by her audacity and wanted to see how far it would take her. You couldn't begrudge him professional curiosity, as you too wondered what the fuck her problem was.

In truth, you saw what he did to your grandma, and you wanted to see him do it to Theresa. You wanted her subject to the same psychological torment that she put you through. And that, you realized, was why he honored that invitation. He wanted to vindicate you. And that was the sexiest damn thing you could possibly imagine.

Theresa showed up alone. That was her first mistake.

"Thank you for having me, Dr. Lecter." Theresa greeted, shedding her long coat and dropping it to the ground. "Will [F/N] be joining us?"

"[F/N] will most certainly be joining us." Hannibal said, his voice hardening. He noticed her coat in a pile on the floor and something in his head clicked.

"I hope I'm not overdressed." Theresa tossed her hair over her shoulders. 

She was. And you knew even before she showed up that she'd wear that green evening dress with the plunging neckline. It was the same one she wore to prom. She kept it as a memento all these years to memorialize the day she completely fucked you over. 

She was here to make history repeat itself. 

"Not all, Ms. [L/N]," Hannibal grinned, glancing at the staircase. "[F/N] is just touching up her makeup.���

“That sounds like [F/N].” Theresa laughed. “She always took the most time getting ready in the morning. And she was always the ugliest. It was quite sad, really.”  

Hannibal reminded himself what he had in store for Theresa before letting himself get angry. “If you could join me in the kitchen, I could use a little help with the appetizers.” 

Theresa took the bait and followed him through the threshold into the massive kitchen. 

“Could I trouble you for some psychological advice, Doctor Lecter?” She said, leaning against the island.

“That depends.” He answered, though the tone of his voice connoted a firm ‘no’. “Are you going to be honest with me?” 

Theresa mounted herself on top of the island and crossed her legs. “I’ve just been having quite a bit of trouble in my marriage.”

"Please get off my counter." Hannibal politely demanded. "I just sterilized it this morning."

“My husband just isn’t so excited by me anymore.” She pouted like a child. “He just doesn’t seem interested in... well, any of the things I have to offer him.” 

“Have you considered the possibility that you have nothing to offer?” You said. You approached them with purpose, the skirt of your purple dress fluttering behind you. Your favorite pair of strappy heels clacked against the tile and echoed through the room with every step. 

“[F/N] makes a valid point.” Hannibal agreed, taking you under his arm. “You’re an abusive narcissist, a serial adulterer, and you’re quite horrible at flirting. I certainly don’t understand what you could possibly have to offer.” 

“Nice to see you again, [F/N].” Theresa said, resigned to her defeat. “I didn’t want to say anything at the wedding, but you look like you’ve gained a few pounds.” 

You almost laughed. Growing up, Grandma had subjected you to every form of body-shaming known to man. Nothing Theresa could say would have any effect on you. 

“Really? Because I’ve never felt better in my life.” You smiled, knowing it to be true. “Hannibal is an amazing cook. You’d probably gain weight too if you were eating so well.” 

"Well, I have appearances to keep up." She refuted. "Gideon and I both have very busy schedules. Besides, he finds the kitchen more of a woman's domain."

"Unfortunate for you." Hannibal threw a dish towel over his shoulder and picked up a wine bottle by the neck. He kept his hands busy by pouring three glasses of wine. "That Gideon does not put in the time to keep you well-fed and fulfilled. Might I suggest not molesting children as a remedy?"

You snickered as he handed you a glass. You migrated to the dining table, where the trial was set to take place.

"Did you invite me here just to gang up on me?" Theresa leaned back in her chair. "Because if so, that's really mature."

"Of course not." You said, Hannibal pulling your chair out for you. You placed your napkin in your lap. "Well, maybe a little."

Theresa took a long sip of wine. "You're not going to get an apology if that's what you're after."

"Oh no." You shook your head. "I've stopped expecting basic human decency from you years ago."

"Good." Theresa huffed. "Since that's clearly what you want me to be, that's what I'll be."

"Don't give me that shit." You sighed. "I know what gaslighting is and you're not as good at it as you think."

"Y'know I never asked to be a parent figure to you and Anna." She crossed her arms.

"You may not have asked for it but you sure as hell enjoyed it." You countered, furrowing your brow. "Don't act like you weren't the dictator's right-hand man. You sucked up to grandma and always got preferential treatment."

"I was a kid." She shrugged. "You're really gonna blame me for the shit I did before my skull fully hardened?"

"Well, it exposes a way larger pattern of behavior." You explained. "You're a megalomaniac that wants power without responsibility. So you attach yourself to someone with power, probably another narcissist who's too self-involved to see what a leech you really are. It's what you did with grandma and it's what you're doing with Gideon."

Dressing Theresa down like that gave you a rush. It made you feel alive. But more importantly, it made her look small. It stripped her of her power.

"Well done, Sherlock." Theresa taunted. "But you're forgetting one thing. If I were a megalomaniac, why would I waste my time beating up on you? Some nobody with no power to speak of?"

"Because I'm a living reminder of your past." You narrowed your eyes. "I remind you that you can't just beat everyone into submission."

"Ladies," Hannibal interrupted, holding three bowls. He placed one in front of you, the savory broth enticing your nose. "This is pot-au-feu. It is a simple French stew made from beef, vegetables and potatoes. I added a marrow-bone for extra richness. It's the perfect combination of simplicity and substance."

You couldn't even wait for Hannibal to sit down. You'd been so hungry all day. Smelling the meat slowly braise over the course of the day was torturous. You went straight for the marrow, which was a recent favorite of yours.

Theresa picked the bone up between two fingers and dropped it onto the table, her face wrapped with disgust. "I think I'll pass. I'm not a dog."

"You are not." Hannibal said, spearing a piece of meat on his fork. "I find dogs much better company."

Theresa tented her fingers and glared at Hannibal. "So you're just going to let her rip into me? Aren't you supposed to be the professional here?"

"Don't discount [F/N]'s analysis just because she is a student." Hannibal glared back at her. "From what I know about you, she's dead on."

"Isn't this entire interaction a professional conflict of interest?" Theresa folded her arms. "I don't trust her to analyze me because she hates me."

Hannibal put his utensils down. Anger flashed across his face. "I don't think you quite understand what this interaction is. You are not owed an unbiased psychological profile, especially not from me. You are not my patient. You are [F/N]'s abuser."

Theresa narrowed her eyes and leaned over the table. "So if you understand that, why am I here?"

"You think very highly of your intelligence, Theresa." Hannibal glanced down at his dish. "Perhaps you can figure that one out yourself."

You coughed, narrowly avoiding choking on your food.

"Darling, please pace yourself." Hannibal instructed, though he seemed pleased with how enthusiastically you inhaled your meal. "You're going to make yourself sick if you eat too fast."

"I'm sorry." You said after taking a long sip of water. "I don't know why, I'm just so hungry today."

Hannibal dropped his eyebrows, looking worried. "Did you take your medicine this morning?"

"I think so." You nodded.

Theresa smiled and reached for her phone. The movement caught Hannibal's attention, and he could tell what she was up to right away.

"Theresa, it's very rude to text at the dinner table." He scolded, taking a sip of wine. "Surely, anything you're saying to your grandmother and Anna, you can say to us."

Theresa, too proud to back down, slipped her phone into her purse and met your eyes. "You're pregnant."

"Brilliant fucking deductive reasoning." You rolled your eyes. "A woman gains a little weight and has a healthy appetite? That's the only logical conclusion I would draw."

"Well, aren’t we defensive?" Theresa taunted. "Congratulations, by the way."

"Theresa, stop it." You gritted your teeth, trying not to convey how pissed you were.

"You're going to need to drop out of school to take care of the baby full time." Theresa sneered.

You knew exactly where she was taking this and you wanted more than anything to just disappear. You reached for the wine bottle and refilled your glass. "Shut up, Theresa. Shut the fuck up before you say something you'll regret."

Her face lit up from the satisfaction of finally making you angry. "And someday you'll blow your brains out just like your mother!"

This time, she would regret it. You chucked the empty wine bottle across the table. It hit her directly in the face with a deafening crunch before ricocheting off the table and shattering on the ground.

Theresa brought her finger to her nose, noticing the stream of blood trickling from her nostril. She stood up, stabilizing herself with the back of the chair.

"I didn't think you had it in you." She jabbed before collapsing to the ground.

You went silent, too afraid to look at Hannibal.

"For what it's worth, darling." Hannibal piped up. "I always knew that you did."

[black-girls-wizdom]

It’s Been A While. . .

Hey Wizdomettes,

I hope all is well and everyone and their families have remained untouched from COVID-19. With that out the way, I’ve been dugged up out of my “Pandemic Grave” because I wanted to discuss the topic of the Covid vaccines/getting vaccinated. My question is: What is it that actually makes you think the government is trying to poison you? What possess you think that this vaccine is some sort of biological chemical warfare? What gives you the audacity to “TRY” and control a woman’s uterus but we can’t even ask you ungrateful bastards to wear a mask, wash your hands, and get vaccinated without hearing about some unwritten constitutional rights being trampled upon. This human population control theory and rhetoric has begun to get old and stale quick. I understood being hesitant in the beginning, I was hesitant in the beginning as well, so I let the first round go first, and they’re still here. However, 700,000+ Americans aren’t here because COVID KILLED THEM. COVID KILLED THEM! Not the vaccine. COVID has successfully exterminated more people than ALL 3 COVID vaccines combined! Now,I understand everyone hoping on the bandwagon of some celebrity calling it a hoax, I get it, I do, because we regular folks think that they some how have the upper hand, some New World Order organization is sliding them information that we don’t know about. NEWS FLASH: Beyonce and Ellen or whom you mf’ers look up to is not sitting around a table with the elite plotting on our demise. The FUCKING Rockafellars aren’t sitting plotting our demise.

Y’all so damn smart you’re dumb. One, it was much better ways to take out billions of people much faster than this. Just think about it. Analyze it, and ask yourself if it makes sense. Secondly, YOU, YES YOU are paying the top 1% their money.  You work for them, why would they intentionally eliminate basically they’re slaves? Why? A cease in their everyday Net Income gone make everybody think twice. Lastly, they need you patriotic Americans to fight in wars that only benefits them.

Another thing, I don’t give af if you’re democrat or republican, black/white/green, gay or straight, atheist or Christian we ALL bleed RED blood. Our genotypes may differ in certain DNA sequences but we ALL bleed RED blood. CORONA, however, don’t care about any of that, all Corona thinking about is attaching to a warm-blooded homosapien-sapien and thriving until it leaves you in an ICU bed, with machines alarming every minute, your family can’t be there, and you’re gasping for air. That feeling is real! THIS SHIT IS REAL! This shit way above Donald Trump and Joe Biden. It’s way above black/white/Asian/Hispanic. COVID is killing all of us. You know damn well politicians are using it for political gain and y'all falling for the okey doke, easily. Use your common sense, Pick up a book on Virology and learn a thing or five. Use your brain, you don’t go to a politician when you’re sick, you go to the doctor, right? So, why in the hell are you getting health recommendations from fucking Ted Cruz and Beto O’Rourke, why? Lastly, what gives you the authority to feel as if your right to autonomy trumps my right to live. We all deserve the common decency to wear a mask in public; unlike you healthy individuals out there who lacks the knowledge of how it really is to be ill, I, as an immunocompromised black woman, my 80 year old grandmother, your 80 year old mother, your dad with diabetes, your 6 month old cousin, and children under the age of 5 do; we have the same the rights under the Constitution of these United States that says and I quote:

“No State shall make or enforce any law which shall abridge the privileges or immunities of citizens of the United States;nor shall any State deprive any person of life, liberty, or property, without due process of law; nor deny to any person within its jurisdiction the equal protection of the laws.” 

Loosely translated to:

“If you can monopolize off of my pussy to win an election, I can damn sure tell your ass to get vaccinated.”

Take that “TeaPinion” and run with it! 

On that note I’m out Wizdomettes,

Stay wise and stay radiant💜🌻🪄

[vulpes-z3rda]

SFW Alphabet ~ Nishinoya

A/N: HI HI!! I hope you all enjoy this and i hope the Nishinoya nation are doing okay ^_^

A = Affection (How affectionate are they? How do they show affection?)

Have you met this boy? Have you taken him in? Absorbed him and everything about him? Yes? Good. This fucking DUDEEEE, omg. he loves affection. 25/10 on the scale for him tbh. s he around at all?? He needs to be touching you. Whether it be linked pinkies or small pecks on the cheek or hugging you from behind. He needs to be doing it because he wants to show you how much he cares all the time.

B = Best friend (What would they be like as a best friend? How would the friendship start?)

THE BEST OF BEST FRIENDS!!!!! Need to laugh? Bitch he's there. Wanna go on a random adventure that will probably end up with you both having to wear bandages and bandaids for weeks? He's down and ready to go! Movie marathons and being cuddled up together under a blanket? Human reading this, he'll do it.

The friendship started when he was running through the halls being his usual chaotic self and he accidentally ran into you. After you both got up and dusted yourself off you were going to yell at him when he started apologising. Forgiving him you said you'd hoped to see him around and giggled as he very enthusiastically agreed. (he also thought you were really cute and wanted to stick around with you!)

C = Cuddles (Do they like to cuddle? How would they cuddle?)

Omg... of course. You don't think he would?? How dare you. That, my good reader, is a war crime of a thought. He isn't really bothered about how the cuddling happens but he much prefers being the little spoon. Being held by you, resting on your chest and just relaxing into your touch is something he loves doing whenever he can. Obviously he'll swap but its like... a surprise when he is the big spoon.

D = Domestic (Do they want to settle down? How are they at cooking and cleaning?)

He does want to settle down eventually. Once you're both comfortable with good jobs and a nice home, he'll be sure to settle down with you. For now, though, he just likes talking about your future together and where you think you'll be. Cooking?? Cleaning?? What are those? Please, for the sake of your home, don't let him near the kitchen. He can clean, he just doesn't like it. If you want him to clean you're going to have to make a game out of it. "You'll get a kiss every 10 minutes if you do it." "AHHH OKAY!!"

E = Ending (If they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?)

I think he would be scared because even though he doesn't love you in that way anymore, he still really cares about you and doesn't want to hurt you. But, he'd be upfront because you deserve that decency and he would make sure that you both stay friends because he still wants you in his life.

F = Fiance(e) (How do they feel about commitment? How quick would they want to get married?)

We all know he simps. A pure-blooded simp you know? So he simps for you. He's 100% committed to you. He doesn't see anyone else, only you and he is more than happy with that. I feel like he'd propose to you after a few years of dating, like between 2-6 years maybe?? Then you've had time to properly settle together and gotten to know each other inside and out.

G = Gentle (How gentle are they, both physically and emotionally?)

He can be gentle but given his chaotic nature, he's probably unintentionally brazen and rough around the edges. But he tries for you because he knows sometimes you just need him to be calm and to be more aware of your emotions so he tries his best.

H = Hugs (Do they like hugs? How often do they do it? What are their hugs like?)

Absolutely adores hugging you. Adores hugs in general tbh. They happen any chance he gets tbh. You've got your back turned to him because your mum asked you to do the dishes? BACK HUGS TIME!! Talking to him about something? You had best bet this man is going to tackle you in a hug.

I = I love you (How fast do they say the L-word?)

Yes, he's affectionate but I feel like he'd wait a bit before he decided he says I love you. He wants to make sure everything between you two is comfortable and completely returned before he commits to it on that level. So I'd say he'd wait about 5-7 months before he says it.

J = Jealousy (How jealous do they get? What do they do when they're jealous?)

We've all seen how he is about people flirting with Kiyoko and they aren't even dating, so Lord could only imagine. He would probably be by your side at all times and leaving snide comments to the person who is stealing your attention. More on the passive-aggressive side of jealous behaviour.

K = Kisses (What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss you? Where do they like to be kissed?)

His kisses can either be softest things or the most passionate things. There is no in-between with him. It all depends on his mood. Preferably, he'd like to kiss you on the lips and neck because he feels like it both shows how much he loves you and shows others your his. He loves to be kissed on the jaw and on the lips for the same reasons. It just screams "we love each other and want y'all to know" in his mind.

L = Little ones (How are they around children?)

Considering he's a big child himself, I'd say he's pretty good with kids. 100% the type of guy to join in on any game to keep them entertained, will tell stories (mainly making you royalty and himself a knight who saves you (Tsukki is a dragon that kidnaps you)), he'll give piggyback rides if they want them and he's just overall ecstatic to be around them.

M = Morning (How are mornings spent with them?)

You have to wake him up most mornings cause this mf is always trying to sleep in. You usually make his fave breakfast and then after that he drags upstairs again to cuddle again. This usually means he's rushing around to get to school and practice while you thought ahead and got ready before he dragged you back.

N = Night (How are nights spent with them?)

SNUGGLES!! He'll make sure that once you've both done you're nightly routines, that you both wrap yourselves up in the bedsheets and just cuddle and talk about your day. His head is on your chest and he presses soft kisses to your collarbone as you sing to him or just play with his hair. Overall, it's just a soft loving experience for you both and he adores it and you all the same.

O = Open (When would they start revealing things about themselves? Do they say everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?)

Give him a few months and that's when he really starts opening up. But, leading up to then he gives little hints about himself and drops little things that you might not have known every now and then. Then all of a sudden, he's saying everything. Every little detail he wants you to know, everything he's feeling and he tells you what he's insecure about because he wants you to know him.

P = Patience (How easily angered are they?)

I mean... I'd say about average?? It depends on the situation. Someone's flirting with you? 0-100 real quick. Are you just upset about something and taking it out on him? He tries to keep level headed because he doesn't want to get mad at you. Someone making fun of his height? 0.0 well... short people tend to be the scariest and that's all I'm going to say 😌.

Q = Quizzes (How much would they remember about you? Do they remember every little detail you mention in passing or do they kind of forget everything?)

I feel like he's the kind of person who couldn't remember what 2 + 2 is half the time but if someone was like "What pet did y/n have as a kid??" and he'd be right there answering. Or they'd just ask "Hey, do you know y/n's favourite food?" and boom, he's giving a whole recipe on how to make it just how you like it. But on the odd occasion, he's just like "Oh fuck.... what's their favourite colour again??"

R = Remember (What is their favourite moment in your relationship?)

Your first anniversary. He made sure that he got everything you did on your first date and just sprinkled in little gifts of memories you made leading up to the anniversary. Not gonna lie, he also makes sure you have a nice little at home part of it too, You watch your favourite movies and eat your favourite snacks. This boy just wanted it to be special for you because he wants you to know just how much he cares.

S = Security (How protective are they? How would they protect you? How would they like to be protected?)

On a scale of 1-10?? I'd place him at like 9. We've all seen he is about Kiyoko... and she was a CRUSH! So what he'd be like over his s/o?? Jesus lord above. Noya goes ✨ bark bark ✨ when he protects you. Listen, people who flirt with you make Noya go brrrr, you know? *whispering* He likes it when you protect him by mocking or teasing the other person. Your witty remarks? Gold. His brain? Full of serotonin. His face? Basically just a smile. Hotel? Trivago.

T = Try (How much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks?)

BITCH. Like I said, the effort he put in for your one year?? ✨immaculate✨. Like honestly sometimes your dates are 🌸🍡🍭🌈✨ and then other times they're like ⛓️🖤🔪🥀🩸. But he puts a lot of effort into making sure the date you do fits with your mood. Tired? Stay at home date. Hyper? You go to the beach or park. Chill? Stargazing. Craving stuff? Cafe and restaurant dates. As for everyday tasks... he lacks motivation and usually gets distracted when he starts them however he tries his best to do the things you ask him to do.

U = Ugly (What would be some bad habits of theirs?)

He tends to accidentally neglect you for volleyball. Does he mean to? No, but the boy struggles to prioritise for god's sake. (After Suga talks to him he tries to be better at it but sometimes he still falls into it). HE ALSO LEAVES DIRTY CLOTHES EVERYWHERE BUT WHAT TEEN DOESN'T??

V = Vanity (How concerned are they with their looks?)

Averagely concerned. The blonde in his hair is fading?? Asks you to redo it for him. It's his signature look and he demands to be a standout libero. Just wants to be able to be noticed by something outside of his skills ig.

W = Whole (Would they feel incomplete without you?)

IUYTRESXDFGHJK MAAM/SIR/HOOMAN. This puppy of a boy would practically d i e without you by his side. He doesn't care whether he has you in his life as his s/o or his friend. He just knows he needs you to be in his life. periodt 💅.

X = Xtra (A random headcanon for them.)

He likes climbing trees but half the time he gets stuck and has to jump out meaning you're at the bottom catching him-

Y = Yuck (What are some things they wouldn't like, either in general or in a partner?)

Doesn't really like it when someone easily gives up on their goals. He knows if you've seen yourself being able to do it, then you can. But if you give up super quickly?? He's gonna be disappointed.

Z = Zzz (What is a sleep habits of theirs?)

HE CLINGS TO YOU LIKE A KOALA BEAR!!! Hear me out, baby boy just wants to be close to the person he loves and so this lead to him holding onto you while you both sleep!

[messiisgodibeliveinhim]

Taeyong

I just wanted to rant about everything that happened. So here I am.

So initially I didn't want to watch the concert because of the obvious lack of Taeyong. But i did watch it (ill*gally) on Twitter Live Stream, to see who would cover for Taeyong and how.

Okay, first of all, is it just me or was there an actual lack of preparation and production for the concert??? Like, compare it to SuperM's Beyond Live. The VCRs, the camera direction, the stage, the AR effects... Everything looked so good and exciting. But for this one, they didn't even try. The production was lacking severely and the AR effects were barely used. Everything looked rushed as if they didnt actually plan it set by set. The VCRs were just all the footages from other videos clamped together. There was nothing new or cool about this Beyond Live, even with the increased price. Overall, it looked cheap. I think, the only saving grace of this online concert were the boys themselves.

Secondly, the boys who covered for Taeyong did a good job. Obviously, no one can come close to even performing and delivering like Taeyong but the boys did fine, considering that they had to practice his parts for only 2-3 weeks. And it's a daunting task to fill such huge shoes. The pressure that the boys felt, especially the newbies Shotaro and Sungchan, to try to fill that gap, must have been immense.

But of course, NShittyzens took this as an opportunity to sh*t on Taeyong, saying stupid things like 'XYZ ate Taeyong up', 'ABC made Taeyong's song his own', 'MNO killed Taeyong's part and I think he should've been part of the original line-up instead of Taeyong', 'I hope my bias gets to shine now', 'My faves really took this "opportunity" and showed the world' etc.... Like??? Are you really that dense or just spewing bs like this cuz y'all want attention??? The same thing happened when Taeyong missed the KBS mid-year festival and the other boys covered for him for Kick It.

If y'all truly believe that you're bias only shines when Taeyong is absent, then it shows how insecure you are about you're faves talents and abilities. If you truly think Taeyong's injury is an "opportunity" for your fave, then there is clearly something wrong with you. If you think you're fave ate Taeyong up in any manner, then it shows that you just hate Taeyong. If you think Taeyong is replaceable, then you're doing piss poor job of convincing yourself. Taeyong doesn't need NCT, but NCT needs Taeyong.

He is not just the leader, but also the main dancer, main rapper, sub vocalist, the center of the group and the face of the group. He has also contributed to the group with over 30 songs and has choreographed for some of NCT songs. He is NCT's idea bank, with the numerous times he has come up with something new and interesting for their concepts or choreography (For Example: The Jungle Gym for Neo City tour, the epic finger move and Mark stepping on Taeyong for the Kick It choreography, the chandelier scene in MAW, etc) . Many professionals have constantly praised Taeyong for his creativity and excellent inputs.

Taeyong was there from the very beginning of NCT and has carried the group on his back for 4 years now. And he has always remained kind and humble, even with all the misdirected hate that he faced for years. He always puts himself down and praises all the members, no matter what. He has juggled between groups, 5 comebacks and numerous concerts, this year alone. His schedule list looks like the Bank Statement of one whole year. The way the man has worked for the past 2 years is insane. And upon that, the burden of being the leader of a group with 23 members??? Can y'all even imagine the amount of weight on Taeyong's shoulders???

And yes, the injuries he has constantly sustained for over 4 years now. We have seen various footages of him having neck braces, holding his waist and limping. He has also talked about the continuous back pain or how he was sick for 3 days after shooting a MV. SM had known exactly the extent of his injuries and still overworked him to the bone. Now his waist disc injury has relapsed and we still dont have a statement on his health or time of recovery on ANY of the SM Official Accounts. Not one word. We had to find out through a platform that's barely used and most non-twitteratti NCTzens didn't know about this whole ordeal until after the concert began.

What boils my blood is that SM knew about the relapsed injury way before, gave the boys enough time to practice Taeyong's part, but announced the concert by advertising Taeyong all over it, last Monday. And they literally only made the announcement after the concert ticket cancelation period was over. F*cking money whores! F*ck SM!!!!

The worst part of it all are the NShittyzens. Most of you didn't care about the fact that SM not only neglected the leader's health but also scammed Taeyong's fans. When TyongFs began to get refunds for the concert, some of you accused them and started dictating what they should do with their own money, pulling sh*t like- 'Taeyong as a leader, wants his group to do well. Now he would be sad knowing that fans dont care about the group cuz y'all are getting your refunds'. Really? Cuz most y'all who said this watched the concert illegally, makes it even more funny to me. And its none of you're business, how anyone else spends their money. And if you think Taeyong cares about SM losing money, then you're just stupid. If it's anyone in the whole group who'd say 'F*ck Capitalism!', it's Taeyong. So STFU!

Also, when TyongFs started demanding an official statement from SM about Taeyong, some of y'all went- "You're just a fan. Y'all dont have any right to cross the boundaries of Idol-Fan relationship and ask for personal stuff. Other artist fans didn't get any official statement, so why should you?'. We didnt ask for his f*cking medical records. We just want a statement from SM's official accounts about his health and his time of recovery. That's it. SM has refused to acknowledge the injuries of other artists before, doesn't mean that this pattern has to continue. And as fans, we are entitled to know about the artist, cuz WE CARE...! Cuz a waist disc injury relapsing aint a small thing. The amount of pain that Taeyong is probably enduring right now.... We dont even know the extent of it. We dont know how long he needs to recover or even how long SM will give him to rest. We don't know anything and we are scared. So just wanting a statement about it, isnt 'crossing the boundaries' as you put it. So again, STFU!

Y'all don't care about Taeyong, fine. The least you can do is respect him and not discredit his hardwork. After everything he has done and continues to do for NCT, y'all keep going with the 'Taeyong is the villain' narrative. He isn't stealing your faves lines or screentime. He isn't pushing them back to 'shine more'. He isnt the bad person you think he is. Y'all rejoicing now that he is injured, happy that your faves got to take up Taeyong's part or just hateful saying your fave was better than Taeyong.... It just ain't it.

No other group leader gets the kinda hate Taeyong does, even though he does 5 times the work for the group than any other leader. Yes, Taeyong has multiple positions the group, all deserved. Yes, he is a very charismatic and an amazing performer on the stage, that lures new fans in. Not his fault that he grabs everyone's attention. Yes, he is very talented in so many aspects. But that doesn't mean you get tobblame you're faves mistreatment on him, cuz he himself is being mistreated by SM. So don't come at me with you're 'SM's golden boy' bs! I will taze your ass and watch supernanny as you crawl under the carpet!

Maybe you're right about how you're faves dont get to shine enough when they're on the same stage as Taeyong, cuz his charisma and aura is very magnetic, you can't help but watch him and him only. I thought only TyongFs have this kinda tunnel vision but apparently, all of you have it as well....

Here's the thing. You don't like it when Taeyong gets praised all the time, whether its his dance or rap or anything at all. Cuz you don't like Taeyong. So why are you even focused on him and TyongFs. If I don't like anything, i simply ignore it. So instead of focusing on Taeyong, focus on hyping up your fave (again, by not dragging Taeyong, not even subtly). It ain't hard, trust me.

At least have the human decency to not rejoice over the fact that he is injured. The sh*t i see online everyday, some of y'all have totally lost it.

And lastly, no one can eat up Taeyong. No one can do his part better than him. Hell, no one can even come close to doing what he does. So get that delusion outta your heads. Its embarrassing.

[tiredassmage]

A, S, T, O, R

My friend thinks she is funny.

And she is correct. Because I snorted when I got this.

Anyway, @fatewalker-phoenix 500 years later, its time to actually answer this aknsdlkadnfasdf. She also claims she didn't specify who these were for but she KNOWS I have too many pretty boys to do all of this is one post. I think someone would kill me. Probably tumblr with the load of how much words in one post that'd be.

ANYWAY, this was from like, a month+ ago?? I'm surprised I even found the original ask list with how great tumblr's tag search system is at times, but here it is for reference! And if y'all would like to see any more, lol.

A - Advocate - How do they show their support for others? Are there any causes that they publicly support? Why?

Astor does his best to be there for friends, companions, etc. in... whatever capacity they require that he can fulfill - whether that be just someone to listen while they talk through things or that person you call at 2 am because you blew a tire and you need a ride.

I also consider him, in general, to be a somewhat cuddly person, so his modes of support often tend to be physical contact - from simple hand holding to hugs, if you're comfortable with them. I'm weaksauce for hugs and Astor gets to deal with a lot of what I give him, so that's another lil thing we share. Love hugs. He also tends to be pretty decent at pep talks - knowing what someone needs to hear and, more often than not, usually be able to speak from the heart on the matter.

Don't mistake that as he'll lie - because that's not it, but he spends a lot of time looking for and believing in the best of people, especially those he cares for or admires, so he remembers those qualities and can be good at bringing up what matters when its important as a little extra nudge of encouragement.

Being a Scion and Warrior of Light, I admittedly haven't spent a lot of time delving into what little things he might personally advocate for, since the WoL ends up in... quite a bit just as is, lol. But one cause that was close to home for him was peace following the Dragonsong War and Ishgard's reformation. He grew up in the Dravanian Hinterlands not too terribly far from Tailfeather, and Anyx Trine was always quite a sight over the trees. He really took to the dragons there, and, on the matter of Ishgard's changes, it was just good to see people make that choice and have hope and faith that they could manage that path. Particularly in his AU verse, of course, as one of Ysayle's closest followers - in that series of events, Astor actually remained with the dragons of Anyx Trine for a time after the close of Heavensward to better facilitate the budding relations before finally joining the Scions to, hopefully, seek out a new purpose and something of his own to believe in after losing Ysayle.

S - Seeker - How do they go in search of new information? Do they accept ideas on faith or do they need to test out information for themselves?

Astor tends to be pretty trusting - he's got faith in human decency, for the most part. If he doesn't know something, they've built a pretty good network around the Scions to find things out just by asking the right people. Unless he comes across something that implies maybe he should reconsider or there's more to the story than meets the eye, he's generally content to accept what he does learn.

Failing asking around, he isn't opposed to doing his own reading on the subject and, in more practical or hands-on things, try it out a few times to check his understanding.

T - Teacher - How often do they have to teach others? How do they go about it? How do they learn best? Do they dive in first and reflect later or study the theory of something new before putting it into practice?

He does generally enjoy working with others and admittedly has a not-so-secret soft spot for taking on something of a mentor or fatherly role. He just kind of... does that. He's the character that spontaneously adopts the younger member of the party. "I'm adopting a child. It's you, sign here."

Astor tries to explain and show because I think its how he learns best, too. An explanation, maybe a showing of the how, and a chance to try himself and then practice. Also by making connections or comparisons. He is someone who tries to make sure he has a grasp of the basics of something before diving into something - asks questions before the leap kind of thing.

O - Organiser - How organised are they? Do they have any unusual organisation systems? What would cause them to be uncharacteristically (dis-)organised?

Generally speaking, he's alright. I would not say he has everything labeled nor would I say his desk is completely neat and orderly, but he knows - most of the time - where things are when he leaves them. It's not exactly to my extent of just dropping things in place and knowing I left them there in my disorganized organized chaos, lmao, but.

He tries to be at least somewhat neat and kind of clean. Keep relevant things together. Put tools or utensils away when you're finished. Nothing that I'd say is unusual.

Stress, unsurprisingly, can make him a bit more careless. Or even when he gets really deep into researching something or just invested in reading into something or a certain subject. He can easily fill his desk with a lot of items and materials and that can look chaotic - and sometimes be a bit chaotic. While he may have everything he need, he can just kind of... bring it over and put it down and just... get to work. Which can leave some things scattered about in a less organized manner than a simple step by step process.

R - Rebel - Do they follow rules, bend or break them? Do they find rebelliousness in others attractive?

I have absolutely made a few jokes about Astor being a goody-two-shoes in his time and, yes, for the most part, he's generally alright to stay within set parameters - so long as he believes in them and they're beneficial for most or all parties. That being said, Astor can also be incredibly, incredibly bullheaded. To both ends - both in following set rules or expectations, or in... bending them. Or just straight up telling them that they're wrong.

He could balk at something like trying to go around an established chain of command, for example, not wanting to get anyone in trouble. But he also won't settle for things that he considers unfair. For example, though practiced and rather gifted in White Magic, Astor does not exactly shy away from aiding those despite whatever archaic permission may or may not have been granted to him by the elementals. He is, in all sense of the words, a healer main through and through to the heart, and he will not sit by and let someone suffer when he has the power to aide or alleviate even a fraction of that suffering. That is never the right thing to do.

That being said, he's a lot more bold about it when its only him he's risking. He's a selfless bastard to a worrying fault and he doesn't like to wager with other peoples' lives or safety.

And... generally speaking, Astor has... a small distaste for the rebellious for the sake of rebellion type. While there are certainly some rules he may agree were made to be broken or bent, he'd have a hard time with anyone who acted in a selfish manner.

[palaugranetes]

🔵BLAUGRANETS🔴

22 OCTOBER 2020

Riqui: Well I guess there is no other choice than doing this..

Pedri: Do what?

Riqui Added Arnau

Riqui: Well we have another one here. At this rate, we might as well just include the whole squad. BUT Welcome to this adult free mess bro!

Iñaki: 💙❤💙❤💙❤

Carlitos: Benvingut nanu!

Ronald: MANITO!!!!

Ronald: Look at you using those braincells @Riqui

Riqui: Nothing new

Ansu: BRO!!!! @Arnau 💙❤

Arnau: What even is this?

Frenkie: Adult Free Space.

Frenkie: WELCOME!! ❤💙

Arnau: Why is this even?

Francisco: Well I really am not quite sure of that yet.. But welcome!!!

Carlitos: This exists because we are sick and tired of the grown-ups.

Arnau: Who are the grown-ups? Aren't we all technically grown-ups?

Arnau: Well beside Ansu and Pedri.

Ansu: BOY DO NOT.

JC: 😂😂😂😂😂

Dembz: 😂😂😂😂😂

Ansu: 😒😒😒

JC:"Dembz: 😂😂😂😂😂"

Dembz: 🤜🏿

Ansu: I hate both of you so much.

Frenkie: It's only a week.. Just hang in there🤭🤭

Ansu: 😒😒

Pedri: 🙄🙄🙄

23 OCTOBER 2020

Carlitos: Anyways.. What I meant is that we are sick and tired of the ones in charge, their incompetence and their stupidity.

Riqui: Here here 🍻

Ronald: Thought popcorn was your TM

Riqui: 🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿���🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿

Riqui: Happy Now?

Ronald: Elated!

Arnau: Ahhh I get it now. I see your point.

Arnau: So how long has this been going on?

Pedri: Like a month or so

Francisco: We still don't know what is happening here most of the times

Sergiño: Hey dude!! Another newbie here!! Welcome @Arnau

Arnau: 🤗🤗🤗

Ansu: What we do know is that El Clasico is tomorrow and I am about to jump out of my skin!

Riqui: I mean...

Carlitos: What do you guys think?

JC: Well what version of FCB is going to show up.. It depends on that.

Arnau: I really cannot sit through another Getafe type match... there aren't enough hugs in the world.

Iñaki: I feel ya bro.. pure torture.

Ronald: Look we tried..

Riqui: No Ronald.. You did.

Carlitos: And now that Jordi is back .. Y'all need to try harder.

Carlitos: I mean I love the guy but he needs to remember how to football.

Riqui: You say y'all as if any of us not named Frenkie Ansu and Sergiño is going to start.. Don't drag all of us into that mess..

Ansu: 🙄🙄

Carlitos: Oh no no Nanu I am happy for you.

Riqui: We'd be dead were it not for you kiddo.

Sergiño: I am just glad I'll be back to the right flank tbh

Sergiño: Like I'll play wherever I'm asked but...

Pedri: Exactly.. Imagine me playing on the left.. I'll do it sure of course, I'll try my best but it is not my favorite.

Francisco: Well I think it's natural.

Riqui: Ever since Antoine spoke he has been benched 🤭

Carlitos: Are we sure that is the only reason?

Riqui: Jeez

Dembz: 😐😐😐😐

Carlitos: Sorry.. But I only say this because I know what he can do..

Dembz: I guess we are all rusty...

Riqui: I wouldn't know.. I've played all of 10 minutes..

Carlitos: 🙄

JC: Well y'all better not make me watch for nothing.

Riqui: Again.. Can't help you there bro.

JC: WHOEVER IT IS. DO NOT.

Riqui: Sometimes I wish Puyi is here just to like make them focus.

Carlitos: Remember when he yelled at Geri? 😂😂

Riqui: Which time 😂😂

Carlitos: All of them 😂

Ansu: OMG GUYS!!

Ansu: We should ask for his help.

Francisco: To come and make 'us' focus??

Pedri: It doesn't work that way dude.

Ansu: NO! With Geri

JC: I'm listening

Dembz: Are we really going to go ask for help from Carles Puyol?! Ansumane are you nuts!?

Ansu: GOT ANY BETTER IDEAS OUSMANE!?

Dembz: No..

Dembz: And stop yelling @Iñaki is probably asleep.

Frenkie: We all should be ...

Ansu: BUT my Puyi idea.

Ronald: Can wait till after El Clasico.

Ronald: Go to sleep now

Ansu: 😒

24 OCTOBER 2020

JC: 4 OUT OF 11!!!

JC: Oh for fuck sake😒

JC: ANSU YOU BRILLIANT GENIUS I COULD KISS YOU!!!

..........

JC: I AM GOING TO KICK HIM! PHIL WHAT!!!!?!?!?!?!?!

JC: What the fuck was that shit....

JC: But it wasn't...

JC: I give up.. Screw this..

...........

Arnau: This blows.

Iñaki: Once again.. pure torture.

Arnau: No but we were doing actually okay..

Iñaki: I mean.. relatively so-so.. we could have had it...

Arnau: What even was that 2nd ..

Iñaki: Bro.. Let it go..

Arnau: 🤦🏼‍♂️🤦🏼‍♂️

Iñaki: 😐

Ansu: I hate us so much.

Pedri: I should not have said anything the other day..

Pedri: I jinxed myself.

Francisco: That was horrible

Sergiño: Truly awful

Riqui: I am going to keep my comments to myself.

Riqui: Because if I speak, I will get in trouble.

Carlitos: Okay José.

Riqui: HOW DARE YOU.

Carlitos: It was a José move.

Ansu: I just... WHY TAKE ME OUT SO EARLY!

Dembz: A Mess.

Frenkie: So we are just going to get a penalty every time we breathe next to a player!?

JC: BS. Just that.. BS.

Ansu: Siempre igual.

Frenkie: I hate this.

Riqui: We all do.

25 OCTOBER 2020

Ronald: On the bright side..

Riqui: There is not one bright side in this

Ronald: There is.

Ronald: The fact that it's over.

Riqui: Okay one bright side to this. And now we have Juventus next.

Riqui: Without Gerard

Riqui: Which means he will have time...

Riqui: Which means we are screwed.

Carlitos: I would like to go back to the match please.

Riqui: So I was right.. There is no bright side.

Dembz: Dammit.

Riqui: Good night.

Pedri: Night!

JC: See ya later

Carlitos: Nanit!

Sergiño: ✌🏽

26 OCTOBER 2020

Frenkie: They did not just say that.. 🤦🏼‍♂️

Frenkie: As if we needed more backlash...

Carlitos: WHY WOULD THEY EVEN SPEAK!??

Carlitos: WHEN HAS THAT EVER HELPED ANYONE?!

Riqui: Just leave already for the love of everything good...

Riqui: We are a meme Club I swear...

Riqui: When has complaining ever benefited us ever?!

Carlitos: As if they don't know

Ansu: Did he really say that or did I hallucinate it!?

Riqui: They did kiddo

Carlitos: They did kiddo.

JC: Yikes

Francisco: What is the point?

Arnau: What is the point of their existence really

Iñaki: They have so many problems coming their way, the guys say they are taking action against them

Arnau: Well they should have let them finish the season and not just send them off like that.. They deserved to play the play-offs.

Iñaki: Don't remind me.

Arnau: Can the president just issue an arrest warrant against them already?!

Riqui: I wish

Carlitos: THE AUDACITY OF THEM TRYING TO POSTPONE THE REFERENDUM. THE AUDACITY.

Riqui: I hope they end up in Jail. Or like exiled.. whichever can happen quicker..

Ansu: We cannot have one day of peace in this place.

Riqui: How else will the time pass..

Ansu: I rather not have it pass in stress.

Carlitos: Well.. tough.

Riqui: And another one tomorrow.

Riqui: AND FOR WHAT... JUST LEAVE

Sergiño: I am having such a dèjà-vu..

Riqui: About?

Sergiño: Tr*mp..

Riqui: Well.. Kinda.. sorta..

Riqui: Like.. take away the mania and psychopathic behavior and total lack of human empathy and decency... yeah it could be him

Sergiño: I meant the desperate need for him to just leave.

Riqui: Oh well yes that... spot on.

Carlitos: we have to wait more I guess.... But now Juve.

Frenkie: Exactly. Juve.

Ansu: Ronald's big moment. Hope he doesn't screw it up.

Ronald: Appreciate the vote of confidence.. really. So sweet.

Ansu: Anytime broski Anytime.

Pedri: Did you really just say broski?

Ansu: And what about it?

Pedri: Nothing..

Ansu: Mhm...

27 OCTOBER 2020

JC: Another meeting today?

Riqui: Yep

JC: Evening?

Riqui: Yep

JC: You think he will?

Riqui: Who the hell knows.. He might be coming out to announce a new sponsor for all I know

Carlitos: I hear he will

Ansu: Will he though?

Carlitos: Well I'm not his babysitter but I hope so.

Ansu: We shall see.

Frenkie: Ready to take off to Torino?

Pedri: YES!!

Francisco: Cannot wait tbh

Francisco: I saw Gerard today and he was being very suspicious.

Riqui: I do not need this now

Sergiño: I hung out with him during training this morning.. He seemed normal

Dembz: So what is the truth...

Ronald: All I know is he has time now.

Ronald: And I feel sorry for you guys..

Ronald: Not you @Riqui 💙 and Sergi would agree

Riqui: 😒 I hate you 💙

...............

Arnau: HOLY CRAP HE DID IT!!!

Arnau: WE ARE FREE!!!!!!

Carlitos: I cannot believe it. Someone slap me.

Carlitos: I DID NOT MEAN IT LITERALLY RONALD!

Ronald: You asked.

Riqui: I JUST... I WOULD LIKE TO SAY....

Riqui: 🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉

Carlitos: WAIT A FUCKING MINUTE! WHAT DO YOU MEAN A EUROPEAN SUPER LEAGUE.. BRO!!

Ansu: Like I said.. We cannot have not 1 moment of peace.

Riqui: Is he really playing a victim?!

Carlitos: Great... more games for us not to play😒

Ansu: But things are changing.. so

Frenkie: Oh wow.. oh wow.. OH WOW

Francisco: What even is the point of a Super league?!

Francisco: It's like the Nations' League.. What is the point of that

Pedri: Money.

Pedri: 🤷🏻‍♂️

Francisco: Fair point.

Iñaki: Isn't everything?

Francisco: Yep.

Dembz: So now what guys?...

Riqui: Now we are free. We wait for the new President.

Riqui: And maybe a new coach 🙄

Dembz: I dig that.

Pedri: How do you guys think Leo is feeling??

Ansu: I wonder what the adults gc is like right now.

Ansu: Dammit Carles when are you going to be useful!

Carlitos: RUDE MUCH

Ansu: We need to know

Riqui: 😂

Frenkie: So now that he is gone.. What are we going to complain about in this Club.

Riqui: It's us.. We always have something. But enjoy this Win bro

Frenkie: I am.

Sergiño: I hope we can enjoy more wins

Francisco: Leo must be very happy.

Riqui: I wanna post something.. but I don't know if I should.

Dembz: Do it subtly.

Arnau: Have you met him? He doesn't know subtlety.

Riqui: I brought you here to back me up dude not join them😒

[impashableimagines]

What the FUCK Arcana Fandom?

Hi everyone. I'm sorry to derail from imagines again so soon, and after only posting one yesterday, but I think there's an obvious issue in the fandom right now that needs to be addressed.

So I give you this: a plea to the fandom from a very tired 23 year old disabled bi lady who just wants to enjoy her fandom again in peace. Here we go.

Many of the members of this fandom are grown adults, but don't forget, many of them are also minors. I've seen some members as young as 14, and there may be even younger fans in the fandom here. Many of us have been on the same discord servers and have been friends for months, if not longer, and yet now we stand divided, picking sides in a situation most of us weren't around to bear witness to, with very little to no evidence beyond hearsay. We should be taking care of each other and trying to repair our fandom, not infighting and starting a goddamn fandom war.

There's been so much drama going on that I don't even know 100% of it, and after talking about it with a lot of people, I doubt anyone else in the fandom does either, even those who are at the center of it all. But this isn't about the content of that drama, or about who's right or wrong. That can wait.

This is about the anonymous hate messages being sent, and even the public, open hate. I don't know who's sending it anonymously, but at this point, I doubt it's people from either immediate side who are invested in the argument, but rather people just trying to stir up some more shit when they see callout posts or retaliation-callout posts. The people sending it publicly are also causing a problem, which also needs to be addressed, because what the fuck guys??

But this "war" of y'all's? It needs to stop. Those of us who are adults should be setting a better example for the younger fans and having civil discourse, being open and having real honest conversations, taking honest looks at ourselves when we're called out and figuring out why, correcting ourselves and doing better in the future, instead of starting wars, deliberately misgendering people we feel wronged by, and getting defensive when we feel attacked because we think we did nothing wrong. That's privilege and false caring masquerading as allyship. If you aren't correcting yourself when you misgender someone, even someone you don't like, that's not being a good ally. That's deliberate transphobic behavior, and you need to be aware of that fact when you make that choice. You can't call yourself an ally and then do something like that against a member of the community you claim to be an ally (or even are a member) of. Be kind to each other. Treat each other how you want to be treated. Follow the Golden Rule of life.

I love y'all, every single one of you, on both sides of this war, and those like me who are caught in between with friends on both sides, but we need to work on self reflection, get rid of this "aggressively violent call-out and equally aggressively violent retaliation" culture, and start being kinder to each other, or our fandom is going to devolve into being just as much of a miserable cesspool as the major fandoms, just full of anger and hate and violent words that destroys us all from within and makes us hate our own fandom, and ultimately the game it began with.

I've heard about people sending anonymous hate messages to Caspin, saying God knows what. I wasn't awake to see what was said to Caspin, and tbh, I don't particularly want to know what was said, because if it drove them to delete their blog, it had to have been fucking bad. I was so furious when I found out Caspin had been essentially run off of their blog by anonymous fuckwads throwing hate at them, and I'm still hurt by that fact.

I've also heard about people sending anonymous hate to a 15 year old fandom member who was involved in the callout situation, calling them a cunt and a r*tard, amongst other things. What the fuck, y'all. They're fucking 15. How fucking dare you.

I don't give a shit if they called your fave blogger out for saying something you don't think they deserved to be called out for. Fuck, I don't care if they're the goddamn personification of the devil himself. Calling a 15 year old a cunt and following it up with calling her a fucking ableist slur? What kind of person do you want to be: a good ally to the disabled community, or someone who uses the word r*tard as an insult against a 15 year old child? You can't do both, y'all. (I'm sorry, as a disabled person, I get fired up about this. It's fucking ridiculous I'm having to explain this to y'all.) Again, I'll repeat myself. Treat others how you'd like to be treated.

Even worse, though, I've heard about people making deliberate threats against the people involved in the callout situation, talking about wanting to harm those people or even kill them, which, in case y'all weren't aware, is a fucking felony, and written or verbal threats, even and especially those posted online, can be pursued in court, especially repetitive ones. A third time: Treat others how you want to be treated.

Grow the fuck up, Arcana fandom. This is basic human decency. Yet again: treat others how you want to be treated. It's getting repetitive, I know, but apparently a lot of people need to hear it.

I've talked with people on both sides of this so-called war, including @lesbianarcana, who has been alleged as the source of much of the drama going on. I've formed my own opinions about this issue on a middle ground using information from both sides, and if you care enough to ask me about my thoughts, I'll happily share them in a DM or in a post addressing that at a later time. But that's not what this post is about, so I'll refrain from going any deeper into it right now.

Please, Arcana fandom. We can be better. We have been better. Can we please just all try to do better? Otherwise, I'm afraid we'll lose hold of the fandom I know we all love dearly, and many of our beloved members will ultimately leave the fandom because of the drama. I don't want that for this fandom. I love it too much to watch it go to hell like this.

[jackednephi]

I feel posting what all I sent my mother on Skype is worth copying and pasting into its own post here. I combined messages into more coherent paragraphs for easier reading but I'm on mobile with no cut so heads up for the long post

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https://captaintoughfluff.tumblr.com/post/185744166784/hey-so-uhhh-heres-an-important-update-on-whats

Read this. Do not look away. Read it to dad, to Daniel, and to Heather. Share it with everyone you know. You voted for this. All of you voted to do this to human beings. He told you he was going to make this happen and you voted for him anyway. May God have mercy on you for these poor souls surely won't

I'm not saying this to be unkind but for you to witness the harm you yourself have done with your vote. You allowed a Nazi regime to rise because you knew you would be protected by your whiteness. You did not give a thought to people of color, the disabled, queer individuals. Because it was more important to "make America great again" than it was to have an ounce of decency

You can be sorry and feel terrible all you like but your privileged tears mean nothing in the light of your actions. Impact will always mean more than intent and you and others like you have done this. You and dad taught me to think critically, to read between the lines, to research and compare instead of being taken in by false promises or a glittery circus. And you have failed to uphold that which you taught me

Do not look away. Do not flinch. This is what you said you wanted when you cast your vote. You must vote in the primaries and come the general election, if you vote for him again, I will know exactly what kind of people you are at your heart. The kind of people you raised me to be better than. And there will be no room in my life for Nazi sympathizers so you and dad can see yourselves out if it comes to that

I'm going to hold you accountable for the egregious wrong you have committed because somebody has to. You need to see the harm you've done. And you need desperately to repent and hope the lord has forgiveness to spare and pray these thousands of people do not condemn you at the judgement seat. You are responsible for this. You and so many others

You once told me when I was a child that I must have done something great before this existence. I was a powerful spirit to be pregnant with and that I was born in the covenant and had great spiritual powers and whatnot. If that is true then I can tell you exactly what I did. I condemned Satan for all he was worth to you, to dad, to our whole family. I stood up and told you to turn back. That all he had to offer was pretty lies that would only hurt you

That is what I'm doing now. It made me unpopular with [my older brother] when I called him on his racist behavior in 2014 and he hasn't spoken with me since. I did it with [aunt] when she was being transphobic and she has since disowned me as well. I did it with [my younger brother] when he told me I was a dirty sin just for existing. [Eldest brother] and [older sister] may have led armies. I don't know. But I helped convince my family to choose the right and accept mortal existence. I helped you all realize that Lucifer's path was full of pain. I failed to help you realize that Trump was full of pain for people who aren't us but you are also responsible for your own actions. It is my duty to stand for what is right even if it isn't popular. Even if my own family condemns and disowns me. I helped get you all here and I'm trying to get you all back. And maybe I failed to do that

So I will continue to condemn what is wrong with everything I have. And I will continue to use my knowledge that I have gained looking into social issues and current events to show you what is objectively right and good. It's what I did before because it's what I'm doing now and we do not fundamentally change with mortal existence. Our core is still the same. I am as bright and beautiful as I ever was, as good and righteous and strong as I have ever been. I will not allow myself to walk a path of hatred, of pain, of wrong and I cannot in good faith allow my family to do that either. That's why I rail so hard, send you such painful truths. Because you and dad, grandma and [uncle] are all I have left

No one else talks to me. No one else reaches out. I have to help who I can help and hope that who I help can help everyone else. If I achieve nothing else in this life, to bring you back because I could help you understand and choose the right and be better people, that's something powerful. Maybe I can't save everyone this time but at least I'll have saved you. At least I'll have helped the people who taught me to think critically, stand for the defenseless and weaker than myself, to be good and just and bright, and, above all, to be the kindest person I can be

I say all of this not for an apology or explanation. I know why you voted the way you did in your own words. I also know what other factors influenced you. It's not me you owe an apology to at all or an explanation. But rather than apologies, I need you to BE better. I need you to do the work of unlearning racism, classism, ableism, xenophobia, queerphobia, and other forms of bigotry. It isn't going to happen overnight. It's taken me slow progress over several years and I'm far from perfect. I make mistakes all the time. The key is learning from those mistakes, dusting myself off, and continuing to press forward and educate myself. I apologize to those I hurt and then I work to not make those mistakes ever again

Just the other day, I was drawing something for [redacted] and accidentally did something racist with the eyes I was drawing. So I fixed it. I said something antisemitic about Anne Frank I didn't even know it was an issue. Someone brought it to my attention, I educated myself, then I apologized and deleted the offending comment and have done my best to educate others on why what I said was antisemitic to other people making the same mistake I did. The key is continually improving myself

I know this is a wall of text but you need to be told all of these things. You need to see wherein you've made an egregious error and then improve yourself. You need to use your voice of privilege to call others on bigotry. If you do not correct wrong where you see it, if you stay silent or do nothing, you are siding with that wrong. So educate yourself so you never stand with wrong, so you minimize your hurt on other people. Just like I'm doing. I'm using my knowledge to educate to the best of my ability so someone else can then do that. Good and bad are both like snowballs at the top of a mountain. Get them rolling and either can be an avalanche. The key is making sure that we ourselves are a good snowball

I love you or I would never say any of this. I don't go to all this effort for people I don't love and cherish

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I just feel like I said some really powerful, really strong things and had some good metaphors like the snowball I wanted to share. I just felt like I was really eloquent spur of the moment this morning after I read that tumblr post I sent before anything else. I know my words can be harsh but I also feel like I did this much more kindly than I have in the past and I'm overall really proud of myself here

Feel free to reblog this by the way or to interact. Sometimes I tell y'all not to but this is free game

[yharnamsnewslug]

I also wanna add that there's often a lot of bodyshaming that queer people do to fat men that is... disgusting. Balding, neck-beards, acne, sweat... these are all natural things, but the moment a fat man has it, he's disgusting and probably a p*do and yeah, no, he's probably a misogynist and an incel, he couldn't possibly be a human being who just has these things because that's how the fucking human body works.

Trans men see this, you know? All men see this, but I want to talk especially about trans men because you all are demonizing testosterone, and I've heard (and felt) of trans men saying how they'll never go on T because they're going to be ugly. Y'all are fine with fat people only if we overperform gender norms - fat women have to be little pin-up poster girls and fat men have to be bears with perfect hair and perfect bears that can also lift.

Fat people, FAT MEN deserve better than anything any of you could ever think to give us. Fat gay men deserve love and acceptance and the same decency you give everyone else.

I'm not "adorable" for being fat. I'm not "a cute short king" or "a bundle of joy". I'm a man. I'm a grown fucking adult. And I've a neckbeard, acne, I'm gay and I fucking love men. I have body hair. I have a low voice. I snort when I laugh and I take up space when I sit down because I AM A FAT MAN.

Stop making fun of men's looks. Stop making fun of fat gay men. Stop making fun of gay men.

Stop. Making. Fun. Of. Men's. Looks.

Fatphobia in the gay men's community is uh. Rampant and i don't think people really address it that much because thin people don't think it's an issue and fat people are never taken seriously (often because they're fat!!).

Y'all will call any skinny buff man with a bit of chest hair a bear, then label the actual bears as "creepy" or "ugly" if you don't just flat-out ignore their existence.

Y'all will be like "i love men's tits" until a fat man exists and suddenly it's all "we can't promote such an unhealthy lifestyle, because being unhealthy is bad" pretending to care about us while simultaneously calling us undesirable and linking moral weight to physical weight.

Apparently it's completely impossible to show support for fat gay men without being fetishistic about it and i'm fucking sick of it. Do better. i'm not holding you at gunpoint telling you to find every fat man hot. i'm asking you sternly to treat us like human beings. It's not that hard.

[sansfangirl4life-blog]

Souls of Glass Chapter 4

And the smut begins~! Do enjoy XD It gets better I promise...well maybe. I’m not the most confidant in those scenes lol

Lost is mine and Undervirus belongs to @jeyawue

Chapter 4

"And over there is the mall!" Frisk pointed, holding both Lost and Xans's hands as they crossed the street. She watched as Lost's gaze followed the skyline, his eyes alight with awe. "Do you like it?"

"I....haven't really been in a city before." Lost mumbled.

"So yer a country hick?" Lost glared as Xans grinned. "Good. I like boys that know how to play 'dirty'."

"Xans, c'mon! You promised no dirty jokes!"

"Fine kiddo, I'll keep it 'clean.'." Lost rolled his eyes and Frisk giggled a little at his jokes. " Ya really need ta loosen up a bit Lost."

"No thanks." Frisk sighed and rubbed her forehead as she grabbed Lost's hand. 

"Wha-"

"This way! There's a clothes store I want to take you both to!" Lost looked at Xans helplessly as he was dragged and Xans just gave him a big, toothy grin. 

"Oh no you don't Xans!" Xans blinked as Frisk stalked back to him, dragging Lost along like a ragdoll and grabbing his hood.

"H-Hey now! Easy Frisk!" Xans complained as he fell in line next to the other albino, both at the mercy of the young child. "Aww c'mon~ Frisk! I like mah clothes!"

"Well you need new ones."

"But-"

"No complaining Xans."

"Listen, I-"

"Same for you Lost!" Both boys groaned as Frisk dragged them into the store.

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"Are you really sure these will look good?" Lost asked from behind a dressing room door. Xans was in a door next door, humming to himself.

"Absolutely!" Frisk giggled, sitting outside on a bench. "Trust me!"

"But...Xans is the one who picked some of these clothes..."

"Well, trust me anyways!" Lost sighed and opened the door slightly, peeking his head out. "C'mon Lost! I wanna see!"

"Alright..." Lost walked out, glancing around. He stepped out slowly and shut the door, standing there with his hands shoved into pockets. "S-So?" He was wearing long, tight blue denim jeans, small tears here and there. On his feet were a pair of black slip on shoes, his white socks just barely visible. He had a baggy red and black striped t-shirt on underneath a leather, button up jacket. 

"Uhh....I still don't really think this suits me..."

"I think you look good Lost." Frisk smiled and circled him a bit. "Everything fits you just right!"

"Mmmmhmmm~....not arguin' there." Lost turned and blinked as he stared at the albino across from him. Xans stood there with a black coat, leather straps and buckles undone to show his black tank top underneath it. There were holes in the shoulders, showing off his pale skin as he shrugged. He had long, baggy black pants on with chains looping behind them and silver studs dotting the seams. He had on his black sandals and he crossed his arms, leaning against the wall. "Yer starin' Lost. See somethin' ya like?"

"I-I...I-"

"Wow, speechless too? Must be doin' somethin' right...." Xans licked his lips and he grinned as Lost turned away, his face red. Embarrassment? Or perhaps.... He stopped as he caught a brief whiff of something sweet and dark and his grin widened. Ah...I see. Tsk tsk tsk....

"So you both like your clothes? Get changed while I go pay for them! I'll wait in the food court!" Lost nodded and turned around, heading back into the room. He took the clothes off and he handed them to Frisk after changing, smiling.

"Thank you Frisk." He said. Xans walked out and handed her his new clothes as well. The moment Frisk left, Lost sighed softly. "I feel bad making her-" A hand suddenly wrapped around his throat and he felt himself being slammed into the room he had come out of. "Wh-X-Xans!"

"Heh....ya think I didn't smell that?" Lost's eyes widened as Xans's tail locked the door, then moved to hold his wrists above him. "I didn't know black and silver could turn ya on..."

"I-I don't know what you're talking about. Unhand me!" Lost struggled, but the tail tightened around his wrists and her growled, his lips curling into a sneer and showing off his fangs. "I swear Xans, I'll-"

"Aww, c'mon Lost~...." Xans moved in close, his tongue licking his lips and moving close to Lost's own lips. "I told ya....ya need to loosen up a bit..." Xans shifted closer, his tongue flicking out and licking his ear. Lost's breath hitched and he glared at the young man, eyes glowing. "Sensitive eh?"

"Let me go Xans...." Lost growled and Xans felt his spine shiver.

"Ooooooh~ that one felt nice..." Xans chuckled. His hands trailed down to Lost's basketball shorts and he palmed the front of it with a grin. "Yer hard too....tsk tsk. Do ya have any shame at all?"

"Ngh! L-Le-ah?!" Xans squeezed him and he jerked suddenly. "Wh-What was-"

"Ya see...as humans we're a little more sensitive. We get turned on by all kinds of things." Xans explained. "Lemme show ya...." He slipped his hands slowly down Lost's pants and the teen gasped and wiggled from the gentle, teasing strokes Xans's cold fingers caused along his member. "Heh....ya see?"

"St-Stop i-ahung......" Lost writhed slightly as Xans leaned in to nibble on his neck, his hand stroking his hard on. "G-Gh....Xans....wh-why are...."

"Why am I doing this?" The slang dropped from his voice and Lost gasped as his hot breath tickled his neck. "Because I want to....and it seems your body wants to, as well." He slid Lost's pants down and knelt in front of him. He looked at Lost's half lidded eyes, watching him pant. "I remember the first time I began to feel that...." He moved closer to Lost's straining member, flicking his tongue out as pre-cum beaded at the tip. Lost let out soft, breathy moans as his wrists were released and hands tugged at Xans's hair.

"St-Sto-hngh...."

"The feeling...it was so overwhelming." He continued, tongue trailing the hot skin. "Every part of me felt like it was burning.....a sweet, scorching, seductive heat..." Hands gripped his white hair harder as his mouth inched closer. "It consumed me....devoured my very Soul." He gave Lost one more glance. "It took over....and it was bliss." He slipped his mouth around Lost's member and he grinned as he heard Lost whine and moan.  He slid on him further, his cold hand reaching up to fondle Lost's sac.  Lost gasped loudly, his limbs trembling from his overstimulated nerves.

Xans continued to suck on him, enjoying the slight, salty taste coating his tongue from Lost's pre-cum. Mmm....better than what I expected....He thought as his teeth grazed the sensitive skin, making Lost moan more.

"X-Xans.....ngh....I-I.....ungh...." Lost's face was shaded crimson as his mouth opened in closed in soft pants. Drool slid down his chin as his eyes rolled back. He felt like his entire body was on fire as Xans's sinful mouth moved up and down his shaft. "G-Gh....please....."

"Mmmh?" The hum around his member made Lost groan louder as his knees shook. Xans slid off of him slowly, saliva linking his mouth to Lost's straining member. "What do ya want?"

"G-Gh...uh....I-I.....uhn...."

Heh...he can't even talk straight....must really be outta it.... He thought and latched back onto him, hollowing his cheeks and sucking. Lost let out one more loud moan of Xans's name before cum filled his mouth. Xans swallowed it all, reveling in the taste. He licked everything up and moved away from Lost. Lost's legs buckled and Xans caught him, looking at his face.

Lost's eyes had fallen shut, his forehead covered in sweat. Passed out hmm? He smirked and helped pull Lost's pants back on. "Not a surprise...happened ta me too." He carefully lifted Lost into his arms, feeling the young man slide easily against his chest. "Yer gonna be a hell of a lotta fun...." He left the fitting room only to see a store employee staring at him. "Heh, it was on our bucket list." He walked past the poor, stunned woman with a big, toothy grin. The woman watched and just shook his head.

"It's days like these that make this job never boring...."

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"I can't believe he just fell asleep like that!" Frisk pouted as she put the clothes in the washer. "I mean, we were having fun, right?"

"Of course we were kiddo." Xans ruffled her hair playfully. Lost was still asleep, Xans having placed him on the couch. "But he hasn't exactly been human for very long."

"Funny, his sudden exhaustion seems to be fro-" Xans covered Valphys's mouth and the yellow monster struggled, glaring angrily at Xans.

"Anyways, thanks for buying those clothes Frisk." Xans said with a smile. "When Lost wakes up, I'm sure he'll thank ya too."

"Hee hee, no problem at all!" Frisk ran off, carrying Chara's doll and Xans released Valphys's mouth.

"Ya really need to learn what to say and what not ta say with a kid around doc."

"And you need to learn some decency! There is a time and place for everything Xans!" Valphys hissed at him angrily.

"Yeah, and that was the perfect place and the right time for a good bj." Valphys threw her arms in the air, exasperated. "Sides, it was kinda one sided....I need a little care myself."

"You still have an erection?!"

"What can I say? It was a gorgeous sight."

"Oh my fucking stars Xans!" Valphys snapped. "Listen. You're human now! You can't just do whatever you goddamned please!" Xans turned around, his teal eye giving off an eerie glow.

"And ya can't tell me what the fuck ta do Valphys." His voice was low and threatening. "I'll do whoever, and whatever I wan'." He brushed past her and smirked. "Now if y'all excuse me...." He walked into the bathroom and locked the door. He slid down the porcelain, tile wall and rubbed his forehead. "Fuck me....that was a rather interesting sight..." He mumbled, looking at the tent in his pants. "I'm surprised he didn't wake up with this pressing against him...."

Xans pulled his own pants and boxers down, looking at his straining member. "Heh.....his little noises of restraint were a nice change too..." He gripped the base of his member and closed his eyes. I wonder how he'd feel....compared to my skin he's warm.....soft.....smooth..... He could picture Lost's heated red and blue eyes as he stroked himself, the feeling of his fingers tugging on his white hair. Xans felt pressure building inside him, his gut coiling as he imagined Lost's hands touching his arms and chest, his soft moans still present in his mind.

He came hard into his hand, groaning as he slid against the wall and panted. Shit......I haven't come that hard....well ever. He thought with a satisfied grin. May have to do that to him more often.... He wiped himself down with toilet paper and washed his hands.  As he left, he saw Lost sitting up and talking to Vapyrus and Vundyne. As the young man turned his way, his face turned beet red and he looked away, wringing his hands anxiously. Aww, he's so bashful~....

"Xans!" Vapyrus smiled brightly at his brother as Xans sat with them on the couch, right next to Lost. "Lost was telling us about your shopping trip!"

"Oh he was, was he~?" Xans grinned and placed a hand gently on the young man's knee, making Lost jerk slightly. "I'll bet he said it was a ful'filling' experience..."

"Hah! His face is so red!" Vundyne chuckled. "What did ya do to him Xans?"

"Oh, well-" Lost covered his mouth and he cackled behind it.

"Aww I wanna know!"

"N-No Vapyrus. It uhh....wasn't exciting." Lost mumbled. The two virus's huffed as Lost uncovered his mouth and sighed. "I....just got exhausted. It's been a long two days."

"Very true! It isn't every day you see a skeleton suddenly get all...fleshy." He pointed out. Lost huffed and walked out, Xans following him.

"Heh, don't tell me yer gonna be a prude all of a sudden." Lost stopped as they stepped into the yard, his fists clenched. "What's the matter, eh?"

"Why....why did you do that?" Lost asked, his voice shaking. Xans tilted his head as the young albino looked at him, his red eye glowing slightly. "Why did you....you....."

"Suck ya off?" He chuckled. "I wanted to. Besides....ya had a rather sweet scent...yer lust was....interesting."

"Ugh, don't remind me." He rolled his eyes. "I suppose I should thank you...even if it was against my will." He admitted. "It was....odd." Xans watched Lost shift anxiously in his slippers. "But......don't do that again. Please."

"Tsk, makin' no promises there." Lost turned around to have Xans's face close to his, hands holding his arms to his side. "However.....yer welcome. As for why I did it?" He chuckled and leaned in to whisper to his ear. "I fucking felt like it." He moved away as Lost scowled at him. "Things are different here Lost.....best get used to it quickly."