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spectrumscribe · 8 years ago

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Ordinary she is not.

For the April for April monthly prompt courtesy of @tmntflashfic, I present a collection of snippets and drabble prompts for everyone’s viewing; regarding canon events and how April coped and grew with each one. Because April’s character was just too multifaceted to restrict to a single story.

May the next incarnation of TMNT utilize this amazing girl better than 2012 did.

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That’s no longer relevant.

April looks at books she hasn’t read in ages, clothes too flimsy and light for combat, and makeup and jewels she never has time to use. Most of these things she hasn’t spared a glance at in months.

Her sword and fan lay on her desk, along with her jumpsuit and armor. They’re waiting for her to finish up, and then for her to don them and escape into the night. Her friends wait for her there, and she just needs to finish cleaning out her room so she can join them.

April moves items that used to mean everything to her into a box for give-away, and closes the lid on what her younger self had imagined to be valuable.

He can’t do that to us.

“He can’t do that to us, right?” April asks, shooting a look at the four brothers as master Splinter shuts the dojo doors. With him out of the room, her frustration is free to be expressed. “I mean. More specifically, can’t do that to me. He’s not my dad. He can’t ground me, right?”

“I think he just did,” Donnie says with an awkward, apologetic smile. Leo shrugs, and maintains a similar expression; while Raph just grumbles along with Mikey.

April throws her hands up in the air, and slumps onto the lair couch morosely. “I blame all of you. I wanted to see that movie.”

“Me too,” Mikey sighs in agreement, flopping dramatically onto the couch with her.

“And yet, you were the one who let slip we were going to it,” Leo points out, sitting down with less drama than Mikey, but with an air of disappointment regardless.

“I forgot, alright? Besides, can you blame me for getting excited? The original version of Akira, playing in a theater, like, not even twenty blocks from here!”

Raph whacks Mikey’s shoulder as he and Donnie join the pile of disappointed teenagers, and Mikey whines wordlessly about the punishment.

April just sighs, and tries to remember when she agreed to having a second parent in her life.

Why did you shift the tone?

April just wanted to have a nice dinner out with an admittedly cute girl who’d helped her out with a vending machine. Not this. Because this is definitely not what she intended to happen, but someone is insisting on being what April can only describe as a flirt.

She feels her heart stutter every time Harmony looks over, or smiles, or tilts her head just right and her bangs fall out of place. And the way Harmony wears a too big jacket and makes it look as flattering as an evening gown, and the perfectly sharp eyeliner that should clash but doesn’t, is just driving April crazy.

April focuses very hard on keeping her words steady and her eyes from staring at Harmony’s lips. It’s a hard thing to do, especially once they leave the restaurant and Murakami’s slight barrier between them.

April O’Neil has a quiet sexuality crisis for about two hours, and doesn’t know what to do with it even afterwards. She never really thought about girls like that, but oh does she now. She definitely does now.

Even after Harmony turns out to be Karai, and tries to kill her, April very guiltily admits that yeah, she’s still cute. Foot clan ties and all.

I ache all over.

“Ninjutsu sucks,” April proclaims, lying on the floor of the dojo and not even caring about appearances anymore. Everything hurts and she is never moving again.

“Welcome to the club,” Mikey says in an only half mocking tone, slumped against the random tree the family has growing in here. Seriously, April doesn’t understand why or how the tree is here. But it is.

“Diligence is rewarded with… something,” Leo says, clearly trying to start a leaderly speech, but also clearly too tired to do so. “Wait I know this one, hold on.”

“Everyone stop talking, I’m trying to die in peace,” Donnie mutters belligerently from his position splayed on the floor. Raph grunts an agreement, and makes no move otherwise from his spot beside Donnie.

“Sucks,” April says with more emphasis, because when she signed up for ninja training, she did not think it would include six hour plus sessions of pure and utter agony.

Let’s wait for them.

“Can we just give up and leave them?” Mikey asks April, once the second hour rolls by.

April scans the alien market they were- not lost in, just momentarily confused by- checking again for any sight of Leo and Raph. “No, I’m pretty sure we still need them.”

Mikey makes a drawn out sound of annoyance, and flops his head backwards against the bench they’re on. “Oh my god, how hard is it to get one measly electro-converter-whatever?”

“Apparently hard enough it takes two plus hours,” April says dryly, shielding her eyes to the blinding three sun sky. Why was it always desert planets lately; she had sand in places she never wanted to.

Something catches her eye, and April turns her search towards it. Then she grimaces.

“Uh oh,” She says.

“Why the ‘uh oh’?” Mikey asks in a wary voice.

“Uh oh because it looks like the deal went bad,” April says, grimacing further as she watches the two brothers try to run through the thick crowd. Their pursuing enemies look really angry, and April isn’t eager to find out why.

Mikey doesn’t move from his slump, apparently unbothered by the turn of events. “Welp, can’t say I didn’t expect that one. Should we wait for them to escape, or help ‘em out?”

April watches the way Leo and Raph scurry through the throngs of people, Leo carrying the engine part they need for the ship. None of them aliens pursuing them have drawn weapons yet, but April doesn’t like the look of the swords on their backs.

“Let’s wait for them to escape,” April says, leaning back and pulling up her hood. They’re both tucked into their sand-resistance cloaks, and seem innocuous to the aliens passing by. Hopefully. “If they can’t shake them in five minutes, we’ll intervene.”

“Sounds like a plan,” Mikey agrees, still not bothering to even lift his head.

It wasn’t very convincing.

April grins for her aunt, and swears it’s just a self-defense club. That’s why she’s asking for money to buy new workout clothes, and why she’s been keeping such weird hours.

She conceals the guilt of having to lie about her friends, about her father, and about why she comes home with bruises and cuts not caused by training. She tells her aunt that the self-defense club is because she’s still shaken up about losing her dad, and can’t handle being unable to defend herself anymore.

It’s partially a lie, that explanation. April is past being shaken, and moved onto being angry. So very angry.

She conceals that anger too, and smiles for her aunt every time she asks about her martial arts.

April keeps things vague, and knows that it’s not as half convincing as she needs it to be.

It went to dark places.

She listens to his half mumblings and shrieking shouts and shuddering, slow breaths as he calms down, and sometimes wonders if she really saved her dad at all.

Kirby O’Neil is not the man he was, and April O’Neil isn’t the girl she was either. Neither of them are the same anymore; and hearing the pained, distressed sounds her dad makes in the dead of night, trying so hard to cope with the things he endured for her, breaks April’s heart in ways she hadn’t thought it could still break.

The sound of her father breaking down takes April along with him, because she can’t stop the vague connection of empathy she has. Her powers are still something new, and she doesn’t have enough control yet to completely shut everything out. Including the strangling, terrifying fear and despair that sometimes grips her father.

Even if she knows that he’ll recover, stand back up and smile like none of this happened at all, and go to work the next day like any other normal dad- the anxiety attacks and night terrors still drag April down. Down into visions of metallic cells and cold restraints and dark things that make her fear spike without fail, and she struggles to pull herself free each time.

We like the darkness.

April doesn’t know if she was ever afraid of the dark. Maybe as a small child she’d been, but now, she dances through it without fear.

After all, her closest friends dwell there, and she’s learned the shadows better than the light.

And as she does, she learns how to melt into it, to make it a part of her very being. Learns what shadows can hide her wholly, and how to make them cling to her like a second skin.

Her four friends, strange and otherworldly as they are, are much better at this than her. A lifetime of experience makes them masters at something April has just begun to take into herself.

It doesn’t bother her often, because she’s far too busy racing with the night wind and playing training games in the slanted dark of each street.

I was ready to go.

April glances back at the farm house, thinking about the temporary peace it’s given them all the last few months. But also, about how the basement had held secrets she wasn’t ready to learn, and how those secrets weigh on her still.

It’d been a place to hide and heal their wounds, a beat of quiet in a time of raging wars and hard losses, but it had also slowly become a place where the walls felt too tight. So tight and cramped that April had wondered if they were getting smaller by the day. The six of them all but snarling at one another some days, when cabin fever became too much and there wasn’t enough room in the world for them to feel comfortable with their lives. A sanctuary that had slowly turned prison.

“Are you ready to go?” Donnie asks, calling over from the Party Wagon. They’re all piling in, food and weapon supplies already inside and locked down for the drive. Casey honks the horn once, and the other boys shout at her as well.

April smiles, shakes her head, and starts towards them. Turning her back on all the things she doesn’t want to linger on any more than she has. “Ready when you guys are.”

We all talk about it.

Sometimes, when one or more of them hit a wall and just can’t anymore-

April, and her five closest, (only), friends will sit down in a great big pile, and just talk.

Especially after they lose the earth, and they drift through space and galaxies, someone will have a nightmare or an anxiety attack or just a bad day in general; and so they all react accordingly.

Sometimes it’s April’s turn for those. Bad moments where everything is just too much and too heavy, and she’ll just want to curl up and not be. Those moments are made so much easier, because she has five willing ears to listen to her, and she pays them the same affection.

Sometimes she talks about her dad, about the Kraang, about being something that’s neither human nor alien. And they listen, and she listens to them.

They talk about the Shredder, and what he’s done and taken. They talk about how they miss home, and how they miss things from before. Maybe they weren’t as close back then, because trauma and war ties people together tighter than anything, but they’d had less to worry about. To fear.

They talk about master Splinter, they talk about April’s father and aunt, they talk about Casey’s own father and sister, and they talk about the mutant allies they’ve made. They talk about who they count as their family.

They talk, and it makes things easier. And then they keep going, until the next time one of them needs this.

Can we kiss you?

“Can… can we kiss you?” April asks tentatively, because this is really, really weird if she’s honest with herself. Even by their standards.

Donnie blinks, eyes darting between April and Casey on his other side, and the way they’re all a little too close to be platonic. No one else is in the room, Donnie’s brothers taking their turns for a sleep cycle while the three of them keep watch of the ship.

Or. They’re supposed to be. They’re doing this instead.

“Uh…” Donnie glances between them both again, looking confused and lost. “Both of you?”

“That is the plan,” Casey confirms, and April can sense the nervousness squirming in his aura. They’ve all been dancing around this for a long time, and now, with space from the earth, lost in literal space as they try to catch up with the timeline, they can’t dance any longer.

Donnie’s eyes widen, and his lips purse in the anxious way they always do. “I. I’m not really sure how to respond to that?” His words turn into a question, as he shifts uncomfortably on the sofa between them. “I mean, um, I wouldn’t be- be upset if you did, but are you sure-?”

“Yes,” April says, and cuts Donnie off by catching him in a messy kiss. She used to take her time deciding her actions, but these days you just did or didn’t, and chances passed by in blurs. They have this moment alone, finally, and she’s going to seize it before it’s gone.

It’s probably wrong, what she and Casey are trying to make happen. But monogamy is for ordinary people, and the three of them are anything but that.

April watched an entire world die, and then went back in time to save it. She can handle a little thing like having two boyfriends, who happen to be boyfriends with each other.

When April leans away from their kiss, Donnie’s staring at her with a sort of awe that makes her insides warm pleasantly. He’s been giving her that look for so long, and now she feels she’s returning it.

Of course, Casey breaks the moment they’re having, and April can only smile in amusement as he and Donnie start something that’s both a kiss and an argument at the same time.

She winds her hand into Donnie’s, as he and Casey break apart to stare at one another like the quarreling yet affectionate idiots they are. April gives Donnie a grin as she leans across his lap, and meets Casey at the halfway point for a kiss just between them.

The look on Donnie’s face is shy but attentive, and he watches them the whole time. It makes the exchange all the more exciting.

Things get a bit blurry from there, but April finds she doesn’t mind that at all.

Can we shoot them?

“I’m just saying-”

“No, April.”

“-if we shot them, this would be over,” April says, pointing her laser gun at the captured aliens they have. “Seriously, we could just go ho- back to the ship if we shot them. Like, one blast for each of them, and I wouldn’t miss from a point blank range so it’d be a quick death-”

“April!” Leo scolds, giving her a wide eyed look. “We’re not shooting them! Jesus!”

“It’d destroy their connection with the machine!” April says, waving her gun and free hand at the giant whirling death machine they accidentally got tangled up with. How many plots for world destruction could one universe hold anyways? This was ridiculous.

“We’re waiting for Donnie and the professor, and we are not shooting people.”

April threw her hands up. “Oh my god, literally just one shot each, and then this’d all be over-”

“April!!”

“Fine! God!”

These people are ridiculous.

April can’t help the laughter that comes out of her nose, and struggles to not swallow her now burning drink down the wrong hole. Her laughter is half snorted, and she coughs as she keeps going anyways.

Leo’s embarrassed shouting is barely heard over the howling laughter of everyone else; Mikey’s cheeky, completely unrepentant smile only egging both reactions on. April’s lost the thread of conversation between them now, but the growing noise serves to bolster her laughter anyways.

She’s returned to this, after weeks of fiercely refusing to see any of them, and it feels as though she never left. They’re all here, even with the new addition of Casey to their group, sitting around a kitchen table and eating a combination of pizza and Japanese takeout. Like nothing ever drove them apart; like there wasn’t a period of heavy, furious tension at all.

April has walked out of the lair so many times, away from it and the bizarre family living here, and once swore it would be the last time.

And yet.

Here she is, warm and welcome and laughing so hard her sides are aching. Accepted back even after the things she’d screamed at them, and finding herself having well and truly forgiven her friends.

The four brothers and their father, they always seem to accept her back, bring her home, no matter what happens. That sort of unfaltering loyalty astounds and warms April, and she can’t help but think how ridiculous it is that they would give so much of it to her.

April’s laughter, shared with four and now five people who seem to stand by her no matter what, makes her feel lighter than it has in weeks, and she hopes to never fall so low again.

It’s not fair at all, is it?

April tries not to think about it too much. Dwelling on anything that makes her upset is dangerous these days, trapped in the farm house while Leo sleeps and New York burns. She knows her powers are growing, and the plate she accidentally threw across the room just yesterday - without even looking at it, let alone touching it- says all that needs to be said. If she lets her thoughts get too loud, too angry, she’s not sure what will happen.

But it’s not fair.

She’d just gotten her dad back, her life on track again, and now he’s gone and so is master Splinter. So are her aunt and every friend she has in school. All of them. Gone. Warped into mindless creatures or- or-

Or presumed dead.

April hunches her shoulders, and tries not to drown in anger and sorrow as she makes lunch. Because cracking the salad bowl in two won’t help anything, or alleviate the ever louder chant in her mind that it’s not fair, why me, why always me, it’s not fair.

But things haven’t been fair for her in a long, long time, and that knowledge gives her no comfort. Just a grim reminder of how things are, and will be for the foreseeable future.

Are you crying?

April wakes up a day later, after That Night, and doesn’t want to.

She doesn’t go back to sleep though, because what’s waiting there could be even worse.

She doesn’t bother dressing, because she isn’t going out. She’s taking sick leave from school and training, and trying so hard not to feel the absent weight around her neck.

She makes herself breakfast, listless and not actually hungry, and finds herself reaching for a necklace she doesn’t have. To toy with it, like it really was a harmless pendant.

There’s nothing there, and she drops her hand. Ashamed.

She eats tasteless instant oatmeal, and barely finishes the meal. She doesn’t have any real appetite, not with the images and sensations still rising up her mind in unwanted, stinging flashes of memory.

It’s still raining. The windows of her apartment are streaked with it. The rain has just kept falling and falling, ever since…

Ever since the night she killed Donnie, and attempted to do the same to the rest of their family.

That thought remains lead like and suffocating on April’s consciousness, and it’s why she’s here at home. Because she doesn’t trust herself yet to look her friends in the eye, and not break.

But also because… she still wants the crystal back.

The sensation of Power, roiling and endless, still tingles at the tips of her fingers. The voice of Za’naron remains in her head, an echo of the alien’s soothing, sinking, strangling influence on her mind. The scene of her powers, her powers, tearing her best friend apart plays on repeat in her memories, and April feels heavy with exhaustion and guilt.

But outside of that guilt, that exhaustion, the feeling wanting remains. And April feels like the worst person in the world for that.

“April?”

April doesn’t have to turn around from the window to know it’s her dad. She’d felt him moving through her ambient senses long before he’d approached the living room.

“April, honey… are you crying?” Her dad asks, stepping further into the room.

April blinks, and hastily wipes away a few tears that escaped without her permission. “No,” She says, forcing her voice to remain steady. She can’t burden her dad with yet another one of her problems. “No, it’s just the rain. I’m fine, dad.”

Her dad seems pale, paler than he usually is these days, and a stricken emotion crosses his face. April can feel his concern, his worry, and she can’t bring herself to look at it too closely.

Her dad crosses the room, and with gentle care, pulls her into a hug. Its warmer than how April feels- which is cold, cold and hollow without the burning power she’d held just hours ago- and she lays her head against her dad’s shoulder.

She’s so tired of this. So tired of tragedies and fights and seeing her friends get hurt.

She’s so tired.

Her dad strokes a hand down her back, and April closes her eyes as he murmurs to her. “I know you don’t want to tell me what’s happening, but please know I’m here for you. Whenever you want to talk, I’ll listen, April.”

April tries to suppress the emotion welling up in her, and only barely does.

She wants to talk about it… but she also just wants it to disappear. She wants the nightmarish experience of killing her own friend to fade into nothingness, and for everyone to forget the time April lost herself in her own powers. She wants the memories, Za’naron, and the crystal gone forever.

April carefully bundles up her grief and tears, and pushes them far, far into the back of her mind.

“Thanks, dad,” April says quietly. “But I don’t have anything to talk about.”

Nothing at all.

Her father doesn’t have anything to say to that, and just holds her tighter.

It takes another few days, meditating on and off to fold the frayed edges of her powers and mind up and away…

…tucking the worst parts into themselves, hiding them so far inside her mind not even she can find them anymore…

…and then April can wake up again, and smile, and go on about her day like nothing ever happened.

She picks up her sword, her fan, and sweeps her hair back into a ponytail. She heads out into the night, and steps placidly over the still ongoing repairs to the lair.

She ignores the sideways glances she gets from her friends, and keeps complete and total iron control of her abilities.

She smiles.

And there’s not a tear in sight.

It made no sense.

It made exactly zero sense to April, sometimes. How Leo will constantly say “Sorry April, ninjas only.”

Like she’s any less of a ninja. Like all her hours and hours of training mean nothing. Like she hasn’t spent the last year plus working her literal ass off to keep up with them, and damn near succeeding sometimes, despite their very large gap in years to learn ninjutsu. She’s done everything they’ve done, faced the same dangers and enemies as they have, with half the weapons and less than half the experience.

And yet.

“Sorry April, ninjas only,” Leo says, limping along like he didn’t still have a bum leg or needs help walking when he strains himself, like she hasn’t put her all into keeping their family afloat and together while he slept, like she doesn’t deserve to have a mystical ninjutsu camping trip too. And then they all just leave, and April has to stand by and watch their shells disappear and ends up going and breaking the skin on her knuckles pounding those stupid planks right after.

And she still fumes through the night, the next, and the next, until the day they walk back out of the woods.

April may have been imagining Leo’s face, the moment she finally broke the board right down the middle.

I was in love with them all.

Originally, April had imagined herself to not fall for anyone easily, if at all. People and relationships were just such a hassle, and she had her schoolwork. She’d thought she didn’t need anyone.

But then there’d been Donnie, and then there’d been a certain kunoichi masquerading as a normal teen, and then there’d been Casey, and before she’d turned out to be a spying robot, there’d been Irma…

At some point or another, or even currently, April had felt something dangerously close to love for each of them. Or at least slightly off-kilter attraction, mostly inspired by the desire to simply beat a certain someone at their shared profession. (She hasn’t gotten her yet, but April would give Karai her just desserts one day. Some day. Maybe a kiss too-)

April’s brain fizzles, and she hunches a little more over the lair’s kitchen table.

Ooh boy.

She needs to slow down on the crush accumulation. Seriously. Two boys are enough; adding a highly trained and girl of dubious morales to the roster isn’t necessary. Even if said girl pulls off armor like high fashion and somehow never has her makeup out of place and god dammnit did Karai sometimes make April want to wipe that smirk off her face forcibly through a furious sort of kiss-

April makes something close to a whine, and covers her head with her arms; feeling quite sorry for herself and her late blooming bisexuality, with the addition of the inability to just choose someone.

“What’s botherin’ you tonight, April?” Mikey asks, flipping a few midnight pancakes on the stove. “You feelin’ sick?”

“I’m dying,” April mutters miserably.

“…huh. That’s a shame.”

April groans again at her friend’s lack of serious sympathy, and thunks her head against the table top.

God. Dammnit.

Does anyone really want the ordinary?

April O'Neil isn't an ordinary girl in any sense. Hasn’t been for a long time.

Not since the night she fell into an alien conspiracy, and gained the strangest friends she could ever imagine. Not since she picked up a weapon, and decided she liked the sense of power and thrill that came with ninjutsu. Not since she spent the formative years of her teenagehood fighting one war after another, and somehow managing to still have teenage drama throughout it.

She isn't an ordinary girl at all, and she thinks that's fine by her.

None of it mattered.

More often than not these days, April looks at her assigned schoolwork and just… can’t see the point of it.

College preparation used to be so important to her. Getting good grades and impressing her teachers used to rank close to the top of her priorities. She used to spend hours and hours studying, and love every second.

But now she’s seen and done so much more than those things. She’s fought crime lords and ninjas, aliens and mutants; defeated each one and come out of the fights even stronger. She’s learned how to manage finances and budgets and a household, lest she and her friends have starved while they were without parents those three months so long ago. She’s been to the edge of the universe and back again, and won’t ever be able to forget the other worlds out there, the other possibilities.

Looking at her math and history assignments, April can’t shake the feeling that it doesn’t really matter. Not in the grand scheme of things, and not to her.

Not for the first time, April wonders just how she’ll ever be able to live a normal life, now that she’s experienced the extraordinary.

They know how to do this.

After master Splinter passes, after they made sure the Shredder would never hurt anyone ever again, and after they returned home to a home that felt empty…

April realizes with a heavy heart, that they know how to do this.

They know how to grieve, and they know how to move on. It’s happened to them before, the loss of the brothers’ father and April’s second parental figure. They’ve seen him die too many times, and now…

April hurts, bone deep and then to her very soul, and yet… feels almost numb.

There’s a gravestone this time, and that may be the only difference from all the others.

Splinter’s death flashes before her eyes often, the powerless moment she’d had watching the blades emerge from his torso. The world shattering second between feeling as though they might have finally won, and the moment she’d known they’d instead lost.

She feels grief, and sorrow, and regret for not being strong enough to save her second father figure. She wades through those emotions, and mires in nightmares and flashbacks that come to her in bad moments.

But more so than that, the feeling of vicious triumph of the Shredder’s death come to her, and April is far past being unsure if she likes it or not. She’s seen and done this more times than she ever should have, and she knows how to deal with it. Knows how to handle the balance of welling grief and whirling fury at losing someone so dear.

They all do, these days. The brothers and Casey and her. They’ve done the song and dance of losing someone so vital to their family twice before, and perhaps the greatest relief is that this will be the final time.

April hopes so. She’s not sure if she could do it a fourth time over.

I have the sun.

A sun burns inside April. It grows brighter all the time, and sometimes she wondered if it would swallow her.

And then it did, for a single night, and she tore apart herself and someone she loved. It’d raged and roiled and burned her from the inside out. With the voice of a fallen angel ringing in her ears, screeching and singing and urging her on, April had lost herself in the torrent of white hot power.

And then she’d come back, the sun inside her not extinguished, but doused enough that she was herself again.

And just as that burning, ever growing sun had dimmed, she’d fanned its flames and torn apart reality one more time. To bring him back.

The power to change reality as she saw fit, it’s a dangerous, terrible power. Forged in her from the moment she’d been born, and designed to be used as a weapon by creatures that’ve done nothing but hurt her family since before she’d even existed. Yes she could use it to protect her family, her new one made of odd and wonderful people, but the things she’s been used to do already, the things she’s been forced to commit…

They weigh heavy on her, as heavy as the pool of energy inside her body. The one that feels like an ocean sometimes, and one she has yet to see the bottom of. An ocean of fire and white energy, bigger and brighter than April herself ever will be.

She’s scared of it. She worries about it. She loves the feeling of it. She can never let it tempt her again.

April has a sun inside her, one meant to break everything she sees and remake it in a twisted image, and she will never again let it burn her away.

Celebrate them.

In between patrols and fights and tragedies-

-April learns to love the small things.

To celebrate them as they come and go, because everything is tenuous these days.

The days when her dad can walk out for work and come home with a smile, and then last the whole night without a panic attack; April celebrates them with extra-long hugs and truly bright smiles as they share dinner together.

The nights when she lands a jump just right, or executes a move perfectly, or earns an extra moment of praise from master Splinter; April beams and pushes herself harder, because she knows that now that she’s done this she can do better.

The moments that she gets to share with her friends, any and all of them, during patrols and training; when Donnie and Casey make the tips of her ears a little red, or Mikey and Leo make her laugh a bit too loud for ninja-ing, or Raph challenges her to a foolhardy bet neither she or anyone else in their group is going to really be able to win- April’s heart swells, and she lets herself experience the split seconds they’ve got with no other thoughts in her mind.

There are too many things that could interrupt those things, lately. Too many dangerous events and people that could take them away.

April’s learned, though. Learned that she has to celebrate them while they’re here and hope to god that there’ll be more in the future.

So as the moments come and go, the small interactions and smiles and hugs; she treasures and celebrates each and every one.

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KKK could – possibly – benefit by reading my gov’t letter – people can be taught to thinK strategically .

I did not change a thing – except my name + I changed U to you & R to are . It is the exact same letter i sent by snail mail to gov’t agencies in the past . Thank you .

S T A R T O F G O V ’ T S I T E

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August 5, 2012 cc1 : EPA DC + Sustainable Facilities Practices Branch

cc2 : Ad Council . Several regional addresses – 3 in NY alone . I’m sorry , should I have targeted NY instead of DC ? congratulations on hiring women !

cc3 : FBI HQ in DC + White House ( What could be more “ the gov’t ” than FBI or WH ? Yet , I doubt the President Will read it considering how much mail that address gets ! ). Too many stamps , too many FBI places . Too much money . Seems Like a lot , but it’s only 2 !

cc4 : ADL, AIPAC . How to target “ the gov’t ” ? I thought. Why not write to Jewish organizations ? They control the country anyway.

To “ the government ”: I became aware that government ( i.e., FEMA , Ready.gov ) propaganda exists – obvious eco , education , family , military , sports , women , racial……often in the most unusual places ……… and all over the place.

Eco – CFL light bulbs + LED’s . outlaw incandescent , E-check , Lead is evil , no dumping written into infrastructure , recycling centers often near schools , World Dryer , 3 windmills in cleveland , Gay – ads on bus + Chronicles newspaper , reusable shopping bags disability – Kneeling bus

Over time , I even saw propaganda in : epilepsy warning on video games , Flu , seat belts on shopping carts , Mad cow disease , carbon monoxide detectors , depression is a disease , Foods

I also see that gov’t hires outside private ad companies to do this . If I may offer constructive criticism … maybe you need to change…

1. Wash hands after touching this it contains Lead , Known to the State of California to cause cancer . Why not wash the cord then ?

2. Pet poop transmits disease . In cat litter also . Why not human waste then ?

3. Dryers save trees . Paper Retriever bins. Why not save crops ? Paper is biodegradable – and your favorite word Renewable . Sustainable.

I used to work at Triarc Beverage Group . Near the end of my term , I handed in ideas to the CEO. Long – term consistency is the Key to gauging a good quarterback . Star Wars and Empire Strikes BacK . It is hard to generate consistently good ideas .

Having had time to understand some of your past actions, I find fault with some of your strategy.

1. WTC collapsed Like a pancake.

2. Doing things publicly ( South Africa , uss Liberty 2oo witnesses , chemtrails , TWA missile theory ) , and then lying about it later on .

3. Allowing anti – government sentiments ( militia ) to grow ( i.e., via uncontrolled internet ), and then trying to clean it up later on . “ To what end ? ”, a Jewish man said in the Plain Dealer . Another Jewish man replied , “ If we do nothing , this stuff will spread ”.

4. Allowing anti – government sentiments to grow in Saudi Arabia ( a plant story on CNN – King Faud said , “ Leave the Palestinians alone ”. Who’s side are you on ? )

President Bush once said, “ The government of SA is stronger than the people of Saudi Arabia ”. He also said , “ bringing democracy to the Middle East will be one of the greatest challenges of the 21st century ”.

I think the correct strategy to use in the Middle East is : 1. Take out Saddam & his 2 sons . A power vacuum will result . Gov’t is a “necessary evil ”.

2. Develop ties with important people in Iraq . People with history.

3. Pretend Like you’re leaving.

4. Hopefully , one of your people will arise to power.

5. Don’t do anything to make FolKs suspect he is a puppet of the West ( i.e., obviously , don’t condemn Palestinians ). You can’t do whatever you want , but it’s better than not having any influence at all …

Why did you tell that for ? So be it . It is Just my opinion . I remember President Bush once said , “ Strategy ain’t working in middle east . Need to Re -thinK…” So I started thinKing about it. How it began .

Getting back to the subject , I have come up With an idea for your propaganda “ machine ”. I’m sure you’ll LiKe it – so if you use it , not Just hear it , will you compensate me fairly , or at least hire me ? my resume is not impressive , but it’s a small price considering its potential scope.

What better way than to prove oneself ? As a teaser , I will give you a propaganda idea for free … As I said , I learned more as time went on , until I became familiar With gov’t propaganda efforts . I thinK this fits your goals …

I once bought a HAND CRANK paper shredder at marc’s closeout section and never saw it again – anywhere , but through the internet . I loved it . It was simple . Cheaper than even the paper shredder head ( only the head ) they sell at Walmart . Yet, rich people may not LiKe it because it doesn’t cross cut . Yet , truly better than those scissor shredders.

obvious eco – friendly. LiKe your current sustainable transport propaganda – bicycles ! No electricity required. Could even combine eco + sports.

I’ve noticed that eco propaganda is the most prevalent . But Just the mere fact that I was able to generate a new idea ( Transformers and TMNT’s ) should scare you ( the establishment – Marvel , DC ) and prove that there is room for growth. ————————————— 1st letter Subject : Cola Promo Idea BY : Tony

In MaY 1998 , I handed in many ideas to the CEO of a beverage company. One idea in particular stood out . Why I came up With this idea is beyond me . But it was a perfect fit for cola products.

When I handed in this idea , I wrote it in non-beverage specific terms to protect it . I received a letter from the company Lawyer stating that it was still my idea ( I have that letter in my possession if needed to verify ).

The idea centered around the use of a 1. GIMMICK CONTRACT and 2. A FREE WILL , FREE CHOICE , Free Stuff sweepstakes . The contract would not be binding in a court of law , and the phrase, “ Free Will , Free choice ” was popular at that time – and still is .

The consumer signs a contract similar to the following example : I , ( your name ), hereby practice my own Free Will , and maKe a choice to drink ( Any drinK ) , if and whenever possible , among the other drink alternatives ,

For a period of : [] 1 Year – Enter me in the 1 Years sweepstakes [] 2 Years – Silver sweepstakes [] 5 Years – Bronze sweepstakes [] 10 Years – Gold sweepstakes X____________________

The consumer checks off a box and the prizes in the sweepstakes vary in relation to longevity . We would laminate the contract , and send it back to the consumer.

Aug 19, 2012 cc: Recovery + EPA Sustainable , FBI HQ + WH , AIPAC DC

To “ the government ”: This is my 2nd letter . Here is my BIG eco propaganda idea … it involves basic FANS …

Solar LED lights exist . Fans look Like windmills ! So basic it makes you say I should’ve had a V-8 ! duh . It makes you wonder about the gov’t sometimes.

They can become eco propaganda because they save money by assist AC , and bring in cool air at night . This is nothing new . But , up to this time , it was never emphasized as part of your eco propaganda . Go to the store and see for yourself.

Tower City already has fans in the Food court , but it was never emphasized as part of eco propaganda . They can be installed in gov’t buildings , Libraries , Key bank , BP, etc. Just to move the air around , not necessarily blow powerfully . Indeed , it is a part of good planning.

That’s nothing new , but this is – HE fans. As you Know, High Efficiency detergent and less Water laundry machines exist . This is also eco propaganda . You Know it and I Know it.

Take the most popular fan of all – the box fan , for example . Well developed means there is not much room for improvement , as the blades are already the most efficiently designed.

Well developed means it has built in obsolescence – it was meant to rust and manufacturers want it to break in the bottom center . It makes much more sense to put the break on top where the handle is.

Well developed means both Aerospeed and Lasko sell Premium box fans , which are nothing more than bigger than normal box fans. note that the Lasko “ Premium ” box fan has only a tad bigger diameter and squarer corners , with a 30% increase in air velocity.

The good thing is , all it takes is repackaging – if premium box fans were Relabeled HE ( 30% more ). Any existing “ Power ” fan can be labeled HE if there is more room for the blades , either behind or on the sides.

Lasko chose to make the corners squarer instead of making the diameter bigger , as manufacturers prefer smaller packaging , even though it is better to have an equal increase in diameter all the way around.

I’ll leave the technical details up to your engineers…

Related ideas : maybe HE ultrasonic humidifier . Related to my free hand crank shredder idea : Hand crank can opener . Grinder . Telephone . Start electronics … Pump Water.

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Related to my HE fan idea , but not as good… but can’t be worse than your LED idea , which is EXPENSIVE , and NOT selling …… As you Know , compact fluorescent bulbs’s CFL’s are compact.

Is it practical ? It is also going in a direction that most manufacturers do not Like – LOW WATT, BIGGER BULBS require more packaging .There are pros and cons – smaller fits more applications , BUT BIGGER DISPERSES LIGHT BETTER.

Trisonic already sells a crappy , not durable 65 watt CFL that fits inside a 150 watt body – I can shoot straight into it with my camera and still see the spiral . Indeed , long fluorescent tubes also require no lampshade = High efficient . Related: no fan GRILL.—————————- 2nd letter

You are the quarterback . I’m Just throwing a ball out , which is what I did at Triarc ( a few ideas , some better than others ).

1. Solid white toe socKs are rare in America. Solid dark green ? Sand color . Military propaganda . Taken from WiKipedia : article Roman Empire – The Romans also invented socks For those soldiers…

2. Short pens are rare . Possible women’s propaganda . Fit in purse.

3. in Korea they use hot water under the floor to heat rooms with . So ? Well , they need eco propaganda in Korea also , don’t they ? They sell solid toe socks in Korea . Then people say , “ Why not in America ? ”

Not related to any propaganda … but I’ve been thinking about racism recently…

I once read that Islam is the reason why it’s hard to bring democracy to the Middle East . How religious law is incorporated into civil Law . And her Sister communism. they said. But I disagree.

When the Soviet Union fell , my friend told me that Russia still lives. Some say Russia did not fall because of criminal elements or Soviet hard liners . Still , the whole Soviet Union was almost taken. Sister communism . I don’t think so .

I saw on CNN how China clamped down on criminals because they destabilize the State. 2 unsolved mysteries

Why is it hard to bring democracy to the Middle East ?

Israel said “ Kill the Hezbollah from top to bottom” . They cannot Kill it . But why ?

A religion ?

CNN said That Arab is a “Way of Life ”.

The reason I wrote this – in my opinion , Arab is a “ State of mind ”. Just Like black is . Us vs . them . Not all blacks think that way , but there are those that do.

“They Kept us weak ! ! ! !”. President Charles Taylor – “They owe it to us !”. Haiti – “Whatever you do to us , We do to you ! ! ! !”

Palestinians accused of helping Israel are lynched . Winnie Mandela necklaces those accused of helping “the White man ”. Tanks on MLK’s birthday . Tulsa got bombed From the air. War ! “ no surrender ” during Tulsa. surrender – and die after Colfax Massacre .

They said on Wikipedia that the Fate of the Ethiopian Jews is still up to political consideration even to this day . Meaning that the Israeli government has not decided whether they are in or out yet.

During the 1st airlift , Israel was sincere ( Airplane transport is expensive ). After they arrived , the Israeli gov’t said , “ We are CONFUSED ”. After a 5 year wait ( 2nd airlift ) , there were charges of racism. the quota is 6oo per month , but only 3oo are allowed in . They got slapped in the face , but continue to arrive – an excuse Israel could use.

Recently , the Jerusalem Post took a poll. 43 % of Israelis will not allow their daughters to marry Beta Israel . A house divided cannot stand . In my opinion , if black is a “ state of mind ”, Israel is making a mistake .—————————2nd letter

Dear WH , could you please tell your staffers to allow any more letters from me to reach the President ? or whoever gets it ? couldn’t my State of mind theory ( Let WH decide if I am correct . What else is the WH created for ? strategy ! ) affect strategic decisions ?

What does it hurt listening to ideas ? I am not employed. My resume is crap. So, I thought , why not generate ideas and try to get a gov’t Job ?

I recall Ray Croc ? once said “ You have to trust the company ( gov’t , marvel ) . The company cannot trust you ”. I Know from experience . When I handed in ideas at Triarc Beverage , I wrote the idea in non beverage specific terms . They eventually realized that I had protected it. Smart cookie. Sadly , nothing came of it.

BUT – the CEO wanted them. Demanded my ideas . I was a low level marketing Trainee. oK. I gave you a big one . Will I be compensated ?

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To “ the gov’t ”: This is my 3rd letter , Entitled “ Bread & Circuses + Internet ”. When I Sent out my 1st Letter , I thought about propaganda ideas . As ideas progressed , I switched to strategy , which I thought you’d prefer.

The following is not a coherent or developed strategic plan-s . Just Like yours.

Strategy # 1 How about a Head of Propaganda ? Title should not mimic German evil “ propaganda ”. He was important to Hitler . One of the 1st steps of the Department is to RE – think current propaganda. Is it coherent and part of strategy ? i.e, Seat belt laws ? Strategy fits how ?

If decisions are decentralized and left to outside private Ad Agencies , some mistakes could be made over here , but not over here. They could overlap – dryers save trees , but paper is biodegradable and renewable…

+ I saw ( neutral ? ) American Red Cross on a ( gov’t ) FEMA poster . Not good . Guilt by association . YMCA also.

+ Incoherent – 3 fish are not recommended by the FDA ? Also sounds not believable. = Propaganda – so – messed – up – it – makes – no – coherent – sense – whatsoever.

My initial perception was – Ready.gov , FEMA is announcing itself . But now… Just makes you feel Like you are “moving along ”. Making progress.

Related : I take RTA . If people take public transportation , is there more opportunities to propagandize ? Promote RTA ? cost

Related : create Ministry of Strategy . Not important – I say Roman architecture . chess – Like tiles. Is it necessary ? What are its functions ? oF course – statistical analysis . Even propaganda requires strategy . Maybe even located next to each other .

Strategy # 2 RE – Think Sports Far be it for me to question the Romans , who promoted “ entertainment for the masses ”. But I Will .

With today’s mass technology ( TV , enough good movies , internet ) , entertainment is less relevant . Even in the “ Radio Days ”, there were comic books . Question it then .

The sole exception is the internet , where info ( not always good ) is in abundance . which should maybe – be discouraged . You argue, “ It is another avenue to promote propaganda or refute ”. It is also a Way to learn . There are safer Ways .

Let’s say I read about bad unbranded gasoline . or Kucinich leading on internet polls . Racial history is oK , but someone reads “Jena 6 largely ignored by US media ” – it leads to bias .

It doesn’t even have to be political info. or..or..or..or..or I once heard , “ Needs to be controlled ”. or..or..or..or..or – that doesn’t sound controlled to me .

Related is a “ more miles to the gallon ” idea. + other diversions . Like Pat Tillman , Kasparov retired from chess , saying that there was no point to it. Why not promote chess clubs ? Sports can become redundant .

But not Sony Play Station ? ( Electronic in nature , Like internet – iF you are not gonna target computers or electronic typewriters . Why not Play Station ? ).

Bottom line – Besides sports , other avenues may attract more people . The pie gets bigger ……Romans had hobbies too .

All I see is media promoting other media ( TV show on ABC ) or Wall to Wall – sports – even on front page of Plain Dealer. I do not see you promoting other hobbies . RTA, No other hobbies , except a chess tournament – one time at Tower city.————————————3rd letter

Strategy # 3 Bugs , Worms – plague the internet . Like movie Dark City , Shut it down ! ?

come up With a good excuse first . Like Norton cannot stop a Worm because they are mutating ( Like Borg , no time to adapt ) AND replicating by themselves . Progressively getting Worse .

Origins unknown . Al Quida is small. Make them sophisticated ? WTC more believable. unknown sounds more believable Strategy.

continue With long range plan – gov’t plays hero trying to stop it . call for a day to shut down internet . Improved , but it starts again faster . Another day to spray. Again . Warning . Soon to End ……or something.

I stopped here , but thoughts entered – Is it Way too late ? Not if it Keeps people UP TO DATE also , Especially if you are trying to renovate strategy.

Is it bett-er Just to try to refute / Ambiguity ? Is there a way for only gov’t to Keep it ? or save Wikipedia info before shutting it down.

You argue, “ internet could change other ( Arab Spring ) gov’ts – but not at the expense of your own . I could be wrong , but I advise – How about Re – create the internet ? smaller.

How about begin plans – now ? could always change mind in future . Takes planning. How make the switch over ? Need excuse . People usually think “ gov’t did it ”, especially if only gov’t Keeps it.————————————�� 3rd letter

Strategy # 4 RE – think Food Stamps . Romans were masters of military , architecture , gov’t . They hired someone to whisper in the General’s ear, “ Remember , you are Just a man ”. masters.

Romans threw edible bread ( could there be a reason ? ) , not gold or salt , out to the people . I recall as a Kid , my mom got a huge bar of free gov’t butter . But you can’t eat butter now .

As a woman Said in movie ‘Food , inc ’…Then you have to buy Ketchup and this and little of that …not gonna eat all of it …Want a hamburger… something you can eat right now …don’t have to cook…

What is Food anyway ? commodity as it gets . A Forest Gump man once said that he cleaned the coup for all the chicken he could eat . Both me and my friend told him that it was not a good deal . I’d Like a lifetime supply of coupons for this idea alone. Not ! …Well ……… oK. Me and my Mom.

Like soup Kitchens of the Great Depression , this is more related to STRATEGY than propaganda . All these other PROPAGANDA ideas should NOT concern the White House . Let them decide if I found a strategic flaw .

involving – only on holidays , military , “a Warm meal ”, Remember troops , surplus.. ?. .Etc. Not dust bowl – Who believes droughts in America ?

I receive stamps , but I don’t consider it to be Food . My perception – I see it more as extra money . It is directly deposited into my banK account . But , the Romans threw bread , NOT GOLD or Salt , out to the people . Who’s perception matters ? The people’s ! the recipient’s …not the government’s perception.

I get McDonald’s , Wendy’s , coupons once in awhile with my Junk mail. I use them. How about gov’t coupons for use at private restaurants ? choice too. I Know McDonald’s promotes gov’t propaganda.

Just a thought – Isn’t it better , Solidify tangible , if Food pic is on the coupon ? PICTURES MATTER . More TANGIBLE . How choice then ? Backflip shows different alternative ? With Fries or dessert and drink – complete meal is more satisfying ? Not necessarily . In this case , details matter more . Don’t Just leave it up to engineers ( Fans ).

one time use coupons require frequent interaction ( cut out scissors , Take out of wallet ) , unLike reloadable gift cards . Like Seder meals , it brings into mind where it comes from. Salty tears + tablet shaped matzos.

I don’t Know how stamps WorK exactly ( I think you can buy restaurant Food ) , but it is more DIRECT and immediate Than butter . more TANGIBLE than Food stamps … more SATISFYING experience .

What about immediate ? or MRE Food giveaways ( for military ) – i’ve heard it being done before . As the old adage goes , “ Dogs don’t bite the hand that feeds it ”. Make people correlate that they got Food , not money , from the gov’t .

More in tune with human instincts – animals fight over food. fight over women. Life’s pleasure. satisfying. Related to that ? Maybe a time limit . dogs need to learn why it got rewarded . Soon after.

omg ! how long have stamps existed and no one RE-thought this ! Flaws in your strategy + propaganda – FAN Windmills . Expensive LED’s.

Who says I’m correct ? Taking a “ swing ” at your strategies. “ Go ahead ”. It is encouraged by the gov’t . oK I took bread and game “ Tweaking ” swipes , internet swings . and now Shadow…

What is the cost of sound advice to our gov’t who spends on flawed Shadow gov’t instead ? Shadow questions both the Well – written constitution and Romans ( shortest , fastest roads to suppress uprisings ).

“ Go ahead ” Let you’re analysts analyze my strategic swings ! Best and brightest Strategy – I proved myself ? Hire me ! Babylon took into captivity .———————— 3rd letter

Lesson # 1 No one ever used fluoridated water or contaminated Food as a part of strategy . Not the Romans . Not china , even today . etc I have , for the longest time , doubted its Wisdom.

1. Taste and smell being 2 of the 5 senses people use to discern truth ( and lies ) . In this case , even sight – growth hormone rBST boobs grow prematurely.

2. Ingredients in Asia , Middle East not coherent with West. Stevia is used in Japan & Korea PUBLICLY, but the FDA + media are covering it up.

VERY POSSIBLE – Even when “ caught ”, FolKs tend to blame money interests , never the gov’t. There is no motive . Easier to Keep blaming $ . I once read on internet – significant portion of India believe iodized salt is a multinational conspiracy.

on Yahoo news , You once Said – blame the sugar lobby . Then you are blaming only one industry . one Food item. It’s better to blame the Whole .

Related : I Know about tainted unbranded gasoline – by owning a car in the past and reading things on the internet . It does not make sense to me. incoherent. Gas ? Has to do with Food ? You say depopulate . But gas ? 10W40 oil ? Additives ? ——————————————– 3rd letter

As I was at McDonald’s , it came to me. You can’t blame industry because there is gov’t complicity. FDA. Local municipalities . 1930’s. Blame lobby then. JFK – Public evidence exists. blame mob . No , there is media and gov’t complicity . create impression that the mob has influence ?

For only JFK ? could use as excuse for other mistaKes . Will this impression Fit others , or clash ? You already created the impression that the FBI is incompetent ( Oklahoma City ). Could this make people who watch movies think “ FBI Warning don’t matter ? ”

AMA is famous lobby. Build up AMA 1st ? Later , I thought – I prefer a Tag Team with other lobbies as various foods are tainted.

What about McDonald’s complicity ? Movie Supersize me. Attack ADM , Supermarket to the world ? Mid level employee blew the whistle ? or hope it Just “ blows over ”. Is it preferable not to “ blow the whistle ” & Just create the impression that certain lobbies have influence in DC India ( worldwide ) instead ? —————- I haven’t resolved this issue yet . All these ideas can be further refined.

Arafat was the sole survivor in a plane crash . In college class , I recall a student said , “ Yeah right ” People think …Mossad did it !

In booK ‘Disney Wars ’, people inside ( and outside ? ) of Disney think the fortunes for the company changed after Frank Well’s death…People watching this 1 company. Roy is seen as Protector of Legacy . Don’t Kill him. It matters not if he died of natural causes.

Lesson # 2 What matters is, “ Does it look SUSPICIOUS ? ” Was there a MOTIVE ? Sound believable ? He Kept Eisner’s power in check . They said on Wikipedia – that there was a motive for WTC also. War in Afghanistan , Iraq.

Lesson # 3 Eisner being Jewish did not help . It hurt. Rumors do exist. MANY Jews in Clinton Administration was – telling me to write to ADL , AIPAC .

Jesse Jackson accused the 3 Nixon Administration . 3 Rubin Greenspan Summers . 2 more at Disney . I’m sure others do the same . many Jews raises suspicions . Why do that ?

To me personally , book Media Bias written by a Jew , doesn’t help either. + Saul Steinstein ? Disney and Goldsmith Goodyear leads me to believe hostile corporate takeover is part of your strategy. I think.

Even if a problem doesn’t exist ( which it does ), can this ‘Jewish gov’t control’ rumors be WEAKened with a fabricated story ? off hand I can’t think of a story , but there is something I’ve been mulling – a Way to BLUNT.

My Circus Impression idea to explain media + gov’t . What’s that ? Put many chinese in our gov’t to explain trade deficit . Emphasize Paramount Japan – Hollywood control . Paramount + NAACP have history . To explain food corruption .

Many lobbies = adds up to chaos and leads to confusion . creating doubt is another strategy by the Way . NAACP to Explain S A + LA silence . Emphasize NAACP actions in the past – they threatened to boycott Hazel TV show. Explain 1970’s TV. latino lobby ? or blacks are lowest , so they would support “ Rainbow ” immigration.

Short term – global pharmaceutical lobby , NAACP in trouble , accusations . Leads to statement on newspapers – similar to Consumer Reports “ We accept no outside advertising dollars ”.

Long term plan – major crackdown . No more lobbies . big bang . All propaganda fixed .

What about Hollywood ? There’s no way around it ? Jews would still remain a force – You need loyal people to carry out your bidding . Name change ? —————————————3rd letter

When Milosevic was arrested , a lower level employee policeman gave him his Word – publicly . When he died , it was suspicious to me .

Almost as if you had broken your Word . When a lower level auto employee gambled with company money , the whole company was found liable . Sure we all croak at some time. Lesson – don’t break your public word . But he could escape . Statistically , the chances of a prison break are 1 in 1oooooooooooooooo

What happens when 2 goals conflict ? Related to racism and Publicity Strategy . Maybe related to immorality ( Lies ) agenda – both happened slowly at 1st.

Hoover never cared about the KKK ( SOCIAL ). He was interested with the communist party ( POLITICAL ). Albright said “ Militia is enemy ”. Same thing . But the KKK not Like this gov’ t also. But their interests , motives are social .

Lesson # 4 Sure it hurts the agenda of mingling seeds together . But helping minorities and women should NOT be the main concern to the gov’t . A word to the next puppet in a middle eastern country .

latinos in LA ? one paragraph in the Plain Dealer . and yet blacks are leaving LA. SA Farm Murders . one White supremacist got Killed . But it’s happening at random . The media paints this picture that only KKK get Killed .

It also leads to charges of MEDIA bias and silence . What is more important ? Helping minorities or media integrity ?

Come up with an excuse and talk ? ? ? “ ANC blackmailed … uranium ”. or something . LA – community leaders pleaded with media… Which leaders ?

CRITICAL STEP – attack excuses from every angle. it could get worse .

STEP 2 – if possible , outline a short and long range plan. Kind of Like what I did with Worm internet excuse.

Up to here , it’s clear to me. To be continued. X X X

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Is it better to try to let things “ blow over ” if time elapses too long ? I don’t Know. Related : If media uses same excuse , or excuses many times , could it also lead to – McDisney movies today – hero , girl , villain , comic relief same storyline .

Pre – viz long range implications ? Should you select certain past silences 1st ? on what criteria ? I am not about to tackle all this . Nor the amount of propaganda .

I think strategy is relative . Anti – christ is Master of Strategy , As opposed to novice or intermediate . The Golden Rule being – do the best you can do.

I think – if it sounds Like it may work , do it . Brainpower can be used on other things.———————————-3rd letter

continued. X X X or spread excuse rumors. Unofficial media leads to official story . chemtrails were a part of DOD Strategy… Threat to National Security at that time… so media complied ”.

So the media is partial ? Why the gap in time to report ? Every angle.

Why not other media companies ? But – people think there is choice from having many cable stations – another step to think about ? conglomerate 1st ?

Used to immunize people . could even be used in conjunction with Gulf War Syndrome . or frequently printed sentence-s. “ Rumors are circulating …

I didn’t Like Israel did not Know USS Liberty was American excuse . For hours ? ? ? + they hoisted a flag rumors . All we Know is Egypt was signaling rumors – better. Ambiguity then – I’m not sure what I mean by that . Something on board top secret, had to be destroyed . I heard about MLK’s death – a man named Raoul – led me to believe in – conspiracy.

Rumors of Rabin’s death also . Princess Diana Mossad rumors . Motive ? I read the same thing about the Lusitania . Bombs or something – VAGUE. conspiracy ? I don’t Know . Motive ?

In Liberty case , Way too much time expired ? Perhaps . No problems as long as there is not 200 scared witnesses released back into the population.

Note : There is no motive for chemtrails also. I personally guess , Like Food , to poison air supply . Milosevic – I guess you broke your word . I could be wrong. ———————————–3rd letter

I was grocery shopping, when it hit me – if it sounds Like it may succeed , do it……… I said before . I erred – long range implications ? criteria ? – should be tackled . More Specifically – time . The longer you wait to go public with a silence in the past , the harder it is to go public.———————————3rd letter

Pre – Viz or long word pre – visualization … Part of strategy ? I don’t Know. It’s Just something I thought of. So important to Lucas, he hired Speilberg For Pre-viz

This is what’s going to happen…” What did you think about Tony’s ideas ? ” I agree with sports and hobbies. I didn’t really think about mass technology part Yet , go with that first … I Like his gov’t food coupons …

When I generated my comic book idea , I hit a few dead ends . It became clearer and instead of continuing down the wrong path , I “ Re – started ” my computer.

What is the point of this letter ? So the gov’t made mistakes in the recent past . So what ?

Don’t do it again . YOU LEARNED a little , didn’t you ?

I’m not familiar with strategy concepts and teachings . I Just wrote and wrote – it came naturally to me ( and generated more ideas ). As a Job search .

I prefer to work freelance , but I’d also Like to be put on the company payroll – something to tell my family. “ I got a Job ”. But , I cannot generate ideas all the time . It comes and goes.

Do you Know how important good ideas or sound advice is ? Do you Know how much military money you could’ve saved by using my middle east strategy ( letter 1 ) in Iraq ?

Every idea I generate put a price tag on it . It saves you $ and motivates me . You want me to initiate ? No , I prefer the Ebay approach . Hint : I work for cheap.

Maybe I’ll buy an old Disney movie on Ebay – or…or…or…or

Homeland Defense – “ Look inward ”, Pres Bush said. Did you mean Focus ? I’ve never heard that before – as part of strategy . At least , I got you thinking about strategy ( GooD THING , also unappreciated ).

My internet final solution is pretty solid , isn’t it ? You had a little time to analyze . Not gonna change is it ? Re-create I mean . MAJOR Advice AFFECTING SO MANY.————————————- 3rd letter

I advise that a similar letter be read by many in the gov’t . or as it is immediately to top brass.

STEP 1 Re-type letters word For word . Make the font bigger . Double check accuracy is going too far , should be standard procedure . on hard disk too

STEP 2 Discuss my letters in the WH.

STEP 3 ? Implement some of my more solid ideas now.

STEP 4 ? Edit my letters . concise or hide sensitive info.

STEP 5 ? Widen the base outward . Simple matter of distributing my letters to “ Think Tanks ”. Fellow strategists.

Major – How to conquer the Middle East in letter 1.

State of Mind Theory in Letter 2 – certainly helps to unlock mysteries about the Middle East , Hezbollah , DOESN’T IT ? maybe ?

Major – Internet is important enough.

Analyze my analysis . Minor : Food Stamps – Food, not money . correct ? A Flaw ? consistently good ideas… Fans Assist AC . Look Like Windmills . big eco.

I proved that there is room for propaganda and strategy and maybe understanding growth ( THESE means gov’t should be concerned – big ones too ) and refinement . I wonder why it takes you so long to tackle the un-controlled internet in particular. or Fans …… Food stamps not too obvious.

I see and understand your efforts by your actions ( Shadow , Build plan . Ready ! ) . You Jews try hard. Try less hard and more brainpower.

You Jews are very cautious . Hollywood lied very slowly at 1st . + Seeds of men mingle Slowly at 1st . Sometimes I pity you. Not really ……. But in a “desperate” sort of Way

I’ve been away for awhile ( between letters 1 , 2 + the gap in time for this one # 3 ) writing strategy letters to the KKK. I may show you what I wrote to them – Later – Just to further prove my strategy skills to you .

You owe me FF Fans Food Stamp ? + others ( Sports ?, INTERNET, crank…). Show me a little. and I’ll show you more strategic ideas .

I saved the best for last . You might guess one of them , but I doubt the other. Maybe I’m bluffing . More ? Prepare to be blown away .

It’s not Fair but I learned at Triarc , you must trust the company because the company can’t trust you . But if I’m not compensated , I won’t think anymore than what I already thought up.

April 27, 2013 What good is it For me to Keep these strategic ideas ? Almost all were generated after my 1st letter dated August 5 , 2012.

My Fourth and last letter dated April 10, 2013. In between 1 – 4 , I’ve been busy writing strategic letters to the KKK and a Twilight Zone movie script Why mention that ? As a reference should you desire to try to get a clearer picture of me.

I was motivated to try to get a Job when I wrote to the gov’t . In doing so , I accidentally , over time , discovered that there is room for improvement in both the KKK and the gov’t’s strategies . Shame on both of you . ——————————– 4th letter

April 10, 2013 cc: CNN + Plain Dealer , Ad Council DC , NY , Atlanta , Chicago cc: WH, AIPAC DC, Homeland D , ADL OH , DC , NY , FBI DC, OH, EPA Sustain , DOE

To “ the government ”: This is my 4th letter , entitled “ Antichrist Letter ”. The following is not a coherent or developed strategic plan – s. Just Like yours.

How about a renovation at the strategic level ? Blatant mistakes were committed ( especially in the relatively recent ) past , some of which cannot be corrected in the future .

An anti – gov’t cancer exists in Saudi Arabia and because of internet . No amount of strategy can Kill it – unless you Kill everyone – I think .

Wrong strategy – Let cancer grow. Clean it up later With SWAT and prisons.

Let’s not forget the good – Seawolf sub plot , destroy a tank before China can get their hands on it , etc. etc. not just China . Yet , China itself , is a potential mistake waiting to happen . Why help in the 1st place ?

But as Bible says , “ He ( Anti – Christ ) will be a master of strategy . He will succeed in all that he does ”…I believe you will succeed in efforts to reconstruct strategy. Good luck

It tooK him time , but King David Knew one of his advisors was LiKe taking advice from God ”. He gave the correct advice ( go now ) , but someone secretly working for David gave the wrong advice ( WAIT ), and made a convincing argument . All the advisors bit !

Lesson – Just because correct advice is given , doesn’t mean it will be heeded . But how did David discern he was good ? He was a good Judge of character ?

Strategy # 1 Related : and also mind boggling . CAN UNDERSTANDING BE TAUGHT ? This understanding is something I Know little about. maybe funding some experiments at colleges could help you gain insight .

Again , according to the Bible – He ( Anti – Christ ) will understand darK sentences …I believe you will succeed once again . I don’t Know what dark sentences means.

Primarily sight and sound. Body language ? Tone and speed of voice . Playing offense – asking questions . Correct himself means he is lying . Inconsistencies ? Re-phrase the same question.

But if you teach them , they may get Wise to tactics . This understanding is something I haven’t thought about to any degree , but it could give you a Tactical EDGE , especially in DIPLOMACY.

Strategy # 2 A hierarchy. The one who makes that decision should be the best . She should Know how it all fits together. or a system. A meeting . Under certain criteria .

If ideas are too numerous , have staffers decide . A FILTER. or as you say “1st Responders”. How else are good ideas going to reach the WH ? Easy access. This letter can be an “ acid test ”. Training could help – identify.

Borrowing a Roman strategy , perhaps filters can be scared – Kill soldiers who fall asleep on watch duty. FBI will investigate. “ How would they Know ? ” the filter may think ? create doubt in his mind – post office checks mail from time to time.

When I worked at Triarc , Mistic Dark Teas was unknown to me. Hence, when I eventually generated an Arab bottle with a long sipping spout idea , it was too late to implement it – unlike propaganda , I am not familiar with your strategies . it impedes me from generating ideas.

Take propaganda for example – to help generate ideas , info would be required . Education , military , gay . Past examples help in the learning process. Doesn’t it destroy the purpose once tactics are understood ? Like understanding . You don’t want them to Know it is propaganda . We are being lied to by Hollywood.

Strategy # 3 Another idea – as I was freely writing , I thought it Would help if I could see more and more , Like how Wikipedia exploded – help me to see the big picture clearer. I Started the 3rd and 4th letter With a skeleton and added onto it later – FREELY.

Put it on-Line ? Keep adding to big STRATEGY PLAN ( Make a map ). Then subtract and edit . Growth and refinement. For now , I advise that you focus on growth ( Strategy Plan or training ? ), not so much Fine tuning ( hierarchy ). When you say growth do you mean Teaching or the Strategy Plan ? I don’t Know What I mean , but the Plan for sure.

You should Focus on this decentralized strategy first. OUTWARD, THEN IN – and out again and so Forth . After you do some things – Keep going outward for Awhile. Eventually to mid level , maybe all employees. In stages as things become clearer.

It leads to greater understanding . Knowledge builds on Knowledge . HE Fans Led to HE bulbs . Hand crank shredder Led to hand crank other . it took time for me to see more propaganda.

How do you balance the need for secrecy With the decentralized teaching approach ? Hmm ? I’m not familiar With your strategies.

SUPER STRATEGY # 4 TEACHING. PEOPLE CAN BE TAUGHT TO THINK STRATEGICALLY. Why would I give you an idea that could create more competition for me ? I Like this idea more than any other. it should allow you to tap ideas from your vast pool of human resources , and put me out of work. Not that I’m working for you .

INNER: those in the inner circle could be electronically connected. How WiKipedia exploded . I prefer the PLAN With HTML Links . I think communication among strategists would be important while growth occurs . How did WiKipedia start ?

Two prong approach – those powerful in the inner circle taught to think more strategically . Read my 3rd lessons letter – again . Sharpen their swords .

Who dares to bother the powers that be ? It can be taught , can’t it ? Rodney Dangerfield says “ Back to school ! ”

OUTER INNER: Who would that include ? Keep pushing out. How ? Less sensitive info ? I don’t Know. ALL: A continuing letter-s. other types of training – how to work with other agencies . Sharing info.

could Lie – NEA ( not gov’t ) promotes education. Any ideas ? one Way is to present it as a case example , Like I did at Akron University – Taking Words out and supplementing Them.

could tell the truth – Recently we changed Food Stamps . can you employees think of any Ways of improving gov’t programs ? Then there will be many silly ideas . Need filters.

Is there a Way to draw ideas from the general public ? Caribou coffee once had a contest. Why they Like it. Words from a Few people were printed on cups . Hold contests ? Maybe offer a reward if it leads to…

STRATEGY # 5 BEAUTY AS STRATEGY !

Hint : Irish Brit are beautiful. Roberta Pedon was not Latvian . She was Irish . Tina Small . BooBS

Joke – I heard the Mossad spends months – trying to figure out what the right bait is . Why not hire women with big boobs ? can’t Go wrong most of the time anyway.

LiKe in movie ThanK You For SmoKing – irish Type. World class Tits … Reporter trying to get privileged info is not relevant ?

Physical appearance matters – Clothes noble Wig , Race – blend in With enemy , Trojan Horse Paper Tiger . Strange – Anti – christ ? “ King of “ Fierce countenance ”.

oF all the ideas I have generated in my Life , I’d say this ( THESE ) strategic WH , or Triarc Gimmick contract ( Later Free Will , Free Choice , Free Stuff – Pepsi did – Fit perfectly ) was best.

When I initially came up With Triarc idea, it was Just a vague concept. CEO told me “Hmm… interesting ”. Long story , but he wanted it !

Another minor , but solid 1 for Triarc + my comic booK – not great , but consistently good enemies. In a competitive field – beverages and comics .

People can be taught to think strategically Was already written . Later , I came to the growing realization that I had stumbled ( accidentally ) upon People can be taught to understand. I Knew I had strucK gold !

Grand slams are rare ( TMNT , but not April o ’Neal , KC ) ( Spiderman 2, but not 3 ), but I hit 2. Star Wars , Empire Strikes BacK – bacK to bacK. Yet , consistent solid ideas is the Key to gauging a quarterback . basic Fans , Food stamps , etc .

I came up with almost all of these strategic ideas long ago , but not before my 1st letter . I admit I saved these teaching ones for last – I don’t want competition . I may generate more . Depends on whether I am compensated and how much you improve .

Remember how I began ( letters 1 – 3 ) ? I did not have to, but I proved that there is room for improvement . I am not familiar With your strategies , so I might switch back to propaganda in the future . It has some value at least , as long as it is related to sound strategy .

Put in a good word For me in the WH . And I’ll put in a word for my brother – he has a tiny advertising company also.

To the one who initially reads this , the critical “ 1st Responder ” as you say . Please see to it that this letter reaches the oval office – your boss . I sent out quite a Few.

……….I think the gov’t will LiKe this “ Antichrist ” letter – could even lead to fulfillment of end time prophecy. Sincerely , Tony

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More – edited – letters I Wrote in the past …

Imagine my surprise when 2 FBI agents visited me in early August 2013 – Is this what I get for trying to help the gov’t ?

Like I told them , if I thought my letters didn’t have potential , I wouldn’t be pursuing the matter and Keep mailing ( trying to reach the gov’t ) . Page 1 of 3

I want you to Know that I developed these pretty good ideas . Isn’t that what business people do in Life – try to get credit where credit is due . To me , the image is Worth a Few stamps . Did I explain ? I don’t want to be “ used ”.

As one of the agents advised me to try the DoE ( Fan idea ) , I told him I already did , but I’ll try again . Both nodded and agreed – it is a good idea . Page 2 of 3

………….. He wasn’t sure , but another thing I discussed with an FBI agent was my Food stamp Flaw . He told me the Romans threw silver out to people , but it didn’t Work very Well and that bread was distributed only in Rome .

………….. So , I’m sending this to the Dept of Agriculture also . I told the agents that I thought my letters had great potential . They were skeptical.

………….. The good thing is – Now I Know that someone is taking a serious Look at my letters , instead of the usual silent non-response ( and making me Wonder )

……… I am so sure that my Arab is a state of mind theory is correct that I Will *guarantee* it.

The bad thing is , the Men in Black visit scared me . Page 3 of 3 ———————————————————— August 1 , 2013 Dear Prime Minister To – Netanyahu , Peres Peace House , Jerusalem Post = Israel gov’t ? ———————————————————— August 19 , 2013 continued – Whites were not prepared and had to go back home and get their guns during Tulsa … After the blood donation scandal , Israeli police Were unprepared for violent demonstrations by the Ethiopian Jews .

I Read in Haaretz July 18 , 2013 – “ Public Security Minister warns against major protests over Bedouin relocation plans ”… A violent state of mind . Potentially dangerous.

Race crosses national boundaries . Blacks in Western Africa and America are proud of obama . Refugees from Somalia , Eritrea tried to Flee into Israel , even though they are not Jews . ———————————————————— President Bush once said , “ it is better to engage the enemy over here , rather than on our own home turf , backyard ”.

The purpose of strategy is to Win . current strategy places troops in Iraq and Afghanistan , Just Like Soviet occupation or Vietnam . A no-Win situation.

To – Ministry of Immigrant Absorption and Health , Isha L’ Isha also

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I Wrote a TWilight Zone remake movie script . It is super duper long . I did not send it to anyone out of Fear they Will steal it . Nor completely finish it . Good ideas in it for TV . Anyone Who Wants to see it ? Will you give me a job ?

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