#idol lifestyle

[idolblrrr]

june 4th, 2024

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hello everyone~ long time no update!

so for the past few days I've been doing the usual (dancing, singing) but not everyday so I guess I'm cheating in that aspect and that I'm lacking the basic material, but there's still a lot of things I need to be better at to consider myself good enough

I didnt get to see both my friends yet so we didn't dance together as we planned, so I better keep on practicing to be the best one mwehehe

alsoooo something really curious happened yesterday, I was coming back from purchasing some stuff and a lady from an evangelical church stopped me to give me one of their books and she told me that on Saturdays they have dance classes for young people and that they participate on national competitions

I thought to myself "WHAAAAT HOW DOES SHE KNOW THAT I LOVE TO DANCE???" since I was dressed up like a normal human being and I wasn't listening to music or anything, so is this some sort of scouting?? I want to go to check it out and maybe make some friends along the way but I'm really not an evangelist and I don't really want to get too much into the other activities, also my grandma told me that those of that church are kinda greedy but its normal since that isn't our religion but I really want to go to check it out

so that's really a dilemma, should I go or not? I've been checking their videos and it's a team choreography and I think I am in their level to join, she didn't tell me that I have to pay or anything but what if my grandma's right?? we'll know it someday... but that really felt like a call for me I don't know what that lady saw on me but she definitely knew something

[underachieverinlove]

[betryl]

To be honest to me it's not really that big of a deal if someone just genuinely likes TSH's atmosphere and aesthetic and quotes and whatnot. Parts of it are purposefully written to be alluring and impactful and pretty, and I think you're allowed to find them so without it meaning you missed the warning about not idolizing people in pursuit of pointless and shallow ideals. You can be aware of the message and critique it wanted to convey while also just enjoying the book itself from time to time lol. If someone says they have a morbid longing for the picturesque or whatever chances are they know they're not supposed to take it literally or base their whole personality on it, they just think the cool quote is cool. And actually I think letting yourself indulge in Richard's perspective makes you realize even better how skewed it really is and it's the best way to experience TSH

[crimson-jirai]

CRIMSON PASSION IGNITES MY HEART... 🫀 (intro!!)

HAI EVERYONE!!! IM CRIMSON!! IM LIKE... A BIT NEW TO THE JIRAI COMMUNITY BUT I WANTED TO MAKE A BLOG LIKE THIS FOR A VERY LONG TIME SO YEAH!!!

ABOUT ME:

AGE: 15

SEXUALITY: LESBIAN

GENDER: NON-BINARY (SHE/THEY)

STUFF I HAVE:

AUTISM (SELF DIAGNOSED AS MY COUNTRY MAINLY IGNORES AFAB PPL WITH AUTISM + WILL DISCRIMINATE AGAINST THEM GREATLY)

(SOCIAL) ANXIETY (DIAGNOSED... YIPPIE)

DEPRESSION

ALSO... I DONT SH... I AM CLEAN FOR ABOUT... 3 YEARS I BELIEVE BY NOW?? AND WOULD LIKE TO STAY THAT WAY AND I HOPE U GUYS CAN SUPPORT ME THROUGHOUT THAT!!!

DNI :

BASIC DNI CRITERIA, ZIONISTS, L0LI/SH0TAC0NS, ANTI-RECOVERY, ANTI-NEOPRONOUNS (DONT USE EM BUT THEY COOL AS HELL!!! SO NO HATING.), VIVZIEPOP MEDIA FANS.

WHAT I'LL POST!! :

VENTS, RANDOM THOUGHTS AND SUCH... ALSO I WANNA BE A LITTLE SILLY AND BE A BIT IDOL-LIKE SO YEAH :33 HOPE U GUYS WILL LIKE THAT ASWELL!!!

HASHTAGS:

#‧₊˚🫀✩ ₊˚☎️⊹♡ Crimson calls = normal posts/random thoughts!

#🥀 ˚｡⋆🍷⋆୨♡୧ Crimson sadness = vents!

#๋࣭ ⭑🍒⚝ Crimson is an idol! = "idol activities" (fan name is "rose garden", as suggested by 🍧🦴 anon!! :3)

#𓊆❤️‍🩹🧷𓊇ྀི Crimson notices you! = asks! (PLEASE SEND ASKS PLSS!!! YOU CAN BE A TINY BIT PARASOCIAL I DONT MIND!! IM AN IDOL AFTER ALL !!! >:3)

I HOPE WE'LL ALL GET ALONG ❤️‍🩹🌹

[sunny1sdead]

I just wanna sing and dance and be a pretty idol but I’m too much of a loser tbh

[yoursweetidol]

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Hello! Welcome to my safe space! This is where I’ll be writing about my daily life, about my p-chan, and about my personal emotions!

I am an Ame irl and understand if other’s want to block from that, so please feel free to! If you want to interact but it causes you issues, just refer to me as Rui!

Dividers used by Selysie!

I go by Ame and Rui, I use she/her pronouns, and I am a young adult. I will be active in jirai tags, yandere tags, and will be using a list of personal tags to make this feel more like home on the internet!

Please feel free to use tonetags with me, as I am very bad with tone!

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For all of my personal tags:

1. #streamer-life - all posts I make will feature this

2. #idol inspo - all reblogs

3. #p-chan why - vents about my p-chan

4. #love-letter to p-chan - happy rants/vents about my p-chan

5. #p-chan forever - obsessive thoughts about my p-chan

6. #broken angel - vents regarding sh or sui talk

7. #idol body struggles - vents or posts regarding ana/ed

8. #thought overload - general vents

9. #fragile idol - jirai posts

10. #obsessed and cute - general obsessive posts/yan posts

11. #streamer overload - emotional posts

12. #dear diary of doom - extremely personal posts

13. #reading your comments - answered asks

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My DNI is as follows:

1. Bigots, racists, homophobes, transphobes, anti-LGBTQIA+

2. Proship/anti-anti

3. Ablest

4. “[disorder] abuse” people

5. Misogynistic, sexist

6. Give unsolicited advice

7. Anti-ED

8. Support abuse, pedophilia, lolicon, shotacon

9. Pro-contact anti-recovery philias

10. TERFs, SWERFs, radqueer

11. Use slurs you can’t reclaim

12. Fetishists of any type

13. Drama starters

14. Fashion only jirai

15. People that get with me just to date, like first day type trying

I block freely and might add more to this list! Thank you for joining me if you do!

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[azaenya]

"Why choose Barbara as a main character for your story?"

Me:

tis a little meme for the story I'm writing (whenever that will be finished 'v';)

[renatanebitno]

- be rebellious with glow. 💕

[alien-til-i-stage]

As we already know, Hyuna was a particpant of the 49th season of Alien Stage. While many people theorize that they had a duet at some point, its highly unlikely. The reason I believe this is because Luka was the one who won Alien Stage, meaning even if he went against Hyuna, she would’ve died.

We could say that the rebellion could’ve saved her before her death, but even then the duet wouldn’t have time to be complete.

I believe that its likely that Hyuna almost went against him, but left right before the round. Theres multiple reasons for me to think this.

We know that its possible for kids to run away from Anakt Garden, from both Till and Ivan trying to. It’s not like Hyuna was someone rebellious before Hyunwoo’s death, in fact seen as the garden’s big sister, no doubt gaining at least some favor with the teachers. While I don’t think this would’ve led to her escape, it could’ve helped her at least attempt running away. However we never get any scenes showing she tried.

It’s possible that she thought about it, but decided against it, wanting to stay with the rest of the kids there. As the garden’s older sister, she definitely cared about them all. She has a lot to lose if she ran away, unlike Ivan with Till.

This might explain how she got all the way to Alien Stage, perhaps because she stuck with them until adulthood, showing how despite a desire to leave, she stayed because of how much she cares for them.

We also see her with cigarettes, something that she really shouldn’t have. In fact, she shouldn’t even know what those are due to her sheltered life at Anakt Garden. I believe this is likely due to aliens sneaking them to her at some point. We know that if she was the big sister to Anakt Garden, it’s likely the teachers really liked her, perhaps sneaking her contraband as a gift or such.

If this is the case, then it would also show that she would’ve still obeyed the aliens orders and rules, despite wanting to leave. This shows how far she is willing to go for her sisters and brothers in Anakt Garden, doing whatever it took to gain favor with the aliens and to protect them. If she is willing to do this much to help them, then it means she cares a lot for them.

Which leads me to my next point.

I believe that because of how much she cares for the other kids, she stuck with Alien Stage. She might’ve been looking for a way out while in the contest. This is where I have two theories.

1. She was not able to rescue anyone and the only people left was her and Luka, so when the rebellion came she left. This fits, because she has nothing left to stay for. She no longer has wishes to be around Luka, and this would also paralell Ivan and Till, how Till left Ivan behind, but instead Till went back to Anakt Garden and Hyuna went with the rebellion. This would also give them uncomplete business, with Luka not getting the duet he could’ve had with Hyuna and Hyuna not getting the closure she needed from Luka.

2. Another theory is that they came and saved her before it was just her and Luka. Knowing how far she came for the other kids, I doubt that at this point she would leave them, so if this is the case then its most likely that the other kids in the contest that they could save were saved. In fact this could even be where Issac ans Dewey came from, perhaps they once were Alien Stage contestants themselves.

I believe theory one is much closer to reality then theory two, as its likely Alien Stage wouldn’t be able to turn a blind eye to most of the kids escaping. I also think theory one is much more narratively compelling for Hyuna and Luka’s relationship, showing how even if Luka was the last one, Hyuna would still never chose him.

[toxictidepod241]

It's funny how we shame pornstars for being potentially drugged and raped so their producers make money, but they and the people who watch it get off scot-free because porn is a "natural part of growing up". Like wtf????

[underachieverinlove]

[coolchickblog]

Jane Birkin inspired post in honour of her life and her timeless style and spirit. Rest in peace beautiful Angel🕊️❤️

my forever muse and icon🦢

[moving-to-dreamwinged]

every six months since i was fifteen i will feel the inexplicable need to rewatch my favorite movie of all time (fight club). it's like a compulsion and my mind will legitimately not rest and i will be unsettled, thinking fight club thoughts for days on end until i find a decently virus-free site to pirate that goddamn movie on. i can always feel it creeping up and think Oh Its Fight Club Time Of Year Again and i try to ignore it but i just cant. i get this phase where i feel so lost and scared in life but then i watch fight club and im factory reset and normal again. self fulfilling prophecy . my body craves fight club in the same way that it craves water I Love Fight Club

[loubella77]

18+ MDNI

I’m on a bit of a mean streak today, wanna help that out?

HMU for pay app/gift card payments

[kpop-bbg]