#idk. this is a bummer for this blog i try to keep bummers off of it

[sunlightera]

thinking tonight about how when i moved to florida. moving out for the first time to be semi on my own. i ended up losing my baby blanket that i had had for my entire life up to that point bc the abuser i was with forgot it in one of the many moves from place to place he put me through. i called it my heart blanket. there is a very heavy handed poem somewhere in this

[swordcats]

for the first time in a month i feel CLEAN :00

[freakygirlie]

Hi. Itk here. Believe me, don't, doesn't matter. Thought I'd drop (after you summoned ha) by given the chaos and try to enlighten the ones who choose to believe me, as much as I'm capable of.

The first thing I wanna say is: stop trying to figure out their relationship. You most likely never will. Fans are stuck on both extremes, when the actuality of it is far more in the middle (perhaps even up or down and all around ha). It's complex and strange and not at all "normal" (as normal as they could be, anyways).

It's not as simple as "oh they're just a closeted couple who engage in bearding and have kids and behind closed doors they're just a regular, old married couple and a big, happy rainbow family".

Doesn't sound like itk info, believe me, I get that but observing the fandom I'd say it almost is because most fans simply hang on extreme simplistic ideas of what their relationship is.

Second thing I'd like to say and unfortunately seems like it's not at all obvious but: do not believe anything they share publicly. Not saying they're lying compulsively, but they are public figures and they have a lot at stake to just casually drop the actual truth of any given situation.

Just don't. The same salt you have regarding itks, have towards them. It'd do you some good...Believe me. Unless you are involved in the entertainment or political life, you cannot even begin to fathom what it's really like, the level of manipulation, falsehood and well, overall deviation of it. It's quite disturbing tbh. So just always take whatever's said and shown with a good amount of salt. With public people hardly anything is accidental or casual.

I think the most prominent question now is...Why? Why would they do something like that? Regardless if you have the ingenuity to believe the little scene they made or not...Still, the question lingers.

With my level of "in the knowness" I cannot for sure say the real reason, yet from the pieces I've collected so far, seems to be a multiple gain scheme. It was a high risk, they were well aware, and it paid out in the way they were expecting, minus small bumps here and there. But overall it seemed to have worked in their favor. How in the hell, one would ask?

Believe me, I used my best sneaky capabilities to find out exactly why but they were smart enough to keep this one locked tight, minus a few loose lips. And from those all I've heard was that "whatever the purpose was, it worked out".

As weird as it may sound to the innocent mind, it's actually not at all, given that even leaked nudes are not at all leaked or accidental, and those tend to (at least in the past) get immense amount of backlash. It's not the first time famous folks fake a fight, surely won't be the last.

A lot goes into public image, it's not black and white as "well but it looked bad on Jensen", "it looked bad on the prequel", etc. You'd be surprised as how little this truly matters given the level of manipulation they are able to pull on the public. And well, even with them...It happens all the time. Both made mistakes far worse than just "not telling my bestie about my new project" and fans would eventually let that go and put them back on the pedestal.

So just remember, always: not in the industry? then don't judge anything because you simply do not understand how it works.

Another piece of itk information I can give besides "this was planned and it worked" is: they are fine. From what I've heard they are not fighting over it or going through anything more dramatic than what they usually have been going through ever since they met haha.

So just sit back and chill out. Breathe, read fanfiction and remember that we will never truly get answers, because even what comes out of their mouths are most of the time carefully thought out and directed to have a specific meaning and effect (why do you think Jared mumbles and rambles so much?).

Another interesting piece of itk: you know how they always say they never fight? Even though that sounds insanely hard to believe even if they were just friends because who knows someone for that long and is constantly together and never fights? Unlikely, right? Yes, as obvious as that was. But unfortunately a lot of you seem to believe that, given the level of shock you had for this little twitter feud (as fake as it was). Yeah. They fight. A lot.

They fight as much as individuals in their situation would. Like I said, not at all what most people absentmindedly seem to think it is. They go through a lot. Way more than anyone who isn't in a similar situation would understand. It's messy, although they try their best to make it simpler in the ways they can.

On top of being in a very complex situation, they both have strong personalities and one of them is quite hard to "pin down". So altercations happen a lot, but they know how to deal, and they are exceptionally good at making sure that doesn't interfere in their work (oh well, at least not any work that doesn't benefit from intense emotional exchanges, anyways 😉...chemistry isn't something random, you know? haha).

I find it quite...interesting (to put it nicely) that a lot of hats easily believe they are a couple that lies constantly about almost every aspect of their lives, yet, they cannot believe they would fake a social media narrative. It makes no sense whatsoever.

It'd do you all good to be a little less tendentious and look at them as, you know...Humans? They are not what they seem to be, just as you guys also take in different versions of yourselves in different situations, they do too. And don't be so hopelessly naive to actually believe they see fans as "hashtag family". This is their work. And as grateful as they are for supporters, they certainly do not consider them family. To the point of never lying and trusting you with their life.

I'm sure they love their fans, but come on, saying they would never lie because that's mean to fans is just beyond naive. They've been doing it all along and oh, another interesting info? They don't think they're doing anything wrong.

Yeah, sounds weird, you'd think they'd feel guilty. But again, unless you were media trained, you'd never get it.

From years now if there's one consistent info I've gotten was this: they don't feel obligated to tell you anything. They believe they are doing "what they are supposed to do, the right thing for everyone involved".

So. Yeah. And hell, they are right about not being obligated to say anything about anything, I guess.

Well, I hope that was helpful or at least entertaining. It's hard to share info without accidentally making it obvious who I am for the lurkers (sure you guys were well aware that they lurk around the fandom). But it's safe because as long as I don't provide evidence, I'm fine. Just walking a thin line between sharing and not sharing something too specific that would be easy fir them to know who has that info and although they can't do anything against itks, they can manage to cut us off somehow and I enjoy having access lol, so that'd be a bummer.

Anyways, take itks and J2 themselves with a ton of salt haha! You are lovely, btw, you seem very kind and I enjoy your blog very much! much love!

itk anon everything you said was <333 and i agree with like almost all of it. very nice analysis and ask thank you ! i don't always believe everything j2 put out but the whole stunt being a false narrative just seems wrong so idk what to make of it. regardless i myself can sometimes get carried away in my star-struck love of j2. and i am a tinhat so well :) and now they look to be really good and taking a break from here was well worth it <3

''You are lovely, btw, you seem very kind and I enjoy your blog very much! much love!'' i love u so much hope u have a great day !

[dynyamight]

I've seen a lot of people do it, so if you are up for it~ Ship your moots!

FINALLY. THE AWAITED LIST OF MOOTS IS COMPLETE. sorry this took forever anon!!

now, this is going to be long & i will try not to overexplain my ship pairings. did i take time to think about each paring? yes. but, will they be serious? no. they are dumb & silly.

let the crack pairings begin <3!!

@dekusneakers x BAKUGOU & TODOROKI now you would think? sneakers in a throuple? how come? mmm simple. i couldn’t choose one for her so she gets both. the more the merrier. besides, she deserves love from both sides, kisses on both cheeks. one begrudgingly smooch & one icy kith. as a deku kin, she’s completely satisfied. you’re welcome

@izusun x AIZAWA & ORCA similarly, i can’t have my bestie here with just ONE babe. so, i thought why don’t we get a fatherly figure & a dad bod to give her all the love she needs. so yes, bestie, you two deserves hugs at both sides of you. a twiggy one & a muscly one. the sun needs some shade, & that shade is these men.

@midnightpirates x SUKUNA he’s a mass murderer !! you can’t— oh, but i can. you see, yanna here hates mahito & guess who was the one to fuck up his shit. ah, that’s right, it was sukuna. two mahito an/tis sitting in a tree <3 it’s the perfect match made in hell.

@goth-himbo-dabi x DOCTOR WHO once again, people might wonder: why not dabi? my answer? it’s because my bby here finds the twiggy men attractive. i know, bummer. & you can’t get any twiggy-er than david tennant & matt smith. but which doctor? all of them.

@minisheku x KAMINARI i see you simp for his dunce face. & honestly, who wouldn’t?? also, i originally put sheepku,, but that’s ,, a bit weird. but, here’s the solution. you OWN a sheepku, with kaminari. ah yes, a modern day family unit. & he can entertain you, as well as be a source of electricity for your drawing tablet !! resources !!

@oyavaski x EN you said he was hot literally in your tags earlier in a reblog. so, i am simply gifting you water to quench your thirst. may you two meet in afo, & fall in love in the subconscious of deku’s mind. will deku feel awks? yeah. but like pfft, he’s so whipped for bkg, he’ll forget you two chilling in the corner of his thoughts.

@okworstie x GOJO & WATARI i never have to look up the gojo tag, like ever. because you’re always plastering his face all over my timeline. & yes, this is a good thing. but, the same applies to watari. i have never even seen bakudiez, or whatever it’s called, but apparently he’s aro, & there’s a moth man, & tape hits post limit thursday’s? yeah just keep both, mimi.

@rrandomtthings x AN/TI as one of fellow loyal, amazing bkdks, i think it’s only fitting that you find true love with a bkdk an/ti. create the banti we seek in our community. the enemies to lovers trope is in your blood, written in your deku genes. so, i dedicate the banti movement with this small offering of a ship. may you find diamonds on the minecraft server & build a diamond cabin.

@believeyourgalaxy x ITADORI you two are such cinnamon rolls !!!! super friendly. super kind. super relatable. & together, you guys can pin over megumi. maybe hopefully, sam can help itadori with his low iq brain to finally get together with megumi. because damn, sam can be like “this is my boyfriend, itadori. & this is itadori’s boyfriend, megumi.”

@wrensknight x SHIRAKUMO i didn’t even know it was oboro birthday, until you not only made a public post about to, but made art for him. cloud boy needs that partner to respect & cherish him entirely. & you just treat him so right?? draw him so good?? i hope you can go cloud watching & then later, ride the clouds with him. till death do you guys uh,, you know,,

@b1m0 x MIDORIYA you can't stand when he gets injured, let alone reckless & trying to save the world, when he should literally be saving his own ass. but, that just means you care about him DEEPLY. plus, you both are wholesome people. obviously two cinnamon rolls make a whole bakery !! & who doesn't want a bakery ?? i sure do! wehjw idk why i brought the point here, but just know you two make sense.

@mysterionrising x RENGOKU & VIGILANTE DEKU it’s that enemies to lovers trope once again !! for someone who wrote him off as annoying the first seconds she met him, kenny sure flipped over to the stan side. ever since then, i can only see kenny when i see rengoku. but, you know who else reminds me of kenny. vigilante deku. it’s super fruity that you have an entire bomb playlist for him. so keep him too !!

@kamishima x KIRISHIMA you are the biggest kiri simp i have ever met. you basically ship kiri with anyone who makes him happy. though, you do have a lot of ships, but with kiri it’s different. & so, i was thinking ‘mmm, if bug ships kiri with so many people?? shouldn’t she ship him with HERSELF?’ boom. suddenly both kiri & bug are happy, with a lovely home. my work here is done.

@ckatsudon x LAW LIET did i dig through your blog. why yes. & you know what i found? reblogs & tags dedicated to L. he’s best boy. he’s precious. he deserves a better end. an end with you. mmhmm !! because if we rewrote death note, where you were light, i think L & light could have been canon. & that also would make you happy. & the rest of the entire world

@drfox-kinnie x UNIKITTY i don’t even know the show, let alone who unikitty is exactly. but, you reblogged a banner, confirming your love for unikitty. & so, i am of course doing you a big favor !! she’s bubbly, friendly, & passionate just like you !! & bestie, while i may not know nothing about her, i know you love her. so, maybe you two platonically have a wonderful time, adventuring with the other wholesome characters !! also,, is she big enough to travel on? if so, look i got you a cat car!!

@midorree x MINACHAKO i ship you with another ship. why? because i can. besides, you are like my moot who is genuinely a head leader of the minachako ship on my timeline, & you have steadily been converting me?? but, i also noticed that mina AND uraraka have stolen your heart, & you have yet to fight them for it back. i hope you three can go into a brawl & see who can grab each other’s hands fastest.

@kiribakuxkacchakolover x HATSUME YOU HAVE IT AS YOUR TITLE HEADER. like you are literally having a billboard that calls mei your cutie patootie. &, you ask, & you shall receive. i hope you two can be the dorkiest nerds together, & ramble for eons & eons. i hope i’m invited to the transformer wedding you two will have <,3

@balaroo x MIRUKO like before, you too have your interest out in the open in your title header. but, you see, miruko is a total babe, with confidence & ego & with this stride that makes even the most alpha male quiver. you would be a total wife to miruko’s girlboss energy & that’s why this ship totally works.

@quix-mix x FREDDY FAZBEAR my precious lil young moot, i dug into your blog & noticed you enjoy the fnaf games. & mmm are you perhaps wanting to cuddle a certain demonic teddy bear? well, i approve. he'll fall in love, head over heels, with your art, he might not possess you right away !! might. but, listen, you always do enjoy the villains (; i gotchu !!

@lonely-rabbit x LANCE you said we’re moots & i agree, we are. however, i have noooo idea what even are your preferences. so, i went digging. & it’s such a coincidence that we bonded over our voltron trauma, & yet you still continue to simp over lance. &, like i don’t blame you !!! he’ll always be dumb baby & so all i ask is that you love him, for our sake. & sanity.

[starsailorstories]

Multiple times I’ve seen anons write in to lefty blogs like “I know leftism is all about community but i’m autistic/mentally ill/just a super huge introvert and idk if I could handle community 24/7” and they’ve all been answered along the lines of like “well in a decentralized communist society you can be as interdependent or as self-sufficient as you want” which isn’t untrue but I think glosses over the labor needed to become self-sufficient (yeah once you get the ball rolling it’s not that bad but you will need to either have a barn raising or work VERY hard for the first solid decade, and even then success isn’t guaranteed) and also misses the emotional impetus behind the ask, which is, “what is my role in the revolution if protests and meetings make me wanna cry?” So here’s my list of suggestions for this situation:

Remember that “community” doesn’t have to mean “making face to face small talk.” A lot of actions, such as marches supporting strikes, and mutual aid stuff like food not bombs and urban development stuff just need BODIES. People to make a bigger crowd, people to pack boxes, people to show up at a certain time each week when nobody else is around and check the watering system. You are not being judged on your ability to make friends, I promise! Plus, a polite email about accessibility needs and what to expect does wonders. The good news about people who are trying to improve society is that even if they’re still learning, they WANT things to be as accessible as possible. Know what you need, but don’t lose sight of how much you can contribute. If you show up once to an action and then go home and lie down in your quiet house with the blinds drawn the rest of the month, you have STILL DONE MORE than if you hadn’t acted. But also, keep in mind that you can build community without socializing in a traditional way. If you live in a low income area, try using local-based social networks like Nextdoor to pool resources--it can be as easy as making a post saying you’ve got groceries that need used up before you can eat them, seriously! If you live in a more well-off area, you can try to connect with like-minded people nearby and then team up to raise funds for mutual aid kickstarters etc., especially if they were posted by people just over the tracks from you.

Revolution DOES need people who aren’t direct boots on the ground. Disengage from discussion for a while and work out your mind. Study. Write. Discuss local leftist praxis in a constructive way. Teach yourself about organizing tactics and then make videos to teach them to others in a more accessible way. Learn about the laws in your town and state and create tools for helping people know their rights or critically analyze political messages. Read or view stories that masterfully rebuke the status quo and celebrate the human spirit, ANALYZE how they do what they do, and then make your own! Learn about history from a revolutionary perspective--and again, learn to TEACH it in engaging ways, or share your knowledge with people who can already. Don’t get bogged down because you can’t do it just like some online big shot you admire. Look outside what’s popular and develop a unique approach and voice. The internet can be a bummer, but what’s good about it is that it makes intellectual community more accessible than ever. Yes you don’t wanna be a theory wonk, but thinkers are still the backbone of any sort of lasting change--and they’re just people like you.

Know your limits--but push them sometimes. Self-care is important, but I’d advise against using it as a reason to never go outside your comfort zone. If we want to change the world, we have to want it enough to sacrifice, do hard things in smart ways, and learn to handle fear mindfully. You are the expert on what you can and can’t do. Decide for yourself where you could push a little farther instead of listening to outside voices telling you you’re “making excuses” and pushing yourself towards burnout. The human impulse towards heroism is divine yet easy to exploit. Find your heroism and be the master of it.

[fidgetheart]

hey i’m looking to get into a role play but i’ve never done it before so do you have any recommendations on how to start, how to roleplay, etc??

aw man, uhhh… well, I got some wc ones! Land of the Lost is currently accepting, a new reboot of Clans of the Shoshone, Falling Leaves (for Pack and Clan), and Left in Lesdin’s gonna be opening soon! 

for how to start, I def recommend creating a character you want to rp - you want one that you can connect to, and can rp often. I’ve created characters on a whim multiple times before, which… wasn’t great bc I ended up abandoning them basically which was just a mess dfjhfdh

start with a design, name, and a base personality, but give yourself room for them to grow!! if you have any ideas in mind with them, definitely talk to a mod if you’re in a group rp, like the ones I listed. you can talk to others to set up relationships, or just rp and build them from there! you can be vague with family and bg, or go all out! tho it def depends on what the rp has going on, bc you may want to add bg events to their bio o: also there’s normally a bio format posted with each rp, so you don’t need to worry about setting one up!

also, bc apps are through google docs, I highly recommend saving any oc info you make bc I keep forgetting to do that and I immediately forget what I wrote dsfhjfdsh

with rping in general, it’s gonna depend on the rp! usually the ones I’m in are more literate, which asks for at least a paragraph reply, but it’s not always the case! also, you don’t have to be a writer to rp! it may be awkward at first, but it definitely gets easier as you rp more and more - I’ll give an example at the end!

oh! I can’t believe I forgot this, but reading the rules is highly important! please read them and make sure you follow them 

hmmmm…. I’m not sure what else to add for it?? I feel like I’m not answering your questions hhhh - I’m bad at explaining stuff rip

outside of discord, I have no idea ahah - I know there are a lot of forum rps out there, and it’s been a few years since I’ve used the forums on fanfiction net so idk if those are even still active ahah

tumblr rp has changed a lot - before, all you had to do was set up a blog (side or main - I prefer main bc it’s easier to follow other rp blogs and get recognized), and either rp as a canon character or an oc! ofc they don’t need to be a fandom oc, they can just be an og one!

but for tumblr rp, you def gotta think of a solid character bg if an oc (fandom or not) bc it’s easier for everyone when other muns can look and see who your character is. I def recommend setting up a rule page, so that way you can explain what stuff you want to avoid (for me was nsfw stuff mostly), or stuff you’re fine with (a lot of people would mention age ranges they were comfortable with when it came to other muns - like there were a few rp blogs that would only interact with people 18+ or 21+, which was a good thing tbh)

it’s def been a hot minute since I’ve rped on here, but when you make an oc to rp, this is where it gets hella important to make sure you can connect with them - I ended up ditching a lot of blogs bc I lost muse, and it’s a bummer tbh, but it does happen. also idk if rping is still active here or not? bc last I check the marvel rp tag it was just. ads for group rps and idk if they’re tumblr based anymore

anyway, tumblr rping is def gonna be harder! just bc it’s hard to get off the ground at the beginning, and it’s just… idk, weird? some people won’t respond to you and things get lost and it can become a mess, but at the same time, it can be a lot of fun! it just really depends on how you handle stuff and how active you are really

I’m def just spit-balling at this point, ahah - sorry about that! I’m trying to explain stuff but, again, I’m horrible at that dfjhfdhj

I’ll definitely try to clear stuff up for you tho!! just lmk with whatever questions you have o:

also here’s an rp example of mine!! tho, I did change  some stuff to keep clan specific secrets still secret for a certain rp!

The pale queen had arrived shortly after Aspenstar and Jaggedstripe settled Badgerwing’s body down in the flowers. She would’ve been with them, matching their steps stride by stride, but she had to check on her kits before she left. She had seen how frightened they were with the thunder alone, and she couldn’t imagine the confusion the little ones must’ve felt when their Clanmates began to panic at the death before Aspenstar soothed them. They were far too young to understand death, and she could only pray that it wouldn’t affect them. And despite how collected she had seemed back in camp, it was clear the deputy’s death had was not taken lightly - her steps were slow, her eyes misted with grief.

 A shaky breath escaped her jaws as Mistfang slowed to a stop beside her gathered Clanmates, the air thick with grief and tension. Finchpaw spoke, then Grasspelt. Jaggedstripe stepped toward Badgerwing next, but it was clear she was in too much pain to speak. But… as she gazed around at the others, her throat tightened with grief. Was no one else going to speak? Bluestone remained silent. Hootnose was silent as well, his gaze averted, and it was clear he wished to be anywhere but there. She just hoped their silence wasn’t from hostility - from them still holding a grudge for her leaving them for so long.

With a shake of her head, the molly slowly stepped forward, leaning down to rasp her tongue over Badgerwing’s head. “You were larger than life,” she said at last, her voice soft as ever. “You helped us each in your own way, and I feel my words can never be enough to explain my gratitude. You saved my life, and helped me with my kits. I can’t thank you enough for everything you have done. I hope you find comfort in StarClan, and I wish you all the best.”

It was shorter than she would’ve liked, but Mistfang hadn’t been close to Badgerwing - not as much as she would’ve liked. But regrets were useless, and she knew the dangers of getting lost in the what-ifs. As long as the deputy was safe in StarClan, free of any pain and of any troubles, then she knew it would be okay. It had to be. 

Slowly, Mistfang took a few steps back, head bowed as she sat down.

[chelsanitys]

@ all the shippers who have sent me no less than twenty messages in the last 36 hours about vm finally dating: idk why so many of you need my validation and need ME to believe they’re dating too. and i’m not disbelieving because i want to be a ‘bummer’ or want to ‘rain on everyone’s parade’ - i’m disbelieving because THIS HAS ALL HAPPENED BEFORE AND WILL ALL HAPPEN AGAIN. the difference between me and most of you guys is that i didnt just start watching figure skating on feb 16 2014 and i know how vm work, i know how their fandom works and i know this cycle will CONTINUE INTO INFINITUM UNTIL THE END OF TIME.

The Cycle: vm do something cute -> “omg do you guys think they’re finally dating??” -> vm do one more thing cute -> “omg guys i really do think they’re dating now” -> egged on by completely unreliable fan sightings/reports of them kissing/making out somewhere -> “they’re definitely dating now and their friends are just saying they’re not because they want to protect them” -> vm deny they’re dating -> “they’re just lying bc they want to keep things private” -> vm show up with some other person that looks like a gf/bf -> “CALM DOWN GUYS, its prob just a friend, girls and guys can have friends of the opposite sex!” -> vm are definitely dating someone that is not each other -> “i just dont know how they can treat each other this way and be with someone else, it all feels like a lie” -> vm fans are despondent until vm break up with their s/o -> vm do something cute

most of tumblr has been through one cycle of this since 2014 - i’ve been through at least 5 since 2007

“but chelsea,” you protest, “aren’t things DIFFERENT this time? don’t things feel DIFFERENT this time?”

sis it feels different every time thats how you guys get sucked in

“but they’re both single now...and for so long!”

maybe they want to focus on a teeny tiny thing called the olympics coming up in 9 months... idk im just spitballin here

“but they seem so much happier now!”

yes it is amazing what having two years off and not having a coach actively trying to sabotage you will do for ur morale

“but they keep slipping up. scott accidentally almost said they were in love yesterday. tessa paused for 0.03 seconds before answering if they were dating! what does that mean?”

absolutely nothing. i have a laundry list of 5000 other moments in the past ten yrs that have also amounted to absolutely nothing

“but weren’t tatiana and max just like this before they announced they were engaged? why cant that be vm?”

because they’re two different teams and two entirely different dynamics?? if The Cycle hadnt existed, the v/t theory might fly. in any case v/t were constantly photographed on vacation together, whereas the only evidence vm even spend time outside the rink together is one random anon on someone’s blog who you are all so willing and eager to believe over vm’s 100 other friends/coaches/acquaintances who say they’re not dating

“but chelsea if i want to believe they’re together, why cant i?”

ummm feel free, no one is stopping you. just stop harassing me in MY inbox about it and then accuse ME of bullying people. i mean for gods sake

“ok but chelsea if it comes out they are finally dating, are you willing to admit you’re wrong and eat crow?”

look if i’m wrong i will eat crow, peacock, flamingo and any other damn bird you put in front of me

(.......but i’m not)

[battrishcrazy]

Jinnkies, SCOOBYNATURAL!!! - for this blog you definitely want to go to my actual webpage blog. There are lots of pictures and I put alot of time into formatting it!

http://www.justtrishsmith.com/lilbatblog/march-31st-2018

The intro is about me and my love for Scooby, Superntural, Buffy, and just so you get to know me better then the bottom is spoiler filled, and is my commentary on the Scoobynatural episode!!! leave comments!!

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Guys!!!!! This is seriously the best thing ever created!! We'll maybe that's an exaggeration but I mean its pretty accurate. Its kinda rare I get excited about anything, and typically when I do I some how get let down because my exceptions are too high. BUT 100% just WOWing at Scoobynatural!!         Supernatrual is longstanding my favorite TV show (yes, I like it more then BUFFY.) Well I do now, I was overly obsessed with Buffy in High School. It is kind of embarrassing but also not really, I stand by my obsession! I made a lot of my friends because of it in college I even called our friend group the Scooby-Gang; as from Buffy... As a kid who didn't love Scooby-Doo, but I mean obviously I did. Been spooky since  I was born pretty much haha! My room still has some of my my Scooby items. I typically; blankets, posters, even one of those plastic three drawer things with wheels- its pretty fancy too and the creepy eyes glow in the dark). And how awesome did I think it was it that Sarah Michelle Gellar (BUFFY) played Daphne in Scooby-Doo live action?! I would get so excited for all the actors in Buffy to be in anything else but for it to combine some of my favorite things,  HELL YEAH! ((Matthew Lillard as shaggy was great, love that dude. SLC PUNK & SLC PUNK 2 are some more of my favorite things. If you havent watched SLC PUNK 2, go do so. Its pretty funny, probably my most watched movie on Netflix. I am Trish (from the movie), she is the future me. A kick ass punk/goth woman, with pink hair a floppy hat, and owns a oddity shop!!)) ... Because of my excitement and anticipation for months waiting the episode I wanted to share it with someone, even if they didn't love Supernatural too. A big thing on my mind lately is sharing experiences and excitement in things (hobbies, shows, etc) with someone you love. EVEN IF its not something you or they necessarily like. BUT for the reason of watching the one you love be excited and see how happy they are when they share with you. (This is actually one of my blog topics, because it keeps coming up or being on my mind, when I want to share but people are so accepting. I do my best especially for those I love to try to like or at least enjoy that they like something) but again I'll write that later. ( THIS IS JUST HOW MY BRAIN WORKS AND IT JUMPS ALL OVER BEFORE I EVEN GET TO MY SUBJECT) Because I was home I got to watch it with my MOM! Which was probably the best choice because she loves Scooby-Doo too, shes the one who let me watch it and like it. But also because she doesn't judge me on my love for Supernatural and weird things. Even though she may not understand it sometimes or like it she never judges me and just things I'm silly. Sometimes shes in the room when I watch Superntural or any of my shows and I kinda fill her in and then get to laugh out loud because someone else is in the room. I actully dont watch my shows around many people. I am a talker in movies BUT don't talk during my show, unless its little comments. I mean thats all I do in movies too, at least the first time watching is just my commentary (which sometimes is pretty funny or insightful and I should record it). But yeah I don't share my show time with many people and there are few I want to share it with. Because that is my nerdiest self when watching my shows for the first time!!! So, yeah, watching with Mom was a good idea, and I'm super happy I got to be home for the day and that she let me watch it and stayed up till like 1 am watching it with me). ... oh I suppose I should add in for those of you who don't know me well. I went to school for animation, film, and design. So some animations are super exciting and impressive to me, others stress me out, and then some I'm like WTF are you doing I know people who could do this way better. I also don't do anything with animation. Sadly, I hate drawing and don't like my hand drawn artwork. Its stressful and I don't have the patients for it. Although in college I took the classes because I wanted to learn visual effects not so much the animation. BUT I was the first to graduate from Point Park's animation program. At the time the program was brand new and mostly animation not visual effects. If I could go back part time and take a few classes, I would really love that.. maybe some day but 6 years of college already cost enough. I really want to take the class where they make music videos too but also I just wish to do visual effects and music videos. Which most everyone knows and I just need to get a gig and do it and learn from those around me I already have the foundations and many skills.. the point is some of the things I thought were the funniest were just because of animation jokes and such!! ... This isn't a review and definitely has spoilers. Its just what some of my thoughts and commentary was. To review or write out everything I'd have to watch again and write down my thoughts because I don't always remember them all. When I'm enjoying something and in the moment, not focused on anything else, I don't remember every detail just how much I liked it or disliked it and just my feelings mostly..        I just have to say the writers and creators of Supernatural and genius and always come up with such awesome ideas. I love the show because of the variety of monsters and not just the same basic thing over and over. Also they stick so close to legions and lore (from the knowledge of I have of these things). I'm so picky on supernatural shows of movies because I like tradition so I like the creativity combined to tradition. ... not writing in paragraphs just ideas as they came ... "MOM, dean just gets attached to objects okay" ...                  How they ended up in Scooby world was a mystery to me until watching. I knew the episode was coming and wondered how they would end up there   but did'nt even really make any guesses. Sooooo (again spoilers here) they get sucked in with a beautiful purple electric portal type thing! I was like well I should have seen them getting sucked into the TV thing coming but I didn't, so surprised right off. Really my only thought was a cursed lunch box or a spell?.. Also purple electric is awesome, as I obviously always choose purple or green for anything I'm doing! ... the cartoon, exaggerated face slap!     Pretty much my excitement matches Deans but even more so because I get to see his excitement (kinda like I was saying about enjoying loved ones reactions) ... "except Fred hes a Wad..." "Cas is kind of like our talking dog.."(cracked up and explained to mom that Cas is their angel.. in case she forgot) ... at one point realized that non of the characters have white in their eyes and drove me nuts for a few scenes ... Agreed Fred is kind of a dick.. Don't be mean to Dean, Dude. ...    Oh the nostalgia of the castle with the bats!!! My heart! My love for bats probably started here. I CANT EVEN! ... Sam, dude, stop being a grump and enjoy the day and your brothers happiness. You're being a bummer and I want to punch you. I love you too but dude! ... Deans night gown.. Even mom laughed at that part!! ... Jinkies, Jeepers, RutRo, SON OF A BITCH!! all the Scooby gang remained pretty chill for seeing an actual dead guy! but the wondering of everything in this is just so perfect! how Sam points out its an actual dead dude to everyone saying their typical catch phrase!! just everything about this is so well planned, referenced, brilliant! ...                     Fred is a dick again... Daphne doesn't agree "not really" ha! ... someone is outside the window. everyone thinks its a bad guy.. I just yell CAS!!! then it ends up being Cas. His entrance as per usual is comedic... also I did not guess it was Cas following them eariler. I didn't make any guesses on that, again. (which is odd, I usually make all the predictions and drive everyone nuts, but I just was so focused!) ... "So, do they always just walk away from dead bodies" SECOND BODY- as soon as they show it I go "that's bit brutal..." and mom giggled. I'm assuming because of how fast I said it or because usually I complain about there not being enough blood. But HEY, I'm on the same page as Dean still and I'm in Scooby land and like WOAH.. also the Scooby Gang still not shocked at the blood, I guess they really think its fake or they just like.. IDK. ... Damn Velma you being a bit much of a bitch towards Sam. Like yeah your awkward and you think hes cute, but mean is not the way to go. (he's sensitive) ... I'd totally pick Shaggy and Scoobies split up time, not because I'm a chicken but just because who doesn't want to get to spend their time with those two, and go find some snacks! ...  THE SCOOBY CHASE SCENE!!!! OMG.. more nostalgia! probably my favorite part of the episode.. maybe.. might have saw even Scrappy Doo running around!          oh no! Shaggy falls and gets hurt!! Dang Shaggy, I've never seen you get so mad. He just knows he's typically invincible and just like doesn't think a think but he gets just a bit violent there with his reaction. My thought oh Cas is there hell, heal him..... BUT UMMMM he doesn't... I bring this up about 10 more times over the next few scenes. Just like why, they obviously know things are going on, or hey do it in secret. Don't let poor Shaggy suffer! ... again, oh no!! The Scooby Gangs hearts are broken, they don't know how to react to finding out that the supernatural exist.. freaking out!!!!! but Dean to the rescue, jumps in with a pep talk and gets their butts into gear for the battle!! (then the Scooby Gang gets a bit intensely into fighting monsters. They are a passionate bunch!!) ...                                              Dean lets Fred come up with a plan.... which fails.. But I'll let you watch that without describing it! not too many comments that I made during the scene! JUST BUBBLES! ... go to plan B... HOLD UP WAIT... Good plan BUT like when you pull the book to the secret passage. ummmmm, how does the Ghost fall.. what?! I Just yelled out HES A GHOST!!!! but I mean okay, a minor critique. and were in cartoon world, so it's all good! the salt circle does make sense, and it is pretty when the ghost tries to escape and more purple shocks.... ... LOVE love love, green and purple combo (mostly is used in spooky or Halloween themed things) but also just my theme. website, just realized thats the color of my nails right now, have a bunch of tattoos that color.. also planning on getting the Superntural tattoo but in a new school way not tribal and in green and purples... talking about it this week actually. decided on that recently but before this episode but only makes me want to get it sooner ...     Then they punch you in the heart!!!!!!!!!!! Because the bad guy is actually...... ... A KID!! an adorable little sweet kid being manipulated by a bad man! so so so sad!!! OMG! ... they then decide they need to cover up the realness from the Scooby Gang before they leave back to their world to set the kid free and then FINALLY CAS HEALS SHAGGY... in secret... SO LIKE WHAT TOOK SO LONG?!!! Come on Cas! ... THE END. well a few more scenes but nothing I have comments on!!! -- SO GO WATCH SCOOBYNATURAL NOW.        Also will there be an episode where they go back or where they Scooby gang comes to the supernatural world and live action…. (if so better be Sarah, Freddy, Matthew, Linda.... oh and Seth Green too because who doesn't want more Seth Green on their TV!) ... Let me know if you like it, let me know if you hate it (I hope you don’t) Let me know if you want it to be more like other peoples reviews or if you like how I did this one.... I've never wrote a review on anything, and I don't really read them, or watch them. BUT I don't watch or read much because I want to create my own content and make my own style so it doesn't have too much influence by anyone else. But also I really want to support others, do research and become better! ... DO YOU HAVE A BLOG? DO YOU DO REVIEWS? WHAT DO YOU DO? COMMENT YOUR LINKS AND ALSO SUGGESTIONS TO OTHER PEOPLE DOING SIMILAR THINGS FOR ME TO CHECK OUT. OR EVEN SOMETHING TOTALLY DIFFERENT IF YOU THINK ILL LIKE IT ... THANKS! PLZ VISIT MY WEBSITE! THE BLOGS LOOK WAY BETTER OVER THERE!!

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LOS ANGELES

I feel like I haven’t updated this in forever. Like, two months. I went to fucking LA though and had one of the best trips of my life. And I’m going to write all about it here. 

So on February 15th, a Wednesday, Tori and I get a text from Austin in our group message asking us to come with them to LA the next day. The original plan was for just them two to go, but at the last minute they extended the invitation to us. It was SO last minute. Initially I was like, nah I can’t go. I’ll miss too much class and I need to do too many things. But as the night went on, it became more realistic as I thought of all the things I would need to get into order and how it could be plausible!

That night, there was an event called Jumprope for Heart that the ambassadors volunteered at. There, me and Tori and Dylan talked about the trip. Tori said that she’d go if I went, which made me like low-key excited. Nothing had happened with her since my last post besides just kind of hanging out sometimes with everyone and making jokes about the whole ordeal. We started kind of just talking about it openly. 

Anyway, by the end of the night it was set. We were going to leave for LA the next day. I spent all night finishing a lab and trying to get a tour covered and packing, and the next day we left around 5pm. Which was way later than originally planned, but whatever. The car ride there was actually not bad. It took about 10 hours. It was kind of funny cause no one even asked me/expected me to drive. Maybe it’s cause I’m Asian.

Wait, fuck, have i even talked about Austin in this blog yet? No I haven’t. I’ll make a post on him later. He is Dylan’s new boyfriend and he’s literally perfect and I love him more than I love Dylan. TBH. 

We arrived at Austin’s house at around 3am. It was HUGE and so freaking NICE. Austin took Tori and I upstairs and showed us our room and bed, which we would be sharing (this also excited me. was I going to get some lesbian action or what!?)

The next day we kind of bummed around. It was nice though cause Austin’s parents bought us all this food in the freezer and we were able to just hang out and nap. Around 2 or 3, we decided to go to Koreatown. This was probably my favorite part of the whole trip. On the way there, we challenged Tori to learn Korean in an hour, and she literally learned it so well that she was reading signs when we went to Koreatown! Korea town there is HUGE. So many Koreans everywhere, which was way awesome and really fun. We ate Korean food and talked about Korean things, and Tori was way into it which is a huge turn on.

This picture is one Tori put on her story of me. We also went to a big Korean market and shopped for Soju and snacks. Dylan was in a bad mood cause he felt “left out.” This entire trip he was being kind of a bitch lololol.

Afterwards, we surprised Simran! We went to her apartments and tried to plan it out to surprise her with her roommates. It didn’t work out very well and we had to end up telling her we were there so that she would come home. She did, it was a tiny bit awkward cause I think she was intimidated by my hot ass friends, but it was still so good to see her at UCLA. 

And then we went to a party!!! All of Austin’s friends still live in LA, and they threw a house party. I was a little hesitant at first cause Austin had warned us that they were very lavish, large living, models/actors. But we got there and had a blast! I started drinking and it was awesome. I fucking love being drunk. 

There was this one pretty hot guy there. His name is Ethan Daniel Corbett, and you can google him! He acted in some TV drama. Anyway, Tori thought he was way hot and I didn’t at first, but as the night went on and we got more drunk, I literally finessed him into a room where we started making the fuck out. But I really didn’t want to do anything else, so I told him we should get back to the party hahaha. Apparently he was like looking for me/asking for me the whole night according to Austin and Dylan. I’m proud of myself cause he’s fucking hot. 

So anyway, I didn’t know if Tori was down to fuck around. I mean, all we did that one night was makeout and suckle on each other’s tits lol but I didn’t know if she would be down to hook up again or not. But she is so hot and cold that it was hard to tell. But of course, add alcohol and all of a sudden I have the balls to flirt with her, touch her, etc etc. She was a little bit salty about me hooking up with Ethan though, apparently she was complaining about it to Dylan and Austin. 

Somehow, and I don’t remember how, we ended up in a bed in a dark room making out. At first, I faked resistance. Like, “Nooo I told myself I wouldn’t do this again and wouldn’t let your ass seduce me.” Kind of as a joke. Kind of not. But anyway, we started making out and it. was. awesome. 

I don’t know why, maybe it’s cause I was drunk, but there is something literally magical about kissing Tori. Maybe it’s just girls in general. They’re softer, and prettier, and have nice hair, and are just so delicate. It’s like handling a piece of art rather than a piece of... man. At one point, we even went inside a fucking closet to makeout. Cause she said I needed to “come out of the closet.” She was pretty sure I was not straight I think. IDK what I am. 

Sidebar: in the past months, I had told myself that this was a “phase.” I mean, I’m in college. Girls in college do this shit. The common theme is this: you get down to the pussy and you freak out. Realize you’re straight. Phase is over. I also told myself it would be a looooooong time before I ever ate pussy. Or did anything with pussy. Shit, it’s scary. I’d have to work up to it. I have one and I’m still terrified of it. I’m the type of girl who told my ex’s not to eat me out because I felt bad for them. 

That went out the window. Before I know it, she’s completely naked and my head is in between her legs and I am eating her out like you wouldn’t believe. Like I hadn’t had a sip of water for a month and her pussy was a fresh water fountain. Like an ice cream cone on a hot summer day. Etcetera. 

I can’t remember if she ate me out there. But anyway, I went IN and I fucking LIKED it? Anyway, the boys started knocking on the door. So we put on our clothes. I think just she was naked. So SHE put on her clothes, I might’ve had a shirt off. I can’t remember. The boys wanted to leave cause people were starting to get crazy and fight or something. So we left. In the back of the car, we were fucking all over each other??? Fuck it was one of the hottest things of my LIFE. At some point we fell asleep in the back of the car. We got back to the house about 45 minutes later and were woken up. I didn’t know if our little hookup was over now that we had slept and the moment had kind of passed, but the second we got back upstairs into our room we were right back at it. 

We. Did. Everything. She ate me out. I ate her out. We fucking scissored, which was more for our amusement than pleasure. We were fucking around until about 3am, when we finally decided to go to sleep. The next day, though, waking up we were back to normal. Like didn’t even really talk about it and we weren’t even touchy or anything, although we fell asleep cuddling. The boys knew we had hooked up and so we made some jokes about it, but that was it. 

Holy moly though. The whole thing was incredibly enjoyable and incredibly H O T. Like dude. This is what really threw me for a loop. Like I said, I felt that this was a phase before this happened. But I liked it way too much. More than I have ever liked sucking dick or having actual hetero sex. 

Anyway. Day two. We woke up and went into the jacuzzi and laid out in the sun.

 Afterwards, we took Austin’s Rhino out. A Rhino is basically like a four wheeler off roading vehicle. It was so much fun but so scary, I honestly thought we were going to die like the entire time. We got mud flung in our faces the entire time but it was so freaking fun. 

Anyway. It was a lot of fun. That night, we decided we wanted to go out clubbing in West Hollywood. First, Tori did my makeup for me. At one point she told me to suck in my cheeks so she could highlight my cheekbones, and I just did a kiss face to mess with her. She kissed me. Romantic???????

But first, we went to Griffith Observatory. It was really cool and had a lot of cool exhibits. Then we headed down to West Hollywood and pre-gamed in the car. At some point I made out with Tori for like ten seconds. But while we were pre-gaming in the car Austin made a comment to Dylan about how we should hook up in the same room cause it would be exciting and hot. This set Dylan off like no other. He got WAY pissed. Like, he got so upset they got into a huge fight and Tori and I were just like, “...ok we’re leaving.” So we spent the next hour-ish going to the clubs and finding out that all the ones that we thought were 18+ were 21+ on Saturday nights. So we went back to the car, and they were still fighting. Then we left again and decided to walk around the supermarket. We were drunk. But anyway, it was pretty annoying. 

We went to a sex shop and Tori bought herself a vibrator, which was funny. She was actually way fucking pissed about the whole ordeal. I tried to keep an open happy mind about the whole thing and just be positive about it. But she was not having it hahaha. Anyway, she ended up driving us home and being pissed in the car while the boys were pissed in the back of the car. While I was just chilling cause I was happy.

We went home. No sex was had between Tori and I. Bummer.

The next day, we went to the beach and hung out. It was really nice there. We went to Venice beach. Then we got food and alcohol and went back to Austin’s house, where we threw a fucking party! This was such a fucking fun night. All the friends from the other party came over and we all drank and stuff. Before I got drunk, I wanted to kiss Tori. So I told her, “Hey. Can I kiss you before I get drunk?” I kissed her. Said thanks. Socialized. Drank more. 

At one point I went out to the living room and kind of took a semi-nap on the couch cause I was way sloshed. Tori came and found me and sat by me and was like, “hahaha you can’t hang!!” I hung onto her and kissed her. It was fun. She left cause Lady Gaga came on, but I hung onto her to try and make her stay. She still left LOL. Story of my life. 

At some point in the night, we all decided that we wanted to get butt ass naked and get in the jacuzzi, so we did. It was fucking crazy. I’m so insecure about my body but alcohol will make you confident out the ass. So we did it. We ended up jumping into the pool from this cave thing over and over, which was a blast. We went inside at some point and started watching literal lesbian porn. We were all half naked and lying around. At one point, Tori disappeared. I didn’t want to be weird cause she’s always so hot and cold and go follow her, cause I didn’t know what she wanted. So I just hung out and watched the porn hahaha. 

Cue the hottest thing that’s ever happened to me: it’s been ten minutes since she’s been gone, and I get a call from her on my phone. I pick up.

“Hello?”

“Hi. Get your ass to the bedroom, now.”

There’s something about being desired by someone else that is such a turn on. I have never gotten so hot in so little time. I pushed Wyatt (Austin’s) brother off of me (he was lying on my leg) and literally sprinted the fuck up to the bedroom. I took five stairs at a time. I burst open the door. I swan dived into the bed. I fucking was an olympic diver into the pool of her pussy. Immediately started going H.A.M. 

And cue a replay of the prior night. Making out and touching and fingering and eating out and more funny scissoring. And I need to reiterate: I have never had more fun having sex, ever. Is this what constitutes lesbian sex? I don’t know what does, but I’m pretty sure we covered it. 

At some point, we remembered the vibrator that we had bought the day before. Or she remembered it. Is that why she bought it? I am so goddamn clueless on like, cues. But anyway, we spent the next twenty minutes running around the house naked looking for electronics to take apart to find double AA batteries. We finally found some, plugged that bitch in, and went to town on each other. Jesus Christ. It was insane. I fucked her with a vibrator and ate her out simultaneously?? WHO AM I?? IT WAS SO HOT??? I am no longer defining myself as straight. If that was as much fun as it was, there’s no way I can’t be into girl. I fucking love girls. 

Anyhow, I made her cum so hard that she was like, shaking for twenty minutes afterwards. Did she fake it? I don’t know. To be honest, I faked orgasm. I just couldn’t get there, I don’t know why lol. I think I need real dick pressure to cum? Even though I didn’t orgasm, it was still the best thing in the fucking world. It was so hot. I was so loud??? it was funny. 

We went to sleep. I tickled her back. Such romance. Much sensual. etc. I just like tickling people’s backs. Whatever.

Wake up the next morning. Not even touching. I decided to test the waters and be like, “hey, can I kiss you for like ten seconds?” She was like “you can kiss my ass.” I acted hurt as a joke and she got annoyed and literally left the room lol. What the fuck? Like I said, this bitch is an emotional rollercoaster. Does not know what she wants. Does not know anything. Is SO moody and SO bipolar. 

So whatever. That put me in an incredibly bad mood. But I tried to just be happy and chill. This was the day that we left to go back home. Dylan and Austin got into this huge fight because Austin wanted to stay long enough to see his parents come back from a little trip, but Dylan really wanted to go. He was just in a bad mood overall. Finally, we left to Austin’s dismay. I was down for whatever. 

It was awkward in the car ride back for a couple hours. We stopped in Las Vegas and walked around a casino and went to some shitty Asian buffet. Dylan was in a bad mood again. It’s so fucking weird. He’s just super pissy a lot and gets triggered way easily. 

At some point Tori asked to lie on my lap. She did that a couple different times over the trip. I played with her hair. This is a reoccuring theme in my relationships with people: I play with their hair in the back of a car and later we fuck. this has happened twice.

But this time, I was so fucking annoyed at her because you can’t give someone a stellar orgasm and then have them ignore you. It doesn’t work like that. I let her lie down, and I started fucking sensually rubbing her head hahahaha. I just was like dude fuck you I can be pleasurable when we’re sober you fuckign bitch. So usually when I played with her hair it was kind of timid and just like absentminded. But I was fucking giving her a scalp massage and touching her neck and shoulders and shit. Lol. 

Anyway. We got home and parted ways very early in the morning, like around 4am. 

The entire trip was way fucking fun though. Like, I’ll never forget it. Obviously I liked the part where I fucked Tori the most. The end.