#idk. im going home this weekend hopefully so

[iliveinprocrasti-nationn]

woke up horrendously nauseous at 4 am and i am hoping so bad it’s just a reaction to eating heavy food and that it goes away

[dullahandyke]

life is so good and awesome peace and love on planet earth

[emokaveh]

me when i am contemplating being avoidant

[ghouloflove]

when worlds collide.

in other words, the only female member of the biggest korean band in the world goes to formula 1 race in monaco with a friend; only to meet a certain ferrari driver.

pairing: charles leclerc x oc/fc (reader is an idol)

authors note: hello hello, this is me simply trying my attempt at sm aus! lately been fixated on f1, even trying to learn more about:) ofc a tiktok popped up abt charles then opps down the rabbit hole 🕳️ n recently found out that Wi (squid game actor) was at monaco this year so obviously I was like…..somethings cooking. then the 10th anniversary came for bts then again….something is being made. anyways hope you all like! (trying my best on remembering on certain ascents of the kpop social media goes cuz i'm not thatttt deep into it anymore!)

ps. soyeon is the actual name of the fc, i simply changed it to kim soyeon. check her and group out, G-IDLE! annndd her signature emoji is 🐻‍❄️! ALSO Monaco Grand Prix takes place three races into the 2023 season, for the sake of appropriate posts 🥴 this little sm au has its own race schedule for special purposes because lord knows I don't do well with dates so !!! but Im pretty sure all the race dates are the same, just the races switch spots :) and of course, google translated korean, french and italian will appear.

-enjoy.

part two. part three.

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s0ye0nnn monaco 🇲🇨 f1 race weekend with wi ! met some cool people and had some great laughs. first time but definitely not my last kekee

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wi_wi_wi why not redbull though!?

rkive we must go to one together!

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s0ye0nnn 🙌

luvusoye0n wowoww wishing u hadn’t gone on charles curse home race 🥲 he’s great tho!

tomholland2013 wonderful seeing you again! glad you had fun!

scuderiaferrari it was an absolute pleasure having you visit and chat with us at the padlock! 😎 team Ferrari, yes?

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s0yeonsluvr shes got incredible taste, as always 😌

charleslec01 idk who she is, except shes in a band but i like her already lol

mysticalyeon holdupholdup….chat? with who👀

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letsgossip_kpop [ ASIDE FROM GOSSIP, LET’S UPDATE ⬆️: Kim Soyeon, the only female member of BTS (an international sensation group), has recently attended the Formula 1’s Monaco Grand Prix over the weekend. With Wi Ha-Jun, star of Squid Games, she was spotted chatting with her previous co-star from the animated film Onward, Tom Holland and others such as Actor James Marsden (who she has been rumored to be featuring in a film with as his on-screen lover). It seems her most talked about conversation even by her close friend, Wi Ha-Jun—was with the Ferrari team and drivers, Charles Leclerc and Carlos Sainz. There are no sources on what the conversation contained but her friend Wi Ha-Jun comment on her recent instagram post suggests her team is now Ferrari, “Why not redbull though?!” Perhaps there will be more to be said once she and fellow member, Kim Namjoon, attend a Grand Prix together as shown in her comments. Will this remain just an update or turn into gossip? Stay tuned! - from your admin 🌱]

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charlecssss sooo….shes the only female in BTS? i remember seeing her around them all time pictures or videos of them came up but like…???

f0rmulatypee1 nice to see someone like her status get familiar with the sport, but hopefully she’ll turn team Redbull 🙏 the winners 🏆

s0yeonmyluv WHEN MY WOLDSS CLOOIDE 💀

k.f1.pop i was literally just saying what if F1 drivers had photocards 👹

letsgossip_kpop UPDATE ⬆️: Charles Leclerc, and Carlos Sainz have followed Kim Soyeon’s social media (Instagram and Twitter). Other drivers such as Lewis Hamiliton, Lando Norris and Zhou Guanyu have followed her before her recent introduction to Formula 1. (Admin 👾: my worlds have collided!)

maxverssstp fuck outtaa here, cirnge 🤢

lalaaland noooo this was the only place away from the freaks in kpop🥴

s0yeonnnbby idk y ppl r hating like…shes like everyone else, trying have a good time n yet ppl r mad that drivers r starting (AND BEEN) following her????🤠

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s0ye0nnn 10 years of pain. of comfort. of love. of heartbreak. of the highest of highs, to the scum of the earth lows. of questions, “can you do this?”, “is this the end?”, “can you handle this?”.

this group went from strangers to friends to family. i was the odd one out, most definitely. i was a girl in a group with seven boys. i was originally meant to leave the company but the man who believed we could become something pushed me into the group. it was strange—then it wasn’t.

year after year, we slowly formed a family. with one thing in common: we loved music. music has always been in my blood, even in my blood family. my found family has created melodies , poetry hidden in symbolic instrumentals and videos descriptive of what is and what is not.

within that, we found others like us. others that may not be in musical industry but found their place and home in our music—that is you, ARMY.

당신의 삶을 우리와 공유해 주셔서 감사합니다. 여전히 우리와 함께 걸어주셔서 감사합니다. 모두가 돌아올 때까지 기다려 주셔서 감사합니다. 💜 ( translation: Thank you for sharing your life with us. Thank you for still walking with us. Thanks for waiting for everyone to come back. )

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rkive beautiful words, 작은 곰 🐻‍❄️🤍

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s0ye0nnn 최고에게 배웠다 ! 🐨🤍 ( translation: learned from the best! )

b0anggtans enough to amke a grown woman 😢

thv 🐻‍❄️❤️

biassssjk the last photonnnn!!!!! idk y but thats so cute 🥹

purpuryouuu 10 yearsssss 😅 been here for 5💜💜💜

charles_leclerc Just began listening to your discography! Can’t wait for your future projects, solo and group! ❤️ Happy 10 years 😆

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s0ye0nnn come visit korea! some behind the scenes? 👀

cl16lucyyy aaARIAN WHAT U DOH G HERRE!?! 💀😭

f14liferrrr no charles!!! stay Way from kpoppiess! 🚫

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s0ye0nnn Australian Grand Prix 🇦🇺 with joonie! 🐨 was very fun, nice views and such great company (on and off track?) !

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rkive mercedes....🐻‍❄️

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s0ye0nnn hushhhhh k.f1.pop RM knows whatsup

scuderiaferrari It was an absolute pleasure having you with us! You must come again, lucky charm!

danielricciardo Despite opposite teams, it was so cool to meet and chat for awhile! Good laughs 😁

s0yoyoens slayed everyone, ate, left no crumbs, walk me like a dog!!!!!!

charles_leclerc I think your words helped a bit, haha 😉 Coming to next one?

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s0ye0nnn noooo, your talent! and of course, this is my new obsession! 😍 s0yeonmyluv SHUT UO NOW omfgggg WHAT WORDS?// KET ME INNNNN formula1n1mv charlesssss....you're approaching new and scary territory !!!

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authors final note:

i really hope you all enjoy this! this is sorta one of the social media au where it's a somewhat slow build because lets be honest, just meeting once and dating right after aint happening, plus who doesn't love the subtle growth of a friendship ;) oh and this universe of kpop are actually treated like humans by their company and can date but of course, haters are going hate plus Kim Soyeon is THAT bitch. ofc you are be her, that is essentially the purpose but i kinda dislike "y/n" idk just kinda makes it hard for me to make everything look good but dw just close ur eyes and imagineeeee, soyeon is just a fc for the posts keke. if you want to be tagged in the next part, comment and i'll do it! PART TWO IS ALREADY IN THE MAKING, LITERALLY ALMOST DONE WITH IT.

guide: i am always open to constructive criticism. i'm always down to learn how to better and try to implement them.

--and that world is yours, until next time.

[sqturns-blog]

“CAN I COME TO?”

Summary: In which you are Nathan does older sister y/n! who is in a secret relationship with one of Nathan’s best friends, no one will ever find out ! or will they……

Tw’s: Cursing, kissing

A/n: Green is Nate, Orange is Chris, Purple is Nick, Blue is Matt, Pink is you ofc! and ‘ and italicized text around words signify thoughts! and this wasn’t proof read

(Story Below ⬇️ )

NATES POV:

Y/N my older sister is sitting on the couch right now, doing god knows what on her phone but i’m not worried about her. i’m really worried about my friend Chris he’s been acting really weird like we can’t see his phone or whenever me, his brothers and him hang out he always at the bathroom, ‘maybe he has some issues where he always has to go to the bathroom 🤔’.

Well i’ve decided how i want to spend this weekend is by inviting Chris Nick and Matt over! Nick usually hangs with Y/N anyway they get along the best.

‘why is y/n always giggling at her phone🤔’

Y/N’S POV:

‘He’s so cute 🥰’ i think as i snap back Chris, i really hope Nate hasn’t caught onto us he has been asking if i have noticed anything weird about Chris. speaking of Chris he just texted me!

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Baby🥰:

‘Hey your brother just

invited me, Matt and Nick over!’

You:

‘Yay!! i hope there not starting

to get suspicious of us… we

have been being reallly secretive’

Baby🥰:

‘i know .. they won’t get off my back

at home there always asking

“why are you being so weird” ‘

You:

‘well i’ll see you when you get here! drive safe!’

Baby🥰:

‘i will can’t wait to see you ma 🩷’

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CHRIS POV:

oh i can’t wait to see her, yeah i should be excited to see my friends but ‘something about that girl… she’s perfect.’. now i realize i’ve been standing by the door practically in a trance. “ GET IN THE DAMN CAR CHRISTOPHER. “ “chris get in the damn car dude stop acting like a weirdo.” “sorry guys” damn maybe i have been acting weird… but yolo !

TIME SKIP!🐺

NATES POV:

the boys made it to me and Y/Ns house finally felt like they took forever. now i’m in my room playing fortnite with Matt and Chris while Y/N and Nick do whatever they do in her room, “Yo i’m kinda hungry” “okay? go get something it’s not the first time you’ve been here” “dude just come on” “fine i’ll come with, Chris you want something?” he’s blank again probably thinking about something idk what tho. “yo Chris ?!” “oh yeah sorry man i’ll come” now we are on our way to the kitchen

Y/NS POV:

“Y/N/N you want something to eat i’m getting hungryyyy” “SURE!” “damn girl why are you so excited to get something to eat in YOUR house 😭” “oops sorry” maybe i was a little excited to get food… oh who am i kidding i just want to see Chris hopefully he’s already out there hehe

ANOTHER TIME SKIP CAUSE IM LAZY

NATES POV:

we’ve now all gotten our food nick and y/n are eating some chicken nuggets and me and the guys ordered canes cause why not (where i live i don’t have a canes so idk if you can order it or whatever) now we are all sat down on the couches y/n and chris are sat next to each other… ‘very closely that’s kinda weird.’ me and matt are sat next to each other and nick is going on a rampage about god knows what at this point then Chris gets up and says “i’m gonna go to the bathroom” ‘of course he is’ but before he gets up to go to the bathroom he grabs y/ns face and plants a tender kiss on her lips “DUDE WHAT THE FUCK” “MATT WHERES MY MONEY YOU OWE ME 50” “FUCK I LOST THE DAMN BET” “WE KNEW IT!” “y’all had a bet on this?!””OFC WE DID YOU 2 WERE ACTING SO WEIRD” “oops….”

“well i guess we don’t have to hide it anymore”

THIS WAS PROB REALLY BAD CAUSE I RUSHED IT SO SORRY BUT I HOPE YOU LIKED IT!

[fulgurbugs]

sorry this is gonna be a tmi and gross period post but idk what to do anymore so i’m gonna vent online

ok so my periods are famously inconsistent and unpredictable. most recently what ended up happening was i missed mine for like, months before it came back with a vengeance and i had one that lasted over a month long. this one was also extremely heavy towards the end, as well as like. idk how to describe this. very fleshy. chunky. however there were no cramps or pain associated with it, mostly just i was spending a fortune on pads and tampons (i had to double up to be safe) while this was ongoing i attempted to look for a gyno in my area, but i would only be able to get an appointment after i moved back to college with at minimum a few weeks wait. so i ended up not making an appointment because it was starting to wind down and i ended up getting super busy with school starting again. i still brought it up to my doctor before this and eventually had an appointment where i managed to sneak in on a weekend i could come home with my gp where she prescribed pill birth control which i started taking as directed not very long ago. but, a few days after i started taking it my period started again, extremely heavy, and this time, painful. it’s been about 4 days of extremely heavy blood flow and cramps, and i haven’t been able to focus on my school at all or go anywhere, i just want to lie in bed and rot. im bleeding through supers in under an hour, and i don’t know what to do. i’ve contacted my doctor and should hopefully hear back from her in a few days. but i’m so scared that something more is wrong or that this one will also last over a month like the last one.

do any other accursed uterus havers have a similar experience and any idea what’s wrong with me? or what i should do? if this one goes over a week i’m going to seek more urgent medical attention. i’ve heard suggested from people i know that it could potentially be endometriosis or a cyst so if anyone whos following me has some firsthand experience please let me know, im having a really rough time right now. sorry for the tmi and all but im so extremely uncomfortable and losing my mind and need help

[prestonmonterey]

TLT UPDATE!! BEFORE I GO TO BED

(gods im so tired...)

@vincentaureliuslin @tatsumisheep3

no photos today so heres my cat :P

OPENING NIGHT!!! it went super well!!!!! (i think)

it was PA night so the understudys were percy and annabeth and they killed it!!!!!! :DDDD

also my director gave me a compliment today so im in a good mood (it was somethin along the lines of "you finally did a good job as cerberus" but ill take what i can get...) (i still have beef with him but.. whatever....)

its crazy how fast this show is going and that itll all be over after sunday,, but also i am SO tired bc we literally spend more time at school than at home this week :(

also getting a lotta acne bc im not used to wearing this much make up every day :P

but hey at least ill get to rest a teeny bit on the weekend (just in the morning TwT bc we have matinees)

also my parents and some of my friends are comin tomorrow so they BETTER FUCKIN BUY ME CANDY (i really really really want candygrams... one of the stage managers got like 4 boxes of candy i am so jealous...)

also also also we did the legacy robe last night before preview night and my friend (and mother /ij) got it :DDDD very happy for her

um um um i felt like i had more to say but idk this is already a lot and i cant remember things im kinda tired :P

oh i finally got my camper necklace!!! the beads were missing for like a week but they were just on the table in the costuming room... anyway my friend made it for me during tech class bc shes so so sooo sweet <3 (while i was in math trying to force my friend to study... *stares at neeks* /aff) i got four beads that kinda almost make the ace flag!! (black for tech, silver for the fall play, light blue for this show, and purple for my grade)

idk if i explained it before but all of our necklaces represent how much theater we've done,,, bc its kinda like how long we've been at camp. theres a bead for each grade based on our class colors, and the tlt bead, so everyone gets at least 2. theres also beads for each of the past musicals and plays at school, and a black bead if youve done tech, and a white bead if youve done leadership :D some of the seniors have like most of their necklace filled because of how many shows theyve done

heres another cat pic to keep you engaged and reading this /hj

also also also many many thanks to my wonderful actor and tech friends i would not survive without them (especially thanks to tech bc they have to put up with us actors... /hj) its poseidon's actors first show i think and they have a LOT of quick changes so their section of the rack is,,, kind of a mess. also the lamp for the oracle scene has broken multiple times i think already... and i already left my make up bag out yesterday and my watch in the cubbies today TwT we are a hot mess

my graphic design teacher was acting today :D (the farmer in drive is a teacher role, and they switch out every night) and i love him being so absolutely perplexed by the energy circle before show :333

also i remembered to put setting powder on for the first time,,, and... i forgot that my mom is SO much paler than me TwT (i was very washed out...) so ill probably stick to spray for the rest of the week :P

sorry i really am rambling tonight...

ok i will probably hopefully do at least one more update after strike on sunday!! (depending on how tired i am,, i might just curl up on the floor and sleep after the sunday show actually...) unless something goes horribly wrong,,, then ill probably post about it too

good night!! i need to collapse in bed and try to save up enough energy for tomorrows show :3

have a wonderful day/night and remember to hydrate! (or you'll die straight...)

[oncamelliastreet]

how are you doing today :)

if i’m being completely honest: absolutely awful.

today was my first day back at school and it was the worst. i’m not talking to a lot of my “friends” (read:all but one) because they’ve all collectively shown me that they’re not great friends, and i don’t like to surround myself with negative people, but unfortunately at my school that’s pretty much everyone so it just makes for a very lonely day. and plus my best friend has cancelled on hanging out with me 3 times in the last week, and we were supposed to do something thursday this week but she cancelled yet again this morning because she spontaneously has to go to a theme park thursday :( and also whenever i talked to her today i could tell she wasn’t really listening, or we would be hanging out with her boyfriends friends and one of them very clearly doesn’t like me so i felt so awkward everytime i tried to participate in convo…

and my school is changing a bunch of their policies even though everything was completely fine last year, so now we can’t even use our phones in the halls during pass period because if they’re seen they’ll get taken, we’re not allowed to listen to music during class, the only time we’re allowed to have them out is during lunch. and ik a lot of schools are doing that but it’s still super annoying because as a queer person in a catholic, homophobic, sexist school filled with homophobic, racist, sexist students, i’m not very interested in making new friends, so i’m just extra lonely and i really have to sit in my loneliness now. and they changed our lunch system so there’s only two lunches instead of three, so it’s extra crowded and they had to open up a whole new room for people to sit in because it’s not big enough, and it’s an unorganized mess

plus, i have chronic migraines, so i woke up with a headache because i was clenching my jaw from stress all night, so i had a really bad headache all day and it felt like my head was just gonna roll off and i literally almost passed out like 3 times because i would get so dizzy when i stood up. i came home and went straight to bed with an ice pack, so its better now, but that was still very not fun and i won’t be surprised if it hurts again tomorrow :/

and…idk. i just hate the school year in general. it’s so hopeless to get home in the afternoon and feel like i can’t start anything because the whole day is done. by the time i find the motivation to do what i enjoy, it’s already 9 o’clock and i don’t feel like starting something like writing just to stop in a couple hours. or i’ll do it and stay up and then i’m so exhausted in the morning so i feel like im dying. i really wanna leave this school, but im staying because they have one of the best art programs in the country. senior year i might just give up.

and i don’t really get to relax for the rest of the week, tomorrow i have therapy (which i definitely need but i really hate doing things after school during the school week), wednesday i have to go wedding dress shopping with my sister pretty far away so ill probably get home from school, leave, and then come back and go to bed which will definitely make me feel like shit, thursday i have nothing thank god. and then i have friday off because it’s a holiday weekend but i have to move my sister into her dorm, and that will be depressing as fuck because she’s literally my best friend in the world and we have a really small age gap between us so we’ve always been super close and i’m gonna miss her like crazy. so.

sorry, i dumped all my problems on you :/ how was your day? hopefully better <3 thanks for asking

[you-are-constance]

had a rather wild day today

2 of my 3 classes were cancelled. thus, i got to sleep in.

10 am, i'm still in bed, the fire alarm goes off

i go outside. in my pjs. it is quite literally barely above freezing. and im in my pjs.

finally get to go back into my room, now i finally get ready.

my one class that wasn't cancelled is early in the afternoon. i go over to the music building, and run into one of my friends who is giving a tour to a bunch of high school students. she then brags about me to them.

i go to my class (a rehearsal, actually). the same high school students were there to watch that rehearsal. hopefully we played well (i didnt).

whatever. i leave the rehearsal, then i go over to a different building bc i have to do yet another one of those music notation software assignments. this one actually goes MUCH smoother than the other ones so hopefully im all the way done with them. (i'm probably not)

i go home for a bit. then i go get in my car, park it where it shouldnt be parked (for like 10 minutes) while i go grab my instrument from the music building so i can take it back to my apt for the weekend. while i'm doing this i accidentally drop the entire contents of one of my music folders on the ground.

go to a concert. it was pretty cool 👍

watched charlie & the chocolate factory with my roommates.

then we talk about drugs and corn for an hour????

idk man. im tired. im going to bed.

[1d1195]

I COULDNT SLEEP LAST NIGHT SO I SPENT THE NIGHT REREADING ALL OF TRADTIONAL !!!! AND IT WAS SOOO MUCH FUN I LOVEEE THEM😭😭😭 he was sooooo down bad im obsesseddd

"bro, you're annoying as fuck" GOODBYEEEE THAT IS ACTUALLY THE REALEST IVE EVER HEARDDDD. my dad is always like “you know, u can tell me anything.” AND IM LIKE “since when?? i literally can’t???” this is the same man that gets sooo mad when i just ask a question he doesn’t like😭 but my big brother’s wife is actually pregnant and she’s due soon so one good thing is i’m going to get to be here for that !!

sam you’re too sweet i looove you😭😭 my sister calls me barbie all the time and i think it’s so cute you chose the same nickname. I LOVE YOU YOU BEAUTIFUL, AMAZING, TALENTED WOMAN🫶🫶🫶🫶

i used to usually make my coffees at home. id brew it in a french press orrrr id make some using my keurig (omg if u or a friend have a nespresso machine those make it taste SOOOOO GOOD my mom has one and i LOVE using it) i add a little bit of sugar while its hot and i let it cool down and id use oat milk (i’ve only tried two brands; califa farms & oatly, i enjoyed them both. if im out i literally just use regular milk cuz whtvr) and thennn id use the coffee mate french milk creamer (is that what it’s called? it’s milk idk) and then a little bit of the torani vanilla syrup (cause it’s pretty strong). if my sweet tooth was kicking extra hard i’d add a drizzle of some white chocolate syrup.

HELPFUL AT HOME ICED COFFEE TIP I SAW ON TIKTOK: maybe this is common sense (it wasn’t for me tho🫣) but you’re supposed to add all your syrups and creamers into the coffee and mix it together AND THENNN pour onto ice😭😭 apparently it doesn’t mix as well when you pour them one by one onto the ice (WHICH IS WHAT I DID HAHA) and i did actually notice it made a slight difference.

so sorry that was wayyy longer than it had any right to be but it took me forever to find a way i enjoy making it at home. AND IT WORKS CAUSE EVERYONE IVE MADE IT FOR SAYS IT TASTES LIKE ICED COFFEE FROM A CAFE YAYYY !!! when i go out though i usually get a cup from dunkin. their cold brews are sooo yummmm and i love getting the sweetened cold foam.

omg thank you for asking abt the whole GED, i can’t believe you remember, its so sweet that you do, but i was actually going to bring it up in my last ask but i guess i forgot to. I DIDNT HAPPEN☹️ I HAD TO CANCEL THE CLASSES BEFORE I EVEN STARTED BECAUSE OF THIS TRIP☹️☹️☹️☹️ it actually upset me soooo much at the time. i’ve been trying for a couple years now and it NEVER works out, i was SO sure it would this time, but now im starting to wonder if the universe if just telling me it’s not meant for me😭

i don’t have anything planned yet but hopefully it’s chill. i hope you have a great weekend as well babe !!!💕💞✨

~🎶

I frequently reread traditional. Especially when I'm in the mood to write about them more. I really like how caring Harry is in that one 🤭 I think it's cute when he tries to spoil his girl 🥰

My dad knows surface level things of me as best but he thinks we have this connection. I feel bad, he's mean to my sister. But tbh I don't tell my parents EVERYTHING. I tell my mom a lot, she's one of my favorite people, but since I've moved out, I just tell them both less and less. They're a lot of work and a) I don't want to burden them with my shit, and b) there's not much they can do at this point in time to help me.

BABYYYYYYYYYYYY boy or girl? Can I ask that? I love babies so much I love that for you!!!

AHHHHH I just went with your metaphor, but I love it! 💕

Okay I think I misled you. I buy a jug of cold brew every week and make coffee that way. I will have to try the pouring onto ice. I had NO IDEA. I do one at a time too! I don't have any coffee making machines. Everyone I KNOW has a nespresso machine. But I refuse. Idk. I'm a cold coffee gal and I'm like anti using hot to make it ice 😭

I think I've mentioned I'm from the Northeast before so I literally run on dunkin so I get you. I cold foam the other day (a treat for myself because I usually just do coffee) and it was SO good. I forgot how much I liked it!!! When Dunking does their $3 cold brew deal every day for a month (I think it's usually February because it's the shortest month--Capitalism am I right?) I enjoy getting cold brew from them!

I unfortunately yap a lot but I try to remember the big things! I'm glad I remembered! I kind of figured the trip would have affected it's happening. Don't give up yet! I think if this is something you want you should do it, regardless of how long it takes. Who cares if it's a little later than you wanted! I think if it's what you want then it's meant for you! 💕

xoxo

[mariatesstruther]

okay hear me out modern au where Tommy and Maria first meet in a club in their 20s and they bump into each other while dancing and just start dancing together and they just hit it off but in the end they both forget to give each other their numbers so both of them go back to the same club the next week to hopefully meet each other again (also Tess and Maria definitely go clubbing together because I love them as best friends)

cowboy!!!! yes yes YES i LOVE this. and u could extend this meet-cute into like a whole thing where tommy and maria keep trying to meet at the club and exchange information, but something gets in the way everytime!!!! kid emergency!!! bar fight!!! cocaine bear on the loose!!! zombie apocalypse—who knows????

im thinking the first time, tess drags maria to a bar she likes because she’s been trying to get the attention of this hot dilfy guy at the bar, but he’s always tailing along with his friend. by tess’s design, maria and tommy meet and and hit it off and dance (to maria maria by santana) the night away. they fall in love and decide they want to go home together, so maria goes to the bathroom—but joel randomly comes up and is like “tommy, hey sorry selena’s mom called, sarah had a nightmare and she wants us both to pick her up, we gotta go” and in true miller dad-uncle panic they BOLT. by the time maria comes back, tess is like “idk dude, mine got a call so they had to go. seemed like an emergency. bummer” and they assume thats that

on the flip side: everythings okay with sarah, but after tommy and joel tuck her in tommy’s suddenly just like “fuck—fuck!!!!!” and joels like “what? what???” and he’s like “i didn’t get her number :(:(:(:( fuck” and so joel’s like “it’s okay, i see her friend there all the time” and so tommy’s like “omg :D do you have her friends number?” “well… no” “joel… what the fuck man.” so they make a plan to go back next week with the hopes of at least seeing tess and getting maria’s number from there—tommy also wants to get tess’s number for joel, but he doesn’t need to know that

little do THEY know, tess and maria are already plotting for next weekend. they show up to that bar looking fine as FUCK—they quite literally turn heads walking through the door. of course the miller brothers are there, sitting in a booth all the way in the back and waiting, making eyes. tess and maria are not shy, so they start making their way over. unfortunately, some drunk asshole decides to try to get handsy with tess on her way there—which results in her punching him in the face, which results in him trying to punch her in the face. she dodges, of course, but it starts a full-on bar brawl that the miller boys jump into without hesitation (joel manages to tackle and land a few good ones on og drunk asshole too so. slay.). none of them get arrested or anything, but they definitely don’t get eachother numbers on account of joel and tommy having to duck the cops

so i guess they gotta keep trying ;)

[theragethatisdesire]

SORRY SORRY I MISSED THE SLUMBER PARTY I was writing LV hopefully im not too late to ask what's going on in my head bc i NEED to know ur thoughts.....

1. thoughts on porco galliard,, if you like him if you don't IDK just anything

2. THOUGHTS ON ARMIN!!! 💓💓 (im actually in love with him so hard he's my fav)

3. would you ever write a female character x reader?? (I want to but idek if ppl read that)

4. did you always like Eren bc I genuinely have not seen the vision yet...canon, that is

UGH I'm so sorry if that's too much im just so pissed i missed the slumber party!! also hope youre feeling better seriously 💕💕

HEY SHEPPIE no dont apologize we're making it a full-weekend sleepover at this rate i'm going to be getting home earlier from work and having trouble resting for a few days so i'm just....hanging around constantly LOL

okay....i think this is a hot take, but i think porco is hot. i LOVE a man with a temper, what can i say?? most ppl talk about him negatively but i just love him lol not necessarily canonically but he's so cutie to me

i ADORE armin in the show, like i think his mind is so interesting and the way he works and i don't view him as the innocent little lamb i think he gets portrayed as. fic-wise though....i just can't do it like i'm so sorry lmao something about him (whether it be that they draw him to look literally 12-15 years old for most of the show or that he has a very feminized voice and that's just not my personal thing idk) i can't write or read for him. i love him, but just not in that ~way~

i honestly don't know if i would. i don't read it, i don't interact with it too much (i'm literally bi so idk why???) but yeah, i'm not sure!! it's a never-say-never thing, but it's not on my radar for now.

really it was the hoodie scene from the season 4 opening. LMAO actually i was a huge reiner and levi girl initially (still am)! like it took me awhile to get into eren, and i kind of fell in love with his canonical self before i did his fanon self bc his story truly is so tragic and i just love that and once i found out where we are headed in the show it just broke my heart and made me really feel for him!! now he is my baby girl so that's that

so many questions sheppie thank you for giving me something to do with my last bits of freedom before work!!! ily <33

[elegyofthemoon]

logs before i forget bc i am Depleted of energy and need to winddown w star rail

i just hung out w new people and played ddlc which was very fun! we did some reading and stuff for it which was cool and then i got anxious and tired from the anxiety so i had to leave alkdfjahl but it was cool to see ddlc again and hang out with new and old friends

i FINALLY MADE PROGRESS IN HONKAI.... i finished chapter 13 and god.... i forgot how much i love this story so much just because its been such a long time since i was able to sit down and play it. like im pretty sure the last time i was able to make progress was back in december...? the only times i ever made progress was when i finished an exam and id just sit and read for a while and augh its such a good story i love it so much,,,

kinda related but getting news that theyre finally putting cn voices over the cgs is so nice ; w ; i mostly play in cn voices so it felt weird when it switched to jp but me and my friend were maybe going to stream honkai together on the weekend (i feel bad bc i'm probably going to be annoying. bc thats my fixation rn), so itll be cool to see the cgs in cn !! hopefully?? idk i tried to play it today but its still jp alksdjafh

that being said im also v excited about the weekend w my friend,, i just hope i dont wind up being annoying...

i also have new. oc ideas so thats. fun.....

oh! i got take out :) except it was weird tasting (burger pizza) but it was a funny experience so im chill. i havent had take out in a while cuz i just cook food to eat at home instead but it felt nice to have some takeout ;w ;

asldkjfah idk ... my brains so dead rn that i cant remember anything else.... okee i go do my night routine and winddown to star rail B)

[necrcmvncy]

is  that  RACHEL  ZEGLER?  oh,  no,  that’s  KATHERINE  "KAIA"  ALVAREZ,  a  TWENTY-TWO  year  old  INTERMISSION  PIANIST  AT  AGUSTÍN’S  JAZZ  LOUNGE  who  uses  SHE/HER  pronouns.  they  currently  live  in  CASA  MACAIRE  HOUSING  IN  CASABLANCA  and  the  character  they  identify  with  most  is  OLIVE  PENDERGHAST  FROM  EASY  A.  hopefully  they  find  their  own  little  paradise  here  in  el  país  de  los  poetas!

DOSSIER

FULL  NAME:  katherine  gabriela  alvarez

NICKNAMES:  kaia

BIRTHPLACE:  edinburgh,  scotland

BIRTHDAY:  july  23rd,  2001

SEXUALITY:  bisexual  /  biromantic

HEIGHT:  5’2”

EYE  COLOR:  dark  brown

OCCUPATION:  intermission  pianist  @  agustín’s  jazz  lounge

PAST  OCCUPATION:  pianist  @  the  new  york  philharmonic

SPOKEN  LANGUAGES:  english,  scottish  gaelic,  &  italian

FACECLAIM:  rachel  zegler

BIOGRAPHY

born  to  two  teenagers  in  love,  for  as  much  as  kaia  was  adored,  her  birth  parents  decided  it  was  in  her  best  interest  to  put  up  for  adoption  with  the  promise  of  a  better  life  than  what  would  have  been  given  to  her.  so  baby  kaia  went  from  the  scottish  highlands  to  her  her  new  home  in  the  center  of  edinburgh,  scotland  to  valentina  and  daniel  alvarez  —  a  v  lovely  couple  who  couldn’t  have  children  of  their  own  so  they  went  the  adoption  route

so  kaia  grew  up  with  her  adoptive  parents  and  an  older  adoptive  brother  which  made  the  conversation  not  a  hard  one  to  bring  up.  if  anything,  young  kaia  appreciated  the  honesty  more  than  anything  and  it  made  her  and  her  family  closer

her  mother  was  a  well  respected  partner  at  a  big  fancy  schmancy  law  firm  in  edinburgh  while  her  dad  is  an  illustrator  for  children’s  books  and  does  ghost  tours  on  the  weekends  bc  he’s  lame  and  i  love  him  for  it  <3  

kaia  always  loved  the  fact  that  her  parents  were  super  smart  at  what  they  did  so  she  made  it  her  goal  to  find  her  own  Thing  …  especially  since  her  older  brother  was  a  computer  whiz  who  could  build  his  own  computer  from  scrap  parts  and  code  a  whole  website  within  an  hour  (  is  that  impressive  ??  idk  if  it  is  but  im  saying  it  is  bc  i  can’t  code  a  website  <3  )

so  after  many  failed  sports  attempts,  six  year  old  kaia  is  signed  up  for  private  piano/violin  lessons  with  a  classically  trained  instructor  of  which  she  immediately  is  determined  to  make  her  Thing.  she  likes  both  and  picks  up  each  easily,  even  though  she  holds  a  deeper  appreciation  for  the  piano

kaia  found  her  instructor  intimidating  which  made  her  all  the  more  invested  in  learning  how  to  play  properly  ..  she  would  have  her  lessons  everyday  at  6pm  and  for  an  hour  straight  she  would  just  tip  tap  away,  always  peeking  over  to  see  the  slightest  pinch  of  approval  on  her  instructor’s  face.  each  time  after  her  lesson  she  would  run  to  her  parents  in  the  living  room  and  play  them  what  she  learned

it  wasn’t  long  before  her  parents  noticed  her  aptitude  at  the  piano,  along  with  the  encouragement  from  kaia’s  instructor  that  her  skills  were  going  beyond  kids  her  age.  soon  her  private  lessons  and  shows  she  puts  on  for  her  parents  would  expand  to  bigger  recitals  in  edinburgh  to  london  and  talent  competitions.  of  which  kaia  typically  ended  up  winning

she  he  didn’t  mind  the  up-tick  in  traveling  bc  she  enjoyed  playing  the  piano  and  it  was  a  hobby  that  she  looked  forward  to  losing  herself  in  the  eb  and  flow  of  the  music.  given  it  began  to  take  away  what  minimal  time  she  had  with  her  friends  her  age  which  was  the  biggest  downside  to  it  all

kaia’s  name  begins  to  grow  in  the  classical  music  scene,  much  to  the  uncertainty  of  her  parents  as  they  begin  to  wonder  if  this  hobby  that  they  signed  their  daughter  up  for  is  becoming  a  serious  career  path  for  her.  the  balance  between  her  education  and  keeping  her  grades  up,  as  well  as  traveling  for  competitions  is  one  that  her  parent’s  took  v  seriously

it’s  when  kaia  is  around  13  that  she  begins  performing  at  the  royal  philharmonic  orchestra  in  edinburgh  bc  of  her  raw  talent,  but  she  becomes  a  featured  solo  artist  among  the  orchestra  where  she  becomes  the  face  that  draws  people  in  bc  damn  that’s  a  whole  13  year  old  with  that  amount  of  talent

it’s  from  this  that  kaia’s  name  is  beginning  to  be  her  own  not  just  in  scotland  but  the  u.k.  she’s  able  to  build  a  solid  career  for  herself  as  she  grows  into  adolescence  bc  of  the  endless  support  of  her  parents  and  brother.  years  pass  and  kaia  begins  being  offered  featured  slots  at  international  orchestra’s  from  new  york  to  zürich  and  london  among  their  orchestra’s

kaia  enjoys  the  recognition  she  gets  even  if  a  lot  of  it  makes  her  uncomfortable  at  being  the  center  of  attention,  but  she  does  get  lost  in  the  music  whenever  she  plays  and  it’s  the  part  she  looks  forward  to  the  most  ..  being  able  to  travel  and  share  the  beauty  of  music  from  prokofiev  to  mozart  ..  not  so  much  the  parties  and  schmoozing  that  tend  to  take  part  after

when  she’s  around  17-18,  she  records  a  classical  music  album  that’s  kaia  playing  piano  and  violin  and  it  was  praised  for  the  composition  and  passion  of  it  all  w  kaia  self-composing  almost  all  of  the  songs  on  it.  it  cemented  her  role  as  the  child  prodigy  the  general  public  viewed  her  as  from  going  on  morning  talk  shows  and  the  likes

eventually  kaia  grows  tired  from  traveling,  feels  lonely  bc  she  has  no  real  friends  that  she  keeps  in  touch  with  while  traveling  or  wshen  he’s  doing  school  work  and  after  some  talking  with  her  parents  and  brother,  kaia  decides  that  college  is  her  next  step  bc  she  wants  a  break.  not  to  mention  she  wants  to  make  up  for  the  time  she  lost  being  so  busy  w  her  music  career

just  in  the  mood  to  have  her  Own  Adventure,  she  spontaneously  applies  to  schools  all  over  the  globe  and  her  first  acceptance  came  in  the  mail  from  la  universidad  de  bellas  artes  de  valparaíso  so  that’s  where  kaia  deices  she’s  going.  with  the  determination  of  elle  woods,  she  packs  her  bags  to  study  literature  and  psychology  to  a  completely  different  setting  than  what  she’s  used  to  but  is  excited  to  be  in  chile  !!

i  imagine  it’d  her  first  real  time  on  her  own  since  before  her  parents  would  usually  take  turns  going  w  her  between  cities  for  whatever  musical  obligations  she  had  at  orchestras.  so  she’s  learning  more  about  herself  and  who  she  wants  to  be  ..  even  though  she  loves  music  and  what  she’s  been  able  to  do,  she  wants  to  study  things  she’s  passionate  about  with  an  opportunity  to  do  more  if  she  decides  she  doesn’t  want  to  keep  pursuing  music

in  the  meantime  though  bc  she  still  itches  to  play  piano  in  her  downtime  between  school,  kaia  secures  a  position  as  an  intermission  pianist  at  agustín’s  jazz  lounge  and  fr  has  been  having  a  blast.  it  reminds  her  why  she  loves  playing  the  piano  so  much  esp  in  smaller  spaces  after  being  so  used  to  playing  in  larger  venues

overall,  kaia  can  be  soft  spoken  and  can  seem  quiet  at  first,  but  it’s  typically  bc  she’s  trying  to  assess  the  conversation  at  first  to  pick  up  the  vibes  of  whoever  is  there.  though  once  she  gets  comfortable  around  you,  she  has  a  bit  of  a  dry  and  sarcastic  humor  where  she  loves  throwing  banter  back  and  forth.  she  yearns  for  solid  friendships  and  hunkering  down  roots  after  traveling  for  so  long  so  pls  give  this  girl  the  friends  she  wants  sdjkfld

[fluffs-place]

Tw animal death

Woke up to being told a cat was hit by a car next to our house. I dont get how people can let their cats outside. Now im grieving for someone else's baby i didnt even know. That i havent even seen. Ive already buried a stray kitten and I could barely handle that. She was still warm when we put her in the ground. So many people just drove above her too before I finally stopped. I was so hopefully she was alive. She wasnt. Rushed her to a vet anyway to see if she was chipped. She wasnt. She died alone and not having a home or family. Her mom most likely never knew what happened to her kitten.

And now theres another one and idk if i can handle taking them to get checked again. Idk where id even go. Its the weekend the normal vets will all be closed. Lamb wants to bury them and salvage the bones once the decay has taken its toll. I agree. I wanted to for the kitten. Then their deaths wouldnt have been for nothing. They feed the land and their bones have a home with us. Theyd at least have a home even if its only after.

But now we lost our apartment where the kittens buried. Shell never have a home. At least shes resting and feeding the tree shes buried under.

Idk i just dont what to do rn. You tell me someone i used to know died i barely bat an eye. Then you tell me an animal i didnt even know died im crying. Even worse when i did know the animal. Never really cared about people idk that might make me fucked up but the animals always get me.

[girlsbeingtheirbestself]

day 2 of doing your best 💓

hey guys! welcome back to day 2 of reaching our full potential and getting out of a rot.

ok so how did you find yesterday? if you have read yesterdays blog? 💓 idk abt you guys but i found it difficult to not pickup my phone and difficult in general but i felt less tired (even after all the exercise) and more happy and clean and confident. lmk in the comments how you felt and write it in your notebook/ journal! 

so guys we have a problem. i have exams coming up and rot + exams= fail. but we are getting out of the rot so i’ll tell you my best tips. for anything that i have to do but i dont want to i either pretend im in a tv show like rory gilmore studying for example or in a game like sims and pretend its my own house not my parents and i clean and feel grownup or i make an aesthetic for it or i pretend im a shopkeeper and i say to my customers ‘oh let me tidy the shop before you come in ‘ etc etc.

so the aesthetic one is super helpful and i have some aesthetics for you for days of the week that i found on pinterest that really helped me!

Monday: New week, new motivation, a pile of finished homework and a nicely organised pencil case. A clean, fresh bullet journal spread and empty to-do lists. Your outfit is ready for you when you wake up, prepared the night before.

Tuesday: Getting into the rhythm, your favourite tunes and morning runs. Your journal starts to fill up, cute drawings decorating the pages. The world seems slow, the week long as it has just started; yet it is chaotic at the same time.

Wednesday: Hump day. Early morning coffee and messy lecture notes, sticky notes with reminders and to-do lists, scribbling on white boards and collapsing in bed with blankets and a good book after a long day, the distant sound of rain hitting your windows.

Thursday: Grabbing brunch with friends and laughing at old memories, green smoothies and almond croissants. Friendly curious talks with your teachers and professors. Working on an assignment due weeks away and watching a movie by the fireplace.

Friday: Looking forward to the weekend, early morning study and typed notes. Going through colourful flashcards at a local cafe, friendly smiles and latte art. Going out at night and loud music blasting through your ears, walking home with friends under the cool air and peaceful stars.

Saturday: Green tea and cold water, warm showers and sleeping in. Readings and PowerPoints, looking out into the busy streets from your beautiful desk.

meeting with friends, engaging conversations during dinner and later crawling into the warmth and comfort of your bed.

sunday: lazy mornings and making pancakes in your pjs, finishing off homework and getting a head start on next weeks readings. dancing freely as you clean and organise and being comfortable in your own skin. doing your leftover homework for next week in comfy clothes with sade playing and rain hitting the windows. watching your favourite tv shows at night and going to bed early ready for the next week.

ok now for your routine for today! 

so hopefully you got a good nights sleep after yesterday. and wake up as early as you can but no earlier than 6 again! wake up, running shorts and baggy tee on again and run fast. it doesnt have to be far. just fast until your sweaty and tired and feeling wobbly and weak in your legs. walk back as soon as you feel that. now take deep breaths and stretch your body. drink water and then shower and tidy your room while playing your fav music and dancing and singing even if your terrible at it! then change into cute clothes and do your hair and makeup if you like that kinda thing (i just wear mascara and i sometimes style my hair) but do whatever suits you! then go downstairs and eat a healthy filling breakfast! then text your friends on messgaes or whatsapp WHILE STANDING. because i dont want either of us sitting scrolling our lives away ever again. then do whatever jobs you need/should do. if you have nothing, help your parents with something or deep clean your room. then meet with your friends for lunch. really listen to them. during a rot i generally just talk about myself if i meet up with people because i am too tired to pay attention. then when you get home think about what you spoke about. now eat a delicious dinner and, if you like baths, run a cosy bath just the way you like it with a tv show playing. my god you earnt it, you are doing so well if you have done up until here but how do you feel? because please, even if you are tired and not enjoying it please keep going, trust me you will feel better. before bed, hug your family and pets it will make you happy. then do your cosy nightime routine and settle into your bed at 9 / 10 LATEST and read until your tired and listen to a cozy sleep story and fall asleep.

alr guys that your routine! 

im so proud of you guys! i dont think anyone is reading this but yeahhh! if your struggling with anything feel free to message me 💓

ok let me know what other kinds of blogs you want 

lots of love xoxo