#idk why im tagging this at all in reality this should be collecting dust in my drafts

[gooooose]

Vent

I'm home for the holidays and as much as I do not have to work here or have to wake up at 7 in the morning for classes for the time being, I want to leave. I think this house brings out the worst in me. Every noise is somehow just too loud and every footstep that graces the floor in front of my bedroom door raises my pulse to an uncomfortable degree. I've been getting angrier and angrier each day that passes for no discernable reason and the recognition that I am becoming angry only makes it worse. It's a hereditary issue and it really shines through when my family is all together. There are days here where i hate them all and i know they hate me. I've picked up all my awful habits again as well. Ive stopped eating. I go to sleep at 4 in the morning and I rot in my bed until it's become the afternoon every day. Won't go into the rest. I attempt to escape onto social media but then im reminded that the only social life i had at college was because we were forced to live with each other. I want to leave here so badly but I have another three weeks here. I'm so tired. Anyways, happy holidays. 2024 is only hours away.