#idk why i'm on a sideblog my brain's weird

[abovetherainandroses]

DARK ALLEY ON PIANO HOLY FUCKING SHIT

[dirtyoldmanhole]

SURPRISINGLY not about gunter. or fates. somehow this blog became 'fire emblem blorbo blog: speedwing* boogaloo' :P (*for those of you who are not like, ancient, "speedwing' used to be my old tellius-based sideblog.)

anyway

(very very very self indulgent ramblin / workshopping about future FE projects ahead)

next year's FE9's 20th anniversary and i am dead set on doing a zihark doujin for it. i got halfway through with one with tons of drawings that are still badass, lord knows that my fondness for him eclipses everything else i've ever drawn, i feel like i can finally do him justice, etc. this is The Moment tween krad has been waiting for all her life.

thing is i've been quietly debating to myself for a year or so if i want to do a strictly canon based doujin or one with selfshipper Stuff.

see, i thought i was going for more of a fanservice angle to sidestep that a little (still totally sliding that in whenever possible) but my brain unfortunately needs like a Modicum of Characterization :D; (as i am finding out with this gunter doujin). i need little plot hanger hooks even if it's gag strips or one off doodles.

and. i like. okay.

quick pros/con of canon-based doujin: wider audience, i don't have certian hangups over it

quick pros/cons of selfshipper doujin: it would probably heal certian parts of my soul if i wasn't being so chickenshit about it. it'd still be pretty? but it'd be harder to draw. i don't know if it would have a meaning to other than literally one (1) alive person and at some point i do have to kinda weigh the 'is the time sink worth it'

anyway

there's, very literally 20 years of inside jokes and shit with the selfshipper thing. i cannot stress to you zi literally got me to start drawing seriously. i don't know why i'm saying this other than 'this verse might be a bit self referential and i don't know if people would Get It compared to just canon (which i 10000% love on its own rights, it's not like i'm secretly dying to just do the selfshipper thing - ideally i would do a doujin of both because just what's in the games proper is so, so cool. he's such a weirdo. :D and tellius is the kind of cast i could stick him with literally anyone and wrangle up a cool scene.

- but. but?

the obvious answer is (do a doujin with both krad, like duh, people are gonna love the pretty pix no matter what ur overthinking it) but it just feels weird...? mixing the streams, if only in a pure technical/storytelling sense, and even above Personal Stuff i want to respect this on a pure craft level. ( i 100% love and go feral over the current wave of the selfshipper revival and would protect them with my life but with me it still feels inexplicably private and... i'm of elder internet, man. for me it still feels ... like it did in the 00's. very fringe-y vulnerable, you know? if you were there you know. idk. i'm still working through some of that.

feelings, god i hate feelings. just give me gorgeous dudes to draw to shut my brain up :D;;; )

[sarasa-cat]

Falling down the beautiful bujo rabbit hole yet again.

But this time it is all about physical journals rather than my (existing) electronic one.

As much I love the combination of electronic connivence and very exceedingly Aesthetic(TM) electronic journal pages (in a massive PDF full of a zillion hyperlinks) -- something I can load into the GoodNotes app and scribble on to my heart's content (handwrite on ipad, type on my keyboard, collage images from anywhere, etc etc) -- as much as I like this... there are things I don't like.

Files on the computer always feel a little to cramped for me. Fighting with the limitations of tools. No tactile sense of anything. Harder to flip back and forth between pages. Requires being on the computer (or ipad) thus always feels a little awkward for anything that isn't TYPING.

Keeping a purely functional minimalistic bullet journal or similar style thing on paper is something I have repeated done in the past, continued with for some period of time (sometimes lengthy, sometimes brief) but discarded bc the VISUAL MESS OF IT ALL turned me off.

I ... have weird sensitivities around issues of design -- information design, text design, graphic design, user interface design, product design, process design, etc etc etc.

Weird sensitivities and frustrations.

When things aren't beautifully designed my brain either recoils hard or just sort of starts screeeaaaaaammming and then, idk.... 😒

... I either need to DEAL with the fact that I'm willing to live with a yucky looking thing or I abandon the thing for something else that isn't yuck/recoil or brain-scream-inducing.

Honestly, I can live with the yucky looking thing. For instance, most of my fandom presence is a fucking mess, like my history of free broken tumblr themes (makes it harder for anyone to find anything on my tumblr-- is that really a negative? Hmmm...... 😏). Whenever my brain SCREAMS when looking at my tumblr or DW, I put it on my to do list but never get around to it because mostly it isn't really my problem -- ahahaha, sorry followers. I do try to keep my active sideblogs in visually good shape/info-design though, although all of my sideblogs are quiet right now.

Anyhow, the reasons why I have abandoned so many PAPER-BASED planners is because they were either designed entirely wrong to begin with (back in the day, prior to things like an iPad, I designed and printed my own planners!) or because I didn't like how messy they became.

Thus digital planners. Which I have been using for a few years but with so many issues because, deep down, they lack the affordances of paper that I want.

So.

(Long sad sigh of resignation)

I have spent much of yesterday evening and absolutely all of today (so far) researching ideas and planning out a beautifully design, hand-illustrated bujo that will go in my brand new (purchased yesterday at one of my fave bookstores) Leuchttrum A5 grid-page notebook with nice(!!) 120g paper which means it should be just thick enough to not have YUCKY BLEED THROUGH.

Idk about me sometimes

[appljuiceboxx]

welcome, weary traveller, to my dark cave of weird puberty crushes and useless memes.

hi there! my name's appl or amirah and i'm a generic bookworm, history nerd and theatre kid from malaysia. i draw, write, roleplay, and use character.ai to cope with my problems.

i barely post my art tho, you know why? self-consciousness, that's why! but i write! my ao3 link (which also has some of my art too) under my list of other blogs :)

you can call me: amirah, appl i use: she/her/they/them i'm from: malaysia!! we goreng everything and eat nasi lemak!! my age is: well not old enough to do anything interesting i like: books and star wars and history and fairy tales and problematic men i speak: english, a little arabic, malay i believe in: uhh muslim. i think. stuff that is probably important for my personality: aquarius, entp, uhh im the oldest. uhm im also really not ok. and. i like my dad :)

please note that i'm a minor and that weird-ass behaviour will be blocked.

my other blogs: @ask-sound-studio-7 [shovelware's brain game askblog] @james-vane-stan [ literature blog] @antonio-the-merchant-from-venice [shakespeare blog] @agog-and-aghast-rn [les mis] @pantheonsofgaynessanddespair (previously location-homeric-greece) [history/mythology sideblog] @opheliaandlaertesbutvictorian [vane sibling rp/askblog] @danny-torrances-new-mom [movie sideblog] @the-light-guides-you [roblox doors sideblog] @wilbah-sut [dsmp sideblog] (i may or may not make a cookierun kingdom sideblog idk man my fandoms are killing me)

if you wanna, you can check out my carrd for my dni list and my byf (which is kinda unfinished but who cares) or my straw page which is a little simpler and my AO3, which i post at more. and my discord is juiceboxx#2545 if you wanna troll or whatever.

enjoy this dumpster fire

[powerbottomclaptrap]

I'm not very active on this site beyond reblogging stuff I like but homie pinged me so I will try it out lol.

I am meant to ping people to respond with theirs so, @ericfartmansworld I am pinging you specifically. @lunkthehero may as well @ your ass too, why not. Don't have to do it but it'd be funny if the weird questions interest you. Don't even read my bullshit near the bottom, I promise you it's not worth it.

I'm putting mine under a Read More thing this is way too much.

Last Song: Arm Drop - Kuollut

I enjoy so much of Crystal Cage's stuff. Been listening to this track on its own for the last few days rather than in the playlist I made for some reason. This track's not WEIRD weird, but it's kind of on the mellower end. In general I do a lot of my code, writing and worldbuilding work around my garbo playlists but I actually have a specific location aesthetically based entirely around this one song. Thin streets, houses stacked on houses, pumps driving up something from deep below the surface to power the small city within a city. Maybe I should do some art of it and post it to the art sideblog, idk.

Favourite Colour: Magenta

My brain vibes with Magenta > Green > Black > Crimson > Pink > uhh Grey > Everything Else > Blue. My biggest issue if I do any character design stuff is I work disgustingly simply with my colours since I like simple greys and blacks with single striking colours, but it doesn't make for very varied colour palettes LOL. Magenta and Green are just good vibrant contrasts with duller colours for me. But pink works as a good magenta stand-in. Crimson works if I want that kind of colour but as the duller part of a palette. Blue sucks though. Fuck blue. jk

Last Movie: Mamma Mia!

Watched this one for Valentines day with my girlfriend. The actors/performers seemed like they all had a lot of fun with it and I feel that shows throughout. Very earnest movie and fun musical. ABBA is also just cozy music. The kind of music my mother listens to when she's happy, alongside Queen and Rocky Horror Picture Show tracks, which is nice.

Sweet/Spicy/Savoury: Spicy

YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA the other two are nice as well though. My body is actually incredibly weak when it comes to spice but my soul craves it so I soldier on.

Relationship Status: Taken

'Taken' is such a weird word for a relationship status but whatever. My girlfriend is such a nerd and I mean that in the best possible way. If my ass just stuck to my stupid gamer tastes I would've never enjoyed even a tenth of the stuff I've enjoyed with her. She's intelligent (VERY good at math) but also wise, always having very thoughtful and interesting perspectives on a lot of the stuff we talk about. Even things my brain just took for granted as X she will provide some damn good food for thought for Y or expand on X in ways I didn't consider. She's also just funny, straight up. And pretty. Honestly I'm very lucky and privileged to even know her as a friend all things considered.

Last Thing I Googled: 'find unavailable videos in playlist youtube'

I was helping my girlfriend port the "songs that get white people turnt" playlist over to Youtube from Spotify LOL, it worked but some of the over 2500 tracks are not available in USA so I was hoping to find a solution via a goofy python script so I could automate the process.

Current Obsession: PENELOPE AND SALLY from Tangle Tower

I have been writing fic for the first time in over 12 years over this. This is spoilers and also gibberish so you can close out of the post now if you want to avoid my special interest bullshit. But ANYWHO Penny's cold, serious demeanour, her feelings of isolation and purposelessness hidden behind her ornithologist persona. Sally's laid back sarcasm and carefree fun-having attitude. Sally knocking Penny off her stable balance while under her Hawkshaw persona with the compliments and lowkey flirting. Penny's DETECTIVE ROMANCE BOOKS. On the fanon end of things I'm also just VERY down for the drama of Penny trying to find her place in the world, finding the only remnants of her family's past burned or lost. Murdering her remaining immediate family in rage when they failed to provide her with the purpose she was looking for. Manipulating her uncle into helping her find out more about her family so she can feel that sense of direction. Killing someone she looked up to and respected when they found out too much. All this before just completely having her whole schtick shaken the fuck up by this goofy detective. Like the person she's into, who just flirted with her, is currently on her case solving the murder mystery that SHE's the perpretator of. Every interaction they'd have would be haunting Penny in the back of her mind. She wants to interact with Sally more, learn more about her, but she is an active threat to Penny's cover. All of this leading up to the end, where her cover is blown again. Sally knows everything. Through circumstance she gets the chance to kill Sally, just as she'd done before with Freya. But she just, couldn't do it. She's found by Fitz and has to leave, failing to even get what she came for. So many dead, at her hands, for nothing. It's MESSY and I'm invested. Writing bullshit for the past week, eating into my time for actual productive stuff. Hell.

People I'd like to get to know better

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR TAGGING ME @shamblespirate I AM SMOOCHING YOU SO HARD

Last song: Tití Me Preguntó by Bad Bunny

I don’t really have an explanation for this song other than it gets me hyped the fuck up and Bad Bunny really just is one of my fav Spanish speaking artists and idk with both him and I being Puerto Rican I just have this sense of pride ya know SKSMDM OKAY ENOUGH OF THAT

Favorite color: light blues

Any shade of light blue! It can be pastel, baby blue, etc etc like blue has me in a chokeholdddddd

Last Movie: Words Bubble Up Like Soda Pop

MY BOYFRIEND SHOWED ME THIS MOVIE AND OH MY GOD IT IS SO CUTE???? Im a sucker for cute shit and this had me *sobbing* 100/10 please go watch it

Sweet/Spicy/Savoury: Savory

Oh this is tough….. I was teetering between spicy and savory but ultimately landed on savory cause I’m just baby when it comes to spice 😭 like I like it when my food has a kick to it but I’ll always love myself a good steak with some A1 sauce or some tacos from this good taco shop down the street like I can live without spicy but I can’t live without savory

Relationship Status: Taken!

I’ve been in this relationship for over 3 years!! High school sweethearts 🥰 I actually knew him for around 6+ years and I’ve been in love with him since the beginning and he has been in love with me too but we haven’t done anything about it till senior year 😭 truly a mutual pining slow burn 🤭fun fact! Our anniversary is the same day as Laws Birthday

Last thing I googled: cenote

I booked a cruise for my birthday and I was looking up excursions and there was one where it was like cave and cenote diving and I didn’t know what it was so I looked it up! It’s basically like a sinkhole filled with water I might just have to do that 👀👀

Current Obsession: Bugsnax

THIS IS SUCH A CUTE VIDEO GAME AND IVE BEEN PLAYING IT NONSTOP FOR THE PAST WEEK I think everyone should be required to play this game at one point in their lives

tagging: @uminozerol @nc-vb @benkeibear @zoros-sheath @turtletaubwrites @purplechemtrails @crimson-hybrid

[piplupod]

the urge to change my name and make a new account to have a fresh clean slate is so big off and on lately djfjkl idk why

i would miss friends and mutuals though and followers i see in my activity feed so i won't do that but like. i kind of wish i could like. not be held down so much by how i feel ppl perceive me, i want to say things or do things that would be considered "out of character" bc i have a lot of shifts going on in brain rn (like things are shuffling around and being re-organized almost?) and i just want to be able to let myself exist without feeling like i need to be consistent fdsfjkl

idk if that makes sense. i probably won't be posting anything to do with that here until its more concrete and i can slowly shift towards that instead of the current state of being, but also i really wish i could share the cool things i'm realizing or piecing together or thinking about, but i just feel like it would be weird or cringe or whatever. but god i feel like this might be really healthy finally and i might be able to like,,, not be literally constantly running shame and suicide in the background of my brain, those might be able to shut down for a bit which would be so nice

[potahun]

(i continue to be anon bc i don't want the asks coming from my main and not my pokemon sideblog but hi i made the alain art and had the ask about the tsme tag last time! i return flaksdjf)

idk if you're still taking tsme asks bc technically the months ends today? so if you don't get to this that is. totally totally cool

but i was wondering if you have like. headcanons or ideas or anything about connections between oras (esp the delta episode) and tsme acts 2 and 3?

basically i'm novelizing tsme rn and i've got the first act done but the second one has me kinda stumped bc what is the logic behind magical staircases activated by rainbow rocks and all of that shit flkasjdf and there's so much lore potential but idk how to Lore and so much more one could do with steven's character then what is properly done in the anime so idk i was just wondering if you had suggestions or headcanons to get my brain gears going flkasdjf sorry if this is a weird question

gonna flat out admit that i never even got to play the delta episode so. struggling haha

anyways also just wanted to say tysm for doing tsme month and providing sm content it's literally the happiest i've felt in the pokemon fandom in what feels like forever it was just so nice to see that other people like tsme too! this was so much fun even just to follow along and i had a great time :DD

First thing first, I TOTALLY GET THE FEELING im on secondary blog too, so I can never do asks from potahun and it makes me sad sometimes ;__; but HI! Thank you so much again for the lovely tsme month art aaaaaaa

Secondly, your ask is hitting me right on the head like a whack-a-mole, because I DO have a lot of thoughts about oras being linked to TSME 2-3 and I am so happy to be able to talk about it all :D

I already used this headcanon as the basis for The Elevator Pitch (sorry for the self-promote here) and set out details in the end notes of that fic But the narrative I believe to be true (and I dont believe ive seen it before) is:

The Megalith originally landed in Kalos through unknown means (from space?) and was used by AZ as the core of the Ultimate Weapon. (headcanon)

Firing the Ultimate Weapon poured energy - a mix of Pokémon life energy and Megalith energy - onto Kalos which mutated certain rocks into Mega Stones. (canon/headcanon)

After regretting his acts, AZ hid the Ultimate Weapon, and possibly broke the Megalith into pieces, to avoid another UW and one part was moved to Hoenn. (headcanon)

Some people accepted to keep the Megalith in Hoenn (headcanon) But with its Primal Energy, the rock caused trouble with Kyogre, Groudon, Rayquaza (canon). In this overall chaos, Mega Stones appeared in Hoenn: Rayquaza does Mega-Evolve and make attacks rain whenever it detects the Megalith. Does that mix of Megalith+Pokémon energy do the same thing to rocks as the UW did? Maybe. (headcanon/canon)

To avoid having Hoenn wrecked constantly, some people must have hidden the Hoenn part of the Megalith in a system that we see in TSME2. (headcanon) I am not sure how the rainbow stairs work either. Could be Mega-Evo energy-powered technology from back in the days. Or magic. Either way, that Megalith is hidden in Hoenn, and the key to it broken into two halves. (canon) 

AZ could have been in Hoenn to witness the Rayquaza phenomenon (basically canon) and taken half of the key with him back to Kalos. (headcanon) As he is Fleurdelys’ ancestor, this could explain why Fleurdelys found half of the key (while Daigo found the other) in TSME2 (canon)

The other half of the Megalith is left in Kalos, hidden within the Anistar Sundial. (headcanon)

Based on this, one could say the Megalith is “the root of Mega Evolution”

Most of these headcanons are based to an extent on canon information or would fit within canon narrative: For instance, we have canon indications from ORAS that AZ has been in Hoenn (tree near Cave of Origins, and Zinnia’s dialogues). Also, in XY games, the Anistar Sundial is shrouded in mystery, but is linked to Mega Evolution, and is rumoured to be from outer space (Megalith?) Also, in XY&Z, the Megalith headed straight for the Anistar Sundial in order to absorb it: given Fleurdelys’ plan (in-game) to revive the UW, that would tie the loose ends together and make a coherent narrative (i.e. the Hoenn-Megalith wants to fuse again with the Kalos-Megalith and their fusion + whatever process Fleurdelys made the Megalith undertake, together, “revive” the UW and destroy Kalos). Also! Devon used Pokémon life energy to create Infinity Energy, inspired by the story of AZ and the Ultimate Weapon. But why did Devon never somehow create Mega Stones through that process? Life energy itself is not enough; they lacked the Megalith. etc. 

I believe this theory holds up fairly strongly, but there is of course speculation involved. I hope it can spark some ideas...? :’)

As for Daigo’s role within this big conspiracy theory, I also have my take on it in The Elevator Pitch :’D but that is NOT canon and is just one take among many possibilities haha 

In any case, good luck with your writing process aaaaaa!! And thank you again for this ask!! I am so, so glad if you enjoyed tsme month ;w; and thank you so much for telling me that you did. *holds heart* It was such a pleasure for me to scream, reminisce and share the love for tsme as well, and it was so nice to see all the warm responses, to see that it’s been years but people still care about the source material. Even without tsme month, I hope tsme continues to be loved by all

[a-snow-decahedron]

16 17 and 19 for ask meme ?

Qkgkskgks thank you for asking!!

16. What's the weirdest thing you've used as a bookmark?

I read a lot on PDF and even on paper I don't use bookmarks. HOWEVER... The weirdest bookmark i do use sometimes is my phone skgjdjfj

17. Talk to me about the minutiae of your current WIP. Tell me about the lore, the history, the detail, the things that won’t make it in the text.

Right now I'm mainly writing for another fandom, Hollow Knight. I started a really chill project in which I explore post-canon events of one of the endings. I've posted 4 chapters, I'm halfway through the 5th out of 16-20 chapters? Since this isn't the fandom this work belongs to I won't dwell for too long, but I can talk about it more in my HK sideblog (@fungal-wasted) (I'm a little desperate i need to talk about it)

FOR THIS FANDOM: I have been delaying a Chara essay for far too long skgkdjf I also have some thoughts related to Frisk in neutral endings, and a Pre canon Sans and Toriel fic that had lived in my brain for A While but I have not written because idk how to start.

19. Tell me a story about your writing journey. When did you start? Why did you start? Were there bumps along the way? Where are you now and where are you going?

PFFFT. So I barely consider myself a writer but I've actually spent a lot of time thinking about writing or telling stories. This is long but hopefully not tedious to read!!

8 year old me would write in the format of a play (with formal notations and all) about my first OCs. They were average for a kid that age to be honest. I remember one was named Carmín. Whatever. I just wrote because it was fun to make stories. I also hated reading so not even my old self would have cared about the story lol.

9-11 I had some self insert OCs who were 3 sisters and they went to a lot of vague fantasy places. Never wrote a story down, just had very vivid images and I'd talk to myself roleplaying my characters... Man i was a little weird. It's OK though. It was fun.

By 12-14 i got into Wattpad. I was into Heroes of Olympus and got introduced to fanfiction there. There were also my first attempts at translation and they weren't great but i had a lot of readers. It improved my English inmensively, despite it all. I was into YA literature but I was a bit dumb, not too critical and ashamed about it.

15-18 pure silence. I read some stuff, wrote nothing and I thought I was cringy, I also left Wattpad for the most part, knew about AO3 but rarely frequented it...

And now we're here. I started writing fic regularly whenever I'd get an idea to share, or a scene in my mind that I wanted to portray and add to the piles of fic that sometimes didn't have what I was looking for. It also became a good chance to understand conversations, intent and such better and to have an outlet for all my thoughts. I also like writing essays or such on occasion. OH and it was a chance to write in English too and practice!!

The biggest bumps are when you feel the structure of your story shaking under the weight of inconsistency and or lack of a way to address what you want and have the desired effect.

Now I like both character studies and worldbuilding, and that's what my writing tries to do! I'm also trying to get back into translation (check out @tortadecuchufli ). I want to try out different things and maybe branch out to original writing at some point in the future but who knows.

[perpetuallypottytraining]

🍭 About Me 🍭

Hi, I'm Jazz!

I’m over 18!

She/They

Asexual

I like omorashi, omocute, and omutsu! This blog is basically for storing omo content that kinda sorta helps me regress??? idk, my brain is weird

You know all those potty training shows and books? Turns out that if you watch/read them enough times when your brain is still developing, you get someone who enjoys omo nonsexually and in a way that even helps them regress. Wild. Anyways, this blog is for all of those type of posts! Plus anything else that fits!!!

My other sideblog is SoggyJazz! If you're looking for more "mean" omo content, whump, and things that are a little more nsfw!

My main is LittleJazzy! I'm an age regressor, and it's all sfw content that help me feel little! Putting this here so if y'all see this blog interacting with you, you know why

⚠ 18+ only!!! If you're a minor, do not interact!!! ⚠

[moogghost]

i'm. sorry this is a long post just about myself (your uh. friendly scissors gijinka introject saxen who the brain just chucked into the headspace at one point because "fuck you you need a humanized pair of scissors") and the consideration of a personal sideblog because i don't feel particularly bothered to make a new whole-ass email for another tumblr account summed up so feel free to read if y'all want details SDFGHJ

ik we have a separate system blog for a reason and i mainly use it just because it still feels weird mentioning system stuff or plurality when most of our followers on here are singlets but,, am thinking of potentially making another sideblog specifically for myself and my own interests because i front too often to not have one i think i deserve it <3 and idk it isn't going to be system centric if i did make it it'd be my own specific interests (...it could literally be a combination of just several images of snakes, swords, cats, some source content from this blog since idk i don't feel that comfortable reblogging other's content on another blog specifically with my own individual interests even though i'm pretty sure most people would be understanding)

issues: i don't know what to fucking name it (i'm. not naming it after myself or my source i frankly just feel a little too nervous doing that simply bc anxiety </3 i definitely love my source and do enjoy the fandom itself though don't get me wrong like half the time if you are interacting with us. it's very likely you have talked to me before or at least in co-front with ivy and i haven't had a really bad experience atm? then again i could be downplaying some things because y'know i mainly formed after the wings of fire wiki shit </3), i don't have enough energy to do that both just in general and also i just got my wisdom teeth removed :), and also i just. ngh yeah we're a system that's really blurry at times so idk if it's worth it because sometimes everything feels like one big introject soup ASDFGH (y'know i. might actually look into more of those guides because the endo community has already helped us a lot with handling our own plurality and that might help us too. discord and tupperbox definitely helped but i was thinking we need more and i do have uh. other reasons for wanting to be more separate but they are slightly embarrassing maybe </3)

idk like. while it's usually ivy and me in co-front atm since. max just only fronts when we're 1) being ridiculous/"fighting", 2) needs to calm me down and ivy or day can't (which he is. good at. i don't get it he's younger than me in our perceived innerworld why), or 3) we need to have a schedule he is the only one with a sense of schedule in the system besides maybe natalie. he was the saving grace for our standardized testing and finals being finished, honestly. the others are here or there usually, so it's mostly just me and ivy reblogging shit and posting art on here anyways. i mean she technically has her wings of fire blog i should have my own i think. maybe i might have the others help or co-front because i'll be blunt while i do try my best i am. not the best person sometimes! so it's probably going to be a mix of just trying and hoping people will be patient with me ig if i go with it

[keyframe-moved]

This turned into way more of a ramble and is WAY more personal than i was expecting sorry I guess I needed to talk about my feelings for a bit NIJDOJNSJIND

The tl;dr is that this may turn into an actual system blog in a couple weeks . Maybe not though. Undecided

You can read the rest if you want

Latest thoughts and feelings about how our system functions have had really awkward timing considering me inevitably hyperfixating on Legends Arceus is going to affect communication and our ability to switch for a little while . So like everything we want to try and do will probably have to wait until after the hype wears off . N E ways while we're still deciding because we really don't like hanging around System Tumblr (we softblock most system blogs who follow us for a reason) I think if it helps our communication + our system really abruptly changing Everything About How We Function we might turn this blog into a more standard system blog . Where like everyone has their own talking tag and stuff

We've considered doing that in the past but it feels.. weird? Specifically like we're opening ourself up to fakeclaiming. Our system is mostly (ALMOST entirely) alters who identify as some form of Pokémon-related fictive right now, which I honestly wouldn't blame a complete stranger for thinking is Off and a sign that we're "roleplaying" or whatever . Our close friends who we actually talk about this stuff with know that we weren't always like this and it was the result of a weird mass-fusion our brain did after we stopped being active in the wider plural community a few months ago, and have repeatedly assured us that it never even crossed their mind that we're just making this all up to roleplay as Pokespe characters, but I can see how it could have That Vibe to people at a first glance

I also kind of worry about if our communication Stays Bad or if things don't work out I'll be restructuring this blog for Nothing and it'll be awkward, like I'll just have a weird phase in this blog's history where my headmates posted sometimes and then they stopped . Idk why I'm worried about that this a very chaotic blog but it feels like it's SOME level of organized and turning it into a system blog would require it to become more organized, which,, will be weird if it just Stops . I wouldn't know what to do with the leftover tagging system or the posts by my headmates that are just There now . I could resolve this by just having a seperate system blog from my main but again I have really little interest in actually being active in the plural community and also having a sideblog for something almost feels like I'm trying to hide something away . I have a sideblog for pokepastas because I know i have followers who don't like horror content and want to accommodate for them . If someone didn't want to follow me because they Dont Like that I'm a System I wouldn't accommodate them I'd just block them IJNDONJSJINC..

ANYWAYS yeah I have stuff on my mind . FNSJINCJBIS obviously I will let you guys know of we make any massive changes to how this blog runs but for now we just have Ideas . I'm going to go work on brainweird symbolic system art now

[muggle-writes]

Rules: Answer 21 questions and then tag 21 people who you want to get to know better.

tagged by @elizabethsyson

Nickname: Muggle is my nickname, but when I went by Muggle in person for more than a month at a time, it naturally got abbreviated, usually to Mugz

Zodiac: Aquarius

Last movie I saw: into the spiderverse (same answer as last time. I don't watch that many movies tbh except around Christmas. unless YouTube counts in which case... music of some sort? idk links for the next answer)

Favorite musician: changes by the day. I've kinda been in an acapella and/or folk music mood recently so the Maccabeats and Peter Hollens are in my YouTube and Spotify history a lot recently. also I'm eternally in awe of Forte Handbell Quartet (eta a longer video; i recommend skipping to the techno piece or the Jurassic Park theme)

Last thing I googled: "vine why are you buying clothes at the soup store" (my wife hasn't seen it; also i can't find the vine because apparently it's a much bigger meme than I realized). before that it was "chgrp not root" because work and group permissions are useful when they work

Song stuck in my head: well for most of the day when I haven't been actively listening to something, it's been the Pokemon RSE route-walking music. (but that somehow happens frequently when I'm in the no-music-no-internet room at work, as I was for most of the day, and I don't know how I accidentally trained my brain to make that connection). right now, surprisingly, I don't have any background music playing in my head. I think it's because the humidifier provides just enough white noise that my brain doesn't feel the need to provide its own

Other blogs: my main is @muggle-the-hat and I'm a mod on @why-do-neurotypicals but we've gotten one ask ever so that blog has been dormant for a while. I have a bunch of other sideblogs, but they're all small and I use different screen names on each of them (enby life: no idea which name suits me best so I may as well try them out) so i feel like it would just confuse things to link them.

Following: blogs matching all the themes of my sideblogs, (including this one, which is writeblr), korean langblr, jumblr, assorted fandom blogs, authors of my more favorite fanfictions (some overlap with other categories), and irl friends and acquaintances (including one fandom blog turned irl friend)

Do I get asks: on my main if at all, which isn't really surprising because i have hundreds of followers there and maybe 60 followers combined among the rest. but I get asks far less often than I reblog ask memes so... I'm always happy to get more. I do get tagged in ask games more on this one, but writeblr is actually vaguely organized about tag lists so that makes sense. also I used to get tagged a bunch on my main and I rarely could find the posts again to follow up when I had time to answer.

What I’m Wearing: pajamas. staying warm and cozy

Lucky number: I don't remember what I said last time, but I like a lot of numbers. 64 is a good number. recently I've been debugging software in which 0x3E is my lucky status number and 0x0E taunts me. (um, decimal 62 and 14). Also my other favorite number i can't share until it's no longer the combination to the lock to the Secret Room. (or realistically never because opsec and i shouldn't make public the types of parents we use for that combination lock), honestly I aim to be like.... ah, I'm sure the anecdote involves G.H. Hardy but i don't remember on which side. anyway one mathematician remarked to another about how the id number of the taxi he rode in was sadly uninteresting, and the one I aspire to be like, argued "what are you talking about, this number is interesting because ______" and I'd like to be able to do that for any arbitrary number thrown at me. (hi yes math is good, history is hard, math history is interesting yet i still forget the people even if i remember the math. except when things are named after people, but that tends to be, like, Euler and LaGrange and other people who did lots of cool science things so i remember the methods and the names of the methods separately which never helps)

Amount of sleep: ....depression both screws with my sleep schedule and means I always feel like I need more sleep except when I wake up at 5pm and feel like I've wasted the day. so yeah. I can never get enough sleep

Favorite food: yes (why do I have to pick a favorite?) uh, chocolate in most forms, many other sweet things, red meats (especially if served with potatoes), curry (especially if it has "too much" ginger), fresh-baked bread, chai the way my favorite local Indian restaurant makes it (spicier with just a little bit of sweet, which is the opposite of what i can get from the mocha machine at work which is wayyy sweet with a hint of spice but that inferior chai is still superior to coffee so i drink too much of it). also vegetables which I really don't eat enough of: sauteed zucchini and onions, roasted broccoli

Dream trip: dreaming requires creativity and tbh I funnel that mostly into my writing instead. I wouldn't mind going back to Korea for another visit though

Dream job: my current job is pretty good when I feel productive and when my debugging tools actually produce data maybe??? (they were not being helpful today. but i still mostly like my job.) dream job is probably this but with seniority and confidence and double the salary (while living in a similar area of the country; I wouldn't want to double my salary by moving to work for Google in California and having less available after rent than I do now)

Describe yourself as aesthetic things:

the smell of old books

the first glow of sunrise (the sunrise painting the mountains pink and gold)

a rainbow in the spray from a waterfall

the flicker of distant lightning (watching a thunderstorm fade into the distance)

this picture

Random fact: about me or about the world?

how about a combination answer: when we got our new handbell music this season, we only looked at half the pieces our first rehearsal and afterwards I tried to look up one of the pieces we hadn't gotten to on YouTube because it's got a weird time signature and I wanted to get a feel for how fast it would go and how strict the counting is...... except it turns out we're the first group to ever play the piece. it was commissioned recently but seeing my conductor's name on the page didn't tell me how new it was because he's super prolific. (the fact that it was on printer paper without the publisher's graphics should have been a giveaway but it's only the second time I've been among the first to play one of his pieces so I think I can be excused for not realizing)

Languages: mostly just English, but I took Spanish for years, so I can hold simple conversations in it. I can almost read sound out Hebrew fast enough to keep up in services, and I know some random Hebrew vocab but comparatively no grammar. and I took Korean in college, enough that I can recognize sentence structure but I can really only speak tourist-Korean, though I can sound anything out (if it's typed. handwriting is hit or miss.) in both Hebrew and Korean (and Spanish tbh but i don't often listen to Spanish music) I'm very proud when I can separate the words enough, listening to a song, to translate them without looking up the lyrics. also I tried to learn Japanese from Duolingo when it was new, but I still hadn't gotten the kana straight when it started progressing to kanji so that was a rough time and I went back to Hebrew.

tbh I "dabble" in "language learning" which really means I start a million courses on Duo and stick with none of them. with the notable exception of French, which I acknowledge is super common and probably a good idea to learn but the spelling and pronunciation seem so arbitrary I'm scared to look close enough to learn it properly, and I've never particularly considered starting the Duolingo course for French

I think I lost a few questions, because that's only 18 answers. whoops.

um... who to tag

@abluescarfonwaston if school hasn't drowned you in work yet and @copperscales I'm interested in both of your choices for lucky numbers especially.

... wow I'm blanking on other mutuals I haven't tagged recently. as usual lmk if you'd like to be edited in, or just answer the questions and tag me back, that's great too.