#idk what tags to use bleh

[shabo00]

Detransition, Baby by Torrey Peters has made me think about femininity a lot and my relationship to it.

I'm 23, Peters is 43, and this book has made me immensely aware of that 20 year gap. There are plenty of times in this book where as I read I feel almost called out, or like some issue of mine is brought to light and finally framed in a way that makes sense. These very private little things about sex or my body, I'm reminded it's not just me and that these are issues so many trans people deal with. It's written with such a rawness that I know she's dealt with these things too. When she started going on about dissociation and sex and an inability to take part emotionally I genuinely had to put the book down for a few minutes. Yowch! There are other points where the issues and thoughts presented feel alien, or sometimes even a bit backwards to me and most of it is about masculinity and femininity and what they mean.

One's gender expression is an impossibly singular thing, I've learned, but a theme among me and my friends is this ambivalence towards the gender binary. In my little circle of transfems I've really only seen one express a direct desire to be a woman, the rest (me included) all seem to want more of an escape from gender. Not to be a woman, but not to be a man. We still do this by interacting with traditional gendered ideas of what is masculine and feminine, growing longer hair and staying clean shaven and stuff like that but it's still this attempt to hit some middle ground. Whatever the ultimate goal of each of us is, I've never felt it was anything akin to traditional femininity and it certainly isn't for me. Personally I'd probably be happiest being entirely sexless.

So when, in her novel, Peters goes so deep in to these ideas of motherhood and the feminine and what they mean I feel lost. Ultimately I think that shows some success from older queers in attempting to dismantle those traditional ideas of gender. They worked! The idea of following a gender binary has never been something on my mind and that seems totally normal to me to the point where defining oneself by those traditional gender roles feels crazy!

Ultimately a big part of my relationship with gender was shaped by where and how I grew up of course along with when. Lower class internet poisoned freak from Portland Oregon, of course I'm a nonbinary communist, it was written in the stars at my birth.

As an extra I've been reading Torture Works by Porpentine and going from Detransition, Baby to that is some whiplash. I'm dealing with Gen X gender issues in one book and open another to be hit with the word boymoder. At least I know what that means I say wearing my black hoodie on a day that'll be 90 degrees.

[ritsmaos]

kind of bleh doodle i did at like 3 am last night :P meowple... meepurr...

[deerpups]

hi mizuki

[lesbianwyllravengard]

Luis: hey cowboy Leon's search history:

[lemurballing]

the difference between good whispangle and bad whispangle is the difference between trusting each other the most and only trusting each other. between getting stuck in the past or letting the future embrace you. between holding a close bond and being desperate for each other’s company. between being a pair and being a unit.

good whispangle is tangle helping whisper stay in the present and future, and whisper being a guiding hand, a steadying of tangle’s impulse, and the both of them making choices that help and comfort the other.

bad whispangle is tangle getting dragged into dwelling on the past with whisper, is tangle being made to overstep instead of minding the lines she should be able to see, and whisper sinking into a mire that tangle follows her into instead of pulling her from. is putting them together ‘because they’re whispangle’ and forgetting why they were loved together in the first place. is keeping them together because they’re whispangle, even when they trod on the other.

and the difference is,

that if it starts out bad and becomes better, it’s satisfying, heartening.

but to start out excellent and then get worse and decay, feels like a smear or a stain on top of a beloved work.

a natural decay can be done, but we want them to be good together, to bring out the best in each other instead of enabling the worst. if we want to see decay, it is because it makes sense for one or both of them to be driven off-balance and start messing with the other, we want one or both of them to realize this, and we want them to have to jump-start and kick aside and course-correct and come out all the better, for having broken their flaws open and mended them with gold.

we don’t want to see them broken apart and stuck back together with cheap glitter glue.

[corvlth]

Ya know what, fuck it, I'll be cringe on main and post it. This was initially supposed to be a comic, then i thought that'd be too much work, then I wanted to go through all the team and have a cool moment where Ash reveals their name that's borrowed from the childhood friend that died, but I'm not strong enough to write all that. So have this, make of it what you will. Idk what do people who actually know what they're doing put here?

Characters: Ash Miller, Erika Engels, Dima Romanoff (they're all ocs don't bother looking em up)

Warnings: blood, implications of abuse

Word count: 1246

    Noises of foreign words made them stir in their sleep. They didn't want to wake yet, their muscles were sore and tired. They remember... what do they remember? They were on the run. After Ceanu disappeared. Why did he vanish again? He... he was... they couldn't remember.

-

They ran away, just like that. Secured the border guard shift at night to the north, where the forests are thick and mountainous. They don't remember what possessed them to do this. Cowardice? Maybe. Maybe the fear of facing the death of the only loved one they had in their life drove them to run away like a coward.

    The memory of sweat beading down the side of their face, eyes darting about like a deer as they waited for a moment, a silent opportunity to book it, anything. It came, finally. Was it 3? 4 at night? Doesn't matter. The other guards were all quiet and distant. They took a sturdy wooden chair and broke the glass window, then jumped down and started running with no destination in mind. Not even daring to employ the wings. Flying would just give away their position and the forest was too dense for that. Paranoia set in. They've never been outside the border, were threatened plenty about that. Heard that it's even worse out there. Whatever abuse, overwork and fear was inflicted unto them here, it was for the good of the nat ion and everyone's safety, as to not end up like everyone else on the outside. Did they believe that? Yes, completely. Now they're taking their chances.

    They couldn't hear anything besides the blood rushing though their veins and their labored breathing as they ran, as fast as they could away from the wall, between the trees, through the brush, trying to make as little sound as possible, thinking about any possibility of getting tracked down, like the mechanism inside their chest cavity, but they might die if something there breaks accidentally, so...

    They hid behind a thick oak, heaving, and grasped the metallic ear tags on their ears, denoting their serial code. Serial code that marked them as the first of what was supposed to be many experiments to create the perfect super soldier in taking down the west. They yanked out the tags with all the force they could muster, tearing their ear lobes in a bloody mess and hid the metal pieces in the hollow of the oak behind them, hoping that'll buy them time from being found, before going back on the run.

    After that it has been... days. Maybe weeks. Just running, foraging and avoiding danger and human settlements. Catching a wink of sleep once in a while. In some abandoned barn, up trees, caves, wherever they found. What even for? What's even the point of this? Where were they trying to go? Their best friend is gone and now what? Into the loving arms of the enemy? They had close encounters a few times. Some farmers, dogs maybe. No idea who tipped their location off to the enemy.

    After weeks of sleeplessness, starved half to death and disheveled, they were too exhausted, too distracted, maybe, to notice the large net flying at them and taking them down. Large silhouette standing over their tangled up form writhing on the ground with a rifle, speaking in a language foreign to them, before hitting them roughly with the butt of the rifle over the head and knocking them out as the last thing they heard were the blades of a helicopter closing in. Did they not make it after all?

-

    And now, they stir again, slowly opening an eye, and then the other, taking in the bright lamp over their head. As their eyes adjusted, they take in their surroundings. A small, sterile that was made to look like the inside of a can by the shiny panels of the white walls. Looks like a medical clinic, and the screen next to them beeped in time with their heartbeat. Through the muddled glass on the door they saw the source of the previous noises. Two people arguing. What appeared to be a tall, muscular blonde woman and some doctor, judging by the lab coat.

    The woman raises her tone, saying something they couldn't understand, and gesturing threateningly to the puny middle aged man in front of her. At least that means they weren't taken back home, judging by the foreign language. They try to sit up, but their sore muscles give away from exhaustion, making them fall back on the bed with a thud. That seemed to alert the woman at the door, who barges in, looking them over with a distainful glare and barking something at them, some string of unknown questions.

    Another person enters, a behemoth of a man with a dark beard and equally cruel green eyes, who's face reminds them of someone from really long ago, not that they can recall exactly. The guy must be the one who hit them in the head back there. He exchanged some words with the woman before she sighs and seemingly agrees to whatever it is he said, and he approaches them, absolutely towering over at almost 7 feet tall. As he bent over to pick them up, the small but unmistakable colors of the american flag come into view in the form of a small patch on his vest. They've had their fair share of run-ins with the americans, when they came to attack.

    The guy kept a tight grip on them as he followed the woman, his commander probably down an equally white and sterile looking corridor, every other person wearing white coats was stepping out their way and whispering among themselves, no doubt about their arrival. They look up at the guy and he glances back at them with a threatening glare, as if cautious of them attacking him or something. As if they can in this condition. They look absolutely pitiful.

    They eventually come up on a round door and the woman raises a hand up to a panel in the wall, which makes a horizontal line of light go up and down the panel, scanning her palm, before another section of the wall opens up, revealing a numpad for which she inputs the code for. The door opens, revealing a small room. They've never seen anything like this before. The technology they had at home was all rusty analog dials and buttons. This was all so... Alien. Too clean for them, it seemed unnatural. The woman turns around, giving an order, to which the man grunts and steps inside, giving them a good view of the room, after they are placed on the bed. Small, white and mostly barren, in the shape of an L. Cold, geometric shapes all around, no windows. Another door to their left, a bathroom perhaps. Nothing much in terms of comfort.

    The woman says something to them, a threat. Not that they can understand, before turning around and leaving, along with her subordinate. A "don't you dare try to run away or break anything" perhaps. They do not know. But that matters little at the moment. At least they no longer have to run now. They got caught, and they will have to face the consequences. But not now.

    They heave a tired sigh and turn around to face the wall, falling back asleep and giving their sore limbs a chance to rest and heal.

[karpsicles]

the thing is i be yearning

[nitronusnyk]

Sometimes, I feel very pointless. As a person. Idk what to do with myself so often. I sit and play video games all day because it makes me happy, but when the screen goes black, I feel very empty. It's silly because everyone says just go do things, go make friends, but I'm content with the ones I have. Idk. I feel like there's no reason for me sometimes. And that sucks.

[sgtmickeyslaughter]

Tag Game Wednesday

okay, confession time: I'm a little obsessed with my hair, which i recognize as ironic because it's basically just basic brown hair but I can't help it. This tag game was made for me, thanks @spookygingerr, @energievie, @stocious, and @lingy910y

what is your current hair like? I just cut it quite short for fall now that I dont need to put it up all the time, I talked my self down from a mod joan of arc look, kind of a french bob meets 90's with short layers in the front, off my shoulders, very very cute! take a look

what is your natural hair like? Rich dark brown that highlights red/blonde in the sun, very fine but dense, straight, and super soft. I was blonde as a kid but went dark brown in middle school and never looked back.

what’s you favourite hair style/colour you’ve had? Honestly this one is super cute. I only really change the length/cut I love my color too much

what hair style/colour do you find most attractive on other people? (if you have a preference) No preference really, it can all be so gorgeous. I love when people use their hair to express their style.

what’s your biggest hair regret? When I was home in 2020 I spent a lot of time baking in the sun with lemon juice in my hair, the lighter hair was cute but my skin will pay for it

what’s the longest your hair as ever been? Past my shoulder blades I think? My hair doesn't like growing long it gets weighed down and flat and bleh

what’s the shortest your hair has ever been? I had a very short bob I gave myself in my first year of college, tucked up around my ears

what’s your go to style when you’re due a hair wash? I wash my hair every night, I wont go to bed without a shower and I sleep with my hair damp bc it magically gives it volume idk my mom and grandma have done it for years. I do give myself a castor/rosemary oil scalp massage once a week and its a bitch to wash out

tagging:

 @jrooc @mmmichyyy @iansw0rld @creepkinginc

 @gallawitchxx @catgrassplantdad @blue-disco-lights @thepupperino

@atthedugouts @burninface @ian-galagher @darlingian

@heymrspatel @solitarycreaturesthey @thepupperino @mickeym4ndy

@doshiart @em-harlsnow @lingy910y @softmick

[spacerockwriting]

WEEKLY TAG WEDNESDAY

Thank you @spookygingerr and @energievie for the tags as I come home from NYC.

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What weather would you use to describe you current mood? Foggy. I'm tired, meh, and just bleh.

Have you ever had braces? Nope. I got out of them because of my sensory processing disorder

Do you celebrate halloween? Yeah.

Best halloween/fancy dress costume you've worn. Hmmm...I cosplay now, so it's like a more extreme version of halloween.

Last song you listened to. Idk. whatever was on the plane???

Last thing you googled. TSA times, lol.

Dream car. I love mine.

What's your favourite type of cheese? pepper jack. It spicy.

What colour are your socks today? Gallavich and BD1

What was your favourite subject in school? Art.

Has your mood weather changed after answering these random questions? I'm still physically tired but my brain feels less like mush.

tagging: @deathclassic @transmurderbug @mybrainismelted @rayrayor @ian-galagher and anyone else

[bulbabutt]

god i just went through my own art tag since like... ever doing the turtles thing on here and i just find it so funny that every thing ive done has essentially started as "this will be funny i hope people laugh" and then it slowly grows more emotional depth and then i end up PUNCHING u in the gut w feels IVE LITERALLY DONE THIS MULTIPLE TIMES.......

haha what if rise leo got out funnied by 87 raph WOMP HES CRYING IN OTHER LEOS ARMS NOW

haha what if rise donnie tries to kill 87 donnie WOMP NEITHER OF THEM GET ENOUGH PRAISE AND BOND OVER IT

haha what if the 03 turtles watch star trek WOMP GET WORM GENDER EUPHORIA FUCKHEADS

which isnt me trying to toot my own horn or anything, i just really have appreciated the encouragement over the past uh. year and a half? that everyone has given me? like theres been ups and downs, but i gained a lot of confidence and felt like trying new things and being more creative. so many of the silly things ive enjoyed doing to make you laugh have turned into very genuine moments of joy and tears. like i genuinely have appreciated everybody who's ever looked at my work and said something nice idk WHAT i would be doing without that. like idk where else i would ever have felt comfortable enough to turn something like "what if the turtles watched star trek" into "mikey comes out as genderfluid" without people being so fucking nice and willing to hear me out and let me be sincere.

i always feel like i havent actually done that much art, but then i look back and im like whoa. wait thats actually a lot. and comics? strips and otherwise? ive never done that before! it just happened cuz people started being kind about my ideas and now ive gotten so much better! ive mentioned this before, but like i hadnt done art in....years. we're talkin 5 year gap at least. not for lack of trying. but honestly i often feel very dejected about my abilities and compare my work to others often. feel too old to be as amateur as i am. but genuinely, its meant a lot to just spread joy about something i like regardless of how good or bad i ever think i am at it. truly theres just a level of sincere kindness to things i create now that idk if i ever would have found without how nice and open people are.

bleh, idk where that all came from i guess just wanna say like ay im proud of me and im proud of you, lets all keep being kind to each other it makes us better ❤️

[katatty]

Sims Say the Darnest Things: When you get this, list five of your characters and their best quotes so far. Then pass it on to five other storytelling simblrs.

Aw man, this is a fun one! I've been writing stupid stuff for my sims to say for so long it's hard to think of a top 5, but definitely have some funny moments I'd like to reminice on :)

“Who cares about work? Money isn’t everything, Raye!” “I’m just not sure I’m responsible enough for this. I feel like a kid myself half the time!” “Well, better grow up fast, because I’m keeping the baby! Bleh!!”

This line from Emmie is iconic to me and kind of sums up both the good and bad in her character! She's enthusiastic, chirpy and always ready to jump into stuff but can be kinda selfish/thoughtless with like, poor boundaries lmao. It also always makes me giggle adding "Bleh!!" to the end of her lines idk

Bella: Cassandra! Oh my, are you all right? Cassandra: I’m fine, Mom. Bella: You’re having a mental breakdown on our back porch!

idk this is just funny to me bc Bella is half concerned for Cassandra and half worried that Cassie is bringing down the vibe at her fabulous dinner party lol

Camellia: I keep thinking I’ve forgotten something!  Lori: Cami, I feel like that almost all the time. Nine out of ten times it’s nothing important!

I'm realising going though these most of them aren't even particualrly "great quotes" they're just things I found funny to write, haha. My way of escaping the "5 characters" thing by making them all require context or somehting. idk! RIP to Orion

Lilith: Since when you do you cook, anyway? Ashley: I’m teaching myself. It’s called having a growth mindset, you should try it. Lilith: Hey, I’m all about personal growth. You know I achieved lifetime happiness this week? Ashley: Our date was that good, huh?

Ashley & Lilith's unhealthy-ass relationship banter is always so fun to write, I really miss them! I really like having sims actually mention, like, game mechanics? Lilith saying "I achieved lifetime happiness this week" just tickles me. tbh i also think "it's called having a growth mindset" is really funny, really fits ashley's self-improvement-reddit-guy vibe

ok and my all time favourite scene/quote is this ripp moment idk this was 5 years ago but i still laugh thinking about it it was so unhinged

“So this makes us and the twins, what? Step-siblings? That’s hot.” “You are such a pig, Ripp!” Lilith kicked him under the table. “I’m gonna kill you.” “Chill out, Tank! It’s not like it’s real incest! You and Angela can keep fucking if you really want to.”

like most inappropriate and gross comments of all time????????? lmao. very sad that Ripp has grown as a person I miss writing him as an immature dickhead lol

ANYWAY thank u for sending this, it was really fun & nostalgic and has me really wanting to actually write posts again, maybe I will queue some up :)

tagging @potential-fate, @moocha-muses, @dunne-ias, @antisocialbunnysims & @rurpleplaysmuttingtonac if any of you fancy doing this :)

[krmzyn]

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~ Hii!! Welcome to my blog <3

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I’m Salem, but feel free to call me any of my DRselves names!

This blog is mostly for me to focus on shifting, though LOA/manifesting and lucid dreaming have also been pretty high up there for me atm!

I’m completely fine with any questions from anyone (shifters, non-shifters, even antis), just please be respectful. This inculudes questions about my first shift, but I prefer not to talk about it, but I might answer some 💟 (please send asks i love answering questions /lh)

Note: I’m formatting this on mobile and am pretty new to tumblr so. i literally have no clue what im doing 😇

Double note: This is gonna be like. the only formatted post on my page. I absolutely cba and most of my posts r probably just gonna be like. shitposting 😚

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About me!

Again, hi, I’m Salem, but you lot can call me any of my DR names <3

My pinterest is cvbereal!!

They/Them pronouns, I don’t care too much about them though

I’m chronically British 🧍‍♂️ Also genetically a little Irish 😇 (also bst/gmt timezone 😚)

I crawled here from Tiktok. I use wayyy too much tiktok slang 😚 I also rlly appreciate tone tags being used!

15, Scorpio & audhd!

Genuinely a little stupid. Just a lil bit.

I also do art!! Idk if I’ll really post it here but. yah 💟

I have pretty bad social anxiety and general anxiety issues, so I don’t really socialise online that much <3

Likes & Dislikes!

I LOVE cats with my entire soul <33 Also honestly animals in general.

I hate mint. Its just sososoo eww 😇

I like the sciences 😚 (biology >>> chemistry > physics. fight me /j)

I really don’t like step ladders 😭 I’m stood there wobbling like a dog on a cat tower I just can’t with them

I love candles n incense a lot!! I have this adorable little tea light holder that’s like a little tree with birds and these little cages for the tea lights and I just ADORE it smsmsmm <3

I hate walking around barefoot 😭 Like idm the idea of it but its just like. u never know whats been on those floors >:( Also carpets feel ew

I like rambling about my drs and random stuffs I like 😇

I don’t like bacon. The little fat bits are all stringy and its just sososo bleh

I love a bunch of the ‘cringe’ kid roblox games. Like adopt me (bc collecting just makes me feel mwah) and royale high (mostly for christmas atp bc. I have feelings abt it 😇) and pet sim, also others. I shiny hunt on pokemon ultra moon as well! (I have a grudge against shiny lugia but i love it /lh)

(I was trying to do a like-dislike kinda pattern but iii cant think of anymore dislikes shshh) I like doing legos and oragami occasionally! I just enjoy being able to do stuff with my hands 😚

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My DRs (in order. maybe.)

Note: NONE of my DRs have traumatic or violent events. Any with that stuff as main plot points has either been altered or is some kind of AU. Made that mistake once, not making it again <3

- CoD (COD SHIFTERS PLEASE R U GUYS THERE?? 😭)

- Altered OR

- ATSV

- FNAF

- Demon Slayer / KNY

- Pokémon

- Rick & Morty

- SCP

- Backrooms

- MHA (mixed on it atm)

- Supernatural (considering & trynna figure out some kinda au 🧍‍♂️)

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My current manifestations!

My shifting journal!!

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That’s about it!! Ty for reading and I hope you guys enjoy my posts 😚

-Love, Sal <3

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Last shift: ~2021 Shifted 1x

Last ‘minishift’: ? Minishifted ~3x

Last lucid dream: ? Lucid dreamed 1x

[mydictionary-yume]

Intro post!

Contents: About me | BYF | DNI | F/Os | Tag Guide | Extras

(Before you go on just know that proshitters aren’t allowed here)

About me!

-Call me LC or Lu!

-Any pronouns work, but I primarily use she/they

-I’m an adult!

-My romantic attraction is wonky in an aspec way, but I’m asexual :3

-I’m more used to the term yume over selfshipping, so much of the blog’s language and tags follow that!

-My main blog is @akaikami-cherryblossom, if you’re wondering who the hell is following you back & liking ur posts<3

-I have a strawpage! Come draw and send me stuff!

Before you follow!

-Though I am an adult, I’m not the biggest fan of nsfw content. I won’t post much I think, and if I do it’ll be tagged nsfw👍

-I do swear and stuff

-I block liberally and without warning!

-I don’t usually respond to chainmail ._. Idk I just either forget or don’t want to but I still appreciate it!!

-Ah… eto…. Bleh

DNI

-Pro.ship

-Com/dark.ship I’m mostly chill with but you’re on thin ice. Your kink is not my kink and that’s ok, just don’t be an asshole if I’m not interested in it personally.

-Just be nice :3

F/Os!

Format: Name - Source - Ship name/status - tag

Romantic

Saku.ya Saku.ma - A.3! - Acting Angels/SakuLu/LuSaku - 🌸💕

Elt.creed Valentine - Steam Prison - DiaElt - 🍝❤️

Platonic/Familial

Azu.ma Yuki.shiro - A.3! - Older sibling thingy - 🛏️💙

Masu.mi Usu.i - A.3! - Homie - 🎧💟

Ban.ri Set.tsu - A.3! - Homie - 🍂💥

Obey Me Cast - Obey Me - Fambily - 💫😈

Mizu.no Yu - San.rio Danshi/Boys - Homie - 🐇💘

Hall.ritt - Frag.aria Memories - queerplatonic - 🍎🤍

And maybe more…..

Tag guide!

LC screams: Talk tag :3

LC’s [creation]: exactly what it sounds like! My creations!

Yume info: info about my s/is! (Hence why it’s not here)

Yume [creation]: catchall tag for anything made by me or others for my s/is or ships!

Friends tag: tag for friends’ posts!

Other yumes: basically my “other ships” tag

[non-me yume] tag: tag for a friend’s yume character! I’ll implement it for someone’s yume after they have four-ish posts on my blog hehe<3

S/I tags

Yume time: Lucille’s tag!

Kana time: Kana’s tag!

Dia tag: Diatana’s tag!

Chiara time: Chiara’s tag!

Extras!

-Other fandoms of mine include: en.stars, dungeon me.shi, mil.gram, puroseka, twisted wonder.land, king.dom hearts, ace att.orney and more!!

-I write fic outside of selfshipping! You can find me @lcs-library here and @ LCs_Library on AO3!

-I think that’s it! Thank you so much for reading!!!

Divider credit<3

[spurious]

fic writer 20 questions

I was tagged by @alienfuckeronmain & @nimuetheseawitch to do this one!

How many works do you have on AO3? 108. I need to add some ficlets to my collection but I've been slacking a bit on that, so.

What’s your total AO3 word count? 274,716

What fandoms do you write for? Star! Gate! At! Lan! Tis! The hyperfixation is strong ok. It's the thing that shook loose my half-decade dormant desire and ability to write, so. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

What are your top 5 fics by kudos? 1. Twenty Questions, 248 kudos 2. Ink and Wings, 221 kudos 3. Five Times Rodney (and John) Visit the Millers, 190 kudos 4. Solitary in a Wide Flat Space, 163 kudos 5. Abercrombie & Rodney, 151 kudos

Do you respond to comments? Why or why not? I really try to!!! One of the things that was not good about posting all my ficlets onto AO3 in quick succession was ending up with more comments than I could handle, so now I have a...backlog. Getting comments makes me feel so good though, and I just...want to honor the effort made with some of my own in return? Idk, I've talked about this a fair bit in a handful of posts but I'm just really not used to the amount of interaction I get in SGA fandom and I still feel.......very blessed lmao. Bleh sincerity on main how gross

What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? We Are Standing On the Edge, a Jin/Kame fic about a road trip and the apocalypse which I wrote for @merionettes in a fic exchange in 2010.

What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? Most of my fics either have happy endings or implied happy endings? I like making good things happen to the characters I love so much. Sometimes after making bad things happen to them, but. At any rate, O I Think We Should Be Brethren is my personal happiest ending because of how long and hard a journey it is to get there.

Do you get hate on fics? I got a hate comment once, on the (in)famous Kanjani Cannibalism Fic.

Do you write smut? If so, what kind? Do I ever! I like to write kinky sex as a means of exploring and facilitating vulnerability. I also like to write blowjobs.

Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written? I've never written a crossover! ..............I don't think, at least.

Have you ever had a fic stolen? Not that I am aware of.

Have you ever had a fic translated? Yes! A couple of my Johnny's fics have been translated into Russian and Chinese.

Have you ever co-written a fic before? Not to completion.

What’s your all time favorite ship? Yokohina, Sakura/Syaoran, McShep...don't make me choose between my children like this??? Sakura/Syaoran literally invented romance for my teenage self, like I am not kidding at how formative of a ship that was for me in my life. Also why I started learning Japanese, so. Yokohina will forever be beloved to me in the same way that Kanjani8 will forever be beloved to me, in a way that is (literally) tattooed into my flesh, in a way that influenced my life massively, in so many aspects. I will never not be thirsty for the two of them saying weirdly romantic things about each other in public forums, for them being the solid foundation upon which their group is built. For Yoko being a pigtail-pulling twelve year old boy towards Hina even as they're in their mid-forties. AND THEN THERE'S FUCKING MCSHEP. A ship that I knew about when it was popular and brushed off as an Any Two White Guys, Migratory Slash Fandom Thing. A ship that, when my wife and I started watching SGA, we said "haha wouldn't it be so funny if we ended up being all in on mcshep?" A ship that resonates in my heart in the most bizarrely intense way and shook loose the desire to write and create from its atrophied place in the back of my head. I love them. I hate them. They're perfect.

What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will? I have about 25k of a later-years yokohina friends to FWB to lovers fic that I wish I could finish but the McShep brainrot is.........so strong. On the other hand, never say never?

What are your writing strengths? haha so much harder to answer this than weaknesses!!!!!!!!!!!! I think I can write good funny dialogue, which is amazing to me because when I started writing my dialogue was horrendous, just absolutely awful and stilted and I hated writing it so much! like it was a running joke between me and my best friend at the time that I could not write anything that sounded even remotely natural or like real human speech. guess that shows that practice makes perfect or whatever? idk.

What are your writing weaknesses? endings!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ensemble casts/scenes with more than two people in them. plots more complex than simple romantic contrivance.

Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic? nah. It always feels a bit fanfiction.net anime fandom to me?

First fandom you wrote for? speaking of fanfiction.net anime fandom....I wrote Sakura/Syaoran angstfic into a notebook when I was 13. The first things that I actually shared with other people were either Harry Potter or the fics I wrote about the boys at my church who were just unnecessarily homoerotic with each other in the way that only teenage church boys can be (iykyk)

Favorite fic you’ve written? guess. 🙃

Tagging: @sga-owns-my-soul @stargayatlantis @hearteyesmcgarrett @texasdreamer01

[puppett-boyy]

hi :3

this is a charlie emily rp blog!!! erm. shit. fuck. i'm not prepared for this idk how to write an intro. uhh

i have a bunch of headcanons but they can all be adjusted :D

parody rps will be one timeline, properly written rps will be another timeline. they will be tagged accordingly ^-^

she/he , 13 at the time of death. she's a year older than mike here!

charlie has a typing quirk!!! because uhhh!! idk i just felt like it

this is set post-fnaf 3, where she's just like. wandering around as puppet and managed to get her hands on a phone

admin uses any pronouns and is a minor (same guy running the ship at @michaelarson )

uhh dang idk what to write. bleh bleh blehh