#idk what id do on the back hmmm

[daydadahlias]

5sos card anon here—

i’d have to come off anon to send a picture :(

it’s not very special. beige backround with a black silhouette of the boys (though it just looks like random people lol) and the 5 tallies sos logo thing. i put some red and blue ink around the silhouette because the beige background reminded me of the 5sos5 album cover, but the silhouette isn’t in the right shapes haha.

i didn’t do anything on the back or inside (haven’t had an idea but if you’ve got some i could try!) but i put it in my plant for decoration.

sorry this was very long.

bye bye jess!

hi 5sos card anon!! sorry im just now getting back to you :) finals week eek.

This sounds so cute !!!!! I love it :) and i hope your plant appreciates it

[sad--tree]

well shit. just checked out the lineup 4 bluesfest this year and i may have 2 actually brave the crowds 4 once. there might just be enough ppl id wanna see to make it worth it, altho tbh matthew good is almost enough for that on his own lol coz like. matthew good!!! that's the music of my freakin childhood man!! (*the most canadian sentiment ever)

[zoros-ankles]

The first I love you

ace x gn reader

warnings: kissing? mostly fluff

unedited :p

ace is the first healthy relationship you’ve had. all your past relationships were filled with liars cheaters and manipulators. you had never been with someone who loved you the way ace did with no ulterior motive just pure and genuine love. waking up next to him every morning felt like a dream. you turned over and couldnt help but smile at the sight of your bf sleeping peacefully. a strand of his raven hair resting on his freckled face. you pushed the strand back to get a better look at his face causing him to open his eyes. “hmmm?” ace hummed as he looked at you with sleepy eyes. “idk i’m just admiring my pretty bf and thinking about how lucky i am” you whispered staring into his bright brown eyes. he wrapped his arms around you leaving little kisses all over your face. “i am really pretty huh?” he questioned as his face hovered over yours his hair tickling ur face causing you to giggle and squirm. “mhmmmm” you hum trying to get up. only making him tighten his grip on you “c’mon babeee we don’t have anywhere to go today just stay with me a little” he whines “id love to but i promised nami and robin id meet up with them” this only got a groan outta him. you managed to get off the bed “you should come too spending time with luffy will do yo-“ you were cut off by ace throwing you over his shoulder. you screamed hitting his back trying to get him to put you down. “aceeee i have to go i canceled last time” you screamed. he put you down kissing your forehead before heading into the bathroom to begin his morning. you quickly followed behind standing by his side in front of the mirror. you put your hair back to start washing your face when you saw ace staring at you out the corner of your eyes. "can i help you my love" you turned to face him. "can i admire how beautiful my partner is" he replied reaching down to grab your face smushing your cheeks between his fingers. your eyes begin to water. ace frowned “what’s wrong baby”. “i’m just really happy and grateful to have to by my side” you looked at him. he lifted you and sat you on the sink drying your tears “I love you”. you froze at his words that was the first time he’d said it. “i love you too” you said grabbing his face and leaving a kiss on his lips. when you tried to pull back he deepened the kiss picking you up into his arms. you wrapped your arms around his neck as he carried you back to the bedroom. he sat on the bed with you on his lap finally allowing you to come up for air. you stared at him with a smile on your face kissing his cheek before pulling his tshirt over his head and tossing it somewhere in the room. you began kissing his neck working your way down stopping at his boxers running your index finger along the waistband. he groaned “are you sure if you’re not ready we can wait” he looked at you with genuine concern. “mhmmm i want it to be you” you looked up at him and smiled.

a/n writing smut it very very rare for me that wasn’t going any further than that

[theotherbuckley]

20 Questions for Fic Writers

tagged by @nmcggg @underwaterninja13 @saybiwithme @your-catfish-friend @jesuisici33 @cal-daisies-and-briars @perfectlysunny02 @hippolotamus @wikiangela @smilingbuckley @diazsdimples @dangerpronebuddie @tizniz

How many works do you have on ao3?

18

2. What's your total ao3 word count?

92,593 !

3. What fandoms do you write for?

9-1-1 currently (previously criminal minds and lucifer)

4. Top 5 fics by kudos:

1. Because You're Exhausting 10K words (917 kudos) 2. Pancakes, kisses, and a little bit of TLC 4.8K words bucktommy (890 kudos) 3. I'll Take Care of You 5.1K words | buddie (879 kudos) 4. Cow Eyes 2.2K words | buddie (720 kudos) 5. Tripped and Fell 5.8K | buddie | E (464 kudos)

5. Do you respond to comments?

Yes💜 i try to respond to them all but sometimes i forget and then i feel bad because i get another comment and i cant respond to it because i didn't respond to the previous one but by then an extend period of time has passed and i feel weird about replying to the previous comment so i stop responding... oops.. also that time i go a few hate comments and it made me stop responding to comments on that fic

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Because You're Exhausting - uhhhh this is depression in 10K words its so fucking sad and you will need tissues and most of the comments on this fic are people telling me they cried so... yeah sorry about this (read the tags please for the love of god read the notes there's a lot of trigger warnings)

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

There are quite a few with good happy endings but I'm especially fond of Cow Eyes i think its silly and cute

8. Do you get hate on fics?

Yeah kinda - Because You're Exhausting has got a few mostly about the ending which i to an extent can understand but if you're going to be triggered by something please for the love of god READ THE WARNINGS IN THE NOTES - i don't wanna spoil everything but the tags on its own should have been enough to go hey maybe i should read the notes too asjkdaj so yeah a few hate comments on that

9. Do you write smut?

Yes! didn't for the longest time but yes yes I do :)

10. Craziest crossover?

I don't write crossovers

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not that I know of

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Nope i think if i ever did id be so honoured I'd cry

13. Have you co-written a fic before?

currently writing one with @diazsdimples <3

14. All time favorite ship?

Buddie!!! (but I am really enjoying bucktommy atm)

15. What's a wip you want to finish, but doubt you ever will?

Healing fic is killing me rn - I may write a lot lot of angst but seeing buck so happy on my screen is making me struggle to write depressed buck but I will write it but also uni is killing me rn. this fic is over 17K so far with no end in sight so is by far my longest which I think is why its so hard

16. What are your writing strengths?

I think I'm good at writing depressing shit

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

Like the rest? Idk I struggle with dialogue tags and switching from dialogue to prose I think

18. Thoughts on dialogue in another language?

I love it but too scared to do it because I just speak English. But I love pet names etc in other languages.

19. First fandom you wrote in?

I think Sherlock bbc on wattpad when I was a kid and then Lucifer first on ao3. Looking back these are pretty trash idk what I was thinking but we all start somewhere.

20. Favorite fic you've written?

Hmmm good question. Even though Because You're Exhausting is so sad I really do like it. Also running from myself (and the memories of you) (12K) which is also depressed!Buck but it's lighter and has a happy ending. Also both my chronic pain!Buck fics make me happy. Idk this is hard I can't choose.

I won't tag anyone since most people have done it but if you wanna do it then consider this your tag!

[gold-rhine]

we're rating ships? omg. i have.... a couple. but! i will present to you the ones i think. are the most sensible. the cream of the crop if you will

kaelisa - likely more of a fwb situation than a full-on romantic relationship, but lisa is... both laid back *and* intensely headstrong about things she sees as actually important. i think that combo *may*, under certain circumstances, lead to kaeya opening up just... just a *little*. also they're. hot. godbless. xinyan/yun jin/shenhe - like two ships? make it poly! xinyan and yun jin are cute on many levels to me, with yun jin's enjoyment of xinyan's music and xinyan's quiet enjoyment of traditionally feminine things in private. also, xinyan's loud, outgoing, and positive nature would endear her further to xinyan, i'm certain. yun jin and shenhe's dynamic has already been laid out thoroughly in the jade chamber questline. that's lesbianism. to me. i also think that xinyan and shenhe would have an interesting vibe to their interactions. both are often seen as 'odd' or 'wrong' and 'scary'. i think xinyan would solidly treat shenhe as a *person* rather than falling into the adeptus/witch dichotomy that shenhe describes people falling into with her.

idk if i was supposed to argue my case but i had a lot of fun doing it o7

hmmm. yeah, i can see fwb kaeya\lisa situationship happening. idk about this leading to kaeya opening up tho. like mb? in best case scenario? idk how tho. but also lisa has her own ~manipulating u for ur own good, sweety~ streak, and kaeya already pathologically struggles to interact even with ppl he likes without mind games. im afraid this can lead to their mind games clashing and turning into manipulator vs manipulator toxic power plays that can tear like entire knights office apart. sex would be very hot tho, yeah.

i already really liked xinyan/yun jin and i agree that yun jin\shenhe interactions in archon interlude were very lesbianism. shenhe allowing yun jin to see ugly, horrible tragedy in her past that shaped her into what she sees as a monster, and yun jin making it art that says, no, you're not a monster, you were so brave and a hero, you deserve love and admiration. and them never saying it out loud, but having public opera performance while locking eyes. extremely yuri.

i never thought about xinyan\shenhe tho. hm. im thinking. my mind horizons are expanding. you know, i do think there is interesting potential. id love to see them interact on screen first, bc i dont remember it ever happening. but yeah.

[thoughtcascades]

you literally summed up my feelings with my rambles about life. thank you for the reply it was detailed as well! honestly it just sucks cause it seems everyone else be doing something with themselves and ur just likw hmmm where was my chances huh? and i guess theres more existential crisis for myself when im seeing so much of others lives throjgh social media it doesnt help we cant just simply love ourselves be ourselves without comparing our lives bc there is so many more ways to compare our lives now than there was however many years ago. i cant not use the internet cause we need it for every day tasks including most jobs. honest to god i would pick literally any other generation besides this screen addicting one that we have all been conditioned into needing.

idk i honestly could do with a time machine id love to have experienced other generations as they seemed a bit more happier than a lot of us rn. it was honestly a blessing as a kid to have an internet free childhood and i regret that it wasnt a longer childhood. the most we had during school were flip phones or basic "smartphones" or ipods.

those were simple times we didnt need to make tiktoks and know every slang bc there wasnt such a thing back then. now its like gen z and new gens get more opportunities for their success due to the devices they have that we didnt have. and sometimes it really does come down to either being from the right place or having the courses that you wanted to do and a lot of the times that just wasnt available then and no one ever seems to talk about it cause it just seems that online my generation either gets shitted on or overlooked. for instance theyve only just started making "womens football" more known but we had such little opportunties in my school it was traditional dance, hockey, gymnastics or some winter sports but again it was limited option unfortunately i couldnt choose any other schopp bc its what is generically available for most schools in that area yaknow?

thank you for writing such a relatable response i appreciate it and love your blog ofc <3

We got a taste of the "simple" life, without all the TikTok pressure and endless screens, but we miss out on all the crazy opportunities newer generations have. It sucks getting told we had it easier when really, things were just... different. You're right about the whole opportunities thing. Limited sports options at school? One career path for life? That "workaholic" college tutor who wouldn't let you even have a part-time job? It's this messed-up system that makes you jump through hoops just to figure out who the hell you even are. And that whole "fear of failure" thing? Everyone keeps saying "explore your options", but what if you pick wrong? What if you change your mind and people look at you like you're some kind of flake? We're expected to know exactly what we want and nail it perfectly the first time, when honestly, sometimes you just need space to figure it out. It's okay if things get messy and confusing, but somehow that's seen as "weak" or something. No wonder it's so damn hard to move on, even when you know you need to.

[screampied]

I meant like how many times youve shifted since you started ur shifting journey??! Also omg how long did u stay in the resident evil universe? Did u script? How did u know when to come back or 'wake up'? Since u started being able to shift have u been able to shift every time u have the intent to do so? Like it becomes easier?

OHHHHH sawry im dumb. 🙂‍↕️ i don’t rly keep count ? well i used to, like i’d write down each time i’d shift bc sometime’s i forgot — i have bad memory and that helps. my entire shift journey, a good estimate errmmmm id say maybe over 90 or 100 times mayhaps. probably more. honestly, whenever i shift i sleep for like for 11 + 12 hours depending on if i have work / practice. shifting usually lasts a few hours but i can’t rly say the exact duration. it feels like it lasts forever tho but feels short once you wake up

for this time i didn’t script 🧚🏽‍♀️ i just made a note in my head on where i wanted to go / who i wanted to meet (leon hehe) you usually know once you feel a bit of tingles in your body (?) its hard to explain, also change of breathing patterns and your body temperature when you wake up. not every time !!! sometimes my shifting doesn’t work bc of the type of method or i’m not tired enough to fully go to another reality if that makes sense. it could be many other reasons tho. overtime it does get easier tho !!!! esp once you get the grasp on like what to do

I USE THE RAVEN METHOD 🔪🔪🔪 i wanna explore other ones tho

hmmm i guess you can !! it’s really up to you, you can shift to literally wherever reality you want. i heard stories where ppl shift to tv shows like hell’s kitchen (idk why but erm) it doesn’t necessarily have to be an existing material already set but the more details the better 🎀 planning everything out before you shift def helps your experience

[penumbrialhexandroga]

I put this in a discord chat im in but i wanted to put it here too. Today i got diagnosed by my therapist with c-ptsd.

Hhhh today is a day of surthriving. Had therapy this morning and was rough, but i was able to communicate some of my frustrations well. Got some clarification on stuff. Like he said forget about any of the schizophrenia stuff, i dont have it, so thats a relief. He said for a clinical dx i do have CPTSD. And that my episode that id had before when i started seeing him was a dissocaitive episode. So it was nice to get clarification on that i was thinking it was like a psychotic or manic or something but dissociative makes sense with what all went on. Ugh gah but then talked with a real young part and stuff coming up and just ugh fuck i hate. People. Just very heavy. Having things validated. But im so grateful for the coping mechanisms ive developed. Hhhhhhh fuck its just hard. Heavy heavy heavy. Just trying so hard to keep every thing contained so i can get through work. Thank god for Work Mode 🙏. Id been dxed with ptsd already but i did suspect it was cptsd but man having that validated by a therapist ugh i just feel like ive been taking punches and punching brick walls >.< idk i just wanted to express this all somewhere. "Put it out there"

Thats what i put in the chat earlier.

Idk i wanted to write about it i guess. He was saying too how like a diagnosis yknow its fluid it can change. Which im fully on board with i know it can only really be a snapshot of your current whatever experiences. But one thing i really appreciate about getting that dx and that validation and assurance is that it supplies me the language to tell my story. I realized that that was one issue that i had with how generally non-pathologizing my therapist is. Its also something i appreciate about him though, but i just felt like i couldnt really. Like not even tell my story but know my story. I felt lost and confused and uncertain about what my experience was and how i fit in with the world and people around me.

Who really am i? What defines me as an individual? It helps me answer these questions more fully. Not to say my diagnoses are all that i am or can capture the complexity of me as a being.

Its incredibly validating to do this work. I feel alive and autonomous in a way i never really have before. Some of the parts i work with are so so young. If i wasnt doing this work with a therapist i dont think i would really be able to do it. So im very grateful for my circumstances that allow me that. Although i can tell my therapist wants to do more frequent sessions, but it is expensive and insurance sucks so. Idk. Is what it is.

Ugh but this work also fucking sucks and makes things so so hard. But i know im better for it. Gahhahahshbsgdgdgdhd.

Oh man im also really glad too he labeled what that episode was. I was thinking it was a psychotic or manic and maybe i had bipolar, bc some of my family has been dxed with that. But no he said it was CPTSD. and a dissociative episode. Which man even just writing that out again its just. I cant even really identify how it makes me feel its just this kinda hmmm pressure?? Electrical flux? Along the back of my head.

Im grateful for being able to communicate better with my parts too. I was able to get across some things today that i havent been able to for a while and im glad things went well, even if it got tough. Really friggin tough. I know im moving in the right direction.

Id already been diagnosed with ptsd but that was through my psych who specialized in autism and idk it didnt really sink in. Its different now getting diagnosed by someone who knows me very well, ive been seeing him for like over two years now, so i have a lot of trust in his oppinion. But gosh so many raw nerves. Plus its c -ptsd which like, doesnt mean its worse than ptsd or anything lol some people seem to think that but thats more what i was suspecting. It just made more sense to me than standard ptsd with all the dissociation. But i feel really validated and seen and heard and hmm self assured even! Which is so rare for me. I feel like there was a lot of movement and change today. So this post is really just to commemorate it all. Getting diagnosed with cptsd tho, for me its very different than it was getting diagnosed with autism. Maybe thats because of meeting with that part right after tho :/

[jounosparticles]

au where the hunting dogs disband and jouno and tecchou join the agency together (they both need some purpose, some sense of justice to act out and they don't know where else to go). tachihara returns and stays with the mafia, and brings teruko with him because they don't want to separate. i feel like she'd hate being a mafia agent (i know nothing about her, i haven't watched season 5 and i last saw 4 when it released) so maybe she just lives with tachi. i wonder what jouno and tecchou would do if they were on a mission to stop the mafia and encountered tachihara again....

sorry for the long ask btw i wanted to tell someone this and all my friends are asleep #heartbroken

also ill give myself a sign off because iv sent you like 3 asks atp but im too terrified to remove anon

- 🗡️ aka literally jouno again :3

DONT BE SORRY!!! i love getting asks this is so fun to me :) idk who u are but you seem cool and id always love to hear your ideas !!!

i also super recommend checking out season 5 whenever you can :)) call me biased because i am but i think it’s a great season :)

ANYWAY

first i’ll talk about teruko. i do not see her going into the mafia however i can her sticking with tachihara. i wonder if it would create some sort of tension or if they’d just let each other live? hmmm i’ll have to ponder that idea. i do 100% see tachihara going back into the mafia though, he found his place there.

jouno and tetchou joining the ada would be really fun i think. i could see maybe some tension due to what happened in the whole "dogs hunt dogs" episode, however since it was a misunderstanding i can see them being forgiven easily as well.

i feel like jouno would have a hard time adjusting. he has a low temper with tetchou i can just imagine how short he would be with some of the ada members. i could see him arguing with ranpo and dazai a lot. and possibly getting along with kunikida since he wouldn’t be an ass.

id like to see jouno and dazai talk normally though. their pasts parallel each other a good bit! i feel their conflicting morals would make them not particularly get along however it could make for some interesting interactions. i will go on about that in another post eventually

i feel like overall jouno would rather stick to tetchou as well as anyone who will treat him as a superior instead of the others.

as for tetchou. literally all i want is for him to mentor kenji. like they’re basically friends now, they’re similar in morals/principles, and are both very direct with everything they say/think. that combined with them having similar physical capabilities i could see tetchou training kenji well and taking on a mentor/older brother figure.

i also feel like kunikida would like tetchou. he’s very direct and i doubt he’s a disruption, they’d get along well.

in contrast i feel like junichiro would probably be intimidated by him. not sure why, just how i feel.

i also don’t think dazai would have much fun with him, since he probably isn’t easily bothered by the silly antics dazai likes to do.

unfortunately i don’t know how this would work if the hunting dogs require surgery to live still. jouno and tetchou would probably be fine since they’re still affiliated with law enforcement but tachihara would likely die. that’s a post for another time i suppose.

OH! and encountering tachihara. huge angst potential here that sounds really hard to do. i could see them trying to bring tachi back since he has proven himself to be good before? i don’t know if it would work but even tachi said before the hunting dogs weren’t bad either. he just needs a place to be himself

but anyways i really like this idea!!! i love imagining how the different characters would interact w/ each other :)

[smoosnoom]

Hello!! I’ve been a fan of your fics for a while and I was wondering what your writing process is like? I haven’t written a fic in ages and I honestly miss it, so I was wondering how you tend to get started or find inspo :^)

u are so kind hello thank u so much i am glad u enjoy the things i write !!!! it means the world :D !!!

hmmm . i actually havent been writing any fics as of late but thtas mostly been for how stressed and busy i have been . but !!! i can tell u that my process is very much . a lack of one . i write oddly and strangely and i am a mess about it . i usually write a few lines in a scene and jump around from one part to another, wherever i feel my mind leaning towards i tend to go there and feed it ! its not very much a process as it is an . experience .

however, if im very much intentionally trying to get started on a fic i usually just . open up a doc and write the first sentence that pops up in my head . it doesnt matter if it is the most mundane and uninteresting thing, because the first draft is very rarely perfect . the main goal is to have something written down, because if u keep going, then that one mundane sentence builds up to create a showstopping paragraph and thats where u get the most motivation and satisfaction !!! so id say if ur very caught up with urself and thinking that nothing ur writing is good enough and u keep backspacing and have urself stuck in the same spot, then just . keep writing . keep going forward even if its grueling and absolutely terrible . after u have dug urself a tunnel out of that hole, u can go back and make it a proper staircase . u just need to get to where u want to be, and once u are satisfied or content, u can go back and fix what u want

if u find urself unable to do that, then i say seek out other media that really entices or evokes emotion in u . nothing (in my opinion) is as inspiring as a good piece of fiction or art or music or dance ! listen to music u wouldnt usually listen to or check out a friends movie recommendation, just try to push yourself out of the usual things you watch or read or listen to on repeat . taking the time to listen to something new and finding one good song that sticks with me for three weeks is the kind of stuff that has me writing 4 fics in one month !!!

anyway . i hope some of this was helpful or useful at all, if none of it was or if i just . didnt do a very good job of answering ur question, then let me know :) and the most important part of the writing process is just that, to write !!! write whatever it is, and if ur stuck in a block or arent proud of anything ur writing, then write the first thing in ur brain ! if u dont like that either, then thats fine !! just keep going until u find a rhythm . and if u dont, try again and again and again ! i am a firm believer in that trying makes all the difference . is that too cliche idk ! but i think its true

so . anywho . please let me know if any of this is actually useful to u :) id love to know how it goes, and please feel free to drop by with an update or anything !! thank u for the ask !!!!

[frostbite-the-bat]

WHAT AN AMAZING COLLECTION !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i love the dragons protecting the display OOOOOOOUGH SHARKS TEETH YEAAAAAAAAA Do you have any specific favorites? (& What about them said Pick Me to you? (i love rocks sm but have none space so i only have a lil bag of my own) )

YESS!!! THANK YUOU!!! and ofc i gotta have dragons B)

and HMMM OKAY lemme THInks

so *now* pick and buy gems at trinket stores whenver i go travelling and see any tha i just dont own yet (or if theres a piece that's really pretty to me that i DO have, but it's just unique and cool and i want it)

but back then id just..! buy whatever was Cool to me . id always buy so many at once my god

my favorites are defo my extra silly fancy lookin gems!! lemme show em here (older pics) (some are fancier bc i took them for my personal collection list google doc)

bismuth!!

these quartz! i was told they are some type of quartz! these are special to me because i got them a year ago during a school trip to germany - i only had a few euros on me and i ended up spending it all on gems. we checked out the christmas markets and there was an friendly old fellow who was selling gemstones and other things! he even had a cutter and could speak english. we chatted a bit and i listened to him talk about things (like how these lil fellas are formed. i know nothing about chemicals but i just think these things are interesting!!!! i actually get most my gems from giftshops near cave tours because i love visiting them and think it's interesting ^^

anyways he had a little box of various "rocks" that could possibly be geodes that he'd cut and see if they are! the price depended on their size. he said that i could guess with the weight and feel of the "rock" and let me pick from a few that could possible be ones. i said it didn't matter to me if it's gonna be hollow or not, since it's cool to me anyways!

so while my classmates waited and stared at me i just watched this guy cut it nicely in half like this - and he then even cut the smaller flatter piece of it, too. it was very nice! it's also where i bought the tooth, the bismuth, and some other things that i forgot as well... oops. i got a lot of gems

this shimmery pretty goldstone / aventurine glass ! wacky picture quality but i don't feel like getting new pics (+ im on pc now) (lie: i ended up getting new pics later)

. it's a man-made lil' mineral, but it's very lovely regardless! i honestly only care about the "realness" only i it's a scam of some sort. any rock, trinket, gem or mineral, man-made or not is very niceys to me. (i still want an opal tho i only got an opalite which was mislabeled. i dont think on purpose since these stores sometimes accidentally mislabel or misspell things. or use czech names which gets confusing. yeah i may have inaccurate names for some of my gems but i try my best to be accurate. im no pro im just a collector little beast)

some type of peacock ore! (either treated chalcopyrite or bornite, as i've previously written down. i'll trust my past self)

aura quartz! one of my first 3 pieces ive ever gotten that sparked my collection

all of these little fellas i bought at the same place for really cheap! filled my lil collection quite a bitso. i loves tghem. theyre like cereal To Me

in order: garnet, carnelian, emerald, tusquoise (why isnt this one in my list. oh my god how many gems did i miss. i still have a few to add that ill list on the list later that i need to re-check what gems they are. lord.) opalite, chalcedony, snowflake obsidian, obsidian (?), onyx. + not pictured an aquamarine which...? i cant find? im not checking if i put it behind a bigger gem and i cant FIND IT.

i really need to do a new and better gem list . oops. i cant always rely on my memory for these names

my EYES! in order: tiger's eye 2x, hawk's eye, bull's eye

my funny silly mosly multicolor fellas idk they fit the Vibes. i likes thgem (appreciae this secion i had to make sure and like re-identify half of these but i still could be incorrect)

in ORDER... lapis lazuli, sodalite 2x, elbaite (most likely), chrysocolla, rhodonite, blue apatite, amazonite, kyanite

dalmatian jasper and unakite

...some kinda jasper?

so ya!! thats some of my Rocks. this took a while bc i had to look what some of these are again @_@ i loaves them . todays guzma enrichment: this

[flyinggerbilking]

12. What’s the weirdest thing that turned you on? Did you masturbate to it? Would you do it again?

What are the ideal nudes that someone could send you?

21. What video of you would you love to take sometimes? Why haven’t you yet?

41. What’s the best orgasm you had in past months?

12. The weirdest thing that has ever turned me on🤔 hmmmm idk tbh...well i mean there is one but like its kinda fucked up and idk how i even found it🤣 but uh yea it was a girl with no legs (if i remember right) and that is deadass like all i can remember. Did i touch myself? Would i do it again? Yes🤣...WAIT NO HER LEGS WERE IN CASTS...yea that mightve been it...idk i jerked off a lot back then so there ya go🤣

1. Ideal nudes? Hmmm honestly i aint picky, buuuttt i am a sucker for some thick thighs and a cute tummy so those gotta be in the nude somehow. But like boobs are amazing so boobs are a great pic too

21. A video id like to take of myself? Well id like to record myself doing many things and i dont do it because of a lack of opportunity (and lets be honest nobody wanna see it anyway)

41. Best orgasm in the past few months??? My partner did give me oral for a while not that long ago and was ontop and yea that rocked my world for a bit😏😏😏

[slytherinshua]

ahhh i am glad that school is going well!<3 and happy to hear that you can do what you love more nowadays (i mean your fucs are literally so magical i always love them so much, talented queen🫶🏻✨) bc it can be sooo good to get back into writing!

i am very busy with university sadly, many exams are coming up so unlike you i have been neglecting writing a bit🥲but in 2 weeks i will have a shorter break so i can write many fics again in advance (at least that is my plan hehe)

also!! random question of the day: which svt song do you think you are and why? (this is so interesting imo bc they have so many songs and im always so fascinated by hearing ppl explain why they associate themselves with a certain song hehe:))

ps.: sending hugs 🫂

i knowww me too like i've missed writing and there was a 3 week drought on this blog lol 😭 but im back to it!!! (kdksdj stop ur too nice 😭 thank u 🥹🫶)

ugh school always takes priority over writing unfortunately </3 but good luck on those exams!! and i hope the writing goes well when you get ur break <3

hmmm for the svt song... honestly i want to say smth soft but rn i rly feel like fuck my life represents me. i just feel like ive been through such a hard time in the past year/almost 2 years and only recently ive tried to make more of an effort. so kinda like the fight for my life message in that song :D so yeah that's what id say rn!! (tho some ppl have said im like pretty u and i would LIKE to say that im like falling for u of ah!love idk lol i just love those songs sm)

sending hugs backkkk <33333

[chaoxfix]

🕯️🪄🌻 for the meme!

ty for the ask!! <3

🕯️how do you think engaging with each other through tumblr, twitter, comments, kudos, creates healthy fandom experiences? How do you deal with that if you're not a social person/experience social anxiety?

ahh... hmm. i like putting out the energy i want back. if i read something i try to comment, and if i dont like something or am not interested in the concept, i just dont react because it's so much worse to upset someone over something they worked hard on.

i really don't think kudos are a very good expression of appreciation, as it has almost no room for real connection. fics are free, you know? when something is free but gives you joy, you should probably meet it with love, and love in a way that really shows why you like it. thats why i think comments are much better. i get why it can cause anxiety, but there's really no wrong way to comment unless youre 1) being an honest to god jerk, 2) pointing out something you dislike / something that you think the author was "incorrect" about (especially if the commenter is the one whos wrong lmao. either way i really dont think free fanfiction is like. lol. the place to do public criticism. just saying.)

im a rather anxious person irl, so im not really sure exactly what every single other anxious person's obstacles are or how to bridge them. because of that, i won't try to give universal advice since it's something i cant be an expert on if my experience is so different.

but i will say, for myself -- i mitigate my anxiety by practicing gratitude. i weaponize my people-pleasing for good by trying to be someone who makes other people feel genuinely good. and there's nothing better than feeling appreciated and praised for things that have value. and that kind of thing usually comes back around.

🪄what is your post-writing/sharing aftercare? How do you take care of yourself or celebrate yourself when you've finished a fic?

ahh... hmmm...

if it's late at night (after midnight) when i post it, i go to sleep so i wont stay up refreshing the page to see what people say, or worse stay up editing all the typos that "suddenly appear" in ao3 formatting lol. that way even if no one reads it overnight or there are errors, it's okay because at least i can face the day with some sleep.

if it's not late at night when i post it, i try to go for a walk to again avoid constantly refreshing the page for feedback or immediately editing it. bc its not super healthy to spend even more time on it after whats probably been hours and hours, and i dont want my entire day fixated on something i should be done with.

i dont really celebrate much though, probably because i just kind of expect myself to make things of a quality i can stand behind. i didnt really grow up getting praised despite being an overachiever bc it made others around me feel bad when i got a lot . . . so i. have to really try and make something worthy of praise to feel like i deserve it. idk. haha. so anyways overall i try to lean more and more into 'i dont need validation' because id hate to put all my eggs in that basket -- not just because i dont want to be motivated by others' praise, but also because, i dont want to stop writing for the opposite reason, if someday i no longer feel like the quality of work i produced actually deserved the amount of feedback it got.

🌻what makes you want to give up on writing? what makes you keep going?

low motivation for long stretches, and losing interest in the things others like best, make me want to stop writing. both with fandom and original. low motivation usually coincides with depressive stints for me, and it makes me feel awful. like i cant do the one thing i like best, because i just can't motivate myself. when i finally manage it, it's crap for the first thousand words, then it gets better.

for me though, what makes me keep going is getting others to see my vision. getting them to feel what i aim to make them feel; crafting stories that, maybe theyre not perfect, but the emotions they generate are enough. it really is hard without an audience. even though i'm not motivated as much by getting a ton of validation, i do need at least a little lol, even just someone to say "yes. i see you. i understand what you needed me to feel from this, and i felt it." which is why i have original writing friends as well, for original stuff.

buuut also, i also keep going because i like being able to jot down what im thinking/imagining so that i can revisit it later and go back to that feeling, that moment in time where i was absolutely positive of that scene

thank you again for asking!! ^^

[itsohh]

Hello! I hope you are doing well! When you first started writing here on Tumblr, did you hesitate or were nervous and if so how did you deal with it? Or did you just power through it and fuck it I'm putting my writing out there and I don't care what people say?

Long story short I'm really wanting to write on here just to do something different but I'm hella nervous and just wanted an opinion. Because I really love R6 but I have a very hard time getting out of my shell. Obviously you don't have to answer if you are uncomfortable! Till then I can't wait for your next post! 😊

hmmm I think way back when I first started writing I was a lot more care free at the time back when I was like 13.

I don't think I was ever focused on like anyone hating it or anything like that. Like I've legit never got hate for writing in all the years I've done it. Either people will hit the like button or they wont. Back then I was writing for like supernatural and marvel then eventually overwatch and a bit of Sherlock. In the case of I guess it was 'whats the worst that will happen' in all reality most of the time people who don't like x reader have the tag blocked and so only people who like said thing will find it (so long as u tag correctly)

I've sorta just got to the stage where posting doesn't really phase me in nervousness or anything, like sure for somethings I lose interest or motivation at times but when I started posting I didn't really get any like feedback at all? Like it was very rare I would get anything that wasn't a like or a reblog and requests didn't happen much. I think the fact that Tumblr is so anonymous really helps, like its almost a mask. No one actually knows who I am, worst comes to worst I can legit just delete the blog and start anew.

I think also fandom size is a huge thing, is reconising your audience, there's no point comparing like notes to another fandom cause honestly it just reflects how popular said thing is. After I realised that I sorta don't worry anymore? I used to freak out a bit about people not liking my posts but now I'm just like 'eh R6S is tiny' and it is.

Honestly yeah so long as you tag correctly you should be alg. In the R6S fandom at leat people are pretty chill. (Idk there's some hate to oc's or something but as long as u don't tag as x reader u should be alg)

Anyway I'm rambling a lot but honestly yeah just go for it hun, upload. Nothing bad will happen, might feel a bit anxious or whatever but its like, yeah. You feel me? that being said if your going to write please remember capitals and new speaker new line theses are so important, as someone who breaks a lot of grammar rules those two shouldn't be broken in writing. I know a lot of people aren't a fan of first person so if you do write first person your audience would be smaller than per say second or first

Some people may have different ideas or interpretations of character but I feel as a tumblr collective (speshly this fandom) people won't like hate on you for it.

ANYWAY I went off again, yeah give it a go. eventually you will get used to it and it will become a second habit to upload, frankly so long as you ultimately always write for your enjoyment your always good. uploading writing is pretty much like the same as watching a movie with a friend id say, or like running a dnd campaign sorta vibes. kinda. but yeah just hit that post button and off u go. I guess yeah just power through it, hitting post the first time is def the hardest and you just gotta rip that bad boy off.

[sasudou]

speaking of role-less characters and background characters that served their purpose i couldn't help but be reminded of this reddit post

it seems that jjk is nearing the end somewhat and some of the characters might come back as a filler and whatnot but needless to say i dont think gege likes to focus much on female characters, heck even maki was done somewhat dirty but he brought her back for a shortwhile, nobara? who knows but she was supposed to be a main fem lead and look how that ended. idk

hmmm i actually like how gege handles his female characters. he actually gives them a personality and development—which is the bare minimum, but is something we rarely ever see in manga, much less a shonen.

i don’t think maki was done dirty? i actually really like what’s being done with her character. it’s clear that she’s part of the main cast, as she’s been utilized throughout the story and will probably continue to be used to the end. she actually has a story—she has development. she’s part of something that’s been built up since the first season, so it would be weird to simply drop her like a side character (especially since that plot point is still somewhat relevant).

nobaras character is a bit more tragic, but i don’t exactly hate what was done with her character. she was very well written, even during her death. (of course, her status is still technically unknown, but i don’t think she’s going to be brought back). nobara had her own little story, and even though it didn’t fit with the overall plot, it still got played out very well. unfortunately, some characters do have to die for plot progression.

overall, i don’t think gege doesn’t care about female characters. he writes them well compared to other shonen writers. however, he still does have a male dominated main cast. a bit upsetting, but it is shonen, so i don’t have very high expectations. however, just because i like them doesn’t mean you have to! there may be certain aspects that you noticed that i didn’t or certain aspects we have different opinions on, and that’s perfectly fine. (though id love to hear your thoughts on them, anon. i rarely see criticism revolving geges treatment of his female characters, so you may have been exposed to things i wasn’t.)

i do agree with the reddit post tho! some side characters are just side characters. not every character needs a story. that, however, doesn’t mean they can’t be utilized. i do think utahime can be used as a way to show how the situation is being handled, how it’s affecting her students, and how those close to the jujutsu world hierarchy (apart from the main cast) see the situation (she is a teacher and has to follow the higher ups, but she also has students she needs to take care of). i’m not saying she needs to be part of the main cast or needs to have a full out story, but i do think she can be used as a side character a bit more. we’ve seen how the main cast + other sorcerers are handling things, but how about those working directly under the higher ups? what is going on there? do they have plans? utahime can be a way to introduce that a bit more. (we know some, but not a lot.)

gege doesn’t have to do any of this, of course! i simply just find it interesting. the story will go on just fine if none of this is talked about or if it is brought up in a different manner.

utahime as a character doesn’t interest me much, simply because we’ve seen so little of her, so whether or not she shows up later in the story isn’t important to me, but i do think there is some potential there (though not a lot, as her presence would not be necessary to show the things i mentioned above).

sorry if this doesn’t make any sense btw i only slept three hours last night and wrote this while half asleep.