#idk man its late i am tired goodnight

[saenora]

selfship fanart.

[theholycakehole]

Impulsive Decisions || Dream x Reader

Word Count: 1.5k

Pairing: Dream x GN! Reader

Warnings: None! Well its my first Dream fic and it hasn’t really been edited so maybe that should be a warning lol but mostly just fluff :) Also use of irl names, idk how Dream feels about that so please let me know if I should change it! :)

A/N: Heyyyy... Long time so see! Um... so here’s a dream fic! I am done my first year of uni now so if yall wanna start up some requests I can try and do that again? Probably will mostly be along the lines of the Dream SMP or maybe even other streamers since that’s what I’ve been interested in lately. My requests have never really closed, I’ve just been inactive, but I’ll try to start writing again!

It was a long night of shifting between games with friends and discord conversations. I combed my hair back as my eyes grew tired as the screen shifted to a victory for the imposters. I sighed leaning back in my chair seconds before I got the last kill of the game, earning Karl and me the win.

“Wow…” Rae spoke up as everyone began to unmute.

“S/N??” Sykkuno piped up from his side of the call. I let out a little tired laugh as I returned to the main lobby.

“I think that was LG for me guys,” I spoke out hearing a few pleas against it. ��Sorry, I’ve been streaming for like…” I trailed off checking the time, 12:30, “6 hours now? I’m ready for bed, honestly.”

“I should probably do the same,” Dream spoke up, him being in the same timezone as me.

“You guys really should leave the east coast, PST is where it’s at.” Corpse mumbled as I opened back up my stream chat.

“I know, I know, but I can’t get myself to leave my hometown.” I laughed out as I skimmed over my chat reading the goodnight wishes and the thanks for streaming messages.

“Well, I live on the east coast and I’m fine to stay up.” Karl joked as I let out a yawn.

“Does anyone have any fills?” Toast asked. “If not we might have to end it here.”

“Toast aren’t you in the same time zone as me right now?” I asked out. “Go to bed.”

“I don’t need sleep, S/N.” He commented back.

“Ok fair.” I chuckled as my little character ran around the lobby before going to the computer and messing around with the skins and hats.

“Sorry guys, I think all my fills are done for the night.” Corpse explained to the lobby.

“Its no worries we can always play another time!” Rae reassured everyone. “Well, goodnight everyone!”

“Goodnight!” Everyone chimed before signing out of the call.

I muted myself and ended my stream, forgetting to leave the call. I thanked the donos and read chat, making tired comments. I answered a few questions I managed to catch in the chat before ending the stream. As I was about to leave discord I saw that Dream’s little icon was still in the call with me.

“Lurking much?” I joked as I unmuted my mic.

“I thought you were going to bed?” He remarked with a small laugh.

“Eventually, I just couldn’t use my brain anymore after that last game.”

“I don’t blame you, you played well, y/n.” Using my real name rather than my stream name clarified that he wasn’t streaming either. “If you’re not too tired, we can stay on the call if you want?”

“I’m down, honestly, I’m just winding down before bed.” I mentioned as I checked my phone, opening a few social media apps to catch up on what I missed since starting my stream.

“So, y/n when do you plan on visiting? Sap and I are still waiting for you to come down.” He questioned, causing me to look up from my phone, closing it before setting the device back down on my desk. His camera obviously was not on but I found my attention on his discord profile picture.

“Soon, Clay.” I laughed leaning back in my chair and tucking my legs up to my chest.

“You said that last time.” He laughed a little more tired this time.

“Flights can be expensive, especially so last minute.” I made an excuse as I looked over to my second monitor and found myself googling flights.

“I literally told you I’ll pay for your flight to Florida, y/n.” He teased as I hummed in response, my attention mostly on the travel website I was looking at.

“I’m a big girl Dreamwastaken, I can pay for my own flight.” I chuckled before closing the website.

“Y/n your classes are done now, you have all the time in the world, leave Canada and come visit, please?” I smiled at his question before letting out a yawn.

“Fuck it.”

“Wait really?” Clay piped up, shocked and excitement evident in his voice.

“You made a really convincing argument. When do you want me to visit?” I asked before re-opening the tab and looking at prices.

“Right now.”

“Right now?”

“Yes, right now.”

“Thats not happening Clay.” I laughed before finding a date and hovering over the purchase button. “How about the weekend? It gives me time to pack and get some things sorted.”

“Yes! Perfect! This is so exciting y/n!” He smiled, his voice raising a little bit which caused me to laugh. We sorted out the details and eventually booked the tickets and talked about how excited we were for me to come to Florida.

I’ve known Dream for a couple of years now, mostly through streaming with friends. Obviously, I knew of him before because of the Dream SMP and how popular it got. But through the years we have grown close, this even confused fans. Shipping was natural and happened quite frequently, which we ignored in the beginning, but as time passed feelings began to grow. We never talked about it but the flirting and the comments we’d share both on stream and off-stream just felt so right.

We were both faceless content creators, and being this close was quite strange as we have never met or let alone seen each other in person. As I packed my clothes a couple of days later I felt the nerves settle in. I shook off the panic of what if he doesn’t like me or think I’m attractive enough. But it was hard to shake.

I found myself jittery as the plane began to descend. I peered out the window looking at the ground as it grew closer and closer. The nerves grew more and more intense as I knew Dream was the closest he’s been to me since we first met. I felt myself smiling through the panic as I reached to grab my backpack under the seat in front of me.

When we finally were able to disembark the plane I quickly texted Clay that I was here and told him that I was wearing a f/c hoodie so they could find me. I tried to find the baggage claim as I followed the people who were on the same flight as me. My phone buzzed in my pocket telling me that Clay responded.

‘Sap and I just pulled in, see you soon!’

I smiled at his text message and the nerves went crazy, but a huge smile was on my face at the same time. I opened Twitter and quickly started a new tweet to show my audience that I was on, in fact, a last-minute trip. I attached a picture I snuck as I disembarked the plane and made a quick caption before posting and pocketing my phone.

My phone began to buzz from notifications as I plugged in my earbuds and played my music while I tried to locate myself through the airport. As I finally found the baggage claim I stood by one of the conveyor belts and scanned over the luggage trying to find my own. A couple of minutes passed before I felt a hand on my shoulder. I quickly turned around, pulling out my earbuds to see the face of one of my streamer friends.

“Y/n?”

“Sapnap!” I smiled before pulling him in for a hug.

“Hey, how was the flight?” He asked as we pulled apart and stood waiting for my luggage.

“Long enough, I’m just excited I’m here now.” I smiled as I pocketed my phone after wrapping the wires from my earbuds around it.

“Trust me, so are we.” He smiled in return. I saw my suitcase and quickly went to grab it, Sapnap helping me as well. “Clay is in the car, we were struggling to find a parking spot so he pulled up and is waiting for us.” He informed me as he took my suitcase and helped me wheel it out. “He’s nervous.” He mentioned as we grew closer to the doors.

“Trust me, so am I. Other than people in my everyday life, you two are the first to see me in person, or even my face.” I said as I fidgetted with the strings of my hoodie.

“You’re in good hands, y/n, try not to worry.” He smiled softly at me.

We exited through the doors to see a vehicle parked up to the curb. I felt the nerves build up in my stomach as a head of ashy blonde hair exit the car door. A smile found its way onto my face as my eyes lit up. As the man walked around the car he stopped in his tracks and replicated the same, bright smile, green eyes lighting up. I stopped everything and bolted forward pulling Clay into a tight hug.

“You’re finally here.” He muttered into my h/c hair, pulling me in tighter.

“I’m finally here.” I smiled into his green sweatshirt, feeling at ease.

[imagines-mha]

class 1-B and night routines

Monoma: if monoma doesn’t annoy at least 2 people per night he simply will not sleep. Wears the comfiest pyjamas- like a 100% cotton top and plaid pj bottoms and everyones so fuckin jealous. He tells everyone he has a 16 step self-care routine he does every night but he really just brushes his teeth and then sits on his phone for like 2 hours? Ike what do you GET out of lying??? 

Tetsutetsu: he thinks going to bed after 11pm is criminal. Literally doesn’t understand the cryptidcrew™️ who DONT MF SLEEP. Works out before bed which is 👌🏻👌🏻 OOF. Aw hes the type of friend to make everyone tea and toast and send them asmr videos if they cant sleep i love him. He usually spends his night dancing around with pony and working off all his ENERGY

Kendo: “yall im turning into bed i’m too tired for this shit” “kendo it’s 7pm”

My girl will retire to her room as early as she can (usually with the rest of the girls) and she just RELAXES. Like self-care to the max: paints her nails, watches tv, plans her tomorrow, showers. She’s usually asleep at 10pm and wakes up the next morning full energy I want what she has

Awase: he has the WORST sleep schedule like fr. Literally sits up on tiktok until 3am and he’s just like “oh shit i’m up at 7…” *continues scrolling* like bro GET UR ASS TO BED U HAVE TRAINING AT 6AM. His night routine ain’t anything special- he sleeps in sweats and always keeps his window open (although someone told him about banshees once and now hes lowkey terrified lmao)

Kaibara- the type to fall asleep on the sofa and wake up at 4 in the morning to find tsuburaba in the kitchen eating a full course meal and he just SIGHS and goes up to bed in the worst mood bc why tf are his friends so WEIRD. Likes to watch the stars and edit pictures before he sleeps- its so therapeutic to him and also productive so he’s winning

Rin- he drinks coffee every night after midnight and then goes “oh my fuck shit i just drank coffee why am i like this” like congrats u fuckin dumbass now u ain’t gonna sleep. And he never fuckin learns. Always does his hw at like 11pm, Also stays up way too late binge-watching star wars smh 

Tsuburaba: he gets up every night and treats himself to a three-course meal in the kitchen no cap no sound awareness my man will be blending shit full blast at 2 in the morning. Usually falls asleep sitting at the kitchen table and he 👏🏻 needs 👏🏻 a 👏🏻 chiropractor 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻. Also always forgets to do his homework until everyone’s packing up to go to bed and hes like “please,, anyone,, the math?”. Shoda wants to punch him so bad

Ibara: the most well-structured person in the entire building. At 7pm she has her shower, at 8:30pm she goes to pray, at 9:30pm she journals and draws to calm her mind, and at 10pm she meditates until she falls asleep- which is usually 10:20pm.. Everyone wants her self control and independance like damn how does she FUNCTION. Also queen of vegan self-care remedies 

Pony: girl is chaotic as fuck it’ll be like 10pm and rin’s like “yo pony can i copy the hw??” And shes like “WHAT HOMEWORK.” . *cue two idiots freaking tf out*. She’s always wearing matching pj sets and fluffy socks and loves sliding around in them like a dork. Dances every night before bed to tire herself out like shes just in the lounge deadass vibing to taylor swift and a new person joins her everytime . people would be dead without her

Kodai: movies every night or she won’t go to class the next morning. Shes always just sitting on her phone w earphones in like she has absoloutely no time to deal with monoma’s shit so she just peaces tf out of existence. Cutest pyjamas ever i love her pyjama queen. The go-to girl for homework she just leaves her bag open, as long as u return it shes cool

Tokage: oh my god shes so CRYPTIC and FOR WHAT. Pranks pranks pranks pranks pranks. everyone hates her for it and she loves it so bad. Like she has the balls to prank kamakiri and that TAKES BALLS LET ME JUST SAY . she’ll just leave her body parts in people’s beds and its SO annoying. They usually just pick up her stray arm and fling it at the wall in revenge then act confused the next morning when she complains abt the bruises 

Komori: cryptic as fuck. Does she sleep? Why is she always sitting at the table? What is she doing? . Closes her tabs whenever someone comes into the dining room and just stares at them til they leave again like :)). In the garden every night til she can’t bear the coldness- watches the stars and makes flower crowns and worships the moon i love her

Kuroiro: nighttime is the time he just evaporates like where tf is he like 🙄🙄 reel it in randy from monsters inc . Hiding in the walls and listening to everyones conversations and secrets is his only skill in life . Everyone thinks he doesn’t sleep and just wanders around (he does, he just likes to have an edgy reputation)

Kamakiri- did you hear that?? oh its just kamakiri fistfighting monoma in the hallway again. Fr takes no prisoners he needs his beauty sleep (or idk do bugs sleep lmao??). If you’re in his way while he’s RAMPAGING to his room youre dead bro when i say he takes bedtime routines seriously i MEAN it. He does self-care and tells NOONE but its lowkey cute idk lmao why do i have a crush on a bug lemme call my therapist real quick

Bondo- 9pm. Wind down time. A good book is all my mans needs and he’ll be out for the count in absolutely no time at all. Fukidashi will die jealous and bondo fucking loves it. Milks tf out of it too he’s like YAWN I AM SO TIRED OFF TO BED NOW TO SLEEP PEACEFULLY GOODNIGHT and everyone who WISHES they could sleep as early as that wants him to choke

Manga- king of never having hw done until 1am at the earliest 🤡. He lives on 1 hour sleep most nights and his speech bubble just says “no <3” until like 11am. Its cus of his crippling hyperactivity he’s running the halls at 3am practicing the entire mamma mia choreography ffs fukidashi U HAVE A CAREER AHEAD OF U 

Reiko: energy drink addiction 101 if she doesn’t drink monster every night before bed she’s convinced she’ll die. “I sleep all day and party all night” she says, crying over math hw at 2am. Plays music too loud and has LED strobelites on ALL NIGHT. Shes deadass doing witchcraft in the lounge w komori all night during finals week she doesnt give a single fuck x

Shishida: another reader,, mans will finish an entire book in a night by the force of sheer willpower alone. Takes a bath every night and it makes his fur so fluffy and smell like apples smdnwjdnwd. Perfect snuggle buddy for wintertimes (pony LOVES HIM) and he’s that good man who carries tsuburaba to bed when he falls asleep at the kitchen table

Shoda: “please don’t speak to me while im doing my homework im 👌🏻 this close to having a mental breakdown and all it takes is a single poke to reel me over the edge.” Complains all day about being tired then goes to bed at 2am?? Like no shit ofc ur tired bitch . Always up for a deep talk at night he knows EVERYTHING abt EVERYONE and hes so trustworthy hed never tell a soul

Honenuki: he meal preps and does yoga before bed 🤢 like WHO HAS THAT MOTIVATION. Irons and sets his uniform out for the next day before getting his homework FINISHED by 9pm . He’s pretty flexible w what he does at nights it 100% depends on his mood. Usually he’s helping Tokage with pranks or working out w tetsutetsu tho. Used to annoy people who were up doing hw after 11 like “really tsuburaba? You should be ashamed”. Shoda almost DECKED him once for it tho and he was #traumatised and never did it again

[aaronhart93]

text || aarotin

Discord text thread featuring: Aaron & @quentindelancret

When: January 22nd, early morning into early evening

Mentions: @romanbeckett @davieslandon

Description: Aaron and Quentin fight about Quentin’s drug addiction 

Trigger Warnings: addiction mentions, arguing

Quentin.

you okay baby?

I haven’t heard from you and I just wanted to check in. I love you

Aaron.

I love you too and miss you

Des has just been cranky all night.

Quentin.

oh man, I’m sorry baby. Is there anything I can do to help? I know it’s late but I can bring breakfast in the morning or anything you need

Aaron.

I think she's sick

i have to play the morning by ear. Depends on how she wakes up

Quentin.

okay baby. I hope she’s not sick though. Just let me know and I’ll help out any way that I can

Aaron.

thank you baby. I miss you

Quentin.

I miss you toooo

Aaron.

miss you more

Quentin.

Impossible. I’ve been thinking about you all day. I miss your scent

Aaron.

you have my hoodies. put one on babe

are you at home?

Quentin.

I already did

I am home. I’m supposed to go snuggle Romie but Delilah brought over drugs and now I’m too hyper for life lol

Aaron.

oooo yeah i was gonna ask you to go check on him...but it's okay

Quentin.

I will. I’m just trying to chill out for a minute. He’s gonna leave a key for me

Aaron.

I mean if you’re high...maybe just stay home

Quentin.

uhmm okay

Aaron.

i just dont want you leaving the house so late

Quentin.

I know

I’m sorry

Aaron.

i just....if you knew you were going to go over to his place to take care of him...why would you get high

Quentin.

I didn’t know exactly. He said he was gonna sleep but then he couldn’t, and Delilah was upset and I told her she could come over and talk. Then she had coke and I just... I’m sorry

please don’t be mad at me

Aaron.

im not mad im just

idk

feel some type of way about it

Quentin.

about the coke?

Aaron.

not necessarily. the fact that our partner is sick....you knew i had des tonight so couldn't go over there...i guess i just figured you'd be a little more responsible

it's okay...i dont want you to be worrying about these things anyway

ill take care of both of you.

Quentin.

I can be responsible Aaron. I thought he was gonna sleep. I’m still gonna go over there and take care of him. You both come before anything else for me and I’m sorry I misstepped. But I’m not gonna just leave him hanging.

Aaron.

even if he fell asleep and woke up and needed something...seriously though. i want you to have fun and live your life, im sorry i brought it up

Quentin.

Aaron.. stop it. What is going on with you? I’m fine. I can go over there right now. But you seem... on edge. Are you okay?

I wanna have fun and live my life with you and Roman. I fucked up okay? But I feel like there is something else nothing you

Aaron.

i fought with Landon the other day

Des might be sick

work sucked today and im stressed about Ro

im sorry

Quentin.

baby, I’m sorry. I know the whole Landon situation sucks. I wish I could fix it for you. I know I made things shittier before but I don’t wanna do that. I wanna be here for you. I can come see you after I check on Roman? Help you with Des and give you a massage. I’m worried about you

I’m coming. I won’t take no for an answer. I’m gonna give you a massage and get you in bed. Then I’ll go see Romie. I wanna be there for you both

Aaron.

Quentin, I love you. and thank you....I don't know how to tell you this but...I don't want you around Des if you've been using tonight.

Quentin.

Aaron.

Fine, I’m not gonna argue with you. See you tomorrow then?

Aaron.

yeah

Quentin.

okay

I’m sorry

Aaron.

im not mad

Quentin.

It’s okay. I understand.

I love you

Aaron.

dont be upset

Quentin.

of course I’m upset. I want to be there for you and I can’t

Aaron.

im okay, Q.

Quentin.

that’s not the point

I’m sorry I fucked up. I know you don’t want an addict around Des and that’s my fault

Aaron.

you're sick, i can help you

Quentin.

I’m sick?

Aaron.

addiction...its a diseae

disease

Quentin.

wow, Aaron.

yeah, I don’t wanna talk about this right now

Aaron.

you...brought it up...

Quentin.

yeah, I know. I guess I just didn’t really think you would agree with me

Aaron.

that i dont want someone on drugs around Des? Quentin...

you are making this into something it isnt

Quentin.

no, that you think I’m sick and need help.

I understand you not wanting me around Des. But it’s not like I’d ever hurt her

Aaron.

i know you would never and I'd never keep her from you

just sober up...and we'll talk in the morning i guess

Quentin.

I don’t even know what to say

I’m just sorry I’ve been such a burden.

yeah, we will talk tomorrow

Aaron.

back up

you're not a burden

Quentin, stop making things up in your head

Quentin.

I feel like I have been.

I don’t wanna add any more stress for you

Aaron.

Quentin, listen to me.

i cannot live without you.

Okay?

Quentin.

okay.

I’m just sorry

Aaron.

dont be. im sorry i was harsh

Quentin.

it’s fine.

I love you

Aaron.

i love you too. bring me breakfast in the morning??

Quentin.

of course. Let me know if you need any cough medicine or anything when Des gets up

Aaron.

thank you, my love

goodnight

Quentin.

anytime. Goodnight baby

early evening...

Quentin.

I’m sorry about last night

I’m trying to do better

Aaron.

it was my fault. Don’t worry about it

Quentin.

it wasn’t your fault. You told me how it is and I’ll fix it

Aaron.

okay

Quentin.

good talk

Aaron.

well do you wanna keep talking about it

Quentin.

Nope, I really don’t.

Aaron.

I don’t know what else to say because I don’t either

Quentin.

I’ll just leave you alone

Aaron.

or like we could talk about literally anything else

I missed you today, okay?

Quentin.

yeah, I missed you too

Aaron.

like a lot

I pulled Des from school and had a day with her

it was nice

Quentin.

that sounds fun

Aaron.

it was

Quentin.

I’ll let you get back to it then

Aaron.

oh okay

I love you

Quentin.

you too

Aaron.

Quentin

I’m sorry okay?

Quentin.

it’s fine. I’m really just moody today.

I’m trying to stay away from the happy pills ya know?

Aaron.

I don’t want you to do something that you’re not ready for. If you aren’t ready to stay off of them, then it’s okay

Quentin.

the thing is Aaron, I’m never gonna be ready. I take molly literally every day. Most times people can’t even tell it’s that bad.  But I know it bothers you and Roman and I’m done

Aaron.

that’s brave

and makes me happy. That’s one of the reasons i know you love me

Quentin.

of course I love you

Aaron.

I know

Quentin.

I’m just so sick of disappointing you

Aaron.

I’m not going anywhere okay?

Quentin.

yeah

Aaron.

I’m serious

Quentin.

okay

Aaron.

are you mad at me

Quentin.

no I’m not mad. I just don’t feel like we’re as close as we used to be

Aaron.

because of an argument?

Quentin.

No not because of an argument Aaron

because you just seem distant all the time

Aaron.

I...

im sorry. It’s not on purpose

Quentin.

it’s fine

Aaron.

how can I be better

Quentin.

I’m just gonna take a few days to myself

Aaron.

oh okay

Quentin.

I don’t want to make anything worse by staying here

I get so all over the place with my emotions and without drugs I’m scared of what I might say or do

Aaron.

maybe tell your doctor? For medicine?

Quentin.

I don’t have a doctor

and I don’t want one honestly

they just make me relive shit I don’t want to and that isn’t gonna help anything

Aaron.

I can get you into a primary care doctor with no issue

not a therapist. Just a regular doctor

Quentin. What have I done wrong? It’s obviously something

Quentin.

you didn’t do anything. It’s just me.

Aaron.

tell me how I can help

Quentin.

my expectations and my delusions of how I thought things would be. It’s fine, I’ll handle it, I’ll make it better

Aaron.

how did you think things would be?

Quentin.

different

Aaron.

well what can we do better baby

I will do anything for you

Quentin.

it’s not you. I’m pretty sure it’s all me

ya know.. how I get in my head and shit

Aaron.

what can I do for you when you get in your head

to help

Quentin.

I don’t know. You can’t fix me. It doesn’t work like that

I’m just, I’m tired.

Aaron.

well now I’m scared

Quentin.

of what?

don’t be scared Aaron. I love you. I just, I can’t see you right now. But soon.. okay?

two days. That’s it.

Aaron.

where are you going

why can’t you see me

Quentin.

I’m just gonna go see my brother I think. Maybe fix things with him.

I can’t see you because I know if I do I’ll change my mind about taking some time away

but it’s okay, I wanna see you. Come see me

Aaron.

alright I’m coming

Quentin.

good. I love you

Aaron.

I love you so fucking much

Quentin.

the feeling is very mutual baby

I promise it’s gonna be okay. Alright? I just need to get my head right

Aaron.

okay

Quentin.

and it’s not your fault.

Aaron.

Idk

Quentin.

its me, I swear it’s me. That sounds cliche but it really is. I’m gonna fix it

I mean, honestly. All I can think about right now is how I wanna jump on you when I see you and never let go. But I need to stop being so closed off. I know that just makes you closed off and then I blame you. But it’s not you. You just .. you have this effect on me that really scares the shit out of me

Aaron.

is that effect a bad thing?

Quentin.

uhmmm

I don’t know. Is it?

Aaron.

I don’t know. Is it a good scare or bad scare

Quentin.

both

Aaron.

how do I scare you?

Quentin.

It’s like... you’re so out of my league and I don’t wanna do or say anything to make you leave. I’m like, I’m a lot, and I know I can be. It just scares me that makes I’m too much sometimes

Aaron.

I am not out of your league.

you are 1 of 2 of the hottest men in Kingsboro and I have both of them lol

Quentin.

you are totally out of my league. You’re like, God, I can’t even put you into words. Then there’s me. Partying, acting crazy, doing stupid shit. Idk. It’s like I’m an embarrassment next to you. But I mean, if I’m that hot I must not be so bad lol

you’re also like.. so hot! I can’t breathe lol

[torunarigha]

Rules: list 10 songs that you can’t stop listening to, in no particular order, and tag 10 people

I was tagged by the lovely @todaviia​ to do this and encouraged to do explanations too, which I will definitely do because I love any excuse to thoughtfully analyze things I love!! Especially late at night when I should be sleeping...(also I’m 100% going to listen to all the songs you put and anyone who I tagged who does this, new music is fun but new music with stories behind it is even better!!)

1. American Tune - Simon and Garfunkel live at Central Park: ah the song that sums up being american, the lingering shame and sadness but also knowing you’re forever shaped and influenced by the mythology and ideology that makes this country what it is (i guess that’s not so unique but because its U.S.A. i guess it means something worse? idk man)... before i did my Austausch year in germany, my mom introduced this song ‘for when you miss this country’. i looked at her incredulously at the time but...i get it now. 

2. Urge for Going - Joni Mitchell: its funny, i got into this song right before covid and now the title is my eternal mood. joni is lovely, all of her songs i really never tire listening to (thanks mum!). the melody! the guitar! the lyrics!! ‘i get the urge for going but i never seem to go’ hits something deep...university blues i suppose.

3. You’d be so Nice to Come Home to - Nina Simone: i rediscovered this song when i listened to my jazz playlist from two years ago. I have a very clear memory of walking along a highway lined with trees on the way back home from the dentist and listening to this, enthralled. The jazz standard I associate with my mom singing it and I think this version is the only one I like better than her’s (no one can beat Nina)

4. It’s a Sin - Pet Shop Boys: I have too many melancholy ones on this list so I had to add a boppy 80s one. This summer I heard it blasting and it hasn’t left my head since. It’s best heard turned up with your eyes closed so you get the best effect from the synths (the ‘father forgive me’ always throws me and then I look at the title like ‘oh right! that’s christianity!)

5. Something in the Water - Daveed Diggs: ok full disclosure most of what i’ve been listening to lately is daveed...i have mixed feelings about clippin. songs (they’re all good songs, some i like more than others) but this is from his movie ‘blindspotting’ (which i NEED to see) and is such a good song about gentrification (specifically about oakland but i think it could be applied to many cities in the world right now lmao fuck capitalism). anyway please talk to me about daveed diggs. 

6. Parting Friends - traditional (but this is a pretty version): its a hymn from the 19th century but the harmonies are beautiful and really fun to sing with someone else, if you like choral singing. i think it meant a lot to me over the quarantine time just because i felt so separated from people, although the fear of losing friends is still here...

7. Transcend - Nyota Parker: I heard this on that video where all the proceeds went to racial justice organizations and totally loved it! Empowering and relaxing, that doesn’t happen in many songs. I think in a few years it will be one of those songs that takes me back to this time in a kind of 'oof’ way. 

8. O Love is Teasin’ - Rhiannon Giddens: Another recently discovered song although I’ve known her for a while (carolina chocolate drops, great if you love bluegrass! although i have a feeling there won’t be a lot of bluegrass fans on tumblr lol). this song is less bluegrass, more haunting traditional (maybe a bit celtic? idk) i know when i leave this state, i’ll listen to her when i miss it :’)

9. When I’m Gone - Phil Ochs: I need to listen to this song every day because it reminds me what’s important, ya know? Fight the power, care for each other, live in the moment...Anti-war and union songs are common place around the campfire with my family so that’s another reason I need this song right now tbh. i need more phil ochs, woody guthrie, pete seegar, judy collins...

10. Everything I Am Is Yours - The Villagers: this came on while I was walking to class yesterday and I was in just the right mood to hear it so I’ve been obsessed with it ever since. Maybe its because I’m just always a closet romantic hah...it is a sickly sweet song but 🥺all the same 

I tag: @manuelmueller @divckorigi @joshiikimmich @goretzkaaas @trentalexanders @dancefaeries @thomas-mvller @modricmio @robinsbckley @steviebergwijn and if anyone else took the time to read this then i tag you too!! because dang i feel appreciated!! please tell me about your music!

most of youse i’ve talked about music with which is why i tagged you (except meggie and joshiikimmich and i think i only talked about daveed diggs with emma lol), no pressure to do it of course!

im very tired. i hope this actually makes sense when you read it. why do i poor my heart out at 1am. i should not do this. goodnight.

[lgbtyrus]

Two Exes on Mars

A Tyrus fic where they’re aged up + broken up :) It will have a ‘happily ever after’, I promise. Note: IDK if you know your Andi Mack lore, but just in case, Shadyside is in a fictional US state called Midwest.

Part 1/? (I’m thinking 3 or 4)

Words: 2,668

He kissed him goodbye. It wasn’t even rainy or cloudy outside, much less foggy. It was super bright and sunny, and Cyrus could hear every single bird in Shadyside chirping as his now ex-boyfriend walked out the front door of his house. He waited until TJ was out of his driveway to shut the door and break out in tears, pressing his forehead and fist against his door.

Why? he wondered. Why? Why? Why?

But he knew why. He knew why TJ had let him go in the worst breakup in the world. He had tried to a week ago which led to Cyrus breaking down in front of him and ended up with them back together. But the tension between them was so obviously, and it lead to TJ’s horrible mood swings and random outbursts he never apologized for. It made Cyrus feel like crap. Then in the middle of the week, TJ tried breaking up with him over text. Cyrus ignored it, and TJ went over to his house the next day like nothing had happened. Not even three days later, TJ came over to break up him a third time. For good.

That just happened two minutes ago, and Cyrus silently let him leave this time. He shouldn’t have ever let him see him cry.

“You have to go to California, Cyrus,” TJ had told him, his eyes red and his hands clenching into tight fists. All Cyrus could do was stare at the floor. It’s not everyday you get a chance to go to USC, but it also meant leaving everyone you loved behind- including TJ. Him and TJ had been together since the 8th grade, and he had included TJ in all of his future plans. For him, being in a long distance relationship was a possibility, and he never thought TJ would be against it.

“I want to go to MSU,” Cyrus shook his head, refusing to look at him. TJ was going to MSU on a basketball scholarship, and yeah, they had a theatre and screenwriting, but it wasn’t USC. It was one of the hardest choices Cyrus had to make.

“You’re clearly lying, Cyrus,” TJ let out a frustrated sigh, “I know when you’re lying.” It’s true, he did. His hands always instinctively went inside a pocket, and Cyrus has never been able to stop it. “Cyrus. I know I’m the main reason why you want to stay in Midwest, but I want you to go to USC. It’s what you want.”

“Does that mean we have to break up, though?” Cyrus asked him sadly, his voice quiet. TJ ran his fingers through his blonde hair and let out a deep breath.

“We’d be doing long distance for four years, Cyrus. I don’t want to hold you back from being at your prime if you’re moping around missing me the entire time.”

“Are you just saying this because you’re the one that’s not going to be fine?” There wasn’t even a pause.

“Yes, Cyrus!” TJ said loudly, startling Cyrus. “I can’t spend four years of my life being sad because I miss you all the time, but I also can’t live with the guilt I’m going to feel if you don’t go to USC. This entire situation is driving me insane, and I really think breaking up is the best way to go.”

“You honestly think that?” Cyrus frowned, looking right up at him. He didn’t want to break down like he did the first time. “You’re just giving up? Not even giving long distance a try. After five years, TJ?”

TJ shamefully looked away before saying, “I love you, Cyrus. But I think it’d hurt less to let you go.”

“How?” Cyrus’ voice started to tremble as he spoke in complete disbelief, “How can you even say you love me right now?” TJ didn’t say anything. He just slowly walking up to Cyrus, each step taking its own time before cupping his face in his hands and kissing him softly.

TJ pulled away, whispering, “Bye, Cyrus.”

Cyrus was now sitting on his bedroom floor, playing music louder than his occasional sob. Andi and Buffy were on their way, but until then, it was him, and a lone polaroid picture he had of him and TJ on their first Valentine’s Day together right in front of him. Him and TJ were sitting on one side of the booth at The Spoon while Marty and Buffy sat on the other side. TJ had his arms around him and was smiling in to his cheek, leaving a very fluttered Cyrus to be captured forever.

“Cyrus!” someone yelled out from downstairs. “We’re here.”

“Upstairs!” Cyrus yelled out, his voice slightly cracking. He hadn’t spoken since TJ left, and his throat hurt. He was glad he left the door unlocked for them because he didn’t have the energy to move.

Andi peaked her head through his bedroom door, frowning when she saw him, “Hi, Cyrus.”

“Hey,” Cyrus waved, “come in.” He hadn’t seen Andi in about three weeks was she was getting busy with her senior art project for SAVA. He loved her for being here during a busy time. Buffy trailed in behind Andi with two loaded grocery bags.

“We brought ice cream and pie,” Buffy held the bags up. “We stopped by your kitchen to get utensils.”

“Thank you because I was not going to move,” Cyrus said. Andi and Buffy sat down on each side of him and rested their heads on his shoulder.

“You can cry if you want,” Andi told him.

“Yeah,” Buffy agreed, “we bought three tissue boxes.”

“I’ve been crying for like an hour, and I’m just tired of it at this point. But this is also probably just the start,” Cyrus mumbled. “How am I supposed to accept that someone I talked to everyday for five years is leaving my life?”

“I know it hurts, Cyrus,” Buffy whispered. “But you’re stronger than you think. You’re going to get through this. Trust me. I’m always right.”

“I know you are,” Cyrus smiled slightly. “You know what sucks the most though?”

“What?” they asked in unison.

“We already have matching tuxedos from prom.” -

Cyrus and TJ showed up with new tuxedos to prom. Andi herself made Cyrus a brand new one. The according to different sources, both Cyrus and TJ had both begged Gus to cancel their Prom Court nomination. Gus thought it was funny until Buffy stepped in, and he got scared.

Cyrus and TJ didn’t sit together at lunch anymore or do homework together or visit the swing sets every Tuesday after TJ got out of tutoring. Cyrus submitted his paperwork to attend USC in the fall and according to Amber who was at Shadyside’s community college, TJ was going to go to MSU to play for their basketball team. Buffy and Marty would be seeing him at MSU seeing they got track scholarships.

Cyrus cried every night for the rest of the school year after finishing his homework because he worked to hard to have his GPA suffer over a boy who clearly didn’t care if he fell apart. He sometimes sat in the bathtub and let music fill his whole bathroom and no matter what, every single song would remind him of TJ. Of course, that was his fault for playing the playlists TJ had made him on Spotify. He wondered if he could see that he was listening to them. He hoped he did.

Cyrus didn’t have any communication with TJ since the last texts he sent him. It was a 2AM on a Saturday night, about three weeks since the breakup. He felt horrible and didn’t know how to stop crying. Even though Buffy had told him to call him whenever, he couldn’t keep dumping everything on her.

Cyrus: hey tj I hope im not waking u up idk if you still have your phone set so that u only get text alerts from me but I just wanted to say that I miss you.

Cyrus: I miss you so much tj idk what to do without you. Everything hurts all the time and I just want to talk to you and hear you voice even if we cant date anymore please talk to me. Please be my friend again tj we were best friends for 5 years we work so good together

Cyrus: I love you. I think that ill always be in love with you.

TJ: Goodnight Underdog.

Cyrus didn’t remember what time he went to sleep, but he felt like he cried for hours after that. The pain in his chest beat him up completely until he was too weak to flip his pillow to the dry side.

At their graduation, Cyrus gave a speech and then walked off stage to everyone in the auditorium clapping. It felt surreal. When he looked up smiling, out of all of the people he saw in the sea of graduates, he saw TJ clapping. He had his lip curled up in one corner which showed that he was on the verge of tears. That was the only time that night Cyrus wanted to cry.

-

A month into USC and without a doubt, Cyrus was homesick and probably depressed. He had made a great group of friends that were similar to him and super positive. He appreciated them, but 8 out of 10 times, they could never convince him to leave his room. He just stayed in and did homework and work on his script. It was about a man who gets his heart shattered and decided to move to Mars as part of a science experiment and when he’s already in space, he realize that his ex is one of the 100 people on board. Things quickly escalate. His friends loved the scripts and always asked to read updates, but he still sent snippets to Bex because he missed her.

It had been months since the breakup with TJ that happened late April. He should be over it now, he thought a lot of the time. But it still hurt. TJ really shot a hole in his heart and there was nothing he could do about it. He didn’t cry everyday like he used to. But every other few weeks, he snuck into the bathroom to cry so his roommate wouldn’t see. It was embarrassing to admit.

Cyrus kept things in a rotation. Script, class, eat, homework, sometimes friends, and sleep. It was hard to stay happy and to enjoy himself. It was hard to feel like he was living through something when he’s been dead inside for months. With Halloween coming up, he felt even worse. He’s never not had anyone to match costumes with. For five years, him and TJ did a couple’s costume and before that, him, Buffy, and Andi always had something up their sleeves. He missed all of them.

Then one day, his roommate let one of his friends into their dorm room. His roommate was part of his friend group, so there was that. Cyrus was working on his infamous script and didn’t even get a text that he was coming. Usually, he said no, though. “Hey, Rich,” Cyrus said as he walked in.

“Hey, Cy,” he said. “I was in the building and wanted to drop by.”

“Why’d you text Karson and not me?” Cyrus asked.  

“You always say no.”

“True. Anyways, what’s up?”

“We need one more person for our Halloween costume. It’s Full House. We need an Uncle Jesse. You in?”

“Yeah,” Cyrus grinned, “of course.”

-

“Damn,” his friend Bogie said. “That TJ foo fucked you up bad, huh?” All eight of them were sitting around a bonfire before Thanksgiving break. It had been a long night of confessions and telling each other things not a lot of other people knew. Somehow in the moment, Cyrus spent thirty minutes telling them the becoming and downfall of him and TJ. Rich had convinced him to go to therapy on campus early November, and Cyrus wished he had gone sooner. It was getting so much easier to be around his friends and have open conversations.

“Yeah,” Cyrus admitted. “I cried everyday for months. I still cry sometimes.”

“Is that why you spend forever in the bathroom?” Karson asked him. Cyrus nodded.

“Damn, Cy,” Roxana mumbled, “no wonder you were so distant at the beginning of the school year. I thought you were just stuck up, but I guess I was wrong. I’m glad you trust us now, though.”

“Me, too,” Cyrus said.

“So, this TJ,” Bogie asked, “what’s he up to?”

“Besides knowing that he plays basketball for Midwest State U, I have no idea. I haven’t talked to him since I last texted him after the breakup. I’m still good friends with his sister, but she never says anything.”

“Dang, so he’s a baller?” Bogie asked.

“Probably just getting fucked up at parties,” Mikhenna suggested. Cyrus didn’t respond. He just shrugged.

“Do you still love him?” Roxana asked him.

“I don’t think so,” Cyrus shook his head. “I’d be stupid to. But thanks for listening, guys. I feel a lot better. I feel like I belong and that I can finally move on.”

-

Cyrus didn’t see the point of flying all the way back home for a week long break, so he decided to stay behind in California and take a train to his aunt and uncle’s place. They had a daughter that thirteen and always had juicy middle school drama.

When he was laying down on the bed of the guest room, his phone started vibrating. Buffy was on Facetime, and he answered immediately saying, “Hey, Buff.”

“Hey, Cyrus,” Buffy grinned widely before switching the camera, “look who’s with me!”

Andi waved at the camera, “Hey, Cyrus!”

“Andi,” Cyrus grinned. “How are you? We haven’t talked in like four days.”

“I know right,” Andi laughed. “I’m fine. What about you?”

“I’m good, I’m good,” he said before registering completely that Andi was in Shadyside. “Wait,” he paused, “aren’t you supposed to be in Pennsylvania?”

“Yeah but a professor died, so they gave us two weeks off instead of three days and just postponed winter break.”

“Oh, I’m sorry.”

“I have no idea who he is,” Andi shrugged. “But where are you?”

“With my dad’s sister and her family. I’m just chilling and eating home made food before I go back,” Cyrus smiled. Andi moved over to sit next to Buffy and Cyrus noted that they were at the Mack’s place.

“So enough of that,” Buffy said and then looked at Andi who gave her a stern look. “Come on, let me tell him.”

“Well now you have to tell him,” Andi rolled his eyes.

“That’s very true,” Cyrus agreed.

“I know,” Buffy smirked. “That’s why I said that. Anyways,” she looked right at the camera, “we went to the mall with Amber in her car, but it broke down in the parking lot when we were leaving. She had to call TJ to come pick us up, which was already awkward enough because I always ignore him at school, but I was like whatever, it’s a twenty minute drive. Then in the car, literally, this man, I mean, boy, can ask any question. Any question in the world. Preferably, one directed at his sister, like you know, has your car been acting funky for a while? But he asks me and Andi, ‘How is Cyrus doing?’” Cyrus’ heart dropped. He hasn’t heard anything about TJ in so long he’s forgotten how to react.

“What did you say?” Cyrus asked nervously.

“I said that I charge $50 per fact,” Buffy said, “and he didn’t say anything else.”

“That’s weird,” Cyrus frowned. “I wonder why he doesn’t just ask Amber. I literally call her once a week, every Tuesday.”

“No idea,” Buffy said. “But maybe she just doesn’t answer him for the same reasons I didn’t.”

“Which are?”

“We love you.”

-

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[i-see-you-now-you-see-me]

A/N: I am on my holiday guys, but here is another part, so hopefully I will manage to give you another part in the upcoming week

Pairing: BTS Park Jimin x Reader

Description: Fortunes of a girl in the Fae land, the saga continues, the beginning is the sneak peak I posted last time, Jimin is not our mochi in here, so beware

Warnings: “Spiked” drinks and food, so let’s call it drug usage :D, yandere themes/ tendencies, smutty bit in this chapter (Jimin is thinking dirty thoughts), nothing too descriptive (includes a bit of oral, impregnation kink (is that a thing??), but 16+ would be advised

Word count: 1344 (idk but every chapter is nearly the same, but it’s enough, I don’t want to make them too long in case it gets boring)

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PART 10

You stood up on your, now wobbly legs, walked towards him and sat on his lap, his hands connecting to your waist straight away. You leaned in, your hand caressing his face. A finger traced his plump lips, and you let it pass his lips, till his tongue was lapping on it.

You licked your lips in anticipation.

-Kiss me, - he said one more time.

Your mind was being clouded, but a small part of you didn’t want this. The feeling was making you sick.

-What are you doing to me, - you whispered, a tear forming in the corner of your eyes.

-Shh, - his finger shushed your lips, - give into it, don’t be shy, kiss me, it’s ok…

Jimin was surprised that you still had some control left in your body, so it meant, all the spells don’t work on humans a hundred percent, but maybe ninety.

-I don’t want to, - the tear slipped past your eyes down your cheek. Jimin was pulling you closer, but you were struggling to get away, the last bit of your sanity helping you on the way. – STOP!!!

You shouted and got up straight away. Jimin was up within seconds.

-I think I should go, - you whispered and walked away.

-Don’t defy me, - Jimin said before you walked off, - I will be back to collect my goodnight kiss.

You felt like you’ve never been so fast in your entire life. The run towards your room felt like a run after a million, and you were out of breath when you got there.

Breathing in slowly, in and out, tears streaming down your face, nearly on your knees again. This time, your back against the doors, your body sliding down, till you sat down. You felt the power.

His power.

He used magic to spike your food. He wanted you to give in. Give in to what exactly? He wanted you to kiss him against your will.

What is the point to this?

Jimin smirked.

He was satisfied- ish.

There was still a mile to walk, but the magic did its deed. It might not work completely as planned, but it did what it was designed for. He took the spell book again. He was sure, he won’t be needing it soon, since there are only two more gifts of his to give you, and you will eat Fae land food anyway, you will stay here.

-How to make someone fall in love with you, - Jimin chuckled. He closed his eyes and pictured you half naked, your eyes looking up at him.

His kiss so passionate, leaving you breathless, his body between your legs. His hands touching the soft skin of your thighs. Higher and higher, till a finger slipped past your underwear. He knows how your wet folds feels on his fingertips, he knows how you smell. Your arousal inviting. He would tease you with his fingers. Up and down your pussy lips, making you shy away and blush.

He would then go down, kissing your body all the way, the tops of your breasts, sink his tongue in your navel, go slower and lower, till he reached the softest skin on your body.

The way you would taste. He got a glimpse of that already, and he couldn’t wait till he would feel that taste on his tongue again. Mhm. The way you would squirm away from him. What a sight.

A knock interrupted his dirty thoughts.

-Come in, - Jimin said and the doors opened, revealing smiling Dacia. – What is it?

-Sir, I would like to help you, - Dacia said.

-In what way, may I ask?

-Any, sir, I know you wish to trap poor Y/N in this kingdom, - she smiled even more, seeing that her Master enjoys what she is talking about. – Anything you want I will do.

-Excellent.

Dacia sat down by his feet as they talked.

-I want you to get Y/N in trouble.

Dacia looked at Jimin.

-Let’s say, if I want her for breakfast at 9 in the morning, you make sure she is late, - Jimin leaned closer to whisper in her ear, - so I can punish her.

Dacia wanted you to suffer. If she would have seen what was going to happen to her and her sisters, they would never have tampered with the magical forces and Park Jimin, they should’ve left it all as it was. Park Jimin was now the most powerful creature of all Fae lands, all their magic belonging to him.

-I will do that, Master, - Dacia bowed, - what else would you like?

-Tell me, what do you know about pregnancy with humans? Is there anything particular, that I need to know before I breed her?

-Human woman seem to have less issues with growing babies in their bodies, especially if the baby is Fae. Fae man seed fertilize faster in their wombs then our own. I think Y/N looks healthy to have children, and I would assume she would be pleased to have you breed her.

Jimin’s eyes sparkled. He could even imagine releasing himself inside of your body, for the first time on your wedding night, filling you up to the brim, the way his thickness would leak down your thighs, mixed with your juices, made his mouth water. He was old-school that was for sure, and as tempting it was for him to have you, he swore that he would do everything like it is supposed to be in the name of Fae’s.

You washed your face and looked in the mirror. You looked tired and scared. He had broken you already, but you didn’t want to admit it yet. The idea of getting home was simply ripped from your mind, and you thought there was no hope left.

Jimin had trapped everyone that could help you.

Yet he said he would answer your questions, but at the same time he wanted to trick you… the doors of the room opened and Prince Jimin walked in.

-I am here for my kiss, - he walked closer. You turned around only to be greeted by his smile, and to see how his fingers pointed to his lips. – right here.

You took the last bit of your courage and went for it. Your lips touched his in a simple method of a peck, and then you walked to the door, holding one side with your hands, mentioning to the hall.

-Good night, you have your kiss, now you can leave, - you stated, not even looking at him. Jimin bowed to you and walked out.

-I will see you for breakfast tomorrow, if you don’t show up, I will have you beaten, and we don’t want that, do we?

With that he was gone.

What a lovely way to say good night, you thought to yourself, asshat.

You got yourself comfy in the bed and closed your eyes. You saw yourself sitting on his lap, that seductive feeling in your system, the way he said to give in. You opened your eyes and sat up.

-Argghrhhrhr!!! – you shouted, - just leave me alone, dude!

You tried again, again the first thing to show up in front of you was Jimin’s face, and then you thought back of “your” Park Jimin from BTS, the sweet guy, that you last saw with tears in his eyes, being as surprised to witness another “him” in front of everyone, being so not like him. What would he be doing now?

What would all of them do now? Even the people that saw what happened?

There was no going back for everyone who saw what was going on…

What would your best friend would be doing now? Did she tell your mon/dad what had happened? Why are you the one here? What exactly happened all those years ago that made Park Jimin hate you so?

And if there is no hope left, what if you end up loving the dark Fae prince, what would it take for him to love you back, and how much time would it take for you to soften his heart for you?

Another chapter is over, how do you like it so far? I love when you reblog and/ or write me messages, thank you for reading!

[randomfandomsbro]

Prompt: Imagine Person A having to pick up a drunk Person B from the bar, when they’re already in their pj’s, and Person B not being able to keep their hands to their self the whole way home (Glaz/Kapkan) (requested)

Idk what kind of vehicle Kapkan would have to I hope you don't mind him driving a nondescript black car XD -----------------------------

Kapkan growled slightly as his phone woke him late into the night, seeing he missed a call from Tachanka.

"Eh?..What the hell does he want this late in the night?", the Russian groaned softly before sitting up and rubbing his eyes. With a soft sigh he unlocked his phone and called back.

"Мудак (asshole), what do you want Alexsandr? I was sleeping!", Kapkan growled. His patience, which was normally plentiful, now thin as he felt exhaustion creep up.

"Well good morning, sleeping beauty, I have called to inform you that your lover is drunk and we think you need to take him back to base.", Tachanka didn't mind the bite to Kapkan's voice, knowing he woke the man.

"Drunk?? At the bar?? But Glaz never goes out, he's never one for the crowds of people!", Kapkan spoke with slight shock, but quickly shook it off. He knew that Glaz would get more bold the more he drank.

"Yes, drunk, please come get him. Goodbye.", Tachanka hung up without another word, no doubt busy getting into drinking competitions with other operators.

Kapkan growled and stuffed his phone into his pajama bottoms pocket, taking a second to think if he should change or not. He decided not to and charged out the door with his keys in hand, scrambling tiredly to get into his little black car. Once he was buckled in and the car was on, it was only a short drive to the bar that was down the road, thankfully somewhat close to base. The Russian parked up front and slammed the door a little too hard upon his exiting the vehicle. He trudged up the door and almost ripped it off the hinges, but it being completely metal prevented that as he entered the bar. Everyone went quiet and stared at him.

He didn't blame them, he probably looked more pissed off than usual, and he had dark bags under his eyes. To top it off, he was wearing his pajamas because he couldn't be bothered to change. He stood there in plaid pajama pants, an old tan-top that had outlived its usueful days for training, and slippers. After a few seconds of horribly uncomfrotable silence, Tachanka walked up to him with a smile that made him sick.

"Maxim! It took you long enough, friend..Your lover waits for you in the far corner, we tried to keep him in one spot but he likes to move..", Tachanka chuckled, shaking his head as he pointed to a dark corner with a dull light.

"Yes, yes, thank you, go away.", he waved tachanka away with his hand, walking over to the bar with a sigh.

"What can I get you?",asked an old-looking man with glasses as he peered at the Russian, the look felt judgemental but Kapkan shrugged it off.

"A glass of water for my idiot in the corner.",he pointed behind him and waited as the gentleman gave him a glass full of water.

Taking careful steps, Kapkan walked over and set the glass down on the table in front of a clearly drunk Glaz, who barely looked at him when he sat down across from him. Kapkan sighed again and leaned forward, flicking Glaz's head, making him sit up with a slight scowl.

"What do you want?", Glaz spoke roughly, eyeing the water that was clearly meant for him.

"Drink.", Kapkan ordered as he returned the scowl.

"What if I don't want to?", the younger man shot back, clearly not taking the order so well.

"I will make you.", Kapkan growled softly, hoping people didn't look their way.

"No you won't..", Glaz said softly, pushing the glass away as he turned to look at the wall.

"I could be sleeping right now if Alexsandr hadn't called me to tell me you were here and drunk!", Kapkan growled just a bit louder, grabbing the collar of Glaz's coat to pull him face-to-face.

Glaz's breath hitched in his throat, his eyes wide. They hadn't been this close in some time, it felt strange. Kapkan could smell the whiskey and vodka on Glaz's breath, it was a strange smell that he wasn't used to Glaz having on him.

"You reek of alcohol..Come on, let's get out of here and get you back to base..", Kapkan let go of Glaz's collar and slid out of the booth, but grabbed Glaz's hand to drag him along.

He held Glaz close and helped him into the car, taking care to make sure he was okay. He may have been tired, but he wasn't a monster. Glaz smiled and laughed softly as Kapkan got into the driver's side and buckled in his own seatbelt.

"Why do you laugh?", Kapkan asked with a raised eyebrow, setting the car in reverse to get out of the parking lot.

"You..You are quite hot when you are tired and angry..", Glaz smirked slightly, leaning over to place a gentle kiss on Kapkan's neck.

"N-Nyet..Behave, Timur..I am driving..", Kapkan scolded softly, but his body gave him away as his skin heated up where Glaz placed the kisses and he tilted his head ever so slightly to make room for more.

"No..I will continue, just worry about driving..", Glaz chuckled as he placed more kisses.

Eventually one of his hands wandered to kapkan's thigh, scratching gently. He heard Kapkan whine softly, he sounded tired yet aroused, which prompted him to be slow and sweet, having no ill intentions.

"You do know I love you, yes?", Glaz whispered softly into Kapkan's ear, his lips brushing gently against his skin.

"Yes, Timur, I do know you love me..Why?", Kapkan eyed Glaz quizzically from his peripheral vision.

"It's just nice to know you remember.", the younger Russian gave a softly laugh and sat back in his seat rightly.

After a short drive, they made it back to base. Kapkan was dragging his feet in exhaustion as they reached their quarters. They both looked at one another quietly.

"Maxim, may I stay with you in your room?...", Glaz asked softly, a weary smile on his lips.

"Of course, Timur..You are always welcome to stay with me if you like, just don't wake me if you get drunk.", Kapkan gave a soft and tired laugh, opening his door for both of them.

Glaz stepped in and stripped down to nothing but his boxers, immediately diving into Kapkan's bed before the door was even closed. Kapkan just shook his head and kicked off his slippers, crawling in behind Glaz and under the covers. He happily pulled Glaz close to him, taking in the warmth he provided.

"Goodnight, Timur.", Kapkan yawned before falling silent, sleep had claimed him quickly.

"Ah, goodnight Maxim..Sweet dreams.", Glaz smiled warmly, closing his eyes as sleep soon took him too.

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Always room for improvement, I feel a little better about this one c:

If you see spelling errors, I’m sorry, I post these as soon as I’ve finished them and I’m usually too tired to care, however I usually fix the spelling errors after I’ve slept

[ask-svt-hearteu]

2 a.m. ` Xu Minghao

Anon requested: “ Scenario that starts w Minghao totally puppy-eyes-ing reader bc they're leader of the Anti Dab Squad ™ “

Genre: fluff

Word Count: 1654

A/N: i’m sorry if it’s not what you wanted because i didn’t really understand, but i hope you like it! 

you guys met through Seungkwan, kinda 

after a rough night of practice, all the members are too tired to even think about cooking at home 

cough Mingyu cough 

it’s past 12 am and they are starving 

so they head to their go to restaurant by their practice room 

“hi can i take your order?” you smile tiredly at the large group that just came in, 

barely recognizing their faces tbh 

“yeah can we get..” one guy starts listing their order, while you hurry to write it all 

“Y/n?? is that you??”  Seungkwan interrupts his hyung, staring at you with a hand over his mouth 

you start to focus as you squint 

“Seungkwan?” you exclaim 

you scan the rest of their faces, “and they must be your members!” 

“how have you been? why are you in Seoul?” 

you calm yourself and say amused, “I should take your order first, i’m sure your members are hungry Seungkwan” 

he reddens as the others laugh at your teasing tone

once you leave all the members turn to Seungkwan 

“who was that?” Minghao asks, being right next to him 

“ahhh, we pretty much grew up together she lived in my neighborhood” 

“I could barely recognize her she looks different” Seungkwan hums as an afterthought 

“i’m sure you do too” Minghao says making everyone burst into laughter

the rest of the night goes pretty smoothly

even when Seungkwan calls you over to sit down, saying you MUST meet the members 

you and Seungkwan are laughing together exchanging phone numbers, promising to keep in touch from now on 

Minghao didn’t think much of you other than you were Seungkwan’s cute friend, 

nothing else 

but one night, he leaves the practice room on a break 

just wanting to go take a walk, to relax his mind 

it’s probably like two am when he sees two figures across the street 

at first he just looks away, thinking its probably a couple wanting to relax like him 

“SIR! You need to go home, look I’ll call you a taxi” 

he immediately notices the way the tone reflects fear, despite how strong it comes off

taking quick, long strides he does the first thing at comes to mind 

“babeee, you wanna see something cool?” 

he has his arm thrown around the girl’s shoulder, and looks down to make eye contact 

and it only takes a few moments for you both to recognize each other 

your mouth opens in shock, but you keep your composure realizing what he was trying to do

Minghao turns and glares at the man, who he realizes is drunk 

“why are you talking to my girl”  

this fluttering feeling you felt was totally not appropriate for the situation 

his arm tightens around your shoulder protectively 

the man stumbles a bit, but even his drunk mind is able to simply mumble a few words and walk away

heart still racing, you turn to him 

“Minghao right?” 

“yeah, and Y/n?” he takes his arm off your shoulder

it was nice while it lasted 

“well thank you Minghao” 

“you welcome,” he cracks a smile, “though you could’ve just ran away, or slapped the dude” 

you huff, “well you didn’t have to come pretend to be a boyfriend either” 

so maybe he’s a bit of a romanticist 

he shrugs and says 

“where are you going? i’ll walk you”

“please i’m sure you have things to do, i’ll be fine” you shake your head at him, walking ahead 

he follows you

“well what kind of a man would I be, i definitely can’t, especially since you’re Seungkwan’s friend” 

you gasp, eyes widening, “do NOT tell Kwannie, you know he’s a worry wart!!” 

“i won’t,” he laughs, “why are you even out this late?” 

“work,” you raise an eyebrow, “who else is going to feed people like you who eat past 12 am” 

he laughs again nodding 

and you can’t help but feel surprised at how comfortable the two of you guys are 

“so what was that cool thing you wanted to show me?” 

“ummm myself?” 

and he actually dabs 

dabs

“oh gosh nooo” you scrunch up your nose in disgust

“you have a problem with dabbing?” 

“it’s stupid” you deadpan 

“i guess we can’t be friends then” he shakes his head disappointingly 

you’re about to retort but Minghao gets a call

you wait by him as he answers, rocking back and forth on your heels 

“where are you we need to finish” Minghao looks at you 

“right now?” he answers Soonyoung

“yeah” 

“okay” he answers reluctantly, i’ll be there soon” 

you stand patiently, already understanding the call

“see, you do have things to do” 

you smile, already making the motion to wave goodbye and walk away 

but

“let me give you my number”

he stares into your eyes confidently, somehow making you automatically hand him your phone

“wait why?” 

there’s unwanted butterflies in your stomach

“text me when you get home, so I know you’re safe”

with one last smile, he turns around, going back

as you walk back, you can’t help your heart that’s beating so rapidly

when you get home you text him right away

to your surprise he responds quickly, with a short ‘i’m glad’ 

the typing bubble pops up

‘but idk if we can keep talking if you dislike dabbing’ 

so here starts the back and forth playful arguments

past that though, the friendship you have with Minghao is...

probably way to affectionate to be considered a normal friendship

he never fails to ask about how your day is going 

while you ask about him about his

you tease him to try to pull some spoilers out of him 

cue him sending you a bunch of selfies of him dabbing in return 

he texts you goodnight,,

and you stare at your phone nervously as you type out your response 

you squeal, immediately go to delete, 

internally calling yourself crazy 

except you press SEND 

after realizing what you did you fling yourself headfirst into your pillow 

because you did not just text Xu Minghao goodnight 

WITH A HEART

no no no you’re absolutely dying of embarrassment 

you phone pings, and you over dramatically pick it up

your grip tightens on your phone as your eyes stare at the notification

he sent a heart back 

oh my god 

you didn’t know that he was grinning widely laying his head down on his pillow 

clutching the phone closer to him, he lets out a sigh 

yes imagine soft minghao tears

thughao is totally losing his street cred for being an absolutely softy for you 

“GUYS MINGHAO IS TEXTING Y/N” 

Mingyu yells, his voice echoing in the dorm 

“SHUT UP YOU PUNK”

Minghao yells at him, glaring intensely 

yeah he’d probably regret exposing Minghao later but all the members rushing into their room, was just too funny 

see, Minghao’s not really the type to keep secrets from his members 

especially ones about a girl he really liked 

and they approved, but the problem with telling Seventeen.. 

THE ENDLESS TEASING 

Junhui jumps on his fellow member laughing brightly 

“well aren’t you going to ask her out” 

“oof” 

ignoring the question, Minghao pushes him off 

“okay i’m going for a walk” 

he grabs his cap and mask, heading out 

“AND ASK HER OUT WHILE YOU’RE AT IT” 

Seungkwan’s voice is the last thing he hears before closing the door 

okay and actually that didn’t seem like a bad idea to him? 

oh besides the fact it was literally the middle of the night 

sitting down, in front of that oh so familiar road

he takes a chance

looking at your contact, he types 

‘are you awake’ 

he doesn’t have to wait long as you text back a minute later 

‘yeah’ 

‘you should be sleeping’ 

‘says the person who texted me’ 

he cracks a smile 

‘are you busy right now’ 

‘no what could i actually even be doing at this time of night’ 

‘meeting me at our bench?’ 

it scares you, 

how you know exactly that bench he’s talking about 

and how he refered to it has ‘our bench’ 

but you text him an ‘okay’ 

walking up to him, sitting yourself only an inch apart from him 

he still remains silent 

so you do too 

a minute goes by

that felt like an hour of you listening to the soft sound of him breathing 

he speaks, “so why were you awake?” 

how smooth of him 

swinging you legs back and forth, you answer airily

“college and all that you know” 

he hums at your generic answer 

“i couldn’t sleep, without asking you one thing” 

you turn to look at him

he’s staring directly at you 

“ask away” 

“will you go out with me?” 

you cheeks turn rosy as you let out a surprised sound

“i-i, yes” 

he laughs

it’s a soft, happy sound 

you immediately start to smile

the smile on his face is very contagious 

you punch his chest lightly, 

“and you had to ask this at two am?” 

“i actually think 2 am is a pretty good time” he jokes

you shove his leg playfully 

“yeah just as good as all the stupid dabs you do” 

he leans in, scrunching his nose at you

face just inches away from yours 

“you said you’d go out with me, meaning you’re going out with my dabs too” 

pushing him away, regrettably, you stand up crossing your arms 

“excuse you i don’t remember agreeing to that” 

he stands up too

and grabs your hands

gently pulling them down to your side, never letting go 

“we’re a package deal y/n” 

something about the way he says your name makes you melt 

then he grins mischievously 

with his hand still in yours, he brings your arm up 

and makes you dab 

you gape at him in disbelief, completely frozen like ice 

“there i’m satisfied” he nods smiling

pressing his lips to your cheek 

and suddenly you’re melting again 

i apologize for the mess that this is AALDKSLDSDFJ

MASTERLIST 

[stupidslutsstuff]

Social anxiety/Compassion exhaustion and Me

I'm trying hard to combat this shit, and i need to get this out

its might just be my social anxiety and me being afraid of being without friends but i feel like everyday I say some stupid shit and then I lie in bed EVERY NIGHT and analyze everything I said and WHOOOOOOO this shit is just exhausting!!!!!. Idk if this is depression or what but I can't even write anymore, can't enjoy shit anymore without thinking about how I act a round people and censoring my speech but also exaggerating things. I curse way too much and I'm trying to stop*. I can't concentrate, all I do is smoke weed, eat junk food and sleep to wake up early, act like a goofball with my coworkers**, work late and start all over again. I was also maybe too honest about something and they looked at me funny style? (That could be my imagination) And THEN sometimes I think about getting a man***... That maybe if I had someone to bond with and talk to at the end of the day that I would feel better, and wouldn't bottle up so much emotion. My self esteem then whips around and fucks with me, nitpicking at me although I know that some people focus on more than sex and how you look nekked. I know I'm not ugly, I like my face with and without make up, my skin just isn't being taken care of because mentally I feel like shit. I know it's my body that's keeping me back and making me self conscious****, which I could get together if I ate right and exercised more. Buuuuuuuut, I don't have a car nor the money to keep up with a gym member ship. Ive got some shit to pay off and then I have student loans hounding me already. Anyway I'm fucking tired of this shit. Goodnight

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* blame my p's for this one, but I am my own person so I need you fix it myself

** (which def got me a side eye from h.h)

*** which I regret as soon as I hear the crazy shit, and I don't do hookups / I'm also so fucking tired of masturbating although weed makes me really horny so 🥴

**** this shit ain't new, been fighting with body image issues, but Im trying to love the skin I'm in NOW, so I can feel even better later.

[howtogettheshyguy]

Cece here, we had a convo about what we were wearing for prom etc, and my friend told me to ask him if he got a date, in case I get sad on the night when I see him with a girl. So I did, and he said he actually did ask someone, and I asked if I could knkw who, and he said the name. Idk how to respond.

Cece here, do I said "actuals? Can I know who?" He said "yeah (girls name) (spelt wrong lol) and I said "did she say yes to you? He said "yeah" and ive left him on seen. I wasnt sure if it was a good or bad thing to play it off, so I didn't say much so make it feel like I was sad about, cause it would give it away. Should I move onto another topic, hint him about talking to me at prom, bc before he said we could hangout if, but didn't mention what would happen if he did get a date.

Cece here again lol, so he actually messaged me with a question mark, and I sent one back, and he asked why I left him on seen, I said idk how to respond, and said "well done?" and said hahah okay thanks, I then said "am I suppose to be angry?" (my sg friend said I ruined it with that, I kinda did tbh don't u think?) then I said dont worry fam, and he was just a bit, idk defensive? or passive aggressive? idk thru text but he was saying how I was excited and all an hour ago, and now im not. part1

part 2 I said I was tired, but lowkey excited, which was tru, except I was kinda sad. He said "go to sleep then" but idk if that was as an imperative or a caring gesture. I'm kinda sure he thinks I like him, my sg friend said that he cares about my reaction, as he asked me why I left him on seen, or was he just bragging about getting a date and wanting my response? He was quite strong about why I wasn't excited like an hour ago - because he told me who he's gonna take, then I diverted the convo

part3 onto how I stayed up really late doing my homework due today (why im tired) and how the teacher didn't check it, and extended the deadline (smallll as rant to him) he sent like 4 messages consecutively responding about how it was unlucky and suck, and ended it with its alg, im going to bed now goodnight. Oh man idk what to do, I'm pretty sure he knows I like him, but I think I shouldn't hang onto this topic right?

Aww, I’m sorry this is happening...  There were no signs. He always acted nice and open towards you. I guess he was being friendly. Maybe he is intimidated by you and less by the other girl, so he was able to ask her. But this could very well be that he likes you only as a friend. You should try to downplay the whole “should I be mad” thing and not even mention it anymore. Try to be friendly, do your thing, let him go to the prom with that girl. If he is shy and awkward, chances are nothing will come of it and he may be single immediately after. So don’t worry too much about losing him forever. Instead concentrate on remaining on his good side. Be nice, cool and friendly. Observe where is life is heading and be ready to move back in if you get an opportunity. Of course it could also not go that way so also take care of yourself. Even look for other guys. Do your thing, be happy, don’t put all your efforts only on him. It’s going to be difficult but the best thing would be to be cool...  :-(

[tsumikoz]

twitter isn’t letting me post so Hi

[justintimbershit]

1-50

1: What would you name your future daughter?that’s a really good question. I don’t know if i want to have my own daughter like if i adopt a child they’re going to keep whatever name they already have so idk. depends if i have children. but if i do probably alex? or brooke? idk man 2: Do you miss anyone?yes :( i miss them a lot3: What if I told you that you were pretty?THANKS PAL 4: Ever been told “it’s not you, it’s me”?um not that i recall? this usually requires being in a relationship which is unrelatable so 5: What are you looking forward to in the next week?john mayer releasing new music friday:))))) and im supposed to hang out with julia tomorrow night!!! 6: Did you go out or stay in last night?i stayed in. unless u call chillin w my mom at work ‘going out’ 7: How late did you stay up last night?like midnightish i think i dont recall exactly 8: Honestly, has anyone seen you in your underwear in the past 3 months?lmao yes o o p s s 9: What were you doing at 12:30 this afternoon?i think i was eating pancakes maybe or drawing a unicorn 10: Have you ever told somebody you loved them and not actually meant it?no. i do not believe so i am a nice person11: Could you go for the rest of your life without drinking alcohol?probably. i never really drink so 12: Have you pretended to like someone?yes. gotta pick ur battles sometimes. 13: Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette?holy fuck yes cigarettes are GROSS 14: Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile?yes:))))))))15: Is it hard for you to get over someone?so hard lmao:( 16: Think back five months ago, were you single?yes always17: Have you ever cried from being so mad?i do believe so. i get mad easily so i dont doubt it18: Hold hands with anyone this week?yes i have 19: Did your last kiss take place in/on a bed?i dont think so. ya know idk it was so long ago but im pretty certain it wasnt 20: Who did you last see in person?my mother when i said goodnight 21: What is the last thing you said out lot?“i give up” to jennifer bc my phone keeps fucking falling 22: Have you kissed three or more people in one night?no. i still havent kissed 3 ppl in my entire life23: Have you ever been to Paris?no. i fucking wish. a fucking dream. 24: Are you good at hiding your feelings?fuck no i suck at it. im one of those ppl who shows feelings n then pretends like they dont exist when asked about them then ppl get mad. also im just rlly easy to read. 25: Do you use chap stick?indeed. 26: Who did you last share a bed with?ummm this is an excellent question. i think julia. probably. or. i dont even know.27: Are you listening to music right now?nope28: What is something you currently want right now?SOMEONE TO CUDDLE WITH. also a slurpee 29: Were your last three kisses from the same person?yes. disgusting. 30: How is your heart lately?EH it could be better but it could possibly be in the best condition it has been in a while. its confusing 31: Do you wear the hood on your hoodie?nah. never. unless i just put it on and im going to sleep or staying in the house 32: When was the last time a member of the opposite sex hugged you?friday. i love eddie. 33: What do people call you?julie. or jules. or lombardi. or mary bc they dont have brains. 34: Have you ever wanted to tell someone something but didn’t?yes always bc i am chicken 35: Are there any stressful situations in your life?yes, as always. but i kinda tend to pretend they dont exist while also letting them ruin my life36: What are you listening to right now?jennifer talk about florida 37: What is wrong with you right now?im fucking tired 38: Love really is a beautiful thing huh?dude idk my heart fuckin HURTS 39: Do you make wishes at 11:11?i dont usually anymore:/40: What is on your wrists right now?nothing 41: Are you single/taken/heartbroken/confused/waiting for the unexpected?single and heartbroken 42: Where did you get the shirt/sweatshirt you’re wearing?a college sent it to me. i asked for a medium and they gave me an extra large43: Have you ever regretted kissing someone?in the moment no but looking back yes i have probably regretted every kiss 44: Have you hugged someone within the last week?i have indeed 45: Have you kissed anyone in the last five days?i have not. tragic. 46: What were you doing at midnight last night?either sleeping or almost sleeping 47: Do you miss the way things were six months ago?id say fuck no but that sounds definite and im not even exactly sure what was happening in my life 6 months ago but life is decent right now i guess so i guess ill just stick with it if i dont know what im exchanging it for 48: Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone?i wanna cuddle so prob w someone else 49: Have you ever been to New York?no:( i rlly wanna go it kills me50: Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?i really truly hope so

[argonapricot]

all of them

ALEX THERE ARE TWO HUNDRED OF THESE PLS

200: My crush’s name is: Nupur199: I was born in: is this asking for time or place198: I am really: too tired to be dealing with this rn197: My cellphone company is: verizon I think196: My eye color is: brown. like 20% hazel-ish if you squint195: My shoe size is: 9 1/2194: My ring size is: uh193: My height is: 5′5″192: I am allergic to: capital pi191: My 1st car was: lol190: My 1st job was: working as a Hebrew teacher? That is. Still my job.189: Last book you read: Invisible Man for school, Adaptation by Melinda Lo outside of it, and I’m currently working on a book written about Tolkien.188: My bed is: A CASTLE IT’S THE BEST BED OKAY187: My pet: Sasha and Maya, the bestest cats186: My best friend: “””””””””””””””””you”””””””””””””””””” that’s a lie it really is you

185: My favorite shampoo is: I use Pantene but like. I don’t really think of shampoo in terms of favorites?184: Xbox or ps3: what are those183: Piggy banks are: c u t e182: In my pockets: money, quarters, this one teabag that I keep forgetting to do anything with, and occasionally small wrappers.181: On my calendar: your birthday!180: Marriage is: classy179: Spongebob can: sponge the bobs but can he rob the mobs?178: My mom: a great and good and amazing mom177: The last three songs I bought were? Three individual movements of Johan de Meij’s Lord of the Rings symphony176: Last YouTube video watched:175: How many cousins do you have? 4174: Do you have any siblings? 1173: Are your parents divorced? nope172: Are you taller than your mom? yup171: Do you play an instrument? DO I EVER170: What did you do yesterday? sure as heck not any calculus homework[ I Believe In ]169: Love at first sight: I thought I did, until yesterday 3168: Luck: Yeah?167: Fate: I mean idk166: Yourself: “””””””””””””””””””””””””””””””””sure””””””””””””””””””””””165: Aliens: I believe in the possibility, I’ve never pretended to know!164: Heaven: I wish I did more than I do163: Hell: nah162: God: *waves my hands in a squiggly agnostic way* not in like a biblical sense but in a unifying connect-y energy in everything idk161: Horoscopes: I mean I believe in them as concepts like. They exist. That’s a thing. I don’t buy into them but I like them all the same.160: Soul mates: 159: Ghosts: nnnnnah158: Gay Marriage: HELL YEAH157: War: not in so many words156: Orbs: what155: Magic: the elf sitting in my computer says yes[ This or That ]154: Hugs or Kisses: hugs153: Drunk or High: drugs are bad152: Phone or Online: Are these mutually exclusive? Online151: Red heads or Black haired: BOTH I mean red heads bc maedhros but I find both very attractive150: Blondes or Brunettes: brunettes all the way149: Hot or cold: how cot or how cold?148: Summer or winter: mmmeh147: Autumn or Spring: autumn!146: Chocolate or vanilla: vanilla!145: Night or Day: night as a concept, day as a time when I’m awake144: Oranges or Apples: apples. unless we’re talking clementines or mandarins here in which case...143: Curly or Straight hair: shrug?142: McDonalds or Burger King: I only eat organic kale cubes141: White Chocolate or Milk Chocolate: dark chocolate what sort of a rigged survey is this (but okay I like all chocolates they are all good and great)

140: Mac or PC: ...............mac139: Flip flops or high heals: neither gross sneakers are good138: Ugly and rich OR sweet and poor: I love how it’s not even pretty and poor but “sweet”, like what kind of asshole would say ugly and rich and have that be an official statement that they make.137: Coke or Pepsi: I don’t like fizzy drinks136: Hillary or Obama: I’m going to cry135: Burried or cremated: planted into a tree134: Singing or Dancing: BOTH133: Coach or Chanel: what does this mean132: Kat McPhee or Taylor Hicks: who are these people131: Small town or Big city: Once upon a time I would’ve said small town, but these past two years I’ve really come into my own as a citygirl.130: Wal-Mart or Target: target ofc129: Ben Stiller or Adam Sandler: uh128: Manicure or Pedicure: I don’t have nails127: East Coast or West Coast: I mean I feel like I kind of have to say east126: Your Birthday or Christmas: my birthday lol christmas is. not a thing. that I celebrate.125: Chocolate or Flowers: I’ve always thought flowers were the cutest, but I’ve also always wanted chocolate the most124: Disney or Six Flags: Disney I guess? I’ve been to neither123: Yankees or Red Sox: what are sports[ Here’s What I Think About ]122: War: really really fucked up and unfortunate121: George Bush: which george bush120: Gay Marriage: I don’t have specific thoughts on this it’s just a thing that should be a thing that I want to be a thing119: The presidential election: let’s not118: Abortion: I think I would have a hard time getting one personally, but I would never presume to speak for everyone.117: MySpace: sure is a website116: Reality TV: oh you mean the sitcomarillion?115: Parents: parents in general? Or my parents? My parents are the best most understanding loving parents and I’m really lucky to have them114: Back stabbers: “””””pals””””””113: Ebay: a party112: Facebook: I sure don’t use that consistently. I only really made my account to check in with my mom’s account.111: Work: should be FUN AND LIFE ENRICHING WOA110: My Neighbors: a okay109: Gas Prices: priced108: Designer Clothes: designed107: College: HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAH LETS NOT106: Sports: ew105: My family: I LOVE MY FAMILY104: The future: L E T S  N O T[ Last time I ]103: Hugged someone: I just hugged Benjamin goodnight a moment ago102: Last time you ate: I had eggs for dinner101: Saw someone I haven’t seen in awhile:100: Cried in front of someone: the real question is when is the last time I DIDNT cry in front of someone?99: Went to a movie theater: To see Hidden Figures the day after it came out!!98: Took a vacation: for a given value of “taken”...97: Swam in a pool: I honestly can’t remember96: Changed a diaper: Have I ever changed a diaper?95: Got my nails done: That one and only time at Lena’s birthday party where Elizabeth made me even though I didn’t want to.94: Went to a wedding: I can’t remember right now I’m too tired93: Broke a bone: 7th grade. Clarissa was there.92: Got a peircing: I got my ears pierced in fifth grade?91: Broke the law: I stole a firetruck to go to starbux90: Texted: 500 years ago in Vampire Scotland[ MISC ]89: Who makes you laugh the most: u88: Something I will really miss when I leave home is: I can’t think about this or I will cry87: The last movie I saw: Hidden Figures86: The thing that I’m looking forward to the most: going to Starbucks85: The thing im not looking forward to: calculus examinations84: People call me: Buttermay83: The most difficult thing to do is: answer all these questions in one go82: I have gotten a speeding ticket: what’s driving81: My zodiac sign is: capricorn!80: The first person i talked to today was: My cat?79: First time you had a crush: You already know this leave me alone78: The one person who i can’t hide things from: sometimes you and sometimes Benjamin but mostly JRR Tolkien77: Last time someone said something you were thinking: that time you said “I want an oreo” in class today76: Right now I am talking to: my own exhaustion75: What are you going to do when you grow up: gay marry74: I have/will get a job: what is this even asking73: Tomorrow: Thursday72: Today: Wednesday71: Next Summer: pre-college screaming70: Next Weekend: pre your birthday excitement!69: I have these pets: Sasha and Maya, the bestest cats68: The worst sound in the world: Dr. Propst67: The person that makes me cry the most is: Uzuki Kakinuma66: People that make you happy: lots of people, you know the people65: Last time I cried: :}64: My friends are: the actual absolute best friends in the world63: My computer is: trying its best62: My School: has a fire microwave GK GK WE ALL WE GOT61: My Car: what’s a car60: I lose all respect for people who: are in robotics59: The movie I cried at was: the singular movie???? who does this survey think I am?58: Your hair color is: dark brown!57: TV shows you watch: the Uzuki Files56: Favorite web site: mspadventures obviously55: Your dream vacation: to middle earth yes hello54: The worst pain I was ever in was: when I last gave birth to my uterus and almost died53: How do you like your steak cooked: medium rare?52: My room is: smallish, messish, comfy51: My favorite celebrity is: Yuna Kim50: Where would you like to be: in bed49: Do you want children: we’ve discussed this. I go back and forth48: Ever been in love: ye47: Who’s your best friend: this was literally already asked46: More guy friends or girl friends: what are guys45: One thing that makes you feel great is: not having to answer 200 questions in a row44: One person that you wish you could see right now: Uzuuuuuuuki43: Do you have a 5 year plan: nnnnnup42: Have you made a list of things to do before you die: we started one at least?41: Have you pre-named your children: HAVE I EVER40: Last person I got mad at: horst39: I would like to move to: bed38: I wish I was a professional: bed. I mean artist[ My Favorites ]37: Candy: Reeses36: Vehicle: bus35: President: Guiney34: State visited: California sounds so cliche but. I mean.33: Cellphone provider: idc32: Athlete: Yuna Kim31: Actor: *mumbleslumbles*30: Actress: too many to choose from help29: Singer: selena gomez obvious28: Band: selena gomez and the slene27: Clothing store: my mom’s closet26: Grocery store: Publix25: TV show: Galavant, Stranger Things, Community in the earlier seasons...24: Movie: I watched Boy Meets Girl lately and it was Fantastic23: Website: fernferction.dert.nert22: Animal: snow leopard21: Theme park: harry potter. world.20: Holiday: Tubishvat19: Sport to watch: ice skating18: Sport to play: night tennis17: Magazine: Elves Weekly16: Book: let’s not open this can of worms I need to go to bed15: Day of the week: tuesday14: Beach: all beaches are great13: Concert attended: Midori performing the Mendelssohn left a really lasting impression on me forever12: Thing to cook: eggs11: Food: eggs10: Restaurant: Tuk Tuk Thai Loft 9: Radio station: GPB OBVIOUSLY8: Yankee candle scent: wat7: Perfume: no6: Flower: azalea5: Color: jewel tones4: Talk show host: Stephen Colbert3: Comedian: andrew hussie2: Dog breed: cats1: Did you answer all these truthfully? of course

I hope this satisfies u u hellspawn

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100 q tag

no one wud read it but ima do it anyways cos fun tag by @dubblebubble

1: when you have cereal, do you have more milk than cereal or more cereal than milk? more cereal than milk cos i love tht crunchy crunch

2: do you like the feeling of cold air on your cheeks on a wintery day? LOVE

3: what random objects do you use to bookmark your books? receipts, pen lol

4: how do you take your coffee/tea? coffee=basic latte/hot tea, no sugar

5: are you self-conscious of your smile? sometimes, not too often tho

6: do you keep plants? no but i want to but ill be terrible at it so no

7: do you name your plants?

8: what artistic medium do you use to express your feelings? digital art

9: do you like singing/humming to yourself? yes very it keeps me sane

10: do you sleep on your back, side, or stomach? side/back, back esp nowadays

11: what’s an inner joke you have with your friends? lots lol

12: what’s your favorite planet? earth? hahahah it used to be jupiter cos i loved sailor jupiter as a child

13: what’s something that made you smile today? friend + nct + fics

14: if you were to live with your best friend in an old flat in a big city, what would it look like? two separate bedrooms, a balcony, good amount of plants, separate fridge for alcohol, sizeable kitchen

15: go google a weird space fact and tell us what it is! it rains diamonds in jupiter and saturn $$$$

16: what’s your favorite pasta dish? bolognese hahahaha im boring

17: what color do you really want to dye your hair? i just dyed my hair a darker ash brown n i quite like it ive been light for awhile

18: tell us about something dumb/funny you did that has since gone down in history between you and your friends and is always brought up. one came 2 mind cos we both recently talked ab it, a longtime close friend of mine n i used to have the biggest fight where he threw me a pair of scissors n i threw him a basketball in retaliation lmfaooo it still became a running joke more than a decade later...

19: do you keep a journal? what do you write/draw/ in it? not really...prolly shud

20: what’s your favorite eye color? i actually like brown hahah, maybe a slightly lighter shade of brown

21: talk about your favorite bag, the one that’s been to hell and back with you and that you love to pieces. it was a gift from my parents, a simple small messenger bag with a lot of slots, brought it with me literally everywhere, during my hookups, my night outs, been stained with questionable things (its been cleaned lol!).... almost lost it in a club only to be found by a friend... it has foundation stains tho lol

22: are you a morning person? n o

23: what’s your favorite thing to do on lazy days where you have 0 obligations? sleep, listen to music, watch stuff, not reply to messages

24: is there someone out there you would trust with every single one of your secrets? no

25: what’s the weirdest place you’ve ever broken into? nothing rly comes to mind but im p sure ive been somewhere like tht lol

26: what are the shoes you’ve had for forever and wear with every single outfit? LOL my adidas superstars

27: what’s your favorite bubblegum flavor? ermm the red colored ones?

28: sunrise or sunset? hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm very good question

29: what’s something really cute that one of your friends does and is totally endearing? hmm what comes to mind is the way both of us sometimes exchange goodnight msgs w nct farm emojis heheeh

30: think of it: have you ever been truly scared? lol ofc....

31: what is your opinion of socks? do you like wearing weird socks? do you sleep with socks? do you confine yourself to white sock hell? really, just talk about socks. unfortunately im rly basic on socks, u wud most likely find me wearing black ankle socks or black ballet(?) socks nothing more nothing less.......

32: tell us a story of something that happened to you after 3AM when you were with friends. a lot has happened usually during that time lol. duno which story to pick honestly hahahah. i think a memorable one might be when we were drinking n played games and we talked and talked and joked n nek min one by one we fell asleep in the same room hahah... im sure there are other stories tht might be more eventful but fr the life of me my memorys fuzzy rn lol

33: what’s your fave pastry? i love strawberry shortcakes! or mille crepes

34: tell us about the stuffed animal you kept as a kid. what is it called? what does it look like? do you still keep it? i kept a LOT hahah. prolly named a few, but nothing was too special. i think it rly reflected how i managed my relationships then, n evn yrs aftwds, like i ws always lonely n my instincts were to gain quantity cos deep down i cudnt trust ppl n cudnt get too committed lololol

35: do you like stationary and pretty pens and so on? do you use them often? i wish i was cos sometimes ppl wud make pretty colorful notes, but i usually just buy ones tht i wud use cos practicality.

36: which band’s sound would fit your mood right now? mmmmm is it cheating if i say nct cos they cover a range of genres lmao. but their ballads i guess yeah.

37: do you like keeping your room messy or clean? i mean i prefer to keep it clean, but its always really messy HAHAHA ;_;

38: tell us about your pet peeves! 1. someone rude 2. someone who doesnt know how to respect others’ boundaries 3. someone self-entitled n takes themselves 2 seriously

39: what color do you wear the most? black on black on black on black baby

40: think of a piece of jewelry you own: what’s it’s story? does it have any meaning to you? an evangelion ring, its the black (lilith) moon with lcl gem in it, to me i guess symbolizes my struggle with human relations, n how eva as an anime illustrated tht n the fantasy of having everyone’s consciousness merged into one--n the fact that lilith in itself (in astrology) signifies the darker side of a human being? i guess n the fact that evn if u acknowledge ur darker side u cud still use it to further urself

41: what’s the last book you remember really, really loving? hmmmm i guess last was a self help book, unfuck your boundaries, helped me support my need to strengthen my boundaries

42: do you have a favorite coffee shop? describe it! little rogue :) its in a small alleyway, a little quaint shop, easy to miss... small potted plants, with an amaaazing matcha latte

43: who was the last person you gazed at the stars with? siiigh a guy i was involved with lmfao i cut him off tho

44: when was the last time you remember feeling completely serene and at peace with everything? hmmmmm good question i guess lately ive been very thankful tht i could feel comfortable taking my own time and space, n accepting the positive energy others wn give 2 me. being single really, really does help evn tho id feel lonely sometimes, bc the only weight i carry is the weight of my own soul n i wn learn how to nourish that

45: do you trust your instincts a lot? very i think

46: tell us the worst pun you can think of. i have a lot HAHAHA if u were a friend of mine ud prolly get tired of them. a genuinely bad one wud be haha youre so punny lmfao

47: what food do you think should be banned from the universe? nothing rly lmao if theyre healthy n someone derives happiness frm it i wudnt want it to be banned

48: what was your biggest fear as a kid? is it the same today? probably not lol, i mean i think i retained similar fears since i ws a kid but now obviously my biggest fear(s) would be more...specific to me

49: do you like buying CDs and records? what was the last one you bought? its the digital age baby spotify ftw (in all srsness i wish i collected vinyls tho hh)

50: what’s an odd thing you collect? i used to collect ramune bottles lmaoooo

51: think of a person. what song do you associate with them? hmmmm nah lets not do this right now lol

52: what are your favorite memes of the year so far? LOL too many but i love shitpost quality memes tbh

53: have you ever watched the rocky horror picture show? heathers? beetlejuice? pulp fiction? what do you think of them? pulp fiction. i actually loved it, i think i still do, its entertainment value is kickass, havent taken the time to dissect it in any other way

54: who’s the last person you saw with a true look of sadness on their face? oh man i think it ws the dude i ws seeing lmao fk him

55: what’s the most dramatic thing you’ve ever done to prove a point? a lot, n most of them im not proud of, cos some involves self harm

56: what are some things you find endearing in people? kindness n genuineness, someone’s courage in being vulnerable

57: go listen to bohemian rhapsody. how did it make you feel? did you dramatically reenact the lyrics? dont feel like it rn but everytime i do 10/10 will dramatically reenact the lyrics right to the guitar riffs

58: who’s the wine mom and who’s the vodka aunt in your group of friends? why? im definitely the wine (aunt) lmfaooo im already one tbh 

59: what’s your favorite myth? Eros + Psyche, Icarus and the sun

60: do you like poetry? what are some of your faves? i love poetry hahah...cant think of any rn

61: what’s the stupidest gift you’ve ever given? the stupidest one you’ve ever received? id love any gift given 2 me as long as they wont harm me or anything lmao n i dont think ive evr given anything too stupid. well.. idk if this is stupid tho like i sent flowers thanking my ex for ‘helping me live’ well aft we’ve blocked each other off cos the end to the relo was js daaamn toxic lmao

62: do you drink juice in the morning? which kind? nope

63: are you fussy about your books and music? do you keep them meticulously organized or kinda leave them be? music i do spotify n im pretty particular ab organizing my playlists i guess. my books im alright with as long as theyre just stacked properly no problem

64: what color is the sky where you are right now? prolly rly dark blue cos its 12 am

65: is there anyone you haven’t seen in a long time who you’d love to hang out with? a lot tbh cos ive rly been focusing on stuff internally

66: what would your ideal flower crown look like? daisies, sunflowers, n baby breath here n there

67: how do gloomy days where the sky is dark and the world is misty make you feel? somber i guess maybe a tad bit nostalgic?

68: what’s winter like where you live? heeella cold not cos of the temperature itself but the winds thooo, if it drizzles evn in the slightest it feels like needles piercing through ur bones literally

69: what are your favorite board games? i like the game of life, ummm cards against humanity?

70: have you ever used a ouija board? no n never will lol

71: what’s your favorite kind of tea? the fruity kinds

72: are you a person who needs to note everything down or else you’ll forget it? yea def lol

73: what are some of your worst habits? disappearing from people when i feel strong emotions

74: describe a good friend of yours without using their name or gendered pronouns. they’re small but they’re so full of love, full of life, full of strength, and full of care for others, they’re the type of person who will seek their goals till the end despite obstacles and still be able to not lose their warm heart on the way. they put so much thought and care to every aspect of their life even when in the past they have been handed some bad things, and i adore them for that.

75: tell us about your pets! none :( wish i have a cat though

76: is there anything you should be doing right now but aren’t? hahahhaah

77: pink or yellow lemonade? pink!

78: are you in the minion hateclub or fanclub? neither sometimes i think theyre weird sometimes cute sometimes weirdly cute lmao

79: what’s one of the cutest things someone has ever done for you? write up 24 things they love about me to stop me from hating myself

80: what color are your bedroom walls? did you choose that color? if so, why? white. no but if i had to id say white anyways lol cos its a blank canvas

81: describe one of your friend’s eyes using the most abstract imagery you can think of. i dunno uhhhh her rounded eyes which seemed to at first glance, harbor plenty of wonder seemed to be weighted by many untold secrets, the traces of which could be found when she erupts into laughter where the wonder would manifest itself in the form of small stars in the dark of her eyes.

82: are/were you good in school? meh. i try

83: what’s some of your favorite album art? weirdly i like cigarette after sex’s one cos its so simple yet telling

84: are you planning on getting tattoos? which ones? planning on getting an evangelion one, another heart one, a sunflower one, and prolly a ghibli related one

85: do you read comics? what are your faves? manga? naruto 4evr LOL

86: do you like concept albums? which ones? hmmm thinkin of dpr live’s IAOT

87: what are some movies you think everyone should watch at least once in their lives? lord of the rings, harry potter, one of ghibli movies lol

88: are there any artistic movements you particularly enjoy? i think impressionism is very cool evn tho i dont do it myself

89: are you close to your parents? eeeeee

90: talk about your one of you favorite cities. Melbourne is a wonderful city where many things could coexist in one--happiness and sadness, camaraderie and loneliness, hot and cold, quiet and full of life, productive and relaxed, bursting with unfocused energy yet incredibly organized, and for many reasons it’s become one of my favorite cities, and definitely my favorite to live in.

91: where do you plan on traveling this year? no plans tbh lol maybe home?.......japan? heheheh nahhh

92: are you a person who drowns their pasta in cheese or a person who barely sprinkles a pinch? it depends lol mostly i guess drowns my pasta in cheese

93: what’s the hairstyle you wear the most? i always wear it down, either straight or wavy

94: who was the last person you know to have a birthday? a friend of mine

95: what are your plans for this weekend? stay in most likely, do stuff

96: do you install your computer updates really quickly or do you procrastinate on them a lot? 100% procrastinate lmaoooo

97: myer briggs type, zodiac sign, and hogwarts house? ISTG, jkjk INFP, leo sun aquarius moon cancer rising, ravenclaw

98: when’s the last time you went hiking? did you enjoy it? im alws meh ab hiking tbh lmao 

99: list some songs that resonate to your soul whenever you hear them. Long Slow Distance - NCT 127, Four - Sleeping At Last, idontwannabeyouanymore - Billie Eilish, Stop This Train - John Mayer, Digital Lover - Crush

100: if you were presented with two buttons, one that allows you to go 5 years into the past, the other 5 years into the future, which one would you press? why? 5 years into the past so she’d stop focusing her life around anybody else but herself

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jan 4th 2019

I did so much today (except study lol). Ofc I overslept once again ! (when will I not hah) Went shopping with isabell and she took me to look at *** toys and get them explained to you and since she is into certain stuff I broadened my horizon quite a bit. personally I never really thought about toys in a I need them manner but man today I really saw some stuff I want.  also I went to see aquaman today!!! I am in a weird limbo of.. I did not expect it to be good but I also expected I would love it anyway. I did not LOVE it but I also did not hate it? Gotta sort my thoughts: Pro: .) that moment when arthur said to orm at the end that he’ll be there once hes ready to talk. i mean how special was that  ? urhg i love  .) UHM MERA??? everything she did was epic i loved her powers goddamn  .) the kiss scene. can I frame movie scenes? I want that painted. that shit was beautiful .) 16 year old arthur was so beautifully casted wowsie .) about that: I loved the flashback scenes .) i liked the last fight scene of the brothers on the surface. I also kind of liked the one in sicily.  .) some of the underwater shots were rly pretty. and I do admit i did kind of enjoy that it was somewhat different for once with the setting and all.  .) im a sucker for overly dramatic superhero shit so the whole monologue at the end ending with I AM AQUAMAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it was ridiculous but kind of cool too. as was his whole REVEAL! !! ! ! with the uniform and all. .) i liked the sahara scene  .) it did made me cry at 2 parts so  .) THE SCORE WAS AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND WHEN I GOOGLED IT I SAW ITS MY BABY RUPERT WHO WROTE IT AND I WAS SO HAPPY!!!!!!! (the last time i was so stunned by a score was hacksaw ridge lol NO COMMENT but either way ofc that was a rupert one aswell. i am a harry gal but RUPERT YOU REALLY STUN ME LATELY AND I NEVER EVEN KNOW ITS HIM BEFOREHAND) (but damn really the whole movie I was so!!!!!!! THIS SCORE IS BEAUTIFUL)

con:  .) meras cheap wig  .) not enough dialogue ?? no deep conversations, not really long convos either, idk something was missing .) i hated that crab fight scene you could have just cut the whole thing it was so unnecessary  .) OCEAN MASTER sounded ridiculous .) mera should have been queen in the end honestly arthur should have said hey yo i never wanted to be this you should do this bye im leaving for the upper world. ok maybe thats just me  .) too many jumpscares  i mean i guess seeing it written out like that I did like it more than I hated it. but the things that bugged me REALLY bugged me. I hate that we didnt really get a lot of conversations it made me not be fully into this universe but its OK. i hated aquaman in justice league and now I like him so the movie did its thing i guess!! ALSO I GOT BOOKS TODAY I AM SO HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! goodnight im so tired now i got to go read now so I can finally start NEW BOOKS