#idk man I just. People think Im so aggressive and obtuse

[nugatorysheep]

Sometimes I think about how, back when the roster was much bigger, me and my old friend group all picked out WTL characters that we thought the others were the most like, and almost universally people thought Druid was the most like me. That probably should've been my first clue that none of them knew a single thing about me, but hindsight is 20/20

I also often think about how, after several days of going through things that had happened to me over the last four or so years, I was told 'You seem like a person who wants to be understood', and it hit me that until then, I had never met someone who ever really got me. Now that I have, I could never settle for less.

[ducks-love-swamps]

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First off, Fuck you. 1: Full nameMatthew Gene Langford2: Age21 holy fuck3: 3 FearsHeights, Aliens, Loneliness 4: 3 things I loveDiner food, Guns, Coffee5: 4 turns onShort hair, Femininity, Machine gun fire, aggressive sexuality6: 4 turns offObliviousness, Politicians, People who are Obtuse, Prius'es 7: My best friendShawn8: Sexual orientationStraight until otherwise noted9: My best first dateNothing comes to mind10: How tall am I6 foot even11: What do I missThey know.12: What time were I bornIdk13: Favourite colorYellow14: Do I have a crushI suppose so15: Favourite quote"Don't quote me boy cuz' I ain't said shit" - Easy E16: Favourite placeThe Desert 17: Favourite foodDiner18: Do I use sarcasmNo, Neeeever19: What am I listening to right nowAesop Rock, None Shall Pass20: First thing I notice in new personEyes21: Shoe size9.522: Eye colorBrown23: Hair colorBrown24: Favourite style of clothingHawaiian Shirts 25: Ever done a prank call?Yep27: Meaning behind my URLI'm Matthew, I like to punch things28: Favourite movieHardcore Henry29: Favourite songPapa don't take no mess by James Brown30: Favourite bandFuck you31: How I feel right nowgood32: Someone I loveI love my dad he the real OG33: My current relationship statusSingle34: My relationship with my parentsRad with my dad, I haven't seen my mom in a couple years35: Favourite holidayHalloween36: Tattoos and piercing i haveI have my spetum pierced37: Tattoos and piercing i wantI want a Chinese food carton on my leg, A nuclear pinup girl on my shoulder, a realistic heart on my chest, the WAFFLE HOUSE logo on my leg, Three birds on my leg38: The reason I joined TumblrTwo ex's ago had one so i joined 39: Do I and my last ex hate each other?Nah, we good friends40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts?sometimes41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted?I believe so?42: When did I last hold hands?Today I guess43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning?I roll out of bed and leave44: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days?Nope45: Where am I right now?Home46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me?My own self47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level?loud enough to hear all the recorded parts48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad?just my dad49: Am I excited for anything?GUN SAFE AT THE END OF THE MONTH50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to?Mhmm, One person51: How often do I wear a fake smile?Never, if you piss me off I'll let you know52: When was the last time I hugged someone?Todayyy53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me?They do im sure54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not?Nah55: What is something I disliked about today?I didn't shoot a gun56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?I'd wanna see Shawn57: What do I think about most?Guns58: What’s my strangest talent?I can suck my nose together59: Do I have any strange phobias?Not really60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?Behind, none of my friends can film for shit61: What was the last lie I told?That none of my friends can film for shit62: Do I perfer talking on the phone or video chatting online?Videoooo63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens?Nope and nope 64: Do I believe in magic?In a young girls heart?65: Do I believe in luck?Yes66: What's the weather like right now?Dark and cold67: What was the last book I've read?the anarchist red book of explosives and demolitions68: Do I like the smell of gasoline?Love it69: Do I have any nicknames?Not really70: What was the worst injury I've ever had?My eyes have bruises 71: Do I spend money or save it?Save dat money 72: Can I touch my nose with a tounge?no73: Is there anything pink in 10 feets from me?Yes74: Favourite animal?BEARS75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM?Sleeping76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is?Satan77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it?Curtis Mayfield - Diamond in the Back78: How can you win my heart?Show effort79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone?My name80: What is my favorite word?Dig, as in "I dig it"81: My top 5 blogs on tumblrIdk man, you all are good82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say?Butts83: Do I have any relatives in jail?Not that I know of, But I know of many who probably should be84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power?Easy, Flashlight eyes85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on?This one.86: What is my current desktop picture?Some default highway art on Vista87: Had sex?Yep88: Bought condoms?Nope89: Gotten pregnant?Multiple scares90: Failed a class?Yep91: Kissed a boy?yep92: Kissed a girl?yep93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain?yep94: Had job?yep95: Left the house without my wallet?nope96: Bullied someone on the internet?nope97: Had sex in public?oral98: Played on a sports team?yep99: Smoked weed?nope100: Did drugs?nope101: Smoked cigarettes?nope102: Drank alcohol?yes103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan?nope104: Been overweight?always105: Been underweight?never106: Been to a wedding?yes107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight?sometimes108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight?never109: Been outside my home country?yep110: Gotten my heart broken?yep111: Been to a professional sports game?nope112: Broken a bone?nope113: Cut myself?on accident114: Been to prom?nope115: Been in airplane?yes116: Fly by helicopter?nope117: What concerts have I been to?good ones118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex?nope119: Learned another language?nope120: Wore make up?yep121: Lost my virginity before I was 18?yes122: Had oral sex?yes123: Dyed my hair?nope124: Voted in a presidential election?yes125: Rode in an ambulance?nope126: Had a surgery?nope127: Met someone famous?nope128: Stalked someone on a social network?nope129: Peed outside?yes130: Been fishing?yep131: Helped with charity?yep132: Been rejected by a crush?yep133: Broken a mirror?yep134: What do I want for birthday?I don't really celebrate it135: How many kids do I want and what will be their names?I either want 2 or 20. all of them named Matthew136: Was I named after anyone?My middle name is my grandpa's137: Do I like my handwriting?God no138: What was my favourite toy as a child?GI Joe Action Figure139: Favourite Tv Show?The News140: Where do I want to live when older?deep in the woods141: Play any musical instrument?Guitar, Bass, Sax142: One of my scars, how did I get it?Salt and Ice chemical burn143: Favourite pizza toping?Pineapple144: Am I afraid of the dark?Nope145: Am I afraid of heights?yep146: Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad?Nope147: Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end?Yep148: What I'm really bad atDrawing149: What my greatest achievments areI drove cross country by myself for no reason at all150: The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me151: What I'd do if I won in a lotteryRetire152: What do I like about myselfI'm pretty funny153: My closest Tumblr friendEh, I don't talk to most of you154: Something I fantasise aboutMachine gun fire