#idk its one of the things i regret about my hs au

[no-shxme]

the weird reoccurring trope in league ff of making talon some disgustingly creepy antagonist (see also: some womanizing creep) is so appalling to me like fucking stop. it just shows that you dont get his character. im sorry but if you read his color story and only thought 'oh so he's a creepy stalker' then please read it again. why does kat get to be forgiven and painted in a more sympathetic light when they both went through shit.

[letusmeetagain]

Hello! I've been reading some of your recent meta posts and I really like them. I noticed you said you thought EM would meet again even if it's years in the future in an AU where they run into each other, but at the same time the Rumbling wouldn't be erased/wiped from existence or people's memories (i.e. by a new AU world). What do you think will be the most likely ending for them then? Thanks!

Hi Anon!!

Disclaimer... I’ll let myself be carried away by my feelings of which ending would be possible... I’ll for sure say things that may not happen at all.

Should I start with my preferences (based on what I feel would be logic for the story) or just include all the possibilities I have considered in the diagram I posted some days ago?? Some of them aren’t viable because of the inner logic of the story... Mainly every path where:

1. escapism is promoted in the sense that “because this world is already fucked up, let’s go to a better one and leave this cruelty behind”. That would somehow be against the coexistence of cruelty and beauty inherent to every single story in the world. Escaping the endurance of the bad side of something would be like denying the beatiful side of it. As the main point for me, there’s this decision of Mikasa to come back to reality and endure the cruel side just because the beautiful one is worth the suffering.

2. the catastrophe is forgotten. First because there’s this foreshadowing in Rod’s line that every catastrophe has a meaning. If it has a meaning, it has to be remembered in order to achieve any kind of further effect. If this has the goal of a sort of lesson, then the memory of it will lead humanity to change so it doesn’t happen again. That would be actually the best outcome, to be honest. Second, another happenings that hint this mindset are first: Eren didn’t erase the memories of any character (at least not that we know and it goes against this “I will let you be free”-mindset of him), then: because erasing memories was something that already happened and was portrayed as a detrimental decision. In the Uprising arc, humanity decided to REMEMBER.

At least its memory should remain. So: no escapism, no oblivion.

3. No outcome where the rumbling gets justified and Eren gets a second chance while he has to live with his sins. Living without pride... like Historia who lives knowing she survived at the cost of hundred of millions of innocents... This kind of outcome shouldn’t be a positive ending for us if Eren, let’s say... survives while the consequeces of the rumbling aren’t reverted. At least not if we think about how he considers his own existence and that he couldn’t save the people he loved.

Maybe something magical could happen such as Ymir granting him a second chance but... well. Same idea. What about his traumas and regrets? Would Isayama be able to portray such an ending in just 45 pages? With a time skip? It sounds like an insult for the rumbling.

Easiest path for Isayama as narrator if he wants to develop well the ending? Eren dies and he starts a sort of path to reconsider his own role and existence. That would let him close his own story, it wouldn’t be necessary to add any kind of rushed miracles that disregard the rumbling (like justification or reverting it 100% so we suffered reading all these chapters like a bad dream).

Of course I’m not pointing out death as Eren’s sole salvation. No. Death was in the end Eren’s choice. Not death but this outcome. Although it was very hard for him, he was the one that made up his mind... He, as character of his own story, was prepared to give up his life and I don’t feel like Isayama would make an exeption and give him a second (actually third) chance (at least just with him... if he does, everyone will have a second chance)... and maybe not for the ending. The other times he was resurrected, he was still needed for the story. Now it’s the end of everything. Will Isayama grant us Eren’s survival under such circumstances just for the sake of letting his redemption arc (something that would be needed to compensate the rumbling for readers) open up to us?

Hmm...

Now I come to my preferences and the true answer. I feel like he will die... better said.. he is already dead. His role is not done yet as he has to redeem his own existence, his value to himself in order to “leave the world” in peace like Zeke (almost) did. If Zeke’s death showed us something is that one’s crimes aren’t something that can be easily be forgotten. Some effects of our choices can’t be taken back.

My two big hints of it: Zeke’s lines (if they aren’t empty words)... I would be born again just to play catch with you. That might be (and I’m 97% sure of this) could be in the end a hint of a massive reborn in the (near) future. Some songs (Great escape, Akatsuki no requiem, -similar- Name of love) say “Let us meet again in a world without walls”... that somehow hints a promise and the will to meet again, and also a world without division and hatred... a peaceful world.

Or it might be left open. .-. (Let’s be honest... Isayama would indeed troll us like that... there’s nothing more annoying than an open ending to me)

What I know for sure, is that Eren and Mikasa will meet again. I go for reborn option but in their current world, in the future where they can live again under better circumstances.... circumstances they achieved through the sacrifices they made in their previous lives. What I REALLY like from this ending is that they would enjoy the direct consequences of their sacrifices and Ymir’s wish for them as a reward. *cries* Still... he won’t show us too much... just maybe... the confirmation that everyone is going to be reborn and then it will be up to us.

If that doesn’t happen because Isayama goes for a philosophic ending, Eren will close his life story as a circular story meaning he reaffirms it with pride and that he would endure for eternity all the suffering because the beauty was worth it. I mean as an eternal return from Nietzsche’s philosophic approaches. I’m.... I kinda feel like it would be okay for me... well.... Idk... but a lot of fans wouldn’t appreciate nor understand it or they would even hate it as they don’t really seem to want Eren to achieve enlightenment but a conventional ending with him and Mikasa being happy together in an regular comfortable life.

Then you have an afterlife... It would be toooooo overused. Or... this crazy idea... that Eren’s spirit (conscience) remains connected to everything that’s in the world and he “stays” with Mikasa that way. I give this last option... 10% (?) chances to come true.

AU... are something I can’t see unless the AU is in the end the HS AU but.... it would be indeed a rip off from Muv Luv Alternative and I would punch him mentally from my country... Okay. I know that’s not an argument... but he can do things better than that. I guess he may tease with a last page of the HS AU doing something like that but only to troll.

That was it... I hope I didn’t bother you with my takes as I try not to avoid less happy endings. :-/

Thanks for the question!

[cozyteez]

Hii, do u have any tips for writing fics?? I’m so used to writing research reports, lab reports, and formal essays that creative writing has become something I really struggle with. I guess it’s having the freedom to write anything and not knowing how to make sure it’s not corny. I tried outlining a fic one time but it was so frustrating LOLOLOL. Anyways, I love your ateez fics. They are so cute and creative!!

hi !!!! im like rlly touched u asked me and i feel u actually that's why i started this blog; im a biomedical engineering major so as u can imagine i dont get to take much creativity with what i write because writing papers and reports and proposals are so formulaic and u gotta stick to the facts so that being said i actually tested out of all my college writing classes so all my writing knowledge is from ap english in hs lmao so take it w many grians of salt

the #1 thing i do when im feeling sort of unmotivated about a story or maybe like like dragging myself thru mud to write it is to just write the "fun" part first. to me the fun part is usually the climax or maybe the like the "wouldn't it be cute if..." moment that came to mind that inspired me to write a blurb in the first place! then usually once i sort of get the ball rolling on that my brain will help me out and keep the momentum going by thinking of maybe "oohh okay maybe this can happen next" or "oohh and what if this led up to it" or !! just stop there !! something ive learned from my mx writing blog which is like a year older than this one was that you don't owe anybody context especially for a blurb so maybe it really is just 3 sentences of a cute moment u thought of like its whatever ur the one writing it

now for longer fics im going to be honest jongho's first love is my first and only completed attempt at a multi stage coherent story. and that was fueled purely based on the fact that when i look at jongho he just gives off sort a really excited sort of innocence that i wanted to further explore and personify through the idea of him experiencing love for the first time but even then i really struggled w the last part because that's where my personal experience stopped and i had basically nothing to go off of because ive never been in love so i did have to kinda wait for ideas to come to me. for prince yunho i have posted 4 chapters but have all the way through chapter 15 drafted. and by drafted i mean it's like 3 sentences of the overall idea. again, the fic was inspired by the duality between yunho's on stage vs. off stage persona where if somebody was to watch an ateez performance for the first time they may find him very serious and maybe even intimidating but atiny would know that his off stage persona (the one he choses to create for us anyways) is very silly and happy-go-lucky and approachable, which is why prince yunho is seen as narameth's strong and stoic pride and joy but in reality he's sort of clumsy but means well. so i let that and his relationship w xenia who is an original character (OC) sort inspire stories or interactions that i force into a plot line. so for example i believe when i first started thinking abt a prince au for yunho i thought "wouldn't it be funny if the first scene started out painting him as this strong and serious man and then cut to him choking on food or something" and that sort of inspired the idea of him being nervous abt the speech and then xenia came out of that because he needed a complementary character imo since i knew he was gonna be kind of one dimensional and then his backstory with xenia inspired other ideas and then one day i was sad and wanted a hug so that inspired a piece of the plot line and so on. so basically: let an idea or even an aspect of somebody come to you and just write it down, let it inspire other ideas. and don't be afriad to completely start over. i wrote a whole chapter for prince yunho and deleted the whole thing because i hated where it was going and started back from scratch. sometimes you have to revisit things abt your characters and their relationships with others to get a new idea. there's a story in every person and every relationship you just have to find the clues

here's an example of what i mean by "write the good part first". this is typically what the very first draft of a blurb will look like for me

((( blah blah blah basically its raining and y/n is sad bc wooyoung broke her heart two weeks ago idk maybe go into it maybe not)))

y/n is all sad and feeling sorry for themselves on the couch theyre past crying but still feel pretty shitty plus it's storming and cold outside. great

there's a knock on their door ofc they have the cliche "who could that be moment" even tho they lowkey know. we literally all know

so yeah wooyoung's there soaked in rain eyes puffy y/n thinks he's been crying

-this would be the "fun part". i'll fix all that garbage up top later or maybe even change it completely idk yet-

"y/n? i - uh. hi"

he sheepishly rubbed the back of his neck while you crossed your arms over your chest, fighting the urge to close the door and walk away for good

"hi? really wooyoung? is that the best you can do?"

(((wooyoung does smth idk)))

"well i just -"

"you just what? showed up here in the rain after you broke my heart and didn't even bother to tell me why? this isn't some romance movie, asshole. you can't just come here late at night and expect to find me all sad and willing to take you back because i'm not. so say what you're gonna say so i can get back to my life"

your face was red hot and you trying very hard, probably too hard, to fight back tears. ((( idk talk some more abt y/n's emotions then what wooyoung is doing)))

"look, i made a mistake i-"

"oh my god! why did i know you were gonna do this. i just knew as soon as i saw you-"

"will you let me get a fucking word in!?"

well that was new. in the entire time you'd known him he had never raised his voice at you like that, your shock causing you to immediately close your mouth and fold your arms back into yourself (((make y/n seem more scared))) noticing your reaction, he lowered his voice back down and instictively reached for you, heartbroken at the way you jerked away from his touch

"please y/n, i'm sorry. i didn't mean to raise my voice it's just that i need to tell you that i regret what i did i regret breaking up with you so fucking much and you don't have to take me back i just need you to know how much you meant, no, mean to me. i still love you, a lot. there's not a day, an hour, a minute, or a single second that goes by that i'm not thinking of you"

"then why?"

your voice was small and wavering, your tears now dangerously close to spilling down your cheeks

"why what?"

"why did you break up with me like that, just all of a sudden"

he pushed his hands into his pockets and looked away

"because that morning i woke up before you and when i looked at you asleep next to me, i saw myself spending the rest of my life with you and it scared the shit out of me"

"why did it scare you?"

"because i just figured you didn't feel the same. i was selfish and wanted to save myself heartbreak down the line and so i told you i didn't wanna be with you anymore, but that was a mistake because it turns out i can't function with out you, i can't breathe without you i can't live without you, y/n. i shouldn't have let you go"

tears were now freely flowing down your face (((okay brain no work anymore y/n kisses him duh and then ofc they make up wooyoung prob says smth cheesy and y/n is like ur lucky i love you or smth ahaha the end)))

tl;dr -> don't be afraid to get messy. creative writing is not nearly as structured as academic/scientific writing. write whatever u want first it can even be the middle of a huge fight scene or some dialogue u think is funny. if ur stuck read what you have or maybe just take a break and let an idea come to you. a story doesnt have to come together til the very end so it can be as messy and out of order as u want until u wanna post it. also i would always use the third person omniscient point of view for a longer story like a chaptered fic as a default and only change if it would impact the plot in a negative way. this is where the narrator knows what every character is thinking/feeling and im p sure a teacher in middle school told me it was the easiest to write and follow