#idk its currently 3am

[sp00ky-scary]

hearing ppl talk about how you need to separate like you living/working and sleeping spaces is all whatever until you live in one room and suddenly you understand

[cicide76536]

Kinda happy that sometimes when my body goes into an anxiety attack, my mind is unaffected. Like, it's shaking violently and I'm in pain and all but nothing particular makes me think anxious thoughts.

But at the same time I'm so angry bc I cannot calm my body down and cannot sleep and i'm just suffering with stomach pain and feeling cold.

[mrmushroom1031]

I call everyone I know "girly" (I've even accidentally called my father girly) and I have this fear in the back of my mind that I'm gonna slip up and call the wrong dude "girly" and get my ass kicked

[enden-agolor]

im currently reading your forest deity au fic bc im running out of mcsm content to consume and im like. how have i not read this before now? i had seen ur art pop up quite a few times before but never gone and looked through your blog, but i was just browsing the jesskas tags in ao3 and it pops up and im like "huh. wait, isnt this that one au from tumblr? lets see..." and now im on chapter 10 been awake 2 hours (its 3am now) and i might just stay up until morning if it means catching up to the latest chapter! in conclusion: thank you for feeding my hyperfixation, it's beautiful; both the art and writing!

Yeaaah I haven't really done the best at advertising the fic 😓 Quite a few people have been like HUH THERE'S A FIC?? Idk I feel kinda awkward posting chapter updates or even really talking about the au, especially on twitter.

I'm so glad you're enjoying it though. Thanks for taking all that time to read it <:D

[everythingwasnormalhere]

:)

hi :) hru?

Hi :)

And I'm good, hru?

[tokosparrow]

Hey! Idk if requests are open- if not feel free to ignore! YOU AND LIKE TWO OTHERS ARE FEEDING THE MATTHEW PATEL SIMPS THANK YOU FOR DOING GODS WORK-

Anyways! I was hoping to request a Matthew Patel x GN!Reader where like- Matthew has a bad nightmare and calls reader during the middle of the night because they had to go home for some reason- and it’s just super fluffy and comfort? It can be HC or a story up to you! Thank you 🫶🫶🫶🫶🎉

a/n: OOOOO ANYTHING FOR THE FOLLOW MATTHEW LOVERS >.<!! i also sometimes have the rare occurrence of having a nightmare and it could get pretty baaaad :<<

matthew felt himself shifting in his sleep as his dream became more unbearable. soon gasping as he woke up and sat up in a fear-filled sweat, breathing heavily as he felt his heart beat rapidly, feeling a bit of tears in his eyes as he felt his breathe feeling shaky. his hands searched before one hand landed on his phone, he frantically dialed your number before pressing his phone against his ear, still feeling shaken up.

“hello…?” your groggy voice answered after he heared just a few rings, being pretty reasonable since it happened to only be about 3am at night.

“(Y/N)….” your name was the first thing he managed to get out through his shaky voice as he listened to your voice.

“hey, matthew, honey, are you okay? do you want me to go over? did something happen?” you asked through the phone as you became a bit more aware realizing how distressed your boyfriend happens to sound.

“n-no! i’m fine (Y/N)…” he blurted out hearing the worried tone in your voice, “just had a nightmare, that’s all…”

he felt a bit embarrassed to admit it to you, but he felt more comforted just hearing your voice nothing less. he felt himself twisting strands of his hair as he slowly felt himself calm down from how shaken up he was a bit ago. “and i was wondering if maybe you could stay on call with me for the rest of the night?…please…”

“i wouldn’t mind that honey, i don’t want to leave you all shaken up like that.” you agreed as you heard his quiet plea, hearing a small sigh of relief from the other side of phone soon after, leaving a small smile on your tired filled face. “goodnight mattie…<3”

matthew felt his eyelids fall heavy as he drifts into a comfortable sleep once again, finding comfort in your tired spoken words and forgetting why he even woke up in the first place. he held his phone close to him as its become one of his current close things to you, he soon let himself yawn and speak out one last phrase before he found himself completely asleep.

“goodnight my dearest….<3”

[mochiovo]

hi. im in my art block i guess, drawing just doesnt feel fun anymore, everything i draw i felt like it's not good enough, im not good enough. i dont want to draw anymore. it feels bad. i feel like i had just suddenly lost my skills for some reason. I feel bad whenever i erase a line, or whenever i just made a mistake, idk why, it feels horrible. not to mention my personal life, my work schedule is like 12-3am, its not ok, and i constantly have blackouts in class, speaking abt it, the hw is huge aswell. it just feels like all my motivations for everything was just gone, even for my au, even though i enjoyed making comics, it just doesnt feel the same anymore. i think i'll take a break. this blog will be inactive for a while. i dont know how long is "a while", could be days, weeks, months, forever? but whatever or how long my break is, thankyou to my currently 18 followers for supporting me, all of you guys who had ever liked my post or gave a complament, thankyou so much. and remember to smile -mochi, 1/11/2025- 3:52 AM

[bluesylveon2]

for the 500 follower special, idia + 75?

I love how all of my gamer knowledge reappeared as I was writing this lol.

Prompt: 75. I’m an insomniac who calls my best friend at 3am except I misdial on my landline and I tell you all about my nightmare before letting you talk and now I’m mortified but you don’t hang up (I changed it a bit)

Note: Modern au. Fainaru Fantajī XV is Final Fantasy 15 but in Japanese. I was gonna use FFXVI but idk how the story goes and I might just watch it on Youtube lol. I DO know the story for FFXV and I love it so much

Word Count: 959

Warnings: not beta read and possible OOC characters

500 Follower Event

Idia's day typically goes as follows: 1. Wake up, 2. Collect his dailies, 3. Stream in his room for hours (while snacking during it). 4. Use the bathroom. 5. Eat sweets, 6. Stream again. 7. Stream. What's sleep anyway?

Idia sighed after setting his headphones down. He just finished playing the latest Fainaru Fantajī XV game since its release. His body ached from the long sitting position, but it was all worth it for him. The story was good, and the gameplay was phenomenal! Idia needed to tell someone about it!

Usually, he would rant about it to Ortho. Still, his little brother was currently out of town because he was starring in a movie with the Vil Schoenheit. Idia was proud of his brother and wanted to keep his much-needed rest. 

Idia grabbed his phone and sorted through his list of friends.

Azul? No, he would only talk about board games. 

Riddle? No, they both had a mutual dislike for one another. 

Cater? HECK NO! NO NORMIES! (Idia made a mental note to delete his number later. How his contact information got on his phone was a mystery.)

Lilia? Idia's eyes widen. Yes! Lilia was perfect! They both share a love of games and often play co-op together. Surely he would be awake at, Idia glanced at the time, 3 am! Idia quickly typed his number, too excited to click on Lilia's number, and brought the phone to his ear. 

"Hello?" A clearly feminine voice replied, but Idia had already started his passionate ranting.

"Lilia! Did you get to play the newest Fainaru Fantajī XV game?"

"Who is-"

"I love the open world concept, and did you see the Regalia? That car screams luxury, and it has to be my dream car. I need to get one ASAP. That would show those lame normies I deal with, ugh."

"Lilia" laughed but continued trying to speak, "That's nice, but-"

"And the chemistry between the main characters! Luna was pretty, I guess? Lowkey women still scar me after the whole Eliza incident." Idia shivered at the memory of his "self-proclaimed" (and crazy) girlfriend (it was one-sided, and Idia didn't consider her his girlfriend anyway) in high school. Never again. "But the bond between Noctis and the other guys was top-notch! It made the gameplay even better!" Idia sighed and leaned back in his chair. "If only Noctis survived to the end, ya know? I guess the developers loved angst. The song choice at the end was the cherry on top. I actually shed a tear."

"Uhh, that's very interesting, but who is this?" "Lilia," asked, and Idia frowned. Now that he was partially done with his rant, he noticed the strange pitch in his friend's voice.

"Lilia, it's me, Idia. You know? The super cool guy who you spend playing League with. Are you sick? Your voice sounds off."

"I don't know a Lilia. My name is Yuu, and no, I am not sick. I am very healthy." Yuu's voice replied, and Idia froze. OH NO, NO, NO

"YOU'RE A GIRL?"

He could imagine the stranger frowning and thinking he was some creep. "Yes?"

"Eep!" Idia squealed and immediately pressed the big red "end call" button. He threw his phone at his bed, jumped face down on his bed, and groaned loudly. "Stupid, stupid, stupid! You just embarrassed yourself in front of a stranger! In front of a girl!" Idia was ready to bury himself in a hole.

Idia's phone rang just as he made the decision to do it. He groaned at the annoying ringtone, picked it up, and brought the phone to his ear without checking the caller ID. 

"Hello?"

A female voice laughed. "You hung up on me, Idia."

"Ah!" Idia screamed. He looked at his phone and raised his finger to hang up the call.

"Wait! Don't hang up!" Yuu exclaimed, causing Idia to freeze. He slowly brought his phone back to listen. The girl sighed after a minute passed. "Look, before you hang up again, I wanted to say that I love that game too."

Idia blinked, and his mouth opened in shock. "Y-you do?" he managed to say and wanted to facepalm.

Yuu laughed. "I'm not far into the game, though. I got distracted by fishing and playing with chocobos."

Idia felt himself relax, and he laughed with Yuu. "They are adorable. I liked racing them."

"Me too! Hey, Idia, can I ask you something?"

"Uhh, sure…What is it?"

Yuu sighed, and Idia could hear some shuffling on her end. She was probably adjusting herself to get comfortable. "Can you tell me more about the game? I need some help getting through it and would like some advice."

Idia felt a smirk grace his face. "Of course, you would need my help. I'll help you beat all the bosses with 0 deaths. You're good to talk for tonight?"

Yuu chuckled. "Yeah, I don't have anything planned. Oh great, Idia. Give me your wisdom." 

Idia ended up not sleeping that night but made a new friend instead. 

Bonus:

"I heard the Child of Man made a new friend." Malleus looked up from his Gao Gao Drakon-kun to speak to his father.

Lilia paused his game and turned to Malleus. "Oh? Did she say who?"

Malleus nodded. "It's actually your friend Idia. The one you often play games with." He said and gestured to the monitor that currently had Fainaru Fantajī XV. 

Lilia smiled, feeling happy for his friend. "What a coincidence. It is a small world, after all."

Malleus nodded and smiled, thinking about Yuu's happy rant that morning after staying up to talk to Idia before passing out from exhaustion. He was also delighted for her that she had met him. "Indeed it is."

Disclaimer: I do not own Twisted Wonderland and its characters. Those belong to Aniplex, Walt Disney Japan, and Yana Toboso.

©: This story belongs to bluesylveon2 2020-23. DO NOT modify, republish, or plagiarize my work.

[chickawah23]

This🤡 thing turned into an analysis of I Hate It Here based on that one little glitch lolol

You know if I was a crazy I’d think that “no midnight in Paris” glitch only on Apple Music was directed for me to hear. However the glitch is only on the streaming side of Apple Music or I need a new phone or beats headphones idk. But as of right now I haven’t heard it on my album because I tripled checked “I Hate It Here” on my purchased version and it was fine.

Here is a link to a video that shows the glitch.

Here’s the glitchy lyric from I Hate It Here:

“Seems like it was never even fun back then / Nostalgia is a mind's trick / [no midnight in paris] If I'd been there, I'd hate it / It was freezing in the palace”

Why would I think this was a targeted glitch?

I had a thought trail clown theory about Karlie and jack hinting at midnight in Paris before the Midnights album dropped and we got the song Paris in the 3am version and it made my life.

Because every Spotify wrapped over the last few years I post on here and I say I listen to taylor on my Apple Music library more than Spotify. 🤡

Nostalgia and the movie midnight in Paris

So idk. At the very end of my midnights in Paris post I brought up the film Midnight in Paris which is basically a writer who travels back in time to 1920s Paris at midnight and he meets all the great artists of that time. Essentially this romantic is nostalgic for what he believes is the golden age. But by the end of the movie he realize there will always be a past to run away from the present back to so maybe learn to like where you’re at. Here is a quote about nostalgia from the movie:

“Nostalgia is denial. Denial of the painful present. The name for this denial is Golden Age thinking - the erroneous notion that a different time period is better than the one ones living in - its a flaw in the romantic imagination of those people who find it difficult to cope with the present.”

So the lyric before the glitch is “Nostalgia is a mind’s trick.” Then “No midnight in Paris.” But she’s singing about not wanting to go to another point in time because no time would be better than where we are at currently so the safest place for her is in her mind. But the twist to this concept is that it’s not a nonexistent fantasy. It’s a secret life she keeps in her mind unspoken. (“Now you hang from my lips like the gardens of Babylon.”).

Why do I think this?

Because in the same song she says “I'll save all my romanticism for my inner life and I'll get lost on purpose.” She says inner life instead of inner thoughts. And then she says I’ll get lost on purpose which reminded me of the song How Did It End? Specifically this line “"Guess who we ran into at the shops? Walking in circles like she was lost. Didn't you hear? They called it all off.” She wasn’t lost she just wanted to look lost. She’s putting on a performance or act to keep her inner life sacred. Nostalgia is for the fans to focus on while she protects her secret unspoken present.

It’s just all very much the lakes to me.

“It kinda is the overarching theme of the whole album. Of trying to escape, having something to protect, trying to protect your own sanity.” - Taylor discussing the lakes at lpss

Anywhoooooo i think this is an okay place to stop.This is a rambly tangent that went all over the place. lol But I am okay with that.

[joelscruff]

a few people tagged me in this so i thought i'd give it a go 💕

Last song: willow - hover like a goddess (sooo good)

Favorite color: pink (preferably light/pastel)

Currently watching: narcos (i'm almost done season 2 but i'll be honest i haven't watched in a few months ��� i need to get back to it), rewatching curb your enthusiasm sporadically, heartstopper season 2, started a lost rewatch and then fell off. i'm so bad at watching shows yall

Currently reading: 'the housekeeper & the professor' by yoko agawa (only about a chapter in so not sure what i think yet), & i'm also reading 'a year with rilke' which is basically just a different rainer maria rilke poem/quote every single day

Sweet/spicy/savory: i'd say sweet but lately i've actually been craving more savory things to snack on idk whats happening 2 me

Relationship status: single & slowlyyyy getting ready to put myself back out there again (scary)

Current obsession: i have a very unhealthy obsession with tiktok at the moment that i rly need to stamp out cause its getting BAD. like i'll fall asleep watching them at like 3am 😭 someone delete this app from my phone

Last thing I googled: tunefind cause i heard a song in heartstopper and was trying to figure out where i'd heard it before (it was bros by wolf alice and i heard it in life is strange before the storm rip)

Currently working on: feelings on fire joel's pov 🥳 this is the first time i've ever written from his pov so i wasn't sure how i'd feel or if i'd be able to do it right. i'm actually really enjoying it and the chapter is much longer than i anticipated it would be, woops.

as usual i'm always nervous abt tagging people so anyone who wants to do it can go ahead 💖

[ironladders]

Ughhh from what I’ve seen of the avengers academy comics I think I’m gonna have to rethink my Nate plot….lol not a bad thing…I just wanna make this thing good lol…is avengers academy in 616? If so that makes bringing Nate back into the young avengers fold so much easier, but then does he go back to iron lad or stay kid immortus? Can he be a young avenger as kid immortus? I mean Carol knows he’s back in some way shape or form why hasn’t she told the other young avengers? Is it reductive to have him rejoin the team as they take over being the avengers of earth whilst the mainline avengers are in the impossible city in space, do I rename the young avengers the new avengers like that one team billy and Teddy were on…do Cassie and Nate get back together or do I let them go their seperate ways romantically (I kinda like Cassie and Kate because of volume 1)…my current idea is Carol does indeed inform either Cassie or Kate or both that he’s back and they both storm over like hey tf when were you gonna tell us you’re ok?! *grabs* we all missed you so much you’ve missed so much from over the years we’re catching up! (Lighthearted-ly)…also the Christmas panels from AA with Nate in Jammies fuels my young avengers living together in their base vibes so much like imagine their movie nights or like board game nights…imagine them all at 3am attempting to bake only to fail spectacularly….my slice of life loving heart melts =3

Um a small question, please don’t feel obligated to answer but how do you feel about billy and Nate as a potential crackship…I kinda like it won’t lie…the canon material does kinda suggest either a very close friendship or a lil crush on Nate’s part and I just think they’d be kinda cute and a nice dynamic together…I mean obvs billyteddy is canon and therefore it’ll never happen…but idk it occasionally rotates in my brain…

Wow this is so much I’m so sorry…uh thank you for your time in advance….you fuel my Nate richards and young avengers special interests! =3

ok wow hi i am late to this sorry; there is a LOT to unpack here so let me just dissect this ask by its points:

1) yes avengers academy is in 616

2) “can he be a young avenger as kid immortus” i don’t see why not! despite going by that now nate seems to be chilling with the rest of the school which implies his role as kid immortus is not inherently villainous

3) i… do not think carol recognizes him 😭 straight up she doesn’t even know who he is lol

while they both appeared in children’s crusade i don’t think carol and nate ever interacted (if they did it isnt memorable enough for me, #1 nate richards guy, to recall) and her main point of reference for nathaniel richards is the older evil versions of him that she’s more familiar with going up against, so i don’t blame carol for immediately going “NATE RICHARDS?!?!” at the sight of him. also important to note that the entirety of children’s crusade nate NEVER takes his helmet off, so carol wouldn’t have a distinct face to recognize as well. maybe when nate starts mentioning more time travel stuff around her she’ll put the pieces together, or if he just straight up talks to her about it lmao.

4) i don’t think him rejoining the team would be reductive, no — if anything him rejoining the team would be good for nate, i think. it shouldn’t happen immediately because he did just get to the academy and i’d like to see him form relationships outside of the ya, god knows the guy needs more friends and a fresh start, but i do want him to ultimately reunite with the team. there’s a lot of stuff that they haven’t fully resolved with each other in regards to nate and him being back gives the perfect opportunity for that

5) these story beats for your au(?) like names and relationships are up to you tbh, just take the ideas you like & go with what feels right instead of trying to force it all to directly follow canon. at least that’s how i’d usually approach it lmao

wrt to cassnate: i ship cassnate so i am biased to them getting together officially BUT i also wouldn’t mind if they never got romantically involved again. there’s clearly still feelings there based on their interactions in children’s crusade (cassie literally introduced nate to her dad before her OWN BOYFRIEND 😭😭) and paradox lost so i think they deserve to be able to properly explore them but it really just depends on a lot of stuff. also cassie is with kristoff so uh that’d be awkward unless she broke things off with him lmao. no matter what, though, i do want some sort of resolution for all the stuff that’s transpired with both of them involved and for the two to be able to properly sit down and talk about it all. they have both witnessed each other die at the hands of doom and that has to do something to them trauma-wise

if you need any fuel for cassnate and the state of things with nate as a whole, anthony said this back when i asked if nate knows cassie is alive:

6) YES I LOVE THE JAMMIES!! those panels are so special to me, mainly because we rarely ever get nate in casual wear 🥹 in a majority of his appearances he’s just worn the armor, and the only non-armor outfits he was shown in were his school uniform and tanktop + underwear in v1. i’m hoping that with nate officially at the academy that we’ll see more of him in different everyday outfits and be able to learn what exactly his fashion sense is

7) funny you mention natebilly because i LOVE that crackship lmao. you definitely don’t have to worry about being judged for liking it because that pairing (albeit rare compared to b&t) has been around for a while thanks to that children’s crusade oneshot lol, i’ve even known some people in the past who were into it. ship or not, nate and billy definitely had a bond, platonic or otherwise, that i wish had the chance to be explored more.

i do wonder what billy thinks of nate now, after what he did in children’s crusade. if the years and distance apart means that they can never go back to being the friends they once were. or perhaps that old spark could still be rekindled. it’s stuff like this that makes me yearn for a proper reunion, if only to get answers to my burning questions about nate’s relationships, which are so sadly under-explored at the moment. maybe with him back we’ll get to see, who knows…

i’m glad to hear i fuel your nate richards needs! i’ve been a fan of him for years now and it’s always nice to see other people into him :))

[rarepairnation]

5, 8, 12, 15, 33, and 34! <3333

YAYY thank u jamie for all of these <333

5. quote one of your fics out of context

A memory, to an architect, is a prison, a haunting, a noose.

from two shadows burning out a glory day, my bizarre inception/bond crossover fic. its very close to my heart it was kind of my first. idk if i can say non-conventional fic but it kind of is. like conceptually and narratively Weird. something that messes with the reader's head.

8. share the last line that you wrote

oh BOY. im trying to ease back into writing after the wackass week i've had but something seized me and i AM up at 3am picking away at umbar fic. but its time for bed because i have work and also i just thesaurused "retreat." when i start looking up synonyms of VERY simple words its a sign the night is over.

[his father] would give him every honour, and would that not mean he would accord him every accompanying sin?

hehehehe the thorongil-ecthelion-denethor dynamic IS absolutely in the air. its funny because right before this denethor basically curses thorongil out for daring to bring up His Damn Father when they're making out. yeah its pretty insensitive. but it leads him here and from MY perspective the introspection is yummy. don't think of elephants or whatever.

12. what fandom do you want to write for most often

hmm i feel like. my answer is just whatever im? hyperfixating on at the moment? when i get in there i REALLY get in there. but maybe pacific rim. it just lives at a low simmer in the back of my mind at all times but it's also the hardest to bang something quick out for because it is one of, if not THE most emotionally fraught for me to deal with. its just. well its a lot of grief. and also a lot of times my style becomes very um. Particular. because of my personal headcanons about how drifting fucks with your head and how that kind of comes across in the prose. and i gotta be in the right headspace for All That.

15. what fic of yours would you most like to rewrite

honestly i'm not sure if? any of them? i saw a quotation once about only having been able to write certain things at certain points in your life and i really believe that. current me could not produce a lot of my old stuff at all. there's small parts of many things i might change but not complete rewrites, and i also want to preserve them in their posted form for posterity. e.g. there's parts of dreamlike, and yet no dream that i would want to tweak to match my current Denethor And Faramir complexities (it's missing a Little of the nuance. and the terrible pity that i think faramir ends up feeling for his father) but i would NOT want to completely rewrite it. i'm scrolling through my ao3 and like. yeah. and i do think that after maybe 2020 it really begins to stand the test of time and most of my prior stuff i don't have a strong enough attachment to really want to rework. i leave it up entirely for archival purposes.

33. which of your fic titles is your favourite?

i really like five year plan for the afternoon. i honestly really like most of my titles i’ve probably mentioned i think really hard when im choosing them and i hope it shows in the match between the title and the energy/themes of the fic. but i DID create this one from my own mind (rare) and i feel like it really gave the energy of like. having the future you never thought you would have because you've spent your whole life fighting an impossible fight thinking you would die trying...and getting to not have to have a plan for the future not because you think you won't have one but because you just have all the time in the world.......wow.

35. have you ever written a fic because you were inspired by a title?

hmm. not really. i do have some inspired-by-songs ones (talked about those here) that eventually ended up with corresponding lyric titles but it doesn't really work the reverse way. i mostly will hear a lyric and create a Scenario rather than a title

fic writer asks

[kalidoscope05]

Hey, i am currently experiencing 3am random thoughts so I’m going to dump on wir them here.

This does discuss some topics involving smoking, a mentioned surgery, an overworked mother and fear. If there is any other things in here that is triggering to any one please message me and let me know other than that please read if you are able to thank you and stay safe.

With the my current at home life things are a bit strange. My Dad ,with his recent leg surgery and not being able to come home for weeks, is currently staying up a my grandparents due to their home being more… spacious, i guess. That’s not important though but something that is import, especially context wise to the thought/ ideas I’ve had, is that my mom is the only on who works but she doesn’t only work a lot she is going through nursing school. So my point is my momma is a very tired women which goes with out saying she struggles to get any sleep so she sometimes struggles to get up when she does get some but my though come from this one night i had to wake her and it was a moment of my life i don’t think I can forget.

It was a Wednesday night, i had just got back with my grandmother from church. It was about thirty mins before my mom need to be awake so I just went out back and smoked a bit with my dad and grandmother. It wasn’t until about five or seven minutes before she needed be awake when dad said something about needing to wake her and I was like, “ Don’t worry about I’ll take care of it after I go in get me something to drink,” I still relatively a new smoker as in it still bothers my throat and lungs sometimes not important though. After getting my drink and maybe a snack i sat it done where I was sitting the living room and went to wake up mom.

From the time I have spent on the internet no one really talks about how terrifying it is to wake up your parents even at an older age. It make you feel like your doing something wrong and that’s how felt as slow approached her. At the time the only thing I remember feeling and seeing is fear. And it wasn’t like i fear for my life, it was more of a “ i don’t know what’s happening, i don’t want to fuck up i don’t know what I’m doing “ kind of fear. Due to that unknown and that fear I kinda hesitated before I even touched her or said anything. But I eventually just said whatever and woke her up. I went en gentle and just said quiet but loud enough she understood, “ hey its about a 8:30”.. cause that’s when she usually got up but um even with how gentle I was I still scared her. She jumped back real hard which not only scared her but scared me. And I think the thing that got me and what makes this a memory that will stick to me is that… fear in her eyes as she looked at me. Seeing the kinda fear in her eyes that I saw… i got to admit it hurt like hell. I never would have though that wake my own mother would led me to experience something I never want it experience again.

But that is just along winded telling of the idea I had after this experience i guess. It had me think of what remains of Edith finch, A glorious game with a fantastic but intriguing story. I want take different story’s of my childhood and my siblings and cousins, aunt, uncles etc. and turn them into a game similar to that game. Do you know what i mean, like take the way the story of Edith finch and how it was told but turn it into one about my family, u know?

Idk this just one long rant/ talk about a potential game i could work on i guess. Idk. If anyone sees this and has any thoughts of their own they would like to add just reblog with them or send them in to me anyway you can I guess. Idk i just wanted this off my mind and in a write form.

[frostbite-yinny]

*gets inside the sanctuary* Hello ^^ I'd like to adopt a Pokemon... That would be able to be friends with a Hisuian Typhlosion (don't ask how idk how my jothonian quilava turned into a ancient Typhlosion) ,Driftblim, Noivern, Mimikyu and galvantula?

I'm currently in paldea for school reasons

Hey there! We can definitely find you a fit :D So, it seems that you are not looking for one specific type, has fully evolved Pokemon so I'm assuming you battle and you probably won't be able to take care of a Pokemon with heavy special needs since you are in a region for school and likely to move back and forth a lot.

With that in mind, I mostly went for paldean pokemon with a few mentions and suggestions of eggs at the end:

BEEP BEEP the dudunsparce: BEEP BEEP's egg (he is registered with full caps but responds to just beep) has been bought by a private elementary school. You know, small, generally weak, and lazy Pokemon. Perfect class pet, right? Wrong. BEEP BEEP wanted to battle the second he hatched, he was hungry, for blood. The school tried to keep him relatively satisfied by letting the students battle him but it was never enough for him. On a Monday, he was found fully evolved, sleeping in the classroom. This little psycho sneaked out every night to fight anything and everyone that he came across. Regular exercise and battling are a must for him to get ahead of his… destructive behavior.

Grafaiai A.K.A the little asshole: I talked about him in the shelter before, he is still here, please take him. This little shit used to have a teenager trainer who teaches him to flip people off. The teenage girl's mother dropped the grafaiai saying that it was a bad influence, like her 'little angel' wasn't the one who thought him to flip people off. So, yeah, I don't like him. I once had to come to the shelter at 3am cuz a newbie was freaking out about him getting sick because he has no idea what to do. Apparently, he was feeding a sick ponyta treats to raise its mood and it started to act sick for treats. I tried to scold him for his behavior. He flipped me off. Take him. (I don't actually hate him, he is adorable and deserves a good home, I'm just salty)

Dame Agatha the Tinkatuff: Dame Agatha is a Pokemon that earned the Dame title through hard work. She used to belong to a company that provided personal bodyguard services. She was dropped here after the company was sold to a bigger one and they made it private. She is a very loyal Pokemon. She is strong, level-headed, and even trained to not attack any steel types unless given the OK. I must warn you thought, she is pretty close to evolution.

Now, a few pokemon that I think could interest you: Blitz the Grumpig (he used to be a circus performer), a grimer, around 24 morelull (I hate shiny breeders with a burning passion) a VERY chonky Clodsire, a poor-sighted Rockruff and a Sentret

Finally, a few eggs if you are interested in those: A sunkern egg, 4 different eggs from Paldea (we have no idea whats in them), a Minccino egg, 2 larvesta eggs, a sneasel egg, a Flittle egg and what we think is a charcadet egg (might be any fire type)

And anyone else that is interested in adopting, can feel free to ask me for more or adopt these pokemon I put up here :D

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I havent done one of these in a little while but kdfjhsd I was tagged by @matchamabs !! thank you!! & its good to hear from u askjdfhds!!! it looks like fun so I figured I'd give it a go :) !

1: Three Ships

HMM ok! have to think kjfhdsfd Luke/Crow - theyre my funny little guys, silly little ship. No real reasoning behind it other than I thought "haha thats so funny" and then I got invested. The slowest burn imaginable that consists of them just joshing each other for over a decade

Sans/Grillby - also silly little ship I said haha and then it got real. 99% of my investment came from the fic Fired Up and Bone Weary by perniciousLizard which fundamentally changed the chemistry in my brain I think. Incredible incredible stuff

Maya/Franziska - IM SEeINg a pattern now of silly little ships that got away from me. theyre both just characters I adore and I gobbled up the little moments of respect and admiration they have for one another... weird teen girls rule da world

2: First Ever Ship Probably Yugi/Yami Yugi from yugioh fdjfkhsd I was obsessed w the show when I was younger (and still adore it) and used to hide drawings I did of them ~holding hands~ or ~hugging~ fkdjhfs... I used to get so excited watching the show I would make myself sick and have to sit on the other side of the room peeking out from behind the wall to watch it because I'd get too excited n sick kfjsdkfjsdhfa

3: Last Song Bark Like a God by Sloppy Jane - it rules, been daydreaming about fun au shit fdksjfsdf

4: Last Film Not exactly a film but me and my housemate binge watched The Fall of the House of Usher last night and it was a lot of fun! We were up till like 3am, got invested in figuring out the mystery and curious to see the next gnarly death haha good good fun it was

5: Currently Reading nothing currently! life has been kinda busy - so I'm mostly listening to long ass iceberg vids on yt to keep me occupied while I'm busy working sdkjfhdasjkfhsf

6: Currently Watching HMM i think the only thing im currently watching rn is JJK with one of my friends, we call n watch together every few weeks or so fdskjfh its fun its a fun show

7: Currently Consuming A chocolate cookie and a pumpkin spice cookie given to me by two different friends SJkhdasjkd my dinnar <3

8: Currently Craving mm i really want a GOOD shrimp pad thai.... or like. oysters. KJshdJASd want. seafood fkdjfhdsjkfsdf

HM ok i'll pick a few ppl to tag but no pressure :3 @atinygreendragon, @lavenderferns, @lesbotheclown, @notevenmaybe , @dragon-pawbs and anyone else who wants to jump on idk fdkjhfsd

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its currently 3am. I was trying to practice grayscale and values and stuff and ended up messily sketching altpunk!Mallymkun??? idk man... just take this