#idk im actually excited for the future for the first time in so longm | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

ghostboyhood · 16 days ago

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i think this is the first time in... as long as i can remember that life's actually going well. like sometimes life just Goes By until something bad happens or whatever... but like, ive had a lot of pretty good days in the past month ish? ive gone to two really amazing local shows recently, plus some other concerts, im seeing my favorite band next week, i might be making merch for another one of my favorite bands.... and yeah ive had shitty days and i got sick but like.. i remember those days well so the inbetween is just, that.. the in between... god idk becoming more involved in my local scene has been so fucking surreal..

#like its hasnt been great weeks back to back but #ive had really great experiences? yk #so like... those mainly stick out to me bc of my memory issues #and like.. ugh #i dont even know it just feels like things might actually start getting #fun #ever since i went to my first incubus concert i like... knew i wanted to fucking go to as many as possible #and thags coming true!#ive found so many local bands i absolutely fucking love and theyve become what i regularly listen to #which makes that so much easier #and im hoping to eventually get my license because like... i need to start drivinnt #which will make traveling easier #if i do get to sell shirt i can make money #and stickers #and just #idk im actually excited for the future for the first time in so longm #like.. i know So many people like concerts #but just like #theyve genuinely given me a reason to live #i love seeing people at shows and i love taking photos and meeting the bands and just everything about it #i met a guy whos been to two shows i have and i got his insta n like #that shows that like hey maybe i can find a group of people to go with yk?#even if its not him or whatever #i still want to try and make a movie one day but i really am considering working for bands and shit cause like #i dont want to be rich i wanna live w a couple people and travel and actually Live #as long as i can pay the bills and get gas im okay #i mean fuck im even willing to stick around my home town longer if it means that i get to do that shit yk?#idk im rambling but whatever #just like #fuck im so thankful to have found a place i genuinely enjoy and most of the time can express that pretty easily

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