#idk if this answers ur question i got a lil lost towards the end but like

[yyunari]

omg HAHAH yess epic winter is banger!! im thinking 🤓🤓 that ngl i dont really like that faybelle didn't really "learn"(?) much out of it? like the whole signing a deal without reading. like we can tell she's implied to BE better cus she's in the bff pics in crystal's room at the end but it feels so rushed? in a sense 🤠🤠🤠 like i get she's gonna be a villain eventually but like man come on do my girl some justice 😔😔👎 like when i saw the outfits when i was a wee lil kid i was like THIS IS THE MOST GORGEOUS THING I HAVE EVER SEEN!!! esp faybelle's and her crystal wings i need to kiss whoever thought of that that was GENIUS 🤯🤯🤩🤩

ok yes but it feel like jackie frost and northwind's takeover of the snow kingdom was ALSO rushed like the ppl were fs like "OH HECK WE HAVE NO MORE TIME EVERYONE GOGOGO LET GOOD WIN ASAP" like they were annoying but like not omg i NEED to punch them annoying ykwim AKKDLWG maybe it's just me LOL but yes way too wonderland is super banger too!!

esp that scene where raven returned the pages to each chara HELLOOOO that was so tear jerking i may or may not have shed a tear esp after apple's character development!! in the whole do you wonder song where they all got pretty wonderlanderful outfits idk maybe it's bc im just pessimistic but if i was darling and i didnt have a whole transformation with them and ended up in a tree and woke up only when they left idk how 15yo me would have took it LMAOO 😭😭😭 defo not well tbh i would have CRIED but darling is so cool i love her aaaaa (can she save me too i mean WHAT)

oh lord i lost the plot BUT yeah i fr thought eah was super super popular too but i guess not?? maybe bc we were young so we didn't know. also i can get why people find apple annoying but most of them don't talk about/see her development like ok it's not the best and she can grow more but her change and how much she grew is amazing esp for a 15-17y.o. like i just KNOW the same people who hate her are the same people who complain about characters who have no flaws like ???? how do u hate development but also hate no development can u pick a struggle 😭😭🤠🤠

but yes i did wanted to ask on ur opinion on the characters (like apple) too. maybe i should make a 20(?) questions thing for eah bc my brain is WORKING 😃👍 i agree that eah had so much potential esp for all the characters' development!! and also!! omg which dolls do u have :O

also girl (is this gendered term ok with u btw, bc i can stick with slayer if not!) did u leave ur computer on bc i slept at 5:30am (for me) and it's almost 3pm now and u are still online HELP 😭⁉️ and yes i DID sleep ok (lol <3 hrs gang wya) THIS GOT SO LONG LMFAO I THINK ITS GONNA BE SPLIT NAURRR (update it's not somehow :O) istg i NEED eah to come back apparently the last activity/media/wtv of it was back in 2018 can mattel use all the barbie profits to fund a reboot PLSSS 😔😔

but i would like to say thank u for returning the energy and answering everything om 😭😭🩵🩵 ive always struggled w that growing up woop so it feels weird but amazing owo (i didnt answer about niki Lol looking forward to the fic and the references!!also common niki L (affectionate) hehe 🥰🥰

yesss i completely get what ur saying i feel like towards the end of the series they definitely rushed some things but it still slapped🙏🙏🙏 THE OUTFITS WERE ALWAYS AMAZINGGG like for literally everything they somehow managed to make every character wear a drop dead gorgeous outfit like even to this day i want to steal all of their wardrobes🤓 faybelle was too queen for everyone to handle but no one’s ready for that 🫡

omfg and rosabella and daring😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 that shit was crazy to me when i was younger LMFAOOO esp since i was so apple and daring

SPEAKINF OF APPLE im so glad u brought her up because I COMPLETELY AGREE😭😭😭 i literally love apple so much and it pisses me off that people only pay attention to the side of her that’s pushy and stuff and don’t ever talk about her development like?? the thing about apple that most people don’t realize is that she never tried to hurt her friends and that she always only cared about raven, like she pushed raven to follow her destiny because she was worried that raven was going to poof and she didn’t want to see her friend disappear ☝️ and during true hearts day when ashlynn and hunter revealed they were dating apple was confused about it at first but she was willing to push aside all her previous biases against royals and rebels dating to try to understand ashlynn because she CARES about her 😔😔😔 it’s so sad to me that people only pay attention to the annoying side of apple and not the side of her that cares about her friends and is genuinely looking out for them ughhhh i love her sm her character development is so good

that 20 questions thing sounds so fun LOL u should definitely do it🙏 in terms of characters, my top three is ashlynn, cupid, and apple i love them sm☝️☝️☝️ my main character opinion is that apple isn’t the villain that most people make her out to be but this is random but i wish the creators made hunter huntsman hotter LMAOOOO cus i’ve never really found him attarcttive, i like his character and he’s good for ashlynn butttt at the same time ashlynn is really pretty and he’s kind of mid in terms of looks… but he’s nice😋

the dolls i had were all they in their regular outfits, i think it was apple, raven, maddie, and possibly blondie? i cant really remember if i had any more or not but those were the dolls i can think of, i also had other eah branded things because i was literally sooo obsessed like i had a diary that was rebel on one side and royal on the other, and it played the theme song but i lost it😭😭😭😭

yess girl ok with me since i do identify myself as female🙏🙏 i think tumblr just always says i’m active since it’s on my phone LOL idk discord does the same thing for some reason😵‍💫 and i’m glad u slept well!! istg eah needs to come back or i’ll cry😢 if they come back they should do a live action and i will literally audition to be ashlynn🙏🙏 idc that she’s supposed to be white i’ll be the first asian ashlynn 😜😜

and omg im glad i always try to answer everything when i’m having a conversation with people because i know what it feels like for things to be ignored and i hated that feeling so🙏 but yes look forward to the fic bc i literally finished it today WOO WOO it’s all coming together😍😍😍☝️

[phoebehalliwell]

I liked the Wyatt is evil, because this dude is literally invincible and his family helps people that we have proof would turn on them at any given chance, and everyone he knows suffers from this duty (and his aunts hate magic a lot around him), and even the people on the “good” side are awful (elders) so of course he went fuck it I’m protecting them but then we find out it’s because some elder took him when he was one, and then nothing else.

honestly i can’t say i agree wyatt being evil is like a nice plot twist esp with the whole chris thing but like you know. really our root our tether to the story is like piper (& phoebe & paige) like to us wyatt isn’t wyatt, he’s piper’s son, especially bc the pregnancy was a big deal and the birth was a big deal and then like as a baby wyatt’s still a big deal like chris can be a character bc he’s like an adult with his own agenda and motivations and personality but wyatt to us is almost solely an extension of piper & leo. and like, god do we root for piper and leo. in s1 you’re like omg how cute in s2 you’re like ew why is dan still here Can We Bring Leo Back Now in s3 they finally get married!! in s4 in s5 in s6 etc. like they are made out to be like true love like soulmates the epitome of all things good & wyatt is the product of that. and once again i’m taking nature vs nurture bc i have never taken a psych class and this is literally all i know about child psychology but if we look at the nature side both piper and leo are these great forces of good known for their capacity to care patty tells piper you’re the heart of this family leo was literally such a good person they made him an angel like you are not starting out tabula rasa here you are starting out bent on good And Then over to nurture they love wyatt and you know they’d try their best to raise him and they really really wanted a kid and they had wyatt like i get what you’re saying about the charmed ones’ complex relationship with magic and also the elders are dickwads but it’s like. at worst i think he’d be like piper where he’d just tell the elders to go fuck off and would try to live a relatively normal life but i don’t think any of him would be geared towards evil. i think you know there are maybe some conditions that yield an evil wyatt (e.g. being endlessly tortured while a grown man and beacon of good tries to kill you for years) but i think in general he really is raised & also genetically predisposed if u believe in that to see the good. when piper’s at her lowest and is like fuck it the source can do whatever he wants i just want to be left alone i want no part in this game she still isn’t evil. at worst i think we get an insanely apathetically wyatt who no longer believes in the good in the world, but i don’t think he would be one who ever seeks out destruction bc like That’s Not The Vibe y’know. like okay clearly some situations might yield that but like in general if you you know like don’t believe in the loyalties of others due to frequent betrayals and you see the harm magic has done and the paragons of good magic are all assholes, would your conclusion really be okay this blows, time to make it worse? or would it be like y’know what fuck you don’t call me i’m out. but even to reach an apathetic wyatt roaming the world unfeeling like some old god i think we still have to sprinkle in a health dose of trauma to reach that state. i think in the strong majority of realities, wyatt sits firmly in good.

[seijorhi]

asks :))

what i have learned today is that y’all wanna get fucked by some monsters...

What does nostos mean? What language is it in? ���� also I of course loved it, mind blown as usual queen

it’s ancient greek! it means homecoming, the idea of a triumphant return home for the hero after a long journey. i found it through looking at the root of nostalgia. in this fic of course it’s kind of a grim tongue in cheek play on it. the reader’s coming back to the mountains, but she’s running away after a bad breakup, and the welcome she gets is... shall we say less than ideal haha

Just read nostos-

First of all as a person who reads monster shit- hell ya. Mhm. That’s some good shit right there. That was DELICIOUS horror. It actually had me a bit nervous and afraid to read what was gonna happen next 😳

Secondly- omg I wanna know what happened next (at the end) 👀 know what I mean??? 😼

ANYWAY AS ALWAYS you never disappoint and your writing is fantastic (if/when you write horror yandere stuff again I’ll be there- frothing at the mouth. A+++++ work ILY💖)

you want me to write the monster porn, just say it bby ghfjdkshgfjkd but ty

Omfg that fic was so good!

Did the readers mom know about monster kuroo?? Or was she just worried because of the previous murder? And did Kuroo somehow manipulate reader into coming back to the forest or was it just a big coincidence? (👁👄👁 there's no such thing as a coincidence)

Looking forward to your future work <3

ty nonnie!! i didn’t have the right space for it, but after kohsuke was ripped apart and eaten kuroo stayed by the reader’s side until late in the night, only disappearing when he heard the reader’s parents/search party approaching. they found her lying in pools of blood (and scattered half eaten body parts), shaking and unresponsive – they knew no animal could’ve done something like that. so they knew something lurked in those woods, but considering the reader had repressed the memories, her mom couldn’t just come out and say it <33

You are an AMAZING horror writer!!!

The uneasiness I got from the conversations with the mom is just *chefs kiss*

A+++++

ahh thank you!! horror is such a hard genre to write because i’m never sure if the suspense and everything’s gonna hit right haha

I read Nostos before going to sleep last night and at the time I was like “sure hope this doesn’t give me nightmares” and thankfully it didn’t lol. But I think I’m willing to take that chance again because it’s so GOOD and I think I’m just going to have to relive it – @ohno-otome

fhdjgbfhjkdfn i’m glad it didn’t give you nightmares bby!! but i also appreciate that haha, i’m an absolute wimp with scary movies and stuff but i just can’t stop watching them haha

I just wanna say that I was listening to "You're a psychotic villain playlist" on youtube while reading Kuroo's oneshot and I can't explain the emotions I felt, but I'd let Kuroo do things to me asdfghjkl – @itishebihime-samaforyou

ooh nice! sometimes the right playlist makes things doubly as fun haha

OH MY GOD!?!?! Nostos was soooo GOOD?!?!? Like it was so creepy (but in a good way), and scary and suspenseful!! And the ending!?!? Omggg honestly one my fav fics from you!! You did my mans Kuroo justice 🥺💖💕

TYYYYYYY i was genuinely concerned i was gonna scare everybody off haha

Ah! The new fic! Chiefs kiss! Magnificent! Bravo!🧚‍♀️✨🧞‍♀️🦖🦭🌹💫

tysm nonnie!!! <33

i’m pretty sure i’m in the same/similar timezone as you? and i do be staying up late to be one of the first to read your fics (i usually stay up late anyways). so imagine my surprise when i see you post in the afternoon. in conclusion, whether you post to align with your european and american readers’ timezone, my gmt+10 arse will still be one of the first to read your fics. also nostos sjdufigyyjf i have to admit, i recently just found out about monster fucking and nostos scratched the itch😫 i feel bad for kohsuke though

bby i always post at like 2-4 in the morning please get some sleep!! the fics will be there in the morning lmao. i kinda low key forget about my aussie/gmt+10 followers because i think there’s like... 3 of you haha

Honestly if i could give u a dollar everytime i got off to your fics, you'd probably be rich by now

lmao the idea that people find my fics hot enough to get off to still blows my mind lol

your newest kuroo fic was so SO good!! its totally okay if you dont want to answer this so you can keep things ambiguous but is monster kuroo planning on killing the reader after he's...done with them

thank you, bby!! but no, monster kuroo isn’t gonna eat her – he’s had plenty of chances to do that if that’s what he wanted, but he has other plans for the poor reader

RHI, I WANT TO STATE FOR THE RECORD THAT I AM OKAY WITH MORE MONSTER FUCKING IN THE FUTURE. i also want to say im not a monster fucker, but that just feels like a lie at this point. okay, now that that's off my chest, i love it. the mystery, the connections of kuroo to a cat. kuroo's probably gonna go and batter around his prey once they're under his grip like my cat does. hopefully the reader will come out somewhat unscathed, if they are ever allowed to leave 😌 love this, love how different it is, the way kuroo just tries to weasel in. very monster and yandere vibes, very you. have i said i love this yet?? id willingly let him get me drunk on his cock, maybe never leave the peace of the mountains again

‘i want to say that i’m not a monster fucker’ bby the denial will get you nowhere haha. just lean in and embrace it hgfjkdlkfgjnkdl ahh but thank you this is such a sweet ask ILY!!!

Omg omg the monster thing kuroo was in ur latest fic is so familiar to me abdhdmfnjfjf. I remember being told abt a monster with VERY SIMILAR characteristics to it (aka the not being able to go inside a house unless invited and using fire to lure ppl out) AND JFC IT TERRIFIED ME. Esp how when i told ppl around me and they didnt recognize what it was, but it was somehow known to the kid that told me abt it.

(Some ppl thought it was familiar but still didnt know what it was)

Do u know what im talking abt? Hopefully u do

-🥚

GHFJDK so the monster in this is kind of based off the nekomata spirit in japanese folklore - they can appear like people, torment victims by reanimating the corpses of their loved ones, they’ve been blamed for forest fires, so it was just fun to use that as a basis and then go buck wild haha. anyway thanks for the ask bby!

Rest In Peace Kohsuke, you would’ve loved Haikyuu season 5😔✊– @joyvstheworld

poor kohsuke deserved better, i’m just mean to the oc’s i throw into fics haha

Monsterfucking ❤❤❤❤❤❤ a little annoyed you're making me simp for yan Kuroo though (a vibe tho tbh). You're so extremely talented!!!! &

This is probably a stupid question, but how did Kageyama react when he couldn't find y/n? How is life with yan Suga? I imagine probably awful BUT yknow maybe the stockholm syndrome set in fast lmao. Sorry, I'm going on a binge reading your stuff. - @oracleofdin

i will not apologise for making you simp for kuroo he deserves it the man’s a snacc. and as far as your second question, suga’s a very caring, very smothering kinda yandere, so i guess in some ways it’s better than what the reader had with kageyama but... pick your poison haha

That was so good. I’m so shook rn I can’t comprehend anything but how good that was and how good a writer you are

TYSM NONNIE!!! <33

Ok, so, I just read Final Girl and the lil' ticket addition to it and just---

Well, ok I've been playing Dead by Daylight a lot lately? And I'm just picturing Tetsu as the newest killer "The Trickster" and I'm positively RANDY.

Your writing is ALREADY thirst inducing and just as satisfying, but this has SENT ME- If you're not familiar, please...

https://youtu.be/iowkiPobYYQ

Understand my thirst. (I'd also like to clarify, I use a different skin for him that gives him black hair and he looks like Kuroo with an undercut.)

~ @the-casual-hedonist 🌸

i love how feral y’all got for final girl kuroo. like bo and akaashi had his fans, but i put a spiked bat in kuroo’s hands and y’all lost your goddamn minds and i love to see it. fghdjkvhfjdkls thanks for the ask bby

idk why but I love preggo reader as long as I don't pretend it's me 😢✋ I hate babies n pregnancy anywhere else other than horny haikyuu fics

i think that’s a valid thing for a lot of fans. the idea of breeding is sexy, the actual getting pregnant and having a kid thing... not so much. but especially with non-con scenario’s, it’s more about the aspect on control than the actual desire to have kids. but yeah, i feel you

Sorry to bother but uh was just wondering in fracture did Osamu kill his wife or was it actually an “unfortunate event” ? Love your work btw!!

he most certainly did :))

LMFAO RHI i totally get not liking cheating/infidelity fics (towards reader) bc IT HIRTS ME SO BAD I CANNOT HANDLE THOSE.

id be reading fics those fics like: tf you mean my yandere aimt gonna baby me and only want me??🤨🤨🤨⁉️‼️

EXACTLY! listen i get that it’s a fucked up fantasy, but in my fucked up fantasy you damn well better have the decency to be loyal smh

Finders keepers is the most beautiful thing I've read by you: I read it twice like I normally do and here's what I figured out the second time (that's when I analyze it and find the little tidbits of things that are much darker than they appear (: )

To start I LOVE THE DETAILS OF THEM NEVER TEACHING READER ANYTHING- at first I assumed "oh they might see her as a little sister or child or something" but realized thAT WAS THE ISSUE!! they infantilize her and isolate her from everyone but her group. the small details like that are what make the story amazing 😎💅

ahh thank you so much, nonnie!! pls this is making me soft 🥺

I just wanted to stop by and say that I love your writing and I hope you're doing well!!! Drink plenty of water and keep up the amazing work :) but seriously you're one of the best fanfic writers I've seen on tumblr! I read your "Imitation" piece about kuroo and i keep coming back to it, it's so good! I did want to ask if you think it'd be possible for the reader to ever escape with the baby (or at least attempt to). Or if Kenma would "help" at all just to put an end to kuroo's antics lmao

kenma would in no way help the reader, and tbh by that point if kuroo did get her pregnant, she’d be far too emotionally dependant on him to actually even want to leave, but thanks for the ask!

You know who I think would be a perfect Yandere in the JJK world? Choso.

🚨Spoilers Ahead🚨

After being locked in a glass jar for however long he was, and all that happened with his brothers, I feel like he would absolutely never let his darling out of his sight. He would be possessive. Obsessive. And Oh So delusional. Sure he’d be your anything - he truly is a softy - but to what end?🤤

choso would make an excellent yandere, ngl 😌

what au/troupe of your fav character(s) that you have written do you like the most?

(rlly hope this makes sense🙏)

i am always a slut for soulmate au’s :))

[pokefanbri]

Im still fucking fighting, i keep telling myself im not gonna let go & Fuck everyone else who thinks I should. But sometimes there's the opposite, im just lost & idk what to do....hes not gonna come back...so why should I bother to keep fighting 😔 If someone asks me...

Are they worth it? Absolutely. Because theres always room for improvement & growth, & we've been doing that apart for ourselves now for 7months. Did they give u the respect and attention u deserved? Are we not more valuable than that? Hell no & hell yes lol. Look I was happy just doing that for him but yea when it came to me honestly it was like nah im good 😒 & i know how fucked up it is that id go along with his selfishness but I did. I did deserve better & he knows I did... i just didnt wanna lose him & did anything he needed me for... but I ended up losing him anyway 😔 theres a reason why u work on that kinda shit & grow together as you go so everyone is happy, its fair to say we both lost sight...I was eager to learn everything about him cuz I wanted to be closer...but I was blocked out & pushed away, he wouldn't open up & talk to me or show feelings for anything, even of me when he used to all the time...like he was scared of being too attached or didnt want to get hurt..he didnt trust me or was afraid to show his true self or show any emotion that'd be viewed as weak due to the typical be a man complex. Idk I was confused & didnt know what was needed to help fix things so yea i walked on eggshells & me showing affection of my own free will was out of the question most of the time...I couldn't touch him unless he wanted me to & rare occurrences for my own satisfaction. Its the reason why I cried all the damn time, I felt avoided & unwanted because my own attention lacked pretty badly. How tf do I love a fucknugget bobblehead like that lmao, cuz I dont give 2 flying fucks he was my man ok! & being close enough to him made me happy enough I guess, I still looked at him like he was my world even if I wanted to slap him for making me feel so lonely at the same time. I admit his needs came b4 mine, he liked it more that way & I took care of him more than I did myself. But if he had more effort to take care of my needs in turn & I were happier than I was, & us happy at the same time, then maybe I wouldn't be so hard on myself...cry all the time & smoke like a chimney 🙁

I still don't fully understand why he held back, communicating with me on a deeper level is supposed to be natural & pretty much all normal couples show an appropriate amount of affection & understanding to eachother....but it was kept burried...was he afraid id hate him, judge him, make fun? No, id love him even more! Idc how dark he may think he is or whatever past bs he's gone through or even if he was lying about anything...its okay it can't hurt u anymore dear & we can overcome it just tell me what it is thats lacking & let's fix this. Id say "sit down babe, tell me everything, whats on your mind, what can I do to help 😊" & id give him the most gentle kiss on the forehead. I'd do anything to see a smile from that face & it makes me smile too. I want to help him, he needs somebody to hold just as much as I do cuz the fact of the matter is babe, he's just as broken as I am, we both need someone to put back our pieces & become whole again...after we try doing it solo it can only go so far b4 u want that physical presence of another again to help u more so. He keeps everything bottled up & especially didnt let me see what was happening to him I had no clue, if he didnt like talking to anyone he at least had me but still kept me away from him, whatever it was festered in him & he changed his whole demeanor toward me, he became colder & shut me out for good 😔 Making me feel even more unwanted. We didnt help eachother through our problems & I really wanted to, I wanted to save us for the longest time way b4 the end. Idk maybe if he put in as much effort & we knew how to function better together instead of a Corolla with just 2 wheels then we'd probably be fine...& our suspension wouldn't be dragging on the asphalt 😂 Its not all on him for fault, I take equal amount of responsibility, we failed eachother, we didn't know wtf we were doing & 9/10 it was just friends with benefits with only 1 of us in love & attached, & the other not really caring with side pieces to chat with 🤷‍♀️

U know what 🤬 They're right, he's right, & now I'm actually starting to accept it the more I write. Maybe just maybe,HE DOESN'T DESERVE ME AT ALL. Im still upset and frustrated. To answer the question again from earlier no maybe he's not worth it. I suffered through his bs and 10fold heartbreak afterward!! If he can't own up, right his wrongs & bring us both peace then no he's not worth suffering for afterall, and ive been loving the wrong soul this whole damn time 😣 He kicked me to the curb cuz he a fucking coward! He cant admit his wrongdoings, ask for forgiveness, say im sorry or actually put the tiniest bit of effort into a relationship to make it work, but instead disposes of me so he wouldn't have to confront any of it & just continue on like nothing happened are fucking kidding me!!?? I thought u were smarter than this, its beneath you to just run away & pretend I never mattered to you when we both know I did!!!....& im crying again. Im still feeling the betrayal apparently, ill never be able to trust him fully again anyway, let alone other men now. I dont hate you, I love you very much. But I hate the evil from you that you've shown me. I should've known honestly, I was naive to see all types of disrespect but this was the worst part. I still love him but i do deserve better than that & I hope he's changed his ways. Trust a guy with a high track record of ladies & a handful of em in their hand..what u think 🤔 can trust be gained back? Can I get over the bad uncalled for lying shit he's said about me to other women to make himself look better? Idk 🤷‍♀️ I haven't been able to rest without closure for so long, but enough is enough im making my own. You're absolutely right, you'd just manipulate me further, I thought maybe we could be better than before...round 2 at some point in the future...but maybe we're not salvageable after all. Thats up to u, I did everything I could, but now if u were to ever come back idk if I'd jump into your arms or slam the door in your face, I just dont know. Its better that I try never speaking of u again, or think of you for as long as I can so that I can heal better....cuz loving you even after the fact is tearing me apart & making me lose focus on what matters more, myself. I fought valiantly as long as I could, 7 months is a long time to not shut up about u lol.. maybe you've been hearing me I wouldn't know. I have to force it or ill never be able to, ill still silently grieve but as much as it hurts, Its time. U were my rock, an asshole but a good one, the best gamer I got to know, a boss at alot of things, with the cutest lil butt, & somehow the love of my life. Other than maybe something valentines or anniv related in Feb ofcourse....Ur getting what u wanted, I have to do whats best for me now, I have to let u go. I held on for so long but Im really tired & emotionally drained, im just torturing myself when i need to stop, im defeated, nobody won anything, everyone got hurt in 2020 why should our relationship be any different, id say we gave it our all be we both know we didnt. This hurts me so much to do, like my heart is breaking again. Bye babe, I love you with all my heart. 💋💞 💟

I tried to do what I could but if he left, I just gotta try to move on. If I take him back, I gotta consider how that's gonna look like & if I really got past the damage he did....obviously theres some I still haven't 😔 Its what im telling myself while trying to move past this. Others going through the same...We're in love and they ain't. We can't control their actions but we can control our actions. Im not a toxic person..only to myself, I love with all my heart, nobody bothers to understand...they just judge

[survivorsolomonislands]

Final Episode “Im pretty exhausted from this game anyways” (Aromal)

So I've now officially reached my past best placement - 5th in Malaysia!! And with my Hidden Immunity Idol, I'm set to beat it, and make it to F4 where the Rites of Passage are. Making Rites of Passage is honestly always one of my BIG goals every time I play so FINALLY getting to reach that mark is absolutely HUGE. In other news, RTP called me out on his way out the door, but nobody really paid it any heed - maybe bc he pissed everybody off so much?? Anyways, I'm really set to make the end of this game even WITHOUT my HII. So now the real determinant is whether or not I win Individual Immunity again. If I do, I'll go with Aro and Luca's plan to ice Allie, convince Willow... but then give Allie the Idol, vote for Luca, and get his ass outta here, forcing Aro to need my vote at F4 and forcing a tie. Hopefully. Now that I'm thinking about it, there's nothing stopping Allie/Aro/Willow from icing ME at that point, but... if they did... nvm. I don't think that they would. If I'm not immune, the Idol is all mine, but who gets voted out I'm still undecided on. Is the pair of Allie and Willow really a threat when they want to get to the end with me, or when Willow's intended F3 is with myself and Aro? If that's the case, why lose Allie now and risk underdog Luca making the end and picking up easy votes like Jacob, Johnny, and RTP. Looking at FTC, I've got Dana and Matt on lock, and I really do think I could get Zak even against Aro. I might have a shot at Johnny, I think RTP will vote for me, Jacob and LA are question marks that I lean against me, and I'd say Lexi doesn't vote for me like... ever. This is gonna get so spicy and I can fucking taste the victory. It's SO DAMN CLOSE and I've worked SO DAMN HARD and I don't wanna get iced when it's right around the corner. Fuck. I need this. I fucking need this.

With Ryan gone, the game is nearing the end. Right now it's me and Aromal trying to flip Willow onto Mitchell. Otherwise, we've lost this game.

Maaaan Im so nervous for this tribal. Me and Luca are definitely voting for Mitchell but we have to be careful in trying to swing Allie or Willow otherwise this is going to blow up in our faces.

It's been five or so days since our last tribal so everybody was getting stir crazy, but now it's all come to a head!! Willow won immunity, which was fine, bc the two targets were Allie and Luca. Now I'd harbored thoughts about making a #bigmove by making everyone vote for Allie and then Idoling her but... that's a reckless and unnecessary big move that paints me as an even bigger target than I know myself to be while also causing distrust among my peers. So Luca's gonna go home 4-1, I'm gonna use my Idol to guarantee myself F4 even though I won't receive a single vote, and then I'm one challenge win away from the FTC, where I'd like to think that I will win. At the F4, I'm set - I have a F3 with Aro and Willow that I intend to stick to, but I ALSO have a F3 with Allie and Willow, so should Allie win immunity I'll be DANCIN. I've worked to get to the point where everyone in the game likes me and trusts me, and zooweemama I can't believe I'm actually gonna win. I've come this close and convinced myself that it's my time, so if it's not, I'm gonna be heartbroken. I've put so much into this game and it's gonna all pay off, I just KNOW that it will. I wanna follow in the footsteps of Jenn and Jimmy who made FTC post-Malaysia, and I wanna join Kait and Jenn as Malaysia winners. It's gonna be my time. KNOW that - it's gonna be my time.

I'm shitting myself. I'm terrified of what Mitchell's reaction is gonna be, Im terrified about him having a potential idol, I'm terrified of Willow(our swing vote)  snitching to him, FUCK Willow just messaged me saying she was really hesitant about voting Mitchell. I don't wanna push too hard but it has to be done otherwise I am going to get absolutely blasted at final tribal. I'm fairly confident about making it to final tribal, but I'm debating who I have a better chance with. I'm leaning towards taking Willow and Allie right now because Luca has the underdog thing going for him but ahh its so difficult. I just wanna get this season over withhh

OH MY GOD THAT CHALLENGE WAS WILD! Half of the things didn't make sense, and I didn't know what I was doing 90% of the time, but I still somehow won immunity which is crazy! This literally means I'm guaranteed f4 which is crazy, like I never actually thought I would make it this far in my first org ever. Tonight I think pretty much everyone is gonna vote for Mitchell, which I guess is what I wanted, since he's my biggest threat. But I'm still sorta sad about it bc I love Mitchell, he's been one of my closest allies since the beginning of this game on nuMakira. I mean I need to do it to better myself in this game, bc I might actually have a shot at winning but idk I'm still kinda sad about it. I hope he can understand though and that we can be friends, but I have a feeling he might be sorta mad. I also think he might have an idol, bc he didn't really give me a direct answer and he lied about it last time, so I guess at this point I just need to hope he doesn't have an idol, or that he doesn't play it, bc if he does then I guess I'm screwed.  

Why do I have a funny feeling I'm getting Bret Labelle'd out tonight? Mitchell is the biggest threat, Willow! Don't pull a Hannah

i told them all after last tribal, "I hope y'all ready for shit to get messy bc my ass is winning final immunity challenge." and my ass DID. my ass did THAT. i have fucking made it to day 39. i'm not one to get emotional, but i've been playing ORGs for a few years now. not like other people, who always jump into them - i've done like one ORG every school year for a few years. this is my seventh total. and i made it to the end my very first one, back when I still played entirely over email, and lost to an inactive at the final tribal. and it's eaten away at me since. how could i work so hard and come so close just to fall short to that? but that was a different time and a different me, and i finally fucking did it again. 2nd, 11th, 9th, 5th, 12th, 5th... and now at least 3rd. I fucking made it here again and I can't believe it. Shout-out to Allie - I didn't think I had a shot once we got to the last stage. I was in so much pain and didn't know how much fight I had left in me but goddamn I pulled it off like i said i was gonna and now my ass can't be grassed and my ass in the final three i can't describe what this is like. i'm sure the org community can relate as a whole to wanting something so bad, and working so hard to make it happen, and now to have your chance, your shot, be actualized... it's incredible. it's a phenomenal feeling and i really hope i can now seal the deal and pull this shit off. it's not a guarantee. and hell, i still don't even know who i'm voting for. but i did it. i fucking DID THAT. mitchell kalabang fucking did that and all these fake killas don't know who the fuck they made the mistake of trying to ice. you can't ice fire and that's exactly why you don't dance with fire, bc ur ass is gonna get BURNED and mitchell kalabang is a fucking GOLDEN GOD

(later)

So after last tribal when they tried to ICE MY ASS i went around very boldly telling everyone that i was gonna win FIC and they better get their shit straightened out for when that happens. allie and i make a deal to vote out willow, i focus all my plans on winning, and then BAM surprise it fuckin HAPPENS and now i am left with a choice to make - do i vote out willow or do i vote out allie? and while i'm weighing this choice, willow for a stronger story should she be able to articulate it and allie for having what i perceive to be more friends and a stronger perception among the jurors, aro asks me to vote him off i say "...what" and he says that he doesn't want to be a FTC loser, and that he'll support me on the jury. he knows he's gonna lose and doesn't want to waste time on all the proceedings, so he'd rather help me win. and that sounds GREAT. that puts like 4 votes i expect on the jury - dana, matt, zak, and aro. if i can grab 1 more, i doubt willow/allie can grab all the other 5 - i win. and i'm like "...aro if u want this u got it bud" And then comes the hard part of convincing willow/allie to do it. have they really been #secretpairbewaring their way through this game? that's a possibility, but i think both of them rightfully perceive each other to be their biggest threat that they can vote for. we all know aro is going to lose. so with allie, it's easier - she says she didn't want to have to vote out willow anyways and is ok with voting out aro. and then miss willow tries hard to convince me to grass allie's ass anyways, so i strong-arm her a lil bit. say if i vote aro, and she and allie vote each other, she's playing russian roulette - aro either votes for her or allie, and if her gambit to ice allie works, that's fine and dandy... but there's a 50% chance she gets iced herself. thus, the only way to save herself is in doing what i want by voting out aro. and willow is understandably not fully in love with this plan, and she just asked me if i'm doing this to split jurors' votes between allie and herself. that's partially true - it's certainly a benefit. but willow is in no position to fight with me here, and she's particularly in no position to actually DO anything about it. sure, i know that aro is throwing his vote to allie, but SHE doesn't. as far as she knows, doing what i want guarantees herself a worst-case tie and a best-case F3 spot. if she does something else, she might vote herself out. she doesn't have a choice. winning FIC gives you so much fucking power and i genuinely believe that i can take any of these fools in the F3 so if they wanna be stupid and gamble with their lives then they can go right ahead and grass they own asses but y'all can't ice a golden fuckin god

So I feel like Im pretty much done. Id rather get 4th than go through FTC and get like one vote. I tried my hardest to stop Mitchell but unfortunately it didnt work out. Oh well, Im pretty exhausted from this game anyways.

Ahh so Mitchell winning the FIC wasn't the greatest scenario that could have happened but whatever. I'm a little dissapointed in myself that I accidentally talked but I can't go back now. Anyway I don't really have any shot at winning this game anymore So I guess I'm just gonna go with everyone else and vote out Aro tonight, even though Aro is the one with the least amount of chance of winning (imo). Mitchell is saying that he wants to vote out Aro this round bc he thinks he's some secret threat, and like yeah Aro has played an alright strategic game but I don't think he's made enough social connections. Anyway I think the real reason Mitchell wants Aro out this round is bc at FTC the people who are mad at Mitchell might split the votes between me and Allie. Anyway if Mitchell weren't here then I might have an okay shot at winning this game but now I don't. So congrats Mitchell Kalabang on winning Solomon Islands! Also since this is probably going to be my last confessional I just wanted to say that I had an amazing time playing this game! I've met a bunch of wonderful people and it was my first org ever and I plan on continuing to play more orgs!

can't BELIEVE we're starting the FINAL TRIBAL COUNCIL FJWRIUHDsnfiucrehdsnuifvhrenfsfchrd I worked so fuckin hard and so fuckin long and we're here. I I expect to get Dana, Matt, Zak, and Aro... that's 4/10. I just need to pull one more, which can prob come from RTP or Luca... and I don't think Willow/Allie are getting 5 votes so ! LA maybe, but Lex and Jacob are pretty much gone, and Johnny... who knows. But it's been a wild fuckin ride from food poisoning to 2 idol plays to 2 individual immunities to the final fuckin three. Hosts, miss willow, miss allie... it's been a wild ride. Good luck and good RIDDANCE

FINAL 3!! I never thought I would make it this far, I know Im not gonna win but I had a blast thank you!