#idk if the readmore would appear on a reblog lol

[bunkernine]

yeah okay, forbidden au that shouldn’t have been typed, but those parallel posts with the lost trio and the original trio keep bugging me, because leo keeps switching with his comparisons and foils to percy and annabeth.... anyway, ta da, leo being adopted by percabeth after his mom dies. 

(obvs percabeth is older) but it would be hilarious that percy and annabeth try to get away from the gods and their nonsense, only to adopt this kid and go “hmmm how cool, almost like fate” and raise him, only to get a phone call from chiron 8 years later that some hephaestus kid recognized some pictures and spray painted percy’s old bunk in retaliation. i’m sure they assumed he was a demigod (and there’s an argument between the two about if they should tell leo or not, percy says yes but annie says no) but figured he was hermes or athena. they don’t know about the fire because leo never used it after his mom’s death, so that’s a surprise.

now this action takes percabeth out of the great prophecy, but still keeps them linked to hoo. percy and annie probably dicsipline him more, but leo still has his humor, not to hide from the pain (i mean, maybe a little of that, he’ll never forget his birth mom), but because his dad is a dork, but he’s also way more practical and knows a few fight/escape skills cause his mom is a badass. and not to play on those cheesy *percababy fics* (but im totally going to lmao) leo hits chb and goes “???? no way thats my dad, he literally bakes blue cookies, he’s too lame to fight ares” but now he had the angst of feeling lied to: (”Why didn’t you tell me I was a demigod? Was this some trick? What else are you hiding?”)

anyway, the lost hero quest is kinda interesting too cause leo feels like he has to live up to these big names and we already know the kid is insecure as FUCK, so this doesn’t bode well. probably doesn’t help that he’s on a quest with jason the son of ZEUS and piper with this kick ass charmspeak... leo’s supposed to know what to do because of his parents, but doesn’t because they didn’t tell him and he’s kinda annoyed. (anyway, there’s some really nice moment where hephaestus and leo meets, and leo kinda just thinks “mmm yeah so kinda happy percy was there for me instead of this guy”)

i can only imagine percabeth’s reaction to when they find out leo’s best friends are the kids of jupiter and aphrodite. jason’s always like “dude i don’t think your parents like me” and leo’s just “oh yeah my dad thinks ur hella sketchy lol whoops”, but annabeth finds piper to be the more reasonable and trustworthy of the group. i’d like to imagine that leo invites them for dinner at some point, and percy is grumpy at jason, but annabeth is kinda starstruck at tristan mclean (she hides it really well tho) ALSO GRANDMA SALLY oooooOOOOO ahh

anyway, as for the rest of the quest. percy and annie are FURIOUS that their kid is involved with the prophecy and storm to olympus cause... they’re like that. Like, those two SPECIFICALLY wanted to keep away from this demigod mess, and that tlh quest was cute and all, but the GREAT PROPHECY???? not sure where that leads but it’s probably interesting hehe. 

oh. and then. they let their kid go on this stupid ship they were so proud of him making (leo and annabeth had so much fun designing it together), and leo fucking... dies. imagine the fucking HELL released that they let their kid go on this stupid quest that they didn’t want him to go on, and he fought for the gods, and he DIES??? the gods just let him DIE???? yeah, percabeth is fucking mad. 

anyway, didn’t think anything else through, but i gotta say that nico is a camp counselor and he’s happy and a dork, and idk, thalia and jason just have a really big age gap, don’t judge. if this au was valgrace it’ll be fucking hilarious, like percy just going “him? really? him? you sure? i mean... him????”

i think the reason why i like this is because percabeth really tried to get away from it all, but the gods kept pulling them back, and there’s something really awful about it. like.... that’s what the gods do- once you’re a demigod, that’s your entire life. anyway, leo wouldn’t feel so lonely but his arc is still a little shifted and he’s not so whiny. fuck caleo but the leo going to calypso’s and then saying YOU KISSED MY DAD? *puke* is funny at first, but also awful that calypso had no idea how long it’s been since percy once stepped on her shores, and he must’ve forgotten about her (he didn’t, leo recognizes her flowers from the ones growing in the apartment, but he’s too dumb to actually say that)... you know... the more i think about this, the less crazy i feel and like... this kinda hits just a little

oh my god i have absolutely awful au rolling in my head mmm you're going to dislike it

[lynxandbadger]

hey yall you may or may not have noticed that i havent been on a lot lately and now the mukbang video and some other things in my life have made me decide to go on an indefinite hiatus from tumblr. i might occasionally post an edit or something every now and again, but i wont actually be on reblogging things or anything so see you all again who knows when. i might come back someday or maybe not idk but thanks for being there for me and showing me the phandom side of tumblr, i’ve met some really great people here and if you’re wondering if i mean you, i absolutely do, youre all incredible <3

this will probably get long and for that i apologize, but im a sentimental person and i cant leave without a proper goodbye. im putting it under a readmore so you dont have to suffer through it if you dont want to lol

before i get heavy with the unnecessary backstory, let me just thank you all so much for following me. ive only had this blog for less than a year but you guys have already shown me so much love and that means so much to me. i met a lot of good people here in the phandom and i feel sorry that i never talked to more of you. words dont even begin to cover how thankful i am to have gotten to interact with all of you <3

okay next of all this is not because of something bad, its actually bc i feel like ive outgrown tumblr? lol but like i said this is gonna be long and youre the one who clicked on the readmore so youre committed sorry alsfdkjalgh anyway yo long backstory warning here we go okay so like if you saw that super long reflection post i made like two months or whenever, you will know that i used to have a tumblr four years ago and tldr i left it and put it on a pedestal for all these years and it wasnt until two months ago when i went back through the entire thing that i realized i had just romanticized it blah blah weve been over this. my point is, tumblr for me has always been an escape from real life and a place where i could talk to people because in real life there was no one for me to interact with at all. but now,,,,,,, i dont really need that. im in college. i see and talk to people usually almost every day. im no longer an isolated little girl stuck in her room all day.

now that im in college, i realized i am in control of my own life. things have been happening and ive been doing things ive never even imagined possible. i am a human with one life and its up to me to make it the best life i can. its my birthday today and i am starting on a new decade of my life whether i want to or not. i recently went through a long thought process vaguely how i think the one dan went through when he decided he hated law school and dropped out. prepare yourself for another backstory dump lol. so all my life ive been like told that im so smart and everyone has always expected me to be smart and so i decided to be a chemistry major because ive always like chemistry i guess and wow everyone expects me to do something super “”smart”” like that and theres been so much pressure by people and by myself to live up to this expectation of being an exceptional student and incredibly smart and now im out here being in college and struggling with the reality that im,,,,, not that smart,,,,, and that i dont even enjoy chemistry like i thought i did,,,,,, ive been battling with my own expectations of myself to be this person that ive always expected myself to be my entire life but ive realized now that thats just not realistic. and ive decided that those old expectations just dont matter. im not who i thought i was and thats okay. im trying to learn to accept the past but not let it rule me anymore and just let go. im changing my major and not letting myself be upset that im not living up to who i once thought i would be. id rather be happy and enjoy what i choose for myself than keep up the appearance of who ive always been told to be.

i dont know who i am anymore. i dont know what the future holds. but i do know that im going to stop letting my past define me and just live my life how i want it to be and not how i thought it should be.

and as a result of this, i no longer feel like i need tumblr as a crutch. i used to sit on this website for hours and not be able to stop. now i come on tumblr and get bored within minutes. i thought i would never be able to get off of this site. i thought i would always need it. but i dont think i do anymore.

so goodbye tumblr. weve had some good times, and weve had some bad. this site has seen me through five tumultuous years of my life. ive met some incredible people because of my time here and im honestly glad ive had this website to hold me for all these years. so long and goodnight, tumblr.

embrace the void and have the courage to exist

love,

eloise xoxo