#idk if thags a thing tbh

[gayestfroginthepond]

actual photo of me trying not to check the tags for a book I'm reading

[loverboybrightsideghost]

there's a commercial on the local radio station for like at&t or something but it's in collaboration with the wicked movie, so it's a dad basically being like "my whole family is obsessed with wicked, our wifi can barely handle it!" idk it's just. i'm not entirely sure what it is i feel but i just remember how i was obsessed with so many musicals (including wicked) when i was in middle school and it was considered REALLY uncool. like i was a little weirdo for it, and i was always singing and always people were like "ugh shut up already." one time i tried to show my friend "for good" when i graduated eighth grade and her boyfriend (my former friend turned fucking bully asshole) told me "no, don't corrupt her with that!" by showing it to her. which is its own thing but. i don't know it feels weird to hear on the radio someone proudly say their family is obsessed with a musical, even if it is a fake family. it's like ha. in my time i got fucking bullied for that. there is also something strange i feel regarding that specifically as it is an advertisement, which means 1) the point is to advertise the movie (and the wifi) and 2) it's socially acceptable to some level to be obsessed with something that is being hyped up like some big cultural moment.

[hopeofitalll]

*drinks half a Starbucks drink* *posts all my thoughts*

[mrfoox]

Also love how... Slightly awkward it was in the beginning but then I started to talk and then he just took over and went on an topic rant and all was normal and good (:

[minquiec]

Jia's MJ

Tbh, with full clearance, I haven't read a lick of spiderman comics (except for like hobies one but that's a different story) which in hindsight makes me look like such a faker but OH WELL I CANT BE BOTHERED AND THE TINY TEXT IS TOO HARD MY MY BLIND ASS TO READDDD also it seems complicated and my brain is too dumb so idk the parallels or anything so 🔥🔥 just lemme bullsh my way thru this please (like I always do)

First of all I just wanna say

She is so fine OEUGH

Also idk if anyone notice the tattoo is a mini easter egg for the gr+s au (grim reaper and swallow it's too long to keep repeating I swear)

Anyways I haven't decided what her full name is I just know alot of people call her Mei and especially if they're younger than her call her Mei Jie (Jie means older sister in chn so it becomes mj HAHAHA BIG BRAIN WAVELENGTH)

Mei has this tattoo parlour in one of the more quieter streets of New Yan and Jia knows her vaguely prior to The Fire™ bc it's like maybe 20 mins away from her apartment and she was doing her spider girl things and beating crime. EITHER WAY she knows abt it.

I was thinking abt what her personality was like and then at one point I was like 🧍🧍I feel like I'm just ripping off hb's and watering it down ARGH cause what I was thinking is that Mei's someone who's clear in what beliefs she has. It's kind of a my life my choice kinda thing. So basically head strong, confident and kinda stoic sort of gal. And then the watering down gets even worse CAUDE I WANTED HER TO LIKE HELP JIA BY HOUSING HER TEMPORARILY AFTER THE FIRE HAPPENED?? BUT THEN I WAS LIKE ISNT THAG JUST HOBIE SND GWEEENNNN❓❓❓❓❓❓❓❓❓❓ ARGH EHERE R MY ARTISTIC LIBERTIES THIS IS SO CRUNGE defaming my own name smh 😞😞 but like it makes more sense why jia would like hb if this happened bc she would've been subconsciously subjected to this type of personality prior to meeting him ❓ she also thinks mei is so cool in the way she carries herself so it would make sense for jia to like these personality traits ig

Also my favorite trait abt her is the crane motif (animal symbolism my beloved) cause I thinkkkk one of the things cranes symbolise is wisdom and in some form, Mei offers her own wisdom to jia after her having lost everything during her stay at Mei's. So TRULY SHE LIVING UP THE THE OLDER SIS IN HER NAME

Anyyays I might update this as usual if anything else comes up cause I can never have one train of coherent thought yippee

[tododeku-or-bust]

Tbh the atsv fan "characterization" that pisses me off the most is the Miles Morales Prowler shit. Thats just a 15 year old. Good god. It makes me want to punch a bitch. At least Hobie is punk (even tho like. I still super dont like thag a lot of characterizations of him that seem to rely too much on the fact that a lot of Punk Thingz™️ (namely, drugs and hate for authority) are also antiblack stereotypes and we should be giving benefit of the doubt in these cases)

But Miles Morales is still Miles Morales, even if in a dif universe he's the prowler and his hair's different(? Im ngl im white and idk if it has anything to do with this, but ive seen his hair referenced before as important). I also see a lot of ppl forgetting how Morales was treated after the first movie, that fuckin colored pencil post still makes me mad.

Pissing me tf off. Sorry for mini rant it just seems you are also on this topic rn and none my friends seem that into the spiderverse 😔

Oh the moment I tried to block the Miguel tag (which DIDNT WORK, btw), the Miles G reader stuff showed up and I had instant regret 😭 but I haven't seen much for him outside of that. I'm glad I haven't, now.

Tbh, I wasn't really into Fandom when ITSV came out, so I (gratefully) missed all of the bullshit I heard happen with that one.

What's really pissed me off about Miles' seeming depiction by fandom, at least in the sections I've seen, is...idk if I'm saying this right.... To over simplify him? Like it frustrates me that a movie, both movies, the existence of Miles Morales himself, ALL have to do with themes of race, representation, and belonging. Yes there are plenty of other messages that are important, but all of them connect back to that identity too.

And people are just... Glossing over that. In this desire to go "oh he's so precious"- in what I'm sure is white ppls well-intentioned attempt to not be seen as a racist that doesn't care about Black children- they are still managing to completely ignore how his identity is symbolic in the storytelling. It's colorblindness in a movie where seeing race is essential and if you're gonna ignore it you might as well not even watch it at all bc at its core it's HIS story.

Like yeah, you think he's queer allegory, yeah you recognize how it feels to not belong, how to fight the status quo, fantastic, I love it, are you actually engaging with the race aspect that affects his experience of all of those things? Are you processing that when Rio said he might not be accepted in spaces, just maybe you have brown friends who feel that way in white spaces, fan and otherwise (esp now with affirmative action lmao, but always with Miles in the comics and dealing with fans). It's easy to think a multicultural movie with a Brown antagonist, well it "can't have to do with race" and that's just not true.

That's why people fixating on Hobie mildly disturbs me too; he TOO is a BLACK punk. That makes a difference, in his solidarity and what that meant for Black viewers. Or how they're ignoring Margo altogether despite her crucial role in his escape. Or how they're refusing to engage with Jessica Drew with understanding (you don't have to agree with her! I don't! But to understand where she stands in that spectrum from Hobie to Miguel, she is not nearly as bad as fandom wants to believe; she's actually comparable to Peter B but misogynoir prevents that conversation).

Like I am so happy we are finally entering an era where Black and Brown people are seeing themselves more on screen in roles we've yearned for, I am. But that also means it's time for white people to start engaging with what that means, and that means unlearning and learning.

[a-cyclepath]

Ooo I’m really excited for ur upcoming works best of luck love ♥️

Alsooo I just can’t help but imagine (for the satosugu fic) geto kissing gojo who is dumbstruck and geto excuse is ‘I was tryna sweeten the bad taste of curses’ ahaha Idek if that made sense but just wanted to share some crack that popped in my head

Alsooooo cans we just talk about how ppl acc believe they didn’t see each other for ten years thag is literally impossible my theory they met up many times and it’s probably like a angsty “we can’t be together but can’t be apart so cherishing whatever moments we have together” story and I just kno gojo tried to talk geto out of his plan at jjk tech and they ending up fighting and that was their last meeting beofre geto flew into the school with the pelican ughhhh idk I just keep thinking about lmaoo

Satosugu really has me in a chokehold 😭

I GET IT. I don't normally ship character x characters so satosugu is new for me and it's really taken a hold of me like none other.

I also generally have fun thinking abt them both romantically or plantonically. They're honestly just a fun duo overall

And there's no way, with even how the fandom got attached to Gojo's lips that kissing Gojo isn't his favourite!! Or that the lips aren't his favourite part. That's actually basically the basis of a lot of both my drawings and when I write about satosugu or ramble about it tbh!!

Geto is HOOKED on Gojo's lips.

And even in nanago, no way Nanami doesn't take one look at Gojo's lips and go 'oh my god Geto. I get it." Or anyone else he's shipped with. GOJO'S LIPS HAVE A HOLD ON WHOEVER HE'S DATING!

And imagine Geto/Anyone he's dating getting hooked on the taste of strawberries after kissing Gojo..like Geto, who was probably already seasoning those orbs or downing something to soften the nasty taste, probably now uses strawberry stuff, shampoo, etc. Just so he's reminded of his new favourite taste.

In return I think Gojo is the same with Geto's hair. Braiding it, smelling it, playing with it, especially when he GROWS grows it out.

Like even if they aren't dating, there's no way two people that close could really stay that apart for that long ☝️ especially with how their interactions in JJK0(and especially at the end) went and how Geto was all positive while facing Gojo still.

I think they could've ! Possibly had more encounters together like the flashback when they initially seperate. I don't think Gojo would've given up on Geto, and vice versa, both showing up occasionally to convince the other to return/come back with them/join their ideals.

Which is ironic, because they both want the same thing alongside Kenjaku if you think about it, an overhaul of the jujutsu society and how they're treated ☝️☝️ but their pathes take them down their own directions. JJK hits me harder whenever I think of THIS specifically

[rollercoasterwords]

hey rae, i’m experiencing a bit of a moral dilemma (ish) bc like… i’ve always more or less had this view that its wrong on some level to like “police” people on the kind of media they are creating, even mainstream tbh and now… well… let’s just say a little bee flew in rather aggressively into my eardrums and it won’t stop buzzing about the moral implications and suddenly the pretty stable ground that i was standing on is slowing crumbling beneath my feet but like… that’s okay??? i’m accepting the fall bc i’m actually always thrilled to free fall. that is to say, i love the way things around me can make me question my own ideas of what i believe to be true sometimes like i love love love it. i love looking at smth ekth a new lens and more information and then yk, rebuilding thag ground with more stable material. anyways, sry i’m rambling, but you see, everything this bee was buzzing abt started to increasingly make more sense and like, i started to rly think about it in the way of like… evaluating the consequences right? like if a specific media trope has very real contributions to a stigma abt a certain group and manifests in the society in multiple ways, then rly, why can’t i condemn it? bc the way i used to look at it was like “well yes, the media is harmful, but like, i also don’t think we have the right to dictate other people’s liberties when it come to art”. but now… especially considering that this “art” is mainstream and like reaches millions of people, why tf not? bc when you rly put it on the scale, what has more weight, ppl being mad/annoyed that engaging with this is “bad” and they shouldn’t/ being limited in creating it or ppl suffering the real life implications of this. and to make myself a little clearer, the specific thing thag kinda made me realize this more was how media a lot of the times portrays certain mental illness in an overly negative and harmful way, and how in thrn, society discriminates against those individuals in part bc of the skewed perception thag media has portrayed about them. and i feel like this kinda of made me like… think more about this view that i used to defend strongly, and kinda of go, wait, hold up… and i’m still a little like… conflicted bc as much as like i say this, i don’t think there are any viable means of like combatting this issue bc at the end of the day, what creators for mainstream media want is money and these things get them money and so it’s never rly gonna stop, and i still am a little iffy on the idea thag it’s essentially like… an objective moral no no, but like i can see the other side more clearly and it’s just… man it’s so frustrating in a way. and like as much as some ppl may engage with their media critically and liek recognize these stereotypes and shit, a majority of ppl don’t and it’s so frustrating to see itttt. but yeah, idk im still like… gathering materials before fully building this floor, but like, what are your thoughts on this if any? (i’m literally going to everyone with this i an truly a menace, i need to talkkkk abt it like the way this brings me so much joy) (unfortunately i don’t have many ppl in my life that care or are willing to talk to me abt these things) (enter: rae)

hello!! interesting questions!! love that u are embracing the freefall of having a core belief challenged + opening urself to new ways of thinking rather than growing defensive + closing urself off!!

so, what i wanna start off by saying here is this: there is a very broad middle ground between "this art is bad and shouldn't exist/shouldn't be interacted with at all" versus "everyone should just create whatever they want with disregard for the consequences."

because different forms of art are going to be doing different things, reaching different audiences, and sending different messages. and there are plenty of ways that art/literature/media/etc can be harmful. for example, this recent open letter to the new york times is a great example of a critique on the way in which the nytimes' coverage of trans "issues" causes real-life harm to trans people. in this sort of instance, it's not okay for the nytimes to just continue writing as they have, however they want, because they have certain journalistic responsibilites which include not promoting/perpetuating harm against marginalized groups (not that they have an especially great track record in that regard, but i digress). part of critically evaluating media is evaluating whether that media has harmful real-life implications, and, if it does, figuring out whether/how to engage with that media in a way that does not perpetuate that harm.

so like--with the example you're talking about, portrayals of mental illness that contribute to stigma. part of evaluating those portrayals is going to start with asking what kind of media you're looking at, who it's reaching, and what it's trying to do. for example--a movie made by a large hollywood studio that's profiting off a stigmatizing portrayal of mental illness, reaching a broad audience, and contributing to widespread misconceptions is tangibly harmful, and it makes sense to vocally critique that portrayal or perhaps even encourage people not to engage with the movie at all, as it is profiting off something harmful. additionally, hollywood movies are invested in perpetuating a capitalist system such that they will often have an underlying goal of spreading messages/ideas that support that capitalist system, so there is much more to be wary of there in the intent of the media.

a fanfiction on the internet written by an individual that contains a stigmatizing portrayal of mental illness is something that is not accruing profit, not reaching a broad audience, and not harmful in the same way. an individual writing fanfiction on the internet is also not invested in perpetuating broader systems of capitalistic power in the same way a hollywood movie studio is, so the intent of their art is likely different. a better route here is probably to reach out to the individual, who probably wrote this portrayal out of ignorance and would most likely be open to educating themself and avoiding such portrayals in the future. this is a better response than trying to "cancel" the person completely, because it works to build community and has a much more direct impact in breaking the stigma around mental illness by educating an individual who previously internalized those stigmatized views.

when you're trying to critically evaluate a piece of media that contains something you view as potentially harmful, here are some important questions to ask:

who is making this? why are they making it? what is the stated goal of the creator(s) in creating this specific piece of media? are there any other goals that the creator is leaving unsaid?

who is the intended audience of this media? how large is that audience? in what ways is this media catered to appeal to that audience? what responsibilities does the creator hold towards that audience? will the audience response be monolithic, or is there room for varied impact amongst members of the same audience?

is this media a lecture or a conversation? is this media presenting a moral truth that i am expected to accept? or is it presenting moral questions and encouraging me to draw my own conclusions?

what role does profit play in the creation + distribution of this media? what systems of power is this media invested in upholding, if any? what institutions is this media invested in upholding, if any?

these are all questions which, depending on the answers, are going to change your evaluation on the media. this post kind of sums up what i mean, and i talk more here about when art becomes truly harmful. but also, i want to emphasize--engaging with media critically and coming to the conclusion that something is harmful is not the same thing as policing media, at least in my opinion. policing implies reinforcing set rules for how someone can or cannot create/engage with media, which doesn't allow for the necessary flexibility needed for actual critical thought. i think it's also important to note that policing typically says "if this media is Bad, you must destroy it/ignore it completely." but critically engaging with media means acknowledging harmful media when it exists, and analyzing why it exists + what it's trying to do. it also means acknowledging that not all media is going to fit cleanly into the harmful/harmless dichotomy. sometimes media will contain harmful stereotypes or stigmatizing portrayals in one sense, and really important representation or progressive ideas in another sense. other times, a portrayal that feels stigmatizing to one person will feel like representation to another. part of engaging critically with media means evaluating what it's doing as a whole and accounting for both the good and the bad. at the end of the day, we can't solve problems by refusing to engage with them at all, y'know?

[thisdreamplace]

Hey I have a question….so I kinda have two sp’s in mind one I’ve been manifesting longer but the other one would be more convenient not that it matters s tbh I just do bc I want them specifically like whoever comes first I’ll be cool with so what do you advise I should do like currently I use affirmations about the first one and visualizing for the second one and I have a journal thag I write what my day is like after getting my desire when I first started it I would use the first sp’s name but now I used Nicknames I would use for both of them (like pretty boy) so like it would go for both. Do you think I should use both there names or continue what I’m doing I feel like using one technique over the other for different ppl might be dong something idk. I also made a dream board (digital and irl)containing the both of them.

hi love <3

to be very honest with you, i feel like it’s all… a lot. and for no reason ! if you were in a relationship with someone… would you really be making a dream board out of them ? it’s the little things like that which keep us in that state of “i’m trying to get X so i’m doing Y”

my only question for you is, if you truly had these 2 people in your life who love you, how would you be living ? how would you be feeling and interacting with life ? answers those questions, and then carry on everyday embodying your own answers. ❣️

[meeep-morp]

Don't forget latency issues!! Sure, latency is subtle enough to not make any noticeable difference when going about your average say to day life, but you might come to find that certain games become borderline unplayable without correctly synced audio. Namely rhythm (and rhythm adjacent) games. If I wanna play a couple rounds of songs on pjsekai, I either have to disconnect my bluetooth headphones and be a menace, or I just... can't. I have to stick to the silence of minesweeper or solitare, which I am not usually in the mood for when I want to play rhythm games.

"Oh, just adjust the latency!" I hear you say. Sure, that works a little, but the thing about bluetooth latency is that it's not consistent at all. It constantly drifts and shifts. One second it's behind, the next it's ahead. No amount of latency adjustment fixes that.

And look, I know this problem is definitely on the niche side. Not everyone plays rhythm games, and most people are totally chill to just, y'know, not play a game when the situation isn't right for it. I'm usually ok with that too, but istg sometimes all I want to do is just become one with the music; interacting with it by tapping and swiping silly little tiles-- and istg just a little latency is actually ruining that experience and tempts me so hard to buy a new fucking headphone adapter that's outrageously priced because I fucking lost mine years ago because it's so fucking tiny thag it just fucking poofed out of existence and tbh the second adapter would probably meet the same fate within a couple months-- Yeah seriously fuck apple for removing the headphone jack, and then not even providing an adapter or compatible headphones with new devices, while also charging the same exact price as before for said devices. Like idk man, seems a little scummy to me.

Why do you need your earbuds to have a wire so badly?

I am assuming this is about a post I reblogged like six months ago when I went off on forced technological enshitification and the slow erosion of consumer options. But sure, I'll bite.

Why do I "need" my earbuds to have a wire? I dunno, Anon, maybe I:

Don't want to have to worry about recharging my earbuds.

Don't want my earbuds to be even easier to lose.

Don't want my earbuds to need separate accessories that are as easy to lose as the earbuds.

Prefer to have bluetooth turned off on my devices for security and safety reasons.

Like being able to seamlessly plug my earbuds into my computer, my MP3 player, or any other device with a headphone jack.

Don't want to spend 50 dollars on decent wireless earbuds when I can do all the above things with a pair of solid earbuds that cost me like $12 during the Obama administration.

Don't care about what kinds of headphones or earbuds people wear but don't like what it says about our society when other people apparently care what kind of earbuds I'm wearing so much they have send an Anonymous ask to interrogate me about it.

And I guess, more abstractly, because fuck Apple. That's why.

[rinnstars]

on the topic of buying anime merch (muehehe specificallt rin 😋😋) i feel like taobao alibaba and aliexpress are genuinely the same thing after scrolling through all three HELP LIKE I KNOW ONE OF THEM OWNS THE TWO OR SOMETHING BUT I GENUINELY THOUGHT THEY WERE THREE DIFFERENT THINGS

i also need to go on the hunt for an actual supplier for the rin look up i showed my momi and she like supports my horrendous financial decisions so shes like oh buy it but the one on aliexpress goes for like?? 64 dollars?? AND 14 DOLLAR SHIPPING?? LIKE OK LISTEN I WANT A RIN LOOK UP BUT 14 DOLLAR SHIPPING IS LOWKEY CRAYZEE TO ME BC I WANT FREE SHIPPING 👿👿 and its also preorders and i dont trust preorders bc what if im getting scammed and i get a funky rin lookup but for the price i mean im sure its genuine + the seller is also like 4.8 stars HELPME also problem i want both the rin and sae figure Dot Dot Dot so thags like 140 + the shipping fee like .. 💔

i also think ive told this story before about my itadori look up and how i bought it bc they lowered the price and it was LIKE IT DIDNT EVEN HAVE PACKAGING INSIDE THE BOX IT WAS JSUT THE FIGURE AND THERE WERE SM SCRATCHES AND MARKS I HAD TO SCRUB THEM OFF WITH WIPES 👿👿 sigh maybe we just wait until theres actually reviews on the thing BUT THATS IN LIEK A MONTH UGH do i just get the figures on my bday or make my friends get it for me atp i dont wanna spend sm 💔

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ISAWRHSIAAK N FORGOT TO ANSWER .. FORGIVE ME…. NN HELP YEA THEY R PRETTY SIMILR ALTHO I OMLY USED TAOBAO.. AND ABT PREORDER IS IT STILL.. MAYBE FOR 2ND BATCH COS THE RIN LOOK UP R NOW IN STORE ALR?:!:!!: AND YEA I GET ITTITITU SUPER SCARY BUT I JUST MANIFEST TBH.. BUT IF URE RLLY SCARED RIGHTT U CAN BUYFROM OFFICIAL BUT IDK WHEN THEY RERELEASING IT N NO UDIDNT SAY… maybe maybe shld be more careful.. thats crazy.. no protection… IDKDKKDK WHEN IT RERELEASES ONLINE THATS THE THING TOO.,; ALL THE BEST FOR RIN LOOK UP WE WILL DO THIS TOGETHEHRHR ps. im getting rin from taobao when it comes in dec ill lyk n share shop link Maybef

[aprivateplace7]

Genshin 4.7 archon quest-

This guy rly shows up once a yr, is the epitome of "well you never asked", looks pretty & then disappears into the ether :v

Dain sends us away to confront(?) Abyss twin???

U know, i wasn't that excited during the trailer but... i'm realizing this is the 1st time we're actually seeing our twin since b4 Inazuma... its been a long-ass time :v

Tbh the way the game is structured, i totally forget about the Abyss, Khaenri'ah & our twin. I'm just happy to go through Teyvat & deal w/ whatever bs we inevitably get caught in.

Is this a normal... fight? Thing??? Or is our twin distracting Dain?

...wait was that all Dain, or did our twin also wait for us to leave??? They... want us to join their side, but they're also avoiding us?

The architecture looked a lot like Enka... but we're no where near it. I heard it resembles Khaenri'ah? I also noticed that this interlude quest is again in Sumeru, instead of Fontaine...

Just being able to slip into someone else's memories... absolutely deranged. Even moreso than like what happened during the 2nd Raiden quest, like memory ghosts playing out in front of u.

We gaming, its time for mt dew :3 no doritos unfortunately, but i don't like to eat while playing anyway... do ppl rly get their shit dirty like that? Like irl? Anyway...

Ok so, b4 I did see, this guy is Caribert right?

Oh wow! I was gonna joke about my spelling, but I actually spelt his name right! I didn't look it up :3 but, he knows us? Like he's not surprised to see us... i guess our twin was aware of our presence.

Wait a min... how is he human-looking again?!? Hoyo!!!!!

Ok wait... he only exists in ppl's memories. Does he exist? Was that wrong? Is he just messing w/ ppl's memories or is he a strange... being.

I for one am grateful to Paimon. Its hard to keep up w/ whatever this is 💀 (not rly in a bad way, i like going on Genshin's wild ride)

I thought this place looked a lot like the eternal oasis. I guess its not...

There is no point to this. I am just writing my thoughts as I go thru the quest. Since i don't do videos lol.

What the hell did he do tho?

Ok sorry, he just answered me. He doesn't rly exist anymore... but he has powers that lets him interact w/ the real world?

Ok he rly knows us??? I realized that bc of our twin it'd make sense that Caribert would know who we are, but he wants to talk to us?

Ohhh ok. Being a ghost is easier to understand lol. Like i still don't quite get the Rukkadavata/Nahida & Focalors/Furina thing? Unless its a reincarnation thing... or 1 soul being split into 2 ppl.

This game is full of a lot of crazy stuff tho. Like appearently Xiao's true form is a bird (like Cloud Retainer).

Manipulating ley lines as a form of controlling fate... makes sense actually. Well kinda. Like tampering w/ irminsul can "change" the past. I don't see how it can change the future... & we saw w/ Wanderer that it didn't change the overall events. It didn't save the lives of anyone that died, it just changed the circumstances of how. The only thing thag rly changed was Wanderer himself.

"After all, its existence cost me my life" oh :(

I was just wondering how he was involved in... whatever the Abyss Order is doing. But did he just want friends...? Like that's why he messed w/ the villagers...?

This game isn't at the same level as Depression ImpactTM, but...

"As if... I had a chance at life" :((((

Wait i'm confused? I stopped partway thru yesterday, but i thought the "missing" person had blonde hair? I thought it was our twin...

Caribert :((((( ;~;;

Oop. Ate dinner & had to go back in the conversation :v

Ok so, yeah Caribert was still helping the Abyss Order.

We always "save the day", or like it turns out alright (Fontaine), but in the grand scheme... its like we're trying to drain the ocean. We're not doing literally anything, we keep getting one step back. The gnosis, and now the Loom of Fate.

Caribert seems sweet... but idk.

I kinda hate how little we get to learn. & it always brings more questions than answers. Its like Hoyo is teasing us.

Hm, his personal wants were simple but... still he helped this thing to be completed. What is our twin going to do w/ it? Idk, i can't help but be sus of the Abyss Order... they're so mysterious but everything they do feels wrong. Dark. Ominous. Like it doesn't feel like they're gonna do anything good for the world...

Oh ;~;;; when the Traveler couldn't touch their twin... that hurt.

But like ??? He's just here? & now we're gonna talk??? Is the Traveler mad? I'm kinda annoyed how casual he's acting... like the last time didn't happen :/

I mean... i don't like Celestia either but... it feels like a means to an end. Like, they don't care how much suffering they cause as long as it turns out alright in the end. I don't like that :/

YEAH WHY ARE U RUNNING FROM MEEEE? The twin loves the traveler too right? :(

"The sea of flowers at the end"

Its like... he's been in this world for 100s of yrs, since the Cataclysm, w/out us. & now he's too diff... he's not the same person we knew.

All the traveler wants is to be by their twin's side ;^;

He doesn't like what he's doing either :(

He's too... ashamed to face us. But he can't stop?

THEY WON'T REMEMBER????

HOYO WHEN I FIND YOUUUUUU!!!

Back on their bs....

Wut.

I remember the loom of fate talk?

But not about my twin?

....

They're doing this on purpose.

I am actually mad. What the hell.

The picture???

AND THAT"S HOW IT ENDS ????

[minquiec]

🎶 itsssss beeennnn 🎶 a hotttt minuuutteeee 🎶 sincccee iveeee went insane on here so let's just get into it yeah

Yall already know what it is

jia + the archer x not strong enough

When the trend first like got popular I was like eeehhhh that's not rlly jia

Haha lol

the archer:

'screaming who could ever leave me darling, but who could stay'

the spiderman curse

Or smth idk HAUSHA the canon events and everyone dyinnnggg

And also her own personal life like her parents didn't even stay soooo

Who would (COUGHCOUGHXOUGHOBJEHUHC)

And while jia isn't like uhhh how do I put it

She's not insecure yet she's also deeply insecure at a more ??? deeper level??? Idk how to say it

Like it's more like "I hate the way I have become because of things I cannot control and the way it makes me FFFFUUCCKING LONELLLYYYY"

but in a sadder way HAHSJS idk she copes by ignoring her problems (js like me fr)

So while at the same time she's like yeah I'm just a person I'm good with it 👍 she's also like what, could anyone possibly see in me to stay (side affects of distant parents!!!! Side note: THISNISNT TRAUMA DUMPING IM FINE)

'cause they see right through me'

They as in all the people she's known and don't know

That doesn't make sense gimme a

Like they as in the people of her city, people within the hq probably, people shes acquainted with, friends with, etc etc etc

They as in all people other jia herself sees right through her and fail to see just *her* per se

And it's probably her own fault tbh I mean she kinda like

Masks it so who's damn fault is that girl 🤷🤷 DAMN

But despite them never truly seeing the her that's incredibly lonely, she'd much rather prefer to keep it that way which then rolls onto the topiccc offffff

'can you see right through me'

okay this is kind of personal interpretation and changing the lyrical meaning to fit her lore BUT IDDDCCCCC IM RUNNING THIS SHOOOWWW LET ME BEEEEE

Y'all already know who this is directed at hirjejkejejkejekejejejjejejejks

hob

HEHIIEHHRBBBBDBBBB

Anyways

Like the last one I said she'd much prefer to keep her self under wraps and ignore the problem

But obviously since I'm FUCKING delusional and SOOOO fucking CRIMGEE ofc he's an exception HHHHHRHBBBHHHHHHHHHHHHHHRB&-!-!

And because he's the only one who's ever really gotten underneath that layer

She was

Sooooioioioooooo

Fucking confused by it

And because she's never addressed her issues properly, she's not used to this and so this line would almost be like

She's BEGGING him to just pllleaaase be like the rest

Please just see through her because this kind of thing has never happened before and she's SCCCCARREEDD to care too much and what if he leaves too and what if it's all for naught and what if what if what i

Girl we get it

But anyways the last line was

'I see right through me'

Would obviously be referring to her own denial to see herself by ignoring 🧚🧚 herrr fuckingnnnn problemmmsss and feeelinngggsss 🎶🎶 cause hey. Why be sad when u can be glad and very very silly

Anyways the next part

'always an angel never a god'

BITCH

I feel so strongly abt this line rn

Obviously I'm on,

Jjk tok and so I kind of got the train of thought from there but

Always an angel never a god cause she can save as many lives as she tries but she can never save all the lives she cares about

Always an angel never a god cause despite being blessed with a power that gives her the parallel of an angel she can never save her world that will inevitably be destroyed by its own deity that granted her that power (since ig angels work under god/gods and so she'd be that angel working under the deity which would be the god and do you get what I mean)

ALWAYS AN ANGEL NEVER A GOD CAUSE WHILE SHE WANTS TO DO SO MUCH GOOD, YET SHES NEVER A GOD BECAHSE SHE DOESMT HAVE THE BENEVOLENCE OF A GOD CAUSE SHE STILL CARRIES THAT SELFISHNESS OF NEVER WANTING TO BE SPIDERGIRL AND HAVING THAG RESPONSIBILITYAJNNNNWNNENEJDD AUAUAYAUUUUUAHGGEEEUUEUEUEUUEUEUE BREAKS DOWN AND STARTS DISNETNTEGRSTING

yeah okay that's all and this is all just personal interpretation btw so it might not match up to its original meaning but HEY

im gonna go draw them hugging now or smth idk bye bye

[onlyjaeyun]

hi my sweetest baby angel love🥹💓🌷 your replies to my asks made MY day even better and just reading those sweet words from you made me blush and kick my feet just like hoonie when jaeyun told him that yn was wearing the ring🤭

pls this new side of hoon is so so cute and the convo between him and yunie made me smile the entire time like they are the cutest platonic soulmate besties ever🥹🫶🏻 jaeyun is so fucking hilarious too like his comedic timing will never fail to make me laugh

also it’s not an onlyjaeyun fic if something major doesn’t happen at someone’s bday so i’m sooo ready to read what happens at won’s party👀👀 i need hoonyn to talk it out and heal not only theirs but also our broken hearts❤️‍🩹

omg a little update on the guy i’ve been spending time with, we had a little getaway with our friends a couple days ago and he was so sweet throughout our little holiday🥺 whenever we would go out to eat or something he always had his hand on my thigh and put food on my plate and also give me his jacket whenever he would notice i was getting cold like omg he makes me so 💓💗💘💕💖🩷💝 idk if i should bring up the “what are we?” talk bc although nothing is rlly official yet but how we are w/ each other is very much bf & gf just without the label so that’s what’s kind of having me on edge lately😭 i’m seeing him again tomorrow for brunch so idk we’ll see!

my baby doll zadie thank you for always making me smile and caring for me, i truly appreciate it so much🥹 i always want to be the same for you💗🧸 !! you deserve the world and more my love, pls take care of yourself! sending my love & a giant wave of kisses to you baby! 💋🩷🌷💖

- 💌

oh goodness my baby's ask has been burried all the way on the last spot of my i box and im SO sorry for being so late with my response angel love 🥺💞

firstly, thank you SO much for the love and support on cold hearts, you know your words means the world to me and ive missed talking to you so so much 😫😫

i cant wait for you guys to see more of that side of him tbh and i promise it's only one more angsty chapter and then its all love and fluff and just lots of cuteness 🤭🤭💞

omg omg omg that actually sounds super exciting babyc im so glad he's treating you well and thag you two get along so good, you deserve nothing but the best and i hope by now you guys have made things official 🤭🤭🤭💞

thank you so much for always checking in on me and giving me so much love, you truly are such a sweet soula nd im so grateful to have you 🥺💞💗💐

hope life's been treating you well baby, pls acceot all my kisses!💞💞💞

[maiverie]

you’ll be pleased to know i FOUND MY GLASSES 😻💪 they were under my bed… tbh i didn’t think my prescription was that bad until i didn’t have them and i was like oh wow i can’t see anything 💀💀

no bc ur so right idk how he got so comfortable literally slagging me off to my face like ?? he also told my friend that i was chatting shit abt her but in what world would i EVER do thag,, he calls her ‘big tits’ (even tho he KNOWS her name) and then called her a slag bc she went to meet up w the boy she was talking too and then tried to say that it was ME WHO SAID THAG 🤨🤨

literally as i was abt to call my friend abt it she phoned me and was like ‘you’ll never believe who tried to tell me you were chatting shit abt me’ THE WAY I LAUGHED BC WHY DID HE RHINK SHE WAS GONNA BELIEVE HIM?? she’s been my friend for 7 years now in what planet was he thinking she was gonna believe his disgusting lie

this boy was taking up too much of my energy it’s honestly on to the next idk what part of the pits of hell he crawled out from but he needs to go right back bc he’s not abt to waste my time disrespecting me 🤢🤢

firstly CONGRATS on finding ur glasses WE CHEEREDDD

secondly . um

what the actual fuck 💀 literally speechless rn. my god it's so obvious nobody in his life has ever told him to shut the fuck up . this kind of behaviour from a grown ass man,, istg every time u give me a lil update on him my blood pressure shoots up a lil bit this bitchless behaviour has me rolling around in my grave 😭

the way I actually cringed w that shit he tried to play w u and ur friend 💀 HOMIEEEE pick dumb or ugly like CHOOSE ONE STRUGGLEEE youre not allowed to be both 😭 HIM BLATANTLY CALLING UR FRIEND THAT?? WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK??? im literally livid men gen infuriate me like holy

also yea h fr bigger and better things pleaseeee you're literally too hot n sexy n funny n cute to be dealing w shit like this 🙁 disgusting he's literally disgusting bye

[riaki]

OGM MY GOD SOTP THIS WAS ACTUALLY SMF TO READ 😭😭😭 i literally love reading ur stuff lke it doesn’t even matter who it’s about…. i’ll read it anyway. and i feel like i’ve gotten more accepting to kenny likers ever since that comedy scene it was sk goofy he’s just a silly guy :33

but ari ur brain!!! i love the way u think sm… ngl i don’t rmemeber a thing from reading jjk so i don’t even know why kenny is being so devious and evil and planning with the us government but?? he’s so cute 😭😭⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️

ARTIST KENNY U LITERaLLY ELECTROCUTED MY BRAIN… especially as an artist i find it so interesting c bc like he has the broadest horizon to explore being able to hop bodies and being as old as he is… especially if he gets to travel i think his art and writing would be so interesting bc it would mix and incorporate all the things he’s seen or found fascinating and since those things are proabbly weird by nature his own stuff is just this strange weird amalgamation of things but it’s so cool at the same time and like. UGH THATS SO COOL

he’s just so.. silly??? like the video games and the bad quality stuff lkke i honestly find him really endearingly weird 😭😭 like he’s such a terrible villain who makes everyone suffer but he’s also just so… unserious and goofy. and silly. and weird and unhinged?? like why is he soo funky and weird 🙎‍♀️

but on that note… do u think kenny would be like. a good parent to ur kids hypothetically?? cus like i def agree that hes mother father coded and he has a soft spot for kids which is so sweet.. but like as an actual parent? especially since hes just… so weird. like would that be a bad or good influence on ur kids..?????? idek i think i’m going out on a limb here 🧑‍🦯

tbh idk if i could handle being with someone like him or makima bc like… there’s that divide between u that i don’t think would be super easy to get rid of??? like with the dissecting and all me personally i’d feel like a lab animal 😭😭 but the way he shows affection is so cute LIKE W THE FRIIT N STUFF UGHHHH BABYGRIL

and then like… the philosophical talk stuff I GIGGLED but i LOVE those types of convos so i think that would be great!! and having a teaching role would be good for me especially bc i feel like he’d be good at understanding what u as an individual need to learn. like how u learn, ur pacing, etc… which would be so nice!!! AND THE RANDOM TRAVELING THING TOO IS SO CUTE N FUNNY I LOVE TK TRAVEL THAG WOJLD BE SMF 😭😭

tbh a partner like him is soo unrealistic but i feel like it would just be so fun and such a wild ride!!! reader would have to be a little silly just to be with him i think LMFAOAOO but thank u for these hcs ari i enjoyed them sm 🫶🫶

ari i’m curious do u have kenny hcs

RIKO U HAVE NO IDEA THE MONSTER UVE UNLEASHED.....

i do have some kenny hcs <333 take a seat here's a snack we’re gonna be here for a while 🧁🧃 (THANK YOU FOR INDULGING ME <3 this man genuinely makes me feel ill im sooo delusional abt him)

okok so first of all; general hcs !!

he likes art!! loves art!! this one is canon to me i just think he is so interested in any and all of humanity’s creative outlets and ofc art is the most prominent one. he loves all different forms of art — from sculptures to paintings to writing to video games (HEAVY on the latter btw i think he's so entranced by new technology) and so on.

and on that note!! i think he paints and writes himself :3 hes been alive for so long, learned so many languages, there's no way he didn't have time to pick up a paint brush. i think he paints to release stress!! and his styles vary but there's something mildly macabre abt all of his pieces. tends to gravitate towards expressionism above all else, especially the abstract kind.

i also feel like he sincerely enjoys ”bad” art like low budget movies and modern romance fiction and goofy video games…… he just thinks they're fun. def gets a good laugh out of them (this man canonically had a whole comedy phase he just wants to have fun!!)

and and and!! this is self indulgent as hell but i also think he cooks. there's just so much to learn when it comes to different cultures and their cuisine and i think they all interest him. but i hesitate to say that he's a good cook bc i feel like he’d make really weird fucked up food combinations just for the hell of it…. he's a freak. 100% the type to mix orange juice w black coffee just to see how it tastes.

i also hc that he has a soft spot for children, seeing as he literally carried and birthed one of his own LMAO... i just think he admires the innocence of childhood !! that childish and simple hope that adults tend to lose. he's very good w them too!! gentle and patient. and in geto’s body he has the softest nicest voice so i feel like kids gravitate towards him (i'm just thinking abt that One scene where he blows bubbles at a playground and all the kids chase them… they love him i just know he's a regular at that park)

OH AND……. idk if i’d call this a hc exactly but i just wanna see kenny in more feminine clothing. he literally has All the genders i don't think for a second that he cares abt gender norms. one moment he's in that tacky middle aged divorced father core hawaiian tshirt (he's so Me), the next he's wearing a purple floral dress or a puffy turtleneck <33 i just think he could pull anything off.

NOW FOR THE GOOD STUFF……. relationship hcs <33333 hes a whole red flag but hes also my silly pookie bear just trust me on this

FIRST OF ALL he's huge on quality time. if he's in a relationship w u then that means he sincerely enjoys ur company and therefore has a tendency to just bring u with him wherever he goes. otherwise he gets bored and starts whining abt it (silly silly man) hes a lonely guy ok </3 i feel like he gets very sudden urges to explore new places / do new things and he’ll make sure you’re right there w him !! you’ll wake up in his arms only to find you're in a snowy forest or some shit and he just WILL not tell u where he's taken u bc its ”a surprise ^_^” LMAOO

he also takes on a teaching role in the relationship and i think that's where hes happiest !! gets a kick out of it but it's also kind of special to him. especially if you haven't seen much of the world, or if you're just a naturally curious person — preferably both. he just enjoys teaching you new things, leading you towards new sights, drinking in your expressions and reactions. it's precious to him. something to cherish.

ON THAT NOTE i think he has this unquenchable curiosity that gets temporarily sated when he tries to like . Dissect you. see inside your mind. it's like hes solving a puzzle that never runs out of pieces. hear me out riko but i see him as somewhat similar to makima, he's detached and has trouble connecting w people and handles you almost like a math equation….. but since he unlike makima is a human being, i think he still has the capacity to grow to care for you and treat you like an equal (or something close to an equal). he genuinely does love you, but he's rusty. kenjaku just wants to know all there is to know about you — every single thing. he’d dig into your brain if he could, but he’ll settle on just brewing you tea, listening to you speak about your fears, hoping it’ll give him the same insight.

he's a little possessive . kind of a Lot. idk i just think he feels a pang of jealousy when he sees u laugh and have fun w someone else (he's like a preschooler getting pouty bc his bestie is playing w someone else LOL) and that makes him Uncomfortable so he just waltzes in and steals u away w a smooth smile and a hand on ur waist. pretends like it doesn't bother him in the slightest but if u tease him too much he drops the smile and gives u a Look (it's scary as hell so u immediately shut up LMAOO) and god forbid someone else is like… teaching u something… a subject they're knowledgeable abt while u sit there listening happily to their rambling……..... ohhh he gets so jealous it's funny. researches that particular subject in frightening detail JUST so he can correct your little friend and teach u abt it himself <33 weirdo. freak.

also (this is extremely important to understanding kenny's character) he's both mother coded and father coded but in the worst possible ways.

he's mother coded in the sense that he's a smidge controlling, good at coaxing you into doing things outside your comfort zone, an expert at making you feel guilty by acting especially sweet and gentle, has the ability to make you cry w one disappointed look etc etc

and he's father coded in the sense that he's easily offended but pretends not to be, wants to see you succeed so bad that it's almost more for him than you, forces you to have really deep onesided philosophical talks at 2am when you just want to sleep, sucks at voicing his love for you out loud so he just buys a bag of your favorite fruit, cuts them into slices and calls it a day. etc etc. he's awful actually. i need him

but !!! as for more soft hcs i think he's honestly an affectionate guy deep down… like deep deep down but it's there. he just likes having u close. preferably touching him. not constantly bc that’ll annoy him but he wants you to stay near so he can pull u into his lap whenever. loves reading to u while u rest ur head on his thigh, playing w ur hair and lulling u softly to sleep <3333 (it's the geto kinnie in him) AND idk why this came into my mind but i think he likes nose kisses. just bc ur face scrunches up and he thinks it's cute. he can be sweet !! probably.

OHHH AND he loves playing board games w u <33 everything from chess to monopoly. he thinks it's fun + a good bonding activity but it's only fun in the beginning. he's condescending if u lose and petty if u win but he’ll still ask u to stay up w him all night just so u can finish the game (he's insufferable actually) if u decline he’ll huff and play by himself while shooting u petty glares until u feel bad and join him. then he's back to being all suave and calm and mature ohhhh i hate him

he wants to be the mature stoic indulgent person in the relationship sooooo fucking bad but he’s plagued by silly impulses day and night. he’s just good at hiding it. but deep down he is and always will be a silly nerd <33

and finally; i think that in a no curses au he's significantly less of a freak but still weird and obsessive and a lil mean. bullies u just a tinyyy bit and acts condescendingly sweet but he cares for u a whole bunch. probably struggles w showing it in a way that isn't too overbearing or mildly alarming… maybe through writing. poems and paintings of u… sculptures…. just wants to portray the beauty he sees in u (can u tell artist!kenny makes me go a little crazy)

overall hes a weirdo hes a freak (def wants u to kiss his brain just to see how it feels) and he may or may not be a bundle of red flags but i love him dearly <333 hes a silly goose. i want to study him in a lab