#idk if ima change it though bc now that i think on it it fits better but i also dont want too many rogues and farryn si a rogue. i cant

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i love how much the antivan casual clothes fit him.

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great googly fuckin moogly ive gosh darn fuckin fucked myself over now havent i

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(pt .2) this isnt rly gonna fit into what i said before but, i had a best friend who had to move away and she was the only person i could talk to about what was going on in my head. so i felt kinda lost. then last week i tried to tell er that i was in tears and i cant handle this im lonely and need someone to talk to, and she just told me not to talk about my problems cos she tried killing herself. now idk who to talk to bc i feel like ima explode. and now all im doing is worrying about my frien

hey, it’s okay. a lot of the time, mental problems are illogical. they don’t have a direct cause, you know? just because you’ve had a ‘normal life’, doesn’t mean you’re not dealing with serious emotional problems that need the same amount of care and attention that anybody else would get. i’m sorry that your friends aren’t the type you can talk to. relationships like that can be weird and hard to navigate, and i hope you find people that will give you the support you deserve eventually. i’m sure you will, it’ll just take some time. it’s hard to find really genuine people, but over the course of your life they’ll come along. they will. and i’m sure your friend that moved away is alright. she’s obviously going through a lot right now, though it was definitely shitty of her to just shoot down your problems as if they’re nothing. that’s not right and you don’t deserve it, seriously. you matter and what you’re dealing with is important. i hope you find a way to believe me, someday. maybe you could try calling her again when she’s calmed down and hopefully you’ll be able to talk things out. you’re both dealing with a lot right now, but that doesn’t give her the right to treat you like shit.

at the end of the day, issues with your mental health are just as serious as issues with your physical health. if you had a broken leg, you wouldn’t just leave it and expect it to get better on its own, right? i really really think you should talk to a counselor or a doctor or a therapist if you haven’t already. because even if you could talk to your friends, they wouldn’t be able to give you the same specialized advice that a professional can give you. there’s so many options that will help you ease the burden of what you’re carrying, whether it’s therapy or medication or something else - there is a way through this, even if it doesn’t feel like there is right now. you have a say in what happens next and you can control where you go from here. i know you’re probably scared and hesitant, and i’m not saying you have to make a decision right now, but please please just think about it. you want things to change, right? you want them to get better? well, they can. real help is available. i’m not saying going to a doctor will make everything better right away, but it’s a good place to start. there are a lot of people that have been through what you’re going through, and they managed to get through it because they made their mental health a priority. i hope you’re able to do the same thing. just keep taking this one day at a time, alright? that’s all you need to do. as long as you’re waking up each morning and trying, then you’re doing more than enough. please consider talking to someone. i hope you’re okay. and i’m here if you ever need a friend or someone to talk to, and i’ll listen and take you seriously. you’re not alone. just message me if you ever need it. you’re going to get through this, keep your chin up.