#idk if i'll be interacting with the fandom or reblogging many posts from this point onwards though

[biblically-accurate-dca]

i just wanted to post something before the year ended

[everythingheard]

roleplay history

the rules are simple! post characters you’d like to roleplay as, have roleplayed as, and might bring back. then tag people to do the same. please repost, don’t reblog!

current

i'm just going to list a few of my current muses on this blog that i'd love to have more interactions for —

b.ernie h.ayes — m.onsterverse ( he's such a tragic character, very much a "cassandra figure" exiled for predicting the truth and rarely given his due, and i love writing him and his weirdness whenever i get the chance. this fandom is dead af, at least as far as rp is concerned, so i'd love to try tossing him into some aus if anyone was game. also, someone give me a trapper to write him with, i'm begging you; i do also write trapper myself lmao so if you'd want to swap roles and try your hand at bernie, i'd be down, it's always great to see bernie get more love. )

clemens — d.racula/last voyage of the d.emeter ( i love him so much, and i have so many ideas. he starts hunting vampires in 1897 in london after encountering d.racula at sea, and i'd love for him to meet other kinds of supernatural beings, or maybe even vampires who aren't evil. i also like the idea of an age of sail situation, with supernatural shit involved or not. )

r. m. r.enfield — r.enfield/d.racula ( one of my favorite underrated characters ever, and one i've spent copious amounts of time creating backstory and headcanons for. now that i've moved him from his own blog to here, i'd love to continue exploring him through rp. i'd love period threads, or threads set in the modern day; let him meet non-evil vampires, let him explore more of the supernatural world in general. be his roommate, idk. hell, let him be a muse's familiar but in a not toxic way! i have so many ideas and verses for this weirdo. )

sam singh-benford — r.esident e.vil oc ( sam is an oc i'm very proud of, and i'll always jump at the chance to write him more often. his passion as a photojournalist and his connections get him into a lot of dangerous places, and sometimes into a lot of trouble, but i love his resilience and determination to reveal the truth. he can easily cross paths with a lot of re muses, canon or other ocs. i guarantee you, he'll find a way lmao. )

past

f.itzwilliam d.arcy — p.ride and p.rejudice ( i loved writing this socially awkward man lmao. it was through this muse that i met some people i still talk with to this day, and one good friend i even still rp with on this blog. i know it's sacrilege, but i used his zombies verse the most, since t.wd fandom was really big, as well as re, and i enjoyed it so much. idk if i'll ever revisit him as a muse, but he helped me grow my writing immensely. )

s.am l.oomis — h.alloween ( i've written him on-and-off for years. we're off again at the moment because i didn't find many people interested in interacting with him at this point in time, but he might reappear if that changes. regardless, eventually, he always comes back lmao. )

d.avid c.ollins — the g.uest ( a niche muse that i'd bring back in a heartbeat tbh. the friend i wrote him with left tumblr rp, and i tried making verses for him in other fandoms, but no interactions ever really stuck. i still have long headcanon posts for him in my drafts here and a lot of interest in rping him again whether in canon or other verses, but i understand that people aren't always interested in writing with muses from a fandom they're not in. maybe someday! )

possible future

e.ddie b.rock/v.enom — m.arvel ( they're two separate characters, but i'm sticking them here together anyway bc of course i am. i haven't written either of them in a long time, but the muse is musing lmao. i like writing them together or apart, and i'd honestly be open to writing eddie against a v.enom or v.enom against an eddie, i feel like that would be really fun. i'm not 100% if i'm bringing them to this blog, but i'm currently removing a few muses i'm not using so there will be room...... )

k.anan j.arrus — s.tar w.ars ( i thought about adding back he and zeb together, but ultimately just brought zeb back for now. i think i want to reread the k.anan comics before i truly consider writing him again. )

f.iyero t.igelaar — w.icked ( this is a big maybe. this is my favorite musical and i'd like to write a muse i love from it, but idk if i'm going to at this moment. i am Unsure. )

fantasy oc ( sort of want to try rping with my fantasy oc. he'd obviously fit into a generic fantasy setting, but also l.otr, w.itcher, d.nd, d.ragon a.ge, even h.ellboy. we'll see. )

tagged by: @dhampiravidi ( thanks so much! ) tagging: @paramoira @amused-bouche @gotnowhereelsetogo @halliwellauto

@ofrcgency @timeguardians @dynastymuses + whoever else wants to do this.

[doshiart]

Gallavich Intro

uh huh, thank you @callivich for these encouragement reblogs post, so here we are!

(nick)Name: Doshi

Age: 22

What made you fall in love with Gallavich? I mean… gallavich, they're they. Okay, if serious, I just knew about them but never interested in it and don't remember whether I watched this show before or not. But I seen all of seasons attentively only in November 2023. Then I fell into it entirely and completely.

How long have you been a fan? 3.5 months / since November 2023

Favourite Gallavich moment/scene? oh god, it's hard.. so many really awesome scenes. I want to highlight a few and maybe make a top.

Mickey Watching Over Ian [S04E07] — my s-tier, i love re-watch this scene, i love this song (and i'm so sad that it's been removed from spotify but ok whatever). It's incredibly emotional, that's all. Mickey is so protective, there are so many thoughts on his face. And this silent talk with Svetlana screams very loudly for me. I just like to think that in that moment Mickey is thinking about how much he loves Ian and how glad he is that he's finally here.

"First Time I Felt Anything Since…" [S05E10] — just one more emotional scene before disaster. Really like it and the song is good too.

The Club Kiss [S04E08] — they are so touch starved for each other's. yummy.

"I Gotta Worry. You're My Husband." [S11E04] — it's really sad that this scene was deleted :\

"Rain On Me." [S11E07] — PLEASE they're so domestic and comfort, singing together, what could be better??

idk i just can't stop?? ok i'm quickly pick these important ones for me: "Don't." [S03E12] "Ian. Look At Me." [S04E10] "Sorry I'm Late." [S05E08] The Dock Scene [S07E10] "A lot." [S07E11]

Favourite Shameless character apart from Ian and Mickey? Carl! I actually really love a lot of the characters, but Carl the most. Love his character development, love his sibling bonding with Debbie and how they grew together, as well as his brotherly relationship with his elders. Love his interactions with Mickey and wish there was more. He's so sweet and silly kitty. I also had a crush on Sandy and would have liked to see more of a storyline with Debbie, but eh.

Do you write or draw or make edits? I draw! tag in tumblr / commissions open + other social

Favourite type of Gallavich fics? I'm absolutely in love for AUs! Before gallavich I didn't realize how much I loved the AUs. It's just amazing and this fandom is amazing because there are so many things I want to read, but there are sooooo many. I love multi-chaps and slowburn! Any universe, the main thing is our boys and tension between them!

Most of all I want to mention my love for texting/social media or something like that. I like it when text messages are inserted into the writing.

I prefer fluff, but I have nothing against angst, only if it is hurt/comfort. I love getting different emotions and I love crying too, but I don't like bad endings.

Favourite Gallavich quote? "You're Under My Skin, Man." "What You And I Have Makes Me Free." "Hit My Husband Again, I'll Fucking Kill You." "Don't fucking tell me what's impossible! We're taking care of him here. You, me, us. His fucking family. "Fuck You, Fuck You, And Especially Fuck You!"

Anything else you’d like to share about yourself? I'm a bit of a shy introverted lurker and didn't understand at all how tumblr blogging system worked until that moment, usually I just threw my art and ran away. But now I'm watching how people do their posts (use a queue?? what). And I wasn't completely sure how to blog with drawings without turning it into something personal, but it seems that's the point of blog?

So I'm just getting used to everything and want to stay in the shameless fandom, because it's very nice to be here. You are all very nice people and I have already become attached to y'all.

Apart from anything else, I have a huge obsession. I constantly read something new that comes into my hands, and I have a lot of ideas for new arts. (I might even want to do an edit, but shhh, I'm not sure I'm really mentally ready yet haha).

So yeah, you are truly amazing and I hope to be more active in the fandom! <3

[44-mr-midnight-44]

Fandoms: Chonny's Charming Chaos Compendium, Animator Vs. Animation, Hollow Knight, Rain World, SCP, Ultimate Chicken Horse, FNaF, Undertale, Centaurworld, Spore, Dungeons & Dragons, Pokémon, Phighting

I don't answer asks asking for money. Please don't send me them.

PLEASE DON'T REBLOG SPAM ONE POST (REBLOGGING A BUNCH OF MY POSTS IS FINE) OR LIKE SPAM!!!

If you're gonna spam me to show love, pls go down the posts on my blog and reblog as many as you can (if you add comments in the tags I will sob with joy /pos)!!!

PLEASE DO NOT TAG ME IN CHONNY JASH/CCCC CONTENT!!!

I get why this is not common knowledge as I only really said it in my Discord server but PLS. DO NOT. I have to be in a mood to handle CCCC content and I get really uncomfortable really easily because of it and it can ruin my mood if it's already bad enough. Thank you.

Mias World fans I'd prefer not to interact with but so long as you don't ship Lychael or Kyer (if you do then HARD DNI, I literally don't care what your reasoning is) you probably can, especially if you're not really into it anymore.

DNI if you ship characters with abusive dynamics. I did not go through horrific situations with people who should've protected me just for some creep on the internet to treat it like a quirky yaoi dynamic. The only exception to this is if it's done to cope and not portrayed in a positive light.

If you're here to cringe at my content, then all I really say is my friend, we don't have to fight. I consider myself a nice friend. We could probably be friends. I'm a good engager, I can match people's energy well even if I don't quite understand the subject. I'm fine with disagreeing on people and seldom make a big deal out of differing beliefs, heck, I'm even friends with a few conservatives. I'm sure we could learn a lot from each other, maybe I could even show you that it's ok to be weird sometimes. Perhaps you just need the change in perspective that I had.

Alright, important "stuff I want people to see instantly on my blog" things out of the way. More under the cut, including:

♡ My other blogs (kin blog, "weird stuff" (SFW) blog, Heart RP blog, hero-villain blog, etc.)

♡ Information about yours truly (about me, hobbies, some neat fun facts, yk yk)

♡ Boundaries

♡ Some useful information, just in-general

♡ Userboxes, cos what good Tumblr blog doesn't have em?

If you're one of the many, many otherkin/otherkin-adjacent/"weird stuff" I followed, my accounts for those will be under this cut. I hope to form a community with you all. :)

"Weird Stuff" Blog (SFW Vore/Tickling, etc.) - DM

Crossover AU Loredump blog - @traumabasin (inactive… for now)

Kin/Venting Blog - @thehearteccentric

Heart RP blog - @heartchonnyjash

Hero Villain/Whump blog - @elsewherereflective (probably shadowbanned idk no one sees my posts 😭)

Extended About Me…

Góðan daginn! I'm AXYER, Chimney, or Heart! AXYER's more of a stage name I prefer to be called if we're not too familiar with each other, Chimney's just a general name, and Heart is more of a friendly name if we're talking more casually. I also go by Axon if we're VERY close, please ask before calling me that!

I am a being birthed by the madness of Entropy that looms on urban towers in the scintillating moonlight dedicated to my resentment of everyone around me. You'd think the God of Moon and Emotion would get a lot more done with this power. You'd be mistaken.

I love psychology, like a lot. I consider myself to be at the point where I even know ✨🔍👁️ Forbidden Knowledge 👁️🔎✨. I'll let you figure out what that means. 😉

My most fondest corners of psychology would be trauma responses, child psychology + child development, behavioural psychology, and the effects of internalisations and conditioning. I'm veeeeery well-versed in mental illness but I don't consider it one of my primary psych interests. I know most about anxiety disorders!

I'm also VERY VERY big into writing!!! I absolutely LOVE fiction, and I think it's a very vital thing for a lot of people's happiness. Fiction is magical, and I think it's beautiful how much it can shape people and their sense of what makes them happy. I LOVE crossover AUs, like, REAAAAAAALLY REALLY love crossover AUs, like, basically every single one of my main stories are crossover AUs, like the kind where five-hundred different fandoms exist in one big town together.

I also love zoology, sociology, astronomy, biomes, modern Iceland/Icelandic culture, winter/night aesthetics, fashion, trains, photography, coding (I'm just starting, though!), and a few more my busy brain can't afford me to think of right now. My main interests in psychology are trauma responses and my main interest in writing is character-writing and worldbuilding!

I consider myself an honest person, and I really don't like lying to people. I try not to be blunt but it slips out sometimes, and I really dislike sugarcoating things. If you need honesty, I want to give you honesty! I don't think people can properly change if they're not given a right step in the right direction, so I try to be as honest as can be. If I don't feel like I can be honest with you, often times that's a bad sign in our friendship. Honesty is a big thing to me!

I find that getting immersed in a good story is very healthy for the soul, just as long as you don't wade too deep that you can't pull yourself out. My dreams are to bring my silly, self-indulgent stories to the world and help people get lost in them, too, even if for only a little bit. Nothing brings me more joy than the idea of helping people get lost somewhere they feel safe, if not thrilled from the drama rather than poisoned.

If you're interested in any of my stories, I'd be happy to share a bit about them!

The primary ones would be:

-Pillow Club, a very self-indulgent AU where fictional characters from all sorts of worlds beyond the perceivable multiverse live inside of modern rural Iceland, with a lot of supernatural worldbuilding but ultimately restricted to urban fantasy. The main cast lives within the Pillow Club, a big, apartment complex-esque building where characters live for free at the cost of stricter living conditions, run by a certain well-known rabbit serial killer man with a lot of secrets. It's intended to have similar stakes to a more exaggerated, supernatural slice-of-life version of reality; there's no overarching goal, characters go about things as they do and conflicts and goals change as life happens. The main protagonists are all from niche to semi-niche stories, namely my AUs of the such.

-Untitled Chonny Jash AU (yes that's the actual AU name), a Chonny's Charming Chaos Compendium AU in-which Cameron (Whole), a severely tormented child, suddenly has two bizarre animal-like creatures split off for him after becoming emancipated at only (roughly) thirteen. The two ids, Heart, an angelic, purple id with a boisterous and friendly disposition, and Mind, a robotic, shark-like blue id with a much more reserved, awkward, and stoic (yet well-meaning) personality come to be Cameron's only joy in life, and he raises the two the best he can (which thankfully, they age extremely fast) and they're one happy family, until Cameron loses his humanity and becomes an id as well. Heart and Mind not only face hurt from Cameron's family, but soon, Cameron himself; now Soul.

-And finally Elsewhere Reflective, which you may learn about on my superhero account. :)

In-case you can't tell, I have a knack for extreme canon-divergence. It's just how I roll.

As for DNI? Well, DNIs aren't exactly… known for their effectiveness. All I'll say is if you're a com-shipper, I'm blocking you, you're mean and you make me extremely uncomfortable and I don't want to fight you. I do also tend to block for whatever reason, if you simply make me uncomfortable I'll block you. No hard feelings.

Oh also Jashshippers. Jashshippers get out, like now, like, right now.

I'm also a (Villain) Heart fictionkin! I'm not comfortable with other Heart fictionkins (or any type of Heart identifier, really, even if it's only one of your identities), so I apologise.

Anyway, I am EXTREMELY tired! So long, and thanks for stopping by to read! I'm sure we can get along even if we don't agree on much, I'm not the type who likes to argue. And if you don't want to be friends, that's fine too. It's just nice seeing ya stop by. :) (hey guess what past Axon, I'm updating this, you're welcome.) (hey guess what past and past past Axon, I did it again) (hey guess what you three, I'm editin it again)

DISCLAIMER: If you ever end up identify as Heart or anyone from Mias World (Heart copinglinks/fictionhearted/synpaths thin ice, but omitted from this), there's like a ninety-nine point-nine percent chance I will block you unless we're already super duper close. No hard feelings! My widdle stoopid brain can't handle it is all.

More added as I went back to this post:

As mentioned and implied several times now, I HATE arguing and I am TERRIBLE with conflict. I'm willing to debate so long as you're polite about it and can agree to disagree (without insulting myself or my intelligence, Shae), but generally speaking I don't like to fight people and am an extremely sensitive person.

Here's the things I absolutely will not discuss:

-My stance on DID/OSDD, there's a lotta misinformation and disagreement on a lotta things on it so I'm just not comfy talkin about it m'ny'alright? I'll say two things: it's a real disorder and anyone who accuses people of faking things are losers.

-Trashtalking, I dealt with it enough at my old house and have dealt with it enough in the past at an all-girls highschool and I do not condone it whatsoever. I'm fine if you need to vent or you're just telling me an interesting conflict in a friend group (that I am NOT apart of!!!!!! Do NOT make me your rumour person knucklehead!!!!!) but I draw the line at genuinely insulting people and spreading rumours!

-My stance on the USA election. Another "you can't win" situation. Please leave me out of most politics in-general, I try to avoid that on this blog as I want my blog to be something I can look back on and not feel stressed about. Yes, I hate Trump.

-Tumblr controversy. I try my very hardest to be nice to everyone regardless on if I like them or not and if you let me know they're not cool, I'll distance myself, but please don't try to go after me if I'm still nice to them. I'm quite literally nice to everyone lest you REALLY hurt me, which only a select few people have and even then none of them are allowed on this blog.

Tumblr hate asks are open you will get a free kitty video 😌

@nkgrimmie kys

Tags…

(I can't guarantee there's content for all of these yet)

#axyer psychology moment - I talk about psychology.

#untitled chonny jash au - I talk about Chonny Jash AU (that also belongs to nkgrimmie) where Heart and Mind are sort of aliens who love to argue for fun and also Soul sucks.

#pillow club - I talk about my extremely multifandom crossover AU that takes place in the middle of nowhere in Iceland. Do you like tired depressed scrawny men? Do you like characters from completely different universe having relationships you'd never thought of but now you're curious about? Do you like a lengthy plot-line following complex trauma arcs? Do you like extreme canon-divergence? Do you like robot dilfs? Then stay tuned. (Update: you will probably only find this on @traumabasin)

#important - Anything that's important.

#axyer eats a canvas - Art (if I remember this tag exists).

#axyer stories - I tell stories.

#axyer rant - I rant about something. Be prepared, I am an extremely passionate person and am usually wrong about at least one thing; please correct me. But politely.

#happy hour - Happy little enjoyable things. :)

#*unfurls scroll* hmmhm yes - I figured I needed a reblog tag, so here it is!

#cool people things - Reblogs/interactions/whatever with my homies.

#extremely cool people - Reblogs/interactions/whatever with a ROACH.

#laughter is truly in my pants - This post made me laugh.

#the blues and greens - Favourite posts.

#embracing this harmony - All-time favourite posts.

[butmakeitgayblog]

Do you have any advice for fan fiction writers who aren't getting many readers etc? I feel like giving up some days but I love writing and find fan fiction my personal therapy if that makes sense. I'd love any advice you can give or any suggestions. 💕

Well, honestly I'm not any kind of authority so take whatever I say with a grain of salt. Because honestly, I never really thought I'd get any kind of following to begin with 😕 this surprised me, and still does to this day, more than anyone. When I started posting my first fic (very nervously and through the feeling like I was going to throw up) I thought "well, I'll just write a few chapters and probably no one will ever read it and I'll get bored and it'll be out of my system." And now here we are, and I have no idea how that happened 😳

What advice I can give is, you can't write for the sake of other people. I know that sounds cheap as hell because the whole point of sharing fic is to get feedback and interact with others in the fandom, but really at the heart of it you have to just write stories that you like and you want to read above everything else. Keep writing. Keep growing. Keep refining your work and your style so no matter what the view count is, you know you're becoming a better writer regardless. And truth be told, you never know what idea or fic will hit with readers and what won't. You may write something and think oh no one is gonna gaf about this and then out of nowhere, that's what people love. It happens more than you know.

Another thing is - and this is going to sound harsh at first but bear with me please - in this day and age sadly you have to manage your expectations. Not because you don't deserve more readers or comments or because your work isn't good, but because the culture of fandom and fanfic/fanart is changing, and not for the better. There's dozens of posts that make the rounds on here passively warning people about how a lot of writers and artists are getting burned out and fed up with the lack of reciprocal community from their audience. Tiktok and IG and all that shit has kind of ruined the landscape of fandom because now everything is seen as just consumption based. More and more people read a fic and move on, binge a show and move on, burn through a fandom's entire AO3 content in 3 months and move on, and it sucks. I mean when you look at fandoms of old, the days of Xena and Buffy for example, a lot of those fans are still around and still participating and still creating work even though the show/fandom/ships are long gone. You don't really see that loyalty much anymore, and it becomes a cycle of the fandom shrinking and then the feedback and comments and support grinds to a halt, and then creators stop feeling like wasting hours of their life to pour themselves into work that gets maybe a handful of comments even though they see hundreds or thousands of people have read it. It just sucks all around. So expecting to see the numbers that a fic did even 3-5 years ago, sadly, just isn't going to happen.

BUT

I do also know this, the Clexa fandom has been one of the best fandoms I've ever been in, both as just a fan on the outskirts and someone who tries to contribute. I've found Clexas to be funny and welcoming and we have a core group of fucking awesome and loyal, supportive readers, but the thing is you have to keep going. Sometimes building an audience and a regular group of readers takes time. Name recognition matters. Yes there are writers out there that are just synonymous with the fandom, but there's other writers (hi yes hello me, I mean me lol) who came late to the party and it's taken some time to get people to see their work. Tagging things and reblogging, talking in tags, reaching out to other people in the fandom and making friends who want to help you with your work because you help support theirs. All that stuff. It makes a difference. Damn near every week or so I get a new reader saying "wow idk how I hadn't heard of you before/read your stuff before but I'm glad I found it, keep going!" And that 100% will never have even the possibility of happening if you stop writing!

In the end, you just have to decide what's best for you. If this feels incredibly unhelpful I truly am sorry, I wish I had better advice to give you but I'm as clueless to this all as you are. But 2 things I do know for sure without a doubt? One, there is a place for you in any fandom, and your work does matter. There is an audience out there who want to read what you have to write and they'll love it. And two, in the end just be kind to yourself. Love yourself and be proud of yourself for trying, and for being creative and growing your work. Fanfic is supposed to be fun, writing about your favorite blorbos is meant to be fun, even if more often than not it feels like the equivalent of just dancing alone in your kitchen. Ya get what I mean?

[fortanuvasyama]

Picking up on social cues is not my forte either. I think it would be better for you personally to not start up feuds. Fandom is supposed to be fun and it can be that way if you just block and move on. If you put out hostility then hostility is all you'll get in return. Take care.

…was I starting up a feud? Wait, better question, are you aware of why I made that post?

If not, context: The person I tagged in it had been reblogging other people’s posts and degrading them for the ship/character they were posting about and had then escalated to sending people asks about it. My first reblogged response to him was definitely confrontational but still somewhat respectful (or at least intentioned that way) with attempted advice because I was under the belief he wanted a conversation. (I did make an intentionally asshole response here to his asshole response to someone esle's post.) He responded with what was essentially a ‘not reading that’ and tipped me off to him just wanting to make others feel bad. I definitely got rude in my response to that, and he didn’t respond to that further.

Then I responded to his claims that the ship fans were the reason the character was canonically killed, and the conversation that ensued was (I think) moderately polite on both sides. He also did not respond past that. (Please note, however, that what started the conversation was someone asking him not to harass people with differing opinions, and him saying he would continue to do so.)

Another interjection by me to his response to another person in which he made claims that seemed unfounded (to me).

The last time he responded to me was when I reblogged his post where he claimed that anyone trying to rebut him was failing, which I found quite amusing since he was refusing to engage with anyone who was rebutting his points.

Two days later, during which time he had not - and still has not as of posting this - responded to me, I made the post you are referring to.

The last time I reblogged him was shortly after that. That time I was addressing his attempt to shift blame from the writers to the fans for the character's death.

Hopefully this timeline makes sense. I don't think I was starting up a feud, I was earnestly attempting to start a dialogue, but his laissez-faire attitude to degrading people made me decide to take a more hardline stance in return.

I've been in fandom for a long time, for many different things, and I very rarely interact with anyone. When I do I try to be as kind as possible. (I think this is actually the first time I've talked to other people using this blog! ...I am generally very shy.) I definitely agree with blocking and moving on. I think in this case, because it wasn't just people spamming the tag with hate but directly going after other fans, I thought maybe stepping in would get them to back off. Idk if I'd consider it successful tho lol.

I'll take your judgement on being an asshole fair and square, though. I don't mind being an asshole to the assholes out there.

[dr-demi-bee]

I really love so many of OPs points. And I hope that authors and creators like @amandacanwrite know that us lurkers love their content but get spooked by the internet! It's a work in progress :') It's reassuring to hear someone advocating for the shy and quiets of the internet. As someone raised and taught to be terrified of a perceivable internet presence with a crippling social anxiety disorder, this post really spoke to me. I am only just learning how to interact with others online using a voice in a way I am comfortable with. For pete sake I literally have a PhD and training in how to speak publicly - but that does not mean it is any easier to get past learned behaviors, especially socially.

The original post I saw about writeblr had me feeling discouraged as a long-time lurker only just making their first forays into active online participation. I have started, drafted, and dreamed up so much content that I've never put out into the world because I was terrified to be perceived or 'mess up' somehow. To see someone slamming the idea of wanting to be part of a community and not 'following the unwritten rules' cut right to that fear.

Once upon a time I was an artist, I drew OCs and comics, and wrote prolifically - but only ever had a tiny audience of cherished friends. Now I am stepping out of my comfort zone and posting my passion projects on Ao3. And maybe I'll get comfortable enough to make and share art again. But all of it is for me.

Is that the right way to engage with the fandom? IDK. Do I enjoy it? Actually, yes. Do I know how to tag things? Absolutely not. Did I draft this very post like 4 times and struggle with posting it? Y e s.

And the reality is that you are allowed to interact and engage with content on the internet however you like. There is no right way to engage with things you like.

Need to write/draw/sing/etc about something? Do it!! Want to share your work? Great, more power to you. Like helping others get exposure or show your affiliation/appreciation of content through curated reblogging? Reblog away! Like to engage directly? Comment, ask, like, reblog! Just want to share love from afar? Likes are okay too. However you are comfortable engaging, do. If that means silent lurking, by all means. You are not obligated to do anything. That includes performing for a community, even if you want to be a part of that community.

All are welcome to engage with my work however they like. Every like I give is an expression of love, just a quiet one.

By the way, lurkers are welcome on my blog<33

Yeah, yeah, Writeblr is a community and all that. But I get it.

Some of us have anxiety disorders. Some of us are (or were once) minors on the internet who had it drilled into us to never make our presence known in online spaces lest we get stalked or groomed.

It's okay if interacting is outside of your comfort zone.

Some of us aren't actually on tumblr enough to make making a Writeblr intro worth it.

Some of us prefer to take a few months, maybe years, observing the community to learn the rules. And let's face it, there is a huge learning curve to Tumblr culture. I came here from Pinterest in like 2018 and hooo boy was it intimidating!

Like, I was that 17 year old pinterest lurker with an anxiety disorder who was taught that internet safety meant "never comment on anything" who took a few years before I felt comfortable enough with tumblr culture to reblog things with tags, let alone make public posts.

So I guess what I am saying is, I can't judge. Because I've been there.

Writeblr is a community. And the community (for me) is the best part. And remember that if you don't contribute to the community you don't get to complain about it either. But this is also a public space. Silent observers are to be expected. And on my blog you are welcome.

[latent-thoughts]

Fandom musings...

I received yet another demanding anon, asking me why I'm not posting more fics or updating my WIPs. Idk anon, read my pinned post maybe. You'll get an idea.

Plus, I've gotten two separate anons telling me that hating on the Loki series will get me blacklisted from the fandom (I suspect it's the same anon lol). That people will no longer read my fics. Blah blah.

Oh well, poor me, I suppose. /Sarcasm

The fandom's whim affects me so much that I'll have to cater to them, huh?

Well, anon, sadly for you, idgaf. All my fucks have evaporated the same way Loki's character evaporated in the series. I will hate on it till it pleases me. Because venting about it at least gives me some closure.

And also, I'll unfollow as many people as it takes so that my personal Tumblr experience isn't completely ruined by the series' stans.

I've come to a point where I just need to see someone reblog something pro series (especially sylki gifs and stills without even tagging them) to make me hit the unfollow button.

My patience is thin these days; it happens when one is unwell and stressed. I'm already partly out of the fandom anyway. Season 2 will likely have me go on a hiatus, because I know how annoying the pro Loki series fandom will get.

I may not stop writing for the og 2011-13 era Loki, because it's a compulsion I'm not yet immune to. But yeah, my fandom interaction days are coming to an end, I know.

It saddens me, because I've been here many years, writing fics and metas in bulk. But in the end, I have to choose my mental health and self care over rude stans and entitled anons.

[aces-to-apples]

Damn I’m disappointed you’re falling in the camp of going from threatening an abuse victim with a lawyer and telling them to shut up, I had hoped with stance on other fandom harassment you would empathize.

............hey remember when I first got into Star Wars fandom and ended up following and being pseudo-friends with goddamn clonehub of all the fucking people and participated in a fucking smear campaign against several other artists for such "crimes" as "drawing icky art that made me, personally, uncomfortable"? Can you even imagine how fucking embarrassing that is to recall as a actual adult rn?? I literally want to tear my skin off sometimes remembering that I was absolutely certain that my personal discomfort and fucking ignorance was more important than other peoples' right to just fucking exist and vibe in their corner of fandom and I think we should all take a minute to contemplate how much more of a goddamn nightmare my loud obnoxious ass would be if I'd actually ended up full-on puriteen..... Fucking harrowing, isn't it?

And you know what? Maybe I'll end up having backed the wrong metaphorical horse this time as well and find out that I once again am running in the same circles and happily interacting with yet another goddamn bully. Shit's fucking embarrassing, if nothing else, lemme tell you. (God remember that bitchy little "ah shucks weren't you and clonehub friends once?? What happened???" anon ask a while back? Talk about harrowing lmao.)

But I've been running in the same circles as Jer for years, I'm friends with several people who've been Friends-friends with her for years and even decades who vouch for her, and I've witnessed several hate and harassment campaigns run against her already. And I don't know any of these people crawling out of the woodwork to start shit so idk. I'm going with my gut here. Maybe it'll work out like shit again. Or maybe I'll dodge the bullet this time and not participate in a vindictive smear campaign against people who make the "wrong art" or whatever the fuck.

And like.

Hey, Anonymous Goddamn Citizen, you ever considered that I'm fucking tired? That I'm tired to my goddamn bones of how every reactionary bitch on this planet with an internet connection can and will just make heinous shit up about random fucking people that they don't like and convince enough people to jump on the dogpile to the point where the truth doesn't even matter anymore?? Do you how many times I've witnessed this in the last three years alone??? I'm fucking tired man! I'm tired!!

So like. Idk. Maybe fuck your snotty ham-fisted attempt at a guilt-trip? And fuck your manipulative, performative bullshit "disappointment" with Internet Rando #7014?? Maybe even fuck you personally???

I mean, I don't know you, because if I did then you wouldn't be on anon, you'd be in my DMs actually trying to talk to me instead of, in all likelihood, hunting through Flamethrower's posts and copy-pasting this shit into the inbox of everyone who reblogs her posts or whatever. Like that's usually how I see this shit go. And believe me, I have seen this shit go. If we were friends, and therefore someone whose opinion I care about, you wouldn't be hiding behind an anonymous function, taking advantage of the observable fact that I am fundamentally incapable of not having both an opinion and the last word.

Yet here you are.

And here I am, answering the bait, as is my custom. But hey, I extra super deluxe mega promise that if I end up on the wrong side of history here, I'll do the whole YouTuber Apology song and dance and you'll get to smugly say I fuckin told you so. I'm sure that'll make you very happy.

'Til then, just as an unnecessary bit of extra snotty pedantry to sign off: I'm actually hypoempathetic, so feel free to hold your breath waiting for me to empathize with literally anything. Funnily enough, I'm actually trying not to let my personal knee-jerk reactions dictate my sense of morality and ethics these days. Just as a fun change from Anti-Lite Apples of 2017-2019ish??

[hamartian-cathexis]

I posted 6,664 times in 2022

That's 2,180 more posts than 2021!

12 posts created (0%)

6,652 posts reblogged (100%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@sgchan

@eunnui

@clockwork-shinobi

@elytrians

@clotpolesonly

I tagged 3,515 of my posts in 2022

Only 47% of my posts had no tags

#fanart - 315 posts

#art - 311 posts

#cat - 261 posts

#taylor swift - 231 posts

#teen wolf - 195 posts

#tiktok - 191 posts

#hannibal - 163 posts

#aesthetic - 155 posts

#gif set - 148 posts

#animals - 111 posts

Longest Tag: 133 characters

#usually when i catch a glimpse of smth that i dont want spoilers of im actually very very very good at scrolling past without looking

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

do people really vet the ops of all the posts they reblog? i see all these posts that are like “whenever i see an xyz post it turns out that it’s from some bad abc blog” and it’s like...sure, yikes, but how did you know that? you...checked? you went through op’s blog? for a reblog? what? bro all i ever do is scroll through my dash and press the silly little buttons, are you telling me there are people out there who investigate the politics of the op behind every post they interact with? really?

3 notes - Posted April 10, 2022

#4

do that blorbo thingy for tmr

I assume u mean this? Lol I rbed that on my sideblog tea FJSKDHSJDHDH but it's okay I'll still do it lmao

blorbo (favorite character, character I think about the most): GALLY.

scrunkly (my “baby”, character that gives me cuteness aggression, character that is So Shaped): idk if I have one of these for tmr? Or any fandom really. My wow they're so cute! reaction is WOW I WANT TO MAKE THEM CRY which I don't think is the point of this category LMAO. Or idk, now that I think about it, I guess maybe frypan?

scrimblo bimblo (underrated/underappreciated fave): ...still Gally????? Or maybe Brenda 🤔

glup shitto (obscure fave, character that can appear in the background for 0.2 seconds and I won’t shut up about it for a week): Zart. I have so many weird random hcs for him. Know nothing about him canonically. My character now.

poor little meow meow (“problematic”/unpopular/controversial/otherwise pathetic fave): I feel like poor little meow meows are usually men but I actually quite like ava. So I guess her? Janson also makes sense but I don't see him as a fav character so much as a useful plot device I might wield here or there to inflict harm or angst upon other favs *shrugs* tho I don't hate him either.

horse plinko (character I would torment for fun, for whatever reason): either Thomas or Minho. Or, y'know what, fuck it, gally too. I like tormenting characters okay. This could be anyone.

eeby deeby (character I would send to superhell): minho. I think he'd have fun there.

7 notes - Posted February 11, 2022

#3

what IF

that poem was about minho

(this poem)

It totally could be!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! the question is, who is the speaker tho? 🤔

10 notes - Posted July 9, 2022

#2

Okay but "i didn't have it in myself to go with grace / and you're the hero flying around saving face" and "it must be exhausting always rooting for the anti-hero"

18 notes - Posted October 22, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

everyone else: *listening to august by taylor swift because it's august*

me: not me. im built different

me: *listens to august by taylor swift but it's the long pond studio sessions version*

20 notes - Posted August 3, 2022

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[indimlights]

✨Merry christmas Cille✨

To: @birthdaysentiment 💛

-> From: @indimlights (Rodrigo)

Hi Cille! I guess it's up to me to kick off this "little" surprise but I don't even know where to start...

I remember really well the first time I saw a post of yours, I was still lurking back then and the moment I read it I felt so many things, things I don't know how to describe and that I never thought words could make me feel and I knew, I just knew that I had to see more. Fast-forward a couple of hours I knew your blog by heart, I had looked at so many of your posts and every single one was as amazing as the first one, as touching as the first one and as deep as the first one.

The meaning you put on words still gets to me every single day, you have such a way into them and don't even get me started on your music analysis. The moment I read the first one I was mind-blown! The things you catch, the connections you make between the music and the scene, the way you describe the scenes, it makes me go back, relive the moment and feel everything I felt the first time I watched it and all this just by... reading your words! If that doesn't tell me how amazing you are with them I don't know what will.

From that day I always wished I could talk to you, get to know the person behind the words, behind the masterpieces, behind the blog because you seemed like such a sweet person and now... After some time, I got that chance and I'm so happy I got it. You are everything I thought you would be and 1000x more, you are sweet, caring, smart, loving, wise, joyful and so supportive to me and to everyone in this community! You always spread love and that's so important and so nice of you to do, the way you write essays in the tags for everyone's posts just shows that! It's such a simple thing but means so much.

And I'm not even mentioning how talented you are with non-written posts because those are on another level aswell, I mean you always surprise me with your ideas and creativity and just knowing that whenever I come here I will have some sort of attack waiting for me just keeps me going and I love everything you do so much.

I'll never be able to thank you enough for being so welcoming when I barely knew anyone and for making me feel so much more comfortable here! Getting to know you better and to share this experience with someone like you has been a blessing and I wouldn't change any second of it, thank you for everything you have done and for always being so sweet to me. I don't understand what I did to deserve all that but that just shows again how wonderful you are.

I'm wishing you a merry christmas! Surrounded by everyone you love and that makes you happy because you deserve that and so much more, please never change, never stop being like this, a special and wonderful person. I hope you enjoy this surprise :) Have a wonderful day Cille 💛

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-> From: @remy3010 (Remy)

Hihi Cille❤ I love your blog so much especially music analysis! I just fall in love with your music analysis since your first posts.

For me whose mother tongue is not English, it takes a while to read but I'd love to. Because these articles deserve more people to see (including me)！

I have read every article of yours, the content touches me all the time. (Sometimes I have a lot of words want to tell you, But I don’t know how to speak in English..sorry🥺so I give❤ and reblog)

Anyway, thank you for writing beautiful words and sharing with us! I hope you can keep this passion forever, and everything go well. May you have wonderful days my friend ❤

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-> From: @franboos (Francine)

hi bb cille,

wanted to tell u that i love u blog and the time u put into analyzing stuff is shhshdhdhdhd. queen shit. u seen so genuine to talk to idk, i get those nice, non judgmental, relaxed and cool vibes from u. lmao. pls stay on tumblr for as long as u can cuz i love ur posts. u notice such little things in clips from wtfock, like u have a very detailed eye miss hehe. i really want to get to know u more cuz i really think we could vibe v well together, and that’s on perioood 😌. i hope u have a great great day while reading this queen. never stop what you’re doing cuz ur great at it. i love you !!

many kusjes and knuffels*,

fran

(*knuffels means hugs but also stuffed animal in dutch, did u know that? otherwise now u do, nice isn’t it)

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-> From: @dagcutie (Pauline)

hey hey cille!!

I must admit i’m very much a fan of you and your blog

first of all, your posts? chefs kiss!! i mean your music analysis are amazing and so on point, your photo edits are always perfect and the colorings are so beautiful, your long text posts 'drabble/headcanon style' are so cute and always makes me so soft and emotional...

your love for black and white? that’s a big yes!! anyways everything you do is perfect!!

also can we take a moment to appreciate your person? i think we can and we must do it..

you’re always so supportive and kind, all the nice tags you let under peoples creations are so sweet!! I also could cry about how cute you are always leaving lovely messages to people inbox or coming randomly to them to say something nice.. you’re the most beautiful soul and a blessing for this fandom!! please never stop being you!! ily a lot, sending you all my love and i wish you an amazing day<3

knus og kys til dig💛✨

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-> From: @allee-sander (Tanya)

Cille, you are an amazing person. you are so kind and loving. every time i see you on my dash, my face lights up. you are a literal angel. you are loved and appreciated, never forget that.

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-> From: @tsjernobyl (Emma)

Cille, you are a genuinely kind and loving soul who's just on this site to talk about the things you love and spread a little joy and everyone can tell that the moment they go onto your blog. i've seen you be nothing but lovely to everyone you interact with and it's a real honor to be mutuals with you and interact from time to time. You are always one of the sweetest and most supportive people here, and i hope you feel that love flowing back to you at all times because you always have my warmest wishes and love!!!!!

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-> From: @dreamaur (Ann)

How does it feel to be so cool and sweet and supportive??? I love you and your mind and how you see so many details and capture them so well with words,,,queen keep going with your top tier analysis and text posts that make me emotional everything single time

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-> From: @annonymannonym (Alice)

Where do I even begin ummm ... well words may not be enough to describe such angelic human being that Cille is but today is about her *about you Cille* !♡! Honestly I’m so so happy and honoured and so grateful to have meet and know you and come along your blog and your amazing posts and edits , let’s s not forget about the masterpiece that your analysis is cuz I live for every single one of them ! Always so on point and touchy and so so emotionally, they give you a whole new perspective and point of view and helps you connect with the person that goes throught those feelings , helping you understand so much deeper the feelings and the emotions he experience in that right moment( so thank you from the bottom of my heart for taking your time and writing these it really shows how much passion and love you put on making these! they absolute helped me to understand and feel much more the meaning behind all these little moments you captured so so well and wonderful ! ) You’re always such a blessing here so lovely friendly so goodhearted and sooo on ... < insert here all the good compliments in the world > cuz they all applies to you ! Know that you’re so special and such a light a sunshine wherever you are and go , you always spread so much positivity and good energy and love and compassion and you support every single people your way comes along with and you shown so much respect and love and understanding ! Always with a wise and thoughtful mind and with the right words at you using them with so much care and mining fullness ! And your blog i love love love it the b&w aesthetic and your love for it owns my heart !! I adore your posts so much ( or ramblings or thoughts as you may call them but know they are so so much more than that its a way of yours to express yourself and open up and pour every feeling you experience and many people found themselves and feel with you , I find myself in them and resonate with them every time ! ahh and your tags that you write in every post are sooo sweet and cute i could read them all day long just coming on your blog and read them makes my day so much better ) they are such a good way to brighten your day and they put a smile on my face whenever i see you on my dash truly a blessing to have you here! Never forget how unique and special human being you are and every one who has you in their lives are very blessed to have you ! Never change being this beautiful inside and out but most importantly inside ! literally a tresure your soul is and must be protected at all cost so take very good care of it ! Don’t forget to always do what makes you happy and gives joy and peace and just you know that good feeling you have in your chest and heart whenever you do something you love and like with passion and joy. I could say so much more but maybe I’ll repeat myself cuz there are never enough compliments to say about how wonderful person you are! you deserve every single one of them ! I really meant every word i said from the bottom of my heart and know that i really apreciate and love all you do and I’ll be here to support you anytime! You deserve the absolute world and more!! love you Cille! ♡ Okey bye✿

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-> From: @robbesdriesen (Bianca)

Cille ~ such a lovely presence to see on my dash always!! Your support towards everyone in the fandom is more than appreciated and so is your love that you continuously aim to spread <3

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-> From: @happilyinsane (Dharaa)

Hey Cille 💕

Just wanted to say that I think you are really sweet and lovely. I see you everywhere on the tumblr. Wanna thank you for keeping this fandom alive during the drought and keep us entertained. I see your tags on people's posts and I always feel like you are so kind and sweet to spend your time appreciating people's work. Doesn't matter if its a photo or an edit or whatever. You are so nice to pay attention to everyone individually. You are such a good friend/mutual, always appreciating and sliding into their asks and just making their day a lil bit better. You definitely bring so many smiles on our faces. I am sure everyone is very thankful to have you in this fandom, I know I am.

I know we haven't interacted that much but thank you for sliding into my asks and giving me an opportunity to interact with you. You are the sweetest, baby. And I hope you like this whole thing that Rodrigo is doing, because you definitely deserve it. Keep lighting up our dashes with your posts, pls. Ilysm 💕

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-> From: @alwaysaneverland (Sarah)

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-> From: @theflowerisblue (Lola)

Cille! You’re such a present part of the tag! You’re always interacting and posting and I love reading what you have to say. Your music analysis are so interesting and I also think you’re really funny! I love your black and white aesthetic and most of all I love how supportive and positive you’re towards everyone!

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-> From: @fvae (Fae)

hi cille!! I'm really glad to have met you through this fandom and I hope you like the surprise!! I loved to read your song analysis because they're always on point and well thought of👌 💯  and your edits!! *chef's kiss*

sending you lots of love and hugs 💕💖💫

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-> From: @embeddedinmybrain (Tasfia)

Hi Cille! You are just a ray of sunshine!! And you are the sweetest and kindest person here. I loved following through with your wtfock music analysis posts bc everything you felt is exactly what I felt. They made me really emotional!! And of course I (and Sarah and Fae) appreciate your tags for moyo season so much. We wait for them and we read them to each other and we just love seeing your reactions to it. Your edits are incredibly amazing too and I love the colouring in them. You are just an amazing sweetheart and I’m so glad to know you 🥺🥺🥺💕💕💕

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-> From: @veerledejaegers (Soph)

Cille, you are very friendly and sweet, always insightful and seem like an incredibly lovely person that i hope i can get to know better ❤️(also love the black and white aesthetic)

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-> From: @sanderxrobbee (Semri)

Cilleeeeeeeeeeee loml!!!! Merry Christmas to you! I genuinely wish you all the best and I hope you get to spend all the holidays in the best way possible! You’re such a blessing to this fandom because you’re talented in every single way, whether it’s your writing or your godly Photoshop skills, oh and let’s not forget your dedication because you’re there all the time to brighten our days and make us smile. I haven’t known you for long, but I truly love and appreciate all you do and I’m grateful that you always take the time to compliment everything and everyone. You have no idea how much it makes me smile when you say my gifs are good because I’ve yet to learn a lot, but you are seriously one of the biggest reasons I haven’t given up the second something got too complicated. Where am I going with this? No idea. Anyway, I adore the fuck out of you and I’m happy to take part in this “project” because you really deserve all the love in the world. Once again, happy holidays!

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-> From: @hopelessromanticvirgo (Elene)

Talking about you Cille is making me always so emotional but I will try my best not to burst out from love and emotions. You’re one of the sweetest person here and I will never get tired of saying that.

We haven’t talked that much directly but I don’t need that to know you’re one of the greatest person here, I just know that for sure. I’m also sure about it because I can see the way you treat people? Even speaking about your tags? Like you take the time out of your day to make sure everybody gets love and everybody gets attention. You make all of us smile and I adore your tags on my stories. You can’t even imagine how many times I have reread your posts about it, like I crave it, I’m in love with it, it makes me feel so happy and so loved and I’m certain that everybody else feels the same way too. You always know how to make everybody’s day better and how to make them feel special.

And please, don’t even get me started on your posts! Your song analysis. Like I know I’ve told you this thousands of times before but I don’t care, I’m saying it again! The way you pictured and described all those songs and scenes!!! Like wow! I’d always reread your posts about that one specific scene after rewatching the season countless of times. (And you also did so many scenes!! I’m in awe and I’m emo from just thinking about it)

Watching clips were different but reading them with lyrics were a whole other thing. I just felt so connected with the whole story and scenes when I’d ready your posts. And connect scenes with the music and it was the best thing ever. Sometimes I still go back and reread some of my favorite posts of yours. I never get tired of it.

And you’re so kind and so sweet that I could write essays about it! Such a blessing to this world! I just love you a lot okay? Everybody needs somebody like you, somebody who shines from kindness and love and people around you must be so lucky who get to meet you everyday and talk to you!

Thank you so much for everything you do, for being you and for making my day better and making me smile every time you reblog my posts or every time I just see your username on my dashboard! It’s such a small gesture but means so much!

Thank you for existing, babe! I hope you’re gonna have a wonderful day! And I’m sending you the biggest hug and my positive vibes! I hope a smile never leaves your face! And I only wish the best things up onto you! I love you! ❤️❤️❤️

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-> From: @itubainaretro (Esther)

Cille, my queen!!! Hi, sweetheart! Just dropping by to say that I hope you’re having a good day, despite the situation that the world is in, and that you’re feeling happy, loved, cherished and warm today, because you’re you and you deserve to feel all the best feelings in the world! I wish you all the happiness in the world and that all your wishes come true too, because you sure deserve it! Thank you for being this amazing, inspiring, talented and sweet person that you are and that I’ve come to know a little bit in the past few months! I know we don’t exactly talk that much, but I want you to know that I love seeing you, your beautiful edits and your extremely heart warming “moments that live in my head rent free” posts on my dash daily! They all really make my days! Thank you for sharing your posts with us and making this fandom (and the world, honestly) a better place! You’re amazing and I’m really glad I pressed the follow button the day I did when I started following you! I hope this little message makes you smile today, babe! Best wishes and lots and lots of love,

Esther (itubainaretro) ♥️

PS: don’t forget to hydrate yourself, wear a mask and stay safe haha xxxx.

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-> From: @driesendotkom (Marie)

Dear cille,

the reason i‘m writing this is to simply say thank you. thank you for being such a stable part of the fandom. every time i go into the tag i know i will see you there and it makes me smile every time. i can’t tell you how many hours i spent reading every one of your song analysis. even now a year after season 3 ended i find myself going back to them now and then to reminisce and relive those moments all over again.

i also want to say thank you for being such a kind and welcoming person. you care so much about the people you are close to. you are so easy to talk to and you make the people around you feel comfortable instantly. you brought a little bit of hygge into my life and one more time i want to say thank you 💛

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-> From: @driesenrobbe (Becca)

my dear, sweet, cille! you never fail to make me smile and im beyond happy that we became mutuals! im sure i’ve already said this a million times before but you really do have the biggest heart and i couldn’t thank you enough for all the love and support you constantly share to everybody in the wtfock fandom. plus the talent you possess... girllllll i love seeing your edits and reading your posts (honestly your mind is just wowowowow, it’s on a whole other level of incredible and i hope you know just how wonderful you are). also the way you always write entire essays in the tags of other posts... like you really do take the time to make everyone feel so welcomed and loved, and I’m sending you an infinite amount of love and appreciation in return! you really are the sweetest, most caring person who deserves all the happiness in the world, an actual ray of sunshine! i hope you know how loved and cherished you are, and that good vibes are always being sent your way. Many hugs and kusjes, ilysm!!!! <3

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-> From: @mijnlief (Eline)

Dear Cille,

This year has been a weird one, but I do know that it has also been one of the best because of meeting you. In such a short time we became so close, and I am so grateful to have met you during these weird times. We are so alike in many ways and I love that so much. Our Skype conversations are my favorite and the essays you send me about my writing and just about me being me always make me feel happy and loved. You are the kindest and most generous person ever. I hope you know how special you are. I am so proud of you for everything you have achieved this year and for choosing yourself in situations where it got hard to make a choice in the first place. I know I tell you that everyday, but it doesn’t hurt to say it again right here. I hope this post makes you smile, because you deserve that so much for just being who you are. You bring happiness to all of my days and I can’t wait to hug you one day soon when everything in the world calms down again. I love you lots! 🧡 Eline

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-> From: @onzeziggy (Laurien)

My sweetest Cille, where do I even begin? I suggest we should just begin from the very beginning and I’m sorry in advance if this is going to be a long, sappy text! But now that I have the chance (shout out to Rodrigo) for saying everything I want, I’m not able to tell you how long this will take.

So Cille, I still remember very clearly the first time I saw your account appearing on my dash. It was a music analysis from one of the songs from season 3. I was so amazed by it, because I could imagine how much time it takes to make it and observe every little detail in a single clip. I immediately fell in love with the concept of it and one week later, when you posted another one, my mouth dropped to the floor. Another music analysis? From the same person? Who is she and how do I become her friend? After that second post, I immediately started following you and became your little fangirl. I don’t lie when I say I was waiting every week for a new update of your incredible music analysis nor when I say I loved every single one of them (and still do). I know I already said this a million times, but your words of telling what was going on in every clip, about the emotions present in them, and how the music blended all of it together… No one, and I mean no one could have done it any better! I will forever be grateful for those posts and I want to thank you once again for wanting to share them and your talent with us!

After the music analysis adventure, your picture edits catched my eye. I love them so so much and I also took some creation of it for making some myself. Still, I was this little fangirl, knowing your name is Cille, but also wanting to know so much more about the person behind one of my favorite blogs. And now, during this hiatus, I can say I’ve got to know you and I couldn’t be any happier about it! Starting with little comments in each other’s tags, having little chats in the comment sections to screaming about a possible drawing of Robbe from Sander on their one year anniversary. And look at us now, reblogging almost every post and writing essays in each other’s tags hahah! Honestly, it keeps me alive during these times and I’m so glad I can do this together with you! I live for your attacks! Aaaah now that I’m talking about an attack, the fact that you have a dimples post ready is making me so excited and I think about it every day! We both know what’s important in love and life and that’s Robbe’s dimples! But this right here shows once again what an amazing sweet person you are! No one on here has ever done anything like this for me before, so I can’t thank you enough for this and all the other things you did and still do for me! And the privilege I have to be able to call you my friend warms my heart <33

I’m going to end this with a little quote Robbe wrote in one of his Instagram posts. When I read it again a couple of days ago, I immediately thought of you and what we’ve been through together the last few weeks :’)) Once again, thank you so much for everything you do for me and for everyone here in this fandom and being the amazing person you are! You deserve the whole world for it!

“Sometimes it’s like we just met yesterday, but other days it seems like I already know you my whole life, I love you Cille!” <33

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I hope you enjoyed this💛 If you didn't know this community loved you yet (and I don't think that was possible), now you definetly do.

Extra: I'd like to thank once again everyone that took part it this surprise, you are all the sweetest for taking some time to write this and to help me with it! Thank you so so much✨

[evannotoven]

Thank you @moonsbeta for tagging me, this was really fun and introspective!

1. Why did you choose your url?

Storytime: my ex friend was in the kitchen with her mother speaking, i was in the dining room. During their conversation they had called what I heard was my name, I said "Whats up?" And they laughed. As they had not said Evan, they had said Oven. And so the url was chosen (I'm pretty sure I changed it? I don't remember what it used to be)

2. Any side blogs? If you have them name them and why you have them.

I have an abandoned one, it was meant for just aesthetic photos for my moodboards or fic inspiration but I saw no point in switching so everything is here in this blog.

3. How long have you been on tumblr?

Since 2014, this has always been my account.

4. Do you have a queue tag?

Nope! Whenever you see me posting I'm actually active!

5. Why did you start your blog in the first place?

I first got into fandoms and wanted to find a place I belonged. I mean, I was bullied all my life for my interests and never found anyone who shared my interests. I felt absolutely alone so I started a blog here and basically sharing all my interests into one place.

6. Why did you choose your icon/pfp?

Mine changes constantly but it always matches my header and is always yoongi as he is my lil baby and my ult

7. Why did you choose your header?

My header has always been my favorite game/hyperfixation at the time. Though I eventually stuck to my absolute favorite game, Fragile Dreams: farewell ruins of the moon, and kept a blue theme to match. I think I really like this blue era and will stay with it!

8. What’s your post with the most notes?

My most popular post is my first fake incorrect quotes post, which was Stray Kids as Things I've Heard People Say in which I compiled quotes I collected of people that year and assigned them to a member (I still collect quotes to this day from people, so if you ever want to heard any for a certain group I'd take requests)

Another that's getting close is this moodboard

9. How many mutals do you have?

3-4, I go through fluctuations of mutuals where I'll make a lot and and overtime they get annoyed with me, change their url without telling me and blocking me :) idk why (I know I'm not the best). But I'm also too shy and awkward to make any more

10. How many followers do you have?

372, pretty decent whfuehfurh

11. How many people do you follow?

978 that's a lot oof but I did have this blog for a while and have many many interests and I'm too lazy to clean it up and filter through inactive accounts

12. Have you ever made a shitpost?

Constantly, I feel bad for anyone who has to see my little rants and shit honestly...

13. How often do you use tumblr each day?

I usually check it everyday, I'm always active. But idk like 4 times a day?

14. Did you have a fight/argument with another blog once? Who won?

Um, I did at some point get a bunch of hate and death threats from a very popular blog on here that you'd find in screenshots of tumblrs popular posts. But I won't name them and honestly it was over a stupid ass joke I said when I was like 14

If you want more information it was a joke about a spider so nothing extreme here

15. How do you feel about ‘you need to reblog this’ posts?

I don't like them, they make me anxious

16. So you like tag games?

Yes! There's something so special about being tagged and involved with your mutuals and their mutuals. One day I'll create my own just to interact more with my mutuals

17. Do you like ask games?

Yeah they're pretty fun, I wouldn't really know no one really sends me asks or anything outside of my mutuals.

18. Which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

Honestly? All of them? My mutuals are so cool and it honestly feels like those brothers best friend where they're all cool and mysterious, I'm lucky we're mutuals

19. Do you have a crush on a mutual?

Nope! I haven't had a crush in a long time (fun fact all my fics are based off of my past crushes/relationships)

20. Tags?

@yukh3ic0re @pineapple-panini19 @honeyboyfelix @xenjinwoo (and @/ anyone who wants to try, you can tag me in it if you'd like too :D)

[batwynn]

I'm a newish artist on here and even my friends don't share my posts anymore. Idk what to do bc I keep seeing popular blogs like yours ask for signal boosts and no one bothers and my blog is so small? I feel like I'll never get any attention nvm commissions on here and twitter is almost worse for me.

Hi newish artist anon! Firstly, I don’t know what’s up with your friends, but I would hope they supported you and your work? I know what you mean, though, it’s been a rough period for creators of all types on this site, and I have a feeling it won’t get any better. I wish I could bring you back to the days of reblogs, mutuals screaming about stuff together, and lots of traffic to everyone’s accounts, but... time travel, as far as I can see, is not a viable option. :( Here are some links to some basic tips I wrote out before to managing Tumblr a bit, first and foremost: How to Get Your Art Noticed (On Tumblr)How to Manage Bullying (On Tumblr) How to Sell On ETSY (Super basic) More serious talk under the cut: 

The thing is, also, is that I’m not actually a popular blog. I have a largish sum of followers, but at this point I’ve become aware that a thousand of them are probably porn bots, and at least another 7 thousand or so are hacked accounts/abandoned of friends and mutuals that no longer post or use this site at all.(I say this after exploring some of my older follower’s accounts, a lot of the mutual followed accounts, and a lot more old friend accounts from people I haven’t heard from since 2015 or so.)

 SO many people have left, or were forced off this site, and it’s left a pretty big void for a lot creators like myself and others. It means that a lot of us, while once being decently ‘popular’ are now sort of stagnated to this ‘I have a lot of followers but half my friends are gone and a lot of the followers aren’t actual accounts anymore’ kind of place. Which means, with the whole anti-reblogging front going on, you just... go nowhere. Your posts don’t get outside of your bubble, especially when Tumblr does stuff like hides your posts with links from the tag. :/ 

On the other side of things, If you look at accounts like Pangur and Grim you can really see a difference in account activity and follower interaction. You’ll notice there’s a surplus of activity on multiple types of posts, from personal, to cats, to art, etc. (You’ll also notice a lot of negative stuff, which I honestly don’t miss from the time when I had a lot of activity on this blog lol) That kind of blog is what I would consider an actual ‘popular’ blog, especially since the owner does a lot of interactive posts and gets actual interactions with them. The point I’m trying to make with all this, is that there is no one true way to get interaction on this site, and I don’t really think there’s a perfect way to gain it without, honestly, luck. Even two years ago, I would say something like, ‘You may be able to get people’s attention by working hard at focusing on post times, popular trends, networking, working with other artists, joining zines, etc.’ But that just doesn’t work anymore. Hard work does not automatically equal popularity or give you attention and interactions, especially not on this site. 

Things have changed, unfortunately in a very negative way for creators, and we’re all sort of left trying to find a place that works like Tumblr used to. A place we can congregate yet have our personal spaces, while exploring our ‘likes’ and mutual fandoms etc. A place where a little extra work on your content and following trends and posting at good times was all you really needed to get at least some interactions and attention. 

Twitter is also not good at that, and I know a lot of my friends and mutuals are there and we are following one another, but Twitter is just not made for creators. It really just isn’t. It’s fast-paced, it’s styled for short, quippy responses to media and other people, and it’s terrible with image quality never mind the whole bad cropping situation. If you able, by luck and some hard work, to manage a following, even then there is no promise of interaction or commissions. People move on, people ‘like’ and skip to the next post, people ignore donations posts, people scroll past art if they can’t see the whole thing, people are looking at Twitter at midnight after a long day of work and have no energy to look at your kickstarter for your original work, people spend all day looking and talking about politics and are burnt out, etc. etc.  

I know this is... not a cheerful message for anyone, but I wanted to be honest. There isn’t one way to get attention for your work, and there is no promise that doing ‘one simple trick!’ will work for you when it worked for others. Just by asking and wanting to be proactive about this is a great way to get going, though!

That being said, I would love to reblog/retweet your work and never feel bad for asking me for a signal boost. Seriously, I may not be a popular blog but if you need commissions or donations and need a boost, It’s worth a try and I’m absolutely open to sharing your work and posts. 

[spaceorphan18]

Results

I would like to preface the results with a disclaimer - there are a lot of varied opinions here and not all of them are positive. Because of this, I would like to state that these replies aren't reflective of my own personal opinions. I do not think these results should be aimed at one particular person or group, and should be taken as points of discussion, not personal attacks.

With the exception of fixing a few spelling mistakes, I have not edited these answers.

There were 182 submitted responses, though not all of the questions were answered.

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Do you still consider Glee an active fandom of yours? 

52.7% Yes - but I'm quieter and stick to mostly reblogging, reading fic, etc

29.7% Yes - I still create content and/or have discussions with other fans

12.1% No - though I'll reblog things from time to time

.05% No - My time with Glee is done

Other Responses:

Between the yes options. Make the occasional gifset and will reblog glee stuff when I see it but I deactivated my glee specific blog.

A bit of the top two

I have do many story ideas started but lately just never have time. I’ve been seeing fic cross my dash and wish I had time to read it. Do the second choice is the right one even if I want the first

Discuss or like posts, write some posts

I still view some go-to tumblrs for news/updates, but they're Darren-centric

Yes, but I got sucked into a different fandom recently and think I'll get back to the Klaine fandom eventually, when the season of my current hyperfixation is over

I have do many story ideas started but lately just never have time. I’ve been seeing fic cross my dash and wish I had time to read it. Do the second choice is the right one even if I want the first

I create content and reblog occasionally, but otherwise I don’t interact

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How do you still participate in fandom? (Choose all that apply) 

82.9% Reads fic, meta, etc

78.5% Answers ridiculous polls like this one ;)

73.5% Reblog gif sets/meta

42% Has discussions with other users via tumblr, twitter, discord, etc

13.8% Draws FanArt/Makes gif sets

28.7% Writes Fanfiction

9.9% Write meta/Answer Asks

Other Responses:

makes fanart collages and/or manips

Tragically still trying to bring the community together 🙃

I write pretty sparingly

through fandom I have met 2 wonderful friends in RL with whom I talk about Glee/Klaine every time we write mails / chat via skype / meet in person

idk where this applies- incorrect quotes

The gold lame pants of infancy are my emotional support animal

Runs Klaine events and has a Klaine fic rec blog

Have done group watches of glee

I also help run two group blogs dedicated to sharing Glee content and promoting creators

Admin for KlaineCCFanFicLibrary. Moderator for Klaine Valentine's Fic Challenge and Klaine and CC Fanfic Awards

Can I even claim I write fic anymore if I have 3 WIPS and no time to write??

Beta reader for an active writer

read fan fiction, get news

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Where do you do most of your fandoming? (Check all that apply) 

98.9% Tumblr

67.6% Ao3

20.9% Discord

14.8% Twitter

9.9% Reddit

Other Responses:

Instagram

Facebook

Pinterest

Fanfic.net

Deviantart

TikTok

With close friends on whatever platform

No social media platform

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Would you like a more active Glee fandom?

41.7% No - I like that it's a smaller community now

39.45 Yes - growing the fandom again would be great!

Other Responses:

Kind of a mixture of both. I like with a smaller fandom here on tumblr people seem to be more respectful. Like anywhere else if I see glee content I quickly across past it because it’s almost always negative and I hate that. But I’m always open to more people. Just as long as they’re respectful and don’t constantly hate everything

Neutral! I’ve experienced it both ways and I can find the pros and cons in both scenarios

Undecided

Idk, neutral on the idea

I miss the loud fandom days but I've also expanded my fandom horizons elsewhere so I'm fine either way

Only when it comes to fanfiction

mixed feelings cause id like more content but i do like the close community vibe

It feels more manageable now in a way and less overwhelming? But I do sometimes miss the riots and parties in the tags that came with a super big, active fandom.

Not entirely sure. On one hand I do miss the height of the glee fandom, but back then I was more blending in with the crowd, but yeah I miss when there seemed to be Gleeks everywhere. Otherwise the smaller community now makes it easier for me to curate my space and have smaller groups to talk to and I've gotten attached to that too.

The size of the fandom doesn’t impact how interested I am in the stuff it does, so I have no opinion

Doesn't matter much to me.

Maybe, with a focus on music and character arcs, and avoiding drama

I’m not really fussed as I’m not really in it- it’d be nice to have more fics

i haven’t been around that long, so i don’t know what an active fandom would look like for us 😅 i’d love new content, not new discourse if that makes sense

I love reading new stories but understand that people have found other places and am not sure how we can grow the fandom again.

I'm actually in a specific community (ship) not the over-all community

I would it if it was a positive way to interact

Either is fine, but I wouldn't like it to get any smaller.

Eh, doesn't matter to me either way

Ambivalent

I'd love the Ao3 community for my ship (Seblaine) to be bigger, but I don't need on Tumblr than I have

Both, but I love this smaller group of folks.

I've mostly moved on from Glee but I do enjoy reading meta posts especially postcanon. I don't especially care about the fandoms size.

Yes and no. Current tumblr fandom has poisoned my view on glee fandom.

Tbh it doesn't really matter

Yeah if it's less frustrating than the current one.

I don't really have an opion on this - it feels like no matter the fandom size, I'll do my thing in it and that's enough.

It’s fun to see folks discovering it. But I do not long for the toxicity to come back

I don’t mind

I don't really have an opinion because I don't interact with specific other users much

On the one hand, I love having new fans and having the community grow is fun! On the other hand, Glee is a hellshow and alot of the drama surrounding it could be problematic for newer fans.

I'm OK with the size it's at now but wouldn't be mad if it was bigger

bigger fandoms are nice, but at the same time, I'm very comfortable with a smaller community

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Do you have any suggestions on how to incorporate new/more people into fandom? 

Not aimed at you at all but people could REALLY stop harassing others for their opinions. That helps.

Be kind. Reblog stuff that newbies post. Events, like fic and art challenges, also help.

Gather as many willing quality active authors and set up something similar to Ozhawk's marvelous birthday fics in the MCU, but for Glee (give a prompt and get a one shot for your birthday)

Idk - seems that the people who are on Reddit for example say how negative it is and actually are quite negative themselves. I love discord as it’s an actual chance to talk to a group of people at same time . And exchange opinions rather than maybe wait for replies to asks! Encourage to join discord ? I’d they want to be positive and also encourage writers

I actually think the fandom has had its peak in 2020 with Netflix. Not sure how to create another peak and if it's possible to do so from the fandom.

I have personally been reaching out to as many people as possible and trying to include them with The Lima Bean (yes, hi, it is me), though my focus is mostly on the fic writers/readers. Otherwise, continuing to read, share, and engage with other creators and their work is the best thing we can do.

More Glee prompts

we need to stop polarizing the people we do have 🙃 there is literally no reason that Klaine and Brittana fans don't have more overlap. Also, there are *a lot* of teenage Gleeks on Instagram we should try and drag onto Tumblr. There's not much overlap with them and it's weird tbh

I'm not sure, I've been thinking about this a lot lately, though!!!! 98% of the people I interact with are wonderful and I'd love to find more who still enjoy it and aren't bitter or jaded/disenchanted and interact with others. I loved the Glee Paintbox Project and I'm sad it's gone. The Klaine Scramble challenge looked fun too and I know advent is coming up. I guess those cater mostly to writers/readers. Good luck! I wish I could think of something to suggest!

Not really. The fandom is really active compared to others where the show has ended and that's a nice thing :)

Fandom shouldn't feel like a cult that you have to break into, shouldn't feel like your opinions are trial by fire. Fandom shouldn't feel like if you don't know the right people than you're not welcome in it. Glee fandom is one of the least welcoming fandoms I've experienced on tumblr (truly cult mentality)

Maybe some newbie welcome posts on TDBfanfic?

More tumblr based conversations! I think discord can be hard sometimes because it puts a wall up around a group of people vs opening the doors with more visible interaction and conversation

Maybe more fandom fun type of events? Doesn't even have to be fic related. Or, it could be. Like, "share one of your favorite lines/moments from a fic" or the same but for the show. It would be nice to have some new gif sets to reblog, but that's not really a "incorporate new/more people into fandom" thing. Sorry.

Another rewatch will sometimes pull folks in, especially if you continue to get people giving retrospective perspectives rather than same meta.

Sadly I think it's just had it's moment. A lot of big players in the fandom have disappeared in recent times. The lack of engagement lowers the desire to create so there's less creation. It's kind of a vicious cycle. I noticed how reduced the interest in the klaine fanfic awards was from last year and it's pretty sad. We need like a glee reunion like the friends thing but also how painful would that be? For several reasons. Only DM and LM have any skin in this game anymore. This is not constructive or helpful ummm I would say more events. But there's actually still a pretty good amount of events. Got to appreciate those that still make the effort to lay stuff on.

Just keep going - fandoms wax and wane but they don't often fully disappear. Buffy stopped airing long before Glee did and that's still around. If the fandom exists, new people will find it and 'old' people will re-discover it when they're in the right mood.

Just keep posting the work you've made, especially if you're in other fandoms, eventually people will find the show and go looking for work and the fandom will grow that way if people keep posting and reblogging and commenting.

I want NO tinhats. Period.

More events might help, but honestly, it would take more. Unfortunately, the show has been off for 7 years, and with the misfortune and passing of former cast members, I don’t know if we’ll see a resurgence. I do love the content I’ve found, like the Lima Bean Page and the discord. I do feel like some events are counterproductive, such as the fanfic awards. I know several people who have left the fandom over it (lack of recognition, overlooked). I love the library and I know what they are trying to do, but I think by only promoting and recommending certain fics, many new and less know writers get discouraged and stop. I love the glee fandom but I’ve almost left twice over drama related to events and fans that are very opinionated and even rude. Thankfully, there are some great fans as well. Thanks for this survey, but I apologize for responding with a response the size of Harry Potter and the order of the Phoenix.

Anything but bringing the show back

Maybe a big discord open to everyone in the fandom that isn’t for a specific reason except liking glee! (like I know gleewatch exists (existed??) but people might think it’s ONLY for rewatching the show)

I think promoting each other more, more contests/challenges for writing.more friendly interaction

Reblogging rather than liking new content to promote it to others and leaving positive feedback for creators helps encourage people to stick around and get involved. Fandom events are also great for that. Just generally being inviting and open to new people, and not attacking anyone for different opinions. Some people can get pretty intense and passionate on their character/ship opinions, but I think as long as we let people have their opinions and don't attack them for that we can all happily be in this fandom space together; this has certainly improved since the show was airing and the fandom was bigger, but I know it can still be an issue at times.

I think more people join as they watch Glee for the first time (especially when it was on Netflix). I'm not sure how you would get more people.

State outlandish opinions just for the sake of public outrage- no i’m just kidding

maybe a group rewatch event? i've seen it for other fandoms before, you pick a weekly day & time and watch an episode every week, starting from episode one, so that the whole fandom's posting about the same rewatch all together.

A lot of people in the fandom are kinda hostile so… don’t do that

Since my own participation is completely passive, I don't think I'm helpful. But it seems the way to grow the community is with new fans, and I don't think new young fans really use Tumblr or Reddit. I'm not sure where they "talk" to each other other than TikTok which isn't really conducive to conversation?

Just being more positive both towards the show and to other fans, encourage others to engage with it in a positive way

Engaging with the people who make fan content by sharing their stuff will keep the fandom alive. Firstly cause frankly, interaction keeps creators interested in making content and it's the bare minimum you should give back. Secondly cause it'll get Glee content on people's feeds, which could spark their interest. That's (sort of) how I got into it.

Let it be. People will come to tumblr when it’s the thing for them. I absolutely do not want Twitter fandom brainworms to infect tumblr.

I have left Twitter/Instagram as a fan of an ACTOR because of the toxicity written about his FICTIONAL CHARACTER. I wouldn't bring friends in but I can't give up my boys. That and the recent publicity of cast members doesn't help

Hi guys - putting this out there -- I kind of want to see how active fandom is these days.

If you guys could reblog this poll to get it out to more people, that'd be great!!

I'll post the results next week!

Thank you! <3