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hope you're feeling better by the ghosting! Lesbian dating scene is hard out here đ have an ask if you're up for it. Or you can just listen abt this scenario I have, totally fine either way just wanna let these thoughts out. And you're my fav sevika writer so! It's a bit angsty/comfort ig? Basically Sevika explaining to reader why it's such a struggle to say "I love you".
Not just because it's an admission of feelings for such a character but I think it's also cuz loving someone also means you have to accept anything could happen to either of them, esp since Zaun and her job are quite dangerous. So saying those 3 words feels like accepting that risk and continue on which is a big thing to do, it's like willingly leaving yourself open to potential heartaches. Idk just recently saw posts about how love is not just a feeling but also a choice, whether to stay/commit/any other reason the person feels what love is. Felt like if the reader is the first thing she's ever cared about and don't wanna lose her (whether it's a breakup, death etc,), she would struggle saying it cuz it feels like accepting that risk which she doesn't want to. She would still make up for it by showing her love & appreciation thru other means tho! Mb the reader had anxious thoughts on whether she reciprocated, or Sevika feels bad for not saying back for so long that she felt like she has to explain why she's struggling.
Sorry if I'm rambling too long đ
hope you have a great year ahead, love your writing as well! â€ïž
i love this sm <33
men and minors dni
even though you've lived in zaun your whole life, you understand that your life's been a lot softer than it could've been.
you've never had to worry about where you'll sleep at night-- you've always had a dry, warm bed to rest in.
you've gone hungry some nights, but you're lucky enough to have never gone more than a few days without a warm meal.
and your choice in career keeps you out of the line of danger; safe and inside most of the day, home before sunset each night.
so, while you're zaunite enough to know how to keep your head down and mind your own business, you understand that for most people life's a lot scarier.
sevika's one of those people.
sevika's known grief for almost as long as she's known how to talk. she's spent her fair share of nights in the cold, and she's gone to bed hungry more often than she's gone to bed full and satisfied. plus, sevika's dedicated her life to being a revolutionary. which means sevika has a lot of enemies.
so it's no surprise that lovey-dovey words come easier for you than they do for sevika.
it isn't until two years into your relationship that you realize she's never said she loves you. sevika has to be the one to point it out.
"i think i gotta call it an early night, baby. you stay up and finish the movie." you say around a yawn, leaning forward to kiss your girlfriend on the couch. sevika pouts.
"just sleep on top of me here." she requests. you snort.
"you'll throw your back out carrying me to bed."
"that's just offensive. i could lift three of you." sevika's pout worsens. "goodnight." she huffs. "give me another kiss."
you laugh and roll your eyes. "i love you." you say with exasperation as you lean in to kiss her. sevika stiffens against you. you pull away to study her face. "'s wrong?"
"you always say that." sevika whispers. you raise an eyebrow at her, climbing into her lap to hold her face between your hands.
"well, yeah. 'cause i do."
"i know." sevika says with a tiny smile. it makes your heart flutter. it's quiet for a moment as you wait patiently for your girl to gather her words. eventually, sevika sighs. "does it ever bother you that i don't say that to you?" she asks.
you frown in confusion. "what, that you love me?" you ask. sevika nods. you sputter a laugh. "yes you do, you say it all the time." you scoff.
sevika blinks up at you in shock. "no i don't." she says. "baby, i've never said it. to anyone. ever."
oh. well, that's surprising. you furrow your brow as you try to recall an instance where your girlfriend let the words slip, and you're shocked to realize that she, in fact, has not. "oh." you say.
sevika gulps. "does that... is that bad?" she asks.
you blink down at her, and your heart shatters. "oh, baby, no." you coo, kissing her frown. "no, that's not bad."
"but-- i should be able--"
"darling, i know you love me." you cut her off. sevika blushes almost as red as she did the first time she saw your tits. you smile, brushing your thumbs over her crimson cheeks. "you make that very clear."
"yeah but i--"
"you moved me into your sacred bachlorette pad three months into us meeting. yesterday, you came home from work with a stab wound, and tried to make me dinner before patching yourself up."
"it was just a scratch."
"i'm not finished. you call me stupid shit like sweetbean and cookie-- and you do it in front of other people! you! sevika; the scary lady of zaun!" she chuckles a little bit at this. "sevika, i didn't even realize you hadn't said it until you told me just now." you kiss her nose. "it's not bad."
sevika leans forward to bury her face against your neck, inhaling deeply. "i just... i want to say it." she whispers. you nod. "i wish i could say it like you do; just, whenever i feel it." god she's romantic. you choke back your own tears as you kiss her scalp. "but... if i say it..." sevika trails off.
"if you say it, it makes it real." you whisper, nodding. "it makes it somethin' you can lose." you can feel her hot tears on your throat. you don't mention it.
"y-yeah." she whispers shakily, her hands clutching at your hips desperately. "and i can't lose you."
"you won't baby. even if the worst happens, i'm yours forever. i'll haunt the shit outta you." this pulls a startled laugh out of her, and you grin. "you don't have to say it for the rest of our lives, if you can't. i won't mind. just as long as we're together."
and that settles it.
for a while...
sevika starts practicing.
she'll spell it out to you, 'i l-o-v-e you, baby.' or she'll whisper it to you when she thinks you're sleeping.
at the three year mark, sevika can say it when she's drunk enough. it's fucking adorable.
"i have somethin' import'nt' t' tell you..." she says with a waggle of her eyebrows. you burst into laughter.
"oh, do you?" you ask.
"mmhmm. look." sevika darts forward to peck your lips, then pulls back with a proud smile. "i love'ya." she slurs. you grin.
"i love you too, baby."
"an' if this jinxes everythin' and y' die-- y' gotta make the haunting obvious 'kay?" she asks. you cackle.
"alright, love."
by the time you're married, the words are almost compulsive for her. sevika can't leave a room without shooting a 'love you' over her shoulder at you. even if you're arguing.
"oh, so you've conveniently got a fuckin' 'meeting' in the middle of the night, on your night to do fuckin' dishes?! if you don't get in the kitchen and grab the sponge right now you're sleeping on the couch!"
"it's six pm, it's a dinner meeting! i'll do the dishes when i get back! you act like i'm fuckin' negligent, but you're the one who doesn't know how to properly clean a fuckin' toilet! janna, you annoy me-- i love you, i'll be back by midnight!" she huffs as she slams the door behind her.
despite how pissed you are-- you can't help but smile a bit at her words.
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Hi I know you mentioned you being aroace just a couple days ago and I was wondering if maybe you could explain more in depth about how you found out your sexuality and what not? If itâs not too personalâŠ
Iâve always sorta struggled since I havenât had any crushes as a kid except for maybe one and thatâs just cause ppl kept asking me who mine was⊠so I donât even think it was a legit crush?? So not only do I not know who (looks,gender, that sorta thing) I would like ⊠am I ever gonna like someone to even find that out???
I know you said Superman on the new trailer was hot ahaha so do you still experience that sort of physical attraction? Iâve been told when people question which gender they like, to pick which one looks more attractive to them but Iâve never really experienced that sort of physical attraction so I canât tell that way eitherâŠ
I think any thought of a crush forming was more towards their personality as well. Looks I guess are more of a second thought I think..? Even then I canât tell if this is âyouâre such an awesome person I wanna be besties with youâ really strong feeling or an actual âI wanna date this personâ feeling.
The only person Iâve gotten really close to discerning it as officially crush was someone from work who was older by a good amount⊠which can be/is pretty weird.. Lots of people my age are just a little too crazy for me.. I guess??? Idk and even now I canât tell if that was just âglad to have someone as a friend sorta thing. Iâm really sorry if this is too personal and u donât have to respond to the ask directly either I was just hoping on maybe some advice for some clarity if possible⊠as I get older and realize Iâve never dated/had that sorta infatuation it feels so excluding at times.
Also I am hoping for a feast AND desert with this ââsoonâ but still havenât posted it two days laterâ chapter plz and thank you
I hope this made sense and wasnât too invasive!! :(
when i was younger, i was reading about this kind of thing online and i didn't find anyone like me. i think it's about time that i come full circle and make my own post. i've got like half of my frontal lobe developed and i've been figuring out a lot of things about myself these past couple of years, and there might be someone out there who needs to hear this (ÂŽ-`ÊâĄÆȘ) so if anyone is interested, below the cut is a very long talk about how i figured some stuff out
when it came to my sexuality, i only started considering it when i was in middle school, going into high school. (which would be when i was 12-13). that's when a lot of my friends started having crushes on our classmates and i realized they were being serious when they said they had crushes on people. they had figured out their identities as being a lesbian or bisexual, and they had relationships. (or as close as you can get to that in middle school).
i started to panic and think that i was lagging behind. and i really started to repress my feelings about dating people and romance and what that would entail. i found out through the internet about being pansexual. at the time i thought "oh, they have the same attraction for everyone!" and i slapped it on myself because i thought it would fix everything. i even came out to my parents as pansexual and for a while i left it at that.
i had an idea of romance. i shipped characters in media and i knew that my parents really loved each other. there were a lot of examples for love in my life that weren't the best, but having two parents that actually did care about each other made me want that for myself in the future...
but that's in the future. i personally didn't think about it much because we were still kids. for a while i didn't think anyone else was being serious, that they were just trying it out quicker than i was ready for. it was a strange feeling. i guess i still believed we were playing make believe, or copying what we saw on TV or with our parents. often when my friends asked me who i had a crush on and i felt pressured, i would pick someone that i thought i wouldn't mind dating if i had to. someone would be "interested" in me and i would say "okay" because i felt like that was part of this game we all seemed to be playing. i've had a few "boyfriends" over the years that got people off my back when i had them. in elementary school it was this boy that didn't pick on me, another boy that was my parents' friend's kid. in middle school i had an online boyfriend and a couple of "crushes" on friends of friends, someone just a little far out of my circle that didn't shake anything up. my friends would help me get together with a person and they'd seem so excited for me, so i just went along with it.
then it hit me that they weren't doing it just to do it, or playing pretend. they actually felt something when they were interacting with their crushes. i started to reread books and rewatch media and really grasp what they were saying. the feeling of having butterflies inside them when they talked to each other, blushing when something was said? i thought that was about a general anxiety people get when talking to other people. but there was always something more to it that i just... didn't get. no matter how hard i tried, i didn't understand what that something was.
then started coming the pressure to do the same, to fit in. that's why i accepted a label of pansexual. it was "strange" but at least it didn't feel "broken." i could deal with people telling me that i was wrong for liking more than just boys. but to say that there was no one on the table gave me an anxiety i'd never felt before. like i would be letting down my family, that the entire course of my life would shift. i wouldn't walk down the aisle because there would be no wedding. my parents wouldn't have grandkids. my friends would go on to have lives completely separate from mine, we'd have nothing in common anymore. so i stuffed it all down and made myself believe that this wasn't who i was.
it really mixed me up because i did have a couple of "crushes" that felt real. there were a few girls i was friends with, there were boys in my classes (usually class clowns...) that i'd get excited to see every day. when i thought about dating them, it felt nice. any other time when i thought about dating someone, i'd get this awful feeling in my gut that i later realized was dread. i was fully convinced it was different from all the other times. that "different" that i didn't understand before.
it was different! but not for the reason i thought it was. those people made me laugh, they listened and remembered things about me (that i didn't get much of during that time of my life), and most of all: they didn't like me back.
there were literally no expectations in their eyes for things to go away from friendship. and i think that's what made me like them, but not as a crush. it was relief. there was always an expectation for other people (specifically boys) that if we were friends, things would stray from friendship at some point. not with these people. that relief, combined with all the other good feelings they gave me (class clowns...) made it so much easier to fall into a friendship that i didn't have with other people. and i was in denial for so long that i thought of those friendships as crushes because they were different from other friendships.
there were a couple of times that i got close to having to face my sexuality and it felt like a gut punch. there were a couple of people i was friends with (that i didn't have crushes on) that i had previously thought "if i had to pick someone" about. but when they actually told me their feelings, i would run away. in one case, i literally ran away. i changed my entire routine so that i wouldn't have to face them. and i'm a creature of habit, so of course i took that step back and asked myself why i was having such a strong reaction. my friends didn't understand why i was so panicked about these confessions. especially because before, i "liked" people and had no problem with it.
part of my feelings were that no one would actually like me (which only furthered me not wanting/not considering romance). some of the confessions that i got were fake/pranks, and it would really mess with my head. i wasn't skinny, i knew i was strange and awkward, and i could be very brash and stubborn. i had a weird sense of humor and i missed social ques. i got a lot of "you should be a lawyer" and complaints of being bossy when i was growing up and i always knew they really meant "you're a bitch." i wouldn't understand why i felt so othered from my peers like that until i learned i was possibly autistic, and i only found that out a couple years ago. combined with being plus sized and not conventionally attractive, i didn't get much breathing room. if i wasn't perfectly calm all the time, if i didn't force myself to be overly nice to people, and if i wasn't funny, i'd get told i was "draining" to be around.
i did a lot to try and fit in. i kept my hair long because people would compliment it, i tried to wear skirts instead of pants/shorts, i'd wear comfy clothes and the like so i didn't look like i was trying too hard. a lot of my personality was forced and i was the one who was being drained instead. i ended up having to get a radar for when people were just messing with me. and so when a real confession happened, there was a combination of anxiety about if they were faking or not, doubt that they could actually like me, and then a deep rooted fear about if they were being serious.
instead of the relief i should have felt when i learned it was a real confession, i still felt scared. it would be the same anxiety as if someone asked me to get on the world's tallest roller coaster in the world and i had just seen a chunk of the roller coaster fall in front of me.
that part made it even harder to come to grips with my sexuality. i thought if i gave up on being a hopeless romantic, i'd be giving in to all the times someone told me "I just don't see you dating anyone." being unlovable was a death sentence in my eyes. and it didn't help that i've lived in the south all my life. i was already strange and going to hell for a multitude of things. turning around and telling them that i was going against every expectation set of me to get married and have kids by 24????
(i should clarify that my parents had never been the ones to put this in my mind. when i came out as pansexual, they had only been confused about what the hell that was. the rest of their reaction was "i mean... we could already sort of tell." and while my parents had hopes for my future, i knew deep down that while they'd be a little sad not to have those expected memories with me, they wouldn't turn me away. and they would very likely be happy to create a whole different set of memories with me.)
i have my current friends to thank for me coming to terms with who i am. by the time i was in college i had started to question everything. my middle school friend group had been majority queer but we had gone to different schools or just faded apart. in high school, a majority of my time was spent in band. and while i was one of those people who had friends in a variety of friend groups, the closest friends i had were the people in my section that i sat next to every day. and in the present time, only a couple of them remained straight churchgoers. even though they've changed now just like i have, during high school i was a different story.
going to college opened me up to a far different experience. by this point i'd shifted from pansexual to bisexual. my college experience wasn't... ideal. or really healthy in any aspect. but meeting these people did dislodge the mindset i'd had for most of my life. and my current friends have changed my life. the fear that i had about being aromantic has now become the relief i needed my entire life. it doesn't feel broken, or wrong, or strange. sometimes i do feel sad about it, or question if this is really the case. maybe one day i'll meet someone who shows me that "different" feeling i'd been waiting to understand. but i grew past the societal expectation of needing a partner to be fulfilled in life and i'm so much happier.
life doesn't need to be about that partner. i have many, many friends and family to grow old with. i have a godchild!! one day i'll have my own house to celebrate holidays and achievements at, to host my friends and family. i'll have pets that i love and i'll have my own career, and i'll be happy because i never needed to fit expectations to be happy.
when it comes to anything sexual, it's sort of the same feeling as when i had "crushes" on people in real life. though also different? i don't look at real people and feel an attraction beyond knowing that they are attractive, objectively. i can feel attraction sometimes in a physical sense, but i have no interest in having anything personal happening between us. a fictional character has no interest in me, and so it feels safe to think that they're hot and to express it. like sure, yeah, i have a crush on them! i get giggly when Captain Smoker from One Piece shows up on the screen, and the new Superman makes me think "oh! okay!" but if they were real and in front of me? i'd probably... lose that attraction, like it was never there.
here's the kicker, though, and might sound weird at first: you don't have to put a label on yourself
yeah, i do consider myself aroace. but the world is ever changing and so is the human experience. it helps to have a basis, to understand your feelings and work through them. it's nice to be like "there is a name for this" and to find a community through that. i'm not saying there's anything wrong about figuring out your identity and saying "I'm this, this, and this!" nothing at all wrong with that. but we're all figuring ourselves out, all the time. it doesn't end when you put the label on. you have the entire rest of your life to continue learning things about yourself and the world around you. i wish i'd known in middle school that i didn't have to rush it, that i have every opportunity to take it one phase at a time. a human life seems fleeting, especially when you're looking back on your past and feeling like the time flew by. but that's just our perception of it as we look back.
what i mean to say it that it's okay to backtrack. it's okay to change your mind. it's okay to not put a label on it. it's okay to put a label on it. it's okay not to tell anyone, if you don't want to. it's okay to say "i'll figure it out." and it's okay if you don't. it's okay if you sit up in bed one day when you're 60 years old and go "that's what it is." as long as you live your life listening to yourself and not trying to meet an expectation you think you have to, then you're doing it right.
and it's okay if you lived your life like i did, and you didn't do any of that. being a human is messy and that's part of life. you're not gonna get it right the first time- but even then, sometimes you will! there's a nuance and a spectrum to everything you experience. take pride in who you are even if you don't have a clue yet. be kind to yourself. you're gonna be okay.
#this is pretty long#but there really might be someone who needs to hear this#learned that from my band director#he used to go on and on and tell us life lessons and his own experiences#and he used to apologize and say âbut someone might have needed thatâ#and he was right#didn't mention it above but there were a couple times where my family was homeless#and one time he said something in class and it changed everything for me#he was right#someone might need it#this ask was a while ago but i had to get my thoughts together coherently#so anon know that you're not alone#and that what you've experienced is very common#aromantic#asexual#aroace#acespec#arospec#aromantism#queer#lgtbqia+#figuring out identities#my long winded life story
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spencer reid x male! non-bau! reader
where reader is a paramedic or maybe a firefighter, and he & spencer have been dating for a while, but spencerâs been keeping reader & their relationship a secret because he hasnât come out to the team yet, and he scared to or smth..
one day spencer walks into the round table room late, and the team is questioning him suspiciously, because the last time reid came to work late, he was using (but in reality, he misses his alarm bc he wasnât home; he was at râs place).
after the team meeting spencer realizes he forgot something at r place (badge, bag, glasses, idk). and just as heâs asking hotch to stop by âa friendsâ house to get what he left, reader shows up and brings it to him, saying something like, âI was on my way to work and I saw it lying on the couchâ
( optional : spencer kisses r out of habit, forgetting the team is watching, and comes out to them, and their all reassuring and fluffy with him )
My Darling Doctor
SPENCER REID X MALE!READER
An FBI agent and a Paramedic together, it wasn't meant to be a secret. How will the team react finding out?
âTHERE IS NO PLACE LIKE HOME.â -L. Frank Baum.
Spencer was already late to work but it wasn't his fault that he was a few minutes late, he bit the inside of his cheek as he looked out the window of the train. He had already told Hotch that he was on his way over.
This morning had just distracted him a lot.
"C'mon N/N, I've got to head to work." The brunette haired male whispered to his boyfriend who laid next to him with his arm wrapped around his waist, the (H/C) haired male just buried himself deeper into his neck. "I need to go."
The other male frowned with his eyes still closed when he heard his boyfriend but made no move to let go.
"I know you're awake."
A sigh escaped his lips as the taller/smaller male opened his eyes and looked at him. "Do we have to? We could just stay here." he asked.
"Yes we do, you and I both have work." Spencer pointed out to which the other man groaned. Y/N gave him a kiss on his cheek before getting out of the bed, he watched his partner stretch his arms and move towards the bathroom. "I'll make it up to you when I finish work!"
"You better! Now, get your smart ass in this shower!"
He couldn't contain his laughter as he followed his boyfriend into the shower.
Spencer smiled a bit when thinking about his boyfriend, though his thoughts were cut off when the elevator doors opened and he realized he had gotten off the train; he was already at work.
He slightly jumped when he saw the group waiting before the elevator as he stepped out. Were they heading out?
"So... are you gonna tell us why you were late?" Derek asked him with his arms crossed. The question had him confused for a moment. "Cause, kid, you are never late."
The brown-haired male was about to say something until Penelope cut him off. "The last time you were ever late was when you were using, are you back?" she asked as she gently grabbed his hands and gently squeezed them. "Please tell us you aren't-"
"No! Why would you guys think I'm using again?" The taller male questioned as he pulled his hands out of her hands. "I just missed my alarm-"
"You never miss your alarm, Spence." JJ pointed out to him.
Hotch was quiet while the rest of the group asked questions, he kept his eyes on the younger man before he asked a question of his own. "Did you forget anything?"
Spencer was quiet when he heard the question before he patted himself.
He forgot his bag. With his badge and glasses.
Everything was in his bag and he had a panicked look on his face when he realized he had forgotten his bag.
He stayed quiet for a moment before he looked back at his Chief. "Is...it possible I could quickly go to my friend's house?" he asked, the others were quiet at that question. "I was....staying with him and left my bag there on accident."
Before Hotch could answer him, the elevator door opened again and there stood Y/N with his bag in his hand. A smile formed on the other's face as he saw Spencer and he quickly jogged to the group.
"Hey babe! You left your bag on my couch, I already let my Chief know that I'm gonna be a few minutes late." The (H/C) haired male giggled though his Chief was understanding. "I made sure all of your stuff is inside so your badge, glasses and-"
Spencer was relaxed hearing that all of his stuff was inside of the bag yet he stopped his partner from speaking by kissing him on the lips.
A surprised look was on the paramedics face before his smile returned.
"If this is how you are going to thank me everytime I give you something, I should get into the habit of doing this~!"
The taller/smaller male shook his head. "Thank you for bringing my bag." he thanked his boyfriend, he kissed the other on the cheek since the two of them had usually gotten into the habit of kissing either each others foreheads or cheeks when something was done. "I need to get used to bringing my stuff with me when I leave your house."
"I'm glad I caught you before you left!" Y/N gently reached for his hand before kissing the taller/smaller's cheek. "Now I've gotta get going soon but before I do..."
The Paramedic smiled at the group as he waved at them. "It's a pleasure to finally meet you guys and I wish I could have a proper conversation with you all but I must go." he squeezed Spencer's hand before letting go. "Though, when you guys get back and whenever I finish work, let's get a drink."
That was when Y/N left, without letting a single one of them speak.
Derek's expression was surprised before he pulled twenty dollars out of his pocket and hand it to Emily, who had a smug look on her face.
"You have got to tell us on the plane how you two met and got together." The dark-haired woman said to him, the rest of the group got out of their shocked daze because they had realized their Spencer had a partner.
Penelope smiled at the younger man. "We are very happy for you! He seems like a sweetheart." she said.
Derek chuckled as he patted his back. "How long have you been hiding him from us? Afraid we would scare him off?"
"No...I was scared he'd scare you all..." Spencer muttered to which the others laughed.
Y/N had scared him when they first met and somehow convinced him into a relationship.
Hotch had a small smile on his face at the conversation before he shook his head and got back to the case at hand. "You are late so we'll go over the case on the jett." he spoke as the group began walking again. "Let's go."
It was quiet while they make their way to the private jett until Derek decided to ask something when they had gotten to the jett.
"So....does he top you or do you top him...?"
JJ and Emily gently hit Derek for asking such a personal question, David rolled his eyes and shook his head as he sat down.
"You don't just ask that kind of question!!"
"You aren't winning our other bet like this!!"
Spencer had a small smile on his face since it felt nice that the team didn't think of him any different as he grabbed the case file before he paused in front of where Derek was sitting.
The slightly older man looked confused for a moment at the younger man.
"We switch, if you want more than talk to him yourself." He answered, Derek's eyes widened when his question was answered and he was going to ask more as Spencer moved to sit across from him/
Hotch looked at the rest of them. "Let's focus on the case and talk about Reid's love life later."
And now their brains were back on the case.
Meanwhile....
Y/N was currently in cloud nine while thinking about kissing Spencer again when the man got home, his own team was shaking him awake.
He wouldn't wake up until he heard they needed to head out.
The (H/C) haired man couldn't wait for Spencer to get home as he thought about the things they would do once the other's case was over.
The two were definitely adorable.
Might be clinging to each other when the case was over, Y/N already had the day off when his boyfriend would be coming home.
"HELP HELP, I'M BLEEDING OUT."
That's when Y/N woke up from his daze and he quickly sat up before realizing his team were playing a prank on him.
"Oh fuck you lot..."
#x male reader#male reader#x reader#no smut#divider by cafekitsune#criminal minds#criminal minds x male reader#criminal minds x reader#spencer reid x male reader#spencer x reader#spencer reid x reader#dr spencer reid#spencer reid#hotch#bau team#reid#derek morgan#emily prentiss#penelope garcia#david rossi#reader insert
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perhaps this is a hot take but i just don't really believe that canon actions by characters can be ooc. like the writers have decided that the character would do this so the character is doing this. it's their character and their decision to make. idk genuinely i do understand where people are coming from when they say things like this, but i think it's just so much more useful to have fun and try to break down & understand the character's canon actions instead of completely remaking them to fit whatever version we have in our heads.
#sure it can be a deviation from regular events (the dictionary definition of out of character as a common phrase which makes sense to use)#but i don't think you can really just decide that a character didn't do something just because you don't think it fits#& instead it'd just be more interesting to figure out how this action plays into everything else#idk idk just my thoughts cause i've been thinking about this for a while#i'd love to hear other people's opinions though :)#star notes
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Someone killed my boss last night and he sent me this I'm so fired
god I can't wait to make this comic.
#not me making a prelaunch link so I can share it on art of them that I do and then immediately being like hm#feels kind of weird to link a comic that doesnt exist yet#HAHAHAHAH#theres just no pleasing me#oh well I'll stick to my guns. I thought about it a long time#and doing things that feel weird is kind of the name of the game when it comes to making art#we were legion#zagan#this is so funny to me#its like not even that funny but#I love him. idk I think because I know what the comic is gonna be like stuff like this is 1 million times funnier to me#he sucks so bad and it would suck to read if he were the only one in the comic but because luciel is also there#then its just funny. cause juxtaposition#I love luciel too but theyre less good for standalone drawings and memes without comic context#so my brains like erm... theres nothing there....#also my tags are bugging out when I type them on the ocmputer idk how to explain whats happening but its kind of annoying#jumping around all over the place. makes it hard to read while I'm typing them. its fine#if theres typos its cause somethings going weird with my computer#lately when I've opened firefox its just shaking all over the place#til I alt tab out of it and back to it. I have straight up no idea why#and my internet has been bugging out. the LAN connection keeps flickering and then going out...??#YES I switched the ethernet cable connecting the modem and the router NO I dont know whats going on#I dont wanna deaaaaaal wiiiithhh customer serviceeee its fine. I'll do it later if switching the coax cable doesnt help#uh. anyways none of that matters cause I can still make my fuckin comics babeyyy#as long as I've got my comics. I'm good. though it is annoying when I cant look up references or spelling of words cause I do that constant#but its fine!#love I can draw without internet I dont even notice when it goes out sometimes aughajkghagj#anyways I'm super excited about this comic and if you're intereted theres a presave link now so#yeay#I'll post places other than webtoon but I'm just doing webtoon early so TTA readers can switch over easier
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lord help me i'm googling hypoglycemia induced seizures again
#whump#ask to tag#marshy speaks#yes i am planning on inflicting one on chris don't worry about it#also idk how to tag this respectfully so. 'ask to tag' tag feel free to tell me if you have thoughts ghlkdsjf#i've just been captivated by this idea ever since i read a fic about peter parker having a seizure caused by low blood sugar#i think it got deleted cuz i can't find it again :( shame cuz it was truly formative for me lmao#i've wanted to do something similar for soooo long but i'm a little scared on how to approach it cuz i don't have any personal experience#with seizures. and while i don't think whump ever has to be 100% accurate i also don't wanna be disrespectful y'know#so it's just been sitting on the backburner for forever#but i have seizures as one of my bad things happen bingo squares so........hmmmm. one of these days........#maybe sooner than later we'll seeeee
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- Marten & Nohren -
#digital art#illustration#art#cowboys#original characters#my art#thought I might as well slap some colour on this now since i'll be away this week#i've got so many ideas floating around my head for story stuff I want to draw for these two#i've been writing them for almost a year now and i have a bunch of different AUs i'm excited to make designs for#the outlaws AU is one of my favourites though#excited to see how their designs change as i get more confident with drawing people#i'm not gonna info dump about them too much i think. I'll probably just let the story unfold trough the illustrations etc#cause idk if anyone's interested in the story stuff. i'm happy to answer if anyone asks stuff though#but the short version is that they grew up in the same town but didn't really get to know each other until later#Marten has a bad accident that leaves him bedridden for over a year while his father hides his condition out of shame#so Nohren takes a job as a hand at their ranch and figures out which room they're keeping Marten locked in#they become good friends and Nohren visits him in secret for almost two years while helping Marten regain some mobility#they take up the outlaw life after Nohren is seen with another man in town and decides he's better off getting out of dodge#Marten is torn about leaving the ranch behind but he comes along eventually#that's the very basic gist of it#they good kiddos#Marten#Nohren#Outlaws AU
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maybe it's time for me to move on.............
#its been two months since the end of an eight month relationship and i havent so much as looked at a hot person in that time#i mean i've got a queer event in a couple weeks and i think thats The Place to meet someone because. realistically my gender is just-#-too complicated to date a straight girl#or a gay guy#so.#i've also learned my lesson about dating people i'm close friends with because that did not work out for me at all#really i just need like. a younger reincarnation of rafael silva to appear because he is the only person who will ever live up to my-#-obviously very high standards (i would date anyone who is morally decent and dresses nice if i thought they were interested)#while we're on this matter actually people who put no effort into how they dress is such a fucking ick#i went out to this thing a few weeks ago and there was a guy my age there and he asked me to dance (it was an Old Persons party hes a-#-family friends its a long story) but he was literally in a hoodie and i was wearing like a 400$ formal outfit#like man absolutely the fuck not this is a Nice Event why are you wearing *denim* what are you DOING#is it a bad idea to go to an event with the mindset of finding someone to be with by the way? because that is kind of how i'm thinking-#-about it but at the same time if i *dont* find anyone there that i connect with then that's fine. i mean all in good time cause at some-#-point i'm going to meet someone. i have enough faith in both my religion and my own person that i will meet someone who i like and who-#-likes me it just depends when that happens. idk i just feel like all my friends in relationships atm are dating to break up but i want to-#-find the person i'm going to marry someday. because i dont want to miss a single second with someone who will be the love of my life#ughhhhh idk#wait i just realised how long these tags are. shit i'm so single lmao#txt !!
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nothing more relaxing than like acting out a play in my room alone
#idk what it is about walking around in someone else's trauma for a little while but it just takes the pressure out#maybe it's bc it's easy 2 get a handle on it bc it hasn't happened 2 you. it gives u a sense of detached mastery that you don't have#over your own life#like you're analyzing + focused on convincing in your portrayal of something. + u can also change the performance to make it#more believable or impactful too. there's that control over the wordsâ the implied experiencesâ and then also the superficial thoughts#that war with the words + give a sense of direction#it's like... so freeing to be able to control all those things in someone else's trauma#cause like when awful things are happening in my life i can't change my point of view. i'm stuck with the thoughts that i have#+ the sympathies that i have + the shame i have + if something really important to me goes wrong then i can't control what i think#or feel. no matter how hard i try the outcome can't change. but acting like someone else + piecing their emotions together#just gives me back that sense of control.#i've been walking around for a while afraid that everyone could see my surface-level thoughts on my face + that they were being#misinterpreted. proving to myself that i can control those thoughts is good on one hand + bad on the other where i then#lose confidence in my authentic self's ability to walk around in the world. i guess i'll have 2 think about it some more.#i was figuring things out a bit in my own way. i think i'd still prefer that lol.#also when i think about my worst momentsâ they're rough for years because i wasn't able to be authentic at all. and all that was#punished in ways that were traumatic. i don't really want these bad moments to define my life so maybe it's better to just take these#experiences on the chin + let the terror inside of me existâ palatable or not
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About two weeks ago A friend said they'd hang out with me and have a quiet chill drawing day because I've been Majorly Depressed for a bit now but I've texted them twice in the last two/three days to iron out details and i've gotten no response..
Like I'm pretty sure they're just more exhausted and run down from the holiday's than maybe they anticipated two weeks ago, and that's fine i'm alright with rescheduling or whatever
But also my mom offered to take me thrifting tomorrow and I don't want to miss out on that for hanging around my apartment walking in Stress Circles cause i don't know what's Going On if they can't do our get together..
#monster noises#like I don't have contact info for either of their partners#and even if i did i wouldn't super feel comfy going through one of them to get to my friend#that just feels... weird and bad#but also it's 9pm and i really really don't like not knowing what to the next day when i've made plans#and while i do understand why this has probably happened because i know my friend fairly well#i maybe Do feel a little hurt#because like.. I mean three days no response?#none at all?#just big ol' silence?#to the hang out that was arranged because i've/we've been feeling so depressed and isolated?#i am in the habit of#and am very good at#being very forgiving with people for missing things or doing things that kinda hurt me/my feelings#when I can clearly understand it comes from their disabilities/outside circumstances/unintential lapses of thought or judgement#cause like i'm not.. going to be mad at you for something you can't#or in that moment/stretch of time couldn't#control.#But I think I'm good at it to a Fault#because I'm constantly just swallowing my frustration with people and situations because I Get It#and if I Get It I can't be Upset About It#I really need to recenter these two ideas and let them coexsist#I can be not mad understanding why something happened..#but still be upset it happened#y'know?#at least i hope i can idk maybe i'm wrong
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I wish i could get buproprion without a prescription this shit is way too good to give up ă
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#damn it#i stopped my meds for a week and it didn't change a thing#but i took them again just to see if that would make a difference and holy shit#i was thinking about pausing taking them for a while now because i wanted to have the side effects back#like when i first started taking them 2020#and i never did because i thought I'd be miserable due to withdrawal and also it would take longer than a week to 'reset' my...#body? brain? idk. whatever. it actually makes a huge difference for me though#i hate how you have to get insulted by doctors in order to get these meds#I'd even pay for it myself fuck health insurance coverage#but noooo#can't have shit#sooooo#i gotta think about a way to continue to get them#it shouldn't be as hard as adhd meds to get it from my family doctor but I've been thinking it probably would be better#to not bring them up with her and instead suffer from my ps*chiatrist's insults for some more time#because so far there is no mention of mental illness in my file at my family doctor's office despite mentioning the ADs#if I'd get them prescribed there they would absolutely add depression and i do not want that#maybe my ps*chiatrist retires or dies soon then I'll never talk to one ever again but while she's there i may as well use her#as my drug supplier#(she's probably 52 but we've had two (2!) psychiatrists under the age of 50 die within the last 6 months in this tiny town#which has caused quite some issues because we have like 4 in total lmao#(so it wasn't a joke saying maybe she'll die soon. anyone could die anytime is the point. i think about people dying a lot and what would#change in my life then. (idk just felt like the phrasing was weird and wanted to elaborate but it whatever) )#void screams
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#the idol system is such a fascinating and scary thing to me#like hearing shit over the years it's like how does anyone survive it?#(i'm staying away from all the anti-blackness of kpop & their fandoms rn so just the system)#((that was more for me bc my brain wants to go in that direction bc hooooooo. it's the main reason i cannot vibe w more than a few songs#over the last almost 15 years cause like knowing.... anyway))#like i just got groundfloored w a group rn via jbrekkie shoutout michelle like literally their debut is 24 hrs from now i've rabbitholed#since i heard their snippet on her vid and like the way ppl talk about it already like... as an outsider it's like alriiiight here we goo#they're (mgmt) pipelining another group of ppl let's be sure to support it! streamstreamvote!! oo it looks like their taking the toy/doll#route w these girls super aesthetic let's goo. & like......????? and ppl are already rabid about it. it's wild. and like this is the system#this is it. they make groups and then tease and the people who follow the conglomerate see it and are waiting to#be fed another x amount of folks doing formations and looking cute/hot open wide and consume#(like ik some (or a lot) of those accnts are bots/plants to pad the release and gain traction against algos but like also real folks too)#like not to discredit their vocal work (&dancing though some (alot) of these grps are not nearly as lit w 'dancing' as folks hype em up to#be Frfr. good movers/formations/camera motion & body rolls do not a dancer/good choreo make) but it's really secondary for a lot of#folks atp it's so strange & fascinating. and like i dug the song that's why i'm here so no knock against that but just the factory of it al#it's so damn WILD to me. but at the same time let's be real here. same dish different kitchen for a lot of western pop#they're just more transparent about it and have streamlined finding their popstars & having the public be great w it#it's just... i think it would be less strange if stan culture wasn't a thing or at least more mild than it is now#if it wasn't blown up to this unfathomably massive ever-churning industry by people in literal droves#idk idk i have a lot of thoughts on kpop it's truly a very interesting thing and to have been aware of it and into it to#an extent a while before the sonic boom in the west is an incredibly wild thing to look back on#like i wanna follow this (mostly cause i wanna hear the whole song) but also v curious but also like man the system is bad for many#reasons & here's another batch on the conveyor belt. idk :/#like as long as the participants are happy and healthy and being actually taken care of and not advantage of then great but#yk. the music industry at large is horrible (and esp to women) so like. god ide wanna think about the disparities btwn girl & boy groups#(like to start are they not referred to as 'male groups' on the reg but 'girl groups' more often than 'female'? always w the infantalizing#like given girl group has way more ring than female group but the words still conjure up different things it's just how language works#but boy group idk if i've ever really heard someone use that? and there's been a long time battle w the reclamation of 'boy band'#like it's still dirty for a lot of folks but anyway v western context but there's a large fanbase here so many fans speak as such#this is what we call our own pop groups etc. and it's just interesting and sad idk anyway it's just... huuuhhh a lot.) ok gn lol
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What the ever-loving fuck am I ever saying to anyone?
Because whatever the hell it is, I sure as shit don't mean it.
#here we are with vinny's feelings vaguely disguising my own#several sucky things have happened in succession that've made me feel AWFUL and it's all cause I'm.. bad. at talking#I got blocked and did not understand what had happened til after I spent an hour meticulously apologizing then couldn't send it#I!!!! feel terrible!!!!!! I'd conducted myself SO POORLY this person thought I'd just go complain about them and forget it???#like no damn sorry I feel horrendous about this and probably will forever. I'm extremely sorry and I couldn't even tell you#I literally could not think about anything else for days.#I deleted our chat since I didn't want to obsess over every word I had ever said to them like I knew I would#cause there isn't really any recourse here that doesn't hurt them. I just hurt them and they'll never know how immensely sorry I am#I just. couldn't get over how they thought I never cared. that's been said to me in so many ways over the years and FUCK it hurts#I think it stung especially hard bc something similar but much more hurtful happened years ago#I dunno. then a couple other more mild instances of me being foolish occurred. it's been making me want to implode#how can I continue to do such awful things and not even realize what I've said before it's way too late#sigh sorry I did not want to go on like this it's going to stick with me for a while and probably not feel better for a long time if at all#guh. I looked at this sketch on the phone and you cannot see anything if you're on a low brightness as I am all the time. gotta fix that#also realized in the caption 'ever' is in there like 3 times and idk if that repetition sucks or kinda has a rhythm#how should I know! as we just established I am the WORST with words!#I FORGOT ALL MY TAGS#do I even want em here after this novel of wough#idk maybe when/if I come back to this n make it presentable it'll get proper tags
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When you wear their clothes
genshin men x gn!reader
characters featured: xiao, neuvillette, wriothesley, zhongli and itto
i've been dreaming about genshin a lot lately idk this game has possesed me or smth so i feel like i'm required to write this? Also DAMN im rusty with genshin characters so i apologise profusely for any ooc-ness
(also wrio's is kinda suggestive!!)
XIAO is confused. Why on earth are you wearing his clothes? He isn't opposed to it specifically, but doesn't understand the appeal or the reason why you do it. "My clothes don't fit you properly. What's the point?" he asks, completely straight faced. You smile. "It reminds me of you when you're not with me!" He just scoffs and says he doesn't get your strange habits before moving on with his day. Somehow though, the image of you in his clothes won't leave his mind for the rest of the day. "Dammit..." he mumbles under his breath, barely audible when nobody's around. Don't bring up his pink cheeks in the evening when he comes back to see you, he will not elaborate.
Similarly, NEUVILLETTE is also confused. This must be another human thing that he isn't familiar with. What does wearing their lover's clothes mean to humans? "Oh, I just missed you... your clothes remind me of you, you know?" You explained when he questioned you on the matter. "Oh, I suppose that makes sense. Do you want more items related to myself for when I am absent?" He asks. While you do want to know what items he would bring you, you turn him down. "I like your shirts the most, because they smell like you and feel like your hugs." He doesn't know why exactly, but he has the urge to kiss you all of a sudden.
WRIOTHESLEY feels distracted when he sees you in his clothes from time to time. He gets busy a lot, so the moments he gets to spend with you feel extra special. But, what is he to do when you look so positively yummy in his shirt? "Hey, mind taking my shirt off? It's... sort of distracting." he admits, taking a sip of his tea. "But, wouldn't it be even more distracting if I took it off now?" you asked, feigning an innocent look. He almost spit out his tea. "I did not mean it like that...! Surely you're just teasing me." You just smiled mischeviously in response, taking a sip out of your own cup. "That's what I thought. I know that look."
ZHONGLI thinks you look odd in his clothes. Odd, but not bad by any means. You actually look quite endearing. "I'll make sure to commit this to memory." he says calmly, sitting down next to you on the bed. "You say that every time you're with me." you poke his shoulder gently, smiling up at him. "That's because everything about you is worth remembering, I suppose." Still, he thinks this specific memory is one he will treasure for a long, long time. "Oh my..." you felt heat rushing to your cheeks at his words, hugging his arm. Actually, he changed his mind, you're positively adorable in his clothes.
You're basically asking to get attacked with a flurry of kisses if you wear ITTO'S clothes in front of him. That's like, a show of affection! That you're totally his and no one else's! And that also means it's a cause for celebration! "Agh, Itto- Stop!" you try and fail to push his face away. "Hehehe..." he gives you a bright smile and places a big ol' kiss on your lips. "You should wear my clothes more often!!!" he felt proud of himself, puffing out his chest. "Ummm, whatever you say..." you're kind of worried that if you do that, your face will never escape his lips.
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i come barring a request for a poly!maraudersđ«Ąđ
idk you ever do this with ur cat but when mine meows at me i respond back and pretend weâre having a full conversation, and now imagine reader this with her cat and sheâs roommates with lily so sheâs used to but then the boys see theyâre all thrown off and slightly worried.
now i bid you good day my lady đ«Ą
I've had this blurb like half finished for a while, but since we were all talking about our fur babies today, I thought it'd be perfect to finish and post! thanks for this cute request - hope it's what you were looking for
poly!marauders x fem!reader who talks to her cat
Remus felt sort of bad for Lily at the way the boys all deflated when it had been her who opened the door to your shared flat instead of you. Thankfully, the red-head just laughed and invited them all in.
âSorry to disappoint boys.â She jested as they all made themselves at home on your couch.
âOh, weâre always happy to see you, Lily.â James said at the same time as Sirius grumbled âyou should beâ, earning him a pinch in the ribs by Remus.
âHey!â Lily called down the hall. âThe boys are here!â
Remus winced at a painful sounding thump and a muffled. âOkay thanks! Iâm almost ready!â
The boys were very excited, if Jamesâ knee bouncing and Siriusâ impish smirk wasnât obvious enough. Lily had been gushing about how sweet her new roommate was and how she thought youâd get along really well with the group of friends, and sheâd been right. You came to two pub nights and the boys were hooked; constantly asking Lily for updates and if youâd be at the next one.
Lily had grown so tired of playing messenger that she asked you if she could give them your phone number, to which you had agreed.
The four of you had been in a group chat for nearly a month and a half before they felt brave enough to ask you out on an official date.
âWhere are you guys going tonight?â Lily asked as she sat in an armchair in the living area where the boys were waiting.
âWeâre going to the pub on 42nd.â James answered readily.Â
âThe one with the board games and vintage video games?â Lily clarified.Â
âYup. That way thereâs something for us to do if conversation lulls, and something for James to do with his hands.â Sirius explained teasingly, causing James to blush and lean into his side as if he were trying to hide inside of Siriusâ smaller frame.
âDonât tease the lad.â Lily admonished playfully. âHeâs already likely nervous enough. I donât think you lot have to worry about tonight though; conversation never lulls with her around.â
Remus tilted his head in bemusement at Lilyâs comment but never got to ask for clarification before he heard some muttering.
âWould you stop that?â He could hear you mutter quietly; barely any ire detected in your tone.
âPlease donât do this, Iâm already late.â You begged before a big crash took place. âFor fuckâs sa- why.âÂ
âYouâre not allowed to get ready with me anymore.â You declared to your bedroom. Remus shared a look with Sirius and James before turning towards Lily who only shook her head and brought her finger to her lips.Â
âDonât look at me like that!â You carried on. âIf you want to be here to see me off, you need to behave yourself.â
It was quiet for a few moments. âNo, knocking over my jewelry stand is not behaving.â
They listened to you shuffling around before you let out a big sigh. âI love you too, but you are stressing me out. Do you want to watch shows with Lily tonight while Iâm gone? Hm? Letâs go ask.â
Finally, you exited your room and made your way down the hall, entering the living area before pausing to take in the fact that the four occupants of your flat were all staring at you with varying levels of bemusement and amusement.Â
And trotting happily behind you was a small cat seemingly none the wiser to the fact that it just made its mistress look like a fool in front of her dates.
You chuckled awkwardly. âHow much did you hear?â
Lily snorted and pat her legs as an invitation for your feline friend, who happily agreed, hopping and curling up on the red-headâs lap.Â
âEnough to know that knocking over your jewelry stand is not behaving.â Sirius teased salaciously.Â
You groaned and moved to cover your face with your hands, but James was having none of that and quickly made for you.
âDonât hide that beautiful face from us; itâd be a shame if the only one who got to appreciate your date night look was your cat.â He commented as he gently pulled your hands away from your face.
You still looked awfully embarrassed but acquiesced. âA bad cat, at that.â You spat to the ball of fur currently sitting with your roommate without any real malice.Â
âOi!â Lily defended quickly, brushing broad strokes over the cat like the villain from Austin Powers. âDonât speak ill of Princess Bernadette the Third.â
âPrincess Bernadette?â Sirius asked bewilderedly at the same time as James murmured âthe Third?â
âBirdie, Lily. My catâs name is Birdie.â You corrected, not at all amused.Â
Lily raised her nose in the air. âWhen we stay home to watch Bridgerton without you lot, sheâs Princess Bernadette the Third. Now off with you, we have Ballâs to attend, and you have gentlemen to court.âÂ
Remus watched with a loving smile as you flushed furiously at that, laughing when it only deepened as Sirius suddenly stood and made his way for you, bowing with a flourish and pressing a kiss to your knuckles. âShall we, mâlady?â
You gave him an eye roll but Remus could tell it was mostly for show as you bore a sickeningly sweet smile and accepted Jamesâ elbow as you made your way to the door.
âHave fun you guys!â Lily called towards the door as Remus bent down to scritch Birdie on the chin.
âYou too, Princess Bernadette, Princess Lillith.â He offered with his most posh accent and a quick bow before joining his two boyfriends and their date at the door.
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*reappears on your dashboard like I wasn't gone for months* Guess who hasn't looked at social media in like half a year but still really likes this game??? I've been doing soooo much art, comics, animations and crafts while I've been away, I just was intimidated by the thought of going back on social media during the kinda crisis period I was in. Honestly idk if I would've came back if I didn't JUST find out I missed an official cosplay contest like a week before the con I made these for.......I'm kinda devastated about it but maybe there'll be another one idk
So these cosplays were for Anime Nebraskon last weekend, and it was my first time making cosplays ALMOST entirely from scratch. Stuff like the ghillie suit, the gloves, and the shoes weren't made by me but were modified to fit the costume better. Never sewn clothes in my life but the cape didn't fall apart so I'd consider this a success! I had a banger time and I was at the con rave dancing in this fucking death trap for like 4-5 hours straight on saturday? Honestly incredible it didn't get destroyed when it's held together with hot glue and a dream. The lamb was the first one I did, but only got worn on sunday as a backup cause FUCK LESHY he's TOO HEAVY!! MY SPINE HURTS!!!!! Anyway I'm hopefully gonna be on here more, I've had an atrocious few months and think socializing might be what's best for me.
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