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sureuncertainty · 1 year ago

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hopefully it's just tonight but i haven't written at all in the last couple of days and i tried again tonight and it didn't work AGAIN i just can't get myself to write idk sometimes i really feel like the sequel to silence agenda is literally never ever going to actually get written and there's no point in even trying

#like i go thru phases where i'm all excited about it and they never last and i NEVER fucking finish anything with it #like literally ever #i have started to write this novel literally like 4 or 5 times now at this point?#and i can't get it done ever #since 2020 i've been working on it for almost three years #i've been making steady progress on tmtou i literally rewrite silence agenda like every fucking year #and yet i fucking can't get this story written #and idk how much of the problem is me how much of the problem is US and how much of the problem is my motivation levels and stuff #idk idk i think i'm just In It tonight and i'll probably feel differently later #it goes in these cycles #but idk man for awhile i was REALLY CONVINCED that this was gonna be the Time that i actually got this book written #i have the story! i have it! i just need to make it! and idk how!!!#i try and then a week later i can't #and my brain is hyperfixating on other things (idk why i decided to reread aftg) so i just Can't #and i do wanna get silence agenda published soon so i wanna focus on that #but i feel like i can't deliver on this sequel i feel like i can't even write it #idk i've never spent THIS LONG and gotten THIS MANY DRAFTS out of a book without being even like. close to the halfway point #i should finish it! i want to! i want to want to! but i fucking CAN'T #part of it is me part of it is the fact that it's hard to write when kat's not around and she hasn't been lately #idk i really thought i was gonna be able to do it this time. but apparently not #idk when i'll learn #that i can't write this fucking book #win rambles

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