#idk i'm mentally in a weird place bc i've lost my momentum again but i'm trying v hard to not spiral about it | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

byanyan · 18 days ago

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i think... i'm gonna take a little break for the weekend. i'm struggling with energy and focus and, like. autistic inertia. which is making writing (or even opening up my laptop with the intent of writing) difficult. and then i'm putting pressure on myself bc i feel bad about not keeping up with things which makes it that much harder. so i think!! i need to just take a step back for a few days!! remind myself that it's not the end of the world and it's okay to not write if i'm having a hard time!! let myself indulge in the hyperfixation i have for a couple of games rn without feeling guilty for it!!!

could i do this without announcing it to everyone bc who cares if someone you only know online is away for a couple days? yes. but it takes a weight off my chest to explain myself, so!!!! shhh!!!

#this is gonna extend to dms too i'm so sorry adjgksg #it's so hard to explain why talking with people i like about things i WANT to talk about is so taxing #but it is and i think i just need the reminder that it's okay. that i can take as long as i damn well please. that the only one putting #pressure on any of it is ME and that's fucking silly as hell #idk i'm mentally in a weird place bc i've lost my momentum again but i'm trying v hard to not spiral about it #in my usual bs cycle that traps me in my depression & burnout #thanks yet again for all your guys' patience & understanding 💜#i'm not like. actually GOING anywhere. i'll still be online & liking all ur posts n shit #i just need to give myself permission to chill & not write so i'm posting abt it adjgksh #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ooc ⋮ don’t @ me.

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