#idk i'm just yapping in this one

[saulweissberg]

saul was certainly a professional. it had been the world he was born into, after all. he was well attuned to the politesse of high society; he knew exactly which fork he was to use during which course and to take only one pat of butter for his bread (lest he looked greedy). edna and gideon trained their children well, even when the weissbergs of the world weren’t readily accepted into certain high society functions. they were contemporaries of the crowninshields, lowells, and sedgwicks; his uncle morris bragged about attending harvard at the same time as jack kennedy, feeling somehow special that he was admitted during a time when there was a jewish student quota. his parents taught him to not hide their family’s wealth: no one liked a rich kid playing at poor, and the weissbergs had to be proud of their name when they collectively worked diligently to make it so prominent. part of that prominence meant tedious country club luncheons and overly long charity galas. in a way, to saul, it was an honor. every invitation to a high society event was evidence that his family had made it.

“how are you supposed to know they’re worth it if you don’t give them a chance?” saul countered, brows raising pointedly. perhaps it was a miracle in itself saul had been able to get past her cool exterior many years ago. the poise and elegance she held was really just a smoke screen, he quickly found out. for a yogini that was often described as a gazelle, she bumped into nearly everything and her small, coy smiles were born out of social anxiety, not a conscious effort of mystique. she always looked bored of everything and everyone, and she often was, but for different reasons than assumed. later, saul learned why there was a smoke screen, why she protected herself so fiercely. her childhood had been split up into two by a horrific event that he couldn’t fathom fully, but understood partly with his own grief for his father. death—though, granted, her experience was more abundant and horrible—cleaved lives in halves. he understood the need for her smoke screen, and in a way, he had one as well. he had a part to play, but saul had enjoyed playing that part. he enjoyed being a high society elite, like the people around them that thalia apparently didn’t find worthy. maybe that should’ve been an honor, too, that thalia had, at least at one time, considered him worthy.

he pulled out her chair—again, the politesse!—before he sat on his own. “well, birdie, no one’s going to just come up to you and ask your thoughts on the hierarchy of the sciences or floriography. not a venue like this, at least.” deep philosophical conversations happened in dive bars, the country club types cared too much about their image until they got really drunk, then it was hard to get them to shut up. “you’ve got to meet them at their level, get a few drinks in them, then you can talk about more than just fashion and mommy groups and sorority reunions.” he pressed his lips together and canted his head. the concept of a game or challenge was interesting, but saul was a career lawyer: he knew never to agree to anything without first hearing the terms. “i suppose that depends on what you have in mind.”

She supposed it used to be easier. Maybe it was just because at that point, Saul's arm would be around her waist. Even when she was in conversation with unknown individuals, there was a light at the end of the tunnel. They would spend every other moment making fun of the people who couldn't imagine a single person not savoring a BLT. Now it was different. She would be returning to the table with her old name on the embossed card and an empty hotel room. But if she didn't try, why go to Chicago in the first place? Why not spend another night supporting her sister in their childhood home turned hospital waiting room?

"I like to believe that should there be someone worth the conversation, it would not be difficult." That was the worst part, wasn't it? Out of the numerous events she went to, there had been no one she connected with like him. Surely there were others who could both hold a conversation and be worthwhile of her quiet comments. Thalia didn't believe she was so unique that everyone else was below her. There was a very good chance that someone one table over could entertain her in a similar way. But considering that Thalia could barely get herself to talk to her customers about a subject she loved, she was unlikely to meet them.

"Once again, I find myself subjected to discussions on designer dresses, jewelry decisions, the audacity of a young individual to wear a suit and not conform to expected gender standards." The fact that Thalia could possibly steer the conversations herself was not a logical step. She would rather mentally disengage than be stuck in a forced conversation with someone she didn't respect. "I must have forgotten how dull these are. I have more pleasant interactions at Caffelicious." But that was a classic Thalia conundrum. Her embrace of solitude was putting her even closer to hiding in a castle for her whole life. That wasn't the attitude she intended on when she meditated after her yoga class that morning. This was meant to be a growth opportunity. She took another sip then turned to look at him. "A challenge then, or a game. Otherwise this will be simply too tedious. Are you interested?"

[chapollynh]

An excuse to draw my favorite characters? Of course I'll take it, thank you very much.

[lobotomize-d]

Butter roll cookie if... if he was.... uh. . . Student at the Parfedia Academy ...

[tropicalcontinental]

After Parkour Civilization can we all collectively watch Oneshef's videos

[gods-perfect-idiots]

❤️💛

[quietly-sleeping]

I'll admit I'm a sucker for qijiu, (this could be my hyperfixation on sy talking), but I think those idiots deserve someone who's brand of chaos isn't murder. Or self sacrifice over deeply internalized guilt.

[ghostbredtt]

rabbit or whatever 💔 trying to figure out his design? how to draw him at all?

[youling-the-ghost]

decided to check out the sfth discord for the first time in forever and came across several conversations about the fandom wiki and like. I got so happy for some reason lol. like yes hi there's a fandom wiki now yes I created it I'm glad you guys like it :D

[callmesel]

I saw @dawnstudies Percy's design as a nun made me think of an idea for an au

Like Priest Percy x Demon Marcus

Hear me out on this, Arthur is a priest in a church, imagine this is the time where priest could get marry and have kids but when Percy grew up that change for plot convenience, and I think that Percy would look up at his father and want to be like him. So he becomes a priest.

Marcus is like a demon and he was summoned near the village Percy's church (because Arthur retired and now is Percy's) so they call him to get rid of the demon.

So idk really how that works but Percy manages to shoo Marcus away. It works temporarily, but then Marcus comes back and they don't know why. Because the people who summoned him in the first place are in jail or something. The point is hat he came by his own will, so Percy does the same thing.

Problem here is that Marcus has come back 6 times in the span of a month so Percy starts questioning himself if he is not good enough and trying to find a way to keep them safe. Meanwhile, Marcus is just happy to see him each time because he got a crush in the pretty priest of this town and just enjoy the show.

This goes back and forth for quite some time and Percy is just really tired and doesn't know what to do so he burst out crying and Marcus is like "oh shit". So you see the priest crying and the demon trying to comfort him and Percy is confused, because, Aren't demons suppose to be evil and all that?

So now you have Percy questioning his life even further and Marcus just happy that he would help him

This could go in so many directions but I'm thiking that Percy is slowly letting this demon in his life and he is like, this is not so bad.

Then rumors goes around the town that the priest is seen someone or something like that so every thinks that he is metting a young girl or smt but no, he is hanging out with a demon. And Marcus couldn't be happier.

From here on i have not idea how it could play.

Maybe Percy falls for Marcus. Maybe he feels guilty because he is endagering his village for having a demon around. Maybe he is conflicted. Maybe his father finds out and they have a fight and Percy leaves and goes to Marcus. Maybe Percy wasn't even the priest but he was learning how to be one and now he feels dirty or something

idk, so many ideas for this au

I just like that Marcus is a demon who just hunts this specific village because he is obsessed with this one villager. I think he would stalk him

[miyamoratsumuu]

post may or may not be cringe, but we're rolling with it 🤙🏼

I dreaded having to do this (again) all year long, but guess who's going on a semi-hiatus!!!! hint: me ☝🏻 (I'll call it semi bc I'll prob be lurking around here and there still, lmao)

most of you may know, but I've been super busy with school lately given that I'm graduating this year, sooo I'm predicting it rn I won't be able to write anything for a while 😞

it's not that I don't have free time at all, it's just that everything that's been on my mind lately is shoolschoolschool, and I almost never think of anything else 😭 + I can't find it in myself to have the mental capacity to balance everything I have going on here and aiming to be at the podium once graduation comes around

though I will be posting chapter 6 of push & pull this week, AND maybe a teaser for score his heart?? but idk, we'll see! if I do end up posting both of those, I think that'll be it for a while

I'm so sorry to be letting anyone down, especially those who have been enjoying my ongoing series so far</3 I promise that once I make the time to write in between school and my social life outside of tumblr, I'll be back to writing/posting better than ever!!

I'll just take this opportunity to thank everyone for supporting me and my works this past summer vacation!! I truly believe I wouldn't have been able to survive the summer heat without you all 🤕

thank you all so so much, I hope you understand!! as I mentioned, I'll still be lurking around the app and answering asks/messages if necessary!! I LOVE YOU ALL SOOO MUCH, I'LL BE BACK BETTER THAN EVER, I PROMISE!!<33

[nyxypoo]

want to write about pussy inspections with endo but knowing me it'll end up the exact same as the takiishi one just with a different name :/

[messrsrarchives]

hi i wanted to ask ur advice on something

somy parents bought tickets to the cursed child musical on broadway and i feel terrible bc jkr will be getting money but im not in a place to tell them to give them up (minor) and it was really hard and expensive to get tickets and they were really proud of it bc they know i like hp

but while i love the cursed child (scorbussss) i feel terrible

-🌸

HI ! i never normally reply to these kinds of asks but this wasn't a self purchase so hi ! i still have no idea how to answer it but 🫂🫂 because it's rough. i think nearly allllll harry potter fans have awkward situations like this. it took me monthsss to successfully explain to my partner that "yes, very cute gift thank you awh but also hi this profited her don't do that pls :("

because on one hand YAY they listen to your interest and on the other hand sighhhh they don't get it, yk? you don't want to seem ungrateful so it's a tricky one to navigate

i think this is one of those cases where they were misinformed and unaware, and that's okay! and i hope the guilt doesn't ruin that experience for you and i think it's really good that you're aware !! that's great, so the next step that i would takeee would be explaining to them if it's something you're uncomfy with. the tickets have been bought so it's down to you whether to go or not, that's okie and i reckon they spent a lot of time getting their child a gift they'd like SOOO i'd say just a lil chat to say thank you and this will be fun but for future reference, please don't buy official stuff.

which is something i still have to do with friends and family. i'm an adult so i do have the safety net of just returning things if they don't listen or matching the donation elsewhere BUTTT obviously that's more tricky as a minor and all you can really do is talk to them about it so that it hopefully doesn't happen again :)

all of that being said i do hope you have a lovely time !! scorbus on top, cursed child is so overhated 😖

[gemini-queen42]

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A little doodle for inbetween refs <3 lumibabsworth in intent technically but read as you will.

[queeringclassiclit]

Ophelia

from Hamlet by William Shakespeare (1623)

submitted by @cg920fire who said:

I saw some trans Ophelia headcanons on Tumblr and was curious about whether or not there's some trans subtext in the play that flew over my head. What also contributed to my curiosity was when I hosted an AMA about my AU version of her, and someone asked why I made her cis. I was confused by it, unsure about how to answer it. Everyone I had brought it up to all agreed that it was a weird question since Ophelia doesn't seem to be explicitly trans-coded in the text as far as I know and doesn't engage in gender fuckery like Shakespeare's crossdressing characters. However, I'm still open to the possibility that I did indeed miss some trans subtext about her.

[torgawl]

instead of just cross eyes and star eyes distinguishing dynasties in khaenri'ah, why do some khaenri'ahns cover one eye specifically? there’s many things that seem interconnected regarding the lore:

crimson moon turning around to look like an eye; irmin the one-eyed king; the unknown god’s cubes containing eyes in their design (same ones present in the cataclysm as well as the crimson moon), her glitching looking like arlecchino’s, and the four pointed star pattern that appeared when she showed up to the twins; forbidden knowledge and nibelung’s influence; fischl's auge der verurteilung aka eye of condemnation (crimson eye) and her skin's description "o holiest of sovereigns, high princess of immernachtreich (kingdom of evernight)!".

kaeya's note about the alberich saying "i saved this one memento from the fire 'father' made while he wasn’t paying attention. this was in violation of our principles. our clan's affairs should never be recorded" and "though we could not restore khaenri'ah to life, we of the alberich clan should lead lives as those who blaze like fire, rather than those who wallow in the embers [small piece of burning or glowing coal or wood in a dying fire]", father being in quotation marks and references to fire and ashes; the orphanage in khaenri'ah that wanted to house children from destroyed worlds and non-threats that leaked into the kingdom, in hopes of finding beings from beyond the sky who could transcend the gods; perinheri's first memory being transversing something like a chimney, filled with ash and being asked if he wasn't dead just for him to see the eye (crimson moon) and being told he was reborn; dust and the blood of of dragons (or dragon-like beings like durin and elynas) being connected to rhinedottir and the art of khemia; fire as rebirth and life but also, the balemoon blood specifically being connected to loss of memories and loss of memory being equivalent to death (not physical);  despite the orphanage never being able to find that transcendal person, it had many unusual individuals who became knights of the kingdom.

irmin as the first divine halberd (that once pierced the axis mundi [cosmic/world axis, world pillar, center of the world, world tree, etc.] and connected the nine worlds), the prinzessin der verurteilungas (fischl) as the last one; fischl and kaeya comparing themselves to one another and their parallels to irmin and odin; der ring des nibelungen, in which the dwarf (or nibelung) alberich creates a ring capable of controlling the world, using gold he stole from the rhinemaidens (or rheintöchter "rhine-daughters"). the conflict that arises over the ownership of this ring eventually leads to the destruction of the gods and their home, valhalla.

irminsul (irmin + sul) meaning great pillar and being a reference to the yggdrasil, the tree that supports the universe; the description of the item silver twig – collected in the center of the world - talking about a sage that hanged himself upside down in the irminsul tree to gain knowledge of the runes and the cosmos, then going into a secret kingdom down its roots [also a reference to hanged man in tarot that symbolizes wisdom, divination, sacrifice, prophecy, etc.]; odin who hung himself upside down from the sacred world tree, yggdrasil, for nine days and nights sacrificing his eye and throwing himself on his spear (gungir) as a ritual sacrifice in order to obtain secret wisdom; memories, fire and crimson moon hand in hand with the irminsul, king irmin and the concept of fate; the fake sky, the stars and being able to see fate but also fate being a means of the heavenly principles to control the world (neuvillette calling it puppet strings); khaenri'ah, a supposed godless nation but the crimson moon dynasty revering the moon (and hilichurls worshiping istaroth); the crimson moon having an eye on humanity and always being present associated with punishment and destruction (fall of gurabad, remuria and the catclysm).

crimson moon's semblance (arlecchino’s weapon) implying the crimson moon sought vengeance (“few survived the utter destruction of their kind, hiding in the shadows where the sun did not shine, longing for the crimson moon to decree their desire for vengeance be repaid”); the design of the weapon and arlecchino’s boss attacks resembling the double helix present in deathly statuette material dropped by abyss heralds, abyss lectors and shadowy husks, which has a single red eye. it apparently whispers "see, my child. all that lies under the throne of heaven shall be destroyed by upheaval. the eternal peace of the pitch-dark void shall embrace us all.” as you gaze at it.

the abyss order being founded by chlothar alberich and pierro being the first harbinger; the "sinner" – the crystal in chains from the chasm, protected by an abyss herald - not being a god but still worshipped by the abyss order. the voice stating to chlothar and the traveler’s twin that he "[knows their] fate well" and urged them to become a "transcendent one" saying he would "shed a tear at the end of time... as i gaze back upon your life". he also imbued chlothar with the power of the abyss, which alleviated his worsening conditions. the “sinner” refered to chlothar as “dear creature”; dainsleif, pierro and kaeya being examples of khaenriahns who hide their right eye; dainsleif being called “bough keeper”, bough is a branch of a tree, but also his constellation being a snake ring like ouroboros – representing the eternal renewal cycle of life, death and rebirth; the loom of fate being an operation of the abyss order first encountered during "a herald without adherents" quest.

“the threads of your fate lie in my hands” a quote by fischl connecting to the weaves of fate; fischl stating that if she does not obtain the divine halberd “...this world and everything in it is going to burn in hellfire” (legend of the shattered halberd vol. ii). some other excerpts of the book also include: “but unbeknownst to him, this was the greatest cursed sword of all, that had once burned the entire world to cinders: laevatain [in norse mythology, a weapon crafted by loki and the only capable of defeating the cockerel viðofnir, inhabiting the top of yggdrasil], the sword had extinguished after the world was burned, but... it burned bright once more. ‘the whole world... destroyed again...’ weiyang [fischl] fell unconscious as she spoke” (vol. iv), and, "the world is beyond repair. it shall be born anew from the ashes of the last” (vol. vi); dainsleif saying “none will escape the flames. see for yourself” but also neuvillette’s character story including “the puppet strings glossed as "divine rules" would one day be burned away by the fires of judgment” when talking about constellations; burning away the old world, project stuzha by the fatui and the image of dottore burning the irminsul; nahida saying fontaine's prophecy was engraved in the irminsul, implying the tree also contains the history of the future; sibylla, a prophetess who guarded the irminsul in an ancient city located in what later became the high seas (referred to as abyssal depths). she sacrificed her life for the sake of creating phobos, remus' grand symphony, but her lack of a will ultimately caused the project to fail, as her vague desire to "grant happiness to all in the world who are called humans" caused phobos to attempt to satisfy everyone's desires — including destructive and selfish ones — and set remuria towards the course of its self-destruction (possibly tying concepts of will and fate together); thinking of dottore's plan, it would make sense to burn the tree that holds memories with a fire able to erase them (arlecchino's balemoon powers) so that the world can be born anew breaking away from the shackles of fate.

there’s also the improvisation kaeya does during the play in his hangouts. "do you believe in fate? if fate decreed your life was to end in tragedy, what would you do?". he then throws a prop and we interact, choosing if we would face our fate bravely or challenge it and rise above it. kaeya then goes on saying "then so must it be! yes, so must it be! i shall discard this intaglio and rid myself of the shackles of fate", "fate means to send the machinations of war to every corner of the land to fan the flames of conflict till they ungulf the entire world… fate would see my sword tainted with the blood of innocents, that the bright banner of my homeland might fly in every nation known to mankind. but i shall not bow to the will of fate i am no pawn in heaven’s plan. i, qubad, will spend the rest of my days in a foreign land, 'till i breathe my last in a place far from home" and finishes the play with "but i must walk this path, or freedom dies by my hand. goodbye, my tribe and kin. farewell, sweet land of my birth". the prop we get from kaeya, the intaglio, symbolizes the noble origins of prince qubad in the play and the blood-red jewel (blood, red... funny, uh?) is said to be a crystallization of the question kaeya asked us about destiny. furthermore, an intaglio can be a type of engraved gem or metal signet ring.

[theusernameiwantisntavailable]

Persona 5/ Persona 5 royal spoilers ahead!

Okay so I did this WIP a while back that I discontinued but I'm still going insane about the meaning of it and also the symbolism of masks in this game and also akeshu parrallels so I need to Yap abt them

Yap session under the cut!

The symbolism of masks in this game drives my so batshit insane actually. Like. So often we see in media that people are finally free when they take their mask off (both metaphorically and literally) but in this game we see people's true forms when they put one ON.

Like the palaces are where we see people's true faces and desires. It's the place where no one can hide who they are. And yet it's one one place where you wear a physical mask and disguise and have to conceal who you are.

I could (and will at some point) write an entire essay about that but rn it's akeshu hours

Because Joker is arguably the best example of that, he becomes alive in the palaces, where his face his hidden. It's his freedom

Versus Akechi

The first time we see Akechi show his true form to Joker (and the player) is in what is percieved at the time as the real world. The entire time we work together in the palace, the place that shows who you are despite the mask you wear he hides who he is. It's only in the gritty real world that he reveals himself.

Joker in the real world is perceived (at least by people outside of his circle) as closed off and someone to be cautious around, he has a criminal record so he could be dangerous. The exact opposite of how he is in palaces, the centre of the team and a flame people are drawn towards

VERSUS AKECHI

In the real world he is a celebrity, he is loved, people are drawn to him. But in palaces he's cold and heartless, his words are cutting and he cares for no one, not hesitating to kill to achieve his goal

Opposites in every sense

THE ABSOLUTE PARALLELS IT DRIVES ME INSANEASHBANANSJAKSS

They were both ruined by the same man. They both ended up in their current predicament because of said man. They both had the potential to weild multiple personas. They both have the capability to lead. They are the exact same and yet the exact opposite

They don't need to lie awake at night and wonder what would they be like if their life had turned out slightly differently. They don't need to because they have each other. EVERYTIME THEY GO INTO A PALACE THEY SEE WHO THEY COULD'VE BEEN, THEY FIGHT WITH THAT PERSON SIDE BY SIDE EVERY NIGHT I'M GOING MAD