#idk i'll have to think about it anyways sorry for rambling
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the current like... 'schedule' of sorts that i have going on is doing one matchup every other day and working on my other requests in the meantime. i'm still not entirely sure how often i should post in one day because i don't want to post too much or too little so i'm thinking i might settle on two posts per-day while my motivation is strong and then simmer down to at least one a day in the coming weeks.
#archived mind of v: thoughts and opinions.#i also wanna post random silly thoughts i have about these silly characters#they infest my brain constantly#but i get nervous being perceived#i'm debating whether or not a matchup should be considered like...#a 'outlier' to the two posts a day thing like#should i do post - post - matchup#or should it be matchup - post / post - post#i feel like im taking this way too seriously and making this weirdly technical and planned#idk i'll have to think about it anyways sorry for rambling#the matchups have been fun doing though!!#they take time for me to write so that's why im not just churning them out#sorry if im taking too long but i'll get to the others eventually!#im trying to go in the order of when they (the matchup requests) were sent so
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hey
#so i've been dealing with some irl stuff recently#nothing too bad. it was just really frustrating and exhausting for me. and really putting a damper on my mood and my art#and i'm sorry if i've been acting a little weird or not saying too much or anything#or if i've been kinda inactive for the past few days#but i'll be okay!#i just wanted to let you guys know what's been kinda going on#i'm slowly working on something really sweet involving Hugo and Noa. so that's been making me feel better#i need something happy and soft between them lol#also! I've been playing The Quarry recently!#the writing is kinda stupid and almost all of the characters act like they don't have a brain. but that's what makes it so fun!#and i'm pretty sure the devs did that intentionally. to make it seem more like a campy monster flick#i'm really enjoying it so far! the werewolves are really cool!#also it's really funny to me how they just pop like balloons whenever they're transforming#i thought it was gonna be a slow transformation. but no. their skin just immediately explodes off#and then they somehow get it all back when they turn back into humans? idk how that works but it's pretty rad#also also! the thing with the tarot cards is really cool!#i missed a lot in the beginning because i didn't know what i was looking for#and the fortune teller lady in between chapters kept getting mad at me for not finding any#but i eventually started to get it! when the game decided to really put one in my face in chapter 3 lol#and the thing with the tarot cards representing the different characters in the game got me thinking about what card Noa would probably be#i think Seven of Swords would be right up her alley#because it's associated with deception. dishonesty. betrayal. and acting strategically#and it could also signify self-deception and confessions. which is all very true for her character#aaahh now i wanna make a tarot card design for her!#but that's an idea for another day#anyway sorry for sorta rambling a bit#i hope you all are doing okay
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May I ask about your Jason Todd idea? <3
Hm, okay so. How to lay this out sensitively since I know it might be a tad controversial...
Prefacing by saying I'm not an expert on the minutias of Jason characterization. I like him when he appears, I think the battle for the cowl/Morrison era and some parts of modern era for him are Weird and Bad, but I'm not Jason scholar (for that I'd say maybe check out @/tumblingxelian and their great video essays), I'm just trying to think of what might be an interesting step forward for him.
First, the canon facts
Jason got lobotomized and has panic disorder on steroids. By the end of Gotham War (specifically when Jason was. Flying the batplane into the asteroid. God I can't believe that's the plot) he was finding it in himself to power through said panics
In Joker: The Man Who Stopped Laughing #12, the joker gives Jason a "low dose" of joker venom, which has an ambiguous effect on Jason, allowing him to power through the fear (which joker explicitly states is still very much present, just not physically debilitating, like when Jason couldn't run over in either Catwoman #57 or #58, the one with the kid in the building) even though he'd been able to do that sans venom over in Gotham War, like I previously stated.
The effect of said joker venom seems to be lingering for now, minus the creepy grin side effect it gave Jason over in that man who stopped laughing issue, as seen in the latest batman issue (number is escaping me rn, #147??). He still has the stutter which is a shorthand for fear, he's drawn with fearful expressions by Jorge Jimenez, but he says that he's "working through it" thanks to the chemicals
This is both super interesting and kind of maddening as it doesn't completely remove the consequences of what happened in Gotham War, but is trying to sweep them under the rug and get back to business as usual. I, however, propose making said consequences front and center like a fashionable urn on a mantle piece:
Since it's never stated how exactly the joker venom works, and I think the current answer is "it works how the story needs it to" I've decided that because it's a low dose, it eventually wears off. And when it wears off, Jason's back to square one in terms of mental state. Ergo, if Jason doesn't want to live the rest of his life as quaking shivering husk of his former self...he's going to need more.
(read more for the meat of things)
So, Jason self medicates for a condition given to him by the father he has endlessly complicated feelings towards with a cure invented by a man who represents everything he hates in the world who once tried to take everything from him.
Which, insert poetic cinema gif here, I'm quite proud of myself for that one.
Anyway, there's a lot of directions you could take this. Personally I think it'd be interesting to explore Jason trying to get back into the drug trade like he did in UTRH (FULL TRANSPARENCY I HAVEN'T READ THE FULL COMIC, I KNOW BROADSTROKES BUT IM NOT GONNA TRY AND MAKE PARALLELS) as he tries to use the resources (production plants and other drug runners who can hook him up with samples of joker toxin/similar stuff you can probably find around Gotham) to manufacture his own cure that means never having to go back to the joker again. Maybe he ambushes a joker toxin chemical production plant to get his own supply, and then Jason uses this as his foothold back into that world.
This isn't necessarily me saying we should regress Jason alll the way back to UTRH, that was before his anti-hero era and I'm not willing to fully shoot him back into the past. I just think that's not how you tell good stories in a medium like comics. But it'd inherently be a little different just bc he's doing it for different, slightly more self motivated (depending on your take on villain Jason) reasons and the people around him would have a different reaction to it.
Anyway, all sorts of problems can arise! Depending on how you wanna characterize Jason (wayward son who longs to be back in the fold or black sheep who doesn't play by daddy's rules, etc) he can either a) try and hide this criminal enterprise from his giant family full of nosy detectives (good idea there jay) OR do it out in the open, trying to justify himself but still putting himself on the opposite side of the family again (not the law bc that boy hasn't been on the 'right' side of it since he died)
There's also the fact that Jason now needs to take something 24/7 in order to live his life. He essentially can't be without it, he's dependent on it, in fact he'd get sick without it despite any adverse effects it may have on him (which are guaranteed, I mean. No clinical trials)
I imagine it'd be easy to become addicted to it in some way.
And uh. This is the part where it works slightly better as a fanfic pitch than an actual comic pitch. Because as much as I think it'd be such an interesting beat for Jason's character considering his fraught history with addiction and drugs (looks away from that one urban legends story where he suggests terrorising addicts to get to the suppliers and bruce lectures him. The easiest way to make Mr "we don't sell drugs to children" sympathetic and you beefed it)
I also fully recognise that this is a sensitive topic that DC doesn't have the best track record with (although addicts aren't a monolith and feel a number of ways about addictions portrayals in comics) and that there's probably some pitfalls inherent in the premise, namely bc of Jason's background as an impoverished kid and his grey morality, and how those play into stereotypes of addicts. Addiction is already such a misunderstood and stigmatized condition that I imagine playing with it with an antihero might be enough to turn some people off. Addiction is not a moral failing and I'd hate to write it as a moral failing of Jason akin to his willingness to kill, etc.
But with all that said, I think that stereotypes are primarily harmful because of their shallowness. They inhibit understanding of groups labeled "other" by presenting them in simplistic ways that don't portray richness or complexity. And I think a truly good red hood comic could give both sympathy and complexity to Jason, even as an addict. If anything, Jason is a popular character (mostly) and there could be something nice about seeing a main character go through what you're going through, gritty details and all. YMMV (can we bring that back btw?) and it depends on execution. There's a lot of ways it could go wrong, but seeing as it just lives as a hypothetical rn, I think there's also a lot of ways it could go. I mean, not right, it's a downer story beat for Jason but it's mostly meant to be interesting and a vehicle for more stories as Jason navigates it, ya know?
Anyway, I have a lot of spiels littered in my notes app and discord DMs that elaborate on all this (how this could work as act 1 in a broader Jason story where his little operation goes to shit and he has to hit the road (jack) and maybe do some character development for better or worse. I'm a sucker and wanna say better- not squeaky clean better but. Yknow, finding himself to an extent. I recognise I'm a sap and a fool tho. Or how a new outlaws team could factor into either of those eras (since I do like Jason with an outlaws team. It gives him an excuse to exercise his compelling relationships and dynamics with other characters without having to constantly tip-toe around the elephant in the room whenever he's with the batfamily all the time. He just needs a good lineup) but that's all for another time
... though without elaborating on the vision in my head it kind of just sounds like my pitch is "Jason gets addicted to his hyper-anxiety medication" BUT I SWEAR ITS MORE THAN THAT.
It's like. If Jason has struggled as a character (and this is very subjective on my part so feel free to disagree) because he has compelling relationships with all of the batfamily, but also has compelling grey morality that makes it hard to capitalize on those relationships, without the conflict always coming to "Jason stop killing!" "Nuh uh!" OR just being ignored, and the main way writers have addressed this is via reboots instead of arcs...
Then giving Jason and the bats:
real, legitimate and fresh reason for jay to be mad at Bruce (taking their relationship of love with very little understanding to it's most dramatic conclusion)
give the family a real reason to want to bring him back into the fold (feel bad about the lobotomy and it would be pretty immoral to let Jason waste away slowly and painfully because of something Bruce did)
capitalize on all the ways Jason is sympathetic (bc the addiction is a natural lead into his backstory, which is one of his most sympathetic elements)
And the ways in which he's very out of step with the bats post-resurrection (I'd be mad asf too if i came back to life just for my dad to a) not avenge me and b) LOBOTOMIZE ME meanwhile the cunt ass clown giving me my meds is just lurking out there).
Idk it's not a sophisticated pitch as of this moment but I think a real chef (writer) could cook something w/ this
#ramblings of a lunatic#do i maintag this#uhh#dc#that's enough i don't need to bother ppl with my brain dump#you made the mistake of asking /j#i hope it's not. too out of left field for what you were expecting? if you were expecting anything#this has just been rattling in my brain since i was venting about gotham war to a friend while sick a while ago#idk jasons a hot topic rn he's seemingly controversial atm but i think he's just some guy#he needs a little direction a little tlc like i said. but I've always found him interesting and i think this is at least an idea-#-for how to deal w/ jason post gotham war#tho who knows. with the new Summer Events on the horizon maybe jason will be rebooted again#and I'll go bald all at once like silver age lex luthor#not from chemicals in a lab accident but from stress at my ideas no longer having relevance#it happens more often than you'd think#the ideas thing. not me going bald. that's only sometimes#uhhh anyway hope this absolute behemoth text isn't too much. sorry i can't physically shut up#also ppl who know more about jason amd would like to say things (CONSTRUCTIVELY) on this post feel free!#(i say constructively because. I'm sensitive. mean comments make me cry)
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time displacement is great :D
Oh! Thank you so much! I do want to go back to it someday but that's not on my docket atm. It is near and dear to my heart though.
#shitpost#fic: time displacement#also im 100% okay with spoiling the story on this blog so#i don't beat myself up too much about leaving it languishing so much#i still like the story but my interest in homestuck faded with the epilogues and i haven't really gotten it back#homestuck was never like a big deal for me either but TD is a premise that really really stuck with me#but idk the fact that i will never get to be a parent put some dampers on the thing.#And like...writing that dream was a part of my interest if that makes sense?#like there's LOADS of other themes and like playing with an interesting story and characters and such too#and there is a part of the next arc i am like SO passionate about and SO excited for and#i may not have actually spoiled that here so i'll be vague#but like. Dave will stop narrating at some point because it is me deliberately hiding things wheeee#anyways. sorry. rambling. I am very exhausted rn so I think I'm just chatting#Thank you very much for the ask :)#People still reaching out about it is 100% why TD still exists in my heart which is so so important
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Good morning gamers! Hope you're doing well!! As for me, I'd like to apologize to the Y.akuza series for buying the three of its games months ago and still not touching them😔
#pan rambles#I'm sorry Y.akuza!!! I'll play you eventually!#It just seems like such a fun series!#idk if I'll get an f/o from there (only knows about 2-3 characters) but it seems fun nonetheless#Mutuals who are more knowledgeable about Yakuza- Do you think I'd f/o anyone from there (Doesn't just have to be romantically)#anyways on an unrelated note#I've been thinking about the possibility of a Fankid between a certain f/o and s/i (not saying which)#And you know it's bad when you already have a name you like for the kid#Which reminds me that I gotta find a name for my Snow fankiddos...#I have a hard time finding a name for them because I want their names to be perfect I guess-afjsnfjsn#I'm sure with enough searching I could find a name for the two of them
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ok i don't know WHAT kind of brain fart I had but I've been thinking today marks 6 months since I started shipping with Bob... IT'S NOT SIX DLSKJFKSF IT'S EIGHT 😳😳😳 8 MONTHS!!!
so today i learned i don't know how to count but idec bc it's my 8 month bobiversarry lol ❤️
#(sorry there's basically a freaking diary entry in these tags damn) (needed to get my thoughts out ig lol)#i really am so grateful for him and doug. which i get could sound really silly to ppl outside of this community lol#but they've helped me through the past 8 months and have made me smile even when in the worst moods :'3#even putting the selfshipping aspect of it aside they just make me happy !!#i honestly CANNOT believe its been that long already though... time has freaking FLOWN by since sept#but actually thinking about it in that way makes me oddly motivated? like that post abt how#'the time will pass anyways.' like i could have done A LOT in those 8 months but... i didn't 🧍🏻♀️BUT#there's 8 more months right ahead of me to make use of. like i've been really wanting to learn music theory and production#and im scared bc of how much time it will take. but I started studying a few days ago... and in 8 months i'll have 8 months of experience#idk it's just a comforting thought#like maybe even just in 4 months on the one year bobiverssary (lol) i'll be able to look back on today#and be like WOW i learned SO much since then and made so much music etc. just need to manage my time better all around.#bc of course i also need to do my actual JOB aka finish my next novel and prep for selfpub#cause i'm excited but not nearly ready 4 when my current contract ends. idk if it'll get renewed or not but i'm cool w either outcome 🧘🏻♀#UMMM. i didn't expect to ramble that much LMFAO sorry i was caught off guard by the passage of time ! 😳#peanut butter and jelly donut#caitiechat
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oof thought abt how i should work my ass off to get the pdf sketchbooks done and available on my shop as this month is getting rough as bf won't have any income until next month but. i'm scared to put so much time in this and no one being interested in them augh. and im terrified of ending up feeling like i've wasted all that time in a way of "i could've try to come up with another art stuff that might actually be interesting to anyone or straight up doing commissions and raise a wee bite of money". also. commissions. thing i'm shit scared of
#+ never had much success with commissions#granted this was back on twitter where i had never more than 2 or 3 likes on a drawing/any interaction at all#from all the times i've did commissions i prob never did more than 10. which is like still a bunch of them it's great!#but i wish i could have a cool artstyle that could appeal to ppl+could enjoy drawing things as comissions and not having that awful pressure#head in hands i don't even think i have a specific artstyle. i'll have to plan a way of choosing which materials to choose to know which#results the person would want. idk idk idk idk#i don't enjoy that much planning on how to be able to make some money off my art but i do need to eat#im rambling on at this point im sorry#will try to think more about it#will anyway make the pdf of all sketchbook that's a personal project first of all.#but i do need to know how to make a few bucks quickly to not stress out too much until payday 🗿#tomtom_is_rambling
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Context: me and Esther (@mixed-kester) were discussing about our yanderes from Ansy's Pen Pal event on @throwaway-yandere (gonna fix the tag with it soon oops)
Anyways I think Esther doesn't want to be with Dorian but I am perfectly fine with not having Wanderer yet hahahaha God help me if he finds out—
#🌸🍒 - navi speaks#;; I'll add more tags tomorrow its late rn and im tired lol#;; anyways i hope y'all dont mind the tags I just think its funny HAOSJSISJ#;; imagine having a fake alchemist on your tail and the other is hiding their existence from their yandere#;; crazy shit#;; .. okay sorta HAKSNSKSNSB#;; sorry Esther your (yandere) husband (Wanderer) is busy with a possessed umbrella idk what to tell you man#;; at least he aint on my ass and im not dead but damn imagine if he knows#;; terrifying thought fr#;; anyways time to get ur ass back to your husband and for me to get my revenge by visiting Dragonspine#;; if i dont come back in 2 weeks call the authorities /j#;; (in all seriousness my sleep deprived brain is speaking here and Im in a crackhead mood)#;; (very smooth brain and also somewhat sneeby wwww)#;; (thats all for my ramblings ill think abt writing about this shit again because like hell Wanderer is gonna get the actual me lmao)#;; (try harder bottom /t)
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Do whatever your heart tells you
that was so fast, that post was up for less than a minute i think asdfkgjk. thank you 🥺 i'll sprinkle some love onto my other babies that haven't experienced the spotlight in a while <3
#i was gonna make a long rambling post about this but i might just do it in the tags here#so i was reading a really nice feedback for strictly platonic this morning and ofc i went back to quickly reread the fic#i had a good time writing SP. like my creative juices were just flowing so naturally without me trying to force myself to write#altho there was a period after the fic was released where i genuinely disliked it so much that i cringed every time i saw it in my notifs-#but we're not gonna talk about that bc i overcame my SP hatred and i like it now lmao 💀#ANYWAY! i think SP was the fic that kinda helped me develop a 'style' ?? which i felt so good about#and then i subsequently lost it bc for some reason i started comparing myself to every single writer i came across lmao#so i have a profound discontentment with all of my writing from august to at least december and maybe even now#so idk i guess i've been trying to find that 'style' again#that certain je ne sais quois (i deserve to be punched just for saying this 💀)#and i think i'll have to look beyond obs for that bc i've been focused on just obs for last few months so everything feels like it's just-#blending together#like i had a relatively pleasant time writing obs4 and it's not the same#idk this doesn't even make sense 💀 and it sounds v dramatic and i'm sorry that i'm a dramatic person when i'm left to my own devices 💀#sooooooooo yah idk#anon#answered
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Right, so my brother's leaving for uni in September and I'm still living at home, and my mum keeps saying I can move into his room when he goes bc it would be better for me (it has built in wardrobes and stuff), which is probably true. But like, as much as I love the idea, it took nearly 20 years, several tries and a fair few tears just to move my bed across to the other side of the room, if I try fully moving rooms I think I might combust. 😂
#I did tell her that#And I suggested maybe I could move some stuff to his room for a bit so I could arrange my own room better to make it actually livable (it's#been bright yellow with a carpet so threadbare it's barely existent for nearly 20 years as well but for several reasons it hasn't been#a viable option to sort that out)#But she's pretty sceptical about that so I guess it'll just have to stay 😂😂#Honestly though the thought of moving absolutely fills me with dread I cannot cope with that much change#Idk how I'll ever cope when either I move or we all do lol it'll be a fucking nightmare#Anyway sorry for that weird ramble I've just been really thinking about it for the last few days since she brought it up so it's in my head#Text post#Personal
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btw we're dancing ever closer to a large milestone so. congrats. this is terrifying. where did you people come from. how are you still here.
#are the blogs still active#hey. hey. i'm poking you with a stick. do something.#not kpop#shut up vic#anyway i was kicking around an idea where i do like. '1k for 1k' where i post 1k of assorted drafts that died in my google drive#i'd leave it up to audience prompting but ngl i'd never get any lmfao so. it would be mostly my discretion with optional participation#it won't be for a while yet unless i can actually finish a piece for seventeen in the next six months (unlikely)#but i've been thinking about it#somehow people keep managing to find this blog which. how???#i haven't posted in a seventeen tag (purposefully) in almost a year#sorry if this is showing up in the tag btw i didn't mean to but i didn't think about it until right now and i can't edit tags rip#anyway idk where you people are coming from but you're welcome here#maybe one day i'll post writing again#i just got so averse to posting unfinished projects bc then they just. haunt me. especially if i end up needing to go back and edit#wit of the staircase and all that. i hit my stride in the second act and have to go back to fix the first#but you can't edit what's already been posted easily so. no wips leave my google drive.#plus they're mostly horridly self-serving and i'm the one being served so idk if anyone else could enjoy them#my current wip is a stress fic that developed a plot and i'm going to have to edit down the wish fulfillment if i ever post it#but that requires replacing multiple conversations and that's A Lot#anyway tag ramble over i just. think about things. wanted to check in lads.#if you're reading this i appreciate you also how the fuck did you find me#please tell me i'm genuinely so curious anon should be on no one will ever know please tell me please
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@queerical replied to your post:
butyanother one?
and it’ll be a whole new life when i do!
#Universe Ends Posts#queerical#lmaooo#truly tho i don't even remember where i got this one? i've had it for. at LEAST eight years probably closer to ten#and it is the only piece of jewelry i wear 24/7 and have for all those years#idk man its a part of my whole Thing now! and like its still going strong i might have it for a another ten or so years#but its just weird to think about.... maybe i'll find a different kinda ring to replace it... be a whole new PERSON with a whole new Thing..#wild to think about anyways sorry for rambling
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having self inserts that are minors is so fuckin weird bc for multiple dynamics I'm just like... if they were an adult then these guys would fuck. but I'm not doing that bc they are a CHILD and I just don't want to explore that particular flavor of terrible with my blorbos it's just like T-T why does my brain keep wanting to make any of this shit romantic/sexual in any way I fucking hate you brain.
#and for anyone who might say 'you can just make adult self inserts if you want to do self-shipping. even if you're not that age irl'#I know I could. But idk. I want teen self inserts. that is what I connect to way more. And it's just more of a 'brain shut the fuck up#this is not supposed to bring out the shipping eyebrows' thing anyway#and less of a 'well damn I want to ship these guys but [literally illegal age gap]'#so uhhh I just need my brain to shut up and stop thinking fictional men 10 years my senior are attractive for like five seconds while I#think about my blorbos#sorry to ramble about this on here but also it's my blog and I'll do what I want :)#self insert#I am going to tag this#selfshipping#for the people who might have that filtered out#negative#idk if it's really negative but ehhhh not taking any chances#cryptid.thoughts
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when I was a teen and I read everything I could get my hands on, I had this rule in my head to seperate 'literary' fic from 'chick-lit'. and the rule was this: if they have sex and its bad its literary. if they have sex and they enjoy it its chick-lit.
alternate variations:
- if there are dark serious themes explored and everyone is dark and serious about it it's literary. if dark serious themes are explored but the characters crack jokes about it its chick-lit
- if a man writes it its literary and if a woman writes it its chick-lit
- if its written with the most dry boring-ass prose possible it's literary. if its written the way an actual person would talk its chick-lit
#mostly based on my reading of marian keyes novels tbh#genuinely one of the most incredibly skilled irish writers ever in my eyes#and yet she sort of gets pigeonholed as like. a 'women's writer'#or used to anyway i think people are a bit better about it now#similar to maeve binchy actually. yes her books leave you with a warm feeling but theres still huge complexity to them#idk. the contrast between keyes and other irish 'greats' stood out to me a lot as a teen#applies to a huge amount of 'genre' fiction also#just this idea that the only writers who actually write in a way thats good to your brain arent Real Storytelling#that they're somehow lesser than stories which are the most dry bland shit on earth#like god i know i say this as an English graduate but i dont like a lot of 'literary' fiction ☠ or 'literary' as a classification at all#its interesting the degree to which the irish writing scene just doesnt seem to think the adult scifi/fantasy scene exists at all#GOD OKAY if i keep talking I'll end up having like three seperate rants#anyway. sorry about the ramble. goodnight
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fyi I have decided that any ship hate/character hate (like unabashed hate that stems from pettiness, not like critique/analysis) will be posted under the tag 'open at will: hater behavior' if anyone would like to block it
#for later use possibly#i was going to be annoyed about something last night but lowkey the pettiness is gone now#might still use it though#ship hate will usually be about the ships that i have stated i do not ship (in pinned) and more specifically prbly about y.an.tao xing.y.un#ramblings!#i dont actually know if i'll use it really... i already post enough of my opinions unfiltered and if someone got bugged by it#i assume ppl would just unfollow so idk#well anyways it's a safeguard resource#btw hi new people if you're here from x.iaoyu.n post welcome welcome im kissing you platonically on the hand.#if you're here from randomly popular bedo fur.ina sca.ra post im sorry to disappoint i do not think about them very much#but enjoy your stay regardless
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I need to watch a more playthroughs of St//ay Out Of The Ho//use bc I want to see my boyfriend. Oh and the story too. But also I want to see my giant sweetheart.
#🌽; i'll tell you my sins#lip bite emoji#yearning post#like......god i love him so much#quickly climbing the ranks into 'comfort f/o' and tbh that's so good#he is such a comfort he sparks joy i love him#sure he's a little fucked up but that's okay <3#also why do i keep falling for characters that have no canon name and end up giving them one.#like first it was Simon. then Sal. then Cian. then Nate. then Anne. and colt. and after that? soren.#idk i like 'em nameless and i like 'em handsome and a little pathetic!#well. cian isn't pathetic he's just a guy.#sorry for rambling about that suddenly#anyway back to colt-#i think he's like 6'8 and shfsghhsjhgs#also his ARMs.#i should be HELD IN THEM RN#FUCK#anyway i'm going to sleep i think i'm going insane.#also it's six in the morning. and i need sleep. good morning.
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