#idk i think tumblr ruined the quality of these

[cruelsmmr]

xxx ♪♫

[kokotete0]

i don't know what to think about this

[kamileonik]

life update?

[edraculation]

good morning tumblr. fungus images

[navenslowpoke]

Okay, I thought about the fantasy AU based on Lorelai's Dreamworld (I think that's what they called it in the book? I already forgot idk)

Tumblr probably ruined the picture quality so...

[jrueships]

Biggest squicks with the nba fandom?

squick?? AW, that's a cute word!!!! im stealing that now, thank u anon! for squicks in the fanfom.. hm um probs colorism towards dark skins & its unseen seen effects . i feel this way toward Fandom in general and life lol. U'll see it everywhere of course.. huzzah..

anyways yea. i feel like the nba should have a way bigger Fandom on here as a sport, i mean. At least bigger than some. The players don't wear a helmet so u can see their emotions, their expressions! Everyone's taking high quality pics up close! The ball isn't the size of a pebble going 50 mph like in hockey lol. There's no helmets!!! U can see them!! Like! I love it! I love seeing faces! I love football but it's the celebrations that rlly make it, esp when it's a pretty wr who u just know is gonna take his helmet off and do smthing funny for the cam!

But that's also probably why it doesn't have a big tumblr Fandom .. u can see their faces .

Even if u couldn't, u'd eventually see most of them aren't white so. Yea .

And abt the colorism aspect, most of the players that do have a big Fandom are light skin. That's why im not the biggest fan for 'all x positions are x' bcs i feel like that's a big thing in football where all qbs are bttms. Which is funny, and i can see it! Im not trying to ruin ppls fun! But when u see how a majority of qbs are usually white for most of history.. and the ones that aren't get some attention if they look like Tua .. but if they look like lamar jackson.. good f'ing luck trying to find bttm fics for that even tho dude's got a bbl . Even tho i believe in switch supremacy for a lot of ppl (lamar included), i feel like i gotta fight for more ppl like lamar even being able to bttm at all.

Meanwhile ppl like luka or Joey b are just automatically always bttms bcs. Yea. They're 'pretty', so u just gotta apparently. But ppl will say jrue holiday is pretty! But does he have any fics at all of him bttming? Nah. Don't gotta for him. Hm. Wonder why ( I know) .

And with the rise of biracial nepo baby kids in the nba, some of them rlly gravitate to the pg position bcs it's like the head of the machine, and they think they can run that well with all the experience of their pops. So all pgs being bttms are kinda just gonna turn into that qb scenario where it's all light/white pgs are bttms and the other guys can be included thru spoken word sometimes but Def not on paper. And I hate saying this bcs i feel like a Debby downer or smthing. I'm not even trying to call out anyone or anything, it's rlly just a personal vent noticing thing that i can't point out specifics to, i can just say I've felt things.

Ppl go into Fandom to have fun! I'm not trying to police shit. This is all personal venting. But like im here to have fun too, and when u happen to be able to notice more stuff, u kinda just. Notice it. And it doesn't feel fun

And I'm not saying they're totally ignored, dark skin ppl in media. We're def modernizing somewhat . But when dark skin ppl usually ARE included, it HAS to involve a lighter sided person. And it's usually the lighter person bttming and the dark topping. And like i can get it, u know. Sometimes it's just the personality dynamic where the appearance happens to have that! But sometimes the appearance seems to overwhelm the personality aspect, or the personality just isn't showing that strength in the fic and it starts to feel. Weird.

I'm not saying all ships where the lighter one bttms are bad tho. I'm not. But I am saying that it fucking sucks to always have to fight hard against 'absolutes' when the absolutes are always against u . Like. Idk. When i had a luka ship with dennis (a black player whos not lightskin) and mentioned how Dennis was a bttm and all a sudden i got an ask abt how luka can't be a top . Like. Alright man.

U know, cus it's like. U'd never get someone defending idk. Jaren like that. Unless ure me Lol. But that's the thing, like it always has to be me or smthing against the world which is fucking stupid bcs i hate that thinking. It's so selfish! Which makes it less fun to be in the Fandom sometimes bcs it feels even more isolated in an already isolated space sometimes. But that's a personal thing. Anyways

Yeah. It's just tiring sometimes.

It's like the only ships that have white/black player where the white guy is a top.. the black guys GOTTA be a power bttm or SMTHING to explain it like. We have to explain why our beloved princess white guy isn't bttming to idk some black dude lol. But if u reverse that then the white guy bttm doesn't have to be a power bttm bcs no one blinks an eye bcs it already makes sense to them or whatever. Lol.

Lol ..

[cypherspades]

Skinner body headcanons? (Weight, height, scars, face etc)

Yes I do! (Sorry for late reply btw) // I hc he has a scar on his forehead and covers it with some of his hair. Sorry for cutting off some of his limbs :3 I got lazy (○^_^○)

(Ó U Ò) d // I'm not sure about his weight but i think he would beee... 179 pounds? Muscle adds to weight I think // And i think hes like canonically 5 foot 8!// idk how to draw so sorry if it looks like I drew with my left asscheek (^U^)d // Sorry if I drew scars or anything wrong I'm still learning how to draw (;` N ';) // Him <33

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(This drawing and writing are rushed and I got lazy to draw everything else..)

TUMBLR RUINED THE QUALITY 😭

[starrvlight]

Lesbian tylenol/tylo stargazing? 👉👈 (this sounds like nonsense without context 😭)

I DID OT BUT IM SORRY ITS WEIRD I RUSHED IT? AND IM KINDA BETTER WITH DIGITAL ART I KINDA THINK BUT TUMBLR RUINED THE QUALITY:( I ALEO EDITED THE LIGHT STUFF (IDK WHAT ITS CALLED) WITH LIGHTROOM :D TRY OT ITS A GOOD APP

[oregano-gremlin]

okay time to over psychoanalyze sbahj

i've seen people talking about this one before, but i find it pretty interesting. 'i feel down the stairs' is a stereotypical excuse used by domestic violence victims, and hussie has stated that he considered dave's living situation domestic violence. i think the 'it keeps happening' adds to that idea.

(tumblr ruined the quality on this one, the image should work as a link to the comic's official page so you can see it there).

to me, it seems like this is (at least in the beginning) a reference to dave's rivalry with bro, with dave being hella jeff (the guy in the blue) and bro being the big man. hella jeff (/dave) starts out as the star of his own dream, then the big man (/bro) comes for a 'one on one', in the case of sbahj referring to basketball but in the case of dave's real life probably referring to strifes. the big man absolutely destroys jeff, there's no chance of jeff winning in this situation (similar to how dave never won strifes against bro). however, even then he is looking up to the big man, and is more impressed by his skill than anything.

idk man is this anything lol

[sweetmariihs2]

I'm making a whole new list for extra cedric content, and at the moment i'm not saving it in my tumblr drafts because tumblr deleted my posts two times 😭👍

I've heard that tumblr has a link limit per blog, and I don't wanna make a part one, part two, part three...

At the moment everything is written in my notes app, with all the links and all. I'm wondering if I should post them without really "adding" the links, only writing them like if they were paragraphs, and if you wanna see the content you should copy and paste them on google. Idk anymore i'm to scared to ruin my post like i did last time 😭

It's so big, like... 13 pages. Who writes a full post only with links to Cedric artworks and merch?

Me, I do

Also the emojis are where I'm gonna upload images instead of adding a link, because I lost their source when I lost my post lol

Every time I think I finished I just discover more stuff. I'm not complaining though ;)

When you reblog a post, that post remains in the version it was in when it was reblogged. If there are updates or edits, those changes don't appear on the reblogger's profile because they weren't on that version, so I'm trying to make sure I can find everything before posting. But every time I think I've found everything, I find more!

Again if you guys know anywhere when I can find more stuff, pls tell me ;)

The content of the magazines is the hardest one to find. I know that we have Cedric in more magazines than just the ones he's in the cover. Found some loose images from parts of comics he's in and some activities and artworks, but never the full images or high quality ones.

[lunariamv]

its time, im in my charon era

ive made my first three rpg horror games :DDD

there's three because two of them are parodies and then there's one actual legit one

all three are in authentic charon game format: rpg maker 2000, similar art style, similar horror premise, short story

i did it for the aesthetic OKAY

⚠️ Before venturing into any of my works, please heed my disclaimer/rules;; I don't want obstructive people engaging with me or my works ⚠️

✿ warning: running these games is a gamble because rpg maker 2000 is old software that windows is trying to assassinate (i cant even run it on my computer sometimes, i have to use a virtual machine or the game editor lol) so i apologize if it doesn't work ✿

the readme has troubleshooting solutions, and easyrpg exists to combat this, but it's not perfect. for example, it changes the text a little bit, which ruins the aesthetic

if ur like me and u care about the aesthetic a lot, then use a virtual machine, otherwise if you have a laptop and not a hardcore gaming pc, the game will probably run fine.

(the one time that having low quality graphics is good xD)

windows 11 users beware, im sticking with 10-

when all else fails i have gameplays available on my youtube

🌸 HERE IS THE GAME MASTERLIST 🌸 PLAY THEM HERE

✿ warning: running these games is a gamble because rpg maker 2000 is old software that windows is trying to assassinate (i cant even run it on my computer sometimes, i have to use a virtual machine or the game editor lol) so i apologize if it doesn't work ✿

!! please care and heed my content warnings when playing these games, as they contain dark subject matter; i promise ill make less edgy stuff in the future its just rn i REALLY WANNA MAKE CHARON GAMES FOR FUN !!

the first two (Akeno Delusion and Carousel) are strictly parody games on the genre, and Doom Stones is the authentic 100% serious charon game

looking back akeno delusion sucks to me but thats cuz its my first one and i gotta start somewhere, the quality only goes up from there

eventually ill stop using rpg maker 2000 and make games with the other makers for more versatility but rn im in love with the retro aesthetic im so sorry

*my art isnt that good but im getting there ok!!

also just a heads up, im not 1 to 1 charon; the aesthetic, artstyle, and story elements are the same, but i dabble in male yanderes instead and i go different places with the story;

🌸 mostly male yans

🌸 protagonist is actually a character

🌸 story goes a little more in depth

🌸 more focus on the horror aspect than sexual

so basically im like a female charon right now heheheh

i plan to make more rpg games, but for sure i want to make at least three more games with similar story beats.

its because i want my own take on the concepts -- doom stones is my take on makoto mobius, but i also wanna make a "scavenger hunt a person's house" type game like makoto nikki and a yanderella equivalent (but the love triangle has more drama)

AND…. MIX ORE BUT YANDERE BUBBLE TEA??????? :DDDD

once im done ill move onto dsp era cuz i wanna make some actual rpgs; like with the cute assets and pixel art

🌸 please follow and support me if you like these and want me to make more; this is just a small portion in the large list of games i wanna make <3

💮 please feel free to contact me regarding game ratings if you sincerely think they're off, im a noob when it comes to posting stuff;; and im just going off code of conduct, if it has any hint of explicit content its going to be 18+, whereas implicit would be like 17+ idk

im not taking any chances lol

🌸 I'd prefer if people don't contact me about troubleshooting problems, but if they have to, carefully go through my instructions first. even then keep in mind i might not be able to help;;

💮 I'm posting these games on tumblr only because they're short. If I make longer games, I'll crosspost them to itch.io or something.

🌸 I'll also make a website in the future, but for now I'll post the games on here. Thank you for stopping by!!

[savebatsartedition]

Scratchcraft fanart again!!! (Much higher quality on Scratch.)

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A LOT more notes under the cut!

Scratch link: https://scratch.mit.edu/projects/891267487/

Youtube notes:

(PLEASE READ DESCRIPTION.) Here is my "artistic" version of pressing space through my fanart dump. Whoop dee doo. Enjoy I think. 

Idk why, but this recording RUINED the quality of the art. They look better in scratch bitmap if you can believe if. (My #scratchcraft tag on my tumblr art blog is another, possibly higher quality, place to look for this art as well.) 

Guys I PROMISE it's totally not blood. :3 

Instructions:  Right arrow, space or click to go forward, left arrow to go back. Do NOT steal my art! It's been too long! XD 

Drawings:  1: Storm and sand 2: Voidway fighting Tall from the Season 3 Finale 3: Carsick and the dragon puke fiasco (Ft. Spector and Hunted laughing at him.) 4. Storm killing Shulkers. :3 (He actually specifically asked me to make this one!) 5. Storm and his new house. :3 (I'm Storm's thumbnail person now, apparently.) 6. Storm flying through the cliffs 7. Storm flying through the cliffs (Alt) 8. Waterfall 9. Goodbye Huntedskelly! 10. Storm going shopping yippie! 11. Storm shopping with less effects. 12 - 13. Saltyy dragon au (I think I posted these before, but not with good photos lol) 14 - 15. Hunted dragon au (Same with the second of these) 16. Mallon dragon au (this one too) 17. Inkamar dragon au 18. Alexstudios dragon au 19. Carsick dragon au 20. Just a regular Huntedskelly :) 21 - 27. trying to work out Inkamar's design. 28 - 20. Foxlife37 (and the Cod God in the first one) 31. Waveii 32. Stormlordzeus 33. Magic_02 34. Mallonations 35. PotatoAnimator 36. Saltyy 37. Storm and the blue axolotl 38. Storm vs the Creamy Lama Pokemon battle 39. Just the Creamy Lama 40. Just Storm 41. Voidway and Saltical at the world meeting table from the first Hetalia episode. (None of the art on this slide is mine. I just edited it.) 42. Storm vs Warden 43. Storm vs Panda (lol) (Also it's the thumbnail of this project, ignore the text.) 44. Just Storm from that last one. 45. Storm with sand to celebrate his return. 46. A watercolor thing of Storm from a WHILE ago. 47. Another random Storm. 48. Mallonations 'cus he found another account of mine on a different website. [For the record, it was this one] 49. An old comparison of my two Kenpoviper designs. 50. A REALLY old drawing of Hunted I just don't think I've posted on Scratch. 51. Voidway to a song because he requested it lol 52. Kenpoviper for an expression challenge. 53. Huntedskelly for an expression challenge. 54. A warning thingy 55. Voidway for an expression challenge. 56-58: Voidway design details 59-67: Huntedskelly drawings I doodled in math. :3

30-36 was me asking my sisters to give me random scratchcrafters to draw. :) Fun! 

Feel free to ask in the comments lol. 

Notes and Credits: @savebatsfromscratch (me) for the art and designs. All creators are credited above in the list of drawings. Song: Unfounded Revenge Smashing Song of Praise - Super Smash Bros Version Hetalia for that one background lol. 

Programs/art materials used in the various drawings:   1.Scratch bitmap (Almost all digital artworks are entirely done with Scratch bitmap.)   2. Paper and pen (Literally, clearly these are not scratch bitmap.)   3. Some crayons in some cases.   4. A tiny bit of mspaint for editing some of them.   5. A tiny bit of scratch vector for the same reason.   6. A thing to stretch out the sides of the scratch thing for the last one. (Still bitmap though.)     7. Watercolor on that one of Storm kneeling on the ground from like three years ago??   8. DA Muro for the expression challenge ones.

[sillystardew]

Harvey falling in love with his best friend

This was requested by anon, idk how I managed to delete every ask that was in my ask box at the time but here we are, I guess I just have a talent for being horrible at using tumblr :)

I support any and all Harvey prompts, this man needs more LOVE.

-Okay, first thing’s first, this can go one of two ways:

He is completely oblivious until the very last moment

He is WAY TOO AWARE OF HIS CRUSH AT ALL MOMENTS OF THE DAY

-He crushes, and he crushes hard

-The second he realizes he’s falling in love, it’s a complete internal panic

-For one, you’re his closest friend, and he doesn’t want to ruin the connection you have! Plus it would be so complicated with him being your doctor, he doesn’t want to make you uncomfortable or make you avoid him

-He gets surprisingly brooding about it sometimes, he is NOT built for pining. He can handle it when it’s a stranger, sure, but being hyper-aware of how IN LOVE he is whenever you’re around has him constantly flustered

-The littlest things get him all sappy. You bring him coffee one morning and he thinks about it until the moment he goes to sleep (and a few days after…)

-I’m sorry, but you’re going to have to make to first move. Normally he’s a very perceptive person, but he is blind to any and all flirting/affection directed towards him unless you make it PAINFULLY obvious

-He gets all stuttery and blushy around you and he hates it

-If you wait long enough he might just accidentally blurt an “I love you” and panic so hard he has to leave the room

-save him.

-He doesn’t realize it, but he starts accidentally avoiding you

-he will feel soooo bad if you bring it up, and will try to put more effort into spending the same amount of quality time together as you used to, but obviously that isn’t helping his situation

-He gets so awkward about it sometimes. The simplest things like small talk have turned into stumbling nightmares of conversations

-If you ever do confess, his body does a full reset.

“Uh, Harvey??”

“Yh- w- huh-???”

“You’ve been silent for two minutes.”

-anyway…

[sokkastyles]

With this new comic coming out though, and the Avatar Studios thing, do you think Azula will actually be redeemed? It'll be a bit ambitious to juggle an arc across three separate pieces of media. And also considering that her crimes were more, hm, personal than other characters', the way they handle her relationships to people like Zuko, Mai and Ty Lee will have to be complicated as well. Considering the people who actually wrote her arc might not be involved in the project anymore, and the dip in the quality of the writing for this series, I have to wonder if they might be better of just leaving her as is, a tragic character who demonstrates how abuse can ruin you and turn you into an abuser yourself. I just don't want her to be redeemed, not because I think she is incapable of it or doesn't deserve to heal, it's because it won't be done well, and it really does not serve much purpose. We got one redemption arc, we don't need a cheap copypaste or an inferior one (which is what this will be). I feel like the creators are just trying to squeeze more out of this popular series since the boom when it came on Netflix. But idk lol.

Yeah, the comics aren't interested in actually developing the characters, nor do I expect these movies to. That's why all the post-series materials just have the characters treading water and rehashing old storylines. They're meant to be episodic content, so although they may flirt with Azula's redemption, the status quo won't really change. Especially if Azula features in the movies at all, the writers can't rely on the audience knowing about character development that only occurs in a post-series comic.

And we know Aaron Ehasz isn't going to be involved, but I have my doubts about whether that twitter thread he wrote was actually his intended trajectory for Azula, because you are right about her narrative function. She is mostly a foil for Zuko, and while giving her a redemption isn't impossible, it was not her intended function as a character.

And, honestly, it disturbs me how many people say it's unrealistic that Azula never heals or becomes a nicer person. I know tumblr is allergic to understanding that the world isn't sunshine and rainbows all the time, but it belittles what the show is saying about the real harm that abuse does to people to pretend the only stories worth telling about abuse are ones where everyone turns out better in the end. Sometimes people don't. Sometimes people break, and that's sad, but those stories are necessary to tell, as cautionary tales if nothing else. It's not hard to see the link between fans who insist that Azula's redemption is the only story worth telling about her, and fans who have no patience for Zuko when even after his redemption, he is still an abused kid who carries scars both physical and emotional and acts like one.

[yibo-wang]

Summary of what happened at the Hidden Blade Guangzhou RoadShow.

I have been away from my phone all day today so I only found out about what happened a few hours ago. I don't like bringing weibo/twitter drama to tumblr but everything that's been happening made me really angry.

It was expected that the antis would definitely try and ruin it as much as could cause they've done that every single time something important happened in yibo's career. But to think they would sink as low and involve big directors and actors for their petty and selfish acts is a new low even for them.

While yesterday was Hidden Blades first release in cinemas, it did exceedingly well for a film that's undoubtedly different from the usual spring festival movie genres. The GP and fans both had positive reviews about the movie and Yibo's acting.

As far as I know the hateful words and reviews against Yibo have been increasing. Antis who weren't even in China were sending reviews that they hated the movie etc when the movie hasn't even been released anywhere else? Give me a break. (Below antis leaving reviews but their location is from out of China)

They're trying to suppress the positive response from the public on weibo, saying hurtful things towards the movie, director and actors. It's really disgusting.

You see Cheng Er and the rest of the cast and crew and anyone Yibo has worked with before know how sincere and dedicated he is to his work. For Hidden Blade especially they've praised his acting, his professional behaviour and it's not just one person it's the director, it's Tony Leung himself, it's Wang Chuajun, Da Peng and so many others.

It's actually breaking my heart when I saw the videos from today because why do they forget he's also a human being? That's he's only 25 years old?

Idk what image everyone has of Yibo in their mind but to me he's really very innocent at heart. Never in my years of watching him have I seen him have malice or hatred against anyone.

At the Roadshow today, despite everything that was happening he was really very thankful towards everyone who came, especially to the audience who came to watch the movie more than once because they loved watching it the first time and enjoyed the details.

One encounter today that really moved me was between him and a fan who was sharing her experience of watching the movie.

Translation: I would like to add one more thing. I was asked to convey this message from our group. Though we are Yibo's fans, after watching Hidden Blade, we turned from his fans to his movie fans. Thank you for being a good actor. We wish hidden blade success.

Yibo was really holding back tears 🥺

Cheng Er talked about how he really appreciates the sincerity the audience who watched the movie showed towards the film and how much he appreciates Yibo as an actor.

You see this is probably the first time Cheng Er had to experience such disturbing behaviour towards his film. Yes he's a grown man with years of experience with him but this is not negative reviews because people didn't like the film. This is because of their hatred for Yibo. And Cheng Er knows all of this cause repeatedly he has spoken or either posted against whatever lies the antis have spewed against the film and Yibo.

Cheng er: As all of you are audiences who really watched Hidden Blade, I believe our efforts including yibo’s will live up to your expectations. He has worked really hard —his image & expression in his eyes. I'm very thankful to such an excellent actor. I only dare to say this because all of you have watched the movie. I don’t dare to praise him recently because… [Audience asking that he should praise Yibo more] so I hope people who really watched the movie can sincerely spread the true situation and quality of our movie (link to video)

Once again despite everything, Yibo isn't forcing anyone to like him. All he asks is to be sincere in their remarks about it cause the movie isn't just him. These blackened tags and reviews affect all the people who have worked day and night for Hidden Blade to come to life. He accepts the criticism if it's genuinely because of his acting but not if it's just because their hatred for him.

Yibo: Like what the director and that audience said, a movie can create a lot of thoughts but you still need to continue with your life. For Hidden Blade, I hope we can exchange sincerity with sincerity. We made this movie with our heart, so we sincerely hope that people will like the movie. I also hope that audiences can sincerely appreciate the movie. Of course, you can also not like like the movie after watching it, there’s no problem. [Fans: we like it!] Exchange sincerity with sincerity. Thank you.

I do want to say that despite the antis efforts for the smear campaign, the passerby comments and almost all of the general public had a good experience while watching the movie and relayed good reviews. (Some of them down below + Link to one of the film critics review)

The thing is I'm really happy with how the GP is talking about HB. Infact Yibo was very happy during the other times in the roadshow. He kept smiling, talked so animatedly and with enthusiasm it was delightful to see him that way. But what bothered me most about the whole thing is that this situation was big enough for Yibo (who doesn't let useless remarks affect him) and Cheng Er to be bothered by it.

[tumblasha]

vacation review: taiwan

overall rating: ★★★★/5

cities visited (chronologically): taipei, taichung, kaohsiung, taitung

the good parts

i got to see Moomf (micosu oomf)

i got over the "i can't visit a country if i don't know the language" feeling

nature everywhere

night markets were so fun!

at least half of the population wears a mask at all times (even outside of taipei where the air quality is nicer!)

every train station + tourist spot had a stamp area so now i have a lil booklet filled with taiwanese stamps :,)

food! especially boba and soups :DD -so much liquid.

traveling on the back of a scooter is so mind-numbing, i love being a passenger princess

the bad parts

taipei's air pollution is a lil sad but def not the worst

getting over the jetlag and post-vacation sadness T_T

they killed that duck that i saw in that one tumblr post

overall summary

i think that taiwan is an excellent place for people of all places to visit! especially if you know english, everyone is really nice to english-speakers and makes an effort to gesture-speak or google translate through every conversation

this may be insensitive, but i think that the "made in taipei" brand (country pride of having many ~cultural influences) really works for tourism. previously, i saw friends and co-workers take their japan trip and do all the kawaii things (sanrio store, snoopy cafe, studio ghibli museum, etc), and got sad. taichung really embraces manga, anime, and other kawaii-adjacent things, and it satisfied my desire to go to japan. i've been having a hard time with co-existing with appreciating the good side of japan (mostly art and media) and learning abt the bad sides (colonial history), so it was nice being able to get a positive experience with low "double-think"

on post-vacation sadness

idk why but this was the first time that i came back from a vacation and i was Sad. like, maybe it's bc i got my period mid-trip and it was some weird post-period hormonal thing?? but i doubt it

looking back, i think that i have never truly been Alone until this trip? when i solo traveled in sp+pt, i was able to talk to the people in the hostel and go out with them. i wasn't able to talk to anybody bc a majority of the tourists spoke either mandarin or japanese, and idk either of those languages. i think that i was alone with my thoughts for too long -> leading to being on my phone too much -> leading to random bursts of crying (?) that lasted through a week after coming back to the US. it was bad enough that i took off all my jewelry and almost cut my hair X|

also any instagram posts that mentions taiwan / east asia kinda ruins my whole day. i wanna go backkkkkk

lessons learned

it's okay to be lost emotionally and physically! being alone is a constant battle of self-love and The Void

i need more international friends bc visiting them in their free time + their country of residence in their work time is so fun

i need to take more pictures of myself! i think somewhere in this trip i convinced myself to download dating apps again and i have no good pics. i also can't post a "taiwan photodump" on insta :(

tl;dr: go to taiwan! but go with friends!!