#idk i think if i could've gone to a concert where they did that my spirit would have just straight up ascended from my body XD

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tbh we could've probably gone to Germany to see AC/DC and it would've been way cheaper 😭

but we're also kind of tied on what dates we can all attend and while we knew they weren't gonna come to us and prepared for that we were also lucky that we got in before they upped the prices bc there's no way we could've gone otherwise

idk how much ac/dc tickets were exactly but knowing croke park oof... i went before many moons ago for matches and also for akumakon (anime convention) so i have no idea what the stadium is like now, ireland isn't cheap and cost of living doesn't accurately reflect people's living standards here. i went to a match with my family in pisa last year and i was amazed if not bamboozled over how much drinks and the tickets were it was pretty much a fraction of what you'd pay in ireland

im ngl i'd love to do the whole travelling to another country to see a concert thing, the only time i ever really did that was when i saw noel fielding in edinburgh at 16 idk there's something nice about it. only thing is you have to take everything else into consideration like how to get to the venue and where to stay, especially if you've never been to the area before. it probably helps if you're bringing someone with you that also shows interest since you have to plan out pretty much everything before and after the concert... think of all the cool bands one could see since a lot of them don't step foot in oyreland

[khodorkovskaya]

23.08.23

aïe aïe aïe i posted a recap of the altin gun concert but the tumblr app just like didn't post it and now it's gone, great!

but anyway, yeah, if it works this time the video will appear here:

so yeah there were soooo many people. here is a pic my parents took and another one from nik's story:

i managed to squeeze myself through the crowd and get to the first row ofc. and i went through so many emotions... when they played this i cried. and at the end i screamed MARRY ME at merve at the top of my lungs, i hope she heard me lol. she's soooo hot oh my...

the only downside is that i didnt see many real fans at the concert. most people just stood there or worse were talking. meanwhile i jumper up and down and danced like crazy and screamed the lyrics in turkish lol. did i annoy a lot of people? probably. but i wasn't just gonna stand there while my favourite band was playing. the emotions i felt you guys...

my oxford bestie and i wanted to go to sarajevo to see lepa brena live at the zetra arena in april but now im scared because i feel like if i see her live i will just die like i will go into cardiac arrest.

so yeah, so many emotions!

other than that panda and i went to this event yesterday and i didn't network with anyone, i just ate. a lot. the buffet was so good you guys. but i legit couldnt move afterwards. it was too much.

and today i was at the library as always and i saw this girl i knew in college. and it like disturbed me idk.

so a bit of a back story, i bumped into another girl i went to college with on the street the other day. and i remember i really wanted to be friends with her but she like never reciprocated and idk why. we would talk at break time, we texted a bit, we went to germany for an exchange together, she came to my house for a party once. like we got along fine and i really wanted to get to know her bc idk she was just cool. but every time id ask her to hang out she'd just say "yeah yeah" and it never went any further. and then i got a bit frustrated and stopped initiating things and she stopped talking to me all together bc it was always me who'd make the first move.

then she stopped going to school and to be frank with you i hadn't noticed. i thought she just missed a couple of classes because we only had one class together that year and i didn't see her much anyway. but then after graduation i bumped into her on the tram and she said that she had fallen ill and had to drop out. and i felt horrible. because i was selfish thinking that she didn't like me, but she was at the hospital and i hadn't even noticed or sent a "how are you" text. i felt super guilty.

and ever since then idk, id always thought about her as like "the one who got away" in a way, you know what i mean? because i feel like we could've been great friends but she didn't like me as much as i liked her and plus she had fallen ill and things happened and i never got the chance to like become her friend. like i remember every time we'd find ourselves like alone at breaktime or on that trip to germany and we'd have these great conversations, but then things would get in the way and it always felt like we never had enough time. at least on my end. idk.

and ive bumped into her on the street god knows how many times. i haven't seen people i was actually close with in college as much as ive seen her! and every time im like "let's get coffee" and she just goes "uh-huh" and that's it. and then i bump into her again and im like god damn it, i missed my chance again! and this has been going on for literal years. things like this really make me think that im autistic

so i bumped into her again this week!

and today i saw her from across the hall talking to another girl from high school! and this is where it gets weird.

so this other girl who was with her, i remember her quite well! we were always partners in chemistry class and we did a project about nitsche for philosophy class and i think we had french together too, did we? and i remember she had a dog and liked anime. and i remembered all those things about her. and i literally haven't thought about her in yearssss! ...and i couldn't remember her name.

i was like shit. okay. chemistry class. nietzsche. dog. anime. what's her name damn it????? i couldn't remember it.

and it made me feel weird. because in order to try and remember her name i started to like dig up all those memories from college. and the more i thought about it the weirder it got. bc on one hand im like huh 2018 wasn't so long ago was it? but then i remember ahhhh chemistry class ahhhh p.e. ahhh being a teenager. it all seems so surreal. and i don't remember any of it clearly. it's all in this like weird fog.

and it sucks because i feel like since i was permanently in this "foggy" state in high school it like stunted my growth. because i missed out on so many normal teenage experiences that i can't catch up on now. like instead of having a normal relationship, i had umm my 30 yr old ex. instead of going to normal teenage parties i went to germany with a 50 year old drug addict. and i was so in my head... like. i really wasn't present. and while everyone else made lifelong friends i was just. not present.

and like it's not a big deal. at least i had the parties and the drugs and the boyfriend, right? i wasn't a loner, i wasn't bullied, i was fine. but it just like... frustrated me. that like. the "girl who got away" got a girlfriend, while i was hanging out with my 30 yr old. and she's in touch with my other former friend from highschool. meanwhile i was too busy to maintain friendships bc i was hanging out with my 30 yr old. it's all very frustrating bc i can't get that time back. i can't catch up on everything ive missed out on. and now im this friendless loser who can't remember anyone's name.

[bowieisworried]

weird sleep schedule gang wassuppp lmao

In retrospect with how messy my list of groups i like is now, it's very funny how Peaceful my first two years as a kpop stan were. It was basically just me, bts and stray kids chilling. No wonder i can't keep up with anything today i know too many groups hhffh

There's no way tbz knew they were gonna be on a second season, otherwise they probably wouldn't have gone ALL OUT the way they did. I hope... ^^'

Exo and their lineup changes... me as an outsider i have no idea what's going on tbh. But exo was one of the first kpop groups i was really ionterested in back in 2013/14 and i looked up their wikipedia article - as you do - and then there was this whole thing about the different exo subgroups and stuff and i exited the tab and never tried getting into kpop again until a friend made me dghsdghgh. I'm actually laughing right now remembering that it's to stupid i could've been into kpop for so long but all it took were the phrases Exo-K Exo-C and Exo-L to make me give up xDDDD

I have this thing with a few groups now where i love all their music and have all the reasons to learn more about them but i just listen to them, watch some content and only know two or three members. And that's fine i don't have the energy for more rn but also some groups i rlly Wanna get more into like Victon and Ace but rn is not the time i guess

If you have any recs for videos i could show my friend, i'll gladly take them. She said she just wants to start with their music and performances so maybe some of your favourite stages? idk

I like your second hand policy hah but i can't scroll past a whole album for 3€ just bc there's no pcs. BUT SAME the whole "pcs are more valuable than the rest of the album so i'll sell each for 10€ and the album itself for 5€" makes me... so angry

The BM theatre version has me so confused bc normally i'm a sucker for special versions/editions but this one has like.. Less stuff than the other versions overall and i think less photobook pages too? so i probably won't get that one either.

The only group i've ever collected all album versions of is stray kids and they always had 2-3 versions but i stopped after 2019 i think so i have a lot to catch up on now that i've decided i want to collect them again hhh

I exchanged my cd player with my dad's dvd player that i cracked so i can watch korean concert dvds lmao but i guess that doesn't make a difference.

I used to collect books i never got around to reading so i guess kpop albums just make more sense for me. No words just pictures and sounds :D

It's so hard getting old shinee albums right??? Oh i see you also have the bad love space ray ver. Please tell me have you opened it? mine is still unopened on my shelf bc the collector in me screams when i think about cutting it out of there ahhhh

(but i just remembered i ordered the box set ver too so at least i'll be able to listen to the cd soon)

I would love to see your pulls and other albums!

Aren't yOU SUPPOSED TO BE MY SECRET SANTA; NOT THE OTHER WAY AROUND?? hsdfjhsdjfh but if you want an excuse i'd love some leedo & seoho interactions bc i'm basic

oh or seoho in the heartbeat cover stage! i just rewatched that and he looks so fluffy uwu

have a nice day 💖

~ santa (or honorary advent calendar)

Answer under the cut cos it's a long one xD

Jesus two years with just BTS and Stray Kids? I applaud your self control, I’ve been here for less than a year and I’ve already got a bias list as long as my arm and far too many groups lol! I’m curious though, who’s your Skz bias? (or biases hehe)

Honestly I have no idea with Exo either. The most I’ve gathered is that all but one of the Chinese members left (or were pushed out by SM, who knows), although Lay isn’t really there either right now. Probably locked in a cupboard somewhere in one of SM’s basements xD There are so many units though, it’s mad so I don’t blame you!

Yeah, that’s the thing, it’s music first and foremost so really who cares if you don’t get super into the other content and knowing about the members and everything. Victon and Ace though... I adore both of them, so if you ever want to know more just hit me up. All I have with them is pain right now though because both my Victon and Ace biases recently enlisted.

Ooh, you could maybe recommend their MAMA stage where they performed Lit after a wee medley of other stuff (including Sherlock :D) or just any of their Stage Break series with 1theK, they’re all phenomenal!

Ok yeah, if I came across an album for 3 euro then I’d definitely pick it up, photocards or not lol. I might have to break my rule on not buying albums without them soon though... I’m dangerously close to having all of Taemin’s stuff but one that I still need to get is Ace. Which, without a pc is still about 40 quid or something ridiculous. So unless I get really lucky with finding it cheap somewhere, I might have to just bite the bullet lol.

The Theatre version is odd. The theatre stuff was really cool, and it’d be neat to have a photobook with the different stylings they had for the videos but like you said, it’s a smaller photobook and the whole thing just seems a bit... light on content?

Oh jeeze, you’d have an awful lot to catch up on I imagine, especially with all the stuff they released recently. I don’t think they’d stopped for even a minute xD

That sounds like a good swap to be fair, gotta have those concert DVD’s haha

Ugh I know that feeling. You always see a new book somewhere and buy it with the best of intentions but then it just ends up being a shelf decoration.

Yeah, old Shinee albums are a pain in the backside. I do, it’s so neat! I opened it the day I got it, using a very sharp knife. VERY SHARP. Thankfully it went well and I’ve kept the plastic covering and the backing so it basically looks unopened when it’s on the shelf. Ooh, do you mean the one that looks like a cereal box? I got that one as well, you’ll absolutely love it. Genuinely the best marketing/production/whatever I’ve seen for albums so far, Key’s an absolute gem.

Hehe, cool, I’ll maybe put a wee post together with all my pulls. Would be good to have them all in one place anyway so I can check them quickly if I have to.

Ok, yes, but still! I’m going to be without internet (mostly) for about 3 days until I get it installed at my new place so it’ll definitely give me something to do. Good picks by the way, I shall see what I can do :D

Hopefully your day was an easy one and tomorrow’s the same!