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Just thinking about it, but it's kinda weird how your dead spouse is kinda just glossed over when it comes to the fo4 romances, besides Preston (iirc)
like my partner just died like 4 days ago but let me just romance this guy I just met, as far as I know, Preston is the only companion to actually address this in his romance. Like its just a weird writing choice to me, not to mention that the spouse gets like 2.5 seconds of screentime and gets only a few mentions during the main quest.
#am i making any sense?#idk how to quite articulate it#like I feel like that should've had a much bigger impact on the romances and sole survivor in general#but it just kinda seems#brushed to the side#“oh no! anyway!”#i feel like the spouse could've been integrated much better#like maybe you could've had a choice of background for fo4 and the spouse is one of those options#and that'd have some special lines of dialogue during the mq and any characters you romance#and then it'd make more sense RPG wise to be able to romance the companions without feeling weird for moving on from your dead spouse#2 seconds after they've died#or maybe have the spouse not die at all#maybe they're just injured and just wake up from cryo much later#and they find out you think they've died and moved on#there could've been like an interesting lil story there#iirc i don't even think sole mentions it outside preston/piper when it comes to romances#ik you can bring it up with knight rhys but not danse??#i should remember i literally just romanced him like 5/6 months ago lmao#also im really tired so im probably not articulating this as best as i could lol
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content warning: blood
Loyal to a fault
bonus + other versions:
Bonus:
Alt:
the words on Ghost's body reads:
LOVE (level of violence)
it takes a monster to destroy a monster (poorly cropped i apologize)
Loyal Dog
Vēnor (Latin verb for hunt, chase)
this is something very different to what I usually do I hope yall don't mind....also this was me when I was sharing this with my friends...because priceghost/ghostprice dynamic really gets a grip on me
#im gonna be honest when I first drew this months ago I didnt intend for it to get this bloody#all i wanted was Price holding a leash to Ghost#there's#so much feelings i have for this ship that i cannot articulate#I have a friend on twt their handle is bearcvck and jesus they have the best priceghost fics/drabbles ever#should check it out if you want >:3 they also do ghoap#idk i have my own thoughts with this piece but no matter how I write it it doesn't quite bring out what im trying to say#so if you want I would love to see your interpretation of this piece!#not the best thing i've made bcuz they're both very stiff in terms of posture#learning curve still to do non-chibi rahhhh but im trying and that's what it matters#tumblr pls dont bonk me i've covered Ghost's tatas with words PLEASE#gummmyart#doodle#priceghost#ghostprice#captain john price#simon ghost riley#price x ghost#ghost x price#john price x simon riley#simon riley x john price#call of duty#call of duty modern warfare#cod#cod mw#scheduled
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i like to think goth is a gender in of itself
#goth#gothgoth#gothic#gender#gothgender#i usually just go by nonbinary but gothgender resonates quite a bit tbh#and there is something to be said about the overlap between the trans community and the goth community#and especially with how goth often rejects typical gender norms#idk there's definitely an essay to be written here but im not good at articulating my thoughts#but i dont really get dysphoria from looking more feminine or masculine the way i do if i feel like i look too preppy#and being able to be goth feels like its improved my mental health#idk tho im just someone on the internet throwing words at a wall
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Fascinating to me that Hunter in the owl house not only fills the “child soldier of the villain who switches sides” archetype but if we are going through the tropes of fairy tales that The Owl House likes to play with, is a little bit the princess in the tower??
#the owl house#hunter#hunter toh#idk I have a few thoughts on how the archetype kind of fits on to hunter but can’t quite articulate them properly yet#something something complete lack of agency and complete lack of proper understanding of the outside world as it truly is#but he’s also the created monster with something something having to not only fight for his own personhood#but discover that personhood is possible for him at all something something
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I think people overestimate how loyal anakin was to palpatine, the person
he turned him in IMMEDIATELY to the council and joined him not out of any personal loyalty, but desperation to save padmè
and then some fanfics act like they're besties and anakin tells palpatine absolutely everything and refuses to acknowledge absolutely any criticism of him and I'm like, yeah nah
#idk quite how to articulate it but they're close but not THAT close#palpatine is not one of anakin's ride or dies#to me#star wars#anakin skywalker#sheev palpatine
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Post-Mor Pankh where Kaalaa Baunaa and Shamane hang out sometimes and something Shamane does just. reminds Kaalaa deeply of Kumar. The siblings haven't met each other in literal decades aside from the latter's final moments, but the fact that they're related is there, mirroring each other in the way Shamane goes cocky or makes tea or some other little idiosyncrasy, and after she notices, Kaalaa Baunaa is hit full speed with missing Kumar.
#kaalaa baunaa#shamane#reverse 1999#certified storm moments#idk quite how to articulate it. but surely kaalaa hasn't quite processed the whole her mentor-close friend killed herself before the time#of the meteor shower. maybe the acceptance is there but surely the grief of losing someone that you're that close with hit her a while late#like she was so desperate for kumar to come back and start over and the relief and elation in her voice when kumar agreed to her but not#knowing that she'll do exactly what she did#i wonder how she deals with it#her seeing some of kumar in her brother at times is. you know that emotional angst i will eat that shit up
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The most meta shit ever is how there could easily be more than 1 alter present at any point in either Mikoto or John's interactions w the cast, but it's written and/or assumed by the audience to be One of them for the simplicity of a narrative, with the ambiguously-existing other assumed to be hiding.
Just like how ppl on the outside looking in, including other systems, see DID systems: Typically one identity by "default," and more specific others only when explicitly stated.
That, oddly, makes me feel a little better. No person, singlet or system, has every part of themselves out to everyone. Since we're split, it's natural to want to be seen as ourselves, but it doesn't make the ones who mask any less "aunthentic," necessarily.
#milgram#mikoto milgram#john milgram#mikoto kayano#mikotoposting#milgram project#john kayano#just blew my own mind w this idk#it’s just been something I've wanted to wrap my mind around for quite awhile#i hope i articulated it well#once again pinnochioP's Fake Meme comes on shuffle whilst writing my existential “how am i perceived” type shit lmao#masking serves a lotta purposes despite us wanting to be more open and I've been confused by how to process that
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#i just think they’d play together a lot when they were little#ok listen#think they’d be more like big brother little brother at this age#but like#fanon kaito has always been less mature than most characters his age#so when he’s younger i imagine he’d find himself with friends younger than himself as well#and i just#i love when his friends totally accept this and don’t mock him#sosososo much#and i don’t know it means a lot to me as an autistic person who grew up mocked for my childishness#to see this guy with supportive friends and irl fans#idk how to fully articulate my thoughts do you get me#autistic kaito real you guys#also this should go without saying but pls do not tag this as a ship 😭#1) they are quite little here specifically 2) im not comfortable with the ship in general#please please please#krash art#artists on tumblr#vocaloid#vocaloid fanart#cryptonloids#kagamine len#kaito#kaito vocaloid#my art#vocaloid kagamine
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wait are you planning on converting to Judaism?? :000
Yup! Set myself a soft deadline to reach out to one of the shuls near me by the end of spring break so I should be talking to a rabbi fairly soon, though it'll be a minute until I can officially officially start. But yes, I'm planning to.
#many many many many many thoughts of course#i might put updates on here maybe not idk#it's very nervewracking to talk about just bc of how personal it all is but i'm not like opposed to discussing it#there's a lot of reasons i could point to but none of the specifics fully explain it really#above all it kinda feels almost inevitable in a way i can't quite articulate#like i know in my bones that this is what i want and my choices are to honor that or stay in liminal space if that makes sense#faggotry enjoyer asks
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Screaming crying throwing up what the fuck is a gender
#saw butch lesbian wolverine fanart and it opened a can of worms i was not quite ready to face#I do not have a word any longer for what I am#Am I a boy? not quite#am I a woman? absolutely not#it’s like the more I recover in therapy and the more cohesive my identity becomes#the more merged everyone in the system gets#like slowly pulling everyone closer with thread#and it’s nerve wracking#I fought for so long to be perceived as a man and masculine and I LIKE my masculinity#but#there’s something happening#I don’t know#I’m not detransitioning because that would be undoing stuff that I love#I love how I am! I love my stubble! I love my cracky voice!#I love having arm hair and chest hair!#idk I’m just. hm. many thoughts#anyways Butches I love you very much#and when I see butches sometimes I cry because there’s something I feel and I cannot articulate it
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I hate you prequels that are origin stories for cool concepts. I don't want to know!!!!!
#idk quite how to articulate it but if the original is good then it gave us everything we needed to know about the origins#and i have so much more fun wondering and inferring and picking up clues#than i do getting a real time view of how it happened in canon#teddy talks
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Not to be a hater but I listened to tma this summer and unfortunately... just didn't get much of out of it. Even the episodes I remember loving weren't more than spooky with nice prose which made it overall disappointing
Anyways I started relistening to I am in Eskew today and it is Hitting! Perhaps this was what I was looking for the whole time
#i suppose its relevant that ive listened to tma 3-3.5 times including one last year and havent lisrened to eskew since high school. and yet#idk quite how to articulate this but i noticed tma privileges the perspective of men over women in a certain way#where eskew is better about that even in the large part of the story that its literally just one mans perspective#ALSO david ward's situation re: psychosis and the way his personhood is not diminished when considering that is something that resonates-#-with me a lot. and when i first listened that was something i was super not aware of in myself or the text but that still drew me to it#perhaps this should be a different post but#i genuinely started to tear up earlier recognizing the way that the narrative affords agency&compassion to someone with that-#-then-unnameable similarity to me#katri thoughts
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"you overthink too much"
"you keep taking things too literally"
"of course I was joking"
took me long enough to realize tf
#literally people asked me if i was autistic in high school#and i was like “uhh not that i know of! 😊”#delete#and like of course theres other things not just these . but i cant quite articulate them rn#dang idk. im so used to my family calling me dramatic and exaggerated and shit that i just cant quite uhh confidently say im autistic#(or ast least that i THINK i am)#idk man!!! i dont know how anything works (<- autism) maybe i AM faking this bc i AM dramatic and hypochondriac or whatever thay say#this feels so weird. like THEYRE the ones always going “augh youre so (autism symptom)” “youre always (autism symptom)”#but i BET that if i ever came up to them and told them i think im actually autistic (or even if i showed up with an official diagnosis)#they would dismiss it immediately#“come of stop being dramatic youre not autistic youre just........??????”#idk#im tired
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Do you still like Matty after Rina called him out a second time?
yes, i do. i won't say that this whole thing doesn't worry me because it really does. i love this band and i cherish them so much. i love and cherish matty so much. but i also can't help but feel disappointed (yeah I've made that pretty fucking clear before). rina calling him out a second time adds to that. but i also don't really know the entire situation. idk if there are any legal things that prevent him from addressing this publically. i just know that whatever he's doing to solve the mess he made is not really working
#god idk how to articulate my thoughts well rn because i'm quite tired from work#but i hope this comes across the way i want it to#asks#chatty asks#matty healy#rina sawayama
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why did you quit playing shantae games?
//well i grew out of it for one thing. and two, i don’t really vibe with it. some of the stuff in them just kind of rubbed me the wrong way
#//granted it’s a me issue but still#//one day I was like huh i don’t like this anymore and quit playing the games#//also her age flip flops all over the place#//we got one person running wf’s twitter saying she’s 16 and then the creator saying she doesn’t have a set age#//or is considered an adult and idk!#//that’s a little weird in a way idk how to articulate#//and yeah#//mostly I just quit playing them just bc I wasn’t interested anymore#backup log {ooc}
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I want to kiss you / キスしたい
G. Satoru
NOTE: i recently started learning to write in japanese for not much reason other than to occupy my mind with something new. this little daydream came to me and i can't stop thinking about it, i think falling in love despite a language barrier is one of the purest and sweetest ways to fall in love.
WARNINGS — it might be fem reader idk, kissing 👍, ur married w him at the end, not proofread lol i'm snuggled up in bed ok
Satoru cant speak english and you cant speak japanese; Suguru is the translator friend. You met him online years ago, who knows how. But you hit it off, and four years of friendship rolled by.
Satoru heard all about Y/n and saw you many times when Suguru facetimed or called you. You and him had many cute, playful interactions, ranging from making hearthands at each other to flipping each other off and laughing about it. Sometimes Satoru would be sat off-camera, overloading Suguru with things to translate, because he had a lot to say to you. One time, Suguru left for a few minutes to get a pizza delivery, and then Satoru got very quiet and the two of you blinked at your screens.
"Hi."
"Hi."
And then you two for some reason started laughing with your whole chests, Suguru walked in with a confused smirk. He joked, "Sooo... what did you and Satoru talk about while I was gone?" He asked, gentle accent coming through in soft waves. "The mysteries of the universe." You replied. Satoru was already diving into the pizza box, but he still listened to you speak; he wondered what you had said, maybe you used some fancy words to say that you liked him? He'd be lying if he said he didn't memorize variations of "i like you" after that. He was paranoid that he could miss you saying that you liked him.
You managed a slow, meticulously-pronounced nice to meet you in Japanese when you finally visited Tokyo. It was at the airport. You and Suguru had shared many hugs — good grief, you'd seen height comparisons many times but none painted a real idea of just how big these boys were. But Satoru? He was loudmouthed on a screen and surprisingly shy in person. Eventually he hugged you and didn't let go. He even got so comfy as to hang and cling to your body like you saw him doing with Suguru in countless photos and videos.
Though you could barely pronounce the little Japanese that you picked up, Satoru felt giddy to hear your pretty voice in his language. He listened to you like you were reciting love poetry to him, fists under his chin and eyes starry. But you were just saying basic phrases, boring things — nothing that articulated your thoughts properly.
He was far too embarrassed to try and speak any English when he first met you, even though after developing a crush on you he did start learning some English on the side. He knew quite a bit, but listening was so impossibly difficult it frustrated him like nothing else. He was also self-conscious of his English accent, though Suguru tried to assure him that he sounded very cute and almost oddly British.
So often instead of attempting to speak tiny phrases to you, Satoru threw a lot of hand motions and signals your way which got the two of you and Suguru laughing — poor Sugie, he was always translating even the smallest things you said even if you muttered them under your breath, because Satoru was eager to know every little thought and expression you had, even if you were simply commenting on the weather.
Once you commented that it was so hot, you were visiting during a heatwave-filled summer. Satoru raised his brows at Suguru expectantly, and you heard a familiar translation;
暑い。
It's hot.
There was such a frustrating language barrier between the two of you, it became more evident when you had finally flown over the sea to meet them.
Yet you and satoru fell in love silently and beautifully, your love flowing like a river in the most unexpected directions. You felt his affection emanating from his irises. You and him joked around, and talked — though you had no idea what the other meant most of the time. Sometimes the two of you gave up and you talked in English, he responded with Japanese, and it went on like that very comedically until Suguru came back to bridge the gap.
Lots of time was spent putting your heads together over your phone, reading translations of what you wanted to say to each other.
One day, when Suguru left the two of you alone in his apartment kitchen so that he could hop to the convenience store, Satoru typed something into the translator and let you read it. Your face warmed up.
キスしたい。
I want to kiss you.
He looks at you expectantly.
You type back to him.
Then kiss me.
それからキスして。
He blushed and hesistated, the two of you making electric eye contact for a while before he boyishly pecked your lips to test if you liked his kiss, but oh that's all the two of you needed to realize just how much you liked each other. You melted into each other like your bodies were made for nothing else but to embrace and be one. He shook a little, tentatively gliding his lips over yours. His hands nervously cupped your cheeks. With the way he handled you so carefully, you'd think you were made of porcelain.
Your reciprocation meant everything to him. His confidence flourished. The soft smacking, wet sounds got louder when he kissed you more passionately. Those gentle hands found their way to the back of your neck, and he softly pressed you closer to him as if he was scared you would pull away. What if you changed your mind mid-kiss? He was overthinking and you wouldn't have even guessed it, because you thought he was in the same blissed out dream state as you were. So high on kissing that the world fell away.
The two of you started smiling embarrassedly, grinning so hard that you couldn't continue kissing. Then the two of you just giggled against each other's faces — a subconscious realization swept him; laughter and kissing are their own languages.
Yes as years passed and you visited time and time again, your Japanese improved and his English improved. When you moved to Japan, eventually you adopted a messy mix of Japanese and English with Satoru. He liked showing off how perfectly he could pronounce things, and you liked showing off that you could write very neat kana.
Years and years and years passed and when you and him were married in your own little apartment, starting a life together, a very fluent Satoru reminisced about how the two of you fell in love despite barely speaking to each other.
"It was your eyes for me." You said.
"Oh really? It was your voice for me. I didn't know what you were saying, but it sounded nice." He said.
"Mmm I liked your voice, too." You said, snuggling your head on his shoulder. He basked in the attention, though it was common, it always felt special for him. The smallest hand touches and wrist kisses made his heart lurch.
"Remember when I always nagged Suguru to translate every little thing you said?"
"Yeah, you worked him to the bone." You chuckled.
"I just wanted to know what you were saying. I had such a crush on you, looking back now it was even ridiculous how much I liked you considering the barrier and all."
"Ooh, did you?"
"How is this surprising? We're married??"
"Oh yeah."
#🗑️ — trash#♥️ 𝐆𝐎𝐉𝐎 𝐒𝐀𝐓𝐎𝐑𝐔 — 五条悟#gojo#gojo satoru#fluff#gojo fluff#gojo x reader#gojo satoru x reader#gojo x fem reader#satoru x reader#gojou satoru x reader#jjk gojo#satoru gojo
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