#idk how to get myself to fucking write a paper
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chat am i cooked. my seven page paper is due tmrw at midnight and i've been "planning" it (writing down notes that could potentially pass for an outline so i don't feel unproductive) for the past week already and i can't get myself to actually write anything. chat what do i do here do we have any cheat codes for this shit
#idfk how to write papers#i mean. i know how to write a good paper like ik the technical styles and whatever but#idk how to get myself to fucking write a paper#theyre evil#they're the bane of the earth#especially when they're about something i COULDN'T GIVE LESS OF A FUCK ABOUT#I HAVE A 7 PAGE PAPER ABOUT FUCK ALL DUE AND ALL I CAN THINK ABOUT IS HOW FUCKING STUPID THIS SHIT IS#also the prof is literally soooooo stupid he keeps on skirting around how this relates to modern day like BITCH#MODERN DAY COMPARISONS ARE THE ONLY THING KEEPING ME EVEN REMOTELY INTERESTED IN HISTORY CLASSES#anyways#once im done with this class im all done w my lit and history course reqs so i can see the light at the end of the tunnel#alas its a long ass tunnel#a tunnel full of bullshit about grecoroman sacrificial rites#the tunnel is also full of me. me who doesn't give a fuck about grecoroman sacrificial rites. get me OUTTA HEREEEEE
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#meg talks#feeling really down and frustrated#ever since i caught covid over the new year ive just been doing so badly#itâs now halfway through may and not only am i having all sorts of weird new pain problems#to the point where i dragged myself to the er yesterday bc my usual meds didnât do shit for me and i spent seven hours writhing in pain#but also mentally im just. constantly tapped out#before covid i was able to keep up w news and work on research projects and write multiple image descriptions every day and read books#and keep up w friends all while working full time#like even if i was in bed p much whenever i wasnât at work i could still read and write and carry conversations#now itâs like i can only handle all of these things in small doses before my brain just shuts off#im still keeping up w news and describing what i can and working on my research projects and trying to make connections#but i feel so slow abt everything i do#itâs driving me up the wall#ive been trying for days to get through this one academic paper thatâs rlly not even that long#and i just canât do it. not for long anyway i have to read in small bursts#and then having to take muscle relaxants for these fucking spasms that make me really drowsy and sleep the whole day awayâŠ#idk. it might not even be abt covid i might be reading too much into it but itâs just pissing me off. thinking abt how nobody masks anymore#and how every time thereâs a covid outbreak i wonât be able to properly protect myself or my brothers from it#bc of this fuckass job#idk im just tired and upset
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Just saw a TikTok complaining about fanfics that didn't have "enough dialogue" because "reading more than three sentences" was hard.
I'm not against heavy dialogue-oriented fics; they are fun, but... that's a script. You want to read a fucking script, hope you know that. A writer isn't "bad" because they are... you know, writing. Just say it isn't your thing and move on, but categorize something as "bad" because you lack the ability to fucking read... ain't the author's problem; it seems like a "you" one.
#im training myself into a descriptive writing style and reading that was a slap in the face... it's not that i dont like dialogue but#i need to convey feelings showing them as I want to I can't have that just with dialogue I WISH I was good enough to do that tho#because there's people who can but im not so-#the other day i saw a girl complaining about a book having WORDS what the fuck is WRONG WITH YOU#SHOW ME FEELINGS SHOW ME METAPHORS SHOW ME YOUR SOUL IN WRITTEN WORDS#I JUST THINK people aren't reading as much as they used to... just a thought after seeing people on booktok#like... you have books.... for what exactly? pretty colors? covers? just to say you have them for the aesthetics and go home#???? god ... the art of the written word is beautiful and unique to humans it lets out your soul and your spirit in paper bringing your min#into the physical word and you are just gonna call it BORING what the HELL IS WRONG WITH THAT AAAAAAAAAAAAAA#KAFKA WE REALLY ARE IT NOW#in a world where everything has to be fast and immediate we should look into art as something worth waiting for... idk man my thoughts#maybe im just too dense with my feelings with creation and ain't that deep but to me it is actually...#ive wanted to be a writer since I learned how to read not because I liked to write but because my soul gets a little lighter when I do it
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#bleh. dont burn yourself out kids#everything ive been a part of for the last 4 years in this lab has to b published eventually#and i just had my 1st paper published. probably the most interesting thing i worked on and how do i feel abt this? i dont feel anything#but bitterness. every congratulations i hear i just wanna say fuck off. dont encourage this. do u kno what i did to make that data exist#as u see it? i mangled something within myself beyond repair. enjoy the information if u want but i wont#all i see is a symptom of an illness im doing nothing to treat#everything i did in this lab will be seeped in anger and pain#it has to change. i wont let it be the same in my next lab. no more fucking timed experiments#i cannot b trusted to b normal abt them#ugh. i just feel bad bc i finished my measurements for the week and i have a 2 day lul until i leave on vacation#and i kno i have to get 3 heavy instruments to fedex tomorrow bc i didnt do it today#sigh. i csnt focus. i spent so much time today tryint to remember what im supposed to b doing. then i made myself mad writing out the#hypnoses for an experiment i didnt fuckinf design and i dont care abt. like y did we do this? idk i just fucking do what u tell me#maybe ill go run again. i dont wanna do anything#my dad yesterday: ready for vacation? me: yea đđđđđ#just gotta not crash my car on the drive to the airport bc i have to drive myself there đ#unrelated#i hope the instrument manufacturers appreciate the unicorn tape i got specificly for shipping those things#bc how could i not when given the option?
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writing is so fun !! why does it suck ass n balls
#aria void#fr I feel like im smashing my head against a cheese grater most of the time#sometimes something comes through but its not pretty#if it was just like a fear of writing something bad that would be something I could learn to get over#but i don't know what's holding me back#i occasionally have spurts where I can write a bunch but they never last long#which is how I end up with 5 billion unfinished story ideas I have no clue what to do with#i try just forcing myself to write anyway but my mind just goes blank#I can half visualize where to take things but its like there's a paper jam in the path to convert that into words#idk whats causing it idk how to uncause it and its the lack of knowing what the problem is that's so fucking frustrating#i have so many fucking stories in me but the one path to shove them out is an inch wide and always clogged#insert funny shit constipation joke heha#granted i think part of its just my various undiagnosed disorders kicking in and making it impossible to concentrate#literally I was trying to write a short story just now and sorta kinda starting to get somewhere#but i got distracted by ranting about how hard writing is and now my groove is unrecoverably thrown off#fuck my stupid baka brain
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ok wow to be honest iâm in a terrible place rn
#bella.txt#sometimes when i get super overwhelmed by me putting myself in a terrible spot again by procrastinating#+ literally being unable to accomplish the simplest tasks ever#my brain tends to spiral to a very bad place#like if i canât function with basic things in the forgiving circumstances i have then whatâs the point in being alive#tht kind of stuff#and idk how to fix it idk how to force myself to do things ive tried meds and therapy and endless adjusting to both#and i think itâs gonna be like this forever <3#+ my laptop being shitty and losing out on some of the little things tht made me happy tht required my laptop#ie giffing or playing games tht i have on there#itâs rly made me despise being alive!! ^_^#sorry. this is a lot but iâm just like. at my limit#and up at nearly 4am when i have 8am class bc i was failing to write a fucking paper. as usual
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mm. Fear
#ramblings of a lunatic#got pointed towards a freelance job opportunity by a friend (thanks bestie ily đ€) and hit up the asker w an email abt further discussion#since the og email was kind of vague (its a comic project! idk abt what but it is one! idk when/if there's a deadline! but it's a comic!)#and that meetings been arranged and thats all peachy keen#and if i get the job i get it and if i don't i dont#(they liked my samples despite them being old work so i definitely have that part down- now it's just seeing if the schedules align)#but as i was sitting down writing important questions I'd need to ask when we meet i was hit with a wave of. fear#and guilt?#like. It's been so long since I've made a Proper Comic (w/ the correct formatting and attention to layout and composition n stuff)#that I'm scared I'll like. forget how to comic and fuck it up. and disappoint this stranger I don't know#...and myself but that's besides the point#idk i think it's just jitters (also bc i had a bad ipad drawing day the device was NOT agreeing with me. paper was ok tho)#and I don't even have the job yet đ idk why I'm so nervous#maybe bc I've never had a paid illustration gig and i feel like such a fraud bc I'm a solid 6/10 self taught artist#i feel like rob liefeld bamboozling marvel into hiring him in the 90s and then Rob Liefeld-ing all over the place#(I don't think he actually bamboozled anyone. that's just how I feel rn)#in conclusion i think being on my period has not helped my feelings of mild trepidation and has in fact made me think dark thoughts#so I'm going to try and claim some semblance of rest now
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hii i saw you wanted requests and IâM HERE <3
please please please could you write some mattheo riddle fluff!! maybe with hates everyone but her trope
Hereâs a short little Drabble abt this trope! Could def see myself writing a little fic about this if enough people want me to!!!
AH tysm for this request darling đ€đ€ I loveeeeeeeeeeee this trope itâs so mmmmmmm idk it brings something so ugh in my heart đ
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âOkay, cunt.â Draco leaned against the desk throwing harsh words at Mattheo. The pair arguing, per usual, about who was better at quidditch.
He kicked the boys stool next to him, nearly sending Draco flying from his chair.
âWatch it, fuck head.â Mattheo spat harshly at the blonde boy. He may have called the man his friend but he had little patience for him when he acted like someone inflated that giant fucking head of his.
The bickering continued between the two and became harsher by the minute. anyone with eyes wouldâve thought that these boys hated eachother, but in reality thatâs just how Mattheo treated his friendsâIf it was anyone else talking to him like that they wouldâve already had their face beat into their fucking skull.
Draco scoffed at the term of âendearmentâMattheo had labeled him with.
He snapped his mouth open, ready to throw a slur of random profanity Dracoâs way, but you had came into his peripheral causing him to snap his head in your direction.
âHey, Matty? Do you have notes for this class? I accidentally fell asleep..â you mumbled while fiddling with your books in hand.
His eyes softened once they locked onto your face.
â âcourse I do, love. Here, sorry my handwriting might be a little hard to read. If it is just ask and Iâll tell you what it says.â He hands you his paper he had been lazily writing notes on and gave you a soft smile.
âOh, thank you Matty! I really, really appreciate you letting me borrow them.â You squeal at his kindness and give him a quick kiss on the cheek before spinning on your heel to return to your seat.
Mattheoâs sharp gazes followed you back to your seat, never breaking away from your alluring yet soft form.
âNo fucking way.â Draco had mumbled, breaking Mattheo from his intense focus on you.
âWhat?â He had asked the blonde boy with a bit of anger leaving place in his words.
âYou fucked her?â Draco asked incredulously.
âWhat? No you dumb shit, why would you ask that?â He nearly seethed, he hated when Draco talked about you.
âI mean cmon mate, youâre completely pussy whipped. Thereâs no way you didnât atââ Draco continued to drone about the subject, not seeming to notice the very angry Mattheo next to him who only seemed to be getting more red by the second.
âDo yourself a fucking favor, malfoy, shut the fuck up.â He replied with venom laying his tone.
Draco laughed at his friend.
âDefinitely pussy whipped.â
#harry potter#slytherin#hogwarts#harry potter fanfiction#x reader#harry potter fandom#mattheo fluff#mattheoxreader#mattheo riddle scenarios#mattheo riddle x reader#mattheo imagine
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Masked Adversary | D.L.
Pt. II
MASTERLIST
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fandom: Kick-Ass
pairings: Dave Lizewski/Kick-Ass x F!Reader
WARNINGS: language! patching up an open wound, mentions of blood, wound descriptions, fluff OOOO, also angst because he knows you donât like HIM, kinda proofread but idk..
summary: You and Dave have lost a childhood friendship. The circumstances have made you grow to despise one another, until Kick-Ass has no one else to turn to but you, causing him to develop a small crush. The only problem being that you don't know it's him.
WC: 3.1K
gif not mine!!!
A/N: Low key insane this is the first fic I write that isnât smut â ïž also sorry for posting this a day late mbâŠ
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âDammit,â You spoke as you quickly lifted your water bottle up from your desk. It had spilled all over your research papers and ruined some of the fresh ink.
âFuck.â
You had already spent a little over an hour trying to get your information together and you needed a break. Grabbing your headphones, you made your way to the little sofa you had sitting by your window and took out a comic.
It was rare, but it didnât take long for you to get bored, you had read this specific issue many times. The music made it that much more boring and you were getting restless. Cracking your window open just a bit, you heard the soft chirps of the birds and crickets outside, feeling some of the cool breeze enter into your room. The sun was set and there was still some twilight left over the New York skyline. You lived a few blocks from Dave, getting a decent view of the city although it was blocked by a tree near your window.
Soon after you had opened your window, you felt yourself getting drowsy, that breeze and the sounds of the night settling in almost made you doze off.
The state you were in wasnât fully conscious, but you werenât quite asleep either. You heard a faint sound outside your window, like some big bird just fell onto your roof. You tried to ignore it and relax, but soon you began hearing faint taps at your window.
How odd.
Your eyes slowly opened, allowing your pupils to adjust to the soft fluorescent light.
âPlease,â You heard someone whisper, in that moment your eyes shot open and you jumped out of your chair, turning to your window.
âWhat the fuck are you doing here?!â You almost yelled, keeping it quiet enough not to alarm your parents. Kick-Ass.
âYou said I couldââ he groaned quietly, wincing.
âYou said I could stop by if I needed something,â he sighed.
âWhat?â You questioned, confused at first until you noticed one of his gloves covered in blood, clutching his side.
âPlease, you saidâŠâ He paused to take a breath, âYour momâs a nurse, right? IâI canât go to the cops or the hospital.â
âWellâI mean yeah, sheâs a nurse, but⊠If she helps you sheâs gonna end up telling someone.â
He only stood there and waited.
âI can patch you up myself,â You swiftly moved forward to open the window, allowing the boy into your room.
âAgh, fuckââ He groaned, you helped him walk over to your bed.
âHold on,â
Setting a towel on your bed, you motioned for him to sit down, grabbing his batons from his back and setting them to the side. You ran to your closet to grab a cloth or anything similar.
âHere, put this on there with pressure, okay? Iâll be right back.â You gave him an old shirt and left your room to find a med kit your mom had somewhere downstairs.
He noticed the shirt you gave him and smiled softly. It was an old shirt you had matched with him, well, Dave, in middle school. It was really oversized when you got it, so it still fit. He was surprised you hadnât thrown it away. It was a Robin shirt, himself owning the Batman one. He remembered how much you loved Robin.
Kick-Ass sighed as he waited for you, holding the shirt to his wound with as much pressure as he could to stop the bleeding.
âOkay,â you spoke out of breath, closing your door and locking it.
âUmâŠâ You looked at him awkwardly, and he waited for you to continue. Clearly in pain.
âIâm gonna need you to take your suit off.â You informed, it was only necessary.
âOkayâŠâ he hesitated, âI canât really take the suit off...by myself,â he breathed. You could tell that speaking was quite the chore.
You moved towards him, helping him take his gloves off one at a time as either of his hands held the cloth to his wound. Sitting behind him, you unzipped his suit, pushing it off each one of his shoulders.
Woah.
His back was very well defined and it took everything in you not to graze your fingers along his muscles. He felt this, trying to hold in a smile.
âYouâre gonna have to let go for a second, okay?â You warned him. Kick-Ass let go of the cloth on his cut, clenching his teeth as you pulled his suit down to his hips. The blood caused it to stick to the wound, it seemed to burn as you peeled it off.
âShit,â He sighed in pain, taking a deep breath as you soaked a small towel in a little bowl of soap water. He frowned as you brought it up to the gash on his side.
âThis is really gonna sting, so you should use something to bite on.â You handed him the cleaner glove and as soon as he bit down onto it, you began dabbing the cloth onto his injury.
He let out a significantly loud groan through the glove and tears welled up in his eyes, his breathing quickened due to the sharp, stinging pain of the soap seeping into his wound. He was seeing stars.
âOkay, weâre done.â You spoke, turning back to the med kit to take out a gauze pad. âThis cut is too big to heal on its own, Iâm gonna have to stitch it upâŠâ You looked at him to make sure he was okay with it. He only nodded. You continued to dab at his skin to remove all the blood around the slash to see it clearly. It was a cut right above the chiseled area of his iliac furrow, a few inches to the left of an already healed scar that seemed to appear like another stab wound.
âYou okay?â You asked him, just to make sure. He nodded once more, removing the glove from his mouth and smiling weakly as you grabbed a needle and suture. You noticed he had a pretty nasty cut on his lip, and his eye was starting to bruise.
âThis oneâs gonna hurt even more, right?â He joked.
âYeah,â you chuckled. âAre you ready?â
Kick-Ass clenched his jaw, locking eyes with you for a moment, âYeah,â he grunted, keeping his eyes glued to yours.
You pierced through his skin and his back straightened. Choking out an agony-filled moan, he threw his head back, his hand flying to cover his mouth. Your eyes widened looking up at him.
âIf my parents hear you, itâs over.â You whispered and he nodded, chewing on his lip.
Continuing the process of piecing him together, he kept whining about how much it stung even with his fucked up nerve endings.
âOf course itâs gonna hurt, dipshit! How the fuck did this happen to you anyway?â You questioned.
âOh yâknow, some muggers with a knife. Guess they were serious about taking that ladyâs bag.â He chuckled.
As you drove the needle through him one last time, he inhaled a sharp breath, gripping into your sheets for his life.
It was quiet for the moment in which you cleaned up, putting everything away and leaving out some bandages to put on him.
You could feel his gaze on you, but goodness, were you scared to look him in the eyes. You knew that if you looked, youâd wanna lean in and kiss him.
âThank you,â He said, watching you intently as you got up to take the med kit back.
âNo problem, Kick-Ass,â you smiled at him, and he couldnât help but smile back. Your smile was super pretty and holy hell was this mask giving him confidence.
âIâm gonna go put this back, the bathroomâs right outside my door to the left, incase you wanna wash your face or something.â You made your way to your door and left it slightly ajar, so that no one would hear it open while you were downstairs.
Kick-Ass slowly limped into your bathroom, finally taking off his mask after closing the door. His face was covered in blood, so much more happened than some muggers with a knife. Frank DâAmicoâs men had tried beating him senseless, but he oh so fortunately got away due to a patrol car nearing the area. Yes, he had made sure no one followed him to your home. He wouldnât know what to do if he was the reason some fucked up kingpin tried to hurt you.
He washed his face as best he could without getting any blood anywhere, his left eye beginning to grow a soft red color.
You knocked softly on the door, âHey, just come back to my room when youâre done. My parents are watching TV so you should be good.â
âThanks.â He answered, staring at the door.
Guilt began to overcome him. He was lying to you, not only in keeping his identity from you, but in making up some bullshit about getting jumped by some "muggers."
He wanted to tell you it was him, but he found the thought embarrassing, maybe you would call him pathetic for this whole Kick-Ass thing, even the thought of coming to you when he had no one else was enough to make him cringe. He would rather get stitched up without anesthesia again than have you react badly and get angry at him for lying to you.
Sitting at your desk waiting for him, you finally heard the bathroom light shut off, the door just then clicking open. He limped into your room and you quickly ran to help him sit on the edge of your bed.
You grabbed the gauze, pausing and taking a look at him for a second. Goodness gracious, he was an Adonis of a man. He had really well toned arms, his abdominal muscles very defined as well. He was quite the specimen. And his eyes. The way he looked up at you, like some lost puppy, it made you melt.
âUm, just lift your arms up a bit,â You cleared your throat, embarrassed of the way you were thinking in such a moment.
He lifted his arms and you put the gauze over his now closed wound, grabbing a roll of bandages to wrap around his waist.
âHold this here,â you told him as you knelt in front of him. Pulling the white fabric around his side, you had to move closer to him in order to reach for it with your other hand behind his back.
You tried focusing on what you were doing, but he kept staring holes into your head. His hand twitched, wanting to brush a stray hair from your face to see it clearly but he held back.
After wrapping the bandage around his waist a few times, you used some medical tape to keep it in place.
âAlright, Iâm almost done.â you spoke, finishing up.
Kick-Ass spoke your name with a light tone. This startled you and you looked up at him to see what he was going to say. He only looked at you, glancing at your lips before looking away and it caused your heart to beat a million miles a minute.
âThank you...â He finally moved his eyes to meet yours, a look of guilt upon whatever you could see of his face.
âIâm really sorryâŠâ He frowned, looking at the ground next to you.
âItâs not your fault, Kick-Ass,â you reassured him without even knowing what he was talking about.
He shook his head as if he was about to speak but the two of you could only watch each other those following moments, your faces moving closer together like magnets. You didn't know why it felt so right in the moment, but you quickly leaned up and kissed him.
He slightly jumped but immediately kissed back. His lips were so plush and smooth, they felt like clouds. And he kissed you like no other boy had ever kissed you before. He kissed you with emotion, he didnât just kiss you for the sake of kissing. Even if he wasn't the best at it.
The fabric of his mask brushed against your chin as he tilted his head to the side, moving himself closer to you. You felt like he was going to pull away because you were already starting to feel the need to breathe, but he kept kissing you.
Resting your hand on his chest, you felt his heart beating rapidly under your palm. You stood up, causing him to have to lean upwards in order to keep his lips attached to yours, but the movement caused him pain, making him release a grunt and quickly pull away.
âSorry,â you apologized, referring to the kiss and the wound. He stared at you in utter surprise.
From now on, Dave knew he would look at you in a different light. Whyâd you even kiss him? And what gave him such a desperate urge to keep his own lips connected to yours?
He chewed on his bottom lip, "It's okay..." He replied softly.
âI shouldn't have done that, right...? IâIt won't happen againââ You rambled, suddenly cutting yourself off and picking up the empty packaging of the bandages to throw them away and keep yourself busy.
Kick-Ass watched you pick things up with his jaw hanging, still trying to process the kiss and why he... Enjoyed it?
âYou can do it again, if you want.â He mentally screamed at himself, why the fuck would he say that!?
You whipped your head around and stared at him from across the room, your face heating up like the Titanic's boiler room.
"I havenât kissed anyone since like⊠sixth grade, soâŠ" He chuckled.
Hiding a smile, "YeahâŠthat was kind of obvious." you spoke, scrunching your nose.
"Sorry." He looked away while giggling at how pathetic it was.
âItâs okayâŠâ you smiled.
You sat next to him. "Everyone needs practiceâŠâ You said suggestively.
Turning to look at him, you saw that he was already gaping at you.
"Yeah..." He kept his eyes on yours this time. The reason he was so afraid to do so before was because he felt vulnerable, like youâd know it was him just by his eyes or something.
âSoâŠâ you began, âcan I kiss you..?â
âYesââ he replied a little too quick for his own comfort. âI meanâŠYeah.â
You placed your hand on the side of his neck and moved your head closer to his. You noticed him watching your mouth as it neared his, the palm of his hand coming to press against your lower back as you finally connected your lips.
He kissed you softly, innocently, almost like he was afraid youâd pull away if he kissed you any differently.
Moving one of your hands to rest on the back of his neck, you slipped your fingers under his mask, feeling a bit of his soft curls.
You just wanted to kiss him, missing the feeling of someone's mouth on your own. He felt the same, he didnât feel judged on the fact he was kind of a shitty kisser.
The two of you sat there for a minute, his calloused hands moving from your waist to the sides of your face, the tips of his fingers playing with the shorter hairs on the nape of your neck.
âI hope you donât hate me,â he breathed, mumbling against your mouth.
âMm-â You made a sound of confusion.
You began to realize why he had said it as he brought his hand up to the hem of his mask and began tugging it upward. Quickly pulling away, you reached for his wrist to stop him.
âDonât do thatâŠâ You watched him, slightly alarmed.
His heart dropped, âWhy notâŠ?â he spoke, uneasy.
He couldnât lie to you. Yeah sometimes he hated your guts and wanted you to just shut the fuck up, but today was a completely different story. He changed in the way he saw you. With everything that had just happened in the past ten minutes, he couldnât lie to you.
âWhat if I tell someone? How can you trust me if you barely even know meâŠ?â
But he did know you. He knew you enough to trust you, and that there was no way in hell you would ever tell anyone a secret entrusted to you. But he didnât want to argue with you. Not as Kick-Ass.
âFine. Sorry...â He apologized.
"You should probably get home... It's kind of late." You suggested looking at your hands as you fidgeted.
âYeah,â He stood up, grunting as he pulled his arms through his suit to put it back on. âCould youâŠâ He was nodding at you, referring to the back of his suit where the zipper was.
You pulled the slider along the teeth of the zipper, enclosing him completely in his suit.
He turned around to face you âThanksâŠâ He watched you for a moment. âFor patching me up⊠And stuffâŠâ
You chuckled, âNo problem.â
He smiled awkwardly. âIâll see you tomorâor uhh, whenever I need you againâor whenever you need me,â He stammered, realizing what position heâd almost put himself in. âIâll just see you.â He chuckled, swallowing hard as he grabbed his gloves and batons and turned to your window.
âWill you be okay to get home?â You watched as he limped by your window. âI could walk with you⊠Until we get to your neighborhood or whatever.â
âUhâNo, it's like a 10 minute walk. Iâll be fine. Thanks though.â He smiled softly, beginning to climb through your window as he held his side.
You thought about that. There were no other neighborhoods within ten minutes of walking, so he had to live here. That means he had to go to your school. And that means you have to know him if he said he was your age. Holy shit.
âKick-Ass?â You rested your palms on your windowsill as he crouched down to look at you from your roof.
âDo you go to Fillmore?â
He paused, staring at you like heâd just been caught.
You felt your hands getting clammy.
After a few more moments of silence, you spoke again.
âDo I know youâŠ?â
He stayed silent. All you could do was take it as a yes.
âWerenât you just getting mad at me for wanting to take my mask off?â He shot back.
âFuck, youâre right. Iâm sorry.â You looked down. âIâll⊠Iâll see you around.â You pursed your lips.
He smiled back softly and made his way off your roof and out of your view.
You sat back down to finish your homework, somehow taking three times as long because the only thing on your mind was those beautiful blue eyes of his. And who else in your school had them.
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Thank you for reading!! x
#dave lizewski#kick ass#aaron taylor johnson#kickass fic#kickass x reader#dave lizewski x reader#dave lizewski fluff#dave lizewski angst#aaron taylor johnson fic#fanfic#writing#iz writes#dave lizewski fic#angst#fluff
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I hope you are all doing well! âșïžâșïž
I come to you with a little update that later today I will temporarily be closing my ask box and turning off post submissions
I don't know if any of y'all have that thing where you set a task for yourself but then the task is bigger than you expected and you totally freak yourself out about it and then just don't start it because you've accidentally overwhelmed yourself and then it becomes even bigger and you freak yourself out about it even more? yeah anyway unfortunately I have that thing lmao and I did it to myself again in classic form đ
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I love y'all so much and I am very committed to getting through all my asks and post submissions, but I'm realizing that with the way my brain is functioning right now, I'm going to have to cap things where they are so that the task feels more manageable to me and I can actually begin to tackle it with the love and energy y'all deserve đđ
I am so so so thankful to everyone who has sent me an ask or an image or just reached out in anyway, and lemme tell you I wish my brain wasn't being Like This right now, but alas, I fear that sometimes it do be how it is
and if you have more image submissions or questions or comments you would like to share, please do hold onto them!! as I mentioned above, this will just be a totally temporary thing until I get to a level where I feel like I can manage things as they come in đđ
as always, thank you all so so so much for being here and bringing your energy and enthusiasm to the blog! I appreciate you all so much more than I could ever express! đ„°đ„°
I will make another update post when everything is back open again, and until then, if you really need to reach me, you can still dm me if you would like! âșïžđ
with so much love and gratitude,
the curator đȘ¶
(also idk if I should admit this on main but this is also partially because for some deranged reason I started writing a long-form fanfic immediately after finishing my final papers and it's now at like 35k words and in classic form I have become completely consumed by this creative project and it's really fucking with my task management abilities I am so sorry đđ in the words of boygenius: "I don't know why I am the way I am")
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so high school ; JB5
pairing(s) ; jude bellingham x singer!reader , jude bellingham x student!reader
summary ; twitters favourite new(ish) artist drops her new album right during her school year.
warnings ; nothinggggg & mainly just fluff bc i love happy people
note ; SORRY ITS SHORT AHHAHA, iâll post a new lando fic soon i just have no inspiration⊠ignore any dates that are wrong or donât match - im lazy. also this is VERYYYY LOOSLY based off so high school lol (itâs mainly the aristotle line)
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youruser surprise !!!!! as an end of term present (for myselfđ€đ„ł) and in honour of knowing the loml for 15 years, hereâs 15 new songs for you guys to (hopefully) enjoy đ noah, thank you for trusting me and letting me join you on what might be one of my favourite songs ever!! i loveeee youuuu. && to my jude<3 thank you for inspiring me every single day of our lives. i love you bigger than the whole sky đ©”đ©” (guys heâs actually v v talented and he helped me write scared of my guitar, hard to sleep, and feels like) j, you are my safe place and these songs â especially the ones i havenât let you hear yet â are for you.
ps guys idk how to only write happy songs but jude is the only one who makes me feel safe enough to express my emotions through my songs ïżœïżœïżœïżœ i looooovvveee him and am NOT đ
ââïž breaking up with him. he is stuck with me foreverđ
âthe alchemyâ is YOURS tonight at midnight đ
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user1 WHAT
user2 YOU CANT JUST DROP THIS ON US WTF
oliviarodrigo my girlđđ iâm so so soooo excitedđ
user3 GIRL I KNOW YOU DIDNT JUST CALL THE ALBUM âthe alchemyâ FOR NO REASON. WHERE TF IS THE TITLE TRACK I KNOW YOUVE GOT HER SOMEWHERE
youruser jude and i love the alchemy the most out of all the songs and wanna keep her just ours for a little bit longer but maybe if you guys enjoy these songs iâll let you have my baby
user4 YNAJDKJSKDKDIS
user5 WHATTTT songs did she not let jude hear omfg i need to know
youruser heâs heard them all except for daylight, paper rings & so high school lollll
judebellingham refreshing my spotify every minute til midnight you guys donât understand sheâs kept these songs in a VAULT
user6 jude i know you love spotify but apple music get new music 10 minutes early xxx
judebellingham just made an apple music account
user7 TEN MINS TIL THE ALBUM OF THE YEAR DROPS
taylorswift so so proud of you beautiful đ©·đ©·
judebellingham I LOVE YOU SO FUCKING MUCH
judebellingham putting ALLLL of these on the pre-game playlist
youruser babe idk if some of these will pump you up before a game
judebellingham hearing your voice will pump me up idc how sad the song is xx
user8 whyâs no one talking about how sheâs in UNIVERSITY and dropped a FIFTEEN song album like âŠ??? sheâs INSANE. WHERE did she find the TIMEEE
user9 not to mention she lives with him in madrid and does school online coz her uni is in the uk
user10 sheâs insane i donât understand howđđ
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youruser surprised my fav person in the uk for his england game and he scored for me đđ©”đ©”
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user1 she wrote âyou know how to ballâ and he said âyeahâ then scored a goal and did a celebration for herđ
user2 zoom in on pic 6 and youâll see me laying on the road waiting to be run over
judbellingham âunemployed girlfriendâ but youâre the greatest singer on earth while also doing online uni full time and you still make time to be able to come see me
youruser itâs coz i love you so so bad
jobebellingham you make me sick
youruser i love u too jobeyyyyyy
england our favourite visitorđđ
user3 how does she do all this whilst going to uniđđđ
oliviarodrigo đđđ
judebellingham I LOVVVEEEE YOUUUUU
user4 i NEED the top in pic 8 where is it from
youruser i found it on depop and HAD to buy itđđ i think someone made it x
chappellroan HOTTTTT (you not ur bf)
youruser I WOULD DIE FOR YOU MY WIFEđđđđđđđđ
user5 i donât understand how you write sad songs like the ones on your album if ur âin love with judeâ
user6 jude deserves better than someone whoâs so caught up on and still writes songs about her exes
user7 WHYS NO ONE TALKING ABOUT THE LYRICS SHE POSTED ON TWITTER IM GOJNG INSANE
user8 LITERALLY?/!;!!/;@:8@ LIKE ??????? âWHERES THE TROPHY? HE JUST COMES RUNNING OVER TO MEâ IS SO JUDE CODED WHEN Y/N IS AT LITERALLY ANY OF HIS GAMES
user7 EXACTLYYYYY HE ALWAYSSS RUNS TO HER IMMEDIATELY AFTER HES ALLOWED TO DO HIS OWN THING. ITS FUCKING ADORABLE
user8 IM SO GLAD SOMEONE UNDERSTANDS ME
user7 were both insane letâs get married
user8 dm me right now wife
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youruser lol little life update coz iâve been m.i.a. for the last almost two months. 1: i went blonde again. 2: my man still as fine as ever. 3: got engaged or whatever lol. 4: slaying up exams. 5: i miss tour so i decided imma come back and see you all soon đ€đ€ tour dates soon <3
ps in honour of becoming fiance or whateverđ€ the alchemy and 4 other songs are yours on the deluxe version of âthe alchemyâ ,, out tonight !!!
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user1 WHAT THE FUCK
user2 GIRL LET US BREATHE
harrykane juudddeeeeee!!! congratsđ„łâ€ïž
declanrice mr bellingham that is a ROCK
user3 SHE DISAPPEARED FOR TWO MONTHS AND THEN CAME BACK AND DROPPED ALL OF RHAT ON HS
gracieabrams OMG WIFE IS GONNA BE A WIFE
user4 BLONDE YN IS BACK AND SHES A FIANCĂ OH MY GOD
judebellingham WIFE WIFE WIFEâŒïžâŒïžâŒïž
youruser not yet my love but so closeđ„°
judebellingham I CANT HEAR YOU MY WIFE IS AN ACADEMIC AND LYRICAL GENIUS
user5 sheâs still writing break up and sad songs whilst engaged⊠so weird
user6 yeah and jude helps her,, he must be so disgusted right? seriously get a life and go touch grass
taylorswift so so happy for you đđ
youruser đ«¶đ«¶đ«¶đ«¶đ«¶đ«¶đ«¶đ«¶đ«¶đ«¶đ«¶đ«¶đ«¶ i love you
user7 TOUR TOUR TOUR TOUR TOUR
england juddeeeeeeđ sooo happy for you two
trentarnold â€ïžâ€ïžâ€ïž
user8 how girl just gonna casually drop a ENGAGEMENT announcement in the middle of a photo dump
user9 REALLLL LIKE THATS A BIG ASS RING TOO
noahkahanmusic YESSSSSđ€đ€đ€đ€
user10 HOWWWW is miss girl gonna find time in her schedule to do uni, make music, keep a healthy relationship, AND TOUR
judebellingham mrs*
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honestly, the fandom dismisses wars trauma a little too much. Have you noticed itâs always never brought up in his character studies? And when it is, itâs totally brushed off him and cia had a WEIRDDD age gap. Itâs also weird hyrule warriors never acknowledges this. I honestly donât think itâs gonna be recognized in LU but idk. Itâs just weird how quickly the fandom brushed over all that. Whatâs your opinion? Cuz you have cool opinions lol
Disclaimer: Everything youâre about to read is my opinion and my interpretation of a game. Iâm not talking about headcanons (unless otherwise specified), Iâm just talking about my experience with the game and everything else. All of this is from MY perspective interacting with the canon material from both Hyrule Warriors and Linked Universe. Also! I am dyslexic, my bad for oddly autocorrected words or weird spelling mistakes
A huge reason I started yapping so much on this blog was because I saw a lot of people either actively disliking Wars, making fucking INSANE comments about his body, overly sexualizing him, or just straight up dismissing him all together and it helped me get over my posting anxiety because it genuinely made me so upset. Heâs been my favorite character since only a few posts into LU (i originally liked Twilight better based sheerly on design but it took like only a few posts before that changed), and I love HW Link in general, and I thought it was actually crazy that more people didnât like him. Iâve written several of my own characters studies on him, some of which Iâve posted, others lay trapped in my old laptop in the form of a full on analysis paper, never to see the light of day
You can send a full grown man to war and he will come back with trauma, imagine what happens when you grab some poor teenager and tell him everything relies on him. Literally forget Cia for a minute, Link as a teenager was taken and shoved into a full on war where his men turned on him and in order to survive, he had to kill. Monsters and hylians alike, it was him or them, and heâs the one who made it out. Not to mention he was constantly running all over the battle field trying to prevent the hylian captains from being defeated, and he most certainly lost many people he cared about just because he couldnât get there in time. He had to carry around the guilt that this war was started because some sorceress was obsessed with him ON TOP of that
This was said earlier by an anon on a post I reblogged, and Iâve been saying it myself for months but I will say it again: If Warriors had been a girl and been obsessed over that same way, I fucking GUARANTEE you people would be taking it more seriously

I literally just typed in the character name and the game sheâs from and that is what google had to say about her. If an older man was described as âharboring serious affectionsâ and having a âdesire to claimâ a teenage girl I literally donât think it wouldâve been glossed over or ignored like it is
I donât think nintendo was ever gonna elaborate or really recognize it in the game, they never go super in depth on anything in Zelda games from my experience, and I doubt Jojo will really get into it in LU mainly just because she has so much going on with eight other dudes and potentially two more (based on the header on the linked universe blog)
I saw a lot of characterizations of Warriors and opinions of him that made me so confused and also a bit mad, such that he is a womanizer or a stupid twink (of which he is neither), and thatâs a huge reason I started writing fanfiction for this fandom. Firstly to just create more content for my favorite character because I rarely saw any that focused on him, and secondly because I didnât like some (NOT ALL) of how I was seeing him characterized. (i cannot emphasize enough: NOT ALL people in the fandom characterized him this way, I saw plenty of amazing and beautiful characterizations of Warriors)
I do not think he is a womanizer at all, in fact I fully believe his flirtatious behavior is a defense mechanism. I think his âwoman problemsâ are the fact that heâs afraid of women (especially older women) he doesnât know or trust, but also thatâs just my opinion. And I am genuinely a bit worried that now that people have stopped talking about how they noticed he seemed off a few updates ago and now that theyâre saying heâs back to normal that people are going to start reducing him to a stupid dramatic twink again, as if Warriors was not the one who came up with the initial plan to fight Dink and was not the first one to fight him. As if this is not a man who lead a god damn army. As if everything heâs done and everything he is no longer matters because heâs âprettyâ
anyways I have a lot of thoughts about him in general and im just glad the fandom has been treating him better as of late, but i am a bit worried itâs just gonna go back to how it was
thanks for the ask!! sorry i got a bit carried away đ
#linked universe#linkeduniverse#lu character analysis#hyrule warriors link#lu warriors#lu wars#lu warriors analysis#jes talks#jes ask
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Hey idk if youâre still taking requests or not, but if you are could you please write one where Melissa and Reader were in a long term relationship and decided to have kids but after the first couple rounds of IVF doesnât work, which causes Melissa to overthink and end their relationship. And after a few weeks reader starts to feel sick and finds out sheâs pregnant but when she tryâs to tell Melissa she finds out sheâs blocked so she decides to not to not wanting to mess up Melâs life. And after a few years they run into each other only Reader has a little red head, you can choose how you want the gaps and the rest to go just please a fluffy ending
not again
âwhat ever the stick says, it will be okayâ you said, trying to mentally prepare yourself, melissa gently grabs your hand.
âiâm here with you, my loveâ you turn the test around, looking at the results. ânegativeâ written on the small screen.
âfuckâ your heart drops, tears immediately filling up your eyes. melissa takes you in her arms as you fall apart.
âitâs okay, youâre alrightâ her hand runs down your back at an attempt to sooth you.
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after hours of crying you finally fell asleep in melissaâs arms, she holds you tight as she silently cries. itâs been almost a year of you guys trying to get pregnant, the ivf treatments are exhausting, the proof is in your eyes. youâve been obsessing over getting pregnant, trying day in and day out, hoping for something to work. you and melissa havenât had time for each other, itâs been months since youâve went on a date, itâs creating a hole in your relationship.
all of this thinking causes melissa to spiral, what if itâs her fault you canât get pregnant? shes the one who brought up the ivf idea, sheâs the one pushing so hard. melissa is already 55, why is a 55 year old trying to have a baby? why is sheâs messing with a 20 something year old? you have your whole life ahead of you, what does she give you? melissa starts panicking, she jumps out of bed, wiping her eyes. she grabs a suitcase, stuffing it with all of her clothes and important belongings.
once sheâs all pack, she walks over to your side of the bed, staring at you one last time. her hand reaches out tucking a loose strand of hair behind your ear. she leans down, kissing your lips with as much passion as she can manage. she pulls her wedding ring off, sitting it on the nightstand next to you, walking out of the room, leaving you there alone.
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your eyes flutter open, the sun beams in your eyes. you roll over, patting the other side of the bed, you feel the cold sheets. you sit up, leaning over to grab your phone, looking at the time â8:43â. she shouldnât have left the house yet.
âmelissa?â you call out as you get up. no reply is heard so you make your way to the kitchen âare you here?â you continue through the house until you find a note left on the coffee table in your living room.
âiâm sorry. iâm sorry i let the insecurities get the best of me. iâm sorry iâm leaving you like this. iâm sorry i couldnât give you a kid. you are the love of my life, but im not yours, youâre young, you still have your whole life ahead of you. i donât know how i got so full of myself, thinking we could work. i hope you find someone who is able to give you the life you deserve, im sorry that wasnât me. iâll love you forever, y/n/nâ
you drop the paper, tears falling down your face as you stand still, in shock of what you just read. you let yourself fall onto the couch, sobbing into your hands.
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âyouâre pregnant!â your doctor says as she moves the screen to show you, your ultrasound. you couldnât believe what you were hearing.
âw-what?â your heart fills with hope.
âyouâre pregnant, the test showed a false negative. congratulations, y/n. you deserve thisâ she says before leaving you to sit with the news. you pull out your phone, searching up melissaâs contact. your thumb hovers over the call button before pressing it, you hold the phone up to your ear.
âthe number you are trying to reach-â the phone calls out, your heart drops once again. you canât even contain yourself anymore, crying out. how are you supposed to raise a kid on your own?
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five years later.
you decided to move to back to philly, you never wouldâve left if it wasnât for melissa. walking into your new place, you breathed in the new smell, feeling content with your surroundings.
âwhereâs my room, mama?â your daughter, ann, asks while pulling on your pant leg.
âcome on, iâll show you!â you pick her up, walking her down the hallway.
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after unpacking, you and ann were beat. you felt like your back was going to break if you lifted another box.
âcan we get ice cream? please?â she pleads, giving you were best puppy dog eyes.
âhmm, iâll have to think about itâ you say jokingly, while tapping your chin.
âmommmâ your daughter whines, chuckling slightly.
âalright, we can go. just because youâve been a huge little helperâ you poke her stomach, gently as she giggles and tries to run away from you.
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you open the door for ann, letting her run into the shop. sheâs leans onto the glass, looking over each one of them.
âcalm down, baby. we arenât in a rushâ you say, picking her up so that she can see the flavors better.
Unbeknownst to you, melissa is sitting at a table. her heart is in her throat, unable to think. she canât look away from you, was that really you? after all this time, you look different. your hair is darker, your smile lines slightly more visible. youâre much happier.
melissa stares at the kid in your arms, her red hair more vibrant than sheâs ever seen. you must have the life she imagined you had.
âmelissa?â in the time it took for her to gather her thoughts, you had already saw her. she couldnât face you, not after how she cowardly left you. melissa was up and out of the store faster than sheâs moved in years. unfortunately to her, you were faster, already on her tail.
âmelissa! wait!â you call out, trying to sped up âyou donât get to run away this timeâ you grab her arm, stopping her. she turns around, her eyes meeting yours. her gaze softens, she missed being this close to you.
âiâm sorry, i cant-â you cut her off.
âyou left me, in the middle of the night with a fucking noteâ you say, stepping closer to her.
âlanguage, mamaâ your daughter says in a stern tone, your head clearing. you step back, away from melissa.
âiâm sorry, honey. it wonât happen againâ you kiss her forehead âgo back inside and see what flavor you wantâ you say, setting her on the ground. she runs inside.
âhow old is she?â melissa says, her voice cracking slightly.
âfour, almost fiveâ you say before taking a deep breath âsheâs yours melissaâ her eyes widen as she gasps.
âshe-sheâs mine?â you nod, melissa walks up to the window, watching ann point at the ice cream âwhatâs her name?â she looks at you.
âann y/l/n⊠after youâ the guilt builds up in her chest, she left you with a kid to raise by yourself because she was too selfish.
âcan i meet her?â she whispers.
âshe deserves to know youâ you walk inside before her. she lets out a shaky breath, trying to contain herself as she walks inside. the little girl turns to her and smiles at her.
âhi, iâm annâ melissaâs heart melts âwho are you?â melissa looks up at you, unsure of what to say.
âbaby, this is your other mama, the one i tell you aboutâ the girl gasps.
âreally!?â you nod, smiling âiâve been waiting for you! mama says that youâve been in outer space, helping the aliensâ melissa chuckles.
âyes i have been, they told me to tell you hiâ ann jumps into melissaâs arms, hugging her tightly.
âplease donât leave againâ she says to her mom. melissa grabs your hand, the spark you always had years ago, came back, shocking you. you smile down at her.
âi never will, hon⊠not againâ she says as she stares at you.
#abbott elementary#fanfic#melissa schemmenti x reader#melissa schemmenti#lisa ann walter#melissa schemmenti fic#law#law fic#wlw fiction#fem!reader#my fic#angst with a happy ending
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JAY & NADAKHAN CHARACTER SHEET/REFERENCE
My headcanon designs for Jay and Nadakhan for my lil gorey series Red & Blue spider Lilies where Nadakhan get's beaten/injured/dies a lot by Jay's hands in many different ways and for my AU THE SHAM since I'll be making some short comics about it.
And by that you can kinda see why I made this, also since i wanna get a better feel for their designs so when doing the story boards, it won't take me too long, especially on Nadakhan and how I'll draw him my style, actually had a conversation with a friend on what head shape they thought Nadakhan had, which was square, to which I tried my best, and hopefully improve on.
Honestly didn't change much on his design other than giving him piercings and a tassel earring. Kept his skin color cause I saw a red Djinn (which idk the name of and I seriously need to watch Ninjago again) so I now think that's their actual skin color and I wanna see a line up of Djinns that are in a rainbow order which would be such a Joy to see.
Anywho back on Nadakhan's design, I went with the usual hc designs I see of him with Elf ears and the whites of his eyes being black, cause I just adore that, ofc yellow pupils cause obviously, and it's relevant to the AU I'm writing and drawing. And my absolute favorite part is his hair~ mate you don't know how much I was so sad when I was kid and they didn't make the ends of his hair all misty and smoky or whatever that's happening on his bottom half to also happen to the ends of his hair, it was literally the thing that was bothering me about Nadakhan other than him being a creep, was how they didn't make the ends of his hair all misty and magical. Though kinda still working out how to draw that effect myself on paper but you get the idea with the character sheet.
Also funfact this was supposed to be just a quick drawing just for me to lay out the color palette for these two but... Ended up over 13 hours, though not my best work, it's good for it's purpose.
...and I just realized shoulder parts of Nadakhan's armor is uneven... Fuck.
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how do you reconcile with writing smut about characters who are canonically minors? iâm not trying to attack you or try to change your mind or anything, so sorry if my question reads that way. iâm just genuinely curious đ
no worries!! this is asked respectfully so i dont mind answering even tho i usually just delete stuff abt this now
idk really know how to answer your question i have not reiterated many times. but like. i want you to really consider your own way of asking this to me critically. like what would i have to "reconcile" with exactly? them being minors in canon?
for me personally there's nothing to reconcile with. i feel no guilt or shame or remorse about aging up characters. or just like wanting to fuck them. or really anything i write in fiction at all, point blank - should i choose to explore it. like there's not crime i've committed other than being horny about some shit i made up, upon the basis some shit another guy made up.
partially this is bc characters in fictions are concepts. they're objects, thoughts, ideas. no matter how brainrotted i am about them, they don't live in material reality. im not harming them because they don't exist. outside of my phone and computer they are not real. harrowing myself with guilt over something that does not even exist is kind of insane. this applies to everything.
you can feel personal discomfort over aging up for yourself, but the reality is no actual minors are harmed in the process of me writing porn about anime characters. bakugou is lines on paper. i am allowed to cut him out like a barbie doll and play with him however i like. he doesn't get a say in that because he is fake lol.
there's like idk. all sorts of nuance to this and if you are respectfully curious im happy to talk to you about it. but they're just not real. no one is hurt in me writing this. so it doesn't matter to me at all. i would never hurt another person because of what im interested in fictionally, either. i have spent too many years becoming a decent human being to wonder about that
nothing i do in the fictional space is of any relevance to who i am, except for what things might cause genuine harm to another living breathing person. i write a lot of dark content in my smut also but
a lot of my content also while being dark, does not specifically deal with sensitive social issues so no one is hurt in that way either. i have enough confidence in my critical understanding of the world to write what i do understand to my ability. i mostly write about noncon and dubcon and yandere, all of which are personal violations and not social ones (OVERSIMPLIFYING THERE A LOT). i sometimes do write about social taboos of course but not whats outside of my ability
all in all its like. i dont know what i'd feel guilty over. no one is hurt and i have no intent to harm. nothing matters outside of that
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Sweet Fantasy | Dean Winchester
GIF by born-to-be-his-baby88
(gave myself an actual pat on the fucking back for finding this gif like y'all are gonna see how perfect it is in a second!)
Pairing: Dean Winchester x fem! reader
Word Count: 3.9k
Summary: Dean won't eat his vegetables...until you offer to cash in on a very recent fantasy of his, that is.
Warnings [18+ MINORS DNI]: P*rn w/ some solid plot action actually, a bit of domestic fluff sprinkled in, reader and Dean are married (don't know if that's a warning but you should know?), reader dresses up in a sexy Zorro costume with the hat and mask included, handcuffs (Dean receiving), mentions of a safeword but not used, fingering/masturbation (reader receiving), oral sex (brief Dean receiving), a whole lotta teasing (Dean receiving), p in v sex (cowgirl, missionary), unprotected sex (wrap your willy before you fuck her silly!), dirty talk, switch! Dean, switch! reader, very vocal Dean, brief choking (Dean receiving), creampie.
A/n: Hey! Sorry for disappearing for 3 months again...So classes finished almost 2 months ago and I've been wracking my brain about what to post. I tried finishing some of my drafts and it just wasn't working for me idk. Then, like any normal person, I was randomly watching some SPN bloopers this morning and it got to a scene where Dean said sometimes he wants to get spanked during sex by a girl wearing a Zorro mask and my brain ran with that shit IMMEDIATELY. Now, I'm so sorry I couldn't actually write him actually getting spanked without it sounding corny and just wrong to me? But I did write all of this in 7 hours without stopping so I'm honestly proud of it regardless.
Enjoy...
It was a Sunday evening in the bunker, meaning you were responsible for dinner. With that task came the additional task of getting Dean to eat whatever vegetables you cooked without complaining and engaging in a rant that would end with him calling himself the âmeat manâ.
Itâs not that you were concerned about Dean's weight or appearance, after 7 years of marriage you were confident that there was nothing in the world that could make you love Dean Winchester any less. But having a steady diet of beer, beef, and pie was a surefire way to kill any man of Deanâs age faster than any monster or demon.
And God knows youâd do anything to ensure he didnât die before his time.
Hell, you have before.
Which is why you made Dean agree to eat a side of only vegetables with whatever meat he wanted at least once a week. This week it was string beans and sautéed mushrooms, aka his least favorite vegetable.
But you didnât have the time to make the 45-minute drive to the grocery store earlier that day so he would have to deal.
Or you wish he would dealâŠ
âMushrooms? Baby come on,â he complained when you placed his plate before him.
âHey, itâs all that was left in the fridge. Eat up,â you shrugged, placing a kiss on the crown of his head.
âYou know, we could always do no vegetables,â Dean offered with a wide grin.
You chuckled and used a finger to squish his stubbled cheek. âYou wish, Winchester.â
He sighed in defeat and turned to pick up his fork.
You looked to make sure Sam was out of earshot before leaning down to where your lips grazed Deanâs ear. âTell you what, if you eat those vegetables Iâll do that thing you told me aboutâŠlaterâ you whispered.
Deanâs eyes lit up immediately, âThe thing?â he harshly whispered.
You nodded with a smile.
âCostume and everything?â He made a gesture with his hands.
âYup, Iâve been hiding the costume for weeks.â
âIâm gameâ Dean agreed, digging into the mushrooms first.
You turned away to share your own plate with a smile.
âIâm gonna go grocery shopping later,â Sam announced as he sat beside Dean with his plate. He met your eyes, âAnything else you forgot to put on the list?â
âYeah stop at the liquor store and grab me a bottle of red? I ran out,â you answered sitting across from the boys with your plate.
Sam grabbed a pen and a piece of folded paper from his pocket and added it to his list, âYeah, no problem. What brand again?â
You swallowed a piece of your chicken with a smirk. âIâm sure you already know seeing as youâre the one who emptied the bottle to the very last drop,â you addressed Sam.
His pen slipped from his grip, his green eyes widening to meet your narrowed ones.
âYou drink red wine?â Dean pointed at Sam in disbelief as a laugh rumbled in his chest.
âHow did you know?â He asked you, ignoring Deanâs quip.
âI saw you passed out in the library clutching the bottle the other night.â
âListen Dean finished all the beer and it was the first thing I saw,â he defended himself.
âOh, youâre getting more creative with your excuses. I'm impressed!â You gushed, sarcasm evident in your tone, âWhat was it again last week? âOh Eileen wanted to taste someâ " you mimicked his gruff tone causing him to roll his eyes and Deanâs laughter to grow louder. â-when we all know that Eileen is a white wine type of gal.â
"I-" Sam tried to come up with a retort but eventually gave up. âWhatever.â
âYeah pick up 3 bottles this time in case Eileen wants a taste,â you replied with a grin.
âThree bottles?!â He exclaimed.
âYou arenât the one paying for it, genius,â you reminded him, referring to the unlimited card Charlie hacked for you all those years ago.
âYeah but Iâm gonna have to lug it up here,â Sam mumbled as he stuck his fork into his chicken.
Dinner continued mostly in silence with Sam thinking about the two lousy trips heâd have to make between his car and the kitchen once he returns with the groceries, Dean thinking about the reward heâll be getting for the vegetables heâs actually grown used to eating, and y/n thinking about all the ways sheâs gonna make Dean squirm later.
~ ~ ~
Hours had passed since dinner and Sam was now on his way to the grocery store leaving just you and Dean in the bunker.
To say he was excited would be an understatement.
Dean first told you about this fantasy of his after a case you had months ago required you to take a trip to an adult costume shop to question the owner. It took mere seconds for the image of you in the very specific costume to cross his mind after laying eyes on the packaging.
You laughed at the idea when he told you and silently decided you would try and find the costume.
Of course, he didnât believe you would actually indulge him but you were actually excited too. Costumes and toys werenât new territory for you and Dean but they were few and far between with your unpredictable hunting schedules.
Dean now sat at the edge of your shared bed wearing pajama pants and a t-shirt waiting for you to return like you had promised.
But it had been almost 20 minutes since you left to get changed and his patience was wearing thin. He was seconds away from getting up and coming to see if you needed help or if you were even hurt.
Which you predicted would be the case.
So you had been standing out of sight by the doorway for less than a minute now waiting for him to try and leave.
âDamnit,â Dean eventually gave in to his worries and began to make his way to the door.
You smirked once you heard his determined steps drawing closer.
Deanâs eyes widened once you spun from your hiding spot against the wall to stand before him. âLooking for me?â
You watched his throat bob and his pupils dilate as he took in your full look.
Atop your head and face rested a sexy black Zorro mask and matching hat. You were also wearing a black sleeveless leather top that stopped in your midriff region and had strings tied between your breasts that allowed a whole lot of cleavage to be on display. The leather skirt that accompanied was low-waisted and stopped at your upper thigh, matching the black thong you were wearing beneath.
You had stretched the thin straps of the thong along your hips above the skirt for added flair.
In your right hand, you held a fake silver sword similar to the one Zorro held in the movies, and hanging from the left side of your skirt were two handcuffs ready and waiting to be used.
You were sex on knee-length boot-covered legs.
Dean felt himself growing hard already.
You bit your bottom lip at the way your husbandâs eyes roamed your body, hoping the dark red lipstick covering it was as transfer and waterproof as the box advertised.
âYou look...stunning,â Dean marveled. The model on the packaging of the costume didnât come close to how it looked on your body.
Your heart swelled at the compliment before remembering the persona you had practiced for the night ahead. âOh I know,â you took a step closer and leaned against the doorway. You pointed the sword in Deanâs direction. âWhy are you still dressed, Dean?â you asked with furrowed brows and a smile.
A chuckle almost left your lips at the sight of Dean fumbling with his pant strings and tripping over his own legs to send the pajama bottoms flying over to a random corner while throwing off his t-shirt with record speed.
He stood before you in only his boxers, his enjoyment of your costume evident by the bulge in the center.
âGet on the bed.â You told him, your tone not excessively commanding but sexy enough to make him obey immediately.
âYes maâam,â he smirked, quickly sitting and sliding up to the headboard of the bed.
You walked further into the room and placed your sword down before climbing onto the bed and slowly crawling to where Dean sat. His green eyes followed your every move as you moved to straddle him, but not fully.
You then grabbed the two pairs of handcuffs attached to your hips and twirled them around your fingers. âHow you feeling Dean?â you checked in, your hips hovering above his thighs, making sure to not touch his erection just yet.
âOh, I feel great. Real great. I donât think Iâve ever felt this great,â he nodded eagerly as you cuffed each of his hands to each bedpost, getting a face full of your boobs in the process.
"You sound nervous," you teased him, "Am I making you nervous baby?"
"Me? Nervous? Pfft!"
You scoffed, not believing him one bit. "What's our safe word?" you asked him gently.
Dean leaned forward as much as his restraints would allow to press a sweet kiss against your stomach. " 'Oklahoma', baby," he grinned.
You then let your clothed ass sink down on his covered erection. Dean groaned and tried to reach for your hips instinctively only to meet the restriction of the handcuffs. âI hope they arenât too tight 'cause theyâre gonna be on there for a while,â you nearly bust out laughing at the look Dean gave you.
âA while?â he repeated, dreading not being able to touch you at a time like this.
You shrugged, âIf you behave I might change my mind.â
Before he could argue further, you leaned forward and connected your lips in a searing kiss. His breath was hot against your face as your lips drifted to his neck while your hands found themselves in his hair.
A breathy groan slipped past his lips when you nipped a specific spot beneath his ear lobe. âYouâre so loud. Maybe I shouldâve bought a muzzle,â you whispered in his ear teasingly, feeling his dick jump beneath you at your words. âI'll remember that next time,â you replied to his body's response.
âBaby, do you have any idea how amazing you look? â Dean gushed, struggling against his restraints as you began to grind your hips against his covered cock.
You smiled and met his lips in a kiss once again. He slipped his tongue between your welcoming lips, allowing his taste to flood your mouth. You pulled away seconds later, nipping his bottom lip, and removed yourself from his lap.
He watched nervously, awaiting your next move while you scooted farther away from him along the bed. You slowly slipped off your boots, your confidence unwavering as you held Deanâs hungry stare.
He watched you use a hand to hold yourself upright before spreading your legs open to reveal the lace thong covering your already-drenched pussy. âAre you about to..." he trailed off, jaw clenched as he spoke.
"Hmm mhm. And there is not a damn thing you can do about it...except watch," you slowly removed your thong and threw it at Deanâs lap. He immediately became hyperaware of the feeling of the wet lace draped over his dick.
You slowly brought two fingers up to your lips and sucked them even slower to coat them in your saliva and give Dean a show before bringing them down to where you needed them the most. You began slow ministrations against your aching clit, pulling moans from yourself that made Dean impossibly harder.
He took a deep breath at the sight, imagining his own fingers parting your folds and rubbing at your swollen clit.
âYou are a menace,â Dean laughed in obvious distress, licking his dried lips. He couldnât handle watching you touch yourself without being able to touch you any longer so he looked away, swallowing harshly at the sound of your wetness against your fingers.
âLook at me Dean,â you mewled, continuing to rub your pussy in small quick circles. He turned reluctantly, watching as you slowly pushed two fingers inside your dripping hole. âSee this, baby? Itâs all for you,â you said, melting into a moan when your fingers grazed a spot inside you that drew your orgasm closer.
âI gotta taste you, baby,â Dean pleaded, âOpen these and let me taste you, please,â he rattled the handcuffs against the bedposts.
The pure agony in his voice had your fingers and breathing speeding up and soon your climax was approaching. Deanâs breathing picked up in response. âFuck, Dean Iâm gonna cum,â you moaned, pressing a thumb to your clit while your fingers kept working inside of you to bring you to the edge.
A thin layer of sweat appeared on Deanâs forehead as he watched you keenly. He bit his bottom lip hard enough to draw blood, his self-control draining by the second.
Your eyes remained open and locked onto his, your moans growing louder and borderline pornographic. You were putting on a show and he was losing his mind.
âIâm cumming, fuck-â you panted as your first orgasm of the night slammed into you and caused you to make a small mess on the sheets beneath you. Your body shook sporadically with aftershocks of your own work
Deanâs head hung low. âJesus baby,â he huffed, his own voice strangled, âyouâre trying to give me a heart attack arenât you?â
You smiled as you crawled back up to sit on Deanâs lap, taking your thong and throwing them somewhere unseen. âEhh maybe,â you replied coyly, straightening your hat and mask. âAnd since you behaved so well,â you reached a hand down to touch his clothed cock, âI think you deserve a reward,â you pressed a quick kiss to his lips.
Dean allowed you to pull his boxers off his body, watching you wrap a hand around his painfully erect cock. âFuck,â he groaned at the feeling of your hand wrapped around him.
You slid down to where you could lay flat on your stomach between his legs and leaned down to briefly swirl your tongue around where precum was gathered at the tip.
âTake the hat off and look at me pretty girl,â Dean said.
You complied, throwing the hat off to the edge of the bed before diving down and licking his tip once again, but this time keeping your eyes locked onto his.
âHoly shit,â Dean groaned, his hips twitching upwards. You then opened your mouth and wrapped it around his length, slowly sliding down until your nose was nuzzled at the base, staying there for a few seconds before coming back up for air. âHell yes, baby that's perfect,â he panted as you began sucking faster along his length, a few lone tears flowing from beneath the mask from the familiar stretch of his cock in your throat.
Your head continued to bob up and down Deanâs length for some time, drawing shallow moans of your name and grunts from him before you finally let up and pressed one last kiss against the side of his cock.
Deanâs chest heaved as you licked your lips and used a hand to wipe your face clean. âGoddamnit," he whined at your sudden stop, feeling his impending orgasm return to its hiding place.
You grabbed your previously discarded Zorro hat and placed it back on your head before hiking your skirt up to allow you more room to move your legs around Deanâs lap. âCanât have you cumming before Iâm done with you sweetheart,â you replied while untying the strings of your top and removing it.
The keys to the handcuffs dropped onto Deanâs lap from where you previously hid them in your top. You had honestly forgotten you put them there but it just presented yet another opportunity to get Dean all whiny and desperate, which was a rarity that you rather enjoyed.
âOops would you look at that,â you exclaimed playfully, taking them up and dangling them in front of Deanâs eyes.
"Alright baby you broke me. Come on, just let me go, and trust me, I will make it worth your while,â Dean bargained with you.
"As enticing as that sounds," you paused and brought your hand up to caress Deanâs cheek before pulling him in for a sloppy kiss. You pulled away with a grin. âI love hearing you beg, so no,â you whispered against his lips.
Dean loudly groaned watching you gently place the keys down on the closest nightstand. âShit,â he shut his eyes.
But they shortly shot open once you used a hand to grip his length and bring it between your dripping folds.
A pleased hum left your lips once the tip glazed your clit causing Dean to swallow harshly. âArenât you sick of teasing me,â he hissed.
Fuck no.
You used a free hand to grip the back of his hair. âTake a deep breath for me, Dean,â you told him, feeling his chest rise against yours soon after. And as it fell, you slipped his cock inside your entrance.
You slowly sank down onto his length until it was fully buried inside you, groaning at the welcomed stretch.
âI love those sounds you make for me,â Dean whispered against your lips.
âOh youâre gonna be making some of those sounds too,â you smirked, clenching around him causing a sharp grunt to reach your ears.
You guided your hips up and down Deanâs length, riding him at a quickening pace. He jerked his hips upward to match your cadence drawing a gasp from your lips when his cock hit that spot inside you that had you seeing stars. âThere you go baby,â Dean groaned, âyou look so fucking good riding my cock.â
The hat and mask from your costume managed to stay in place as you slammed down on Deanâs cock repeatedly. And it was an image that he would never forget.
Your hand released Deanâs hair and instead found itself wrapped around Deanâs neck as you rode him faster. A whine that shot straight to your cunt escaped his lips when your fingers slightly tightened their grip around his throat.
You suddenly slowed down and instead began to grind your hips against his, moaning loudly when your clit grazed his pelvis. âIâm gonna cum again shit!â You threw your head back in obscene pleasure, releasing Dean's throat and holding onto his shoulders to steady yourself.
âFuck yes. Use my cock to get off, sweetheart,â Dean urged you on before leaning forward to suck one of your nipples as best as he could.
This soon pushed you over the edge, your climax tearing a scream from within you as your hips faltered around Deanâs cock, your hat flying off your head once more. Dean relished in the way your cunt pulsed around him from your orgasm as well as the look of sheer pleasure that crossed your face at that moment. âYouâre so beautiful,â he smiled up at you, meaning every word.
You kissed his forehead with a smile and reached for the handcuff keys. âI think Iâve tortured you enough,â you freed his right hand first, pressing a kiss against his wrist, then did the same to his left, âThis is supposed to be a reward after all.â
Deanâs lips curved into a smirk at his newfound freedom. âYes it is, sweetheart.â
A surprised yelp left your lips when Dean gripped your hips and flipped you onto your back. He grabbed your hat and placed it on his own head before sending you a wink. âAnd Iâm not feeling rewarded just yet.â
You nearly came just from the sight of Dean hovering above you in only that hat. âWeâre gonna have to talk about my sexy cowboy fantasy when weâre done here,â you raised a brow.
A low chuckle echoed from Deanâs chest. He reached up and tipped his hat in your direction, âyes maâam.â He replied with a deep southern drawl.
Your pussy clenched instantly.
âThat was hot as fuck,â you breathed.
âThank you darlinâ â he replied in the same accent with a wink.
You giggled before pulling him down for a kiss. He pulled away and touched the mask still wrapped around your eyes. âAnd thank you for doing this for me, baby,â he smiled down at you, âIt was so so much better than I imagined.â
âIt was definitely my pleasure,â you nodded happily, feeling his hands glide down your sides.
âWas?â He protested playfully. âThe night is still young, sweetheart!â He threw your legs over his shoulder causing you to exclaim at the sudden move. He placed a kiss on each of your thighs and lined himself up with your entrance before entering you once again.
âFUCKâ you cried out at the sudden intrusion, feeling your eyes well up with tears of pleasure in record time.
Dean pulled out and slammed into you once again, his grip on your legs tightening as he eased into a quick pace.
âYES-Dean holy shit,â you moaned, eyes quickly rolling to the back of your head and back arching up and off the bed as he fucked you with reckless abandon.
âHowâs it feeling baby?â Dean said, bringing a hand down to play with your clit.
âSo good, Dean, so fucking good,â you rambled, your skin buzzing with pleasure, âHarder, please, I'm almost there,â you found yourself begging.
âYou gonna cum for me already pretty girl?â He sped up his slaughter on your cunt, "Maybe I should make you beg for it?" his voice was low and demeaning but only spurred you on more.
You shook your head adamantly while your hands fumbled around Dean's waist for a solid grip. So he simply released your legs and grabbed your hands before holding them down above your head, driving his cock into you even harder at this new angle.
âDean!" you broke off into a strangled moan.
Deanâs lips attacked your open neck. âI wish we had neighbors so they could hear you screaming my fucking name,â he all but growled as the sounds of your moans and skin against skin plagued the air.
You came with a yell seconds later, your release coating Deanâs cock and the sheets. âThatâs my girl. There you go baby,â he released your hands and held your face, guiding you down from your high.
Your hands gripped Deanâs hair harshly as you kissed his lips and his hips stuttered, his cum coating your insides soon after. You swallowed his grunts as his cock continued to leak and twitch inside you.
Broken pants befell both your lips in between sloppy kisses while your orgasms passed and your shared spend flowed between your legs. You eventually released his lips for air, âThat was-â
â-Incredible,â he mirrored your thoughts, removing your hat from his head. Dean used a hand to remove your mask and brush a few strands of hair behind your ears once he moved to lie down beside you.
âHi,â you grinned in awe of the man you called your husband. âHey sweetness,â he grinned back, adoration evident in his deep green eyes.
Your cheeks flushed as he pressed a kiss against your forehead. He quickly grabbed his previously discarded t-shirt and used it to clean up the mess between your legs before throwing it in the laundry basket nearby.
You snuggled into his side once he returned to the bed.
âSo uhh what was it you were saying about your cowboy kink?â Dean smugly asked after a few seconds.
âGoddamnit Dean,â you shamefully groaned into his side, gaining a chuckle from him.
ANDDD SCENE!
Hope it wasn't too bad seeing as I gave up on editing it like 75% through it.
Tbh I highly doubt more than 20 people are gonna see this because I have no idea how strong the Supernatural fandom's presence is on here, which also means that I don't know if anyone has used a plot like this one before so don't be afraid to let me know if that is the case and I will make changes as I see fit!
(Also let me know if you want a sequel one shot with sexycowboy! Dean and reader. Or feel free to make any other requests)
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