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igbylicious · 3 days ago

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me: hm fandom is always so exhausting for me even tho it's fun :( i gotta figure out a way to be in this space so it costs less energy & it won't constantly exacerbate my chronic bullshit :(

me later: okay so reviving my old ateez blog @wooyoungslipmole to reblog gifsets, art, memes etc etc works really well! (/blatant plug-in) i can easily mute the blog's notifs to manage the overstim better and i'm not flooded w/ small, flashing images in my writing blog's activity anymore so it's less of a strain to look at! yay, progress!

me, who should have stopped there: huh, maybe then a separate blog for fic recs is also smart 🤔

me: and it's also a nice excuse to finally create an actual tagging system so ppl can search recs by members! and by genre! and whether it's reader insert or not! and oneshots or series! maybe i should tag different types of au's too? 🤔🤔

me: AND OH WHAT IF, WHAT IF, what if i go through all my old recs and queue them up for the new blog so they're neatly gathered in one place, AND i rotate them by member so there's a nice even spread in content!!! and i should also spread out the writers too so they don't get spammed too much. yes yes let's do this 👍 hmm wait i've got like 80 fics in my queue now and i'm not sure if i have any recs left for certain members... i knew i'd have more for some than for others but this... hm... maybe i should tally which members are in the remaining 90 fic so i know what the exact disparity is 🤔 oh dang i read a LOT more San fic than i realised lol oop okay so all i gotta do is dig through my tumblr tbr for the other members and read massive amounts of fic for them so i can keep my queue nice and balanced! yeah lately i've felt too blocked to read anything on tumblr, that's true, but having a deadline will make all the difference to kick my brain back into gear, i'm sure 👍 brute-forcing it will have no negative consequences 👍 let's start wi— wait what do you mean it's 2am already? why is my brain all frazzled and foggy???

me: ...okay maybe, just maybe, it's not fandom that's exhausting.........

#igby’s chatter #my chronic bullshit & my autism do *not* play nicely together ○|￣|_#but damn the san writers sure had a chokehold on me last year #IN MY DEFENSE A LOT OF THEM WERE WOOSAN X READER FIC #idk how that defends anything but uhhhhhh lets pretend that it does #also i did ditch the au tags bc it became obvious real fast that it'd be too much of a hassle but i hate it i still really want them >:(#i'm so spoiled by the ao3 tagging & filtering system 〒▽〒#idk maybe i could do themed rec lists instead #...oh god fUCK NO DON'T SAY IT #YES I REALISED A SPLIT-SECOND AFTER I TYPED IT #YES I FELT THE URGE TO CREATE MORE WORK FOR MYSELF #BC THAT *IS* FUN TO ME #SEE IT'S ME THAT'S THE PROBLEM HERE NOT FANDOM #YES I AM SELF-AWARE OF THIS FACT #NO IT DOES NOT ACTUALLY HELP TO SOLVE THE PROBLEM (ME)

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