#idk how many times ive even listened to it atp

[dissociache]

BING💢BOP🤜BOOM💥BOOM💥BOOM💥BOP🤜BAM💢

[bjornk1tty]

I'm not a bad girl but I, do bad things with you (Part 2 of 4)

Summary: Bjorn finds out what you do on the side for extra money. He plans to use this knowledge to his advantage.

contents: smut, cam girl reader, masturbation, not proofread, not accurate to alien universe

a/n: are Bjorn wanters still alive? so atp nothing ill ever write is gonna be proofread so if something is so bad and unreadable let me know.😸 I started writing this immediately after i put the first part out but ive never liked the way it went so ive rewritten it so many times😾. I hope this version is decent (tell me i cooked). also i have NO idea where this is going. I wrote the first part just for fun and didn't put it out until a while after i wrote it. I might make the ending sad just for funsies (Idk how i would make it sad but still). One more thing i put my playlist on shuffle and agora hills started playing i haven't listen to that song in so long and so when the lyrics "me and you on my onlyfans" came on i giggled. Pt3 is gonna be posted immediately after this. This is NOT good (typed this with only my left hand.)

Ever since that day Bjorn came over to your house and let himself in you're dynamic changed. The deep bond the two of you held shifted the second he stepped into the the small space of your trailer and walked towards your room, opening the door to see your legs spread, glistening with your own release, quickly slam your laptop shut , and roll off the far side of your bed pulling down the skirt of the revealing outfit. The sight confirming his fears yet fueling his fantasies. He stood in the doorway stunned. Hearing your yells at him to get out, he walks out and closes the door behind him. He hears the sounds of you scurrying around trying to change out of the getup you wore, the one you felt so confident in not two minutes ago, now filled with a sense of dread and embarrassment. You quickly pull off the ridiculous outfit and shrug on a worn out shirt. You sit at the end of the bed next to the overheated laptop, hugging your body shuddering at the muffled laughing coming from Bjorn and the inevitable conversation that's to come as soon as you step out of the room. 

You take a deep breath before heading out to the living area, where you find Bjorn sitting there his chin resting over the knuckles of his hand, and a cheeky smile on his face. Silence fills the room for a brief moment as you take the seat furthest from him. You tilt your head towards him, but he sat unmoving with the same expression stuck on his face, waiting for you to fail at trying to explain yourself. You sigh and pause, struggling to find the words. "Bjorn, I wasn't...I didn't..." you fumble over what to say. The irritating gaze you knew all too well frustrating you even more. Looking you up and down, he recalled the mixture of awe and desire he felt earlier as he touched himself watching you do the same.

He knew he'd be lying if he said he didn't find you attractive, the rest of the group would always find that he was overtly protective of you whenever anyone he didn't know got too close to you, seeming as your so called friendship was something more. It was as if he had to deem others worthy of being in your presence. "What're we gon' do with you?" Bjorn clicks his tongue and shakes his head in a mocking way, one he tended to do with you, though this felt condescending. "You're a right handful, you are. Reckon we ought to put a leash on you. No, bet you'd like that, wouldn't you?" He stands up and walks to your seat leaning over you, his hands squeezing the armrests of your chair, imprisoning you in a cage of his desire and authority he thinks he now has over you. 

"What's the matter, luv? You've gone all quiet on me." you refuse to look Bjorn in the eyes, looking down at your hands though your sight sets on something interesting, the bulge in his pants. You hear him chuckle then watch as he walks to your room. You stand once he emerges with your camera in his hands, going through the contents of it. Some he recognized, other pictures were, as it appeared more recent as your face was still in them. You rush in front of him about to rip the camera out of his hands "Bjorn what are you-" you get cut off as he quickly pushes you against the wall, forcing a whimper from your throat.

His face right in front of yours still looking through the camera "What would the rest of the group think? Think Kay would like that you're doing this?" he smirks, his body pushing up against yours, now looking you in the eye "Wonder if Tyler would like this? I reckon he would, 'til he'd figure it was you. Now, shall I tell 'em or show 'em?" you struggle against him "Bjorn it's not a big deal. I started this because I wasn't making enough to pay for this shitty fucking trailer." He ignores your excuse "No? Not a big deal, yeah? C'mon now, luv, you can't just go about texting people like this. If it's not a big deal, then why the need for secrecy?" he hums pushing you further against the wall. Your face turns red with embarrassment "How did you know?" "Some fucking tosser I was working with, he's claiming you're his, just 'cause you sent him a few pictures. Can you imagine that? " His eyebrows furrow and his lips pursed with disgust, though not at you but at the thought of someone else having you. He rests his hand on the side of your face, his thumb brushing over the red flush on your skin. He observed your features as if it were the first time.

"What're we gon' do with you?" he says again this time softer the mocking tone gone though the smirk quickly returns to his face. Spinning on his heel walking back to the couch. He mounts the camera over a book on the coffee table before sitting down in the middle of the couch, right in front of it. His legs spread though all you can think about how your friends would react if they found out. Would they be disappointed, disturbed, would they even care? "C'mere, let's make a deal." You shudder and take the seat next to him.  Leaning closer to you, his breath warm against your neck as he spoke "C'mere." he says again. You look at him and he pats his leg, that's when you notice the red flashing light coming from the camera. He was recording.

You swallow hard before awkwardly straddling him. He grabs your hips roughly, a surprised gasp escaping your lips. Scrunching up the fabric of the oversized shirt, he put his hand between your legs and reached for your center, gently caressing you, he could feel your wetness. "Are you that wet?" eager for some friction, you decided to go against what you know will give him power over you as move your hips over his hand that is painfully stubborn. He scoffs, pulling you closer, his lips graze your neck "Oh, I see, you're absolutely starved for it, aren't you? You're practically begging for it. How pathetic." His tone arrogant enjoying the way you shamelessly seek pleasure against his hand. He makes no move to give you the friction you so desperately seek, instead continuing to tease and taunt you. "Come on now, beg properly. And maybe, I'll give you what ya want."

You shake your head, though your hips continue to snap desperately against him. Bjorn chuckles at your insistence, a smirk playing at the corners of his lips. "You stubborn thing," he says "You want it so badly, but you won't even beg." He stops you again by grabbing your hips tightly, looking you in the eyes, his face flushed, trying to keep it together. Bjorn lifts your chin up firmly so you're forced to maintain eye contact. "I'll keep your secret, but on one condition. I get to have 'this' whenever I want." Bjorn's gaze travels over your body, emphasizing the 'this' he is referring to. It could have been the desire you felt but his tone seemed to hold a hint of promise. "Bjorn you can't do anything without having it somehow benefiting you, can you?' A soft chuckle left him at your retort, he gently presses his thumb down on your sensitive area, his tone mocking yet arousing as he whispers,"I think you need me more than you'd like to admit. Princess.” You lower your hips on him, sitting on his bulge, watching as he squirms. Now it was your turn to scoff. You both fight for dominance as you pull his hair making him groan, a look of annoyance and amusement on his face. "I like you like this, should stop acting all innocent. I'll take you right here and now if that’s what ya want, all you gotta do is say." every muscle strained with the effort to resist his own urges. You ignore his words and continuously move your hips on him, losing your dignity as the throbbing of your cunt intensifies.

"Fuckin' hell" he breathlessly hushes out as he quickly reaches down unbuckling his belt, lifting both of you to rid him of the fabric that separated him from you. Looking into his eyes you see something in them you've never seen before, there was a need to possess and claim you as his own leaving you almost speechless as it seemed as this was a different boy, a different man. The lustful person who sat in front of you hardly resembling the boy who would spend his remaining dollars to buy you a stuffed animal you so desperately wanted, the boy who would sit with you every time you were sick, the boy who you became inseparable with. His cock springs out, surprising you, it takes you a second to come back to reality, spitting in your hand, wrapping it around his length "That's it, luv, keep going." he throws his head back, his arms flexing behind his head. Your right hand gathering your own wetness, your fingers relentlessly pressing down on your clit. He groans, or grunts when his tip presses at your entrance, sinking down, the slick, wet sound of his dick silences him for a moment. His mouth hung open, you watch as he is brought back when you lift and drop yourself suddenly, both of you holding on to reach other. Your chests pressed together now, his hands wrapped around your waist, yours around his neck tangling in his hair. The wet sound of him sliding into you now constant as he helps you ride him. "You feel so good. You're killing me…"

As you continue the action, both feeling the knots grown in your stomachs. Both of you holding on tightly to each other, a silent fight of neither of you wanting to finish first. You aggressively bounce, whines and heavy breaths coming from you, strained groans coming from a overstimulated Bjorn. A satisfied smile forms on your face once Bjorn can't keep quiet anymore, his legs trembling hiding his face at your chest. He quickly pulls out of you, his milky release shooting out on your thighs, the buckling of his hips and twitching of his cock out of his control.

You collapse next to him, his white pearls glistening on you. His face flushed with the understanding the power 'you' now hold over him. He looks over at you, his eyes hooded, that little smirk on his face "Alright, we got a deal then?"

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The voices of your friends slur around you, tightly holding your can of soda as you shift uncomfortably under a certain someone's gaze. You carefully read the can, taking in names of ingredients you can't even pronounce, trying to distract yourself from looking over the table to meet Bjorn's eyes. You can practically feel the smirk he holds on his face. "Huh?" you mutter dumbfounded as your head whips up to look at the group watching you strangely when Kay calls your name. She repeats herself "I asked if you were alright?" "Mhm" you nod looking back down at the can. " 'm good" You press your lips together into a forced smile that your friends see right through. “Yeah, you alright, luv? You seem a bit distracted, yeah? Lost in your own little world, are we?" Bjorn says mockingly. You glare up, finally meeting the eyes and smirk of the boy with the headband "I said I'm fine." You spit back taking your friends aback. Yes, you and Bjorn had a tendency to bicker but that was it, playful bickering, until this week. Your words have seemed to have a bit of a bite as of recently your friends not knowing why though, Bjorn not really knowing either, as of recently, oblivious to how you feel.

Tyler clears his throat and tries to get the conversation moving as he brings up something he heard on the news earlier that day. You interrupt him "'m gonna get another drink. Anyone need another?" You walk away after putting yourself in charge of getting drinks just to get away from Bjorn at least for a second though, your eyes don't leave him once getting to the bar to order, you watch as he tilts his head up to take the final swig of his beer. You watch as he finishes and tosses the can to the side, then getting up walking towards you, ordering a drink  before leaning towards you "Maybe you ought to have a drink and loosen up a bit, eh?" He says with that charming accent of his. You roll your eyes "Bjorn back off. 'm not in the mood for you tonight." "Yeah well then," he says in a mocking tone, "what are you in the mood for, luv? You're not being very social tonight, are you? Will you be later?" He chuckles, as the drinks get placed in front of you, helps you carry them back to the table. The silent stare down between the two of you resuming.

"I'm gonna head home." You say exasperatedly. "You sure?" Tyler questions. "It's still a bit early to be calling it a night, innit?" "Yeah I know sorry, just been a long day. Long week." You answer as you gather your things. "Well if you're sure, get some rest, ok?" Kay says sweetly getting up to give you a goodbye hug. You say goodbye to everyone, excluding Bjorn, aware that you'll see him again within the hour.

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[eyebawll]

YOU. BLOWS YOU UP AND REVERSES TIME. YOUUU. EDEN. MY SISTER FIGURE. MY ROCK. COME BACK I MISS YOU!!!!! I hope you’re having an awesome day and life(and yuor boyfriend i guess…..)!! You better send me a damn photo of your dress or ill scream sob throw up cry and more all at once. You are one of the people ive known the longest out of the 5 individuals i talk to from Q…. I think. Idk atp i forgot a lot of stuff about q… who cares THIS ISNT ABOUT THAT SITE!! THIS IS ABOUT MY SIBLING FIGURE AND HOW AWESOME YOU ARE!!!!!!! Genuinely though, thank you so much for being there for me through thick and thin. Im able to walk without leaning on you(metaphorically) now, and i think you were one of the biggest things in my healing process. Thank you so much for staying with me no matter how bad everything got, for playing games i loved for hours, for listening to my character rants and allowing me to slowly insert pieces of myself into your characters. You forever hold a place in my heart, wrapped in feathers and eternally warm. A place that wasnt filled before. Thank you for being my rock and safe space when i couldnt find one, i hope i can someday help you and it amounts to even a fraction of what you’ve done for me. Happy Valentines, Eden. <33

THIS IS SO FREAKING LATE BUT YOURE SO SWEET TYSM :(( Its been such a long ride and seeing this, better late than never, made me cheer up! Its been rocky but you have genuinely been one of my dearest friends. You're one of the only people I still talk to from Q and I am so grateful to have been able to meet you and have you as a friend!!! AND IF YOU MEAN MY PROM DRESS ILL DEF SHOW U PICTURES AND PICTURES DURING PROM TOO!

I am so glad to be able to be called a sibling figure, or anything positive in here!!! I'm so grateful to have been introduced toyou. I am always happy to talk to you, even if we don't talk as much as we used to--happy belated Valentines day!!! It's been over a year (or 2) since we met, and here here to another!! and many after that!!!

[adriabun]

angel this is your free pass ask to go ham about whatever’s on your mind w petyle. i am laying down, kicking my feet, and listening 👀

ive been sitting on this in my inbox for so long just trying to collect my thoughts and so many ppl have asked me that...now it is time.....ok

i think the thing i want to talk most about is the beginning of their relationship and what their relationship actually is ...like what about it is making me lose my marbles...i want to get all of this information out because as the ceo of petyle i need everyone to understand how they are characterised and how to correctly view their relationship. anything outside what i think is simply lies and flanderization..../hj.........

i typically default to college-age setting so thats what ill be centering on but my ideas of their dynamic can be malleable to other ages (canon, high school, post covid at a stretch etc)

pete has always been interested in kyle from a distance- theyve never really spoken, but after stan becomes a normie again after his goth stint michael points stan out at school like 'look at that conformist lol' and petes like 'yeah what a loser. also who the fuck is the guy in green.'

we've seen from basic cable where he has a crush on sophie that he isnt necessarily afraid of putting himself out there when hes interested in someone but hes kind of awkward about it. so he approaches kyle a couple of times to see what his deal is. this makes all the other goth kids INSANE like not in a negative way they r either in disbelief (michael, firkle) or think its hilarious (henrietta) that pete has a crush on kyle, he massively denies its a romantic thing tho bc hes not a gaywad...he just wants to know whats up with this guy and why hes so interesting

ngl kyle is probably suspicious or at least confused as why pete has started talking to him once hes over the initial weirdness he realises pete is kind of chill but the award palatable small talk hes trying to have with kyle is really annoying kyle def snaps at some point and asks him what the fuck pete is trying to gain out of this because its obvious hes not being himself.

pete is stubborn enough to not back down atp, hes not gonna let a conformist own him like that. so he starts being himself so much, to a degree where hes almost saying 'you wanted this, fine here you fucking go' in order to make kyle upset. but it doesnt work oh no!! kyle finds his goth eccentricities and pessimism so stupid thats its endearing!!!

nothing between them is inherently romantic or even entirely..friendly. more than anything they enjoy annoying each other in a constant loop of quips and rolled eyes. but theres just like.. something fiery underneath they wont address until they get wasted at a house party and let the alcohol do the talking

i have a habit of favouring either onesided petyle (on petes side ofc) or one that ends with a bad breakup because #stylesweep so a lot of my thoughts are biased towards that sort of ending. i just like relationship/situationship angst ok ...ive been there many times. a part of this angst is the idea that theyre each just 'the best they can get' in the moment. Pete's too internally self loathing to think kyle is actually in love with him or anything. theyre just having fun. its not serious. he refuses to think into any of it emotionally, though its kind of eating him up inside. meanwhile kyle is literally just taking it as it is. he feels a little guilty. he doesnt like pete like that (???) but he cant deny flirting and fooling around with him is fun. and also a distraction from stan getting back with wendy.

anyway thats what i have for now. let me know if anyone wants any more i guess. or any specifics about their actual relationship that i have bouncing around. idk!

[thelunadiviner]

i was tagged by @renegadeem DAYS ago (sowwy for how late this is!) so... it is time!

"9 people you want to get to know better"

3 ships:

valenwind--i mean... come on LOL this one has been with me since i was 11 or 12 (over a decade now!). extremely foundational and, even when i wasn't actively into FF7, has been on my mind ever since i played the game years ago. something something red and blue gays, something something dark hair and blonde hair, something something short and tall. they just fulfill so many good "tropes" and also god i just like these characters SO much its unbelievable. i cannot wait for (what i hope is) the sheer amount of screenshots and screen records of the third part of FF7:R when they are PLAYABLE. the party banter... oh lord...

VKaz--ok... so i am actually a massive Metal Gear Solid fan. i got into it around-ish the same time as i got into FF7 and wow did it change my brain chemistry. there are a few MGS ships that are bone deep in me, but VKaz does something else to me. its blinding. its visceral. its like... wow. it doesn't help that Kaz is probably my favorite character in the game and Venom is sooooo. yeah. cute... idk! but i could probably talk about these guys for literally hours. and it would be incomprehensible. ik this is my squeenix blog but if anyone ever wants to talk MGS with me...

tie (sorry LOL) between akusai and stakhemy--those are so so so different but whatever LOL. akusai is also ages old, one of my first ships. i actually used to be much more into xemsai but akusai has taken the reins. KH is also a decade+ interest of mine (my late childhood/early teen trifecta was KH, FF7, and MGS) so i have so much to say... also i think i am in love with Saix lowkey. now, stakhemy is a new one and much more niche (any Pathologic fans?). i made one of the best character/ship spotify playlists ever for those guys. whenever i think of Rubin i become a little ill. i just find them so fascinating (Patho is super interesting on its own anyways).

first ship: whoooo boy. probably Link/Sheik? LoZ was like. my first ever THING i got into. i used to play pretend in my yard wearing a green tunic and a green santa hat i cut the puff off of to live out my Twilight Princess Link dreams. if not Link/Sheik, then probably xemsai.

last song: Respite On The Spitalfields by Ghost (on a massive Ghost kick because of a friend, its all ive been listening to... my favorite by them is Twenties and/or I Believe)

last TV show: i just watched the 5th episode of Interview with the Vampire this morning with a bestie, but the last show i finished was True Detective season 1 (for the 2nd time... i'm obsessed.. i have a sideblog...)

currently reading: i have been trying to finish Between Two Fires by Christopher Buehlman for over a year atp but 1. i am a slow ass reader, 2. i started it over already, 3. something sad happened so i got discouraged, 4. im so busy and am trying to learn to get better about reading (ADHD moment)

currently eating: nothing atm but i did have a creme brulee cream puff from one of my fav bakeries (shouldn't have spent the money but my name change court hearing was a success so i celebrated <3)

currently craving: im always craving something i love food LOL honestly the first thing that came into my head was a smoothie... but i also love all Asian cuisine and there's this amazing place nearby that has a bomb Pad See-Ew

thank you sm for tagging me!! i cannot think of anyone really to tag atm so i'll probably come back and do that later when i'm less busy.

[7rashstar]

i didn’t rly sleep last night yap sesh below the cut

missed mayday festivities because i am debilitatingly socially anxious but then went camping for a friends bday and felt refreshed by being able to see soooo many stars and be outside…(and go on the most extreme hike of my life dude omfg)

while we were camping my digi cam fell out of my pocket when i laid on the ground to look at the sky and stars and it stormed that night and my camera got destroyed. hoping the sd card is salvageable..

creepy had hella ticks on him (including one thats head got stuck in his uhh..wiener lol) went to the vet got em removed in total there were 8 (!!) that we found. he has so much fur man idk there could be some more on him but at least they’d be dead atp because i ALSO finally got a flea tick preventative that he can take monthly. it’s been impossible to get a vet appointment anywhere, especially at the clinic i’ve been taking him to since he was a bb. praying he didn’t contract anything from the ticks…we’ll get a blood test sometime in september-december

bestie soup told me u could see the northern lights in the city last night + they sent me some pics but i pulled a leg muscle skating n it hurt too bad to waddle over to the overpass (plus there’s been several shootings in my neighborhood the past couple weeks outside my building so i don’t rly like going out at night rn anyway)

yesterday oomf texted the gc n said a friend of a friend asked him where to listen to my music online bc they loved my set :’)) the last time i played a show was the beginning of march!!!! that made me feel rly good so now i have more incentive to finally upload things to soundcloud again. might work on that later today…like. might,…finally post something

he said he sent them a link to my old bandcamp and i forgot i never deleted my music there i only scrubbed my sc so i went over n listened to what i posted. it was kinda cute. in 2020 i started using ableton for the first time consistently and actually tried to figure out how to make stuff w it so everything f from that time is like. ahh. i’d do that so different now!! but at the time i was so proud of myself and that makes me feel kinda fuzzy (in a good way) like noticeable artistic growth yanno? n also knowing that version of myself who was constantly suffering and seeking an End still felt excited abt what i was making. it’s cute. my old self is someone ive made peace w and hold close to my heart in the ‘it’s different now and it’s Awesome’ way like fuck yea lil buddy you got clean and made it out alive. that’s sick

some of my old music goes hard asf too tho. a lot of unreleased stuff on my google drive i dug thru after listening to my bandcamp i don’t even rly remember making but i was like :0 !!

i was up until 5:30am working on a flyer !! i wanna make more flyers!! i miss making flyers. i’m outta practice and using procreate bc i don’t have photoshop anymore so still a newbie on the program front but i think. i did a good job and it looks cool so that’s nice

i rly wanna skate but my leg hurts i feel like that spongebob guy

[ggukiepie]

WOWOW. one of your girls is so yummy.

very excited for next part and to see your perspective and ideas.

but for me i think we’d need more angst rather then revenge. im assuming jk has lots of friends who he sleeps with and its not just yn. which means to him yn is nothing special (unfortunately) thats why i dont see the point of ‘revenge’ because realistically i dont think jk really cares if yn fucks with someone else which has been proved in already the first part. (jk knows yn sleeps with jimin yet doesnt seem to really care and only wants sex.) he only looked for her to sleep with her in the first place & not because he wanted to have a friendly conversation or check up on her. he started touching her before he knew about her sleeping with someone else.

its kinda the same with yn as yn also slept with jimin (which was so hot.) , except she seems to be interested in jungkook. but i dont think yn is really letting jk walk all over her because shes well aware that jk sleeps with other woman and she knows he lied to her yet choose to not speak up. although i love how she can control herself cause if i was in her place id try bring attention to myself and make jk jealous OR js go up to him and slap him especially when he said he ‘just’ left the party while he has a red stain on his shirt 🥸 but by the way she controlled herself and didnt even let jk know that she saw him with another woman, it seems like she knows her feelings wouldnt matter to him because its probably casual for him to be with another (multiple) woman each night.

AND FOR THAT REASONNN^^^ i think the song suits it smmm 😣😣 it fits so perfectly. ive been nonstop listening to the song before i read it and its the first story that im so interested in to write about my opinion. ANYWAYS BACK TO THE STORY.

so maybe shes okay with just simply being one of his girls because she knows she wouldnt be anything more & also she may not want to stop sleeping with him because thats the only way he can be close to her relationship wise.

which means yn is literally just one of his girls for some of his nights. I LOVE THAT SMSMSM. also everything here is simply my opinion and arguments as to why there should be more angst rather then revenge for atleast now until theres more development in their characters and we’d know more. althought idk how many parts ur willing to give in for this. BUT thats simply my perspective, if u think of the story differently and wanted to choose a different way for them thats cool too

i talk alot im gonna stfu now but i really like ur writing and ur idea for it was really cool. im waiting for the next part, take ur time and i hope everythings well for you. 😁

-soo ??

nooooo you're literally so so sweet. thank you so much for taking the time to send me this message. i love ur review !!

im glad u got to see how i related the song and the story. yeah, yn is a bit...not in the right head space 😭 atp she's already given up on the chance that maybe jk might like her back. ofc she can't help but feel sad bc she fell for him. ure right that she's content with being one of his girls, she'll take whatever jungkook gives her :( she didn't even have to ask jk if he slept w that girl bc she already knows 🤧

on jk finding out abt yn and jimin - jk did ask her if they're friends "like us?" i wonder what he meant 🤔

maybe i can write a short backstory of yn and jk hmmmm

[h5eavenly]

oh my god i just fell down to my knees in the middle of the parking lot

first of all y/n is a better person than me bc i would've denied everything. bc how are you gonna pull up TO MY PLACE and rat me out to MY BF under MY roof???? just ain't no way 😭 i can't really defend y/n on the bet thing but i will say the absolute fucking NERVE to show up to her door and expose her in her own household yeji was so wrong for that i'm cryinggg 😭😭 i would've gaslit them both into the next lifetime like my love she's clearly not in a right mental space rn don't listen to her 😭😭😭 it would've been so bad bc ain't no way you're giving me a read like that under my own roof baby we can go outside for this

but in all seriousness woah this is really crazy. your gf is telling you that she was forced to sleep with somebody and that she was threatened and harassed for months and you're telling her that it's always everybody else's fault but never hers..... yea it's really crazy. i understand hyune's frustration and where he's coming from bc he basically just found out y/n had been continuously lying to him even though he created many opportunities for her to come clean to him and i understand he didn't really mean it but that was a lot. btw the chapter was beautifully written as always, and i particularly love how you work with these characters and make them so nuanced and three-dimensional that you can tell when they're saying stuff they don't necessarily mean but still can understand where they're coming from + how their statements validate their anger bc even if the statement itself is absolutely out of place, their feelings are justified and both things are true at once so you can't bluntly judge one of these things without acknowledging the other. ik i sound like a broken record but the intricate layers that you work with regarding this smau make my literary theory loving self so happy and you deserve all the flowers for it. im absolutely obsessed and my heart is still 200 metres deep like we might as well just bury it atp but i loved every single line 🩷

good news is cat is finally out of the bag!!!! and everybody cheered bc now yeosang has nothing on y/n and he can be finally dealt with. ik we still have a long way to go bc honestly seungmin's revelation gagged me a bit i was like oh???? we still haven't seen hanji and ayen either and im honestly so seated for their carousel debut. but woah this was really the highlight of my week i haven't felt so many things in such a short time in literal days

NO BC same id deny everything like my life depended on it worst case id pretend to fall into a rare amnesia out of nowhere like uhh WHO ARE YOU GUYS EVEN WHAT ARE YOU DOING IN MY HOUSE🤨 🤨🤨

it feels like hyune was too overwhelmed by the weight and length of her lie to fully register what shes saying like he heard everything but didnt really listen

baby :(( idek how to respond to you rn im speechless im just so happy that you think so of my writing i wanna cry and scream and idk thank youu so much i have stopped writing for years and this series was the first thing ive written in a while so to see this overwhelming love and positivity is insane to me :(( also i dont think the rest of skz are gonna debut in carousel tbh han might make an appearance in the past like seungmin but thats about it🥺💗💗 im happy you enjoyed this ty for writing to me🥺🥺

[ekanatsume]

☠️☠️☠️ i cant copy paste so ill list it down.

1. Before our spring -jonghyun

This was the last song in his entire musical career and his life. I can't describe it really. I think a few texts arent enough for me to describe it. It's my only favourite song and it'll hold that position till i die. Even tho he's not here with us anymore, that song feels like he's still here with us really. The "then then then..." at the end kinda feels like a comma or a semicolon and not a fullstop. I think there are some things that you just can't get over with no matter how much time passes. So yeah, this.

2. Love poem -iu

I listen to this song everytime things get hard. This song doesn't really go "OH ITLL GET BETTER. ITLL BE COMPLETELY FINE" no. It says "I'll be there. Till this dark night ends". Sometimes- no, most of the times you don't really need advice or anything. You just need someone to just sit there with you when it feels like it's too hard to continue alone. This song is the perfect depiction of that. I dont listen to it that much bc it never fails to make me cry.

3. Promise -jimin

I love this song. Its just someone is giving you a hug irl. Like no cap. This is literally a hug in song form. I heard that jimin wrote it for himself to cheer himself up even when things get tough, to promise to continue on, and thats why it makes it even better for me. Even tho theres obviously the language barrier but i cant help feel what he's singing when i hear it.

4. Adult -sondia

☠️ ayo why is it all comfort songs. I say no description needed for this. It is what it is. Sondia's songs are always comforting in a way. It's not like Adult is very comforting but i think we all need to feel like "oh it's not just me who's going through it. I'm not alone in this" moment. This is the song for that moment for me.

5. To my youth -bol4

☠️☠️☠️ i have no idea how many times ive heard this song on repeat trying to internalize the meaning of it while crying my guts out. The lyrics are just 😭😭😭😭🫶 "but still maybe i could be a bright light in this world" the lyrics (im having goosebumps atp) make me bawl and hopeful at the same time.

6. Cruel summer -taylor swift

This is like that one song that hypes me up no matter how i be 😭🫶 i LOVE this song. Cant believe its not that popular like blank space or love story. It deserves more fame i tell you

7. Coin -iu

I ABSOLUTELY LOVE THE RAP. PLEASE. this is like my goto motivation song.

8. Daylight -taylor swift

I dont know but like i adore this song too much. This song is like the personified ver of love. Idk why but it just resonates with me a lot? Especially the last part "you are what you love" 🫶🫶🫶 oh boy i could write an essay about this

9. Autumn morning -iu

Nah bro this is like the perfect song to hear in the morning. I used to listen to this every morning when i woke up. Its such a lovely song.

10. End of a day -jonghyun

I used to listen to this every night without fail on repeat and conclude my day. Its such a comforting song. I absolutely love it.

Okay that settles it! Thenks for the tagggg

thanks so much for tagging me @xo-lesserafim!

rules✨

List 5-10 songs that are your long time fav or

you’ve been listening too!

or both !

( you can also give you reasoning why if you want!)

and to @ people !!

MY SONGS

1. New Me - wjsn

i love love love this song. it's such a bop, seola wrote it, and the rapping/singing call/response that exy and bona do is amazing

2. always - yoon mirae

i started watching descendants of the sun recently and this is on the ost, and it's so gorgeous love it

3. fearnot - le sserafim

this is one of my fav songs ever - the lyrics, the melody, the vocals. it's like being wrapped in a warm blanket by le sserafim!!

4. cruel - zayn and snakehips

i love this song so much - i used to play it on loop while studying for bio. it's such a good song, amazing melody, and i love the rhyming. zayn is one of my fav western artists and his vocals on this...

5. faded - alan walker

this is a nostalgic one for me - once we went on vacay and my brother kept putting this song on so now i associate it with my family, my brother, and iceland (where we went)

6. joan of arc - little mix

this is such a great song! i love the chanting, and the repetition of "i put my own rock on my hand". i also love perrie's melodic parts - "man i feel like cleopatra". bop. go listen to little mix yall

7. shout out - enha

i can't talk about my fav songs without mentioning this one. where do i even start?! the melody, the vocals, the lyrics... i also love that jake helped write it, and i love watching videos of them performing it live for us!!

8. moon - jin

another all time favorite. i just love the lyrics - jin saying he'll orbit army. such a warm, feel-good song

9. run away - txt

i keep saying this about every song lol but another all time fav of mine. i don't even think i need to explain this one bc everyone with taste will agree lol

10. home - one direction

i love the vocals in this song, and how vulnerable their voices sound. like the part where harry goes "i was stumbling looking in the dark" it's just so raw and emotional and i'm a sucker for that kind of music.

tagging @vizstars @jayjongsungparkgf03, @hello-flosch and @mrsandypants + anyone else who wants to join!!

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HELLO MY LOVE OMG OMG IM SO SORRY FOR THIS LATE REPLY i saw your message about you being tired and all before and i really wanted to send a cheer up message but i had all my important exams this week ive been so busy TT but omg are you okay now? still feeling tired?

i hope you dont mind me calling you love since idk you feel younger than me hehehehehe

hmmm est time huh i used to live in Seattle too before for two years but oohhh its soo cool that even you are desi!!!

and yes yes yes you right!! they have like their own genre and touch it all their songs no matter what genres they are! tbh even their sad songs puts a smile on my face for me!

ooh yeah i used to learn traditional dance too since you are desi you might know i used to learn Bharatanatyam. originally i used to learn hip hop when i was around 4 or 5 but my mom made me switch to classical and i ended up hating dance -_- in the end i quite by the age of 9.

man they must practice for houuuuuuuuuuuuuurs for so many people to fall into such a crazy sync. i remember in road to kingdom how veri very specifically chose svt over nct so that they could show their strength in dancing and synchronization!

ooh i'll def listen to these recs after my maths exam since lmao im actually not uspposed to be using the laptop rn cus welp maths doesnt need any studying from devices

asdghjkl thats a cool fic idea tbh then ill try writing something around that instead so that you like it!!!

oooh ateez i dont stan them but i love the dudes they are so hilarious and i love love love wonderland!!! its sooooo goood!!!!! tbh they deserved to win kingdom along with the boyz tho i stan skz too TT

im sorry if this ask is very short exams have taken up so much of my time TT

HIIII IM ALSO SOSOSO SORRY FOR THE LATE REPLY ;; how are you anon :o ? ive also been extremely busy with school work and have not slept bc of it 😵‍💫 I hope your exams went well !!

I’m fine with you calling me that !! i probably am younger than you tbh- im on the vvv younger side for caratblr I think :,) and omg how did you like seattle ?? desi carats B) I ALSO USED TO LEARN BHARATANATYAM WOWOWOWOW- im sorry to hear that you ended up hating it 😔 i quit bc i decided to prioritize competitive swim over dance and honestly just did not enjoy it at all as well. i do wanna learn hip hop tho ;;;;

woaaah i did not know that :o thats so cool that veri very chose svt for that reason !! glad to see them be continuously recognized for their amazing performance skills :] onnn the topic of svt, ive literally been using their and ateez’: songs to keep me sane when completing my schoolwork it’s so bad 😭 i think I would have gone mad if I didn’t have it to ease my mind tbh. listening to vocal unit songs while studying is >>>> also also also i hope you enjoyed those recs hehehe (if u got to them yet !! if not, no worries :>)

ateez is known for their humor atp- literally so unpredictable but predictable it’s funny 😋 wonderland is a god tier song very excellent choice I must say 😼 I THO. DO RECOMMEND WONDERLAND SYMPHONY NO.9 !! it’s an elevated version of wonderland and I literally can’t go back to just listening to reg wonderland bc I love the elevated ver sosososososo much- it rlly pretty but also powerful and the performance is so well done too ;;;;

I’m excited to read my gift <33333 AND KNOW YOU TOO !! it’s been so fun to talk to you and I hope we continue this :D and don’t be sorry about the length of the asks, i completely understand !! whether short or long, i love and cherish them either way since they came from you :] <33

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nuRAUR MY BELOVEDD

comment ca va???????

also, the urge to have txt as my ults is ENGULFING me, seeing as their next minisode is coming soon and i genuinely don't remember the last time i indulged in anything enha wise

all in all,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, im losing interest in kpop and im in my drama phase (if its even a phase, its my WHOLE LIFE /j)

anyways........idk how many things i talked abt in this one anon message lol

xiaur (i think its obvious by now rAWR XD)

XIAURR MON AMOUR <3

PLS I FEEL YOU these days ive been watching some txt clips again and i am starting to get back into them, yeonjun and gyu have always been my faves so im happy to get back into them + THE NEW ALBUM COVER LOOKS SO NICE ??

i also feel you on that one ... the only thing being that it has been happening to me for months now. tbh i stopped watching kpop content like a few months ago, but these days i've realised i rather much watch anime than kpop lmao 💀 also all these idols getting so much more problematic its getting tiring, atp i only keep fully up with nct and svt that's it. AND i started listening to more english songs and older kpop songs again cuz the releases so far are just a bit ehh iygm. (except for nct, they the only ones that give me some hope)

ANYWAYS I MISSED YOU <3